#helllll fucking yeah lmao

[casfuckinggwinchester]

People out here acting like price field shippers are insane and "insufferable" for being annoyed at the lack of Chloe so far in this new game, of course we know she most likely will be mentioned or show up but frankly many of us made our peace with never getting another game about max or Chloe at all so this new game being dropped on people and Chloe being seen as an afterthought when she was the major plot point in the original games is gonna piss people off. Seeing a game you love and adore potentially being rewritten 10 years later? A LOT OF US ARE AUTISTIC BRO, CHANGE ISNT EASY COME ON!!

That isn't to say I hate the new characters or the premise of this game, I'm pretty intrigued already and of course Max deserves to move on from Arcadia after Chloe's death but erasing the other option under the guise of respecting both endings isn't respecting both endings.

For a lot of people, max and Chloe were the first LGBT game rep we'd seen, of course people cling to something that made them feel seen in the closeted years of their life?

Sure could people be less vocal about Chloe since this is a Max game, yes.

But frankly it feels like a kick in the teeth when the comics exist and paid respect to both endings and both of the main ships.

But yeah sure we're just not real fans 😂

God I hate how you can't be annoying online about stuff you care about anymore without being dubbed insane or insufferable.

Where else am I gonna be annoying about the fictional characters I care about?

Of course we know it's fictional, if it was real I'd be more rational lmao

Fucking helllll

[sevens-evan]

hey dude! i’ve been rly interested in weightlifting lately and u have got the mightiest guns in the land, are there any youtube channels/videos u might recommend for a beginner? it’s difficult to sift through the “GET THICC QUICC” schemes and influencer damage in fitness channels n stuff. hope you’re doing good B) and maybe i’ll see you in the summer?

helllll yeah. i will put this under a cut because it is SO long and i have so many fucking thoughts on this topic

honestly it's very hard to recommend fitness channels just because so many of them are terrible lmao. a lot of my information i get from instagram, i recommend sean nalewanyj and claire zai as people who are generally science-based, although the first guy does a lot of weight loss stuff bc he's a bodybuilder so like. ymmv. but he does sometimes talk about biomechanics and anatomy and those videos are really solid.

i think basically the best thing to do is get a basic understanding of muscle anatomy? i.e. your quads work to straighten your knees. and once you know that you know that any exercise involving straightening ur knee against resistance is going to work your quads (squats, leg extensions being the big ones). biceps bend the elbow, triceps straighten the elbow, etc. if you know what each muscle does you'll be able to spot someone doing a bullshit exercise from a mile away. this is what sean nalewanyj's videos are pretty good for, he calls out a lot of bullshit exercises that go viral on tiktok or whatever and explains why they're dumb. very useful for picking up anatomy stuff.

nutrition stuff tends to be WAY harder to find good information on and my solution to that is to simply not worry about nutrition. eat a lot of protein if u wanna build muscle but other than that i don't worry abt it.

also SOOOO many of the men in the online fitness space are freaks. so many red pill weirdos, pickup artist types, misogynistic little freaks. unfortunately many of the science-based guys are even like this. i have learned many a useful gym tip from men who i would kill given the opportunity. this isn't helpful i just hate it kjhasdg

in conclusion. creators to avoid: athleanx (full of shit never listen to anything he says ever), william li (annoying), obviously anyone who claims to have the Big Secret to fitness. people who claim that if you do an exercise "wrong" you will 100% get injured (this is a very complicated topic but anybody talking in absolutes is not coming from a science based perspective). also ben yanes on instagram, he is so wrong about everything and so smug about it i wanna fight him in an alleyway

OH a great creator on instagram is eugene teo! i don't use his paid app but his instagram content is actually very helpful and he busts a lot of myths and also. kinda hot.

i have many more thoughts if you have further questions alskjdgh. also yes you will probably see me in the summer, i will be in town guaranteed and possibly working at [REDACTED]

editing this after posting but the other big principle to be aware of is muscular failure. google it basically you want every set of an exercise to be Hard. you wanna almost not be able to do the last rep or two

[im-not-a-virgo-im-a-lesbo]

Oh helllll yeah

Barely any difference, but I want more piercings, and the lack of jacket means I want to stop feeling so fucking cold all the time lmao

Tags!: literally any anybody who wants to join

starting a tag game cause i'm bored and i hate my notifications :D

WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE IRL

WHAT U WANNA LOOK LIKE

picrew: here!

tagging @random-doctor-on-the-internet @cataperat @discoveredreality @ladykiller-yt and @midnights-dragon

[kurna-kovite]

kaoru as a vampire hehe

MAAANNN dont even get me started. idk if you've seen buffy the vampire slayer but that shit changed something in my brain chemistry so some type of vampire au is always a given

my initial concept for anything like that was kaoru a vampire slayer and hikaru a vampire because idk i just want them to fight? there's more at stake (haha) but even if one of them is soulless I don't think they could ever kill their brother. anybody who's actually watched btvs will be like "🤓☝️ um ackshually spikes mom and angel-" shut the hell up. brotherly love trancends boring old hetero romance and spikes mom.

even if you haven't seen it I love the concept? banger shit. hell yeah hellll yeah did I mention helllll yeah

since you brought up kaoru as a vampire it just. lmao. Hikaru is fucking dumb hed be like "u can take my blood whenever you want :]" and be 100% serious. and I love that for him, subservient little bitch boy

its also why i lean towards vamp hika and slayer kaoru cuz yas girl slay but. it boils down to the fact that hikaru would be like "aw shucks" if kaoru became a vampire, but kaoru would be PISSED if hikaru became a vampire, 100x this if he warned Hikaru to be careful a thousand times before. he'd be so fucking angry because he's also covering up the fact that he's devastated that his brother is actually just straight up dead, even if he's walking and talking like usual. I love emotional torment for kaoru.

also means that kaoru is NOT chill with just hanging out with a vampire dude. like hello human killer and also my dead brother? no instead kaoru is ready to fucking murder him again, though strangely enough he never gets around to doing that, no matter how many times they fight and he wins. that's so weird innit

tldr love this dynamic bc its so lovers to enemies to lovers except they never stop loving each other. Hikaru gets to prank and tease the shit out of kaoru like :3 while kaoru grapples with the idea that because he couldn't save his twin lover I mean brother, he has to kill him instead. good shit

sorry anon if i crushed your vamp kaoru dreams. unfortunately i have created a vampire au in my head long ago and used this as an excuse to share it

[sodacowboy]

BRAIN OFF ONLY ORGANIZATION

[bunnywan]

obi-wan for the character asks? 👀

can do, anon <3

favorite thing about them

this is hard because there’s next to nothing i don’t love about obi-wan lmao. but if it really came down to it, i would have to say it’s just his goodness. when matthew stover said, “he is modest, centered, and always kind. he is the ultimate jedi.” HELLLLL FUCKIN YEAH. that’s my shit right there. i slurp that right up with a straw. he is so good. i always think that you could take away obi-wan’s skills, his lightsaber, even his connection to the force; and he’d be no less of a jedi. he’s that good. and it’s a choice. obi-wan could’ve veered off the path a million times. but every time, he chose the light, because for him, there isn’t really another choice. it’s just who he is.

also, he is super sexy.

least favorite thing about them

welllll. this is weird because it kind of clashes with the fact that i love obi-wan just being above everything and not sinking down to anyones level, but occasionally… i would like him to be more of a bitch. sometimes he deserves to be a bitch! remember when bo-katan said “i thought she meant something to you” ? personally, i think obi-wan was well within his rights to be a bitch. ma’am you were a terrorist five minutes ago and now you are trying to guilt trip me into cleaning up your mess? (true sw fans blood boils when watching a cartoon.)

favorite line

“look what i have risen above.”

honorary mention: “anakin” (derogatory/affectionate)

brOTP

i really love obi-wan’s relationships with his fellow jedi, especially the one’s he grew up with, like quinlan, luminara, and even siri. i loooove fics where it’s just like 17 year old obi-wan vibing. and i adore when people appreciate the relationships and community of the jedi!!!

OTP

obikin (duh). “kenobi and skywalker have become a single word.” jesus christ.

nOTP

codywan. i’m sorry. it’s just not clicking for me. maybe it’s because i think a lot of codywan shippers write cody to be playing a role in obi-wan’s life that i think belongs to anakin…? sometimes i’ll read fic to try to get into it, but then i read a line like “there’s no one obi-wan was closer to than cody, no one he trusted more” and i’m like. are we talking about the same star wars lmfao.

random headcanon

he listens to neutral milk hotel.

unpopular opinion

pre-mustafar obi-wan doesn’t hate himself. soooo many fics about obi-wan’s apparent self loathing and fragility when that’s not who i see him as at all. he’s one of the strongest bitches to ever exist. (post-mustafar, go ham with the self loathing tho.)

song i associate with them

strawberry blonde - mitski

in a hoe kind of way: music with your dad - nasty cherry

favorite picture of them

fucking LOOK AT HIM. it was hard to choose between this obi-wan, talking to the younglings w yoda obi-wan, and sitting in his council seat w his big dick obi-wan. honestly i could have picked any picture of obi-wan ever.

[apenapaperandadoofus]

RFA+V reaction to a really dotting and strong MC who spoils them rotten and literally babying them so much , like she just carry them everywhere and spoils them like her baby 💗

Oh wait I want a relationship like that 🥺

Can I have someone who just carries me around everywhere? Pretty please?

RFA+V reaction to a strong, dotting MC:

Zen:

So at first he’s actually intimidated by you pft

Especially when you show how strong you are!

He’s like dayummm

When you become a couple, he flushes easily when you spoil him!

He’d be flirting with you and then all of a sudden you turn it around on him, and you will be smooth as helllll

He loves it!

As for being carried around, he’s sort of like meh about it

He’s not used to it!

It’ll probably take a while too

(Also don’t tell him I said this but he’s actually pretty jealous about how strong you are- oop)

Yoosung:

This boy

Jesús christ

He will become so fucking spoiled

You have turned him into a little brat

He will L O V E it when you spoil him like that

There will be points where he will even just raise his arms so you can carry him

Everyone in the RFA is actually kinda done with him because he’s become such a little bitch lmao

I mean, at first he tried to act like he didn’t like it since he wanted to be like a super macho man™️

But then he got into it pft

Jaehee:

This woman is shooketh

I mean she’s not used to be so spoiled

But she likes it

Oh hell yeah baby

She will just come to the point where she yearns for your touch

The first time you carried her she let out a surprised squeal (also she almost judo chopped you because you got her from behind and she got scared for a sec pft)

But honestly? It wasn’t that bad

She will also try to give you tons of stuff in return

Cookies, coffee, cakes, whatever you want, she will make it for you!

Honestly that’s awesome and I want a Jaehee to cook for me because I can’t do shit lmao

Jumin:

Are

Are you sure you want to spoil him?

Because

It will literally become a war

He will spoil the shit out of you, and then you will spoil the shit out of him, and so the cycle repeats

Also you all of a sudden start carrying him

He’s surprised at how strong you are but he just accepts it

He’s like oh welp this is my life now

Honestly tho, he actually kind of enjoys being spoiled because he’s normally the one who spoils

And he just thinks you’re adorable

Saeyoung:

What have you done

When he finds out that you can carry him he will literally ask for piggy back rides EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY

And just to like, walk from the kitchen to the couch

Also he will definetly want to see which one of you is stronger pft

And when you spoil him he always becomes so happy, because he’s not used to it

He loves it

Also he will be a total baby if you stop paying attention to him for like five seconds lmao

V:

Gasp he’s never been carried like that

He’s like oh my god I love them

Also yes, please spoil this brat he needs it

He will just

He will be so fucking happy

I mean he was always the one giving in the relationship

But now he’s giving and receiving so he’s so happy by the way you just spoil him rotten

Also he will spoil you too because he wants to show how much he loves you too :)

[cuubism]

Tag Game - Artist Edition

Rules: it’s time to love yourselves! choose your 5 favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world. tag as many writers/artists/etc as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

tagged by @silver-latin-and-salt! ❤

fantastic, an excuse to go on a rant about my own work and be blatantly self-promotional. helllll yeah!!! ✨ 

1. dissolution, aka “how much angst can I fit in 42k words.” I’m really glad people seem to like this because it took me like 3 1/2 months to write and while I was trying to edit it I truly wanted to lie facedown on the floor and never move again. The fact that I’m now trying to write a sequel is a great demonstration of my masochistic streak. 

something I like about this is that I shattered several hearts with it including my own. and the fact that the entire premise is basically a fuck-you to the boundaries of reality. which is my general MO 

2. in the palm of your hand. My first true WIP. I experience so much fear when I look at this because it’s basically just some TWI headcanons that spiraled way out of control and now I have to write a 100k fic, oh god. 

however I do like the world building I’ve been doing (lord knows there’s a lot of world to build in TWI) and also the truly excessive banter

3. Violet. this turned out surprisingly well for something with a somewhat risky and dark premise (suicide attempt first meeting). I think it’s also the fic that I’ve gotten the most requests for a sequel to, so maybe I’ll get around to writing some more at some point.  

4. Two Hands. This is literally based on a meme lmao. But trust me to take even that and make it angst. this is just my fav brand of Magnus-centric hurt/comfort, which is always a good time to write. 

5. a feeling easy as life. now this right here is what we call “Niche Content.” This is like... I don’t even know what this is. It’s like experimental prose or something. I wrote this in a 3 hr blitz during the middle of finals, because I have just incredible self-control. But! I love it.

tagging @facialteeth, @bytheangell, @ladymatt, unless you’ve already done this, in which case -- disregard! ⭐

[tellywoodtrash]

khkt 28.08.19 lb

gosh, every girl deserves a mother in law like veena. saas ho toh aisi ho, warna na ho.

mummy is well aware that Raja Beta is a handful.

mild resentment feelz i am having that she expects sona to put up with that and fix her son.

ouff, i don't like this aunty. like i sympathize with the character and all, but......... her acting annoys me.

also her hatred for rohit better warrant some actual fault by him, like making a fatal mistake while operating (that a surgeon of his level should have known better than to do.) yeh nahi ki she's just mad at him for a random medical happenstance that he couldn't actively avoid.

lol nishi is suchhhhhhhh a jalkukdi. whatever stereotypical auntiness is missing from veena, koot koot ke ismein bhari hai.

yk's wry smile is everything.

yk reppin #teamSonakshi.

nishi is like oh helllll naah, not in my bedroom! this is a sonakshi-free zone!!!!!!!

askkkk her yk, ask her!

god nishi you are so elitist.

of course i'm not for sona being put to work at the age of 12, but maybe that's the only option suman had in order to raise the family on her own? it's not morally right, but then survival tactics rarely ever are.

oh ho, yk reminding her that he isn't from a family that is exactly comparable to hers either.

yeah, i find this especially disingenuous, coz nishi was grumbling about sonakshi not being sindhi, and yk isn't either? (isn't his surname kapoor or kumar or something?) why is she applying all these cut-off qualifications to rohit's spouse when she didn't while choosing someone to marry herself?

yup, typical desi hypocrisy, ki jawaab nahi hai toh incredulous topic change.

she's so easily distracted, like a magpie.

ugh.

nosy chachu yahaan bhi taang adaa rahein hain. but for once i welcome it. adaao idhar, please adaao! aur iski moti akal ko thikaane lagao pls!

lol ajit, you know they're faking and you're still shipping them. i love you, you idiot. you are truly this fandom’s in-show proxy.

ajit family ka game show host bhi hai. waah, mera multi-talented chutku!

lmao rohit's face knowing badi mumma is gonna choose them.

sonakshi's bitchface of the night #5.

oh god suman ko call to get permission for her to stay later, ffs, she a grown woman, could you stop calling her mom like she's a 7 year old over at your place for a play date????

ajit tu pitega. aaj bhi pitega.

ohhhhh newlywed's game haiiiiiiii.

relationship mein clarity in dono ko khud nahi hai, aap logo ko kya dikhayenge?

first question about gussa.  

rohit, honestly, how fucking dare you???????

also this moment has the same energy as........

joke i forever love: someone angrily screaming that they do not get angry.

............ i don't think the sippys get how to play this game. if one of them says "woh", the other is supposed to agree and say "main". this is them contradicting each other at every question.

did rohit hold up "main" for the forgiveness question?

"lekin rohit toh kissi ko asaani se maaf karta nahi."

uh yeah, easy forgiveness is for small shit like not renewing her license or feeding him karela or something. NOT FOR CHEATING ON HIS MOTHER AND HAVING A WHOLEASS LOVECHILD THAT YOU GOT ADOPTED INTO THE FAMILY. (the audacity of men, is2g.)

oufffffffff. yk coming in with a heavyyyyyyy one: "tum dono mein se zyaada pyaar kaun karta hai?"

pffffffffffft. both should have put up "main", then it would have been hort-crushingly romantic. i iz disappoint.

(also rohit ne sonakshi ko abhi se easy liya hua hai???? he at least should have put up "main" since he's the one pretending to be so in love with her????? hmph.)

ugh. don't care. i don't care about any of this nonsense until raima actually wakes the fuck up.

my question is, itniiiiiii gracious aur wholesome family mein rohit aur nishi kaise paida ho gaye?

cutesttttttttttt. i love her soooooo much.

i guess ravi bhaiyya is that trusted, if they're discussing this in front of him??? we're absolutely sure he won't go spill to vimmi????

sona is honestly too good for anyone in this damn show. a whole different planet itself for my queen! it shall have only puppies and kittens and kids below the age of 12; other pure beings who can never hurt her heart of solid gold.

yup, canon-confirmed that ravi bhaiyya is trustworthy. so it’s sona/ravi/ajit/mom, in terms of rohit’s secret-keeping inner circle.

ohhhhhhhhhh great. raima's gonna be in some hospital in mumbai. asdlkjfdslkflsdkj lord, why?????

oh thank god, he didn't see Angry Friend.... Hitesh? Ritesh? some "itesh", imma just call him Angry-tesh from now on.

ouff this aunty's acting is intolerable cruelty.

phew.

also, metaphor samajh rahe ho aap? raima’s gonna appear outta nowhere, literally come in between them, but then slip away off to her intended destination (wherever that may be), so roankshi can ultimately unite.

ouffffff, too much deep meaning nikaal diya maine traffic situation mein se.

ouff too cute, end of first date type squishy smiles.

"itna sudharaa hua dr. surgeon mujhe digest nahi hoga."

ugh, she a masochist, like all other tellywood girls. sis, learn to accept and expect respectful, good behaviour from men. have some fucking standards, pls.

oh boy samaaj seva type rambling.

... which has given rohit a social justice waala boner.

(the only boner we all should be having in these dark times. in 2k19 we only fuck with people who are into radical compassion and equal rights for all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

"kitni alag ho tum.... raima se."

ughhhhhh, had us in the first half, not gonna lie.

ok but if raima was so hyper and restless, then how did she calm bad boy rohit down???? does not compute.

"woh jitni restless thi, tum utni suljhi hui."

god, this fucker has no sense on what to say when. literally no one in any situation ever wants to be compared to an ex, rohit. esp. one that you're so painfully hung up on. and that's what sona's face is screaaaaaaming.

lol ok sona that's a dumb question. a really dumb question. you know why.

jesus h. christ will someone please get this man to therapy?????? fucking hell, y'all own a damn hospital, surely you have SOMEONE in there who can help??????? fuck!!!!!!!!!!!

[baekhvuns]

Yeah I was caught can't even defend myself, sighhh. Take me to jail 🥴

I know it's lethal that's why I shared it with the rest of the class <3 omg really but why didn't anyone write it for Hwa (at least to my knowledge) when all the material is THERE, like the belly chain... come on 💀 gonna write it in my head I guess

Seonghwa wouldn't have to wake me up during storm cause I would be awake anyways jhshussyhesusg he would receive no comfort from me I'm afraid

Jaydusuahdhsha I had an earwig come to my room last night fucking helllll they're out of control?! Also why do they have to big bugs almost all the time, why not smaller ones?! Please I wanna become the Queen of insects but idk how to achieve that status

Good luck on your San era hehe, you including Hwa in your San fic though 🤡 Shinestar clown behaviour. I'm not opposed of course. I don't know that San fic I only read a few stories for him but that sounds hilarious as fuck 😭 demon San getting rejected

I saw Hello82's tweet about "studying Europe" guess they read all the outraged tweets lmaoooo the way artists see North America and look away from Canada, rip 💔

Package things nicely ahahaha- 🙃🙃🙃 bestie I'm gonna recruit my friends to help me cause that shit is annoying and exhausting. Yeah 10 video calls in the span of 2 weeks is so weird, doesn't stop some idiots though I just know I'll be seeing the same problematic bitches post their vids and people will spread them 🔫 I need to snatch some of their calls then. Overthrowing the environment noooooo 😭

I will gladly donate to your cause in exchange for more Seonghwa fics 🥰 you deliver Seonghwa I deliver some legs

I wrote my dream down, kinda... for some reason I can't upload screenshots, but I don't wanna spam too much, so I will try later, it wasn't very exciting lmao at least from what I remember. But his behaviour 🙂🙃

Uhmm why is San handcuffed, helllo first Wooyoung in chains in Wonderland now this 👀 I'm sorry though I'm entering my Mingi era again, Choi San you're still my bias, but I'm looking at Mingi... also GIVE THEM THE EYELINER THE SMOKEY EYES I'M BEGGING THIS IS THE RIGHT CONCEPT FOR IT. Also it's funny how they droppef Matz's pics at a totally different time than the rest, they did it for me I think they wanted me to witness Hwa in real time ❤💔

Hope you and your arms get better ❤😭

Also Ateez on Sunmi's Showterview idk how I feel about her hosting but SEONGHWA DANCE GASHINA WITH SUNMI PLS PLS I'M BEGGING. But apparently the show is supposed to be more serious? Hmm such a whiplash after Jessi's hahahah

AND YUNHWA JIGGLE JIGGLE TIK TOK?!?!?! Seonghwa is weird he's a weeeeirdoooo 🥰 and them mesmerising hipssss

P.S. I binged Spy x Family (anime) and it kinda reminds me of Mr and Mrs Park, my main personality trait aka consuming media and putting Seonghwa in it continues, the show is so funny and wholesome I didn't expect it 🤧 I even ordered the whole manga set already - DV 💖

hi hello!

Yeah I was caught can't even defend myself, sighhh. Take me to jail 🥴

LMFAOOOO rare dv anon moment, will absolutely never forget jVDNWBDNW TAKE TO JAIL?? TAKE TO HALL OF FAME

I know it's lethal that's why I shared it with the rest of the class <3 omg really but why didn't anyone write it for Hwa (at least to my knowledge) when all the material is THERE, like the belly chain... come on 💀 gonna write it in my head I guess

ARRESTED 🔫 ON SPOT 🔫 no FR THO THE MATERIAL IS THERE tho some ppl have written the nsfw stuff with the chain idk if anyones rly expanded on it 😭😭😭

Seonghwa wouldn't have to wake me up during storm cause I would be awake anyways jhshussyhesusg he would receive no comfort from me I'm afraid

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭😭 imagine just the two of u being scared shitless while trying to give each other comfort and act all mighty but with every thunder u guys just flinch 😭😭🤚🏼

Jaydusuahdhsha I had an earwig come to my room last night fucking helllll they're out of control?! Also why do they have to big bugs almost all the time, why not smaller ones?! Please I wanna become the Queen of insects but idk how to achieve that status

A FUCKING WHAT 😭😭😭???????? GIRLIE BRKQHDKW U GOT SOME PARTY GOING ON OR SOMETHING 😭😭😭🤚🏼 OR OPENED A B&B FOR BUGS 😭😭🤚🏼 LMFAOOOO FHWKFHKWHFKW NEXT TIME THEY COME THRU THE WINDOW ITS JUST U SITTING ON THE BED WITH SOME TIARA 😭😭😭

Good luck on your San era hehe, you including Hwa in your San fic though 🤡 Shinestar clown behaviour. I'm not opposed of course. I don't know that San fic I only read a few stories for him but that sounds hilarious as fuck 😭 demon San getting rejected

LMFAOOOO SEONGHWAS NEVER LEAVING HIS SERIES COMES AFTER TWO ONE SHOTS ANYWAYS FBWNFHEJ 😭😭😭 it was rly funny he tried twice but the girlie kept rejecting his ass 🤚🏼🤚🏼😭 “can we do this tomorrow?” “you said that yesterday”

I saw Hello82's tweet about "studying Europe" guess they read all the outraged tweets lmaoooo the way artists see North America and look away from Canada, rip 💔

JDJDJDJDJD NO WAY 😭😭🤚🏼 manifesting ateez concert for u ✨✨🤌🏼 or fansigns and all the hwa pc’s FBMABDKS NO BC ITS SO SAD LIKE ITS LITERALLY 30 MINS AWAY FROM THE U.S 😭😭🤚🏼

Package things nicely ahahaha- 🙃🙃🙃 bestie I'm gonna recruit my friends to help me cause that shit is annoying and exhausting. Yeah 10 video calls in the span of 2 weeks is so weird, doesn't stop some idiots though I just know I'll be seeing the same problematic bitches post their vids and people will spread them 🔫 I need to snatch some of their calls then. Overthrowing the environment noooooo 😭

JDJDJD do u guys also have those business cards 😭😭🤚🏼 NO HEY THAT SOUNDS SO MUCH OK ID BE FIRST IN LINE TO HELP 🔫 omg….totally forgot about problematic ppl sTOP there’s gonna be toe showers and stuff too pls NAURURURURUR snATCH THEIR CALLS JVDKJVDKSV

I will gladly donate to your cause in exchange for more Seonghwa fics 🥰 you deliver Seonghwa I deliver some legs

i accept this deal absolutely absolutely 🤲🏼 LMFAOOOO U GOT IT WILL BE WAITING FOR THE SHIPMENT FBFB

I wrote my dream down, kinda... for some reason I can't upload screenshots, but I don't wanna spam too much, so I will try later, it wasn't very exciting lmao at least from what I remember. But his behaviour 🙂🙃

oh 👁👄👁 pls do share absolutely i am all free bc guess who got miss rona <3 bc of a parent <3 fbwmfhkw HIS BEHAVIOUR WHAT DID HE SAY WHAT DID HE SAY HELLO HELLO FJWNFSHDKDHKW WILL THIS PICTURE TRIGGER U

Uhmm why is San handcuffed, helllo first Wooyoung in chains in Wonderland now this 👀 I'm sorry though I'm entering my Mingi era again, Choi San you're still my bias, but I'm looking at Mingi... also GIVE THEM THE EYELINER THE SMOKEY EYES I'M BEGGING THIS IS THE RIGHT CONCEPT FOR IT. Also it's funny how they droppef Matz's pics at a totally different time than the rest, they did it for me I think they wanted me to witness Hwa in real time ❤💔

OH????? MINGI ERA???? DO I HAVE TO PULL OUT MY MINGI WIPS????? AYO???? 👁👁👁👁👁 PLS SOMEONE EDITED WOOYOUNG WITH SMOKEY EYES ON THE TEASER BUT UNFORT I CANT FIND IT JGBENF no bc is there a reason for it 🔫🔫 i just be thinking they saw our reactions to it and said “lol sorry” and them posted at right time BUT TODAY WE GET ANOTHER CONCEPT PHOTOS??? CANNOT WAIT BC SEONGHWA 😭😭😭

Hope you and your arms get better ❤😭

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 miss rona came <3

Also Ateez on Sunmi's Showterview idk how I feel about her hosting but SEONGHWA DANCE GASHINA WITH SUNMI PLS PLS I'M BEGGING. But apparently the show is supposed to be more serious? Hmm such a whiplash after Jessi's hahahah

idk how to feel abt hers either bc jessi RAN that show with all her might,,, she made it POPULAR FBWKDHKW STOP U ALREADY KNOW HES GONNA START DOING IT FIRST THING 😭😭😭 o man is it??? hopefully its mot the awkward type of serious 😭😭🤚🏼

AND YUNHWA JIGGLE JIGGLE TIK TOK?!?!?! Seonghwa is weird he's a weeeeirdoooo 🥰 and them mesmerising hipssss

LMFAOOOO SEONGHWA WAS VIBRATING JFBWKDBWKFB petition for hwa’s stage name to be changed to shakira bc his hips do not lie 🔫

P.S. I binged Spy x Family (anime) and it kinda reminds me of Mr and Mrs Park, my main personality trait aka consuming media and putting Seonghwa in it continues, the show is so funny and wholesome I didn't expect it 🤧 I even ordered the whole manga set already - DV 💖

AYO???? i..ayo i kinda see it BFKWHD NO BC SAME I WILL INDULGE SEONGHWA IN ANY MOVIE IM WATCHING AND THE WAY ID HAVE TO LOOK AWAY AT CERTAIN TIMES no bc imagining seonghwa in 10 things i hate abt u as heath was my 13th reason 😭😭 IT IS SO FUNNY FBFBFB TRULY ABSOLUTELY omg do u rmr maid sama 😳🤚🏼

he.

also choi san

[asmolbirb]

Hey! For your AMA, are you into Voltron?

HELLLLL YEAHHHHH I AM

@coconutkay got me into it but honestly the biggest reason I finally succumbed is because shiro won me over

Like shiro was hot as hell and Coconutkay was like “watch it” and I was like fuck it yeah why not! I can finally understand where this attractive anime man comes from

Anyway I have a lot of Feels TM but the BIGGEST feel is: when the HECK will lance get the backstory he deserves!!!!!

ALSO DID YOU HEAR THE NEWS ABOUT SHIRO ANON DEAR IM SO EXCITED (although this does mean that once again I fell for a gay boy fuckin fml lmao story of my tragic life)

[lobotomiez]

ok i was trying to avoid this but ive been tagged for it like 6 times i dont even remember everyone who tagged me

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

last

1. drink water

2. phone call my friend eden bc joya and i went outside but she didnt have her swipe card to get back inside and i dont have access to their dorm so i called eden to come let us in but she didnt actually need to bc some ppl came by and opened the door

3. text message one of these 🙌🏻 to my class group’s chat abt our paper

4. song you listened to “my old ways” by dr. dog

5. time you cried WATCHING LOVE, SIMON

ever

6. dated someone twice? not even once

7. kissed someone and regretted it no ive only kissed 2 friends when we were drunk

8. been cheated on nope

9. lost someone special not,, really? ive lost ppl but i wouldnt call them special

10. been depressed lol

11. gotten drunk and thrown up yeeah only once tho i think?

fave colours

12. peach

13. forest green

14.  probably lavender

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends uhh i think so?

16. fallen out of love nope

17. laughed until you cried yah

18. found out someone was talking about you nope

19. met someone who changed you i guess so 

20. found out who your friends are yeah

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list not in the last year

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl all...

23. do you have any pets my kitty!

24. do you want to change your name no

25. what did you do for your last birthday uh.. i think nothing.. one of my friends brought me an arizona and stopped by for like 5 mins.. at least i think that was my last birthday?

26. what time did you wake up today first alarm went off at 9:00 but i didnt get up until 9:36 or so and then was late to class but the professor was later so it didnt even matter 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night probably sleeping

28. what is something you can’t wait for spRING BREAK IM GONNA GET A TATTOO IN SEATTLE AND HANG OUT W JOYA AND EDEN!!!!

30. what are you listening to right now ladada by dr. dog !

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom uhh my cousin’s name is thomas does that count?

32. something that’s getting on your nerves my finger wouldnt stop bleeding so i put a bit of tissue and tape on it and its kinda annoying in a more general sense my skin is annoying as hell these days its so dry on the lower half of my face but kinda oily on the top and im breaking out rly bad rn!! even tho im on an acne med!!

33. most visited website probably this hellhole

34. hair color boring brown

35. long or short hair short but im gonna grow it out to a bob length which is still short but long for me

36. do you have a crush on someone idk if its a crush but i think this guy in my music class is really cute his name is sam

37. what do you like about yourself uhhh not a lot my guy but i guess my music taste

38. want any piercings? i would love a bunch of ear piercings all over and maybe a lip piercing 

39. blood type red

40. nicknames uhh none exactly one (1) person is allowed to call me tess and its None of u

41. relationship status single and unloveable 

42. zodiac gemini

43. pronouns they/them or she/her irl 

44. fave tv shows its always sunny in philadelphia, the office, psych, monk, i also rly like ap bio so far idk if its a fav yet but i enjoy it 

45. tattoos soon!!!! it’ll be a hand holding a flower

46. right or left handed right but i can do stuff w my left too 

47. ever had surgery uhh wisdom teeth

48. piercings norm ear piercing and septum 

49. sport what the fuck is a sport

50. vacation i went to the netherlands and then germany in like 2013 that was really fun 

51. trainers shoes? i almost exclusively wear boots namely my docs or converse or birks if its warm out

more general

52. eating nothing rn but i just had dinner which was a sad tasteless pad thai, broccoli, a slice of pizza, an eggroll, and some cereal (welcome to college) 

53. drinking water

54. i’m about to watch probably something on youtube but i also need to look at the course schedule for next semester bc i have an advising  meeting tmrw and i have no clue what i want to take 

55. waiting for ?? spring break

56. want a slushee sounds so good rn

57. get married yeah probably

58. career a psychiatrist hopefully or something similar

which is better

59. hugs or kisses i love hugs but i also havent had a Real kiss so idk but also im weird abt mouth hygiene so there are very few ppl id be ok w kissing so anyway hugs i guess

60. lips or eyes uhhh both? nice lips are important if ur gonna be kissin em

61. shorter or taller i dont care actually

62. older or younger this question is creepy, cancelled

63. nice arms or stomach all arms are nice and all tummies are nice

64. hookup or relationship relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant usually hesitant but i can be a troublemaker if im in the right mood

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger lol no

67. drank hard liquor helllll yeah

68. lost glasses dont wear them but never lost sunglasses or anything

69. turned someone down yeah

70. sex on first date lmao

71. broken someones heart i highly doubt it 

72. had your heart broken nope

73. been arrested no

74. cried when someone died yeah,,,

75. fallen for a friend nno

do you believe in

76. yourself lmao

77. miracles no,, i believe some wild shit happens coincidentally??

78. love at first sight i mean u could be attracted to someone at first sight and then fall in love w them if u develop a relationship w them but its not love if u’ve never even talked to them

79. santa claus i wish

80. kiss on a first date ??? how does one “believe in” this it either happens or it doesnt 

81. angels nah 

other

82. best friend’s name emma + a lot of others i consider best friends

83. eye colour brown/hazel

84. fave movie oh shit,, maybe love, simon 

85. fave actor hhh... charlie day??

i tag whoever wants to do this bc its rly fuckin long

[the-drakeboys]

Okay. alright, here we go. I am so READY FOR THISSSS. 

[disclaimer: this is essentially a play-by-play of reactions to the story, lol, so if you haven’t read it yet, READ IT FIRST. AND SERIOUSLY, READ IT, IT’S AMAZING.]

“The Edge of Sleep” is already such an intense title and I just know that I, myself, madame, I am not ready.

Even though I just got done saying I was ready, but…… listen, I never said I’d make sense. 

ALSO CAN I JUST SAY THAT THE SUMMARY FOR THIS IS ALREADY BONKERS LIKE WHO ARE YOU

Okay so the opening literally had me flashing back so hard to Finding Nemo when Marlon is carrying Dory through the jellyfish field. Absolutely wild. Lmao. very cool in the best way

“It’s not what I thought the end would look like… there are no bodies in the streets, no burnin’ cars..” maaaan… are we already gonna make annie feel things

THIS DREAM IS SO TRIPPY WHO IS THIS WHALE AND WHAT DOES IT WANT

Okay but why is tommy this way.. Just waking his buddy up like that wtf let’s throw hands cant just be callin people psychos left and right

Just kidding tommy i will always love u

Also ‘next time… bring better presents’ 1) ungrateful ho, and 2) that is MEGA CREEPY

Ginger ale is fantastic

I CANNOT IMAGINE THE BOREDOM OF BEING A NIGHTWATCHMAN. Admittedly night at the museum did make it seem infinitely cooler than it probably is… “Dum dum give me gum gum”

“I don’t like root beer” well shit sam, you like GINGER ALE they are nOT that different sir

They’re like an old married couple i swear to god

The fact that sam took the pills back despite the carpet hair. GROSS, SAMUEL. 

“Just… tryn’a get used to sleepin’ alone.” bruh. Welcome to the club, kid -- bUT HEY who is she and what did she do, i want name and address asap immediately

I like tommy’s idea for the tinder bio. I’d swipe right

CRYSTAL? THIS GROWN ASS MAN WAS STILL WITH A WOMAN NAMED CRYSTAL

Love sam just shutting tommy up because he can’t deal lmao. Like ‘bruh did you just compare me to the creeps you met in iraq with wives and children’

Uh oh. Creeper van in the parking lot. This can’t be good. 

TOMMOTHY WHY ARE WE GOING OUT BY OURSELVES 

Is it fkn crystal calling my boy sam rn… can she fk right off please oh my word

Oh my god… he’s so nervous… and then the way he just gives in and tells her the truth and says he misses her… noooooooooo… i’m not okay…

Oh fuck THIS GIRL GHOSTED HIM? AW HELLLLL NO. boi if she don’t apologize right the fuck now and make it right. That is absolutely not how you handle ending a relationship no matter how you slice it

Condition?? What condition… why wouldn’t they be able to go to movies or museums? I feel like such a ditz… 

SHE… she… she was sleeping with a fucking knife under her mattress? What the shit? What was going on???

“I know that’s what you believe.” jesus..what a gut punch.

Oh my god you literally said it was like someone had punched him to the gut someone please end me

ANSWER THE QUESTION CRYSTAL-- DID HE DO ANYTHING--

Bruh of course she didn’t. Am i surprised? I should not be surprised. 

Yeah tommy no shit the van’s sketchy, i could tell it was sketchy from the second you mentioned a pedo van chillin with the gotdamn engine on in your parking lot in the middle f the night. This… this is not hard to put together x_x

I do not like the way this van smells. Does this shit have a bomb in or on it? I’m not excited. This is about to be so bad. 

Oh, just a wide smile and wild, crazy eyes. Sure, he seems normal. Totally fine. I also do not like this childish tone of voice. Wtf is this

OPE -- TOMMY IS SNIFFIN THIS MAN’S BULLSHIT OUT. OKAY. 

Oh, fuck. HE GOT ‘IM. FORT CARSON AINT GOT BCT BOIIIII. GET WRECKED.

Oh. oh oh oh. There is a woman tied up in there. Help me lord this is fucking STRESSFUL who signed me up for this ride i wanna go home

Your daughter my ass you unbelievable creep

nO. NO WTF HE GOT AWAY?! NO WAY WTF OH MY GOD D:

The stickers on the back of the van...hmmm.

Sam no do not go to harry’s what are you DOING

Jordan you are not at all put together my friend

Honest to god i am not in the mood for this either there is a WHOLE LOT GOING ON and i jUST WANT ANSWERS

I don’t know why but “dude’s fuckin’ toast, bro” absolutely took me out lmao

Okay listen now i am officially freaked out. She had a sling on? Wtf???? And this guy wants to fuckin kick his ass if he ever sees him -- I am lost for words.

Samuel why would you wake up harry this sounds like a terrible plan

Okay what the fuck is this. So this must be it… harry dead, huh??? Shit dude, my stomach would be in the floor, too. x_x

“‘He’s not breathing..’ Sam whispered in terror.” D: THIS SENTENCE BRUH iM IN TERROR TOO. JUST SOME MOLLY, JORDAN? JUST SOME MOLLY--

Wait i’m forgetting that i know the premise of this, uhhhh.. BUT STILL JORDAN WTF

I’m so sorry but the ‘MOTHERFUCKER TAKE MINE’ caught me off guard and I laughed lmao sorry harry 

The hospital is just not about to be the best place… but then again… if everyone’s dead… I just realized jordan is about to be part of this survivor’s group, isn’t he? <.<

Oh nevermind he’s literally leaving lmaoooo. WHAT A DOUCHE.

Hey uhh Crystal better not be dead, that’s all I have to say. I will literally be so fucking crushed. 

Dude. driving up to the hospital just to find the nurses and doctors *crying*? There’s nothing more unsettling lol WTF. can you imagine. And she just has him lay Harry down on the sidewalk, Jesus H. 

SAM I DONT WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOUR ANXIETY OKAY JUST READING ABOUT THIS IS GIVING ME PALPITATIONS

“What kinda hospital is this?” is absolutely the right question. Too bad he has no idea what he’s walked into lol

I cannot even COMPREHEND what I could pOSSIBLY do in the event that a nurse looked me dead in my eyes and told me all of their patients were dead. I can’t imagine. Like what. 

OKAY WOW HOLY COW WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT A ROLLERCOASTER TO START OFF WITH. I can’t believe how intense this is!!!! D’: I’m so overwhelmed.

Marlo, doll, this is so unbelievably inventive. How long have you been cookin’ this one up?!!? It’s like… there are so many moving parts, so many elements here, and I am absolutely LOVING it. I love that we find Sam in this place of emotional and romantic turmoil, and there’s so much mystery in what’s happened with his ex-girlfriend, and his friendship with Tommy is just hysterical (lol). I’m very hopeful that we get to see Joel and Ellie at some point :3 and Nate and ‘Lena and-- well, you get it lol

Your writing just gets better and better, endlessly. I am consistently blown away by your attention to detail and your obvious love of your characters. It all comes through in vibrant colors and I can’t get enough of it. You put so much thought into every word and it shows. 

I am dying to know what happens next!!! Where does Sam go, what does he do?! Does he find Crystal? Will she ever tell him what he did? How long can they survive without sleep? Will anyone find a cure? What will Tommy do, how will the group come together? and what the everloving FUCK is the deal with the whale?! WHAT DOES IT MEAN?????? AGH. I WANT TO KNOOOWWWWW. 

I’m so sorry this took me so many days to write, but I LOVE IT and I CANNOT WAIT FOR MORE. I love you so, so much!!!

-annie <3 

The Edge Of Sleep (Sam Drake x Fem! Reader AU) Part "1": The Whale

A/N: Hi, everybody! So, this is a new thing I've been working on and I wanted to write and publish it because I feel like I've lost touch with writing angst.. That being said, this is going to be all kinds of sad, depressing, yet refreshing and - hopefully - as suspenseful as I'd hoped it would be when I wrote it. I drew inspiration from a podcast of the same name, a book I read before called "The Blue Elephant", and a heap of horror thrillers I've watched.. This story combines all characters from the two popular Naughty Dog franchises: The Last Of Us and Uncharted, and it re-imagines them in a thrilling, new, and unique post-apocalyptic scene. If you see any familiar names, that person is exactly who you think it is. Sam IS Sam Drake. Tommy Miller IS Tommy Miller.

SUMMARY: When a night watchman (Sam Drake) finishes his shift at work, he is terrified to discover that everyone in the world who went to sleep the previous night has died. Now he and a band of survivors must stay awake and uncover the secret of this global epidemic, before they fall asleep.

Tags: @the-drakeboys , @missdictatorme , @samdrakeftw , @sicparvismyass , @marshmallow--3 , @unchartedterritoria , @bapyess1r , @hrgnm , @purplezebra68 .. If you wanna be on the tag list, lemme know! :3

Warnings: Use of drugs, heavy language, and death.

Word-count: 5.4K~

Stay awake..

Stay awake..!

Stay— Stay awake..

Stay awake.

Stay. Awake.

Stay! Awake!

"Stay awake.. Stay awake.. Stay awake!"

"July eighth.. It's a beautiful day.. The sun is shinin', the birds are chirpin', and..

Everyone's dead.

It's not what I thought the end would look like.. There are no bodies in the streets, no burnin' cars.. No hoards of zombies pickin' up survivors.. Nothin' like that..

It's more like the world went to sleep and.. never woke up.."

_________________

The first night, before it began.. I'd dreamt I was under the ocean.. I was walking in a field of sea grass.. Tall, green stalks loomed over me– swinging with the dark water current..

As I pushed through the weeds, I could see something glowing..

I followed the light, letting it guide me through the grass..

I came across a whale. It was glowing– Like an old neon sign..

Seaweed dangled from its mouth.. Or maybe it was growin' there.. Like a great, long beard..

The whale was enormous.

The size of a battleship..

It was like a sea monster right out of an ancient myth..

The beast turned to me, and spoke..

"What did you bring me..?"

"Nothin'.." I answered.

"Check your pockets.."

I checked my coat and found a bottle of sleeping pills..

"Give it to me.."

I didn't question the whale.

I uncapped the bottle.. And the whale sucked the drugs into his mouth, creating a sort of vortex in the water..

He suddenly started glowing like a slot machine, displaying about a hundred different neon colors in under a minute..

"I have a message for you.. Beware.. of the elephant.."

"I.. don't understand.."

"Next time.. Bring better presents."

…

……

…….

"Sam.."

"....."

"Sam..?"

"...."

"Sam!"

"Huh?— What?—"

"What the fuck?"

"What..?!"

"You just dumped your pills all over your desk."

"No, I didn't."

"Look.."

Sam looked down, his shoulders sagging upon the sight of his little, blue sleeping pills scattered on the desk and some all over the floor,

"Oh." He glanced into the empty medication bottle, "Shit.." He sat back in his chair, the back of his hand resting on his forehead as his eyes closed.

"What the hell, man? Were you asleep?"

"No! Not—" He looked his co-worker in the eyes, sighing a little, "Alright– Yeah."

Tommy, Sam's friend and co-worker, started laughing lightly.

Sam huffed with a smile, "Man, I just had the craziest dream.."

Tommy chuckled, "No joke, man, you were mumbling in your sleep.. Then you started throwing your pills all over the fuckin' room."

Sam frowned, "Really?"

"Yes! You psycho!" Tommy pushed on Sam's shoulder gently and jokingly.

"Shit.."

"You alright?"

Sam waved him off, "Yeah. Yeah, I just.. I need a minute."

"Well.." Tommy stood up from his chair, "Take all the time you want. I'm gonna stretch my legs." He looked over at an absent-minded Sam, "You want anything from the machine?"

"Uhh.. Yeah. I'll take a Ginger Ale."

"Right— One Ginger Ale, coming' up." Tommy swung the door to their shared office open, softly closing it after he stepped outside.

Sam worked as a nightwatchman in a Tech. Company on the outskirts of Palo Alto, California. Most nights it was just Sam and Tommy. They'd spend their shifts talking about anything and everything: Sex, sports, politics.. Whatever helped them pass the time.

When it was just the two of them in a hundred thousand square foot office compound it felt like they were the only ones left in the whole world..

"No Ginger Ale tonight, buddy."

Tommy walked in with two bottles in his hand, attracting Sam's attention from his computer as he checked all the security cameras that were planted outside the facility and inside of it.

He sat down next to Sam, placing a bottle of beer on the desk,

"I got you a root beer."

Sam sat straight and looked at the bottle with a raised brow, "I.. don't like root beer."

"Tough shit."

Sam sighed and rolled his chair back and reached into the pocket of his Jeans, "Alright– I think I got a dollar in my pocket–"

Tommy stopped him, "It's on me, brother. Happy fourth o' July, man."

Sam chuckled at his Texan friend, rolling his chair back in, "Thanks."

"Here, I brought you some chips too." He threw the yellow bag of preserved potatoes on the desk and Sam reached for it, sitting back with a sigh and crossing his legs over the desk,

"Why're you so good to me?" Sam asked with a smile, shaking his head as he opened the bag of chips.

"Because I'm stuck with you in this shit hole." Tommy replied after downing his chips with beer.

"Fair enough." Sam opened his beer bottle that greeted him with the sizzle that made him smile softly.

"Jesus.." Tommy looked down, "There's still a couple of pills under my desk." He picked them up, "You want 'em?"

"Yes. Yeah, I do." Sam chuckled.

"They've.. got some hair on them.."

Sam shrugged, "I don't care." He stretched out his hand, "Give 'em."

Tommy shook his head and handed the blue pills over, "Yo gotta be careful with those things, man.." He said, watching Sam screw the bottle of medicine back on after putting in his pills, "I had a friend down at the hospital who was on this crap and, one night, he woke up in his car in the parking lot of his kid's school." Sam smiled lightly as Tommy spoke, "He had no fuckin' idea how he even got there– He didn't remember how he even got out of bed and hopped into his car."

"I know.." Sam's smile dropped, "I know, man.. It's.. just a temporary thing, though. I'm.." He paused and sighed, "Just.. tryn'a get used to sleepin' alone.."

Tommy raised his brow and smirked, "You need someone to keep your bed warm?"

Sam rolled his eyes and took a sip of his beer.

"Give me your phone." Tommy leaned forward and reached for Sam's phone atop the desk.

"No–" Sam quickly snatched his own phone and clung to it.

"Come on! I'll do it for you."

"No way."

"Yes. Tonight's the night, brother— I'm signin' you up on all the datin' apps– We're doin' this."

Sam groaned and threw his head back, letting Tommy slip the phone away from his hand.

Tommy laughed a little, "It's easy– You just write something like, 'Hi. My name's Sam. I'm forty-three years old and I'm weird as fuck', then you swipe right, swipe right, swipe right!"

"Sounds like the worst video game ever.."

"Except, it's better than a video game; because you get laid."

Sam sighed and shook his head, "I'm not ready, man.." He chewed on the inside of his mouth, his mind stuck on one thing and one thing only– more like one person, "Just.. Maybe next week."

Tommy frowned, "What the hell are you waiting for? It's not like Crystal's comin' back."

Sam shifted uncomfortably and put the bottle down, his body language upset and disappointed and— quite frankly— all out of hope..

"Aw, what?" Tommy looked at him with narrow eyes, "Was she the only one who understood you?" He mocked, poking Sam's arm, making him pull away and glare at him, "Are you so fucked up that you're worried you wouldn't ever be able to feel loved again?" Tommy laughed a little, "What a bunch of bullshit.. I knew a bunch of creepy men in Iraq and they all have wives and children. Listen to me— Once you're back in the game like the beast you used to be, you'll find all sorts of great gals out there."

Sam sighed, "Okay.." He pursed his lips and nodded a little, "Alright. Okay— Fine. If it'll shut you up, you can make me a profile."

Tommy was ready to unlock the phone and start, but his eyes caught Sam's monitor and he frowned, "Shit.."

Sam raised a brow, "What?"

"Look– Camera three."

Sam looked at his computer and leaned closer, his eyes narrowing at the security camera footage, finding a lone, old, white van that had pulled over in the parking lot, its engine still running. All alone in the dark night.

Tommy shook his head, "Probably teenagers.. Probably wanna light up some fireworks." The Texan stood up from his chair, pushing it back, "I got this one."

Sam stared up at Tommy, "Y'sure?"

"Yeah." He took wide steps towards the door, "See you in a few."

Sam didn't have a chance to reply. Tommy was out in a second and closed the door right behind him, leaving Sam in the lonesome, hushed quietness of the office.

He sat back, staring at the closed door, and then decided to turn on the radio, reaching over to tune in the channels, being patient as he tried to get the right frequency, hearing static more often than he heard actual music, but then he settled on a channel with the kind of tunes that he liked, his head resting in the palm of his hand as he listened with a small smile.

But then, the ringtone of his phone went off, and he whipped his head towards it with a confused frown.

But when he saw who was calling, his whole body froze and his eyes widened. He looked at his phone as if it were a bomb that was about to go off.

And he collected himself, quickly reaching for his phone and accepting the call, pulling the phone to his ear,

"Hi." He said, with a smile on his face, his free hand reaching to turn down the radio.

"Hey.."

"Um– Happy fourth of July." Sam said, rolling his eyes and face-palming at how stupid that must have sounded.

A soft, feminine laugh filled his ears, making him sink into his chair and ease up a little,

"Thanks.. You too."

A silence fluttered between them, but Sam chose not to break it, feeling as though she called to say something and that it was about to be said.

"I'm.. sorry if this is weird.."

"No, no that's okay.." Sam picked on the splinters on the edge of his desk, his eyes focused on the action and his teeth chewing on his bottom lip nervously.

"How are you?"

"I'm alright."

"Yeah?"

Sam paused, thinking more thoroughly about his question and about the answer he should really give her.

"No, actually, that's a lie.." He pursed his lips, "I'm.. a complete wreck.." He admitted, squeezing his temples with his fingers and shaking his head, "I miss you." He finally said, his body already tensing at what he'd just said as he leaned forward, setting his elbow atop the desk and his chin atop his palm.

The small pause made Sam's heart sink into his stomach. But then, she spoke..

"I miss you, too.."

He blinked and lifted his head from his hand, his brows shooting up in surprise, "You.. do?"

"Yeah, of course.." She laughed softly, "This wasn't easy for me, Sam.."

He frowned, slumping back in his chair,

"I'm.. sorry I didn't call.. I just thought that.. maybe it'd be easier if I didn't.. hear your voice.."

He shook his head, growing a tad agitated, "So that's why you ghosted me?–"

"I didn't ghost you.."

"Oh, well– What would you call it then?"

She sighed, "I.. needed some space to think things through.."

"Then what was I supposed to think? We were dating for two years and then all of a sudden you just need space and time for yourself?" He asked, and she almost responded but he continued, "And you went dark! You didn't return my calls or texts for three. weeks!"

"I had to do what was— r-right for me!"

"Mm-hmm— So why're you callin' me now?"

"Because I care about you, Sam.. And I'm concerned."

Sam frowned deeply, "You're concerned?"

"Of course!"

"Well.." He rolled his chair closer to the desk, "I appreciate your "concern", but we've only been dating for a couple of years and I've had this condition my whole life. I know it must've been hard for you, but it really is not your problem anymore."

"Sam. You have to understand. Most of that stuff didn't bother me. I mean— Sure, it sucked that we couldn't go to the movies, or museum, or binge watch TV, but, I could live with all of that."

He breathed out through his nose, his shoulders dropping and his demeanor softening, "Then what was the problem?.." He asked, his tone of voice begging to understand where he went wrong, "We.. love each other.. Right..? Shouldn't that be enough to try and work things out..?"

She took in a shaky breath, then sighed softly, "Y'know what..? Maybe this was a mistake.. I feel like I'm stirring things up, and.."

"Wait a second, hold on.." He muttered, "I– I just wanna be able to understand.. Y'know.. I feel like I deserve that.. At least."

"You do?" A short silence befell them, before she let out a mirthless, bitter little laugh, "Ugh, shit— This is really hard.." Her voice broke.

"Crys, it's okay.. Whatever you need to say.. I need to hear it."

She sighed. He could tell she was holding back tears and trying to collect herself,

"At the end of the day… I didn't feel safe.."

Sam's brows shot up in surprise and he blinked a couple of times, her words not registering on the spot, but once they marinated, he felt his chest tighten, "Oh.." He let out a breath he didn't know he was holding, "Wow– Uhm.. Okay..?"

"Every night, I was going to bed, scared.. I was sleeping with a knife under my mattress–"

"Jesus Christ.." He rubbed his forehead, his eyes closed and his head throbbing with a dull ache he couldn't quite really describe as a headache.

"It was getting weirder everyday, Sam.. I didn't know what to expect anymore."

Sam huffed, "I.. I can't believe I have to say this, but.. You do know that I'd never do anythin' to hurt you.. Right..?"

"... I know that's what you believe." Her voice shook and the soft gasp and the sniffles that left her made him feel like someone just punched him in the gut. But her words struck terror within his very soul..

A faint honking sound could be heard on her end, and she sniffled again, "Shit— That's Tess.. I gotta go."

"Crystal, wait–" He breathed unevenly, his heart pounding in his chest, "Did I do somethin' to you?" He firmly asked.

"Sam."

"I need to know— Did somethin' happen?!"

The honking grew more urgent.

"Listen, I gotta go!"

"W— Hold on..!"

"I'm going to Harry's party. If you get out on time, let's talk then."

"Wait— Crys. Crystal!"

The periodic beeping was the only thing that talked back to Sam and it made him throw his phone on the desk in frustration, his hands then covering his face and his breathing growing deep so he could calm himself, "Fuck me.." He whispered.

When the door swung open, Sam nearly jumped out of his chair, but sighed when he saw it was only Tommy, "Hey, man.." He frowned, "You okay?"

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine." Sam lied.

"I could use a little help outside.." Tommy said, "The van's.. kinda sketchy.."

Sam's brows furrowed, "Sketchy how?"

"I dunno.." Tommy was uneasy and watched his taller friend get up from his chair, "It just is.."

Tommy was soon following a steadfast Sam out of the office and into the office compound of the company, then down the emergency stairs and out of the building.

The parking lot was empty, except for one lone van with blackout windows.

The engine was running and some shitty pop song could be heard from within, muffled and corny.

Tommy pulled out his phone and snapped a picture of the license plate. And as the two men stepped closer to the van, they caught a whiff of a strange fume that smelt off. In Sam's senses, it resembled cheap cleaning products and burning plastic.

Tommy was the first to knock on the driver's window, sighing softly, "Good evening! This is DAX lab security! Anyone in there?!" He yelled over the music, but no response came, after which he resumed to knock three more times.

The window then rolled down to reveal a middle-aged man wearing a baseball cap. He had a silver tooth and a disturbing smile– wide, almost crazy eyes.

"Oh, hi!" He laughed lightly, "Sorry, I couldn't hear you over all the music!"

Tommy cringed, "Sir, could you maybe turn the music down?!"

"What's that?!"

"Turn the music down!"

"Oh, yeah, yeah. Sorry." The man turned down the volume before deciding to turn it off altogether, "I like to play my music so loud I can't even hear myself think." He chuckled as he turned back to the boys.

Sam frowned, "Yeah, well, what we were tryn'a say was: We're from DAX's lab security and our parking lot is currently closed so we're gonna have to ask you to leave the premises."

"Aww, alright.. I didn't know I was breaking the rules.." The man said, his thick country accent peeking through, and his childish apologetic tone doing more than creeping the boys out.

"Yeah, S'okay." Sam said dismissively.

"I was wonderin' if you boys could spare a dollar for a veteran? Given that it's.. Independence Day?" He gave an awkward smile and a little shrug.

Tommy frowned but Sam wanted to get this all over with and sighed, "Yeah, sure.." He reached into his back pocket for his wallet, pulling it out to search for a dollar.

Tommy stopped Sam, his eyes narrow as he kept them on the stranger, "Put your wallet away, Sam."

Sam looked at Tommy with a hint of confusion behind his eyes but obliged anyway, "Alright.." He mumbled.

Tommy tilted his head and crossed his arms,"Where were you stationed?" He asked the man.

"In Iraq." He replied, without missing a beat.

"Wow.." Tommy nodded, "Saw some heavy shit, huh..?"

The wind grew colder around, forcing Sam to push his hands into the pockets of his coat, wondering why Tommy was making small talk with that guy at all, an impatient, shivering sigh leaving Drake's lips.

"How many tours did you do?" Tommy further investigated.

"Two."

"Where'd they put you for BCT? Up in Fort Carson?" He asked.

"Yeah!" The stranger replied with a smile.

"Oh.. Okay..!" Daryl nodded, his expressions faigning how "impressed" he was, "Y'know, it's funny, 'cause.. Fort Carson doesn't have basic training.." Daryl looked back up at the man, watching his smile drop, "Get the fuck outta here."

"Tommy, take it easy." Sam interfered, fearing the fact that they were two unarmed men in the middle of night, facing a possible listed criminal on their own.

"Now!" Tommy insisted, kicking the wheel of the van with the front of his boot.

The stranger started chuckling, baring his glistening silver tooth, "Is it just the two of you out here..?" He gestured between them, "Must be kind'a dangerous, right? Just two, unarmed guys out here with all sorts o' people, up to no good." The boys stared at him, standing their ground, "What do they pay for this shit job anyway? Minimum wage, I'd bet!"

"Fuck off." Tommy kicked the van itself that time, growing agitated and impatient.

"Tommy." Sam warned.

A strange muffled sound came from the back of the van. It seemed as though someone was moaning, helpless and exhausted.

Sam's head was the first to whip towards the sound and he backed away from the van to see if there was someone behind it, but no one was there, making his heart sink into his stomach as he slowly looked back up at the man, "Is there someone in the van with you?"

"That's my daughter; She's sleeping." The man replied.

"Let us see her then." Tommy approached the van.

"I said she's sleeping!"

"Ma'am! Are you okay in there?!" Sam yelled, quickly knocking on the side of the van.

"Happy fourth o' July, fellas!" The man started the car quickly and peeled out of the parking lot, the screeching tires loud against the asphalt.

Sam attempted to chase the van, yelling after it, but in under a second, it was out of the parking lot and already making the first exit.

Sam stopped, reaching up to clutch his head with heavy breaths that fogged up in the cold night.

"I got the fucker's plate; I'm calling him in."

As the man drove away, Sam couldn't help but notice a bumper sticker on the back of his van. It said: "Same shit, different party."

It showed the two animals that represent the two political parties: One, of course, was a donkey. The other.. an elephant.

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Sam had asked Tommy to cover for him and left early. He felt a tad guilty, especially that Tommy seemed on edge after the parking lot encounter, but..

Sam had to see her..

She said she was going to their friend, Harry's, and so that was where Sam was headed in his car.

On the drive over, he couldn't stop thinking about the dream he had..

The whale..

It was warning him..

But Sam pushed it from his mind, and realized that he was tired beyond belief.. He just wanted the night sleep.

He huffed as he parked in front of Harry's house, then turned the engine off, pulled out the keys, and stepped out of the car, walking up to the house but pausing once his eyes observed the area closer and his feet stepped on the lawn.

He instantly knew that he'd missed the party..

And when he walked into the pool area, there was only one straggler left..

Jordan.

A dealer who Sam had met a couple of times and simply didn't like very much.

"'Sup, bro?!" Jordan greeted as Sam stepped closer to the pool beds, "Connor, right?!"

Sam didn't seem at all amused or even remotely glad that he was here, "No. It's Sam."

"Wait— So– You're not Connor from Huntington beach?" Jordan slurred.

"I'm pretty damn sure."

"A'ight. Well.. I'm Jordan."

Sam's shoulders sagged as he sighed, "Yeah— I know. We've met like three times before. You're the drug dealer."

"Hey, I'm sensin' a tone, man. Why don't you chill, huh? I'm a cool guy! I don't want aaaaany hostility. Just ask around; I'm friends with everyone!" He slurred some more.

Sam gave Jordan the stink-eye, but was neither really in the mood nor did he have the constitution to talk back, "Right– My bad." He simply said, "It's been a real weird night."

"Aye, s'alright, man. You want somethin' to take the edge off? Some molly, maybe? Nothin' too crazy. It won't fuck wit' your skull. It'll relief aaaall that bad energy.."

Sam's brows furrowed and he shook his head, "I'm.. good— Hey, have you seen (y/n) around?"

"Nah, man.. Everybody bounced like a quarter past four.. You missed one helluva party."

Sam blinked and looked around, confused, "Well.. Where's Harry?"

"What– The host? Aw, he's passed out in the shed, man. Dude's fuckin' toast bro. Lights out."

Sam let out a deep, agitated breath, "Shit.." He whispered, "Guess it's just you and me."

Jordan chuckled and nodded before narrowing his eyes up at Sam, "Y-Y'know, I didn't really catch your name, brother."

Sam closed his eyes and breathed in to calm himself, "I'm Sam." He replied, stressing on every letter that left his mouth.

Jordan stared up at Sam some more, "Aw, shit, man.. You're Sam? Like– The Sam?"

Sam looked more than a little confused but went along with it anyway, "Yeah..?"

"Aw, shit.. You got some balls comin' here tonight."

"What the fuck are you talkin' about?"

"I'm just sayin', man.."

"You're.. sayin' what exactly? What are you sayin' at all?"

"Well— I'm just sayin'– Harry was talkin' to that messed up girl, man and he got angry— He got really pissed."

"What messed up girl?"

"Y'know! The messed up girl. With the arm in a sling."

Sam paused and tilted his head, "What was her name?"

"I didn't catch it.." He responded, making Sam huff in annoyance, "B–But, after they talked, Harry was mad as hell, bro. The rest of the party, he was fumin', man.. H-h-he said that– I-If you showed up, he'd beat the shit outta you."

Sam paused to think for a couple of seconds, his eyes flitting from one tile in the floor to the other as he did. He then looked at Jordan again, "If I showed you a picture of this girl, would you recognize her?" He asked, crouching in front of Jordan and pulling out his phone, searching his gallery for pictures of her.

"Yeah! For sure, man.. I got an excellent visual memory."

Sam immediately pointed the phone with her picture on it towards Jordan, who squinted at the light.

"Was it her?"

"Lemme see a couple more pics."

Sam scrolled through his photos, showing him three more.

Jordan started nodding, "Yeah. Yeah, that's her. Definitely."

Sam sighed heavily and let his head drop, his eyes closing and his hands coming up to rub them a little, "Alright.." He stood to his feet again and put is phone away, "Thanks.." He started walking away towards Harry's shed, his steps quick and sure.

"Hey! Where are ya goin', man?!"

"I'm wakin' up Harry." He responded.

"I-I don't think that's a pretty good idea; he's pretty wasted and I don't think he'd like to see you, dude."

Sam swung the door open and pulled the string on the right to light up the small shed with a little, singular bulb that flickered a tad, then stepped closer to the sprawled body on the floor, "Harry!" He called out, crouching down next to him, "Hey, Harry." He started nudging him in the back with his knuckles, "Hello?" He shook him violently.

Sam froze, his brows furrowing and his stomach falling to the floor, "Harry..?" He prodded some more, shaking him urgently but gently this time, then decided to turn him and lay him on his back, causing his body to limply adjust and comply with Sam, "Harry!?" Sam patted his cheeks, still getting no response.

"Yeah– I told you, man. He's out." Jordan said as he stood behind Sam.

"He's not breathing.." Sam whispered in terror. His fear was so strong that it forced him up to his feet and made him take a few, staggered steps back from his friend's lifeless body.

"..What?"

Sam quickly turned to Jordan and, in an instant, the druggie was held by the collar of his shirt and pinned against the door of the shed, "What the hell did you guys give him?!" He demanded, ignoring the fear in Jordan's eyes.

"N-Nothin', man! I-It was just some Molly! It's harmless!"

Sam let Jordan go and looked at him, unsure of what to do at that moment. But he got to his knees next to Harry again, pressing his palms against his chest and applying some compressions, "1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. Harry?!" He did some more, "1.. 2.. 3— Call 911!" He ordered Jordan, turning back to Harry to try and revive him somehow.

"No, hey.. I can't.. man.. Not on my phone."

"Motherfucker, take mine!" Sam yelled, throwing his phone at Jordan,, who picked it up and started to comply.

"C'mon, Harry.." Sam applied more chest compressions, "1..2..3..4.. C'mon.." He continued.

"I-I think they're busy.."

Sam paused, "What?!" He asked, incredulous.

Jordan raised his hands in defense with Sam's phone in one of them, "911's fuckin' busy, man! See?!" He put the phone on speaker, proving what he had just said to Sam.

"Fuck.." Sam muttered, and started to prepare to carry Harry, "Help me lift him! We can take him to the hospital."

"I–I can't, man. I'm sorry– This has nothin' to do with me."

"What?!– Just help me get him to the car!–"

"Yeah– I can't be involved in any of this! I-I gotta go." Jordan started jogging away.

"Hey! Hey!!" Sam called out after him, which made no difference, just as he expected, "Fuck!" He groaned.

"I'm sorry!" Jordan yelled as he peeled away from the house in his car, making Sam's blood boil.

He breathed in deeply, "Okay.. Alright– C'mon.." Sam carried Harry with a grunt of effort, quickly getting to his car. He looked down at how limp he was– how lifeless and cold he felt in his arms. He didn't think about anything and only placed his body in the backseat of his car, then drove away quickly.

The hospital was just down the road. Sam stepped on the gas and tried his best to focus.

He tried not to look in the rear view mirror..

He didn't want to see him.. Not if he was gone..

He could only pull out his phone and punch in a number that had grown so familiar, then pressed the phone to his ear.

"Hey! This is Crystal. You know what to do."

"Hey! I need you to call me as soon as you get this message. This isn't about us. I just need to know if you smoked or took anything at the party tonight.. If you did, you gotta call 911 'cause it might've been laced with some bad shit.. okay? Call me back."

He quickly hung up and threw his phone on the passenger's seat carelessly.

The sun had already began to rise as he pulled into the hospital.

He hopped out of the car and waved down the first group of people he saw. A group of nurses and doctors on a smoke break just outside the E.R.

"Can someone please help me?!" Sam breathlessly begged, Harry in his arms once again as he approached the group.

When they turned to look at him, he noticed something strange..

Some of them seemed to be crying..

One of the nurses quickly put out her cigarette and walked over to Sam.

"What's your emergency, sir?" She asked.

"I-It's my friend. I think he OD'd.."

"Okay.. I'll have a look at 'im.. Help me lay him down."

"What– Here?! On the sidewalk..?" Sam asked, confusion and bewilderment in his voice.

"Yeah."

"Shouldn't we put him on a gurney? Get some paramedics or somethin'?—"

"That's not an option right now." The nurse firmly and quickly replied, "Let's get him on the floor."

Slowly and carefully, with a hint of hesitation, Sam put Harry down on the sidewalk, the nurse dropping down to her knees with him and started checking Harry's vitals, leaving Sam to stand up and cross his arms, rock back and forth nervously as he chewed on his nails, the anxiety too much for him to bear..

It didn't take her very long..

When she stood up and looked at him, he knew what she was about to say.

"I'm very sorry, sir.." She shook her head, giving him an apologetic look, "But your friend is dead.. "

Sam breathed in through his nose and nodded, "Okay.." He let out a deep breath, "I'd still like to see a doctor, though.. Get a diagnosis– Can we do that?—"

"Right now is not the best time."

Sam gave out a bitter chuckle, "What the fuck does that even mean?!"

"I think it'd be best, sir, to take five minutes to collect yourself." She told him, her tone calm and cool— just as you would expect a nurse to be. She watched Sam's demeanor relax, "Call the deceased parents.. And then you can leave your friend here and go home.."

"What kind'a hospital is this?" Sam asked, his tone calmer but his veins running with burning rage, "You want me to leave my friend's body on the side of the road." He emphasized the last few words, allowing her to grasp the magnitude of her instructions, "Where are the paramedics? Why are the doctors standing there crying? What the fuck is goin' on here?" He rapidly fired his questions at her, watching her shake her head and attempt to answer each one in time, but getting interrupted by his next demanding inquiry.

She let out a soft breath, her eyes glued to the floor, "Something bad happened last night.." She told him.

Sam narrowed his questioning eyes, prodding her to continue.

"All of our patients died in their sleep.."

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[inelegant-artist]

7-15 for the ask game huehue

Helllll YEAH 

7. are you a morning time gay or a night time gay? 

I would say a night time gay bc it���s just when I can do my own thing without anyone bothering me and I can look at the stars out my window.

8. opinion on nap dates?

Nap dates are a thing?? I’ve never even been on a date but that sounds glorious bc you get to be close to that person while sleeping!

9. opinion on brown eyes? 

I love brown eyes a whole lot. I love the way color they are when they shine in the sun and I love how brown eyes make peoples eyes look real big.

10. dog gay or cat gay?

Definitely a cat gay, I love cats a whole heck of a lot. I have a hard time trusting dogs from experiences I had with them as a kid.

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

UHM??? Yes!! I love rodents, they’re so small and fluffy. and I also love reptiles bc they’re cool as fuck. I want a snake real badly!!

12. whats a turn off look for you before you start officially dating someone?

I never really thought about it, but I guess just anyone who just looks like dirty grease monster,,, like I think of hillbillies and neckbeards when I think of people who just look dirty and unhygenic lmao

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one? 

Well, I can’t really think of any since I realized I was Bi only like a year or two ago. But i definitely used to have problematic thinking when I was younger. Like “all lesbians have short hair and dress more masc.” just stuff like that. Glad I grew out of that though and educated myself and learned better.

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self? 

Well, kind of a cliche question that everyone answers the same lmao but I guess I would tell myself to not worry about hiding my nose so much since I used to wear glasses everyday to distract from how big and crooked it is. And stop being a little shit toward mom and dad. Try to make more friends if you don’t want to be so lonely in the future. Idk, there’s a lot of stuff I could say 

15. do you have different ‘types” for different genders? 

I think my type is kind of the same for both, which is just someone who has a good fashion sense and isn’t dirty lmao otherwise I just like who I like I guess. And someone who has a good personality and isn’t boring and has good political views tbh

[cosmicats]

Answer all the questions

1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? yessss2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? idk sure3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. The girls ran up to her, and Demeter followed; but as she crossed the threshold, she seemed taller to look at, and full of majesty, and Metaneira rose from her couch, and bade her to be seated.4: What’s something you really want right now? a reallyyy ybig hug from my girlfriend 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? slightly. i fell really really hard really quickly but it was mutual so it turned out perfectly.6: How can I win your heart? If you can be silly and make me laugh tbh 7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Unsure, but i do know we’ve slept on the ground /next/ to a couch lmao8: What’s the background on your cell? my gorgeous baby and I9: Name the last four beds you were sat on? mine, my hotel bed, my brother’s hotel bed, my baby’s bed.10: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? I know she does.11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? I dunno, I never really had a plan to begin with so w/e, things are going great. (am learning to plan for the future tho.)12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? lmao the iowa state police13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? A Rottie 14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional def15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? zoo! i love animals16: Are you tired? always17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? SInce 8th grade18: If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? I wouldn’t. 19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? helllll fucking no. fuck that. 20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? like two minutes ago21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? Yes. (but i do have the right person)22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? A million times23: When was the last time you were disappointed? today when the pizza at the airport wasn’t v good :(24: Is there a certain quote you live by? You can do anything you set your mind to. No limits.25: What’s on your mind? my babyyyyy as alwayssss26: Do you have any tattoos? not yet but I will very soon27: What is your favorite color? It always changes tbh depending on the day. rn it’s the the sky on my flight today28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? tomorrow29: Who are you texting? my girl 30: Are you superstitious about anything? super about jinxing31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? YA WENT SHOOTING W MY FAMILY LAST YEAR AND IT WAS MY TURN TO GO AND IT WAS MY GREAT GRANDPA’S REVOLVER AND I HAD A BAD FEELING AND SO I PASSED AND THEN IT LIKE, EXPLODED ON MY DAD SO.

32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I have a whole group chat of guys i can talk to33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? lmao ya my girlfriend34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Jalyn35: What was the reason for your last breakup? lmao. too many to count. essentially though, it was very one sided36: Were you single on Valentines Day? no but it sure felt like it.37: Name one physical feature that you like about yourself, and one you dislike. my hair, the rest of me 38: What do your friends call you? gay39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? probably40: Have you ever cried over a text? yeah41: Where’s your last bruise located? my stomach42: What is it from? lmao my girlfriend (not hitting..)43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? usually anytime im at my house44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? my babyyy45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? not really idk 46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? i always wear hats tbh. idk, safety thing47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? no i dont really follow trends? idk48: Do you make supper for your family? sometimes49: What’s the toughest decision you made this year? ughhhhh too many. maybe picking what college to go to50: Top 3 web-pages? maaan i dunno51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? me52: Does anything on your body hurt? my heart bc it’s been like five days since ive seen my baby..53: Are goodbyes hard for you? i always cry. 54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? coffee55: How is your hair? dead, but colorful56: What do you usually do first in the morning? text my gf57: Do you think two people can last forever? yes yes58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? lmao yeah59: Green or purple grapes? either or60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? tomorrow61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? yessss62: What did your father teach you? how not to do things63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? asleep64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. packing65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? yeaaaah66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? yes!67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? i hugged my brother68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? i wish i was home with jalyn69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? 3 years, yeah70: How many windows are open on your computer? two lmao71: If you won 100 million dollars, what would you buy first? ... savings bonds.. or a lifetime supply of mac for my baby72: What is your ringtone? parks and rec theme73: How old will you be in 5 months? still 18 lmao. almost 19 tho74: Where is your Mum right now? bed75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? because i learned i deserved more76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? no sadly77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? some78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? yeah lmao79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? yeah.80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? yesss81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? 182: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? no not three days. ive been 900 miles away ugh83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? yes84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? no one bc i wouldnt do that85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? yeah, i want her safe yaknow.86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? THE SEATS WERE LEATHER RECLINERS AND YOU PRESSED A BUTTONON THE SEAT AND A WAITER CAME AND TOOK YOUR ORDER AND BROUGHT YOU FOOD, MY BROTHER GOT A BURGER DUDE87: Who was your last received call from? the most beautiful girl lemme tell you88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? maaaan tbh when i was little i put caterpillers in fire ant hills and watched them get eaten alive so yeah probably as awful as that is89: What is something you wish you had more of? time with my girl..90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? yes.91: Do you sleep with your window open? when it’s nice92: Do you get along with girls? i guess i dunno93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? nope. cleared that up a bit ago. went shitty tho94: Does sex mean love? sex means different things for everyone, and that’s okay. For me, yes. I would only have sex with someone that i really loved95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? hell no. more like a dream come true96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? nope97: Did you sleep alone this week? some days98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? yesss99: Do you believe in love at first sight? I dunno. Sure. maybe not for me, but if it works for other people, I’m glad theyve found love100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? probably my baby

[ifeelyou-johanna]

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1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? Yes2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Yes3. Have you taken someones virginity? No, but I was the first girl she had had sex with4. Is trust a big issue for you? Yeah kinda5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? Not recently no, but planning on it6. What are you excited for? NEW YEARS7. What happened tonight? I exchanged gifts with my dad and stepmom since I was out of town, watched a Jimmy Carr comedy special, and am now in my room watching YouTube8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? No not at all9. Is confidence cute? Already answered10. What is the last beverage you had? Already answered11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Not many. Maybe 4 off the top of my head12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? Really the only jeans I own13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Already answered14. What are you going to spend money on next? Either food or gas15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? If by going out, you mean hanging out and/or going on dates, yes16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? I hope I do17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? Abby18. The last time you felt broken? The last day was Thanksgiving. It was a long spell19. Have you had sex today? Nope20. Are you starting to realize anything? Oh yeah21. Are you in a good mood? Yes I am!22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? If I were in a cage, sure!23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? No, his are blue. Mine are green24. What do you want right this second? Some spiked hot chocolate would be delightful25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? I mean we’re not exclusive or official or anything so idc26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? It is (although I was just chatting with my hair stylist today about changing it27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? No not at all28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? The Jimmy Carr comedy special I watched with my family29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? Already answered30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? Not everyone. Just some, depending on the situation31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? Already answered32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? Yeah she does33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? Nah I could never give up fizzy drinks34. Listening to? A Let’s Play35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? I was just thinking about it the other day- no, I don’t!36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? Upstate NY37. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe it’s lust first. Love comes later38. Who did you last call? My mom39. Who was the last person you danced with? Oh jeez I actually can’t remember!40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because I wanted to41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? Too long42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? Both of them!43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? Basically every time I’m in front of any crush or significant other44. Do you tan in the nude? I never have but I kinda want to 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? No not at all46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Kinda? I was waiting for a response and fell asleep47. Who was the last person to call you? My mom lol48. Do you sing in the shower? All the fucking time49. Do you dance in the car? All the fucking time50. Ever used a bow and arrow? Fuck yeah and I’m pretty good at it too51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? Over the summer52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? I kinda went to high school to study musical theatre so...yeah, but that’s the whole fucking point!53. Is Christmas stressful? For me, it is, because my parents are divorced and my step-families mean more presents need to be bought54. Ever eat a pierogi? Helllll yeah55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Astronaut, cop, vet, actor/singer, doctor57. Do you believe in ghosts? Already answered58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Too many times to count59. Take a vitamin daily? I used to60. Wear slippers? Yessssss61. Wear a bath robe? Also yesssss62. What do you wear to bed? Either pajama shorts and a tshirt or nothing at all63. First concert? High School Musical GET AT ME

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target for most, Wal-Mart for some65. Nike or Adidas? ADIDAS MATE66. Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? Look What You Made Me Do or Tim McGraw69. Ever take dance lessons? For 2.5 years70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Whatever makes her happy71. Can you curl your tongue? Yep72. Ever won a spelling bee? No but I almost did!73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Oh yeah!74. What is your favorite book? Either The Glass Castle, Life of Pi, or The Price of Salt75. Do you study better with or without music? It has to be instrumental76. Regularly burn incense? Not regularly, but I like it77. Ever been in love? Yep78. Who would you like to see in concert? Walk the Moon, Brandi Carlile, Dawes, Jukebox the Ghost, to name a few79. What was the last concert you saw? Tegan and Sara80. Hot tea or cold tea? Hot81. Tea or coffee? Coffee82. Favorite type of cookie? Samoas83. Can you swim well? According to my ex and my roommate, I’m lucky I haven’t drowned yet lmao84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yeah? Who can’t?85. Are you patient? I like to think I am86. DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ87. Ever won a contest? Yes, and I won a free autographed book!88. Ever have plastic surgery? No89. Which are better black or green olives? NEITHER90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Whatever floats your boat, mate (as long as it’s consensual)91. Best room for a fireplace? Living room92. Do you want to get married? Really badly