#hell of being cut to pieces

[through-the-shattered-glass]

Will you keep me Like a promise Or a secret Will you keep me Will you keep me?

"Hell of Being Cut to Pieces" — Mojave Phone Booth

[kit-screams-into-the-future]

jesus christ, doc, i thought you were a goner! warn a guy next time, will ya? jesus christ, doc. jesus christ

bonus doodle post-extra-long-hug:

(listen im a sucker for the forehead kisses alright. whenever it happens in a fic i eat that shit UP. it's the cutest thing ever idc)

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

[coworkerjonathan]

Hey, your dreams. What're the top 3 things you've walked through?

1. An everlasting playland in complete gray where everything was slightly too big.

2. Ginkgo tree with glowing leaves in colours I've never seen. (It's very aggravating, since when I remember the dream I can't see the colours. It's like they're censored when I'm awake ... But I can see them when I sleep.)

3. Hell?

To be fair, the locations are usually less important than the feeling of being ... the only person. Very 2am walk in an empty town.

Even when there are other people or monsters, they never know me. Blissfully unknown.

[paintpanic]

i (and this is no joke) love it when you make a really emotional and sad piece and then just put "he's swagless" over it. it gets a chuckle out of me every time.

It's what he deserves methinks.

Godawful Taranza under the cut.

This is my son. He has every disease.

[hauntingblue]

Marineford....... i am so fucking scared.... whitebeard's big ass head and moustache in the volume cover doesn't help

Izou... look at this icon (at least it looks like him)

Just like his fuckass grandpa.... thank god sengoku said it before him I guess

This is indeed so funny whitebeard... look at all these dumbasses.... an army of them

Sengoku noticed because of the d.... fucking hell....

This is so crazy still...... he must have went through it at the moment like damn you want me to be your son??? The thing that cursed me?? Being someone's son???

The way he denies his father but all the love he gets is somehow coming from him one way or another.... luffy is basically his spirit and whiteberd is his best friend... and they are the two people that loved him the most besides his parents. YOU'RE GONNA GET LOVED BY YOUR FATHER WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!! LOVE TRASCENDS LIFE MY BOY!!!

So whitebeard didnt know about his father.. he just liked his vibes omg.... the father that stepped up for reals. Also first person ever talling him who his father is doesn't matter. Wish he told him about the marine propaganda about him but alas.....

ACE WATCH OUT!!! ACE THE CYCLE!!!

I see what oda was doing with his face but it's still so funny... he looks like a mii

Whitebeard that went hard as hell man.... AKAINU SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!

The curse of knowing the future strikes me once again

Alright. Enough. What the hell man.....

It's like he's form Jojo's but he's the only ugly character... no big eyes no big lips.....

I'm doing murder suicide with garp over this no one is coming out alive of this one fucker... in the anime how they put ace's cries as a baby as he went up the stairs killed me dead that was crazy...... but this still gets me

Somebody sedate me

You tell em jimbei

God I know ace is in all types of pain right now... this is like seeing his kid brother running around in a nuclear bomb testing site

Anahdhakshaka garp this is what you get for being a fuckass

Mihawk has been so entertained since the strawhats appeared and he hasn't even gotten custody of zoro yet

Smoker you won't decipher luffys brain don't even try you will get a stroke

GOD!!!!!!! THIS FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I said somebody sedate me!!!!

Luffy 🥺🥺🥺🥺 omg

So far not making it a single day without crying... alright 👍🏻

ANOTHER ONE!!!

Very poignant in the aftermath of Jinx dying to save Vi... a big sibling's greatest nightmare

I'm just posting this all because what the hell sure.... should we all kill ourselves

This is so funny..... whitebeard is very fond of roger's kids aldhakska

[moe-broey]

Idk if I'm gonna be able to articulate this on the fly like first thing in the morning, but. I think my ENTIRE body of work is This: Examining how family ties, bonds or lack thereof, the good and bad AND ugly, seep into every facet of who we are and how we come to interact with others. How sometimes, a family tie (or again, a Lack of one), will sometimes bleed into how you act and treat specific people. Will bleed into how you CONNECT with those people (or, will be the very reason you fail to do so).

HOWEVER. HOWEVER. THERE IS A DELICATE LINE. A BALANCING ACT. You CANNOT just simply attribute fanon flavored ideas of found family to such characters. That's too simple, and sometimes, is a complete disservice to the specific character you're working with. I am once again bringing up Chilchuck. YES, him being a dad Absolutely seeps into how he treats his party. But if you call him the party's dad, you're Insane. Do you know ANYTHING ABOUT THAT MAN???? He would prefer you didn't. But I digress. He strikes a fascinating balance, between having The Qualities and ESPECIALLY expressing his care for his party in a Really Specific divorced (separated.) father of three fashion, but that does Not make him a "dad friend". He's a professional. He's on business. He's going home at the end of the day, and at the end of this adventure he's thinking of setting up a shop. I wanted to keep this more vague and broad but like. The Chilchuck example REALLY DOES perfectly articulate What I'm trying to get at, here. He's the perfect encapsulation of How his family shapes him, how that bleeds into his relationships with others, vs Who he is as a person.

How we were raised, our family ties, whether you adhere to it or you've fallen FAR from the tree -- you still fell from that stupid fucking tree. It's in your blood. Literally. It gave you shape, whether you liked it or not. And sometimes some things just set off weird domino effects, that also affect us irrevocably forever.

WHICH IS. TO SAY. I have no fucking idea what I'm talking about. I'm always trying to figure that out. Found family is/can be real, you're not strictly bound by blood if you don't wanna be. BUT. The bullshit I'm constantly on, is trying to figure out how to balance all that without slotting everyone into reductive roles. I'm gay and I seek to destroy the nuclear family. Not attempt to recreate nuclear family 2.0. You CAN reconstruct What Family Is/Means from the ground up, but you have to accept that things are going to get Weird. Because you're Queer. You are fundamentally incompatible with the status quo and normalcy, the solution is NOT assimilation and palatability, the solution is to just. Get weirder. And be fluent in canon. Okay. I love you

[circus-k]

i think i have to kill someone.

[poisonouspastels]

on that note actually of idealization in the mc au and how it changes how people perceive eachother, for a while now ive wanted to make a piece about how the wither trio perceive eachother and themselves based on their very warped perspectives. i just havent really gotten around to actually drawing it yet

[welcometogrouchland]

Sips juice box. I like to think the hexsquad start a garage band (goreage band on the boiling isles) briefly post-canon.

Raine taught all of them how to play (Amity on bass and usually vocals, Luz and Hunter on lead and rhythm guitar respectively, Gus on keys/synths and Willow on drums) and shows up to all their practices and the small shows they get to do (things like classmates' birthdays, big festivals/town parties celebrating Belos and the Collector's defeats after the fact, left-hand relief effort fundraisers and dubiously legal music festivals held in the backwoods of latissa).

Raine hypes each and every one of them the FUCK up and spends hours giving them all pointers on their individual instruments and how to play as a unit and, like, listen. Raine is not a parental figure to any of them, really. They just don't have that kind of connection to anyone but King as their step son. But the kids all think Raine is cool as fuck and they crave positive encouragement in their lives. They love Raine. They'd die for Raine. Kill for Raine. Try new tunings and time signatures for Raine (VERY scary). They like being in a band cause it's an excuse to goof off together, express themselves and experiment with a different type of magic, but most of all, they love being in a band bc the middle aged political dissident fucking their friend's adoptive mom is just really goddamn supportive of them.

Nothing particularly noteworthy comes from the band (you guys can suggest fun names for them that are more creative than "the hexsquad"). It truly is just a thing on the side they do for fun and they all have individual careers and hobbies they're far more interested in (Gus is a teaching assistant at Eda's school (qualified to be full time but not allowed to bc of his age, has to wait a few more years), Amity is a field researcher and budding archeologist, Willow is going pro with sports, Hunter is carving and Luz is pursuing higher education).

The most that happens with it is they record a low quality CD (or magic CD equivalent) of demos and covers they put together (Luz and Willow are the main song writers for the group. Both had a lot of angsty pre-teen poetry they work shopped and repurposed for lyrics) that ended up being sold out of the back of Steve's motorcycle (his main career besides burger flipping and baby sitting, all of which makes him infinitely more happy than the emperor's coven ever did).

Raine not only bought a copy of the CD (despite having already heard them play every song before and having been the one to help them record it in the first place) they purchase a copy for ALL of their parents/extended family (Eda, King, Perry, the Parks, Darius, Camila, Gwen and Dell- everyone). Years after the band unofficially dissolves (re: the kids got actual jobs and started having to deal w/ life as adults), Raine still listens to that CD bc they're just so damn proud of their kids.

[thenotoriousscuttlecliff]

Their "real" Lois Lane looks like she's taking a break from the Teen Titans. She even has purple hair for crying out loud.

[reineyday]

just watched one piece: stampede 10/10 would recommend absolutely delightful movie full of everyone we know and love and also a kaiju-level bad guy

[acedragontrainer]

I procrastinated figuring out how to use my fancy new sewing machine SO hard i made a quilt design about it, and then started making the quilt, with the sewing machine, so i think i’m procrastinating so hard it’s coming back around into productivity? this is wayyyy too fucking ambitious for my first quilt and i have no idea what the fuck i’m doing but! that will not stop me!

originally the design was much larger and for a queen size, and then i got out a yardstick and realized that’s way too fucking big so i downsized the scale and moved things around and added more buy’cese, i’m not sold on the background color and i’m prob not going to embroider the crusader’s emblem or the vizsla emblem like i had planned bc it stands out too much, but i was thinking of stitching the mythosaur symbol down the vertical sides, but i could also do lines of “bic cuyir te ara” since i’m already gonna be hand stitching so much goddamn mando’a

i’m pretty sure i can program custom embroidery patterns into my fancy machine (which is the whole thing i’m procrastinating about so finishing all the buy’cese will force me to find out) so i want to do the resol’nare in gold, but i don’t think anything with gold filament is gonna be strong enough for that so i may do yellow and embroider a bit in gold filament just to get around that, and then i’m still sorting through what patterns i wanna do across the quilt, i was thinking random concentric squares of lines of text, that way i could do kote darasuum around where cody is and a much bigger one spreading from the taung at the bottom with a version of dha werda verda (still haven’t figured out which one to use), but then i don’t know what to do about the rest of the quilt, and like do i really want to hand stitch everything in mando’a characters (resigned)

so obviously what i’m using here is a mix of different canons with some fanon sprinkled in (sue me, canon mandalor the uniter fucking sucks, basic bitch buy’ce, so i replaced that one with the irl dude’s mandalorian oc of the same title bc quite frankly it’s more meaningful to the fandom and it looks fucking sick), some of them had very little canon material to work with so i tried my best to wing it (tarre vizsla didn’t really have a buy’ce per se so i’m still debating using matte black for that one), some i picked bc they looked cool and not because they’re relevant, some i left out purposefully

i started with the darksaber, because i thought ��it’s smaller and just a bunch of straight lines, how hard can it be?” but it turns out needle-point turn on all those stupid tiny corners is, in fact, a new layer of hell i had previously remained oblivious to, but i still did it, and it’s only a little wonky

ok so the quality is shit, but it’ll look real nice when i fucking needle-point turn applique this shit to the top layer and then detail it all in silver when i’ve got all the sandwich together, and i’m real fucking proud of myself for getting the first bucket done, and it even mostly lays flat!

i’ve got this stupid shiny black fabric i’m using for all the visors and it is definitely painful as hell to work with but god does it look nice

[truth-for-lies]

I really fucking miss cutting

[hauntingblue]

Franky saving nami and her calling him big brother..... the connotations of this... big day for me especifically

[werewolf-femboy-maid]

I've been practicing to have a much more neutral and well rounded opinions on things like weed, but one thing I hear a lot that bugs me just slightly is that I've heard two sources say it can increase social anxiety. While this is true, it bothers me because I mostly got socially anxious because I was afraid people would look at me funny for my poison of choice. So yes technically even in that case the weed WOULD be causing me to be socially anxious. What bothers me tho is HOW it makes me or other people anxious. The sources imply it is the drug itself that makes you more socially anxious, but I feel that the overall stigma about weed is what made me personally more socially awkward or anxious. So yeah basically thing that bothered me was specifically the anxiety was caused by the chemical itself or the social stigma it brings about in professional and or close friend group settings. Or anywhere really. People either love or hate weed most of the time.

Hhhhhhh... moderation is so nice tho.

To be fair I'm pretty sure I had lots of mental illness already before I ever had za, it's just that withdrawals suck and can make my anxiousness worse esp if I didn't eat or drink anything yet... *remembers I did not eat or drink anything yet*

. . . Fuuuuuuuuuuuck . . .

Healing is so FUCKING weird guys. And it takes forever. It's gonna make you wanna quit. But low key that's how you know you're making progress. If you're fucking scared as shit and you think everyone wants you to die, it's probably because you want to change and you are scared of change because it's usually never enough for anyone you care about. So what's the point? Well fortunately and unfortunately, that depends entirely on you. Only you know what the point of your story is. If confused, start by emptying your mind into the sky. Maybe I should do that too... with some breakfast and water...

Ok it's time for another rant because self improvement is so FUCKING hard especially if you are already paranoid and have already let yourself and others down in the past with empty promises. "Oh it won't happen again" and then it happens again. And then it happens again. And then it happens again. How the FUCK am I supposed to believe I won't do that again. How dare I say I'm gonna improve if I'm just gonna fail and disappoint people again? Even if I were to successfully remain diligent and consistent, how is anyone supposed to believe me ever again? Even if people do believe me how am I supposed to tell?? People lie all the time. How do I know they don't just want something from me?? Thers no way anyone would put up with my behavior and NOT have an ulterior motive. That just doesn't make any sense. People talk shit to me "behave" this "you eat a lot" that and when I don't eat then I'm the bad guy for not eating. WHAT THE FUCK. I'm actually losing my fucking mind of its not long gone already. I need to fucking eat. I am going insane. I had to stop myself from cutting like twice already and this has not happened in weeks. Yes I'm having a very bad morning. I need to eat. Fuck.