#here i am. once again. feeling lost
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y-eontan · 5 months ago
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how do. how do people not strip their screws
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everkait · 5 months ago
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i’ve recently come to the conclusion that, unfortunately, i’m panlix trash. and like, what am i supposed to do with that information? what am i supposed to do? this ship is dead. i’m literally 11 years late to the party. 5 days ago i didn’t even know felix fucking existed, let alone that someone shipped him with pan. the only reason why i was even thinking about getting back into ouat after an 8-year absence was peter pan and then suddenly felix is there and i’m like whattt? what- this wasn’t planned- this wasn’t supposed to happen. let me obsess over my little maniac child-kidnapping devil in peace felix, go away, we don’t want you here. but apparently we DO! goddamn it. now i don’t know which one i like more. is it the mischievous demon-kid or his most loyal and favourite lost boy? arrgh. the horror.
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grvntld · 6 months ago
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26 may 2024—got my much wanted (((and needed))) pamper sesh (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.゚ im so happeh like yay!
𖡼⊱✿⊰𖡼 hand spa x foot spa × hot stone massage × microdermabration and perfectio x face therapy
𖡼⊱✿⊰𖡼 miss v, the one who attended to me, told me my hands are like a baby's bc theyre actually already soft prior to the hand spa lol
𖡼⊱✿⊰𖡼 i supah dupah mega ovah missed doing this!
𖡼⊱✿⊰𖡼 gosh tell me why did i stop doing this again???¿?? right, life happened—
𖡼⊱✿⊰𖡼 felt like a princess—nawp, wait, scratch that hMpf i felt like a dyosa fairy queen thank you very much
#grabe im so doing this again gRrRRRrRRRrrrrrr#ang saya ko kasi im doing things for mahself again#which no one has stopped me naman like even moosey kept telling me that i could do everything i want naman#and he will support me naman like kahit saang dagat ko pa gustuhing pumunta lol#namention niya yun kasi lately na-open up ko na plan ko magfreedive#and he was like oo nga diba matagal mo na yan gusto gawin#and then i was like oo nga noh why am i stopping mahself ba from doing things like?¿¿?¿?¿¿?#eniwey ive been doing a lot of things talaga that i love lately hehe pati nga yung mga matagal ko na gusto itry#nagpainting lessons me!!!!! sa church namin!!!!! IM SO HAPPEH HUHUHUHU#been a while since i held a paint brush like last time was high school pa ko#would u believe me if i tell u i was our batch's associate head artist for our school mag and paper#yEp once upon a time i was THAT kind of artist#and then 🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋 happened so i rlly lost touch doon sa creative aspect slash side ko na yun#like me being a writer is still with me pero yung one with the colors grabe nawala talaga kasi nagkaroom me ekis experience#so ayOrn we r going to hv another painting sesh soon!!!!! flowers naman ata hehehehehehehe#im so happeh kasi may mga ganitong activities sa church and i feel like im going back to my roots ganOrn#tapos nagstart na rin me practical driving classes ko sa car hehehe next is motorcycle maybe after this week#drivers license here i come!!!!!!!!!#tapos maybe freediving or ewan ko pa how abt sewing hehehehehhehe#gosh ang saya ko#may moments of lungkot pero dama ko rin yung gaan ykwim#naiiyak ako anUe bAaaaaaaaAAAaa#donut#cottoncandy#icecream#cookie#i did not check this for errors so excuse me if you ever see anything#skl ; 🦇 ba
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pjsk-headcanons · 3 months ago
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forrr the song bingo, netsu ijou/heat abnormal🧡or literally any iyowa song I love iyow
as far as i know there are 3 iyowa songs in prsk so i did all of them 🔥🔥🔥
netsu ijou (heat abnormal)
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kyu kurarin
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living millenium
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(can you tell i like iyowa)
(blank under cut)
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(game by @/ssruis)
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suffercerebral · 6 months ago
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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects
#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar#no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new#but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term#so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now#so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but#it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out#that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance#so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial#but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal#although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive#i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary#ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness#which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days#and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself#im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles#but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy#and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me#i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this#i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself#im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body#im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up#and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please#and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching#between numbness and overwhelming agony#what the fuck am i talking about
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kozidraws · 8 months ago
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emopulco · 4 days ago
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more of my rook thoughts
(with maybe some light spoilers on emmrich romance)
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fadewalking · 7 days ago
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Ok I have beef with Harding now, too.
#spoilers in the tags#my only friends here are emmerich; taash; darvin: and ironically Solas.#no fucking way am i saving her from her blind hatred of ALL ELVES right now#when will this infuriating bs end#how dare she blames the elves for this#oh we built our world on the end of yours did we?#YOU MEAN THE WORLD WHERE WE'RE ALMOST EXTINCT AS A RACE AND WHATS LEFT OF US ARE NOMADIC/ENSLAVED/POOR?#THAT WORLD? THE WORLD FOR THE ELVES?#you people are OUTTA YER GOTTDAMN MINDS.#ik this is like Dark! Corrupted! Harding but it doesnt draw from anything that she doesnt genuinely feel on some level.#this is like finding out your cishet ally friend has a secret reddit that theyre homophobic on#This is like if a gay man killed your father so you hate all gay people on principle#im relating this to lgbt+ bc its the most salient marginalized group i identify with#like i get some people ruined your entire race and society forever#but the same people youre blaming for it NOW also lost their entire race/culture from those people#i will NEVER shut up about this.#i already apologized to harding once#twice actually. after it was first revealed what evanuris did. and now i regret both apologies. i take them back.#i do not apologize. and if im given the option to again after this quest i absolutely refuse#@modern elves they could never make me blame you for anything.#is anyone gonna speak up for the elves here or do i have to just do everything myself?#Bellara is on this guilt train and Darvin seems like he couldnt really care less about his Elven identity anyway.#and naturally not like any other race is gonna jump to the Elves' defense#im assuming anyway. that'd be a shockingly nice surprise. but when have they ever?#i am bitter lol
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tennessoui · 2 years ago
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About to go reread all your mob aus ✌️💙
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new mob au obi-wan is the mob boss and anakin is actually just like. a normal civilian this time. no thoughts of murder, no bloody past, no bloodlust. just some dude, but he ends up seeing something he shouldn't and then taking out one of obi-wan's men when they go to make sure he stays quiet and obi-wan...likes that a bit too much
so instead of killing anakin, he threatens him into working for him occasionally.....after all, he has a wife and kids so he's pretty easy to threaten into compliance, either by threatening the kids directly or threatening to use his influence to charge anakin with the murder of his man
fast forward a bit and there's nothing obi-wan starts to like more than seeing the mayor's husband standing in his office with red hands giving him a report on what his wife and the police are gonna try to do next to clean up crime and corruption in the city.
and then eventually there's a shift down the line where anakin starts to think obi-wan is doing more for this city than anyone else and he's really actually helping people, giving them food and shelter and controlling the violence.......so anakin becomes a turncoat voluntarily, spying on his wife and her political friends and going to obi-wan to tell him things like what the police commissioner talks about after four glasses of win
and then the threats become rewards when they fall into bed together and there was no way obi-wan saw all this coming but he's always known skywalker would be a wise investment
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longagoitwastuesday · 2 months ago
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Going through the Utahim.e tag had me checking several times if at some point I had clicked on the G.ojo/Utahim.e one instead
#It's mainly the ship and mainly ship art. Very pretty btw. There's people with gorgeous styles there#There isn't even a lot of x reader fics haha I guess people don't want to bang Utahime?#Anyway... lowkey wished this happened with Ijichi lol#I so wanted Ijichi to mention or even hint at a mention of Gojo one last time like they did with Nanami#If nothing else for the weight of it all. The weight of feeling your youth dying piece by piece alongside the people who made it out#And everything it implies#Art of Shoko dealing with Gojo's death even in a cold way always strikes hard for that motive but I always love it#with pretty much everyone of those years. There was one piece I saw once that was not explicitly or necessarily romantic about Utahime#being hit by Gojo's death and I don't recall exactly how it was (I think I may have queued it?)#but it moved me more than any piece more clearly emotional that I had seen before#I don't know. I thought it held the potential of that. That weird uncomfortable heartbreaking feeling#of hearing bad news about old friends or classmates and how it makes you realise the weight of time#They suffered and accident. They tried to kill themselves. They are very sick. Their sibling or parent died. And you knew these people#You saw them daily for years. Maybe you weren't close but you knew these people. They cut my bangs when I was eight and I punched them#I tripped over them playing hide and seek and we both lost at the same time. We both hated each other's favourite teacher#They borrowed my pen once and then never gave it back. I once drenched them at the fountain after PE and it was winter but they laughed#Their mother got mad though. Now she's dead. We were made to sit together in French class in middle school. They loved to keep their hair l#Now they're sick and have lost their hair#Their little sibling was so annoying always trying to make us play with them during recess too. It was kinda cute. Now they're dead#I don't know. That kind of stuff#Utahime boosts Gojo and then he dies. Shoko opens him up to make a tool of his body#Ijichi accompanies another kid to clean after him in the meanwhile. And then the realisation hits. He is dead#He was annoying. He was my friend. He was so rude#He had such a sweet tooth. He laughed so loudly. He used to lean over people when talking with them#We were kids once. We are here now. He isn't here anymore. Some of us haven't been here anymore for a long while. It's been so long#He was still young. I am still young. We felt so old. At times it feels as if the time back then didn't happen at all.#And now he's dead and oh it's true he was so annoying but he also had such a sweet tooth. I forgot. What do I do with this memory now?#At times it felt as if the time back then didn't happen at all but then at times it shone through. He brought it back#He asked me a favour knowing I wouldn't betray his secret. He still teased the same way. He still leaned on people. But now he's dead#I don't know if I'm explaining myself well xD I think it's a pretty common emotion when it happens.Oh I forgot to censore words again sorry
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verytendou · 5 months ago
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Haciendo todo esto y todavia diciendo a los de latam que ellos tienen la problema 💀
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#WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRR idec#i prommy this is theblast one but i hope every gringo on this site trying to pretend like they care abt anything other than the fact the us#lost hard (lol!) and being weird to latam [REDACTED] [REDACTED] [REDACTED]#as a gringo im allowed to say that 🙏#acutando como que los importan es el deporte y no que ellos se creen mejor de esta copa 💀#‘ive never seen anything like this 😣’ entonces nunca has visto esta copa 💀#rip to you but ive been watching since i was born for the hashtag patria (i know) and what IVE never seen before is the AUDACITY DE ESTES GR#[GUNSHOT NOISE] hahah anyways. im calm.#but like whatever its not like this is OUR tournament that YOU asked to be part of and YOU asked to host and YOU provided shit set up for#and YOU put players in over 100 degree heat for and YOU continue to be weird about and YOU continue to try and make stupid claims during and#[GUNSHOT NOISE 2] haha. calm. thats me.#solo creo que es chisto que- [GUNSHOT NOISE 3] okay that one was a prank fr i promise. anyways turning off rbs#anyways rip to ppl that dont normally watch this tournament but this is the only one i DO watch so maybe be strong or smth. babies fr :|#ni puedo decir el classico jugamos como nunca y perdimos como siempre de PER bc WTF WAS THATTTTTT#and i personally am being such a brave little boy abt. what do you even know abt that. nothing.#eeuu jugaron como siempre Y PERDIERON COMO SIEMPRE WE ARE NOT THE SAME#ENFOCATE EN TU PAIS#anyways this is one of the leas egregious examples of how horrible these fans have been this tournament but didnt feel like dropping the#actually nasty shit bc we are all aware lmfao.#anyways i didnt spend 20+ years watching my parents have to explain what sudaca is to ppl (including other l*tines!) for this 🙄#anyways whatever once again idec and i have to go pray for ven to win it all (delusional) since per has beef with like wveryone 😭#HERES HOW WE CAN STILL WIN- (<- insane)#v.txt#also abt the spanish. before you say anything… i am aware alright 😭 my parents never corrected my spelling im begging u to let me be 😔#wait last one ‘porque solo estan usando sus arbitros 😣’ ES NUESTRA COPA GRI[GUNSHOT NOISE FINALLLLLL]#ni quiero imaginar que estaban diciendo en el comm ingles 💀
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spark1edog · 7 months ago
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kinda wild how growing up i was an older sister with a younger brother, then from 14-21 i was an older brother to a younger brother, and now im an older brother to a younger sister!
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veloriium · 11 months ago
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i always feel weird posting even a little hint of my personal life anywhere but i guess i need to remind others and myself that i am a real person
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qucintly · 1 year ago
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Once again I have been very busy with writing projects and other irl things. I really want to get things restarted down here, so how about this impromptu starter/plotting call?
Like or Reblog to be added to the list of starters to be written, and feel free to DM me either through the Tumblr IM or Discord(if you have me added here) if you want a specific plot!
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graviconscientia · 1 year ago
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I have been left alone with my thoughts too frequently as of late. I do not know what to do with myself right now. There are not enough distractions to keep me afloat. I can only hope all this shall pass soon enough.
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oldyears · 2 years ago
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can they make a me that does not violently procrastinate every single day. like oh my god girl
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