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[kinomiya]

"things you said after it was over" tala and bryan

Is it cruel of me to put this out on Valentine’s Day? 

#justangstwriterproblems

The front door slammed, causing the house to shake slightly as Boris stomped through the entryway of the small apartment into the living area, his dirty boots tracking snow across the hardwood floors. He peeled off his leather jacket, throwing it aggressively onto the sofa before a figure sitting in an old worn chair caught his eye.

“What are you doing here, Yuriy?” Boris asked, a tired sigh escaped his lips as he gave the intruder and unconvincing glower.

He took a drink of the beer he had helped himself to, causing Boris to frown at Yuriy’s audacity. They hadn’t seen each other in over six months, at times they had been so contentious their mutual friends had been forced to split their time between them like children going through the painful, bitter, divorce of their parents.

“I had nothing better to do, figured I’d finally bring back all the shit you left at my place.” Yuriy said, slouching back in the chair and forcing Boris into an uncomfortable and direct eye contact.

“And why didn’t you just dump it on the floor and leave?” Boris asked, gritting his teeth, thinking whatever items Yuriy was returning now were better destined for the trash then returned, forever tarnished by painful memories that he’d sooner forget.

Boris heard his sharp inhale and cocked an eyebrow slightly, before finally moving from where he’d stopped upon discovering the intruder and grabbing himself a drink from the fridge and dropping into the old sofa across from Yuriy, waiting for a response.

“I thought maybe we… could talk?” Yuriy eventually replied, his voice was strained and slightly shaky.

“About what?” Boris asked, channeling the anger rising in his chest into twisting the cap off his beer. He heard the shaky exhale as Yuriy suppressed an irritated laugh,

“Everyone else is miserable because of us.” Yuriy spoke, unable to hide the bitterness in his voice and the scowl on his face.

“Astute observation, Yura, can’t believe you managed to get your head out of your own ass long enough to notice other people's suffering! That’s some real character development!” Boris replied sarcastically, dopamine flooded him as he watched Yuriy’s eyes narrow and his grip on the glass bottle tighten.

He had some nerve showing up here to talk about the suffering they were causing everyone when it was him who would fall off the face of the earth for months at a time in an attempt to run away from the shadows that kept him awake at night. 

Everyone else had started the healing process years ago, it was only Yuriy, only his fucking hubris, that had refused to be helped.

“I deserve that.” Came the soft reply, and when Boris’ vision refocused on the man sitting across from him the irritation had vanished off his face, replaced with a pensive look. This was new, he thought.

“Yeah you sure fucking do.” Boris said, not hiding his pleasure at Yuriy’s admission, it felt like their first step forward in a decade, like maybe, finally, the stubborn asshole was making some progress.

“Anyway… I was hoping maybe we could try to put an end to the aggression between us so that the others aren’t constantly walking on eggshells and scheduling shit to make sure we don’t catch sight of one another.” Yuriy spoke thoughtfully, and Boris recalled how he had loved how he looked when he was focused on something, how the way his eyebrows furrowed and his jaw clenched used to evoke a fluttery sensation in his chest. Only now, the same sight made him feel nothing.

“Yeah sure, but only if you’re going to try too, and not just expect me to be your fucking doormat or whatever.” Boris replied flippantly after some thought, he figured it would be in poor taste to refuse the olive branch being offered.

“So how about we uh, all hang out this Saturday instead of the weird split custody thing we’ve been doing?” Yuriy inquired, tapping a fingernail against the glass of the bottle he’d barely touched since Boris had come through the door, before the other man could reply he’d continue, disinterestedly: “As a test run or whatever.”

“Yeah.” Boris agreed, shifting on the sofa as the conversation began to make him feel restless. As if reading the room, Yuriy glanced at his watch before getting to his feet, prompting Boris to raise his eyebrow slightly before asking: “Leaving so soon?”

“I have plans this evening.” Was the simple reply as Yuriy moved across the room to retrieve his jacket from the otherwise empty coat rack by the door.

“Are you insane? What the hell are you doing going out on Valentine's D—“ Oh he thought: “—You’ve met someone.” Boris concluded, watching as Yuriy straightened his back

“I have.” He replied simply, not turning to look at the man on the sofa behind him.

“Neat.” Boris said awkwardly, his eyes staring at the other man's back as he fidgeted with the hem of his shirt, thinking about how in the past few months both Sergei and Ivan had commented that Yuriy seemed healthier, happier, and more cognizant lately.

“I’ll see you Saturday.” Yuriy's voice came from the door as he looked back at Boris, his hand resting on the already turned handle, waiting to push it open and make his exit.

“See you Saturday.” Boris confirmed with a slight nod as he watched the man look away from him and retreat from the tiny apartment.

Boris remained frozen for a moment, before leaning forward, setting the bottle on the floor and resting his head in his hands. He exhaled loudly, a bitter laugh followed as his hands twisted into fists pulling at his hair slightly. It was complicated, it was stupid, he was happy, he was agonized.

Their relationship had been long beyond reconciliation, every altercation between them had just further driven a resentful wedge between them, and it had started long before it had ended. By the time it was finally over, there was nothing left to salvage from the charred remains of their relationship, Boris hadn’t even been sure he’d ever be able to look Yuriy in the face again without wanting to put him in the hospital or worse. And it all had come from one thing, they had all moved forward and Yuriy had remained the same, unwilling to change, unwilling to be helped, always fucking unwilling.

And yet, at some point while Boris was consumed with overwhelming animosity towards his once best friend, and completely blinded by his disdain for everything Yuriy had ruined, their friends had began to comment that things seemed different, that he was disappearing less, that he was drinking less, that he was more himself again, and Boris had ignorantly thought, it was just wishful thinking from two people desperate not to watch someone they loved die. 

Because he had been there, he had seen it at its worst, behind closed doors and away from everyone else, he had watched the vestiges of their past consume Yuriy and turn him into an empty shell with no future but pain and death, and no desire to escape it.

But something had changed, while Boris was avoiding Yuriy, consumed by rage and regret he had failed to notice that someone else had appeared, who without any second thought jumped right into the madness and chaos of Yuriy’s inner world and steadfast and stubbornly remained until he was able to finally reach him and take his hand and pull him out of the nightmare that had consumed his every waking moment.

And Boris was happy, relieved even, that Yuriy had finally found something, someone, that he felt was worth fighting for…

But damn if it didn’t hurt that that thing hadn’t been him.

[hellovivirose]

More face meme challenge requests! BINGO ON ROW 3!

(Some faces I shifted slightly because of simultaneous requests!)

Daichi in A1 @kinomiya

Mao/Mariah in C1 @hiwatarilife

Voltaire in E8 @nekobakubey

Tsuki in B8 @teabiscs

Julia in F3 @dr-craw

Below is the tracker to show what been done and what’s on the way! There are still a few more faces and plenty more characters (like a looooot of VForce characters). Let me know who you’d like to see next :)

If I’ve missed your request, apologies! Don’t be afraid to poke me to remind me…

[misdre]

I posted 1,979 times in 2022

That's 47 more posts than 2021!

407 posts created (21%)

1,572 posts reblogged (79%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@novaerog

@itsbeen20years

@syfien

@hiwatarilife

@misdre

I tagged 999 of my posts in 2022

Only 50% of my posts had no tags

#beyblade - 229 posts

#pokemon - 29 posts

#bey things - 24 posts

#art - 23 posts

#beydoodles - 20 posts

#some summer rebloggin - 19 posts

#touhou - 18 posts

#mizuhara max - 9 posts

#kon rei - 7 posts

#kimetsu no yaiba - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#and by good i mean i'm an average finnish christmas song enjoyer so all the american shit can just. leave. gimme that varpunen jouluaamuna

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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#4

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#3

a new finnish horror movie just came out (i haven't gone to see it yet but i might!), and i saw a review about it mentioning international interest and foreigners apparently think that the finnish language makes a film extra creepy because it sounds like an intimidating fantasy language. i'll take that as a compliment

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#2

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My #1 post of 2022

the german-finnish keysmash post reminded me of this thing that reddit recommended to me yesterday (it’s a subtitled shot from a finnish show)

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[ladygalras]

Some of you all have found the one single sheith art ive done and are reblogging it.

Definitely makes my day a little bit.

I'm not active on this account anymore but I am on my main @hiwatarilife

[kaijutegu]

hiwatarilife replied to your photo: do not come into my inbox and youtube stan. this...

why is it so hard for people to understand now that criticizing something someone does doesnt mean theyre cancelled or a bad person, it just means they did a dumb thing and need to do better

because that’s complicated and would require you to actually think about the media you consume

[shirosucc]

Happy Birthday!!!🎉🎊🎈🎁🎂

THANK U KAT!!! 💞💞💞 love and appreciate u always

[ressyfaerie]

Okay so I keep forgetting to like reblog that flower bouquet post.

I'm so bad at reblogging those things (and remembering usernames) so I'm just gonna make a new post that won't clog anyone's dash honoring the people in the fandom who keep me alive:

@grab-my-digits-dude @littleagranger1 @ishkajules @bling101 @misdre @luxahheart @wolborgie @max1011 @itsbeen20years @aduah @maomeimei @needsari @ciiiraaa @allegrabites @where-them-kinomiya-at @blitzkriegboysbop @personeh @hiwataris-bitch @hiwatarilife @bxtchimightbe @just-lexy @gingericywolf @novaerog @hacknslashprettyboys @beyblader-observations @parfaitkiwi @turquoisewisteria @littleshechan @lotus-raine @winterkeys @lamponellatempesta @talasworld @random-anime-nerd @ashandpikachu @jelly-ta @alexas-arts @velox-the-knight

Anyways, I probably missed a BUNCH of people. If so, do not worry, this beyblade bouquet is for everyone.

[littleshechan]

Got tagged by @youhavereachedtheendofpie :3

rules: we’re snooping up on your playlist. set your entire music library to shuffle and report the 10 tracks that pop up, then choose 10 additional friends.

Gäa - Oonagh

Frei Schweben - Anime Allstars (Detektiv Conan)

I Believe - Bosson

Warte auf mich - Faun

Wir werden bei dir sein - Petra Scheeser, Ruth Kirchner u.A. der Anime Allstars

Es gibt nur Wasser - Santiano

Snow Halation - Muse

Start it right away - Hyadain

Just Communication - Two Mix

Holiday - Green Day

tagging: @syfien @littleagranger @juliaknight @hiwatarilife @tsubasa01 @hailedmercury @halfdeadpasta @vattallini @indigojupiterstuff @misdre

Have fun :3

[portgasdickace]

hiwatarilife replied to your post:hiwatarilife replied to your post:i fucking hate...

its terrible. the lizards are cute. this obnoxious blue and banner is not

theres an opt-out version under the spining globe!!!!

[kinomiya]

"things you said at 1 am"

With tala and takao, but chaotic

FIGHT ME ABOUT IT.

also @aquariasmoon because i basically stole this from you like the dirty fucking thief i am.

    “I’m terrified of you, you know.”

    They were sitting together on the small balcony, Takao tucked between his open legs, the back of his head resting against Tala’s chest as he stared up at the starless sky. Tala lifted his hand to his mouth to take a drag of his cigarette, inhaling the smoke deeply before releasing it into the humid summer air.

    Takao’s focus would shift from the black sky to the pale features of the man above him, admiring the rare moment of serenity he was sharing with the normally unhinged older man. Tala was, if nothing, imposing, constantly surrounded by an air of arrogance and unadulterated rage, existing on the precipice of an unhinged descent into madness, a bad day away from being a statistic. 

    He slowly reached out his hand to Tala’s free one, intertwining their fingers when the older man reciprocated the touch and they’d remain in silence for a time.  Takao would eventually sit up, pulling his hand away from his companion before raising them above his head to stretch, as his arms fell to his side he twisted his back to face the man behind him, a ghost of a smile on his face.

    “And why is that?” Takao inquired, his head tilting to the side slightly.

    For a few moments there was silence, as Tala remained in place, his eyes closed.  Eventually he would bring the remnants of his cigarette to his mouth, taking one final drag before flicking the butt off the balcony before slowly bringing his gaze to Takao.

    “Because when you were faced with hopelessness and inevitable defeat, you were… ecstatic.” He replied, as he leaned forward to close the space created between them.  He snorted softly at the smile that appeared across Takao’s face before continuing to speak:

“I knew back then, that you were the one I had to be wary of.” He finished, wrapping his arms around Takao’s shoulders, allowing the other man to settle into the embrace, he rested his chin on the top of his head.

Because despite all of his unbridled hostility that terrified those around him and caused people to actively avoid him, Tala knew that the truly the most terrifying people were the ones who could still find joy at the worst of times.

[kinomiya]

Since its winter here, a sledding scenario with reimax and rei has never done it before

here it is, the tooth rotting reimax content i promised.

please enjoy this cheery break from the normally scheduled gloomy shit i write.

Rei looked at the imposing snow covered hill towering over them and then back to his cheery partner, a look of apprehension on his face.

“So we’re going to walk to the top of the hill…” he began, watching the younger boy nod in confirmation before he continued:

“… and then we’re going to slide down it, completely uncontrolled, on this wooden thing you call a toboggan?” He finished, watching Max nod again.

“Don’t worry about it, it’s fun!” Max exclaimed as he grabbed onto Rei’s hand,  beginning the trek up the hill, dragging him and the sled up the snow covered hill behind him.

He tried to calm his nerves, focusing on something other than what felt like an imminent demise or disfigurement. This was not what Rei would necessarily consider fun, quite the opposite in fact. And yet, Max had looked at him with his pleading puppy dog eyes that they came here because he hadn’t been downhill sledding since he moved back to Japan from America and Rei didn’t have it in him to tell the man no, he would rather face inevitable death in fact.

The warmth from Max’s hand radiated through his mitten providing him a small comfort as they reached the hilltop and he envisioned them careening out of control down the slope at nearly 30 kilometers an hour.

They were going to die.

“This is your first time, so you should sit in the front!” Max’s happy chirp came from beside him as Rei shifted his gaze between the hill and his boyfriend, who now had positioned the sled facing downhill.

Rei was about to protest when Max tugged him by their intertwined hands, leading him to sit in the front part of the toboggan. Instead he slowly lowered himself into the sled, figuring at least if he was going to die, maybe his corpse would act as an airbag for Max.

Unconcernedly Max climbed in behind him, gently pushing the ground with his hands causing the sled to slip over the edge it teetered on and begin its decline. He laughed and wrapped his arms tightly around Rei’s midriff leaning against his back, his unadulterated joy in complete contrast to Rei’s horror.

He gripped tightly onto the front of the sled, tucking his head as much as he could as he clenched his jaw waiting for the inevitable impact with the ground or a tree as they sped down the steep incline, his soul nearly leaving his body when they hit a small rock that jostled them sideways, at least that last thing he’d hear was his boyfriend giggling with unbridled happiness.

And then, just as quickly as it began, they slowed, coming to a complete stop at the bottom of the hill, alive and intact, Max still holding onto him tightly, laughing cheerily into his ear.

Slowly, Rei relaxed, and as he released his death grip on the front of the toboggan he also began to laugh, more from relief and the adrenaline pumping through his veins than joy. 

As he straightened his back he felt the man behind him shift closer, his breath on his cheek, he tilted his head to the side to look at him and was met by Max leaning in to place a chaste peck on his lips before he grinned widely and spoke:

“Let’s go again!” He said cheerily, scrambling to his feet, waiting for the other man to follow him. Rei sluggishly crawled out of the sled as the adrenaline wore off and he sauntered towards Max gently grabbing him by his scarf and pulling him close, brushing his lips against the other mans.

“Only if I get to sit in the back this time.” Rei replied playfully between several kisses.

Without hesitation Max grabbed him by the hand again, dragging him back up the imposing snow covered hill, the sound of their laughter echoing through the crisp winter air.

[misdre]

📻 🐷🎁

Fave song currently: sydän jota rakastan by juha tapio. so crazy about this song i'm writing a fic about it FINNS DON’T @ ME

Junk food you can never get enough of: could eat my favourite pizza every day!!! or kebab but i’m not sure if it’s junk food in other countries. i don’t even know the names of different types of kebab in english

Best gift you ever received and why: HMMMMM that's a tough one. a gift is always a gift!!! it's hard to say why something would have been the best? plus like. maybe a giant pikachu plush was the best gift ever as a 10 year old but now i see it once a year when i visit mom. i like practical gifts the most so maybe the dressing gown that my mom got me last year that i've used almost every day. games are also nice but i don't remember which ones i bought myself anymore (that's steam for you. too many games in the library to remember)

[misdre]

cinnamon bun and glazed donut

CINNAMON BUN: favorite salty snack?

i think that’d be cheetos.... or the finnish equivalent anyway which aren’t cheetos and look a bit different too but essentially it’s the same cheese shit

GLAZED DONUT: would you rather visit a zoo or an aquarium?

probably an aquarium, i’ve never been to one and zoos make me a bit uncomfortable, especially ones that don’t treat animals well

[misdre]

hiwatarilife replied to your post: me: is legitimately offended every time someone...

wait is someone actually saying that? they were practically attached at the hip in grev lmao what were they watching

nobody in particular said this now but just in general their friendship and teamwork gets overlooked a lot and it makes me sad!! also i think people maybe don’t notice (but i do because i have no life) they already are pretty attached at the hip in s2

[misdre]

i panicked realising i haven't drawn anything all august... grabbed my markers and doodled takao and yuriy for @hiwatarilife's request from this summer.

it's a bit crappy since i couldn't fix anything digitally but there was an attempt. i've done worse tho even with digital editing available so i guess it's alright

[ressyfaerie]

I posted 3,737 times in 2021

388 posts created (10%)

3349 posts reblogged (90%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 8.6 posts.

I added 2,000 tags in 2021

#beyblade - 704 posts

#art - 373 posts

#ressyfaerie - 264 posts

#tyka - 129 posts

#not beyblade - 118 posts

#kai hiwatari - 109 posts

#kai - 103 posts

#lmao - 78 posts

#tyson - 63 posts

#tala - 59 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#or are they simply a mash of ideas that myself a mash of stardust has come up with and grown with creating entirelt dofferenr chatfaters and

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

I have a weird question for the beyblade fandom.

I dont mean any harm, feel free to yell at me if you desire, I can take it.

It's a genuine question...

Why Bryan/ Boris?

I seem to see him everywhere, and I mean, hes a babe and I've seen some phenomenal art, but hes a pretty minor character (saying maybe 3 or 6 lines in the whole series?)

What made you so attached to him? Was it the purple/ silver hair? The muscles? The trauma?

I need to know, for science.

82 notes • Posted 2021-04-14 15:29:58 GMT

#4

Okay so I keep forgetting to like reblog that flower bouquet post.

I'm so bad at reblogging those things (and remembering usernames) so I'm just gonna make a new post that won't clog anyone's dash honoring the people in the fandom who keep me alive:

@grab-my-digits-dude @littleagranger1 @ishkajules @bling101 @misdre @luxahheart @wolborgie @max1011 @itsbeen20years @aduah @maomeimei @needsari @ciiiraaa @allegrabites @where-them-kinomiya-at @blitzkriegboysbop @personeh @hiwataris-bitch @hiwatarilife @bxtchimightbe @just-lexy @gingericywolf @novaerog @hacknslashprettyboys @beyblader-observations @parfaitkiwi @turquoisewisteria @littleshechan @lotus-raine @winterkeys @lamponellatempesta @talasworld @random-anime-nerd @ashandpikachu @jelly-ta @alexas-arts @velox-the-knight

Anyways, I probably missed a BUNCH of people. If so, do not worry, this beyblade bouquet is for everyone.

89 notes • Posted 2021-11-15 05:55:15 GMT

#3

I've been growing out my hair during quarantine and I realized something which turned into a 10 minute cosplay.

Yes I have problems.

I call this video Ressy shows her face on the internet for the first time in several years LMAO.

93 notes • Posted 2021-02-18 22:50:40 GMT

#2

If I use the word toque in a story does everyone know what that is or is it a Canadian thing? 😂

103 notes • Posted 2021-11-18 05:06:25 GMT

#1

Spill your tea.

If you're a beyblade dub lover share something you love about the dub that's not in anything else, I'll go first:

-I LOVE Dizzy I think shes hilarious 🤣

103 notes • Posted 2021-02-13 00:41:30 GMT

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