#he's a skald and then he's sir provolone and both are titles he stumbled into

[scalpho]

the thing about colin is that he's generally fairly passive in the grand scheme of things, and the few things he arguably takes into his own hands are not satisfying.

killing the banana man, an innocent bystander, is not a task he takes any joy in, and he makes an effort to try and atone for it afterwards. killing his shitty father was of course, sick as hell, but it's an act far too steeped in the feeling of "you should have never had to do this in the first place because he was not meant to be alive for you to kill, and, worse yet, he was not meant to be alive to orchestrate your involvement in the FDA, in the murder of a monarch, in what looks like is an attempt to destroy much of calorum" to be gratifying. the closest thing to an embrace his father has ever given him, the "i'm still proud" as he finally goes down - killing the man who is the cause for the majority of colin's hardship should be satisfying, but it's not quite there.

and the rest of it - being born under to a family name which serves as a death sentence, the FDA, delissandro giving him the title of skald, and then raphaniel giving him knighthood under the church - is mostly stuff that happens to him, or stuff he's guided into in some way. he's not completely passive or faultless, of course, but a lot is out of his control and he spends much of his life subject to the ebbs and flows of life, of power and of the powerful people around him