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uhhh I don't have an excuse for this. I wanted to draw a JRWI OC and landed on Le Frog's sidekick: Le Tadpole
#jrwi#jrwi fanart#jrwi art#just roll with it#prime defenders#jrwi pd#le frog#oc#my ocs#my art#her design subject to change lol
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OC lineup! All the characters that currently exist in this "story"
#oeyĂ€ ayskxawngtsyĂŹp#some small details may be subject to change#others might also be added to the âstoryâ later#for example a while ago I was thinking maybe Rolukx and Se'txelu also have a sister because why not#tentatively named her Mingal and she'd be a teenager in the default timeline#(for reference at that time Se'txelu and Neynari are in their early 20s and Rolukx in his late 20s)#but she doesn't have a particular design yet and I haven't decided on many details#me being me i will also prooooobably give Neynari and Se'txelu some kids of their own at some point but again so specific ideas just yet#maybe even give rolukx a love interest#for personal reasons i can't decide whether it would be more cathartic to give him one or to not give him one#idk we'll see#also btw since this is chibi style don't take it as a 100% accurate height comparison lol#fwiw on that front I think Seylana and Neynari are a bit shorter than average#Rolukx is slightly taller than average#and everyone else is pretty solidly Averageâą ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ#also for those who didn't catch it in my previous post about these guys: Awlun is Lunaya's aunt (Awlun's brother is Lunaya's father)#hence the shared surname#also Seylana is not naturally blond; she started coloring her hair after Neynari was born to match her daughter#(there are canon Aranahe characters with hair like this such as Sa'nop and Nilngan)#(and yes I suspect it's artifical color because the tail tufts are still black. hence Seylana's tail tuft still being her natural color too#ANYWAYS#yeah#my art#neynari#se'txelu#rolukx#seylana#vontxu#awlun#lunaya
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Made a more thorough ref for my QSMP Phil because he deserves it
#rambles#you can tell who I draw the most of based off how many notes I put on their ref paper lol#my art#mcyt#qsmp#qsmp philza#philza#philza fanart#mcyt designs#qsmp fanart#as always the design is subject to change but I enjot what we have for now :)#also CANEZA SUPREMACY HE DOES OF COURSE HAVE HIS CANE#also Cape design is inspired by a design Jackie_Mae has done for him because her Philza is cool as hell#the beads are Chayanne and Tallulah coloured for my designs of them :D#caneza#and there is a small reference to theellipelli 's Syndicape concept for his cape interior I thought it was fun :)#ugh today was not a good art day but I guess that's just how it goes
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@yourpalsalamander :3
#these are neveâs younger twin siblings!#I created a design for them and was like. wait.#theyâre six btw#ula is a theatre kid who likes making people laugh and acts before thinking#mak is there to rein her in#and sheâs there to help him meet some new people instead of always doing puzzles or whatever#designs subject to change but I just wanted to get them out there lol#thesafireart#mak the echidna#ula the echidna#sonic the hedgehog#team fission au#crossover tag#<- sort of
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Autobot Lineup for a Transformers comic i want to do at some point
from left to right (first image) we have Elita 1, Hotrod, Mirage, Sunstreaker, Nautica, Moonracer, and Flareup
I'll digitize my decepticons next time i get sick lol
#my art#transformers#maccadam#character design#doodles#hotrod#mirage#nautica#sunstreaker#moonracer#flareup#elita one#elita 1#all designs are subject to change but these are basically finalized#this is like the 7th iteration of moonracer alone lol#but shes my main character so i wanted her to be perfect :)#any critiques are Greatly appreciated as i only have one brain to think and it doesnt give the best ideas 100% of the time#also lets say not every character makes the cut and not everyone will be seen on page 1 lol#i really wanna make this comic one day!!! thats why all the designs are so simple are redrawable lol
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that one swap gloomwood au i mentioned
#my art#gloomwood#gloomdoc#the countess gloomwood#<- a little#blood tw#i was going to draw her more but this ended up taking me a while and it's 5 am now so. LOL!#diverted just a little bit subject to change n all that#not that happy w/ it so i might need to doodle some alt designs#it's like. i want to make it clear that he's a mad scientist type character. but i'm unsure on how to keep him as proper as the countess#i wanted to use his freaky blue eyed nature to my advantage but it might be better if he keeps his entire face covered...
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OCtober day 2 - new OC
the newest oc I've made is this girlie - Tia Matsumoto!! she's a RWBY OC because me and my roommates have been watching it together and imo it's really really cool and interesting, and we have base concepts for our own team OCs - team FNTY (fantasy)! each of the members is based on classic RPG classes, Tia herself being based on the thief class :D she's a reptilian (bearded dragon) faunus and she very much tries to be a lone wolf most of the time (unsuccessfully)
#risk.png#bweirdOCtober#rwby#ocs#faunus#this is the first time I've drawn her at all!! mostly cus I'm waiting till we finish the series to get down a solid vibe (we're on vol 5 rn#so design is subject to change (also why I didn't color her lol)
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Soooo, the month is looking a little more busy than I originally planned for, but! Art will happen, just might take a bit again :/
Anyways, was able to sketch out a quick rough idea for Grims face-wise today?
Still trying to figure out how exactly I wanna do everyone's hair and all, (trying to roughly translate helm shape and all that), but for Grimlock here, I'm thinking maybe some kinda messily grown-out short mullet thing??? Like, used to be a real rockin' killer look and such when she was younger, but over time, she doesn't really care about it anymore, that, or the scavs are shit at giving haircuts lol
#trying to get enough. idk. uh. wear and tear ig in her design. like. she's been thru it ya know? before the present time with the scavs#living with the scavs isn't much of a ''normal'' retirement from whatever it was she was doing before the aphasia in this au tho lol#oh. also. if the saturation appears a bit wack. it is. but i never got around to fixing it. so. eh#grimlock#my art#all the designs are subject to change ig. bcs im genuinely 1 indecisive as hell when it comes to singular designs and 2 bad at consistency#soooo. its all vibes here lol. still experimenting around with my style too. which probs doesn't help. but eh. tis part of the process#snack time now tho! 2am snack time :D! whoo yay yippee
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i'm going. so fast
#art#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art#oc#pink space#(is actually So So slow hfcshb)#!! gotta do Aura's next !!#only thing is i haven't changed much of her design so. maybe i'll do that then lol :>#//also the colour of the bow is subject to change lol#i was just so tired of colouring i just went with my second attempt hfvshf#//ALSO i have figure out how people do that thing with the shading !!!!! i feel like my brain has expanded Exponentially#let's see if i continue to use it or it just falls into the recesses of my mind-bog Hfvhsvfjh :D#//also i made a font today. let me just finish this up here#//edit: also do NOT ask about how the arrows work. they are meant to look ~+~neat~+~ thank you uvu
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itâs honestly kinda crazy to me that kel & co were literally the first OCs i ever made
#my test subjects if you will#& yet i am still obsessed w them after all these years#idk i just think itâs kinda special bc itâs like we grew up together almost?#the first iteration of kel & co were honestly very wacky. like the deviant art era of my oc making if you know what i mean#but theyâve changed & grown a lot over the years & thatâs kinda fun!! theyâre very dear to me tbh#sometimes i read through old notes for them & iâm just like. man what was i thinking#i could honestly write an entire essay on all of the scrapped lore for these guys. the kel & co multiverse is Very extensive lol#the original three the story was about were bow kel & a lil ghost i named tragedy (i was 12 lol)#her real name is isobel. sheâs not in canon anymore but she IS in monster boyz. i put a lot of the old characters in mbz.#dhes wasnât in the original story at first either. he was a character i made for an rp lmao#but once that ended i decided i loved him so much & had to put him in my main project#he has changed the most from his original design tbh. personality wise i mean#he went from very minor side character to the literal focus of the story#heâs essentially the main narrator. even more so than kel#idk. i was just randomly thinking about them & how long itâs been.#gives me feelings when i think about it all lol#i did not sleep last night at all btw#rainyrambles
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Sometimes u gotta go back to your roots (wip of my oldest ocs, Kaia and Tanitha âșïž)
#they r alien princesses!!! and theyâre in love!!!#not at first but eventually#kaiaâs design subject to change tho bc this is the first time Iâve drawn her in like⊠9 years lol#wip#Kaia#Tanitha#journey to eternity
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astarion... the man that you are.....
#⯠ê°á starry thoughts à»ê± *·Ë#morning ^_^ !!! on a roadtrip rn w family so i am well <3 even if it is just turning 8 am <33#i am a morning person as much as i am a night owl actually ... before the pandemic i used to wake early even w/o an alarm on non school days#and i wake early less nowadays but i love when i get up early and i wish i could do so more but i hate sleeping too early lol#ANYWAY HI i hope you all are well. unfortunately now that i'm online again you all will be subjected to my random rambles.#not as bad on my priv twt where i talk about philosophical topics and the like an overwhelmingly amount but aha that is Fine !!!!!#i want to change my theme. i love you themis. but. aghghhhh to what... to what...#i wna practice graphic designing a bit bcs i suck (<- amazed at the abilities of my peers and out of practice at all)#errr i want to reference. mĂ€neskin maybe (in the time i have been gone i have gotten obsessed w a new band <3 how very apollo of me. anyway)#'all is fair in love' ... ? 'valentine my decline is so much better with you' ..... ?#idk man. and what color scheme! and who!!!#vincent valentine is a choice esp bcs of ffviir. aerith is wnother just because i adore her so much. uhhh#zenos... because we are insane..... and thten i forgot every other single character. oops!#i am a nerd so i want something space themed this time actually. insert a bit of physics (physics nerd ^_^)#have i bragged (/lh) about how i'm the only person i know in my batch at my school who got perfect in the first physics exam#and that all my classmates and friends like gojng to me and call me 'sister (irl)' bcs i am in a catholic school#:3 i love physics ... man. makes me remember how much i love math And science. even if i do hate molecular bio sorry some of it is interesti#but GOD i hate learning about dna in school. just dna. everything else is literally okay i literally have on the origin of species i got it#for my bday i asked my friends to buy me it bcs they offered. fucking insane#yeah so (<- haha nerd) anyway i also grew up w bill nye my fav guy and sid the science kid and god little einstein was my favorite show#despite me probably watching a total of 5 episodes compared to others. oh my god.#and the way i would get . if i got anymore than 3 mistakes in a math exam my whole life i would have to hold back tears LMFAOOO oh god.#smh i swear if history class wasn't in filipino for my whole life before highschool i would have goddamn excelled#i still did but ... !!! only filipino subjects brought me down. tho i do love learning abt my language even if it also pisses me off ^_^#right where was i haha RIGHT ..... okay. ok. uhh i want an ff character ............ actually ff8 would be slay#or urianger. space fits too. astrologist man. and then i forgot everyone else. oops!#aha............ crystal exarch. but specifically the crystal exarch. or i'll just do mr squall leonhart or vincent valentine#space!!! my beloved... you can wait another time... i wish to reference the hit song valentine by mĂ€neskin
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PRICE OF FAME | MYG â
02

â§Â PAIRING: yoongi x fem!reader

â§Â SERIES SUMMARY: You were about ready to give up, your career nowhere near what you dreamed itâd be when you started at eighteen, bright-eyed and naive. Reality for you these past few years has consisted of pouting at a camera, ignoring whispers of your name at company events, and ensuring that the stupid, tiny designer purses they keep forcing on you can at least carry a flask. But now, youâre helping a friend in need. For the first time in a long time, it feels like youâre doing something worthwhile with your life. Too bad Min Yoongi, the newest thorn in your side, seems insistent on stopping you.

â§Â SERIES TAGS: enemies to lovers, slow burn, angst, smut, fake/pretend relationship (not main couple), rockstar!yoongi, model!reader, guitarist yoongi, singer jungkook, bassist taehyung, drummer jimin, manager namjoon, yoongi & maknae line are in a rock band, reader & seokjin are best friends, yoongi & hoseok are best friends (sope duo ftw), yoongi has a tongue piercing, reader is a brat

â§Â CHAPTER WARNINGS: aqua uses her journalism degree to write a fake article, lots of yoongi pov, MC lore drop, extremely brief descriptions of sexual acts, some questions are answered but not many, sope cameo! also seokjin cameo! do you detect a hint of hyyh yoonkook-ism? because you should! EVENTS TRANSPIRE! (see series masterlist for series warnings)

â§Â CHAPTER WORDCOUNT: 5.2k words

â§Â AUTHORâS NOTE: damn i always drop early don't i? here's a pre-holiday gift for those of you who celebrate thanksgiving. thank you to tanni @yooniivrse for beta reading SO FUCKING FAST LOL <3
p.s. from here on out updates are going to be much slower. weâre getting to the Real Plot now and i have to use my brain a little bit more. plus i want to make time to write other, shorter things! so be sure to check out my other fics if waiting for this becomes unbearable lol

CH. 02: A HIT IS HARD TO RESIST
Love in the Spotlight: Is "Burn The Stage" Singer Falling for a Scandal Magnet?
Itâs the love story thatâs rocking Seoulâand leaving fans divided. Jeon Jeongguk, the smooth-talking, chart-topping frontman of âBurn The Stage,â has been the subject of intense speculation after rumors surfaced that heâs been secretly seeing one of South Koreaâs most talked about models, YLN YN. And while Jeonggukâs millions of fans would do anything to claim him as their own, itâs YNâs wild reputation thatâs making this relationship one to watch.
The dating rumors of the two surfaced online when YN was seen on the balcony at Wasteland during the final show of the Burn The Stageâs world tour. Eyewitnesses claim that after the show, the two were spotted backstage together, sharing a private moment.
While Jeonggukâs image has been polished and pristine despite his rock star persona, YNâs name is frequently linked with controversy. From a string of public feuds with fellow influencers to rumors of reckless behavior, she has garnered a reputation for attracting scandal wherever she goesâa trait at odds with what fans have seen from Jeongguk. So what could possibly draw the two together?
Some fans are already sounding the alarm, warning Jeongguk that dating someone like YN could tarnish his squeaky-clean image.
âI donât know why Jeongguk would choose her,â one concerned fan commented on Instagram. âSheâs trouble, and heâs too good for her. His image will be ruined if this is true.â
Despite the criticism, others are rallying behind the couple, suggesting that Jeongguk may be the one to help YN change her ways. âEveryone has a past,â one fan posted on X (formerly known as Twitter). âMaybe Jeongguk sees something in her that no one else does. People can grow and evolve.â
While neither Jeongguk or YNâs companies have released an official statement on the matter, YN hasnât been shy about fueling the rumors. In a recent post on her Instagram, she shared a photo of herself wearing a Burn The Stage hoodie, captioning it, âi guess iâve got good taste đâ which has sent fans into overdrive speculating that sheâs sending a not-so-subtle message about her relationship with Jeongguk.
âYouâve gotta be fucking kidding me,â Yoongi groans to himself. He canât read any more of this drivel. The wooden table in front of him suddenly looks all too inviting, perfect for him to bash his skull into.
Youâre everywhere, completely inescapable for the past week. Apparently, Yoongiâs bi-weekly breakfast with Hoseok is no exception. The first one theyâve been able to have since the tour, too. God forbid he wants to mindlessly scroll on his phone for a second while he waits for his friend to return, because there you are, taunting him.Â
After the concert, Yoongi had been so annoyed by seeing you again. Pissed off at the circumstances. Ready to do anything in his power to extricate you from Jeongguk as fast as possible.
The past week has dulled his rage considerably. The endorphins of playing live have died, as have the potent emotions that come with them. Yoongiâs logical adult brain has set in, leaving him with only a headache.
âWoah,â Hoseok says, snorting as he slides a coffee into Yoongiâs field of vision. He slips into the booth across from him, taking a sip from his own cup with an amused look on his face. âYou look much more homicidal than I left you. What couldâve possibly pissed you off in the last five minutes?â
Wordlessly, Yoongi hands Hoseok his phone, the article still displayed on the screen. Hoseok silently reads the first few paragraphs, and when he scrolls back up to look at the photo attached, his eyebrows shoot up in surprise.
âOh?â he says, zooming in on your face. On Yoongiâs phone. The audacity. âThis is the Innisfree girl, right? Sheâs dating Jeongguk?â
âAllegedly.â
âIs her skin really that nice in person?â
âNot the point,â Yoongi hisses, snatching his phone back from Hoseokâs grip and hastily closing the article to get your dumb face off of his phone. Dumb, poreless face.
âOkay, touchy,â Hoseok says, raising his hands in surrender. âPlease explain the point.â
âI donât trust her,â Yoongi says, tapping his foot under the table. âThe relationship is bogus. Sheâs after something, I just canât figure out what it is.â
âAnd youâre basing this onâŠ?â
âIntuition,â Yoongi says flatly.
âRight. Because your intuition is never wrong,â Hoseok says, tone laden with sarcasm. âNeed I remind you that you werenât the biggest fan of me when we met?â
âI thought you were annoying,â Yoongi agrees. He takes a sip of his coffee to mask a smirk. âWho says I was wrong about that?â
âIâd probably be hurt if you hadnât essentially bought us couple rings last year,â Hoseok says, waggling his eyebrows. âYou want to fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid.â
âAish, they werenât couple rings,â Yoongi complains. âStop saying that. The wrong person is going to hear you and think itâs true.â
âYour ears are pink!â Hoseok exclaims triumphantly, pointing at the evidence. âYour mouth says one thing, but your ears always give you away.â
âIâm going to kill you,â Yoongi grumbles, pulling his beanie down. âStop changing the subject.â
âRight, right. Sorry, hyung, youâre just so easy to tease,â Hoseok says, not even bothering to stifle his snickering. The bastard. âJeonggukieâs new lady love. Go. Wait, do you want to fuck her?â
âWhat?â Yoongi sputters, eyes widening because what the fuck? âNoâwhat? Look, itâs not just intuition, okay? Iâm right about her. And you saw what the article saidâdrama follows her wherever she goes. Maybe she thinks dating Jeongguk will rehabilitate her image, or something like that.â
Yoongi had been so confident that wasnât the case, since youâve maintained all of your brand deals even in the midst of your many scandals, but maybe he was wrong. He still doesnât know why youâre doing this, and itâs like the closer he gets, the less he can see.
âI donât know,â Yoongi groans, rubbing his hands over his face. âSheâs also just a bitch.â
âOkay,â Hoseok concedes, crossing his arms. âIf you say so. Sheâs a bitch who you donât want to fuck. What are you going to do about it?â
Yoongi shrugs. âI have that dinner tomorrow night. I was thinking of talking to Jeongguk after or something.â
âAnd telling him that his girlfriend is the devil? Iâm sure thatâll go over well.â
âIâll figure it out,â Yoongi sighs, rubbing a hand over his face. âJeongguk is a stubborn kid, but he knows I wouldnât ruin something good for him. If I word it right, maybe heâll listen.â
âYouâre not wrong. For whatever reason, Jeongguk trusts your judgement.â
Yoongi glares at him. âGo fuck yourself, Hob-ah.â
âWhatever, hyung,â Hoseok says, rolling his eyes. âLetâs talk about something else, please. I havenât seen you in months.â
Yoongi relents easily. He doesnât really want to be talking about you either, not when it feels like an ice pick is being jammed into his temple.Â
Heâll just have to figure out what to say to Jeongguk later.
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âWow,â Seokjin says around a mouthful of jjapaguri. âHe really hates you, huh?â
Heâs fresh out of a long shift at the hospital, but he still headed straight to your apartment at the promise of food and celebrity gossipâhis two biggest weaknesses, especially when the food doesnât have to be made by him and the celebrity is you.
âSeems like it,â you sigh, using your chopsticks to push your noodles around aimlessly. âNormally I wouldnât care, you know? Like, get in line, asshole.â
âBut you care.â
âBut I care.â
âBecause of Jeongguk,â Seokjin says knowingly.
You drop your chopsticks and groan, stifling the sound by covering your face with your hands.
âYes,â you concede. âBut not because of that. I just want to help him, you know? He got me through a really rough spot last year. Iâd feel like shit if I agreed to do this for him and then it ended up blowing up in our faces because of me.â
âMmm,â Seokjin hums, chewing thoughtfully. âIâm sure the fact that youâre in love with him is a big motivator, though.â
You pick up your head, glaring at him. âLove is a big word, Jin.â
A very big word, you think, picking up your glass of wine to take a long gulp. God help you.
âA fitting one, too!â he says gleefully. âCome oooon. No judgement here. Heâs hot. Not as hot as me, of course, but I have to give credit where credit is due.â
âYes, youâre a god among men,â you mumble, rolling your eyes. âI donât love Jeongguk. Not like that, at least. Do I need to remind you of the whole reason Iâm doing this in the first place?â
âYeah, yeah, the secret girlfriend,â Seokjin says, waving a hand dismissively. âWhatever. Youâre spending a lot of time with him, is all Iâm saying. The tides may turn in your favor.â
Wow, and you thought you were delusional.
âFat chance,â you deadpan, polishing off your wine. âEspecially if Yoongi is as persistent as heâs making himself out to be.â
âWhatâs his beef with you, anyway?â Seokjin asks, snorting to himself as he picks up a piece of steak with his chopsticks. Hilarious. âI feel like heâs going a little far for it to just be protectiveness, you know?â
Right. When youâd given Seokjin the rundown via text, youâd left one pretty substantial piece of information out.
âHe said, um,â you start, picking at one of your nails nervouslyâa habit that Hyerin would smack you on the back of the head for, if she were here. âHe said that he knows⊠more than I think.â
Just like that, all of the humor drains from Seokjinâs expression. âMeaningâŠ?â
âI donât know,â you say, your voice wobbling just a bit. âI donât know, but if it does mean that⊠It makes the idea of rolling over and doing what he says pretty enticing, not gonna lie.â
âFuck that,â Seokjin says firmly, your eyes widening in response. âIf heâs the type of guy to use something like that as blackmail, then heâs a piece of shit. I donât care if he is trying to protect Jeongguk.â
âHe canât know, though,â you groan, fully resting your head on the cool marble of your kitchen countertop now.Â
Youâve been wracking your brain for days now, trying to figure out if itâs even possible for Yoongi to know anything. Youâre pretty confident the answer is no, but thereâs no way to be one-hundred percent sure without confirmation from the man himself. And youâd honestly rather die.
âNobody knows except the people involved and you. Youâre the only one who didnât sign an NDA, and Iâm pretty confident youâve never met Min Yoongi. Not to mention you just wouldnâtââ
âShare that information? Hell no, I wouldnât,â Seokjin interrupts, scoffing. âOkay, well⊠Regardless of whether he knows anything, he honestly just sounds like a dick and I think you should kill him.â
You snort, lifting your eyes to look at him from where your head rests on the counter. âMaybe that can be plan B,â you offer.
âFine, then whatâs the plan A?â Seokjin counters, crossing his arms and raising a conspiratorial eyebrow at you.
Fantastic question, one youâve been thinking about the answer to since you abruptly left the afterparty that night. Itâs not like you can tell Jeongguk whatâs going on and risk having to tell him the whole truth. You trust Jeongguk, butâŠ
No, itâs not an option. You donât want anyone else to know. So, if Yoongiâs going to insist on being a problem for you, you might as well return the favor. Itâs only fair.
You grin, lifting your head and leaning closer to Seokjin.
âIâm going to make his life a living hell.â
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Yoongi hasnât touched a cigarette since he was twenty one years old.
He picked up the nasty habit at sixteen, when one of his friends doled out African Ice Jacks amongst the group, bragging that his hyung had bought the pack for him. As soon as the lighter was flicked on and the bittersweet taste of bubblegum and tobacco filled Yoongiâs lungs, he was hooked.
It was stupidly easy to get his hands on cigarettes before he was of legal age, even when his friendâs hyung couldnât supply them for whatever reason. All of the adults around him smoked, including his parents.Â
It felt as though cigarettes were an extension of his hand, felt wrong when he didnât have the option to light one up. During school hours, Yoongiâs fingers would twitch on his desk as he waited for his last class to end.
He was a fucking anxious, wound-up kid. Smoking was the only thing that helped, sometimes. If he had a shit day, at least he could have a cigarette.
When the band got signed, though, things changed. Despite the fact that the majority of the population in Korea smoked, celebrities were vilified for it in the media. For whatever fucking reason. Yoongi didnât care much what the media had to say about him, but he reasoned that it would be pretty stupid to let his dream die over Ice Jacks. So he quit.
It was hard at first, but itâs been five years now. After so much time, itâs rare that cigarettes even cross his mind, even when others smoke around him.
Sitting across the table from you now, though, Yoongiâs fingers twitch just like they had when he was in grade school staring at a clock.
He and the band started frequenting Yoojung Sikdang long before there was any real hope for fame. It was their chosen spot after every practice. The ajumma who owns it knows their names, remembers their orders by heart. Over the years, the only part of the restaurant thatâs changed is their autographed photos on the wall. Theyâve celebrated every single milestone here, big or small, just the five of them. Alone.
Wrapping up their first world tour should be no different. Itâs their biggest milestone yet, and all Yoongi wanted was to eat ssambap with his best friends. Remind himself that none of the fame matters as long as they still have this.
But here you are. Of course. Encroaching on everything Yoongiâs built, everything he holds dear to his heart.
The only time itâs ever been more than the five of them here was the night they signed their contract, accompanied by two label executives. Even if youâre allegedly riding Jeonggukâs dick, no way are you that fucking important.
Yoongi would laugh if he wasnât so pissed off. You are such a fucking pest. He just canât shake you off.
âYou donât like what you ordered?â Jimin asks you, snapping Yoongi out of his thoughts.
Yoongiâs made an effort to keep to himself for the majority of the dinner. No use in ruining everyone elseâs nightâitâs still a special one, after all. Besides, heâs still trying to be an adult about things. You may have ruined his plan to talk to Jeongguk tonight, but itâs not like heâs going to cause a scene in front of a restaurant full of peopleâ
âOh, Iâm just not very hungry,â you say. Yoongiâs eyes narrow.
All youâve been doing all night is burrowing into Jeonggukâs side, barely touching your food. Lipgloss still perfectly in place. Normally, Yoongi wouldnât careâheâs not paying for it. He wastes food on the labelâs dime all the time. At Yoojung Sikdang, though?
âWhy did you come, then?âÂ
The words come out of Yoongiâs mouth before he can stop them, sharp and pointed. Heâd fully intended to keep his mouth shut, eat his food, and then go home. Maybe buy a pack on the way. But now theyâre out there, and Yoongi canât bring himself to care. Certainly not to feel bad.
For the first time since youâd walked in on Jeonggukâs arm, you make eye contact with him. On purpose this timeâchallenging. Yoongiâs not a little bitch, so he stares back.Â
âBecause Jeonggukie invited me,â you say, faux sweetness dripping from your words as you lean your head on Jeonggukâs shoulder. Eyes still fixed on Yoongi. âI figured it would be okay, since you all gave me such a warm welcome last time.â
Yeah. Yoongiâs buying that pack of cigarettes.Â
âYouâre always welcome to come out with us,â Taehyung coos, like he thinks youâre the cutest thing in the world. Knowing Taehyung, he probably does.
Everyone seems to be in agreement on that front, too, except Yoongi who rolls his eyes as he shoves a ssam into his mouth. Whatever.
âItâs gonna be hell getting you out of here, though,â Namjoon adds from Yoongiâs left. He leans over to glance at the crowd of people peering through the front of the restaurant, cameras at the ready, desperate to get a glimpse of you and Jeongguk. Not that youâre making it particularly hard.
âWeâve never had a crowd like that out there,â Jimin says, in awe. âIâm not surprised, though. Those articles about you two have been getting tons of clicks.â
âAh,â you say. If Yoongi didnât know better, heâd think you sound almost sheepish. âThat, um. That might be my fault. I told my manager I was coming here. She mustâve tipped someone off.â
Of course.
âAnything for a photo-op, right?â Yoongi sneers, unable to help himself. Itâs such an easy shot, after all. Youâre being so transparent.
âHyung,â Taehyung says, eyes wide as if heâs appalled.Â
âIâm sorry, Yoongi-ssi,â you say, tilting your head at him. That little flash of a challenge is still in your eyes, and Yoongi doesnât like it one bit. âDo you have a problem with me being here?â
Yoongi scoffs, sitting up. When he speaks, itâs laced with bitterness. âWe just donât normally come here with guests, thatâs all. I guess I didnât get the memo that thatâd suddenly changed.â
âI invited her, hyung,â Jeongguk says. âSheâs my girlfriend.â He wraps his arm around you protectively and, fuck, youâre good. Youâre so good at making Yoongi look like the asshole.
âI get that, Guk-ah,â Yoongi tries, his voice considerably softer now. âBut, come on⊠Here? And the mob outside, I mean⊠Do you really think that was just a harmless mistake?â
âWhat are you implying?â Jeongguk grits out. Heâs angry now, that much is clear, and itâs Yoongiâs fault.Â
You have him trapped. Heâs surrounded by landmines, unable to come up with a single response that could possibly defuse them.
âCome on, guys,â Namjoon says, glancing at Yoongi pointedly. âWeâre here to celebrate.â
âIf Yoongi-ssi is uncomfortable that Iâm here, maybe I should go,â you say, making to get up.
Jeongguk reaches for your arm, stopping you. âNo,â he says. âYoongi-hyung, you can either get over it and stay with us, or you can leave. Youâre the only one who doesnât want her here.â
Un-fucking-believable.
âAre you serious?â Yoongi scoffs, looking around at everyone. Is this really happening to him right now? This is his band!
The table is deadly silent. Everyone refuses to meet Yoongiâs eyes except you and Jeongguk, who raises a challenging eyebrow at him. Itâs immediately apparent to Yoongi that heâs not winning this one. That somehow, heâs ruined the night meant to celebrate him and his friends.
Bitterly, Yoongi laughs. âFine.â
No one protests when he pushes his chair away from the table and stands up, and that stings much more than Yoongi would like to admit.
He catches your eye as he grabs his jacket off the back of his chair, anger flaring at how pleased you look.Â
âHave a nice fucking dinner,â Yoongi mutters, before turning on his heel and walking towards the door. Leaving his friends to face a crowd of photographers and fans that you called.
As he walks out into the cold, dodging the phones being shoved in his face, all he can think about is the way Jeongguk had looked at him.
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You met Jeon Jeongguk a year ago, give or take a few months. You just remember it was cold.
Less than twenty-four hours after a particularly nasty breakup with a guy you didnât love but liked enough, you were back on the clock. Zipped into something tight and expensive, wearing the best waterproof mascara money could buy.
You hated those events to begin withâthe galas, end of year ceremonies for awards you were no longer viable to win. They were torture for you. But the sting of being freshly single only made things worse, so you had decided to make the most of it.
You may not have been able to win a KMA, but you were well within your rights to treat the KMAs themselves like your own personal dating pool. No better way to rid yourself of your ex like getting with someone new, you thought.
Which is where Jeongguk came in, devastatingly hot in his tailored suit. Youâd ran into him on your way from the bathroomâmuch like you had with Yoongi, now that you think about itâand you instantly found yourself wondering what it would be like to kiss a guy with a lip ring. Jeongguk, as it turned out, was very interested in showing you.Â
You were both a little drunk, but the attraction was real. Instant.Â
One very handsy cab ride later, and you were in his apartment, grinding on his lap as you experienced first-hand just how little of an obstacle a lip ring can be if the man who has it knows what heâs doing.
Things were going so wellâJeonggukâs tongue exploring your mouth as you felt his cock stiffening beneath you. But it all came crashing down as soon as his hand slid under your dress.
The fact of the matter was, youâd just been dumped. Regardless of how strongly you did or didnât feel about your ex, youâd still been dumped and it still hurt. As soon as Jeongguk really touched you, it became all too apparent that you wouldnât be able to go through with it. Luckily, at the slightest bit of hesitance from you, Jeonggukâs hand immediately retreated from under your dress.Â
He was sweet about it. Really, really sweet. Valiantly ignored his erection and offered to listen instead, which made you laugh. Comforted you even though you hadnât thought you needed it. Let you sleep in his bed anyway. When you left the next morning, kindly offered to be your friend, because you clearly needed one.
Youâve been friends ever since.Â
Not in the same way that Seokjin is your friend, of course. Seokjin is your best friend, has been since you were both kids. But Jeongguk just⊠He gets the industry, in a way that Seokjin never will.
Which brings you to last month.
Last month, when Jeongguk called you nervously in the middle of his tour schedule. Asked you to be his fake girlfriend in guilty, hushed whispers.
You didnât need to know why. You were always going to say yes.Â
But Jeongguk explained anyway. He explained that he has a girlfriend, a real girlfriend, who isnât from your world. That he hasnât been able to see her nearly as much as heâd like to because heâs terrified of the backlash she could receive from being connected to him romantically.
You read between the linesâyou have nothing to lose, at this point. There isnât a day that goes by where someone online doesnât have something to say about you, reputable or not.
He explained that in order to maintain the lie, no one in the industry could know the truth, not even Jeonggukâs bandmates. According to him, they wouldnât understand why he felt the need to go to such lengths. You didnât completely agree then, but having met Yoongi now, you get it.
His girlfriend knows about you, heâd told you. She knows who you are, knows about that night last year, and that she still agreed to let him ask you this. She doesnât see you as a threat.
It stung, a little. Of course it did. You and Jeongguk may be friends, but youâve always felt a hint of something else there. Maybe it was the kindness heâd shown you when you met. Maybe itâs just him. But you never said anything, convinced it was one-sided.
Clearly you were right.
Still, you want to do this for him. You care about him, and just because you canât maintain a stable relationship doesnât mean Jeongguk doesnât deserve a chance at one.
You think, if Yoongi knew, heâd feel the same.
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Five years down the drain, Yoongi thinks. Ashes his cigarette. Oh well.
Honestly, itâs not even really about you, although Yoongi would love to pretend otherwise. If he pins it all on you, it makes his mission to get rid of you all the more noble. The label breathing down his neck. The impending deadline of an album he doesnât know if he can write. Dongsaengs that donât know how to stay out of trouble. If itâs all your fault, it canât be his.
Thisâthe smokingâwas bound to happen, with or without you. You just helped the process along.
Heâs perched on his windowsill, puffing his way through cigarette number two, when his phone buzzes next to him.
Namjoon doesnât call him nearly ever. Yoongi has a way that he likes things done, and Namjoon is probably his only friend that actually respects it. Emails for work. In-person or texts for personal shit. Video calls never. Phone calls only if Yoongi needs to hear it now and thereâs no other way.
Yoongi picks up.
âJoon-ah?â Cautious. He likes phone calls the least because phone calls mean trouble, like someone is in the hospital. Heâs gotten that call before, more than once.
âHyung,â Namjoon says. âDo you have a minute?â
Namjoon wouldnât be asking that if someone was in the hospital, so Yoongi allows himself to unclench. Just a little. âYeah, I have a minute.â
He hears rustling on the line, like Namjoon is fidgeting. But Namjoon is always fidgeting, so that could mean nothing.
âI figured, given the events of tonight, that it would be a good call to warn you ahead of time. I wouldâve come by your apartment, but Iâve got meetings all morning tomorrow and itâs late. I didnât want to wait until next time I see you though, soâŠâ Namjoon starts, trailing off.Â
Yoongi works his jaw. âSpit it out, Joon-ah,â he says, because Namjoon is shit at delivering bad news. Heâs always beating around the bush, trying to soften the blow. Itâs great for the kids, but it makes Yoongi feel like heâs about to have to bury his first-born or some shit. Yoongi likes clear, direct.
Namjoon knows this, so he always gets it right on the second try.
âYN is going to the Jeju house with you guys,â Namjoon says. Clear and direct, but the absolute last thing Yoongi wants to hear right now.Â
âYouâre fucking with me.â
âIâm not.â
âShe has literally no fucking reason to be there, Joon-ah,â Yoongi grits out. The cigarette secured between his index and middle knuckles has burned down to nothing, singes his fingers. He hisses and flicks it out the window. âIs she going to help us write an album? Is that it?â
âHyungââ
âNo, she isnât. Sheâs going to distract my lead singer the whole time and make the whole point of the trip fucking impossible,â he interrupts, because once he gets started he canât stop. âWho signed off on this? Doesnât she have a job? Isnât there a goddamn camera that needs to be smoldered at?â
âYoongi-hyung,â Namjoon says. Heâs using his manager voice, and Yoongi shuts up instantly.Â
Namjoon uses this voice on the kids all the time. Realistically, itâs not a big deal. Itâs his job. But heâs never had to use it on Yoongi before.
He deserves it, though. Yoongi knows that. He knows that heâs been insufferable ever since you showed up, and he doesnât like it either. Heâd wanted to talk to Jeongguk, to have a heart-to-heart with him about it, but thatâs proven impossible given that youâre always around. And Namjoon is their voice of reason.
Yoongi tries again.
âI donât like her,â he explains, keeping his voice level. âI donât think she has Jeonggukâs best interests at heart. Iâm just trying to look out for him.â
The line stays quiet for a long moment, like Namjoon is taking special care in choosing his next words. It would make Yoongi nervous, but thatâs just what Namjoon does.
âHyung, you need to leave it alone,â he finally says.
What the fuck.
Yoongi could have foreseen plenty of responses from Namjoon. Heâs been on the receiving end of Namjoonâs sage advice more than heâs proud of. Yoongi worries a lot, and Namjoon is particularly good at quieting those worries, particularly when they pertain to the kids. And they usually do. But he sure as shit wasnât expecting to be blown off like that.
âJoon-ah, Jeongguk is gonnaââ
âJeongguk is a grown man. Heâs fully entitled to make his own decisions, and you need to respect that if you donât want to lose him.â
Lose him? Is Yoongi going insane? Is he fucking missing some integral piece of this puzzle that everyone else seems to have?
The notion of losing Jeongguk is completely absurd. How could he lose Jeongguk over something like this? Jeongguk, the college freshman with the huge eyes who followed Yoongi around like a puppy. Jeongguk who sang so softly when Yoongi asked, who beamed with pride when Yoongi told him he had something special. Jeongguk who dropped out alongside Yoongi, took a risk because he trusted his hyung to take care of him.
It was Yoongi and Jeongguk before it was anyone else, and Yoongi has never let Jeongguk down once, wonât allow himself to. This is the thing thatâs going to change that?Â
âWhat are you even talking about?â
âJust⊠leave this one alone, Yoongi,â Namjoon sighs. âSheâs coming whether you like it or not, and you need to at least pretend to play nice.â
Yoongi doesnât appreciate being treated like a child whoâs the cause of his parentâs headache, not by Kim Namjoon. The label dickheads are one thing, but the one person Yoongi has entrusted with everything for the past five years? Before that, even? Fuck that. Namjoon doesnât talk to him this way, and thatâs not about to change because of you.
âNamjoon-ah, if youâre going to blow me off, at least put my cock in your mouth and do it right,â Yoongi spits, hanging up before he can think better of his words.
Fuck.
Yoongi hasnât bitten Namjoonâs head off like that in a long time. It doesnât feel good to be back in old patterns like this. Yoongi knows why he doesnât trust you, but he doesnât know what it is about you that makes it soâurgent. Like heâs a wild animal primed to bite. To hurt. Yoongi isnât that guy.Â
If what Namjoon said is true, if Jeongguk really is at risk of slipping through Yoongiâs fingers, he has to get his fucking act together. He has to try harder to handle this like an adult.
So, youâre coming to Jeju. Fine. Yoongi can be civil.
Even if the only way for him to be civil is not to speak to you at all.

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What are your thoughts on ISAT's magic system?
AUTISM BLAST
okay long rambly post incoming. for the record like 90% of this is pure unfiltered headcanon. and almost all of this is about colors. sorry if this is hard to follow!!! i need to get this all out of my system.
oh also! a lot of this is based on a really good post by @/chronologically-challenged that shows off the differences between each characterâs craft style! go check that out itâs really good
okay!! so!!! colors. this is just my own thing, but i personally like to color code the different types of craft!

donât worry about those middle tones yet just put a pin in those
thereâs still a little bit of color variety within craft types (for flavor), but generally, rock is blue, paper is yellow, and scissors is red. iâm not going to lie to you i only did this because the splatoon testfire had these colors. itâs also why my triplets designs are colored like that!
i think these colors also just fit the descriptions of these crafts? red feels like a more aggressive and active color, which matches how piercing craft is generally more focused on dealing damage, blue tends to be calmer, which matches protective craft being more supportive , that kinda thing. something something childrenâs hospital. yellow is a bit of a wildcard here lol, it just looks nice with the other two.
putting aside the colors for a mo! donât worry thoseâll come back soon. iâve also been thinking a lot about how dual craft types work, though this is a little more speculative. iâm entirely basing this on how mira works. basically, one craft type seems to be more âdominantâ over the other. while mira is both paper and scissors, sheâs still weak to rock, her basic attack is scissors, and her scissors skill (jolly round rondo) does much more damage than her paper skill (artsy silent burst). she behaves more like a scissors type, with an extra affinity for paper. which i think is interesting!!!
in terms of colors, i think this would manifest as miraâs craft being tinted orange, as a mix of both her craft typeâs colors! this is partially what those uncategorized colors are for. while her scissors attacks are only slightly tinted, her paper attacks would be a lot closer to orange! and this would apply to other dual crafts as well. a rock/paper type would have more greenish attacks, a rock/scissors type would have more purply ones, etc etc.
i think this color mixing would also apply to single craft types trying to use a craft type that isnât their own, though itâd prolly become less pronounced the more a person âgets usedâ to using that craft type, so to speak. in a while rockodile would be pretty solidly purple, while rock bottom is more of an indigo color, and odileâs craft skills probably only slightly tinted as well.
ok!!! that was a lot about colors. iâm really fucking normal about colors. onto craft styles!! this is still kinda about colors tho sorry. also, again, go check out @/chronologically-challengedâs post if you havenât already, itâll prolly explain this better than i will

for a tl;dr on that post, each country has a different way of using craft. the forgotten island has lightless craft that tends to manifest as stars and zigzags, vaugarde has big, rounded bursts of grey craft (with smaller circles around it), and ka bueâs craft is more diamond shaped/triangular and tends to be on the lighter side.
this is also the part iâm a little less sure about. i havenât drawn these out in my normal style!! so a lot of this is subject to change. sorry about that!
anyways. i wanted to preserve the islandâs lightless craft while still making it colorful, so i decided to give it a sort of. halo effect? i guess? i wanted it to vaguely resemble the ring of light around a black hole or a solar eclipse, but that is a lot harder to do with the zigzag shape of the craft + my color limitations. and as iâve recently learned, glow effects look really weird with my pixelly art. so this is all just flat colors đ

shhh donât mind the art here iâve totally posted it before đ©¶
vaugarde is pretty simple comparatively!! the craft is a sort of midshade ingame, so i just made the main color the normal craft colors. not much to say here!

and ka bue is in a similar boat! i did kinda draw it in my odile sprite redraw, but i didnât really look at references so itâs kinda boring looking there. not much to say here either!!


and!! as we can see from the kingâs special attack art, craft styles can kinda mix together. kingâs style follows the general shape of vaugardian craft, but keeps the shade and stars from the forgotten island! i think itâd be fun to play with that a little more teehee. i imagine these are a lot more variable depending on how engrossed someone is in a culture, hence why odileâs craft doesnât borrow from vaugardeâs style. unless she does? itâs not like we see other ka buans using craft in game. who knows.

also because i forgot, some extra bonus doodles of that craft color mixing i mentioned earlier! yipee!

and thatâs it!!! thereâs probably some other stuff that i am. currently forgetting. but this post is absurdly long enough!!! thank you so much for the ask iâm so sorry for autism blasting you about isat and color theory. am i still cool. hereâs all of my craft doodles as compensation for reading this giant infodump. iâm so so sorry.

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Her name Cynthia now bc my moot said KSI đĄđĄ
Information if the text is hard to see:
Age: 16
Best Subject: ???
Birthday: Feburary 29
Class: 1-A
Club: Sewing and Stitching Club
Height: 174 cm (5â9)
Hobby: Sewing
Homeland: ???
Likes: Pretty things
Dislikes: Things that ruin pretty things
I donât know if I want Cynthia to be a Yuu or an OC for ramshackle but Iâll figure it out later but her whole aesthetic is being doll like and unsettling!! (on accident)
More Info (reused from the poll post but with more):
She/They
She has a bad staring problem
There are some moments where her movements become strangely stiff and less human
Thereâs some rumors about her being non-human or being a living doll
It also doesnât help that she dresses very modestly or doesnât show a lot of skin so people are convinced that sheâs wearing it to cover her doll joints
They also do not speak often. They are usually very quiet or gesture to things. She may or may not have a voice
They do not like touch
They basically do whatever they want lol
When Crowley handed her the NRC uniform, she kept tweeking the design a little to make it look cuter so he kept giving her more to replace it but she keeps changing them.
Strangely good at sewing
She keeps gifting her friends clothes she thinks are cute (they have frills and bows on them đđđ)
She hates P.E. because she has to run and stuff
SHE LOOKS LIKE FUCKING LILIA I HATE IT HERE
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst oc#twisted wonderland oc#twst ocs#twisted wonderland ocs#oc#yuu oc#twst yuu oc#twst prefect#prefect twst#Cynthia
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PRESENT DAY.
Hey, Upper East Siders, Gossip Girl here, and I have the most surprising news ever. Y/N Winfrey spotted back in town after she disappeared for almost 6 months. But where has she been all this time? Sources tell me she's been living it up in the City of Love, Paris. Oh la la! But what brings our darling Y/N back to the Big Apple after all this time? Could it be a scandalous affair, a family feud, or perhaps a fashionable rendezvous with the elite of Parisian society?
Rumors are swirling as to the reason behind Y/N's sudden return. Some say she's back to reclaim her rightful place among Manhattan's elite, while others speculate that she's returned to stir up trouble in the already turbulent waters of Upper East Side.
But what of Y/N's infamous entourage? Will her loyal subjects, Nate, Isabell, Kati and Blair, welcome her back with open arms, or will there be whispers of betrayal and backstabbing among the ranks of Manhattan's elite?
Will she pick up right where she left off, ruling the social scene with her signature grace? Or has her time away changed her in ways we can't even imagine? So grab your designer handbags and your most scandalous gossip, Upper East Siders, because things are about to heat up in the city that never sleeps. XOXO, Gossip Girl.
As the sleek black limousine rolled to a stop in front of the towering building, the door swung open with a soft whoosh, revealing the figure of Y/N Winfrey stepping out into the cool Manhattan air.
With a flick of your hair, you cast a cool gaze towards your old home, a grand penthouse that stood as a testament to the wealth and power of the Winfrey family. The familiar sight of the elegant facade stirred a flurry of emotions within you, memories both bitter and sweet flooding your mind as you took in your old home.
You were too focused on the old home to hear your mother come up from behind you, putting a hand on her shoulder as she examined the home as well. She hadn't been there since the divorce, which was almost a decade ago.
"I know you're nervous, Y/N. But don't let any of them get to you, okay?" Her voice rang in your ears as you nodded slowly. You weren't sure who she was referring to; your father's new family or your old friends. Or maybe, all of the above.
"Okay," you whispered, your voice barely above a whisper. "I won't."
With a reassuring squeeze of your mother's hand, you gathered your resolve and stepped forward, ready to face whatever awaited you within the walls of your old home.
Your new family met you with open arms and it felt strange to be back home, the same home you'd left; except, everything inside had changed. There were no more pictures of you anywhere, they were all replaced with wedding photos or pictures of your new stepsister, Charlene. It made your stomach twist in disgust, you couldn't believe your father had a brand-new, shiny family. The perfect family he'd prayed for, you were almost happy for him. Almost.
"So how was Paris, Y/N? Did you like it?" Josie's voice brought you back to real life. You turned your gaze up to meet hers, a tight smile on your lips. You were sat in the living room of the penthouse, alongside your mother and stepmother.
"It was... fun," you reply carefully, your tone neutral. You couldn't bring yourself to admit just how much you missed Paris, how it had felt more like home than this place ever did. Instead, you plastered on a facade of indifference, hoping to shield yourself. "It's too bad that we left."
Your mother let out a light laugh as she glanced back at you. "We'll be back as soon as we can. I just missed New York so much and I'm so happy to be back." What she didn't mention was that the only reason she was back was for her business, she wanted to open more shops in Manhattan.
"Yeah, it's nice to be back," you replied, forcing a smile. Despite your mother's attempt to lighten the mood, you couldn't shake the feeling of unease that settled in the pit of your stomach.
Josie, your stepmother, chimed in, her voice cheerful. "I'm glad to hear that. I'm sure you'll adjust to being back in no time. Especially with Eleanor's party tonight, you'll be attending that... right?"
"Yes, yes she will." Your mother answered for you. You knew that your mother wanted to reintroduce you back into Manhattan society but you didn't even have time to adjust back into New York time, you were jetlagged.
You didn't want to even think about why you even left in the first place. When you decided to leave, you promised that when you'd come back, you'd leave it in the past. You'd leave him in the past.
Nate. The mere thought of him sent a shiver down your spine, a reminder of the heartache you had endured before leaving for Paris. You had promised yourself that you would never allow him back into your life, that you would move on and leave the past where it belonged.
Lost in your thoughts, you barely noticed as your mother and stepmother continued to discuss the details of the upcoming event, their voices fading into the background as your mind wandered back to memories you had long tried to forget.
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"And if they ask you about the business, what do you say?" Your mother quizzed you as she put on lipgloss, looking into the mirror of the hallway of the building that Blair's penthouse resided in.
You tore your gaze away from your own reflection to meet your mother's eyes, a sense of unease creeping into your stomach. "I'll say that things are going well," you replied, your tone carefully neutral. "That we're expanding and looking for new opportunities in Manhattan."
Your mother nodded in approval, her lips curving into a satisfied smile. "Good," she said, her voice tinged with a hint of pride. "Just remember to keep it vague. We're a family, and we need to show the world that we're strong, no matter what."
You forced a smile, though the weight of your mother's words hung heavy in the air. The facade of unity was fragile, and you knew that beneath the surface, tensions simmered, threatening to boil over at any moment.
Your mother finally finished her lip gloss, focusing now solely on you. "Remember, confidence is key. You're representing not just yourself, but our entire family."
"Got it." You answered, the words coming out as more of a reassurance to yourself than to her.
Her words echoed in your mind as you followed her towards Blair's penthouse, the anticipation of Eleanor's party looming ever closer. The elevator dinged and the door opened, revealing the glamorous penthouse of the Waldorf's. Your mother's hand found yours as she squeezed it, reassuring as you two walked back into Manhattan's elite society.
"Priscilla Winfrey! You made it!"
Your mother's head turned to meet Eleanor, a charming smile enveloping her lips as she walked toward her.
"Oh, and is that Y/N?" Eleanor gasped as she studied you, taking every little detail in. "You look absolutely stunning, sweetheart. You're starting to look more and more like your mother every passing day."
"Thank you, Ms. Waldorf," you replied graciously, offering her a polite smile. Despite the compliment, you couldn't shake the sense of unease that gnawed at you.
Eleanor's gaze lingered on you for a moment longer before she turned her attention back to your mother, engaging her in conversation. Left momentarily alone, you scanned the room, taking in the familiar faces that surrounded you.
Your eyes landed on your old friend group, all seated on the couch. A sense of nostalgia hit you as you examined their faces, all the nights you'd spent partying with them playing in your head. Isabell, Kati and Chuck sat as they spoke, talking about God knows what.
You couldn't help but wonder where Blair was, it was her party and she wasn't with her friends. And of course, Nate.
Chuck's eyes finally met yours, a wide smirk on his lips as his eyes fell on your body before back to your eyes. But before you could go up to them, you heard an excited squeal behind you.
"Y/N!"
You recognize that voice anywhere; it was Blair. She enveloped you in a tight hug, her excitement palpable as she pulled back to study your face. "Oh my God, it's been too long." she exclaimed, her eyes sparkling but there was something you couldn't quite place. "You look amazing, as always."
You were nervous, it had been so long since you'd seen your old best friend. Your stomach twisted in guilt as you gave her a tight smile, her hands squeezing yours. "Thank you, Blair. You looked stunning but I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that."
Blair's smile faltered for just a moment before she regained her composure, a flash of something unreadable passing through her eyes. "Thank you, Y/N," she replied, her tone warm but tinged with an undercurrent of tension. "I'm just glad you're here. Like, really here."
You and Blair had been close since you were kids, your families being close since the beginning of time, basically. Your mothers were best friends in school and now, you are too. Before you left Paris, you told Blair and Serena and made sure to give them calls whenever you could. But soon, Serena stopped answering your calls and according to Blair, she just disappeared to a boarding school in Connecticut.
Blair still didn't know the real reason you fled to Paris and that gulit chipped at you everyday, even more now as you saw her lips curve into a rare genuine smile.
"I've missed you, Blair," you replied, your voice tinged with sincerity. "It's good to be back."
"It's good to have you back, Y/N." Blair gave your hand a squeeze before she spoke again. "Excuse me for two seconds, I have to go to the bathroom."
"Of course, Blair," you replied, offering her a reassuring smile as she excused herself.
You let out a sigh before turning your focus back to your mom, who was now in a conversation with a person you weren't sure you knew the name of. You knew you couldn't bother her right now, she was networking.
With a resigned sigh, you resigned yourself to the role of observer, content to blend into the background as your mother worked her magic in the world of Manhattan's elite. It wasn't the first time you had found yourself sidelined in favor of your mother's professional pursuits, and you knew it wouldn't be the last.
You couldn't blame her, though. After the divorce, her career had become more than just a family businessâit had become her lifeline, it was the only thing she still had.
You remembered the days that followed your parents' separation, the way your mother had thrown herself into her work with a fervor bordering on obsession. It had been her way of coping, her way of escaping the pain and heartache that had threatened to consume her. You didn't blame her, her high school sweetheart had left her for a woman almost half her age, closer in age with her daughter than her.
You found the drinks table quickly, grabbing a glass of champagne and taking a sip of it. As you lifted the glass to your lips, the cool and crisp taste of the champagne washed over your tongue, distracting you from the emotions swirling within you. With a sigh of contentment, you leaned against the table, letting the hum of conversation and laughter wash over you.
As you scanned the room, your eyes fell on a familiar brunette. Your heart skipped a beat as you realized who it was; the person you'd been wanting to escape since you left for Paris. His bright blue eyes met yours and you felt a rush of conflicting emotions flood through you. It was Nate, your once-close friend, the one person who had been a constant presence in your life before everything changed.
His gaze held surprise as he caught sight of you across the room, and for a moment, you found yourself unable to tear your eyes away from him. You were frozen, unable to move as he approached you.
You couldn't escape him now.
Nate's lips curved into a smile as he took you in, with all your glory. "Y/N, you're back. It's, uh... good to see you."
"Yeah, you too." You responded, giving him a short answer.
Nate's smile faltered slightly at your response, a flicker of disappointment flashing across his features before he quickly masked it. "So, uh... how have you been?" he asked, his tone cautious as though treading on uncertain ground.
"I've been good. And you?"
"Me too. I'm happy you're back." He looked down at the glass of champagne as he let out a chuckle. "I'm glad you still have that taste of champagne, some things just never change."
You couldn't help but smile at Nate's attempt to lighten the mood, the tension between you easing ever so slightly. "Yeah, some things never change," you agreed, a hint of warmth creeping into your voice.
"Nate!" Blair's voice echoed as she came up to the two of you, grabbing his arm. "You don't mind if I steal him for a second, Y/N."
You and Nate exchanged looks before you tore your eyes from him and back to Blair, a forced smile playing on your lips. "Of course not, he's all yours." In more ways than one, you thought to yourself as the two walked away, leaving you alone once again.
Before you could relish in being alone again, your mother's voice rang behind you. "Y/N! Blair! Look who's back."
You turned to meet the blonde you'd once called your best friend. Serena. Her gaze held excitement as she found yours, you began walking toward and engulfing her in a big embrace.
You didn't know why she left for Connecticut but you knew she would tell you and Blair eventually. You, Serena and Blair had always been close and tight-knit, no matter the circumstances.
Serena pulled out of the hug and put her hands on your shoulders as she studied your face, a grin on her face. "You're glowing, Y/N."
"Says you. How did you get even more blonde since I've seen you?" You teased as she let out a laugh.
Serena's laughter echoed through the hallway, a sound that filled you with a sense of warmth and familiarity. Despite the time that had passed since you had last seen each other, it felt as though no time had passed at all.
"I've been spending way too much time in the sun," Serena admitted with a playful grin, her blue eyes sparkling. "But enough about me, tell me everything. How was Paris? Did you meet any cute French boys?"
You chuckled at Serena's teasing. "Paris was amazing," you replied, a smile tugging at the corners of your lips as you recalled your time. "And as for French boys, well, let's just say they definitely live up to the hype."
Serena laughed, nudging you playfully with her elbow. "I knew it!"
"Serena?"
You both turned to face Blair, a unreadable expression on her face before she quickly masked it with excitement. She pulled her into a tight hug but you could feel the tension, what the hell did you miss when you were Paris?
"So good to see you, how are you?" Blair pulled out of the hug as she looked in between you.
"Oh, look! The girls are back together, my heart is gonna burst." Eleanor gasped as she observed the scene in front of her, oblivious to the tension in the room. "Are you staying for dinner, I'll set a place next to Y/N and Blair!"
"Yeah, um, there's somewhere I have to go." Serena looked in between you, a guilty expression on her face.
"You're leaving?" Blair's voice sounded hurt as she looked back at Serena.
"Yeah... I don't feel well, I-I just wanted to come and say hi. I'll see you guys at school tomorrow." Serena responded as she slowly began to back up, before she turned away.
Blair's expression dropped immediately back to a bitter expression, looking back to you. "At least you're staying. Who needs Serena anyway?" She whispered the last part as she turned away and began walking away.
You began following behind her, "What did I miss?"
"What do you mean?"
You caught up to Blair and you two began walking toward the couch. "I mean... with you and S?"
"Serena." She corrected. "And nothing except all you know. She left without saying a word, to none of us." Blair sounded bitter but you knew deep down, she was just hurt.
"Well, maybe something happened."
"With what?" Chuck joined the conversation as Blair glared at him. You could feel Chuck's gaze on your dress as he smirked.
"Mind your business, Chuck." Blair spoke as she rolled her eyes.
You caught Chuck's gaze, his smirk igniting a spark of annoyance within you. "Chuck, it's not polite to stare," you retorted, your tone sharp as you shot him a pointed look. Some things never do change, you thought.
Chuck's smirk widened at your words, a glint of amusement dancing in his eyes. "Forgive me, I couldn't help but admire the view," he replied smoothly, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "You did some growing up in Paris, I could tell." His eyes were focused on your dress as you scoffed.
"Paris does wonders for a person," you replied dryly, refusing to give him the satisfaction of seeing you flustered.
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"I'm pregnant! Surprise, Y/N!" Josie shouted as your father pulled her in closer, your jaw slowly falling. She's... what? Your fork clattered against the plate, the sound echoing in the tense silence that followed Josie's announcement. Pregnant? The word echoed in your mind, disbelief and shock washing over you in waves.
Your head was pounding, you got home around 12:30 last night because the party lasted a little longer than expected. You were just trying to enjoy your breakfast before school, but then they drop this bombshell on you.
"Wh-what?" You finally managed to stammer out, your eyes wide with disbelief as you looked at Josie. "How does, uh, Charlene feel about it?"
Charlene was Josie's daughter from her previous relationship, she was about two years younger than you and... well, you couldn't stand her.
"You can ask her yourself!" Josie's gaze moved behind you and you turned to face Charlene. Speak of the devil.
Charlene's lips curved into a smile, though there was a flicker of something else in her eyes. "Super excited. I mean, I can't wait to be an older sister."
There was awkward silence before you got up from the dining table, clearing your throat. "Well... I have to get ready for school. This was really nice."
You got up and began walking up the stairs, ignoring their stares. You wanted to stay with your mom but she was staying at The Palace and your father insisted you stayed with them and his shiny new family.
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