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Hi everyone!
I have been on this hellside since october 2023, and at first I thought that I would never post anything, but here I am, just to introduce my self.
My name is Nike Sunrise, but I usually just go by Nike.(Named after the goddes of victory). Pronouns are she/her or they/them, bi in question, still a Minor, with my heart burning for my writing ambition.
TW: English is not my mothertongue!
+writing in my phones keyboard, which is in an other language.(I'm so sorry about that)
I am a huge simp for Tales of arcadia, but I also do love other shows like Shrek, Mlb, httyd(Just a lil), tts and any type of writer blogs.
This will probably be the only content I am ever gonna post, so please do have that in mind.
However, I'm open for everyone and everything, don't bei afraid to tag me or to involve me in a converation or discusion of any kind.
That being said, I do:
Write, (mostly my original ideas, unattached to any fandom. BUT some day I will/ want to write a ToA fanfiction.)
Draw&Sketch
Paint some times
Have a lot of headcannons
Love cats and Tumblr people
Support everyone in everything
LOVE music🎶(Rock, Musical,the opra)
Live in the center of Europe, therefore my Account name
+I'm a theatre kid!
Not know how to tag or post in any Type of platform. Please have mercy with me for that🙏.
And yeah, that's basically it. Looking forward to you people 🫡.
#tales of arcadia#trollhunters#how do i tag this#help I'm completely new in here#tangled the series#help im alive#writers on tumblr
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#RIP to the legacy post editor. you will be missed. while queueing this post and the last one it's removed the option for me to switch to the#old one and is making me use the new one. which is like not bad. it's not a bad editor. i just don't like change as most tumblr users don't#it also just appends the post you make directly to the top of the currently-displayed posts behind it even if it's not meant to go there#which is a little bit scary when i'm on the queue page and i click “add to queue” for a post that's supposed to go up on august 18th#to see it immediately appear above mega metagross. the legacy post editor didn't do that. it made you refresh the page if you wanted to see#your own new post on the dashboard. which i think was better!! honestly!! i've never Made a post using the new editor to see how it behaves#only ever queued up FFP using this thang. but that's also bc i feel like i don't post very much. i need smth Interesting to say when i post#on my main blog i mean. i don't make extraneous posts on here (usually) unless i'm answering an ask or something. which. still have yet to#miss one to this day. going strong#bibarel#can you tell idk what to say about this guy. what are they‚ water-type? big chance i'm fucking wrong and they're just pure normal#OKAY i was right. normal/water. semi-interesting typing and i get why they're a water-type. but. i never use. bibarel. even as a kid who#didn't understand or care about competitive. i knew bibarel was not very strong. it's a route 1 normal-type fucker. and maybe it's like#better than i think or something but tbqh it's a sinnoh 'mon and i already have another sinnoh water-type that has my heart. buizel#so bibarel was not so much in the cards for me. bro i should do like. a mono-type run of a pokémon game one day. that would be fu#do folks do that? is that a challenge run that actually exists? nuzlockes exist so i don't see why not. okay i'm doing it. my next replay o#any pokémon game is hereby decreed to be a water-type mono-type run. i may or may not liveblog it on my main blog#and it may or may not be nuzlocke. we shall see#hell maybe i'll stream it. maybe that could be fun. i don't know of *anyone* who would be interested in that but it tends to help me#actually go about completing games when i have someone there like. waiting for me to do so
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What does a man have to do not to live in constant dread
#this is about school#mostly#i hate it here chat#what am i to do#someone.....if you have any advice... please#i have an oral test tomorrow i have to learn by heart two texts in chinese and learn 100 new vocabulary words#help. drowning#literally#can no longer keep it up#for the record I'm demotivated because my efforts never take me to satisfactory results#and yea sure nothing changes overnight#but like. I've been trying for at least 8 years now? aren't things supposed to get better after a while I'm trying?#I've tried changing methods eh#anyways. unsatisfactory results. and it gets frustrating because I feel so disappointing because I know before starting that I won't be abl#to do The Thing. get to complete homework? memorise something? BE ABLE TO FUCKING TALK LIKE A NORMAL PERSON WHO KNOWS HOW TO TALK???#you name it. i just can't do it#in school specifically but outside too#only outside of school i don't whip my ass about it because who fucking cares#but this is something that will influence my future chances of getting jobs too#like i cant talk the way i do in a job interview nobody's going to think i have basic communication skills or even basic human skills at al#ah nevermind it's fine#I'll find a way#some day#i guess#the unsilly
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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i literally can't think about life or the future for more than a few seconds without getting so distressed that i shut down. surely this is a good sign for things to come
#true about any aspect of those. personal life. local politics. world disasters etc#i can't focus on one and approach it first bc even that's already too much for me#i was genuinely truly literally not made to be alive. i am not built for this. i shouldn't have survived this long#i feel like an error in the book of fate. like i accidentally dodged the grim reaper for too long#there is too much of me inside my brain. if that makes sense. i am long overdue. etc etc#what is that even called is it still depression at this point 😭😭😭 it's like a whole new thing fr#seriously tho how the fuck does one even get over it. being in a state of mind like that means no therapist would even try working with me#(bc well if i don't think i should be alive how am i supposed to work to get better. esp when i don't see any reason to)#(kinda like a festering wound in a body part that should've been cut off ages ago)#everything feels pointless bc of how shitty the future will be no matter what. like there is truly no hope at all#this isn't pessimism it's just facts. there is no good ending here no matter what. unless you overhaul reality completely#vent#:/ i should probably try to sleep but i'm doing really bad#idk if i'll have nightmares or just a very sad dream like i had last night. i don't seem to have much else going on there in my brain#negative //#sorryyyyyy#i'd ask for help but idk what help to even ask for. what anyone could even offer. like there is no solution or a way to forget it#best i can do is distract myself all the time but that's really hard to do when a lot of what i have going on makes me feel bad too#. rambling in nonsensical ways atp sorry. brain is being mean and stupid
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Saw certain tweets and here once again a reminder which a twt mutual luckily wrote shorter than I could (plus public so I can rb bc no way I do that myself on that site)
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And if you want smth I wrote myself which is longer and not just abt that here you go
#a wild lux appears#I think they're one mutual who is fine w being screenshotted ik some don't want that#I wrote that bsky thing while waiting for food. Reg the fellow person I talk abt don't bash ppl that already spoke up and stop for a bit#To rb more later. Or ppl that still go to work bc they can't afford not to bc the thing by these actions is community isn't there as net#Or like anyone that shows they care and didn't do anything harmful and just take recharge time or so#Educate willing(!) ppl nicely and don't bash them or send a internet mob to them etc#The ones posting they still go to/buy boycott stuff yeah they're awful but what does bashing them bring at the end of the day#Don't support those ppl yeah but them posting that shows how much they care for it. They prob just want cloud which you give them.#Pressure ppl in power in a way they can't ignore focus on that not no name individuals#If ppl you know talk in private and if they don't want to change literally just cut them out of your life if possible#Online just block. Don't argue w people that just want to stir smth up etc etc#Also I don't think it's too productive to be mad when a standard user anywhere doesn't share stuff. Like yeah give them info abt that but#some either just do smth offline (in that case maybe tell them in this case just sharing online is also helpful) or are mentally too done#and focus all energy to survive (which is intended by the ppl in power. make ppl so done they only have energy to survive themselves so they#don't have energy to speak up abt problems in the world). Bashing famous ppl is completely different bc backlash actually brings smth there.#More ppl could do more if strike organizations would include community care so more actually could not go to work/shopping#Also reg protests so they should know do you know how many don't watch news anymore (I don't watch tv since many years)#I'm sure some also just can't esp younger ppl if they're parents monitor their socials and are zionists#Ofc speak up. I'm just here to say there are explanations. If they read things and still don't care unfollow/block/mute/idc or if you know#Them talk and explain how if is important they speak up#This has been going on for a good while now idk how many still don't know I am mostly pointing that out for new or not as much shared things#Tho I'm sure many don't know bc the standard response is the gov knows what he does and they do propaganda#They think surely the gov takes care of that. If they shut down convos reg that then that is dangerous denialism and living in escapism n#All. Not if the ppl who follow this need a break w fiction or so. I am sure the ppl you try to reach w bashing already muted/blocked all#accs and words associated w that#Anyways I gotta shower now. Disclaimer my personal opinion be an asshole and it's block on sight yada yada.#I just woke up I'm hungry I need to shower but that is also when I decide to share my pieces so
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so apparently i've got chosen to be a part of the multimedia unit for an e-sports club in my uni and i've already get a first designing task yet i'm still learning the basics of photoshop 🫠🫠
#i need to create a social media poster celebrating the new semester next month#and i have a month for me to complete the poster design#which is tbh i'm quite anxious rn since idk how i need to start it from the scratch 🥲🥲#actually i'm kinda rarely to do this rn#but i know that a lot of my wonderful mutuals are truly good at it and creating beautiful graphic designs on it 🫶🫶#so i truly need a favour from all of you guys if you can recommend me some of psd helps tips and resources here 🙏🙏#and i truly appreciating all your favor to me 🫶🫶#iz and her maroon uni life#iz being too random
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I am This Fucking Close 🤏 to blowing this whole island up (Animal Crossing: New Horizons)
#I'M. BORED. AND NEED A DO-NOTHING GAME#my island is super cute but my god. i made. choices. mostly w my house tbh it's cute yeah#but i do think i'd do things completely differently on a new save.#split between wiping everything and starting from scratch or asking for help moving some things#and then wiping and picking em up later....... but also i think part of what i wanna re-experience#IS collecting things again.#but do i really wanna get blue roses from scratch again. do i reeeeeeally wanna do that again LMFAO#but also maybe a middle ground would be just dropping things like that and materials (esp star frags)#i did make a dream address but also i wanna see if i can perfect it. not the whole island per se#it's as good as it gets. i am not doing more here.#BUT it WOULD be ideal. if i could get a meteor shower summer night setting.
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Swear to god I don't know why I ever try to bring anything up with that woman it's never a good idea but every time I'm like "what if this time I'm not immediately told I'm wrong". Call me either an optimist or a fool
#wastepaper basket#I want to try at some point getting another cat as a companion for melody bc she's been very needy & understimulated since josie's been gone#And as much as I want to I can't be at home to play with her all day y’know. As much as the two of them didn't really get on#they did at least keep each other active lmao..... and I think melody is missing having another cat to play with#And like a cat who will actually play with her as well rather than just chasing her off?#I'm like I'm not gonna go for it any time soon bc I'm not ready for that but I think it'd be a good thing for her once she's settled#into the new place a bit. And mum's like 'I don't think that's a good idea I think she needs a year to just be by herself' which like? What#I have no idea where that is coming from. She seems to think that melody is having a great time being the centre of attention? And yeah#I'm sure she's happy being able to go wherever she wants without josie smacking her in the head but like she is BORED. I am spending hours#at a time playing with her (bc mum won't help) and I don't mind doing that but also sometimes I'm out or tired and she has a Lot of energy#She's a much more social cat than josie was and I think she would respond well to having some company!!! But no I don't know what I'm#talking about as always.#And her being like 'why don't you leave melody here and get 2 kittens from the shelter' ???? I don't want a new cat bc it's new??#That completely defeats the point??? Then melody would just be here with someone she isn't as attached to and won't fucking play with her??#I'm like it's about company for HER & she's like 'well what about company for me' WHY DON'T YOU GO TO THE SHELTER THEN????
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Ain't done this in a while but it's sorely needed because I have had A Week. So, if anyone has any spare serotonin lying around and would like to share, through the form of asks, it would be greatly appreciated.
#Distract me from everything please?#I'll take whatever you got - questions headcanons good news something that made you happy today - anything#Because it's Sad Bitch O'Clock in this household and booooooooooy do I feel completely and utterly alone#And I don't have my usual coping mechanism of writing and silly AU ideas because my motivation has gone all *explosion noise*#Since I'm not into anything AEW's putting out right now so I've got no inspiration#And I can't make myself write any of my OrangeHook ideas since no one cares about them anymore#And my ol' standby copium of that self-indulgent Chricky AU I was writing isn't going anywhere I have made no progress as of late#Because it looks like it's gone from ''Maybe two people will read this but we'll have fun with it at least!''#To ''Nobody is going to read this and I'd just be embarrassing myself so what's the fucking point?''#And of course there's soooooo much non-fic related stuff going wrong currently but I don't feel like boring y'all with any of that shit#...honestly I probably shouldn't have gone a big ol' rant here because come on Sam#If you read all these tags...jeez I'm sorry 😬 But yeah if you wanna help distract me for a brief moment it'd be much appreciated <3#In the meantime I'll just be over here listening to Interpol and questioning all life choices that lead me to this sorry state
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#so here's the thing#my new medication helps me feel less sad and hopeless#which honestly thank god cuz it was real rough there for a bit#(i mean we haven't embarked into this year's seasonal depression yet so tbd)#but no medication i've ever taken has helped with the sheer amount of overwhelm i deal with every moment of every day#and i'm not even feeling particularly anxious all the time#(although i do feel it... a lot lol)#but i am just bombarded by constant thoughts and sensory overload and constant frustration and just overall complete overwhelm when it#comes to literally any task#and it is so fucking exhausting#and that's when i start to feel like.... ok i literally cannot do this forever#but what other choice do i have?#no coping mechanism can turn off the deluge of chaos in my brain at all times#and i just don't know what i'm supposed to do about any of this#(and the answer can't be more therapy because i can't afford it lol)#(and it has never worked for me anyway)#this sucks
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{Blog P.S.A} For New Followers
Where to Find Me: MY "ABOUT"+F.A.Q {READ FIRST}: Here (About) + Here (F.A.Q)! {People who don't even glance at these before leaving commnts inquiring about my Thoughts on Things get Ignored} [Trust Me I'll Know] AO3: Hikari {Currently/Mainly creating for Digimon, Adventure-related franchise} [also appears at times: 02, tri.~Kizuna~The Beginning, Frontier; less often: Xros Wars {Pt 2 of original XW is my personal favorite}/Young Hunters; Ghost Game; Tamers; Wonderswan games-verse; everything post-02 mainly being original Japanese version based] Other {+Digi}-Sideblogs: izzyizumi (main Digimon blog) hikari-m (official Digimon {news+art} archiving+general Fandom commentary; Asks or follows may come from here, Depending) taichi-x-koushiro (Archiving for Yagami Taichi/Izumi Koushiro as Ship) IF YOU ARE A NEW FOLLOWER OR LURKER, I'd really appreciate if you can send me an Ask (you could also leave a quick introductory comment here, on my pinned post) and introduce yourself (you do not need to expect a response from me), even a short description like name (Pennames are definitely fine!), preferred pronouns (if any) and/or what brought you to my page and what you're staying for (Especially if you were here for resource{s} posts/reblogging, I've been curious if they've been helping anyone!) The reason I am asking this is because lately there's been a huge uptick of spam blogs following with particular "patterns" to their Likes, Follows, etc. and in order to prevent from being softblocked by accident if you are not actively blogging, it'd be great to know in advance if you're a real person. Aside from AO3 the only other 'active' archives of social media that I have are my much older Livejournal and Dreamwidth accounts, and even they're not quite in use these days. However, if you also have active LJs or DWs and actively blog, feel free to let me know too!
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It’d be very, very cool if people could also learn to read my FAQ page linked on the sidebar before sending Asks or interacting directly with either of my blogs or myself, because I’m seriously TIRED of people ignoring it and my rules for interaction.
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The organizing my bedroom saga continues 💀 god it never ends
#I'm happy about refreshing the room though#I'm so resistant to change and tbh I'm still uncomfortable with the new configuration of the furniture. but in the end this change is good#it's been idk. 10 years I haven't changed the place of a single thing in here. not a sigle book or pen#I talked to my friend about this once but my room is like a time capsule. and I don't think this is completely bad. I like keeping memories#but I'm not the person I was 10 years ago anymore. this room is like an altar to my old self#thinking of this as a means to build an altar to my current self helps with the discomfort of change#yea yea yea your house is you temple blah blah blah well maybe it will be now#(this is me procrastinating doing that worthless school assignment btw ughh)
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i love it when i'm debating about renaming myself but i have no fucking clue what to change my name to (sarcasm)
#i keep feeling like my current name just doesn't fit right but#i just don't know what name to change to#and i feel weird changing my name too much cuz my mom named me and she's no longer here#so she wouldn't be able to help me pick a new name#and it just sorta feels weird to completely get rid of the name she thought so hard about#idk but i'm having gender thoughts and i wanna change my name i just don't know#vent#gender#nonbinary
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🫣 i'm too shy to talk abt this anywhere else so let me ramble a bit in tags bcs i'm rather giddy rn hehe
#🌙.rambles#RMB THE SCHOOL FAIR I TALKED ABT LIKE LAST WEEK#well. last thurs we had this like dj in the covered court n#hdfklasjdfhksdahfsdk bro.. apollo checked their twt n found out they like ff#they put smth on their instagram story yk those ngl things#so i sent smth 😭 'what final fantasies do you like hehe' or smth like that n#they answered it n i sent more questions n#DUDE. NO.#IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY GENUINELY LIKE. THEY'RE JUST 3 YEARS OLDER OR SO I THINK (maybe 4) n#he Loves final fantasy 🥹 zack fair is their fav n. he's my fav too in ff7 hdfakljsdlfkdj n#uhm. uh. goddamn other games too like kh n chrono n soulsborne n YEAH AAAA#i like him. /p. completely platonic#i'm so so so happy aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#dude i don't think you cld outnerd me tho but i appreciate n relate w the sentiment 🤍#'PLEASE SEND ME A MESSAGE WHOEVER YOU ARE#YOU'RE LIKE INCREDIBLY COOL and now my favorite human ever 😔'#I WANT TO I REALLY WANT TO ACTUALLY BUT I'M TOO FUCKING SHY BUT I DON'T WANT TO LIKE LET THIS#OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE A NEW FRIEND GO 😭😭 esp bcs. oh my god. they're not much older than me#n they're filipino n ARGHHHH HDKFAJSDLKFJDL#i actually want to ask my friend if they cld help in setting me up a bit here /p completely platonic i just wna. idk. make a friend#that phrasing is so off but i rlly just mean platonically OKAY T_T#++ yk they're a dj n they make music n oh my god. I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND SO BADLY#wait yeah 4 years older so they're around the age of one of my ffxiv friends in eu#AGHHHHH WHAT TO DO !!!!#i'm a bit afraid i might make a fool of myself or get disappointed but i want to at least see yk#maybe i can make a new friend. i miss meeting new ppl 🥹
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Been playing Ark Survival Evolved for a few hours and I can't think of a game as frustrating as this one. Yet I still wanna play bc I want to be friends with all the dinos >:(
#I hate games where you die and habe to start new#and then you respawn at a completely different place with nothing on you or in your inventory???#and then your beloved dinos get killed#or you lose them bc you het killed and can't find them again#and now I'm sitting here waiting for a lvl 2 (!?!) Therizinosaur to be tame#who killed my parasaurus and my dodo#I didn't plan on taming it but oh well#I should be sleeping I have to get up in five hours#help#ark survival evolved#personal
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