#her kids are obsessed with me ✅

[housewifebuck]

Anyone else accidentally form an extremely buddie coded relationship with their best friend or am I just gay

[landoughnut]

Mine All Mine

♡ masterlist - request!

♡ pairing - oscar piastri x fem!reader (fc - hailee steinfeld)

♡ summary - (request :) oscar obsessing over his girlfriend on the internet!

♡ warnings - horny/simp oscar, crack, some fluff, some cursing, use of y/n

♡ w/c & a/n - smau | thank you so so much for requesting!! i hope you enjoy lovely xx

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oscarpiartri i am NOT getting thrown up on by him again. you can walk his drunk ass back to the car this time

landonorris I SAID I WAS SORRY 😣

oscarpiastri sorry doesn't heal my trauma

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alex_albon ...

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yourusername NO YOU AREEE 🫵🏻🥰

oscarpiastri HEHEHEHE IM BLUSHING

landonorris can confirm ✅

oscarpiastri my pants are kinda tight rn

charles_leclerc AYOOO GROSS 🤮

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yourusername I LOVE YOU OSC

oscarpiastri I LOVE YOU MOST ❤️

charles_leclerc red for ferrari?

oscarpiastri 🧡* never.

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mclaren thats our boy 😁

lewishamilton loved the movie!!

yourusername im so glad !! 🥰

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oscarpiastri hello?? no wtf

zendaya you cant come between our love aussie boy

oscarpiastri maybe not, but ik smt else I can come in between

maxverstappen1 LOG OFFF

georgerussell63 SOMEONE TAKE THIS KIDS PHONE AWAY

yukitsunod0511 im telling a trusted adult 😟

landonorris IM TELLING YOUR MOM

oscarpiastri NO PLEASE

mclaren two strikes. one more and your out.

oscarpiastri since when is f1 baseball

username YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS

oscarpiastri GORGEOUSLY MINE

username chill bro no ones stealing her ☺️

oscarpiastri IM SO PROUD OF YOU DARLING

yourusername thank you love 💕🥹

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oscarpiastri yall wouldn't believe how easy that dress was to remove

yourusername OML OSCAR NO

carlossainz55 STOPPPPPPP

alex_albon ENOUGH

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yourusername NOOO MY BBY YUKI IM SORRY 🙁

landonorris why are you always talking abt ur adult time online

oscarpiastri IF YALL DONT WANT TO SEE THEN GET OFF MY GFS PAGE 🙄

mclaren and thats strike three, my office in 30 - zak

landonorris oooo you're in trouble 😂🫵🏻

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emmawatson beautiful girl 💞

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yourusername I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 🙁

oscarpiastri I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER ♾️

yourusername you are prettier than all the sunsets

oscarpiastri i just shed a few tears

landonorris can confirm ✅

charles_leclerc are my eyes deciving me?

maxverstappen1 a... nice caption??

carlossainz55 very pg... so refreshing

username when i pull up to the who loves y/n most contest but oscar piastri is also there 🚪🏃💨

oscarpiastri easiest win of my life

yourusername osc love 🥹

username AWHHHHHHH

username ladies get yourself a man who loves you like how oscar loves y/n liked by oscarpiastri

lewishamilton my favorite couple 💙 liked by oscarpiastri

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oscarpiastri righttt 🥺

yourusername i like the view

oscarpiastri you do?

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username ICONIC

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landonorris THE AUDACITY

oscarpiastri i see you little french boy.

oscarpiastri if i see another comment or like from you ill hit you with my car so fast you'll go flying back to your little chocolate factory.

mclaren for legal reasons this IS a joke 😅

yourusername TIMOTHÉE IM SO SORRY DONT MIND HIM IM A BIG FAN OF YOU 🫶

tchalamet 😅 i'm scared to say thank you

oscarpiastri good 🙃

username LMAOAOOAOOAOAAO TIMMYS TRAUMATIZED

oscarpiastri ugh guys she's just JDNBGEBGW

oscarpiastri you guys dont even get it

oscarpiastri i wake up and see her and just 🥲 thank the lord

username AWHHHHHHHHH

alex_albon i didn't know he could be so sweet

yourusername IM GOING TO CRY ILYSM.

oscarpiastri and i love you more 💞

username i'm only following oscar for the y/n content

oscarpiastri thats so valid.

zendaya same.

[gh0stgiirl]

Hello friends!

I’m back again for the 100th time, just kidding but probably about my 5th. I’ve missed you all!

Let’s be mutuals 🖤

DMs = OPEN ✅

Psychotic && delusional | Bpd | Probably crying | Obsessive

You can call me princess, I’m 30 years old and live in the US. I love anime, lil peep && Lego Fortnite.

Anime favs (send me some recs)

JJK

Cowboy bebop

Naruto

Tokyo ghoul

Just horny posting fr.🖤🎀

Some of my kinks include: cnc, piss play, knife kink, bondage, choking, breathe play, praise/degradation, orgasm denial && anal 🖤 there is probably more just ✨ ask ✨

Hard limits: age play && scat

Now for the list of boundaries‼️

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Please do NOT send unsolicited dick pictures you will be blocked. Any racism, bigotry or homophobia will also get you BLOCKED. No hate on my page. Don’t be a bully.

I’m not here to entertain your sexually explicit conversations. Please refrain from doing so or I will block you.

This is my safe space && you will be blocked if you disturb the peace 🖤

I’m simply just a girl existing on the internet, who enjoys showing off her body. Pls be respectful && we can have fun!

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[megumi-fm]

this week fortnight on megumi.fm ▸ the last leg

is that a pun referring to my aching ankle? yes. is resting at home for another week gonna ruin my mental health? yes. but am I exaggerating and throwing a tantrum for something that's probably not a big deal? also yes.

📋 Tasks

💻 Internship // progress tracker ↳ biopython model replication ✅ ↳ code for obtaining single fasta from overlapping sequences ✅ ↳ running HMMer and superfamily script✅ ↳ output analysis 🔁 ↳ literature review on transport proteins 🔁 ↳ transport protein family analysis 🔁 🎓 Uni ↳ our paper is finally out! there's a doi and everything now <3 it's not open access though :/// I might do some totally legal things to ensure more people can read it ↳ collected the hardcopy of my LOR ↳ collected my gradecard ↳ visited my advisor and updated her on stuff 🩺Radiomics Project ↳ radiomic features finalized✅ ↳ data cleanup 🔁

📅 Daily-s

🛌 consistent sleep [14/14] 💧 good water intake [14/14] 👟 exercise [/14] just basic stuff to maintain ankle mobility

Fun Stuff this week

💗i went to uni to watch one of my friends present something to the juniors! then I spent the afternoon chatting with my guide and later on went window shopping with my best friends (in retrospect i should not have done this because my ankle got infinitely worse the next day and now I'm stuck resting at home for an additional two weeks) 🎮playing undertale with @muakrrr 📺 ongoing: Marry my Husband, Cherry Magic Th, Perfect Propose, Doctor Slump, Flex X Cop 📺 binged: Blueming, Roommates of Poongduck 304 📹 Started watching Going Seventeen // so I've been listening to SVT for a while now and I did watch their Don't Lie II eps like two years ago but I never really checked anything else... however, considering that I'm stuck at home and that @zzzzzestforlife (who has impeccable taste) has mentioned it often on their posts, I decided to check out GoSe properly and. wow. I started with their mystery episodes [fav scenes under cut] and now I'm watching GoSe2020 in chronological order and !!!!!! The concepts, the storylines, the acting, the humour, the editing, even the subtitles are all so so good. I've been watching this show for two weeks now and I am now officially a cubic <3

📻 This week's soundtrack

Wk1: The Best of ATEEZ // I've been real obsessed since their 2024 world tour clips started showing up on social media; I was a casual enjoyer up to this point and then I went and checked them out and it's all so dystopian and immersive. My favourites would be Intro: Long Journey (which makes me feel like I'm in Pirates of the Caribbean), the Symphony version of Wonderland (for its musicality and Jungho hitting those notes), MATZ (that is insane in it's the visual storytelling in the MV) and Wake Up (whose performance choreo ended me) Wk2: The Best of BTS // in an attempt to revive a project I abandoned a year ago, I spent wayy too much time curating this playlist to get the most satisfying BTS transitions ever and I can confidently say that I'm nowhere close to my goal T-T but I kind of like the way it is now so I am simply going to give up

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[Feb 12 to Feb 25 ; week 7+8/52 || this was not supposed to be one post but then... idk what happened... I feel very dull lately because of my ankle and just when I thought it was getting better it's become painful again... my friends and parents keep chastising me (and fairly so) for trying to move around even before I fully heal but patience has never been my strong suit. sitting still is really the biggest punishment for a hyperactive ADHD kid like me... i'm sure plenty others have it worse but... yeah... GoSe really carrying my mental health right now ]

my fav GoSe scenes

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[notoriousbeb]

The My Tears Ricochet Deep Dive

While this song obviously has a clear reference to Taylor’s masters being sold to Scooter Braun in November 2019, I don’t think that’s the full story being told here.

When she released Folklore, Taylor shared via Instagram that “My Tears Ricochet” is about an “embittered tormentor showing up at the funeral of his fallen object of obsession.”

Now, why is she fallen? Because her work has been taken from her. Okay, one question answered. ✅

Now, who is the “embittered tormentor obsessed” with Taylor? Scooter Braun, of course…But see, I actually don’t think it’s that simple. I get why that’s the obvious first choice, though.

(Back story for new kids who don’t know why Scoots is trash: In July 2016, Taylor was outcast and called a snake due to a leaked phone call by Kim Kardashian and her then-husband Kanye West. Scooter was Kanye’s manager. Then Kanye put out the video of the song in question from the call—featuring a naked Taylor lookalike. Then Justin Bieber posted that video to Instagram with a photo showing him on a video call with Scooter and Kanye. The caption said, “Taylor Swift what up.” So, they’re all three supreme douche-canoes of the highest order).

However, I think Scooter’s top priority (as always) in buying Taylor’s masters was simply to make money. And if he pissed her off while doing so, that was probably a delightful bonus. But I wouldn’t say he bought her masters because he was obsessed with her. This deal was nearly three years later, and nothing had popped off between the camps in the interim.

I have more on this tormentor/obsessor/muse, concept; but first, back to Folklore. Upon its release, Taylor also revealed in a YouTube livechat that it was the first song she wrote for the album. And that leads me into a bit of timing discussion.

I think Folklore was the result of a few seismic events in Taylor’s life: a run-in with Harry at Ed’s wedding in December 2018 (which I think helped to spawn his second solo album, Fine Line); followed by talking to him during early quarantine in March 2020 in Los Angeles when the Lover tour got postponed and then cancelled; the pandemic itself pushing her, like many of us, into some serious introspection; and, of course, the sale of her masters to Scooter in 2019.

Since this is the very first song Taylor wrote that ended up on Folklore, my speculation is that perhaps it was penned in those first couple of days of the pandemic, before she reconnected with Harry in LA.

Fine Line would have been newly released—just three months prior—and on her birthday no less.

Which leads me back to the tormentor and obsessor. You know what I might find tormenting, if I were Taylor? If I’d been waiting for this one guy to grow the fuck up for years and then (perhaps after we ran into each other at our good friends’ wedding?), he confessed to me that he still wanted me but, even at 25, he still didn’t have his shit together (please see, “Renegade,” “To Be So Lonely,” and “Peter”).

Then, after I piece myself back together following snake gate, some epic twat who bullied me online back then buys my work out from under me from the guy I thought I had a good working relationship with (Scott Borchetta) and while I’m dealing with that bullshit my ex I’m still pining for releases album on my birthday with songs seemingly about us and how he still wants me.

Yeah, that’d have me plenty tormented. And feeling like, since his first album was also quite “a tip of the cap” to me (his words) as well that, yeah, someone was a little obsessed with me.

So, anyway, the lyrics:

We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too

We open at the funeral Taylor told us about. Then referencing a potential cremation. If she’s burning, so is he. Because they’re twin flames? Because they’re so close?

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you ‘Til my dying day

Does this sound like someone talking to either a bully or a former business associate? To me it sounds like a very messy, very difficult, former lover.

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And you're the hero flying around, saving face And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

I can see how people could think this was about Scott, but not Scooter. But T herself said this whole thing was about one muse: The embittered obsessor attending her funeral.

Anyway, my take: it’s a lover she couldn’t let go of easily, so it ended messy.

And now he’s out promoting an album full of songs about them, pretending it’s not, because he’s a gentleman. But while he’s acting like she’s nothing to him, they both know what he said to her in private, and what those songs are really about, and no matter how much she cries and waits and wants him to grow up and come get her he just can’t — or won’t.

We gather stones, never knowing what they'll means Some to throw, some to make a diamond ring

This is a Biblical allusion to Ecclesiastes 3:5: “A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing.” I think she’s referring here to an idea revisited again in “loml,” that she thought she’d be safer and maybe get the life she wanted with someone more stable, versus being in a relationship that left her starry eyed, like she was with Harry…and that’s how she wound up with Joe for six years.

You know I didn't want to have to haunt you But what a ghostly scene

Ah, would it really be a Haylor lyric breakdown if we weren’t talking about ghosts and haunting at some point? 👻 They obviously haunt one another because they can’t shut up about each other. (Not that I’m complaining!)

Two Ghosts: “We're just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty.” ....Ready for it?: “Wonder how many girls he loved and left haunted.” Cardigan: “I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs.”

You wear the same jewels that I gave you As you bury me

Even while doing the press for Fine Line, H was wearing her ring. Should we talk some more about the Haylor ring? Or burying and graves? Nah. I think these posts sum it up very well.

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

I think these lines could be a reference both to things he’s said to her and in his songs about her, particularly the pointed ones. “Lights Up,” for one, which to me, reads like an argumentative back-and-forth about why must things change in a relationship against the backdrop of fame. It also seems to include a tie to “Peter” with “I’m never coming back down,” as compared to “I didn’t want to come down.”

And I can go anywhere I want Anywhere I want, just not home And you can aim for my heart, go for blood But you would still miss me in your bones

And where is home in this case—and so many others? Each other.

And I still talk to you When I'm screaming at the sky And when you can't sleep at night You hear my stolen lullabies

I imagine this is her picturing him listening to her old albums, as she hadn’t done her rerecords yet. Also, again, doesn’t this all seem a bit…intimate and dramatic for a business relationship? Like, picture this moment in the Eras Tour in your mind, please, and tell me with a straight face that you’d sing like this for your former boss. It certainly doesn’t seem like anything you’d say to someone like Scooter. Why would she ever want to talk to him at all?

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same Cursing my name, wishing I stayed You turned into your worst fears And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain Crossing out the good years And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

So, this is where we get into the “embittered” part of Taylor’s original description of the song’s muse—the person visiting her funeral. Why is he bitter? Because he lost her. She didn’t stay. Perhaps because his own bad behavior pushed her away. “All the light couldn’t put out the dark running through my heart?” “I know you were way too bright for me. I’m hopeless, broken.” Also, and again, please see, “Renegade,” and “To Be So Lonely,” and “Peter” and also “Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus.”

[ashadowofburnedoutstardust]

Right after I left that discord chat and prior that podcast with Pete is when I got hacked

I also got burgled, stalked, and had my car messed with/

You mean winter leaked your info to Megan 🤯 and you got hacked and stalked because of that? 🤯🤯🤯

Hello anon 🙏

Well this post ended up longer than I thought it would but you helped jog my memory on some other things:

I have no idea, but the discord chat is is the only place where I shared my actual identity and then all of that happened to me afterwards.

Not long afterwards Narrative apparently hired a new intern....

My external HD got stolen (they stole my goddamned kids baby photos) with all of my personal pics and schoolwork for my Photography qualification on it (so I've had to put my schooling on hold) and stole a bunch of personal documents including the paper trail I'd established with the police....

Apart from a few others from LSA - Sally, Garbage you know the ones that faked the Yoga messages from the place in Concord to help the fake narrative along that it was real - that was the only place where my name got shared

Garbage sent me my own name in a DM on discord right afterwards

(I honestly thought they were stalking Scott to try and get in with Chris but got turned down because to begin with they were not team real)

Sally was the one that posted a selfie with Chris from one of his premieres in a private LSA group and Garbage (claimed to be friends with a friend of Scotts and knew about him going to Jessica's Bday prior to it happening) took a photo of Megan at a café where she said some lady was called Sally and the man she was with was some Executive from Netflix while at the premiere for TGM in LA

Here's the link to the post with those screenshots:

It's weird, if you go back to the LSA "Harem list" you'll notice Belen Cusi isn't on it, she plays the piano which make me think of Christopher's piano videos?

Maybe she was also a candidate at the beginning? But it didn't take? She also does acting sometimes and she did play one of Lloyds executives in TGM

Though I heard she was warned away from being ADAs stand in on Ghosted, maybe because they decided they wanted to push for the PR RS with ADA instead

Here's Belen's IMDB:

Keep in mind it was a font on LSA called Belle9 that told me all of this about Belen and claimed to know her as well

(Pretty sure Belen got hacked by Cryptos the same time I did if the Evans wanted to ask her about it)

She's the one that sent me photos of the Ghosted set the night before any pics of the set hit anywhere else on the internet

Here's the link to those screenshots:

Belle9 also threw a bit of a fit when 🐟 showed up to the premiere (she didn't know beforehand)

She claimed she was friends with Mike Oh and that she spent some time working on Ghosted for a little while and attended a Birthday? BBQ at his place in Atlanta

She also claimed she told Chris that the fans wanted to see his "Fluffy hair" (technically that was me lol) prior to him posting his selfie with the comment ✅ Fluffy hair on it....

(We were obsessed with the fluffy hair.....)

She claimed she was standing next to Christopher on set when her phone went off for a notification that he just posted to IG and he commented something like "Important notification?" to her

So if she was really there he would know who it was (she was also the one that told us he was in Atlanta with some local girl from the area, no offense girly but if he's not out in public with you it's for a reason, his Mama don't like you...)

🤍🪽✨

[32flavorsotbbg]

7.23

Soooo friend and I went to the gym this morning and ew! He like put his hands on my hands to like show me how to do something and I was like 🫣🤭 like you better stop witcho cute ass 🙂‍↔️

I hate myself in these situations. I have to keep reminding myself that we are getting to know each other as friends and he’s going thru some shit… and who knows how long that shit will take, you know?

But idk he keeps calling me cute and like saying certain things that just make me go hmmmmmmmmm??? 🤭🥰 and it’s very much a yikes situation because I don’t wanna be like this! Like don’t get me wrong it’s nice but it’s gonna be so hard to sit thru the process if something else is going to go on between us?????

But I guess that’s also for the best if things don’t go anywhere it’s better to just be friends and then nothing’s on the line.

Idk I just feel like there’s……. Idk nothing strictly platonic about what’s going on. We talk a lot. I wonder if he talks to Adreana this much. I know they talk on the phone. This is a different dynamic thoooooo cause Jake was never my boyfriend. So of course he’s gonna treat me different than her. I mean, he brought ME up to HER?????? She said she had nothing to do with him mentioning me.

He’s coming all the way to sunnyside from 41&ave12 just to go to the gym with me 3 days a week. AT 5AM.

He keeps mentioning his issues with anxious attachment???? Like I know this fool is not anxiously attached to Adreana????

He’s googling workouts for us?!?!?!?!?! To be more prepared?????? He’s gently explaining stuff to me in the gym and gently correcting little things and honestly I wish you could see my face as I type this because it’s scrunched up like I’m disgusted but I’m just like???????????????????????? Where tf did this fucking guy come from

I feel like once I realized he was married I was like ah man the cute ones are always taken! It just goes to show you never fucking know what’s gonna happen…….

Idk I think I’m reading too much into it. Imma let it flow of course but it’s fun to daydream. I still have a lot to learn about this particular young man.

He’s obsessed with his kids ✅ I know that! Big big green flag

I need to queen out with some damn body!!!!!!!!!!!! 🤪

[treevore]

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

✅: death and grieving lmfao i have a real fixation on death and dying and it's now cropped up in two published fics, it's in a third that isn't yet published, and i've got like......idk how many ideas that involve it lmfaooo

😬: my most recent tbh. it's not like....dark in the acts depicted but i allude to some pretty serious abuse that's very....real world based and also go hard as fuck on the incest lmfao (and it's specifically family. my friends cannot escape my behavior)

👀: i actually REAAAALLYYYYY want/need to finish my dean/laura first day together fic because i need to further the deanlaura agenda and also because i really fucking....love them soooom uuuuchhhhhh

and once i finish this one i can feel comfortable with starting other superpeaks works (including some johndeanlaura)

From the moment he set eyes on her, Dean was obsessed with Laura Palmer. Her bouncy blonde hair, the way her eyes shone when she smiled, the slight divot in her lips that a cigarette made as she took a drag. In all the places he’d been with dad and Sam, he’d never seen a person as captivating, as perfect, as she was. He’d seen Christmas angels on the tv, perched atop a dense sparkling pine tree in some fancy living room, in houses that had bedrooms for every kid in the family. The first time he’d ever seen Laura he’d been sure one of them had come to life, she floated on air as though God gave her wings and all.

posting a snippet of it too bc i need everyone to see this first paragraph

fic writer asks

[kimchokejin]

omg okay so i was tagged by the whimsical @wistfulocean​, the jellicle (😲) @jiminsproof​, and the splendid @seoksao to list 10 of my blorbos (favorite characters) from 10 different fandoms. this was kind of hard (but fun!) for me because i am very on and off when it comes to tv, i haven't read a book with characters in a long time 😬, and i tend not to obsess over movies. so i came up with a list of 10 blorbos that i've had over the years. and we are starting EARLY okay? also i started writing descriptions for these and then i got so embarrassed because i literally don’t remember shit about anything so i’m just gonna not say much lol. and then check marks mean i can safely recommend the show/movie, otherwise...proceed with caution

Stitch from Lilo and Stitch ✅

he might be more of a “scrunkly” actually, represents my inner child?

She-Go from Kim Possible

i was always like she’s way too cool for dr. draco or whatever lmao

Elyon from W.I.T.C.H.

(but from the books i didn’t watch the show as much)

Prince Zuko from Avatar: The Last Airbender ✅

gotta love a redemption arc! hope the new live action version isn’t bad! 🤞

Eli Goldsworthy from Degrassi

hey shut up

Spencer Reid from Criminal Minds

my baby boy! special shout out to the episodes with him and aubrey plaza's character ahh i wish i could watch those for the first time again

Rosa Diaz from Brooklyn 99

acab ofc i simply wasn’t thinking straight (heh). i bought my first pleather jacket because of her. don’t laugh.

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Snufkin from The Moomins! (the 90s version) ✅

the most comforting children’s show you could ever watch tbh. this kid reminds me of one of my neighbors from my childhood and i definitely remember feeling very…moomin-y…around him…one time i chased him down the street because i wanted a hug 😬 whereas now i think i act more like a snufkin but i think moomin is still there deep down? oops now i’m getting too deep lol ummm i also love his philosophy on things (be gay do crime!!!) and i might be dressing like him for halloween

Nam See-hee from Because This Is My First Life ✅

i literally had to look up this dude’s name tbh because my friends and i lovingly refer to him as robot man. this guy...he’s the real deal. THE unattainable standard. if you’re into kdramas i HIGHLY recommend this show which doesn’t mean much coming from me since i haven’t seen a lot of kdramas BUT my friend who has been watching kdramas for over a decade now says it’s the best kdrama they’ve ever seen. so. it’s not a super dramatic one either more of a rom com so i don’t think you would cry if you didn’t want to?

lmao i’m like scared of what this list says about me i think the two prevailing types here are snarky assholes with a heart of gold (alleged) and women who could kill me without remorse or hesitation? and i gravitate towards "lighter” shows because i generally don’t like to feel more than i already do? ummmm i’m still embarrassed idk might delete later. but if you see this and would like to play say i tagged you!

[transfenris-truther]

fanfic emoji ask: 😈💖✅

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

UHHH. My meanness is infrequently playful, unfortunately. I think my biggest dick move is my resilient belief that Varric lied about Leandra being alive when Hawke came to rescue her. Leandra is very much dead on arrival in my version of the story. Not playful at all unfortunately. I also love to make OCs  people like and then kill them horribly. Sorry. 

💖 What made you start writing? 

Mostly being a big reader as a kid. I picked up writing again in 2020 because I was in a really bad place mentally, and I basically redoubled my dragon age obsession and started kinda living in my DA2 fantasies full time for a bit (not the healthiest, I know). I figured I’d write it down and start posting so that, hopefully I'd get to at least talk to people online about it. That’s worked out really well for me honestly, and I’m super grateful for the little DA Tumblr community and A03 people for being incredibly nice to me especially since I was genuinely not doing well at the time. 

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

SIBLINGS. WHO. ARGUE. It’s essentially the entire plot of No One Will Get Away With anything, and it’s more than one major subplot in No Town More Barren Than Our Town. Even in Through the Fog, where nobody has any siblings at all, I have an OC who basically only exists to have sibling- type arguments with Fenris and push him to be a more complete person. My younger sister and I are very different people. We argued a lot as kids, and as adults I think we still push each other to grow. It’s a relationship I love having and love writing. 

[bates--boy]

[Mike] couldn't help but notice that Nazz is getting all sweet on Pete

[Mike] I take it that you guys are poly now?

[Sheer] Yeah, we are.

[Mike] ffs Sheer you don't even want to be poly! Why didn't you just tell him no??

[Sheer] Because it's like he said: we tried everything we can think of and they didn't work

[Sheer] We can give this a try

[Mike] so if Nazz told you to let a train run through you in front of our old mosque while he jerks off to it because it would help the marriage, would you??

[Sheer] What the fuck?! That's disgusting!

[Mike] but you would tho.

[Sheer] Shut the fuck up Mike

[Mike] no I'm not gonna shut up about this

[Mike] god fucking help you, Sheer, what hold does this man have on you?

[Mike] is he hitting you?

[Sheer] No!

[Mike] you can tell me if he's hitting you. I can help you and the kids get out of there.

[Sheer] HE IS NOT HITTING ME

[Sheer] He never has and he never will

[Sheer] You know him better than that

[Mike] apparently not as well as I thought. I woulda never introduced you to him if I knew he was like this

[Sheer] Is there a point to any of this?

[Mike] yeah. tell him you don't want this. break it off with Pete before it gets too deep and he gets hurt too

[Sheer] Why, so Nazz can go find someone else? At least this time, it won't be behind my back.

[Sheer] Besides, they're on their first date. I'm sure they're going to fuck afterwards.

[Mike] can you please reread everything you wrote and see how completely fucking stupid you sound

[Mike] stop acting like the only choice you have is being miserable with him

[Sheer] What other choice do I have?

[Mike] DIVORCE

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[Mike] SHEER

[Sheer] Listen, Mike. I appreciate your concern and I love you. But things are going to be fine. A lot of marriages that's been through worse come out stronger.

[Sheer] We're going to figure out what's wrong and fix it. We owe it to our kids.

[Mike] oh my god I knew this had something to do with your mom

[Mike] you wanna know what's wrong?? you let your mom convince you that Nazz is the bottom of the barrel and you can't do any better

[Mike] you put him down and emotionally damage him every chance you get, he goes out and screws any breathing thing that's nice to him and

[Sheer] You seem to have a lot of answers for a guy who doesn't even have custody of his bastard kid

[Mike] you still idolize your mom's marriage like it's healthy to stick with an asshole who walks all over ppl

[Mike] leave Anaïs out of this! At least I got out of a relationship that wasn't working instead of staying and pretending that I'm doing it for her!

[Sheer] I'm almost positive that an extended booty call is easier to walk away from than an actual marriage.

[Mike] Tam was more than a hookup and you know it. and stop making it sound like you guys were married for 20 years.

[Mike] I'm trying to help you! Sheer, don't do this. don't do any of this.

[Mike] he can sweet talk you and give you good dick and play a good father when he's not chasing his acting dreams, but he doesn't want to be married to you. he doesn't love you anymore and you know that

[Mike] and honestly, do you even love him?

[Mike] cuz it looks like you're either trying to keep the same crappy marriage your ma had

[Mike] or this is part of your obsessive trait and the need to be a martyr

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[Mike] Sheer

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[brandmentalist]

Are You Tired? Me Too.

Are you tired? Me too.

Sometimes I just want to give up.

Then I have to remind myself how many obstacles I’ve pushed myself through and all that I have now is a result of not giving up.

Everything is such a freaking process. Growth is a process. Success is a process. True love is a goddamn long process.

What isn’t a process?

Settling.

Your best self doesn’t want you to give up on it. Your healing doesn’t want you to give up on it. Your soul doesn’t want you to give up on it. Your passions & dreams don’t want you to give up on them. Your true love doesn’t want you to give up on him/her.

All that is worthwhile takes time.

That’s why it’s worthwhile. That’s why it’s rare.

Because while 99.99% of people give up, you choose to keep going.

You have to be mindful of when your mind plays tricks on you because of your fear of rejection.

It makes you think that you don’t want that thing anymore and give up. When in fact, it’s your mind trying to protect itself from potentially getting rejected.

Getting rejected is actually you rejecting yourself.

If you can spot this and refrain yourself from “sabotaging the process”, then you can almost win anything in life.

Because winning in life is simply that - stopping yourself from sabotaging success, growth, a relationship.

Because if you don’t self-sabotage, you can pretty much be guaranteed to get to the end.

What did I not give up on?

✅ Wanted to go to school in Australia since I was 12. Successfully moved for university when I was 18.

✅ Wanted to have my own business since I was 15. Successfully started one when I was 27.

✅ Dreamed of traveling the world since I was 10. Wanted to have the freedom to move freely. Have been living the digital nomad life since 2015 (age of 27). 😊

✅ Wanted to have the freedom with my time AND money since as long as I can remember. My mom was strict and very tight with money. I had to do things her way in order to get pocket money. It was suffocating.

I was determined that one day I would be so successful that I don’t have to bend over backwards to ask anyone for money or for freedom to do whatever I want whenever I want however I want. Only I can set the rules for my own life.

Now I have both. Sort of. 🙂  I can work whenever I want wherever I want (though I tend to work all the time lol). I can eat out whenever I want and not have to worry.

✅ Dreamed of becoming a successful writer/author whose books inspire millions of people. I had so much joy writing essays at school. I used to write a novel and passed around to everyone in class to read. Well, I’m half way there. 🙏🏻

✅ I really wanted to be skinny, fit, and firm.

I was a fat kid so I dreamed of being fit. Managed to lose 15kg, but always had issues with weight control. Now in 2020 in quarantine, probably the fittest I’ve ever been. 😆 I’ve not weighed myself in so long and have stabilized my body shape physically and mentally (aka I stopped being obsessed with scale). Yay! 🙂

✅ When I was a kid, I wanted to be able to speak English fluently. Now English feels like a mother tongue to me. 😊

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What about you? What did you achieve that are the results of not giving up?

Write down a list of accomplishments that happened because you did not give up on them, adding the date when it was just a dream and the date when it became a reality:

Download this printable

Damn, some of these took 10-20 years, didn’t they?

Although they might look like an overnight success to others.

Every time you feel like giving up, remind yourself that you have experienced this feeling of wanting to give up so many times in this life before.

Yet, you are still here. Do not give up.