#hi lexie did u miss me

[lovekindled]

“  well, i don't. ” his feelings for her were unwavering, survived each disappointment and rejection with ease. perhaps it had been easier before, only watching from afar and dreaming about could but would never be. to dream of her touch and fantasize about what it would feel like for camila to love him back, nothing more than wishful thinking. the illusion becoming a reality had ignited a sense of hope inside him that he never thought possible, something that dissipated just as quickly. it had been easier because eddie didn't know that her actual touch felt a thousand times better, that having her close was the only time his life ever made sense. still, if one night together was everything she ever gave him, it was more than enough. more than he probably deserved.

it's overwhelming, how much he loves her, how much it hurts to know that she'll never love him back. her touch scorches, and he has to fight the urge to break free from her grasp. panic seizes him, because he can feel his own throat closing up, each concealed emotion threatening to resurface, and selfishly, he didn't want her to see how pathetic he actually was. “  cami. ” voice is hoarse from the effort of keeping his own emotions at bay, from watching her tears fall silently and knowing they're his fault. a gentle hand is pressed against her cheek, his thumb wiping away the tears. “  of course not. you never have to worry about that. ” he means every word. “  i'll be in your life as long as you'll have me, camila. i promise. ”

continued from here.

never   had   she   ever   wanted   anyone   to   get   hurt.     surely   not   by   her   own   hand.     but   mistakes   had   been   made  —  billy   broke   her   heart   one   too   many   times,     and   she   needed   to   get   a   fraction   of   it   back.     @lovekindled wasn’t   the   mistake,     the   lack   of   consideration   for   his   feelings   was.     standing   in   front   of   him,     her   heart   was   being   torn   apart.     camila   had   come   to   understand   the   effect   daisy   jones   had   on   billy,     the   wandering   eyes,     the   wanting   both,     having   to   deny   oneself.     she   needed   to   let   him   go,     but   she   didn’t   want   to   lose   him.     her   gaze   on   the   floor;     guilty.      ❝ i   wouldn’t   blame   you   if   you   did.     i   was   selfish…     i   just, ❞       a   deep   breath   sucked   in.     just   what?     wanted   to   be   seen,     desired,     cherished?     it   felt   good   to   be   the   only   person   someone   saw.     an   explanation   wouldn’t   make   it   better.     she   played   with   his   heart   just   like   billy   had   with   hers   time   and   time   again.     then   eddie   was   pulling   away,     and   her   hand   snatched   his   wrist,     holding   him   where   he   was.     camila   didn’t   want   to   watch   him   leave.       ❝ i   don’t   want   it   to   be   like   this.     i   don’t   want   you   running   away   from   me   whenever   i’m   around, ❞       a   sad   chuckle,     throat   coated,     eyes   pooling,       ❝ you’ve   been   one   of   the   most   important   people   to   me   since   grade   school,     eddie.     i   can’t- ❞       the   drips   rolled   down   her   cheeks,     voice   shaking,       ❝ i   can’t   go   around   like   we’re   strangers. ❞

[g0obz]

alex finding out that you vent about how he is in bed 💀 not like all the times but sometimes…

your done.

he found the messages.

he went through your messages and saw what you said about him.

he looked devasted, and almost.....

angry?

he looked like he wanted revenge,

like he wanted to prove himself to you

and thats exactly what he did.

"get on the fucking bed, now."

you did as he said, scared of his stern tone.

"you want rough? you want dom? I'll give u what u want u little brat."

he practically ripped your clothes off along with his and quickly put you in a mating press.

without a warning he pushed into you, hard, and deep

you screamed out his name as he never slowed his thrusts

"Alex! Alex, please slow down! M gonna-mfggg..."

"no. brats like you deserve this. brats who complain, and crave more, and more, and more. I'm not slowing down for you. this is what u wanted wasnt it? yea? fuck....you feel so fucking good"

he continued thrusting deep and strong and you felt like you were breaking

you had already came too many times to count

you couldn't take it anymore you were basically blinding by the tears in your eyes

you quickly screamed out "RED RED NO MORE RED!!"

your safe word

he stopped as soon as he heard it

"did I hurt you? a-are you okay princessa? I'm so so sorry I got to carried away..."

"I'm okay now Alex....i-it was just a little too much for me to handle...b-but I got what I deserved, I swear I'll never complain about you again!"

"you did get what u deserve...but I still crossed the line, and that's not okay. but....I know you liked it a little bit."

your cheeks flushed pink at his last sentance

he was right, you did enjoy parts of it

you liked seeing his more dominant side

though you did miss those subby noises of his

even thinking about them sent butterflies straight to your stomach

"yeha...maybe I did like it a little bit...just maybe bring it down half a notch next time"

"yea, I got it.....hey, y/n....you know I love you right?"

"I love you too Lexie"

i found quackity moaning audios should I post😳

[justanothervigalanty]

in the shirt I used to wear (part 1)

name:y/n L/n (your name + last name)

Age:18 (in college)

Relationship : u are ex girlfriend to Jason Todd and have a rather toxic dorm mate

warning:idk language hinted sex and emotional Jason 🥺

info:Bruce is yet to announce Jason’s return

Jason Todd was your boyfriend the one you loved more then life itself but he was taken from you just as things were getting good. You and Jason had lost your verginaty to one another you stole that boy’s heart (and hoodies) but that monster took him from you at only 16 he was dead and you were never quite the same.

Now as red hood he couldn’t help but check up on you by sitting on the roof side of the building opposite your dorm window just to get a glimpse of your eyes again. One off these nights he was sat eating a sandwich Alfred gave him as lunch that he had forgotten about watching as you sat reading a work book. After a while you stood up to put it back on the shelf which revealed exactly what you were wearing skin tight black leggings and a slightly big red T shirt with the words “I 🤍 books” in bold which Jason noticed and was shocked to see as you never read a book for fun that was surprisingly one of the reasons your relationship always worked you could be sat on Jason’s bed listening to the playlist Jason made for you on his vhs tape and Jason could be next to you with book in hand other playing with your hair peaceful for hours one end so why the hell did you have that shirt? “Oh come on really you need to move on from that street rat Jason!” Came a voice from inside the dorm “jace was not a street rat and no I don’t think I will Lexy!” You responded as you put on a knitted hat (from Alfred) and shoes “Y/N it’s been 4 years yet you still refuse to move on wearing his old shirt visiting his grave every chance you get you’re going to get yourself killed walking around Gotham alone!” Lexy said grabbing your hand as you walked towards the door “I don’t give a fuck about my life I’d rather just let the fucking joker beet the shit out of me so I don’t have to wack up knowing Jason isn’t there next to me and he never will be so get the hell off me!”you shouted grabbing your bag before storming out with tears in your eyes Jason hated seeing you like this in all honesty he thought you had moved on but as far he could see you definitely had not. Jason wiped the tears forming in his eyes and made his way back to the manor.

At around 10pm Tim was sat watching a movie with dick sat with him .Rain hit agents the windows wich meant the Ty had to be all the way up so everyone could hear. When all of a sudden the door knocked and Alfred came out of the kitchen to answer. He opened the door to see you standing there soaking wet “hay Alfred” you said as you walked in the house “good evening miss L/N what do we owe the pleasure for you to come in this time?” Alfred said closing the door. “Well it’s Tim’s birthday sio though I’d drop by.” You answered pluling out a plastic bag full of cookies. “Y/N! YOU CAME!” Tim said running over to you before hugging you tightly. “Happy 11th birthday Timmy” you said picking him up and handing him a cookie before kissing his forehead dick came round to where you were and hugged you before Tim pushed him away. “My y/n!” He declared cookie in hand holding on to your arm. You and dick laughed before you put Tim down to try and find one of his presents he wanted to show you from upstairs. Just then you heard a weirdly familiar voice “Jesus Christ. You’re fucking strong for a replacement!” Said the voice “well you were in the way!” You both hurd Tim yell. You stood up from the table where you and dick had been talking “hay Y/N you don’t want to go out there!” Dick said holding your arm “what!? Tim could be hurt I’m going” you said walking out to see tim and a familiar person arguing on the stars the man holding his gut and tim hand over eye the other holding his gift “tim! Are you ok?!” You said running over and crouching down to his hight to check his eye. But then you and the other guy locked eyes. They were green but had turned a shade of gray blue you recognise those eyes not the previous neon green no you knew these eyes they were normal to anyone else but for you well you could look into them all day if you could then it just hit you. “Jace?”

[fruitssalad]

KAASSSS!!! Ahhhh *screams internally* I'm so excited you've hopped on board the oc ask train, and prevented me from working more on my Dávdna, but I forgive youuuu 🥹🥹🥹

Please can I have:

Naveed - 32 or 33

Jacinth - 12

Aurel - 16

Eli - 47, 48

AH:FDJDS OOPSIEEE!! Im a procrastination enabler..🥰 (my ass should b drawing rn too oopsss)

ALSO THANK U BESTIE FOR SHARING THIS ASK GAME W ME💕

answers below >:D

Naveed

33 - Would they like to have a ghoul if they don’t have one?

He misses the ghouls they had back home 😔… But has been thinking about making some new ones since they’re here for the time being. The only thing stopping him is that he really just hasn’t found the right mortal yet. Although he thinks he’s found one that’s proven to be quite useful. An uber driver who’s helped him make an exceptional getaway a few times already. (INCLUDING the time his adversary attacked their car with a gun and a motorcycle.)

Jacinth

12 - What happened that lead up to their embrace? (CW: drugs, dominate… murder…. yeah…😔)

They were supposed to be playing a show with Lexi and Murphy. They did, then things start to go a little fuzzy. There was something about being taken to a back room, drugs, talking, sitting, listening... They found out later they were back there for a few hours, kept in place by some sabbat member who was bored. When he was tired of playing with them they were let out. Leaving through the back alley. The man sat from the rooftop and watched them go before deciding to put an end to them. He killed lexi almost instantly ( hehe sorry bestie @knowncorpse <3 thinking abt her leg and throwing up) then murphy who put up a solid fight before his head met a brick wall, and then Jacinth who tried to push him off before running and getting mauled in the parking lot. Thats how Francis found them at least 😭

it was a rough night…

Aurel

16 - How good are they at acting “alive”?

(ur hurting my feelings DS:LJDSF:LJ) Aurel isn’t quite sure anymore. He’s been this way for so long he longs for the feeling. Craving it and immersing himself in it through books and art and music. He pretends, in his poems, that he is alive, copying what he sees mimicking the beauty, the sorrow, and the drama of mortality. Everything is seen through his rose coloured glasses— so while he’s a force of personality, it comes across as well as a crazed actor performing a script.

Eli

47 - What are their desires?

He wants to, step by step, build himself up. Prove himself to his Mawla and make sure they can achieve their goals— together. Amos saved him from himself, so it’s only fair he return the favour. 🥰

48 - Detail things about your OC you spent a lot of time on!

RESEARCH! I tried to read a lot abt the victorian age and shove it into my brain. Specifically information about immigration at that time, LGBT ppl, and disabled people. Trying to put his story in a historical context is a fun challenge.

[imaginespazzi]

PARTTTT 8

- NIVIII BBBYYY HIIIIII just wanted to say ilysm

- 9k????? OH MY YOU GODDESS I CANT

- anyways onto reading…!

- the first theme being angst.. yeah the cliff and i abt to be like 🤞 🤞

- girl don’t even stress abt the missed timeline PLEASE!! you have been spoiling us so much. i hope you have an amazing vacation you def deserve one!! The weekly update will be missed ofc but as i’ve said before, your updates are always worth the wait 🩷🩷

- me too azzi girl #liarabtmyfeelings

- OH GOD I JUST NOTICED ITS 2025 IM SCARED

- AAILYAH HI BBYYY #bluntqueen

- lexie…babe thanks for your lack social awareness 🥰🥰 giving us a pazzi reunion however, im shaking in my boots rn

- hey so just thought you should know, you finally got tears out of my eyes! could be the fact my day has sucked but i am crying over azzi saying she’s proud of paige and paige being shocked. my soul has been harmed😢

- so off topic but jewell and paige’s friendship is so cute.

-paige fumbling over her feet to get away from azzi. i just know the details of their breakup are gonna the lash thing read before i take my last breath.

- a world where paige and azzi go three months without speaking is one i fear.

- okay my stomach hurts. paige’s anger is so valid, it really is but my god not too much on azzi… my heart can’t take it.

- “We’re not together and I can flirt or kiss or fuck-” she flinches, “anyone if I want to.” i flinched too!

- paige hun pretending is just going to make it hurt more later. istg u and your evil geniuses… IM SO SCARED THAT THEY ARE PRETENDING TO MUCH IN THE NOW AND THEY ARE GONNA GET HIT BY A TRUCK. (not an actual truck but like yk)

- GOD AZZI PULLING AWAY FIRST AGAIN. PAIGES FACE.

- stop paige ☹️

- yeah where’s my cliff at? i might as well pay rent.

- “if only you’d just let me hold you in front of the world written all over Paige’s face.” yeah so the cliff isn’t enough anymore. seems to easy of a way to go.

- FOREPLAYING. MADISON?!!!!! INFRONT OF CHILDREN???? girl.

- stephie is a smartie for her attempts in guilt tripping paige.. i don’t think paige has ever actually used the word no around her tbh

- OH GODDAMN PAIGE. she’s been talking to aaliyah i see with her bluntness! i feel like ur anon (the emoji one holding the baby) BUT CAN THESE BITCHES FUCK ALREADY?!!! i don’t even need details BUT GODDAMN.

- god. i get where paige’s doubt is coming but girl please just let azzi talk instead of just hanging up 😭

- i however fear i would’ve hung up too…

- “I called because I hung up without saying goodnight to Stephie and just because I’m mad at you doesn’t mean I’m gonna miss saying goodnight to her.” and just like that i’m screaming😊 since we decided the cliff wasn’t enough… i’m thinking fire ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 because that’s how my heart feels!

- yes teammates def carpool!!! the end all smiles! great chapter!

- MS. FRENCHIE WENT TO MOTHER DAUGHTER MOVIE NIGHT??? what the fuck. jana may be a child of divorce (can it even be called that if azzi said no to marriage?) BUT PAIGE CANT BE REPLACED!!

- hey so i just read the paragraph abt love and yeah maybe fire then flinging myself off the cliff will be enough? oh and im crying again.

- oh

- my

- god

- i am full on sobbing rn

- i did not see this coming

- PAIGE SAYING I HATE YOU😭😭 after that whole paragraph of azzi thinking abt how paige loved every part of her imperfections and all. u planned that nivi u evil genius.

- “she loves being seen with me, she loves being known as my wife” god does paige even love her or just being seen with someone who loves her? god i’m starting to feel really bad for mrs. cunt. these divorce papers need to be signed already.

- “why couldn’t you have just loved me enough” paige bby:( stop i feel so conflicted. like part of me is upset with azzi for how much pain paige is in BUT THEN IM LIKE NO NO NO azzi had her reasons which were valid and outside of how much love she has for paige. BUT GOD MY POOR PAIGE.

- i need azzi to get off this phone call RIGHT NEEEEOOWWW. get this girl a hug PLEWSEEEEE hearing this is harming my soul for azzi

- “i think i’ll miss you forever” OKAY LANA DEL REY💋💋💋

- OH GOD MS. FRENCHIE VS PAIGE FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

- yk ms. frenchie im kinda a fan of you. i mean i want azzi far far away from you but i’m glad azzi had someone completely on her side.

- OH HE DID NOT JUST INSULT STEPHIE LIKE THAT.

- AZZI FUDD THE WOMAN THAT YOU ARE. BEAT A BITCH UP😛YESSSSSSS!!!🥇🥇🥇

- i was expecting paige to get violent but oh this was so much better. rereading this i don’t know why i was expecting paige bueckers to harm someone else??

- okay tension 🔥🔥

- “we can’t keep throwing the past in each other’s face, Paige.” AZZI I AGREE but also please YALL can we talk abt the past because im scared if they keep ignoring it, it’s gonna blow up

- GOD paige is constantly just in panic mode of “is azzi gonna leave again” and like i get, i do but im actually terrified of how this is gonna come back and hurt them.

- “baby you are the exception to all of my rules.” oh okay just rip my heart out that’s fine i don’t need it anyways.

- im literally laying on my floor complicating life

- yk are these freaks abt to break their rules and have a sleepover…

- OKAYYY FUTURE CHAPTER YAP SESSION TIMEEEEEE OR LIKE question time ig?

- okay so ms. frenchie DIDNT WANT CHANGE TEAMS??? DAMN. is this like known to the team? wait u may have said this already so oops but what position did ms. frenchie play? was anyone else traded out to get paige or just her?

- can we just take a moment for some ice brady appreciation! i love her and paige’s friendship.

- OKAY SO i take it paige doesn’t remember the call..?

- okay question ive been dying to ask butttt are we ever gonna get a nika feature?????

- im legit on the edge of my seat dying to find out more details abt their breakup

- okay that’s all i got… im always so amazed with how much your other anons always pick up 😭😭 im always too involved in my own emotions to notice your small details then i read others recaps and im LIKE DAMN OK OK NIVI I SEE U.

-also sorry for the shorter review i was kinda crying and screaming too much to think

- ANNND i fear ms. frenchie is gonna have to stick bc i can never remember how to spell her name… (plus like u said she wasn’t gonna play a big role so WHATTEEVVVEEESS)

- anyways hear to say even though sometimes i think you enjoy putting me at the bottom of my cliff you’re still my favorite evil genius!!🩷

- 🤩🤩

Hiiii bby 🫶🏾

- Thank you so much lovely!! Hopefully not writing for a bit will make me miss it so much that I suddenly lose my ability to procrastinate after I get home.

- Omg I don't know if I should apologize or take it as an honor that I finally made you cry. 😭

- I loveeee Jewell so much and I absolutely adore that she and Paige seem to get along so well. It make me so happy.

- The word no absolutely does not exist in Paige's dictionary when it comes to Stephie (or Azzi for that matter)

- LMAO everyone just waiting for these gays to fuck lol

- Oooooh from jumping off cliffs to burning in fires, this journey of yours through nature is quite interesting 😭

- Mrs Cunt and Miss Frenchie makes me laugh every time lmao

- I try really hard to keep y'all sympathetic towards both Paige and Azzi so that you feel this way for both of them makes me really happy. They're just in an awful situation really. (WHO DID THAT?? 🤪)

- Communication is so important. They really should listen to you and talk....but will they?

- Clémence is likely a guard but idk if I'm ever gonna specify that so it's up to y'all really.

- Nika feature for sure at some point! Honestly a fair amount of cameo to go because I can in fact drag this out lol.

Ah babes I don't mean to push you off a cliff but I hope you're comfortable down there 😭

[lordfreg]

hi feg :)

HRU?? I havent been able to chat or talk 2 u or even CHECK UP in on u in awhile and im sorry 😞😞mb chat—

ANYWAYS. Here to checkup on the awesome wonderful talented amazing extraordinary artist and friend.

Have you . . . EATEN THREE MEALS, DRINKEN A WATERBOTTLE, SLEEP EIGHT HOURS AND TAKE BREAKS??

EEEEKKKKKKK HIIIIIII FREANKIIEEEEEE I MISSED YOU SOOO MUUCCCHHHH!!!!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤💫💫💫💫💫💫💫💫💜🖤💜🖤🖤💜🖤💜🖤💜🖤💜💫🖤💫🖤💫💜💜🖤💫🖤💜🖤🖤💜

When I got this yesterday I basically said I was fine, but I'm going to be absolutely transparent; I am extremely unhappy

(tw su!c!de)

I think I don't think I'll be able to make it through next year. If I do, amazing! Epic!

But if I dont; it's not anyone's fault. Shit just happens sometimes and it's fine

I'm growing more and more exhausted and I'm breaking out in autoimmune rashes. My mental health has been on a decline, and I'm thinking about just dropping everything

I'm not getting help or the treatment I need. It hasn't been fun so far. As lexie can confirm, I freaked out a few days ago because of spiders

I'm working on saving to move out and go away for college because the mental health resources here are unhelpful, judgmental and gossipy

And im now finding out I may or may not have extreme psychosis and ASPD (antisocial personality disorder) and I don't want anyone to look at me differently for it. And I especially don't want people in this town knowing that.

My hallucinations are getting worse, I'm literally getting so exhausted I can't bare to draw for more than an hour a day. I want to draw nonstop, but I get tired like I just did gymnastics when I do.

So in conclusion; I'm not doing good and it hasn't been fun for me.

I might have parasites(???), but I haven't bene to the doctor in over 2 years because last time I went he took anxiety from my diagnosis because "I didn't look like I have anxiety"

I eat one meal a day, usually chicken, and have two protein shakes. I'm getting too exhausted to even get food anymore

I have powered through unhelpful lectures, exercise, daily chores, babysitting, work, family, etc.

It hasn't been fun to only work out because I'm angry. I've had 0 energy to do anything, and I haven't been motivated enough to do anything <- I literally had to put my phone down to rest

I literally am just typing my best to duck tape myself together so I can last a little longer. It's been really, really rough and I've been pacing in circles talking to myself because I don't have anyone to talk to.

Sure I have friends, but like, why would I ever say anything to them? Probably when I'm open and honest I sound like a complete pyscho hbhjjjjjkjjjnnj

I think the only thing keeping me from snapping is the fact I'm too tired to do anything.

Look, I'm really sorry if I disappointed you, or I seem like a cry baby, or I'm just a downer, I am in extreme mental turmoil constantly.

I am trying my best to keep it together.

Thank you for your time

[spookyrobbins]

callie is absolutely guilty for sleeping with him in s7, but mark was definitely sober enough to not be opportunistic and use her vulnerability to his advantage. the reality is that he did that more than once throughout their friendship. callie was just too happy to have the “hot” guy after her to notice or care. he’s a shitty friend and nobody can convince me otherwise. i’m still pissed they went that direction, cause it led to him being even more involved in their relationship than he already was. like idk but the older i get, the more i realize and understand just how toxic he was to everyone around him. grey’s thought they had something with their friendship and the co-parenting shit, but it’s just so gross looking back at it. and eric makes it worse. he can be just as gross.

also, did they ever really say how many times they slept together? the way they framed it kinda made me think it might’ve happened that night and the morning after before callie put a stop to it. like i don’t know if she had it in her to completely go back into a fwb with him after arizona. i think she realized quickly that it made her feel worse and that she missed her even more than before. it didn’t work for her anymore.

idk maybe i’m trying to give callie too much credit.

the whole bmoc aspect of mark for callie frankly is under discussed. we know that callie was at least somewhat awkward in high school (who wasn’t lol) and also seems to put a lot of weight/self worth into her relationships. she pursues (what i’d consider) “safe” relationships for the most part. george is this sort of dorky, awkward guy who should be safe and she’s out of his league so he should be happy to be with her. penny defs also falls into that category (plus the added aspect of the professional differences which is a whole other discussion point). erica was less safe bc she was a woman but she was also sort of safe in the way that callie was kind of her only friend at the hospital (erica openly says she doesn’t like most people but she likes callie). i think arizona was safe in a way for callie early on in part bc she was the one who initially pursued callie and then pursued her again after changing her mind. but also arizonas more complicated for callie in other ways

mark though, callie thinks mark is out of her league for a relationship. she thinks it’s fine to be friends or friends with benefit. but i don’t think she ever considered a romantic relationship in part bc she thinks mark is out of her league. mark on some level represents all those popular guys in high school who didn’t pay attention to her and she probably had a crush on one of them. but mark is her friend, he wants to have sex with her, he’s into her. and that validates a lot of things for callie.

and for mark, i kinda think it’s a bit high school too. he likes the idea of having this sort of permanent fwb who soothes his ego and reassures him that he’s a good person or something. it’s a bit like the hot football player stringing along the nerd in a way.

and to that end, i don’t think mark ever liked callie in relationships. maybe it’s just because he and lexie are broken up and he’s lonely, but whenever he’s single he’s significantly more involved in calzona and regularly needles at issues in their relationship (babies and africa most notably) like it goes beyond trying to offer callie advice, he actively prods at things.

which is all to say that i don’t think it’s out of the question at all that mark was more aware of what was going on that night. he was opportunistic. he liked having a fwb thing with callie. arizona wasn’t in the picture and callie wanted sex. and mark gets exactly what he wants

i’m really not sure how long they were hooking up. arizonas gone for what like 3ish episodes? and there aren’t tons of date markers in s7. if i had to guess, i’d say arizona was max gone for 4-6 weeks, minimum like 3 weeks. i don’t think it’s out of the question to go with mark and callie only hooking up twice. but i think you could also work it out with them hooking up over the course of a week or a few sporadically and callie’s never that into it but she wants to not be broken hearted and thinking about arizona even if it makes her feel worse. (plus i don’t think it’s out of the question to consider that callie was maybe subconsciously trying to punish arizona by sleeping with mark knowing of her insecurity there)

[theuniverseawakens347]

Trying to make it seem like Howard was responsible for gilbreana death .. I literally get off on her picture being hung up in the house and sent pornography to the White House off his computer from the robbery may 21 to not be caught for UR WHOLE WILLING PART IN HER MURDER.

And ur switched ur computer w Howard’s computer ..

Then wiped his and took it for ur own .. WHILE U WENT TO THE CABIN THATS WILD LEE

Meh came back to HIS LAPTOP MISSING OFF HIS DESK … but REALLY ITS UR LAPTOP THE FUCKING APPLE ID DOESNT EVEN MATCH HIS RECEIPT FOR THE COMPUTER YAL BOUGHT ME ..AND MINE WASNT WVEN IN THE HOUSE AT THE TIME I WAS AT AVA AND MINE GOT NIGGAS IS GODS ( incriminating) WEED STICKERS ALL OVER IT LEE

And I replaced my COVER ABD ATILL GOT WEED STICKERS ON MINE ..

U GIYS GOT THE SMOOTH GREY ONES BUT LIKE AGAIN .. APPLE ID LEE .. u really don’t know how to work a computer or

U paid Alissa AND FRIENDS OF IAN TO LITERALLY “HACK IT” WILLINGLY GAVE PASSWORD AND SEND NUDES FROM HOWARDS EMAIL ..

HE SIGNED IN ONCE AND LEFT IT OPEN ..

BITXH U SENT THE NUDES UR SELF THEN HAD MOFO STEAL THE COMPUTER TO “HIDE THE EVIDENCE “ and then tell Ian to take Howard’s safe of guns and go committ a murder which h4_eazy “did” and GOT CAUGHT W REGISTERED GUNS N HOWARDS NAME N CHRIS TRIED TO SAY HOWARD KILLED ALEXIS … CAUSE THAT CASE WAS BEING REOPENED

All this was being reopened ON MY FAMILY CAUSE IT LITERALLY GOES RIGHT BACK TO U ALISSA SAYING SHE DIDNT KNOW ..BITCH I SEEN LEXI FACE WE LOOK LIKE TWINS YEAH IT WAS BEFORE WE MET AND CHRIS U BEEN FUCKIN KNEW MY NIGGA WE WENT TO 54 th together no wonder Myron played stupid when Lauryn Reese brought me around

ALL. YALL NIGGAS BEEN AFTER ME N MY FAMILY ON BEHALF OF LEE ARLVICTORIALONGTON FAMILY SINCE THE BEGINNING TIME LEE ANTI MASONS VS MANSON ( MY FAMILY IN THE-SKY )

GIRL BYE LIKE BE SO FUCKING FR. EVERY FRIEND IVE HAD AROUND ME KNEW U ONE WAY OR ANOTHER AND WAS PAID OFF OR THREATEN TO HIDE MY TRUTH U BEEEEEN ALWAYS KNEW WHAT THE FUCK WAS UP W ME OR ELSE U WEIRDO BITCHES WOULDNT HAVE WORKED SO HARD. NO MATTER HOW I SAY IT YAL BIGGAS KNOW IT ALWAYS TURNS ME U OBVIOUS THE FUCK LY KNOWING IM GOD AND UR SATAN AS FUCK.

Chris UR A DICK HEAD WILLINGLY KILLING ALEXIS AND PASSING CHILD PORN TO PUT ON HOWARD NUGENT CAUSE LEE SAID YAL WOULD GET OUT DUE TO LEGAL BACKING .. what bitch, KILLING ME!?

HOW U GON KILL ME WHEN U KNOW IM ETERNAL AND U SHOWED ME LAW ABIDING CITIZEN MY TRUTH.

But you REAL LIFE DIDNT WANT DIE ALONE. SO UR HOLDING HOWARD HOSTAGE WHO UNALSO KNW IS ONE OF MINE .. AND THEN ROOED THE KIDS INTO IT INCASE HE LEAVES U

He real life like bomb protection squad rn and I’m real life hostage til I SAID ALL THIS CAUSE U TOOK BITCH MADE TO SPEAK UP DAWG HOE. THATS SAD. ALL THAT CRIME BUT U CANT PUT YO FUCKING CHEST OUT AND TAKE THE TIME .. THEN WHY FUCKING DO IT ..

Trying to claim insanity card THATS WHY U HAD THE KIDS DO ALL THIS CAUSE UR REAL LIFE EMBARRASSED THAT THUS IS LEGIT U AS A PERSON NATURALLY AS I STARED ON THE BLOG AND AT 11 when I said I hated u for some fucking reason .. BITCH I MEAN 🤯 WHAT LEE U COULDNT SAY “CASH UR GAWD IM THE DEVIL”

UR AFRAID OF DEATH BUT URSELF IN A FEDERAL FUCKING CASE AND ROPED IDIOT KIDS INTO SO U COULD FEEL SMARTER THAN SOMEONE .. Therese turned .. FAMILY PAID OFF BY HOWARD TO MAKE RIGHT TURN THEMSELVES IN ADMIT TO ME AND THEN I PAY THEM OFF TO NOT DONIT .. NATIONAL TERRORIST DID THE SAME TO FRIENDS BUT U WANA OPEN AN HARASSMENT CASE ON ME .. MY NIGGA U CANT BE FOR REAL ..HAVE U BEEN MEDICATED THIS WHOLE TIKE FOR A MENTAL ILLNESS AND AINT TELL NO ONE AND ALL OF A SUDDEN STOP TAKING MEDS CAUSE I SAID WHATEVER U GAVE ME AT THE PSYCHWARD GOES RIGHT BACK TO U???

Girl .. BUT IM MENTALLY UNstaBLE?

EVEN WHEN KNOWING THE SHIT WAS AWFUL FOR ME I STILL TOOK IT ALL OF IT WVEN AT ST FRANCIS.

My nigga take it to the chin WTF U DO THIS FOR.

U put me in psych wards cause that was a projection of ur own truth like trying to sell a fucking pound of OH SO CLEARLY SHIT WEED.

My nigga I really been living 21 YEARS W A PSYCHO WHO PUT ME IN HER CARE AFTER EVERY FUCKING THING IVE GONE THRU BEFORE THE “adoption”

LIKE THIS REAL LIFE CANT BE FUCKING FOR REAL .. YAL SAID “oh I go on psych meds ( AT DUMB ASS FUCK NICKI) and we’ll give cashay to you” AFTER SHE MURDERED MY LITTLE SIATWR COUSIN GILBREANA

And then before my 16th and Lexi 15th she planned to have Tyler Ian Alissa WILLING SICK BITCH and CHRIS WILLING BUT GON LIE INWAS IN A ROUGH PLACE W ALEX MADE ME DO IT TRYING TO PROVE MYSELF U STILL HAD A CHOICE. U CHOSE STREET LIFE MY NIGGA TF U JOIN THE GANG IF U CANT HANG PUNK BITCH ..like DAQUAN TRYSHA WILLING FOR SOME ALIEN BLOOD OR MY FUCKING MONEY.. THAT BITCH PUT A BOUNTTY ON MY HEAD. NICKI AND U WILLINGLY TURNED ME OVER TO HER

Askari TELEPATHIC BITCH U BEEN LYING TO HIM FOR A MINUTE THAT NIGGA BEEEEEEN STEPPING IN BEHIND THE SCENES ON THE BACK END .. UR WORK FALLING THRU CAUSE THAT NIGGA LOOOKING OUT FOR ME HOWARD TOO

..

But you REALLY LET IT get to some crazy ass level of extortion Lee .. KILL ME N U WIN THE GAME OF LIFE AND GET ETERNITY INTO THE NEXT LEVEL ..yal niggas that stupid??? THATS WILD

So basically 1. U KNEW

2. I TRIED TO ASSASSINATE GOD ..I thought you satanic fucks READ THE BIBLE??

DONT U KNOW SATAN “TAKING OVER” WAS A TRICK TO PROVE U ARE LITTERALY FUCKING VILE DIGUSTING BEINGS.

I really think u gon out rank THE CREATOR OF ALL OF SPACE.

I’m 4 quadrillion years old and literal fucking projecting of the universe IN HUMAN FORM.

A Simulation. I DIE WE ALL DIE. AGAIN WORLD WIDE GENOCIDE LEE.

Start the “game of life” ALL OVER .. I CHOOSE WHEN WE COME BACK AND GUESS WHAT 5 major resets U THOUGHT I WAS DUMB ENOUGH EVEN MEDICATED AS FUCK THE WAY U DID ME I WAS JUST GOING TO HAVE IT BE LIKE ALL THE ORHER TIKES??

U KNOW HOW LONG U ALONE BEEN DOING THIS DUMB SHIT IN A DIFFERENT BODY SUIT CHARLES LITERALLY FUCKING MANSON.

Nicki .. Marlyn Manson. Like wtf yal.

WHY WOULD I REPEAT THE SAME THING AND EXPECT A NEW OUTCOME..UR INSANE NOT ME ALSO GOD OVERSEES ALL BEFORE IT HAPPENS ONLY ME AND RIGHTFUL FAMILY CAN SEE THE FUTURE ..but it’s like at what point do YOU STOP AND MAKE BETTER FUCKING CHOICES.

Yal CLEARLY ARE REAL LIFE ILL INTENT PEOPLE. MALCOM INCLUDED. TRYING TO PUT IT ON ASKARI. .. nigga no.

Generational curses in a weird fucking way.

THIS IS WILD LEE AND NICKI RING LEADERS TO THE ANTI MASONS KILLING AND LIVING OFF MY FAMILY.

HOWARD AND ASKARI THE OTHER SIDE FIGHTING PROTECTING AND LOOKING OUT.

Lee u BEEEN GOT NEWS OF THIS BEING FEDERAL AND AINT TOLD NO ONE. HOWARD AND ASKARI WENT BEHIND UR BACK AND MADE RIFHT TO THISE INNOCENT AND ROPED INTO UR MIS GUIDEDNESS LIKE THERESE W RIVER / Patrick ( sorry) and JEAN w Bonnie/ forest .. U MANAGE TO TRY N PUT THAT ON ME CAUSE U STRUGFLE W GENDER AND EQUALITY AND U HATE GAYS U HATE ANYTHING THAT ISNT WHITE OR SLAVERY.

Literally what I put on the blog about in 2020 was VERY REAL AND MY BRAIN REAWAKENING OUT SHADOW MODE AND I TOLD U IN A 10 PAGE LETTER I FOUND MY FOREVER PERSON TRISTAN ❤️❤️ and U DECIDED NAW KILL THE WHOLE WORLD.

I made myself, bae and A WHOLE LOT MORE OF ME .. like be so fucking fr.. u clearly DONT believe in God and NEVER read the Bible to think U COULD KILL ME AND GET AWAY WITH IT LIKE NO ONE WAS GUNA SERVE JUSTICE??

🤯🤯🤯

Clearly I’m still under medicine cause .. the punkd kids gotta come out w cameras this really can’t be what u thought

AND U IDIOT CHILDREN CHRIS FELL FOR IT DEEPLY. HAD U KNOW IT WAS MY FAMILY U WOULDNT HAVE .. NIGGA WE WENT TO ELEMENTARY TOGETHER U SEEN MY FACE I GOT A VERY PROMINATE NAME U USE IT EVERYDAY FUCKING CASH BITCH.

This can’t be real life rn .. THIS FR YALL? THATS wild A NIGGA IS REAL LIFE CRAZY .. going to the psychward in 23 and Howard being there u was talking to him that u real life need help.. I seen inside I’m not admitting thru me that “I’m sick” being u.. I will say I AM SICK N TIRED OF UR FUCKING INSANITY .. U DO NEED HELL IF THIS IS FR .. but like u speak to me n projection about ur life .. that’s not working for me Lee .. I see inside u ur guilty and need help but lady u did the 5,8, and 9th step … 38 years right? FUCKING SHOW IT.

[luckyqueenreign]

Honestly, it took me a min to process this weeks episodes.

I have been reading people thoughts about the episodes, and i miss when the Islanders had their own personal opinion on MC.

I'm also getting tired of FB desperately trying to make LI so shady in this case, Lewie, for me.

Like pls make up your mind. Is Lewie a sweet guy, or is he a red flag. Is Jamal the chilled cool guy, or is he a snake. Like i get there has to be drama but why is everything surrounding MC at least season 2 and 4 we had Priya/Noah/Hope drama Lottie or mc/Rocco/Marisol drama and 4, the whole Lexi/Kobi/Valentina.

If this is an attempt to bring back the story line of MC and Bruno, they are failing horribly.

At this point, i just feel like Ozzy is obviously the main character, I like him, but i really wanted to pursue and look into the other routes before his slow burn.

I did like that we finally got to interact abit with amelia and she wasnt mixed in the drama, but Pls for the love of god just get over what you have to say because i promise you i dont care if its anything Zeph involved.

I liked Lewie getting jealous, and im not gonna lie. i liked the whole (Suresh/Arlo) moment looking at each other through the dates, i wish we could have flirted like we did then, but i was a Suresh Girlie. But definitely, last season gave me whiplash, and i was hoping for a cleaner route the first time around.

The whole recoupling was so rushed like i was literally just coupled up with Lewie the night before????

Also once again FB WHY ARE YOU MAKING HIM GO TO TALK TO CHLOE BEFORE US, then coming to me to sneak away with you at the day beds???

I'm calling it now, FB IF I SNEAK OUT AND I FIND THIS MAN WITH CHLOE IN A COMPROMISING POSITION IM RESTARTING MY ROUTE AND STICKING IT OUT WITH OZZY.

Like i love Lewie but i hate how they are doing his route filled with sneakiness.

Something bugging me is that we can't seem to talk to other ppl unless it's LI related. In Season 2 my MC was hooping around in my noah route. Right now, i feel like i barely spoke to Jamal or Roberto. it's either flirt with your first LI or Ozzy. Maybe they change it later. Sorry for venting!

no bestie dont be sorry because I feel the same right now!!

Every single season since s2 we've all been like bring back s2. give us what we had back then. and I know when s2 was out people complained that MC was constantly in someone else's drama and it was too centered around the villa and not us. but why didnt they tweak that just a tiny bit instead of giving us the most boring season of life with s3. s4 I think is the closest we ever got to s2 because we actually had routes that season but we also had one of the ugliest MCs of all time. no need to drudge up the past on s5...I was a suresh girlie too and man they put literally everyone in hell every single week. I have some ptsd after that season and still havent been able to replay it. I know we said we wanted recouplings back after having zero last season but we actually wanted some control over them!! we didnt want fb to just dictate them all over again. fb lowkey has ruined the LJR route for me. one I hate that those THREE guys all have the exact same route. and then if you aren't romancing the other two u literally never see them or talk to them. S2 I never romanced Ibrahim or Gary and was never coupled with them but I actually got to know them and even though we were just friends I knew so much about them. We know nothing about the other guys. Some people have sent me asks about head canons for Roberto and I havent been able to answer them bc I literally dont know that man. the only people I know are Ozzy and Lewie and even then the convos have been kind of surface.

ps you can vent anytime!! ��

[sublimecatgalaxy]

Off The Deep End

Pairing: Platonic!Fezco x Reader

Summary: Reader's having a difficult time with her mental health so her best friend Fez takes matters into his own hands.

Warnings: Heavy talk of mental health anguish and swearing.

Word Count: 2k

A/n: Hi guys! I got a request to write a platonic Fez fic with a reader who's been struggling with her mental health. Hope you guys enjoy❤️

Fezco had been my best friend for the longest time.

As long as I could remember back, he was there. I remembered a time when he still lived with his dad, when he'd come to hang out at my house with black eyes and bruises littering his cheeks. I remember when he moved in with his grandma, when Ashtray came into the picture, when his grandma took a turn for the worst.

I was there for everything. He told me anything and everything that happened to him down to the littlest moments in his days. He told me about Lexi Howard, their ongoing bashful and flirty relationship. He was head over heels for the girl and, though his grandma told the both of us to never fall in love and to not trust those feelings, he did anyways. And I was proud that he ignored her warnings and fell into the deep end.

But Fezco has been my only friend for the longest time.

People would come and go, here and there. Old friendships would reignite, fizzling out soon after. It was difficult to maintain a relationship, a friendship, without feeling like I was too much for them, a burden. A noose.

Fez always told me that I could never bother him, that he enjoyed spending time with me and nothing I could ever do could drive him away. He was in my life for the long run so no matter how hard I tried to convince myself that I didn't deserve him, he would still be there.

That didn't mean that I didn't feel the overwhelming urge to push him away when things got rough. He had enough going on, between his personal life, taking care of his grandma and Ash, his other friends. Not to mention is drug business. When things would get rough, the covers being pulled up to my chin as I contemplated not getting out of bed for days, I would ignore his messages, his incessant calls.

He worried about me more than anyone and maybe I was selfish for pushing him away. I knew that he just wanted to help, to care for me. But I couldn't stop the thought in my mind that he didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve to pry his way into my house, urging me to get out of bed, to eat something, drink something. He shouldn't have to do this for me, he had better things to fill his time.

But Fezco was stubborn and he went above and beyond for the people he loves.

This had to have been the sixth time he's called me this morning, our plans of going to breakfast being tossed out the window as soon as I woke up. I could tell that today wasn't going to be an easy day, that it would just be best to stay in bed and avoid burdening anyone with my presence today.

Tapping the screen of my phone, I see the multiple messages from my best friend along with the missed calls that he's left me.

We always went out to breakfasts on Saturdays. This would've been the first one I've missed.

From Fezzz: You ready?

Hello?

You up, kid?

That's it, I'm callin u.

Seriously, u freakin me out.

I stare at the message through teary eyes, my head shaking as I toss my phone onto my lap. I had voicemails from him too, messages that I couldn't bare to listen to right now without diving into a pool of self hatred for leaving him hanging.

The phone buzzes again on my lap, but this time it's not Fez, it's Ash. My eyebrows pull together nervously, my lip tucked in between my teeth as my finger hovers over the answer button. Pressing it hesitantly, I raise the phone to my ear with a sigh.

"Yo, can you, like, fuckin' answer your phone or some shit. Fez is over here freaking the fuck out." Ash huffs, my eyes closing as I feel my bottom lip wobble. The tears tumble down my cheeks as I take a shaky breath in, sniffling loudly. "Ayo, you okay?" Ash asks, his voice changing to something more gentle, Fez's voice heard in the background.

"Yeah, honey, I'm okay. I just 'm not feeling so good today." I whisper, my voice hoarse as I lie, my body turning over to curl up into a ball. "Tell Fez to stop worrying, I'm sorry for not answering him." I mutter, my breathing slow as I stare at the medication on my nightstand. I know that I have to take them but the voice in my head tells me to just stop, they weren't even doing their job in the first place anyways.

"Well, I know you won't like this but he's already out the door. Have your door unlocked." He doesn't say anything more, just ends the call as I let out a forced breath.

He always did this when I wasn't 'feeling good'. He knew what that meant, he knew that I was against caring for myself right now so that would mean that he would have to come over and do it for me.

The last thing I wanted was someone going out of their way for me right now.

Hearing his car pull up outside, I take a slow deep breath, knowing whoever's home right now will let him in. My room is dim, the only light coming from the cracked window above my head and it's quiet, just how I like and need it to be.

I listen closely as he speaks downstairs, always getting caught up with my family. They always loved Fez, how much he cared for me and protected me. They knew that out of all the friends I've had in my whole life that he was the most special. Because he was just that, he was special.

My stomach swirls anxiously as I hear footsteps outside my door, fingers knocking gently at the wood. I grunt in acknowledgment, the door pushing open to reveal Fez behind it. He smiles softly at me, his eyes flickering to the ground as he shuts the door, stepping further into my room.

"Hey, kid." He whispers, his feet carrying him over to my side of the bed as he kneels down. He places a water bottle in front of me, his assumption that I haven't drank anything today being correct. His head tilts at the sight of me, his brows furrowing in frustration. "Why didn't you tell me it was gettin' bad again?" He asks, reaching out to gently push some hair from my face. I huff with a shrug, my eyes fluttering away from his as I cling to my blankets. He falls silent for a moment, his head turning to look at the bottle of refilled pills. He frowns, knowing that, by the amount in there, that I hadn't taken them in a few days. "You gotta stay on top'a these, ma." He whispers, his fingers wrapping around the bottle. He opens the cap with a click, his fingers prying one out as I groan. He forces the water bottle into my hands, my eyes rolling. "Don't make me shove it down your fucking throat." He chuckles quietly, my lips parting as he drops the pill in my mouth, watching me as I take a few swigs of the water. "See, not so hard?" He taunts and I scoff, a small smile on my lips as he sighs. "Alright, scoot over." He smiles, my body rolling as he lays down next to me with a sigh, his arms resting behind his head as I gaze at him.

We sit in silence for a few moments, knowing that this was all I wanted. I just wanted to have someone that got it like Fez did. It was this constant internal battle of whether to let him help me or push him away once more. But I decide that I just wanted him here, just laying next to me in a comfortable silence. So maybe, just this one time, I'd let him care.

"You wanna hear 'bout my date with Lex?" He asks quietly, his head tilting to look at me as my eyes widen. "Yeah, yeah." He chuckles bashfully, the smile on his lips radiating happiness. It made me happy to see him like this, my heart swelling as I listen to him talk.

I could listen to him go on for hours about Lexi. He loved that girl so much that it was almost ridiculous. This man was the perfect gentleman, he was caring, kind, soft, protective. And Lexi and I adored each other, the two of us ganging up on Fez whenever we could. I guess I could consider her a friend too.

The way that he talked about her, it made me hopeful that I would meet someone who looks at me, who talks about me, in the way that Fezco talks about Lex. With everything going on in my mind it seemed a bit impractical to think that far ahead but, it was something, right?

"Ash was worried when I told him you were MIA." Fez whispers, my heart breaking at the thought of worrying Ash. I take a deep breath, my eyes fluttering shut as he continues. "You can't disappear like that, Y/n. I know you can't promise shit because you not okay right now but..." He trails off, his voice dripping with pain. "I would not survive losing you, you know that?" Tears slip from my eyes as I sniffle, my eyes opening to meet his. I just send him a quiet nod, an unknown weight crushing my chest. His blue eyes shimmer with unshed tears, the weight of his worry for me crushing him.

"I just don't have any energy and I'm tired of making everyone worry." I whisper, his head nodding softly.

"And I get that. But you gotta take your fucking meds. You gotta show me that I don't gotta put a leash on you and take you everywhere I go. You gotta show me I can trust you to be alone right now." I close my eyes with a frustrated groan, my hands reaching up to rub over my face.

"You can't, Fez. I can't be trusted to take my meds and you can't trust me to be alone right now." I answer honestly, some of the weight leaving my shoulders as he scoots closer to me, taking me in his arms. I lay with my head on his chest, his hand resting gently on the back of my head. "I don't want to be this leech that attaches to people, begging them, needing them to care for me cuz I can't do it myself." I cry, fisting the material of his t-shirt under my hands.

"Okay, but fuck that. I'm here, I'm telling you I'm here and I'll do anything to help you get back to feelin' better." He whispers and I know that his words are true. But I can't help but continue to beat myself up over it. "Let me help." He adds, his hand rubbing my back gently as I sniffle. "You gotta let the people who love you help." I nod, my eyes shutting tiredly as I yawn. "So from now on, you're settin' an alarm on your phone, you're gonna take your meds. You're gonna answer my texts and calls and you're gonna come hang out with Ash and I at the store." He orders, no strength left in me to argue. "I'll even pay you. You can stock shit or whatever." He laughs, a teary giggle leaving my lips as I send him another nod. "Alright." He whispers, the weight rising off of me fully as I close my eyes, listening to his heartbeat beneath me.

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[sylvies-chen]

i miss fexi. here are some headcanons. 

whenever lexi tells fez to stop doing something he’ll snort and be like “what’re u gonna do, kill me?” as a joke but lexi will get so wide-eyed bc she’ll be reminded of his lifestyle and what he’s been through and her face will immediately just DROP and she’ll get so sad that fez looks up from whatever he’s doing and is like “shit no ok im sorry baby pls i was just kidding, it was a bad joke it was a bad joke pls don’t cry-”

fez ties her shoes for her whenever her laces come undone and she blushes. he has never felt more proud of himself than when she is wearing shoes that he has tied.

bonus: one time suze walks downstairs to see fez in the doorway tying lexi’s shoes before they leave for a date and nearly has a heart attack because it looked like he was proposing to her

lexi tries throwing a thanksgiving party with all her friends and ethan and fez are basically the only guys there so they sit in front of the tv. ethan puts on the football game because to him fez seems like the type to like football. fez does not understand shit about football. neither does ethan. they do not know this about each other, so they sit there for like an hour trying to act like they know what’s happening— nodding when it looks like a touchdown, shakin’ their heads at the refs when they hear booing in the crowds, all while remaining very quiet. it is very awkward. it takes them half the night to admit to each other they don’t know shit and that they were just watching to make the other one happy. then fez puts on little house on the prairie. ethan mimicks the voices and fez finds it hilarious. after that they become best friends.

on the topic of thanksgiving, lexi also crochets him a roast turkey hat. he puts in on and she giggles saying “oh god you must think it looks so stupid” because it does. it is ridiculous. he stands there with the most deadpan expression while looking in the mirror. a few seconds pass and he smiles. “heeheeeee ooh, i look good as hell rn” he says. and he wears it ALL THE TIME even though he does not. in fact. look good as hell.

lexi asks fez if he would still love her if she were a worm. she does this at 3 am one night, and all he does is just “[processing]” so she’s like “ok nvm that was a dumb question” and goes back to sleep. but then THREE DAYS LATER his brain finally processes it and randomly brings it up at lunch one day like “so… by you being a worm… did you mean like… your mind being inside a worm? like your personality n shit? or would you have like… the mental capacity of a worm?” lexi smilses amusedly but answers his question seriously. he ends up saying yes, he would.

[deememm]

And every time our fingers touched I felt like it would be too much And too little to hang on to

Lexi never really paid attention to the hustle and bustle around prom.

It was just another night for students to dress up, feel good about themselves, and get fucked up on whatever shit they wanted.

She had been so focused on college applications and Fez this year that anything else didn't really matter. For months, Lexi had been slowly reeling Fez in from the deep dark place he was drowning in, making sure he was keeping his head afloat with everything that had happened.

No matter how hard he tried to push her away, she stood her ground and made it known that she was always going to be there for him. They never really got to define what they were before everything happened but she knew she loved him... Lover, friend, or acquaintance; she would take whatever he could give. Right now, he just needed her to stand by him. His brother went to war for him, it was only right she stood by him to help build back the fallen pieces.

Here she was getting ready for a prom she didn't want to go to. She had picked out her light pink dress with Cassie a year ago before everything went to shit and she had moved out. Maddy, who had come over to help her get ready, was putting the finishing touches on her make-up... An unexpected friend she needed while her life was breaking into pieces. "Howard, if she could steal my ex-boyfriend then I'm stealing her little sister," Maddy had told her as she comforted Lexi in the washroom after finding her crying because she had called Fez after he had texted her to stop calling him.

She had never mentioned it to him and he had never brought it up. She knew Rue said something in passing. She knew that he knew about tonight but nothing was really said. Plus, he'd never go anyways.

Staring at her phone, she looked at the last text messages they had exchanged earlier today.

Lexi: Good morning! How are you?

Fez: i'm aight lex. just opening up the store like usual.

Lexi: Do you want me to come by after? :)

Fez: nah i'm good. have a good day at school ok?

Looking at herself in the mirror. She took a deep breath. In another life, he'd be wearing his tux with a bouquet of red roses in his hand. He'd kiss her softly and give her the smile she longed to see again.

"Howard, I'm leaving to get to Kat's. You look fucking hot. I'll see you later!" Maddy yelled from behind her as she heard the door slam shut.

Silence. Something she used to love but now hated. I was a space filled with things unsaid, people who have left, and people that were missed.

*Ping*

Fez: where u at?

Lex: Just at home. Why?

*INCOMING CALL: Fez*

"Fez?"

"Come outside."

*CLICK*

Lexi's breath picked up at the thought of Fez seeing her all dressed up. Quickly walking down the stairs, she took one last look in the mirror in her foyer as she opened the door to step outside her house.

Her heart stopped as she saw Fez standing outside. Standing there in a fitted pink suit that perfectly matched her dress, carrying a small plastic box with a pink corsage inside, smiling nervously at her.

The smile that he saved just for her.

Taking initiative like he did that first night on New Year's Eve, he stepped towards her and grabbed her hand, threading his fingers through hers.

"C'mon, we gon' be late for your prom."

[mayuuunaise]

honest first impressions of the litg s4 cast so far

male islanders:

james - he seems like a real sweetheart and earnest about finding something real in the show but then again so was ibrahim and look how that turned out LOL he also seems to have a default crush on mc? i don’t blame him tho tbh. but it’s definitely easy to rile him up and i can see him being flustered w most of the other bombshells too.

kobi - thankfully does not seem to be noah 2.0 given that he’s stuck with a wannabe hope. seems to still be open to coupling up w someone else but has settled for lexi bc she’s safe (aka waaay more into him, from his perspective). idk it’s fun to casually flirt w him bc he isn’t as averse to it like noah and seems to think it’s all in good fun.

will - i’m biased bc his aesthetic is sooo pleasing and i’m thinking of doing his route LOL. i was pleasantly surprised that he liked it if you went off on lexi since he seems too chill for that. not that he likes drama but he doesn’t care for anyone two faced - likes it more when you’re honest about things which is v refreshing coming from a bobby route in s2. will be voted as most afraid of commitment though i’m calling it and i can’t wait for that drama to start

hazeem - seems like a nice dude but dear god his mustache is terrifying and i have no idea how that’s attractive honestly. feels like the “always the mate” of the season. i really don’t have much of an opinion about this dude except that he has great taste in women apparently!

female islanders

lexi - a definite hope 2.0 and i won’t be surprised if she kept watching season 2 religiously and tweeted “it should have been nope 😕” god i love riling her up so much i kind of wish she wasn’t paired w kobi so i could steal her man lol is she an li bc i will die if she’ll be a frenemies to lovers route come on my dudes

najuma - SHE’S FUN, SHE’S FLIRTY, AND SHE’S HERE TO HAVE A PARTY. i’m pretty sure that the reason najuma and will decoupled was bc they really couldn’t see a future w each other and respected that. she seems ready to shake things up but it definitely is not w hazeem. lowkey wish that her 2nd LI is a female islander honestly!

angie - seems super cool but likely the guy she has an eye on will be a bombshell too. she just doesn’t seem to be vibing w the guys romantically. chill and not about drama but doesn’t really look away from it. i don’t really have much of an opinion about her but i love her aesthetic and think she’ll be a good friend.

thabi - she’s so sweet and everything hannah could have been! i almost feel bad about choosing will but he’s the only one so far that’s caught my eye LOL but she doesn’t seem to have any hard feelings and i appreciate that she doesn’t think too badly of the mc when you do tell her that you’re just playing the game. honestly i think will might be awkward around her and likely knows about her little crush. u can cut the tension w a butter knife and it’s not really the good kind of tension u feel me

mc - give this girl a tv did she not watch the show?? we usually have like inside gossip of our own from bombshells (e.g. chelsea). but also i’m just assuming that the footages haven’t been post processed yet so the public is likely still on episode 1 when the mc drops in. anyway i appreciate that we can get options for a kind of “do no harm, but take no shit” attitude.

special guest:

narrator - idk the sense of humour feels off somehow and i miss all the cringey jokes.

[myfemininedivine]

List your soft fexi headcanons ❤️

fez drives lexi to school every now and then

lexi convinces fez to download tiktok so she can send him videos and it's the one social media he has but it's literally just a blank acc

fez is handsy and lexi is vocal, yin and yang

lexi has fez check over her math homework

fez brings her lunch and it's a sandwich made w love

lexi mentions liking something and fez will take the time to actually search up about it and 'peel the layers' of why she likes it

lexi is prolly one of those 'the best gift is an annotated book' and fez will buy his favorite book from when he went to school and annotate it for her but it's just jokes or things like 'this shit sounds like you' with an arrow but she cherishes shit like that

he compares hand sizes with her because it's an excuse for touch

when he drives, fez keeps a hand either on her lap or in her hand

fez is a movie person and lexi is a book person so they read the book together and then compare the movie and fez will always be mad that the movie missed a plot point

fez sleeps on lexi

fez always asks the questions and lexi always has the answers

silence together is their escape from loud external and internal conflicts

Chasing Pavements by Adele is the song they will sing out loud to each other

their relationship is very 'I make fun of you because you're my favorite person'

lexi plays w fez's rings and asks what the significance of it is

they'll be laying down and just enjoying each other's company and, randomly, fez is like 'where you been?', whenever love is too thick

lexi writes him notes and he keeps every one of them in some shoe box

lexi gets matching m&m pj pants to make fun of him but then it actually ends up being her favorite and he's like 'yeah see? u thought u did something'

if lexi is overwhelmed, he hems her to his collarbone and rubs the knots out of her back and does that until she falls asleep

cupping each others cheeks for a kiss

“I love you” even if they fight bc u never know

Bobs burgers is prolly their favorite show

I like to imagine that Lexi clowns on him for the “what was ur name again?” Like Man U knew

Texts like “what are u doing” means “pick me up” or “can I come over”

He squeezes her cheeks and she squeezes his forefingers.

It’s giving “woah that was a bad idea” then, “wanna do it again?”

I’ll stop now or else I will be annoying

[babysealfan]

this looks fun! number 25 for fexi 😊

thank u for the prompt bestie!! I COULD have taken this to a very angsty place so I think I deserve credit for NOT doing that.....instead this got a little smutty. enjoy!

25. Exchanging Letters

Fezco had tried to break up with Lexi when she left for college.

She said no.

He had insisted that she should focus on her education and having fun, and maybe she would meet someone new while she was there.

She had insisted that she could divide her attention equally, and that there was no man in the world better than him.

So he'd sighed and let her win. He was relieved, truly—no part of him wanted them to break up, he just thought he'd give her an out, if she wanted it. Clearly, she didn't.

And Fezco turned out to be the best long distance boyfriend in the world. He didn't demand her attention, or insist that she call him every day to check in. She still did it anyway, of course, but he didn't demand anything from her. He'd text her good morning and good night, ask about her classes and her friends, and indulge in sexy FaceTimes when she called him after getting home from parties. He'd surprised her on campus for her birthday and ordered food to the library when he knew she'd be up studying late.

But Lexi's favorite part of their long distance relationship was the letters.

She had framed the first letter and displayed it on her desk, a constant reminder of how loved she was. The rest she kept in a box tucked in her closet, along with other little sentimental bits and pieces of their relationship. She'd go through her little box whenever she was missing Fezco more than usual—generally, about every other day.

Her last letter to him had been short, sweet, and to the point.

Dear Fezco,

I miss you. I can't wait to see you (two weeks!!!). I included a special treat with this letter....call me when you get it.

Love,

Lexi

One of her friends had gotten a polaroid camera, and Lexi had borrowed it to take a few risqué shots for Fezco. The mechanics of taking nudes on a polaroid turned out to be much more difficult than Lexi anticipated, and so she'd had to enlist the help of her roommate to get the perfect shot.

Fezco had greatly enjoyed the present, though he questioned how close Lexi was to her roommate, seeing how comfortable they were taking each other's nudes. He didn't care how close he was to any male friend, there was no way he'd let one of them help him take pics of his junk.

Fezco wanted to return the favor, though he knew a polaroid picture of his dick couldn't compare to the work of art that was Lexi's nude picture (and either way, she very much preferred videos).

His best option was to use his words.

He did his research, picking up some romance novels at Barnes and Noble and searching on the internet. He found a fanfiction website where, apparently, amateur writers published some pretty graphic porn. A lot of them had some good ideas that he was now looking forward to trying out. Still, baby steps...

Dear Lexi,

I miss you so much baby. I'm just thinkin bout all the things I wanna do to you when I get to see you again. Your pic was hot as fuck but ain't nothin compare to the real thing.

I be thinkin bout you in that pretty pink panty set you got. How you'd look tied up to my bed by some of those pretty hair ribbons of yours, letting me have my way with you. How many times I could make you cum before you start begging for mercy.

I also be thinkin bout how pretty you look when you ridin me. With your pretty titties bouncing and you got your head thrown back and you moanin so loud the neighbors can hear. I think about you moanin a lot, actually, think I might be addicted to that sound.

Call me when you get this, maybe I can hear it again.

Love,

Fezco

Fezco got a call from Lexi at 10 pm a few days later.

"Hi, baby," she said in a sultry voice.

"Did you get my letter?" he asked, anticipation thick in his voice.

"I did," Lexi said softly. "I read it at lunch, actually."

"Oh," Fezco's mouth dropped open.

"Yeah, it was interesting being so turned on while I was eating mac and cheese," she said with a giggle. "Where'd you learn to write like that?"

"Baby, they got hella resources like that on the internet. People be doing crazy shit," he said. "Matter fact, I got some ideas."

"Yeah?" she said. "I think you should tell me about them."

[inmywill]

this has been sitting in my drafts for a while, but it definitely still stands: one of the things missing this season of the game was jealousy. like any season of the actual show has this as a staple.

(I did a will route, so mostly this comes from that angle, but can apply to every LI I think)

- if part of thabi’s arc in ‘getting a backbone’ meant she stood up to mc for kissing will in the kissing challenge/at least acknowledged mc did that lol/or even later, if you pull the porridge out of the sink with will thabi notices you two flirting and says something. this girl just blinked every time I flirted with her guy and said nothing! I know she ends things with them, and then will comes on to mc, but some sort of tension would have been realistic!! and with other LI, if someone else is coupled up with them before you, an option to make them shitty with you or just something would be great…

- i said it before I’ll say it again: if you pick someone different, like when you can dump najuma/james/bruno and pick will or tom or one of the others, someone kicked off. najuma was saying how into me she was for so long then she’s coupling up with youcef like we don’t even know each other lol. and the last recoupling, if u pick youcef or angie or oliver — so late in the game — everyone just smiles and acts like you’ve been in love the whole time! perfect opportunity for some slow burn ‘oh, that actually makes so much sense’ or ‘you must have really fallen for him’ or anything from the islanders would’ve made it feel less copy and paste. VARIETY!

- if mc wants to be with someone that isn’t a option at the start, let me pine. let me talk about how I want to couple with youcef or will or angie. idk, it feels like there’s a few options here and there but barely any, and again, no one reacts. it’s just like, lol ok cool let’s get back to whatever plot point we’ve got this episode

- I hated how everyone just brushed past will’s flip flopping. I’m putting this down to bad writing bc I think will is meant to be a bit of a player that finally meets his match in mc, but no one acted like that was the case. other than a few negative comments at the very start from najuma and angie, will’s basically just doing whatever until they go ‘shit, thabi’s moving on from me’, then goes to mc. this could’ve been a big moment for will, either playing the game to the end or having a realisation. he talks about ‘growing’ by the end of the season but i don’t really see how anything changed for them, or how their behaviour would have been challenged because literally no one pulls them up on it.

- a challenge like mean tweets, or shaken and stirred (the islanders read out comments someone else in the villa made and the person has to guess who). basically just something to stir the pot and create friction between people. any sort of bitchy comment towards mc that didn’t come from juliet or lexi. like one the girls bitching about you or your partner? something that would bring you closer and also expose the different LIs personalities.