#hellsite not fuck up my art challenge

[togo--mimori]

Separated them so Tumblr won't ruin my art because I worked stupid hard on these. Full piece below!

[torchickentacos]

DREW + 4, 12, and 23

OKAY. TUMBLR'S LETTING ME ANSWER THIS ONE NOW. hellsite. Long post. I joked about being normal and hinged on the other ask about him I answered and CONGRATS, you get unhinged and long-winded thoughts! Curse of being my friend, I'm comfortable being unwell around you and now you get a dissertation <3.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

I mean, here's the thing. Literally any answer is objectively going to be hilarious. He's absurd in whatever you throw him at. Off the top of my head. Skyrim. Any romcom ever. Red Dead Redemption. Zelda. Great British Bake-Off. Like. Literally anything is really funny to imagine kdjfhskjf. Real answer, though, I think he would THRIVE as a Stardew Valley townie. That seems genuinely up his alley. Little florist's shop with a greenhouse in the back, a small-town with plenty of wilderness around to explore, and damn it now I just want to make an SDV pokeani au.

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

Long section incoming. Lol. Sorry. I have.... thoughts. A couple of 'em, even. Not adding a read-more because at this rate tumblr's gonna auto-shorten this for me.

kdjfhdskjfhdsjfhdsj. okay. You, the one asking this, already know WAY TOO MANY OF MY HEADCANONS ABOUT HIM and you are complicit in all of them lmfao. Assuming the french-canadian thing doesn't count since it's arguably canon (?), here's a potentially ~controversial~ one that literally nobody is obligated to agree with, dw, but I can back it up (sort of) (as much as you can back up ANYTHING in AG): I do not think Drew stays in coordinating in the long-term. Here's the thing. Think about episodes where he's being annoying and high-strung (/affectionate). Now, think about episodes where he seems to actually have serotonin for once. In group one, high-strung, you're going to get a lot of contest (like, contests on stage, not shorthand for shipping)/competition themed episodes. I have my... OPINIONS (/derogatory) about the Absol scene in Thinning the Hoard!, but I can use that as an example of "Well. This can't be great for his emotional wellbeing." EVIDENTLY it stresses him the fuck out. He's never more moody and stressed than he is in grand festivals/contests. But, in group two where he's actually kinda chill (albeit still himself), we have episodes where he's out doing literally anything other than coordinating- Unbeatable Lightness, WWWWW (why is he more relaxed in the episode where he drowns than the episodes where he wins ribbons?), On Cloud Arcanine. Hell, even contest episodes where he's not the one competing! He seems genuinely happier outside of contests.

This isn't even getting into my thoughts on coordinating fame and canon's portrayal of it (which is actually interesting and consistent, if unelaborated on). Some people thrive in that attention. Others won't. I think Drew genuinely loves the ART of contests. The planning of it, the technical side, working out strategies and appeals. And he's good at it. But the other parts of coordinating are things he struggles with and is uneasy with (also seen briefly in Unbeatable Lightness, A Fan With A Plan, and Spontaneous Combusken, my beloved absolute dumpster fire of an episode).

Now, it's a real shame to headcanon him as someone driven out of a career he loves by the culture of it and to just leave it on that sour note, though- so, where does he go from there? I've spoken to friends about it and there's different schools of thought about this- the one I usually lean towards personally is a career change that still allows him to partake in the parts of coordinating that he loved without the parts he hated, like becoming a mentor of sorts for new coordinators. I can see him being, like, a coordinating professor of sorts. Something that still allows the artistic expression and self-challenge, but more contained and focused specifically on the parts he loves about it. I can see him finding more satisfaction through teaching and nurturing others' talents and watching THEM go off and win rather than putting himself through it.

And obviously, his entire canon character is about how he's good at coordinating! This is maybe a weird take that sort of takes canon and does a hard pivot, so absolutely no need to agree at all, and I LOOOOVE interpretations where he stays and thrives in it! Because honestly, on a selfish note, the less he does coordinating the less I have to worry about the rules of contest appeals and battles, so. Can't say I don't have a personal stake in this. Because dear god do not make me try to understand the gen 3 anime's contest point system or lack thereof, what the FUCK.

Anyways. Thoughts. I have them. Sometimes. On occasion.

23. Favorite picture of this character?

lmao. BUT also 1.) every single face he's ever made at Harley, and 2.) every single face he makes in Unbeatable Lightness, which I think this is the third time I've mentioned it here BUT IT'S A GOOD EPISODE AND I'M NOT TAKING ALTERNATE OPINIONS ON THAT! If the sunset scene rewired my brain chemistry as a kid for probably the worse, then that's everyone else's problem and not mine. insert Taylor Swift "Drew looks-" FUCK YEAH MAN HE SURE DOES!!!!!

[wierdkid20]

the fuck do you mean you're "not a feminist" mom?

I need to rant for a moment and I have a tumblr and what else is this hellsite for right? So, my mom sent me a poll that was supposed to breakdown what 'form' of feminism you believe in, the polls not important it was infuriating afterwards though we were talking.

Now, we both grew up in the same cult, we both got out of it around the same time, granted she has something like 40 years on me but whatever. My mother has the gall the gall though to tell me she's not a feminist.

This is the woman who was livid in the car after an all day religious convention because people applauded a young women's faith in god when struck with the 'challenge' of sexual harassment. "Now people are going to think its OK not to say anything, that they just have to rely on god and everything will be OK."

This is the woman who refused to let my brother embrace toxic masculinity.

This is the woman who taught me to use power tools and switch out the fan in my bedroom

This is the woman who looked at me and each of my siblings and told us "You're not allowed to get married until you visit every art museum in the world."

She got married at 22, and at least once a year counts out how many grandchildren she would have if each of us had followed her life course, (6, with the oldest starting kindergarten), and laughs with relief and bewilderment each time that that's not happening.

My mothers not perfect of course, there were some questionable decisions made, which is to be expected when society is telling you to raise 4 children in your early 20's.

But I will never forget sitting in the car with my grandmother at 19 and being emphatically told that Men and women could not be friends, said in a way that clearly meant that I should know this already. Meanwhile at 10 I and a boy from our church were playing downstairs unsupervised together and my mother laid into the moms upstairs tsking over how "You have to be careful with them at that age."

My mom can't define intersectionality but she'd say "Well duh" if you told her. She rarely gets my pronouns right but the moment I said I'm nonbinary she started sending me knitting patterns of gender neutral things to ask my opinion. She's baffled at the fact that none of her rainbow variety children have brought home anyone they're interested in, but she's so supportive of our right to choose and to have options that she never felt like she had.

[aviouslyy]

I posted 469 times in 2022

That's 406 more posts than 2021!

9 posts created (2%)

460 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@cock-holliday

@breadwarlock

@azcrowleyfell

@beatlesweatles

@marble-guts

I tagged 124 of my posts in 2022

#tlt - 12 posts

#nona spoilers - 6 posts

#fanart - 5 posts

#q - 3 posts

#spooky season queue - 3 posts

#music - 2 posts

#btvs - 2 posts

#dw - 2 posts

#yes - 2 posts

#tlovm - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#i look at my facebook memories and i allow myself to delete one cringe post a day and eventually i will wipe any evidence of my teen self

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

14, 16, 22, 43 for the book meme??

Some of these are HARD, but ty anon!

14. Name a book where the movie/tv adaptation was actually better than the original

Mean Girls (lol I assume I haven’t actually read Queen Bees and Wannabees)

16. If you could bring 3 books to a deserted island which would you bring and why?

I’m going to cheat for one of these and I don’t care, this question is always the WORST

- His Dark Materials: the complete trilogy

- Gideon the Ninth

- Stone Butch Blues

22. Pro or anti e-readers? Why?

Pro! I’m a fan of anything that increases access to books/info/stories. (But I’m not a fan of DRM and other bullshit that comes up with corporations owning everything that enables access, so it’s a little complicated, fuck kindle)

Personally, being able to get ebooks digitally during pandemic/lockdown times has been so so important to me. I prefer the feeling of paper books, and screens can trigger my migraines so I try to avoid overuse, but I really love being able to jump right into whatever ARC I’m reading on my phone when I’m out and waiting in line or something.

43. Are you the kind of person who reads several books at once or the kind of person who can only read one book at a time?

I read SO MANY at a time, but usually one main fiction book, and often I’ll get to the point where that’s the only thing I can focus on.

Currently in my rotation:

- Cloud Atlas (reading so I can watch the movie as part of our Wachowskis watch through)

- Summer by Ali Smith (I’ve been reading the Seasonal Quartet along with the seasons)

- One new release for every month of the year

- Book Riot’s Read Harder challenge

- Theoretically, a book off my to-read shelf at home, one for each letter of the alphabet, by author’s last name

- Non-fiction on various topics I love

- Books by Indigenous authors/art books for work

- As many new graphic novels as possible for an ALA thing

- Buddy reads with Jo

- Spanish learning books

- Dracula Daily

- Theoretically, books my spouse and I are reading out loud to each other (we’ve got 3 on hold currently)

-idk stuff that sounds good or i impulse put on hold at the library

5 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

#4

the phrase “horse plinko” is just so satisfying, bright and refreshing, I’m so glad I’m back on this hellsite

5 notes - Posted January 8, 2022

#3

wait where did the Nona stuff come from what is happening please explain

6 notes - Posted March 30, 2022

#2

Imagine someone being like “do you even know what kind of evil you face” and you’re just like “no and I will not ask you any more about it” and then getting on a train to meet a vampire like “lol might die who knows” like mr harker what are you doing

8 notes - Posted May 5, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

apparently I’ve been back on tumblr for SEVEN MONTHS NOW mostly just rebloging absolute bangers but what if I started posting every terrible thought I have here instead of on twitter

11 notes - Posted April 27, 2022

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Nice. (First year back since grad school and I missed y’all 😍)

[for-a-muse-of-fire]

love yourself challenge

I was tagged by @witchernonsense and @owillofthewisps - thank you, babies - so let’s give this a whirl!

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc. ) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

I mean, these are all going to be from my WenchWitcher series-thing because that is literally all I’ve written on this hellsite so far. So, in no particular order:

1) imagine being loved by me [Geralt x  Fem!POC Reader; Explicit] This was the first piece of anything I’d written in over five years and, subsequently, the first “part” of my series, The Wench and The Witcher. It was meant to be a one-off, but it turned out so well and I was so damn happy with it that I kept going? This story also currently has over a thousand notes on it, which just blows my fucking mind.

2) chivalry fell on its sword [Geralt x Fem!POC Reader; Teen] I love how Geralt and the Wench’s voices came through here. Geralt was what I was most worried about - he’s taciturn, and gruff, but there is a sweet quality to his character that I really love. He gives a shit, especially when it comes to people he cares about.

3) i will never grow so old again [Geralt x Fem!POC Reader; Explicit] Written to exact revenge upon my darling HoneyBee, this ended up being soft, and sexy, and a little raw in just the right mix for me. Also, if you haven’t heard the Hozier cover of the song I used for the title, go find it, you will swoon.

4) by the still of your hand [Geralt x Fem!POC Reader; Explicit] Honestly, I think this might be some of the best/filthiest smut I ever wrote and I’m proud of it? Which is a bit strange to say out loud, but there we are. Just. Really, who hasn’t daydreamed about being bent over a desk by Geralt of Rivia?

5) and the damaged love she made [Geralt x Fem!POC Reader; Explicit] Damaged people trying to navigate the complexities of a relationship? Fuck yeah. I adore Geralt, but you don’t go through that kind of trauma in your life and learn how to be an effective communicator. This ended up sexy and fucking sad, and it’s still one of my favorites that I’ve written.

I’m going to tag @whitewolfandthefox and @riviawitch3r , but y’all are under no obligation to play!

[ceasarslegion]

Alright. I’ve been studying film history all day in preparation for an exam tomorrow, and I’m sick of it. Time to talk about movies the way I Want To Talk About Movies

Those of y’all who’ve been around for the entire scope of my run on this hellsite know that the one hyperfixation that has been a constant for me is Marvel. It’s always there, waiting, watching... My favourite team is the X-Men, my favourite heroes: Wolverine, Quicksilver, Spider-Man, and Iron Man... name a Marvel movie and I’ve definitely seen it at least twice, and that was just in cinemas. I dare say Marvel is my special interest (Endgame doesn’t exist though)

Except for one. I never saw Logan again after the premiere I attended with some high school friends (gap years are a normal thing outside of North America you guys like what are y’all on going to uni straight out I fucking hate the American dream) and I don’t want to.

It was the best Marvel movie I ever saw. Hands down. Absolutely incredible. And I don’t ever want to see it again, because it fucking destroyed me. And in my opinion, that’s what made it perfect.

Buckle up, y’all, we’re getting into deep lore

When you think of a superhero movie, what do you think of? Actually, let’s narrow that down. When you think of an X-Men movie, what do you think of? Probably something like this, if not this exact scene:

Okay, let’s unpack: Apocalypse was by no metric the best team-up X-Men movie (I’d argue Days of Future Past for that title) but this scene kind of encapsulates the entire tone and storytelling style of the X-Men Cinematic Universe so far. And it’s just REALLY satisfying.

There’s danger. There’s so much danger. But it’s not really in the forefront of your mind, is it? The entire Xavier school’s about to blow up with every student, teacher, admin, and X-Man in it, and what do we get for playback but Pietro’s headphones playing Sweet Dreams from his walkman. We get spectacle as the entire world slows to a screeching halt to show how a mutant speedster as powerful as himself experiences the world. And we’ve already seen him in action in Days of Future Past, so we know he’s capable of saving everyone and absolutely will. That effectively eliminates all tension, because as the mansion explodes around him, it feels less like he’s running out of time and more like he’s moving along at a brisk pace. It feels like the explosion moves at his will, and we’re free to gawk at Pietro’s cocky antics once again.

Isn’t that what the X-Men movies are all about? An unapologetic embrace of how wacky and odd the comicverse is with a storytelling style to match? Danger feels far away, even the more serious plotlines like DoFP have this understanding that good always triumphs, the heroes are always good, and therefore the heroes will always triumph, no matter how great the adversity is. Jesus, even with Deadpool movies, you get this shit. I mean, remember the opening of Deadpool?

God, what a brilliant opening. This song is my go-to drunk karaoke song because of this, and I am a tenor. I didn’t say I cared about vocal matching.

Clearly, there’s a lot of violent shit going on here. And we know that Wade Wilson plays by his own rules in the comicverse, so it makes sense that he’d play by his own rules in his movies. But still, with all the filthy, uncensored danger in these movies it’s all lighthearted superhero wackiness. They always triumph, even though Wade Wilson is a total schmuck. But he’s a lovable schmuck, so we let that go. Wade always wins. That’s the superhero formula, as much as he makes fun of it.

Logan, though? Logan didn’t do that. With those two scenes in mind, I now implore you to watch the opening scene of Logan:

I... um. Holy shit. Directed by Martin Scorsese?? No, mans wouldn’t work on a Marvel movie if it made him a billionaire, that’s... just how it is. It feels like fucking whiplash. 

Logan isn’t necessarily a hero from this opening. We’re no stranger to the Wolverine berserker rage from past movies, but it’s always been directed righteously before. Now it had him carry out an execution because they damaged his car. He’s not heroic, he’s... old, and slow, and really hasn’t aged well. The tone here is brutal, and gritty, and altogether bleak. It feels more like a mob film than a wacky X-Men movie. I remember being in the cinema just slack-jawed and wide-eyed because what the FUCK

And it didn’t end there, because this film just got darker, and darker, and DARKER as it went on. Charles Xavier died a terrible death after a stint with dementia that completely broke him as the powerful psychic he was, Logan is broken from all the trauma of his life piled onto itself and then even more being shoved on top of that. Mutants are pretty much being hunted for sport, because the X-Men LOST. They LOST. It’s a superhero movie where the heroes lost, and that is the ultimate broken rule you can pull within this genre. Infinty War only teased at it, and boy howdy, did they do it badly. I walked out of Infinity War to a chorus of scoffed “yeah they’re not dead they’re a money-maker”s. I walked out of Logan a shell of a man.

It doesn’t end well, either. Logan doesn’t win. He gets the mutant children across the border, but there’s this sense that if the world is hunting mutants down then he’s only bought them a little more time. The violence is hauntingly realistic within the confines of the XCU, the hope that you’d expect from a big blockbuster superhero movie just isn’t there because Logan’s lost it, and maybe he was right to lose it. Because otherwise he’d be kidding himself.

I don’t wanna see Logan again because it made me too sad and hopeless. And I think that made it brilliant. I think that made Logan something great that was uniquely its own. This is a genre known for hope and resilience, and it gave us none of that. You go in expecting it subconsciously, even when you’ve seen the trailers, and you at least expect him to win, right? Logan’s not gonna lose, he’s Wolverine. Everything about this film is what I think the superhero genre could really use more of. I really like the wacky, out-there, scripted formulaic adventures because I get enough bullshit in real life and it’s nice to just have the fun misadventures of Peter Parker scaling the Washington Monument in Spider-Man: Homecoming sometimes. But those don’t really stick with me the way Logan did, even though I only saw it once when I was 18.

I love how Iron Man 3 explored and normalized PTSD in mainstream media. I love the father-son relationship between Peter and Tony: two characters who both lost father-figures, and one who never wanted to become his abusive father. I love how Thor: Ragnarok felt like a norse mythology fanfiction comedy adventure in space. I love how Black Panther gave an unrepresented group a hero who’s not just a lackey, but a powerful king worth like 200 trillion dollars who protects his people through a cultural tradition. But Logan really felt like it challenged every established convention of the superhero genre and pulled a “no, you move” on it. A lot of people cite The Dark Knight to be the most brilliant superhero movie, but in my opinion, that spot belongs to Logan.

I’d call it cinematic art, but Martin Scorsese might put me on his hit list.

[marialenikiforov]

Happy birthday, Meemee!

Before getting started with this sappy post full of love for @the-eros-experience , I want to thank everyone that answered the message of this crappy stalker or else I would have been unable to put all of this together.

Thank y'all ( @extra-vitya @yeahyeaice @can-we-start-again @theviktornikiforov-rp​ @vkusno-viktor @georgipopovich-voiceblog @yurioniceaesthetic​ @a-adventurer​ @yurisgodonice​) for participating in this little post of love and good wishes for Meemee.

Happy birthday, dude! I basically organized you a gangbang with most of your Victors! jkjk

⭐💫🌟💫⭐💫🌟💫⭐💫🌟💫⭐💫🌟💫⭐

ғʀᴏᴍ: @vkusno-viktor

Happiest of Birthdays!!! I always love seeing your posts in my notifications, they never cease to make me smile. It’s always a challenge to my inner writer to make responses worthy of the awesomeness you gift me with, but I love the way our thread sparks my creativity. I’m looking forward to where it takes us, and so happy that we managed to run into each other on this hellsite. 💕

ғʀᴏᴍ: @theviktornikiforov-rp I wish her the happiest of birthdays!

ғʀᴏᴍ: @yurisgodonice Meemee you have always been a sweet bean and I love the interactions I have with you! Your art and edits are amazing and I love seeing each and every one that pops up on my dash!! Happy birthday Meemee! and hers to many more interactions between Viktor and Yuuri! <3

ғʀᴏᴍ: @yurioniceaesthetic happy birthday! i hope you have the best of years!!! i know we don’t talk that much anymore, but i wish the absolute best for you!! :DDDD

ғʀᴏᴍ: @extra-vitya Blowing out another candle should mean that you have lived another year of joy, and that you’ve made this world a better place. Make every day of your life, and every candle, count. May your birthday and every day be filled with the warmth of sunshine, the happiness of smiles, the sounds of laughter, the feeling of love and the sharing of good cheer.

ғʀᴏᴍ: @can-we-start-again I’d like to say I adore her art, its really great to see each piece and see how much she’s grown as an artist. As well as her writing is phenomenal, characters have such a solid voice in her writing style. As well as her blog is a pleasure to follow and I enjoy seeing her post on my dash :)

ғʀᴏᴍ: @a-adventurer Happy Birthday Meemee! I hope you have a great day!

ғʀᴏᴍ: @georgipopovich-voiceblog Meemee, your name is two letters away from becoming Meme. Which suits, almost. The fact of the matter is, you’re funny as can be, and so utterly sweet, that I can’t help but wish you a big happy birthday! Between your awesome art (AKA, the penis suit you drew for Georgi), and your hilarious stories, and your uplifting snaps that keep me on my toes, I love you so much! P.S. I still can’t stop reading your tags whenever you post, because you’re a fucking comedian.

ғʀᴏᴍ: @yeahyeaice Dear meemee, First of all, happy birthday. I hope life brings you joy and love, through both calm and harsh times. I would like to take this opportunity to thank you. Our stories bring me great joy, and being a friend of yours is a gift I will dearly treasure.   Please know I am always here for you. With love, Yuuri. (Yeahyeaice mun)

ғʀᴏᴍ: me

Meemee, it will be very difficult to top everyone's birthday wishes and kind words to you, but I will try my best anyway.

My dude, it has been a while already since we started talking to each other and I feel so happy for getting off-anon that day. I never imagined that the person I admired was even better behind the screen.

I felt a connection with you since day one that I don't think I ever felt with a lot of people, we can talk about literally everything without judging each other.

We've been through a lot together, I want to thank you for always be there for me and I want to remind you that I will always be there for you as well.

It's been amazing to watching you grow these past couple of years, you've become more confident about yourself and that's so amazing.

Thank you for being my friend, although more than a friend, you've become a sister to me.

Happy birthday my dude, I wish you the best!

Thank you for being my friend, although more than a friend, you've become a sister to me, my nasty sister forever.

I love how we can talk hours and hours about everything without a filter of having to worry about what the other might think.

I love every single bit of your personality, how spiritual you are, funny, crazy, dramatic, kind and amazing you are.

I admire you for your art, your writing style but overall, I admire how you don't give up on anything. A lot of things have changed for you over the last couple of months and you've stayed strong anyway and learned new things in the process.

I love you slut, happy freaking 25 🌟

[pchlarz]

Minecraft could have such a cool lore and game mechanics

So I played minecraft since I was like 13 or something, when the thing was still in early beta. I still play it, but after half an hour tops I just lose interest and quit. The game isn’t challenging, the world seems empty and npc and animals like wind up toys than anything else. I know minecraft is a canvas you have to paint on, but I was always more into the idea of Minecraft as a world you have to tame and grow into. There are mods that do that, like rlcraft (which im not gonna play cause the lycanite mobs don’t fit into the games art style and ice and fire mobs are straight up unfair). And you know, since I have a script, dissertation, stop motion animation to do this semester for my Filmmaking Uni, I’ve been thinking about minecraft a lot. Procrastination, am I right my dudes?

I have no idea how to make mods, I can barely use Java to install Optifine for crying out loud, but I can write a couple hundred words post on this hellsite that no ones gonna read, cause it’s literally my first post, and no one can stop me! Also maybe somebody’s gonna get inspired and make it. No need to credit me, just let me play it XD

The World and Lore, I guess

So, let’s get one thing straight... Is the Minecraft world post apo? Like let’s be real for a second. The player is the only human specimen in the entire world. There are villigers that are vaguely humanoid, but they are definately “The other” some ofshoot of the human race than actual human beings. Zombies and skeletons seem to share the player’s anatomy but they’re undead, therefore dead, therefore had to be alive at some point. So yeah, let’s work with that! 

Let’s say that in a distant future, like distant enough for new subspecies of homo sapiens had time to evolve with enough pressure. The human world died after they opened the portal to the End. This allowed magic to seap into the world, boosting the technology but also corrupting people it cam across with. Like why is the Ender Dragon dropping more exp than your PC is able to handle? Cause she’s the source of all magic! Why do monsters drop it? Cause it’s what reanimated/mutated them. So according to this, fucking with the eldritch magic balls is what created the zombie virus, destroying the human race. Also the End is the moon. Like not our moon. Opening the portal didn’t just link the worlds together, it straight up teleported the End into the earth orbit, destroying the native moon and replacing it. And that’s why the monster’s only come up night, cause that’s when the End holds the most influence over the overworld. 

But what about the villigers? Just descendents of humans who have survived the apocalypse. Some adopted peaceful agrocultural approach to survive, sharing and caring and being lovely anarchocommunist communities. The other ones living according to the “Survival of the Fittest” evolving into the illigers. But that’s only the two races that are already in the game. Since it’s supposed to be a mod adding shit, lets get some new races! The dwarves have been talked about by the developers so let’s add them. Shorter and stockier than humans, with glowing eyes and not so much beards as just thick fur on their bodies. The underground is cold after all. Also descended from humans, this time those that had enough brains to burrow themselves underground.They just chill in caves, building something like big ant colonies. You could trade with them just like villigers, although instead of emeralds they’d want silver (We need like shitload of new ores, my good people). Oh, and they wouldn’t be pacifist like villigers, if you piss them off, they will mine you to pieces. You could also find them in random caves mining their own business (XD) and by business i mean resources you could mine yourself. And so if you’re a bellend, you could straight up murder them and grab their stuff and have your ores left unmolested. Or you could pay them off to share the loot, giving you a temporary partner with basically x ray vision, leading you to more ores, than you’d find yourself. But at the end of the day, you’d be obligated to split what you found 50/50, meaning that you could get more stuff than on your own, or less, depending on your in real life luck. Boom, reasons for morals. 

I’d like to see a basic faction system, based on which aspect of the game the player finds most appealing. If you’re the kind of a peaceful player who just wants to build and farm, the villigers are your people. They’d gladly take you in if you build, farm and trade for them. If you’re into conquest and looting Pilligers could use your skill to cut some Villigers throats. And if you want mining and exploration, The dwarves wll take you in. Ofcourse you can just be your own person and solo the entire thing, and no one will nag you. 

Character Customination and Skills

I want roleplay, man. Skins are cool but what if on one save I’m the peaceful farmer, developing my village and chilling with my bros, but on other I’m the fucking antichrist, burning them to the ground and taking what I want? Do I just swap my skins depending on what world i’m gonna play today? I quess I could, but that’d be hardly graceful. So let’s just put proper character creation into the game, with ethnicity, hair models and all that other bling. Ideally you’d also be able to paint on your characters if you want scars or tatoos or just dont want to look human. Clothing on the other hand would be a seperate system linked to the survival system. But more about the clothing system later. 

Also since Minecraft is getting slack for becoming more of an RPG when it got its full release, lets embrace that. I’d split them to Gathering, Combat and Crafting skills.Gathering would include your tool proficiency, allowing you to skip enchanting altogether while still getting some upgrade for your tools. Also chances for more resource drops or just getting new utilities from the tools. Any movement releated skills should also be there for simplicity sake. Combat is self explanatory, if we add different weapons types, than there has to be some incentive for specialization. Some skills for combat overall wouldn’t go unwelcome. Dodging, parry without a shield, throwing various weapons and stuff like that. Crafting would be for the new weapon customization, enchanting (including proper spell casting wands) and alchemy. But let’s not get ahead of ourselves with that. 

Custom Tools, Weapons and Armor

Doesn’t it bug you that on multiplayer server everyone just walks around in enchanted diamond eq, throwing all sense of individuality out of the window. Do you like the idea of roleplaying as a cave men the entire game, but the stone sword doesn’t really give you that opportunity? Well let’s do something about it. Instead of vertical tool and weapon progression let’s do it horizontally. Lets take a bit more realistic approach to crafting. Stone tools have to knapped and assembled, bronze has to be casted, iron hammered into shape and wood carved. All types of materials have their drawbacks. Knapping tools would just need you to pick a stone in your offhand and the crafting material of your choice in your main and right click. And from there you get the list of shapes you can knap your stone into. And after choosing the tool/weapon type of your liking you knap it again to customize the shape more. Do you want your hatchet to look like a primitive piece of sharp rock or a skillfully crafted tomahawk? Casts for soft metals and wooden objects would be made in the same way, just with a carwing knife instead of stone and wax or wood for the crafting material. Than just put your cast into clay to get a mold. Fire the mold, craft a crucible and pour the molten metal into the mold. Change the anvil from an enchanting tool into a proper workbench for your hard metals. Then craft some handles, guards or accesories and put them all together in your crafting window. Different materials would have different pros and cons. Stone tools have low durability but don’t have any wear mechanic. Wood rots, Soft metals can bend and have to be straightened and hard metals rust and have to be cleaned. Also no tool progression. What you can mine depends on your mining level. Right now you can easily get diamond on yout first day if you mine deep enough. Locking it over a skill tree would pace the games more high tier materials more naturally. Also diamonds are classed as knapped material. No diamond swords for you, but a diamond macuhuitl is totally cool. Just craft a wooden sword of your choice and add some diamond blades in the crafting. 

Armor would be split into classes, Light, Medium and Plate. You can’t make armor out of stone (so no diamond armor either, but you could encrust your other armor with it) but you can make wooden plate. Just for the heck of it. Different armor classes would affect your stamina meter differently. 

Guns!!!

I’m not a gun nut, but hey we have gunpowder in the game. Let’s add guns. But just the flintlock ones, atleast the ones made by the player. They could be made out of anything even stone, just for the heck of it. They would be crafted like any other weapon. But shooting them would be expensive with all the gunpowder you’d have to loot from creepers (I like the idea of dead creepers burning away, giving you only a short window to loot them) or craft from sulfur, a new rare resource. Still they’d pack quite a punch and make hella noise, bringing all the monsters to you. Also long reload time, they’re flintlock after all. 

Also lets adhere to an old fantasy trope and make them unenchantable. Their op as they are. 

Animals and Looting 

Just add more animals. Add more predators, so the day isn’t just a cake walk. Add predators hunting. Pray running from a player simply approaching. Give me a run for my food. Animals reproducing on their own. If you want to tame livestock or pets than you better hope for a rare domesticated kind of animals or trap and break them enough for them to let them eat from your hand. 

And what about hunting. If you manage to kill an animal, it doesn’t just disappear and live porkshops in the cloud of smoke. Every killed entity just turns into a corpse that you have to manually loot, while holding a sharp weapon (for simplicity sake). All of them drop their hide (acting kinda like armor with its own durability, on which depends how much letter you’ll get from it, thus encouraging clean one hit kills), a lot more meat (so you don’t have to slaughter an entire herd just to have something to eat) and bones. Also food would spoil now, to discourage hoarding it. But there would be workarounds like salting it or drying it for jerky. 

Various animal hides could act as trophies (if you’re a cunt) or for crafting special clothing items or beds (since proper wool would be much harder to come by now). 

Monsters and the Night

Same deal as in the main game. Mostly undead with some mutated mobs like creepers and phantoms. The only hostile mob I’d add would be Vampires, who would follow the player and try to score a hit while you’re unaware. Of course they’d be rather rare. Enderman on the other hand... Let’s raise them to the mini boss standard. When they were announced I was hyped, that they’ll be a proper horror mob that you could be genuinely terryfied of. But no, they just vibin’ most of the time. So let’s change them. Since in the new lore the undead are humans corrupted by magic, enderman should be the remnents of the humans who have gone and got trapped in the End, turned into the Dragons army. And now their job is to stalk you and kill you. You still have to look at them for them to turn hostile, but now they don’t care if you only looked at them from the distance. If they can see you and you can see them, they attack. Give them proper range. Let them teleport behind you to score a hit. Put blocks in your way if you try to run. They could pick you up and teleport with you next to ledges (they shouldn’t just be able to throw you over the edge, let’s give players a fighting chance). They should also steal more valuable blocks than just dirt. Let them target specifically blocks placed by the player, allowing them to pick holes in your defenses for other mobs to get to your house. 

The night itself would change. For the first couple nights there should be no monsters. The rise of the undead according to the new lore is the Dragon learning about the new human in the world trying to slow them down from discovering the End portal. But for the first few nights it would be unaware of your existance, letting you to get comfortable. But when the first full moon hits, The dragon saw you and she will let you know she sees. And from then on, every night the undead horde will rise to haunt you, only resting during the eclipse (since the dragon can’t see). On the other hand the full moon would be equivalent to the blood moon from terraria.  With mobs more aggressive, able to break your doors and forcing you to defend yourself. Also you wouldn’t be able to sleep during the full moon. If you manage to fall asleep, you wake up dead with mobs spawned all over your house. Also the mobs don’t burn in the sunlight. When the night ends, they just disapear like Enderman. 

The mobs right now spawn only on active chunks, but let’s add a lore reason for it. They’re targeting you. This is why going to a village means bringing the horde to them. And if you don’t fight or they kill to many, the viligers will add two and twoo together, banishing you from their dwelling. The illigers will just turn hostile. The dwarves won’t mind since the undead are plentiful underground anyway. 

Also give me my Overworld Dragons. Like proper fire breathing ones. Kinda like the ones from Ice and Fire but actually managable and not the size of goddamn school. 

Survival Mechanics

Let’s add thirst. You can’t just drink any water ofcourse, so while food means you have to scavenge or hunt, thirst encourages you to either find drinkable streams or distill the water. Eventually just drink juices or booze. Yeah, let’s add booze. Just for fun, with all the stuff i’d want to add the game wouldn’t be kid friendly anyway. 

You have to sleep now. Unslept nights cut your stamina meter by 25% while also bringing the phantoms to you. You can sleep without a bed, but you’re risking temperature debuffs and less stamina regen. 

Temperature. With adding seasons and all the clothing option it seems reasonable (also i loved it in don’t starve). To not make the HUD to cluttered I’d just display the temperature on your heart meter, having them freeze over for cold and dry out for hot. Dried and frozen hearts wouldn’t be included in your hp pool, meaning that temperature makes you weaker. You could fight the temperature with proper clothing, fire or ice. Although the hot temperatures would be more forgiving, just making you lose water faster and being managable with shadow from blocks. 

Clothes would have their own slots, be made in their crafting table and heavily customizable like banners and letter armor, giving proper use for all the dyes we have. They could also be drawn on like player skins. You could also wear some of them on armor, allowing for further character customization. They’d have their own durability, but be easily repairable. Aside from temperature protection they would be mostly cosmetic and if you don’t like the idea of having to wear a coat in the winter, just enchant your shorts with some frost protection. 

Hunger would be overhauled slightly, letting you to get fat from food. But just like in real life FAT IS YOUR FRIEND (just you now, moderate amounts). It let’s you absorb all foods value even with a full bar. Still to much of it will slow you down and make your stamina bar go down faster. Oh and it’s no longer your stamina bar, that’s a seperate thing now, indicated by a small lighting bolt icon above your exp level. Still a full food and water bar is nessecary for healing. 

Enchanting

Bookshelves no longer make the enchantments stronger. Atleast not the decorative ones. Instead you have to enchant books on your own hoping for the “Arcane Knowladge” enchantment, which can’t be put on anything but, if you put a book with it in the bookshelf it will raise the enchantment cap. So does leveling your enchanting skill, as well as allowing you to see what enchant you’re putting on your stuff, as you grow more fluent in the language of magic. Enchanting would also be more powerfull in the night, as that’s when the End - The birthplace of magic is the strongest. This also means that enchanting during the full moon would create the most powerful enchantments, if you can manage to enchant while the undead hordes attack. And they will try to get to you as an active enchanting table is drawing them closer. 

Different materials have different enchantibility. Pracious metals are overall more conductive, while obsydian might make fire enchantments stronger. This would come into play mostly when crafting staffs!

While Guns are unenchantable, Staffs are just weak pole weapons without magic. But enchanting them let’s you pick a spell for them, like lightinig bolt, healing, stuff like that. One staff can hold only one enchantment and casting spells uses exp points meaning that you’d need quite a big pool to be able to just be a mage. While staffs are two-handed you can also make wands to cast with your offhand. Ofcourse they’d be less powerful to balance things out. 

As the Anvil is now a crafting station, the Arcane Anvil would take it’s place made from obsidian and golden bars. While we’re at it lets also think about Arcane Chests to store your exp. 

Player Death

Why can the player just live after death? Well depends on difficulty. If you want to lose your stuff but keep the skills, it’s because the last humans put a spell on you allowing you to be uneffected by the corruption and also be linked into the world, cursing you to wake up from dying in the last place you slept, making you think if your death was just a dream. If you want a more hardcore experience then it’s because they cast a spell of reincarnation on you, so you don’t come back as the exact same person, having to work upon the achievements of your predessecors (I have no idea how to write that, I’m polish okay?). And if you just want straight up hardcore, they sent you to the future, with only one chance to make things right. Applies to the multiplayer, there’s just more of you that have been cursed.

If you find your dead body you can loot it. But on the reincarnation difficulty all the food, potions, weapons and armor you had will have long rot away. A lot time passed afterall. 

The Stronghold and the End

So if you actually read so far, I love you and congratulations. I’m writing this while I’m high, so it probably doesn’t make much sense. Still, thanks! 

So... Strongholds suck. Let’s get rid of them. Instead let’s put the End Portal in a new rare biome. The Ruins! They would be a large decimated city from before the apocalypse, now overtaken by vegetation with undead present even in the daylight. The magic is right in the heart of the city after all. The undead are much more powerfull here, some even having modern weaponry like assult rifles. They can be looted, but they’re all falling apart and you can’t craft them. But you could repair them and use them. They’d be end game unenchantable gear. Enderman also stalk the city, so you’d have to be prepered for them. You still find the city with the eyes of ender, but this time crafted with a compas and obsidian to create the Ender Compass, cause fuck throwing balls into the air. The End Portal is in the heart of the city in the special dungeon called the Crumbling Facility. It’d be a long parkour challange with you having to reach the top while also fighting for your life. “But Pchlarz”, I hear you saying, “You could just build across or up, this is Minecraft”. Well no, cause the building would be made from gravity affected blocks, meaning that if you do, the whole thing falls apart. As for building up, try to do that while being shot from every direction. What if the tower falls? Well, the End Portal awakes spawning more monsters and moving to the height limit. So now you would have to build straight up, while the Enderman teleport to your position and try to throw you off. But if you get there, the Portal is your to enter. 

And so you do. Before you stands a temple build in the center of the New Moon. The towers are still there and the Dragon still heals from them. The temple is built from blocks the Enderman took from you (not just them ofc) You destroy the crystal and fight the dragon. It picks you up, throws you around, breathes Black fire (purple is ugly, sorry guys). You chip at its health and finally you bring it to half. And thats when the dragon falls into the temple with broken wings. Now it’s a ground battle. Now you have cover, but the temple is destructable. It’s blocks affected by gravity. Finally you kill the dragon. It imbues you with its magic and drops it’s heart. Still beating, Scarlett and glowing. The Enderman stand around you, their eyes no longer white (yeah i dont like purple), but now inteligent with pupils. They seem thankful. You’ve won. The end stone around you starts crumbling, falling into the void. And there’s no way back home. You start to accept your fate. You’ve sacraficed yourself to end the Undead horde’s reign. And thats when an Enderman takes you by the hand. You walk to the edge of the crumbling world and gaze into the blue globe staring at you from the abyss. It’s the Earth. But you wouldn’t survive the impact. Not from space. That’s when you see the Enderman holding something, with his hand stretched out to you. He’s holding a pair of wings. The Elytra. You put them on, say goodbyes to the newly freed Enderman and dive into the world beneath you, watching as the tall figures behind you die with their dying world. 

You crush into the earth. With half a heart you drag yourself to safety. The Ender compass now points the way to your bed. You walk. Victorious. 

Endgame

So you’ve beat the game. What’s now? Well the Enderman are no longer hostile. And the dragon heart? You can put it into your alchemy station and turn it into the potion of resurection. While the zombie villigers could be cured with a golden apple and the potion of weakness, the human zombies need this one. The skeletons are to far gone, but zombies and vampires can be turned back. The Dragons Heart can never be used, but if you lose it, well it sucks to be you hero. 

With cured humans you can create a village and start rebuilding. You can have relationships with them, turn them into companions and even have children with them (i like stardew valley okay). And with their numbers growing it’s up to you if you will live in peace with new races populating the world or reestablish the human reign on earth. 

Okay this took me like three hours and the weed is wearing off. I think way to much about minecraft, maaan. Still hope you like it. And make this mod for me. I’d be grateful. 

[serenagaywaterford]

@volatilelovers​ replied to your photoset “ok so like i had a totally other purpose cos it was about me walkin...”

Ok 1) bra deets 2) I want ur dog I'm sorry I just I want to steal him 3) is this like no make up challenge? Hashtag real lesbian bodies? The airbrushing drives me nuts and soooo much so called lesbian content on tumblr is not realistic and therefore kinda lame imo but it's better than nothing. An embodiment person I follow started a series where ppl send in photos of different parts of their own body and idk this remind me of that. That and thirst trap obviously lmao

1) Puma! from Winners lol. It is SO comfy, ngl. The cups are those annoying bikini type removable ones and they can shift a bit but it’s nice and tight, but not too tight. I mean, Puma don’t make the most long-lasting, durable undies but they’re nice while they last. 

https://www.amazon.com/PUMA-Womens-Seamless-Graphic-Crossback/dp/B07XYGGLWM

Puma fits small tho. Like this was a medium, and it’s a bit small. And I’m just a regular 34-B/C (depending on the damn company ofc). 

I actually bought it cos of what we were talking about the other day and I was like “i need more sportsbras. sore boobies need gentleness, no more underwires.” (and i gotta say it has helped a lot it seems.) i honestly haven’t really worn sportsbras regularly since...like high school...... so this is all new haha. altho i’m now in the state where if i don’t have to wear a bra at all i won’t. (very different to even 5 years ago when i’d never NOT wear one, even to bed.)

2) he is stupid you can have him lol he has bad breath and won’t stop snuggling and licking toes. he’s a toe licker. he won’t give kisses anywhere else but if you have bare feet watch out. it’s disgusting lol

3) honestly i think that should be a hashtag. i mean so much of the “lesbian content” i post photowise is these perfectly shaped, photoshopped, etc women. probably most of whom aren’t even gay half the time. (the older ones i believe, and they tend to show more real bodies in older women. cos older women aren’t meant to fit in the ~tumblr aesthetic~ anyway.) but with the exception of one or two selfies, i don’t often see actual lesbian bodies here. lots of heavily filtered, posed, aesthetic photos of 18 year olds with perfect bodies. which is like... not most of us?  and to be totally frank, it took me so fucking long to be ok with my body and it wasn’t until i really accepted who i was (AND be around other women consistently naked and had it not matter to them) that i even was comfortable with it. like i’ve always been so, not ashamed, but shy. (and i know if you saw photos from when i was 19 and walking around in like no clothes you’d be like “are you sure? cos you look pretty confident in that teeny bikini or dress.” but inside i was very much not confident. i did it to fit in and be popular lol. sweet sweet (fake) validation, babey!). the self love that comes with being with other women is incredible.  anyway yeah so like i know how my body DOESN’T fit into the ideal aesthetic (and i’ve had plenty of comments in the past irl about my lack of “womanly”/”child bearing” hips, skinny arms, etc etc. the hip thing always kind of made me laugh tho cos i am always like “well, nature knows! good thing i never want kids then if i don’t have the hips for it!!”) but i think it’s important for people to see regular bodies around. like yeah? a little tummy? i used to be devastated by that (and doctors thought i had an ED cos of it) but i’ve come to accept that it ain’t going anywhere cos i’m a female and that’s just how it’s meant to be. esp as we get older. (and my wife insists it’s cute. cos i was skinnier when i met her and she’s like “you look so much better now”, which is similar to the time i lost a lot of weight to get rid of that tummy specifically cos it’s used to be a Big Thing I Hated, and once i put back on some weight my granny was like “oh thank god. you looked really sick before”.) and esp when you come from a culture that doesn’t have more body acceptance. like the first time i went to iceland and to the pool and all the women were just wandering around naked, in all ages and forms, and with zero shame, i wa slike WHAT IS THIS WORLD??? it was baffling to me. cos even in change rooms here it’s quite i dunno hush hush (altho not men’s locker rooms cos i’ve spent a lot of time in those when i was the only girl on the hockey team and they’re just boldly naked and don’t give a single fuck. but women’s lockerrooms? always a bit more...i dunno.). except old ladies who don’t give any shits whatsoever. but all ages there, just going about their business--and i STILL felt insecure which is crazy. i was stared at more for NOT being buttnaked. even the kids were like “wtf”. i want that sort of casual, easy body acceptance and lack of fear of judgement. and i didn’t even shave my pits here (it’s been weeks)... and i forgot until i posted the photos... and then i realised, it seems really obvious to me irl but then i look at the photos, and i’m like “shit, it’s not really noticeable is it? i’ve been freaking out all this time over nothing???” that was pretty stunning tbh. i didn’t realise til i took the photo that it’s not this massive deal. anyway i’m just sort of sick of the “young, thin, hyper-feminine so-called lesbian with long straight hair and sexy undies” ideal (esp when softly touching other young, thin, feminine so-called lesbians). my god just searching “lesbian” on this hellsite is 95% that exact content (that isn’t a comic or illustration which is the only way to see real bodies lol how ironic). god forbid there’s a butch in sight, even a soft butch, or normal body, or natural bush/hair, or tomboy that isn’t super feminine. (the only tomboys allowed are the cute ones with the hipster shirts and backwards ballcap with long hair and perfect eyeliner). we get the occasional professional athlete but that’s it. (where are the regular athletic women, the sporty, muscular women, not hyper-feminine tomboys? where are the stone butches and big old ‘i don’t give a shit bout anything’ dykes? the women who exist outside the ideal BMI and age range? nowhere. cos it doesn’t fit the virgin tumblr aesthetic. it’s not “pleasing” to the majority of users here cos they’re so accustomed to only seeing one type of “lesbian”) but beggars can’t be choosers. and so i reblog the slight bit of shit we do get lol. i dunno, if i was an 18 yr old lesbian i’d be so worried cos i don’t look anything like these girls and no one else i know is either. so just a regular ole boring lesbian body here and it’s imperfect by social standards but it’s fine by my own. tbh i think it’s pretty cool that normal people send in photos of their bodies, just regular, imperfect, everyday people to counteract the mass of bullshit on social media where everyone is so fucking fake. (i assume that’s what you mean by the blogger you mention. i’m guessing it’s not photos of perfect, filter-heavy body parts etc.) and i think in a weird way, being seen --not necessarily validated for it tho-- helps your own ability to appreciate yourself. like not hiding it. just taking that step and posting “this is my leg” esp if you’ve been insecure about it. and you don’t even need the “omg what a beautiful leg! leg power!” sort of social media cheap validation stuff. just the act of posting it. (and i mean...i don’t mean porny, thirst photos to get likes. just... you know normal shit. although i would TOTALLY post my bush if it was allowed just to knock it home that it’s natural. and NICE. and we need to see it more. and i don’t mean in a porn way either. but in the way we see women in art or science books. nonsexual. like that goop episode LMAOOOOO) just as a “this is what it is”. and we all need a little more bodylove i think. and it’s hard to do that when all you see is the insta and tumblr ideal aesthetics absolutely constantly. but i mean i really did just want to show off the bra ...which then turned into showing off the dog lolololol cos he’s ridiculous.

[gryffnwing-blog]

Where have I been? Ode to some bullshit I’ve been seeing and feeling.

Well, it’s been a while since I posted anything relevant (Aside from when I stream). So where did I go? Why haven’t I caught up on the Challenges, and other such posts?

I’ve been working on a post for days to explain why. That’s pointless.

Simply put, I’m tired. Sick and tired.

Tumblr, like other forms of social media. It’s a draining experience. Though with other sites, I can leave, no problems. Unfortunately, this is a blog. I kinda have to be here. My goal was to set up a blog to help let people know when I was streaming, or posted things on Youtube. Well, for a variety of reasons I have my Youtube Channel hidden. Namely  because this site just exudes hatred towards content creators (Yup, basing this off of a particular incident that happened earlier in the year). Now the post I was working on was going to call out the adults that cause trouble for people liking things...policing things that they shouldn’t. No one would care enough to read it. I’m just tired of how toxic people are on this site. I’m tired of having to explain to people that their arguments are loosely held together with tweets that have no time-stamps. I’m sick and tired of people complaining about how X thing is “problematic”, and not realizing people can still like the thing, and not actually do what said thing is about. I’m sick and tired of people going after one another over ship’s, and art or art porn, or just anything that can be solved by the block button.

Yeah, we have literal fucking Nazi’s marching in the streets, and have them blogging on websites. For the love of God, that’s a serious thing. Yet some fucking people on this site are screaming about how a 12 year-old drew a hetero couple...Christ, those of you who do that...get your priorities straight!

There is so much garbage happening in the world. We have a constant 24/7 access to news coverage..and about half the time it’s not even giving us the whole story. We are glorifying pain, distress, sadness in the world. Don’t get me wrong, the world is full of it. Yet some of you are so hell bent to go “The world is shit and ending. Haha, I’m happy about this!” Or you see a post where something God-awful has happened and go “I wish that were me”. Firstly, you need help, secondly...there’s fucking children on this website. Don’t expose them to those thoughts!

“But there’s porn on here!” 

Yeah, you’re right. There's also a filter button, and a ton of things to help block that from underage eyes. No reason to delete that. Stronger filters, yes. Also, arguing that there’s porn on this site is a straw-man. Stop exposing kids to the idea that “Suicide is a solution”, or that they should want terrible things to happen to them.

That’s another thing. Can we stop glorifying suicidal thoughts, or depression. Trust me, it ain’t fucking amazing.

For the first time in many years, I’m finally making an appointment to see a therapist. Yet again, it’s not something to go “OMG, I totally wish this was me!” Listen, if you need help, get it. I understand that many people are fearing the health insurance crisis in the U.S, but as of right now we can get it. Please, help is a good thing. Sometimes we just need words that aren’t familiar to us, to be said. Sometimes we know what we need to do, but to have a stranger hold us accountable. 

Lastly, I just hate how some people pretend to care about content creators. Like I see this post going around and telling people to “reblog” the content, or the new one that says “Don’t reblog the content, just the person’s info!”

Christ, the people who post both of those...that I follow..follow me, and follow some amazing artists...can you guess what I’m going to say? They. Don’t. Fucking. Reblog. The. Fucking. Art. Or. Articles. Or. Anything.

Yeah, I’m fucking guilty of this too. I. Will. Try. To. Fix. That.

You like the content and can’t give money to it? Link their posts, reblog them, remind people how fucking much you love their work. At least with this site, content creators can see when someone mentions them, or sees the reblog. We love that shit man. 

Just don’t reblog “how to help”. Be the help!

I’m going to post and finish the past Commander Challenges. I’ll stay here, on this fucking hellsite. I’m no longer going to mask who I am. I am not as knowledgeable like the Professor, nor can I give out them good beats like Dev, hell I don’t know the market or look as good as Rudy. When I game, I’m not as energized like Jacksepticeye, or any of the other fun to be around You-tuber's. I’m not Boogie, who can give a smile at the end of every video. I’m a 20-something dude in the upper part of the States, who just likes to game, likes to talk about it. Heck, would like to make money off of it one day. 

I’m still growing as a person, and perhaps I’ll get to do and be like those mentioned above. Maybe I’ll be successful. I’m just not always the smiling sort. Momma didn’t raise no quitter, a quilter perhaps. I’m going to look for other outlets to post my works on. Perhaps when  I do, I’ll just link to them here. Again, I’ll post the past works I owe. As for the future, I don’t know. While I have a handful of mutual’s who I consider to be online friends. Aside from them, I doubt anyone gives a shit where I go. I’ll post when I stream and stuff for now, but I think that might be it.

I know many may not like what I just said. I had to get it off my chest though.

TL;DR/ This site is toxic. That’s why I haven’t posted. Will post owed works, but don’t know about the future. If you like a creator’s works, fucking reblog it. Be kind to one another. Get help if needed. Take care of yourself. The world isn’t ending.

Thank you, if you did read it.

Gryffnwing

[a-real-magical-girl]

I was tagged by @narglez to do one of these question things... so here goes nothing!

1. what’s the first chapter book you can remember reading?

A series of unfortunate events, I think.  I learned to read when I was about three, so I don’t remember a lot of firsts when it comes to reading.  In fact, I don’t even remember learning how to read lol, it was like I always knew how...

2. have you had any teachers that hugely impacted your life?

Mr. Holden, my english teacher for the tenth and eleventh grades.  He’s one of the only men in my life that hasn’t fucked me over.  Aside from that he was really kind, in his own way, and challenged me by giving me harder assignments and grading me more strictly, which is what I needed at the time.  He was the only person who believed in me as a human being, not just as some smart kid.

3. what was your favorite tv show growing up?

Probably AtLA, or Teen Titans.

4. which fictional character do you most identify with?

Hmmm, that’s hard.  My personality is kind of an amalgam of characters I imitated growing up, and there are little bits of Hermione Granger, Sakura Haruno, Katara and more in my head.  I always identify with Zuko, especially after all the shit went down with my dad, but currently I connect with Yuuri Katsuki a lot, being a chubby, anxious wreck who gets shit done anyway.  Also my dog died during a pretty important time in my life, and I quit ballet after a hellish season when I was about 12, but still love dancing despite it.

5. how messy is your room right now?

It’s pretty bad.  I mean it’s organized, but it’s so small that it looks messy no matter what, especially with all the art, sewing and knitting supplies I have to keep in there...

6. do you have anything from your childhood that you know you’ll never use again but you just can’t bear to throw away?

Not that I know of.  I throw shit away at the drop of a hat.  And all the emotional stuff from my childhood either got lost or my dad took it away and never gave it back.

7. do you collect anything?

As a kid I collected penguins, and I still like getting them as gifts, but I don’t actively collect them anymore.  I kind of collect photos?  Like when I’m out and about and I see something that matches my aesthetic™ I’ll take a quick pic for later...

8. who was the first person you ever had a crush on?

Uhhh...  Probably Sara, the girl who taught me how to play the drums.  I fell hard for her, man.  I actually ruined our friendship confessing :/  On a sidenote she’s a crazy good musician so go check her out rn: https://www.youtube.com/user/SaraHartmanVEVO

9. what’s your favorite article of clothing that you own?

Probably my hoodies?  They’re warm and soft.

10. do you have any interesting/funny stories about losing your baby teeth?

Uh, I guess?  I lost all my baby teeth super early.  My twelve year molars grew in when I was about 6 and my wisdom teeth were in by the time I was 14, but weirdly enough they never hurt or caused any problems.  They’re still in my mouth.

11. how cute do you think i am?

THE FUCKING CUTEST.  THERE IS NO ARGUMENT ON THAT.

So I think I’m supposed to write questions now??

1)  First anime you watched? 2)  What would you dream home be like? 3)  If you could travel anywhere on earth with unlimited funds and no consequences, where would you go? 4)  How long have you been on tumblr and how did you get on this hellsite? 5)  Favorite book? 6)  Coffee, tea or hot chocolate? 7)  Dawn or Dusk? 8)  What is one of your favorite memories? 9)  Do you have any self inserts or written/drawn self insert fanfic/art?  10)  What were your early internet days like?  Did you play on neopets or rp on forums etc? 11)  Any goals for the future you’d like to share?

I tag @hardcoremagicalgirl, @demigod-who-crashed-the-impala, @skeletonpendeja, @skeletonpendeja, @wbtrashking @ffortissimo and anyone else who wants to!  Also you totally don’t have to do this if you don’t wanna