#help i hate my degree
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
no longer hate my stats module because my stats module coordinator sounds a lot like lars pinfield and i know the ghostbusters majored in psychology and would have loved SPSS
#im trying to trick myself#reverse psychology perhaps#help i hate my degree#uuuuuuuuughhh#live laugh lars pinfield#mangobango
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.
But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.
#simon says#i love learning so much and I hate the USA's college debt system#once they make that shit free I will be unstoppable#this topic sprung up because I had the idea that im very academic and annoyingly analytical that I might as well get a degree in it#because without a degree you just seem like an autistic asshole#but with a degree? then you look like a CREDIBLE autistic asshole#don't worry I will still learn but I still want that funky piece of paper to tell everyone I learnt it#also there's some things that are VERY difficult to learn#like I would love to persue this topic further but unfortunately I would need help with that#also before you say 'try taking [blank] classes instead! it's less expensive than a degree!' im broke#my only learning resource is the library sorry about that#also this is not the post to give me unwarranted financial advice#finances are one of the topics I DO NOT care about and I WILL NOT listen to a word you say
18K notes
·
View notes
Text
Okay, I might be too much into a brainrot, but hear me out: the moms of the DOL LIs when they were young.
From left to right, top to bottom:
Sirris (She is Syd's mom on my save)
Beatrice (Kylar's mom)
Dianna (Whitney's mom)
Jade (Robin's mom)
+ My PC's mom, her name was Cirice. She was Sirris' friend.
#dol#dol pc#dol sydney#dol kylar#dol whitney#dol robin#degrees of lewdity#kylar the loner#sydney the fallen#whitney the bully#robin the orphan#I feel SO silly sharing this#I hate being shy aaaaaaaaaaaaaa#I might delete this#I never shared my headcanon stuff before help
54 notes
·
View notes
Text
how I feel after telling my friends how annoying kylar is while I work on my comic with him as the main focus
#degrees of lewdity#dol#kylar the loner#dol kylar#monay the false saintess#dol pc#LOOK#I HATE HIM IN MY SAVE BUT#HES JUST SO PATHETIC I CAN'T HELP BUT STILL LIKE HIM
157 notes
·
View notes
Text
Summer is only nice when you have air conditioning….
#many nights I have spent lying in agony#as if every pore on my skin was squeezed dry of liquid#I reminisce on better times when a cool breeze carried me to a land of peaceful slumber#when I was young and foolish#taking you for granted#OH MY FUCKING GOD ITS SO HOT IN HERE BRO HELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#ITS GONNA BE 90 FUCKING DEGREES TMR I HATE IT HERE#I SHOULDVE JUST MOVED TO MASSACHUSETTS#haliai rambles
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
I was always told that "ignoring" mental health issues is like ignoring a rock in your shoe, and I always thought that this frame of mind is almost this hyper-individualist, blaming of other people - that if you "let it get bad," you only deserve bad.
Sometimes, you don't know you have a rock in your shoe. Sometimes, people say, "everybody has a rock in their shoe! Stop complaining!". Sometimes, nobody will let you stop to untie your shoe and get the rock out. Sometimes, people slip a rock in your shoe.
I've always disliked this idea of mental health and illness because it almost... blames people for not "doing wellness" right. Wellness becomes a performance, something that is always your fault. While I do acknowledge that we are all responsible for our own development, actions, and behaviours, I can't help but feel like this attitude about mental health is reflective of the ideas of broader trends about "tie your bootstraps up and get over it"
#mental health#mental health advocacy#i just think it is a thought-terinating cliché#my dad used to ALWAYS say this when i was in a terrible spot. it didn't help.#i felt like i had to Perform Being Well and i hated itttt#basically: EVERYthing is complex and cannot (and should not) be oversimplified to this degree i think
315 notes
·
View notes
Text
welcome to the life of a quiet lab technician
#i started a not so berry save <3#this is my 10th nsb save i need serious help#im having so much fun she hates ppl and has no friends and stays inside all day ordering takeout and watching tv like i get her#she's mean but will soften eventually#wanted to pursue criminology but her passion for the extraterrestrial was stronger#degree in computer science so she can write a mean code!!!!#always been morbid and just overall weird (in the nicest way possible)#def the b*tch of the workplace 😭#its summer rn so maybe she’ll make some friends by the fall time <3#its hard to see her having friends bc of how jealous and mean she is but it wouldnt be realistic gameplay without-#-your sims having character development so im excited to see her change for the better when she decides to start a family for example#not exactly following nsb by the book but rather making it my own style/story and having fun with it 😊#nsbsave#nsbgen1#ts4#sims 4 gameplay
52 notes
·
View notes
Text
one of my favorite senarios to imagine to put yukio in is sending him 10 years into the future (with the exwires usually) and everyone from their class are like chill adults including himself working their boring ass exorcist job and hes trying to assert dominance over them as the teacher™ but they're all like bro why so serious?
#somehow in my future au i accidently made only the boys active exorcists im so sorry to all the women in aoex#they all passed but i think shiemi and izumo would leave to persue other passions but still be in ajacent fields#like shiemi still runs her exorcist shop#idk what izumo does maybe she still is an exorcist but shes on leave trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life#cuz so much of her adolescence was focused vengence for her family i think she would be kinda lost as an adult#ive said this a bunch of times but rin isnt actually an exorcist for the same reason izumo isnt#ive been kinda muddy on my own timeline but either he passed and left or he dropped out of school and ran away#i think hes like an independent demon slayer like a contract worker#so he still is basically an exorcist but not sanctioned by the vatican like as part of a mercenary guild or something#but he can still take exorcist missions if he wants to but usually its not worth it so he just helps out yukio or bon on their missions#i think after being a literal terrorist yukio got demoted and lost his license for a bit so hes still the same rank as he is now#but now hes medicated and he went to therapy#he has like no memory of highschool to almost a concerning degree and hes generally pretty muted but is still well liked#bon had a completely normal exorcist experience against all odds actually so did koneko except koneko went back to the myoda#and then shima got scouted for his amazing spy skills and works overseas#sorry shima ur not allowed to be an idol that might be the trigger for the bad end#anyway i think teen yukio would hate adult yukio because he thinks hes not allowed to be normal and happy#this is like the 4th time ive made this post like i said its one of my favorites#the reverse is rin going to the past and like tutoring the exorcist class#nobody wants to do yukio psychoanalysis but me so i gotta step up to the plate#jk theres a lot of good yukio fanfics#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#yukio okumura#rin okumura
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
college … wasted on the youth (me)
#didnt help that 2/4 yrs was covid telezoom but man.. MANNN#forgetting how impossible it is to pursue rhe degree plan u actually want (advising hell) i feel like . theres just#so many diff things i want to learn now Knowing that im more solidified in my interests and who i am and what i would be interested in doing#and like.😭RGAAAAAQH TEARING MYHAIR OUTTT every other week i have a night where im sititng there like damn i couldve been sm1 completely dif#dgmw i still rly enjoy some of the upper div classes i Did take but what if i took x and liked it more or minored in y and it led me to z#bc i do feel rly set in where i am rn which . i DO ! like it but im never gna be in that environment where u have the flexibility to explore#ykwim . i wish i had taken physics and calc srsly . i always thought i hated that shit but i like it. i like it quite a lot actually😟#or more geology .. urrghh.. sprinkle in sme extra art history . no bc thats what actu pissed me off ab school#i rmbr wanting to dual major and they straight up told me no i cant . but then i was like maybe an arts major bio minor when i wanted to do#science illustration but sry we dont offer bio minor . ok bio major arh or studio art minor . no sry not enough open spots we rly only#reserve it for when we have extra openings post admission❤️#and then even late into sophomore year u would still be last in registration so all the cool classes would be closed#and then bc of covid half that shit was cancelled bc they couldnt transfer labs online (rip comparative vertebrate anatomy)#and then by senior yr an additional collection of classes were unavailable bc u dont have the prereqs bc the prereqs were cancelled during#covid and u dont have enough semesters left to actually take it . like it was gen such an awful experience so ik why i couldnt ever do what#i wanted but .😭 AND LIKE the classes i DID enjoy like genomics or molecular genetics were closed by registration and i had to email and beg#for access . thts crazy .literally crazy .#anyways . i think i want 2 start reading textbooks bc i think thats the closest ill get LMAOO#i remember seeing my coworker read a textbook for fun one time and idk why i just didnt understand why bc it seemed so dry but i Get it now#like yeah .. u knew what was up ..#sad too that like . i could theoretically audit a course but i Work..during the day .. so sad . so sad#guys wht if i just said yes to grad school (<the devil talking.dont agree)
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
Honestly it annoys me that pride, ambition, and generally having a big ego are always villainous/evil-coded personality traits because personally I think if you genuinely are a prodigy at what you do you are 100% within your rights, perhaps even deserving, of flaunting your skills and being proud of the fact you can do something that only a small fraction of other people can do. Is it even ego at that point if you genuinely are as good at your field/skill as you say you are? Are people not aware that becoming a prodigy at something is something that takes lifelong sacrifice and practice sometimes to the point of giving up on having a normal life, relationships, etc even potentially destroying your own health???? God I fucking hate how pride in your own skills and ambition are so villain coded all the time. As if it's evil to want to be good at something and be recognized for what you rightfully earned
#squiggposting#this is part of why i like pharma obviously lol but it's happened to me w#other blorbos ive had in the past#bc like full offense if you're capable of doing something like partially inventing the cures to 5 different terminal diseases#in only a few months/a year of research. or if you can do an organ donation and replacement surgery#with yourself as one of the donors. you literally ARE the best doctor who has ever lived#and you DESERVE to flaunt it bc. what fucking achievement is higher than that???#some feats demand recognition in my opinion. maybe it's just bc I've always been competitive#and from a young age enjoyed a (relative) degree of fame for being really good at certain things#ive always enjoyed being an object of awe bc bitch i spent my whole life working to be this good#do i hold it over ppl or treat them badly for not being as good as me? i admit i used to but i grew out of it#but the ego? certainly not. i think if you're good at something you should own it#i think if you're a prodigy and put your skills into doing good work youve earned your fame and recognition#this expectation of false humility we have is sooooo annoying#ohhhh boo hoo pharma is a little bit of an annoying asshole about being a better doctor than ratchet#the cures he helped design will save literal thousands of lives from now until the rest of time#but somehow the way he FEELS about it is more important than the CONCRETE POSITIVE GAIN he put into the universe?#and also in general i hate it when ppl assume that pride/ego and being kind towards others are mutually exclusive#in general i feel like i could write an essay about how self vs others is treated as a dichotomy#where it's assumed that in order to uplift others you have to self efface and diminish yourself#or if you flaunt yourself it automatically means you're putting down others. it's not true.#video essay topic for later lol
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
"Zira" "Azi" "Az" SIGHHHHHH
is anybody else irritated at the widespread fandom nicknaming of Aziraphale and fucking nobody else? is that just me? because it really feels like a "oooh [wince-hisses through teeth], no, that's too long and weird. that's too hard. i'm gonna call you This instead" situation, and i do not care for it. it pissed me off when i was writing good omens fanfic thirteen years ago and it pisses me off now. you care enough about everyone else to get their names right, all the unusual demon and angel monikers, but oh no, Aziraphale, oh that's ten whole letters, that's way too long. oh you're not gonna bother to type all that, no, his name is just Zira now.
and like, he's not real, so this super duper does not matter and isn't deeply and incredibly shitty the way it is when it's directed at real people. but it still rubs me the wrong way every time i see it. that's not his name! why is his name not good enough for you to take the time to type out the way you do for everyone else! ugh.
#i dunno. i dunno.#i am hoping posting this gets it off my chest and helps me stop being quite as fucking annoyed about it#this isn't directed at any one person#this is widespread#i haven't seen nicknaming to this degree in ANY other fandom#which is why i can't just tell myself it's a friendly nickname because he's likeable and familiar or whatever#it's definitely a Me Problem but there's so many good posts i haven't reblogged#or have sighed while reblogging or just straight up have stopped reading because of this#i do realize that for a lot of folks#it's probably just that they've seen other people doing it and figured it's just part of the good omens fandom culture#i don't care :/#NOBODY ELSE gets nicknamed like this#aziraphale#good omens#good omens meta#dal is a rage demon#it's been long enough that i think i can add these tags now without it hitting the top of the tag as a 'hate tag'
110 notes
·
View notes
Text
So far I'm honestly a lot better at drawing Puzzles with the big cartoony eyes than the white dot ones for the moment
#💬 rory rambles#but it's a lot of fun jdfghkhjgl#my arm is getting better little by little so I can sketch :3 yippie#btw I finished the Waluigi arc. it was. an arc#Tari was the highlight of it for me#girl lore!!!!!!!!#Meggy was so different tho... for obvious reasons. feels like a separate character#that's also true for SMG4. again obvious reasons#also back here not everyone had subtitles just the otherwise unintelligible ones which slightly annoys me#I appreciate Subtitles For All because I am not a native speaker and it helps me process#I don't care for the Wario brothers. a superpower that's fueled by receiving rejection and hate is a cool concept for a villain though#I gotta check out what Saiko's deal is#also wdym SMG3 actually has a psych degree#I'm thinking I'll do the Lawsuit Arc next because honestly I don't know if I'll care for much of the rest. Anime YouTube and Genesis sound-#-like they contain important lore but is it worth it. hmm hmm#the old designs bother me and the humor always did#but my perfectionistic ass will never start writing anything for this fandom until I feel I have an adequate understanding of The Lore#glimpsed a Wattpad oneshot where Mr Puzzles and Meggy make breakfast and the comments pointed out how Meggy can't cook for shit#and would've canonly realistically burnt the kitchen down#a variation of my worst nightmare
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
Giving the scrungles chao saga
Mephiles's? Sweet babyangel service chao; if they did races Meph would definitely be dancemom manipulative of the other chao handlers just to make them fight, with the chao being none the wiser.
Metal's starts off as a feral little shit that loves to bite; but biting is not very effective on Metal, so oops bro, looks like you have been government assigned a chao (Who eventually warms up to him with the correct combination of ignoring their shenanigans and manhandling them into being socialized. No, we are having a nice day at the beach, you may not go and bite small children)
The third one is for an unpictured different Metal. This one was a rescue and is very shy, but their mommy is very scary with a resting murder face which gives them some more confidence as they grow up. Anyone who messes with this chao would wind up mysteriously missing.
If these were in the game...
Meph's chao would operate like a chaos chao, except it needs higher stats in power and flight.
Metal chao 1 would be neutral/speed/flight with a disproportionate amount of kangaroos and/or bug animals givin to it.
Metal chao 2 would be dark/power/flying, raised primarily on drives and dragons.
#mephiles#metal sonic#chao#tails#sonic au#I really hate the design in pic 2 but oh well#probably going more for the one in the last pic#designs are still in progress#everything I ever make is a concept doodle it seems#my art#these all represent aspects of me as an animal parent#I love my babies#but won't let them push me around#but also I'd literally kill for them#generally speaking it's ill-advised to handle animals that flail like that but there's a degree of truth in that for chickens#if you have a mean rooster the best solution is to catch them carry them around for a while#I've seen folks make carrying bags for this purpose which is funny#flailing chao are harder to pin down though so sometimes they gotta get tired out enough to hold still#it's having fun at the beach no worries I promise :>#I just wanted to do that meme#this Mephiles au -- I call him Frostbite -- has the canon Mephiles sluggish/uneven movements#and has a constantly worsening case of frostbite (tfw no Iblis :() that makes it hard for him to do a lot of fine hand movements#meph's chao helps out by doing things like fetching; helping him walk on uneven ground; doing tasks that need fine motor control;#and is a living hot water bottle#in return the thing is quite spoiled; being the chao of an Emerald god (here Solaris literally is the Yellow Super) is pretty darn special#once things are fixed and Solaris can be Solaris again that chao literally lives like a king and it deserves it#it'll take Solaris a while to shake off the effects of being split though; so occasionally they'll still be helpful on bad days#no names for any of these guys yet#I don't even know if Mephiles would require a name for his; maybe someone else names it something bizarre for him
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
every day i struggle to make choices
#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind#mostly because options suck#i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician#cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert#i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually#working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term#surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time#which is what limits most of my choices#i need to find more paid training programs i guess#if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself#but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late#i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly#acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying#it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics#but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever#i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training#because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for#and again#a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing#if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it#thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different#id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people#im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port#they were able to run like seven tests off of it#i had to use a couple ped tubes#she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier#labs are so miserable#checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
unpopular capri opinion of mine no one asked for:
i don’t give a fuck about erasmus and kallias. nothing on this earth could make me give a fuck about erasmus and kallias. in fact i actively dislike erasmus and the way he’s written :/
#laurent is stronger than me fr i would not have had the patience he had for that boy#i still would have tried to help him bc nobody deserves the treatment he received but my god. i wouldn’t have been happy about it#it’s rotten work. especially to me. especially if it’s you [erasmus]#his whole deal just makes my skin crawl#ik he’s supposed to be like the personification of pure innocence but that’s more than partly the reason why i can’t stand him#and he’s like genuinely happy to be a slave???? boy WHAT?#he’s not written like a real person#and he infuriates me to an illogical degree#plus the whole erasmus and torveld situation makes me sick i hate it so much#it’s psychological horror to me#captive prince#capri critical#i apologize to erasmus lovers i understand that we’re supposed to love him im just built different i just can’t do it
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
Posting about it like 18 hours late after waking up, but I also had such a strange dream tonight?
In it two of my enemies that worked together against me in reality actually became enemies to one another, and for what reason they did..... One of them crafted some very intricate plan to trick me into thinking I'd get full help for my countless mental troubles, including financial, if I only signed certain papers I got, and the other one disrupted her plan by simply telling me to "trust no one" over a balcony of their.... "house"? Dreams that turn the online into "reality" make little sense but I feel like most people here have them sometimes so you get it probably?
Ironically, I trusted them, and seeing how I clearly was welcomed all of a sudden, went to their place wanting elaboration. (Their house looked exactly like if their blog became a house and it was hysterical) Turned out the other one's plan was to actually not only take all money meant to support my sorry existence away from me forever, but also keep me unemployable since legally I was "helped" or mad shit like that (basically slow, hungry death). And this person turned against their long term "ally" in MY favor because, I quote, "genocide of disabled people is not a joke" gfhtjgugjj We even continued talking a lot about world and people and all other things the other one tried, all while avoiding to as much as address our own grudge.
I really don't know why I'd have a dream like this, it felt so random? It doesn't feel like wishful thinking either. 😕 But it better not be a sign that I've misdiagnosed which one of those two became more malicious in the end, or so help me
#personal#dreams#I didn't really intend to even share this dream at first but with my track record of prophetic dreams?#I might as well put down everything just in case#kind of like throwing a bottle with a message into the sea not knowing if it finds any reader#I did consider that despite everything they've done to me and my friends they-#-were less malicious and more genuinely caught in worse mental health situation than me#what I did NOT consider is that the other one might not stop at anything#it doesn't help that she is actually lucid minus some degree of college brainwashing#nobody can do more evil than people who absolutely understand what they're doing#there is a difference between genuine deluded conviction that I am a beast to be hunted for-#-the sake of everyone's safety and definitely knowing I am just a fuel for-#-harmful hateful propaganda that provides more influence#one lives in their own world and refused to look into reality and another is so-#-reliant on being on the 'winning' side that she straight up has no preferences or opinions#she will assume whatever opinion or position makes her a saint in the eyes of the public#again I should not really think of it#in reality the two were faaaaaar more similar than I speculate#though I don't know what became of them because I dread to look or wonder.#and it's been this way for over a year.#I hope that they've both fandom shifted but people who are in for community and not for-#-source material tend to never leave#guess we are here forever but I got used to it.
7 notes
·
View notes