#holly speaks

[had-just-ten-hours-training]

Anyway here is what the TARDIS has to say about Jamie from the new I, TARDIS book

[thehollyraven]

THE STARGAZING DREAMER

Fitaphim Qafotix

Name: Fitaphim Qafotix (“gift of light”)

Reference Images:

Notes on Personality: A kind and thoughtful, if naive child, they’re often quite quiet and content to hang out near the back. Still, if approached they will be more than friendly… or at least try to be.

Backstory and Lore: Wished into existence by Twinkle Popopo and Phinumiti Qafotix, this little guy hopes to follow in the footsteps of their grandfather Albanis!

Eventually, they grow up to be a fortune teller, but that time is most certainly not now.

(They have a dream matter overflow! Which can be… quite overwhelming at the best of times, though their grandfather is helping with training that power, considering he Also Has That.)

(Not pictured: the cloak they wear! It’s a deep blue hood patterned with stars and constellations. It’s quite big for their current size, but as time goes on they eventually grow into it.)

(second image by @blue-jester! all else is by me, go give her a follow she’s real cool)

@kirbyoctournament god i hope im doing this right lmfao /silly

[ilex-occulta]

just finished ghost trick. if you had told me when i started that the ending was gonna make me cry like a baby i don't think i would have believed you

[elizahollyhamiltonofficial]

Ooc post :D

Hello! I know I haven't play Holly in a long time, and honestly I don't think I could go further with her anymore, lately I have been very busy, therefore I think it's better let her rest already. I want you all to know that Bryce and Holly broke up, in a good way and without drama, Bryce mod and I agree that they wouldn't be in a drama for it, and if you all want to know. Holly move out and went to some Caribbean place having a good and happy life. Whatever it's said further about Holly, isn't my representation or whatever it's said it's not my Holly anymore. I had much fun with this account, and I feel happy to interpret her in that time jsjsj. So, was good meet you all, and thank you for those who liked my interpretation, and had fun with me ✨ Was a good experience and I really appreciate all that happened here. This blog isn't an RP blog anymore and if I keep them, would be only historical stuff about her 🥺✨

[animepopheart]

Y’all remember Holly? We have a lovely time catching up today over matcha lattes and a croffle (croissant + waffle)

[holly-blaze]

OH BOY ONE HUNDRED FOLLOWERS UHHHHHHH

TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO RECENTLY FOLLOWED ME FOR STORMLIGHT Y'ALL GONNA BE REAL DISAPPOINTED TO SEE I MOSTLY RAMBLE ABOUT MY OCS 😭😭😭😭

Unless you're cool and epic and want to know more about them... 🫣

But fr uhhhh, I'll open up Stormlight doodle requests later today to celebrate (and to help me get used to Tumblr lmao)

[gallifreystands]

My brain today is just like “Am hurt!!!! Am hurtttt!!!” And I’m like yes I know I’m so sorry. That’s probably the Fibromyalgia I’m trying my best. “Am! Hurt!!!” Do you want water?? Tylenol? Food?? Chocolate?! Another nap?! “Still hurt!!”

Just on repeat the entire day. Like yes small child I understand it hurts I can’t! Fix it! I’m trying to make it better please stop yelling 😂😭

[fecto-elfilis]

what’s up losers (affectionate) here’s a lore document for my verse

i have hyperfocused on this for A Few Hours Too Many, and its lowkey kinda incomplete because a lot of this is subject to change + being updated with new information! but i wanted to write it down anyways because… yeah. yeah lmao

Enjoy Or Something I Guess Wahoo

[hollyshipsboys]

Ok guys I need to address this because I feel it is getting a bit out of hand.

Please, read until the end before judging, please!

In byler fandom I often see claims that older fans are sexualising teenage characters, and this happens every time 30+ year-old people say something that is seen as more than platonic. Of course some times it does happen that these comments are inappropriate and it’s absolutely legit to be upset about them.

But, there’s a but, and I hope you read this because this is important.

The post that prompted this very post is this one by @magalaga-buckley, which is about, and I quote, “30-year-old interviewers […] wondering how good the underage actors are at kissing”, referring, I believe, to Millie Bobby Brown lie-detector interview, in which she’s asked if Finn Wolfhard is a good kisser and if he’s gotten any better over the years.

First thing to be said is: it is a polygraph interview, the format is designed to ask questions that put the person interviewed in an awkward situation (I’m not saying I agree with this kind of things, mind), no one behind this interview actually gives a crap if Finn is or isn’t a good kisser, it’s all about Millie’s reaction really.

My second point is slightly more elaborated and definitely longer, but I beg you to read it, as it is the core of this post.

I know how as a teenager one may feel grossed out every time a grown-up mentions something related, even vaguely, to sex and sexuality, all the more so if it regards a teenager. I clearly remember cringing every time my mum made a comment about which one of my friends she thought was the most attractive.

And I get it, ok?! When you’re a teenager, sex is this new, scary (and possibly exciting) thing, so everything suddenly revolves around it. But in reality it doesn’t.

I’m a grown-up now (?!) and I’m a high school teacher so I interact with teenagers daily, and they some times come to me to talk about sex, due to me being a very soft, open and welcoming person by nature, around whom they feel comfortable (which is something I’m very proud of) – one of “my” kids even came out to me and said I’m the only person they discuss their queerness with (they’ve got quite the bigoted family, so I think this is so important for them and I’m happy to be there for them as long as they need me).

This is to say that it happens that I ask question of the “are they a good kisser” sort, and not because of some morbid interest or something, just because it’s part of the conversation and because I want to provide good advice that may help my students feel more comfortable in their relationships.

This little preamble seems very unrelated to fandoms, but in the end it is not. Let me explain.

Every adult was once a teenager and most of us recall that time as the best of their lives (ofc when I was a teenager myself I couldn’t believe it when grown-ups said this to me). And sure, it is complicated and unsettling and confusing, and so many things are happening and you get overwhelmed by things that to adults are just so silly, but they’re true to you and that’s all that matters. Overall, a very chaotic time. Nonetheless, the most beautiful in a way that one can understand only when they’re out of it. It’s the first time in which we discover ourselves as independent from our families and in a more complex social context (because attraction changes everything).

I’m not saying this to be the classic grown-up that lectures you on life and stuff, but to make you understand the general nostalgia around teenage years (which is one of the reasons, I believe, as to why there are so many teen dramas in media).

So, as an adult that enjoys teen dramas to the greatest extent (me being inherently nostalgic and relating to teenagers on a daily basis), I want you all to understand that the curiosity and fascination we experience towards teenager lives is not, in fact, morbid (I’m not excluding this may happen, but it surely isn’t the rule, more like the exception really). It is a way of reconnecting to our inner teenager, that part of us that lived the biggest excitement (ofc I’m not saying that after teenage years life is dull, it has its beauty, but kind of lacks the novelty, at least that’s what I experienced/am experiencing).

Now, this also concerns fan work, especially smut fics. I know this fandom, on this platform, is very sensitive to the subject, and I won’t blame anyone that, after reading this post, decides to block me, even though this will be the one and only time I talk about this topic, because I’m here for the fluff and the fun and I’m not interested in starting any drama/discussion (even though, ofc, if you feel like you want to comment on this, pls feel free to do so).

I was saying, fics. Mind that I don’t like any sort of problematic themes (as long as one doesn’t consider sex between consensual teenagers - no adult involved - problematic) and tropes (even though if someone has a kink that they want to transfer to fictional characters, or whatever the reason it is to fantasise around certain topics, I won’t bother them, because this isn’t who I am). For reference, I think that 50 shades of grey is a) very poorly written, b) extremely problematic (but one of the reasons why I believe this is that it is a fuc*ing best seller, so it reached a very wide audience that can take a very wrong message about love and relationships from that piece of shit book; I believe people that enjoy fanfictions to be smarter than 50sog general audience 🤷🏽‍♀️). I stay very clear of anything I don’t like and fortunately tags allow me to do that.

That said, for me, very sweet, romantic and respectful sex between teenager characters is enjoyable to read because it sends me back to those days of joyful, thrilling discovery. I was a very sexually active teenager (I had a lot of casual sex, sorry not sorry 🤷🏽‍♀️), so sex was a big part of my experience and that’s why I enjoy reading smutty fics, as much as I did back in the days (it was drarry at the time – and it taught me so much!), because they take me back, simple as that. I see myself, no one else.

As it is for the majority of smutty fics readers, they revisit and some times exorcise (this may be the case for some problematic fics) their experience. Nothing of it has anything to do with sexualising, or being attracted to, kids.

This very long post is to say I UNDERSTAND teenager fans may find adult fans’ interest in teenagers’ sexuality upsetting, because they experience this through their lenses and feel sexualised themselves, and I respect this, and indeed this is the first and last time I’m addressing this topic here, but I assure you on the other side there are, usually, very respectable people that are not interested in the slightest in sexualising them or any other teenager they interact with (I can assure you I DO NOT sexualise my students!), but are simply re-living their own experiences in, frankly, a very harmless way. And these now-teenager fans may very well experience this themselves when they reach the very age they’re demonising.

Last but not least, we millennials are indeed kind of weird, in the sense that we don’t really wanna grow up, so anything that keeps us in contact with happier easier times is very much welcome 🤷🏽‍♀️ please let us enjoy it.

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I feel like I digressed from the original point of the post, but, well, I went with the flow. I hope this may be useful to anyone that wants a peek inside a 30+ yo fan’s head.

[had-just-ten-hours-training]

The Doctor: Fergus must be your descendant.

Jamie: But I don’t have any children.

The Doctor: Not yet, but when you go back to your own time…

Jamie:

[thehollyraven]

to commemorate fitaphim Officially being in the tournament, here's The Comic Where They Do Exactly That

(to understand what's going on, i recommend reading the alt text! i decided not to put in dialogue which was probably A Mistake whoops. also i think i drew vic horrifically off-model im so sorry oliver)

FITAPHIM HAS JOINED THE FRAY! (OFFICIALLY)

congrats to my most specialest little dude!! here's to hoping they get Decently Far Lmao (and good luck to all the other contestants!!!!!!!!!)

credits:

fecto flora: @ceoofmetagala

vic: @starmagnets

the kirby oc tournament: @kirbyoctournament (aka themselves)

[ilex-occulta]

combine sprite and dr pepper to make Soda That Tastes

[hollythius]

i WILL be that girl…if it’s the last thing i do…

[holly-blaze]

Since Twitter is an actual dumpster fire of a place I realize I need to force myself to use Tumblr more instead of being a hermit. I've said that so many times at this point but I'm gonna try

Unfortunately that means I have lot of art that hasn't been posted here so this might take a second 💀

But it also let's me use a new tag to distinguish my art going further

[gallifreystands]

Great cool wonderful. Love not being able to fall asleep and instead crying my eyes out because of memories and Valentine’s Day marketing is endless and my dumb brain misses the person who broke my heart 5 months ago. We’ve talked a lot in therapy about how that relationship was likely unhealthy/toxic, but she wasn’t bad all the time yknow? I wouldn’t have stayed with her for almost 5 years if she was.. and it’s just all dumb. I need to sleep, I’m tired of feeling this, especially when she gets to exist with no lasting consequences to her immensely hurtful actions and even when offered one last chance to do the right thing she’s just been radio silent and ignored me. It’s all so fucking dumb

[had-just-ten-hours-training]

Gonna miss you all but mostly the cat,

Gonna miss my hay, gonna miss my bed,

Most of all, I'ma miss the dance,

So come on y'all, let us prance.

Now don't call, don't write,

I'm leavin' with the first light,

Don't cry, but dance.

Rim tim tagi digi dim tim tim!

There's no going back!

(WHOA!)

My presence fades to black!

(WHOA!)

Yeah, there's no going back!

(WHAO!)

My anxiety attacks!

(WHOA!)

Rim tim tagi digi dim tim tagi digi!