#her main concern was whether or not I was dating someone šŸ˜†
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sharkieboi Ā· 2 years ago
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love the way I have to talk to my grandma on the phone that is simultaneously ā€œyou suck and youā€™re mean to my mom and also mean to the rest of the family, and youā€™ve also purposefully isolated yourself from a lot of our family so thatā€™s why no one wants to answer your callsā€ and ā€œI love you so much and you mean the world to me and iā€™m desperately trying not to make this an abandoned connection, both individually and for the familyā€
#shhh sharkie#thereā€™s some part of me thatā€™s like.#if I can just get nonna to have an actual relationship with me#and let me drive her and pop-pop up to family functions#cause iā€™m on the way. iā€™m in maryland and theyā€™re in delaware. theyā€™re literally on the way for my various New England destinations.#but theyā€™ve become extremely combative with the rest of the family#which maybe iā€™m stupidly hopeful but a lot of conflict would be stopped by talking about the issue face to face and not over texting#anyway have maybe laid the foundation to build some bridges but either way#her main concern was whether or not I was dating someone šŸ˜†#and if i would use my older sistersā€™s wedding to try to find someone#i very gently told her no on both accounts. told her iā€™ve got a lot going on. and also that a wedding is a terrible place to meet someone#also did tell her no i donā€™t meet anyone at weddings cause me and my two other queer siblings just gang up and vibe#not in those words but yknow#told her ā€˜yeah we all just end up hanging out and dancing and drinking together so we donā€™t even really have the opportunityā€™#as if the real scenario is who the fuck hooks up with a rando at a wedding. especially when itā€™s your own family.#like. no. no thank you.#iā€™m not saying iā€™d object if the situation were to happen but like#at least most weddings iā€™ve gone to thereā€™s a chance iā€™m at least 50% related to anyone attending#iā€™m just gonna hang out with my other queer siblings and enjoy being with them. yknow?#sidebar cause i went back to edit other things in the post but like#the abandonment and isolation are fuel for radicalization#and yeah half of me is like ā€˜just cut her offā€™ but also#my presence on its own is radicalizing. so since iā€™m apparently the family member she still wants to talk to#itā€™s apparently my duty#Nonna is gonna be liberal if it breaks my fucking mind#at this pint with the Bullshit iā€™m on a Mission
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