#hi it's me I'm the problem it's me

[dinovia-grant]

Them: Hey, Erin, you just posted an 8k-word fic for the holiday exchange. Are you working on one of your WIPs today? Me: Nope. Brain needs a break. Working on something else. Them: Oh? What? Me: A dictionary and grammar guide for the homemade version of Kryptonian I came up with for OBaaT and its sequels. Them: ... Them: ... Them: And that's a break, you say?

[castial]

behind every gay person is a gayer more evil gay person

please, some draw this part of anti-hero version goldrose🙏🙏

[lukaisthier]

PINTEREST HAS BANNED ME

[fazcinatingblog]

Please don't tell my Nana that I'm eating Easter eggs in January

[ageless-aislynn]

Pro tip: if your graphics card is working fine, don't update the driver, no matter HOW much Windows Update assures you that you really, really, REALLY need it. Look it firmly in the eye and say

Brought to you by the tired fangirl who has reinstalled Windows 11 3 times in the past 2 weeks.

Hopefully, hopefully, HOPEFULLY, please dear Lord, let this be the thing that finally fixes this poor, beleaguered computer. As long as I don't do anything to destabilize it again because, I swear, Win 11 is doing everything in its power to not be compatible with:

drivers

programs

apps

things that say they're compatible with Win 11

me

No, I don't feel that's fair anymore. I was in there fighting my best fight, in good faith that what Win 11 was telling me was the truth.

"The Prophets Windows 11 used you like they used me! Reject their lies!" - Thel 'Vadam, the Arbiter, while trying to fix his computer, probably.

Love you, friends. Hope you're doing well. 💖

Update: Spoke too soon, I guess, still blue screened. 😭 WHAT IS CAUSING THIS??????

[peniscat]

just saw someone post cute relationship pics and it made me want to die a little. yes i am irrationally jealous about all ppl who have romantic relationships <3 totally normal behavior.

[fabiolajyx]

So, I will post a Gil video tomorrow for sure and I'll do my best to post my T-Birds video before thursday.

I still need to finish my Richie and Jane video but ugh, the episodes keep coming and it's getting hard to edit only from episode 1 to 4 when I know what happens and will have to edit 5, 6 and 7 later. But that's my problem, not yours 😂

I'm also writing like a little analysis of the boys and I started a fanfic (my very first one) 🫣

And I'm running the GREASEGIFS account so I need to make some gifs too.

God, why am I like this?! 😫

[rentalboos]

Honestly based on these small snippets of drama I can see why you weren't enjoying yourself and deleted your twitter.

I'm imagining twitter levels of this and it's giving me a headache.

yeaaaah it was a lot :S there were a lot of sweet people too but also a lot of shit going down that drained all enjoyment out of you very quickly.

[heckyescayla]

Pavs has things to say about being falsely accused of crimes

+

A dilf in the terrarium of iniquity

Stars @ Isles 1.10.23

[theleastfavoritedaughter]

Let's do this!

Rules: Spell out your url with your favorite songs.

Bonus: Add your favorite lyrics of that song.

I found out the hard way that there's a limit to the songs you can add to a post. So here we go with links instead

T There's A Place (Roo Panes)

if you've known love, then maybe you've known pain

H Here's Looking At You, Kid (The Gaslight Anthem)

boys will be boys and girls have those eyes that will cut you to ribbons sometime

E Eat Your Young (Hozier)

let me wrap my teeth around the world

L Land Of The Living (Roo Panes) yes another Roo Panes song cos he's bae

I hear the voices of my childhood singing it's the world beyond those doorways where we used to play

E Everybody Hurts (R.E.M.) the whole lyrics actually

everybody hurts sometimes

A Achilles Come Down (Gang of Youths)

see how the most dangerous thing is to love

S Spiracle (Flower Face)

I want the parts of your handgrenade heart that beat slowly with anger and fear

T The Funeral (Bands of Horses)

at every occasion I'll be ready for the funeral

F Früher war ich meistens traurig (Herrenmagazin) yes, it's German

inzwischen bin ich ziemlich müde

A Above the Earth (If These Trees Could Talk)

no lyrics

V Video Games (Lana Del Rey) Lana had to be in this list

kissing in the blue dark, playing pool and wild darts

O Oates In The Water (Ben Howard)

there'll be things you never asked her oh how they tear at you now

R Running Up That Hill (Placebo) this cover >>>> fight me

there's so much hate for the ones we love

I I Will Follow You Into The Dark (Death Cab For Cutie)

when your soul embarks then I follow you into the dark

T This Year (The Mountain Goats) this was my anthem for 2020 lol

I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me

E Exit Music (For A Film) (Radiohead)

we hope your rules and wisdom choke you

DAUGHTER not a song but the band

setting fire to our insides for fun

Thanks to @wrnglr for tagging me (and thinking I have great taste in music lol)

Tagging @inkedstuff and @fausthieb and everyone cos I'm curious about what music y'all listen to

[condividiamolavita]

ieri, 21:22

oggi, 14:52

[lasersquid]

Getting court-martialed by Starfleet for flagrant violations of the Prime Directive, and being found innocent because each of the 276 worlds I quote—Commodore Katy Perry'd—endquote were seeded by Progenitors with the same DNA and are therefore derived of a single civilization.

[little-miss-sad-eyes]

This is me i'm the problem

tragedy enjoyers when their favourite characters are brutally killed in a completely avoidable scenario of their own creation

[Image description: A gif of a crowd cheering wildly. They throw their hands up and high five each other. /End ID]

[rentalboos]

I’m very sorry your getting all this weird hate. I don’t do persona but it sounds awful if they followed you from it to this little corner of the world. Wish you good vibes

thanks fam, that's sweet <3 It's a bit weird rn but the funniest part of it is that it's not even close to the worst anon hate or crossing of boundaries I got in that fandom. :S

[bennetlupin]

It's no wonder I'm always so stressed, my brain can not give me a break. Even when I'm reposting things on social media, my brain is constantly like:

"No, you can't repost that! You've just reblogged that thing about that subject. These to posts don't make any sense together!"

"It's looking weird, the colors don't match. Delete one of them"

I try to ignore it, but it's always there. It's exhausting.

[jones7thavenue]

2024 Diary Entry No. 5

I just awoke from a nap. Plus, I need to clock out in < 5 minutes, so nothing much has happened today...well, except for my parents' arguing, thru which I slept, this time around. I feel so empty right now, even after smoking a cigarette. Having been on medication for 3.75 years, there is a long list of things I miss. But I need to go back to college first and make the biggest comeback of my life. It's a slow, arduous road, but I need to go back. Saving the money to go back to school is going to be a bitch, but, oh, well, there are so many jobs to apply for...and they all need a college degree? Now I'm getting desperate to leave my parents' place. The lover rescue never worked to start with, and now, I'm so desperate to find work, work that will give me much more than a measly ass allowance every two weeks to get anything out. The stress and pressure have been getting to me, so much so, that smoking is an unhealthy coping mechanism, and I must get another way to get hired, even if it means, just passing around an empty resume that needs filling. Serious filling with experience and money from wherever I get hired. It's so much bullshit coming from the government: I end up living with CLOWNS for parents, while my ex is taking care of MY son?! It's not fucking fair! I ain't 'been employed before in the 14 years of graduating high school...them motherfuckers won't take me seriously unless I die of an apparent suicide, and then I end up on the news. What kind of respect will they give me then?! They'll never respect me unless I push back and force their hand to do so. I'm not so pleased with the fucking life I have at all. The devil's full of shit, so full of shit that I wish he didn't exist, but he does, so I'm praying for a job interview to happen. Waiting for a check to get my console + shit out isn't fair. Neither is applying for work then not being taken seriously. I shall rant no more.

Anyway, I'm just feeling pain in my left shoulder blade. I know if I don't relax, then I'll be up all night for the umpteenth time...yet again. but. then again, idgaf no more, though, because I'm getting myself back. It's been 2 months since I broke my last phone, + if my mom can't get me one, then that's fine. Maybe I should be a pen pal or something. It'd be fair like that. Maybe then I can make a new support system out of new friends. If I ever get a phone, then I could be able to give some people a telling off from this website. Maybe then people will learn, if anything, from me, that, maybe from the right kind of compromise, living with your parents isn't bad. Until the day I get hired comes, then I'm going to live in this bullshit three ring sideshow circus of being lonely + unemployed. See? I can't fucking stop thinking about it now! Grr!

I'm just going to take a break from bitching about my life and just create more reading videos, see if it distracts me from this train of thought derailing and smooshing me into the remake of 12 years a slave.

This morning, I broke the coffee carafe in a huge rage. Now, I'm going to have to replace the dad gum thing next Friday. Why is it that I feel life is unfair, when I now know that emotion's costing my family a lot of things? My toes could've been broken, but, then again, that would've been a huge hospital bill in my own hands. Moral: the more one is angry, the more expensive things are to fix or replace. No, I've heard that shit before. Yes, the carafe isn't so expensive, come to think of it.

Anyway, I'm in my room, just listening to cumbia on Spotify. Damn, do I need another nap to rethink myself. I'm not ready for a second chance at anything right now, just being the first hire this year would do me justice and fairness, for sure. I'm just fucking tired of shit being unfair, but being used to it? That's aged me disgracefully, causing my smoking habit to skyrocket, yet again. If I have to pick myself by myself, then nobody's getting shit. Except for the debt people, bills, and subs...NOBODY BETTER ASK FOR SHIT! This is exactly how I feel right now, having to live with clowns for padres for 3.75 years. I'm sick of being used to taking care of shit; why can't I ever be taken care of?

My middle toe is so bruised like a motherfucker from having kicked the kitchen cabinet door so fucking hard. I pray it's not broken. Shit. *sigh*, I need to sort my own brain into the right direction because I'm the one mkaing mylife with my parents suck. Unfair as I see it, it's time to rearrange my behavior.