#higuu.rambles

[le-higuu]

Waiting for the next drop of shapes and pines lore like

I'm so obsessed with those goofy guys. I want to squeeze tad like a stress ball

[le-higuu]

Oh! This is the Tetris effect!

TLDR:, when you spend a lot of time and effort on doing something, your brain realizes it needs to problem solve for that activity, so it sort of... Seeps into your daily thoughts.

It's really common, actually — in 2020 I also played a ton of Minecraft, but with bunches of mods— and something I would do in every world was collect tree saplings!

Uh. Once I saw a pretty tree on the road and thought to myself "oh I should hop out of the car to collect its saplings" and only realized what the fuck I was doing as I was reaching for my seatbelt.

A bit later on, in 2022, I played a ton of Tetris during class. And then started playing it in my head as I fell asleep. It got to the point that I stopped playing Tetris altogether because I couldn't sleep before clearing the entire "board" in my brain.

Two years later and it still happens sometimes.

The Tetris effect is Real and Enduring.

I just want y’all to know that one time during lockdown I played a lot of Minecraft because I had nothing better to do and then later I was going to go into my room after a shower so I could go back to being a hermit but it was dark so I just thought “oop, can’t go in there, there’ll be skeletons spawning there and they’ll shoot at me”

And for LIKE FIVE WHOLE SECONDS I didn’t question it and I just turned on the lights and walked out into the living room to wait it out, just thankful I had my pajamas on already so I didn’t have to fight off the shooty skeletons in my dark closet where there might be some creepers too

And then all of a sudden I was like “Wait what the frig skeletons aren’t real” and then just went back into my room

And I think about that a lot. So if ANY OF YOU dare to think that I have any more than three and a half braincells on a really good day, just please remember this and know that you are sorely mistaken

[le-higuu]

Guys I'm unwellm I'm. Guys. Guys

H.S. by Tom Cardy is taking over my brain I don't. In an autistic way. In a very definitely neurodivergent manner. I'm just...

OH MY GOD I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH BUT I ALSO LOVE THE ART SO MUCH

AND ITS MESHED INTO THE PERFECT STORM FOR MY AWFUL BRAIN TO LATCH ONTO. I CANT FOCUS ON MY HOMEWORK IVE JUST BEEN REWATCHING THE VIDEO CONTINUOUSLY

Fifteen times. Two days. I take a break to do something else and I think about it again and have to look it up again I'm just AUUUUGHHH

I JUST. UM

I'm imploding actually I just

IM DYING ACTUALLY . IDK IT FEELS LIKE IM DYING

PLUTOOOO IM YOUR BIGGEST FAN

HES SO. DESIGNED.

AAAAUUUUUGH

[le-higuu]

Keep getting distracted from homework.... I'm just so hungry all the time..........

Mmmm chicken piccata....... 🤤

AWWWWWW I WANT IT SO BAAAAAD

[le-higuu]

Executive dysfunction is... Weird.

The only way I can get myself to do something is to trick myself into doing it. And to trick myself into it I need to be unaware that I'm doing something.

So sometimes I'll blink and just.... Be in another room, doing something. But I don't remember when I decided to do the thing.

And I have half a second of "hey, wait, I don't want to do this, actually" but then it's too much effort to change tracks again, so I'm stuck doing whatever it is until I finish the task.

Fun.

[le-higuu]

Just downed three pulled pork sandwiches in ten minutes. Hands are spotless of sauce. I am the pulled pork champion

[le-higuu]

I think I'm actually about to explode guys. Guys I think book of bill & the subsequent fanart unlocked something hidden within me (hormones) I am frothing at the mouth like never before. This is the first time I've been so unabashedly thirsty ANYWHERE EVER

[le-higuu]

I crack open an 11 ounce can of trader Joe's Mandarin oranges, only slightly, and drink all the juice through the little hole.

I salute you, can in hand.

"Tonight we eat like kings," I say, as I place the can between us and tear the rest of the lid off, sticking in two forks.

[le-higuu]

LMAO UPDATE ON THE EXAM. I GOT A 50% HAHAHAH IM SO COOKED GUYS......

It's fine. I'm fine. I'm not failing the class yet. I will just do better next exam

hey guys. Should I Kill Myself (← just had a HORRENDOUS calc exam)

[le-higuu]

Just had a dream where clowns and humans were two different species and they were trying to integrate into the same society, and part of that integration was this museum with only artwork of clowns. Apparently it was to show that clowns were alright and really not deserving of racism or species-ism or whatever? Anyways in all the paintings and stuff in this museum, someone had also used glow-in-the-dark paint to do something, they'd painted designs all over the clowns, and I think it was gonna turn into a big puzzle or something like the Da Vinci Code but then I woke up so I didn't get to see what would happen :(

[le-higuu]

skin is for losers

proceeds to rip off my outer layers

[le-higuu]

Nothing has made me happier than this one time when a 3rd grader called me wholesome when I was playing Minecraft Multiplayer and I literally cried

[le-higuu]

Wow that productivity crash where you start off really excited and good at doing stuff and then slowly nosedive into the Bermuda Triangle to never be seen again really hit me hard.

[le-higuu]

Did it again 😎

Just downed three pulled pork sandwiches in ten minutes. Hands are spotless of sauce. I am the pulled pork champion

[le-higuu]

IM SO GLAD I STUCK IT OUT GUYS!!!!! TOOK MY SECOND EXAM LAST WEEK!!

96%!!! HAHAHAHHAHAAA

I AM A CALCULUS GOD. NOBODY CAN BEAT ME NOW. I REIGN SUPREME!!

hey guys. Should I Kill Myself (← just had a HORRENDOUS calc exam)