#hmmm hm hm

[deklo]

kinda wanna make kevin my icon but it also seems weird. it’s not really My Brand™️

[ranger-danger]

WAIT before I go to bed. No promises on when my next play through will be but…

Idk who I’m going to play. Entertaining the idea of doing Murane even through I haven’t played him properly in da:o yet. Maybe Neera bg1? My secondary dnd main would fit in with the mourn watch… Mainly I’m saying this because no one can replace my sweet my dear Ardean, but I can make other characters show up and cause issues while keeping him as the rook. The Rook, who gets to fuck Davrin. OH I forgot a little while ago I thought about doing it as Drizzt Do’Urden…

Maybe I should do a poll for who I play next…

[alargehunkofdebris]

imagine if we get a seasonal parallel in S3 where instead it's Aziraphale who arrives back at the bookshop with zero memories, so we've just got an entire bottle episode similar to Breaking Bad's "Fly" where Crowley is desperately trying to catch any fly in the bookshop to see if they're holding Aziraphale's memories.

[rahbid]

so! jezebel and aspd. and comorbid autism. and her view of others and bonds.

jezebel does not attach to others like a healthy person does. to preface this, the models for her attachment in her childhood were

her father parading her as a weapon and personal feat of his research

being able to take care of a few stray cats in malifais

two brief crushes within the convent, wherein healthy affection was punished and the girls sought alternative ways to express affection for one another without being caught, such as blood promises and calculated stabbings

and then, in her later adolescence, as she's trying to heal from her damaged sense of attachment: her brother dies horribly and she enters a pseud-"relationship" with elijah, an obsessive assassin determined to make her her "true self" again by intentionally stalling ( and occasionally destroying ) her progress im therapy.

thus, her concept of attachment and ability to attach is not exactly secure. truly, it was a combination of the later two major experiences that left a crack in her psyche that makes her struggle with attachment.

when jezebel "attaches" to someone, typically, it is not uncommon for her to view them almost in the vein of being a possession. this is not to say she dehumanizes or mistreats them. in fact, she goes to great lengths to ensure they do not come to know what goes on in her mind, for fear it will ruin the relationship she's formed with them. however, if one plays close attention, this will show in other ways.

jezebel enjoys playing the role of a provider with people she has come to view this way. she will buy them gifts, necessities, everything in between. she will invent for them. dote on them. however, to a particularly perceptive sort, it will become apparent that there is a certain level of distance between themselves and her. she is never vulnerable with them. she will typically keep them separate from her other personal affairs and especially her professional life. there's simply a lack of emotional intimacy from her in most instances.

and if a particular observant lover/friend/etc notices and makes a complaint? she'll fake it. she'll get misty eyed about things that don't really bother her. she doesn't like lying, she won't lie - she'll simply talk about things she's been through that should've been more traumatic, but she's already handled, such as her father and childhood.

additionally, when jezebel does begin to attach to someone in a more "normal" fashion, when she realizes she wants to tell them about herself and be genuine, when she wants to preserve them more as someone she loves rather than something she takes care of - she gets angry. at herself. disappointed that she's let herself fall for this again. it's a weakness that steals control of her because the truth is, being loved by her is controlling her. she went insane when artemiy died. elijah was the only one that could ever get under her skin.

does jezebel not feel love the way most people do? she doesn't.

does this mean she isn't, in her own way, genuine about her connections? no. it doesn't. she wouldn't act this way if she didn't mean it. she is not trying to manipulate or hurt anyone she engages in these relationships with. it is simply how she is.

other notes:

jezebel will typically not put a label on a relationship unless prompted to. until that point, she will not assume exclusivity and is liable to continue sleeping around to her pleasure. please understand that she does not view this as a form of infidelity and would never cheat on a partner once exclusivity is established.

despite this, she is a possessive person/partner and that can even extend to platonic relationships. she wants to be the number one, the favorite to others. this also plays into why she likes to play a provider role in relationships of all sorts.

she often struggles to separate romantic and platonic feelings. platonic intimacy is very real for her.

[communistjeeves]

@scoobit9

Samorost 3

[2planetsapproachtherochelimit]

maybe i should start making a tag for like... nonhuman posts and fictive related posts

[once-more-with-anxiety]

i do genuinely think that "maybe that's why I like her so much" is one of THE most insane lines in the show.

like- Charles, honey, I hate to be rude, but what the FUCK did you mean by this? you're talking about a girl, who you obviously are at least a little romantically interested in, your friend makes a snide comment about her, and YOU SAY, 'hmm, kinda like you, yeah? see, that's why I like her.' I just. WHAT?

seriously every time I hear this line I start cackling because there is literally no normal explanation behind telling you're best MALE friend (who believes you to be straight) that the reason you have a crush on this girl is because she is like him. what the fuck, Charles. what. the fuck.

[sen-ya]

Summer of Lawlu @truffyfest || Lawlu Day! || “I never meant to fall in love with you, I just did.”

I spent far too long on this. Hands. So many hands. I’m drowning in hands. Anyway they’re special to me and it’s their day!!

[oscarcito]

[elany]

Yk what I want? I want a very early stages post canon labrumisu, but from Chilchuck's POV.

Imagine mister 'interparty romance is the devil' visiting court just to see these three circling each other like a pack of uniquely unhinged cats. And of course he sees it immediately, he's nothing if not perceptive and he's seen this happen so, so many times before. Kabru is hardly subtle in his fascination with Laios, who trusts him in turn more than nearly anybody else. He can see how close Mithrun and Kabru still are, even when there's little reason for the former captain to even stay in Melini. He can see where this is going. And he can see the disaster it's gonna end up in.

So he's just staring at them in horror, trying to figure out what in the world the dynamic here even is and glaring daggers at Kabru all the while for seemingly being the linchpin of this entire bullshit situation. King, his adviser and a fucking foreign noble?? Who thought THAT was a good idea! Is nobody else seeing this?? (no lol) Why is nobody objecting to this politically unsound love triangle that could literally ruin the kingdom they've only just established??

The anger! The distress! The despair when he first sees Laios getting all giddy when Mithrun so much as talks to him. Because hell, now he can't even blame the entire situation on one pretty boy insisting on having fingers in every possible pie, on political and personal level both!

And then they just. Quietly get together. All three of them. And Chil's just watching from the sidelines in complete bafflement because he's invented infinite worst case scenarios for how this will implode in all of their faces and destroy their friend group and topple the entire country and--

Instead they do. This. He'd be relieved if he wasn't so goddamn mad that he's spent months worrying about this shit just for them to resolve it in the least dramatic way possible.

Fuck this, he's taking a holiday.

[deadunderorbit]

ref ↓

[dinoserious]

noodling

[cheatsylu]

Pony chain because why not!

[ro-bee]

KIRANDER / WOLF NARI THINGS FACTS STORY IDK

He's an albino gray wolf, he acts a lot more like a dog... Maybe millennia in the void tamed him or maybe is just his people pleaser nature. (Despite that he can be authoritarian I think)

Kiran is very old, the oldest of bishops, the first of them to find a crown.

He's not a big fan of fighting but is very good at it, he taught his siblings some techniques!

The relationship with the other bishops isn't really good, he loves them but they don't like him much because he's "too affectioned" and overall strange. They don't understand his vision of the world and I mean fair.

His morals are mostly pessimistic he believes in the concept of destroy and rebuild, his "excuse" is that he doesn't want to see people suffer so he comes to the conclusion that dying is better than living and that the world would be better without gods.

He's very impatient but doesn't show it... And he doesn't allow more than one (1) second chances, all his previous vessels were definitely killed by him after their first death againsts the bishops

He would come up with some bullshit like "I'm sorry, I won't prolong your pain any longer, I clearly was wrong you're not fit for this... Now rest" or "you tried but it wasn't enough" a bit evil... And not very productive from him since he can't free himself alone... Ironic because he's impatient lol his morals are very strong

So yeah basically goat killed all bishops without dying even once... That was hell

(Goat playing hardcore lmao)

Cal and Deb (kiran's Baal and aym) weren't given by the bishops but by they're mom did a ritual to gift them to their father (yes I'm gonna make Kiran x forneus (name need a change) canon here and make him the bio dad of the pups , how were they born? Idk immaculate conception probably), they are demigods, kiran loves them very much and they keept him "sane"

Also forneus is his most Loyal follower 🔥🔥🔥🥴

After goat kills all bishops Kiran uses his freedom to... Take care of the pups...

They knew this was going to happen and let him do it (like... Brainwashed behavior)

If the world was to be freed from gods then demigods shouldn't be here either, so he killed them. Fast and painless.

Ok ok relationship with goat :

Is always ups and downs but mostly it starts as just you help me and I help you kind of deal... After the first bishop down Kiran kinda start to catch feelings... Nobody went so far yet this goat was the one, goat never died again so they saw each other's only after the first chain got destroyed and Kiran was able to use a bit of his power to bring them to him as the pleased, they use those summonings to talk e know each other's better lol.

So after bishop one was down they were in a friendly mood? Relationship??? Positive?

After the second bishop goat started to be a bit confused about their big friend's plan... The bishop told them some stuff but they decided not to believe him still doubt started forming in their heart even if Kiran was always so affectionate

I think the crush start here

After bishop 3 was down the seed of doubt finally sprout and Kiran noticed that goat started to be more distant from him... After one day goat asked him "after you're free, What will you do to me? " and Kiran simply responded with "I'll free you too, from you're regrets and from all the pain, I'll free your soul and we will be together in peace" that didn't reassure goat one bit but they let it slide because they wanted to believe their god

At this point their relationship was a bit confused but I think there was love in there under all the doubts

After the fourth bishop was killed goat was scared, terrified even.

They finally knew what the real plan was, the last bishop told them, He told them everything and how that wolf would take their second life just for a crazy ideology. They won't let that happen, they are stronger than him anyway... This whole deal made them go a little mad and on a full rampage, it didn't help finally knowing that the stermination of their kin was basically kiran's fault, yes the bishops started it but it was all to stop the crazy plans of the wolf, a "little" price to pay to save everything else.

When they arrived to purgatory they noticed the pups were gone, not surprising considering everything they learned that day about their beloved wolf.

Their fight wasn't long, Kiran asked goat to just listen to him but they were not willing at all.

it all ends when they finally manage to pin him on the ground.

The relationship right now is divorce ���😭

So Kiran dies, a very painful and slow death. Goat claims his place and they become the new God fo death.

That didn't satisfy them toh, now there was emptiness in their heart. They loved that wolf! They felt safe with him, he always attended their words wounds and now just like that he was gone. They killed him.

Goat would stop thinking about it for some years and would keep attending on their cult (in a very bad way) until one night they decided to bring the wolf back and make him pay and his actions again, like yes out of spite and to fill the emptiness.

Now can start the toxic yaoi

Bringing Kiran back will start this circle of love and hate, a desperate attempt from goat to fix the problems in their head??

Bro needs therapy (lamb is their therapist and will help them)

Every time Kiran would die goat would bring him back, bro doesn't deserve peace🔥🔥

Ok but with time goat calms down, realize that this is useless, Kiran realize that his actions were actually the problem, that he missed his siblings and his pups so much.

Sorry chat he changed a bit I think 😔

[rxttenfish]

i got too annoyed thinking about how the hell to draw her nose crest in a way that doesnt look awkward so guess what my next project is. guess.

[auriidae]

silliest goofiest guy in existence <33 (so was no one going to tell me that mr goodtimes is the most fun character to draw ever or was i just supposed to figure that out on my own)