#hes gonna be on there i just havent 100% decided on a design for him yet and i want it to be perfect

[shitpostdevil]

Heyyyyyy uuuuuuhhhhhHHHHHHHHH YUTA IS GOING TO PERMANENTLY BE ON MY SKIN IN LESS THAN A WEEK. BYE.

[callie-shifts-apparently]

PLEASE I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR FANTASY LIFE SOSOSOSOSO BAD🛐🛐

RAHHHHHHH BEST ASK EVER EVER EVER IM CHEWING ON TABLES.

okokok imma tryyyy to keep this shortish but i might end up infodumping cus theres sooo much i could say abt this.

SO as I said, I'm an apprentice for THE researcher/scholar for the behaviour of dragons, Cassius Clearsky. Cassius was my bio dad's best friend before my parents died so he took me in and I live with him on these floating islands called the Peregrine Islands.

Dragons in this universe (Equinox) are kind of super under-researched, so we know very little about them. Princess Isadora funds the Peregrine Islands Operative so that more is known abt them!!! eventually we're gonna have to write a big ol book and its gonna be a huge task but its gonna be my pride and joy <3

We each have designated riding dragons (mine is an orange feathered wyvern, his name is Solstice :)) but there are like, 6-9 other dragons that just. chill out on the islands fulltime because its an easier life lol.

I havent 100% decided what EXACTLY my work always entails, but ik its varied. like, sometimes its camping out to watch migrations, sometimes its watching social interactions, sometimes we get written to as the dragon authority and have to go figure that out like a scooby doo style quest.

Tbh the life isnt AS "high fantasy" as i originally planned on it being - for humanoids, theres only humans and elves - but the main focus of my life there is the dragons, 100%. Its medieval-ish, but with kind of magical steam-punky influence in more developed cities (especially The 9 Capitals)

Dragons are like super duper intelligent (depending.) and have a LOT of opinions so youre definitely not gonna get along with all of them. but theyre all sooo interesting and different and cool !!!

Like, Juno, Cassius's dragon? shes a Great Dawnshadow, which is ridiculously uncommon because their eggs only hatch during an eclipse. and they have different variants based on whether its a solar or lunar eclipse too :3!!!!

RAHHH THERES SO MUCH TO SAY... im working on compiling all my current info in a Notion thingy rn so. AAAAHHH ILL KEEP U UPDATED

[ispreadrabieslikewildfire]

Please tell me about Harper and Feena!

OMEHAGUROHMEGAUR OKOKOKOKOKOKOK SOSOSOOSOSOSO (thamk yo uso much TEHE) alao im sorry if this makes NO SENSE im spilling my head into paragraphs and not proofreading rhis is gonna end HORRIBLY but i hope you enjoy😭!

Anwyay so harper and feena started when @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat asked me to draw a silly guy eating monster much and he turned into harper (ill link some pictures to show) and he felt lonely so i made him a friend called feena and theyve been a thibg since then HOLY SHIT I THINK ITS BEEN 2 YEARS?????

Harper and feena r supposed to be my silly ocs that are my go toos when i start daydreaming and drawing! Their not supoosed to have too much trauma and stuff (IM CONTAINING MYSELF) so i camt head empty and harper its also so when i draw them they make me happy they are my happyness. So becazue i cant give them trauma i make altermate realitoes where i CAN give them trauma!!

Im gonna make sections so i caj explain everthing so it can atleast try to make sense

1. THEIR RELATIONSHIP :3

Ok so when i started I made them friends ofc!! And i thought they where cool as hell so i started thinking about their relationship and i was thinking how wierd it would feel if they where a couple so their thing is that their completely platonic and are jist realy close friends that are realy comfortable with each other, i wouldnt say like 'siblings' but more like that one cousin that your realy close with. I like to think of them as denji and power from chainsaw man (however i see denji and power as more of siblings) but no matter how close they get with eachither they dont feel anything romantic :3 i have a thing that when they where 14/15 they where like fuck it lets kiss and they hated it!!!!! they wanted to die!!!!!

I also have different ages for them i draw them as for whatever mood im in! So i have toddler harper and feena (theyve met in primary school) and then children harper and feena (10-12) and then theres also teen (14-16) and preadult idk forgot what its called (17-19) and adult! (20-22) by 20-22 they have an appartment with 2 other roomates nadia and caspian i dont realy have a story for them yet however they do have designs. So basically they jsut spend their entire lives together as besties and this is their main world where their happy and have no trauma and are just silly!!

2. Sexualities n stuff

Well im nor good at this stuff since i realy have no kmowledge but i kinda just peojected me and @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat onto them...

Harper:

Bisexual, he/they. Dyslexic and/or is on the autism spectrum idk i dont think much about this

Feena:

Aro/ace or Asexual i havent decided, goes by anything. I honestly dont even know she is any and all illnesses

3. Childhood and all

So i dont wanna give them a traumatic childhood since their my silly chracters!!

HOWEVER, they do have some sort of backstories.

Feena:

Some sort of religious trauma, her family where 100% praise our lord and saviour jesus christ and she didnt feel part. Knew what she was when she was a teen and after harper came out and was more comfortable. Didnt tell her parents until she moved out, (they very obviously didnt take it well) however is still in touch with them!! Their just kinda realy uncomforable whenever the subject changes to jesus or gay stuff idk.

Harper:

Twas a bit (a lot) stupider than most people his age (austismmmmm) his parents payed more attention to their sisters so that they could have a better education instead of wasting their time on a child thatll never learn and refuses to listen (wasnt diagnosed till he was an adult so they thought he was being annoying purposefully). Tbh just whats a hug LMAO. He came out to his parents, they told him it was just a phase and theylll get out of it eventually.

So ya!

4. The cats need their own section

So ive always eanted these 2 cats, one called jester one called mariposa. So if i cant have them whats better than having my oc that represents me having them?

This is jester! (SHES PREFECT THIS IS HOW I ENVISION HER)

This is mariposa :3

5. Universes

Like i said since i dont want harper and feena to have too much trauma i create new universes for them! Other than my main ailly one theres another 3 i favour out of all the ones i make

1. I made a dystopian after apocolypse one (MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE ITS SO FUN TO MAKE!!) where the aftermath is that the world (well at leats where their living) is split into two, the privlidged and less priveledged (I NEED NAMES FOR THESE I DONT HAVE ANY) anywwy what i think i can best decribe this as is like the hunger games, where theres the 'capitol' and the 'districts' but instead of there being districts its all just survival of the fittest L lmao so yah. So after the apocolypse harper and feena are split up. Feena ends up with the privileged and harper ends up with the less. Harper finds a place he can call 'home' (FOUNDFAMILYFOUNDFMILYFOUNDFAMILY) and feena ends up on the other side where she gets her memories wiped and she then hets brainwashed to belive she was sent down as a gift from god during hard times and everyone is supposed to worship her (tehe i wont bother yiu with any more of this story)

2. Silly little 80s teen ghost busting show like scooby doo with harper feena nadia and caspian

3. detective harper and feena (havent built a lot)

6. I FORGOT TO ADD DYNAMIC

So basically feena can be smart when she wants to but chooses to fuck around with harper, quite a bitch if you guys just met. Pretty resereved when shes around people she doesnt know amd her social skills arent great. If you give her a chance she can be quite nice and passionate. Can ramble for hours on ends

Harper, guys hes trying his best. Loud, can ramble for hours on end too.

And thats all i can think of...sorry for ramblong so much i jist realy love them. i dont expect anyonw to actually read this... Once again this is just me projecting me and @thatbiblicallyaccuraterat onto harper anf feena!

Thank you @rainbowghostcat sososoososo much i love youuahahhah <333

Ill attach drawing of them in the mprning!

[im-just-trying-to-get-bi]

oh, what a raging dumpster fire this year has turned into, but, i am not making this post to focus on the negative, but the positive. im making this post as a reflection on how ive grown and how my blog/presence on tumblr have grown and changed.

first, i satrted 2020 with just 41 folllowers, which, at the time, i was surprised to have that many, i made a goal of 50 folowers at first, then, when i hit fifity, i bumped my goal up to 100, then 200, then 300, then 400. when i hit the 400's, my folower count kind of plataeued for a little while, until about 3 months ago, i started gaining followers again! i made my final goal for 2020 to hit 500 followers, and i knew when i did i would do something special. well, that day came a lot sonner than i was expecting. i hit 500 followers and had no idea what to do as a celebration, after a few days, i decided to do an art contest, i didnt get many entries, but, i was happy to get any entries. all 3 entries won, since i felt bad leaving one out

before i talk about the contest winners, i want to talk about my side blogs.

i have made 5 side blogs.

@imjusttryingtogetbinegativity which is the side blog i made for my negative posts.

@escaping-the-night my side blog for one of my favorite youtube shows, escape the night

@bi-on-arrival the side blog i made for one of my favorite tv shows, rupauls drag race and dragula a little bit too. it will includ talking about drag race, drag race all stars, drag race uk, drag race canada, drag race holland, and maybe some future shows

@imjusttryingtogetbihorrorblog which is my side blog for horror, movies, games, books, etc

and

@imjusttryingtogetbimusicalsblog my sideblog for musicals

ok, now back to the 500 follower art contest

@queery-eyed-prince designed my header

@alec-the-transgender-artist designed my pfp

and

@ampithereslove designed the header for my negativity blog

now, on to some great people ive met this year(im not gonna tag everyone)

my kiddos are all great people who ive met this year

other great people ive met include @galaxy-cat-09 , @poptartsaysurloved @polyam-bug-wannabe , @hay232 , and many many more i cant remember

the person that has made the greatest impact on my life this year is my wonderful boyfriend @alec-the-transgender-artist (ill have a whole section for him)

ok, now, how my identity has changed this year

one of the biggest identity changes ive had this year is my self discovery to being polyamorus

i also further looked into my identity as bisexual. i learned a lot about bisexuality, including that i dont need to have feelings for just boys and girls, but many different types of people, and still be valid. i always thought bisexuality is you just like boys and girls strictly, but i found out thats not true, and it made me happy

this is one of the ast sections, but i also want to cover relationships

i was in my first real relationship this year, but ive been in 3, the most successful of which is the one im in now

which leads me to my last thing i want to cover, my wonderful wonderful boyfriend, @alec-the-transgender-artist

he is so incredible. he cares about me and wants whats best for me. hes there when i need comfort, or affection, or anything. we respect each others boundaries and we just enjoy being together. we havent had any arguments, and i am so happy its as smooth as it is. i really think he might be 'the one'

and while 2020 may have been horrible and filled with a lot of heartbreak and hurt and sadness, but some great things happened this year and im so proud of what ive been able to do and who ive helped, who ive helped keep alive and everyone who i helped make the lives of a little less bad and made it easier

i love you all and value all of my followers more than you could imagine

[baconpal]

so heres the long super paper mario post

strap in for why super paper mario is fucking bizarre and why that’s pretty much awesome

gonna be a good amounts of spoilers, so if you’re on desktop then hit that read more, and if your on mobile, then here’s your punishment for using this god awful app

super paper mario is a game that is incredibly difficult to put into words, but it leaves such a powerful, lasting impression on me and i can’t come to say anything first other than I love it so much, and if you havent played the game, please just go do it now, even if you have to pirate or emulate or something, just let yourself play this game. It’s one of those games that I really feel I can just recommend to anybody

it’s difficult to think of where to start with dissecting this thing so i’ll just start with the art since lookin at things is pretty easy

ART/WORLD DESIGN

every world in SPM is completely unique, not just in what type of environment, but it’s art style, and this is premised with the fact that none of these worlds are capable of existing together and are completely separate, and NOT part of a cohesive universe (LOOKIN AT YOU ODYSSEY I STILL THINK YOU LOOK STUPID)

The hub and the first 2 worlds are mostly just slight variants on the same general style of simplistic shapes and colors, with world 1 delving into more linework type aesthetics, and 2 focusing more on impressions and silhouettes, 

world 3 changes this completely with what is obviously an 8 bit kind of style, but instead of jarring over sized pixels, the world is composed of detailed tiles arranged to look like pixel art that imply a more real world, and not a gamey one, 

world 4 focuses on patterns and big patches of color to give the impression of the vast emptiness of both space and the surface of a barren planet, before giving you the “Whoa Zone”, with a striking mix of wire frame and futuristic UI style to it

world 5 takes the idea of nature being crude and simplistic and humanity being sharp, angular, and extreme and flips that on its head, with humanity and the space they occupy being these absolute memes with no sense of depth, and the plant life existing in a system of clean cut caves with futuristic technology and elegant historic values

world 6 simplifies a kind of colored Japanese painting aesthetic, down to the funny cylindrical cloud clusters and brushstroke trees

world 7 depicts what is essentially hell (yes there’s hell in this game keep your pants on) as a squarish blur of bright greens and warm reds and purples, and depicts heaven as fluffy land of clouds and Greek temples

and lastly, world 8 is inverted greyscale, where light is black and darkness is white, its simplistic and striking and i couldn’t think of a better style for the final area of a game so focused on the concept of light and dark

MUSIC

I’ll just try and keep it simple, the musics fucking cash money

The game makes great use of motifs when it needs to, where specific themes and instruments are used in other songs to suggest relationships and put battles and travels into perspective

And when it ISNT doing that, it’s just fucking funky stuff, with a weird trend of BOING and PLOP and SPLISH noises in the percussion because fuck you i guess

There’s a lot of good songs that do lots of interesting things, any of the like 5 final battle songs are great things to point to, but i’ll just go ahead and say the main theme of world 8 “Castle Bleck” is one of my favorites that isn’t super highly rated. It brings in the types of instruments that have been associated with the villain the entire game, but also throws in 2 very important things; a sudden triumphant burst of almost JRPG styled chiptune that pushes away the constantly building tension, which is then followed by the sound of a clock ticking, which is a musical motif only present in the songs “Memory” and “Promise” which is played whenever the memories of the player’s little guide thing and the main villain’s past lives together are alluded to. This one song holds a lot of weight, as well as simply being a fucking cool song.

GAMEPLAY

This is, sadly, the one place I’ll not mince any words and say the gameplay is not amazing by any standard, it’s pretty much a classic mario game if it had RPG stats, items, and random abilities granted through the character and partner systems. The 3D flipping mechanic is nothing astounding, though it is very interesting to see how worlds are constructed

One of the biggest flaws people will mark the game for in its gameplay is that it’s tedious, and while I have to agree, that’s because I’ve already played the game before, and the tedium only comes from not being completely invested in the experience anymore. I’ll get some specific examples in a bit, but there’s a few cases of “tedium” that i believe are 100% intentional and drive the story in an interesting way

STORY/WRITING/GAME DESIGN

Thats a fuckin broad section, but its pretty much everything else i have to say on the game, and where the most spoilers and random praise is gonna be

I’m not actually gonna talk about the whole story, more just the strong parts of it, under the assumption you’ve already played it or understand a story as simple as “villain wants to destroy world, hero wants that to not happen”

The writing and characters are just flawless, everyone is fun to be around, especially the bad guys, who you see more antics of than your own party. There’s goofy running plotlines about O’chunks and mimi essentially getting grounded and being forced to write essays about why they fucked up at beating mario, and big stinky brother dimentio teasting and bullying them and sneaking them out to do his bidding when The big Count Bleck is away

The game is full of referential humor to not just mario itself but all kinds of games, there’s skeletons in hell who are clearly just Marios from the mainline games who died in stupid ways, there’s an actual dragon quest turn based boss battle in hell too, and chapter 3 has an otaku villain who tried to get with peach in a simulated visual novel

but the humor exists not just in references, but in simple good scenarios, with things like “Having a game show in a bathroom when everyone's life is at stake” and “locating an ancient manuscript to use as toilet paper” or “flying through black holes to find a convenience store” and things of that nature

It also interacts with the players emotions in many interesting ways, one of the more lauded being chapter 2-3, where mario is forced into working off a massive debt of fictional money, and is required to do hard, boring labor. There isn’t anyway to avoid doing both the hitting a block 100 times and the running on a treadmill for a few minutes thing, but the constant feeling of “there has to be a faster way to do this” drives the player to prod around, find the secrets, and slowly discover how to break the system wide open and get to the end, and i love it for that

This entire game is some sort of bait and switch, to put it simply, while it’s already a bit of a departure from both mario itself and the paper series, the first 5 worlds are pretty fucking tame stuff, other than the void, which is a giant black and purple spot that sits in the sky, always, every single world has the void growing in its sky, and it does grow, every chapter it gets bigger and bigger and takes up the sky, but where this truly culminates into the “switch” part is chapter 6, which starts itself by presenting you with the most TEDIUS sounding chapter possible, fight 100 enemies in a row, and nothing else, and for 25 straight fights, that is all it is, so you’ve locked yourself into it at this point, you know whats up, but the void in the background begins to grow to the point of being the entire fucking background, and every enemy you face speaks as if they know they’re all going to die, and by the 30th fight, one of the villains comes to stall for time as the void completely swallows the world, and the party is sent back to the hub. When they decide to go back in to world 6, its empty, the entire world is a white void with a single black line making up the ground, and colorless destroyed structures occasionally peaking out of the ground.

and you walk on this white void for so long and you just feel nothing but regret and fear and no matter how fast you make yourself go you feel like you’ll never find anything, but you do eventually get your plot item and escape

then, Dimentio, one of the villains you’ve seen the least of, appears in the hub world, the safest place in the universe, and kills mario

he just fucking kills him

he puts mario in a box and fills the box with explosions and mario fucking dies and goes to hell because fuck you mario

then you go through all of chapter 7 just to escape hell (called the Underwhere cus how could we possibly be allowed to take hell seriously) and join up with your full party before confronting the final world, which i’ve already stated i just love the design off

the game just takes the comfortable ride you’re on and throws it into the fucking sun and burns you alive and i love it so much, even the very end of the game doesnt let up, where the main villain is overtaken by that absolute madman Dimentio (Whose name is a play on both Dimension and dementia), who clearly was powerful enough to have done the whole “ending of the world” himself, but did it this way for the theatrics of it

there’s a lot i could still say about the game, but this post is absolute rambling and its 2 in the morning but as usual, i just wanted to shit my thoughts onto the internet to people could maybe learn somethin about either the game or me and how i think and look at and respond to stuff, and as always, anybody who read this whole thing is cool and i love you a whole heck of a lot

[plushievash]

felix for the oc questions?

1. What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.)? i thought up his design and basic personality and the very bare bones of his backstory! i had his name in mind but took a few hours before i actually thought yea his name is gonna be felix

2. Did you design them with any other characters/OCs from their universe in mind?yea! i do that with all my ocs bc i like to immediately think abt the relationships if theyd know each other how theyd get along and stuff like thathis first connection was ryker

3. How did you choose their name?i just really like the name “felix” and thought it was fittingi picked his “true” last name off this site and my boyfriend helped me decide on “ruggieri”

4. In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?backstory wise not much aside maybe him being the hidden “sick” child for his own protection bc of i serpenti and other vicious humans

5. Is there any significance behind their hair color?6. Is there any significance behind their eye color?nope!

7. Is there any significance behind their height?not rly but i like that hes tall but doesnt like people being taller than him(for non-petty reasons) bc hes intimidated/afraid of people who are taller than him

8. What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story? hsghghdf like almost literally everything hes based off me and hes just basically me sdlkjfsdf

9. Are they based off of you, in some way? YEA 

10. If they have an LI, how much of their character is tailored to be compatible to that person? he wasnt tailored to be compatible with dasha they just developed into what they are now!

11. Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation? i dont actually remember,,but i think so?

12. What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?its usually just bc im in an art block if i cant draw felixbut in my way older nasty art i used to not be able to draw him the way as i imagined him exactly...he was always supposed to be this.....Big Buff dude....

13. How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all? im..not exactly 100% what this question means but hes planned out til his deaththo theres some events that come up on the way that i havent thought abt yetbut pretty much theres ones that certainly happen in the future and his death is thought out as well

14. If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?certain designs for mutants like some cant have this or that bc it is either impossible or its a raremutation other than that thats abt it

15. What is something about your OC can make you laugh?he has a very strong fear of the paranormal and he has rly silly exaggerated reactions to anything that can even slightly be paranormal

16. What is something about your OC can make you cry? a lot

17. Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story? lodovico sucksbut hes a key part of the story so i dont regret adding him.........but he sucks so im gonna mention him anyways

18. What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC? he fucken loves old music

19. What is your favorite fact about your OC?everything hes perfectbut also probably that he knows a bunch of random bird facts bc he loves birds but like........keeps it a secret bc hes a nerd

[shadyhouse]

8 facts meme

Post the rules

Post 8 facts about your character.

Tag 8 other characters.

Post their names along with their creators’ url.

i got tagged twice by @chemicalkingx and @varsitysjackets​ to do levi, roni, and otso so ill do all three of them i guess! if it gets long ill put it under a read more

levi

he wasnt always a demon-esque being, he used to be just a normal dog when he was younger but he met a bad person who corrupted him and now he’s the degenerate we know and love today :’)

the necklace he wears has a jewel in it that gives him powers. if hes not wearing it he cant do anything cool hes just a weird purple dog thing without it

the a few of the powers he can do (with the jewel) are light shape shifting (he can change small things about himself like his eye color and the shape of his ears and tongue and such) and he can manipulate people easily. not the Shitty Abusive type of manipulating but like, if he sees someone across the room he could partially possess them with ease

tecnically he’s dead? like hes still alive but hes, undead. reanimated, in a sense. but he isnt a zombie hes more like a spirit? idk its complicated

i kinda designed him on a whim but im glad i did because he is my favorite oc that i have even if hes only a month old

hes based on this album that i really like that i wont be saying bc its embarrassing but yea he’s initially based off an album i like :’)

hes not only my fursona but also a vent character so i tend to draw a lot of Bad Stuff with him and ,,,,, idk its better than doing it irl i guess lmao 

hes a very very very BASIC demon like he hasnt Leveled Up and he has no interest in doing so, he’s gonna stay basic bitch forever lmao (unless i decide otherwise in the future)

otso

he was originally an undertale self insert oc gfdijkgdf i shipped him with burgerpants and i drew them A LOT some of my older followers might remember those days...... eugh.........

his story was basically: his brother was the nice cream man (i literally only decided this bc they happened to have similar color schemes) and his parents werent around so they were in it for each other, and then otso met burgerpants after a disappointing mettaton show Also otso is obsessed with mettaton it was a mess of a story ngl

so eventually i detached him from the whole undertale thing and turned him into my fursona, and i havent developed his story since fjdkhdf

when i was first designing him he was just, a wooly bear-like monster, but when i turned him into a Furry he became a bear/sheep. a beep.

hes changed like, A LOT, in terms of body type and design. he has like 4 ref sheets and not a single one looks similar

i considered selling him a few times because i wasnt as attached to him as i used to but decided against it bc i still really do like him a lot,

i dont really have 8 things to say about him this is bad

his bell is his most prized possession and if u catch him when he’s sheared you will not live to tell the tale gfdgfd

roni

roni doesnt really have much of a story besides being a cute animal tbh

he was originally going to be an edgy character but i couldnt do it because???? tree kangaroos Cant be edgy theyre too cute

he’s basically like.... a 80s/90s kid but immortalized. hes Too Rad

he loves those milkshakes......... cant get enough........

he has a very childlike personality and outlook on life but in reality he doesnt really? have an age? he’s sorta like a living plushie/toy, but not actually a toy. also he’s 100% genderless

whatever is Hip With The Kids these days he is absolutely into. catch him with a fidget spinner in each paw and some roni-sized heelys

hes kind of anthro and kind of feral at the same time like he can talk (he has a voice similar to toki wartooth) but also his body type is that of a natural tree kangaroo (besides the pink shades in his fur)

he doesnt know how he got here and he often gets lost in his own thoughts wondering about his and everyone elses existance :’)

I TAG........ WHOEVER WANTS TO DO THIS........ LIKE SERIOUSLY IF U WANNA DO THIS SAY I TAGGED U AND USE WHATEVER OCS U WANT THIS IS FUN AND I DONT WANT U MISSING OUT !!!

[hrk297]

Jack Harlow Concert Recap

I’ve been pretty uninspired and overwhelmed the past few weeks and my constant input has definitely been affected because of it. I actually typed out a whole music review including albums by Anderson .Paak, Jaden Smith, and Lido but it unfortunately it got deleted before saving it as a draft/posting it. I tried to rewrite it but it sounded less passionate and more like I was trying to regurgitate what I had written originally- so I scraped it. 

I figured to catch me up on my weekly input I’d write a little review/recap of the last 2 concerts I attended which happen to align with the missing weeks of input. 

August, 2018: My best friend picked me up one day in August and played the song PICKYOURPHONEUP by Jack Harlow. I didn’t think much of it until it played again. And then again. I asked her “so, we’re just gonna keep listening to the same song huh?” because typically when this happens it just means she forgot to put her phone on shuffle. She remained unwavering as she said, “yeah”, in response before adding: “I love this song”. She played another song off his Loose album after that fourth play of PICKYOURPHONEUP and I immediately realized this kid was special. I got home and listened to almost nothing but his projects for the next 3 weeks. 3 weeks is a long time to listen to an artist without getting sick of their sound, at least for me. 

October 20, 2018: A couple weeks into October, Harlow posted a picture on instagram featuring his Loose Tour dates. I screenshotted it and sent it to my best friend and we spent the next 20 minutes deciding if I should go to Boston or if she should come to New York based on what days worked for us. Ultimately, we ended up getting tickets for his NY show on the 21st of November. The next month was filled with anticipation as we’d constantly share his posts with each other and talk endlessly about our personal desired set lists. I even ended up tweeting at him telling him we’d dress up as stewardesses as a reference to his lyric, “I got a crush on a stewardess, her outfit got something to do with it.” Now, my best friend and i have been to many concerts together, typically for more well established artists who have stronger fanbases so I think part of what was so thrilling about seeing him was that it meant we were catching a star before the hype. 

November 20, 2018: I had a Computer science exam at 12:30pm that I absolutely failed. I think I walked out of the room with a solid 14/100. Michelle (my best friend) had a 12 hour long period of interviews for her professional years. She hops on the 8pm bus from Boston to New York and arrives home around 2am as I fall asleep while decompressing from my headache of an exam. I know we are both still super excited for the day ahead of us despite the overwhelming days we just had.  

November 21, 2018: My alarm goes off at 9:30am. I consider hitting snooze and falling back asleep like i do every day of the week but I cant, this morning i actually have the drive to get up. I havent seen Michelle or been to a concert/show in over a month. So I get up, realize I dont know what to wear and facetime her. The next 40 minutes is spent cracking jokes about what we’re going to say to make him fall in love with us. We plan to leave our suburban town at 12:30 in hopes of being at the venue by 2pm. Doors open at 6:30pm. We’re a bit dramatic. We reach the venue and are the only ones in sight for the show, we realize its way too cold to stand outside for 4 more hours so we go to starbucks, insomnia cookies, marshalls (3 times, it was warm), and a couple other random stores before finally deciding to head back to the venue around 4:30. around 5, we see his sprinter van and a few members of his team are moving boxes of merch into the venue. We patiently wait, speaking softly while asking each other if we think he’s also in the van. Finally, after what feels like a half hour, we see a tall white boy with curly hair walk out of the van. We expect him to at the very least stop and greet us, but he walks straight into the venue, offering a weak, “sup y’all” with a hint of his Kentucky accent. We wait for the door to shut before looking at each other in shock. That was not the energy we expected out of an up and coming rapper. Its evident we’re both a bit discouraged and as we linger in the dissatisfying encounter, we see him and his best friend walking out again, not offering a single word this time. The next fans to join the line arrived around 5:30pm, they were a couple who immediately started a conversation with us despite their slightly standoffish demeanor. They tell us that they saw him live over the summer at a festival and after his set and they got the chance to speak to him. They said he was super sweet which restored some faith within us again. Maybe the Kentucky boy just really cant stand the cold and wanted to rush into the venue. 30 minutes prior to doors, Harlow and his friend come back, this time he has a girl under his arm who is not his girlfriend, the line which has accumulated has a moment of silence as they walk in. Once the clock finally hits 6:30, it begins to snow a little and the line passes comments about how annoyed we are that we arent being let in yet. His younger brother and a couple of his friends show up outside the venue and are immediately let in by his best friend. At this point, the overall experience is at a 6/10, max. Between the cold weather and energy we received from Harlow, the only redeeming things are the fact that I’m with my best friend and the company of the couple who joined us on line. 

6:42pm: the doors to the Mercury Lounge open and we scan our tickets. We make our way to the dead center of “barricade” and wait while we defrost. We weren’t anticipating enjoying the opening acts as we couldn’t find their music on any streaming site prior to the show, and granted the first act was a bit messy as he constantly began inviting his friends on stage, goofing around more than they were really performing but nonetheless the energy was exciting. The second act was truly enjoyable and I’m sure I’ll be looking out for his releases on spotify. I checked my phone for the time and realized it was almost show time. The music started for his song SUNDOWN as he shimmied on stage with his signature intro. We knew every word. Behind him, his best friend was recording the whole thing on a camcorder, mouthing along the lyrics. Despite not having much to say inbetween songs, let alone allotting time to even say anything between songs, Harlow’s performance was exactly what we thought it would be. Aside from the random “louisviller” as she called herself, who kept asking me questions about my height during his set while sprinkling in the fact that she knows Jack from Kentucky, his stage presence and connection with the crowd brought the experience up to an 8/10. He sang some of his OG songs and painted his face with a smile as he listened to the crowd sing along to even his lesser known stuff. A sense of pride clearly overtaking him- and rightfully so. Although the encounter with him earlier left a bitter taste in my mouth, hearing his lyrics about struggle and work ethic live reminded me why i admire him, and why i was so quick to become a fan. Once the show was over and he came back out for another round of SUNDOWN as the encore, we made our way to the merch table where I complained about how much I hated the design of the hoodie and refused to give in and buy a matching one with Michelle. The show ended around 9:30pm and we got back to our hometown around 11pm before taking a drive to our favorite place to eat. There we ate and discussed our experiences, comparing opinions on his performance and admitting that we were both still in love with him despite our rough first encounter. A perfect end to an eventful day.