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evansbby · 1 year ago

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Hi girlie it's hopped off the shower girl after seeing the poyt 5 notif❤️❤️ FIRST OFF I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THAT WOW. NEVER HAVE I READ A FIC IN SUCH URGENCY. You just happened to update during one of my morning classes and I swear I did gymnastics just so be able to read that shit😭 I finished the quiz quicker than everyone and passed early so I could run off to read it. And OH MY GOD. Words can't describe how much I loved this fic. During the first scene w peter and omega, I could barely hold my shit. The fact that omega told him that she wanted to stay w Steve🥹🥹 and honestly I felt a little bad for peter but when he kissed her???? Oh hell nah. And when Steve arrived all fucking furious w veins popping out of his forehead and all of that??? God, I was so relieved. I was a little scared when he started beating up Peter because I think that was the first time I really saw him go blind with rage (except the last time he beat up Peter on pt 2 ig). But I loved, loved, loved, LOVED how he immediately stopped and held himself back after hearing Omegas words, after hearing she won't forgive him if he continues. I was so touched by his character development because in the past he never even listened to her. It really showed that he was willing to change for her and it broke my heart seeing him break down in the car after hearing Peters words (which were true. He deserved to hear them even if he is trying to get better. He was the biggest piece of shit to omega for no damn reason and made her life hell) and omega scenting him in hopes to calm him down because that's what calmed her down🥹🥹 and it actually working. I feel like that scene kinda humanizes him for me.

During their drive to her omegas childhood home, I literally felt awkward with them in the car and the atmosphere just felt so new to mee. I felt like I was seeing a different side of both the characters I loved that I've never seen before, especially with Steve trying to be more light hearted and gentle with her. We really see Steve's insecure side too and how much he really cares when omega answers his question if she still loved peter and his relief when she says no. I also adore omega for learning to stand her ground and setting boundaries like THATS MY BABYGIRL (even if she's me). That's why it broke me when she got to her childhood home and realized that no one was home, that her mom has possibly left but she couldn't even fathom that idea so she just denied it and made herself believe that her mom was just working another job and she's just coming home late and with Steve being so concerned but he gave in and decided to wait an hour for her. It was so sweet yet heartbreaking when he decided to go through her childhood stuff, it was adorable that he kept the pictures of her in his pocket and lightheartedly started reading the journal of his baby omega but the moment he got to the part where her mom's boyfriends were staring at her. Like he finally found out the reason why she always wears the hoodies he hates so much and I really wonder how he felt then and I hope he feels like shit. Seeing omegas relationship with her mom honestly hit home for me. I kinda have a similar mom but she's more present in my life. She deserves so much better than just a mom that leaves her for her boyfriends. and when I found out that she just wrote a note for omega WHAT A BITCH. Seeing her break down like that in her childhood home felt like her lowest point in the series (besides the tub scene) with the only difference that Steve was actually giving her love and hope. I just couldn't get over when Steve said "I'll hire the best investigator to find her" and "FUCK THEM BOTH, I WANT YOU." finally!!!! I was rooting for them so bad. Steve's desperate response when omega said she wanted to die was so satisfying to me. Mans was so scared that he changed his entire personality. He promised her that he'll change for her and their baby🥹🥹 that's the sweetest shit I've ever heard.

And ugh my thoughts are so jumbled up rn but there was this one scene I loved when omega saw Steve blushing after he called her cute. Ahhhhhhhhh. That's what I've wanted from him from the start. Why couldn't he just be a gentleman and charm omega???? He's such an asshole.

STEVES MOMMY IS MY FAV CHARACTER. I love her. She's omegas first mother figure and friend. I was a bit scared of how the parents meeting would go but I knew I had nothing to fear the moment she was introduced. She's just such a strong and motherly role figure that omega always needed. She's just, ugh. I adore the fact that she's so understanding towards her and treats her like her own daughter. We also find out that omega was the first girl that Steve brought home!! But when Steve arrives and her mom immediately gasps and comments on his shaved head. Steve is just such a mommy's boy, I've never seen him act like that. You mean to tell me that that asshole from 4 fics ago was this?? Their little banter and Steve's worry for his mom showing and how he's afraid to visit her because he's afraid to see what cancer has done to her. And Steve's mom trying to act strong for Steve😭 I was bawling. It just hurt so much. We just saw so much domestic omega and Steve during their entire stay. It just felt so light like I wasn't stressing out every second.

Also the sex in the shower?? With Steve being a menace and talking to omegas coochie😺😺 like okay. I almost forgot he was a fucking freak. He was sooo butthurt when omega couldn't say I love u back and I kinda hated him for a bit when he left her with her thoughts, knowing just how broken she was and she thought that he was actually leaving her but we know that he can't do that. The man can't live with her. and when he finally came back to comfort omega, at least he was self aware enough to know that he thinks he doesn't deserve her but that he'll never let her go. Every little bit of him just apologizing and genuinely changing for her, little by little to be better for her and be the man she deserves just fills me with so much joy. I never thought we'd get here.

Both of them visiting the doctor's office and knowing that everything would be fine. They were both so anxious and nervous but they're so happy to have their baby and each other🥹🥹 omegas fears of being her mom finally coming down after she sees her baby and promises that she'll never leave her. Omegas the mom we all deserve fr.

One of my favorite scenes was... STEVE BEATING BUCKYS ASS THAT BITCH DESERVED. I WISH I COULD'VE KICKED HIS NUTSACKS TOO. I knew he was a fucking creep and I was Bucky's biggest hater from DAY 1. You had it coming bitch!!!!! And thank God for omega for standing up to that miserable bitch. Like yeah! He's just an insecure piece of shit. "He always gets better cars blah blah blah" bro?? I wanted to slap him for every word he said. I was waiting for this bitch to get beat up. FUCK YOU BUCKY. Thank fuck for Steve beating him up.

Aside from all of that, I was just living for the tenderness in the last parts. They're finally happy and content being with each other, with Steve finally treating her like a person and making her feel the love she so deserved. I actually appreciate that he did a proper engagement and didn't just leave it at the sweaty ass locker room. His entire speechhhhh. And omega finally marking him. She trusted him enough🥹It just felt so well earned to me. Like he didn't change overnight, he didn't suddenly become a new person. It happened gradually, just like how it does in real life. It felt bittersweet to know that one of my favorite fics of all time is ending but I'm glad that it's ending on a good note with baby rosie (cutest baby ever), mama omega, and daddy Steve. I'm definitely rooting for them and I'm sure omega will overcome her darkness one day one step at a time.

Thank you for writing this masterpiece of a fic. To this day, this is the most touching piece of literary work that I've ever read and I never really imagined that I would say that about a fanfic. But this was literally life changing for me. And there were so many scenes that just hit home for me especially with omega struggling with her self esteem and her relationship with her mom. This was the only time I was really on the tip of my toes waiting for it to be published and following through. I loved interacting with Steve and I loved interacting with YOU. You're the one who made this entire thing possible. Thank you so much. I know it must've been tiring to keep the hype going and having the motivation to write. I know cause I'm a writer too and I know just how difficult it is. Thank you for diligently reading all the asks too. I feel like no heartfelt message goes unnoticed by you and it really gives me the courage to give more feedback to my fav fics because I was honestly kinda nervous beforehand. I hope you take a good rest because damn. 37.4k? I'd die before I wrote that much. and I'm looking forward to your future works and I know I'll eat all of them up.

Thank you for all your hard work ❤️❤️❤️!!!

SHOWER GIRL YOU ARE LITERALLY ICONIC AND ILY! And the fact that you sent another long ask after this one??? With more feedback??? GIRL!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹 (I’ll answer that one too, and ofc will tag you as 🚿 anon hehe)

So you’re actually one of the first people to comment on how ew it was when Peter kissed her! It just gave off weird vibes, like it was a competition to him and he was losing to Steve and so he kissed her. Idk…. When I wrote it that’s I intended it to be, like that kiss did not have pure intentions. Maybe it was desperate which is understandable but still… nope 👎🏼

Ahhh I love how you caught on to the awkward vibes in the car! In a way, they were starting fresh in their relationship. Before this, it was more about lust and sex but now… they’ve opened up to each other and Steve respects her a bit more and actually treats her like a person… so ofc it’s awkward at first! He doesn’t know how to act! Neither does she 😭😭😭 but they try their best! It was one of my fav scenes to write.

ALSO YES! After omega’s breakdown, Steve was literally so scared of losing her that hE CHANGED HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY like you put it perfectly he literally made it his main objective to change his personality to become a better alpha so he could make her happy again 🥹🥹🥺🥺 UGH PLS

Shower anon, I really really appreciate this review. Like you don’t even understand. I feel like you understood exactly what I was trying to convey and I love that you commented on almost every single part 🥹🥹 it seriously means the most to me. 💖💖💖

ily 🚿🚿🚿🚿

#anon #🚿anon #poyt ask #poyt 5 ask

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wanderrlust0 · 1 month ago

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upestie came up to me and asked what my name was SHDJFK LOL that was a huge moment. no one else would understand except snow. AND I FOUND OUT HIS NAME TOO SO HE ISNT JUST “JH” to me anymoreee and omg i predicted his first name. like theres not many J white guy names to begin with anyways lol but oh my glob i felt myself get red and flustered LMAO WHY DOES HE DO THIS TO MEE. he helped me tape boxes again and he had to fix the tape thingy right next to me. HE TOOK OFF HIS HAT to fix his hair but i just saw it in the corner of my eye!! i wanna see his hair..is that a crime. ill still refer to him as upestie (which is only a nickname that snow knows bc they made it up lmaooo hes the ups guy and the best, bestie, hes babygirl). the only crime here is that he only comes by on mondays

#mypost #journal

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seelestia · 2 years ago

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Hallo liaaaa, don't mind mee-

just randomly popping in after being gone for like a week to send u tiktoks huehuehue >:P

petty scara :P

paimon shitting on scara lmao

i will send you every scara thirst trap I ever come across. mark my words >:D

scaranation stay winning (first the stepping animation, now a choking one?? Hoyo be spoiling us fr ;D)

also a lil tidbit i kinda wanna share- I kinda hate that everyone's memory of scara just suddenly gets erased and how tf is this mans gonna get redeemed if he can't fix the wrongs he's done to the people he's hurt if they don't even remember him, also erases the entire history between his relationships with people apart from the traveler (idk much about this whole situation, I've been seeing a lot of people talk about it, and if it is just a complete memory wipe- i'm fr disappointed :'D)

anyway yeahhhh- talk to you later liaaaaa <333 happy holidays ;D - Ever so SIMP-ly yours, 👹✨ Jae <3

jaeeee, you've been caring for that stardew valley farm of yours for too long. you've touched enough virtual grass, now go back to your wifi connection. (/j)

THE FIRST ONE LMAOOOO everyone else is fine until he sees indigo hair and purple eyes and— why did you bring his mom🧍imagine inviting ei to the teapot knowing that scara is there HELPFKEKSK he is rushing into the nearest room and locking door like us when it's family dinner time 😩 (/lh)

ngl, paimon was literally a certified scara hater during the quest because she's scared he'll turn around and hurt the traveler 😭 but let the man have his mental breakdown for a bit <//3 although all of them were seconds away from being crushed in that scene, so paimon's inconsiderate urgency was somewhat understandable.

TWO SCARA THIRST TRAPS IN A ROW?? i am clenching my chest dramatically. please, what... what more do you want from me. i thought i already did what you wanted by joining the club officially, you're trying to sap me dry here 🤨 (/j)

[ SPOILERS for sumeru's interlude quest! ]

DW, JAE, I GOT YOU. the quest did leave me feeling kinda empty too and ik you're not a player, so let me explain the summary of the quest! >:)

if you wanna know, scara was the one who wanted to tamper with the irminsul himself so he could erase himself from everyone's memories. his line of thought was that if they've never met him, then all the wicked incidents (specifically, the tatarasuna incident where the people who took him in died because of dottore) that happened because of him would be gone... so, that those affected by it will live and he can right his wrongs that way.

but a mysterious woman voice (we speculate it's istaroth, the god of time) told the traveler that, not verbatim, although memories can be tampered with, the events still stay the same. even after scara did all that to erase everyone's memories of him so that they'll live, they still died but through different means — which meant that his sacrifice changed nothing but memories. only nahida, the traveler, and paimon are the ones who remember his past because everything still happened and his friends still died 😭

SO, BASICALLY !! scara thought that he'd fix his mistakes and redeem himself by taking himself out of irminsul like we expected, but it backfired on him and now, here he is. <//3

ngl, i felt a little empty because i was hoping that they'd elaborate about ei in this quest since it's centered around scara. but this whole being forgotten thing is still kinda trippy tbh fjwkfjjekd it's a 50/50 for me personally ;( but this quest was also the last shove into the scaranation because we finally got to properly interact with him and he is so stupid and cute and—

BUT FOR THE TRADE, i'll give you: what i'd do if i get scara on his next rerun, did you remember when i said people were naming him Babygirl, and i love patrick pedraza.

#there's a lot to unpack here #by that i meant i comment on the tiktoks you sent and dived into a scara analysis and gave you tiktoks LMAOOOO #multi tasking fr fr (/j)#thanks for dropping by jae! was it fun to touch virtual grass and torture me (/lh)#ask box! 📬#visitor: dearest jae! 👹✨#cw: spoilers #OH AND 6 DAYS LEFT UNTIL YOUR BIRTHDAY HUEHUE 😈

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briseise · 2 years ago

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bdubs with 🌼 perhaps!!

Ask Meme: 🌼Character with symbolic flower (x)

i may have gotten carried away....

#hes so babygirl too mee #asks #bdoubleo100 #ask meme #to-make-yourself-known #also Very proud of the plant symbolism i found for him it matches like. the vines from jungle and moss it grows on everything #its about the loyalty its about the dependence on others its about faithfulness #briseiseart

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yellow-computer-mouse · 3 months ago

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EEK YAY (hehee. i need to populate my ww tag more)

erm!!! okay!! :DD i might get too silly (sorry if I'm too enthusiastic/loud /gen /lh)

UTMV

Nightmare!!!!!!!! He's my first babygirl!! he's so perfect (I also hit him with the plurality beam lol)

DUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU 5EVER DUST!!!! ur so cool dust!!

Red!!!!!!! OUGH I love underfell so much and ily red!!!! :D

REAPER!!!!!!! reaper's so cool omg he's spectacular everyone should appreciate him right now /silly /lh /nf

WoF

WINTER!!!!!!!!!!! he's my actual first babygirl!! ily winter you have done nothing wrong ever!

Turtle!!!!!! turtleeee!!! i have no comments he's just cool hehe

blue!! baby omg ur me.. i too am afraid of authority... (also I am the WinTur Blue guy to some ppl.. that's mee)

honestly the whole jade winglet but. MOON!! ily moon <3

snowfall!!!!! she's actually me lol (fictionkin)

(bonus warriors: i have always loved ravenpaw so much.. you're just like me!! same thing with hollypaw (I'm halfway through power of three))

omg no way! hello fellow utmv/wof fan! :D always cool to see others ^^

HI HI HI!!! very much agreed! ive also been maybe perhaps scrolling on your ww tag LOL

im interested in your favs in any of our mutual famdoms if you dont mind sharing! :DD

#not art #not tapeworms #< my NOT will wood tag has jumpscared a couple people lol #wof #wings of fire #utmv #yellow yaps

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lokisprettygirl · 2 years ago

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The Bodyguard (Loki x Female reader) (Au) (18+)

Read chapter 26 here// Series Masterlist

Chapter 27

Summary : Loki is on a mission to avenge you. Katlyn gets on his radar.

Warning : 18+, Heavy Daddy kink, Smut, Violence, murderous thoughts, Mention of Suicide, Rape, abuse, sexual violence, Harsh language, bodyshaming, fatshaming, mention of neglect and abuse, emotional abuse, Unhealthy Eating Patterns, blackmail, starving and under eating, implied smut, mention of drug use, some weird feeding kink I’m (loki is) developing

As you reached the mansion Loki went upstairs to maintain the facade that he absolutely despised being in your presence more than he needed to, you saw Peter and he smiled at you, you haven't seen him since morning,

"Hey Pete how are you??" you asked him and he put the phone down.

"I'm good, it's nice to hear you call me that" you sat down on the couch next to him and gave him a smile.

"Thank you for last night, he told me and I just..thank you for coming back and being a good friend" your eyes teared up and so did his. He never really forgot about you, you were always there in his head even when he thought he hated you.

"You don't have to thank me, I just.. if he wasn't here ..in your life I mean, would you reconsider us?" He asked you and your eyebrows scrunched, you can't even imagine your life without your loki now.

"I don't know..how am I supposed to answer that?" You looked at him and he nodded. You got up to go to your room and gasped as you saw Loki on your bed, he smiled so you quickly locked your door.

"Hmmm I finally have you in my bed like I said I would" he chuckled and you got on his lap, his hand wrapped around your hips as he kissed you

"Rocky and Suzzanah are out, Katlyn is in the gym and Steve isn't here so I thought I'd spend some time with my client, make sure she's safe in here"

He whispered between the kisses and you smiled, you had a pair of jeans on with a plain black tee and he just really adored the simple look on you.

"Mmm do you want to keep me safe while I shower daddy?" you whispered in his ear then you kissed on his neck, knowing far too well that he won't give into your teasing.

"Let me give you a bath instead babygirl" you looked at him to make sure if he was being serious, your eyes twinkled and he tilted his head. He put you down on the bed and took his coat off then he placed it on the bed, his tie loosened and he rolled his sleeves up. He went to the bathroom to fill the tub and came back a few minutes later, then he picked you up, your legs wrapped around his waist instantly.

"God you're strong" you kissed him and he had to keep his eyes open so he'd make it safely to the bathroom but he stopped when he reached the door and pressed you against it, cupping your cheeks between his palms he kissed you passionately, his tongue played with yours and his hips bucked into yours, all of a sudden he twisted the door knob and you squealed, that made him smile too. However you were not ready for what he did next as he put you down in the bathtub with your clothes on and you gasped

"What? I said bath, you're in the bathtub, just doing what I said" he chuckled and you splashed water onto him,

"Join Mee" he crossed his arm as you said that.

"Noo how would I sneak out in wet clothes?" you groaned and he smiled as he cupped your cheeks and kissed you softly,

"I'll wait outside, be quick okay?" He told you and you nodded.

"Yesss daddy" he smiled and stepped out of the bathroom, then he laid down on your bed, he closed his eyes to rest them as he thought about what he was going to do with Katlyn in the coming days, he had already set his first plan in motion. The gym. With Eric's help he had tweaked the mechanics of the treadmill, that's all she used to stay skinny, she would get on it but she won't be able to get off as it wouldn't turn off no matter how much she tries, he just hoped she won't die because he wasn't done with her, he had just begun.

He wanted to hurt her just how she have hurt you all this time, the thought of innocent sweet 17 year old baby y/n being drugged and raped boiled his blood and made him want to burn the whole world down.

He felt your weight on top of him and smiled but he didn't open his eyes

"Tell me that you have clothes on you"

"Why don't you touch me and check?" You leaned down to kiss him and he moaned into your mouth, your wet hair brushed over his cheeks, dripping water droplets all over him , he pushed your hair aside and his hand brushed over your naked back l,

"Such a bad baby, naughty baby, and I thought you wanted to be good for me little one" he mumbled and you smiled

"Mmm I do daddy"

"Then why are you all naked on top of me hmm?" He mumbled and you felt his fingers trailing over your bare cheeks, the touch made you shiver

"Fuck you frustrate me so much" he chuckled as you got off him and his eyes remained closed. You were literally throwing yourself at him and he was not paying you any attention. He was built differently because you knew you were capable of seducing men. But then what if he just cared about you and he wasn't thinking about fucking you senseless all the time, like you did for him?

"Mmm are you dressed yet?" He asked as he perched himself on his elbow.

"I'm doing it..calm down" he heard your sad little voice and sighed. He stood up immediately and you were in the middle of putting your pants up, the sight of your panty clad bubble butt wasn't something he wanted to see today as he knew that would keep him up at night.

He walked closer to you and stood behind you, his arms wrapped around your waist

"Hiii" he whispered in your ear and you looked at him.

"Hiii" you mumbled as you pouted and that made him smile

"You know daddy loves you right?" He pressed a soft kiss on your cheek and you hummed,

"Mmm but does he want me? " His lips moved down your neck and you moaned, then you felt his bulge rubbing against your ass as he pressed into you purposefully,

"See what you do to me?" he whispered in your ear, his voice was rough, husky, and commanding. You just questioned his feelings and he had to set you straight. He turned you around and pressed you against the door of the closet. You placed your hands on his shoulders and he grabbed your ass with both of his hands to pull you closer to him then his hips rolled into you and you moaned loudly,

"You get me so fucking hard, all the time babygirl..feel me yeah? You have no idea how hard all of this is for me, in every sense of the word"

You gasped as his hips bucked into your clothed heat very harshly,

"Mmmm dadddy I just need you so bad..I'm sorry" you whined as he kept you in place while his hips humped against you mercilessly,

"I know baby but don't you dare ever question my feelings for you again, I'll fucking ruin you on my cock the first thing when we get out of this forsaken place" his teeth greeted as the sensation built in the pit of his stomach, he should have stopped talking right there because the way you responded to his words only turned him on further.

"Ohhh fuck yess please I want to be ruined, ruin me daddy please" you whined again as he brought you closer to the edge with the constant humping, his words fuelled the fire in you even more,

"Soon ..ohh I promise I'll make such a mess out of you that you won't even remember your name sweetheart, I'll be the only thing in that pretty little head of yours" he whispered in your ear and you could just picture it all in your head, the cottage in Indiana that he told you about, his bedroom, his bed, you on his bad, him on top of you as he fucks you slowly, you could picture everything.

"Ohh Daddy yess please you're all I need..just you..only you "

"Mmmhm? Sweet little princess.. fucking hell god you're driving me insane" his movement stopped suddenly as he was about to lose control, his fist bumped against the door of the closet and he instantly looked at you as you flinched a little.

"Sorry.. just a reflex " you mumbled softly and he cupped your cheeks to kiss you tenderly.

"Sorry baby, daddy is sorry, you're safe with me ..I'll never hurt you little one" your eyes teared up at the tenderness in his voice, such a contrast to when he was whispering filthy words in your ear. And God you were in love with all the sides of him.

"I know I know..I love you I love you" you got on your tiptoes to wrap your arms around his neck and he picked you off the floor to spin you around, making you giggle.

He laid you down on the bed and got on top of you as he took deep breaths, his fist clenched into your hair, he wasn't pulling, he was just holding you in place as he showered you with forehead kisses and cheek kisses,

"What if I want you to hurt me though" you mumbled and he looked at you, his pupils dilated as he processed the meaning behind your words, his cock twitched at the thought, though he couldn't imagine putting his hands on you, not even in a sexual manner , not after everything you have been through.

"What do you mean?" You bit on your lips and his eyes lingered at the shiny glossy lower lip then he looked up at you again

"Like if I want you to spank me or choke me .. would you?" he cursed under his breath as you said that, then he took a deep breath before he answered

"Maybe ..maybe I would, maybe gently and playfully but nothing too extreme, I ..I don't want to hurt you or make you feel pain, any sort of pain, I don't care if it's sexual darling, I just can't give you physical pain. After we are done satiating our carnal desires I don't want you to associate that feeling of burn from the hit and the aftermath of it with me, when you think of me I just want you to think of me as your daddy, as your protector, as your lover that would never harm you like that" your eyes teared up as he said that, men have done all that to you without consent and here you were offering yourself to him and he just refused.

"You're like a god aren't you? how do you do that" he chuckled and kissed your forehead.

"I'm not a god sweetheart, I just.. love you" He loves you. Yes he loves you. You are loved.

"I love you daddy..love you more than the moon loves the stars" you giggled and his heart swelled. Innocent baby.

"I don't think the moon really does that though" you chuckled and he kissed you again.

"How am I supposed to go out with a raging boner"

"Think about your brother or think about my dad fucking Suzannah, his old wrinkly body against her.." he started laughing and placed his palm on your mouth. He had a beautiful laugh, everything about him intensified since you have fallen for him so madly.

After he sneaked out you got a call from Rocky that your sister Katlyn had an accident in the gym and he wanted you to be there for her in the hospital, yes of course why not, because she has been there for you everytime you ended up there.

You got ready and you wondered what kind of accident she had and then you couldn't help but think if Loki was behind this.

As he escorted you out of the mansion you kept your eyes on him, Peter was also going but in a seperate car.

"Soo Bucky loses his arm and now Katlyn's leg is fractured?" You said to him and he was going to say something but he stopped, he didn't want to lie to you.

"What did you do?"

"I just tweaked with her treadmill that's it"

You sighed as he said that.

"Lokii what if they get suspicious?"

"How?? I checked there are no cameras in there or in the lobby that leads to it and Erik will fix it by the time they come for the repair, it would be like it never even malfunctioned "

He had a mischievous grin on his face and that made you smile, you didn't want him to get in trouble but this was such a different side to him that you found really adorable.

As you reached the hospital Steve and Suzzanah were already there along with Erik, Steve glared at Loki and it made you roll your eyes, Peter smiled as he looked at you.

"What happened?" You asked Suzzanah and she looked up from her phone

"She fell off the treadmill"

"Wowww" you mumbled under your breath and Steve walked towards you

"Don't rejoice too soon baby because if something really awful happens to her I swear to god I'll make your life a living hell" Loki's jaw clenched as he heard that. He just needed an excuse to hurt you, whatever hesitation he felt for hurting these people disappeared completely.

"Okay but how do you fall from a treadmill? like I have seen her on it, she doesn't go above the speed of 6 ..she could have jumped off easily if she wanted to" Suzzanah shrugged and for once you didn't roll your eyes at the words that came out of her mouth

"What are you trying to say huh?" Steve glared at her and she shrugged again.

"Just saying, I don't think she fell off the treadmill, she is learning ballet for a movie or something, she must be practicing in the gym area"

"Why would she lie?" Steve asked her and she smiled.

"Must be embarrassed I guess"

"Go get someone to see what's wrong with the treadmill" he told Erik and it was like even god was helping you all to hurt them.

When doctor allowed you all to see her, Steve and Suzzanah went first along with Peter, she just had a minor fracture in her ankle, nothing too bad, but her knees were bruised and when she fell on her face she lost two front teeth.

You took out your phone and texted him as you waited to see her

You looked at him and smiled, you heard Steve yelling at Katlyn for being so careless especially when the wedding was so close, it reminded you of the times they blamed you for every time you got sick and they blamed you for it.

It brought a little satisfaction,

After Steve and Suzzanah left, you visited her and she abused you verbally for no reason, blaming you that you cursed her and whatnot so you stepped out immediately.

Loki winked at you before he made his way into her room and he softened his eyes to appear more empathetic,

"How are you ma'am?" He sat down on the chair next to her and she started crying, the two missing teeth made him cringe internally.

"It hurts so bad" he placed his hand on hers and she clutched onto him.

"I'm so sorry you are going through this, it must hurt so bad to lose that pretty smile you had but I'm sure that can be fixed right?" he said softly even though deep down her touch made him feel disgusted.

"Pretty smile?" She giggled and he smiled. Dumb bitch.

"Prettiest, umm I should go, my client is out there" he rolled his eyes and she smirked.

"Ugggh let her be, I know she is so happy to see me here, what have I done to her.. I don't understand?" She cried and he controlled the urge to clench his jaw "Stay with me..I need you"

"I wish I could, I really do, but it's my job, as much as I don't want to be around her I have to" he said as he pulled his hand away and stood up then he stepped out, the second part of his plan was in motion. He was going to play with her emotions the way she did with yours.

She bullied you all your childhood which he could have forgiven her for, kids do dumb shit but she didn't stop, she didn't grow up, she continued to torture you emotionally and psychologically. The bodyshaming, the rape, the heartbreak, the way she was going to traumatise you for life by cutting your hair, he can't forgive her for all of that.

And He won't. He won't stop until he has her as broken as she had made you feel.

❤️🖤♥️🖤♥️🖤♥️🖤♥️🖤♥️🖤♥️🖤

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ateezinmymind · 4 years ago

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Finding out their s/o is pregnant

Ateez x reader

fluff ~yeo lowkey angst

thank you so much for the request @sonnnflower 💓sorry for the waitt!! <3

Hongjoong:

You would be a little nervous telling him at first Doubting yourself, scared that he wouldn’t be happy due to how busy he is

But when he came home and felt your uneasy aura,, he knew something was up. “Love? Are you okay?”Trying to put on your best smile, you just give a “yep” and change the topic. Doing your best to seem as calm as possible, while talking about his time at work

Your nerves would be over controlling to the point where you started to shutter “Joong, I need to show you something”,,Walking in the bathroom where your pregnancy test was, you turn around to show him, and lock eyes “I-I’m pregnant..”

His face would go blank from hearing the news,,Like he would be full on shookkk :O

From the look on his face you started to doubt telling him-“Are you mad?”. Realizing he hasn’t said anything because he was lost in his imagination he quickly reassures you“Noo—baby? No, why would I be mad at you?”

Then tears would start coming,, “I-it’s just that y-you’re busy, and I know t-that you have a lot of things to worry about...and I don’t want you to have another thing to stress over-“ But seeing the biggest smile spread across his face, he softly comforts, “my life at work will never interfere with my life at home, okay? I could never be mad at something so beautiful as this-“

Looking down to your stomach he’d softly place his hand there. “I just can’t believe that we’re finally starting our family”

Seonghwa:

You were sitting on the floor of the bathroom The test in hand, showing you the positive results-you’ve been wondering if you were pregnant for a couple weeks now..You’ve noticed the changes in your body, and you just needed to make sure

A thousand thoughts went through your mind, but when you heard the front door open you quickly got up off the floor and put the pregnancy test in the trash

Greeting Seonghwa with a kiss, he’s first to say, “Dinner ideas y/n? Any cravings? Your wish..my command” The way he treats you like your his treasure, makes you think about what a great dad he’ll be, and while your request moved to the kitchen to be cooked, you tidy up and think about how to tell hwa

Dinner being made and served by your favorite person,, you thank him “Seonghwa thank you, there’s so much you do for me, even after your day at work you come home to take care of me” Pausing for a moment and taking a deep breath,, “there’s some news I need to tell you-“

“You’re pregnant-“

“How do you-“

“Love, do you think I haven’t noticed the times where you get out of bed to throw up in the morning? Do you think I haven’t noticed how you ask me to get the weirdest foods for you? And babe I’m not blind, I’ve seen that cute little bump you have-” Getting up from his chair, Seonghwa walks over and kneels in-front of you, and grabs your hands “I know you y/n, you’re the love of my life. I notice things, and this..well this has made me want to make sure I take care and am there for you even more,,”

Placing your hands on top of his, which are placed on your stomach he quips “You’re going to be the most wonderful mother to our child, and quite frankly..the hottest” *wink wonk*

Yunho:

You’ve talked about having kids in the future with Yunho,, but you never made an official decision

Until now

He knew you haven’t been feeling well lately,, so he wanted to make sure you had a happy day together You two would spend the day raiding stores, buying too much food, and of course laughing

It was when you went through an aisle that had pregnancy tests, and it made the realization spark,,that you might be pregnant. Grabbing two, you caught up to Yunho and tapped his shoulder-“I kind of want to try it and see??” He immediately smiles at the fact you’re going to do a pregnancy test, and the fact that there’s a possibility of you being pregnant..

Later that day you decided to do the tests-both of them..coming back positive-Mind immediately going to Yunho.. oh how he’s going to be so happy-“yuyu?..” peeking your head out the bathroom seeing him on the bed playing with his feet while waiting “Oh oh y/n,,tell mee tell mee!!” Trying to hide your smile behind the door, you think about playing a little trick with him,

“baby, I’m sorry I guess I just have a stomach bug..it came out negative-“ and from the moment those words came out of your mouth, you deeply regretted it. The sadness washing over his features and the small ‘aw’ that came out of him made you burst out the bathroom and into his arms

“I’M PREGNANT!! Babyyy I’m sorry I was just wanting to see your reaction..I-I I’m pregnant..”Hugging him- you hear a sniffle,,quickly looking up and holding his face. Tears gliding down his cheeks causes you to tear up “Y-y/n, I cant believe this“ —thinking he was mad you start apologizing..

“IM GOING TO BE A DAD!!”

Yeosang:

You knew that you were pregnant,,it’s just that Yeosang didn’t-it wasn’t that you were hiding it, but just because you didn’t know how he was going to react

You two rarely mentioned having kids, frankly you thought he wasn’t fond of the idea, so you tried to keep the topic out of subject—But tonight when you two were sitting on the couch together, eating sweets. Him on his phone, and you staring off at the wall-shoving food in your mouth

“You know I have something I need to tell you...I don’t know how your going to react,but please hear me out-“ lifting his head up attention now on you, “I haven’t told you this yet because I’m scared, but..” looking straight at him, then moving your gaze away from nervousness-“I’m pregnant Yeosang”

Not hearing a words come out of his mouth you start rambling,,”I just don’t know what we’re going to do. I don’t know what is gonna happen..I-“ head turning, your faced with a frozen Yeosang...

Trying to get his attention back, shaking him lightly, patting his cheeks, you give up. Not knowing what he’s thinking right now, why he won’t answer-tears slide down your cheeks, sniffling grabbing another piece of food and shoving it in your mouth you just sit there

“Wait, how long have you kept this from me?”—snapping your head towards him, teary face, and chewing food, “probably a month now..” Yeosang then stands up and throws his phone on the couch. “Come here.” gesturing his hands towards him, you get up yourself—then immediately brought into a kiss

Wrapping his arms around your waist and giving a very light squeeze, he pushes his head in your neck.. ”babe, I can’t believe you didn’t tell me...I want to do this with you so bad—I want to be there for you so bad. Please let me”

Giving out an apology,, he’s quick to jump and look you in the eyes while holding your stomach—“I would’ve gotten CHICKEN!! ahhhhh we can’t have our baby not taking after his daddyyy~”

San:

It was when you woke him up getting out of bed to throw up.. San quickly following after you-one hand holding your hair, the other caressing your sides

always being there for you, wanting to do everything he can to take care of his baby he tries so hard to give you the best comfort—”love , are you okay?? did you eat something bad?”

Ever since that morning, he definitely noticed the more mornings to come..by the third time this happened he’s the one that suggested it-“Y/n, love,, do you have any ideas of why you’ve been sick?”

You’d honestly be oblivious, but San-is obsessed with you and probably knows everything about you before you actually do..yaknow because you’re his babygirl

So when you kept saying you’re confused on why you haven’t been feeling well—San just straight up tells you, “You might be pregnant-“

And then you tense up and realize..OMG PREGNANT-but seeing the smile and the cutest dimples on his happy face,,you know there’ll be no regrets

“Oh..wow, well should we buy a test? To uh make sure-“ he’d give you a fast ‘got it!’ And rushed out the door like a mad man

Coming back with more tests you needed, he couldn’t wait..”y/n, if these don’t come back positive..I’m going to have to take you to the bed—“

“Because I can’t stop thinking about this now,, I really hope you’re pregnant” then ushering you to the bathroom he kisses your nose and closes the door “I love you”

When you came back out with positive results,, you got a high pitched scream, and a grown man running around in joy..

your beautiful journey together only starting..

Mingi:

When you missed your period, you didn’t want to think of what was going to happen—the both of you were cuddling next to each other when you went down the rabbit hole that started from listening to Mingi’s heartbeat, to thinking about snacks, then a little more down to the realization that you haven’t had your period

He nudged his head into the crook of your neck,, a satisfactory sigh leaving his mouth-“I love you so much babe...” awww mingi is my baby, my cute—BABY...your heart beating faster, “I love you too b-baby—“ then hoisting yourself up to hold his hand

“So I just realized I haven’t had my period,, and I know you remember that n-night because..who wouldn’t,” rambling on about him his eyes go wide. “Wait y/n, you’re saying that-“

“I don’t know,, it’s a possibility and I don’t want to risk not knowing for sure” so that’s when the both of you-hand in hand-walk into the store to get your needed supplies. And that’s how now Mingi-on the other side of the bathroom door is humming a little tune waiting

Calling him in, he asks if everything’s alright when he sees you on the floor- “y-yeah..it’s just. I’m pregnant”

Mingi then starts giggling, “y/n you know I always thought I was going to be the baby—TURNS OUT WERE HAVING A BABY?!”

He’d pick you off the floor and take you back to bed and cuddle you so more,, “we should name it monkey after her mommy~” bursting into laughter, the only thing that could be heard was you slapping Mingis leg..then a following “OWWWWEE Y/N IT WAS A JOKE!!”

Wooyoung:

When you asked for some ice and chocolate Woo literally thought you were on cocaine,, “I’m sorry? You said what?” He needed to hear you again-“I want some ice and chocolate! Oh and now that I’m thinking about it,, how about some chips too”

He literally just stood there in confusion-“well go on!” Hearing your demand he ran to get your cravings. Before he came back out to you, still trying to figure out what’s wrong with you—he brings out his phone and types. ‘why is my wife/gf craving ice and chocolate’

When a thing for pregnancy cravings came up he quickly brought the food back to you,,not wanting to keep you waiting any longer-

“How long have you been wanting these weird cravings??” Trying to watch your show, you tell him ‘not for long’..”well the internet said that weird cravings could be because of pregnancy-COULD THAT BE A REASON?!”

You haven’t really thought about why you’re feeling the way you have been, honestly you just thought your body was changing because of weight gain..but hearing pregnancy come up you’re like-DUH

Wooyoung brings up going to the doctor,,and you agree-because you want him to be quiet about this so you can go back to watching

-sitting in the waiting room, currently talking about the pattern on the floor and the interesting choice of wall art. You two are interrupted by the doctor calling you back in..sitting on the chair he starts, “congratulations you two are parents..”

On your way home WOOYOUNG WOULD NOT SHUT UP saying ‘I told you’ and ‘always trust the internet’. But when you sat on the couch he came in right beside you, and held your stomach,,

“I really can’t believe this is going to happen, but I’m for sure happy I’m here for you” KISSES AND SCREAMING LAUGHTER followed as he tickles your legs

Jongho:

You mentioned feeling odd, when talking to your mom. She thought nothing of it, but when you kept coming to her...she gave you advice you weren’t ready to hear

“Hey y/n-baby, what’s going on?”

“You know how I haven’t been feeling good? Well, I’ve been talking to my mom about it-“ taking a deep breathe and covering your face, “a-and she says I might be pregnant..”

You feel the bed dip in from his weight, Jongho crawling up to your frame. He gives you a kiss on your stomach, then holding your hand-“wait-really? What do you think about that?”

“I don’t know what to think, I mean I’m happy it’s with you, but I’m scared..and I-I don’t know” irrupting you with a kiss “don’t be scared, I know this is new-but I’m never going to leave you, and I’m hear for you always..”

Later when you two confirmed with a test, you spent the whole day snuggling, “I can’t wait to tell my mom hehe-“ giggling Jongho says happily. “You’re going to give birth to a little apple..and we’re going to be the most powerful-“

“Jongho,, stop..it’s a baby—not your little play toy” but he only snuggles in closer, “we’ll see y/n, we’ll see..”

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a65232-joshywoshy · 3 years ago

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Rachael stood with her back to Penny, who was sitting on the couch. Penny smiled at the woman in front of her who was wearing only a t-shirt and diaper, Rachael’s favorite pajamas. As the song on her phone started, Rachael shuffled backwards towards Penny, taking small steps in time with the music. As the intro ended, she spun around and sang along, though she only knew half of the lyrics.

They both smiled as Rachael danced in the apartment living room. Both women shared the philosophy that life is what you make of it. They could have been sad or stressed that they would have to leave this apartment in less than a month, forced to uproot their lives and start anew somewhere else. Instead, they lived life one day at a time. Each day was a gift, they had agreed. Sometimes all that matters is the here and now. Here, at this point in time, everything was perfect.

Penny got a text from Veronica.

“Oh no. Veronica is divorcing Marco.” Penny said with a sigh.

“Oh no.” Rachael stopped dancing and sat on the couch next to Penny.

“I knew they were going through a rough patch, but I didn’t think it would lead to divorce.” Penny read the last text from Veronica out loud, translating the words from Spanish. “ ‘Everything is going to be okay, though. I will miss him, but he really wasn’t good to me, anyway. He wants to stay in the house, so he is kicking me out. So I will find my own place. My abuela raised a strong woman; I will make my own way.’ I’m going to invite her to stay over here. She’s too stubborn to ask.”

Penny quickly typed the invitation to Veronica in spanish. Rachael loved watching Penny type in spanish. Scrambled words and strange characters seemed to come together like magic, forming words and sentences that were alien to her, yet perfectly clear and concise to a Spanish speaker. Language always fascinated her. Some languages could delete the verb ‘are’ if the context was obvious. Other languages had 100 unique words to use in place of ‘I’. And still others had phrases and words for feelings that took English speakers an entire sentence to describe.

Penny read Veronica’s reply “ ‘Mija, I don’t want to be a burden on you. It’s unfair for me to take up the space you’ve worked so hard to earn.’ Ptch. She sounds like an abuela.” She spoke her reply out loud, while she typed in spanish. “Please. You. Are. Not. An inconvenience. Let. Me. Take care. Of you. The way. You take. Care. Of me. If. Abuela. Was here. I would. Tell. On you. Familia primero. Siempre.”

Penny hit send, then the two stared at the message screen waiting for a reply. “Do you know what those last three words mean, Rachael?” While Penny waited for Veronica to weigh her options and make up her mind, she figured she would keep Rachael entertained with a little spanish lesson.

“Um…” She read the words without their proper accent, much to Penny’s amusement. “Fam-ee-lee-uh prihm-air-o See-em-pree.”

“Rachael. Babygirl. You butchered that pronunciation. Escuchen. Repeat after me. Fah-mee-lee-uh pre-mehro. See-em-preh.”

Rachael repeated the words back, this time only failing to roll the ‘R’ in primero.

“Very good. Thank you.”

“Does it mean family one?”

“Close. It means family first, always. I said that to pull on her heartstrings. I’m kind of partial to having her over all the time, but I also don’t think she has too many housing options right now. It may be a little presumptuous of me, but I don’t care. There’s not a lot I can do to make her have a bad opinion of me at this point.”

Penny translated Veronica’s reply. “ ‘Okay, Mija. You win. I’ll be spending the night tonight, if that’s okay. I won’t be too much trouble.’ Yes! She’s coming over!” Penny did a little dance. “I get my Mommy. She’s coming over. I’m going to collect ALLl the women. Mwahaha.”

“Yay! I mean, it’s sad that she’s getting a divorce. You know what I mean. Does she have kids?”

“Yeah. She has a son, but he’s like 20 and moved out already.”

“Okay. Should we start getting ready to go see Kim, soon?” Rachael was still chipper. Getting to see someplace new was exciting, even if her social anxiety tended to climb higher as she did so.

“Yes. We should get ready. And you know what? I’m going to let you diaper me. I’ll wear a longer skirt or something so noone will know but you. But it’ll be my little gift to you.” Penny stood up to go change, then stretched.

“A gift? I’m special! Why do I get a gift?” Rachael asked sweetly.

“Because I love you. That’s why,” Penny cooed. “You get a gift for no other reason than ‘I love you.’” She kissed Rachael’s forehead. “Now diaper and dress me, babyslave!”

“Yes ma’am!” Rachael eagerly hurried to the bedroom for clothes and supplies. Penny followed behind.

“Let’s see.” Rachael rummaged through the boxes in the room. She found a white pleated skirt, flowy top, and a rearz princess diaper, then patted the bed, directing Penny to lay down. “Lay down right here, sweet princess girl. We don’t need any grown up panties anymore.” After taking Penny’s clothes off, she started to grab baby powder.

“No baby powder, please.”

“Why not?” Rachael stopped, puzzled.

“I’m allergic. It makes my skin break out. It’s not a bad allergy, it’s just enough to bother my skin.”

“I’m sorry. Well, shoot. I guess I won’t get to have powder, either.”

“You can have powder on yourself. I just can’t put it on you.” Penny looked at Rachael apologetically. “I’m sorry. You really like it, don’t you.”

“Meh. I can do without. That’s part of any relationship, I guess. Compromise.” Rachael finished getting Penny dressed, without baby powder. “Could you powder someone if you wore gloves? What happens if you accidentally breathe it in?”

“Nothing,”Penny said as she sat up again. “But I would be anxious that it would touch me somewhere else. If I start smelling baby powder, I start worrying that it’s touching some part of my skin that I don’t see. It won’t kill me, but I just really don’t want my skin to break out and start getting itchy. We’ll work on some kind of plan for you to be able to use baby powder, on yourself, sometime. I don’t want you to not have the things you like.”

“Thank you. Can I get changed now, too?”

“Of course!” Penny kissed her cheek. “We’ll take turns.”

Penny smiled and layed Rachael down on the bed, with a kiss to the forehead. Penny changed her out of her pajama shirt and wet diaper, into a dry diaper and new, publicly acceptable outfit. The bagginess of the outfit helped conceal her diaper. Neither one of them were obviously diapered.

“There. All better.” Penny told Rachael. “Let’s go see this house.”

~~~~~~

“This is the place? Whoa.” Rachael was surprised at how large the house was. Kim waited for them on the front sidewalk as they drove up the driveway.

Before them was a large, two story house. It wasn’t a mansion, but was still large enough for more than 5 bedrooms. A pool was visible in the backyard. Behind the house was a communal lake; a few boats dotted its surface.

“Hello, ladies. Thank you for coming!” Kim looked very happy to see her former co-workers. They exchanged pleasantries as Kim started the tour of the house. Inside, the rooms were spacious. Vaulted ceilings and open concept spaces were all throughout. The bedrooms were smaller in comparison, but still larger than any room in Penny’s apartment.

Kim told the story of how both sets of her grandparents wanted to get their first grand-daughter the most expensive gift. What started as a petty competition between her grandparents had escalated until she had a house, car, and multiple shares of stocks in her name. Through the trickling down of their money, they had ultimately made Kim wealthy as well. She had enough money in her multiple savings accounts to live comfortably for decades, with all her bills paid. Getting a job was how she earned extra “spending money”.

“So your grandparents just gave you all this?” Penny couldn’t imagine her grandparents cooperating long enough to make a single decision, much less buy her expensive things.

“Yep.”

“So this house, your car, is all paid for already?” Rachael had received a few expensive gifts from her grandparents a few times in her life. Still, she knew that none of them, even if they pooled their money, could afford a house like this. Rachael was floored.

“Yes.”

“And you’re just going to let us live here? How much will we owe you?” Penny was floored that rich people could so easily forget the value of what they possessed.

“You can stay for free, if you need. But if you insist on paying something, just pay your portion of the utilities.” Kim shrugged. It made no difference to her.

“We’ll definitely pay that. Maybe more. Thank you so much for this offer, Kim. Do you have any specific rules for us if we decide to live here?” Penny asked.

“Not really. Just… don’t destroy the house? The HOA demands that there are no parties past quiet hours of 10pm. Clean up after yourself. Just the basic things. The house is basically yours to do with as you please. I’ll be leaving in 2 days for a family vacation. So, do you want to stay here? I kind of need an answer so I know if I need to find a house sitter or not.”

“That would be wonderful. Please.” Penny said. “Oh. One last thing. We may have a guest over for an extended amount of time. Is that okay? It’s my friend. She is getting divorced and needs a temporary place to stay while she finds a place.”

“Sure. I really don’t care. I’m just happy that the house is being used now.”

“Thank you very much.” Penny said. Rachael echoed the thank you as well.

“You’re welcome. Here are the keys. I’ll have my people send you the paperwork today. Can you just text me your current address so we can send it to you?” Kim started typing on her phone. Most likely sending messages to ‘her people’ to begin the process of accepting tenants. “Feel free to start moving in when you’re ready. I have to take off. Bye friends.”

And with that, she was gone, leaving Penny and Rachael standing in the massive living room, stunned at the gravity of what just happened.

“I love rich people.” Rachael said.

“Me, too.” Penny slowly spun around, taking in the house one more time as she played with the keys she was handed. “I guess let’s get lunch, then go pack. Then move, I guess? I don’t know. The world is our oyster, love.”

“Let’s go!” Rachael said excitedly.

They left the house, locking the door behind them, then spent the rest of the day packing and moving enough stuff to the new house so they could stay overnight.

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justshekthings · 4 years ago

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just for a moment - park jisung fanfic (part 1)

“Continuing to run you turn around with a huge smile across your face, locking eyes with the boy whos awestruck expression turns into a comforting smile. Somehow without even knowing each other's names you both felt as if you've managed to escape reality, like the two of you were the only people in the universe, a feeling so rare, a scene only in movies, an occurrence never forgotten and yet was just experienced by these two individuals, even if it was just for a moment.”

Park jisung x reader

Word Count: 8731

Reading time: 1h 7m

Italics = thoughts

“normal” = spoken

*IMPORTANT PLEASE READ*

Authors note: Since this a fanfic, therefore fiction, there story is set in your last year in highschool with the rest of the dream members who are all the same age. The school year will also be following the korean academic year system, just for some realism. I also made up a few characters with a korean name generator so please don’t overthink! I will also be releasing this story 4 chapters at a time with 3 parts in total, making a total of 12 chapters #quickmaths. Apologies in advance if my uploads are slow or my grammar is awful. Make sure to like and comment any suggestions or thoughts, but try to be kind, it’s my first time writing a fanfic.

Enjoy reading~

March: March, although somewhat an afterthought or rather a shadow of winter, left with only it’s remains, it sets the groundwork for the rest of the year. March plants seeds that grow from mere sprouts to full grown plants during the course of the year.

It’s early March, the month when the snow starts to thaw in preparation of the well anticipated season of spring. The feel of the winter air has managed to remain in Seoul, resented by the thousands of students forced to return back to school for the first semester. One of those poor unfortunate souls is you, y/n l/n, an 18 year old girl and you’ve come back to start and, hopefully, finish your senior year at Seoul Highschool. Although what does seem to make your experience there a little more bearable are your two friends Seo Kyung-Hu and Hu Mee-yon, while those two have been friends since primary school, you only met them in Middle school when you first transferred and they being the only nice enough kids willing to approach you, the three of you clicked instantly and ever since your trio have stayed a complete set.

Unlike your two friends, you could care less about school purposefully staying up late in hopes of sleeping through your alarm and having a valid excuse to miss the first day of school. And your plan worked… to some extent. Your mother on the other hand was keen to send you to the school you paid money for, as you should. You were fast asleep dreaming about exo performing as ot9 was suddenly awoken by the screaming of your mother. “YAH Y/N WAKE UP AND GET TO SCHOOL BEFORE I TAKE ALL YOUR EXO POSTERS AGAIN!” hearing that was enough to make you jump out of bed and start getting ready, not without a few complaints of course. Walking into your washroom you take one good look at your face in the morning, “oh god” you’re at least grateful your skin decided not to break out on the first day of school however your face was still puffed and quite dull. You continued washing your face, brushing your teeth and putting on that god awful, ugly, disgusting, and horrific uniform, as you described. Objectively your uniform wasn’t at all bad however you had the tendency to well… overthink. (the uniform looks like the A-teen beige uniform)

It being 8:35 and school starting at 8:45, you speed walked and slightly ran to school attempting to cut the initial 10 min walk in half with at least 5 mins to spare just in case. Fortunately enough you managed to get there on time to check what your classroom was, before the bell. Room 215? Ok… WHERE IS THAT AGAIN?! Somehow the break managed to erase most of your memory of the school, although there wasn’t much worth remembering about your most hated location on planet earth. You run around frantically desperately trying to find your homeroom before a teacher, or worse a hall monitor. You stop in the middle of an empty hallway to text your friends where the hell room 215 is, until you hear a unfamiliar voice reach out to you, “Are you lost babygirl” WHAT THEEE it took a second for you to process what the guy had said until out of instinct you start to laugh uncontrollably with your eyes starting to tear up. You turn around, hand holding your stomach, “What did you just say?” you ask, unable to take the male standing in front of you seriously. He stares at you, seeming to enjoy that you understood his reference, “What so you’re telling me you’re not totally turned on by that comment?” With a slight over exaggerated gasp at the end of his sentence, obviously showing that he was joking. “No no your question was valid just-” unable to finish your sentence you rerun the moment that had just unfolded through your head, succeeding in making you burst out in laughter again. His voice cuts through your laugh, “No but seriously you seem lost” finally regaining your composure, you take a minute to examine his appearance, and his attractiveness, and realizing you’ve been staring for a bit too long you panic quickly trying to cover it up, “YEAH UM i'm lost do you know where room 215 is?” “New student?” “no just dumb” He laughs at your honesty and points you in the right direction like a true gentleman. “Oh my god thanks so much, hope I see you again cute stranger!” you end your sentence with a wink and then run off after getting a glimpse of his dumbfounded expression although close enough to hear him yell out, “The name’s YangYang!”

The odds were in your favour managing to slip into class before your teacher arrived and you had a mini-mental celebration before choosing to sit in the empty window seat in the middle row with an empty seat beside you to limit the amount of human interaction you get. Sitting down in your seat and see the teacher walk in and start the generic beginning of the school year talk, you text your friends to pass the time, who were lucky enough to have their class together, while the class goes through the course outline. After waiting a few minutes at the front, you see both of your friends, Kyung-hu and mee-yon or as you called them kyuhu and mimi to simplify their names, walk out and you guys greet each other before the three of you walk in the direction of your neighborhood, talking about what you all did during the break, all the annoying teachers and most recent gossip.

You’d notice that the first week of school would follow this routine, passing by quite quickly and finding it uneventful as your teacher didn’t give a lot of homework as it was the first week of school. During the first week you concluded that there was no one in your classroom, or in the school for that matter that piqued your interest except for the fellow that helped you on the first day but has managed to slip your sight every time you scanned your surroundings to find him. Although just as fast as the first week passed by, the weekend went just as fast, and based on how your school operates, it’d be the only free weekend you’d have in a long time. And much to your dissatisfaction, you found herself in the same situation from a week ago, tired, lazy and lacking any motivation to go to school. Despite this you actually made an effort to wake up early, too early, to get ready for school to escape the never ending nagging from your mother over calls from the office over your tardy attendance. After eating a good enough breakfast, you open your door expecting a cold breeze to meet you as it did last week but to your surprise the outside was bright and dry, with no traces of snow, almost as if the weekend magically changed Seoul from winter to spring. However the leaves on the trees would need a lot more time than a weekend to grow back to their former glory. Remember when I mentioned you woke up too early, you were exactly two hours early when you arrived at the school, which suddenly made sense to you when you realized that no one in your house was awake yet and the roads in your neighborhood felt deserted. After walking around the campus you finally settle on a familiar tree on the outskirts of the school grounds, its location the very reason why you and your friends chose it as your casual lunch location for the past two years. You set your bag on your lap hugging it like a pillow laying your head on it for support and almost immediately you start drifting off the sleep.

Unbeknownst to you, your perfect sleep would be ruined by one Park Jisung, you see park jisung made the mistake of waking up 20 mins before school started not taking into account it was his very first day at the highschool and he was bound to get lost on the way to school and if he even managed to find the school, he’d have no idea where his classroom as he also missed orientation for all new students. Late and lost, jisung looked around the front of the building in search of someone to help him but since school had already started most staff and students were already inside. Although it would’ve been easier for jisung to walk inside the building somehow he noticed a figure under a tree not too far from him, jisung assuming it was a student figured it’d be easier to ask a student then suffer a scolding or even awkward small talk with a teacher. He runs up to the sleeping person under the tree and realizes it’s a girl from the long hair and skirt, legs criss crossed under a bag you is hugging and sleeping on. Reluctant to grab your attention, awakening you from your slumber, but he must do so if he ever wishes to get to class. “Excuse me?” Jisung repeats this a few times first with a shy voice growing in volume in desperation to wake you up. In your dream EXO OT9 were just about to sing love shot, one of the comebacks lay missed out on, when you heard a reluctant voice repeatedly saying excuse me disrupting your peace and not to mention exo’s performance. Jisung seeing that his voice was not enough to wake you up he starts to get physical. You try to ignore the voice hoping it’d go away until it actually starts poking your shoulder, now you have no choice but to let go of your perfect dream and wake up to respond to the thing that dares interrupt your nap. Jisung notices the girl moving, satisfied that he finally woke you up, he watches as you yawn and rub your eyes, cute he thinks to himself admiring the girl’s sleepy and adorable state. You open your eyes to see a timid but tall boy crouched beside you, finger still pointed after persistently poking you. “Yes?” glaring at the poor boy with the rudest voice you could muster expecting him to get the hint to leave you alone. “U-um can u help me?” Looking at the nervous state of the boy you empathize with his confusion seeing as you were in a similar dilemma a week ago. Softening your expression you say, “yeah what's up?” using a tone completely opposite of the one a second ago, causing Jisung to relax and become more at ease after noticing your change in attitude, “oh can u tell me where this classroom is?” Jisung points at his paper, saying Room 215. He watches your face light up, “Oh! That's my classroom you can just follow me!” And you give the boy an eye smile, happy that you can help him and possibly become friends with the boy. Jisung’s ears turn pink admiring how cute your smile is and touched by your hospitality. you stand up dusting off your skirt and checking if you had any dirt on your clothes or legs. Putting your backpack on and adjusting the straps you ask the boy what time it was. “Oh it's 9:00 am” Jisung says to you sheepishly hoping he doesn’t shock you by how late they both are, “OH SHOOT'' After hearing the time realizing just how fucked you were, acting quick you grab the new boy’s hand and start running towards the building. Jisung trailing behind the small girl is blushing due to the sudden skin ship and can feel his heart pounding due to the spontaneousness of the girl's actions along with the running not at all helping with his heart rate. Running across the field underneath the sunlight causes an increase in heart rate, a mutual feeling felt by the two, but you both recognize it as a mere adrenaline rush as you both try to take in the predicament you find yourselves in. Jisung staring at the hand who had taken his own so boldly, looked up staring at your hair that had turned from a raven black shade to a chocolate brown in the sunlight admiring how it swayed while you ran. Continuing to run you turn around with a huge smile across your face locking eyes with the boy whos awestruck expression turns into a comforting smile. Somehow without even knowing each other's names you both felt as if you've managed to escape reality, like the two of you were the only people in the universe, a feeling so rare, a scene only in movies, an occurrence never forgotten and yet was just experienced by these two individuals, even if it was just for a moment.

April: April bears us spring, which in turn prepares us for summer. The weather is unlike any other, it follows the frigid temperatures of winter and yet precedes the intense heat of summer, the month is in equilibrium.

You watch from the safety of the other side of the field as Jisung is teased yet again by his new found friend group. As cliche as it sounds he managed to land himself with the “popular kids'' group despite this school not caring much for social norms, even if there was a popular group it’d be them and they’ve accepted him wholeheartedly as if he spent the last two years with them. Much to everyone’s surprise Jisung was capable of fitting in despite him being the new kid and it being the last year, it was almost as if he was the missing part of their friend group. The group consisted of Chenle, Renjun, Jeno, Jaemin, Haechan and Mark and they weren’t just popular, they were rich and attractive as well. “Oh how he’s blossomed” you say to yourself while admiring Jisung for coming out of his shell and express himself freely “Oh god please don’t tell me you just said that” “You sound like a pedo” As if on cue your two friends arrive at your spot under the tree, slightly creeped out by your confession. “YA I didn’t mean it like that!” you say pouting at your friends' judgmental remarks. “It’s just that he’s grown so much and it’s only been a month'' taking one last glimpse at Jisung having fun before turning to your best friends who have already started to eat. “Jisung was an innocent shy boy when you met him, your maternal instincts kicked in when you first saw him, so helped him out and get comfortable at the school and now you feel like you’ve raised him but now that he’s found a proper friend group you’re sad blah blah blah yes we get it.” Shocked and speechless at what Mee-yon just said, you shake your head looking down before resting your head on your arms placed on your knees while meeting their gaze, “Did I really sound like a pedo?” this time Kyung-Hu was the one to reply “yes you definitely did” nodding innocently while getting it to you straight. And with that final blow you hide your head in your crossed arms similar to a fetal position, accepting your defeat at their teasing.

As you hear your friends move on to a new topic you just keep your head down too tired to raise it and decide to take a mini nap to hopefully make up for the 3 hours of sleep you got the night before. It wasn’t like you and jisung falling off bothered you that much you actually rarely thought about it, but for some reason today you were bothered. I guess we were never really friends. I guess more like friendly acquaintances? What about the time we hung out after school or skipped class together, did that mean anything? You sighed letting go of the memories of jisung and started falling asleep unaware of the glances from the same person you were just thinking about. You dreamed about the day you two met, after getting too tired to run the whole way there, since the two of you were already late you decided to just walk the rest of the way to your classroom while in the school, to give Jisung a mini school tour. “You just transferred here right?” “yeah I used to live in Inseon” “so why’d you decide to move here and transfer just a week after school started?” “My mom got an unexpected promotion she couldn’t refuse so we had to move to Seoul, but you sure ask a lot of questions'' you remember him teasing you for that “Well do you blame me? I’m curious.” You catch him off guard by your retaliation, “so do you miss it?” asking another unexpected question that causes a change in mood after bringing up his old home. “Of course I do, I grew up there, I had friends there and I had memories” you turned around noticing his melancholy expression while reminiscing and looked at him with concern, feeling sorry for the boy who was just staring at the ceiling almost as if he was trying to find something that was not even there. He notices the silence and makes eye contact with you realizing he must’ve worried you. “Oh but it’s better this way!” He says happily to ease your obvious concern and you stare at the nervous boy, eyebrow raised not convinced by his sudden change of heart. You let it go and the two of you walked a little bit more in silence before stopping, well at least you stopped, Jisung was absent minded enough to not realize you had stopped walking and bumped into back, you instantly looked up and stared at the boy directly over you. Jisung as the shy boy he was, panics and steps back slightly red which causes you to chuckle at his innocent behaviour. “Well here we are room 215” but before jisung was able to walk into the classroom, you turn around and stop him holding out your palm showing the universal symbol to stop, before extending it as a handshake. “Before you hear it from anyone else, I'm y/n” while grinning from ear to ear and jisung grasps your hand and gives you a light handshake, “hi i’m park jisung” returning you the same enthusiasm through a smile. After holding each others hands a little longer than expected, you let go awkwardly and enter the rowdy classroom filled with talking, laughter and pure ruckus.

You didn't know one was capable of dreaming of a memory but you just did, and just as it was before, your nap was interrupted by noise, this time in the form of whispers, many whispers. You lift your head using your right hand to rub your eyes to adjust to the light and you meet eyes with the very boy you were dreaming about. “Jisung?” you ask with open eyes, confused and surprised. “O-oh hi y/n we meet here again” he answers, scratching the nape of his neck sheepishly. His friends beside him, snicker at his awkward response and continue laughing amongst each other mocking him, jisung notices this and pretends he’s about to hit them so they’d stop making you feel uncomfortable. He looks back at you even more embarrassed to explain his presence in front of you, “so-” “Why are you here, and where's kyung-hu and mee-yon” You notice that your two friends are nowhere to be found and you become more and more anxious being alone with practical strangers. “Funny you should mention that, they actually-” “We went to get some snacks!” Although kinda mad at them for leaving you alone, at least they showed up before this conversation could get any more awkward than it already was. Jisung feels quite relieved sparing him from the awkward exchange however his friends can’t get enough of his uncomfortableness bursting out in laughter when he was interrupted, not once but two times. Jisung and his friends move themselves to the tree beside you guys resting under the shade after mee-yoon and kyung-hu return back to their seats. After waiting until they were at a comfortable distance you start yell/whispering at your friends, “WHat the fuck guys you dont leave me alone with strangers!” “Oh don’t worry at least you finally talked to him instead of staring at him all day. Plus we needed to get enough snacks for all of us and we all know one person can’t carry all of that food. So please consider this strawberry milk as an apology.” Kyung-hu offers you the drink with Mee-yoon nodding her head in agreement. “Ugh I guess this was worth that horrible experience” you take your favourite drink after barely eating anything due to your lack of appetite.

The bell goes off and everyone starts to leave the field and head under the main building including you and your friends and since those two had a class together you took a different hallway hearing footsteps behind you before realizing the only person that could’ve been behind you was someone in your class, god please kill me now. And before the awkwardness kills you, you turn around and break the silence “hey thanks for watching me while I slept I understand my friends prolly asked you to do it as a favour and I really appreciate it” Jisung looks up after staring at his feet initially scared to stare in your direction. “No problem, i'm sorry that woke you up from your nap under that tree, it feels almost like deja vu” Both of you shyly laugh at his reference to your first encounter reminiscing the past memory. “Tell me park jisung why is it always you that must ruin my napping time? What have I done to deserve such cruelty.” Your exaggeration and choice of words managed to put a smile on his face and even a chuckle out of him. “Hey that's not my fault you’re obsessed with sleeping under that tree.” “But it’d be a waste not to, the weather this time of the year is just right, you can feel the heat but it's not overbearing it comforts you, it doesn’t require you to add layers nor remove any. We don’t need to change, not one bit. I can’t afford to take these moments for granted.” Jisung stares at your back taken aback by your sudden seriousness, not to mention the topic being the mere weather. Coincidentally the roles were now reversed, it was now Jisung that was perplexed by the change of mood similar to how you were a month ago. Although he could tell your words held more depth than they let on and decided not to speak on the matter moving on with the conversation. “But seriously no need to thank me after all I do kinda owe you for helping me out, plus you’re my friend, actually my first friend at this school” flashing you a smile which eases the awkwardness of your conversation. “Friend?” you widen your eyes at the title, unaware he saw you like that considering the limited time the two of you spent together. “Yeah that's what you call people you care about right?” your eyes follow his figure with a speechless expression on your face as he passes by you and walks ahead to go back to class, but just before he walks in he steps back to look back at you, “are you coming, friend?” before winking at you, emasked in the sunlight coming from the classroom, changing his eyes a lighter shade, before completely walking into the classroom. He leaves you baffled and blushing at his new found confidence and you are still processing what just happened, did he just wink at me? You shake your head trying to forget his words in hopes of calming your heart rate and enter your classroom sitting in your seat, on the other side of the class. Despite how much you try to hide your embarrassment, you just couldn’t hide how pink your ears were, same as jisung who might have put on a brave front, is slightly regretting and yet at the same time, proud of what he said. Both of you refusing to look anywhere else but down and especially not at each other, lost in your own thoughts but if the both of you had just looked at eachother even if it was just for a moment, you both would’ve found out something crucial about each other.

May: May does not only serve as the last stretch of spring but as a period of freedom. It enables the ability to be free enough to have dreams and independent enough to act on them.

Unlike the last two months you and jisung actually managed to talk more, although more doesn’t necessarily mean a lot but considering you and him have only shared a few meaningful conversations over the span of two months, your current relationship was a huge upgrade. Disregarding the occasional partner project or pairing in physical ed, in which you and jisung had always chosen each other considering both of your friends were in different classes, you’ve developed somewhat of a casual and low maintenance friendship, that didn’t need frequent conversations but had few but worthwhile moments, all of which were cherished by the both of you, as they reassembled the same serenity the two of you shared the first day you met each other. The moments you shared rarely felt forced and if they were, due to the immature pressures of both of your friend groups, the two of you had no trouble slipping into your own world. As naive as it sounds the friendship the two of you shared was purely platonic, no doubt there were moments of butterflies and heart racing however it only lasted just for a moment, quickly fading away. However someone you were interested in was the guy that helped you on your first day, although all that you knew about him was his name, yangyang.

You and your two friends approach the stands taking your seats to watch the soccer game hosted by your school after getting invited to sit beside jisung and a few of his friends to cheer on Jaemin, playing as a forward and Jeno, the goalie. As you look forward at the field and someone wearing the number 24 caught your eye. You found the haircut and build of number 24 familiar. You struggled trying to figure out just where you saw someone with similar features as 24, but it was only until he finally turned in your direction, getting a good look at his face. “That's him!” you accidentally stood up, hands covering your open mouth and jisung who was having a conversation with his best friend chenle, turned around to look at your stunned expression. “Hm? What happened?” You looked around embarrassed by drawing attention to yourself and sat back down awkwardly, leaning towards jisung who sat in the row in front of you to whisper, “do you know who number 24 is?” “Yeah that’s yangyang but what about him?” “Yeah I KNOW what his name is, but like who is he?” “I hope you realize how stupid you sound, but why are you asking me, I’M the new kid remember? Not the person who has been attending this school for the past two years.” Jisung raises his eyebrow to you confused as to why you don’t know who this guy was, expecting the both of you to have already met at least once. “So what you’re basically saying is that you got nothing?” “No I never said that, for your information yangyang is our age but he only transferred here last year from Germany. I guess he keeps himself lowkey, soccer is really his only extracurricular.” “bruh you should’ve just led with that, not with any of this new kid bs” “I think you meant to say thank you” Jisung gives you a deadpan look disappointed by your ungratefulness, you catch a glimpse of his face and laugh at how annoyed he is. Hoping not to make your friend upset, you lean in and stick out your tongue playfully in a teasing manner before flashing him your signature smile, “Thank you Jwi~”. Taken aback by his nickname (jwi means mouse in korean) along with the hint of aegyo in your voice, blood rises to his cheeks and to his ears but before you properly see it, he covers his face with his hands while looking down although his ears, like always, were giving him away.

But before you could tease him the announcer's voice filled the outdoor stadium, “Ladies and gentlemen the game between Seoul Highschool and Apgujeong Highschool is about to commence!” Suddenly you hear everyone in the stands start screaming yelling to the top of their lungs. “We will first introduce the starting lineup of the home team, starting with co-captains Na Jaemin and Lee Jeno!” You, jisung and both of your friends stand up and start cheering on the duo running onto the field, as you have become quite friendly with jisung and his friends so it was only fitting for you to support them. After their introduction you paid no attention to the remainder of the names until, “Now introducing number 24 yangyang!” Your head that was previously resting on your palm was raised after hearing that familiar name and you lean in trying to get a closer look at him before going beside jisungs ear. “Ya” Jisung, scared by the sudden noise, flinches back leaning on to chenle, who was too distracted talking to Renjun to notice his best friend but jisungs reaction does cause you to grin. Pointing at the smiling boy on the field, you say “Do you know what class he’s in?” “Oh him?” He takes a double check looking you up and down weirded out by your enthusiasm and interest in the soccer player. “Yes we were literally talking about him like 10 seconds ago” you rolling your eyes at his forgetfulness, you find it hard to believe he could be this oblivious knowing he was acting like this to tease you. “Yeah I know what class he’s in” you glare at the boy already knowing you’d have to do the most for him to finally spill the tea. “Uh would you like to tell meee?” you, not caring if you seemed desperate. “Lemme think, hmmm yeah no i'm good” “YAH PARK JISUNG'' you see his amused expression before coughing to regain your composure and trying another strategy “Can u please tell me~” you try to act as soft and cute as possible and although aegyo tears away at your soul, you know jisung couldn’t bare the sight of it. “STOP OH GOD” He tries to cover your face so he wouldn’t need to watch your aegyo any longer but you being determined, keep dodging him so he could see every cute action you’d do. “Please jisung~” “OKOK FINE JUST PLEASE STOP!” You quickly change your expression to a serious one which slightly scares jisung “so tell me what his classroom is” you say in a threatening tone while stabbing his ribs with your fingers causing him to flinch away, he sighs and slouches showing his surrender, caving into your antics, “fine it’s room 105” “Thank you! See that wasn’t so hard now was it?” You happily smile at him but you can see he obviously didn’t reciprocate the same feelings of joy and instead glaring at you. “Easy for you to say I have to bleach my eyes and tend to my wounds” Jisung cries out while holding the ribs you just stabbed, you roll your eyes yet again and scoff at his over exaggeration. “You’re such a kid.” “I'm legit older than you soo you’re the child here” him feeling proud at his comeback, looks up to catch your reaction but you’re pouting, hand crossed over your chest upset by the undeniable fact, which he finds kind of adorable. “Anyways why are you so interested in this guy anyways? Do you like him or something” jisung asks with his eyebrow raised while poking your leg suggesting that you do hold feelings for the boy, you feel your face become slightly hot by his suggestion. You swat his hand away and say, “N-no, the answer is no. How can I even like him, I hardly know anything about him. I’m just...” “you're just?” you start glaring him for interrupting your sentence and for teasing you. “I’m just interested” you finally end your sentence returning a playful wink to jisung just as he did a month ago. “Uh huh” Jisung says with a suspicious tone before turning around showing his back to you and properly watching his friends play in their first game of the season. Not satisfied with his answer you decide to talk a bit more, “what, can’t a girl be interested in a guy? I can’t just sit around dreaming about the day he approaches me, when I want something, whatever that may be, I go get it! Plus don’t you have anyone you’re interested in?” Still refusing to turn to you, you assumed he was just ignoring you, not paying attention to your question but jisung’s act backfired when you noticed his ears turn pink after hearing what you asked. “Heoll~, our jisungie has a crush?” (heol is korean slang for omg) you start shaking his shoulders out of excitement of this discovery. Still not looking at you, jisung puts his head in his hands to hide his embarrassment, amused by his timidness, you try to make him turn to you but he won't budging, unable to look at you to spare himself further embarrassment. In truth jisung didn’t have anyone he was interested in, so he was confusing himself but it was probably the question itself and the possibility of him having a crush that made him embarrassed, or at least that’s what he told himself. “Yaaaaa jisunggg tell me~” You say in a teasing voice but realizing your strategy wasn’t gonna make him turn your way, you smirk hoping that if anything were to get him to turn around it’d be this. So you start tickling him hoping he was even ticklish which fortunately he was, severely ticklish at that too. He starts to spasm due to the tickling laughing uncontrollably using his hands to block your hands and move away from your grasp. “YA STO-” turning around to yell at you, unaware at how close you got when trying to tickle him, he stops mid sentence finally realizing the lack of distance between the two of you. He takes a small gasp interrupting what he was going to say, speechless by the sudden eye contact, but it’s too late your eyes were already locked. “Ah there you are~” you say that in such a gentle tone that it was more of a whisper, inaudible to anyone besides you and jisung. Once again you guys find each other in the sunlight, which lights up both of your eyes making them seem as clear as honey, unaware of everyone standing up, cheering as yangyang just scored a goal. Both of you too lost in each other's eyes to notice anything else besides the smallest details in each other's iris’. However the gaze is suddenly broken when you look around and realize the cause of celebration, clueless to jisung's lingering gaze. “Oh my god look yangyang just scored a goal!” You tell the boy in front of you eyes glimmering with admiration, much to jisung's displeasure. Jisung was slightly upset at the soccer player who was the reason for breaking your eye contact, along with the fond expression brought to your face when looking at yangyang rather than himself. And although jisung might never admit it, deep down he’d wish for you to look at him like that even if it was just for a moment.

June: After months in the cold waiting for the arrival of summer, at last June has arrived. The month does not only represent a drastic change in temperature but in emotions as well, this month is when mere feelings can finally develop, for better or for worse.

“I like you” the words you hear coming out of your newest friend, whom you’ve become quite close to and bonded with over the past month. “Yangyang I-” “it’s okay you don’t have to answer, I just wanted to tell you” The boy says before winking and smiling at you with confidence. In the distance you could hear his friend Hendrey call out to him in a distance and you see him turn around to wave at his friend and turn back around, “anyways y/n I kind of need to go now, my friend is calling me” He says scratching the back of his neck, reminding you of another male friend of yours, using his thumb to point back to hendrey. He runs off to his friend, not forgetting to turn around, giving a cute wave before Hendrey wraps his arm around his shoulders walking off to who knows where. Now you’re left alone dumbfounded, behind the school building with a stunned expression, while physically you look as if your mind is blank your thoughts were far from that of panicking at your friends sudden confession. In retrospect you were kind of expecting this to happen as at some point considering your relationship was never just friends, you yourself started talking to him with slight romantic interests involved. Although it was, at least for you, a bit too soon. Still baffled by recent events you failed to notice the running footsteps of two boys come from behind you. “YA CHENLE GIVE THAT BACK!” You remain stuck in your headspace as both boys suddenly stop when they notice your strange figure and start whispering to themselves. “Yah isn't that y/n?” Chenle says to the jisung who steps closer to get a better look at you standing alone, he turns back to his friend “Uh yeah I think so?” There’s a second of silence as the boys try to figure out the odd circumstance, before Chenle says, “oh well HAVE FUN!” sticking out his tongue and running away while laughing uncontrollably hoping jisung doesn’t try to go after him after successfully figuring out his password and stealing his phone. “YA” jisung lets out a heavy sigh giving up trying to get his phone back and turning towards the dazed girl, shaking your shoulder a bit to get you out of your trance “Y/n?” “H-huh? Jisung? W-what're you doing here?” “I should ask you the same thing, I mean you're all alone out here” “Oh I was? I guess I didn't notice.” You shake your head trying to forget yangyang’s confession and bring yourself back to reality not noticing jisung turning his head to the side to hide the slight blush after seeing you in a confused state. Confused as to why he had suddenly spaced out looking in another direction, “Jisung?” You ask him while tilting your head cutely, an action jisung was still able to see in his peripheral vision which made him want to keep his head turned away even more. It was now you trying to get his attention so you smile realizing the irony of the situation,”Y-yeah?” “You wanna go to class now?” You say smiling before walking ahead of him with a slight skip in your step. “Yeah sure” you hear him say awkwardly following you to class. The two of you walked in silence from that moment on side by side, you taking a few glances to check up on him as he did with you and whenever you two did make eye contact you both gave each other a smile that although a bit awkward, was comforting in some way.

It was almost a week after yangyangs confession and since then you’ve fortunately managed to avoid him, still confused with what your answer, but it wasn’t whether or not you had feelings for him or not because you knew the boy could make you laugh, smile and give you butterflies at soon as you laid eyes on him, but you felt as if it was rushed. You considered it as only a crush than deep feelings for a committed relationship, simply put it was too early. And yet you knew you’d regret rejecting him because you didn’t want your relationship to end, rejecting him would risk losing, what would've been a perfect relationship due to your own indecisiveness. Ugh I hate feelings, you trying to decide your answer, was exactly what caused you to get lost during your late night walk you took to clear your head. Realizing that you’d been spacing out, you take a look at your surroundings and you had absolutely no idea where you were. “Oh shit” although what you could recognize is a neon sign at the end of the street that spelled out Convenience Store with a couple tables and seats at the front for eating. Feeling your stomach give a loud growl, you unlock your phone just to check if you have time to spare to eat some ramen, before your mom yells at you for staying out too late, 9:00 only? “OK! Lets go!” you celebrate to yourself, pumping a fist in the air before skipping towards the store and greeting the cashier. While you run your finger through the shelfs scanning the inventory trying to find your favourite ramen, “cheese ramen, cheese ramen, cheese ramen” All of a sudden you hear the door of the store open due the iconic bell and you hear a voice, a male voice greet the cashier as well, “Good evening~” FUCK! You instantly recognize the voice cursing inwardly at the chances you’d bump into him at a convenience store of all places. You immediately move to the next aisle, away from the entrance praying that he wouldn’t see you hiding behind the end of the aisle. “This literally cannot be happening to me” “What can’t be happening to you?” you let out a shriek, jumping back startled to hear ANOTHER voice. Please don't be him, please don't be him, you open your eyes that were shut due to fright, to look up at the stranger that just scared you “J-jisung?” “Yeah who else?” You wonder why you didn’t recognize his voice initially but you see his confident grin while looking at your distressed state, it somehow pleased him to see you like this. “So you gonna answer my question or are you gonna keep on staring at me?” Realizing you must look completely crazy, you fix your posture to look at jisung straight in the eye, “none of your business.” And you walk away from the boy taking your former spot using the aisle to block anyone’s view of you. You occasionally peek your head out just to check on the whereabouts of the mystery boy and jisung takes notes of this, standing behind you, hovering like the giant he is. He chuckles at your childishness, “who are you hiding from?” He asks out loud not caring if anyone heard him, you panic quickly putting your hand over his mouth to shut him up. “Jheez can u be any louder? Plus did I not make it clear, none. of. your. business.” Jisung pouts at you before licking the inside of your hand causing you to let go of him and give him a look of a disgust while you try to wipe his saliva off your hand with your sweater, but all he does is flash you a playful smile satisfied with your reaction. You roll your eyes at jisungs shenanigans and turn around to continue your spying seeing that the boy stayed by the cashier examining the gums and candies. Jisung follows your gaze tryna figure out just who you’re so afraid of before realizing who it was and his smile then turned into a thin line. “Him?” “Ya what do you mean him? That's yangyang!” You hit jisung offended by his reaction to your crush. Jisung flinches pretending that your hit actually hurt, “yeah did I stutter?” you ignore what jisung just said, too focused on predicting the movements of yangyang, maybe focusing too hard that just when you thought he was going to leave without noticing you, you two accidentally make eye contact and you quickly hide behind the aisle hoping he didn't see you. With your chest going up and down, you struggle to control your heart rate placing your hand on your chest to hopefully help lower it down. Jisung widens his eyes seeing you so flustered, “why what happened?” he looks at you, concerned thinking you’re having a heart attack. “He saw me” you slide down now sitting on the floor with your legs folded in front of you while you hide your face in your hands breathing into them, trying to calm yourself down. “What am I gonna do, what am I gonna do” you continually repeat those words slightly scaring jisung in the process, although after seeing you in this condition he realized he needed to help in some way. “Okok just stay here” patting your head before walking off leaving you to curl up on your own. Jisung walks down the aisle that yangyang just saw you in, already meeting face to face with the boy that had walked in your direction trying to check if it was really you or a hallucination. He stops when he sees jisung, taking a step back confused as to why he’d see him there of all places, “Jisun-” “Oh hey Yangyang funny seeing you here, isn’t it a bit late tho? Based on what jeno and jaemin were talking about I swear you guys have soccer practice in the morning tomorrow at 6, no?” Jisung interrupted yangyang, rambling on about a made up soccer practice, jisung thought of on the spot, while putting his arm around the clueless boy's shoulders pushing him until they made it out of the store and before yangyang could process what was happening. “O-oh they never told me we had practice” “oh well good thing you heard it from me, tho you might wanna double check just in case, ok?” “y-yeah ok, but wait-'' but before jisung could hear his question concerning you, and then be forced to answer it he turned around and walked away allowing the convenience store door to shut thus ending their interaction, leaving yangyang completely dumbfounded as to how he ended up outside of the store instead of inside looking for you. Jisung gives a sigh of relief upon returning to the scared figure on the ground in front of him, “It’s okay now” you hear those comforting words escape his mouth and you lift up your head to look up at him, “is he gone now?” Suddenly, jisung feels heat rise to his cheeks when looking down at your curled up body, resembling a scared child and somehow your question triggered a protective instinct in jisung, who felt the need to protect you from all the things wrong in the world well at least all the things that you couldn’t protect your own self from. Finally calming down after your nervous breakdown you stand up wiping away the dust on your clothes before turning to jisung with a smile on your face, “Now let's go eat some ramen!”

Both of you walk out of the convenience store after finding your cheese ramen and his spicy one, cooking it using the hot water at the store. You both sit down on one of the tables in front of the store met with a cool breeze that cooled the two of you down a bit from the summer heat. After taking a few bites and many loud slurps from the ramen, the two of you take your time to chew creating a moment of silence so jisung turns to you, “so you wanna tell me what happened in there?” You feel obligated to give him an explanation especially after how he helped you out, swallowing your food you lay your chopsticks down and explain to him the situation of yangyang confessing to you and you being nervous and confused. “Heol, yangyang actually likes you? Whaa” You throw a piece of your trash at him offended by his question, “Ya what do you mean actually liked me, what is their not to like” you say while flipping your hair back confidently, “Mhm you keep telling yourself that” his comeback slightly surprising you but you stop there not trying to take anymore insulting comments. “Ok but I was really nervous back there, if I wasn't so antisocial or if I actually understood my feelings then maybe yangyang and I would’ve already been dating and doing whatever couples do.” Thinking about the possibilities you pout and shove a bunch of noodles in your mouth to chew angrily, showing just how stressed out you were. Jisung lets out a laugh which earns a glare from you after being charmed by your inexperience and instead of making fun of your fantasies with yangyang, he empathizes with your situation thinking of a mature answer to help you out. “Do you seriously think anyone understands themselves? Because they don’t. People may put on a convincing facade but trust me when I tell you everyone is just as confused as you are. We’re teenagers for god sakes, we’re supposed to be going through this. You may not know what you want now, but in the future you will and how are you ever gonna figure it out unless you try? I have no idea what you’re feeling right now but I do know it’d be a waste to push those feelings aside because you’re scared. You’re the only thing stopping yourself and for whatever the reason is to why you're scared, whether that be getting hurt or getting embarrassed, just know it's natural and what’s meant to happen will happen but only if you allow it to.” In awe of jisungs words and yet curious as to how he developed all that wisdom. You stare at him, trying to read his face trying to understand what he was thinking. Instead you notice the soft glow of the neon sign on his features, his hair and face slightly lit up. You soften your expression while examining the details of the boy in front of you, who’s sitting with a slight slouch while spacing out, looking down at his ramen that makes you giggle inwardly because it looks like he’s glaring at his own food. You notice just how innocent and vulnerable he looks, and yet on the contrary you are unable to understand his thoughts now matter how you try. You find yourself spotting traits about jisung that you never realized before, like the glimmer in his eye or the sound of his sniffle while eating hot noodles, or how his cheeks puff out in the slightest and his hands inter cross when trying to focus. Even if he was sitting right across from her, he felt beyond reach and in the perspective you found jisung in, he was what they call picture perfect. If only I could just read his mind, even if it was just for a moment. However you stop yourself from staring at your friend for any longer and look down to take in his words, the same words that caught you off guard. You take a minute to absorb jisungs advice and just as quickly as yangyang said those three words to you, three words of the same nature slip out of your mouth, delivering the long awaited answer you were trying so hard to figure out, “I like yangyang.”

If you were able to read this far, I love you~

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