#hmmm hm hm

[deklo]

kinda wanna make kevin my icon but it also seems weird. it’s not really My Brand™️

[ranger-danger]

WAIT before I go to bed. No promises on when my next play through will be but…

Idk who I’m going to play. Entertaining the idea of doing Murane even through I haven’t played him properly in da:o yet. Maybe Neera bg1? My secondary dnd main would fit in with the mourn watch… Mainly I’m saying this because no one can replace my sweet my dear Ardean, but I can make other characters show up and cause issues while keeping him as the rook. The Rook, who gets to fuck Davrin. OH I forgot a little while ago I thought about doing it as Drizzt Do’Urden…

Maybe I should do a poll for who I play next…

[alargehunkofdebris]

imagine if we get a seasonal parallel in S3 where instead it's Aziraphale who arrives back at the bookshop with zero memories, so we've just got an entire bottle episode similar to Breaking Bad's "Fly" where Crowley is desperately trying to catch any fly in the bookshop to see if they're holding Aziraphale's memories.

[rahbid]

so! jezebel and aspd. and comorbid autism. and her view of others and bonds.

jezebel does not attach to others like a healthy person does. to preface this, the models for her attachment in her childhood were

her father parading her as a weapon and personal feat of his research

being able to take care of a few stray cats in malifais

two brief crushes within the convent, wherein healthy affection was punished and the girls sought alternative ways to express affection for one another without being caught, such as blood promises and calculated stabbings

and then, in her later adolescence, as she's trying to heal from her damaged sense of attachment: her brother dies horribly and she enters a pseud-"relationship" with elijah, an obsessive assassin determined to make her her "true self" again by intentionally stalling ( and occasionally destroying ) her progress im therapy.

thus, her concept of attachment and ability to attach is not exactly secure. truly, it was a combination of the later two major experiences that left a crack in her psyche that makes her struggle with attachment.

when jezebel "attaches" to someone, typically, it is not uncommon for her to view them almost in the vein of being a possession. this is not to say she dehumanizes or mistreats them. in fact, she goes to great lengths to ensure they do not come to know what goes on in her mind, for fear it will ruin the relationship she's formed with them. however, if one plays close attention, this will show in other ways.

jezebel enjoys playing the role of a provider with people she has come to view this way. she will buy them gifts, necessities, everything in between. she will invent for them. dote on them. however, to a particularly perceptive sort, it will become apparent that there is a certain level of distance between themselves and her. she is never vulnerable with them. she will typically keep them separate from her other personal affairs and especially her professional life. there's simply a lack of emotional intimacy from her in most instances.

and if a particular observant lover/friend/etc notices and makes a complaint? she'll fake it. she'll get misty eyed about things that don't really bother her. she doesn't like lying, she won't lie - she'll simply talk about things she's been through that should've been more traumatic, but she's already handled, such as her father and childhood.

additionally, when jezebel does begin to attach to someone in a more "normal" fashion, when she realizes she wants to tell them about herself and be genuine, when she wants to preserve them more as someone she loves rather than something she takes care of - she gets angry. at herself. disappointed that she's let herself fall for this again. it's a weakness that steals control of her because the truth is, being loved by her is controlling her. she went insane when artemiy died. elijah was the only one that could ever get under her skin.

does jezebel not feel love the way most people do? she doesn't.

does this mean she isn't, in her own way, genuine about her connections? no. it doesn't. she wouldn't act this way if she didn't mean it. she is not trying to manipulate or hurt anyone she engages in these relationships with. it is simply how she is.

other notes:

jezebel will typically not put a label on a relationship unless prompted to. until that point, she will not assume exclusivity and is liable to continue sleeping around to her pleasure. please understand that she does not view this as a form of infidelity and would never cheat on a partner once exclusivity is established.

despite this, she is a possessive person/partner and that can even extend to platonic relationships. she wants to be the number one, the favorite to others. this also plays into why she likes to play a provider role in relationships of all sorts.

she often struggles to separate romantic and platonic feelings. platonic intimacy is very real for her.

[communistjeeves]

@scoobit9

Samorost 3

[2planetsapproachtherochelimit]

maybe i should start making a tag for like... nonhuman posts and fictive related posts

[sen-ya]

Summer of Lawlu @truffyfest || Lawlu Day! || “I never meant to fall in love with you, I just did.”

I spent far too long on this. Hands. So many hands. I’m drowning in hands. Anyway they’re special to me and it’s their day!!

[oscarcito]

[elany]

Yk what I want? I want a very early stages post canon labrumisu, but from Chilchuck's POV.

Imagine mister 'interparty romance is the devil' visiting court just to see these three circling each other like a pack of uniquely unhinged cats. And of course he sees it immediately, he's nothing if not perceptive and he's seen this happen so, so many times before. Kabru is hardly subtle in his fascination with Laios, who trusts him in turn more than nearly anybody else. He can see how close Mithrun and Kabru still are, even when there's little reason for the former captain to even stay in Melini. He can see where this is going. And he can see the disaster it's gonna end up in.

So he's just staring at them in horror, trying to figure out what in the world the dynamic here even is and glaring daggers at Kabru all the while for seemingly being the linchpin of this entire bullshit situation. King, his adviser and a fucking foreign noble?? Who thought THAT was a good idea! Is nobody else seeing this?? (no lol) Why is nobody objecting to this politically unsound love triangle that could literally ruin the kingdom they've only just established??

The anger! The distress! The despair when he first sees Laios getting all giddy when Mithrun so much as talks to him. Because hell, now he can't even blame the entire situation on one pretty boy insisting on having fingers in every possible pie, on political and personal level both!

And then they just. Quietly get together. All three of them. And Chil's just watching from the sidelines in complete bafflement because he's invented infinite worst case scenarios for how this will implode in all of their faces and destroy their friend group and topple the entire country and--

Instead they do. This. He'd be relieved if he wasn't so goddamn mad that he's spent months worrying about this shit just for them to resolve it in the least dramatic way possible.

Fuck this, he's taking a holiday.

[deadunderorbit]

ref ↓

[dinoserious]

noodling

[cheatsylu]

Pony chain because why not!

[shiftythrifting]

I am uncomfortable

[rxttenfish]

i got too annoyed thinking about how the hell to draw her nose crest in a way that doesnt look awkward so guess what my next project is. guess.

[auriidae]

silliest goofiest guy in existence <33 (so was no one going to tell me that mr goodtimes is the most fun character to draw ever or was i just supposed to figure that out on my own)

[braisedhoney]

so uh. narry's immune to lovebug now. (thanks to some ancient server shenanigans.)

truth be told i'm not totally sure how this happened. it just seemed funnier that instead of being genuinely infected, he pretends so he can blend in until he figures out some kind of solution. so now he just sits there and sweats nervously hoping nobody notices. and since lovebug stuff is getting popular again... why not?

also this totally means he keeps getting pink glitter on everything and he hates it lmao. not bc it's pink, but bc it's glitter, and that shit stays forever.

(original concept for lovebug goes to @/things1do here on tumblr.)