#healing was stalled

[hello-eden]

-Stopped rebirth-

Pain, rage, work, sleep

pain, rage, work, sleep

a cycle that goes on and on and on.

Jason doesn't know how to say anything to his family anymore. He knows some of it's his fault for how he came back but he also refuses to believe it's entirely his fault. 

Jason knows he shouldn't come back all right; he knows the Lazarus Pit rewrote his original Resurrection. He has no idea how he knows that's what happened but he does. Memories that make no sense that are popping up on the outside of his vision. Seeing people and thinking of names that are not their own. Doing things that feel like a habit that he has never started.

Jason knows something has been wrong for a long time and he tries not to rage at his family for not seeing it. The days where he fakes missions and just lays on his bed in agony. Feeling as though he has been hit by a thousand bolts of lightning only for it to relent then start again.

For him to feel nothing when he sees the glowing green eyes in the mirror but anytime someone else brings them up he feels like he's on the brink of a breakdown. Hitting harder than he should when he confuses the people in front of him for others. The urge to fight whatever is in front of him whether it be Friend or Foe. The knowledge that he doesn't quite believe he's human anymore that he keeps to himself.

The bone deep terror that Jason feels whenever Bruce mentioned something Jason didn't have before. The rage that fuels Jason's very being whenever Bruce reminisces. Insults on the tip of his tongue that Jason feels like are not for Bruce. The feeling of wanting to cry in the arms of the only father figure he has ever felt safe with only for Bruce to show again that he is not safe.

Wanting to scream that he did not want this, that the bubbling green under his veins is more corrupt than even Ras himself knows. The knowledge that Bruce’s obsession with protecting his home city is the one thing that brought Jason back. Unfortunate knowledge that Jason holds that he could never tell Bruce because the self blame he will inflict on himself would slowly drive him to Madness.

The flinches that Jason sees whenever one of his siblings gets a little too close. The knowledge that he can never do anything about it. He will spew insults at Dick but they will never be seen as playful as he means them.

That he will never be able to play fight with Tim as he wants to as those instincts that told him to bond went too far.

He will never be able to get close with Stephanie as all she has ever heard has been his horror stories.

He will never be able to have a sister in Cass as she has been in the middle of his violence for far longer than she ever should have been.

He will never be able to get close with Damien again as every single member of their family has made sure they are never left alone in a room together.

Pain, rage, work, sleep, repeat

[doodoobug3000]

Some silly stuff before i finish my lil angst comic ive been working on for the past few days

Headcanon that you turn into whatever color your feelings are in the Hatred fight

( like, any emotions based on your trauma or personality )

[asteraws]

winding down at the inn

[wiirocku]

Malachi 4:2 (ESV) - But for you who fear My name, the Sun of Righteousness shall rise with healing in its wings. You shall go out leaping like calves from the stall.

[drop--pop--candy]

IM GOING TO WALK INTO THE SEA THIS FUCKING FIGHT IS DRIVING ME NUTS

[jaypgartifacts]

a weird guy appear

[crowns-of-violets-and-roses]

Hitting book of stabbing with strength down until it literally hits for zero is one of the most satisfying things in this game.

[wisecrackingeric-2]

YEAH MY MISTY FIGHT WENT GREAT THANKS FOR ASKING

[pochapal]

back from being out....unironically i think the cure to any sickness including life threatening medical crises is to go out nice places with people you like and eat good food and also have fun :3

[goldensunset]

i gotta say haxorus has been op on my team. even when like the same level as everyone else. all i have to do is set up a single dragon dance and suddenly it can sweep through entire teams that previously had defeated me with ease. all it has to do is survive whatever attack it gets hit with turn one and then the entire rest of the fight the low hp music is playing and i don’t care in the slightest bc no one is touching that thing

[bitter-as-wormwood-13]

playing bard in bg3 is so fun I skipped like. 2 encounters in act 2 because I got the enemy to die all by themselves.

[baeshijima]

no bcs i find world 6 easier to beat than svarog WHY IS HE SO ANNOYING

LITERALLY 😭

kafka > cocolia > gepard > svarog

one day i will one shot svarog. when that day comes i will be playing the funeral song to spite him.

[a-shrieking-cloud-of-bats]

anyway back to attempting to clear event with elafia

forte is Not gonna fly here

not being able to put melee units on high ground is a death sentence

leaving poor sweet tuye undefended

[citrine-elephant]

seeing how garbage treatment is towards workers in my country and not being able to do anything about it on my own

the amount of health and safety neglect is driving me insane

[ziracona]

I’ve truly never found a better stall team frontliner FGO than King David. Like he’s just the whole package. No one is doing what he’s doing.

[fluffypichu876]

dmd vergil 2 is being as difficult as i expected.