#herethisismyheart

[flowerpetalsofadaisy]

You will not get a second chance.

No matter how much I wish I could give you one.

Did you know that you mended my heart just to break it again? Did you know that from the moment I met you and talked to you, heard your voice for the first time, I wanted to hear it always. Just seeing your name sparked something within my soul, a fire that had never been lit.

My hands were so much smaller than yours, but they fit together just right. You were a whole foot taller than me, yet our bodies molded together like water in a glass-perfectly. And when you kissed me, it was like my lips have always been meant for you. Your hands in my hair belonged there. My name on your lips was a prayer. I wanted to dance to every song in the kitchen with you. I wanted the chance to cook more dinners at eleven o'clock at night. I wanted to say goodnight at 4am when you would go home and hope that one day you would stay, so then I could turn over and say good morning. I wanted everything with you. I wanted to grow with you. Everyday. In every season.

But, as it turns out, you yourself... you were just a season. You were my favorite one that I have gone through. Why the fuck did the solstice have to come and change it all?

-Karolina Thiago

[flowerpetalsofadaisy]

She Doesn't

There will come a day when you meet her. Someone new. Someone that may look like me or not, and while you are sitting at dinner, on your very first date, you'll realize something.

She doesn't have my smile.

She doesn't have my laugh.

She doesn't gaze at you with a look that makes you stutter over your words like I made you.

She doesn't run her fingers up your spine, slowly, sensually, so gentle, so intense that you are forced to stop kissing her and just look deep into her eyes.

She doesn't make it so utterly and devastatingly hard to pull your lips from hers when you are supposed to be leaving...

"You have to go home," I would say.

and you would reply. "I know."

But you wouldn't stop, and our bodies would keep being pulled like two magnets not wanting to be released from one another.

She doesn't do that.

Not like I did.

But, maybe she will. Maybe she will gaze at you, but you'll wish it was with the intensity I did. Maybe she will run her fingers up your spine, but it won't make you stop and stare in the way I did. Maybe she'll make it hard for you to pull your lips from hers, but it doesn't devastate you like the way it was with me. Maybe she'll do all of those things to you, but when she does, you'll be thinking of me.

-Karolina Thiago

[flowerpetalsofadaisy]

You could not believe how fast my heart beat for you. So, why? Why? Why? Did you try to make it stop?

-Karolina Thiago

[flowerpetalsofadaisy]

Until That Night

I've never felt so comforted, warmed, at peace within the arms of an embrace until that night. And when we pulled away from one another, I'd never felt that strike of lighting that pulled our lips together until that night. And when, for several minutes, we could not part, lips locked together, hands roaming my back to pull me closer, I did not understand what a spark truly was... until that night.

-Karolina Thiago