#hiriajuu

[polyamzeal]

“Polyamory In Anime” panel at ACen 2023

Over the weekend at my favorite anime convention, Anime Central (ACen), I attended a panel called, “Polyamory In Anime” by @hiriajuu-suffering​ . So I wanted to give them a signal boost and talk about my experience at the panel.

Anyone that knows my backstory will know that I was actually introduced to polyamory during a panel at an anime convention, Geek Kon 2015. “Non-monogamy in Pop Culture” is a panel that changed my life. So I toyed with the idea of doing a polyamory panel at an anime con as well. But I was skeptical about how much that would pull people in. Even though that panel at that small con was really full. I think I just figured that the world was very different in 2015 compared to now. So I ran a panel twice in the past year that has a section talking about non-monogamy in anime but focuses more on sexual orientations and gender identities portrayed. And in it I pretty much just assume by this day and age that all weebs know what polyamory is unlike me in 2015.

Hiriiajuu-suffering made a very different assumption about the anime community and I think he made the right call! He focused a lot more on the basics of polyamory and especially defining various different terms. Maybe I just have a good brain for memorizing vocabulary words because I never found polyam terms confusing but it is quite a meme that they are overwhelming. And from what I could tell, the audience was very interested in this and eager to learn. I realized that the mistaken assumption I made is that while yes a lot more people in 2023 have heard of polyamory than in 2015, most people are still newbies that just starting off and learning! I have been in my own bubble of non-monogamous weebs for so long that I kind of forgotten that most people have only heard lots of these terms in passing.

To back up these terms and different styles of polyamory, several anime titles were listed off and briefly talked about. Unsurprisingly there are a lot more negative examples of non-monogamy in anime than positive examples. But I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing since we touch upon where some of these shows went wrong and how they could have fixed themselves into more positive polyamory.

And then the shows that do show positive polyamory (which for me are Girlfriend Girlfriend and My Next Life As A Villainess) felt like so much of a triumph. I really enjoyed when we got to cite these examples. 

There were a ton of shows listed that i had heard of but never really thought of through a polyamous lens (check out my series) so that gave me ideas for future anime reviews on this blog. I never thought the list would be so long. 

If I had one gripe it would be that some of the definitions of those pesky terms and labels I personally disagreed with. So I guess I do see why people say they are so confusing after all. But they were explained well enough that I got the point being conveyed.

I think the more important part was the concepts and ideals. There was a lot of “why someone might want to be polyamorous” weaved throughout the whole panel and I think it was so good that even fully monogamous people could learn a lot of lesions from those ideals. It was really beautiful!

I wish there was more time at the end for discussion. I had a lot to say but I mostly tried to patiently wait until the end as I didn’t want to constantly be interrupting during it. And then even at the end I wanted to make sure that other people got their input in first since again I didn’t want to steal the show and already felt like I did say a decent amount during it. I was in the front row with part of my polycule so that alone felt like I was contributing to the visibility of polyamory people. Although I honestly wish my entire polycule could be at a polyamory panel at an anime convention together. New goals!

I had decided a few weeks ago that I want to take a break from running panels at all cons but this one really inspired me and got me thinking that maybe I would run a polyamory panel at a small Midwestern anime con and stay away from running at the big ones for a little bit. I don’t know, we’ll see. I am really happy that Hiriiajuu-suffering did this panel and put so much hard work into it. The community, both anime and polyamory, really need content like this.

[hiriajuu-suffering]

Am I doing this influencer thing correctly? Happy birthday to me

The same as it always is

I need something to believe in my 30s, since my society expected me to have none in my 20s. help me realize what it is that needs to be.

[jostcn]

Hiii! This is my first time actively participating in something like this since I remade, but this is too cute to not be a part of it :3 So, I go by Hiriajuu online and my birthday is on November 10th. Thank you for doing this! :)

thanks hiriajuu! i’ll add you right now :)

join my birthday page!

[bramlouisgreenfeld]

i kinda feel bad about calling a stranger a loser on the internet so imma just state that you are one of my fave blogs

asjdkgf this is sweet on all levels, thank you so much sweetheart

send me ‘hey loser’ if i’m one of your favourite blogs

[markofdavaya]

a commission for Hiriajuu on flight rising!

[menatiera]

Author meme

Tagged by: @loraneldin

Author Name: Menatiera

Fandoms You Write For: Marvel (is the one I write for in English). In Hungarian I have/had a bit of a variety. (Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Teen Wolf, Doctor Who, Supernatural...)

Where You Post: AO3 (and moodboards on tumblr)

Most Popular One-Shot: Both based on hits and kudos it’s Tony Stark’s Snuggable Murder Kitten, a very fluffy, no-angst one-shot that I’ve written in the middle of the night after almost 3 months of not being able to write anything.

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: Without doubt it’s The Best of You, the (as for now) second part of the JGMAR series, the Avengers part of my MCU-rewrite, and it’s previously estabilished Winteriron with endgame Stuckony. The second most popular is Still Alive, the first part of the same series, Tony and Bucky gets together during the IM1 events, so yeah. So JGMAR is definitely my most popular writing, and I’m happy about it.

Favourite Story You Wrote: Oh my goood... depends on when you ask it, really, and what aspects are we talking about? I’m usually fond of my stories. I might not like them when I post them, but when I revisit them a bit time after and re-read them, I immensely enjoy them and am proud of them. My definitely most underrated story is Of Soldiers and Wolves. Technically it’s not even just one story but NINE, because it’s a Choose Your Own Adventure deal, and you can imagine how HARD it was to weave all of those together. You have no idea how much energy and care I’ve poured into it (there are probably mistakes I missed but hopefully not many) and yet it is among the least read stories from me - probably because there is one (warned and therefore avoidable!) sad ending among the nine. The rest of the endings are either gen, Stucky, Bucky/Nat/Steve or PolyAvengers. Also Take me to the magic of the moment doesn’t get the recognition either because it’s dub-con, but not more dub-con then any arranged marriage fic. Basically, Tony and Bucky agree to do a magical ritual (and possibly sex) due to outser circumstances and they enjoy it. But because of that, it’s not as popular as it could’ve been, imho.

Story You Were Nervous to Post: I’m always nervous to post, and I’m always writing the endings last-minute when the deadline is real pressing. My betas are seriously amazing to put up with my bullshit, honestly. I was also really nervous to post E-rated stories, especially The stranger addition and Already a sinner, and I’m an overachiever, because a) those are as close to PWP as I’ll probably ever go, and b) I felt really insecure about my smut writing. Also c) they are stuckony server remixes, and I wanted the original authors to like them :)

How Do You Choose Your Titles: It varies from time to time, but god bless the Hozier lyrics title generator. And song titles. And @hiriajuu who I ask for help all the time :D

Do You Outline: I’m usually a pantser, so I have a vague outline and then the story turns to a different direction at one point or another.

Complete: 61 works on Ao3. I’m almost at 450K!!!! :D

In-Progress: Oh my god. Listen. I have a lot. I have over a dozen WIPs right now, and even more that are just ideas or summaries or vague plans/wants. On Ao3 the stories that are unfinished:  Wonder is not gone as long as you aren't either (winterironshieldpepper in the plan, endgame fix-it with AI!Tony), and Mid-youth crisis (AVAC winteriron story based on @summerpipedream‘s amazing moodboard). But in my WIP documents? I have 3 started MTH fics (for last year’s auction, I know, I know...), I have another almost-finished kinda endgame fix-it, a sharon-pov story, a modern au stucky collab with @cpt-winniethepooh, a 5+1 Bucky loves Cap story, a shrinkyclinks story, an Ugly christmas sweaters Asset-POV, a Tony-focused sequel to necromancer!Steve,.... so, a lot.

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: The stories mentioned above, another part of JGMAR (prequel or sequel), a sequel for the angel/demon stuckony fic...

Do You Accept Prompts: I am more than happy to work with prompts, that’s why I sign up to so many bingos and collabs and such :D

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: I know it won’t get much loved either because Sharon is not the most loved character in the MCU, but I was really excited about that one-shot, it was a journey to discover her, and Steve through her eyes.

Tagging:

oh god I’m absolutely shit at tagging, but hey guys, if you want to... @cpt-winniethepooh @juuls @orlissa @hiriajuu @slashergirl

[cpt-winniethepooh]

positivity tag

“when you get this you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool!!)”

i was tagged by the amazing @halbereth (histironic-dragon)! thank you so much! <3 

i am very determined/headstrong (i don’t give up if my mind is set)

i am empathetic/compassionate (sometimes too much)

i am smart (what. i am)

i am reliable (when my mental illness doesn’t get in the way)

i am gentle (i don’t want to hurt others)

and i’m tagging the usual gang: @menatiera @orlissa @evaldmark @slashergirl​ @nomorepainwithslash​ @baellielurk​ @top-dawg27 @hiriajuu​ @flannelgiraffe​ @rogueholmes​ @araydre​ @oscula-sucre and anyone who wants to do it! <3 

[buckybarnesbingo]

Week 8 Roundup!  Keep reading to find out what Bucky-oriented things our lovely participants created this week!

Title: The Death Of Me Collaborator: seibelsays Link: AO3 Square Filled: Y3 - secret relationship Ship: Bucky/Darcy Rating: Gen Major Tags: none Summary: “It wouldn’t kill you to be nice,” Natasha scolded.  “You can’t prove that,” Bucky replied. Word Count: 2825

Title: When You Fall Collaborator: AoifeLaufeyson Link: AO3 Square Filled: U4 - Sharing a bed Ship: Stony Rating: Explicit Major Tags: explicit sexual content, BDSM, bad BDSM etiquette, hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending Summary: Steve makes a mistake and he and Tony have a way to go before they recover from it. Characters, relationships, and tags will updated as the story moves along. See end for more spoilery notes. Word Count: 3372

Title: Grumpy bird Collaborator: Trashcanakin Link: Tumblr Square Filled: K4 -  Au: medvial/fantasy Ship: none Rating: Gen Major Tags: art Summary: winged Bucky art

Title: Praised Prized Pride Collaborator: HogwartsToAlexandria Link: AO3 Square Filled: B3 -  AU: BDSM Ship: Stuckony Rating: Explicit Major Tags: BDSM, explicit sexual content, fetish club, see fic for more tags Summary: Tony always wanted to experience being shown off as the prized property of his two beautiful doms, tonight would be the night. Word Count: 5538

Title: the group mind has decided you’re in love Collaborator: kimannhart Link: AO3 Square Filled: U2 - Crack Ship: WinterIron Rating: Gen Major Tags: Crack, Musical, Humor Summary: When news hit that Bucky and Tony had broken up, all of their friends were confused but kept out of their business for a good while before deciding the two idiots needed to get back together. And what's a better way to say so than with a musical number? Word Count: 1923

Title: Second Chances - Part 2: Where to Go From Here Collaborator: until-theend-oftheline Link: Tumblr Square Filled: C3 -  FREE SQUARE Ship: Bucky/Reader Rating: Mature Major Tags: Wounds. Hinting at surgery. Dislocated shoulder. Memory Loss.   Word Count: 2700ish

Title: Break It to Me Gently Collaborator: mariana_oconnor Link: AO3 Square Filled: Y3 - Clint Barton/Hawkeye Ship: WinterHawk Rating: Teen Major Tags: College AU, Fluff Summary: Clint Barton is having a great day. Until he finds out that Bucky apparently has a crush on some idiot who hasn’t even noticed. Word Count: 3130

Title: You Promised To Be There Collaborator: queen-of-the-avengers Link: Tumblr Square Filled: Y1 - terrible choices Ship: Steve/Reader Rating: Teen Major Tags: angst, fluff Summary: HYDRA’s mission is to destroy the Avengers before they can destroy what they’ve created. To do that, they need to take away the one person who matters most to Steve and Tony. Word Count: 1178

Title: The Arrangement Collaborator: avintagekiss24 Link: AO3 Square Filled: B4 - AU: Royalty Ship: Bucky/Reader Rating: Teen Major Tags: royalty, steampunk, arranged marriage Summary: The United States has three distinct factions, The North, The South, and The West. War has broken out once again, and the only way to stop it, is for the King of The North and the impending Queen of The South to come together. Word Count: 2848

Title: Undercover - Chapter 5 Collaborator: avengerscompound Link: Tumblr Square Filled: Y1 -  waiting for extraction Ship: Bucky/Reader/Cint Rating: Explicit Major Tags: (for this chapter) wounds Summary: You go on an undercover mission with your boyfriend Bucky and Clint Barton.  When you and Clint have to pretend you’re in a relationship feelings become confused. Word Count: 1507

Title: whip it, whip it good Collaborator: kimannhart Link: AO3 Square Filled: C3 - free space Ship: Rhodey/Sam/Bucky/Tony Rating: Teen Major Tags: domestic fluff, baking Summary: The moment Rhodey finished his morning routine, he headed out to the kitchen and hoped that his lovers had cooked breakfast already. As he got closer to the kitchen, Rhodey’s ears picked up the arguing and clinking of dishes. His nose on the other hand? It automatically picked up on the burnt smell of something. “—old you that we should’ve taken it out earlier!” “And I told you that we should’ve put on a timer! But noooo, ‘I know what I’m doing, Sam. We don’t need a timer, trust me.’ Pfft, I knew I should’ve put on a timer anyway.” “What the hell are you two doing?” Rhodey asked as he took in the appearance of their kitchen and his lovers. There was dirty dishes cluttered around the island counter, flour was stuck Sam and Bucky’s faces, cracked eggs was leaking from the counter and dripping down to the floor. Simply, the kitchen looked like a baking tornado had hit it. The first thing that popped up in Rhodey’s mind when he saw the mess was I’m not cleaning this shit up. Word Count: 3671

Title: Eyes always seeking Collaborator: Menatiera Link: AO3 Square Filled: K5 - Day in life. Ship: BuckyNat Rating: Gen Major Tags: panic attack, PDA, slice of life Summary: "I came out to have a good time and I honestly feel so attacked right now" - this could be the summary of Bucky's experience. Written for the first/last sentence prompt by Hiriajuu: 'Don't look back'. Word Count: 914

Title: Soulmates Collaborator: TheMadHale Link: AO3 Square Filled: K4 - soulmates Ship: Bucky/Reader Rating: Gen Major Tags: scars Summary: Finding out you have a soulmate can be rough. Hiding your soulmate mark for them and others even harder. Word Count: 1661

[catboybee]

rule: list the top 10 songs you cant stop listening to lately and tag 10 people

i was tagged by @arxhaangel thanks pal 💖

1. supernova by ansel elgort

2. spray paint love by frank carter & the rattlesnakes

3. loner by yungblud

4. gaslight by snow tha product

5. lost by frank ocean

6. crush culture by conan gray

7. in cold blood by alt-j

8. i’m so tired by lauv, troye sivan

9. salvatore by lana del rey

10. me by the 1975

i tag: @immoralgays @maruaforeva @cosmiccoincidence @irishforjane @j00sua @luna-tic-night-bat @hiriajuu @losergoals @sunshine-knox @alexanderthenotsogreat

[injuries-in-dust]

@hiriajuu-suffering oh sweetie, I think there are some things that we need to tell you about asexuality.

Man, I hope that girl managed to figure things out.

[hiriajuu-suffering]

I'm applying to host a panel on polyamory at these Texas conventions 06/17-18: YUMiCON in San Antonio (their communication was scummy, they sent out marketing for almost being sold out before sending panel denial emails out then sent my denial email out upon inquiry, don't go here) 06/25-26: Kyokai Con in Harlingen 07/02: Ba-Con in Alvin 07/08-10: Okashicon in Pflugerville 07/28-31: Anime Matsuri in Houston 08/12-14: Anime Houston 08/19-21: Delta H Con in Houston 09/02-04: San Japan in San Antonio

If you see me, come say hi

Catch me if you can

[ao3feed-trc]

ego sum regis corvi.

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2xCIeaY

by Hiriajuu

"Sometimes he is alone in there with Glendower, and sometimes, the others are there too. Sometimes it's Gwenllian with him, dancing and turning around and singing her stupid song about birds and kings and blue lilies. She dances and sings and laughs at Gansey and then she leans in, screaming. Make way for the Raven King."

Words: 1009, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: Multi

Characters: Richard Gansey III, Henry Cheng, Blue Sargent

Relationships: Richard Gansey III/Blue Sargent, Henry Cheng/Richard Gansey III/Blue Sargent

Additional Tags: post-trk, it's basically just gansey figuring out stuff about his death and resurrection

read it on the AO3 at http://ift.tt/2xCIeaY

[menatiera]

Bless @hiriajuu for making me actually make this blog, they'll have to drag me away from it kicking and screaming.

I know there’s a lot of tension after Tumblr’s new policy annouced for December 17th, but reblog this if you aren’t leaving Tumblr so that other blogs can know they aren’t going to be completely alone!

[raveng1rl]

Arbores loqui latine - TRC fanfics

So, here’s the thing. I have a couple TRC one-shots, but I write it in Hungarian (you can check it here), cuz I’m suck, and can’t write it in English. But @hiriajuu was bored or whatevs and translated it, so enjoy! :) And feel free to leave a comment!

This one a little bit sad and angsty and AU. I think I wrote it after I read Blue Lily Lily Blue.

III.

"Where are we?"

"At Monmouth."

"I mean, where are we?"

Sigh. "In my head." "Why?" "Because this hell is not as bad as the other. The monsters are less scary here than there." "There?" "Outside." Ronan made a vague gesture, pointing at everything and nothing at once. Adam raised an eyebrow, but nodded. "Aren't you afraid that a monster gets out?" Again, he thought, but he didn't say it out loud. He didn't have to. "I'm stronger now." "I can see that." Ronan shot him a puzzled look. "You could bring me with you." Ronan didn't answer, but his smile had the hairs rising on Adam's arms, and his heart pounded in his chest as it had never before. "Why is it me here?" He asked, his mouth dry. There was a long silence, and then: "The others are at the funeral." He didn't want to ask the question, he didn't want to know the answer, but as he let out the breath he was holding, the name slipped out anyways. "Gansey?" Ronan shook his head bitterly, and Adam felt his heart stop beating for a second... and then Ronan cast his eyes down ...and it didn't start again. "So you're not that strong" He whispered hoarsely.

[menatiera]

Last ten first lines

Calm down folks :D I’ve been tagged by many lovely people - @the-kitteh @rebelmeg @eirlyssa @hogwartstoalexandria thank you! It was fun to bring this together.

Rules:  Post the first line of your last 10 (or however many you have!) published fics, then tag 10 people.

So I decided to cheat a bit, because... well, you can all read what I've already posted, right? So only the first five sentences are from posted fics, and then ten are are from unposted WIPs. Since those don't have titles, I'll add the pairing. Also, sometimes it’s two sentences. Deal with it :D

Posted fics:

1. “What do you think, pal?” Bucky asked quietly, kneeling in the mud. - Howl Home (Shift For Me)

2. Don’t look back. Bucky’s fingers spasmed, and he swallowed hard as he walked away, his steps light despite his heart beating like thunder in his chest. - Eyes always seeking

3. “Even the Moon can't know everything,” that's what Nebula said, and Pepper wasn't able to look at anything else but her lips, the words registering only after. Pepper blushed and looked away. - Silver love under the sun

4. At first everyone was in too great of a shock from losing Stark – Tony, but there wasn’t really any point of starting to call him by first name now that he was gone – to notice anything strange. Even Bucky, who was still a little bit paranoid despite the two years spent in Wakanda and the indefinite amount of time spent dead (again, thank you world for fucking him over again), didn’t notice it at first. - Some things never change, some things do

5. So. Being without a body was weird. - Wonder is not gone as long as you aren't either

WIPS:

1. “CLINT!” It’s Natasha who yells into the comms as fire erupts from that direction, and Bucky’s attention turns immediately. - winterhawk

2. Steve was so, so tired, he wished nothing else but to sleep. Work had a tendency to cause deep-bone exhaustion, and it was a cold winter, which made everything far worse. - stucky, shrinkyclinks

3. Tony was wondering how he, the fucking best tech-mage of the kingdom (or maybe the whole continent, or the whole world, if he didn't want to be humble) ended up here. - winteriron, aka the 'accidental shibari'

4. After Team Cap got amnesty and returned to the US, the days were mostly quiet on the Avengers compound, not even remnants of the easy and familiar atmosphere left. - post-cw fic that was supposed to be winteriron...

5. “How are you feeling, Sergeant Barnes?” Shuri asked, first thing after she woke him up. - post-cw gen fic, Bucky-centric

6. Once upon a time, there was a boy who was much more than just a boy. - ??? stucky I guess, a future BBB fill

7. Bucky didn’t want to listen in. It was completely accidental - it was the middle of the night, and while it wasn’t exactly a miracle to find one or two Avengers awake at 3AM, Bucky finally had allowed himself the luxury to not worry about it too much. - winteriron, aka a collab with the lovely Mey :)

8. It started with Steve, even before that scrappy little punk became Captain America, or before any of them knew what their world will turn into. - polyam multishipping Bucky-centric fic

9. When Steve crashed the plane, he wasn’t afraid. It was frankly odd – he couldn’t remember any time in his life when he hadn’t been afraid; but in those moments a new kind of clarity made everything just clear and serene. - caprbb, multishipping (can't tell more without spoilers, sorry)

10. It has been raining for nine days. The Asset could count it with confidence, because he also has been awake for nine days by now. - wirbb fic

Oh, okay, so. Let’s see...

@orlissa @cpt-winniethepooh @hiriajuu @slashergirl @rayshippouuchiha @tisfan @27dragons @captn-sara-holmes @juuls also anyone who wants to participate :)

[ao3feed-buckynat]

Eyes always seeking

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2Z0a4vZ

by Menatiera

"I came out to have a good time and I honestly feel so attacked right now" - this could be the summary of Bucky's experience.

Written for the prompt by Hiriajuu: 'Don't look back'.

Also a Bucky Barnes Bingo fill: K5 - Day in life.

Words: 914, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov (Marvel)

Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Natasha Romanov

Additional Tags: Panic Attacks, Start of a panic attack, PDA, Public Display of Affection, i mean kissing, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, but it's okay he's loved, it's not as angsty as it seems promise, Slice of Life, day of life, Grocery Shopping

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2Z0a4vZ