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i know he stole these moves from eva after seeing her do all her fancy bike tricks
#heâs aâŚ. copycat#i was curious and looked in the script and itâs described âeva-equivalent high techâ#if ocelot finds something cool heâll start learning how to do it too immediately#gunplay juggling cqc bike tricks riding a horse torturing people#the list goes on#mgs#revolver ocelot#â
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"the difference between a conspiracy and fact is time" isnt always true because some things are just genuinely loony and wrong but. boy oh boy is it true in too many cases
#remember when mass surveillance was considered a crazy conspiracy theory? right. thanks snowden#remember when international elite pedophilie rings and islands were a crazy conspiracy? thanks epstein#remember when mind control and government experimentation on people and Mind Control were a conspiracy? right. thanks mkultra and proof of#postmodernism being infiltrated into everything artificially#remember when saying the war on terror is bullshit and the wars were faught for oil and infleunce would get u called crazy? welpppp yea mos#of us sure agree today. hey. u know theres government documents which talk about funding extremist rebel groups in south america in order t#justify us fucking around? hey. u know how many governments around the world the us collapsed?#.#hey?#what exactly makes the idea that they killed kennedy who was trying to stop the cia bullshit - and then the cia director he fired oversaw#the case crazy? and what makes the idea that they were involed in 911 crazy exactly?#and its allllll coincidence right. right#right...... you notice how with a lotta these fuckin things they ended up being very much true?#...... theyve got no fucking morals and an insanely bad track record#theyre responsable for how many wars deaths genocides rapes tortures coups throughout the world#i dont trust shit and there aint a think i think is too bad for them to do#anyway. ill place my bets on israel knowing the 8th was gonna happen and wanting it to#why fund hamas for years then. and how the fuck did all their intelligence and surveillance and million high tech american inventions miss#this
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also in modern aus he can sometimes show up with such an attitude and you're like woah your parents werent even murdered and you weren't even tortured and your sister didn't even die trying to protect your brother and you haven't even even been saddled with the responsibility of a sect leader as a teenager and havent been locked in a grief-frozen spiral of bitterness for the past two decades while mourning/still trying to kill your dead brother what's your problem cunt
#HES SO AGRESSIVE AND HE LIKE. WORKS AT A TECH STARTUP#i get your mom sucks but like in a modern au I think he would be remarkably better#still poorly socialized and high-strung and unlikeable and with a temper but probably less inclined to assault and torture#and like? nicer? he could be niceys in the pre-res stuff...he had some very sweet interactions w his siblings#ficblogging
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We pretty much knew Kirby and the Forgotten Land wasn't going to be properly post-apocalyptic, because while Kirby does routinely fight elder gods, they never actually get to succeed in eradicating all life, but I feel like Nintendo's workaround of "everything is deserted because a high-tech human civilisation captured an alien god, tortured its secrets from it, achieved some sort of post-human singularity and ascended en masse to a higher plane of existence, abandoning their uplifted animal servants to inherit the empty world they left behind" is kind of more fucked up than if everything had just gotten blown up.
#gaming#video games#kirby and the forgotten land#kirby#nintendo#violence mention#swearing#kirby and the forgotten land spoilers#kirby spoilers#spoilers
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You are the knife (I turn inside myself),
S2!Post-addiction!Spencer Reid x afab!BAU!reader
SMUT!! (and copious amounts of angst, and like a small amount of fluff to just⌠balance it out), Workplace rivals, aka, enemies to lovers (who are still enemies and would rather die than tell each other theyâre in love).
ââââ autistic spencer (as per usual), evil evil reader (im being dramatic, kinda), they hate each other so much that they have to find a new way to crawl into each others skin.
Warnings: sub spencer, brat!spencer (a man gets glasses and suddenly thinks he can be defiant) brat!tamer!reader, HUGE corruption kink (someone keeps putting that in there???? itâs not me, i swear), first time for Spencer (i love a virginal nerd), restraints (someone has to pin him down), cryingâ like lots of crying, degradation (and a little praise because they work hand in hand), Spencer eats reader out like rent is due, reader says thankyou by destroying him, they argue mid-sex. They actually just argue constantly.
â warning: mentions of past drug addiction.
w.c: 9k (mostly smut, holy shit how is it 9k??? their arguments hiked up my word count im positive)
a/n: i know tumblr hates to see me coming with my Spencer Reid one shots. I wrote this at 3am when I was supposed to be studying for my latin exam, itâs okay. Uni will understand I had greater things to do. I promise iâll get around to my requests this week, i just got possessed by the holy ghost and wrote this.
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Something, something, mindless torture. Spencer holds his brain, his intellect, in high regard. Proverbial accomplishments, Stanford Binet approved genius, heâs an outlier to most. And yet, the moment you start speaking, he has no thoughts beyond the domineering urge to throw himself off a cliff.
Youâre late today. Chicago, youâve both been sentenced, discarded to create a profile from the minimal information present. Forced proximity, the team have been trying to stifle this animosity shared between you for over a year now. It doesnât work.
Hereâs the thing, each member of the BAU has their own specialised feat: Penelope could be a cybercriminal, if she so wished, a tech-genius that has no qualms in tearing down firewalls. Morgan, adroit, an expert on the field, stereotypically strong, all running lines of muscle. Who wouldnât want to be princess-carried away from danger by him? Heâs also remarkably good at kicking down doors. Gideon has incalculable years of experience, a mentor.
The list stretches on.
But you and Spencer canât both be the brains of the team. Itâs unbalanced, skewed. A clash of intellect. Scales tipped in one direction, why does he always come up short? Why canât he justâ
Why, repeats as you push through the bureau, blanking the predictable, formulaic stares of various officers, trained officials, the usual mess. Whyâ why profiling? Why did you voluntarily choose to suffer your way through ceaseless cases of sanguinary?There has to be an element of masochism to your career; no one with a sane mind voluntarily decides to walk into an onslaught of serial killers and death.
The early mornings are always the worst; stumbling out of bed, deriving no sleep from the night, tangled sheets and restless limbs. âDonât,â you push, padding into the office, met with Spencerâs hardened gaze. âLate night.â
âWe havenât been here for 48 hours yet, 36 and 22 minutes to be precise, and youâve alreadyââ
âGet your mind out of the gutter, boy genius. Late night as in I stared at the casefiles until my mind went numb.â
âDid you take a break?â he asks, and you both know itâs not born from care. âMaybe a self-reflection period to realise that torturing yourself isnât the most effective form of work. Your reactive skills will be delayed now, letâs hope we donât find the unsub today. In fact, maybe I should warn Hotchââ
âHave I ever warned Hotch about your breakdowns?â that shuts him up. It also makes him spiral, because you canât know, itâs not statistically possible that youâd be aware of Hankelâs lasting impact on his body, dilaudid, hydromorphine, and not tell someone. He assumes youâd be desperate to eliminate him from the team, to claim your win.
âRight, umâ the case,â he shifts in his seat. Professionalism, tolerance, itâs all a little too much work when it comes to the subject of you.
âThe case.â you agree.
Youâre attuned to each other, a psychological curse heâs forced to stomach. Offices and crime scenes, analysing, competing, hellbent on one upping the other. âLook at these markingsââ his hands rifle through the files that adorn the table, searching searching until they produce an autopsy report.
The markings on the body are intricate, latin symbols prominent against the victims pale skin. You lean further forward, following the path of his index finger as it traces the outline. Perhaps thereâs an element of telepathy to your dynamic; you donât need to state the obvious, too aware that his brain has already processed the information, that heâs moved onto the nuances now.
Human sacrifice, itâs not the first time youâve caught yourselves in the midst of cult worship and indoctrination. But itâs certainly the first time of its kind.
âTraces of wine in her bloodstream. Found in a forest. Sounds like a bacchanal.â you state, shifting to pull yourself up on the desk.
Spencer looks. At your long, slender legs extending out from a pencil skirt. Effortless, natural, situating yourself on the oakwood, hair half covering your face, with loose strands pooling over your eyes to obstruct your sight.
Itâs a strange analogy, the two of you; Spencer with his tired eyes, haphazard clothes and messy desk, and you, just as dishevelled in the morning light.
Metaphorically and literally youâre higher than him right now. He fixes his askew glasses. Clears his throat. âRegina Horthorne,â the victim, âStraight A student. Honour role. What are the chances she willing went to said⌠bacchanal?â
âHm. I donât know, maybe sheâs like Laura Palmer. Double life. 4.0 cheerleader by day, crazed bacchante by night.â you retort.
Shamelessly, you take a moment to observe him, just as he did you. Shirt sleeves bunched up at his elbows, hair tousled, large hazel eyes, interminably darting across your face. You wonder for a moment if heâs analysed you the way youâve analysed him. Itâs a futile question, of course he has.
Anything to gain the upper hand.
You continue, âMaybe theyâre sacrificing virgins. You could go undercover as a potential victim. Certainly fit the part.â
âIâm already too old to be counted as an appropriate victim. Thereâs a high probability âtheyâ, the dominant unsub, wouldnât even look at me, andââ he pauses, pretty face marred by creased features, brows furrowed, a slight pout to his lips.
âThereâs a homicidal cult preforming human sacrifice, and youâre wasting time by insulting me?â Spencer isâŚ.. a perpetual scholar, a social disaster, wearing his intellect like an ill-concealed secret, outcasted for the weight of his own brilliance. âThe BAU clearly made a well-informed decision when they hired you.â
âOh, you wound me boy genius.â you respond, pressing your hand against your heart.
Endless cases. The impenetrable presence of fall. It feels like you shift through cycles, bleary-eyed and tainted from the job, damaged goodsâ do you struggle to sleep like I do?
You lean forward, hands, adorned with cluttered rings, braced against the table, bodies closer now. Thereâs a burn, something fervent that lingers between you, rivalry, opposition. Some days you feel as hedonistic as the unsubs you track and chase.
Continuing, you let out a sharp laugh. âAre you still bitter because I realised it was a bacchanal before you? Donât worry, iâll let you take the credit for it. Iâm sure Gideon will be so impressed.â
Gideon sees everything in him, and nothing in you. Predictable.
The distance between you has become almost null. Itâs intimate, and heâs not sure how he feels about that. âIâm not bitter. And I donât care about the credit.â A lie. âUnlike you, I donât need to prove my worth to him.â
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Spilt blood. Your hands are calloused from holding a gun. From firing a bullet straight through skull. The case closes, locked behind that inviolable wall, the one thatâs installed into your mind the moment youâre employed, the moment you sign your fate over to the BAU. Youâre not sure why anyone stays, overworked and undervalued, thereâs no heroes in real life. Maybe itâs the sense of family, or maybe itâs just what everyone subconsciously fell into.
You canât understand why youâre so angry at Spencer, why it extends to the next case, South Dakotaâ deaths of locals, but these days, all of the illogical, petty reasons just blur together. Create this tangled mess of overcompensation. âI assumed you two would get along,â Prentiss had statedâ but what does she know? Sheâs been an active member of the BAU for a whole 10 minutes.
The hostility has mounted to new levels now.
Itâs hard work, long hours, no gratitude and a pay cheque that canât even begin to cover the trauma that comes with the job. The BAU is like self-sabotage: a long list of reasons to leave, and no real reasons to stay. But still youâre both stuck in this loop.
South Dakota, of course itâs South Dakota. Cold, desolate South Dakota where the wind and snow will not let up, and the team are forced to remain cooped up in a cheap motel, desperate for any sort of entertainment.
Here he is, coerced into your room to work on the case, overtime, his eyes are rimmed crimson.
Youâre sprawled out across the bed while he sits at the other end, slender legs crossed. Spencer is tired with a weariness that seems to go soul-deep, shoulders slumped forward, glasses oblique.
The tension is near-palpable, stifling. âI can do this myself. No offence,â full offence, âbut youâre unneeded right now. In general, really.â
You make him cruel. Or no, maybe this job does? He canât remember himself unscathed now, fresh-faced to the BAU, unaware of what heâd endure. Itâs still early days in recovery, two months since he was entirely, indomitably reliant on Dilaudid.
âNo you canât,â you retort. Maybe itâs unprofessional, disreputable to waste so much breath on insults, to dedicate specific moments to hostilityâ people are dead, people will keep dying. And yet, perhaps thereâs justification for this; your mutual animosity is the only semblance of routine to this job, the only way either of you can seek control.
Control. All you do is reach for the blade.
âYouâre just bitter that I know what Iâm doing. Youâre not infallible, Boy Wonder. You need my help, so shut up and read that autopsy report. The sooner this is over, the sooner I can go back to my apartment and forget you exist.â
Well thatâs certainly unlikely.
âI think,â he says, and he knows this is going to be bad. He can feel the serrated edge to his forming words, his half-baked analysis too focused, too distracted, by his need to hurt. But heâs exhausted, and these days, he runs on a detrimentally short fuse. Maybe he finds a release in your dynamic, or maybe it makes everything worse. How can something be everything and nothing at the same time?
âI think youâre insecureâ he continues, âbecause you know Gideon values me more. That, to him, youâre replaceable. Itâs why youâre so fixated on one upping me. Why you feel the need to prove yourself superior. Textbook insecurity. You canât stand the fact that he chooses me over you, that he thinks Iâm better than you. That my input is more wanted, more necessary.â
This is uncharted territory now. Itâs never been pushed to this extent. Itâs never gotten so morbidly cruel that his words actually pierce. Youâd consider yourself to be thick-skinned, bullet-proof, a mess of hardened edges and calloused flesh. But he regards you with such insignificance, in a way thatâs different from your own personal view of him.
Obstinate, petty, a smart kid yet to meet his match. But never insignificant.
Thereâs silence, and then heâs dragging you down with him, forcing you to dig deeper, to smother wounds with salt. âDid he really choose you, though? No one on the team noticed. Not one person. After the Hankel case? When you came back different?â
Spencer falters.
Itâs a vulnerable, raw spot, a laceration that never seems to heal; the worst part is that youâre right. Heâd been in a spiralling decline for months, in plain sight, but everyone had been so absorbed in their own issues and god he needed a release. No one noticed. No one ever notices.
That he has no life, no prospects outside of the BAU. That his existence has been one comicotragic mess of inexperience, missing the mark, missing the joke, the punchline, the fact that everyone was always laughing at him, behind his back, to his face, present or gone. It didnât matter? Why would it ever matter to a bunch of washed-out teenagers?
He was robbed of his adolescence. And these days, he barely gets by.
Spencerâs eyes drift back to the files, avoiding your perusing gaze, if only you had enough decency to soften your eyes. Just once.
âYou donât get to bring that into this.â He murmurs. âShut up.â
âYou started thisââ
âAre you 5?â he bites back, âI was making an observation.â
When he abruptly stands up, files clattering to the floor, discarded despite the prevalent case, youâre quick to follow after him, to chase him into the cheap motel corridor. Because no, he doesnât get to walk away from this. Not when he laid the first blow, when the first cut was drawn from his blade. Perhaps itâs perverse, to chase the hurt that comes from being around him. Maybe itâs all just an elaborate way to self-harm, to find release in the distorted relationship you both share.
âWhere are you going? You canât walk away from this one.â you state, gripping his arm. Nails pressing into skin, crescent marks thatâll stain and remind and then acheâ itâs repetitive now.
âI covered for your ass.â you knew about the addiction, you knew, and even though omitting such information to the BAU couldâve lost your license, you still. Didnât. Say. Anything.
Itâs not like it took much effort to discern the truth.
âI also signed your email up to about 100 rehab centres and self-help blogs.â youâre not sure if you did that out of malice, or if it was your own, interpersonal way of minimising the damage, despite the circumstances.
You noticed. The rest of the BAU, who pressed false promises of friendship, loyalty into his shaking palms didnât notice. Didnât even think to humour what he became at his worst. But you did.
Furthermore, to add onto that jarring conclusion, you helped him. Admittedly in your own insufferable, (downright mocking) way. But it was help, and thatâs more than heâs ever received before.
All he knows right now is that he hates you, hates the person he is, the person this job, and the intransigent presence of you, forced him into becoming.
All he knows is that heâs stumbling forward, cupping your face (taking your grip along with it), and kissing you. Kissing you hard. Like heâs Icarus and youâre the sun, worth the inevitable burn, even if the touch is only momentary, even if itâll seal his fate as foolish.
Itâs a mess of harsh, rough skin, tousled hair and sharp teeth against soft lips. Itâs like trying to grasp at stardust, his hands fumbling for purchase along your body, trying to push you closer, as if the chasm of space between you is unbearable, a distance thatâs impossible to endure.
He laughs when you respond instinctively, a sharp excuse of a noise, muffled by your swollen lips, and heâs just kissing you through it because he hates you, he hates youâ he hates you so much that sometimes he canât breathe when youâre around.
You crawled under his skin a long time ago, made yourself a home there.
âI think Iâd rather be held hostage for a second time than kiss you again.â he says, and he mightâve elaborated further, but his lips abandon such a notion to chase your own.
The kiss becomes more languid, more desperate, like heâs trying to find an answer in response to it. Thereâs a brief, agonising break, foreheads pressed together, a harsh gasp of air, before the moment restarts.
God you taste good. Feel good, he thinks. Heâs never been this intimate, not beyond Lila, that fleeting mess in the pool. The two events incomparable, he felt something then, small and minuscule, not enough to pursue. But right now? Oh, In contrast, he feels everything now.
âI wish you were being held hostage. Itâd be quieter,â you retort. Itâs muffled, and youâre moving, bodies stumbling into obstacles as you relocate, when did you get to your room? It feels like natural progression, evolution, diminutive changes that you donât even realise are occurring.
You bite his bottom lip, draw it between your teeth, ruin him for anyone else. Because isnât that what youâve been doing for years now? Hurting each other so profoundly that only you can bare the scarred aftermath?
Itâs sick. Itâs sick, and you wonder how petty comments, trivial work-place rivalry distorted into this? How youâve just ended up sick because of each other, and admittedly, for each other.
What is sickness without pleasure?
He whimpers. The noise almost imperceptible, but itâs there, and itâs pathetic, an unbecoming thing caught somewhere between a gasp and needy whine. Heâs backed against the wall now, and he canât find it in him to complain.
âOf course it would be you,â he says breathlessly. For all the knowledge he lacks here (physically; heâs well-versed in the hypotheticals of anatomy), he doesnât feel pure.
People like him donât get that.
He should feel guilty. He should recoil at the touch, at the knowledge you bear, at the reality of this. Except, for some unknown reason, he relishes in the idea of someone having him, even if the cost is his pride, his dignity, even if the cost is you.
He whimpers again as your teeth rake along the slope of his neck, shuddering at the sharp sensation, and heâs almost begging, words on the verge of being uttered.
But he canât. Because that isnât him when heâs with you. âAre you going to punish me? For uh, everything I said tonight? Because ah, god, Iâd like to see you try.â
Admittedly, itâs not hard to break his resolve. A few more soul-crushing kisses and your wandering hand, dipping beneath his trousers, hard. Obscenely hard. Yes, heâs muttering as you unclasp buttons, as you loosen his trousers to the extent that you can palm him through his boxers. Half-choked gasps escape his bruised lips with every touch, and heâs crying now. Pretty tears streaming down his face, accentuating those doe-wide eyes of his, now glossy and warped.
âOnly person whoâs ever touched you, huh?â you state, and maybe you derive pleasure from that concept. That only your hands, drenched thick with staining blood, have ever scrutinised the warmth of his skin. The areas where his form curves, and the areas that make him come apart, undone at the seams. Grasping you, relying entirely on the wall, just to remain upright and somewhat conscious.
He makes another noise, another guttural, pathetic sound. Because, yeah, itâs just you. Itâs only you, and the thought should be unbearable, but the pleasure of having, being touched is too much.
He has to grasp the back of your shirt, nails digging into fabric, as a distraction, a way to centre himself, while the rest of the world falls apart. His words are scattered, broken and messy, and he finds himself saying things heâll inevitably regret. âPlease, I canât-â
Heâs supposed to hate this, hate you.
âCantâ canât take it. Oh,â he wants to bury his face into the crook of your neck, but youâre gripping his jaw, forcing him to look directly at you. Glasses discarded, the view was blurry without the added layers of tears.
âEyes on me, boy genius.â
He complies. Gaze locked, unable to look away, entranced by the way your pupils dilate, staring at you, like youâre artwork, something to be studied and broken down and torn apart, only to be rebuilt again once heâs had his fill.
âLetâs look at you. Hm?â you state, removing his sweater, then his shirt, and thereâs so many layers, and heâs acting coy now, as if he wasnât whimpering moments prior.
Instinctively, by reflex, he tries to cover himself up. To hide planes of untouched skin from your gluttonous palms. You grip his wrists, pin them above his head, and oh isnât this a sight: Spencer Reid, entirely bare, bound by you alone, tear track marks and swollen lips.
He always wanted to be seen.
He just didnât expect, anticipate, being seen to this extent. He canât fight your trailing gaze, and he doesnât want to; it might make him flushed, a few irrational movements away from a cardiac arrest, but this itâ raw uncut intimacy.
Youâre softer now, as you run your hand along his dick, earning a variety of muffled noises, as your thumb brushes over his tip, taking care to touch every part of him. Everywhere he needs it. When you finally wrap your fingers around him, everything burns, fervent and collapsing, and he supposes this is what it felt like the moment Troy collapsed.
âMhh,â he moans, hips bucking in time with your palm, steady movements.
Heâs already so messy, and it should be embarrassing, but all he feels is the blunted edges of pleasure, the jagged cut of humiliation, warring against each other.
âYouâreâ oh.. youâre enjoying this far too much,â he manages, and it takes so much energy to get it out, his words slurring, interrupted by debauched gasps.
It feels good, so good that he canât process the shame thatâs bound to follow. He hates you, and he might be a little in love with you, and itâs not fair to process feelings, chemicals, he was never supposed to obtain.
âThat itâs. There you go. Thatâs my good boy.â
Spencer sobs.
âShh, shh, I know, I know, itâs a lot.â thereâs always an element of condescension to your words. An undertone that rips through his defences. Destroys him in the process.
His body is receptive, ruined, because of the praise. Heâs not sure how you can look at him, clearly, consciously, and dictate that heâs good. Most days he feels impure, debased. Burnt-out and wasted, the great always fall.
The same skin he pierced with needles is now reverently on show, and you should be cruel, itâs what youâre both good at, the only viable way to communicate, an undisclosed secret language. But youâre not. That confuses him to no extent.
âI canâtâ cant, âm so close.â his arms are still bound above his head, and despite the ache, he keeps them there. Itâs not the most conventional âfirst timeâ, but he takes it regardless.
âYeah?â you mutter, pace picking up. The sound is obscene, his excessive pre-cum smeared across his length, wet noises with every stroke. âYou wanna cum for me, hm?â
âOh god,â he breaks, âYesâ yes, pleaseââ
You have no interest in denying him, not when heâs this destroyed from a mere hand-job. âGo on then. Just because you asked so nicely.â
He falls apart. Dewy-eyed and blissed out, you force him to look at you as he reaches his orgasm. To keep looking as he squirms and writhes. So he does, because apparently his cognitive function has evaporated now.
Your tongue meets your palm, tasting him, pressing the excess into his mouth with an indecent kiss. Is this what sex entails? Complete submission, vulnerabilities bared wide? Dirty in that primal sense, the same one he always shied away from?
Finally, finally in the aftermath, he breaks his stare. His head falls back against the wall, eyes closed, neck exposed. Stifled gasps, itâs quiet, as if youâre both aware of your actions, the consequences of them.
âThis is, uhâ yeah.â he mumbles, reaching for his clothes; now the ecstasy has worn off, the shame overpowers. The sin of man, heâs starting to think youâre the personification of the serpent.
Or maybe itâs the other way around. He doesnât hold his own body to such pure standards. Heâs not sure any benevolence would look at him with acceptance. Not after everything heâs done to it.
âHey wait,â youâre not good at this whole âniceâ thing, not when it comes to him. But there have been moments, in the past, small, fleeting seconds ofâŚ. youâre not entirely sure what to call them. Late hours spent scrutinising cases, your back-up points to his statements, mindless information dumps that the team canât quite understand.
âDonât make me chase you a second time, jesus.â You canât just leaveââ you exhale, breathe, in and out, âAre you okay?â
He stops. He stops because youâve never asked that question, never cared to ask that question, and maybe that hurts more than not being asked at all.
A part of him, the small part of him thatâs not functional, wants to stay, wants to just stay in this bliss and pretend that it doesnât matter, that the inevitable fallout wonât occur. But the larger, prominent part, reminds him that this isnât right, that he needs to leave and collect his wits.
âI donât know, im confusedââ he sighs, drags a shaky hand through his hair. âYeah, im uh⌠iâm fine. âI just need to leave, I have to-â he swallows. âI canât. Not right now, I need to doâ anything but this.â
He walks out on you and itâs fine.
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Everything is fine, reality can return, and you can forget that you had his arms bound against the wall, that he fell apart from the weight of your dragging palm. You can pretend you never saw him naked, bare in every form of the word. Stripped raw, his lips burning against yours, skin on skin. Itâs. Fine.
Life continues. Your dynamic remains the same, unrelenting, your biting words, just short of callous, his scathing remarks. Modus Operandi. You wonder how youâve turned the most tender person into something sharp, and you wonder if itâs ever going to be reversible.
When the case closes, the BAU, in predictable, systematic fashion, celebrate (ease the weight) over drinks. Youâre adorned in lace, a black dress that just catches your thighs. Itâs late now, and by the time you arrive at the dive-bar, the majority of the team are intoxicated (you couldnât go straight from work, there was still blood clinging to your skin).
Everything is fine. To reiterate.
Itâs not.. Itâs not. Because oh, Spencer finds himself staring. Heâs fairly certain he doesnât have any lingering interest. But then again, why is he fixated on the way fabric clings to your ruinous figure, the way your hair sits, slightly dishevelled, pooled over one shoulder? Itâs exasperating and inebriating all at once. You shouldnât be able to affect him to such an extent, and yet here he is, mindlessly staring at you with starry-eyes. He should look away. Leave even?
Of course, he fails. You end up squeezing in next to him, all leather seats and too little space.
And, okay, he knows he should feel guilty.
In reality, heâs not. Because, sure, heâs sat too close, and sure, he can just make out the scent of your perfume, faintly floral. But heâs intoxicated, just as everybody else is, and itâs making logic and reason seem far off, too distant to process. He looks at you once, then twice, like he canât quite believe youâre tangible.
âYou look nice, I guess,â he murmurs bluntly, looking away, feigning disinterest.
As if the âincidentâ (as heâs taken to calling it) didnât tilt his world on its axis.
âYou also look nice, I guess.â you retort, and itâs the best youâre going to get out of each other. At least in this state (the surplus of praise that left your bruised, possessed lips cannot be justified, or repeated ever. again.)
You lean forward, watch as his face creases at the proximity. Are you thinking about the kisses? Plural, fuck, plural. Open-mouthed, desperate movements?Youâre. not. Instead, you steal his glasses, slip them on. The prescription is strong, thick lenses that distort your perception.
âWhat do you think?â you ask, âI might go as you for halloween, itâll definitely scare the kids.â
âThey make you look intelligent. Considering you need all the help you can get, Iâd take that as a compliment,â
Itâs a domestic action, to put on his glasses. And the thoughts that burn through his mind stem from HR prohibited to domestic, which he argues is far worse. You, tangled in sheets, sporting nothing but his glasses. Resting against the tip of your nose, askew, as you ride him. As you tilt your head back, exposingâ no.
He wants to say something about how ridiculous you lookâ but itâs hard to focus, youâre taking up all of his sanity, like a computer running multiple programs at once. Youâre malware actually, destined to corrupt him (which youâve already done to a painful extent).
âYou canât just touch my stuff.â he settles on, sounding more petulant than anticipated.
âOh chill out, boy wonder. Itâs a pair of glasses,â you mutter, removing them to blink blink blink, and there he is, the centre focus of your vision, now fully detailed again. It takes you a moment to render in his appearance: shirt sleeves rolled to his elbows, arms exposed, long, deft fingers. Thereâs heavy bags gathering beneath his eyes, dragging down those big, blown-out irises of his, wide and completely dirty (how is it that his natural resting face is so obscene?).
Focus.
You push the glasses back onto his face. Better, itâs a sight youâve come to anticipate after he ran out of contact lenses. âThere. Oh, were you just upset because you couldnât see me properly? Thatâs sweet, Spence. Flattery will get you everywhere.â
He can see everything.
Every small detail of your face; strands of hair falling loose, dilated pupils, accentuated by heavy liner, obsidian that contrasts against your incisive eyes. Your lips, oh your lips, he could write a thesis on them. Stained crimson, if he were to kiss you right now, residue would catch against his own mouth, incriminate him.
He gets up. Excuses himself. Sometimes he wishes he could vanish.
But itâs not good enough.
âYou,â he says between messy kisses, âNeed to keep your hands to yourself.â â okay, heâs not sure how this happened. He left for the bathroom (to splash water on his face, gather his dignity, perhaps drown himself?) and you to humour the locals outside, gathering around with half-smoked cigarettes and slurring conversations.
But then, on his way back, padding through the long corridor (why is it always a corridor?), you were there, and yeah. He was screwed. Fatefully wrecked.
He had tried, in the moments leading up to his demise, to resist, but he was a man of logic and science and the science, when he was around you, simply did not apply. Youâre bad for him, in every sense, he should avoid you, he should stay away.
But now, thereâs no space between your bodies, no space for rationality or reasoning (god heâs tired of the thinking part. He just wants to feel).
The kiss is rough, sloppy, a desperate, messy thing. âThis canât keep happening,â he mumbles against your smeared lips.
âDo you remember last time?â you question. Itâs taboo, to bring it up, to disclose the buried. But youâre fairly certain this compromising position wouldnât exist without the lethal effects of that one night. The cheap motel and his body arching into your touch.
Rationality appears to be nonexistent now. A discarded concept.
Like last time, you guide him back against the wall, pin his hands above his head. Mirroring your actions. Well, to some âdignifiedâ extent. âHad you just like this,â you lean forward to press a series of kisses along the curvature of his jaw. âI bet youâd let me take you like this again, hm? Right here? In the middle of this shitty dive bar?â
And if he werenât so far gone, heâd protest, heâd tell you that no, this is wrong, because youâre so wrong for him. He knows that if one good man has to fall, it shouldnât be him.
But you donât let good men rise, and thereâs something so enticing about the depths of hell. Heâs not sure heâs good anyway. Itâs a complex situation. âYouâre a sadist,â he murmurs, breathless, âI wouldnât.â
Your grip instinctively tightens against his wrist, and he squirms. Heâs nervous, âCould we, like⌠at least find a bathroom? Iâd take a bathroom, even though thereâs endless strains of bacteria there. Or, or split a cab. No, iâll just payâ Anything. Iâll do anything. Just not here. This is a public space, and technically, public indecency, andââ
âFuck,â heâs never been the type to swear, âIâll do anything.â this time, he says it in self-defeat. Acknowledgment.
ââââââââââââ
French exit. His wandering hands in the cab, and the electric pulse that burnt through his body as he kept a low profile, stumbling out of the bar, muttering thinly-veiled excuses for his abrupt departure.
The second youâre both inside your apartment, youâre clattering into things. âI love your eyes,â you state bluntly, forthcoming in every sense of the word, âLove it when you cry for me.â
You think of every harsh word that has ever escaped your lips, You think of the consequences they mightâve had. Did he ever cry over them? You know, in contrast, you never did over his. Though there was that sharp, sinking pain that felt like the embodiment of slow death. Something terminal, fated to linger, to eat and eat until nothing remained.
No big deal!
âItâs an involuntary bodily response. Youâre a dacryphiliac.â he responds.
Thereâs not a lot he can compute right now, his brain too preoccupied with processing your touch alone. Which is so prominent, so harrowingly good that not even his genius mind can comprehend it.
Heâs reasonable to believe he would kill whoever had the pleasure of experiencing you like this.
âItâs not a fetish if I only feel it for youââ
Spencer breaks.
âNo-no-no,â he says, too loudly, âYou canât just- say those things. You canât tell me you love when I cry, just because- I should be scared, of you. Youâre volatile. Destructive,â he murmurs, head leaning against the crook of your shoulder. Against better judgement. But all reason has left him now. Youâve stolen it, taken it as a personal trophy to parade and boast about.
âWhy am⌠Why am I not scared?â he asks, âItâs not like I make you cryâŚâ
âBecause thereâs no reason to be scared.â you answer simply. And at surface level, itâs true. In spite of the hostility, the years of white-knuckled rivalry, youâve always trusted him. Itâs a coveted admission, considering youâre circumspect by nature.
You unbutton his shirt, let it fall to the floor, exposing his skin in the middle of your apartment. Heâs standing there, and youâre not sure what to do with all of this want that perhaps youâve misplaced as enmity for so long.
âYou could make me cry,â you state, because if thereâs one person out there capable of cracking you open, leaning behind fragmented pieces, itâs him. Itâs always going to be him.
Itâs a startling realisation. That he, Spencer Reid, of all people, can reach the centre of you in ways nobody has ever done before.
âWhy would I want you to cry? Thatâsâ iâm not even sure how I would go about it.â
You grip his hips, walk yourself backwards until youâre hitting a wall, there your body instinctively curves forward to meet his. âIt doesnât always have to be bad.â you explain, because heâs looking at it from a simplistic, textbook perspective. âLast time,â those words still feel like poison, âWhen I made you cry, there was no pain, right? You cried because it felt good.â
Heâs staring at you clueless. Though, he might just be distracted. Either works.
Your hand catches his wrist, and then youâre hiking up your dress, guiding his touch beneath fabric. The lace panties that cover skin. Heâs tentative, experimental, dragging his thumb over your clit, causing your hips to cant towards him. âMake me cry, boy genius.â
You act like this is the most indecent thing heâs capable of doing. From an unbiased standpoint, itâs up there on his list, but admittedly he hasnât really done enough to constitute a list in the first place.
Spencer, in response, simply drops to his knees. Your panties are pulled down your legs in a disconcerting haze, and then heâs just groaning, cursing Gods he doesnât believe in, spiting them with blasphemy, whilst also simultaneously thanking them, humouring false promises he wonât commit to.
Itâs blasphemous, a prodigy on his knees, in front of you, for you. As if heâs worshiping something he canât even comprehend, something beyond the expanse of his knowledge. And you just pull strands of his hair, pull at the strings of him.
His hands find the inside of your thighs, caressing the soft skin there and you make another noise, a noise that has him devouring you.
Face buried between your legs, he flattens his tongue against your clit, drags it upwards to catch wetness, to affirm that youâre just as affected as he. That since you touched him, all thoughts have consisted solely of you.
He doesn't think he's doing this correctly- but you're making noises, gasps that he didnât even know you were capable of, and that's the thing about science or anatomy, whatever it may be, the brain is incredibly subjective, and the more knowledge you acquire, the less you really know.
And there's knowledge here, but itâs not utilised; no coordination, even when there should be, even when heâs got the human body memorised to perfection. Still, you seem to like him messy, desperate, drawing your clit into his mouth to pull, to tug, before shifting back to blow cold air against you.
The task was simple, at surface level: make you cry. And whilst, if you pick it apart, it becomes more complex, he seems to be efficient in following orders because right now, youâre ruined. It might not be the most meticulous head youâve received (though youâre sure, under different circumstances he could probably surpass that standard), but itâs wanting, in a way that makes you ache.
âOh oh, fuckâ fuckfuckfuck.â
You grip his hair, twisting and pulling and using, and he lets you, heâd do anything, do this forever if he had to. His fingers, still gripping your thighs, dig into soft flesh, leaving visible marks. And he wants to see those marks, in the morning, an irrefutable fact that would force him to accept this as real.
But he canât focus, canât think about anything when youâre reacting like this, so undone. How can there be anything, at all, beyond this?
He lets you drape a leg over his shoulder, letâs you get off against his face, fingers sliding inside, one digit at a time, to feel warmth wrapped around him. To feel the way you clench when he curves them, when he grazes spots that he could explain to factual detail.
Your body shudders, and youâre making noises he hasnât heard before, sounds that could only be described as obsceneâ and his name, youâre moaning his name, and god, heâs certain he would follow you to the ends of the earth right now. Without question.
Itâs when he stops, when he leans back enough that he can breathe. That he can look at you, really look at you.
Youâre messy, undone. The sight could be considered humiliating from an outside perspective, but youâre gorgeous, and heâd do this a thousand times over if it resulted in this exact reaction. A reaction that heâs given you. No one else.
âI love your face.â He says, a little bluntly. But itâs true, he does.
So he returns to the task. Practically situating you on his face now to suffocate him, to let him become some sort of extension to your pleasure. And inevitably when you fall apart, tears and writhing, boundless pleasure, he can only push you through it. Allow his existence to crumble, for the second time,
And as he draws back, face covered in you, he can only stare.
His knees are bruised. Thatâs the first thing you notice when you stumble to the bedroom, when youâve taken a moment to wipe away evidence of the tears, to regather and compose yourself. Itâs not in your nature to be soft, no to him, but you still find yourself kissing the mauve blemishes, working your way up his body after youâve oh so unceremoniously undressed him. Reduced to his boxers, heâs an incriminating sight.
âLosing your virginity to me is like the biggest irony ever.â you say, kissing along his stomach, watching as his body reacts, arches, contorts in search of more pleasure. Itâs a hypnotising sight, to see every nerve tuned to you solely.
âIronic, demeaning, enough to send past versions of myself into an early grave. Yes, I get your point.â he mutters.
Your hands find their way to the waistband of his boxers, and heâs lifting his hips, because he wants you to undress him, because heâd let you do anything right now, but he also feels embarrassed, exposed. Vulnerable in a way heâs never felt before. Youâre seeing him, seeing things he doesnât even know himself. But thereâs nowhere to hide, not while youâre slowly pulling off his underwear, with a care that heâs unaccustomed to.
âI wonât go easy on you,â you assure. Even though thatâs technically a straight-faced lie. Of course itâll be more tender than anything else youâve endured; he has this devastating habit of softening those around him. Itâs only taken this long to affect you out of pure, unbridled spite.
Oh, he wants. The evidence is his body alone. Laid out before you, like an offering, a hedonistic one. Dick hardened, dripping pre-cum onto his stomach.
âHands above your head,â you watch as he blindly obeys, any defiance now crushed. Well, for the most part: at least in his actions. âThatâs goodâ good boy. Tell me if theyâre too tight,â you say, binding them with his discarded tie.
You stare, and itâs like you want to eat him alive, and against better judgement, heâd let you. Serve himself up, passive as you tear him limb for limb, taste all the bad parts of his existence, the ones he keeps hidden shamefully away.
âToo tight? Iâve been held hostage, I think I can handle a little bit of fabric.â he retorts before tugging at the restraints, âTighter.â
âDidnât realise you were so into thisââ
âNeither did I,â he scoffs, âIâve never done it before, obviously.â
âNow you have. Congrats, iâll give you a sticker once weâre done. Gold star, huh?â and just for good measure, you tighten the restraints further. Just a few more pulls until youâre knotting it in place. Until heâs entirely defenceless, but realistically, what would you do? Itâs hard to find fear when youâve covered him on the field for over a year (heâs prone to being targeted, an unsubs wet dream).
âYes, thank you. Iâll put the sticker on the wall next to my PhDs.â right now, right in this moment, countless people are getting what they want.
And Spencer is being manhandled by his pretty coworker.
Ironically, thatâs exactly what he wants.
Youâre the perfect dichotomy. Cruel, and caring. Harsh words to juxtapose gentle hands. Soft touches, but scathing remarks that linger, leaving behind a trail of scars, the ubiquity of your cruelty.
Youâre lethal, and heâs smart enough to comprehend the danger. Except heâs never been smart when it comes to people.
Your hands are acquisitive, roaming, searching, blunt nails that scrape skin as you rake them down, down towards his abdomen. He shivers, bite into that pretty bottom lip of his until heâs spilling blood, and itâs a sight. Something sick that you both want to such an offensive extent.
âSensitive.â you murmur, like the idea of him so reactive pleases you, in a way youâve never considered before. Because the way his body strains, bucking forward to deepen the contact is maddening.
âAre you always like this?â you wonder aloud, leaning down to run a hand along the length of his inner thigh. âPoor baby, so touch-starved.â
âI donât know if Iâd use the word sensitive.â he replies, âMore susceptible to the fact that youâre touching me, and that I havenât felt another person touch me in a long time. And of course when people touch me, itâs usually professionals poking me with needles or stitching this weeks new wound.â
Touch-starved? He has sensory issues. The lightest graze can provoke, cause his skin to crawl. Of course he would like your touch, of course the universe would torture him by finding relief in the one person who nobody should stumble upon for relief.
âOh youâre a soldier, you suffer so much.â you state, and itâs condescending (naturally), but there is some truth to the serrated comment. You, the team, are all bruised, mentally and physically distorted from the consequences of the job. Only he could react so reverently to your calloused hands, blissed out to the extent that it looks like youâre witnessing ascension.
Itâs pretty. Pretty, in a soft, domestic way. One that demeans his bound wrists and your sharp words.
You press a few tender kisses to his thighs, the inner sections, where youâre certain, assured, no one has ever touched before. Maybe thereâs something possessive to that thought, the want to own, to know that no one will ever have him the way you have him.
Your touch is like a brand. He wants it, even if itâs bad, even if itâs cruel. Because the alternative to this is nothing. A lonely existence. A life of work, of chasing shadows, knowing he had so much to give, and no one to give to.
âStop mocking me.â he replies, itâs through laboured breath. âJust because I donât have your proclivity for taking hits doesnât mean I donât suffer.â
No oneâs ever touched him like this. No oneâs ever cared to try. Youâre his first.
âI know you suffer,â you retort, are you arguing? Is this foreplay? If it is, then you have some serious self-reflecting to do on every single past conversation. Because maybe you shouldâve taken him to your bed earlier, in that case.
Oh god was your hatred of each other built solely on sexual tension?
Finally, you move. Just like the first time, your hand runs across his length, taking him slowly, easing him into it, coercing him through the pleasure. Itâs not similar to before: it wonât end after heâs found his release, and itâs not frenzied and ardent. Spurred on by shame.
âAnd you know iâm always going to take the hits for you, regardless.â he whines when you remove your hand, and whines again, for contrasting reasons, as you spit on your palm, generate lubricant to support each stroke.
âOhââ he breathes out. Heâs fairly certain heâs supposed to be more contained. A huff escapes his lips and then heâs retorting, âYou could try a tactic other than reckless self-sacrifice every once in a while.â
Heâs overwhelmed, with you. All of you. The way you look, the way you talk, all the harsh lines and scathing remarks. The way you take the hits for him, an altruistic custodian, but he isnât worthy of being saved. Isnât worth the effort.
âShut the fuck up, Spencer.â you say, promptly ending this discussion; you grip his dick tighter, tilting your movements to catch him at a better angle.
âShitâ okay, okay,â he moans because that feels really really good, and he wishes he could articulate it in a better way. Something complex and poetic, but itâs just so good.
Heâs always been a little masochistic. Too smart for his own good, too analytical. He wants you to take him apart, piece by piece, and see the inner workings of his body laid out before you, raw and vulnerable. Because only you can see him like this.
He doesnât even really touch himself. Thereâs been nights, body flushed and wanton, bucking up against sheets, muffled noises pressed into his pillow. But theyâre rare, and they usually lead to an aftermath of ignominy.
Heâs a prodigy, a genius in the field of criminal psychology. So why does it feel so good like this? To be humbled, to be demoted. As if all his degrees, his awards, his intellect, mean absolutely nothing.
Heâs never felt so loved. Which is ironic. Because heâd always hoped love would be slow, gentle. Soft, like a caress. The kind of love you share over meals and pillow-talk.
He realises, with a jolt to his system, that if this is love to you, heâd accept it, in its most primal form.
âYou get off on this,â he analyses as you draw back, mostly to stifle the begs that nearly escape his mouth. Come back, need you here.
âWell Iâd be pretty concerned if I wasnât getting off on this right nowââ
âNo,â he pushes, âYou like that iâm, that yeah. I have no experience. You want to corrupt me, huh?â he looks up at you with pretty, innocent eyes. Holy shit. âRuin me for anyone else? Go on, let me have it. Iâll only come back, iâve already done it once. Statistically, itâs going to happen again. And again. Pavlovian responses, condition me. Make my body react to no one else.â
When you kiss him again, he can only take it. Can only moan, whimper, plead against your mouth until youâre lining him up, until youâre sitting on his dick, and everything is okay.
âYouâre soââ bottomed out, wrapped around him entirely, you sigh. âFuck, Spence, who taught you to be so fucking dirty?â
âYou.â he mutters, playing coy. âBut youâre a bad teacher, I think I could do with a few more lessons..â
âI think you could do with learning to shut your mouth more often.â
âIt is better suited for other purposes, I suppose..â
He gags when you slot two fingers, index and middle, into his mouth. No warning, no predetermined acknowledgment. They hit the back of his throat, and he can only suck, muffling protests around the digits until he goes blissfully silent.
âBetter,â you retort. Drawing them out, you press your thumb against his bottom lip, keeping it parted so that you can lean forward, spit into his open mouth. When you first met, he promptly refused to shake your hand, too conscious of the dissemination of germs, now? Heâs swallowing your saliva, unprompted, with little resistance.
You know him. The way you touch is like youâre searching for something. Anything about him. Itâs like youâre a bloodhound, trying to unearth every single vulnerability. And you mustâve found them, because youâre suddenly here, bearing all your weight on him, moving, and itâs all his body can do to take it. All of it. All of you.
He tugs at his restraints, because he wonât go down without a susceptible fight. Even if he knows itâs fated that he will inevitably fall. âPleaseâplease untie me, just wanna hold your hand.â
And, oh that shatters you. Like, mentally, physically, spiritually dismantles you until youâre breathless, staring at him with widened eyes and a loss of composure. Itâs such a tender request, something domestic and raw, and mindlessly youâre fumbling with the knots of his tie. Freeing them to take one in yours.
Itâs against your nature, but you canât help, canât refrain yourself from pressing a kiss against his knuckles. âYouâre doing so good fâme. Such a good boy,â
Your free hand runs across his torso now, grazing skin, admiring the sight of him, flushed, debauched, sprawled out beneath you.
He grips your hip. Thatâs the first thing he does once heâs sufficiently sane, well⌠partially, the praise did knock him entirely off balance. Tip the scales, send him over the inexorable edge.
He watches as you take the incentive to slip off his body, and the loss of friction is okay, tolerable because heâs sitting up against the headboard, drawing you closer, whining for you until youâre on his lap, until youâre sat in your rightful place.
Here, he can kiss you. Which he admits has become a very vital aspect to his existence.
The kiss is like a bruise. Not rough, heâd never be rough with you, heâs all long, languid strokes and soft movements. But itâs overwhelming, and leaves discernible, lasting imprints.
And yeah, sure, kissing you is the closest thing to worship he has ever known. Something he would like to commit to memory, every single time your lips touch, itâs like heâs seeing god in the shape of your cupidâs bow.
âPlease, I needââ he stutters over his words, âIf you donât move, I swearââ he pauses, his head falling against your shoulderâ âI swear, Iâm gonna die, this has to be against the Geneva Convention, you canât leave me like this, pleaseââ
âThe Geneva convention? Really? Is this your form of dirty talk?â you retort, unable to muffle your laugh.
âNo. Iâm stating my rights,â he says, âTorture is prohibited.â
âIâm not torturing youââ
You tangle your hand through his hair, tug tug tug, and then pull, drawing his head back by tousled strands, forcing him to meet your gaze.
âOhmyfuckinggod, yes. You are.â he whimpers.
Itâs indefensible how good he feels, how he sinks into you, hitting crevices youâre certain no one else has ever grazed before. Feeling full, whole, itâs new. Itâs your own first, and you canât even begin to articulate how defenceless you are to the way it makes you disintegrate, fragment to pieces of pleasure. Spencer is warm, and soft, and it makes you want to cry. To just fall, give in, transcendence of self, Burke said, and right now, you feel that entirely.
His moan is unapologetic, unfiltered as you move. At this point, you could slice him open, leave him bleeding in your bed, and heâd thank you for it.
You hold his hand, and yet, simultaneously destroy him.
âPlease,â he whimpers againâ heâs too pretty to be asking so nicely. âI justâ I want you closer. As close as possible, I want you so close to me that Iâm not even sure if my body can handle it.â
Itâs not dirty talk, itâs more like heâs begging you, tears staining his skin, pitiful eyes, wide and glassy, staring at you with some form of desperation. Brows furrowed, gaze soft.
And his gaze only grows worse when you do give him what he wants, when your pace fastens.
Itâs a religious experience, like heâs about to be crucified, a martyr to his pleasure. Heâs almost afraid to touch youâ to stain something divine, like youâre too much for him. But youâre not.
âI like this. Like you. Like you here. Youâre so good for me,â he murmurs, and itâs untruthful, but right now, he sincerely believes it. âso good, so perfect, all I need, pleaseââ
âStop it.â you bite, preferring him defiant over thisâ because this opens up wounds you werenât even aware existed. âOh fuck, stop it.â
âSo good. Youâre so good,â he cups your face, presses his forehead against yours, and you might as well just die right here.
âSays you.â
âSays me.â
You fuck him harder.
âOh,â is all he can pronounce, little ohâs every time you rock against him, and he has to grip you hips, deepen the movements until youâre bouncing against him, up down up down, exploiting his sensitivity with a torturous pace.
And itâs not fair, he needs to balance the scales, so he runs his thumb over your clit, firm halos that have you keening. âIf being nice got me this, Iâd be so nice to you for the rest of my lifeââ
Another lie. But itâs worth it. If only for the way you kiss him. The way you silence his cutting words, forcing your way into his mouth, forcing him to just squirm and sob, until youâre clenching around him, and heâs there with you. Falling apart, bodies shifting until movement ceases, and thereâs nothing but bliss.
âI hate you so much,â you say in the aftermath, and itâs closest youâve ever gotten to a confession of love.
He laughs, wipes away tears, âHate you more.â
âDonât leave this time.â he just nods, bordering on nonverbal now. It takes you hours to coax actual words out of him, and by then, youâre both tangled in a foreign mess of warm limbs.
âOh iâm going to be so mean tomorrow.â you mutter, playing loosely with his hair.
He can only sigh, stare at you dreamily. âGod, is that a promise?â
#sub spencer reid#sub spencer#brat spencer reid#spencer reid angst#spencer reid smut#criminal minds#enemies to lovers#rivals#idk they hate each other but want each other#itâs a messy situation!!#id hate to be either of their therapists#or HR who has to deal with the fallout of this
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@vicioussickle oh yeah agreed with them latching onto whatever side happens to share the same goal (i think the art book straight up admits there's no evidence of ganon worshipping in their den, it's all about master kohga). and now i look back at creating a champion i see what you mean, it keeps saying the 'militant' sheikah faction is the one that defected, so i assume that means the castle spies who, while loyal to the goddess were already inclined towards violence and espionage as opposed to the researchers.
the book also talks of their âoriginal dark purposeâ for the royal family so they must be leaning into oot shadow dungeon lore in the botw world. if i had to imagine a scenario, now whatever political unrest behind the creation of these dungeons has fizzled the king is left with a group of highly trained (and crucially, BORED) sadistic ninjas breathing down his neck. so the publicâs fear of sheikah tech gives him an excuse to get rid of them - creating a self fulfilling prophecy.
if iâm going with the opinion that small traces of the modern yiga existed back then beyond monk maz koshia's attack patterns and love for bananas, then the kakariko sheikah have lost touch with their old selves just as much. like two halves of a missing whole
because i am once again being kept awake by yiga clan thoughts.
do you think the splintered sheikah from 10,000 years ago that swore allegience to ganon slowly evolved into the yiga we know today, gradually phasing out blues for reds and white hair for black in a ship of theseus sense where they donât notice how different theyâve become until too many generations have passed to notice.
or do you think it all happened overnight in an edgy makeover montage styled like a 00s coming of age movie as they dye their hair black, tack spikes onto their outfits and apply emo eyeliner over their sheikah crests until the look is complete, joan jetts playing all the while as they walk in slo mo towards hyrule castle.
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The main thought ringing in my head at the three-quarter mark of Jenny Nicholson's Star Wars Hotel video is how badly Disney missed the mark on not targeting the demographic of LARPers, cosplayers, and RenFest nerds as opposed to... whoever the hell they were actually targeting, with that combination of experience and price point.
Like. Not to further out myself as a massive goddamn dork, but there was a span of nearly ten years where I was going to the Ohio RenFest at least once a season, every season. And even there, the years where I went in some form of costume and played along with the actors as opposed to wearing jeans and a t-shirt, my experience was so much richer. There was such a different level of banter and playfulness and entertainment when I actively leaned into the immersion. I had so much fun interacting with the shopkeeps and cast members as an elf or random Fantasy Medieval Maiden, because they saw the costume and on some level went, "You! You are One Of Us!" and matched that energy, and thus gave me the chance to match it in return.
(One year, early on, when my "costume" was a frilly blouse, leggings, boots, elf ears, and a hastily sewn cloak, I had a random older gentleman run up to our group, press a gold coin into my palms, kiss the back of my hand in a very respectful and courtly manner, and disappear into the crowd. No context, no further story or plot or interaction, but almost fifteen years later I still have that gold coin on a shelf of tchotchkes.)
Watching every time Jenny tried so desperately to lean into the Galactic StarCruiser/overall Star Wars experience, to actively engage with the story and the characters, only to be lowkey ignored or actively rebuffed or scorned, legitimately broke my heart a little. (The bit in the experience finale where she was like "it felt like we were supposed to respond somehow, but I didn't because it was embarrassing, which is its own form of Force torture" was simultaneously hilarious and extremely relatable and incredibly sad.) Setting aside the issues with the app and tech, let alone the refusal to address legitimate complaints until she took to Twitter, not even getting a hint of reciprocal interaction from the actors when your choices supposedly matter in your overall experience would be so incredibly disheartening.
Ohio RenFest tickets were about $20 when I started going in high school, plus whatever food and merchandise you wanted to buy. Nowadays, even with inflation, they're still only $35 for adult tickets, which gets you access to everything, and you can absolutely get a full day's experience out of that with only the additional cost for food and beverages. I cannot fathom spending six thousand fecking dollars for two days ("two dollars per person per minute" will live rent free in my head for a while) on what is supposedly an immersive experience, marketed as living out your Star Wars story, only to get the absolute bare minimum in return. It really feels like such an indicator of how modern-day Disney is willing to cut corners as much as possible while leaning on brand recognition, and especially on nostalgia, in order to milk every last red cent out of their customers, until they run out of both money and goodwill. And that is so, so incredibly sad.
#life with ladytemeraire#Star Wars#RenFest#Ren Faire#my maunderings#Jenny Nicholson#I have no idea how to tag this#I loved this essay but it made me both sad and furious#literally every suggestion she made as a form of improvement would have been better than the actual thing#Disney
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The Driven Snow [Yandere Coriolanus Snow x Reader]
Title: The Driven Snow [Yandere Coriolanus Snow x Reader]
Synopsis: You're a District 2 school graduate who comes to the Capitol with her father before the 11th Hunger Games. You don't expect to meet anyone kind, especially not someone named Coriolanus Snow who offers you his arm, his smile, and treats in secret.Â
Word Count: 5270
notes: yandere, abusive relationship, non-graphic descriptions of torture and death (not against reader); uses a mixture of book and movie canon
The Capitol was not as dazzling as your father described it but then, he had seen it before the war. Though perhaps it was your own bitterness that made you ignore the signs of returning prosperity that sets it above everywhere else.
The repaired elaborate buildings, the fresh pungent smell of plaster and paint. The cars pumping exhaust fumes into the air. The low rumble of garbage trucks that pick up bright green garbage cans, some of which are actually teeming with plastic trash bags. Such waste was unheard of, even in the oh-so-loyal District 2, where only the lowest of the low find themselves starving.
Although not-starving didnât mean that everything was plentiful.Â
You, though, were lucky enough to avoid the lima bean heavy diet that some of your classmates (now former--graduation was months ago) lived on. Or were you? The meat that graced your familyâs dinner table, the pats of butter on toast, were all courtesy of your fatherâs immense talent in building creative weapons that allowed the Capitol to stamp out every last bit of rebellion in the Districts. That allowed them to regain control. That allowed them to create the Hunger Games.
Which is why you were in the Capitol now. Oh, not to participate in them. Your fatherâs status in District 2 had seen to that; it would be a scandal if the name of his beloved daughter were to ever be pulled.Â
You were there because your father had been given a lucrative contract, one that was sure to cement your familyâs wealth for generations: a contract to build high-tech weapons for the Hunger Games themselves.Â
They would still be killing. But on a much smaller scale, you supposed, than the weapons your father designed during the war.Â
Still. Blood was blood. And if it had to be spilled, well, there was nothing you could do about it except hope they died quickly. Especially the ones from District 2.
Last yearâs Gamesâ had been awful enough. Your family had watched the Games on a modest television set in the privacy of your living room, sent courtesy of the Capitol.Â
You wondered if you would ever get the sight of Marcusâ battered, bloated face from your mind; if you would ever unhear the way his body thumped to the ground when that girl had killed him, out of mercy. If you would ever stop imagining what it must have felt like in those last moments.
But it wasnât all horror. Youâd liked Lucy Gray well enough, even though she was from 12. She had a wild way of dressing and the singing--it was practically theatrical, compared to what youâd heard about the previous games.Â
Maybe that was why your father got this contract: theatrics. Maybe the games would be more dramatic from now on. Maybe they wanted tributes like Lucy Gray, who sang and spit and poisoned her way to Victory. It was strange, really, that thereâd been hardly any talk of her since her win.Â
âFather?â You asked, quietly as you could.Â
Both of you were standing in the foyer of the grand university in the Capitol. The outside was still a little ravaged, but inside, it was perfectly lovely. Walls lined with books--perhaps some of them were fake--and marble floors and marble busts dotting the sight lines.
âMm?â He replied, eyes scanning over his clipboard. He flips it, here and there.
âI was just thinking. About last yearâs games. About Lucy Gray, and how the Games--â
Your father rounded on you, eyes suddenly serious and blazing.
âQuiet. Werenât you paying attention on the way here?â Admittedly, you were not. Youâd been daydreaming about what you might do now that you were done with school. There was no university in District 2, and your father hadnât even mentioned a job. âYouâre not supposed to mention--â
âNot supposed to mention whom? Ah, ah, ah. Lucy Gray Baird?â called a voice, almost in sing-song.
Your father stood up stiff, and the life seemed to drain from his face.
Both of you look towards the sound of the voice, and now itâs your turn to stiffen. The voice came from a woman standing in the doorway of the very office that your father was waiting to enter. She was wearing an elaborate jacket made of what looked like rainbow snake scales. Her hair was gray and curly. She had, you realized, two different colored eyes.Â
Your father swallowed, and you could see the apple of it bob up and down. It made you think, abruptly, of suckling pigs.Â
âDr. Gaul,â he said, in a voice far too tight to be relaxed. âI apologize for my daughterâs insubordination, I assure you, she meant no--â
Dr. Gaul waved her hands at him and approached you.Â
âDid you like last yearâs games?â She didnât look angry. No, she looked delighted.
âIâŚâ It was your turn to swallow, your turn to feel that tightness. âIt-it was the first time Iâve watched them, maâam.â You want to ask this woman: do you think I liked watching someone from my District 2 so horribly? Or any District, really? Did I like it?Â
Her smile grew wider.Â
âIâm glad. Youâll be watching them every year from now on, I hope. We have big plans.â Her eyebrows raised high. âBig changes. Thanks to men like your father.â She glanced at him and you saw disdain flicker across her gaze.Â
And then another door opened, and you heard the sound of polished shoes on the marble floor. Dr. Gaulâs attention dropped away from you like you were nothing at all. She turned to meet the sound of these footsteps, and you did too.
It was a young man. Probably your age, you thought, with light blonde hair and eyes that your mother would have described as âbaby blue.â He didnât look at you, or your father. But that was nothing new. Youâd only been in the Capitol for 2 days, and youâd already gotten used to being treated as lesser than. Though, at least, you were not so far down on the food chain that you lost your tongue.Â
âAh, my protege,â said Dr. Gaul, giving the young man a grin. The smile on her face almost looked warm, which was somehow far more terrifying than her manic smile from earlier. âEver the earnest student. Arenât you supposed to be enjoying the day off, Mr. Snow?â
The young man, this âSnow,â chuckled and lowered his gaze. âI couldnât stay away once I heard you were discussing some of the new prototypes for this yearâs games.âÂ
He finally looked at your father, and then at you. But only briefly.
âCan I assume that this isâŚ?â
Dr. Gaul nodded.
âYes. My little designer from District 2. And his daughter.â Her voice dropped a few octaves when she referred to you. She probably didnât want you here, you thought. You werenât supposed to come, but your father had begged the Capitol for a pass; it would probably be your only chance to see it, he said, so you may as well take advantage of the chance.
Snow nodded to your father. It was a surprising gesture, almost respectful. But cold, too, like it was done from necessity rather than anything else.Â
Your father stammered a bit and nodded back, and you felt shame begin to creep into your bones. It wasnât fair, to be lesser-than. But werenât others lesser-than you in your own District, where you ate better food and never worried that your name would get picked, that your blood would be spilled?
EveryoneÂ
But when Snow turned to you, he smiled. It gave him dimples.Â
It was the first kind smile anyone in the Capitol gave you.Â
âMy name is Coriolanus Snow. I doubt youâve heard of me, but if Dr. Gaulâs teachings have anything to say about it, perhaps one day youâll know me as a Gamemaker.âÂ
You didnât know what to say. Congratulations, one day youâll be coordinating Games that kill people? Instead, you gave your name, voice squeakier than you meant it. But it was fitting, you supposed. Here, you were a mouse, hoping you would get a bite of cheese and make it home unpoisoned.Â
Dr. Gaulâs face seemed to react slowly, as if she couldnât decide what she thought about his words or your interaction, but a small smile grew on it, eventually. âI do have high hopes for you, Mr. Snow. Now, shall we?â
She gestured for your father to follow, face once again impassive with a sprinkle of disdain, as she led the two of them into her office.
Snow gave you a smile and a nod before he left.
You waved, stupidly.
Your father didnât even look back.
--
Iâm dead. Iâm dead. I might as well be dead.
Your heartbeat kept time with your racing thoughts as you went up and down corridors, begging your shoes to be silent, wishing your breath would catch and stop coming out in terrible pants.
You were lost. You werenât where you were supposed to be. If someone found you, if the wrong person found you, they would think you were running, trying to get lost in the Capitol; theyâd think you were a rebel. Theyâd shoot you.
Just when you thought you might collapse and die from your own nervous exhaustion, you heard the most wonderful sound in the world.
Your name.
It was only the moment after that you realized it didnât come from your fatherâs mouth, but the lips of--what his name--Coriolanus Snow. The young man who was a Gamemaker-in-training, or so your father said. But thatâs all he would say. He kept tight about anything that went on behind closed doors.Â
But this Coriolanus Snow smiled at you, and didnât look at you like you were some kind of insect he might want to pin on a board, and so when you whirled around to look at him you were smiling.
Ah--for a moment. For just a moment, you saw his muscles tense. You saw the expression on his face falter in worry. Like he thought he was about to miss a step on a staircase, and corrected himself; like he thought you were a wolf and you were only somebodyâs dog, off their leash.Â
But it wasnât too surprising. You knew most people in the Capitol thought anyone from the Districts wanted to rip out their throats.Â
Well, the worry was mutual. Except in your case, you were forced to walk around with the living proof of that worry--all those âAvoxes,â they called them. Without tongues, without freedom.Â
But you swallow all that. Because he smiled at you. Because maybe it wouldnât hurt to make a friend. Especially right now.
âIâm--Iâm lost,â you tell him, giving a shaky smile. âI was waiting for my father, but you see, I got to thinking, and I started to wander around and now Iâm⌠well. I donât know where I am, actually.â
His smile wasnât very deep, was it? It was like the gloss of paint on the outside of the Capitol buildings. Pretty to look at, but there must be more underneath.
You expected him to lead you right back to where youâre supposed to be.
Instead, he asked you something.
âWhat were you thinking about?
You couldnât tell him. Could you? But something aboutÂ
âAbout⌠the Games.â
You donât tell him that you were thinking about Lucy Gray and all those snakes, and the way that Dr. Gaulâs outfit that first day made you think of them. Because your father had slapped you across the face when you got back to your lodgings that night, and told you to never, ever bring up Lucy Gray Baird or the 10th Games unless you were directly asked. And you would probably never be asked.Â
Coriolanus gave a little snort through his nose. You liked it. It was nice to know that even Capitol people could seem a little dorky.
âThey arenât for another 3 months. Are you that eager to see them?â
You didnât know what expression you made, exactly. It was so instinctive and fast that you didnât have time to control it.Â
You only knew that it made him shake his head and offer you a sympathetic look. Â
âI apologize. That was rude, wasnât it?âÂ
And then he did a strange thing.
He offered you his arm.Â
Like you were Capitol, like you were a real person, and not some visiting District wench walking on the coattails of her arms-dealing father.Â
âLet me walk you back to the waiting area.â
And the stranger thing?
You took it.
--
You and your father were quickly moved into a small apartment within the university, once it became clear that he would be staying in the Capitol through the duration of the Games. It was best, he said, because ordinary people in the Capitol didnât really want to see new faces from the Districts mingling around unless their tongue had been cut out first. It made them nervous. The rebel bombings, and all that.
You didnât mind, because it meant you didnât have to be flanked by Peacekeepers on the streets.Â
And, well.
You got to see Coriolanus more often. Sometimes he greeted you, sometimes he didnât. He did it less often when Dr. Gaul was there, unless she was talking to your father and it gave him an opportunity.
He asked you things, too, when he caught you walking back to your fatherâs little apartment. Like what you did back home. What you liked to do. Whether you went to school, and what you planned to do now that you have graduated.Â
This morning, he caught you drawing while you waited in a chair outside Dr. Gaulâs office. Sometimes you waited there--you would admit to no one that it was to catch a glimpse of the kindest person youâd met in the Capitol--and other times you stayed in your temporary home.
âWhat are you drawing?â He asked. But he had a way of speaking that youâd quickly clocked into. He can make a demand sound like a polite little question. Oh, he wasnât mean about it, but it reminded you of the way your father talked to his underlings back in District 2. On his home turf, he was far smoother than he was here, where his voice stammered and sweat beaded on his neck.
So you handed it over, even though, to your greatest embarrassment, youâd drawn⌠him.
âWhy me?â He had a smile on his lips. His smiles were nice. Kind. The kindest youâd seen since you came here. But they always felt like that fresh coat of paint; like you didnât know what he really meant by them, and that was how he liked it.Â
âYouâre⌠important,â is all you could come up with. You felt small, then. He would dismiss and probably never want to talk to you again. What a stupid answer from a stupid girl.Â
But he just smiled. It was like paint peeling a little. You could see underneath that he liked what you said, although you werenât exactly sure why. And his expression tightened up so quickly, protecting what youâd seen, that you werenât entirely sure if it was real or not.Â
âIâm just a humble student at this university. Not so important. Not yet.â
--
You were really going to die, now. This wasnât some panicked imagination gone wrong, some flight of fancy that took a wrong turn.
A pair of stony-faced Peacekeepers had walked up to where you sat in the waiting area near Dr. Gaulâs office and ordered you to come with them.
You asked to talk to your father. They said no. You asked where you were going. They yanked you up.Â
And now they were leading you down hallways that youâd never seen before, where there werenât even Avoxes roaming the halls with brooms and dustpans.Â
They didnât even answer, just spun around and walked back the way they came. You pushed the door open reluctantly--what the hell was going to be on the other side?--and it was--it was--
It was Coriolanus. Standing there in a nice suit, eyes downcast on a book. Until the door creaked and he looked up.
âWhat--why did you bring me here? Did I do something wrong?â The thought went through you, that perhaps this had all been a test, to see if you were loyal to the Capitol and heâd found you wanting.
âNo,â he said, simply enough. He set the book down and gestured for you to step inside. You did, because what else were you going to do, in some strange room in a Capitol University where youâd been forcibly brought by Peacekeepers.
Snow studied your face. Your eyes darted around, from him, to the room, to the door.Â
âI wanted to see you,â he said, a little softer. âIn private.âÂ
âMe?â You furrowed your eyebrows. âBut⌠why?â
He smiled. âCome now, youâre a smart girl, even if you arenât in university.âÂ
You really didnât know. Not at first. But then you watched the way his expression softened, and you remembered it, or glimpses of it, that heâd given you before. When he complimented your drawing. When he said your name. When he escorted you back from the maze of hallways. And his smiles, all his smiles, although you were never sure how much they meant coming from home.Â
He took a step closer. You didnât dare step back. You werenât sure if you wanted to step back, but it didnât matter, either way.
He pressed his lips to yours and took your first kiss, in a secluded little study in the heart of the Capitol University.Â
--
Your days became routine, although the routine was strictly forbidden and could have probably gotten you executed or at best, gotten you a one-way ticket to a tasteless existence.
You wake up. You stay in your apartment. You wait for the Peacekeepers. You get summoned here and there, always private rooms, secret rooms, rooms out of the way. You meet Snow--Coriolanus, he said, call him that--and you talk (well, mostly him) and kiss and sometimes a little bit more. He gives you gifts. Trinkets, necklaces that you can only wear under your shirt. Food, flaky pastries made with mountains of sugar, sandwiches made with cream and cucumber.Â
But how much longer could it go on? The Games were going to start soon. As soon as they were over, you were going back to your District. There would be no more meetings, no more kisses. No more wondering how far he wanted to go or why he liked you or even if he even liked you as anything more than someone to keep him busy.Â
You didnât dare talk about the Games, but you did talk about this. In the kindest way you knew how for such a sensitive subject.Â
âIâll miss you,â you told Coriolanus after one meeting, when youâre both sitting on a sofa and heâs got your fingers tightly wound in his. He squeezed them tight.
âMiss me?âÂ
âAfter the Games,â you clarified. âWeâre being sent home right after.â
He squeezed your fingers until it hurt a little. Then he looked up at you. To see if you would say something? Or did he not know how strong he was?
âOh, that. I can arrange for you to stay.â
Your chest began to feel sick.
âStay? In the Capitol?â You were torn about Coriolanus, but you didnât want to stay here. You couldnât.Â
âYes,â he said, as if it was the simplest answer in the world. âYou wouldnât be the first person from the District granted such an extreme privilege. Iâm sure I could--â
âBut I donât know if I want to stay.âÂ
His gaze narrowed and you felt your stomach clench. He looked at the necklace youâd pulled out as soon as the door was shut, at your lips where a dollop of strawberry cream still rested.Â
âI treat you so well, and you donât know if you want to stay with me?â
His voice was calm, and that scared you. It would have been better if he flew off the handle.
Instead, he simply stood up and gently sent you out the door, and called the Peacekeepers to bring you back to your apartment.
--
Every night for the last week, you have cried yourself to sleep. Because every day for the last week, Coriolanus Snow has not sent for you. Not even once.
What if he told someone? What if you got sent back early, and your father was shamed? What if they broke his contract? Or--worse, worse, worse. There were so many worse things than merely being sent back to District 2.
And then he sent for you, and it was the longest walk of your life, though it was no farther than any of the times youâve been escorted to your secret meetings.
This time, when you pushed open the door, Coriolanus was not alone.Â
There was an Avox in the room.Â
It was someone from District 2.
You didnât know her. Not personally. But you saw her, before. She worked in one of the munitions factories and you watched her walk to work from your classroom window sometimes. Then she stopped showing up, and you thought perhaps she got married.Â
That delusion was shattered the moment you saw her, eyes downcast to the floor, wearing a simple gray tunic.Â
Itâs not until Coriolanus tells you to hurry up and come in that youâre able to move. Even then, you werenât sure how your body did it; how your arms managed to gain the mobility to shut the door, to twist the lock; how your legs moved, one foot in front of the other, until you were standing stiffly in front of him.
The Avox--you wish you knew her name, but she couldnât give it to you now, even if you asked--moved seamlessly to a table set up nearby. There was tea and sweets. The sort of thing that you and Coriolanus had been enjoying together for the past few weeks. The sort of thing that you were sure would sit sour in your stomach, now.Â
The cup shook in your hands when she handed it to you, and your tears dripped right into the tea.
Coriolanus glanced at the Avox and waved his hand. She left obediently. She would never tell the secret she witnessed in his room, that much was certain.
And then he looked back at you.
âDonât cry,â he said. Soft but firm. A command, not a coo. âYou shouldnât cry here, in the Capitol. You should be grateful to be here. You should be grateful that Iâve arranged all this for you.â
âI am,â you whispered.Â
âThen show me that you are.â
And you did.Â
You said what he wanted and looked to him to show you how he wanted you to act, and did just that. You didnât argue, even to lightly banter. You kissed him and nodded along when he told you about how things would be after the Games, when he had arranged for you to stay.
All you had to do was keep him happy until the Games were over, and then you could go home.Â
Bitterly, all of this made you realize just how much of your father is in you; he knew how to appease the Capitol. You could do the same with Coriolanus Snow. At least until the Games were over. Just keep him happy until the Games were done and the blood was spilled, and you would go home.Â
They wouldnât let him keep you here after the games. You were sure of that. Youâd overheard some of Dr. Gaulâs assistants murmuring how glad they would be to send the District profiteers like your father home once the Games were over. And you? Youâre just his useless daughter, an appendage he brought like an unwelcome suitcase. Why would you be allowed to stay?
--
The Games were over. The winner was from District 1.Â
You were going home any day now. Just as soon as your father finished tinkering with the designs, gave his notes on improvements that might be made for next year.
The thought gave you a delightful bounce in your step. It was like having a pat of sweet butter in your shoe on a day when you needed good luck-- District 2 superstition, although the strict rationing meant most people didnât have even a pat to slip into their shoes anymore.
The sweetness didnât even disappear when the Peacekeepers showed up to bring you to Snow. It was going to be a bittersweet farewell, you were sure. He might be angry. But you would kiss him and tell him that there was nothing he could do, and how sorry you were not to be able to stay, but that was how things had to be.
Except they didnât bring you down a maze of corridors that led to a secluded room.
They brought you right into Dr. Gaulâs office.
Breakfast threatened to evacuate your stomach with every step. Not just because of nerves, but because of what you saw. Rows of experiments in glass tubes; some of them move. You walk by a room with a half-open door that showed someone strapped to a gurney, face contorted in a silent scream as they fought against restraints. You almost did lose breakfast, then.
But somehow you made it to the desk of Dr. Gaul without a dribble of vomit to show for it.
The Peacekeepers left with no fanfare and you stood there, ramrod straight. Did she know? Was she going to tell you that you were going to be strapped to one of those gurneys, now?
âIâm keenly aware,â she said, keeping her hands primly folded, âon how much youâve enthralled my star pupil.â
Toast. Thatâs what will come up first, you thought . The toast.
âI donât know what you mean, maâam.â Your voice was so thin and tinny that you didnât even believe yourself.
And then the prim facade cracked, and Dr. Gaul threw her head back and grinned.
âYou really think I donât know everything that goes on within these walls? I know every time one of my lab assistants runs into the bathroom to throw up after a particularly nasty experiment. I know every time one of our university professors sneaks into a closet to down a vial of morphling with a student. And I certainly know when my newest protege is having an adorable little District girl brought to him for⌠canoodling.â
You werenât even embarrassed. No. You just felt terrified to the bone. You only hoped that youâd be killed, shot against a wall, instead of made into an Avox. Let there be some mercy in this world.Â
âHeâs asked to keep you, you know.â Her voice was low, almost a drawl. She tapped her fingers on her desk rhythmically.
âMy Coriolanus Snow wants a bird of his own.â Her smile turned darker. âNot a songbird, though. Oh, no. I think heâs had enough of those.â
Her gaze bored into yours, each color magnified by her intense expression. âI think if I let him have his pretty caged bird, heâll be happy. Heâs more productive if heâs happy.â She smiled. âI like productivity. It keeps the Games more interesting.â
She looked you over one more time, and then waved you away.
âIâve granted his request. Youâll be staying here indefinitely, courtesy of one Mr. Snow. Your father has already been told.âÂ
You were wrong.
It was not the toast that came up first, but the sweet butter youâd patted on top.
--
You still had your tongue, but you felt as though it was useless, stuck to the roof of your mouth, as Coriolanus fussed over your outfit. Or rather, as he directed an Avox to fuss over it for you. He could afford his own personal servant, now, he told you. Heâd almost flinched after he said now, and you didnât dare press him on it. Had he not been able to afford one before?
âWe canât walk arm-in-arm in public,â he said, walking around you, making sure the outfit was just-right. âBut you can stand by me if I stop and direct you forward.â He reached over and fixed one of your buttons. âDonât speak to anyone unless Iâve told you to, or they speak to you first. Always address someone older as âsir,â or âmaâam.â He pointed at your hair, and the Avox began to fuss with it, eventually covering it in a colorful wrap that Coriolanus said was popular right now. âAddress someone our age by the last name and Mr. or Ms.â
When he was satisfied with your appearance, he sent the Avox away. You liked it better that way, it was one last reminder of the horrors in the Capitol, even for someone âprivilegedâ like you. Youâd only been without your father for 3 days, but you felt like your nerves were continually on fire. You wanted to go home. You wanted your family. You wanted out of this place.
But that wasnât going to happen.
For now, you were still living in the small university apartment the Capitol had given your father. Coriolanus insisted on it, until he could figure out how to move you into his own sprawling apartment that he shared with his cousin, Tigris (who, at least, genuinely sounded lovely) and his grandmother, Grandmaâam. She was the sticking point, or so you were told, with a thin smile. She hated Districts, and she ought to, he said. They killed her son. His father.Â
She would hate you, too. Even if Coriolanus wanted you enough to make you stay with him; wanted you enough to keep you. But for how long? And would he change his mind, if you couldnât fit in?Â
He said your name, and you snapped yourself out of your thoughts. He held you by your shoulders. Gently. Like one would an unruly child that hadnât yet learned that there were such things as salad forks and dinner forks, as polite conversation and etiquette.Â
You got the feeling you wouldnât have long to learn all of those things and more, to make him happy.
âRemember,â he said. âYouâre District. Youâre here because the Capitol has recognized that your loyalty can benefit us in some way. Be grateful.â
âI am,â you said, reflectively.
âBe happy..â
âI am,â you said again, your chest hitching.
He smiled at you. Was it real or not real?Â
You smiled back, regardless. And he liked that, evidently, because he leaned forward and kissed you. Then he scrutinized your face and wiped at your lips with his thumb--the kiss had smeared your lipstick.Â
âGood.âÂ
He gestured towards the open doorway. This time, he didnât take your arm. There would be too many people lingering in the university hallways, all making their way to the soiree held to celebrate the end of this yearâs Games and discuss what improvements might be made for the next year.Â
You dutifully walked behind him, just like he said. And you would do exactly what he said in all respects. You would stay quiet unless you were spoken to, you would certainly never bring up anything confrontational or controversial, and you would make a good impression. You would be a loyal, grateful District citizen who was given the opportunity of a lifetime thanks to the graciousness of Coriolanus Snow.Â
Of course you would.Â
Your life depended on it.Â
#yandere coriolanus snow#yandere hunger games#yandere#yandere x reader#afterwitch writes#/slaps trunk#this baby can fit so many references to the books & movie in it.#... well not SO MANY#but enough
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the 141 recovering brainwashed!soap but heâs just a shell of his former self; never speaking, never moving without orders. he never even blinks; just stares straight ahead with his unnatural green eyes.
empty.
but ghost can't accept that.
price and gaz can't stand watching ghost torture himself day after day; visiting soap in his cell for hours at a time, trying anything he can think of to bring back his sergeant.
he shows him pictures of the 141 but soap thinks he's being given targets and moves to eliminate them before ghost stops him. he brings him his journal, tries to trigger his innermost thoughts and feelings he never shared with any of them, but after he reads it, soap summarises it like he's giving a mission briefing. impersonal.
cold.
it's late when ghost finally calls it; low and defeated after another long day of being stared at with eyes that don't see him. he isn't thinking when he pulls his mask off and harshly scrubs over his face, grinding his palm into his eye.
"don't worry, johnny; we're still fixin' each other's problems," he promises, little more than a whisper as he tries to summon the energy to leave johnny behind. again.
he pushes himself to his feet, his hand on the door handle when-
"what's my problem?"
ghost freezes, something like grief - something achingly closer to hope - chilling him. he slowly turns and though soap is still starring ahead, there's a faint light in his altered green eyes.
"the mask," he forces out. "take it off."
he knows there's no way to remove the mask - the muzzle - from his sergeant's face. it's too high-tech, even for them; the biometric scanner too advanced for any bypass they know of.
it's just another way he's failed him; bringing him home still bound in their enemy's chains.
soap- jolts; a sharp, almost painful looking flinch jerking his body.
"show my face?" and his voice has changed; no longer the monotone delivery that's haunted ghost's every waking moment.
it's smaller. uncertain. recollection of a memory half-destroyed.
"yes, johnny," he breathes.
soap moves unprompted for the first time since they found him; running his finger along the edge of the muzzle where his skin bulges from the pressure, half-visible scars hidden beneath the harsh metal.
"ugly," he murmurs.
ghost immediately shakes his head, almost stumbling back to the table; haphazardly throwing his mask on it. "quite the opposite," he insists.
it doesn't matter if he has no lower jaw left at all; johnny could never be ugly in his eyes.
agonisingly slowly, soap's eyes shift to the mask. he takes in the balaclava and hard shell skull like for all the times he's looked at it since his rescue, he never truly saw it. his lids fall in less of a blink and more stage curtains closing; slow, heavy, requiring effort and no small amount of strength to open once more
"good... to see you again..." he trails off, his hand shifting up to the top of his shaved head; nails digging unforgivingly into his scalp
"simon," ghost finishes for him; that horrid grieving hope tearing at his heart
soap's fingers flex and a drop of blood trails down his forehead, over the ridge of his nose to catch on the muzzle. "s-simon..."
his nails dig deeper, the drop falling to the table just to be followed by more and ghost aches to stop him but he's terrified to interrupt him. terrified to lose him now when he's so close to something.
soap's bloodied nails scratch down the crown of his head, following the line of his stolen mohawk until they come to rest on the back of the muzzle and ghost's heart drops.
they canât get it off.
they can't get it off and he doesn't know how to explain that to soap; doesn't know if he can stomach watching soap pull at the monstrosity holding him captive, the inevitable bloodbath as the edges cut into his skin.
"show my face," soap repeats.
"johnny..." ghost begins weakly, reaching out to him but he doesn't know how, doesn't know if he even should-
the muzzle clatters onto the table.
the biometrics they couldn't bypass, the fingerprint they needed that they were so sure belonged to makarov.
it belonged to soap.
how cruel to torture him with freedom he didn't understand he could take; didn't even understand he could want.
just the kind of sick game makarov loves.
ghost doesn't know what's louder; his heart pounding in his ears or the long, uninhibited breath soap takes.
his eyes fall shut as he leans his head back with it, the blood still dripping down his face as he straightens through his exhale. his lower jaw is a mess of scars where he fought against the previous iterations of the muzzle, the corners of his lips cut through and cracked.
but the green in his eyes is duller; that light sparking brighter as blue struggles to break through the glow.
ghost's never seen anything so beautiful.
"good to see you again, johnny."
#cw self harm#self harm#guess whoâs still on a brainwashed!soap kick!#the ending of wall-e but make it ghoap#you know when walle resets & eve brings all of his stuff he showed her at the beginning of the movie and its the song that brought him back?#fun fact i dont actually like callbacks all that much#i think they can be cheesy and kind of shoehorned#and unless its done a decent amount of time after the initial thing it can feel rushed and inauthentic#but im all over them when it comes to amnesia aus#its the âim with you til the end of the lineâ effect#but the reversal of ghost finding so much comfort and safety in his mask#being confronted by soap whos been forced into one against his will to strip him of his autonomy and humanity#it makes me froth at the mouth i swear#muzzles in general make me feral#i am not immune to the dog analogies#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#weâre a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#cod fic#save post
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Teacher!Ryomen Sukuna x Sorcerer!Reader // Teacher!Sukuna HC's <3
(THIS IS NOT STUDENT X TEACHER, READER IS NOT A STUDENT!)
Personally, I think itâs an actual crime there isnât more teacher!sukuna content out there. Iâve only ever seen one fan art of it, and ever since Iâve been scrounging around on my hands and knees to find more
So mâ gonna just do it myself đÂ
-!! [AFAB + AMAB] READER (HCâs involving readerâs bodily autonomy have both a female and male vers. â brief smut drabble at the end)Â Â [everyone's in on this oneđ]
-!! Reader is a rather powerful sorcererÂ
-!! CW: Slight possessiveness (mainly for the short smut at the end â overstimulation, dacryphilia, slight size kink(?), mention of double cocks for og form Sukuna)
-!! Veeeery slight nod to manga spoiler if you squint. If you donât know it 99% certain you wonât pick up on it
-!! Sukuna being a bit of a softy for his SO
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Awhile (around a good few centuries) ago, Ryomen Sukuna came to the conclusion that no, this was in fact not the way he wanted to live his life. He decided to put everything behind him; the bloodshed, the death, the massacres, and cannibalismsâ (okay maybe that stayed the same)â all the things that essentially made his staple as the King of Curses. Heâs a changed curse, he swears it. Honestly? Human food? Not that bad. Kinda worth changing his world view forÂ
With a changed work ethic, and a changed heart, Ryomen Sukuna made the conscious decision to become a teacher, â specifically a teacher in sorcery
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Ryomen Sukuna works at Jujutsu Tech,-- the infamous King of Curses, who predominantly spends most of his days helping ungrateful brats obtain the necessary skills to kill his kind
ââNo, you thick-skinned brat, youâre doing it all wrong!â
  âIâm sorry, Sukuna-sensei! Iâm trying,--.. I really am! Could you maybe go over it one more timeââ
             âNo! Youâre going to die all alone as your friends are tortured mercilessly!â
âHow could you say thatâŚâ đĽşÂ
Following the fateful passing of Yuji Itadoriâs grandpa, the poor kid awakened as a sorcerer with a rather nasty supply of cursed energy; a complete abnormality with an aura suspiciously like that of a certain Ryomen SukunaâŚÂ
â âThe little brat is not living with meâÂ
âAwh, câmon Sukuna-!! The kidâs a ticking time bomb to disaster, he needs help controlling his cursed energy, and who better to help than the amazing King of Curses himself!âÂ
âShut up, Satoru Gojo.âÂ
âOhoho~... looks like someone isnât happy to become a single mother~~âÂ
âWhat-!? Single mothâ fool, you yourself are a single motherâÂ
â...oh, yeah. Hehe⌠đâ
âI hate it hereâŚđâ Â
Now, with the additional burden of personally attending to Yuji Itadori, there was only one thing keeping Ryomen Sukuna from completely imploding:Â
You. His partner, his lover, his spouse, his anchor,-- the only source of light in his miserable, cursed life, â the sole person keeping him from reverting back to his old, murderous ways.Â
Meeting a few years back, the ancient curse couldâve sworn the world got a dozen shades lighter the second his eyes landed on your form in the Tokyo crowd. Where everyone was actively moving away from his looming, intimidating hulk of a body, you looked at him with eyes void of the fear reflected off so many others.Â
You approached him with interest, recognizing his unmistakable aura for that of the King of Curses, â and, to his utmost shock, â you proceeded to have a perfectly normal, civilized conversation with him. Never once did you look at him like you would a monster. Every time heâd get lost in those eyes of yours, never once did he find anything short of pure love and affection. It was sickeningly sweet.Â
There on a mission, you introduced yourself as a fellow Jujutsu Sorcerer.Â
Ryomen Sukuna couldâve sworn heâd heard your name before: rather infamous with the higher-ups, you were a well-respected sorcerer. That only aided to his immense confusion: why would a sorcerer of such high esteem and all around regard even remotely think talking to him, the King of Curses, was a good idea?Â
Absolutely flabbergasted and entranced from your first encounter, Ryomen Sukuna was practically completely at your mercy. It took very little for you to simply haul him over your shoulder and take him wherever; heâd soon become akin to a lost puppy with you.Â
Ryomen Sukuna is absolutely down-horrendous with his emotions. Hah, communication? Never heard of her.Â
Heâs never felt this deep for anyone before, and it terrifies him to no end. You terrify him to no end,-- the amount of power you have over him could be almost comical.Â
At the start, he flat out avoided you altogether. Anytime heâd see you on campus heâd immediately start in the opposite direction. Anytime youâd attempt to strike up a conversation something would come up,-- heâd have to go somewhere, or the brats had gotten themselves in trouble again. And when Satoru Gojo found out about his little âcrushâ... oh boy, the teasing was lethal.
It wasnât long before he craved your touch, and Ryomen Sukuna started to enter withdrawal from your presence. You were brutal, the poison continuously being pumped into his veins, â which was extra ironic, considering he was after all the King of Poisons, â how the actual hell did he end up in such a position? What have you done to him?Â
Man, he was cooked.Â
With a lot of time, and a heck of a lot of patience, did the curse finally allow himself to reveal more of himself to you.Â
Itâs never been easy, â even after you two were married did Ryomen Sukuna still suck absolute ass at communicating his wants.Â
He craved your attention, your gaze, your approval. You were the drug that he simply couldnât get enough of.Â
Heâs not good with words, â in the past everything was just handed to him, â he had no clue how to actually work for someoneâs affection.Â
Please be patient with him, â heâs trying, he really is đĽş. No matter how much he denies it, no matter how much he complains he hates being dependent on someone, no matter how much he claims how meaningless love is, you both know deep down these feelings of deep admiration and affection arenât one sided. Sometimes, that fact alone can get you through even his most frustrating of times. He pushes you away because he feels guilty, but almost immediately does he regret his actions and desire your presence more than anything. The things you do to himÂ
He lost his original form centuries ago, abandoning it after his near fatal confrontation with the sorcerers of the Heian Era. Gravely wounded, he absolved to staying hidden, laying low in the shadows. Sometimes he wished he still had that form, â still had his four arms, his two facesâ he felt stronger, prettier in that body. Despite how much you told him how beautiful his current, two-armed form was, he wonders if you wouldâve liked his original formâ what it could do, how it could please your body. (But most of all he missed his two massive cocks to shove deep inside youâ)
Ryomen Sukuna is very insecure about his image as the feared âKing of Cursesâ. Heâd be seen as weak, like heâd gone soft, â if anyone found out about you. That did little to deter you from showering him with your affections though <3 Even if he struggled to receive such affectionsâ:
âWhat the actual hell do you think youâre doingââÂ
âWhat? Am I not allowed to visit my darling husband at his job?âÂ
âNo- ..! Who exactly do you think you are, you canât just waltz into wherever to embarrass meââ You were in an empty classroom in what would be the normal time for lunch. The students would be out eating, so it was only you and him.
âIs that really all you think I do? Embarrass you?â You fought to conceal the pained expression threatening to bubble up to the surface.Â
âYes! Do you know what theyâll think of me if they see me with you? He snaps angrily
âAre you.. Ashamed of me?â You blinkÂ
âWhat-? No, of course notâ His face contorts into a scowlÂ
âThen why canât people see me with you?!âÂ
âThatâs not what I meantââ He hissesÂ
âYeah?â you retort, âthen, what did you mean by that?âÂ
âIâ....â Ryomen Sukuna only ever seems to find himself short of words with you
Nodding curtly, âIâll take my leave thenâ you make your way to the doorÂ
âWait-â you pause, he hated seeing you upset. It made him feel hopeless, it made him feel weak. âtsk, nevermind. Leave thenâÂ
Huffing, you step out the door. Your second foot never even leaves the threshold before youâre lifted up by a pair of strong arms.Â
âGah-! Ryomenâ what the hell?!âÂ
âShut up.â the curse growls, placing you down on the nearest desk with a surprising gentleness, âjust shut up.â He nuzzles his face into the crook of your neck
You smile, accustomed to his brazenness, knowing this was him succumbing to his own affections for you.
âIâll be quieter next time.âÂ
âMmm⌠donât beâ
âOh?â you quirk an eyebrow, âare you no longer embarrassed of being seen with me?âÂ
âNo,â he grumbles, âif any pathetic worm dares to utter something against me, Iâll cleave their head offâÂ
Chuckling, âcharmingâ
âIâll do it for you tooâ that part he whispers, so low you almost miss it. Almost.Â
âAwh, youâd slaughter anyone putting dirt on my name? And they say romance is dead đĽ°âÂ
âShut the hell up.âÂ
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Sukuna Ryomen would have a special ringer set for you in his phone so whenever youâd text him heâd know it was youÂ
He never responds to anyoneâs texts,-- anyoneâs thatâs not yours.Â
The second he hears that notification that man is immediately scrolling. It took him years to figure out how to work a telephone,-- and he still kinda sucks at it. So it takes him a while to respond, â heâs just a slow typer :)Â
Heâll be in the middle of sparring with Yuji for his training when heâll hear your notification and swiftly whip out his phone, â still in the middle of fighting. Poor Yuji will still be sweating his ass off trying his very diddly darn hardest to land a singular punch and he won't even glance up from his phone đ
It doesnât matter what heâs doing, â the guy could be in the middle of fighting a Special Grade and heâd start texting you about what he wants for dinner while simultaneously throwing slashes đ
Not big on PDA, â but alone? Man, you canât get the bastard off you, â bludâs clingier than a kitten đhe just really likes being nice and snuggled up in your armsÂ
Alone, will often call you, â regardless of gender, â doll, (whore), sweetheart (if youâre not being a pain in the ass), â possessive lilâ shit and likes to add âmyâ in front of any pet name, just to enforce the fact that youâre his.Â
Calls you karasu â(Japanese word for raven)Â
Sukuna Ryomen is incredibly picky with what he eats, (unless itâs your assâ) Â Â â he needs his meals done in a very specific way, otherwise heâs just not eating. It needs to be your meals too. If bro forgets to bring lunch or you donât have time to make one for him he just starves. Heâs an absolute menace when hangryâ super grumpy. None of the students can stand him hungry, â and he refuses to defile his delicate palette with fast food of all horrible things
You got some of those cute cookie cutters for sandwiches and gave him little star sandwiches one day for his lunch. Mans was over the fucking moon. His ass refuses to ever eat another sandwich again unless its cut into cute lilâ shapes đ¤đĽş
Be careful if you ever decide to visit him at work after a certain amount of times, cuz he will make you useful: using you as a sparring partner, giving you chores, making an example out of you to the other students.Â
Youâre strong enough to hold your own against the King of Curses in a quick spar, â which really only means you wonât get immediately eviscerated upon throwing hands.Â
Youâre strong, but nowhere near as strong as Ryomen Sukuna.Â
Heâd only give you a cocky smirk, telling you to hurry up and lock in. You stare at the expecting faces of Megumi, Nobara and Yuji â who you naturally have grown a rather close bond to, being around each other so often. He gives you a reassuring thumbs up, smiling with an expectant glamor. You gulp, glancing back at your husband who has the most shit-eating grin on his face. Oh, you were cooked.Â
You manage to successfully dodge at least two strong attacks before being thrown onto your ass, the wind knocked out of you. Huffing, you scramble up, irritation giving you newfound determination. The King only raises an eyebrow at you.Â
You explode into a sprint, dashing up behind him, seemingly catching him off-guard. You lean in real close to his ear, whispering in a sultry tone:Â
âYour shoelace is untiedâÂ
âWhat, Iâm not even wearing shoelacesââ and he gets thrown into the nearest tree, snapping it in half.Â
âHahah!!âÂ
âNo way, Sukuna just got his ass handed to him!â Nobara exclaims, grinning
âThat was so cool!â gushes Yuji, sending a wave of pride flowing through you at his excitement.Â
It is short lived, as your husband comes up behind you, glaring with a burning passion in his eyes.Â
âYou totally beat him up, you sent him flyingââ Megumi slaps a hand to Yujiâs mouth, his rambling getting choked off with a âmmph-!âÂ
His smile is laced with dynamite as Sukuna dismisses the students early. Confused, but mostly relieved, the trio scurry away, Nobara and Yuji shouting cheery goodbyes over their shoulders.Â
Only you were close enough to see the raging lust in the King of Curseâs many eyes. His gaze rakes over your body, tensed in a fight or flight state, predatory. You swallow, hard, chuckling nervously, âHehehehâŚâ Â
Oh man, you were so horribly, undoubtedly cooked.Â
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[AFAB vers.]
Sukuna is brutal, hips smashing against yours, large hands gripping so hard large bruises start to form on your hips. You cry out, sobbing, pleading with him to slow the fuck down. Sukuna only clicks his tongue, condescension dripping from his tone,Â
âWhereâs all that confidence and strength from before, eh?âÂ
âh..*hic*..huh-?âÂ
âTsk,â he grunts, slamming himself particularly hard into your leaking heat, causing you to scream in both pleasure and pain
âS..sukuna-!! P- *hic* please..-! I-..I canâtâ I canâtâ OHH~â You keel over, knees giving in from underneath you. You stay pressed firmly against the teacherâs deskâ his deskâ in his empty classroom, â only being held by Sukunaâs deadly grip. âI-It *hic*.. Itâ HURTS..- *hic*âÂ
âYou can,... and. you. will.â he punctuates each syllable with another unforgivable thrust, âYou seemed confident enough you.. *pant* take me in a..- *pant* .. in a fightâ fuckââ Warm cum swells, coating your insides white.Â
Your eyes roll violently to the back of your head, thighs squeezing desperately against him, instinctively trying to milk him for all heâs got, â despite the excess cum already spilling from your abused hole, kept in only by Sukunaâs massive cock. Was this the fourth or the fifth time..?Â
You lost count ages ago, numbers losing all sense of value along with everything else in your head, Sukuna absolutely fucking your goddamn brains out. Dumbed by his cock, you could only limply gaze dreamily through lidded eyes, a look of pure bliss on your face.Â
Sukuna grins down at your fucked out face, admiring you as his masterpiece. You looked so pretty impaled on his cock. Pulling your head back by your hair, he smashes his lips onto yours in a sloppy kiss. You truly were the best thing to come of his long, cursed life.Â
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[AMAB vers.]
Sukuna is cruel, hips smashing against your ass, large hands gripping so hard large bruises start to form on your hips. He fucks you, bent over the desk, â his desk, in his empty classroom,-- and shaking like a pathetic mutt. You cry out, sobbing, pleading with him to slow the fuck down. Sukuna only clicks his tongue, condescension dripping from his tone,Â
âWhereâs all that confidence and strength from before, eh?âÂ
âh..*hic*..huh-?âÂ
âTsk,â he grunts, large hand closing around your swollen, throbbing cock. Your eyes widen in horror as he begins to jerk you off at a grueling pace, causing you to scream in both pleasure and pain
âS..sukuna-!! P- *hic* please..-! I-..I canâtâ I canâtâ OHH~â You keel over, knees giving in from underneath you. You stay pressed firmly against the desk only held by Sukunaâs torso. âI-It *hic*.. Itâ HURTS..- *hic*âÂ
âYou can,...  and. you. will.â He punctuates each syllable with another unforgivable thrust, syncing with a violent pump to your cock, limpand emptied out. âYou seemed confident enough you.. *pant* take me in a..- *pant* .. in a fightâ fuckââ Warm cum swells, coating your insides white.Â
Your eyes roll violently to the back of your head, thighs squeezing desperately against him, instinctively trying to milk him for all heâs got, â despite the excess cum already spilling from your abused hole, kept in only by Sukunaâs massive cock. You're so drained, already milked dry, a few meager squirts of cum dripping from your cock. Was this the fourth or the fifth time..?Â
You lost count ages ago, numbers losing all sense of value along with everything else in your head, Sukuna absolutely fucking your goddamn brains out. Dumbed by his cock, you could only limply gaze dreamily through lidded eyes, the look of utter worship on your face enough for him to harden once again inside of you.Â
Sukuna grins down at your fucked out face, admiring you as his masterpiece. You looked so pretty impaled on his cock. Pulling your head back by your hair, he smashes his lips onto yours in a sloppy kiss. You truly were the best thing to come of his tedious, damned life.Â
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Sukuna brain-rot goes hard-!! He's such a goofy lil' guy, I love him :3
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Fragile Part 6
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(This chapter got too long- I had to cut it short,,,, :]]] Enjoy!)
Generation: Bayverse TMNT
Tmnt x Reader Fanfic
Pronouns: Gender Neutral (except âdudetteâ, 'miss', and âprincessâ)
Warnings: injury, blood, electrocution, graphic depictions of torture, not proof read
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5
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Today you were spending time with Donnie while he worked in front of his monitors. You liked it there much better than in his lab. He had a map of the city up with little marks indicating spots where the Foot had been spotted. But that wasnât what he was working on right now.
No, you and Donnie were doing much more important things at the moment.
Like playing the new update in Stardew Valley.
âFishing mods are cheating.âÂ
You gawked at him in mock offense. âBut you canât pause in a multiplayer farm, thereâs no time to play the fishing mini game!!â
âThatâs why itâs more of a challenge!â He stuck his tongue out while he clicked his mouse rapidly to fight off a slime in the mines.
You pouted, adjusting the laptop in your lap. âI donât need my cozy farming sim to be challengingâŚâÂ
Donnie did not miss the cute grin that graced your face after, his heart fluttering in his chest.Â
These past few days you found yourself smiling more and more easily. Whether it was Mikey getting covered in flour while you baked cookies together, or Raph teaching you how to purl stitch, or Leo showing you how to wield a sword. You were enjoying spending more personal time with the turtles as you got to know them better.
Your toes curled where you were perched in the chair beside Donnie, glancing up at the map again. Your eyes always drawn to the blinking red dot marking the location of the lab you escaped only weeks before. The police had raided it and found it empty, which only increased your unease as to where Dr Stockman might be hiding. It already felt like a lifetime ago, that night when the turtles first found you.Â
You owed them your life.
âHey (y/n), you almost ready for afternoon training?â Leo came over, snapping you out of your thoughts. Leo leaned against the back on Donnieâs chair, earning a dismissive swat from his younger brother.
âWeâll stop after we finish up this day, Leo.â Donnie said not even taking his eyes off the screen. You giggled and got back to fishing on the beach.
You were two hours into your training session with Leo.Â
âOkay, good. Now when you kick, focus on your balance. Stay firmly planted and your leg should have more power.â Leo coached you.Â
Master Splinter was supervising while sipping his tea. It had barely been 5 days since your mutant abilities had manifested. But you were already making astounding progress in unlocking its potential. Leonardo had played a big part in the process, being the one who had helped you work through your fears of using your mutant reflexes, so the abilities came more easily to you when training. He trained with you every day, while Master Splinter provided guidance. Everyone was doing their best to support you through all the changes.
Casey suddenly jogged in through the entrance of the lair.Â
âGuys! Just got word, the Foot are planning to rob a warehouse full of high tech weapons tonight. We gotta go intercept it.â He said waving around his cellphone.
âWhat? Where? Their communication frequency has been quiet since they moved those chemicals to the old Sacks building!â Donnie spun around in his chair to face Casey, you and Leo walking into the living room with Raph and Mikey close behind.
âQueens. Our contact in the Foot Clan leaked the info to us just half an hour ago.â
âHuh, thatâs strange. Thatâs all the way on the other side of town. Aside from Sacks Tower, theyâve only really been active around the East Village and ChinaTown this past week. Maybe they changed their frequency again to throw us off track.â Donnie was quickly typing up info on his keyboard.Â
âWell, regardless, we better go check it out.â Leo sighed. He wanted to keep training with you, but it would have to wait.
âHeck yeah! Iâm bringinâ the steak-out snacks. Who wants Doritos?â Mikey grabbed his ratty old Jansport backpack and started shoving cans of Orange Crush into it.Â
â(Y/n), you stay here and keep an eye on Donnieâs computer. The Foot might try to communicate about their raid tonight. Donnieâs program will intercept it. April will be here in about an hour, so just tell her if anything suspicious comes up.â Leo asked you.
âRight!â You said standing to attention and giving a military salute with a silly little grin on your face.Â
It made Leoâs heart melt in his chest and his expression turned soft.Â
âJust, stay safe, okay?â He patted you on the head then headed for the exit.Â
As the rest of the boys filed out of the lair, they each stopped by you. Mikey getting a high five, you quickly cleaned Donnieâs glasses for him, and Raph, always last, ducked down for a quick hug when his brothers werenât looking. Casey rushed ahead of them.
Master Splinter waved goodbye to his sons next to you. Once the boys had left, he informed you he was going to go meditate, and to come find him if you needed anything.
About 45 minutes later, you were casually watching YouTube videos on Donnieâs computer when a flashing red light appeared on the screen. It was indicating that Donnieâs program was intercepting a message from the Footâs closed communication server. A message popped up on the screen, and you gasped.
âWe have captured the turtles. Continue with the plan.âÂ
Then a video feed loaded up on the main screen.Â
Your blood ran cold.
It looked like the feed from a security camera, depicting Leo, Mikey, and Donnie all locked in glass cages, restrained with thin tubes of red connected to their arms. They looked weak, they looked bad.
âWhatâŚ.? No⌠No, not this⌠please noâŚ!â
Where was Raphael? He was nowhere to be seen. How did they get captured so fast� They had barely been gone an hour!
Your mind was racing. You recognized those machines. Dr Stockman used them to take blood samples from Bebop and Rocksteady. If that was the case, there was no time to lose.
You made up your mind.
You snuck past the dojo and muttered a quick apology to Master Splinter. You knew Master Splinter wouldnât let you go, so you kept quiet. Then you grabbed the handheld GPS device Donnie left on his work table. You entered the location on the map where the message was sent from.Â
The old Sacks Tower.Â
Time to move.
April arrived at the lair much later than expected. She and Casey had just finished speaking to the commissioner about police activities being leaked to the Foot. When they entered the living room, they were confused to only see Master Splinter waiting for them. The old rat was pacing and anxiously stroking his beard.Â
âSplinter? Whereâs (y/n)?â April asked, confused.
Splinter shook his head.Â
âYou donât know where they are?â April became concerned, walking further into the lair.Â
âIt appears, that our greatest fears have been realized.â His expression deeply troubled. Before April could ask, she noticed what Splinter was looking at.Â
Playing in a loop on Donatelloâs monitor was old CCTV footage from when the turtles had been captured 10 years ago by Shredder and Mr Sacks. April breathed a sigh of relief, immediately recognizing the scene.
âSplinter, the turtles are safe. I spoke to Leo on the phone only 10 minutes ago. Theyâre staking out a warehouse in Queens. This is old footage.âÂ
Splinterâs eyes widened and looked back to the screen. His expression turned contemplative.Â
âIf that is so, then perhaps Miss (y/n) has made the same mistake.â He spoke gravely.
April had a look of shock. She quickly pulled out her phone and speed dialed Leoâs number.
Leo thankfully answered quickly. âHey April, anything new?â
âLeo, is (y/n) with you?â
Leo paused a long moment and sent a look over to his brothers, getting their attention. âNoâŚ. Arenât they at the lair?â All of his brother's eyes were suddenly on him. Leo turned the phone on speaker.
âNo!! Theyâre gone. And thereâs a video playing on Donnieâs computer. Itâs a recording of you Mikey and Donnie locked up at Sacksâ estate from over 10 years ago⌠I think this is what (y/n) saw before they left.â
âThey left?â Leo felt his heart drop into his stomach. âTo go where, Sacksâ estate?â His brothers immediately started packing up their stakeout equipment to leave.Â
âNo I donât think so, the senderâs location was tracked, itâs still on the screen. It says it was sent from Sack Tower in Times Square.â
Donnie came over and joined in the call, typing furiously at the keyboard on his wrist. âSacks Tower. Thatâs where they were spotted smuggling those stolen chemicals into the other dayâŚ! From my notifications, it appears that the message was sent through an older Foot Clan communication frequency approximately 43 minutes ago.â
âDonnie, how long will it take (y/n) to get to Sacks Tower.â
âFrom my calculations, if (y/n) left the lair heading to the Sacks building about 40 minutes ago, going by subway, they should arrive in about uhhh, approximately 8 minutes.â
âAnd how long will it take us to get there.â Raph asked.
âFrom where we are now, if we manage to hitch a ride on the next nonstop train to Times SquareâŚâŚ about 1 and a half hours.â
âShit!âÂ
Raph cursed loudly and turned away frustrated, and Mikey put his hands on his head. Donnie was typing away at the keypad on his arm, trying to find any kind of faster route and muttering about how stupid he was for not making you a shellcell.
âWe donât have a minute to waste. Letâs move out.â
Thatâs all they needed to hear. Everyone sprung into action and booked it for the closest subway station manhole cover.
âApril, we are headed to Sacks Tower as fast as we can. And get ahold of the police commissioner again. Whoever gave us the information to come to this warehouse tonight was intentionally planted with misinformation. There was no sign of the Foot at the warehouse. âŚ..It was most likely a diversion.â
âRight. Iâll get back to you soon.â
Leo hung up the phone and jumped off the apartment building and dove down towards the streetâs manhole cover.
Leo grit his teeth.
âHold on (y/n).â
The halls of the building were eerily empty. This place made your skin crawl. The laboratory felt all too similar to the one you had been trapped in before. But this one had clearly been abandoned for a long time. Broken glass, graffiti, turned over chairs, scattered paper. But strangely the power was still on. You didnât dare try to use the elevator in fear of giving away your position. But you were confused as to why you had yet to see any guards. This is where the message was sent from, the turtles had to be here, right?
You climbed the steps to another floor, but paused as you creaked open the door exiting the stairwell. This floor felt like a world apart from the previous ones. It was clean.
And the lights were on.
You kept low, and hyper vigilant. Steadying your breathing like Leo had taught you, you crept into the sterile white hallway. There were glass windows along the hall looking into different labs. One held chemistry equipment, another held big bulky medical equipment that clicked and beeped. Finally, the last room at the end of the hall, a room with no windows. You had a sinking feeling in your gut, but still you crept towards the door. Slowly and quietly you pulled open the heavy door, and revealed a large lit room with a high ceiling, and there you saw it.
âGuysâŚ.!â
There along the back wall were 4 glass boxes with 3 of the turtles strung up and being drained of blood. You had found them! Seeing no one else in the room, you rushed in.Â
âIâm going to get you out of here, just you wait!â You went to the first machine in front of Donnie and reached out to touch the screen-
Your hand passed right through.
âWhatâŚ?â You tried to touch it again but there was nothing there.
The hologram distorted, and then the turtles disappeared. You gasped.
It was a trap.
You turned around to book it towards the exit, but the door was opening again. Bebop and Rocksteady squeezed through the small door one at a time, and blocked your exit. Then over an intercom you heard the familiar laugh that sent a shiver down your spine.
Stockman chuckled darkly. âJust how I planned it! Like catching a fly with honey. So predictable!â
You backed up slowly as Bebop and Rocksteady approached you.Â
âDid you miss us, little kitty?â Rocksteady sneered.
The intercom buzzed as Stockman spoke again. âBebop, Rocksteady, keep them occupied until I arrive. I will be there momentarily. And letâs not have a repeat of last time, please!â There was a clicking sound and the intercom went quiet.
Bebop chuckled. âHell yeah! Itâs been so long since we last played! Letâs make the most of it.âÂ
âThatâs right! And we gotta pay you back for all the trouble you caused us! We missed you so much after you left. You wanna go first Beebs?â
âMy man!â Bebop smiled at Rocksteady and clasped his hand, they both laughed.Â
You tried your best to steady your breathing like Leo taught you. Your hands were trembling. But you needed a way out. Bebop and Rocksteady were not fast, if you timed it right, maybe you can get past them to the door.
Bebop approached you. You stayed still and waited. Then when he got close enough, you ran right towards him, surprising Bebop. He reached out to grab you but you slid right between his legs, then jumped up behind him and tried to run past Rocksteady before he could react. He was still too close to you and managed to grab you from behind, but you were ready for him. Just like in training, you reached up and grabbed him around his neck, and taking a deep breath, you threw all your strength forward and down and managed to flip Rocksteady onto his back- stunning him. You quickly jumped over him and ran for the door, slamming into it fast and wretched the handle to pull it open.Â
Locked. (Warning for graphic depictions of torture ahead.)
âNoâŚ!â You felt a bruising grip close around your arm, and you were torn away from the door. âNO!!â You cried out as you were thrown hard onto the floor between the two oversized mutants.Â
âSee? Now thatâs your problem. You gotta go makinâ our job harder than it needs to be!â Bebop complained.Â
Rocksteady was picking himself back up, rubbing the back of his head tenderly. âDonât let them get to ya Beebs, weâll sort them out quick before Stockman gets here.â Bebop then reached into his pocket and pulled out an all too familiar black taser.Â
Rocksteady took the taser and chuckled. âLittle kitty needs a check-up!âÂ
You tried to get up and run, but Rocksteady stomped down hard on your left arm. There was a sickening snap and you screamed, writhing in pain. You were pinned.Â
âTsk, tsk. You know what happens when kitty gets naughty!â The taser was flicked on, all you could do was close your eyes before a strong surge of electricity was shot into your ribcage and throughout your body. You convulsed as the shocks seized you, your shoulder getting dislocated from the spasms, then collapsed back on the floor.Â
âJust like good olâ times!â Rocksteady passed the taser to Bebop.
Rocksteady laughed and removed his foot from your arm, then Bebop tased you in the ribs again. You yelped and rolled onto your stomach, tucking your very broken arm underneath you and tried to crawl away.Â
âHey, where ya goin? Weâre just getting STARTED!â Rocksteady punctuated his sentence by kicking you in the stomach hard enough to throw you across the room. You hit the ground and your body rolled another few feet until you stopped on your side and curled in on yourself, the air knocked out of your lungs.
Bebop took his time strolling over to you, and grabbed you by the hair to lift you up. You coughed and gasped for air, grabbing at his hand and tried to pry his fingers off of his grip.Â
âThink you can just up and leave whenever you want, do ya?â He growled in your ear, then dropped you down haphazardly to the floor. You were on your knees, buckled forward and holding your left shoulder, when suddenly Bebopâs foot stomped down on your right ankle and you heard a loud crunch.Â
You shrieked.Â
Exhausted and riddled with unbearable pain, you crippled to the floor. It took everything you had just to pull breath.Â
âAlright, Iâm back! How is our lovely patient doing?â Came the cheerful sing-song voice of Dr Stockman entering the room through the locked door, Karai tailing behind him.Â
âHey boss! Uhhh, we were just warming them up for ya! See? They canât run away no more.â Bebop nudged your side with his foot, knocking you onto your side so Stockman could see the pain riddled on your face. You were barely conscious by this point.Â
âExcellent! Bring them to me.â Stockman ordered.
Bebop picked you up by your good arm and carried you over to where Dr Stockman was walking to in the back of the room. Karai stepped in Bebopâs way for a moment, taking in your beaten appearance, and back-handed your face hard for good measure, leaving a shiny bruise and angry red gash across your cheek. That woke you up a bit.Â
Just enough to retaliate.
You took a deep breath and tore your arm out of Bebopâs grasp and punched Karai in the stomach, hard enough to throw her into a large display screen next to where Stockman was standing. Stockman squawked in surprise. She rolled onto the floor, and pushed herself up onto her side. Spitting a bit of blood onto the ground and wiping away at her lip.Â
You tried to stand on your good leg but you were too weak and collapsed back to the floor. Bebop and Rocksteady grabbed you by each of your arms and brought you in front of Stockman.
He was looking at you in awe, and reached out tentatively to swipe at the blood on your cheek. He rushed over to his desk, jumping a bit in excitement. He put a drop of your blood onto a slide, and observed it under his microscope.
âHaâŚ! HA HAâŚ! YES!!â Stockman shouted in excitement and did a little dance. Bebop and Rocksteady exchanged a confused look and Karai stood up and walked over to Stockman, eyeing you angrily and rolling her shoulder.
âWhat does this mean?â She questioned him.Â
âIt means that the mutation was a SUCCESS!!! Those stupid turtles must have triggered it somehow. And now we can finally proceed with the plan!!!â He grabbed something off his desk and skipped over to the stairs leading up to the circular titanium base in the middle of the room. âBring them here!!â He called over, waving his hand to Bebop and Rocksteady.
They dragged you over to Stockman, and were deposited on the round podium that sat under a large glass tube. Stockman started to pull down long rubber tubes from above, and attached large thick needles to the ends. You tried once again to crawl away with your good arm, as Bebop and Rocksteady retreated.Â
But Stockman approached you from behind. In a quick jab, he stabbed the two needled tubes deep into your back. You grunted and groaned in pain, but could do nothing, collapsing on the podium. Beaten, bruised, and bleeding.
When Dr Stockman was finished, he descended the stairs and rushed over to his computer, giggling excitedly he typed in a command and the glass tube descended over you until it clicked into place at the sturdy titanium base. Locking you inside.
âTheyâll be placed in suspended animation. Once the tank is completely filled with the preservation fluid, theyâll become nothing more than a convenient blood bag, supplying an endless supply of mutagen for our mutant army.â Stockman rubbed his hands together evilly.
âAnd what about the turtles?â Karai asked.Â
âIt is already too late for them to stop us. Even if they manage to get through your guards, they will be unable to free them from this tank. Once I start the filtration process, I will delete the programmed command to empty or release the containment cylinder. They wonât be able to free them without my help!â Stockman typed away quickly at his computer.Â
One of the tubes connected to your back began to pull blood from your body, leading up through a small opening in the top of the cylinder then down into a canister at the base. Then from the second tube, a white milky substance full of liquid nutrients began to filter through and down into your body. It did nothing to numb the pain you felt as you laid there in a state of half consciousness.Â
Suddenly, the loud banging of gunshots could be heard somewhere outside the door.Â
âWeâre not ready yet! Hold them back!â Stockman ordered Bebop and Rocksteady, who positioned themselves between Stockman and the door.Â
The door suddenly blew wide open, and the four turtles rushed into the room, angry and weapons at the ready.
âWhereâs (y/n).â
Part 7
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Waking Up and Coming Home
A/N: I wanted to explore what might happen if CX-2 really was Tech, what it's like when he wakes up after being impaled, how he survives, and what it might be like for him to get home and find his own happiness. Includes TechPhee and a reason Omega keeps Tech's goggles.
Warnings: Tech wakes up and realizes he has cybernetic implants, drug withdraw, nausea, being impaled, PTSD, cybernetic surgery, Tech finds Crosshair's hand
Word Count: 5.568k
Tech took a sharp breath. He was vertically pinned to something. He tried breathing through the mask, but something was different. The usual smell and taste that accompanied the mask was gone although it was still on. The fog that plagued him was lifting. He instinctively reached down and found an electrospear just below his sternum, only he felt no pain. He blinked several times and removed the helmet. He had no memory of being given this armor. There was no blood and the electrospear was out of power. He felt a series of wires and tubes around the spear and absent-mindedly kept looking around for someone. All he saw were other bodies of those in armor similar to his own and some regs in what he could only assume was prison garb. One of the tubes in his abdomen appeared to be leaking. Was that oil? It didnât smell or look like blood. He didnât have time to think about it. Instead, he grabbed the spear and pulled as hard as he could. It was no good. He decided to observe and allow himself to wake up further from his trance. Was he really going to die hanging in the middle of⌠this was Tantiss wasnât it? He remembered fighting someone. He remembered flying a ship. He remembered trying to fight his own mind, but he was so far away from his actions. His mind was still not completely his own, but he noticed the gas around the CX chambers had dissipated. Those prisons. That disgusting concoction. Tears came to his eyes as he shook. His breath caught in his throat when he remembered the smirk on Hemlockâs face as he described how Crosshair suffered. Hemlock had perfected his methods since that failure and Tech worried his brother had perished. It didnât help that he was still stuck in place. Trapped. Just as he had been when he woke up in the containment chamber with a series of cybernetic implants. Arrogant as always, Hemlock enjoyed explaining how this chamber would shape his mind and how it was an advanced form of the same technology that was used to enhance Crosshairâs chip on that fateful day on Kamino.
Tech took another breath and tried moving. He felt a piece of metal on the floor just high enough he could pull it closer with his foot. He tried using that for a little leverage since his own weight made it harder to remove the metal rod stuck in his torso. As he wiggled around, pulled on the spear, and took some deep breaths, the object dislodged from its location behind him and he was able to carefully remove himself and it. He took more deep breaths and looked around. He checked on the other clones whose bodies lay around the room. CX or prisoner, it didnât matter. Theyâd all been prisoners. Each time he felt for a pulse and found none he lost a little more hope. He was the only one alive. How long had he been alone in this room? Judging by the condition of the bodies, it hadnât been too long. Rigor mortis hadnât set in yet, so less than eight hours.
He sat down briefly and reminded himself to continue to breathe. He kept trying to tell himself that the air was safe now. He had resisted inhaling Hemlockâs toxins, but when constrained, there was no choice. Now, Techâs mind hadnât been this clear since Plan 99. Not only did each CX chamber include a gaseous drug the clones continually inhaled, but Hemlock ensured they received a steady dose of the same electric torture that started the process. Tech tugged at the hole the spear created in his armor and looked at his cybernetic abdomen. Tubes that allowed for blood flow were thankfully working. There was a contraption that served as a diaphragm. He hypothesized that it seized up when the electrospear hit him, but started working again not long after, spurred on by his living bodyâs own neurons. Other tubes seemed to be used for digestion, but those were empty and at least one appeared torn. He reached for the comm badge on his arm near his shoulder, but it was gone. Why did he think there was a comm badge there? Tech didnât have that. The CX did. He started putting more pieces together. Hemlock had taken it. Tears came to his eyes again when he realized that he helped bring Omega in. It must have been him. He remembered glimpses, but that was all.
He wandered around the room and picked up a blaster in case he wasnât alone in the facility. Although it was so quiet he could only hear some hounds howling outside, he didnât want to take chances. As he made his way through the room and wider facility, he found a hand on the floor. Oh no. He knew that hand and its armor. Crosshair. He dared not touch it. At this point even if Crosshair was there, reattaching the hand wouldnât work after this amount of time. Had he done that? He searched for the bodies of any of his siblings, but they were nowhere to be found and he felt a little relief even though he wasnât sure where they were.
Tears came to his eyes as he suddenly thought about the CX chambers. What it meant to be a CX. How they werenât sent out for long, or the conditioning would surely wear off. Their masks had a small supply of the chemical, but it wouldnât last forever. It drove each man forward when they were released. It kept him obedient.
He wandered the halls some more before returning to the spot where he woke up earlier and examined the inner workings of his discarded helmet now that his mind was a bit clearer. There was some trapped gas in a small chamber, but it appeared the wiring meant to steadily release the toxin had short-circuited. Tech gasped at the revelation and gingerly held the helmet. In a fit of anger, he threw it as far as he could. The sound of it hitting a distant wall echoed through the facility.
Tech swallowed, closed his eyes, and breathed in the stale but clean air. He pictured the sunset on Pabu with Phee. Where was Phee? Where was he now? He was certain this was Tantiss, but exactly where was Tantiss? And how long would his cybernetics last without some help? He headed down another hallway and searched for some tools but wasnât quite able to see straight or think straight. Echo could help. Could Echo find him? Did his family know where Tantiss was yet? Wait. Yes because Crosshairâs hand was wearing his old armor, although Tech noted it was stripped. Or was his mind playing tricks on him? Tears came to his eyes and he reminded himself that he hadnât found the rest of his brother yet. Or the rest of their squad. He hoped they were long gone. Had they been successful in his absence? He wandered the facility and eventually found a communications array. At this point he was sure the Empire had abandoned this place, but he couldnât quite punch in the code to get a signal out. What if it was tracked? He cursed his slow mind and lack of clear decision-making ability. He didnât want to take risks with this.
He found solace in walking. He had a better idea of the layout of the facility and as he kept breathing and moving, his mind cleared further. He wasnât sure what else to do. He found what must have been living quarters for some TK troopers and pocketed a few small items that were left behind including a piece of jewelry he hoped would be worth something. Anything to buy him passage to a safe location. That was the plan now. Surely someone else lived on this planet or would visit. His search yielded some clean prison clothes and he decided those would do. He carefully took off his belt and stepped out of the wretched armor. He would rather walk out of this facility naked than wear it any longer. Putting on the new clothes was a bit of a task, but he was in minimal pain compared to how he looked. The belt with pockets was the only part of the armor he put back on. Those would come in handy even if there were fewer pouches than he preferred. Now was not the time to be picky.
Tech wandered down yet another hallway, picked up an abandoned datapad, and scrolled through the downloaded files. They were scientific records of some sort. His mind still foggy, he couldnât quiet comprehend everything it said, but stuffed it between his body and his belt for later analysis. He noticed there was a broken ship in the hangar, and while his investigation proved it could fly, he didnât trust that it wouldnât be tracked. He somehow knew that he had caused more pain than he could remember and didnât want to risk anything else by leading the enemy to Pabu. He was startled from his thoughts by the sound of another ship landing in the next hangar bay. It wasnât the Empire. Pirates? It surely seemed so. If they were pirates, then they might give him a ride to a safer location if he had something to trade. The jewelry he pocketed might be enough, but he had a hunch pirates might be more interested in something a little sharper. He wasted no time heading back to the CX chambers. He picked up the unique sniper rifle and all the CX weapons. He sighed as he looked at the other clones. His other brothers. He didnât even know them, but it didnât change his feeling toward them. They had all been through some form of hell together yet isolated.
Tech headed back toward the hangar and startled what turned out to be a lone pirate. He found the man lazily looking through crates in the hangar before he spotted Tech.
âI was told this place was abandoned,â the weequay said as he pointed a blaster in Techâs direction.
âIt is,â Tech answered. âI was left for dead.â
âYou are not bleeding?â he asked.
âI suppose not,â Tech answered, âalthough I am unsure of the details. It appears I was drugged and have some sort of cybernetic enhancements.â
The pirate huffed.
âAnd what do you plan on doing with those interesting looking weapons?â he asked with a grin.
âAn exchange,â Tech responded flatly. âI need a ride away from here and youâre my safest bet.â
He tried to think more clearly and took some more breaths while the pirate considered his offer.
âOut of curiosity, how did you find this place?â Tech asked.
The man grinned again and responded, âLower-level imperials quickly figured out that they will be paid well for information. Abandoned facilities are gold mines. I can sell those blades for a good price. I assume those are one of a kind.â
âTo my knowledge, yes,â Tech replied.
The pirate nodded and examined the weapons without moving closer, although he was sure this man had no intention of hurting him.
âIâm afraid time is of the essence,â Tech said, feeling fresh pain in his torso where mechanics now lived.
âIf I leave now, I may miss out on something more profitable before the scavengers show up.â
âIâll give you every weapon here but the blaster on my belt,â Tech said. He was already planning on doing this but framing it as a bonus had an impact on the pirate.
âVery well. How far do you need to go?â
Tech didnât want to give away his ultimate destination of Pabu, but knew if he could get to Ord Mantell, he could potentially contact one of his brothers or Phee. Cid had left them high and dry last he remembered, so he would be sure to avoid her. The pirate agreed and had Tech shuffle onto the ship with a blaster to his back. This guy was not going to risk Tech turning on him and taking his ship. The pirate put his prize away and Tech sat down. The trip was quick enough, and Tech was sure the weequay would turn around for Tantiss again as soon as he was off the ship.
âYouâve reached your destination,â the pirate said as soon as he landed. âNow, off my ship.â
Tech got up to leave but reached into one of the pouches that remained on his person. He pulled out the necklace he found earlier and stated, âIâll give you this for a working comm device.â
The man bit his lip and huffed. He should have driven a harder bargain sooner, but he was so enraptured with the vibroblades he got distracted.
âFine,â he said, snatching the jewelry and hanging Tech a small comm.
Tech nodded and shuffled off the ship. He was met with the smell of mantell mix but stopped himself. He had no money, and he wasnât sure he could even digest food normally at this point. Instead, he found a quiet location on the outskirts of town and commâd Echo. It seemed the safest bet and Echo has the most experience with cybernetics should he have an emergency before reaching Pabu.
âHavoc 4? Echo, I need your help.â
Echo picked up immediately upon recognizing the voice.
âTech?!â
âAffirmative.â
âWhere are you? What happened?â
âOrd Mantell. I will send you coordinates to my location via this comm, but I cannot promise it will be perfectly accurate.â
âDo you need medical attention?â came another voice. It was Gregor.
âI may, but it appears I now have cybernetic implants. I was on Tantiss and woke up in a daze. At least Iâm fairly certain thatâs where I was.â Echo and Gregor heard him sigh in a way theyâd never heard before. âI am certain Iâve done things I regret, although my memory is not great, and I donât know the extent of my injuries, although I appear stable.â
Echo understood.
âWeâre on our way,â replied Echo. âLeaving Pantora. The others are on Pabu. Just keep away from Cid.â
âI have no intention of finding her,â Tech said.
âGood,â Gregor said. âShe only got worse.â
Tech didnât inquire about that right now. He was sure heâd get the full story soon enough. He waited some time and at one point was worried something happened. He tried not to think about it too much. His mind was still blurry and he felt like he was going to be sick. What he didnât know was that Echo had quickly left Pantora to head back to Pabu and pick up Crosshair. Wrecker, Hunter, and Omega wanted to come too, but Crosshair suggested he go alone with Echo and Gregor. Based on Techâs message relayed from Echo, he knew at least part of what his brother had been through, and it seemed a good idea to take a little extra time getting to Tech and have Crosshairâs help.
Gregor landed the ship and prepared the one bunk with all the blankets they had. Crosshair insisted they would need it. Echo commâd Tech again. They were only about one klick from the ship. Despite the intense stress of the last few days, Crosshair and Echo summoned their strength to run. They found Tech sitting with his back to a wall, seemingly dozing but very much alive, and both crouched down in front of him.
âTech?â Crosshair asked.
Tech opened his eyes and saw his brother for the first time since Kamino. His eyes tracked down to where Crosshairâs hand had been and he froze.
âI did that, didnât I?â Tech asked. The blood drained out of his face and he started retching.
âItâs not your fault,â Crosshair said as he reached for his brother. He and Echo helped Tech up and the three headed to the ship.
Crosshair sat with him on the bunk. Gregor took off for Pabu while Tech peeled back his clothing to allow Echo to help assess the cybernetic device.
âIt looks like two of these tubes were pulled apart,â Echo said. âI can try reattaching them and it looks like then you should be able to eat small amounts until we can replace them.â
âVery well,â Tech replied.
Crosshair helped him lay back and assisted Echo with the procedure. Despite only having two working hands between them, it was more than adequate. The tubes were torn from the impact of the electrospear, but the torn ends were cut and the tubes new flat ends reattached. Tech could feel a tug from the shortened pieces, but it was nothing compared to how bad it could have been. Most of the wiring had simply been pushed aside by the spear.
âNot sure how we can close all this up,â Echo said, referring to the abdominal panel covering the cybernetic.
âThat is a problem for another time, I think,â Tech replied. âItâs not affecting life support.â
Crosshair nodded in agreement and Echo returned to the co-pilotâs seat at the front of the ship.
âHere,â Crosshair said, lifting a thermos of warm liquid.
Tech nodded when he smelled the broth. He hadnât been this hungry in a long time and tried to gulp down any calories he could.
âTake it easy,â Crosshair said. âDonât make yourself sick. I know whatâs coming.â
Tech looked at him and nodded. He slowed his pace and took a deep breath as the vegetable broth settled his belly.
âI believe I am experiencing drug withdraws, Crosshair.â
âMm.â
âIt will get worse, yes?â
Crosshair nodded.
âHow long?â
âIt was weeks for me. Worse for others. The fastest recovery I saw was ten rotations.â His eyes darted before he added, âHemlock said he improved the conditioning process. It might be longer for you.â
Tech nodded. He finished the broth and laid back down. Crosshair laid down with him. Tech hadnât realized just how cold and shaky he was until Crosshair held him. His brother pulled a thick blanket over both of them and did his best to help Tech feel comfortable.
By the time they were on Pabu, Tech felt like his body was full of daggers and fever. He kept calling out for help even though his brothers were helping to the best of their ability. Phee, Hunter, Wrecker, and Omega had prepared the bed that was his prior to Eriadu. Crosshair stayed there after Techâs fall, but now Wrecker had rearranged the bed situation so there was room for Tech and someone to be at his side the whole time. More than a few tears were shed as Crosshair helped Tech stumble off the ship and into the home. Gregor checked in with Rex and took the ship to rendezvous with the boys, leaving Echo behind for now.
They tried to get Tech in bed so he could rest, but he fought against any blankets put on him, seemingly frightened he was back in Hemlockâs lab and being restrained. While it was upsetting to watch, Crosshair calmly reminded him that he was safe and gently helped his brother take in what was familiar. The sheets felt like Pabu. The air smelled clean. He could hear the ocean. The voices and faces of those around him were real. Tech started to calm just enough to lay in bed. He shook violently and his mind seemed to be in two places.
âSedative,â Tech managed to get out, looking into his brotherâs eyes. Crosshair nodded.
âAre you sure,â Hunter asked.
âItâs what I would want too,â Crosshair replied.
Hunter nodded and got the med kit. Phee had already made sure to stockpile what medication she could find on the island and was already making a list of other things they might need for a supply run. She watched in uncertainty as Hunter gave Tech the injection and it immediately took effect.
âPhee,â Tech managed as his body gave in to the medication.
âHey Brown Eyes,â she answered softly.
He reached his hand out and she took it as she kneeled next to his bed.
âEverythingâs gonna be okay, Tech.â That was all she could say before a small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth and he fell asleep.
While he was out, Echo and Hunter had a look at his cybernetics as best they could while the others looked on. The person most qualified to work on these was Tech himself, but he wasnât in any shape to do so. There was a lot of back and forth about what should be done. His heart was beating. He was breathing. He could eat and digest. There was just some tubing that needed replacing and a giant hole through the front and back of his torso. They decided to wait on any internal fixes for now but werenât sure how to address the hole through the front and back metal panels in his middle.
âWe should cover it up,â Wrecker suggested.
âWith what?â Echo asked.
âI dunno,â came the response.
âCan we bend the pieces so they lay flatter against him?â Omega asked.
âI could try that,â Wrecker said. âBut I donât want to break something and hurt him either.â
âWhy donât we cut off the parts that are sticking out, and screw on a panel to each side to at least keep him covered up and protected?â Phee asked.
âProbably our best option,â Hunter replied.
Wrecker picked up his brother and carried him to his workbench. It was the safest spot for removing pieces of metal. Tech was completely out. Echo removed the sharp edges and Phee and Crosshair found some scrap metal in the right size. Echo managed to connect the front piece before Wrecker rolled Tech over and made sure he was as comfortable as could be. Once they were sure every component inside his abdomen was secure, Echo attached the back panel. The largest clone then lifted his brother and carried him back to bed.
The rest of the night was a cycle of Tech sleeping, waking with a start, shaking, and fighting invisible monsters. Crosshair spent the first night sleeping next to him. Whenever Tech would shake or lash out, he would hold him until they both fell asleep again. Crosshairâs heart was heavy. He knew none of this was Techâs fault. If anything, he felt pangs of guilt for staying in the Empire so long. He took a deep breath as he held his shaking brother. It took work, but he was starting to accept that it wasnât all his fault, thanks in no small part to his sister constantly reminding him. The Empire kept him prisoner. Hemlock experimented on him and tortured him. He tried escaping multiple times before he and Omega were successful. A yawn hit him and he relaxed further. Techâs soft snores made him smile. He would do whatever it took to make sure this family was okay.
In the morning, the sedative had worked its way through Techâs system and heâd slept through the remaining exhaustion. He woke up next to Crosshair and felt the warm sun greet him. His eyes tried to adjust, but he realized that some of his dizziness was the result of the fall damaging his eyes. His pupils kept trying to adjust to take in as much information as possible and he couldnât find his goggles.
âWhat is it?â Crosshair asked.
âMy goggles,â he said.
âTheyâre in the Archium,â Phee answered as she appeared in the doorway with some breakfast.
Tech looked up at her and tried to smile. Phee sat next to the bed while the two men ate. Tech continued to have bouts of shakiness, but greedily ate the meal in front of him.
âTake it easy Brown Eyes.â
Tech felt heat creep on his face at hearing the nickname with a clearer mind.
âI donât remember when I ate last, aside from the broth yesterday.â
âHow do you feel?â she asked.
Tech looked down at the mended hole over his torso and moved his limbs a little.
âMy eyes are struggling to focus and the shakiness is returning.â Tech swallowed some hot tea and looked at his hands. âI keep having flashbacks.â
âIt will get better,â Crosshair reassured him. Tech felt comfort knowing his brother had overcome this conditioning and while Hemlockâs methods on Tech were worse, he was confident he could work through this.
âIf I got you some tools and supplies, do you want to try making some new goggles?â Phee asked.
Tech nodded. âI should scan my eyes first to determine the type of lenses, but then yes.â
âIâll see what I can do,â she replied.
Omega and Wrecker overheard the conversation and ran to retrieve the beloved item from the Archium. Tech was shaking and sweating again with Crosshair still by his side and Hunter joining them. Omega silently held out the goggles to Tech. They talked about how they obtained them and how precious theyâd become. Tech held them in his hands and stared back at them like looking at a former version of himself.
âBetter to start from scratch,â he said, holding the googles out to Omega. âFeel free to throw them out.â
âIâd rather keep themâ Omega replied.
âWhy?â Tech asked.
âYou were wearing them when you taught me to fly,â she answered. âTheyâre special to me. To us.â
âVery well,â Tech replied with a smile. He tried taking some steadying breaths, but continued to shake. To take his mind off things, he looked at the spot where Crosshairâs hand once was.
âI could make you a cybernetic hand if you are interested.â
âI know you can,â Crosshair replied. âFor now, letâs focus on you.â
Tech nodded. He was in no shape to build something as his body continued experiencing withdraws, but he could think about what he wanted to make. He could visualize his new goggles and Crosshairâs new hand. He could picture a life here. He could picture himself being a bit more forward with Phee. He could picture flying with Omega again. Sitting on the beach with Hunter while Wrecker fished. Sitting with Crosshair and talking about something he was researching while Crosshair sat and listened. Now that he thought about it, his often-silent brother hadnât been this affectionate since they were cadets. War changed them. The Empire changed them. Change was part of life. This was a good change, though.
As the days went on, his withdraw symptoms became easier to handle. He had ups and downs but they were, as he put it, damped oscillations. Batcher also made herself known and curled up with him at least once a day. She had a calming presence just like his siblings. Even when his insides felt like they were vibrating and overheating, every calming presence helped.
Hunter sat with him and when he was ready, got him up to speed on things. He was the one who drew the short straw and had to tell Tech that the Marauder not only blew up, but who blew it up.
âIs Gonky alright?â was the next question out of Techâs mouth.
âHe is,â Hunter assured. âWrecker got him away just in time.â
âGood.â
Somehow, despite it all, the family made it out of the Empireâs clutches.
Several weeks into his recovery, Tech finished his new goggles and started working on Crosshairâs hand. He was not as efficient as he normally was, but he was still recovering. With each little project he started to feel more like himself.
When he finally felt well enough, he asked Phee and Omega for help to better fix his cybernetic.
âI will do everything in the front, but I need you two to help with the back,â he said.
âWhat about the others?â Omega asked. âThey could help too.â
âOur brothers are busy today helping some new residents move in,â Tech replied. âI am ready, and you are both more than qualified to help, if you would like.â
Phee and Omega shared a look. It was clear that Tech was done waiting now that his withdraw symptoms were finally gone and he had an idea of how he wanted to approach this. They discussed the plan and so ten weeks to the day after he came home, Tech took his shirt off, and sat backwards in a chair next to his workbench so the surgery could begin.
âYou sure this wonât hurt?â Omega asked.
âI will inform you if it does, but none of the cybernetics have hurt yet,â he replied. âThe only pain occurred in my living tissue.â
Phee looked at Omega and took a breath.
âAlright,â Phee said. âHere we go.â
She removed the plate Echo had hastily applied to Techâs back all those weeks ago. Most of the work involved better flattening the pierced edges where the spear had torn through. Echo and Hunter had done a good job getting the bulk of the metal frame removed around the hole, but it was still uneven. Phee took her time and Omega wasnât sure sheâd ever seen her work with that level of gentleness and care. Phee was always thorough and precise, but there was something different about this. Omega handed her tools as needed and then took a picture for Tech to see what it looked like before they closed up his back cybernetic plate.
âWell done,â was all he could say about it.
Phee sealed the back plate closed and they helped Tech sit up. It felt much more solid, even without addressing the larger hole in his front. Tech itched to get to work on himself. He sat up and decided that it would be easier to work if he was laying along the workbench at an incline. Phee got him a series of supportive pillows and cushions so he could lay back without being flat. This allowed the cybernetic tubing to relax and give him a bit more room to work. Omega positioned a mirror in front of him so he could watch himself work without straining his neck. Tech didnât waste any time. He removed the temporary plate, inspected the internal wiring, and secured one piece that was not as well attached as he would like. Phee handed him tools so he could focus on his work. He removed the tube that acted as the bottom of his esophagus and removed it carefully. He secured a slightly longer and wider tube in its place. Once he was pleased with the position, he sat up and moved around to be sure it wasnât tight like the original had been. Satisfied, he laid back down and widened the hole in his abdomen plate.
âTech?â Omega asked. âWhat are you doing?â
âCreating a rectangular opening,â he replied.
Phee smiled. She had a feeling he was going to try something like this. Tech shared a warm look with her before picking up the pieces of plating that had protected him since his return and trying to rearrange them.
âWait a minute,â Phee said.
Tech and Omega watched her hurry onto her ship, and she quickly returned with a square piece of metal painted in a familiar shade of blue with a bit of orange along the edge.
âI had to replace this piece on my ship. Looks like it might be the right size.â
Tech gladly examined the piece and silently noted the paint job before sharing another smile with her. With a small adjustment, it perfectly fit the rectangular hole in his stomach. Phee retrieved some hinges and watched him determine how to fit it all together. It wasnât enough for Tech to fix his own cybernetic. He had to enhance it by giving it a door.
âSecure, but easier access in case of an emergency,â he explained.
Omega put his tools back where he liked them while Phee helped him sit up. He twisted his upper body around and looked pleased.
âComfortable?â Phee asked.
Tech nodded. âI am still getting used to it, but this is an improvement.â
Omega watched a little awkwardly, but decided it was time to make her exit given how Phee looked at her brother while helping him put his shirt back on.
âIâll see you around!â Omega said before skipping back home.
âWalk with me?â Phee asked.
Tech nodded and they headed down the path meandering through town and down to the water. Tech felt a little unsure, but paused and held out his hand toward her just a little. Phee took it in her own and leaned into him before they continued their jaunt.
âI keep thinking Iâll wake up and youâll still be gone,â she admitted.
âThat is merely your brain trying to process the situation,â he explained. After pausing a moment and considering what he knew of her he added, âI will do my best to remind you that Iâm back until you are certain.â
Phee squeezed his hand a little and nodded.
âYou want to get some dinner?â she asked.
âI suspect my family is already partially through their meal,â he replied, noting the time.
âI mean just with me, Tech. Would you like to have dinner with me?â
His eyes widened before a smile pulled on the corners of his mouth.
âThat sounds wonderful, Phee.â
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We need facts about YANDERE CREEPYPASTA ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE AU!!! Only if you want to and take your time. I just got really excited hearing this as I love zombie movies
Something Short (Zombie AU Introduction)
Author's Note: I've had this AU idea for months, but I just never got to it.
Warnings: Murder, Torture, Sexual Harrasment, Kidnapping, Human Trafficking (Mentions), Mental Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Human Experiments, Gore, Physical Abuse, Manipulation, Dehumanization, Sadism, Being Held To Extremely High Standards, Dictatorship, And Obession
Ok, so. I picture the virus that caused the whole outbreak to be a mixture between the walking dead zombies, and the Train to Busan zombies, you know.
Now, you're pretty much one of the few who survived the outbreak. You and your two brothers are wondering around looking for a permanent place of residence. You found one society, but it was destroyed soon after you got there.
In this AU, EJ is the leader of a cannibalistic city. They live in a heavily fortified town somewhere in Pennsylvania. EJ is the doctor and leader of this colony. One day you and your brothers get kidnapped by a few of their members, and you only survived because EJ took an interest in you. Your brothers were kept alive as a way to keep you in line, but you knew they were barely surviving.
One day, your brothers escaped, leaving you behind. Once you escape, your main motivation is reuniting with your brothers, or at least find out what happened to them.
You were trapped with EJ for about 8 months, and those months were hell. Unlike my other AUs and Canon were EJ puts up a fake mask of kindness and care, Zombie AU EJ is heartless right off the bat. It's the end of the world, you either do what he tells you, or you're tonight's dinner. So, you're now labeled as his pet, even the other civilizations know about you, the poor pet of Cannubal King. You would constantly be a victim to his twisted experiments, but after each one he'd comfort you. His constant switched in personality and behavior is what makes you have a blurred perspective of him. In this AU, EJ is the one you're most terrified of, not the Proxies.
Now, the Proxies are opportunist. They are the people in the apocalypse to kill, kidnap and sell people as a way to make it buy. They're the most dangerous to look for because they're doing anything to survive. After 8 months past, you're able to escape. You end up wondering around for about 3 days before you find a little shed in the woods. When you get there, the shed is filled with a decent amount of food and water. However, as you inspect a small can, you're whacked in the head with a crow bar. When you wake up, three men are standing in front of you. They all discuss what their going to do to you before they agree to keep you. The Proxies are no stranger to keeping pets, but each one of them have died in someway, and you're just another replacement. Out of all the proxies though, Toby ends up becoming completely in love and obsessed with you, while Masky and Hoodie have a more possessive, sexual obsession with you.
Ben is the leader of a tech society. His society was able to keep electricity and tech running, making the most advanced civilization. However, getting in is extremely hard, and being a citizen there sucks. Ben is a dictator. If you hold no use to him, you're getting sent out into the heard. You disobey or betray him, sent to the Cannibal Colony. And not to mention, he had eyes and ears everywhere. Everyone in the city has to do their part if they want to stay, and if you don't, Oh well. Also, being one of Ben's favorites sucks even more. If he likes you for your skill or talent, he holds you to an impossible standard, and he enjoys to watch those people try so hard to meet it. No one is ever good enough for him, and he'll gladly torture those who can't obey. If he likes you for his sexual desires, you're running on his schedule. He expects you to do your own work, and fulfill his desires.
So, how do you two meet? You actually met back when you were with EJ. Just like in every AU, Jeff, EJ, and Ben are all really close friends, and EJ paid a visit to Ben in order to collect new Tech. There you caught Ben's eyes. Ben joked with EJ, saying that if he ever got bored of you, he'll gladly take you. He would never hide his stares, and always made his intentions with you painfully clear. He would never do anything to you physically since he likes and respects EJ to much, but he meant what he said when he told EJ that he'd take you if he didn't want you anymore.
LJ is a loner, but what he does is kinda weird. LJ stays in a abandoned fair ground. Rides and attractions are still up. Thanks to Ben, LJ is able to keep the tech working, and it often attracts wonders. LJ collects walkers and uses them for his circus shows. Anyone who stumbles upon his grounds are welcomed to stay. So, there's often people hanging out there because, 1, free food, 2, fun rides, 3, protection from walkers, and 4, entertainment. Once there's enough people, LJ holds a circus show. In this show, LJ summons a gas that drugs everyone for a short period of time. During this time, LJ takes some members of the audience, steals everyone's weapons, and ties them down to their chairs. Then, he uses the people he kidnapped for his twisted little show. Some people would be eaten by walkers, others would be forced to do extremely dangerous stunts, and the rest would just be brutally tortured. But at the end of the show, everyone in the tent would be dead. Now rinse and repeat, and that's what LJ does.
You and your brothers came across LJ's circus, but you guys left after a short while, not aware that you almost lost your lives.
Liu are kinda like mercenary. Liu gathers Intel for other groups, kidnaps people, and sells people just to get by. He's never in one place for too long, and many fall for his charm and charisma. His most consistent client is Ben, and Ben considers him a member of his city, even though Liu begs to differ.
How did you two meet? Jeff had dragged Liu to the proxies place due to the Proxies not keeping the end of a deal they made. You were watching from a top the stairwell when Liu noticed you. Liu is a hard-core sadist and doesn't really care about love or sex, violence his thing due to Sully's influence. But I can see him instantly falling for you. I feel like before Sully manifested, Liu was such a lover boy, but I can see him always being a blunt and manipulative bastard. Despite Jeff being Liu for support, Liu just stared at you as you sat ontop of the stares quietly, hoping that he would take his eyes off you.
Jeff is another wonderer. He could deadass care less about the apocalypse. He's normally by himself, in a cabin, either getting high or murdering people he comes across. He's deadass chilling.
Just like Ben, Jeff met you through EJ. Jeff doesn't really have any feelings towards you at the moment since he doesn't pay much attention to you, but that will slowly change.
QNow, last major plot idea. Since EJ is a doctor, and Ben is the tech guy, I can see the two of them looking for a cure to the virus. But, they often use random people as experiments for these. Back when you were with EJ, you were forced to witness them, and in one test, the person starting to develop sores and bumps all over their body, and it got so bad that they ended up swelling up like a balloon.
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â â You really donât know about him?â
pairing: professor eris x reader
summary: who are your kidnappers and why do they want you? Eris enlists a secret weapon to find you and help him retrieve you back and get revenge on those who kidnapped you.
warnings: kidnapping, murder, torture, light angst, fluff, suggestiveness
amaraâs note: this is so mid but pls enjoyđ itâs not my best work but atleast the next chapter will have crazy smut bc eris teaches reader how to use a gun and there will be gunplayđ also sorry that this was updated so lateđđ
Eris was trying to stay calm, using his rational thinking but he couldnât do it. There was no rationality left in him. He just wanted to know if you were safe, even though the chances were slim.
Eris's heart sank as he checked the app Feyre had mentioned. It revealed that your phone was at the lake near the schoolâa clear sign that it had been discarded before you were taken. His mind raced with worry, realizing that you were indeed taken and not missing.
He took a deep breath, allowing himself a moment to feel the last bit of his emotions before shutting them off and assuming his role. His worried eyes hardened, his chest steady, and his demeanor shifted into that of a commanding presence.
Feyre watched as Eris fished out his phone and, with a cold voice, instructed Shadow to track you down.
She was worried and didn't know what was going on. Who was Shadow, and where were you? How was Eris so calm? Wasn't he more worried about you?
Eris noticed the concern in Feyre's eyes and approached her with reassurance.
âDon't worry, Ms. Archeron. I'll find her. Brandon here will escort you to one of the rooms for safety while I locate her. It's not safe to be alone right now.â
Before she could ask any more questions, he turned and headed into his office. While he appreciated Feyre for being such a good friend to you, there was no time for conversation when you were missing.
Inside, Eris approached his bookshelf and pulled on the book you had taken from himâor rather, its replacement. With a soft click, the entire shelf moved, revealing an opening to his secret room.
Eris's mind was on autopilot as he descended the stairs and used his thumbprint and voice recognition to access the mechanically locked door at the bottom of the stairs.
Inside, the room was filled with high-tech gadgets, weapons, and screens. The warm light bathed the space, giving it an inviting glow, despite its purpose. It resembled a massive closet, with weapons carefully displayed on expensive velvet walls, their deadly potential disguised by their beauty.
Eris approached the weapons, securing a harness to his shirt as he loaded every compartment with hidden knives and guns. He then put on his coat snd gloves, getting ready to get you back no matter ehat.
His phone suddenly buzzed with a message from shadow,
Found her. Warehouse by the marina. Aprox. 35 men outside and 3 inside.
Eris pocketed his phone, silently praying for your safety as he got ready to retrive you.
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Drip.
Drip.
Drip.
Your brows furrowed as you slowly regained consciousness, annoyed by the consistent dripping of water. Your vision was hazy, your head pounding, and the cold made your teeth chatter. You tried to rub your temple, but your hand met resistance.
Panic surged through you as you realized you were chained up, unable to move freely. You kept pulling, foolishly hoping the steel chains would break. Your heart raced as you took in your surroundings. You were on your knees, hands bound, with your entire body aching and your arms feeling numb. The sound of the chains rattling grew louder as you struggled against them, desperate to break free.
Fear gripped you as you recalled being taken by a stranger. Your stomach churned with nausea, and you fought back the urge to vomit as the memories flooded back.
No, no, no.
This wasnât happening.
Panic flowed through you, making it difficult to breathe. You attempted to stay calm, but the tears welled up in your eyes, and your body shook with fear. Alone in a huge and empty room, the air heavy with the scent of salt, you felt utterly helpless and started sobbing, head hanging low.
The sound of heavy metal doors creaking open pierced the air, causing you to lift your gaze with apprehension. Three men entered, their fiery red hair immediately catching your attention. The man in the middle crouched down to your level, a smirk playing on his lips as he tilted his head, his gaze examining you.
âFinally awake from your little nap?â
You looked at him, then shifted your eyes to the other two, one of them smirking, the other stoic.
âWhy am I here? Who are you? I havenât done anything.â Your voice was hoarse and broken.
His demeanor shifted instantly, his previous amusement at your situation replaced by disgust. His smile vanished, and his eyes darkened with disdain. He straightened up, towering over you, and looked at you with a look of disgust and hate, as though you were nothing but dirt under his shoe.
âYou are here as leverage. You see, my cousin killed my father and I can not let that go unpunished, right?â
The two behind him snickered and shook their heads.
Your brows furrowed again, what the hell had this to do with you at all? No one you knew could possibly be involved in something like this. And you didnât care how rude you sounded, these fuckers kidnapped you.
âSo? That still doesnât explain why the hell iâm here. I donât know what youâre talking about.â
The guy in the middle, Sirius the others called him, narrowed his eyes at you, a smile creeping onto his face.
âYou really donât know, do you?â
Anger surged within you, and you were just about to snap at his cryptic words, not in the mood for riddles.
âYour little fuck buddy Eris did a very bad thing when he killed my father. He made me loose a lot of money and he needs to pay for it. Now, my cousin is a very hard guy to shake down, so imagine my surprise and delight when I discovered he had a pretty little thing hidden away all to himself. The perfect negotiation piece.â
You felt like throwing up. He couldnât be serious. Eris, the man you love, the one you thought wouldnât hurt anyone, had done something so terrible that these men were here to punish him for it. The shock of the discovery left you confused and disoriented.
âHe killed someone?â Your words were nothing more than a whisper, struggling to make sense of the situation.
Sirius chuckled darkly, his eyes glinting with malice. âOh, he has done things much worse than that, sweetheart. But don't worry, you'll get to see for yourself soon enough.â
Realizing that Eris might be walking into a trap, you summoned your courage and flashed them a defiant smile. âWell, if that's the case,â you said, âthen you're fucked.â
The big one in the back, named Aidenâs expression grew even darker, his eyes narrowing at your boldness. âAnd why do you think that?â he demanded.
You shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant despite the fear coursing through you.
âIf what you say is true, then I assume youâre not stupid enough to try to actually lure him here. If he really did kill your father then you know how dangerous he is. And not to brag,â you added with hint of more confidence,
âBut the man loves me and will most certainly kill all of you for taking me away in this pathetic attempt at a kidnapping. Listen, just let me go and Iâll make sure he doesnât kill you.â
You watched helplessly as they approached, totally ignoring your words, their movements calculated. Ignis, the scrawny one, grabbed a length of rope from a nearby crate, his expression cruel. âYouâre good. I can see why he is so infatuated with you. But youâre not going anywhere.â he said coldly, his tone leaving no room for argument.
Before Ignis could make a move to bind you even more, a sudden gunshot echoed through the warehouse, causing everyone to freeze in place. Ignis stumbled backward, clutching his chest, blood seeping through his fingers.
âShit!â Aiden exclaimed, reaching for his weapon but he was shot in the head aswell
Sirius lunged forward, a gleaming knife pressed against your throat. His expression was twisted with anger and desperation as he snarled, âIf you move an inch, Iâll slit her fucking throat, Eris.â
Your heart raced as you felt the cold edge of the blade against your skin, a sob breaking from you as you realized Eris was here.
You cried, carefully breathing as to not get your neck sliced open. You watched as he carefully came out of the shadows with smoking gun and a deadly calm expression on his face. Eyes dead as his lips pulled into a smirk.
âYou signed your own death when you kidnapped my girl.â
His cold and emotionless words made you shiver. He was was so different from the warm Eris you knew.
All your thoughts halted as Sirius pressed the blade harder to your throat, making you whimper in pain. You felt warm, wet liquid run down into your ahirt and you realized he had knicked you.
âYou had my father killed and it made me loose millions. If you think iâm letting you or your whore get away-â
The blade on your throat dropped to the ground, as did Siriusâs body right next to you when Eris fired the gun straight into his arm. Eris stepped closer and shot both his hands, arms, legs, feet and just smiled.
âYou donât deserve a quick death. Normally, Iâd handle you myself handle you but Iâm on a bit of a time crunch, so Iâll leave you with him.â
With arms still bound above your head you coughed and then vomited at the feel of warmth of Siriusâs blood seeping into your pants.
Eris hurriedly made his way over to you, his hands steady as he ripped the chains from your arms, pulling you close to him. You collapsed against his chest, trembling with fear and relief as he whispered soothing words to calm you down.
After what felt like an eternity of tears and sobs, you finally managed to compose yourself, sitting up straighter and backing away slightly from Eris's embrace. Your voice was shaky as you spoke, the reality of the situation sinking in.
âSo... youâre in the mafia or something? I mean, you just murdered three people in front of me, so I guess yeah.â
Eris's expression hardened, his features becoming stoic as he took in the gravity of the situation.
He glanced at you, his gaze softening as he reached out to gently touch your cheek, his thumb wiping away a stray tear.
âWe need to get out of here,â he said firmly, his voice tinged with urgency. âI'll explain everything later, I promise. But right now, my priority is your safety.â
With a sense of determination, he helped you to your feet, keeping a protective arm around you, carrying you as you both made your way out of the warehouse, leaving the horrors behind you.
A man approached you both, dark haired, tall and blank look on his handsome face.
âIâve secured the scene.â
Eris acknowledged the man with a nod of gratitude. âYour payment will be made in five minutes, good job. Sirius is in that room, Iâll leave you to it,â he said, his tone businesslike yet appreciative before leaving him to finish up as he carried you to the car.
At home, Eris helped you undress and get into the bath, staying nearby as he washed off the stress of the day. He was quiet but attentive, ensuring you felt safe and cared for throughout.
After you finished bathing, Eris handed you a fluffy towel and wrapped it around you gently, pressing a tender kiss to your forehead. He scooped you up in his arms, carrying you back to bed as if you were the most delicate thing in the world.
You snuggled closer to Eris, feeling a mix of fear and fascination about his involvement in the mafia. âI want to understand more about what you do, Eris. How did you get involved in all of this?â
Eris sighed, his expression growing somber as he recounted his family's history. âIt's been a part of my family for generations,â he began, his voice tinged with resignation.
âMy father was deeply involved in it, and his father before him. It's like a legacy that's been passed down, whether we wanted it or not.â
You raised your eyebrows in shock, âYouâre telling me professor Beron was a mafia boss?â
Eris nodded gravely. âYes. He built our family's empire from the ground up after my grandfather nearly lost it all. But he also brought a lot of danger and darkness into our lives. I did not have a happy or safe childhood. None of my siblings did because he always made us turn on each other and make us betray each other. It was always a scheme or plot going on because he wanted to pass the business down to someone worthy in his twisted mind.â
âAnd now I've brought that same misery into your life,â he says, his voice heavy with regret. âI should have left you alone. You don't deserve this. You deserve better than me. Someone who can give you the life you deserve.â
âYou're wrong,â you respond firmly, looking into his eyes. âI choose to be with you, Eris. I know who you are now, and I believe in the goodness in you. It was scary, yes, but you didnât kidnap me, they did. And now theyâre gone, you protected me. Listen, I love you but if you ever suggest me being with someone else, Iâll punch you.â
Eris's eyes soften as he listens to your words, a mixture of relief and gratitude washing over him. He pulls you closer, holding you tightly against him. "I love you too, and I promise I'll do everything in my power to keep you safe. Never again will you go through what you did today. I will make sure of it." he whispers, giving you a kiss with tenderness.
You break the kiss when a brilliant plan come to mind. âYou know if you gave me a gun, iâd be protected forever.â
Eris chuckles softly, his fingers tracing soothing patterns along your back. âYeah,â he says with a teasing glint in his eyes, âyou'd look pretty fucking hot with a gun. Iâll teach you how to use one of the simpler ones.â He leans in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead, his love for you evident in his actions.
âPerfect, I want you teaching me tomorrow, please.â
Eris smiles warmly at your enthusiasm. âOf course, I'll teach you everything tomorrow,â he promises. âBut for now, let's focus on getting some rest. Tomorrow is a big day.â He tucks the blankets around you snugly, ensuring your comfort before leaning in to press a tender kiss to your forehead. âSleep well, my love.â
So you do, in the comfort and safety of his warm embrace.
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I was wondering if I could request tf 141 boy x male reader who had went missing after recklessly sacrificing themself to make sure the team got out safe either with hostages or information your choice. At the time Ghost and Reader were in a relationship, but with reader going missing getting suck in enemy hands for 3-5 years (your choice) they think he's dead.
What happeneds when they hear about someone killing off enemy forces and possibly having Intel the team needs? What is it turns out to be their missing comrade? Reader's unrecognizable from the scar cover half his face, a missing eye, his vocal cords damaged so his voice sounds different (if you're ok with it maybe a cybernetic arm?) Who would put the dots together first? Maybe reader stayed away knowing they would be hunted and didn't want the people they cared about to get hurt?? Specially Ghost!
Thank you for the request! This is actually a great idea
Reader being reckless and self sacrificial, Ghost X Reader (romantic) reader being kidnapped, reader being tortured, reader having scars and missing limbs (replaced with a prosthetic arm) male reader, mentions of violence. Drug mention once, Ghost being depressed and somewhat having no will to live âšď¸
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4 years ago, on a mission, you where being reckless, little care for your own safety, you where trying to get information from the other side about where they had illegal drugs stored, you where killings people left and right, not caring if you where sneaky or not
Unfortunately due to your recklessness you had gotten caught and thrown into a helicopter on the rooftop
Simon saw this and he tried to chase after you but someone attacked him before he could get to you, and everyone else was too far away
They tried tracking the helicopter but it was stolen and they left it in the middle of nowhere and probably took a plane back to base
For months Simon was stressed, they tried so many times to get you back
They just couldnât find you
After 7 months Soap finally told Ghost it was probably too late
He didnât wasnât to believe it but there was nothing else he could do
For the next 9 months he was self isolating, rarely ate, obviously depressed
The others sometimes even heard him crying in his room
They tried to console him but it just didnât work
They noticed he was also more violent on the battlefield
You where all he had, of course he loves his friends but you where the love of his life, the only one who he felt safe letting hold him
Everyone else he flinched away from but you, he felt warm in your grasp
Thatâs why he grieved for so long, he lost his only will to live
After more time passed he finally came to accept it, of course he still loved you but he knew he would never see you again
One day, they heard from Laswell that someone had attacked the opposing side, killing them in mass numbers.
Simon immediately knew something was up, he could just feel it in his gut
They had been sent off to the base to see what was going on
When they got there it hit them how many people actually got killed
âBloody fuckinâ hellâ Simon commented
âOut of all my years in the military, this is probably the worst case Iâve seenâ Price mentioned
The base that they where at also manufactured high tech material such as guns and⌠prosthetic limbs. They noticed one of the rooms holding fake, robotic arms had been broken into, one arm being ripped out from its holding spot
They walked around a bit before they heard a crash
âSh, there could still be someone hereâ Price whispered before he snuck towards the sound
When he saw a figure rummaging through the canned rations, he raised his gun, seeing that he was unarmed
âPut your hands in the air!â He shouted, the figure turned around, face scarred and torn, the back row of his teeth showing on one side, and, a cyber arm
They knew this was the guy who broke into the room
The room was dark so immediately Gaz turned the lights on to get a better look at the man
As soon as the lights buzzed on and the white light filled the room, Simons heart jumped, he felt like he was going to faint
It was you, the love of his life
The way he knew? The giant scar under your eye on the right (your left) side of your face
He dropped his gun and stepped closer
The others, after some time, came to the realisation that it was their missing teammate from 4 years ago
Simon ran up to you, engulfing you in a suffocating hug
He kept muttering your name over and over again, tears in his eyes as he was rocking you back and fourth
âI miss you so much, you donât even know, Iâve grieved over you for so long, life has been so empty without youâ he kept going on about how much he loves you and missed you
The others also put their weapons away and ran up to you
Simon let you go for a little bit to let the otherâs suffocate you in their one big group hug
They had never seen Simon so soft and loving towards someone, it was almost a shock, for the past 4 years, even before you went missing, he was cold and almost empty
Simon cupped your face and traced his fingers over your scars he had never seen before
He was just so overwhelmed he let his tears spill as did you, he took off his mask and pulled you into a loving kiss, he felt like he was dreaming
After he finally pulled away to let you breathe, his eyes trailed down to your robot arm and brought your hand up to his chest
Even if you where missing a nose and had horrible scars, exposing the inside of your mouth, he loved you just as much
He felt like his heart was full again
After they finally got back to base you explained what happened during the past 4 years
After the other side took you to their base, they tortured you everyday, they forced you to work for them in their factory
During a freak accident while you where working, your arm was torn off
Later on after the accident you tried to escape but they set off a grenade close enough to you to do damage, but not kill you, resulting in the tissue of your face coming off
The other scars where from years of torture
You had finally managed to get a hold of some explosives and a gun with some ammo and had gone on a killing spree, grabbing a cyber arm from one of their rooms, and dashing from room to room to hide
You had finally learnt from your lesson all those years ago, you finally learnt to be sneaky and not just go for the kill when you wanted
That night after you said your good nights to everyone else, Simon led you to his room and pulled you to his bed
His grip on you never let up through the whole night
He was so unbelievably happy to have you back in his arms
Even while you where asleep he stared at you lovingly, tracing your face and leaving feather kisses all over
He couldnât stop himself from crying himself to sleep (from happy tears ofc)
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Tech x F!Reader
word count: 10k
description: after first meeting on kamino, you and tech seem to keep running into each other, without being able to fully indulge in each other's company. will you ever find the time to be able to tell each other of the feelings that have bloomed over the years?
warnings: not a happy ending!! death, torture (not in any great detail), blood & needles, some mentions of other medical stuff, tech brainrot I fear, don't wanna spoil it but... cx-2...
a/n: okay this was originally just gonna be a cute little fluffy thing and then I kinda went over board. it's a little more high-concept (which feels like a generous word for it) than my other oneshots but i'm pretty happy with how it turned out :) also anyone who writes tech fics regularly I salute you 𫡠it is truly not for the weak
22BBY, KAMINO
You waited patiently in the medical bay, lining up your various tools so none of them were out of place. You werenât necessarily a neat freak, it was just something to occupy your hands. You were about to see your first patient since transferring from the hospital on Coruscant, to Kamino, in an effort to help the war effort.
The other medics around you werenât new, and seemed a lot more relaxed, and sure of themselves. You had faith in your abilities as a medic, you had graduated from university into the job a number of years ago now, but somehow this felt like a lot more responsibility, looking after the men that fought for the Republic.
Your fingers were fidgeting at your sides when the door to the medical bay slid open, and a large group of clones were ushered inside by a Kaminoan. You were at the back of the room, so the clones from the front of the group were shown to the medics closest to them. As the group parted, you could see there were a group of clones in vastly different armour from their brothers, and your interest was certainly piqued.
You watched with intrigue as they got closer to you, and before you knew it, one of them was standing in front of you. You still felt nervous, but the timid look on the youthful face of this clone was enough to snap you into gear.
âHelloâ You smiled at him sweetly, gesturing to the cot next to you, âDo you want to take a seat?â
The clone didnât say anything, but obliged quickly. He was taller than many of the clones you worked on before, his hair a light auburn, and he wore goggles that were tinted a subtle yellow.
âWhatâs your name?â You asked politely.
âCT-9902, Maâamâ
The nervousness was evident in his voice, which you noted was different from the other clones, a more formal twinge and bite to the vowels.
âNo need for all that Trooper, just my name is fineâ You chuckled a little, tapping the name badge on your uniform, âand I asked for your name. What do your brothers call you?â
The clone looked to the name badge and then up to your eyes, âTechâ
âWell Tech, I understand that this is your last check-up before you graduate, is that right?â
âUh, technically, we have already graduated. We are waiting to be deployedâ He corrected you and you nodded.
âI understandâ You smiled, âIâm just going to take some of your blood, if thatâs okayâ
âOf course itâs okayâ He said matter-of-factly, âI wouldnât expect anything lessâ
You had to suppress a smirk at his observation as you took the syringe from the tray, âItâs just what they ask us to say, bedside manner and all thatâ
âAhâ He replied, a blush tinging his ears pink, âMy apologiesâ
It was hard not to find Tech adorable. He was so young and fresh-faced, somehow more so than the other recently graduated clones around the room. Perhaps it was the difference in facial structure, slightly pursed lips, or the big brown eyes that looked up at you though his goggles.
âNo needâ You waved off his apology, âItâs nice not to have to baby your patients reallyâ
Tech nodded thoughtfully, and took of his left vambrace to allow you access to the correct vein, rolling up his sleeve. You raised an eyebrow at his actions.
âYou had a lot of blood taken before?â You asked, and he looked at you puzzled.
âNoâ He replied simply, âWhy?â
âI didnât have to tell you where I was going to take it fromâ You gestured the syringe towards his now bare forearm.
âAh, wellâ He looked down at himself and back up, âI am⌠a little knowledgeable about such thingsâ
You smirked a little as you took his arm, keeping him talking while you placed the needle to his skin, âKnowledgeable huh? and why is that?â
He looked up at your face as you worked, wholly uninterested in the needle that was pressing into his arm, âI am interested in knowing about itâ
You hummed slightly in reply, drawing the blood from the clone and placing the syringe down again.
âJust a few more things to checkâ You said, taking the small torch from your belt, âWould you mind taking off your goggles for just a moment?â
The clone didnât hesitate, and pushed his goggles atop his head.
âNow, look straight aheadâ You told him, and shined the light into his eye, checking to see if his pupils were dilating properly. At some point his eyes flicked up to yours, and you were surprised by the flurry of butterflies that filled your stomach. âEyes ahead, Techâ You reminded him, and he righted himself straight away. You had to bite back your grin at his certainly interesting demeanour.
As you moved onto his other eye, you let your curiosity get the best of you, âIf you donât mind me asking, why are you and your brothers⌠a little different?â
âI do mind you asking actuallyâ He said plainly, and you were unsure if you had actually upset him, if he was kidding, or if that was just how he spoke.
âOkayâ You smiled graciously, choosing to just move on, âYou can put your goggles back on nowâ
Tech watched you carefully as he pulled down and adjusted his goggles until they were comfortable again. With your pleasant smile, it seemed that you were just being sincere and inquisitive in asking about him and his brothers, and he felt a little silly for just brushing you off.
âWe usually get seen by the Kaminoansâ Tech noted, âWhy are there civilian medics on Kamino now?â
âWe volunteeredâ You shrugged with a small smile, âCould you lie down?â
Tech once again did as you said quickly, a little too quickly this time, hitting the back of his head on the cot that was not as comfortable as he had thought. You winced a little and his cheeks flushed immediately.
âGood thing Iâm about to scan youâ You joked, âHopefully that didnât do any damageâ
Tech pointed his first finger up as he talked, âIt is highly unlikely that I would sustain any dam-â
âI know Tech, I was just kiddingâ You interrupted, and he stuttered as he looked up at you standing over him with a gentle smile
âRightâ He nodded, âOf course you do, my apologiesâ
âThereâs no need to apologiseâ You smiled, pulling down the scanner over him âStay still nowâ
You stepped back from the machine and picked up your datapad, reading over the information as the scanner picked it up. It scanned his identifying code in his wrist and your eyebrows raised at his profile. Defective, genetically enhanced intellect and cognitive functions.
âIs something wrong?â He questioned your reaction.
âNo, youâre in perfect health in factâ You answered his question, pulling the machine away so he could sit up.
âWhat is the⌠matter, then?â He asked slightly hesitantly.
âThe machine scanned your identifying codeâ You explained, unable to hold back your grin, âYou sound like a very interesting individual indeed, Techâ
Tech blushed furiously, looking away and noting that his brothers were already finished with their examinations, huddled together watching him with the widest grins he had ever seen from them. He only blushed further upon seeing them, scowling and turning back to you. You just watched him with a look of vague amusement on your face.
âWell, youâre all good to go nowâ You informed him, and he stood quickly, accidently knocking the elbow of his armour against your hip.
He was mortified. âI am so very sorryâ He spoke hurriedly, turning back towards you with wide eyes, gently holding onto your arm without even realising.
âItâs really alrightâ You replied with a chuckle, though it was a little strained.
âI didnât mean to hurt you, that is the last thing I would mean to doâ He continued, and you couldnât help but find his reaction so effortlessly charming
âI like the way you speak, Techâ You smiled, genuine happiness just taking over your face.
Tech didnât think it was possible for his face to heat up even more, but he had to clutch at the edge of his blacks and pull them away from his neck so it didnât feel like he was over heating. He didnât know what to say at all. He couldnât think of the last time he had ever been complimented by someone, let alone someone as pretty as you. He willed himself to get a grip, knowing he was just giving in to his body in allowing those kind of thoughts to fester, and he cleared his throat.
âWell, it was a pleasure to meet youâ He added your name with an emphasis, as if it was to help him remember it, âIf I werenât about to leave I would ask you to explain the functionality of this machine youâve just used on meâ
âMaybe another time?â
Tech nodded, âAnother timeâ
âGoodbye Techâ You smiled at him warmly, âIt was a pleasure to meet you tooâ
Tech nodded and turned to leave, making a beeline for his brothers, who welcomed him by teasing him mercilessly, the largest of the bunch ruffling his auburn curls. You watched them leave, and caught Tech looking back at you as he exited the room.
21BBY, KAMINO
âNew ordersâ
Before you could realise, a datapad was being thrown at you. Luckily you got your hands around it before it dropped to the floor. You looked over the screen, then up at the other medic.
âWe're not trained for thatâ You implored.
âThe GAR is running low on medics, they asked for some of us to fill the roles for nowâ They replied with a shrug, âIt's probably more interesting than being here anywayâ
You could agree with that.
âWhat squad are you with?â The other medic asked, and you looked back down, tapping on your name.
âClone Force 99â You informed them. The name rung a bell from somewhereâŚ
âNever heard of themâ The medic replied, âGuess you'll find out tomorrowâ
Having stayed up late investigating the group of clones you were instructed to be joining, it was no wonder that you were bouncing on your toes with a beaming smile as their ship came hurtling into the hangar. You were impressed by their success rate, not falling short of perfect, but it was from realising exactly who was a part of this team that made you so eager.
You would be lying to say you hadn't thought of Tech a few times since first meeting him. With him being your first patient here on Kamino, it was hard not to compare the other clones to him, and while you had no issue with the other clones, you had not enjoyed your time with them as much as that first encounter.
The ship was set down on the ground, and soon the small batch of clones emerged from inside, looking particularly disinterested, and your smile faltered. They huddled together outside, talking amongst themselves, some of them leaning on the side of the ship.
You walked over slowly, feeling a little more hesitant than you had initially been. You couldn't see Tech, as he was behind his brothers, but you recognised the rest of them by their differing appearances.
You cleared your throat, gaining the attention of the clones, and offering them a small smile. They turned to look at you, apart from Tech who's face was buried in a datapad.
âHello, I think I've been assigned to your squadâ You spoke, and that's when Tech's head snapped up, his eyes meeting yours.
He looked a bit older than the last time you had seen him. His face seemed slimmer, his cheekbones slightly more hollowed out and defined, his jaw strong, but his widened eyes had the memorable sparkle in them all the same.
âWe don't need you hereâ One of the others said, earning a elbow in the ribs as you looked up at him.
âShut up Crossâ The elbow-er hissed quietly at the elbow-ee, âIgnore him, it's nice to meet youâŚâ
You told the man your name.
âWell, I'm Hunterâ He introduced himself, and you gave him a nod of acknowledgement.
Crosshair rolled his eyes, âWhy are we being made to have a medic?â
âI'm not sureâ You shrugged, âI wasn't really told all too much about itâ
Crosshair seemed almost pleased that you were just in the dark as them, then grunted, pushing his way past you and onto the ship.
Hunter huffed, noting your slightly offended expression, âSorry about Crosshair, he's in a mood. We just weren't⌠expecting this, is allâ
You chewed the inside of your cheek, âMe neitherâ
âWell anyway, let's get goingâ He walked up the ship's steps.
âI'm Wreckerâ The large clone introduced himself with a warm smile, which you were inclined to return.
You held out your hand to him, and he took it with a crushing strength. âNice to meet you⌠Wreckerâ You managed to peep out despite the force of his grip.
Wrecker followed his commanding officer up the stairs afterwards, and you were about to follow after, but realised Tech was still stood firmly in his place. You looked back at him and he was still staring at you.
âYou coming Tech?â
His eyes went a little wider.
âYou know who I am?â He said, his voice holding a clear tone of surprise, though it was nowhere near as timid as it had been the last time you saw him.
Your cheeks flushed a little, embarrassed that he had clearly made more of an impression on you than you had on him.
âOh, you don't remember meeting?â You asked, keeping your voice even.
âNo, no, I rememberâ He confirmed, âI just didn't think you would remember meâ
You gave him a puzzled look, a smile growing on your face, âOf course I remember youâ
âCan you two wrap it up, we're leavingâ Crosshair shouted from inside, and you chuckled slightly nervously, walking up the ramp.
Tech was still frozen in place for a moment. He hadn't been excited to be getting a medic, having ample training and knowledge of the subject himself, but now, he couldn't help but feel a little exhilarated that it was you that would be joining them.
The few times that the squad had been back to Kamino since graduation, Tech had found himself wandering down to the medical bay. He hadn't talked to you, he was far too nervous to do that, but he had watched you work through the little window in the door. You had almost caught him one time, and that's when he decided to stop doing it, realising how strange he was behaving.
He walked up the stairs of the Marauder, a little on edge, a little nervous, but a little more happy than he had been when they landed.
21BBY, MARAUDER
Tech was staring. At you, to be specific. Once again.
His brain worked at a klick a minute, and yet, whatever you had just said to him had him stumped. His mouth hung open a little, his eyes slightly narrowed and his brow furrowed deeply. He wasn't saying anything. For once, nothing was going on in his head. It was like his brain had frozen, unable to process any new thoughts. He was confused.
âTech?â You said hesitantly, drawing him from his stupor.
âI'm sorry, I don't think I heard you correctlyâ He replied assuredly.
You hesitated a little before asking again, âI asked you if you think I should leaveâ
That's what he thought you'd said.
âI donât understand your meaningâ He dropped the tool from his hand and stood up, facing you and trying to read every movement you made.
You felt a little uneasy under his scrutiny, but continued nonetheless, âLike⌠leave the teamâ
Tech still couldn't understand.
âWhy are you asking me this?â He asked, his brow furrowing even deeper.
âWell, I figured you would give me an honest answerâ You shrugged. Tech was nothing if not upfront, and it was one of the many things you liked about him.
âNo, I mean⌠why are you asking this at all?â He surveyed your reaction to his words, your throat constricting as you swallowed and subtly wiped you hands on your trousers.
âUh⌠I suppose I don't feel that my presence is very necessaryâ
âI don't see how you could possibly think thatâ Tech replied, âYou have a very useful skillsetâ
âWell, I know that Hunter doesn't exactly love having me around, and Crosshair even less soâ You argued, âAnd my âuseful skillsetâ hardly gets used around hereâ
Tech didn't know what to say. There was something nagging at him from the depths of his consciousness, urging him to tell you to stay. He found you exceedingly interesting, and enjoyed hearing about your medical exploits from before joining their squad. He always asked under the guise of learning new information, but his brothers all understood, far more than him, that it wasn't just knowledge that kept him asking you questions.
At this point, you had been with the Bad Batch for a few months, and - as you were explaining to Tech - you had not felt very useful at all. They rarely got injured, but even when they did, they would mostly refuse your help. Particularly Hunter. Crosshair had not warmed to you at all, though Wrecker did seem to enjoy your company. Tech was kind, in his own way. He always listened to you attentively, and as both of you were reasonably light sleepers, you had often found yourselves staying up together between missions, talking about a great many things. He seemed interested to know about medical procedures, but expanding his knowledge was only making you more and more obsolete within the group.
âI'm sorry if we've made you feel unwelcomeâ He said, and your gaze softened a little.
âIt's okay, I know none of you really wanted me here in the first placeâ
âThatâsâŚâ Tech tried to find the words, âI would not say that is entirely factual. Though if you would like to leave, I think you shouldâ
You couldnât help but feel a little disheartened by Techâs words, but you did come to him for the truth after all, you couldnât be mad now.
âAlright, I'll notify the medical team back on Kamino thenâ
You walked away from Tech, and his brain began working, screaming at him to ask you to stay. He pressed his lips into a hard line, trying to come up with something, anything that he could say to make you stay, but all of the possibilities floating around in his head were jumbled and he couldnât make sense of anything. He shook his head, trying to focus himself, but you had already walked away, already set on leaving.
âGet away from meâ
You were crouched over Crosshairâs crumpled form, who was bent over and holding the wound to his side in the co-pilot's chair of the Marauder.
âCrosshair, I'm only trying to helpâ You insisted, trying to tend to him.
âI don't need your kriffing help, back offâ He hissed, snatching the medkit from you.
You sighed deeply, taking a step back, âYou know this is the reason I'm here right? To help when things like this happen?â
âWe don't need you!â He shouted, âWe never wanted you here, and we certainly don't nowâ
âCrosshair, calm downâ Hunter scolded lightly, and when you turned to him you could see the look on his face, where you knew he agreed with his brother but was holding his tongue.
âWell good for you, I'll be gone soonâ You mumbled as you stormed away, your eyes welling up instinctively from someone raising their voice at you.
You felt entirely useless.
You became a medic because you wanted to help people, and you joined the GAR medic team because you wanted to help clones specifically, but here you were, surrounded by clones, and they didnt want your help. It was hard not to feel downcast about it.
You understood Crosshair's contempt to a certain level, but did he really have to be so mean?
Tech could hear your soft sobs from outside the door to the cargo hold. He knocked firmly, and heard you sniff before telling him to enter.
When he saw the rosy tint of your nose and cheeks and the tears running down them, he realised that he had no idea how to comfort you in this moment. He stared at you as you stared up at him, waiting for him to say something.
âI'm sorryâ He said unsurely, and you gave him a sad smile.
âIt's fine Techâ
âI don't really think it is âfineâ. I am very unimpressed with the way my brothers have behaved towards youâ He asserted.
Looking down at you, your knees tucked into your chest and biting into your bottom lip to stop it quivering, he was reminded that he really didn't want you to leave, and even further, he realised the true reason why. He finally mustered up the courage to ask you to stay.
âI know that you're not happy at the moment, being with this team. I⌠I wish it were different, I wish we could have made you more comfortable. I am sure that if you stayed for a little longer and I talked to my brothers that-â
âI've heard from Kamino already, they want me backâ You said softly, cutting him off before he could even say it.
âAh, I seeâ He paused, then turned away âI shall leave you to-â
âTechâ
He turned back to you, and you offered him a soft, genuine smile, âI appreciate it, thank youâ
He just nodded to you and left, the nasty feeling of rejection gnawing at his brain.
As the Marauder touched down in the hangar on Kamino, there was the most unpleasant sensation stirring in your gut. This was the right choice, you didn't fit in here, and you wanted to actually make a difference. Despite knowing all this, you couldn't help but feel strange, and descending the shipâs stairs felt like regressing, going backwards instead of forwards.
You turned to look at the clones as you left. Each of them, apart from Crosshair, gave a nod and a goodbye and walked back inside. Aside from Tech, of course.
He followed you down the steps, and it was the look on his face that placed that feeling in your gut. It was the reluctancy to leave behind this man that you had grown so fond of over the past few months, this man who listened to you and made you feel wanted despite the rest of the squad's insistency to not.
It had only been a few months, but you realised that you had grown very close with the clone before you, and your heart ached. You realised the depth of the feelings you harboured for him, that it was something you had never felt for another.
âI'll miss you Tech, it's been nice getting to know youâ You spoke honestly, realising this could be the last time you saw him.
Tech sighed almost imperceptibly, âI agree, I shall miss⌠learning about medical procedures from youâ
You couldn't help but laugh, âWell next time you're on Kamino, swing by the medical bay and I'll be happy to answer your questionsâ
âAre you making fun of me?â Tech suddenly resembled the shy cadet that you had met the first time.
âNoâ You smiled, âI'd always be happy to talk to youâ
Tech didn't know what the correct thing to say was, so he said nothing. He just stared at you, once again, his mind fighting for anything to say once more. There was nobody that could send his mind spiralling like you did, and it seemed that you didn't even try to.
You smiled despite his slightly awkward silence, and stepped forwards, raising to your toes to plant a soft kiss to his cheek, âGoodbye Techâ
Tech could feel his face burning, from the blush that overtook him, and the feeling of your lips searing into his skin, rendering him completely speechless. As you walked away, he brought a hand to his face where you had kissed him and traced the area with his finger lightly.
âUgh, I'm going to throw upâ Crosshair asserted from the doorway of the ship.
âShhhhâ Wrecker pushed him and watched Tech swoon over you with a large grin.
Tech paid them no mind. He just watched you leave, a mix of emotions overtaking him. A frown settled on his face as your figure disappeared into the facility, but the feel of your lips on his cheek brought a warm feeling to his chest.
19BBY, ANAXES
âHey Baar'ur'ika!â You heard the unmistakable voice of Jesse call out to you as he jogged over to the medbay in the Anaxes base.
âHe doesn't call me that you knowâ Kix asserted from beside you, and you chuckled.
âDo you want him to?â You asked earnestly, but with an amused twinkle in your eye.
âThat's besides the point" He grumbled, earning another laugh from you.
âMe and Kix are being sent on a mission with the Captainâ Jesse said as he came to a stop in front of you.
âWe are?â Kix asked
Jesse nodded, âSome special squad is joining us apparentlyâ
âSpecial?â
âYeah, I'm not sure why though, you wanna come find out?â He grinned, gesturing his head towards the landing strip.
âCan't. I've got all these reports to sign offâ You sighed, holding up your stack of flimsi.
âAlright, we'll see you later on then Baar'ur'ikaâ Jesse smiled, ruffling your hair.
You huffed, putting the lose strands of it back into place, âSee you laterâ
You took up your stylus again, clicking it absentmindedly as you read over the reports.
You had been reassigned to the 501st only a few weeks after leaving clone force 99, and you fit in so much better here. It seemed that the clones of the 501st actually wanted to get along with you, and they always included you in their shenanigans, reluctantly on your end. You got along with all of them really well, but Kix and Jesse were the ones you were closest with. You worked most closely with Kix, so that was only natural, but Jesse was certainly the most friendly to you from the outset.
You came across a report with an error, and checked the next piece of flimsi, and the same error had been made. You then leafed through all of the pages and realised the error had been made on every single one of them, and you groaned loudly. It then occurred to you that maybe you were the one making the error, and so you grabbed the stack of pages, rushing out the door to try and grab Kix before he left for his mission.
Luckily when you got to the landing strip, him and Jesse were still standing there with the Captain. You rushed over to them, almost dropping a page on the way.
âKix, can I just ask you about somethingâ You spoke, and the huddle of clones turned to look at you.
âAh Baar'ur'ika, you came to investigate after allâ Jesse slung an arm around your shoulders with a grin.
âI didn't come to investigate, I-â
Your voice seemingly stopped working as you turned your head and locked eyes with the specific ones that had always managed to draw you in and leave you speechless. Those wonderful brown eyes that always widened when they met yours
âTechâ You couldn't hold back the smile that grew on your face.
Tech spoke your name, and Jesse stifled a laugh when he felt a shiver run up your back.
You were absolutely mesmerised by the man in front of you. It had been just over a year since you had seen him, and in that time it seemed that he had only got even more beautiful. Your heart felt as if it had been set alight, the emotions that accompanied seeing Tech returning as if you had only said goodbye to him yesterday.
âWe're here tooâ Wrecker laughed, snapping your gaze away from the spectacled clone.
âHey Wreckerâ You grinned, and he gave you a wink in return.
âHey Hunter, Crosshairâ You addressed the last two clones.
âHey, it's good to see youâ Hunter replied, a small genuine smile directed towards you.
Crosshair didn't say anything, but you hadn't expected him to.
âYou know these guys?â Jesse asked, squeezing your shoulder.
âUh, yeah. I was with them for a little whileâ You replied, looking to the floor for a moment before realising why you were here. âOh! Kix, I just need to ask about thisâ
Tech watched you talking with the other medic and flipping through the pieces of flimsi as everyone else fell back into their previous conversation. His eyes lingered on the arm slung around your shoulders, and the way you placed your own hand on the shoulder of the other clone. You were clearly comfortable around these clones, and Tech's jealousy fizzled away to a form of sadness as he realised that you were so much happier with these clones than you had been with them. With him.
You settled the matter with Kix, and turned towards Tech once more, stepping forward so you stood in front of him.
âHow are you?â You asked, clasping your hands behind your back.
âI am wellâ Tech replied flatly, not giving away an inch of the emotions that swirled within him, âHow about yourself?â
âI'm good yeahâ You smiled, âI've been here for a few rotationsâ
âWith the 501st?â Tech asked.
âOh no, just on Anaxes, I've been with these guys since⌠well, a couple weeks after I left youâ
Something about the sentence pulled at Tech's heart. These clones were so lucky. They had got to spend all of this time by your side, all this time that he had spent with you only as a memory in his head, your absence taunting him constantly.
âI- Uh- I am glad to see you are doing well, you seem⌠happier, than last I saw youâ He observed, pulling a small laugh from you.
âMaybe a bit. I do miss having someone to rant to thoughâ You smirked a little at him, and despite his heated cheeks, he returned the gesture.
âI don't know that I'd call it ârantingâ, you were always very precise with your words, very⌠intentionalâ He complimented you in a way that only made sense to both of you.
You hummed in response, âWell how's this for intentional - I've missed you Techâ
Tech couldn't hold back the small contented sigh that escaped him.
âI have missed you tooâ He admitted, indulging in losing himself in your eyes, inspecting ever fleck of colour.
âHey Tech! We've gotta get goingâ Hunter shouted over to him. Neither one if you had realised the others had moved away.
Tech scowled inwardly, turning his attention back to you, âI was⌠I should like to ask you about biopsy methods, I am unsure of safe practiceâ
âMaybe another time?â You asked hopefully.
He nodded, a small smile quirking the edges of his lips, âAnother timeâ
In a bout of confidence and rising adrenaline, Tech found himself leaning down and pressing a short kiss to your cheek, as you had done to him last time. Your mouth hung open a little as he then immediately walked off and joined his brothers on the gunship, surprised that he had actually done such a thing.
âBye Baar'ur'ikaâ Jesse called teasingly, and you were snapped from your daze.
âBye di'kutâ You called, rolling your eyes as you clutched your flimsi close to your chest.
Tech's eyes locked with yours as the doors to the gunship closed, and it made your chest ache. You could still feel the warmth of his breath, the gentle scratch of his stubble, the softness of his lips. It was all too much and not enough, and watching him leave hurt more than you thought it would.
18BBY, CORUSCANT
You sat at your makeshift desk, your head in your hand and flicking through your datapad to survey the latest news. Things certainly had become bleak since the rise of the Empire.
You heard your name called, and your head snapped up to meet the golden eyes of Senator Chuchi.
âSenator, what can I do for you?â You asked, sitting up straight.
âPlease, it's Riyo, and it's more what I can do for youâ She said with a small smirk lifting the edges of her lips.
âOhâ You said, your eyebrows drawing together in confusion, âWhat do you mean?â
âThere's a new clone joining us, I believe you know himâ She replied, her smirk growing.
You immediately stood from your seat, âIs it who I think it is?â
âPerhapsâ The Senator shrugged coyly.
You couldn't hold back your grin, âWhere is he?â
âJust in the hangarâ She nodded in the direction.
âThank you Sen- Riyoâ You said quickly, rushing from behind your desk towards the hangar.
You had known that Echo was alive, but this was the first time you would actually be seeing him since before the mission to the citadel where he had been presumed dead, and boy was he a sight for sore eyes.
âEcho!â You exclaimed excitedly, drawing the attention of the clone as you ran towards him across the hangar.
The clone's eyes lit up as he took in the sight of you, and stepped forwards, taking you in a tight hug when you crashed into him.
âIt's good to see youâ He said with a smile as he pulled away.
âIt's even better to see youâ You grinned, âI was so upset I didn't get to see you after you were rescuedâ
âI heardâ He smirked, looking over his shoulder at Rex.
You looked over at the blonde clone too, and saw that he was watching on with three other familiar clones.
âWoahâ You couldn't stop yourself from saying, âI heard you were hanging around with this lot nowadaysâ
Once your eyes found Tech, you couldn't bring yourself to look away. He seemed to be hanging back a bit, his eyes once again a little wide behind his goggles.
âHey!â Wrecker said excitedly, earning a small laugh from you.
âHey Wrecker, hey Hunterâ You smiled at the clones.
âHiâ The Sergeant smiled at you.
Wrecker then pushed Tech forwards, and you smirked a little as he glared at his larger brother.
âHey Tech, how's it going?â You asked, and he brought his eyes back to you.
In a way he couldn't define, you seemed more mature than when he had last saw you. Perhaps it was the tiredness he saw in your eyes, or perhaps it was the few small scars that adorned your skin, clearly earned in battle. The thought of you sustaining injuries made his stomach lurch, so he tried not to think of it.
The way you were looking at him was so familiar. Your smile was kind and easy, gracing your features in a way that was so uniquely you. The light crinkle around your eyes and lips, the small glint in your eye, the way one side of your mouth was more contorted than the other. Tech was certainly glad to see you.
âUh⌠it is going wellâ Tech replied unsurely after a moment, and you smirked a little bit at his answer.
It was intoxicating to be in Tech's presence once more. Everytime you were around him, things felt a little different, like there was something in the air that made everyone else look a bit more fuzzy as he was brought into focus. It didn't ever help that he was seemingly always getting so much more handsome every time you saw him.
His auburn locks were a little longer at the moment, no doubt because his biggest priority whilst on the run from the Empire was not his hair, but you weren't complaining. His hair framed his angelic face so perfectly, his features undeniably sharper and more mature, though his eyes were still as soft and gentle as they had always been, with a startling youthfulness that he couldn't seem to shake.
âIt's good to see you guys, I'm glad to see you're not⌠with the Empireâ You said a little hesitantly, then noticed the small blonde girl that was hiding behind Hunter.
He noticed you looking at her and introduced her to you.
âIt's nice to meet you Omegaâ You smiled, kneeling down to get on her level.
âIt's nice to meet you too, though I have already heard of you since Tech talks about you a lotâ She said matter-of-factly.
âIs that right?â You smirked, looking up at Tech, whose cheeks were positively burning.
âI think I may have mentioned your existence a few timesâ He spoke flatly, but the edge of squeakiness gave him away.
The idea of Tech talking about you, or even just casually mentioning your existence in a passing comment, was enough to set your heart alight. In whatever manner it had truly been, he had at least always remembered you in some way, and that brought the smile to your face.
Hunter then said goodbye to you, and then to Echo, and retreated to the ship. Tech did the same, but instead walked towards you, stopping just in front of you. You had to crane your neck a little to look up at him in the pleasantly close quarters. Had he always been this tall?
âI-â He just looked at you for a while, and you smiled at him, waiting patiently for him to continue. âI have many questions to ask youâ He finished.
You chuckled, âMaybe another time?â
Tech couldn't help but sigh, the familiar words making his heart ache, âAnother time, yesâ
âI think I owe you something nowâ You said with a small grin, trying to ease the light crease in his brow.
Tech watched your expression change cautiously, âOwe me? I don't think soâ
âI mean, if you don't want it then-â
âWell, I must admit, I am curious nowâ
You laughed at his interjection, smiling at him fondly, âAlright, here you go thenâ
You placed a hand on his cheek and brought your lips to the other one, placing a lingering kiss to his cheekbone. Tech closed his eyes at the bittersweet feeling of it, and opened them to look back into yours. He placed his own hand to your cheek before the moment could end, and gently rubbed his thumb back and forth, his eyes searching yours. He took a quick glance over your shoulder and saw his brothers all watching him, waiting for him so they could leave, and he chewed the corner of his lip a little as he looked back to you.
âOne of these days, I'll give you a proper kissâ He said quietly, making your heart skip a beat, âIf you'd like thatâ
âI'd like that very muchâ You replied quickly, the grin on your face only growing.
Tech cracked his own small smile. âAnother time thenâ He whispered, and looked over your features for a second longer, before placing a soft kiss to your forehead and walking away.
You watched him leave with an undeniable fondness swelling in your heart. You had felt a certain affection for Tech from the very beginning, and the thrill of the idea of him returning the feelings that you harboured for him brought forth the newfound nature of said feelings.
It went deeper than just liking him in a special way. This emotion you felt when you looked at him, or when you thought of him, was different. The way your heart stopped when he looked at you, the way your breath hitched when he spoke your name, you knew it was different. This was far more profound than a silly crush. The longevity of your affections had caused them to develop into something deeper, more serious.
Something like love.
17BBY, REBELLION BASE
âI need to talk to youâ
You looked up from cleaning your workstation and saw Echo striding towards you, determination in his eyes that seemed otherwise tired and possibly even sad.
âWhat's the matter?â You asked, rushing over to meet him in the middle.
He opened his mouth, trying to find the words, but finding them hard to say, to admit even to himself.
âI⌠was just on a mission with the batchâ He started.
âOh how are they? How's Tech?â You ask, your mood lifted just a little.
Echo's heart ached, his eyebrows pinching together as his lips formed a hard line. His eyes began to well up slightly and he blinked a few times to rid himself of the tears.
âI'm so sorryâ He whispered.
âWhy are you sorry?â You asked cautiously.
âTech⌠He-â Echo swallowed, âHe didn't make it, he fellâ
The words hit directly into your heart, and you could almost feel it collapse in on itself.
âWh- What?â You whimpered out, almost hoping that you had heard him wrong, or that it was just a cruel joke of some kind.
âHe⌠He sacrificed himself for the squad, so that they could liveâ
You couldn't say anything, couldn't breathe, couldn't move, couldn't think. The only thing you could do, was let the feeling of everything crashing down wash over you. It truly felt as if the hinges of your life, the certain something that seemingly held it up, had come loose.
You heard Echo say your name, but it was distant, like he was in another room. Your knees slowly gave in, and he grabbed you as you fell to the ground. He held you in his arms as you cried silently, your tears soaking through his clothes. He stroked your hair comfortingly, whispering assurances about how it was going to be fine, that everything would be alright.
âI never got to tell him, Echoâ You choked out eventually, cutting through his smooth words.
âTell him what?â He asked tenderly, knowing all too well what it was.
âThat I⌠love himâ You said, and a small sob finally escaped you.
Somehow it felt even harder to admit now that he was gone. Your love didn't feel as if it was in the past tense. It felt present, current, and that's why the sudden grief stung so much - the love was still lingering, and it didn't feel as if it was planning on leaving anytime soon. After all, it had managed to survive not seeing him for long periods of time, and to your broken heart, it felt the same.
17BBY, IMPERIAL PRISION
You surfaced slowly into consciousness, your eyes trying to open, but to no avail. You could feel your wrists caught in restraints, held above you on either side of your head. You tried to remember what had happened, but everything was fuzzy. You were⌠at the base. The Bad Batch were there, then⌠You were attacked? You were running with⌠Howzer? and thenâŚ
You couldn't recall anything past that point, but when your eyes finally opened you had a little idea of what could have happened. Sat opposite you with their arms crossed, was a man dressed head to toe in black armour, like the operative that Rex had captured before the attack on the base. He began talking, but it wasn't initially intelligible.
You shook your head to try and clear the brain fog a little, âWha-â
âTell me where the girl isâ He demanded. The sound of his voice was so eerily familiar, but it was heavily modified by his helmet.
âGirl?â You questioned through your delirious state, turning your wrists in their restraints. Naturally, you knew who he was talking about, but you weren't going to give up that easily.
âOmega. I saw you talking with her, I know you know her and her brothers. Now, tell me, where would they have taken her?â
You pressed your mouth into a hard line, you could hardly deny it if he had seen you. âI won't talkâ
He sighed, standing up and walking over so he stood in front of you, âI don't need to hurt youâŚâ He said your name, and a chill ran up your spine. How could he know your name?
âThat's not my nameâ You narrowed your eyes, looking into his visor.
âYou cannot lie to me, Cyareâ He spoke, and ran a hand over your cheek, âIt would serve you well to tell the truth, it would be a shame to have to ruin this pretty faceâ
You looked over the man's appearance, for any semblance of individuality, but there was nothing.
âWho are you?â You asked.
âNo one that concerns you anymoreâ The man chuckled, stepping back from you, âNow, tell me, what has become of the defective clones?â
You clenched your jaw in defiance, refusing to spill anything without even a little bit if incentive. You were clearly in some kind of imperial facility, but you weren't in any immediate danger, so you would stay stubborn for as long as you could.
The man spoke your name in a warning tone, his head tilted to the side, âI need you to tell meâ
âI wont tell you anythingâ You spat back at him. He was irritatingly calm and collected, something you had not experienced from the Empire before.
He folded his hands behind his back, humming thoughtfully, âYou will. Perhaps, another timeâ
With that, he turned and pressed the button on the door panel to leave.
You let your head hang down again, letting out a deep breath. If you weren't so tired you were sure that you'd be more panicked, but as your eyes closed and you let the exhaustion take over, you couldn't find it in yourself to be scared. Your body ached, and you needed it to rest if you wanted any chance of getting out of here.
The mysterious operative returned often over the next few days, pushing for answers but always leaving empty handed. He would always threaten violence, but had not touched you once since caressing your face in that first encounter.
He was now stood opposite you as he always was, making another empty threat about how you would be hurt if you didn't answer him.
You rolled your eyes, âAre you ever going to hold true to that promise?â
He stayed silent, and you laughed a little.
âCome on, I dare you, hurt meâ You urged, jutting your chin out.
You were so tired of this, and he was obviously worn out by your defiance as well.
âI told youâ He spoke quietly, âThe last thing I would ever mean to do is hurt youâ
Your heart stopped, and your eyes went wide as the familiar voice finally placed itself, hearing the same words that it had said all those years ago.
âIt can't be, you-â
The man reached up and took off his helmet with a short hiss. He looked different, his face scarred and weary, his goggles nowhere to be seen, but it was undeniably him. The only thing that could have convinced you otherwise was the fact that his eyes didn't have the youthful sparkle they always seemed to in the past. Instead, they looked tired, completely worn down, and cold.
âTechâ You whispered, your heart beating impossibly fast in your chest.
He stepped closer, âI do not go by that name anymoreâ
On instinct, your eyes began to water, and a single tear ran down your cheek, âWhat are you doing here? You- You're with the Empire?â
He didn't reply, but he took off a glove and brought his hand to your face to wipe your tear away. You closed your eyes, and he let his hand remain on your cheek, rubbing your cheekbone lightly.
âI need you to tell me what I want to knowâ He spoke so softly now, and you opened your eyes and look up into his. They were still so inviting despite their unfamiliar coldness.
âTech, why are you doing this?â
He didn't reply again, but brought his other hand to your cheek and held your face gently, his own just in front of yours, âTell meâ
âI can'tâ You choked out, brow furrowed as he ignored your questions.
âPlease, Cyare. They will hurt you if you don't talkâ
âLet themâ You said firmly, tugging your face from his hands, âI won't betray your brothersâ
Tech just watched you for a moment before opening his mouth again.
âSo be itâ
He put his helmet back on and left the room, leaving you alone with the revelation that the man you had been in love with was not only alive, but under the control of the Empire, the very thing you had dedicated your life to defeating.
The following day, when you lifted your head to see Tech enter your cell, he was now joined by an Imperial officer, and a floating droid that had a thin needle protruding from it. You understood all too well what this droid was, what it was used for, and you pulled at your restraints, a string of grunts escaping your lips.
âResisting will do you no goodâ The Imperial officer chuckled, standing before you as the droid positioned itself to your left.
Tech couldn't watch. He kept his head up, appearing to be looking straight through you, but he had to close his eyes. Your screams were enough. You were resisting at every turn, and Tech just wished you would relent so that he wouldn't have to listen to the awful sounds that escaped you. The sounds that cut deep through his conditioning and hit his very soul, causing his chest to ache.
âPlease, Tech. Make them stopâ You cried hopelessly, and he squeezed his eyes closed even further, trying to block everything out.
To you, he looked cold, unmoving, and even after the Imperial had left with the droid as you had not let anything slip, he didn't budge at all.
After a few minutes of quiet, the only sound that was heard being your heavy breathing, he stepped forwards, taking off his helmet and letting it drop to the floor. He reached up and let you down from your restraints, catching your body as it fell down, limp with exhaustion. He knelt on the floor, his hand on the back of your head as it rested in his lap.
Your eyes fluttered open to see his face. He looked undeniably remorseful, and his eyes had a little amount of that special spark that they used to. You reached up and touched his face, causing his eyes to close with a shaky breath.
âWhat have they done to you Tech?â You whispered, your throat raw from shouting.
He didn't speak, but his heart clenched in his chest, every word you spoke bringing him further from the conditioning he had been subjected to to make him the way he was.
âHow you could you let them do this to your brothers? To me? Do you not care about me at all?â
His eyes were now glassy when he opened them and looked down at you. He leant down and brought his forehead to yours, âI care for you more than you knowâ
Your tears were streaming down your face, âThen why are you doing this?â
Looking so deeply into your teary eyes, something in him finally snapped. He had a moment of intense clarity, fighting through his conditioning and realising the severity of his actions, of who he now was, who he had been forced to become.
He helped you stand before tying you back up in your restraints, much to your confusion.
You were sobbing now, your body and mind heavy with exhaustion, âTech, please. Please stop thisâ
âI will come back for you, Cyareâ He whispered, bringing his forehead back to yours with a hand on the back of your head, âI will get you out of here, I promiseâ
He stepped back, and was about to put his helmet back on, but he looked up to you once more.
âI am so very sorryâ
You saw a tear slip from his eye, and he then placed his helmet on his head, leaving you alone once more.
Holding true to his promise, Tech returned that night. He unclipped your restraints, and you crumbled to your knees.
âCome on Cyar'ika, I'm going to get you out of hereâ He said gently, helping you to stand.
You tried to get a good footing, but your legs were too weak, and you fell into him. Without needing to be told, he picked you up, slinging an arm behind your back and the other under your knees. You rested your hands on his chest, looking up at his helmeted face and feeling unsure about his motivations. You were too tired to inquire though, so you just leaned your head against his shoulder and let him take you wherever he was going.
Tech carried you through the corridors of the prison, looking around corners and making sure to take the route where there would be the least guards. He constantly made sure you were still with him, as you kept slipping in and out of consciousness, so he'd place his fingers against your pulse point.
He slammed his hand into the door panel, and entered the elevator that would take you to the surface. The doors slid closed and he looked down at you, and behind his mask, he couldn't help but smile.
You looked so peaceful, so calm, so⌠beautiful.
For the first time, he let himself think of the future. He would get you out of here, and then he'd be free to think about his future. Maybe he'd re-join his brothers on Pabu, maybe⌠you would come with him. He hoped you could forgive him for the mistakes he'd made.
The doors opened, and Tech stepped out, pacing quickly across the landing platform to the nearest ship. Before he could make it there though, a bright light was shone on the pair of you from above.
âTrooper, put the prisoner downâ A voice spoke through a loudspeaker, and he held you tightly in defiance.
He continued towards the transport, but was stopped in his place as blaster fire ripped through the air. His leg gave way as one of the shots grazed him, and he collapsed onto his knee, keeping you close to his chest so you wouldnât hit the ground. He heard you let out a strangled gasp, and his heart sunk to his feet.
He pulled back from you, and sure enough, a blaster bolt had ripped straight into your chest.
He began panicking instantly, his breath quick and ragged, his heart stuttering and beating at an uneven pace. He let you rest in his lap, looking up to him through half lidded eyes that told him what he already knew to be true.
âNoâ He said assuredly, âYouâre fine, youâre okayâ
âTechâ You whispered.
âEverything will be fineâ He bit into his bottom lip, completely in denial of what was happening.
âTechâ You said more firmly, though your voice was croaky, âItâs okayâ
âIt is not okay!â He exclaimed, tears spilling from his eyes that had quickly welled up.
He just watched you in disbelief, now unable to control the sobs that left his mouth. He had never cried so hard at anything in his life, but right now it felt as if everything was ending when it had only barely just begun.
âI'm so sorry Cyare, for everythingâ He whispered, his heart aching when you gave him a half-hearted smile.
âI know Tech, I knowâ You said breathlessly, the feeling of the blaster bolt to your heart ripping any strength from you.
Tech held your body close to him as the life slipped from you.
âIt shouldn't have been like this, I should've protected youâ He sobbed into your chest.
You pulled his head back and hooked your fingers under the edge of his helmet, taking it off his head so you could look into his eyes. You placed your hand on the side of his scarred cheek, and he leaned into it savouring your warm touch while he still could.
âIt's okay Tech, I forgive youâ
He didn't even think, he didnât want to. Instead he just brought his lips to yours, the salty taste of his tears finding your tongue. The kiss was perfect, yet so bittersweet. It was something you had both waited years for, but now it would be one of the last moments you would ever share together. Tech kissed you so fervently, pouring every inch of his being into you, connecting his soul to yours, and in return you gave everything you had, even as it was slipping away.
He didnât want it to end, and neither did you, but you knew your time was limited, and you had something you needed to say. You had thought that you had missed your chance before, and youâd be damned if you missed it now, in your final moments.
âTechâ You whispered, pulling away from him and looking into his glassy eyes, âI love youâ
He let out a choked sob and brought his forehead to yours, âI love you too Cyarâika, I always willâ
His forehead rested against yours as you slipped away. He was whispering apologies, his eyes closed, unable to look into your eyes and see the light leave them. After a few moments, your hand fell from his face, and that's when he knew you were gone.
Tech held you close to him for a moment longer before his blood began boiling with rage. He laid your lifeless body against the ground, closing your eyes and making sure you could be comfortable even in death.
He stood, a flame burning inside of him that spread throughout his limbs, urging his fingers to find the pair of blasters that sat at his hip. He unholstered them just as blaster fire once more resumed. He dodged what he could, shooting the stormtroopers that closed in on him and depleting their numbers single-handedly, but his luck was eventually going to run out, and he knew that.
The first shot was to his shoulder, sending him stumbling backwards, but he fought through the searing pain and continued knocking down the soldiers. The second shot placed itself in his knee and he cried out as it gave way and he fell to his other knee, still fighting for his life. The third and fourth shots were the true nail in the coffin, both of them finding his chest and ripping him open as you had been. Even though he had armour, it was not enough to withstand two blaster bolts to the heart.
He fell forwards, his body sprawled on the floor unceremoniously. He lifted his head just a little to look towards your body. He grasped ahead of him and found purchase on your hand, still warm as if you were there comforting him through death as he had for you.
He laid down on his back as he saw his life flashing before his eyes, your hand clasped in his, and he mourned the life that could have been. Perhaps in another life, another time, things would have ended differently.
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