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[piiinkfreak]

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[fall-shorter]

hey this is chance and here’s week 4’s prompt. how do strangers within the world view your protagonists? how would they describe them? and how does this contrast against how the protagonist views themself?

Okay so all main 5!

Sziliana to a stranger on the street she is probably nothing short of intimidating, She is the kind of person, that when you see on the sidewalk you cross the road just to avoid her. To a random girl at the club she is probably another fuckboy, but with some weird charm to her. Szili on her own, first and foremost, loves herself. She's convinced she is very attractive. Very assured of her physical strengh. She is also aware that she is not the smartest one there, but she doesn't let it bring her down!

Scisor on first glance he is very friend-shaped most of the time and seems very approachable. Just someone people feel comfortable around in an instant. Scisor doesn't really think about himself too often, as he is focused on other people. Even tho he doesn't show it, he wishes to get more assertive since he knows that being a people pleaser won't take him far. Deep down inside he knows his worth, knows how smart, creative and determined he is. He just forgets about it sometimes.

Marcel seems like a snooty, but overall cute and fragile kitty with a really good fashion sense, very friendly and likes to be flirted with. And while the fashion sense is true the rest is quite... different. Marcel is a cunt and he is well aware of that. He likes the way he is, knows his worth, both physical and brain-wise but will act otherwise if it's convinient. Generally very self assured person, that has his needs on the first place. He likes when people flirt with him, true, but will ditch them if he gets bored.

Yajone is not really viewed by strangers, simply because he doesn't live his place too often. Even if he does he just does it so quickly and imperceptibly that no-on even notices. Yajone doesn't have the best self-esteem. He thinks he is never enough and even tho he technicaly knows how impressive things he does are, he always feels that he could do better than this. He is very harsh to himself.

Ivo is just plain unapprochable. He may be quiet, but just looks hostile so it's better to avoid him and just not talk to him, because he will give you the most disgusted look ever. Ivo has a bit of a tough relationship with himself. His depression surely isn't helping. He may even be as hostile to himself as he is to other people, but in the same time he just doesn't care. On one hand he is fine with his skills and looks and on the other he just wishes to stop existing so baddly. He doesn't even want to be better or anything, he just wants to vanish.

//wow, this took me several days to write, I dunno why i struggled to baddly lol. Glad i did it and thanks for the ask!

[ahyeonah]

Okay! Time for part 2 review!

I love how supportive Hobi's friends are! It's an appreciated change compared to the first time he went to the school!

And OC! sweet sweet OC! She is so supportive and so stubborn at the same time! She is basically like "you'll have your magic and I'll ot accept any other outcome for you". She even went as far as doing research to help him develop his connection to magic!

I also love how their relationship developped in part 2! At some point you can really see OC becoming Hobi's strengh and will to continue which is really romantic and impressive!

But that scene in the cave ... Sibi!! You had me in extrem frustration with them but I love them too much to be mad at them and they're too cute to be mad at anyway! I was like "Stop being dense, kiss and look at the stone that's what you're here for! Or keep being dense but look at that damn stone!" and I ended up calling them blindly in love, loveable morons because that fits really well to the both of them.

Also if there is two thing we know about OC, except from her kindness, it's that she is stubborn and she is not a morning person. And yet when Hoseok wakes her up in the middle of the night, he is not yelled at nor looked at like she wish to kill him ... At that point she is not showing interest anymore she is dropping hints bigger than the whole tower!! ... i just wanted them to kiss Sibi ... 🥺

But the fic ending on Hoseok success during the examen was a good end (because you promised a part 2 for the romance) and I love that he got purple hair! You can't do more visible sign of magic control and now all the boys will be able to see that they can learn too! Hoseok really deserve this for all of his efforts! Also I hope you'll write Tae's reaction to his best friend new hair! I can imagine he is going to be so happy for his friend but imagine if Hoseok doesn't tell him and just show up at the castle with purple hair? Tae's jaw is going to drop to the floor and then he is going to be overexcited for hours after that!

Overall I loved it! It's quite different from the rest of the universe, except maybe for Jin's part. There isn't any difference of power between OC and Hoseok, they're both at the same level even if Hoseok is a man. Compared to the rest where most of the time the woman is on top because of royal tradition or rank (even the healer in Jin's part could considered "superior" because of Jin's past as a Raven which left him unprepared for the world), so it's very refreshing even if there is still sexism and violence involved because nothing is keeping OC and Hoseok in those stereotypes. I guess the main difference between Jin's part and Hoseok's is that Jin's healer had to assume the role of teacher to help Jin adjust correctly whereas Hoseok and OC see each other as equal from the first time they meet!

I really appreciate that aspect of the story because even with the most benevolent rulers sexism still has its place in society and that reflect on the rulers, especially for Tae and JK who don't seems to be involved at all in states matters and are just living their best life as they deserve! It's a bit different with Jimin and Yoongi because they were knight and warrior respectively for their queens before marrying them so they have to have an idea on the diplomatic relation between the queendoms and how their own works.

I also think that if Jin would have grown up with his parents and meet his healer, they would have been equal from the start because the healer isn't one to judge on gender alone. So it's interesting to see how traditions influence the couples in the Queendom universe!

We're only missing Namjoon now! Do you have any ideas for him? And will we have a big meet up after we get Namjoon's story? That would be my dream! (and a part 2 for Tae because he is to adorable not to have one please 🥺)

I love you! I appreciate you and all the work you put in your fic! I'm pretty sure I told you that already but you're my favourite author ever! And I can't wait for Caerula Luna! 💜💜💜

“Being a sorcerer has always been Hoseok’s dream. So when a well-known and powerful sorceress sends out letters informing the young minds of the city of an upcoming position as her apprentice, Hoseok takes fate into his own hands and applies. The only problem is that learning the arts of magic is reserved for women. He is convinced however that hard work and effort can charm the sorceress’ heart and get him the position.”

Pairing: Magic Student!Hoseok x Magic Student!Reader

Genre: Fantasy!AU, Magic School!AU, s2f2potential lovers!AU, Romance

Warnings: lots of plot, 90% of this is written from Hoseok’s POV, Queendom!Tae being the bestest friend, they’re both so adorable, the students are mean to him at first :(, except for reader heheh she is a sweetheart <3, also idk if this is important but i got inspired by Elden Ring as far as some names are concerned istfg best game <3, this will have a second part where reader’s pov plays a bigger part and the romance is gonna be bigger as well <3, for now this story is very magic & Hobi’s journey to magic centered, but also some romantic tension is present as well hngngn, istfg i love this universe

Wordcount: 6.5k of 24.3k

✴ Part Two of Two ✴

Hoseok returns to the school with new energy. Spending the days with Taehyung truly helped him see the bright side of things again. He knows that he can do it. Hoseok is motivated to find his connection.

Two weeks however pass and Hoseok still fails to find his connection. His fellow students have already managed the second step each and proved their worth, while he still struggled to connect. The motivation of once has long died out again. 

It is dinner time, but Hoseok is not in the eating hall. 

“Have you seen Hoseok?” Ainar asks you and Ash.

“I haven’t.”

“I haven’t either.”

“Do you believe that he is alright? He looked very sad after class today.”

“I think it really saddens him that he cannot connect to the magic”, Ash says, “poor Hoseok, I truly wish for him to find it.”

“Yes, me too”, Ainar agrees.

“I am most certain that he will. He has to. With the test coming up”, you say.

“What do you think will happen to him if he cannot connect until then?”

Nobody dares to speak, eventhough all of you share the same thought. That if Hoseok fails, it could mean that he will have to pack his belongings and leave this school. A kind heart will only prove one worthy for that long before the missing skill catches up with one. Hoseok might have the kindness a great sorcerer should posses, but if he cannot access the magic, it means that he is simply that. A kind person. Nobody dares to speak these thoughts however because you truly wanted the best for him.

Ainar moved into your room after Becca had to leave. Ash voiced her deep regrets for her behaviour in the beginning and confessed that she was too scared to stand up to Becca in fear of being excluded. Hoseok forgave her and then offered her a piece of chocolate. Ever since then, your little group has been good friends. If you weren’t practicing or studying, you spend many hours laughing and talking in your shared sitting room. You think that Hoseok has the most wonderful laugh and the most thrilling stories to tell. His absence would truly be painful and none of you want his leave.

You agree to take dinner back to your bed chamber so Hoseok wouldn’t have to go to sleep hungry. Tomorrow will be a busy day as you will have potion class with sorceress Zenith and her lectures are always very draining. Hoseok needs to eat something unless he wants to faint.

He isn’t in the shared sitting room and so you knock on your bed chamber.

“Mhm.”

You open the door, Ash and Ainar follow.

“Hoseok? We brought you dinner.”

“I am not hungry.”

Hoseok lies in his bed with the blanket pulled over his head and his back turned to the door. 

“You must eat. We have sorceress Zenith tomorrow. You will suffer if you don’t eat something.”

“I am not going to class tomorrow.”

“What? Why?”

“But you love potion class”, Ash says.

“You say it always brings you joy”, Ainar insists.

“I don’t want to.”

You pull the blanket off his head. He whips around and tries to grab for it.

“Don’t. Just leave me be”, he complains.

“We worry for you.”

“Don’t you want to try the food? It is very delicious tonight”, Ainar tries.

Hoseok eyes it, then his friends. They look so worried for him. He gives up with a sigh, sitting up in his bed. He accepts the bowl of fresh fish stew and the piece of white bread with it.

“May we sit down?”

Hoseok nods his head. You sit down on his bed next to him, paying him company like this.

“You will be able to do it”, Ash says.

“Today was just the first day of the week and you still have three moons to prepare for the test. I am very positive that you will manage until then.”

“And if I won’t? We all know what this will mean. That I will lose my spot at this school. What good is a magic student who cannot even connect to his magic?”

You exchange a look with the others. One Hoseok notices. He sags his shoulders in defeat.

“Perhaps I should already pack my belongings and leave, before I embarrass myself.”

“No, don’t speak like this. You will be able to do it. I just know you will”, you insist, reaching out to touch his arm before pulling back again. You have never touched him before. It would be strange to do so now.

Hoseok doesn’t notice it as he is too busy staring sad holes into the wall.

“Please, you must at least try”, Ash insists, “we do not wish to say goodbye to you.”

“Do you truly feel this way?” Hoseok asks.

You each nod your heads.

“Oh”, he lets out and lowers his head. His cheeks feel hot, his heart light in his chest, “I didn’t think that you would”, he confesses, “thank you. I must work hard, so we do not have to say goodbye to each other then.”

“Yes, exactly. If you want to, I can help you tomorrow after class”, you offer.

“Truly?”

You nod your head, “yes truly.”

“Then, I would love this.”

“It is decided then. Now eat your stew. I think that they used the freshest fish tonight. It tastes so wonderful.”

You and Hoseok meet up after late lunch. Ash and Ainar are outside with a few other girls, practicing for the exam. Some others are occupying the library.

“Where should we go? Our chamber?” Hoseok asks.

“No, I have a better idea”, you say and wave him with you, “follow me.”

Hoseok follows you in a quick step, greeting a few students as you pass them by. You also meet Sorceress Ciri on your path.

“Where are you off to?” she asks.

“The caves. We want to practice for the exam”, you tell her.

“Be careful. Especially you”, she addresses Hoseok with it.

“I, I will”, he stutters.

“Good. Some stones may very well only turn out to be stones. Dull, lightless failures.”

Hoseok blinks in shock.

“And some may outshine all others once they’ve reached the light”, you throw back angrily and tug at Hoseok’s sleeve, “come on Hoseok, we are already running late.”

Hoseok stumbles after you with his eyes glued to Sorceress Ciri for as long as possible. The sorceress curls her lips and clicks her tongue, turning her back to him before strutting off with her nose stuck high into the sky.

“Pay her words no mind. She is a bitter old hag.”

Hoseok gasps at your harsh words.

“Forgive me, I grew up with less classes in manners”, you say, “I won’t take back what I said, however.”

Hoseok lets a small smile wash over his lips, “it is alright.”

The caves can be reached through a sturdy door. It is very important not to imagine the caves like one might imagine a typical cave. Dark, wet, cold. The glintstone caves are none of these things. They dig deep and lower into the mountain, but no corner of it is dark. Magic deep in the crystal makes them glow, illuminating the paths and stairs this way. The air is quite comfortable on the skin and leaves no wet sensation behind, carrying magical scents one might describe as sweet while others might take them in as fresh. Tables and chairs are scattered on the bigger areas where students can sit and practice. They are currently empty. And purple clouds of magic dance in the air. A waterfall is rushing in the background, its waters can be used in healing potions.

You and Hoseok choose a table surrounded by glintstone and not far from the door. 

“Let me”, Hoseok offers and fixes the chair for you. 

“Thank you”, you say with a quick flutter in your heart, “what a surprise.”

“Oh? Oh, forgive me. Force of habit. I am so used to fixing chairs for Taehyung.”

“It is alright. I didn’t mind.” 

Hoseok sits down opposite of you, looking around the cave.

“I still cannot believe that something like this truly exists.” 

“Yes, me neither”, you agree, “now, are you ready to practice?” 

He nods his head vividly.

“Take out your stone.”

Hoseok obeys.

“Show me your process.” 

Hoseok obeys. Just like always, he fails to lift the stone. 

“As you can see, I am as far as I was on the first day”, he jokes, lifting the corners of your lips into a smile. 

“I am most certain that something happened inside you. Something that perhaps needs just a little bit of help?” 

“Help?” 

“Please do not judge me, but I did some reading”, you say and pull out a carefully written paper, “here. You can have these notes.” 

“Truly?” Hoseok accepts them gladly.

“Yes. These are only my theories and I am but a mere beginner as well, so take them with caution. But I was thinking that perhaps your own magic is simply not strong enough to find its connection with you.” 

“Not strong enough you say?” 

“Yes. Watch me.” 

Hoseok follows you with his eyes. You reach to your side and touch the glintstone, making it glow. It feels warm and comfortable and you take this feeling to transfer it into the stone to make it float. Hoseok’s stone floats soon after, the small table follows as well. 

Hoseok gasps in awe.

“You see? Perhaps you have to channel the energies in these caves and your magic will be stronger”, you say, lowering the objects again. The glow dies down, as does the warmth in your fingertips, “strong enough so that it can finally find its connection.” 

“That was remarkable.”

“Thank you. Try it yourself.”

“Forgive me?” Hoseok gasps with widened eyes, “how should I do such a thing?”

“Simply try. Perhaps you need a little help to connect with your magic. Perhaps you cannot produce enough energy yet and need a strengthening from these stones.” 

“So you believe that with a stronger source, I could awaken my magic inside? Like feeding a dying fire more wood?” 

“Yes, exactly.” 

“Perhaps this could work”, Hoseok says and stands up to touch the glintstone just like you did. 

It makes soft sounds, soaking the pads of his fingers with coldness. He closes his eyes, focusing on the sensation. 

“Try to visualise it”, you whisper. 

Hoseok imagines glowing stones and warmth in his fingers. He imagines purple haze all around him and how it soaks his fibres. He imagines his practice stone floating and how much warmer his hands would get. 

He imagines, but he fails to truly put it into reality. He opens his eyes. Coldness. No glow. He drops his hand from the stone and sinks down on his chair, burying his face in his hands. 

“I tried so hard”, he gets out shakily. 

“Try again.”

“No, just give it up. It won’t work.” 

“But it has to”, you say and touch the stone. You make it glow, “look! I, I did it for you. Keep this glow alive”, you try.

“How?” 

“Touch it and try to keep it alive.”

Hoseok obeys even if his eyes seem hopeless.

“I am counting to three and then you give it life. One, two, three.”

Bright light for but a breath, sudden flickering which weakens the glow more and more until the stone is dark again. 

“You did it!”

“I didn’t do anything. I failed”, Hoseok insists and pulls his hands away.

“No, you did something. The stone flickered before it died out. You kept it alive for but a moment.”

“No, I didn’t. It was simply your magic leaving it.” 

“No it wasn’t. You did that.”

“Give it up, ___. I am hopeless.”

“No, you are not.”

“Why do you want my success so badly? Why can’t you just let it go?”

“Because I like you”, you blurt out. 

Hoseok closes his mouth, gawking at you with widened eyes. His pulse flutters for but a moment.

“And I want your dream to become reality. I want it so very much. Not only for you, but also for my brother. You cannot give up, Hoseok please. You could change the world and make it possible so that dreamers like my brother have a chance as well.”

“But I am just a boy”, Hoseok whispers, 

“You are not just a boy. You are Hoseok, you are strong and resilient and a wonderful dreamer.”

“But how should I change the world?”

“By not giving up. By believing in yourself.”

Hoseok lowers his head shyly.

“And if you cannot believe in yourself right now, believe in me and my support for you.” 

Hoseok meets your gaze. Honesty, hope, admiration. He can see it in your purple eyes. You speak the truth. You really believe in him. 

“Thank you”, he breathes, looking at your lips for but a moment, “for saying this.”

“I meant it. I cannot say goodbye to you, so please do not give up already.”

He smiles shyly, “I won’t.” 

You retort his smile, letting your eyes run over his face. He has a birthmark on his lip. You never noticed it until now. Your mother always tells you that birthmarks show up on a person’s body where they were kissed especially much in their past life. 

Hoseok lets out a shy laugh, ripping you back to reality. You look away instantly, clearing your throat loudly. 

“I uhm”, you begin.

He clears his throat and looks away, turns to touch the glintstone. His cheeks feel hot. He closes his eyes and tries to imagine how his hands warm up as well. 

A tickle. At the very tips of his fingers. Hoseok gasps and pulls away instinctively.

“What is it? Did you feel something?” 

“No. Yes. I mean, I cannot say. My fingertips tickled.”

“Try again. Oh, this could be it!”

Hoseok touches the stone with both hands and closes his eyes. A tickle. He has to imagine a tickle which becomes warmth. 

Nothing happens. He pulls away, shaking his head sadly. 

“Try again.”

“I don’t think that your theory works. I am truly sorry.” 

“But it has to”, you say and take his hands so you could place them on the stone. 

Hoseok gasps quietly, gawking at his hands engulfed in yours. The touch goes so deep. He quite frankly, finds it a little hard to breathe all of a sudden.

You make the stone glow, keeping his hands between yours and the glowing crystal. 

“Feel it? How warm it becomes?” you try, squeezing his hands, “how it is tickling your palms?”

You look at his face. His cheeks are flushed, his eyes widened slightly. It is enough to make you realise the situation you currently find yourself in. You are touching him. You crossed the line. 

“Forgive me”, you say, pulling away instantly. 

Hoseok keeps his hands on the stone, looking at you just as you look at him. You both miss how the stone keeps glowing, just as Hoseok doesn’t take in how warm his hands have become. The eye contact takes all your attention.

“I shouldn’t have taken your hands. Please forgive me.” 

Hoseok shakes his head, “there is nothing to forgive.” 

He retreats his hands. The stone finally darkens. Neither of you take it in.

“I-”, you begin.

“Young students, why are you still here?” 

You never get to finish your sentence as sorceress Zenith interrupts you before you can. You and Hoseok stand up to bow at her.

“Forgive us, sorceress Zenith. We practiced for our exam”, Hoseok says.

“Hard work is honourable, but do not forget your sleep. It is late, young students. You must prepare for the night and I cannot allow you to be here any longer”, she says and waves the big set of keys around she uses to lock the caves overnight. 

“We are already leaving. Forgive us”, Hoseok says and hurries away with you by his side.

You wait until you cross a corner before breaking into giggles. 

“I cannot believe that we got caught by sorceress Zenith”, you snicker.

“My heart is racing. Did you see how she looked at us?” Hoseok giggles. 

“Oh, we are so doomed.” 

“No, do not say that. I am already doomed enough”, he chuckles.

“Forgive me, oh forgive me”, you laugh, stumbling from laughing so hard that Hoseok has to hold your sleeve for support. 

You stumble into your chamber still laughing about your run in with sorceress Zenith. Ainar and Ash are already in their room.

“Do you mind if I washed myself first?” you ask him.

“Not at all. I might go to the library either way. I must read up on the theory.” 

“But what if sorceress Zenith will catch you again?” you tease, stepping closer to him in a playful way. 

“Then I will tell her that it was your idea”, Hoseok throws back and gives your shoulder a little poke. 

You snicker, moving closer. Hoseok grins, chasing you. Your faces are mere inches away from touching.

Realisation. Hearts flutter.

You break away instantly, looking everywhere but the other person.

“I uhm, I am in the library”, Hoseok stutters.

“I understand, uh, have fun”, you say and leave for the washing chamber.

Hoseok calls your name. You look over your shoulder.

“Yes?”

“I uhm”, he clears his throat, blushing slightly. He shakes his head and looks away coyishly, “forget it. I was rambling.” 

“Huh?” 

“I’ll be in the library”, Hoseok says and bows deeply, “thank you for helping me.” 

“I uh”, you do not get to finish you sentence before he is already gone. What did he want to tell you?

Hoseok attempts to concentrate, but his mind is racing. Thoughts about you and the unexplainable flutters you awoke in him tonight, thoughts about the tickles in his fingertips but also worries about the test and his continuous failures.

The theory you told him sounded so perfect and yet he still failed to find his connection. The good thoughts of you drown out more and more, the longer Hoseok thinks about his failures. 

He doesn’t quite know how many hours he spent pondering his dark future and trying to find help in books, but his tired body lets him know that it must have been a few.

The library is dead silent. Hoseok should really be in his chambers already. Not only because the school rules say so, but also because it is way too late to still be awake. But Hoseok couldn’t sleep if he tried. Five moons passed ever since the weekend and he still hasn’t found his connection to magic. Not even practicing in the caves helped him. He feels like a failure. Perhaps Sorceress Ciri was right. Perhaps he is destined to be dull, lightless stone.

“Hoseok?”

He looks at the person having whispered his name.

“Sorceress Selen?” he gasps, scrambling to his feet to bow at her.

“Please stay comfortable”, she tells him and sits down on the chair opposite of him, “what are you still doing up?”

“Please forgive me. I didn’t notice how late it already was. I will go to my chambers right away. I promise it won’t happen again.”

“Sit, Hoseok.”

He follows her orders with a racing heart. He is scared. Will this be the night he is finally told to leave? He fumbles with his fingers nervously, trying to look into the sorceress‘ purple eyes despite his hammering heart.

“You do not seem like yourself lately. Is there something troubling you?” she however asks him with motherly concern in her voice.

Hoseok looks at his lap instantly, feeling his eyes water. It has been too long since someone spoke to him with such maternal worry in their voice. He feels too fragile tonight not to have a reaction to it.

“There is something troubling you, isn’t there?” she gasps upon seeing the tears in his eyes.

He nods his head.

“Talk to me, my young student.”

“I am scared.”

“Scared?”

He nods his head, “scared to fail tomorrow’s test. I am such a failure. I feel unworthy of your teachings. I even fail to do something as simple as lifting a stone with my mind.”

“Do not give up hope yet, my young student.”

“It all feels hopeless”, Hoseok sniffles, “what if I was never meant to learn magic? What if my dream is truly foolish? What if boys are simply not meant to possess magic? Sorcerer Argon was proof enough. I am but a foolish boy with foolish ambitions”, Hoseok says and rubs at his eyes to stop himself from truly crying.

The sorceress Selen studies his sad stature, taking a deep breath. She fixes her dress and straightens up.

“I am going to tell you a story”, she begins.

Hoseok looks at her.

“A story of a powerful sorcerer and how he managed to write history.”

“A sorcerer? There was another sorcerer?” Hoseok gasps.

“Oh yes there was.”

“So it is truly possible for boys to learn magic without losing control?”

“Oh yes it is. There was one sorcerer, who traversed these lands many, many centuries ago and who till this day is spoken about.”

“Really?”

“Oh yes. He was a powerful mage, who had incredible magic inside him. He always spoke of creating a spell so grande he will be able to leave this plain and travel to another universe.”

“This is impossible. Nobody could be that powerful. You said so yourself.”

“But he was.”

“No”, he gasps.

“Yes, yes indeed he was, dear Hoseok. Indeed he was. He worked decades on this one spell and he always spoke of leaving this universe and finding another where he will be able to create his own school of magic.”

“For boys and girls?”

“Yes indeed. For boys and girls. He spoke of it in many of his writings. And so he worked on the spell until one day he was gone. His servant had gone to the market for fresh eggs and when he returned, the mage’s office was completely cleaned out. Except for one small letter.” 

“What did it say?” 

“Dear Bartemo. That was his servant’s name. Dear Bartemo, if you read this letter and I am nowhere to be found, it seems that my spell was finally successful. I took my research with me. However, the estate and all its belongings are yours from this day forward. I am off to teach many young children the arts of magic. With kindest regards, Nilrem.”

“Nilrem”, Hoseok repeats, “I have read this name in scriptures long ago. I never believed this name to be important. Was he ever found? Did he return? What about his research? Is it truly lost?”

“Oh yes, sadly he took it with him. He was never seen in this realm again and Bartemo lived to eighty years of age before a fever took him. He never saw his master again, but he always spoke highly of him.”

“This is truly such a wonderful story. I thank you for telling me. Nilrem. I will remember the name and see it as motivation to grow as a sorcerer”, Hoseok lets out an excited giggle, scrunching his nose, “do you believe that he was successful? That he managed to teach magic to younglings?”

“I like to believe that he was. It is truly a shame that in this realm, it is still so frowned upon for boys to learn magic, so I truly hope that in at least another universe, Nilrem managed to make the world a fairer place.” 

“Yes, yes this sounds good”, Hoseok says and nods his head, “oh, I am spilling over with sudden motivation. I need to practice my spells, yes I must. Please if you would excuse me”, he says and jumps up to hurry away.

The sorceress Selen watches him with fond eyes until the library door closes behind him. He is a student she finds herself very fond of already.

“___!” Hoseok calls your name, stumbling through the door.

You lift your head from your pillow, studying his face with sleepy eyes. He looks out of breath.

“Yes?” you croak with your voice heavy from sleep.

“Sorcerer existed in these lands!”

“What do you mean?”

Hoseok jumps onto your bed and touches your arm in excitement, shaking you in your comfortable blanket cocoon. You whine quietly, feeling oh so dizzy.

“I spoke with sorceress Selen in the library and she told me a story of a powerful sorcerer, who wandered these lands thousands of years ago. His name was Nilrem and he was so powerful that he could traverse universes.”

“Universes?” you murmur and yawn loudly, “what do you mean universes?”

“Yes, universes! He went to another universe and was never seen again. Oh ___, boys can learn magic”, Hoseok drops his head into your blanket, hugging you this way, “and they can be powerful without losing control. I can learn magic as well, it is possible.”

You tense up in shock, feeling your heart speed up in your chest. He feels very warm and comfortably heavy on your chest. Oh by Frenya, you wear but a thin sleeping gown and his head is dangerously close to your bosom. Thankfully for your own sanity of heart, Hoseok sits up again. He is too overtaken in excitement to truly realise what he has done and what he did to your poor heart in the process.

“I can learn magic as well, ___”, he says and laughs so brightly his lips form the prettiest of hearts.

“So this means that sorceress Ciri lied today”, you say.

“Yes it was a lie”, Hoseok says and sighs in relief, “I am not a failure.”

“Of course you aren’t”, you say and sit up, covering yourself with the blanket, “I always believed in you. She was very rude and wrong for talking to you like this.”

“I thank you for saying this”, Hoseok gives your upper arm a gentle rub, “I am very happy to have you as my chamber mate.”

“Oh”, you feel your cheeks heat up, lowering your eyes shyly, “I am happy as well”, you whisper.

“Now, you must excuse me. I am in the garden, practicing until I can finally lift a stone”, Hoseok says and jumps out of your bed. He slips into his shoes and gives you a smiley wave goodbye before finally disappearing out of the room.

You touch the spot on your upper arm he rubbed, then the spot on your chest his head rested upon, taking a deep breath to calm down the flutter of your heart.

He is already doing magic. Deep, deep in your chest where you pulse just doesn’t want to slow down.

Hoseok isn’t in his bed when you wake early the next morning. You leave your sleeping chambers. The door to Ainar’s and Ash’s chamber is still closed and right there on the soft seating, Hoseok is sleeping with his mouth wide open. Half of his limbs hang from the edge off the seat, his long hair does as well. His practice glintstone sits on the table. The notes you made for him lie beside it. 

For but a second you let him sleep peacefully, letting your eyes wander over him. His body is still dressed in the white clothing of yesterday, his shoes are scattered by the entrance. Your eyes linger but a second on his exposed neck and how the morning sun paints streaks of golden light on his skin. 

You had a difficult time falling asleep last night as your mind kept you awake with thoughts of what happened between you and him. Barely anything did if one compares it to truly big happenings, but it meant a lot to you. You touched his hands, you shared playful banter in front of the bathing chamber with him, he hugged you. You never experienced something like this before and you couldn’t quite place the feelings it awakes in your chest.

You lift your eyes upon hearing Ash open her door. She and Ainar leave their room.

“Oh? What happened to him?”

“Practice. I think he practiced all night.”

Hoseok, who wakes up from your voices, sits up. He groans loudly, touching his neck instantly.

“By Frenya, my neck”, he whines, massaging in vividly, “huh?!” he suddenly straightens up, “what time is it? Oh, the test!” he blurts out and jumps up to run out of the room.

“We still have two hours left”, you stop him before he can.

“Oh”, he stops, “really?”

“Yes, enough time for you to wash up. You look rather battered.”

“I feel battered. My neck is going to kill me”, he says and rolls it, groaning as he does.

“Did you sleep here all night?” Ainar asks.

“No. I fell asleep with the sun rising.”

“But it has only been light for an hour.”

“I know”, Hoseok says and yawns.

“Why did you stay up this long? How should you concentrate today?”

“I will make it work”, Hoseok says, furrowing his brows in conviction. He lets his eyes drift to yours, “I have a dream to fulfil.”

A smile graces your face for but a moment, before you feel too shy to keep the eye contact going. Hoseok looks to the side.

“Now if you don’t mind, I would like to wash the day away.”

“Go ahead. I already bathed last night”, Ash assures him, “Ainar and I will be in the eating hall.”

“May I accompany you?” you ask them.

“Of course.”

You leave Hoseok alone in your shared room. He picks up his practice stone and walks to his room to get new clothing so he could get dressed in the bathing chamber.

He meets you and the others in class. Like so very often, you bring breakfast because you knew that he would skip it for the sake of practicing just a little more. He eats it seated by his desk and with his nervous eyes glued to his practice stone. The swell of his eye sacs and the redness of his eyes haven’t gone down yet. He is so visibly tired in fact, that sorceress Selen asks if he was feeling alright once she enters the classroom. Sorceress Ciri is with her as well.

“I simply practiced all night”, he tells her.

“Sleep is important, my young student”, she tells him.

“I know, sorceress Selen. I will get it today.”

She nods in approval, then claps into her hands.

“Very well then, shall we get started with the tests? I am most certain that you all want to get it over with as quickly as possible. Who wants to start?”

Some students lift their hands and so the testing begins.

The test consists of two parts. One based on knowledge and the other on action. Sorceress Ciri asks each student two questions about the history of magic and then sorceress Selen asks two more questions about glintstone magic. The practical part comes last where the students have to lift their practice stone and guide it to a mug on the teacher’s desk where they will have to lower it into the mug carefully.

The other students are asked to be quiet during the testing. Some busy themselves by drawing in their books, while others read up on their notes and others listen to the testing. There are also people like Hoseok and Ash, who use the time to practice. Ash manages to lift her stone, moving it around with swirls of her finger. Soon it is her turn and then it will be your turn and then it will be his turn.

Hoseok gulps nervously and tries to concentrate on practicing. He didn’t manage to lift the stone during his nightly session. He will have to make it work or else he will fail. He knows what he needs to know, he could have answered each question the sorceresses asked his fellow students, but fails at the most crucial part. How will he be able to pass when he cannot put the knowledge into practice?

Ash returns to her seat, looking relieved. You stand up.

“Good luck”, Hoseok tells you, earning himself a sweet smile.

“Thank you.”

Hoseok listens to your testing. The questions are easy and you manage to answer them quickly and coherently. The practical part follows. You move the stone with ease, ending it by painting a circle with it before lowering it into the mug. It brings a chuckle to sorceress Selen’s lips.

“Good job, my young student”, she praises you, “please return to your seat.”

You hurry to it with a relieved grin on your lips. Ash and Ainar praise you instnaly.

“You did so well”, Hoseok says.

“Thank you”, you tell him.

“Hoseok, please come out”, sorceress Ciri tells him.

He takes a deep breath and stands up.

“Good luck. I believe in you”, you tell him.

“Good luck”, Ash says.

“You can do it”, Ainar encourages him.

Hoseok acknowledges them with a nervous smile. He can hear how much quieter the classroom became. Which means a lot, because it was already quiet. Everyone is watching him. He is aware of it. This is it. The moment which will decide if he is worthy of being a sorcerer or not.

Hoseok sits down, sweating buckets from just his palms. At least it feels like it.

“When was the first magic school founded?” sorceress Ciri asks him.

Hoseok has to think for a moment. This wasn’t in the curriculum. He isn’t surprised that she asks him a question like this. 

“It depends. If we take the writings of Sorceress Sorn into consideration, it is said that the first school of magic was founded as early as 218 of the second age by a group of dragon worshippers who discovered that glintstone can be harnessed for magic, but her writings are still seen as a rather incomplete source because of the great fires nine hundred years ago. So we use the Book of History written by sorceress Cicil in 1306 of the third age as the guide. In it, it says that the first school of magic was actually founded around two thousand years later than sorceress Sorn says in her writings and that the founders weren’t dragon worshippers, but scholars who studied glintstone for many centuries.”

Sorceress Ciri scrunches her nose in distaste. She didn’t think that he could answer this question. Hoseok lifts his head proudly.

“Very good”, she presses out, “where did the practice of Mending originate from?”

“The Glass Mountains in the school of sorceress Reah.”

“What even is Mending?”

“It is the magic of healing wounds by channelling the energies of the planets and using them to mend what was broken.”

“And why do we channel energies from the planets?”

“Because they are the strongest and purest form to channel. Nothing earthen has touched these energies yet and therefore soiled them. So they can be used to safely close wounds or mend broken bones.”

“And-”

“Thank you, sorceress Ciri”, sorceress Selen interrupts her, “I believe that Hoseok has already answered enough of your questions.”

The sorceress scrunches his nose in distaste.

“Fine”, she says and looks away with an annoyed gleam in her eyes.

Hoseok sends her a victorious look then shifts his eyes to sorceress Selen.

“Now Hoseok. Given how sorceress Ciri has already asked questions about glintstone magic, I believe that it is time for you to show what you have learned.”

Hoseok gulps. Truly, for just a second his heart stopped. He looks at the stone in front of him. This is it. The moment which determines if he is worthy.

“Take your time.”

Hoseok lifts his hands and visualises how the stone floats.

Nothing.

His heart races faster.

He tries harder.

Nothing.

Whispers begin in the classroom.

Hoseok lowers his hands. This is fruitless.

“Silence”, sorceress Selen warns, then speaks to Hoseok in a motherly tone, “try again. I believe in you.”

Hoseok lifts his hands again. He closes his eyes and visualises the stone. He thinks of his dream. Of how he told Taehyung that one day he will move the stars and make flowers grow from his fingers. Of how he promised his mother that one day he will be able to grow her a garden in the cold weathers of the Snow Isles. Of how he stayed up many nights to think about his life as a sorcerer. He thinks of sorceress Ciri and all the other people who so clearly see no future in him, but he also thinks of sorceress Selen and Taehyung and the princess and his chamber mates and how they all believe in him. He thinks of you and your little brother, then imagines all the other young boys who dream a dream which seemed so unreachable to them.

He thinks about how he was once one of these boys until he managed to get a spot at a magical school and how he could be the boy who changes the future for many other dreamers.

He opens his eyes, meeting ecstatic happiness in Sorceress Selen’s eyes and surprised pride in sorceress Ciri’s eyes. He looks at his hands.

The stone is floating.

“Oh! Ah!” he exclaims and almost drops it again.

“Concentration”, sorceress Selen says.

“I-I’m doing it!” he stutters with glassy eyes, “the stone is floating!”

“How wonderful, Hoseok. Now move it.”

“I am! I am moving it! Watch me!” he exclaims and makes the stone move with swirls of his fingers. And as he moves the stone with just his mind, purple soaks the white strands of his hair until even the last inch of his long locks are painted in it.

He drops the stone in the mug, jumping up with a loud yelp of excitement.

“I did it!” he turns to the class, “I moved the stone!”

His fellow students jump up in joy, cheering with him because all they wanted was his success. They run to him, circling him with some even patting his arms in congratulatory happiness.

You are with them as well, crying tears of happiness.

“You did it”, you tell him.

“I did it.”

“And your hair. Look at your hair!”

“My hair?” Hoseok tugs it into his vision, “my hair?! It is purple?!”

“The magic has deemed you worthy”, sorceress Selen says with pearls of tears in the corner of her eyes as well. She truly rooted for her dear student.

„Very impressive, young student“, sorceress Ciri says with an respectful bow of her head. 

Hoseok smiles in gratitude, before looking at you and the others.

“Hoseok! You are worthy!” you exclaim and take his hands to squeeze them excitedly, “I told you. I knew that you could do it!” “Worthy? I am worthy”, Hoseok presses out and spills tears as realisation finally sets in, “I am worthy to be a sorcerer. I did it. I am worthy.”

[intergalactic-padawan]

inquisitor - Ezra Bridger

Requested: yes, by the beautiful @raganbridger! Sorry for the wait, it's finally here!

Warnings: angst, dark side!reader, confusion, mentions of bad injuries/blood, betrayal

A/N: You asked for le angst, so here it is! I've had this idea for a long while and this request was the motivation I needed to start. LOTS of alternative endings were written, this was mostly the reason it took so long.

Pronouns of reader: she/her

*ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE! I make mistakes just like everybody else 😉*

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-"oh, good, you're awake"

You sit and inhale sharply, focusing back on the real world, startled at the strange voice.

Well, not so strange per se. You knew who was talking to you. What was strange was why he was talking to you.

Before you can adjust your vision to the unfamiliar environment, the memories from hours earlier instantly come flooding back.

Malachor. The place where jedi go to die.

An easy kill for you and your inquisitor colleagues.

That's what they had said on the ship, at least. You, on the other hand, knew better than to underestimate how slippery those jedi could be - especially if they fought side by side, like they always did.

You remember cornering the younger one during the fight. His skill was minimal compared to yours, which would give you an advantage against his master if he were to die first.

The boy and his friends go after the sith holocron. There had been a blinding light when it was placed at the altar.

And also, the jedi knight who was blinded by your former master, Maul.

Maul.

Not only had the cursed man left you for dead years before, he had come back from hiding to haunt you and join forces with your other enemies.

But you were an inquisitor. You wouldn't - you couldn't let him get the best of you, not this time.

You feel a light hand pressing your forehead and recoil in fear, reaching for your lightsaber, only to feel it was not there.

-"whoah, woah, calm down. I'm not going to hurt you" - it was the padawan you'd been fighting before - Ezra Bridger. He had placed you and his master inside a cave in a planet you were not familiar with when you'd escaped Malachor.

You'd escapd Malachor? But how?

You couldn't have, unless he'd carried you back to his ship.

-"hey, hey, it's alright."

-"what do you want, jedi?" - you wince in pain again.

-"a thank you would be nice, actually. I did just save your life"

-"a foolish mistake. One you will pay for with yours"

You reach out for your lightsaber, but can't feel it anywhere close. Scouring with the force for its presence, you quickly realize he must have hidden it outside the place.

-"Nope, absolutely not" - just as quickly, he slaps your outstreched hand - "I may be an idiot, but i'm not stupid. Your lightsaber's not here, it's caused enough damage already."

You rub the hand he pushed away, more shocked at his actions than anything. How DARE he?

-"Then what do you want from me, if not revenge? Why treat my wounds if not to finish the battle we started?"

-"Listen, I'm not sure if it's the adrnaline or something, but you're in no condition to fight anyone any time soon"

-"You underestimete me, Jedi. Even in these conditions you would be no match for me."

-"Like I wasn't a match for you at the sith temple?"

At the mention of the event, images of the fight start to come back.

Back at the sanctuary, you drew him away from the fight, knowing his strengh lied with his allies. Only, you hadn't imagined your former master to join his side - not until you'd seen the holocron in Ezra's hands, at least. You'd warned him: "he will use it and throw you away. Like he did to me". Needless to say, he didn't listen.

Your vision starts to lose focus at the intensity of your anger and you groan in pain, not able to sit anymore. Driven by instinct, the padawan holds your side so you won't fall completely, pressing your abdomen and making you hiss in pain.

-"ah, looks like I was right. You're conscious, but not healed" - you feel yourself be adjusted back on the ground, too weak to fight him.

-"where are we? Why did you save my life?"

He hesitates, eyes studying you, like you might attack him any second and he still knew it.

-"not so sure" - he finally answers - "maybe because now you owe me one?"

-"Did you hit your head or something?" You scoff - "Make no mistake, I WILL kill you when the opportunity rises!"

-"And that is why your lightsaber privileges have been revoked for now."

You lock eyes, studying him like he had you. It made no sense- you'd followed his group to the sith temple, tried to kill him several times, called for the man who had murdered his strongest ally, Ahsoak Tano. Why was he helping you?

With a shiver, you realize he's still holding your side, not as firmly as before but still providing support for your back. Inhaling sharply, you graze his hand and he lets go instantly, realizing how close the two of you had gotten.

Standing up just as quickly, he brushes a strand of unruly hair our of his forehead, while you you clean your throat, diverting your attention to the exit of the cave. The rain pours on the large trees outside, but you can't make out much except for the fact that you're in a forest planet (maybe a moon?) and his ship is in less than ideal conditions to get out of it.

-"here" - Ezra kneels down with two bacta patches and a piece of fabric from a medical kit -"i felt your back was pretty sore, but didn't want to take off your shirt while you were out. Your cuts need cleaning."

You hesitantly take the items, using the rocks behind you as support to lean your body on. He stands up, hands on hips, and chuckles when you sniff the gel, suspicious.

With the small bit of privacy he gives you by turning around to check on his master, you fumble with your shirt, deciding to take it off in order to see better.

-"Need some help over there?" - he asks, hearing you grunt in frustration at not being able to reach some spots

-"Not from you, thank you very much"

-"Oh, so she CAN say thank you! That's a welcome change"

You throw the rag at his direction, irritated out of your mind. Who does he think he is??

He must sense the harmless ball of soaked fabric coming his way, turning around to catch it mid-air. Now that he's turned, you see a glimpse of amusement in his eyes at your rage, giving you the answer you needed as to why he went through the trouble of saving you; it was merely to see you suffer and laugh at your expense, apparently.

His expression quickly changed when he saw your bruised torso, however.

- "who did this to you?" - he whispers, and you look down at you look down at your sore ~ well, everything~, covered only by a wrap in the bust area.

-"As you said, jedi. I may be better than you, but you still gave me a decent challenge"

"No. I didn't even hit you there." - his serious reaction to your injuries had caught you off guard, you had to admit. - "those are old and deep, you shouldn't even be able to walk!"

-"I'm not, remember?" - you motion at your debilitated situation, unable to even sit down or cross your legs properly -"But i will be, soon. And then it's over for you"

-"you know what? I think if you wanted to, you would have killed me by now." - he shoots back and you're impressed at his audacity once again.

But he had a point. Why hadn't you attacked him yet?

Sure, you had no lightsaber or phisical conditions to stand, but your force abilities were still as strong as ever. You were vulnerable, but so was he, and you weren't kidding when you said you could deal with him even at your worse.

-"you know what? " - you cross your arms. He was playing with fire now - "maybe I might"

-"and why haven't you?"

-"because I wouldn't enjoy it as much." - you snap back venomously - "I want to see you suffer before I bring you to Lord Vader"

His expression darkens at the mention of Ahsoka's murderer. His whole body stiffens as he balls his wrists and clearly struggles to control his anger at the recent loss. For a moment, you fear you've gone too far, but reprimand yourself for worrying about his feelings over yours. You're not supposed to be anything more than indifferent to the weak and ruthless to those who dare oppose you.

-"Yeah, no matter what you do, you're still imperial scum"

You're not prepared for those words to affect you so much. You're supposed to have a response, but nothing coherent seems to come out of your mouth, so you settle for an an uncomfortable silence.

It doesn't last for long, however, as his comlink goes off. It's his droid, asking - no, demanding - that he go help him with repairs on the ship. He hesitates, looking at you and contemplating how bad it would be to leave you unnatended in the company of his defenseless master.

-"Dont worry."- You reassure him. -"I won't make his situation worse. Maul is the worse you can get, and I refuse to step that low"

You can see he doesnt like it, but leaves for a few moments before returning with what must be the droid that talked to him before. It was a C1 series unit with an orange top and a bratty atitude, you could tell that much by just seeing him interact with the jedi.

-"Chopper will stay here, just in case"

-"I understand. It's fine."

-"I wasn't asking if you were fine with it. Behave" - you can't be sure if his command is directed at you or the droid, but you weren't about to ask.

The coldness he now had to his voice was understandable - you had worked to get him to that emotional state - ,but you felt hurt at the change. The droid didn't do much to help you think clearly about what just happened, and by the look of it, your frustration would only grow bigger in the many hours it would still take to repair the ship to a normal flying condition.

'He thinks i'm imperial scum, huh?' - you think as you scour a pile of your belongings with the force, not too far away inside the cave.

Bad news, your lightsaber really wasn't there.

Good news, your wrist comm was.

'i'll show him imperial scum'

With a plan forming in mind, all you had to do now was be patient and wait for the right time. There's no exchange of words between the two of you when he gets back, which makes time fly by before he's betrayed by exaution and finally gives in to sleep. You take care of the droid easily after that.

Activating the tracking beacon, you start to leave the cave, but not before noticing the boy's lightsaber beside him. It was a bold move, he could easily wake up if you took it, but you knew that if he woke up to see you gone you'd need it to compensate for your injuries.

You were still on opposing sides, after all.

You knew there had to be an imperial ship near the planet, and they would pick up your signal in an instant when you called. Wallking to a less dense area of the forest, away from the crash site, you're proven right when, in a matter of minutes, a shuttle tripulated by four troopers and a senior lieutenant meet you on the ground.

-"and what of the jedi?" - the higher ranking woman asks when you finish your brief description of the events that led you there.

Well, not all events. You'd left out the part where Bridger had helped you recover.

You could just tell them to take the two jedi for excecution. You were supposed to do it, in fact.

-"it's just me. And the younger one's lightsaber" - you finally answer, not exactly knowing why you'd deliberately just saved them.

She nods curtly and escorts you back to the ship without a second glance. It was a good story so far, but you would have to work on it if your superiors were to believe it.

-"Wait- " - you start, second-guessing your motives for not giving away their location. One of the troopers turns to you expectantly.

-"yes, sir?"

You hesitate for a moment, ready to do what you'd beeen taught to do your whle life. Kill the jedi.

Kill the jedi.

A tingling crept up your sides, where the padawan had touched earlier to give you support. You try to betray the gut feeling pressing you to do your duty as an inquisitor, but it's stronger than you. Something is forcing your better judgement to be leaving your natural enemies alive.

-"nothing." - the tingle goes away as soon as it had come, leaving an unusual feeling of relief. - "Thought i'd sensed something. Let's leave"

'Perhaps it's for the best'. - you think as the shuttle's door closes. After all, you did owe him one for saving your life - whatever his reason was for doing so.

That was what you told yourself as you boarded the ship, at least. Now, the next time you saw him, there would be nothing to stop you from finishing him and his friends for good.

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Hope you like it? I gave him a 'hands on hips' moment in honour of your videos for a more personalized touch hahahaha

[picturejasper20]

Malachite Character Analysis

(Warning: Mention and analysis of a very toxic relationship.)

¨These two are really bad for each other. Malachite was formed through extortion and deception and held together out of revenge. Malachite is the worst relationship imaginable.¨

Malachite was a character that was introduced in Season 1 finale "Jailbreak" after Jasper and Lapis Lazuli decided to fuse together to defeat the Crystal gems.

In this post i'm going to examine Malachite as a fusion and what she tells us about Jasper and Lapis and their relationship.

Lapis Lazuli´s and Jasper´s backstory:

First let's talk a bit about Jasper's and Lapis´ past:

Steven first found Lapis trapped in a Gem mirror, after spending some time with her, he decided to free her and later healed her gem so she could return to Homeworld by using her magic water wings.

In the episode ¨Same Old World¨ (Season 3) Lapis tells to Steven her backstory about how she got trapped in that mirror.

¨It was thousands of years ago. I was only meant to visit for a short time, but I got caught in the middle of the war. It was awful. I tried to run, but... I was picked up by a Homeworld soldier and confused for a Crystal Gem, and used as a tool.¨

Lapis talks about what happened to her as it was an accident, a terrible tragedy in which there´s not only one person she can blame for all her problems. In a way, she´s potrayed as victim of the Gem war, she was on Earth for a visit and then she was meant to leave.

She was treated as a prisoner from gems who were supposed to be on her side, used as a tool and left behind on Earth like her life was nothing.

¨It soon became clear that there was no hope in stopping the rebellion. All of the Homeworld Gems fled, and all the panic of escaping Earth, I was left behind. And there I stayed. Freedom in my sight, but out of reach for ages, until I was found.¨

Then she spend thousands of year trapped in that mirror, alone, with no one to talk to, with her gem cracked on top of that. Anyone stuck in that situation who quickly became insane and would definely not be the same person that used to be before the traumatic event.

It´s not suprising Lapis was so angry when Steven free her from that mirror. While she didn´t want to get revenge on the Crystal gems she still had a lot of anger and frustration buried deep inside her.

As for Jasper, her backstory differs greatly from Lapis´:

Jasper was born in the middle of the gem war in the Beta Kindergarten, in less than a few hours she took more than 80+ Crystal gems impressing many Homeworld gems due to her strengh.

She was considered a gem role model in Homeworld, she was an example of what a quartz soldier should be. The issue was that depiste being highly respected by her peers, she couldn´t get out of her mind that she still was a gem that came from the worst kindergarten on Earth.

According to Peridot on ¨Beta¨ most gems born in the Beta Kirdengarten came out flawed or defective in some way. This was because Homeworld rushed the place during the war to get more gems. 

Jasper was one of the few gems that came out ¨right¨ to the point she could be considered a superquartz soldier by Homeworld´s standards.

However not matter how much praised she got, Jasper thought there was something with her because of her origins. This made her develop an  obsession with proving her power and getting more and more self-destructive as time passed.

¨Jasper is a bully in the truest sense. Deep down, she's afraid there's something wrong with her, so she has to feed her ego. She has to put other Gems down to stay on top. Who she is and where she's from gnaws at her all the time. She has a fantastic reputation, she's considered the greatest Quartz soldier produced on Earth, and that might impress other Gems, but it will never be good enough for her.¨

¨Because she loves honor, fighting, making her mark, and winning the battle, she'll actually go against her programming a little bit just to be the winner. So she can be self-destructive at times. She is tragically obsessed with proving her superiority.¨

Why is all this important? Well, it´s essential to know where these characters are coming from to understand why they decided to be Malachite in first place and why they were a recipe for disaster the moment that Jasper asked Lapis to fuse with her.

On one hand you have a gem that was spent thousands of years trapped against her will and carries a lot on anger and trauma inside her. On the other hand the other gem also has war trauma, it's very self-destructive and thinks she's horrible. Mix these two together and what you get is a unstable fusion made of hate and revenge.

Malachite as a metaphor for Jasper´s and Lapis´ relationship

Now that i have talked about their past. I going examine the scene in which they fuse into Malachite in "Jailbreak" and what the fusion tells us about their relationship.

After being defeated by Garnet (a fusion) Jasper decides to find someone she could also fuse with to win against the Crystal gems.

She spot Lapis Lazuli and grabs her before she can escape flying. She convinces Lapis to fuse with her to get revenge on Crystal gems. She reminds her how they used her and how they are traitors to Homeworld.

¨These Gems, they're traitors to their Homeworld. They kept you prisoner. They used you.¨

It's worth of pointing out that Jasper never tries to "force" Lapis into fusing with her in this scene. She tries using her, true, but she waits until Lapis accepts and gives her hand.

Now, Jasper could care less about Lapis in this scene. For her, she was only just a tool to get revenge on the Crystal gems and Rose Quartz. There wasn't any "trust" between the two.

As for Lapis, she tried escaping from Jasper first but after realising that she was about to being used again by someone who had kept her prisoner in the ship she snapped and decided to stop being treated like an object for once.

Moments later after they fused into Malachite, Lapis took control of the fusion's water powers and chained her down, dragging her into the bottow of the ocean.

¨I'm done being everyone's prisoner. Now you're my prisoner! And I'm never letting you go! Let's stay on this miserable planet... together!¨

As Lapis stated, she was done of being everyone's prisioner, she was tired of being treated like a tool by everyone. Control in her own life was something was constanly taken away from her. So by trapping Malachite (and herself) meant that was able to make choices again.

As for Jasper, i already mentioned that she only wanted Lapis to become more powerful. Jasper is a gem that shown to be obssesed with winning and fighting. She doesn't accept defeat easily and the more she loses, more self-destructive she gets.

In "Chilled tid" Steven gets a glimpse of what Malachite's mind looked like: Lapis and Jasper were fighting over the control of the fusion. They both were completely exhausted and beaten.

There's a visual methaphor about how they are both chained to Malachite in this dream sequence. This is very much like how it's really difficult to get out of a toxic/codependent relationship and how one feels trapped with no hope of getting out of it.

Another interesting detail is when Jasper takes control, all she's able to say is "YOU! YOU! YOU!¨ to Steven. It shows how crazy she gets when can't win a battle and how her mind deteriorates in the process.

The episode "Alone at the Sea" explores their relationship even further by showing which their main motivations were and how it affect them both.

First of all, the reason of why Lapis didn't want to be near the ocean again it's because it remind her of time she used to be fused with Jasper:

"Look, Lapis, I know you spent a really long time fused with Jasper at the bottom of the ocean, but you're not Malachite anymore.And water is a part of who you are. You can't let one bad experience take that away from you."

During the boat trip Lapis keeps blaming herself for the events of Ocean gem and Malachite:

"It's my fault. I'm the one to blame."

"I'm terrible! I did horrible things! I-I broke your dad's leg. I stole Earth's ocean! Go on! Tell me I'm wrong!"

She describes herself as "terrible". She thinks she don't deserve the kindness that Steven has giving her during all this time.

Lapis is a character who usually stuggles with change in the series. She thinks she won't be able to revover from her trauma, that she can't grow and become a better person.

She also mentions to him how she can't help but think of when she used to be Malachite.

"I'm really trying to enjoy it out here, but... I can't stop thinking about being fused as Malachite, how I used all my strength to hold her down in the ocean, and how I was always battling against Jasper to keep her bound to me."

"But it's not like that anymore. You don't have to be with Jasper."

"That's not it. I... I miss her."

"What?!"

"We were fused for so long."

This implies that after spending so much together Jasper and Lapis became codependent of each other. Steven, who was still a teenager in this scene, couldn't fully get grasp of why his friend who missed being in a terrible situation like that.

And Lapis was not the only one that felt like this.

When Jasper shows up, she shows she has been missing Lapis as well and she has been tracking her to find her.

In a very rare moment that would look out of character for her Jasper kneels down and begs for Lapis to be Malachite again.

¨Let's be Malachite again.¨  

Keep in mind that until know Jasper has always been potrayed as someone who would do anything it takes to win. She's tough gem soldier who isn't afraid of her enemies. She's strong,cocky and agressive. So why did she ask to be Malachite again?

"I was wrong about fusion. You made me understand! Malachite was bigger and stronger than both of us! We could fly!"

She emphazises Malachite's power when they were fused. How strong and powerful she was.

This makes sense considering the factthat Jasper thinks of herself as "horrible" and "defective". She has a huge inferiority complex that comes from how Earth gems are perceived on Homeworld.

So, being Malachite made her feel "complete" and cover up her insecurities and personal issues.

"It'll be better this time. I've changed. You've changed me. I'm the only one who can handle your kind of power."

She tries to convince Lapis by saying how she's the only one that can "handle" her powers. This shows again how self-destructive Jasper can be as she was willing to go through that pain again just to feel powerful.

Another reason, i think, it's because she partially blames herself for Pink Diamond'd shattering. She probably wanted to be punished for her "failure" or wanted someone who she could follow again much like she started calling Steven "My diamond" in "Homeworld Bound".

As for Lapis, there are a few reasons she had her doubts of being Malachite again:

1) The fusion was a way for her to gain control back on her own life. She was tired of being tricked and used by everyone that she wanted to take her anger on someone.

"I was terrible to you. I liked taking everything out on you. I needed to, I-I hated you. It was bad!"

Lapis wanted someone to go through the same pain she had to endure for thousands of years. And that someone could have anyone. She choosed Jasper as she was the closest one to her in "Jailbreak".

When she was separated, she felt she suddenly lost that great amount of power that the fusion gave to her. She lost that "control" she had.

2) During "Alone at the sea" she describes herself many times as terrible and how she doesn't deserve the boat trip. She keeps blaming herself from her actions and how she can't get better.

Jasper even calls Lapis a monster in a moment, stating they very much alike:

"You can't lie to me. I've seen what you're capable of. I thought I was a brute, but you... you're a monster."

Lapis wanted to go back to be Malachite since she thought it was what someone as terrible as her deserved. She thought she couldn't grow into good person. Gems terrible as her and Jasper were meant to be together.

But Lapis knew better than getting trapped in that fusion again.

"NO! ""What we had wasn't healthy. I never want to feel like I felt with you. Never again! So just, go!"

In the end she refused to fuse with Jasper and realised how toxic their relationship was. It was a terrible experience and something she didn't want to take part in ever again.

Malachite as a character

Being fusion who is supposed to represent an very toxic relationship, Malachite is potrayed as very agressive, unstable and sadistic. She´s quite unpredictable since her actitude depends of who it´s taking control of her.

When her eyes are ¨cat shaped¨ it usually means that Jasper is the one controlling her. If her eyes are wide and open, it indicates Lapis is the one in control.

It´s difficult to affirm Malachite ever had her own personality at all,as her components were always fighting over her power and she was a mere tool from the moment she was ¨born¨.

¨A fusion like theirs is unstable, bound together by anger and mistrust. If that bond snaps, their anger will take over, and destroy.¨  

She ends up being a pretty tragic character as her whole existence was filled by hatred and suffering to the point she didn´t know anything else. Unlike other characters from Steven universe she wasn´t given the chance to redeem herself.

It´s interesting how Malachite in ¨Super Watermelon Island¨ kept exchaching between ¨we¨ and ¨I¨ to talk about herself. This indicates again that she wasn´t fully her own person.

If Lapis and Jasper were to fuse again after having worked through their issues, Malachite would be a more stable and less agressive fusion. But that´s very unlikely to happen since it was a terrifying experience for both of them.

In conclusion: Malachite is character with tons of metaphors that talks a lot about Lapis and Jasper and who they are as people. She serves to show how toxic some relationships can get when there is a lack of basic trust and understanding and is created by mutual hatred. It´s an example of how complicated relationships can be and how a person it´s really more complex they appear to be.

[caritobbg]

Secret Love Song (Part 4)

A/N: So.... this is the end!!!! Hope you like it guys!!  Sorry for my bad grammar, writing in English was never easy for me (even though I studied the language for almost 11 years HAHAHAHAHA) If you want me to write something else, feel free to tell me and I will try!

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

--------------- Spencer POV’s

Rossi called me to speak at the bar, he was nervous. He had been talking to (Y / N) when the show started. I walked over and he asked me about what had happened with Kiara ... I was sorry I went out with her, she was a cute and sweet girl, we dated a few times but ... I couldn't do it ... I felt like I was betraying a part of me that He said "you are a fool, you do this only to forget how you feel about (Y / N), you are hurting her". I told him everything, I couldn't fool him, David Rossi was one of the best profilers in the world ...

"Do not worry child. Today is your chance to fix things ”he said smiling and looking back at the small stage that now had a black keyboard with yellowish keys from constant use. “… She will sing two incredible songs: one by the famous English band Little Mix, the second, an indistinct song that we will hear for the first time here live. Please give (Y / N) a loud applause !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ” "But... That’s... Is that..."

"Thanks Joey" she said smiling

(Y/N) began to talk a little with the whole audience and explain a little the first song that the girls talked about so much before. She looked beautiful in that burgundy dress, her black glasses ... she was beautiful! There are over 414,800 words in the English language and none came out of my mouth

"Speechless?" I heard Rossi say "Shut up ..." I said feeling a burning in my cheeks.

The music began as soon as the phrase ‘This is a shout out to my ex’ came out  we looked towards where our unsub was. His face said it all, he knew that song was for him ... I was glad, on the one hand, that that idiot got the hint, why? He deserves it, he deserves everything he did to her and more! I'd like to put my hands around his neck and… what am I saying ?! Come on Spencer, control yourself, you can't do that ... take a deep breath ...

"He's enraged" I heard him say over the intercom in my ear "After the second song he will attack" said Emily "he will not stand idly by" "As soon as you do something we will stop it" I said moving a little closer to the stage and closer to the range of vision of (Y / N).

She danced, sang, ran through the room with a timing and harmony unmatched by any of the previous participants. Once it was over, I could hear Penelope yelling and clapping with all of us, it had really been impressive, I had never heard her sing.

"WOW!" I said surprised "What ..." "Thank you all!!!! That was fun, ”she said smiling and laughing; she started talking about the last song, there was something in her voice that she couldn't decipher. Desperately searching her gaze, she wanted to understand what she meant by everything she was saying, until ... "I dedicate it to ...".

Me…

With a few gentle movements on the keyboard, she began to sing. With every word she said, that came out of her mouth, my world was collapsing. I shouldn't have told her about Kiara, what's more, I shouldn't have dated her, my whole being belonged to (Y / N), my heart, my mind, everything. Tears began to flow from my eyes as soon as I heard the last verse and our eyes finally met among the entire sea of people.

“Why can't we be like that? Wish we could be like that”

The kiss… our first kiss… was the only thing I could think about right now. I told him it was a mistake and I convinced myself that it was just that, a simple mistake, an impulse of stupidity. I wanted to reach out and kiss her again, tell her that that kiss made me realize that I loved her.

"YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE"

Cameron put his arm around his neck and pointed his gun at his head, while we took aim at him and Hotch, Rossi, and Garcia pulled all the customers out of Joey's bar. We started talking to him and we had the "plan" to try to come to terms, but he kept saying that she hurt him, left him to pieces and things like that, he was really OBSESSED with (Y / N) and had no intention of letting her go. I could see she was up to something to get out of her mooring, I panicked realizing she wasn't going to get out of this unscathed once she started talking to her about Si Me Falta Tu Mirada, one of her favorite songs by the Italian band. Il Volo.

“Tengo en pausa el corazón, abrazado a nada, aferrado a nada… tengo ciega la ilusión, ya no hay mañana...” 

Cameron started to drop her, we kept pointing; I managed to get (Y / N) to look at me and I felt my blood freeze when I could read that her lips said "I'm sorry"

"NO!"

Everything happened in slow motion. Three shots rang out: one from David's gun, the other two… from Cam's gun. I held her up before she hit the floor with a wound to the pit of her stomach and one to her chest.

“AGENT DOWN! SEND AN AMBULANCE! " I heard JJ say over the communicator.

“Please, stay with me (Y / N), stay with me” pressing to stop the bleeding “Hey, you'll be alright. Just… stay with me, ok? " "S ... Spence ..." closing her eyes "Open your eyes ... do not close them" "I ..." she started coughing letting a trickle of blood run from the corner of her mouth "Save your strengh, the ambulance is on it's way ..." she only smiled and closed her eyes saying i love you ... "Nonononono, please no !!!" putting a hand on her cheek "(Y / N) please, wake up, open your eyes"

"The ambulance is here !!" I felt someone screaming and grabbing my shoulders away from her when the paramedics approached. "Spence, she’ll be…" "I'm going with her" I said decided "Derek, I'm ..."

"We're loosing her!" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 3rd POV’s

"We're loosing her!"

His world came to a complete stop when she heard that phrase: we are losing her. Derek and Emily took Spencer by the shoulders to slow him down as they tried to get into the ambulance with Penelope and Rossi. We are losing her. Losing ... if they didn't get to the hospital on time ...

Spencer was in automatic mode, she got into the truck covered in blood, her blood.

Derek climbed up with Emily and they started for the hospital. Her gaze was on the window, repeating the scene over and over again in her mind: her eyes were no longer full of life, her face pale as snow, her smile, her voice ... everything about her was fading.

"We're here" he heard and got out of the car almost running to later meet JJ and Hotch, who were already with Rossi and Penelope.

"How’s she? She’s ok? " Spencer said in a whisper "She is in surgery," Rossi mentioned, observing him carefully, "they will try to stabilize her." "Will they try?" while he sat between them with teary eyes and moving her leg "She lost too much blood"

Time passed slowly once the agonizing wait began. JJ, Derek and Rossi practically forced Spencer to get up to wash up and change the shirt he was wearing.

"I know what you're thinking" said Rossi taking a clean T-shirt out of his travel bag "it's not your fault, none of us knew that she would do that" "Nor that Cameron would shoot" Derek put a hand on his shoulder "I know it will be fine" "The last thing she said to me before closing her eyes was 'I love you'" closing his and crying "and I couldn't tell her" "Hey, she's going to get out of this and you'll tell her" Rossi said, standing in front of him next to Derek "and..." “Guys, the doctor’s here” the three of them ran after Hotch to find Dr. Yennefer Silva talking to the rest of her teammates.

"We managed to stabilize her, the chest wound was slight, the ribs managed to stop the impact ..." reviewing her papers "at the moment she is in the intensive care room until she wakes up ..." looking at them all "Can we see it?" Penelope said grabbing her bag "if that ..." "Sure, but only two persons at time" he finally said to guide them to the room where he was (Y / N)

Their gazes began to blur when they saw her on the bed. Pale skin, weak breathing, cables and machines around her, the sound of her heartbeat was the only thing that filled the ears of her friends.

The first to pass were Hotch and Rossi, then JJ and Emily, Derek and Penelope, and finally Spencer, who stared behind the glass for a few minutes trying to gather the courage to enter with (Y / N).

"Guys ..." before entering "did any of you record the song?" almost in a whisper “Yes, I did. I'll send it to you now ”Penelope said and then saw that she slowly entered the room and sat next to her.

Once with her, he took her hand caressing it with his thumb and little by little his eyes began to water again. He felt helpless, anguished, full of fear.

* Come on Spencer, it's now or never. It doesn't matter if she listens to you or not, if you have to repeat it again. You have to tell her that you love her, that Kiara is like a sister, no romanticism ... don't be a coward *

"20% of unconscious patients after surgery or induced in a coma can hear what the other person next to them says, since their brain still has a minimal functional consciousness. I hope you are part of that 20%, although I would not mind repeating it again "he said with a small laugh" what I meant by that is ... that I need to tell you something very important to me and I want you to know it. " he paused for a bit before continuing "remember ... when I said I was dating Kiara? Well… she confessed that she had feelings for me… at first I felt happy, then confused and overwhelmed, I told her that my heart belonged to another person with whom I had a very special bond ” a lump came to his throat before move on with his confession “that person is someone I started working with 1095 days, 4 hours and 20 seconds ago, who makes me laugh with his silly little jokes, who loves coffee, books, classical music and Queen so much like me." * Don't be a coward, say so. Do it at once !!!!!! * “It's you (Y / N). Your personality, your voice, your simplicity, intelligence, the joy that you radiate in each room you enter, your smile… all that and more was what made me realize that you are perfect for me. I'm in love with you. I love you more than anything in this world "on his cheeks he felt the tears that since he entered had been containing" I wish you were not in this state, I would give everything to go back in time and have avoided all this "he took out his phone, checked her messages without letting go of her hand and she found the video that she had asked Penelope for "the song ... the song you wrote made me realize that I am a great stupid, how much I hurt you when I told you about Kiara, how much I love you…"

The hours passed and he did not move from her side at any time. It played the song over and over at a low volume so that he could listen to it without having to be shut up by the passing nurses.

"Hey, Spence, why don't you go rest and eat a little, I'll stay with her" “Don't worry JJ. I'm not hungry." She said almost in a whisper. "Are you sure?" "Yes ..." JJ sat on the other side looking at her; her skin stopped being pale and began to acquire a little more color "I think in a few more hours she will wake up, she is no longer pale" her friend just looked at her "Emily told us she wrote that song on the jet" "If I had spoken before, none of this would be happening" still crying "it's my ..." Interrupting “Don't say that. She will wake up and they can be together "getting up and letting Rossi sit once they stopped talking to the doctor to let them all in" she is strong, she will get out of this, I know Reid "

A slight grip on her hand made her look away, she was waking up. Her heart was beating millions per second, the love of her life was fine! A smile crossed his lips when he saw her open her eyes.

"Hey guys" she said smiling and hoarse voice "Hey little kid" Rossi took her hand "you gave us a big scare" "You were brave trying to get Cameron to put down the gun" Derek stood at the foot of the stretcher "(Y / N / N) !!" Pen said entering with Emily "Oh God !!! I'm glad you woke up !!! " giving him a little hug "Guys, we should go to see the doctor and tell her that she's awake" said Hotch smiling at Reid

"Hey" said (Y / N) once everyone left "Hey ..." taking her hand again "I thought ... I would never see you again" "Spencer" wiping one of her tears "I would never leave your side" "(Y / N) I ... ammm ... I would like to tell you something" "I heard everything" leaving him speechless "R... really?" "Yes" as she tried to sit up with her help "and I must admit I feel silly to have been jealous of Kiara" feeling her cheeks burn Spencer let out a small laugh “So… after you are discharged… do you want to go out for coffee? I know a small bookstore with a cafeteria near my apartment that I had never told you about " "I accept" he said smiling and laughing; she paused when noticing how close they were to each other "Spence ..." "Shh ... don't say anything" and then press his lips next to hers.

The world stopped for a few moments. They looked forward to that kiss, it was as if the sun and the moon collided in a perfect eclipse of the sun on an autumn afternoon.

"OH MY FUCKING GOD" they both turned to see Penelope along with everyone standing at the door. They both let out a small laugh and we looked at them smiling.

"I guess they should make it official, right?" Hotch said entering with everyone and congratulating them both.

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[delightfulstarlightparadise]

Imagine Reader/Katsuki Bakugo part 3

Part two here:

Once again, I remind you that English is not my main language. But I am doing my best.

Also, that it has been a while since I last watched or read BNHA and some stuff might be out of the anime context.

After being caught by professor Mic with Bakugo in what it seemed to be a making out session, you are called out by your uncle Aizawa and decide to go back to keeping a low profile at the academy. Bakugo keeps trying to rilvarize with you, but you always step away. Until you are forced into playing a game of quirkball with him in which you realize Bakugo is actually a very attractive boy. After having an intense dream with him you finally realize that,oh damn, you like him.

You are in class, Aizawa is explaining something about math and strategies, but you can't bring yourself to pay attention to it. From the corner of your eyes you can see Bakugo staring outside the window. He seems distracted too.

He looks back at his notebook and sunddely at you. As you cross eyes, you blush and look away, at Aizawa as quick as you can. You remember the dream you had a couple of weeks ago and shrink your shoulders in embarassment. Could anybody there read your tuoughts? Was there anyone with this quirk? What if somebody told him??

"Hey y/n!" somebody yells at you and you quickly correct your posture caught by surprize. It is Kirishima, he is standing in front of your desk, the class is over. "Wanna hang out?"

"Sorry?" You say, but he doesn't seem to aknowledge your confusion. He just straight up catches you by the wrist and pulls you along with him. "Wait, Kirishima!"

"Come on! We are having a gaming session with snacks today."

You try to get him to let you go but he barely notices your struggle.

"I don't even know you guys." you say, impressed by his strengh.

"Yeah, that is the point!" He says as he opens the door of his room. "The best way to get to someone is meeting their friends."

Sero, Denki and Mina are all sitting on Kirishima's bed, the two last with videogame controls on his hands.

You feel that caramel scent.

Bakugo is sitting on a chair next to them eating what seems to be nachos with peper. His jaw drops when he sees you come in with Kirishima, who is now hugging you in an armlock.

"I brought a new player, guys!" Kirishima says almos tosssing you towards his bed.

"Hello y/n! I didn't know you were into videogames!" Mina greets you, pulling you towards her. "We are playing Halo, I want you in my team!"

She hugs yor arm pulling you to herself. You blush quite quickly.

"Hey! We are raffling the teams." Sero says and looks at you with a huge smile. "I want y/n in my team too. You are,like, supercool."

You don't even know how to act as they start discussing who might get you in their teams. Bakugo still looks at you perplexed and Kirishima smirks looking bewtween the both of you.

Actually, videogames are not something you are really good at, and you end up disappointing all of them while you are on their teams. But they actually laugh a lot about it. Until, by accident you end up killing Bakugo while you are on his team.

"Hahahahahah! Y/n headshoted him!" Denki rolls around in bed as he laguhs at Bakugo's furious face.

"I told you to stay out of my way!" he yells at you, while he throws the control at Kirishima's head, who is also laughing.

"I... I... sorry. I don't... I am not used to..." you stutter.

"If you don't know how to play, you shouldn't even be here!" he says, pointing at your face.

"Who said I wanted to be here?!" you answer standing up and stomping on the floor.

The laughs stop and they all look at you. There is a heavy energy in the air as you and Bakugo stare at each other as if you are going to get physical, in a bad way. Kirishima scratches his head unconfortably.

"Sorry. I guess I misread the sings." He says to you, and you immediately let your guard down, feeling awful for making him feel bad.

"I..." you start, but you don't even know what to say.

There is another moment of creeppy silence among you all.

"Come on Bakugo! You are not even that good at videogames too!" Mina mocks, hitting him in the head with a punch.

"Yeah, my turn now!" Denki says taking the control in your hands.

"Come here y/n. I will teach you the controls! I am the best player." says Sero pulling you to his side.

Soon, the energy gets back to a very excited and fun one with all of them screaming and playing again, except for Bakugo, who spends the rest of the time with a serious expression.

When everyone is leaving, you stay behind to talk to Kirishima.

"I am very sorry for what happened. You were being really nice to me, I shouldn't have said that." You say, bowing in front of him.

"Hey! It is fine! I am sorry I forced you into coming here. Its just that I thougt..." he makes another embarassed face. "Listen, Bakugo is not always a mean guy, you know? He, he has feelings too. Hidden way too deep inside of him, but he has them."

"I think the only feeling Bakugo has for me is hatred."

"He. You would be surprized." Kirishima says, gently smiling at you. "I just wanna see him happy, you know."

You smile at him and go back to your dorm. Actually, this night was the most fun you've had in weeks.

...

Liking someone you are sure does not like you back is hard. Liking someone who you know hates you is even worse.

The months go by and you try to avoid Bakugo as much as you can, but all of a sudden you are part of his friendship group.

You meet Mina almost everywhere you go, she is always sitting next to you and gossiping, even though you rarely talk back to her. Actually it seems that you being a quiet person is what attracts her in you. She seems to like listening to herself talk. The also makes your hair and puts make up on you (independent of your gender).

Almost everyday Sero and Denki take you with them to whatever the weird thing they are planing on doing that day. Be it playing videogames, eating a whole bunch of snacks or playing sports.

And every friday Kirishima grabs you from your room in the dorms to play videogames with them. That is always when you see Bakugo.

He is always serious and competitive. You avoid playing on his team or against him, but the second is harder to do. Everytime you play against each other, he blows up your charactmer right away.

"Who brought these?" Bakugo asks one night after finishing another pack of snacks. "They are really spicy."

"Y/n did." Kirishima answers.

Bakugo turns to you as if it is the first time he notices you in the room. This makes you kind of angry, but also makes you feel kind of well once his face doesn't seem to be so threatening this time.

"Where did you buy them?" He asks.

"In a store near the academy. They sell all kinds of treats." you answer, a little embarassed."I can show you where it is."

"Fine." He answers while opening another bag of the snack. "Tomorrow, then."

He gets back to eating them while playing. He seems really chill.

But everyone else is looking at you, jaws dropped. Kirishima starts smiling obsessively with those sharp teeth and Mina shrieks.

That is when you realize that Bakugo has just set a date with you.

...

You are sitting alone on the couch of the common area. You have put on an outifit specially for this, and now you are afraid to be overdressed(take your time to imagine it).

A scent comes to your nose. There is a bit of caramel in it, but mixed with wodden perfume. You turn around and Bakugo is behind you wearing a black plain T-shirt under a plaid red shirt.

"Hi." You say standing up a little bit quicker than you intended to.

"Hey." He answers, hands in pockets.

A deep silence falls over you.

"Let's go?" He asks while already walking to the door.

You follow him until you are side by side and you start walking in silence until you are out of the school. As you do so, you pass by many other students from class 1-A that, you are pretty sure, make perplexed faces to see you two together.

"It is a couple of blocks ahead." You say.

"Actually..." Bakugo stops behind you. "Why don't we take a stroll first?"

You turn to him, confused. He is staring at you with a serious face, pretty misterious to you.

"O...ok." you stutter a little intimidated by it.

You follow Bakugo to a commercial area where the both of you start window shopping in silence, until he seems to see something and pulls you by your forearm to it.

"A fight movie?" you ask when you see him point to the poster in the movie theater.

"Do you have anything better to do?" he asks.

"Ok, it's just that... I have seen this movie already." you say, remembering that you had come to watch it with Aizawa. He slept the whole session.

"We can see that one then." he points at a romantic movie poster.

"Ahn... no I don't like these." you say pointing at the third and final poster available. "Let's see that one. I'll pay for the popcorn."

"You will want separate popcorn." He says.

He was right, Bakugo's popcorn was so full of barbecue sauce that you couldn't even put it in your mouth. He seems to really enjoy spicy food.

As for the movie... it was an horror movie about a psycopath that murdered people in a school. Bakugo whispered during the whole movie about how dumb the characters were and even laughed in a scene with lots of gore. You couldn't avoid to laugh with him, because, yeah, the effects were not that good.

He turned to you when he saw you giggle and you exchanged a smile.

When you left the session the sun was setting.

"So, let's go to the store and... back to campus?" you say stretching your arms up.

"Yeah." He answers putting one of his arms around your waist.

You freeze as Bakugo guides you out of the movie in that way. You can barely walk straight and don't know what to do. Your face is hot red but not as hot as the feeling of his hand on your waist.

You walk in silence that way till you get to the store.

"It... it's here." You say.

"Yeah." he answers.

You wait for him to let go of you so you can get inside, but he doesn't.

"Bakugo." You say, too embarassed to look at him.

"Call me Katsuki." He tells you, his mouth close to your ear.

You are daytripping, right? Is it a dream again? What is going on? All of a sundden this is happening. You get afraid to pinch yourself and be back in the common room.

But that heat he emanates near you makes you sure that this time, it is for real.

"How dumb do you think I am, eh?" He says, taking his hand off your hip and standing in front of you.

"I don't think you're dumb." You answer taking a step back and crossing your arms. "Annoying? Sure. Rude? Absolutely. A jerk? Yeah...but not dumb."

"You think I am annoying?" He says with a smirk."You think I am a Jerk? Y/n, you have baaad taste for men, then."

"WHAT?!" you yell as you feel your face becoming even more red.

"It did take Eijiro to tell me for me to notice at first, but then I realized he was right. All your little stares, the way you got when I was around. You like me, don't you?" he rises one of his eyebrows and smiles.

"I DON'T." You say quickly, but then cover your mouth. You feel like running away, but you can't control yout legs.

Bakugo pulls you to him and gets his face close to yours.

"I am flattered." He says in a huge side smile.

You keep your hands in your mouth.

"Your breath smells like barbecue." Is the only think you can think of answering.

You feel very dumb about it, but he starts laughing and lets you go. You step back and put your head down, shrinking your shoulders.

"You... like me?" you ask with a wisper.

"If I like you? I don't even know you." He says putting his hands on his pockets. "But I know you're intelligent, strong and..."

Bakugo pulls your chin up and stares at you, deep in the eyes.

"I think you are very pretty too." he says. "I think I could get to like you a lot... little brat."

"What did you just..."

You are about to start a fight, but Bakugo rests his lips on yours. He doesn't kiss agressively, actually, his lips are very soft.

When he steps away, you hide your face in your hands. You can feel your whole body burning.

"That is cute, I actually thought your were going to try to beat the shit out of me for doing this." he laughs.

"I WILL!" you say, throwing some punches on his chest, but not really hard.

He holds your wirsts and gives you a sweep kick, putting you up one of his shoulders. You let go a scream.

"Yeah, I like it better like this. Let's buy those nice snacks." he says, taking you into the store like that.

Next part here:

[kaynstein]

Koike Shūichirō “Once Upon A Time In America” interview, part 2

Here’s the second part of Koike’s interview. He talks about the different main characters of the musical and the siennes, who play them. Some parts sound a bit wonky because I couldn’t figure out a better way to translate it into english. If you have any advice, feel free to tell me.

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About Yukigumi Topstar Nozomi Fūto playing Noodles

Nozomi has accumulated an impeccable career and is a renowned topstar, who possesses both strengh and charm. There are many different ways in which stage performers can shine, but this time we don't want a diamond-like radiant light from her, but a thick brilliance like oxidized silver. I think that, if it's Nozomi, this will come through, also the script and direction are all done assuming that she can emit such a light.

Nozomi already played a member of the mafia as Al Capone in ''Al Capone – The Hidden Truth of Scarface'' (Yukigumi 2015). Compared to the extraordinary mafia boss Al Capone he's a ficional person, but I would still say that Noodles has a more realistic feeling to him. It's a contest, so to speak, to see if she can make the dark chocolate like bitter taste of ''lower middle class'' Noodles appear sweet to the audience. We look forward to finding ways to present the sorrow of life and see how much the audience will sympathize.

About Yukigumi Top musumeyaku Maaya Kiho playing Deborah

Deborah is a successful women, who wants to become an actress, but in the movie she appears only scarcely and we can only speculate about her life. However, since it is already established that she wants to become a broadway star and play an active part in Hollywood, we expanded on that part. We also created a spectacular revue scene from the Broadway of that time, so please look forward to it.

Maaya herself has a healthy light about her and fits the image of a modern heroine well. Deborah is a very theoretical woman with a firm heart, who steadily works towards her goal. But she also treads a very complicated path in life, so I want to combine Maaya's glamour with something like humidity and emotiveness to show a feminine strength.

About Ayakaze Sakina playing Max

Max is a so to speak evil, but intelligent man. He craves to survive and sometimes doesn't choose the means, but in fact is very calculating. In other words he isn't just a bad guy or a smart guy. In addition, there's also a desperate side in regards to love, that might feel like a split personality at first glance, but I want to express the various facets that there are to a person.

Seeing how acting star* Ayakaze would perform this difficult role was one of the things I was  looking forward to with this production; the other one is the struggle between two evenly matched oppositions with Nozomi, who plays Noodles, a friend and also kind of a rival on stage.

(*he uses 演技派 (engiha), which describes a talented actor, who relies more on skill than good looks)

About Ayanagi Shō playing Jimmy

Ayanagi plays an extremely difficult role, who's position changes over time. She was given a lot of delicate Bishōnen roles in the past, but I think she isn't just visual and due to her being highly skilled, can take on the trickster-like role, that you could say moves this story forward. Playing Jimmy, a role with a distinctive deep colour, could bring out her own charm even more, I think.

About Asami Jun playing Carol

We changed the setting a little from the movie and called the prohibition era ''Speakeasy''; she is a diva at an unregistered bar, who illegally sells alcohol. She's also a lover of Max, played by Ayakaze, but she takes things too far out of love for him, which greatly changes her life. Since Asami is an otokoyaku, I expect she will be able to skillfully perform the changes after the brilliantly shining diva times. Also, I want her to have sex appeal equal to that of the Carol in the movie.

Your impression of current Yukigumi

I think they're a very solid troupe with extraordinary power. The recent topstars Sō Kazuho-san, Sagiri Seina-san and Nozomi Fūto-san were all ''fighter''. (lol) They are all very positive and have a shared honesty. Yukigumi gives off the impression that they can do everything from ordinary to extraordinary by how hard they work on their roles, as well as how things are during rehearsals, so I think that they will give a passionate and elaborate stage performance. Also, they are not only reliable, but give off a sense of substantiality as well because of their lively and open-hearted atmosphere.

On a final note, a message to the audience

This upcoming Takarazuka production may be a little different. However, the protagonist of this work being played by the mature otokoyaku Nozomi Fūto is what makes it significant for Takarazuka. In that respect it will be a production, that's very dependent on Nozomi, but current Yukigumi has enough strength to support that, so I think they will be able to show a meaningful and profound performance.

Although this production has a bitter taste for a New Year's performance at the Takarazuka Grand Stage, I am confident, that you will be able to feel the new charm of Yukigumi and the otokoyaku, led by Nozomi. Since it is a cold season, if you keep chewing, you will get an even greater taste, so like a nourishing and strong hot pot, I hope you will enjoy this thoroughly and deeply.

[ryupioupiou]

Hey! I have seen How To Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World three times already (France). And I never said how I felt about it. It’s gonna be long, no flames please, and sorry, English is not my first language.

First, the animation.To me it was perfect. It’s crazy how much the animation evolves. I have nothing more to say. To me it’s top notch. 

To be honest with you. I rarely cry while watching a movie. I never cried watching Bambi, Tiitanic, Up.... Only 3 movies made me at least tear up. Httyd 2, Coco, and Httyd 3. 

I know some people complain that Toothless dumped Hiccup for the Light Fury. I don’t agree. Even though Toothless is a dragon, I think he has human emotions and reactions. 

One, he discovers he is NOT ALONE. Okay, it’s not a night fury, but a  subspecies. I think your mind would be blown if you thought you were the only one left. Even if it was a male, I think Toothless would try to spend time with it. And to me that’s normal.

Second, it was a female! We are talking about a dragon who thought he was the only Fury left. He discovers it’s not the case, and that this female seems interested in him. Yes, Grimmel put her here. But she was free. If she wanted, she could have easily left, back to the Hidden World. What’s stopping her? That hot black dragon? maybe. 

About the fact that Toothless ‘abandons” Hiccup. When you are in love, you usually only think of the person you love at the beginning. OF COURSE he’d love to spend time with the Light Fury. It works the same way with humans as well. Hell, even Hiccstrid in RTTE more or less dumped their friends for a while. It’s the “honeymoon” stage (season 5). That’s normal. I think you all know a friend who spent a lot of time with a loved one, especially at the beginning of a relationship. 

When Toothless saved Hiccup and Hiccstrid from the dragons in the Hidden World, he indeed seemed angry and sad. But I don’t think it’s because he left that place, but more because he didn’t see the Light Fury following them. When he saw her last, she was staying behind. So he thought that she wouldn’t come with him, and I think it saddened him more than anything else. But he had to save his best friend ^^. Toothless was ecstatic when he found out the Light Fury HAD followed him. Look at the joy on his face, and maybe he was somewhat relieved. He had his best friend and his love interest at the same place. If I remember well, he tried to make the Light Fury approach Hiccup, you know, the same way you would introduce your bf/gf to your friends. 

But hey, all hell broke loose when Grimmel arrived. 

To me, the actions of the movie don’t seem rushed, and is logic. Berk is a paradise for dragons. They are not hunted, they live alongside vikings in harmony (okay there may be some fires here and there but it’s mostly peaceful!). Yes, an utopia. But does that mean others cultures accept that? No. Most think dragons are mindless bloodthirsty killers. Gobber even mentionned it i n HTTYD 2. Not all people would agree with this way of life. That’s how it works, has worked, and will work. 

Drago and the warlords tried to use the dragons as weapons. And with the Alpha on Berk, and countless dragons, it seems logical they’d try to get all those dragons. So yes, Berk is more vulnerable. Grimmel’s attack is a proof of that. A chief protects his own, that’s exactly what Hiccup wants to do. What is the best option? Hiccup is not one who likes to fight, he wants to avoid a bloodshed. So yes, he wants to find the legendary Hidden World his dad spoke about. Hiccup wants to keep living with the dragons, but at the same time, he wants to protect them. 

Grimmel’s final attack was a glaring proof that dragons needed to go. Grimmel captured Toothless and the Light Fury easily. He hoarded all of the dragons, just by threatening their Alpha. That can be a huge weakness. Get the chief and you can do anything. I think Toothless AND Hiccup realized that. For the safety of the vikings and the dragons, they needed to leave. Who would attack the new Berk without dragons? Why would the warlords or other people want to attack Berk for its dragons if there were no dragons left? The vikings would be able to live in peace, and the dragons? Well protected in the Hidden World. No one would be able to get to them. 

So no, to me it is logical. I think that this movie is realistic. Not the dragons and all that of course. But the human nature. Humans (leaders) are greedy. You just need to look around to see it’s true. When we see animals who can be useful, we use them (for war).  

An exemple? Elephants. Elephants were captured to be turned into weapons. in 386 B.C, Darius III used elephants to fight Alexandre the great.  And elephants were used this way, mainy in Asia, even during the Middle Age. 

So yes, humans like to destroy, or use anima to fight and kill, or dominate. The warlords in the movie represent these greedy humans. To protect dragons, they need to disappear. Vikings and dragons need to part. TBH I would have done the same thing. When you love someone, sometimes the only way to save them is to let them go. Hiccup and Toothless took the right decision, no matter how painful it is for them. I think the movie wanted to show the dark side of Humanity. Something we tend to forget. What happens in this movie had happened in the past with other creatures, and still happens, and WOULD HAVE HAPPENED if dragons were real. 

About Grimmel, even though he is less impressive than Drago, he can be dangerous. As many already said, he is what Hiccup could have become if he had killed Toothless. Hiccup WANTED to prove he was a viking, able to kill dragons, and wanted nothing more to be accepted. If he had killed Toothless, he WOULD have been the hero of Berk, and, as he would be the only one to manage to kill the dragon you never engage, may kill them all. Fortunately he didn’t. I think Hiccup fought the person he could have been. Both Grimmel and him are intelligent, and use their brain to compensate their lack of strengh. Grimmel uses venom from his deathgrippers, flies in that weird contraption of his... Hiccup uses his observation of dragons to make his flight suit, Inferno ... So yeah, he fought his dark side, reprensented by Grimmel. 

Now, HICCSTRID! 

Omg i love this couple so much. This is a couple. A real couple. Not a mushy couple. We  aren’t talking about Disney princesses. I love them, but to me, subtle way to show your love are more efficient than the big things. Astrid and Hiccup work very well together, these two were totally ready to be married! (better do it quickly, they were ready for the honeymoon xD). And their kids! OMG, I love them!! 

I don’t know if i’s just me, but I thought the gang was more present than the two other movies. Tuffnut’s coaching killed me, the slap on Hiccup’s but made me cry of laughter. 

The wedding ... I was openly crying. and the final scene had me bitting my cheek so I didn’t bawl like an idiot. 

To me How to train your dragon: The Hidden World is at least as good as HTTYD2. And to me, it’s the best saga I have ever seen. That’s all. Now I apologise for the rant and the mistakes xD

[acquagalaxies]

my bits for “Together Alone”

It’s incredible how much happened in just 11 minutes, as It’s difficult to even decide where to start. Hard was also to not scream every 0.5 seconds for all the things the crewniverse and miss Sugar dropped in. Since already many of us covered up a lot of the stuff that have been proposed in a marvelous way, with all the references of the case, I’d just write down some thoughts I had in mind. to join my rant about an episode that blow my mind and try to talk calm-

THEY LITERALLY CONFIRMED THE “WHITE PEARL/ONCE PINK PEARL” THEORY IN THE FIRST FEW SECONDS CARTOON NETWORK U WANT ME TO DIE I HAD A STROKE SOMEONE HOLD ME I CAN BEAR THIS WITH MY ONLY STRENGH.

Ehm. So. What is presented to us I think is something like we saw in “Jungle Moon”: one of Pink Diamond’s past memories that appears in the shape of a dream, distorted by Steven’s mind (since, is in fact a dream and not just a vision/hallucination), which is a normal thing while one is dreaming, the brain in the unconscious state works and interprets things in a little bit different way, especially when it comes to memories: in the dream world the situation can take some sort of “surreal” twist that of course changes from what happened in reality and from what you remember consciously, in this case Yellow Diamond’s massively long neck (I wonder if the crewniverse is aware of the fandom’s YD giraffe neck meme and add it on purpose).

(the fact this all could have been a dream is evident already by the very first frame of the episode, when we see all the Diamonds’ ships on Homeworld perfectly intact, this alone made me confused at first for how strange and impossible it was, since we all know Yellow and Blue had to leave their ships on Earth for their being broken at the moment due to the events of Reunited.)

Aside that, the moment I loved the most is watching the complicity between Steven and this pearl (pretending to perform their role as what they’re supposed to do/be in front of others, satisfying their expectations so said others would not have anything to argue with, like Yellow smiling seeing everything seems to be at its right place, and when they’re alone again goofing around happily) that is just an altered reflection from the memory, in this case what is really shown is the bond Pink Diamond shared with who seems to be confirmed as her former pearl.

I couldn’t hold only inside a smile, because it’s heart-warming seeing this kind of relationship with someone else, with happy moments, laughter and bubbles, you can see that Pink treated her pearl like a close friend and most important, like an equal (many gems should take this behavior as a suggestion and moral model, but it’s very hard in their so hierarchical society to treat “lower gems” as your peer). By watching first the Jungle Moon flashback and Legs from here to Homeworld, I feared the physical damage that the now-white-pearl shows is the result of Pink Diamond’s infamous bursts of rage (since the first time she is introduced in Jungle Moon, Pink seemed used to this bad temper from what is seen to us, by this “brat and capricious behavior” of going around hitting things bc your parents didn’t give to you what you’re whining for) ended bad. I’m glad to see otherwise it’s apparently not Pink’s direct fault after all instead, the two seemed to share a more than good relationship.

(little thought: the way Steven lands graciously on the floor after his juggler number sweetly reminds me a bit when the young Greg met Rose in the old temple after their conversation on the beach.)

By this carefree spirit of hers and peaceful kind attitude, even a bit childish, the other diamonds maybe thought that was the pearl being a “bad influence” for Pink, deciding after to replace her with another (that’s why it is a little heart-breaking in now we’re only falling apart while Pink is trying to have a conversation with Pearl, she probably missed that complicity and the chatty moments with her old pearl, and because she wanted them to be friends and buddies, not just servant and master, encouraging Pearl to have her own thoughts and be self-conscious).

• but why keeping a broken pearl and not directly get rid of if the society cares so much of maintain only perfectly functional gems? What if White decided to keep Pink/White Pearl to make her be a constant walking reminder to Pink Diamond of who is really the one who commands and of what could happen if she tries again to make a gem behaving “different from how she is supposed to be and do”, or treats them differently from “the value” they own (like treating Pink Pearl an equal despite pearls are considered so much less, especially compared to a diamond). That’s creepy enough, I question if White was so cruel to make Pink watching while her so loved Pearl and (only real) friend turns from that pink fluffy sunshine ball into an empty shell smiling puppet without anything else left, ripped away from thoughts and individuality, a perfect obedient servant that would never get against your authority or retort your words.

The even sadder thing is, even if Steven will succeed in “bringing” back white pearl at her old self (something still welcomed just sayin’, #save the precious), still Pink Diamond, her diamond, the gem she was made for and with she shared that bond, is not here anymore.

Pink pearl has cinnamon buns on her hair bc like them she’s a cinnamon roll herself.

another heart-breaking detail is, by hearing them laugh, the voice getting from Pink Pearl’s mouth is patently Deedee Magno Hall’s, so Pearl’s supposed-to-be true voice. I’m weeping.

Then everything, pinkish and joyful, slowly becomes a grey dull nightmare, with Pink Pearl fading away into the void. Puking hair (whatever your own or someone else’s) in a dream often is the representation of the desire of expression about something that is denied. The will of wanting to express and be yourself that instead is being repressed (by someone, some situation, ecc.).  Or can also representing, in this particular case, White Diamond trying to push outside by force Rose Quartz’s persona/facade, a fake self, away from her Starlight.

Also, we’re finally able to see White’s hands (nails rigorously polished, I adore, as the cloak, so in style). Is not such important stuff but I appreciated that.

The pebbles are so adorable, they seems to love Pink Diamond’s very much (probably she was the only one that treat them decently, since apparently the word “pebble” is used in gem language also as a not-so-kind epithet? See Peridot using it with Steven when she was released from the bubble seasons ago), and I found  somehow cute (?) hearing one of them exclaiming “Pink is moving again” (which is totally reasonable since gems don’t have total acknowledge of what dreams are and what means sleeping in general, since is not something needful to them as is resting for organic beings). Plus, they apparently became attached at Connie too, that’s so sweet. Just to add, the green male pebble (which is also incredible to see a “kind” of gem being a “he”) chilling with Steven’s phone from the previous episode is so #icon. I love these little creatures.

“It almost feels like home” just being immediately replied with Garnet underlining embittered “almost” like to precise no matter how much the pebbles make the furnishing resembling as much as they can the real ones from Steven’s house back on Earth, still is not really “home”.

That grasps my heart a bit by hearing Blue Diamond, so emotionally and happily, announced than “we haven’t had Pink in 6000 years!”, since they still believe the one in front of them is always Pink Diamond and can’t well comprehend yet this aspect is not just a form Pink shapes for her amusement (just listening Yellow saying to her pearl “help her since she seems to have so much trouble recalling her past here on Homeworld”. But time to time), and getting worried this choice would not be liked by White, labeled as one of Pink’s usual childish jokes.

Ok but, someone pointed out that, “if the Diamond don’t throw a ball from 6000 years, then what about the Cosmic Jubilee Lars crashed in?” Well good question, I guess that is categorized as some kind of another event to participate at? I don’t think from Pink Diamond’s demise they never threw any party for other celebrations (a new colonial conquering for example).

Steven in the pink diamond’s outfit is a babe. It gives me the impression he actually wears It better than his mother.

What Yellow Pearl means exactly with “accept” or “reject” the members of Steven’s court? And… what happen to the ones that has been rejected from their diamonds?

Just realizing White’s throne other being of her dominant white shade, it actually reflects the colors of yellow, blue and pink, in the spots they’re placed the other thrones. Beside than being pretty aesthetical, it’s calling me the fact real life pure diamonds, reflecting the light, could do those spectacles of colors and reflections.

“Everyone stay where they belong” and Steven immediately floats near his friends and family. Bae.   smol beam of sunshine.

I really loved the explanation of what means to have “fun”, something you like to do, could it even be a passion or a simple playtime, for the good feelings it brings to you.

The pearls interactions, and the discovering of Blue Pearl’s hobby for drawing and Yellow’s for being a model just gives me life. I love the pearls and still want to learn more about their dynamics. Still, one of the moments that gives me chills is YP saying that “her feelings don’t matter” and how proudly she actually said it. Not gonna be surprised, we all know the conditions and how the pearls are considered in Homeworld society, as I know how much YP worships her diamond and how she considers herself lucky by having the “privilege” to serve the maximum rank of all gems. But still, it’s sad hearing someone states something like that without a problem.

OK SO. Since the very first Diamond Days trailer I was curious about one scene in particular: the one in which Blue Diamond separates with such brutality Steven from the group. I didn’t want to speculate about this just because I wanted first the context of the situation, and after seeing it… it actually makes more sense. I know people addressed this as Blue having a bitchy behavior because apparently she doesn’t want a Diamond that mingles herself with other gems (that compared to said Diamond, still remain lower beings, is like don’t wanting the princess of a country to get along with the farmers and peasants), but now it’s kinda reasonable? I mean, it’s still hurtful, but since White Diamond would be there, she’s afraid the gem matriarch would not be happy to see this kind out-of-the-rules behavior, and I’m sure no one would ever want to see White angry, am I wrong? Blue someways tries to protect Steven (and everyone’s asses) from doing a mistake in front of WD that could cost them. Still, it’s just the impression all the scene gave me, maybe I’m wrong.

NO NO BLUE, I UNDERSTAND YOU CAN’T FULLY COMPREHEND THE EARTH AND THE HUMAN HABITS, HOW ALL THERE WORK, CHANGE AND GROW, THAT IS SOMETHING BEYOND YOUR USUAL KNOWLEDGE, BUT DON’T DARE TO ADRESS CONNIE A SECOND TIME AS A “PET”, ‘kay?? Maybe she doesn’t do it through malice, but I really want episodes in which Steven teaches them with kindness and patience the beauties and worth of Earth, the things Pink Diamonds saw in the nature and its creatures, what took her to re-think her colonial project to preserve all of this, how magnificent and so different can be life, the organic beings, to change their consideration of them as inferior, they (we) just have another ways to live, to think and to do, that’s all. And when it comes talking about Amethyst…

“oh boy, here it comes…”

I know millions already talked and pointed out this but, I’m so proud of the character development  Amethyst is showing to us, already from the Heart of Crystal Gems arc. She has let behind her shoulders all the struggle, the feeling out of place, “wrong”, for being so different from the other quartz soldiers (“different” doesn’t mean “wrong”, and this is a very important teaching); she matures and understood it’s as alright as the way she is, and mean words from others is not worth her consideration, her tears, anymore, while in the past the same situation and phrases would have back the reaction to burst into trembling fury or silent crying.

From this dialogue whatever, it makes me consider one thing, probably “overcooked” gems seem not to be that much of scandal and dishonor (unless, Blue would have made more fussing about Amethyst and not allowed her into the ball in the first place): as long as they are, even with their “disabilities” and disadvantages, functional and useful for the society, it’s more or less consented and accepted. To not forget, Era 02 was for Homeworld a time of crisis in the production of gems due to less resources, so it’s not so shocked to see gems like Amethyst, or our Peridot, with less compared to the Era 01 gems, but still capable to fulfil a purpose.

Blue, for goddammit sake, let Garnet alone, together alone, thank you. at least, I’m content they included in this episode more lore, talking about the other types of “Garnets” presented on this planet: the Hessonites, of which we already have some acknowledge, thanks to the name dropped previously in Legs from Here to Homeworld and the contribution of  the “Save the light” game, that gives us clues on how they look like (someone else, beside me, prays to have the pleasure to see the same Hessonite from the game in the show? That would be cool, I can’t deny);

but also the Demantoids

And the Pyropes

However, who Blue just listed apparently are not invited at the ball. I’m not sure what kind of gems the ones presented above are, but they don’t seem to be Garnets however (the designs of those on the left – the green/yellow group – are kinda fascinating, not the same in my tastes for the ones on the right, but it concerns almost the “Thomas the Tank Engine” gems. Bad design in my opinion, but good memes for that. Interesting the choice to their “skirts” resembling gears, reminding Homeworld reflects a perfectly mechanic system where everyone has its specific place and purpose, working as, in fact, a gear in this immense society, and by fulfilling that purpose, this said society moves on and on, like a huge mechanism moved by the work of every single of its components – it’s also directly/indirectly underlined by their dancing afterwards, especially in the shooting sequence from above).

Look, look how many beautiful Garnets. Jokes aside, I’m really happy having the chance to see other sapphires (other rubies would same welcomed, of course), I already get in sympathy the cheek-gem one and the other few steps behind with a similar hairstyle like our Sapphire, but shorter:

oooh look these sapphires that never saw it comiiiiing

This is a one more time love for Garnet: even if she says moments before she’d not come, annoyed and angry for Blue Diamond’s talk to follow with head down the rules, she decides to do it for Steven, as Connie suggested, to give him the maximum support at the point to stay unfused for him. This, is real love too.

Aaand now here it comes the Diamonds!! Spectacular entry on the red carpet. Yellow is particular amused about how the project of the ball turned out, complimenting with Pink/Steven for the result (if she arrives to the point to congratulate with you and said that your idea is brilliant, you really did a good job then).

(same we could say for the future episodes)

E X T R A diamonds posing the way of their murals portrait.

as it is releasing sparkles and shimmers through the throne room at your subjects. because they’re glimmering and magnificent (shine like a diamond 🎶)

Icons. I adore. I can’t blame the random crow gem dropping tears, it’s so relatable I’d do the same.

Or the other one getting thrilled by the entrance of Yellow Diamond. I can’t blame her either.

But honestly, dat blue diamond hips sway. She is so elegant in her postures, a queen.

I know it sound so out of contest in the current talking but damn, Blue Diamond’s voice is so ASMR, soft and gentle. I especially feel nice chills hearing her says “you’re doing great”. Just. Fantastic.

“White Diamond… has more important things to attend to”  but 🙃, for real bro? It’s fucking new Homeworld Era ball. Pink Diamond return!! guess it’s important???? Poor Steven, he was so hopeful to catch the opportunity to finally talk to her (comparing my reaction with his when this was announced you won’t find any difference)

“Therefore, I will be here to observe in her place.”

How nobody says nothing about? a P-E-A-R-L that has the permission to stay on her diamond’s throne and be presented at her diamond’s place in sostitution. I don’t believe is something allowed to the other pearls (owed by a diamond or another high rank gem), to substitute their master and sit on their place during these events, even for Yellow P. or Blue P., or even our Pearl in her time on Homeowrld at the service of Pink Diamond. But maybe due to being the pearl of the most important Diamond and, if it’s her Diamond that orders her, it’s understandable and accepted. Dunno buddies.

Also, among all these crowds, it makes me remember Zircon’s words at the trial of what kind of gems were once in Pink Diamond’s entourage: where are the Agates, since there’re amethysts and quartz soldiers in attendance. Wasn’t their job to keep them on the line? And those sapphires? Are Pink Diamond’s? Or, since sapphires are considered aristocratic and not so common gems, this small group represent the only and all sapphires in the entire Homeworld? Another question, if not and there’d be others to meet, all Homeworld!Sapphires are all like classical blue sapphires or exist others of different types, like Padparadscha, but without being “off-colors”?

Plus, I’m sure the green/yellow gems are not from PD’s court but from Blue and Yellow’s (tiny hinted by those two react with emotion at their entrance, and we don’t see them greeting Pink like the other group do), but… there is none White Diamond’s gems (except the pearl, of course). After all, Yellow Pearl said  gems by the Diamonds are accepted or rejected. Think about it, maybe it’s why there’re no white gems…

But seriously tho, does White Diamond actually have her own court or directly ALL the entire society with all its gems is considered as “her court”, the other Diamonds included? Since her being the Mother of all gem kind and its supreme ruler, that would actually make more sense than the other way around.

Ok now, everyone get crazy about Connie’s “clever” move to drag Steven into dancing with her. I want to say, I don’t doom Connie for, quoting from others, “have been dumb”, instead, I appreciate her effort to cheering her friend up, as he always does to her. She knows she can’t totally be part of this world (due to many things, not being a gem, living a kind of life style so different from Homeworld standards, another mind-setting, and also c’mon, she is just a very young girl, you can’t pretend) , but she wants to stay on Steven’s side and support him as much as she can, to make smile again a friend so emotionally and mentally tired and down. She believed few moments of dance, enough to raise up Steven’s moral, would not hurt anyone, and no one intended to fuse, that was accidental. Many other replied that, thinking of it, every time that they danced on screen, they fused, so how did not see that coming?. Yes, every time on screen, but all the other times, off-screen? Like, on other afternoons, and at Garnet’s wedding after the ceremony, we don’t see them on the dance floor but I’m sure they didn’t miss the occasion to dance together and have fun. Not less important to mention, it was supposed to be a call-back, as the title of the episode, at “Alone Together”, as “The question” from the previous arc did with the older episode “The Answer”.

Plus, even Stevonnie is so adorable with Pink Diamond’s outfit. Pure bae.

While watching this gesture with the hands, I like to think is Steven and Connie individually still holding hands from the dancing, just a second before realizing now the hands of one became the hands of the other as well.

Oh, and there we are. Things fucked up in the worst of the scenarios. (there’d be a lot to say in particular about White Pearl’s frown at the sign of Connie and Steven twirling happily together, but all my thoughts I collected in a separated post, giving to that theory its own space, that I’d link here). Yellow whisper with tight teeth “Pink what are you doing?” is a cause of bad news.

And then the Crystal Gems come at the rescue, with Garnet and Opal (!!! before taking her down in 0.2 seconds, why this cartoon network, do you really want, at the end of the series, people coming up with videos like “every time Opal shows up” just to be, if everything went good, two and half minutes long? Is what you really want, CN?)

But the real surprise came with her:

from the end credits of the episode it’s “Jade”, she is actually very adorable: this little missing tooth, these sunshine eyes and the gem-stones placed like two puffy cheeks make her even more sweet (judging by the combination of her dress, I was right saying the yellow and green gem from before during the entrances of the diamonds belong respectively to Yellow’s and Blue’s court). It’s admirable having the courage to do “coming out”, encouraged by the CG’s bravery, standing for what they have fate in and for what is right, even if it means getting against the society’s stricter rules and meet the judge of the rulers themselves, with all the possible consequences. I’m sure she believed Pink/Steven, by her influence dictated by her high rank status, would approve and legalize cross-gem fusions and decided to stay by this diamond side. “I knew I couldn’t be the only one” is sorrowful to hear, so away from Homeworld’s eyes exist other gems of different types that fuse for love, but have to keep it hidden to not meet an horrible fate (shattered or possibly harvested). That’s sad. Let them be.

Also, love Stevonnie and Opal staring at Garnet like “yo man, you’re the fusion expert, what about that?”, and Garnet is just idk stuff dudes.

ok but, it’s not that Ruby and Sapphire lost their wedding rings after being poofed, right? … right…? (#edit after ChangeYourMind watching: thank the Lord it didn’t happen)

Scene: *everyone poofed, delirium, everything went wrong and Stevonnie is grounded* the evil gremlin inside my head: new outfits/new intro?

Last thing, I just want to make a point about Stevonnie’s “prison”:

A dark locked place at the top of a tower. Now, some time ago, Rebecca Sugar took part on a livestream with other cartoon creators, on the occasion, while talking about different stuff, Alex Hirsch (creator of Gravity Falls), asks miss Sugar what would happen if a gem was placed in a dark room for a long amount of time. Rebecca simply replied “I can’t answer that”, surely because if she does, it could be spoiler for the upcoming episodes (this constant keeping it secret is an ongoing situation with her, lol). The fact is, we all know the physical form of a gem is a projection of light that shapes in actual matter, to allow them to interact, act and speak, and it’s from light itself a gem takes her nutriment (and not from food, like organics do).

So deprive a gem of light (whatever kind: the sunlight, the moonlight, the stars’ light, natural light or artificial light), of her only nutriment, is the equivalent of making her “starving”? Adopted as a form of torture for gems considered needing a punishment for a possible wrong action?

A gem in a room surrounded only by darkness, without even the tiniest glimmer of light, what happens when she reaches her limit and lost all the energies left? Would she became a simple, faded, inanimate gemstone as the our ones from Earth?

Bonus: Who noticed that?

Since the answer I always had the anxiety these two rubies get shattered for ineptitude towards the mission to strike down the rebels and protect Sapphire. I’m glad they’re still around then.

[aerostoriesforyouall]

The Boy Gives Life &... (episode 1 part 1)

The Boy Gives Life &...

 Episode 1: The Lacinho Doll

           Charlie’s parentes, along with him, entered by a gate in a big house; the house’s door, itself is opened by Julia’s mother; the parents greet each other, and everyone enters the house.

              Charlie is amazed by the house.

- Your friend is in her room, Charlie – says Juliana; (Julia’s mother) – Wanna enter?

- Yes... yes...

         Juliana takes him to the house’s corridor, while they walked, he was amazed and astonished by the corridor’s frameworks. Charlie, along with his friend’s mother arrives to a door that had written in a little sign:

“Beware, this room belongs to Julia”.

- Honey, your friend is here – says her mother, knocking on the door.

- Ah, tell him to enter, ma.

- Oh, you’re really not keeping the door closed, little lady.

- [sigh] Alright, fine – Julia opens the door, greets her friend, and let him enters the room – Don’t you touch a thing, got it?

         The mother goes back to the living room where the guests were.

         The little girl’s room was filled with huge plushies and dolls.

- Wow... – Charlie was astonished.

- Very cool, uh? – says his friend, picking up a rag doll that was on her double bed – This is Lacinho... it means Little Bow in english; my first doll ever; I’ve had her since I was one year old.

         The rag doll looked old; and its face was drawn. Its hair was red, its “skin” was slightly bit “parda”; (look it up); but with “freckles”. This toy wore a blue dress with two pink hearts in diferente sizes; brown shoes with White socks. Her name was probably because of the little purple bow on her hair.

- A... aa... wantmetogivelife...? – asks the room’s owner friend and guest.

- Uhum – “says”/agrees his friend – I Always wanted to know what she has to say to me.

         Julia sits the doll on the ground; and then, Charlie’s hand starts to glow as he’s touching and giving life to the toy...

         For some seconds nothing happened... but then, Lacinho opens her eyes, slaps the boy’s hands and says while doing fight poses:

- Your hand is too close, little guy! Get away because I ain’t afraid of men, ya know?

         Her voice was weirdly of an adult woman. She keeps going:

- So, where the heck is the one who made me alive in this place?

- An...? – says Charlie, confused while rubbing his slapped hand.

- It was him that gave you life, Lacinho, yeah, this tired faced boy there – says Julia.

- Huh, eh? Didn’t notice you there, girl, who are ya? Are you the one who Always cleaned and brushed me?

- Exactly me, so you do have memories of that?

- Yeah, I do and I’m glad you’re a female and not a male. I can’t even imagine how many atrocities a boy would do to a rag doll like me, dude.

- Ah, so you don’t need to worry, he isn’t the sharpest tool in the shed... hey, introduce yourself to Lacinho.

- ...Hi... I’m Charli... – he says while waving at the doll...

         Who says:

- Ain’t he cute... are ya two pals?

- Yeah, exactly... – Julia clearly begin talking in a sarcastic manner to him – “Gimme a hug, ma friend”

         She starts to laugh, and the doll, with a smile, comments:

- Didn’t expect u knowing sarcasm at such Young age, lady.

         Charlie then actually hugs Julia for both the girl’s surprise.

- No no no, Charlie, it was a j-joke – says Julia while blushed and getting him away – It was a joke, you silly.

         Lacinho giggles and comments:

- I ship you two so-very-much, hihihi.

- No no no no he is just a friend of mine, that’s it, he-is-a-friend!

- Yeah right... just joking, girl, I already know you’ve been friendzoned, little guy.

- But it’s the truth, Little Bow, he is just a friend, I’m serious.

- I know that, bestie, it’s just a silly joke – the rag doll walks to the door, and points with her hand to the corridor, saying – Can I meet better your parentes now that I can speak?

- ...Well, sure, of course, let’s g...

- But please ya two come with me, since a moving and talking doll might be scary, ya know... – she puts her hand in her chin, and finishes with a smile and other intents – On the other side.......

 - Did you see what the Octla did now? – Leonardo; (Julia’s father) says in the middle of a conversation between the adults.

- Those are just a bunch of thieves – says Sarah.

- Exactly, these should totally hey hey, - the boy’s parentes stops after seeing the children approaching with Little Bow.

- Hi, Darling – says Juliana – Have you come to introduce Lacinho to us?

         The daughter held the still doll on her arms. She says:

- Ma, uhh... it seems there’s something  on her face...

         Julia approached the doll to her mother, just so she could pick the toy.

- Hm? Really? – Juliana picks the rag doll, and starts to analyze it – Hmm... I don’t see anything wr...

- BLABULABLABULABLABULABLABULA!! – Lacinho “shouts” in the mother’s face.

- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!! – Juliana throws the rag doll, almost hitting the ceiling.

         The rag doll recompose herself in the air, flipping and “falling with style” on the living room’s table close to the adults.

- Hahaha, it’s just a joke, woman, this Charlie guy here gave me life, I’m good, seriouslly – says her.

- Uhm?! What?! Oh yeah... oh yeah, I had forgotten about that... – says Juliana.

         The boy’s parents looked up. Julia’s father wasn’t in the sofa anymore.

- You can go down already, Leonardo – says his wife...

         And then he falls harshly on the sofá while Charlie’s mom get slightly bit awnkward by this fall and her husband spooked.

- Relax, this wasn’t the idea of your kids, it was mine, woman, hehe – says the rag doll while she jumped in the center of the table, stretching her hand then to her owner’s mother – Name’s Lacinho; or Little Bow if you like, nice to meet you, gal.

- Uhh... my pleasure uhm... – Juliana then thinks of something, and stretches her hand to the doll with a short smile – My name is Juliana, my pleasure.

         The mother then “shakes” the rag doll’s hand, with a loto f strenght; squeezing the doll’s hand.

- Damn gal, you’re Strong, but I feel no pain in this body – says “Little Bow” with a smile.

- Pff, really now – says Julia with a cocky smile – Mama, show us what you got.

- Exactly, little doll, take a look – Juliana raises a little her shirt, to show her ripped belly – A lot of gym and effort gives me that result.

         The rag doll gives a shy and short whistle as to show she was impressed, and asks:

- How many you can?

- At the moment, 155.

         Another short whistle by the rag doll, and then she says to the others:

- Ah, hello for you guys as well.

         While the doll greeted the other adults, the kids observed.

- Teehee, awesome, I have the coolest doll ever – says Julia to herself, and the says to her friend – Alright, Charlie... since you gave me the most awesome doll ever, you desserve a prize, you can have my hu...

         He was distracted by a framework of blue roses.

- Hey, I’m talking to you, silly – says her, while giving two soft slaps behind the boy’s head, gaining his attention – Since you gave me the coolest doll ever, you desserve a prize; my sincere hug, but don’t get used to it.

         She actually hugs him, he doesn’t know how to react, but then she lets him go.

- Ah, I knew there was something going on between you two – comments Lacinho, sarcastically smiling while looking at them both.

- No no, I was just giving him my sincere hug as a prize for giving life to you... speaking of that... Father! Mama! Can I change to his school?

- What?

- I wanna go to his school, meet new people and show my doll to every boy and girl, can I?

- But why don’t you show it to your friends from the school you’re already on? – asks Leonardo.

- Ah dad, this is because I won’t be able to show the cool things that Charlie can do; and because...

- We have to talk this better, sweetie, we can’t decide a thing like this so fast. – says the mother.

- Ah common I wanna go there already why don’t... you... why uhh... – Julia stops her tantrum after seeing her mother’s venomous eyes – Alright alright, I’ll play, uhh... Charlie, let’s see some cellphone games, yes? Yes, let’s go.

         Both of them go back to her room.

- Ok, uhh... Sarah, now that they’re not here anymore, how is Charlie’s school? – asks Juliana.

         The boy’s father feels a little awkward, but the mother answers for him:

- It’s a public school, but don’t you worry... uhh... but before, how is the cardo f Julia’s school?

         Juliana picks a card; (like playing cards). Sarah do the same thing.

- Alright, Infrastructure 10; Technology 10; Price 10 Danger 2... and Teachers... 3 – the little girl’s mother read Julia’s school card.

- Wow, it’s a prestigious school... – says the mother of the little boy, who starts to read his school’s card – Alright, Infrastructure 4; Technology 4; Price 0... Danger... 6 and well, the Teachers are 8 at least...

- 8?? That high??

- Actually it’s almost 9; this school uses mosto f its governamental budget with teachers.

- And if the problem is Danger, I can protect her! – says Lacinhp, who was still in the room.

- What? You’re still here? – asks the daughter’s father.

- Yeah, I’m here yet – says the rag doll confidently, while punching the air – And I’ll be ready to protect your daughter!

         The four adults stay in awkward silence, while looking at each other.

- Uhh... you do know that you’re a rag doll... do you...? – asks Juliana.

- Hmm... hey! I can give some good ol’ scares in whoever decides to mess yer daughter, I mean, no one will be prepared for a doll who moves by itself; and even less for a doll who actually attacks the others; I may not have strengh but sure I’ll scare them a lot.

- But doesn’t that mean you can’t move until someone... hmm... – Marcos thinks aloud.

- Even then, just me moving if someone decides to mess with her will be enough, ya know... – she starts to look around and changes subject – You guys seem to be a little... rich...

- Oh, my husband is an tailor and Works in a doll factory – says Juliana.

- Oh come on, honey, did you really need to say it out loud? – answers this husband, obviously being a little ashamed of his job for some reason – Wasn’t enough you’ve saying that I am a tailor?

- Don’t worry, man, we’re not gonna judge you, I’ve been working in the Le Mauie toy factory for 15 years for now – says Marcos – And there I am na administrative assist...

- Wait a second, Le Mauie? It’s the rival company of where I... work...

- Ah, but I’m sure this won’t affect our relationship...

         Both of them look away for a little, trying to disguise the awkwardness.

- So, I’m sorry to interrupt the chit chat, but... you said you were a tailor, isn’t that correct? – Lacinho asked to Leonardo.

- Uhh... yes... why do you ask...? – he questions.

- It’s just an idea that I had... – the doll looked at both of her hands...

(it will continue in part 2)