#he was hit by a car unfortunately but i got him to a carer so fingers crossed he makes a good recovery 🥺🥺🥺

[free-n-wild]

GUYS GUYS GUUUUYS I GOT MY FIRST GANG-GANG AT WORK TODAY LOOK AT THIS FANCY FELLA!! 🥺

[lunacrescentmoon]

Well, it is time.

Cursed Slippers OSD AU by @calcium-cat

Yes I am writing this on the same day as the previous one- if I can make someone happy I shall persevere! This will be based on the birds each of them are.

For the confused or uninitiated, first off go to @calcium-cat 's blog, you'll find a lot of fun stuff there including what this AU is but I shall summarise.

Cursed Slippers is an AU where Cross got Dream some duck slippers, that turned out to be cursed. Dream turned into a duckling, and everyone else in the castle soon followed. My friend and I made it so Error also turned, but he became a humming bird. That way when he crashes, his wings flutter quickly and make the humming sound XD

Now for the bird types:

Dream - Duckling

Night - Goosemare-

Cross - Swan

Dust - Magpie

Killer - Crow(you'll see why I picked Crow over Raven-)

Horror - Rooster

Error - Hummingbird(my friend and I's own touch

-Bird problems and road trips P1-

Where had they gone wrong....

The gang was back to normal, thank stars, but they all had new issues to deal with regarding their new forms. Dust was having... a lot more than the rest though...

He had to keep Cyanide in his cage... all the time.... his bird instincts went wild just with the the scent of the rat. Unfortunately, he couldn't stop it. It became the new darkness in him for a while.

Until he got slapped out of it... by himself...

And then Nightmare found out. He promptly fixed it by setting a scent emitter into Dust's room that nullified any other smell. Dust was then okay with Cyanide.

But the smells didn't change his other issue...

Shiny objects. The magpie in him wanted to take everything. He broke the table trying to get knives and forks, he cracked the van windshield trying to get to a phone that had been left inside, it was Cross', he had done so much to try and get the shiny objects.

That it was becoming a large issue...

See, the gang all wanted to go on a road trip. Killer was... down in the dumps, and needed it.

"A.. road trip?.." Dream asked Cross. He had never heard of it.

"Yeah! It's like an adventure in a car!" Cross exclaimed excitedly. He was just itching to get out on the road. He loved these trips, everyone did truthfully.

It was a release that none of them really got ever since the bird incident. Nightmare had been adamant that would not be healthy because of their new instincts. But, upon seeing Killer so upset over a hit to his pride... he had a change of heart.

Dream smiled brightly, eager to go. Somewhere new was waiting! Finally! His wings flapped in excitement. Horror walked over, his wings tucked behind him calmly and surprisingly the only one that kept his wings fully clean. No one knew why.

"Alright, alright, little duck... we need to get to the van first..." Horror smiled, petting a now pouting Dream.

"Why can't we just walk?" Dream huffed.

"Because I don't want you running off to a water hole and getting hurt." Nightmare chimed in, glaring.

Once everyone... no, ALMOST everyone was in the van, Night noticed an absence.

"Wait, where's Dust?-" and he looked at the windshield... seeing him in his bird form and dive.....

CCRRRAAACCCKKK!!

Night sighed, getting out, managing to pull the magpie off the windscreen and get him into the car. Error held onto the bird, being a surprisingly good carer once he had gotten past the touch thing with help of Dream.

And they set off.

Okay this will be 2 parts- keep an eye out for part 2 later today! ^w^

OSD and CS!OSD belong to @calcium-cat

OGDreamtale belongs to Jokublog

[truelovevoltage]

MLFK: Too late

“Anonymous said: a mlfk when they are still in high school and have a crush on mc but leave her for their carer and after years come back for mc but finding out that mc died in an accident a year after they left her and the others didn't know about it. Please”

“Anonymous said: Hi could you do a headcanon where the My Last First Kiss guys move away after middle school then come 10 years later back and hear that mc committed suicide because of bullies while they where away (Taka,Ayato,Makoto,Ichya)thnx❤”

A/N: I’ve combined the two but I’m going to stick with the Main Character getting into an accident instead of committing suicide because some might be uncomfortable with that idea. Also, I only wrote about 3 characters because that’s my maximum but if it’s a high demand for Takamune’s part or even Riku, then I’ll add it in the future.

If you’re uncomfortable with this kind of headcanon please, do not read the contents below. 

Prologue

You, Ayato, Makoto, Riku, Takamune and Ichiya have been friends for as long as you can remember. Every single one of them had a special place in your heart especially him. You loved being around your childhood friends some would even tease you that they’re your bodyguards because of how protective and caring they are towards you. 

Whenever someone made fun of you, your protect squad was always there. They were always there to cheer you up no matter what the situation is. Especially when your first love, Hiroki Eniwa broke your heart the first time. You were really happy to have them around to cheer you up, and you couldn’t ask for more. You wished that your moments with them will stay like this forever. 

That wasn’t the case because he had to leave to pursue their dreams. You were beyond happy for him moving on with the next chapter of his life, and as much you wanted him to say, you knew you couldn’t do that to him. There’s no point of being selfish. 

“Stop crying will you?” He wiped your tears away.  “I’ll be back you know. it's not like I’m going anywhere.” He smiled at you. The two of you said your goodbyes not knowing that this will be your last one. 

After graduating from high school you were excited to start your new chapter as well as a university student. You knew that he’s doing his best to pursue his dream and career and you knew that you can’t trail behind him. You were always pushing yourself but you knew when to stop and take a break.

It was finally a semester break and you were beyond ecstatic to go back home and eat your Mom’s cooking once again. You were glad that your birthday fell during your semester break because then, you can spend time with your friends and family. 

You enjoyed your break and caught up with some of your friends in high school. The following day was finally your birthday and you made some plans with your friends. Your parents didn’t mind it at all but they wanted you to be home for dinner to celebrate your day with them as well. “Sweetie, you can invite your friends at home too, the more the merrier right?” Your Mom smiled at you. 

“Sure Mom! I’ll ask them later, See you in the evening!” You waved at them and headed out the door. 

You knew how much you missed your friends dearly and it really takes you back to your high school days. You couldn’t help but reminisce, you had some good and bad memories. You enjoyed your day by watching movies, eating desserts with your friends and going to the arcade as if you were back in high school. You invited your friends over for dinner and they happily agreed. They took this as an opportunity to spend more time with you because they knew that once the semester break is over, you’ll be very busy. 

As you and your friends were crossing the street, a car decided to speed up as they were turning. They were unable to see the car ahead and collided with each other. Your friends were safe but sadly you were unlucky. Due to the impact, one of the cars hit you. Everything went by at a rapid speed. No one saw it coming because the collision happened behind you and not in front of you. If it was in front of you, it would’ve been avoided but that wasn’t the case. 

Your friends screamed your name with tears running down their face. They called the ambulance and explained to the operator what happened. They were asked a lot of questions and they tried to keep you conscious but you just couldn’t. Your body felt heavy, your head was hurting and your eyes felt droopy. 

In the end, no matter how fast they rushed you to the hospital, they couldn’t save you fast enough. Your friends contacted your parents right away and had to break the sad news. It was unfortunate because it was your birthday, but now it’s only a reminder of the day you left your family and friends.

Ayato Hidaka P.O.V

Ten years have passed since the last time I saw Y/N. I wonder how she was doing? I bet she’s still a cry baby till this day. I couldn’t wait to surprise her and tell her that her favourite childhood friend is back and that I was able to pursue my dreams. 

Not only was it a beautiful day but it’s also Y/N’s birthday. I went to the cake shop and chose her favourite cake. Thinking about choosing the cake for Y/N made me smile, man I miss her a lot. Who knew she’d occupy my mind even after ten years? One thing I’m not ready to face and that is, about her love life. That’s one thing I would not be able to accept. Whoever he may be, he’s unlucky because Y/N has me as one of her best friends. 

I arrived at Y/N’s place. When I rang the doorbell I saw Y/N’s Mom, she engulfed me into an embrace. “Ayato! Oh my, you’ve grown a lot since the last time I saw you. You used to be just Ayato to us but now you’re a very well known actor! I’m so proud of you Ayato.” She smiled at me. 

“Thank you Auntie!” I smiled at her back. I felt embarrassed as she complimented me. “By the way is Y/N home? I brought her favourite cake to celebrate her birthday.” I asked. Y/N’s mom suddenly got tensed. I could tell she was ready to cry in front of me, but why? 

She invited me into their home and made me sit. “Ayato, you didn’t hear the news?” I shooked my head from side to side. “Y/N... She... She left us years ago, on the first year of University to be exact.” I was taken by surprise. What did she mean? “Oh you mean she ran away from home? Man Auntie you had it rough huh? Y/N always had a carefree mind.” I sighed. 

“That’s not what I meant... On her first year of university, she went back home for her semester break. We were lucky enough to have her back so we can celebrate her birthday... But on her birthday she was involved in an accident. They weren’t able to save her on time Ayato. My dear daughter is gone, she’s no longer with us.” 

It took time for me to process what Y/N’s mom just said to me. What? Y/N? She’s... She’s really gone? I didn’t even know that I was already crying at that time and her mom hugged me. “I know how much you love my daughter Ayato but she’s gone now.” 

After our emotional moment, I asked Y/N’s Mom if she could tell me where Y/N was buried. I wanted to visit her. Each step I took felt heavy and I hated it. It was still hard to process that she’s really gone. 

Once I found her grave, I lost all my energy and cried. “Y/N, happy birthday... You’re unfair. Why did you leave us like that? Why did you leave me? I wasn’t even able to confess to you. If only I didn’t go away to pursue my career then maybe... maybe you’d still be alive. I would’ve been there to protect you.” I couldn’t hold everything in anymore. I had to let everything out. Suddenly there was a gust strong gust of wind as if Y/N was telling me not to blame myself. “I know you’re watching over us right now and I know for sure you’re probably upset cause I said that maybe it would’ve been better if I didn’t go after my dream.” Another gust of wind came. “I’ll take that as a yes?” I chuckled. “Seriously though Y/N I just want to thank you for being part of my life. No one can ever replace you in my heart, you’ll always have a special place here. Please keep watching over us Y/N, I’ll work hard. I’ll make you proud.” 

If there’s anything Y/N taught me, that’ll be taking risks and not regretting anything. Although I did risk seeing her the last time when I pursued my career, my only regret is not keeping in contact with her after that. 

Ichiya Misono P.O.V

Being back in the place I grew up it brought back a lot of memories. I wasn’t really close with the other guys but they always included me in everything, or at least try to. I really had fun teasing Y/N back then but who knew that I’d miss my childhood friend. She’s the only female that doesn’t get into my nerves. 

I walked into Conte and saw the whole gang in the there. We acknowledge each other presence. Other than that, there’s one person missing in the group and that’s Y/N. I sat down beside Makoto, “Looks like everyone’s here.” Makoto smiled. “All except one, Y/N.” Riku had a sad smile on his face. I could feel the gloomy atmosphere here. 

What’s going on? “Yeah well, where is she anyway?” I asked. Ayato, Riku, Makoto, and Takamune looked at each other. 

“Ichiya... Y/N’s gone. She got into an accident on her first year of university.” Ayato explained. 

“Is this some kind of joke Hidaka? If it is, it’s not funny.” I kept a straight face. Yet the look on everyone’s face says otherwise. Y/N... She’s really gone? 

“It took us by surprise too when her Mom broke the news to us. We couldn’t believe Y/N would be taken away from us just like that. We wanted to tell you but we couldn’t get a hold of you. We didn’t have your contact number after.” Makoto added. 

I couldn’t do anything other than nod. The guys looked at me, I know they’re just worried but it annoyed me. I excused myself and went to my apartment. The moment I stepped in the apartment I walked towards my room and looked for photo albums. When I saw her smiling face in the photos I broke down. “I know you hate me, but did you hate me that much? Leaving me without even saying goodbye? When I left I said I’ll be back and I told you to stop crying, but look at us now. I’m the one crying and yet you’re the one who’s not coming back.” I sobbed. “Y/N, I’m sorry if I was such an asshole to you. I didn’t know how to act in front of you. We were kids after all and you were the girl I had a crush on. I made fun of you but that’s just how kids show that they like the girl they like right? I hope you forgive me Y/N for my actions back then.” If only I knew that this was going to happen, I would’ve left my contact number to her mom or any of the gang. At least then I would’ve known earlier rather than finding out about it years later. I would’ve been able to attend her funeral. I would’ve been able to say goodbye. Now all I can do is look up to the sky and say our farewells. 

Makoto Morimachi P.O.V

I couldn’t believe it. My first love is really gone? My family tried to tell me what happened while I was away and the news about Y/N broke my heart into billions of pieces. She can’t be gone can she? “She’s... Dead?” I felt something stuck in my throat as I tried to voice out the last word. 

Riku could only look at me with a sad smile. “I know it’s hard to take everything in but that’s the truth. Everyone’s still recovering from losing her.” 

I couldn’t help but cry. I wanted to be able to talk to her and confess to her. I know I took a while but I wanted her to know how I feel, but now she’s gone. 

Riku gave me more details about the accident. I knew that some people are just careless but no matter how many rules we set up, there’s still that small percentage that people break the rules. If it wasn’t for that person who sped up as they were turning. How could they be so stupid? Do they even regret doing such a thing? They killed someone due to their reckless driving. 

“Did the person go to jail?” I asked.

“Yeah, he suffered minor injuries and so after they treated his wounds, they took him to the station and kept him there. He personally apologized when Y/N’s Mom went to the station after hearing about the incident. Of course, Auntie didn’t accept his apology because Y/N’s gone.” 

I balled my fist. I’m glad that the person who killed Y/N is behind bars but what he did to Y/N and her family is unforgivable. 

I was frustrated because not only is today her birthday, but it’s also her death anniversary. It’s a sad day for sure but I know that this must be a painful day for Y/N’s parents as well. 

Right after lunch, I decided to visit Y/N in the cemetery. “Hi Y/N, it’s Mako. I’m sorry I couldn’t go to your funeral Y/N. I just found about your death today which also happens to be your birthday as well. Happy birthday Y/N, I wish I was able to celebrate it with you but I can’t anymore.” The thought of Y/N being gone has still hasn’t sunk in. “If only I was able to muster my courage and confess to you back then, I wouldn’t have this feeling of regret now. I just wanted to let you know that you’re my first love Y/N. Ever since the day, we went to the sunflower fields I knew you were someone very special to me.” 

[adacarisi]

Can you write an imagine were Barba and Carisi have both been with you and they start fight over you? Smut please if you want. Also i love your writing 😍❤

A long one for you all. I hope this is interesting and worth the read! Thank you for the idea it is something I’ve thought about a few times but I’d never gotten around to actually writing, (aka the story of every writer ever.) Still, thank you so much, I love you lots and I hope you enjoy! 

Also bonus/sound vibes for the fic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPaLIw5KluU 

You’d never seen anything as beautiful as a New York sunrise after a week of rain. The way orange bled into a deep blush of rose made your breath catch as you took in the view from the edge of your bed. You were sure you looked like a child, bunched up, knees to chest, white fluffy duvet wrapped around your front. It had been a long week and an even longer night. 

Monday had begun with a bang, the opposing council for your case decided to request a suppression hearing over the blouse your plaintiff had been wearing at the time of her assault. You heard Rafael Barba groan the moment your heels dug into the carpet of his office. 

“What the hell is this Rafael?” You toss the file onto his desk.

This was your first time as second chair, usually you were first, handling your own cases but after Rafael had angered the DA a few days ago you were babysitting, and he didn’t like it. In an unfortunate coincidence you’d slept with him a week before you’d become his official unofficial carer. The two of you had been circling each other for a year, teasing and baiting. It was inevitable. Then you’d both been in the office very late…or very early depending who you asked and it had been years since either of you had slept with anyone. It was desperate, rushed and sloppy, neither of you removing a single article of clothing. He was louder than you’d expected but then again so were you. Rafael was more than attentive, he watched every expression you made so closely you could hardly look at him without moaning. 

You’d fallen asleep with him on the couch in his office only to wake up to him staring at you far closer than you were ready for that morning. You’d almost fallen off the couch but he had tightened his arms around you and pulled you back into his chest with a deeply smug smirk. 

Just as you had been about to discuss the whole situation with him there was a loud knock on his office door. He helped you off the couch before fastening his pants and belt that you’d undone a few hours earlier. You were fully clothed but your skirt had been strained and now carried light stretch marks similar to the ones on your hips.Then as you turned to leave Rafael pulled you to him for a kiss. He tucked your hair behind your ear and gave you a little flash of a smile before opening his office door. You almost ran over Carmen as you stumbled in your heels, your knees still weak. It had been good, almost too good. But you worked with him, literally 20 feet away from him. When you made it back to your office you popped a few migraine pills into your mouth and swallowed. God you needed a shower, you smelled like sex and his cologne. But you had to be in court in 20 minutes, a shower would have to wait. 

The days that followed kept you away from him in conveniently inconvenient ways. The whole thing became a paradox, a blip that both of you actively ignored until the tension broke. Monday. 

As that file hit his desk his eyes hit yours for the first time since that morning weeks ago. To say his expression was displeased would be an understatement.

“Have you never seen a suppression motion before Counselor?” He whipped his words towards you as he opened the file.

“Rafael, this is bad. That blouse has the defendants DNA all over it, you know how the jury loves DNA. I can win this without it but God…Rafael, you know what this is about.” You leaned on the edge of his desk as you spoke noting how he leaned towards you as you went on. 

“Buchannan. This is his retribution from the Durst case.” Rafael nodded before rubbing his temple with the hand not holding the file. 

“Rafael, does this have merit? Is there anything he could possibly surprise us with? You know him better than I do.”

“He’s good at his job Y/N. He’s even better at making our jobs harder. What time is the hearing?”

“8:30 tomorrow morning.”

“Shit…okay.”

“What?”

“It’s…I’ve got plans.” He tried to look away from you but your face had already changed to an exaggerated expression of shock.

“Really?”

“Yes. I’m having dinner with a friend is that okay with you?” Rafael snapped back cocking his head as he raised his eyebrows defiantly. 

“I didn’t know dinners affected court appearances the next morning.” You retorted surprised and a little hurt at both his tone and his words. 

“Anything else you need me to take care of?” He started writing on his legal pad again, the scratch of his pen dismissing you.

You didn’t speak. You turned on your heels and walked from the room fuming at his dismissal and clear desire to frustrate you.

“Ass.” You let the word hiss from your lips as you turn the corner out of his office and into the long marbled hallway outside. 

At that moment you collided with someone who grabbed at your arms to prevent you from toppling over. You pulled back from the lean torso you had fallen against to see a concerned looking man with a tinge of a grin on his lips. 

“I’m sorry, I was just–”

“No no, it’s my bad, I heard you coming around the corner but I wasn’t fast enough to get outta your way. You look like you’re in a hurry.” His accented voice caught your attention and you began to remember hearing that voice before down the very hallway you were standing in.

“I guess you could say that.” You rolled your eyes slightly with a light laugh. 

His eyes piercing as he smiled back at you taking a step away to keep you at a more socially appropriate distance. 

“Barba? Ya know he’s not that bad, he grows on ya afta’ a while you’ve just gotta give him time.” 

“I’ve worked with him for little over two years now and unfortunately I don’t think I can take much more of it. Jesus…I’m sorry, I just–”

“Hey no, I get it. Believe me I do, I’ve had the same kinda days down at the precinct. Barba’s tough…but he gets the job done.”

“You’re right. I’m so sorry, I’m Y/N. ADA.”

“Sonny Carisi, detective SVU.”

“Well Detective Carisi it was nice ‘bumping’ into you.” You joked giving him a brush on the shoulder before beginning to walk away.

“I’ll be at Maxwell’s down on 59th around 8 tonight if you’d like to bump into me again.” You turned almost too quickly giving yourself a bit of whiplash to see Sonny smirking slightly while something inside you lit up with excitement. 

You met him at the bar later and he offered to buy your drinks. All of them. Rafael had really done a number on you and you needed to destress. Sonny was so good hearted and humored that you felt yourself relax more than you had since you started working at the DA’s office. Stories were swapped and the laughter rarely stopped. He flirted, you flirted back. You leaned closer to him and slid your hand up his suit clad thigh before pressing your lips to his cheek. 

“We’ve gotta get you home.” He chuckled as you bit your lip and rolled your eyes. 

“Are you coming with me?” You teased drawing a little circle on his thigh letting your fingertip brush against his inner thigh only slightly. 

Sonny groaned and shook his head before helping you off your barstool. You weren’t that drunk, but you’d had more than you should have. 

The second you both hit the crisp New York air you pulled him to you gently with a light hum. He smiled and placed a kiss on your forehead. 

“Sonny…”

“Hmm?”

“Will you come home with me?” 

“I’d love nothing more but you’re a little drunk right now doll.” He reasoned rubbing his hands up and down your back as he held you against the warmth his body.

“Doll?” You inquired.

“Endearment.” Even in the dim of the street you could see his blush as it spread across his face.

“Am I endearing?” You sang teasingly drawing a finger down his suit clad chest. 

“Very.” As you looked up at him he grinned, his whole face wrinkling pleasantly.

“I like you.”

“I like you too.”

“So come home with me.”

“Just tonight?” Sonny teased attempting to make light of the clearly promiscuous situation you were unfolding before him.

“Hmmm…how about tonight…and the next night…and the next night. I think that sounds good. What do you think?” Maybe you were a little more drunk than you thought.

“You’re beautiful ya’ know that?” He spoke, suddenly very quiet against the honking of car horns in the distance. 

“I do my best.” Now it was your turn to blush as he tilted your face up towards his.

He kissed you, ever so softly. You moaned against his lips as he slipped his tongue past yours. The kiss was easy, just as a first kiss should be. Sonny’s hands wove up your back into your hair as yours balled the fabric of his dress shirt. 

He went home with you that night only to sleep in bed with you, you curled into his long body which had been stripped down to an undershirt and boxers. In the morning you woke to him tracing your cheekbone and hair line with the sweetest smile on his sun covered face. Nothing sexual happened until a few nights later. 

Sonny offered to cook you dinner and help you go over a few case briefs for a pretrial conference you had scheduled for that Friday morning. With the scent of vodka sauce and basil filling your apartment you realized that Sonny Carisi was more than just a one trick pony. The moment the pasta was on the dinner table you were on him, both of you all laughs and giggles. 

“So I guess we’re just gonna skip to dessert then.” 

“Sounds good to me Dolllll.” You drew out teasing him for the endearment he so often used on you.

“No, no you don’t call me Doll, I call you Doll. But I can see how you’d be confused.” He was grinning so broadly you could hear it in his voice as he teased you in return.

“With that accent I can hardly—” He swooped you up causing you to shriek with surprise and excitement. 

Sonny carried you to your bedroom and what occurred beyond that point can only be described as one thing, total and uninhibited worship. Sonny worshiped every inch of you, every kiss was filled with desire and reverence, a unique cocktail only he could concoct. 

You lost yourself in the wealth of sensations he provided you with, the light crinkle of his jelled hair against your inner thigh, his thumb pressed deeply into your hip, the way his knees shifted softly against your thighs as his hipbones collided into yours,

Both of you collapsed an hour later with little sighs and giggles. You loved the way Sonny’s face lit up every time he smiled, but you loved seeing his perk little ass sauntering out of your bedroom even more. He returned with a large bowl of the pasta he’d cooked that miraculously was still quite warm. He had only brought one fork with him resulting in you feeding him and him feeding you.  Sex and dinner in bed. And with a chef like Sonny Carisi it was hard to imagine anything better. 

You made your way into the bathroom thirty minutes later to clean up a bit when you caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. Your face quickly fell from the smile that Sonny Carisi had given you. You searched for the reason only to arrive at a conclusion all too quickly. Rafael. You’d never heard how his ‘dinner’ went. In fact you’d been rather cold to him all week. Perhaps you’d expected more from him after that night weeks ago. But then again you hadn’t said anything so how could he be expected to know? It was that kiss, that final kiss that separated a hook up from an invitation to something more. That warm and tender press of lips that made your heart beat faster inside your ribcage. 

“Everything alright Doll?” Sonny’s cheerful voice snapped you out from within yourself with a light gasp. 

“Yes. Just a minute.” 

You composed yourself and cleaned off a bit before returning to your bedroom. Sonny welcomed you back and eagerly hugged your body to his with a sigh. 

“I slept with Rafael.” You spoke in a heavy breath.

“Okay.” Sonny responded almost too quickly as if he hadn’t truly heard what you’d just admitted.

“You’re not mad?” You shifted slightly daring to look up at his face to see if his word was truly indicative of how he was feeling.

“No.” He stroked his fingers down your back making you shiver as goosebumps rose along your spine. 

“It happened a little over a month ago, we were both at the office late and it had been years for both of us, a fact I probably shouldn’t advertise–” You tried to quickly explain not wanting to muddle the situation any further with vague statements but Sonny interrupted you with a deep kiss.

You sighed into his mouth as he pressed his to yours, a slight hint of fresh basil mingling with the taste of him. When Sonny pulled away he brushed the hair from your face with a nod.

“Hey…this is good. I like you, you like me. We don’ need to complicate it more than that.”  

“I just…I don’t want to hurt you.” You admitted, acknowledging you were still unsure of your feelings. 

“You won’t. Talk to me. Open and clear communication is the way to go believe me. And look I’m not sayin’ this has to be a whole relationship or anything, but I really like you.” Sonny shifted against you as he spoke, his eyebrows furrowing and stretching slightly with his expressions. 

“I like you too.” You gifted him a sweet smile and he smiled back before pressing a firm kiss to your forehead. 

The rest of the night was peaceful, both of you falling asleep fairly quickly soothed by the sound of the others breath. 

The next morning you were refreshed and all smiles as you scanned in at security before jogging to catch the elevator before it closed. 

“Did we win a case I don’t know about?” Barba spoke from his spot in the corner of the elevator giving you a once over before returning his eyes to his iPhone. 

“What have we on the docket today?” You asked deflecting his obvious inquiry into your personal life.

“And I’m the one with a babysitter, Turner and Jensen at 10, pretrial at 12 and–”

At that exact moment your phone began to ring quite loudly in the small space of the elevator. You held up a finger to Rafael and moved your phone to your ear. 

“Hey Sonny!” You answered almost too peppily, causing Rafael’s eyes to widen as he began to work out exactly who you were talking to.

“So I was wonderin’ if you’d like to go out tonight, catch a show or somethin’ like that?” Sonny’s voice spoke over the background noise of the bullpen down at the precinct. 

“Sonny?” Rafael raised his voice and his eyebrows.

“Yes.” You answered both of them, tilting your head at Rafael as his eyes narrowed.

“Sonny Carisi!?” Rafael grew even louder before reaching for your phone. 

You dodged him easily enough giving him a soft tsk though you were surprised that he cared at all.

“Was that Barba?” Sonny spoke curiously a hint of worry in his voice. 

“Hang up. Y/N hang up.” Rafael’s face was growing red and you decided not to tease him this time. 

“I’ll see you tonight.” You spoke before ending the call already planning to call him back once you got into your office. 

As the elevator signaled its arrival on your floor Rafael gave you one final fuming look before striding down the hall. You followed him matching his pace.

“So what? You tell me to hang up and now you’re not talking to me?” You almost chuckled but you could feel the anger radiating off of his body. 

You followed him all the way into his office and the second you both entered he slammed the door shut and locked it, throwing his briefcase to the floor with a thud. Before you knew what was happening his lips were on yours and his hands were in your hair. You melted into his kiss for a few moments, letting your hands smooth down his suit clad shoulders and back. Then you remembered all the hurt he’d caused you to bury and you pushed him away. 

Rafael almost looked hurt before he quickly masked his emotions and turned away from you to face his desk. 

“I don’t know what I expected. It was a hookup. That’s all it was.” He sounded as hurt as he had looked as you stared at the back of his head which had lowered slightly as he leaned forward onto the polished wood of his desk. 

“Don’t say that. I wanted more Rafael.” You confessed sternly feeling almost as hurt as he was. 

“You didn’t say that.” He turned his eyes coated in a sheen of tears.

“You didn’t offer it!” You responded taking a step closer to him.

“Just…just tell me…am I too late?” You’d never heard his voice this unguarded and soft.

You hesitated to answer and so he stepped closer to you, his actions carrying the hope he still held out. 

“Am I too late?” 

TO BE CONTINUED!!!!

[mydadisanalcoholic]

5

I haven't been on here for a while and I have just gone back and re read my last 4 posts. I was really shocked when reading them at how angry and frantic they feel. I don't feel like that currently, which is wonderful and reading those has made it even more obvious to me how far I have come in the last few months. My Dad's addiction had taken over my life, that and having to care for his elderly mum (who he lives with) who has early onset Alzheimer's. I have just finished a few months work on myself in the form or Art Therapy and attending my monthly support group and I honestly feel like a new person. Just before my turning point I had managed to get the social workers involved with them both to remove my Dad from my Nana's house as it is not safe for him to live there with her. My Nana's Alzheimer’s is in the early stages so she is currently only forgetting a few short term things, however she is 89 but as long as she can make her own decisions no one else can make my Dad leave her house. Therefore, it is her decision, the amount of times she has rang me saying he needs to be removed, I will contact the social worker and then she has changed her mind again, partly because he’s her son but also because he has manipulated her into keeping him there. Not helping the situation is that she is in complete denial, when my dad says he hasn’t had a drink, even if he’s laid on the sofa unable to move from it she will still believe him. He’s often so drunk he has passed out and has wet himself or he is shouting and swearing at her, I’ve even witnessed him throw things at her before.He falls down the stairs, he falls into things. It's dangerous. Before we were able to remove my dad from the house the social workers had been visiting for months trying to get rid of him but he refused. There was one occasion when I was there with them and my Nana finally admitted she wanted him to go. I had to take him to Salvation Army to declare him homeless (which really does make you feel like the worst person in the world) never in my life did I think I would be doing that with my Dad, listening to the guy explain he would be going to a hostel which he would have to leave everyday between the hours of 9-6, during a pandemic, when there is literally no where for him to go apart from the streets, it completely breaks you but you know you have to do it otherwise he will never get better from this. They didn’t have anywhere for him for a few hours so I had to take him back to my nana's until there was a space available later in the day. In the time I had driven home (a 5 minute car journey) my Nana had called my phone 5 times, she had decided she wanted him to stay with her- he had gone in crying and she had taken him straight back. A few weeks later the social worker tried again and this time took a Police support officer with her which helped and made my Nana stick to her word this time. My Dad was taken back to Salvation and put in a hostel straight away so he didn’t get chance to go back to her. The place sounded horrendous, the exact opposite of where an addict should be put if there was any hope of them getting better. However my dad had finally it seemed hit his ‘rock bottom’, he didn’t have a choice but to get better or to die. This ‘tough love’ approach started to work , he didn't have a choice now, he still refused rehab but was engaging with the alcohol support services a lot more. We went for a few walks with him and he was sober each time, he was well presented and clean, a state I had not seen him in for a long time. This situation however made my Nana worse and she was beginning to call me up to 18 times a day at times and I couldn’t cope, both of them seemed to think he wasn’t allowed back to her house, I think because the police had been present, and I didn’t tell them otherwise as he needed to be out of that house. My husband told me I was to take a 'holiday' from them both and I listened because I knew one hundred percent he was right. I was neglecting myself, I was neglecting him and it was starting to affect my mental health. I was getting extremely stressed and getting to a point where I felt like I couldn’t cope anymore. It was my whole life, I was consumed by it and I didn’t want to be. Reading my previous posts back I can hear in my words exactly how I was feeling at the time and I was at the end before something in me was going to snap. Along with my husband and therapist we decided together the ‘holiday’ was going to be a 3 week period in which I had no contact at all with either of them. It may sound awful to cut out an elderly woman like that but she isn't an innocent bystander in this whole situation. Her response when I told her what I needed because I was getting ill was "Oh well who is going to do my jobs for me". She didn't once ask if I was ok or tell me she was worried about me, she was just concerned for herself and my Dad. After making it clear she didn’t really care she continued to tell me how much this was going to upset my dad and how much it was going to affect him. Let’s just say she made it extremely easy for me to make sure I took this full 3 weeks away from them. It took away the guilt I was feeling when I initially decided to do it. My Dad’s response was to completely ignore what I told him and continued to try and call and text me. So my 'holiday' from them didn't actually happen until a week later as both ignored my wishes, my husband had to step in and tell them what was happening- for some reason they both listen to him a lot more than me. Within a few days I felt freer than I had in years, my husband commented on the fact I was happier, more carefree and so much less stressed. I continued to see my therapist and felt like a new person. The main thing I noticed was the guilt disappeared, I had so much guilt before “I should be doing more to help him” “I’ve not done enough” “I don’t see him enough” but I know from taking the break it was the two of them making me feel like this and I had already gone above and beyond what either of them deserved. They took me for granted and I had finally come to realise this. Next was the hardest decision, I was obviously so much better without them in my life but I knew I couldn't live with myself if I cut them out completely. I really wish I could. I know my life would be better without either of them in it but that's just not the way my head works unfortunately. I knew going forward however I had to put boundaries in place, this was something I learnt in the support group I attend, it would not work going forward if I didn't do that and I didn't stick to them. So I got back in touch with them both (again neither asked if I was feeling any better from it or checked if I was ok) but I laid out the boundaries to them both: 1. Neither one of them is to mention my mum, ever. 2. My Nana is not to call me everyday, I will try and go and see her on a weekly basis when I can (she has carers going in now so that’s a weight lifted) and I will call her a couple of times a week. 3. If I turn up and my dad has had a drink (He still thinks I don't know when he’s just had one) I will leave immediately. There will be no discussion about it I will just leave. Surprisingly they both accepted everything I said and 2 months later and they are both sticking to the rules which has amazed me and my life is so much easier. Unfortunately, during my 3 week 'holiday' my dad moved back in with my Nana (I knew this was likely to happen). He is refusing to leave again despite us telling him it’s in both their best interests and he’s living in a house that enables him and it’s killing her him being there. It is basically a situation that is going to kill both of them sooner rather than later. Despite hearing this he is still refusing to leave. That is the addiction I guess, I wish I understood it. I just can’t get my head around it still, even though I have read so much about it and have listened to experts I cannot fathom how you can put it above the people you are meant to love and look after. Instead of arguing with him about leaving I have just asked the social workers to get involved again and open up a new case. It’s the only thing I can do. He’s back to drinking constantly, he looks a mess, he is unkept and dirty. He is not a nice person to be around but that is just how it is going to be sadly. I have come to terms with the fact now that unfortunately my dad doesn't want to get better. He's proved that and now I am in a place where it is sad but that is just how it is for him. Unfortunately we are just waiting for this disease to kill him. He is still trying to tell me he's not drinking which we all know is a blatant lie but I'm not arguing about it anymore, these are his choices not mine and I cannot let them control me or effect me in the way they were before. I have my own life and I absolutely refuse to let it be ruined by his addiction. My Dad has brought a lot of trauma to my life since I was a teenager and looking back on it before then too which I believe the majority of stems from him being an alcoholic since I was a young girl. It has become clear over the last few years he has been an alcoholic for the majority of my life, we just didn't know as he was functioning. Things have happened to him that he has not talked about, he’s bottled them up and let them build up all the while numbing everything with drink and as a result he has done some terrible things and lost everything. I 100% believe if he had spoken to someone when I was a child we wouldn't be in this situation now and that is why we MUST talk about things, especially men. I sadly think we are about to have a mental health crisis on the back of the current pandemic which fills me with fear for the future for people who are turning to drink, drugs, gambling to deal with their problems currently. People can carry on masking their feelings with whatever vice they choose but if they are lucky enough to have family and friends who care about them it isn't just their own lives they will end up destroying, they will end up sucking everyone else in around them and end up taking them down with them. #addiction #alcoholaddiction #alcoholicdad #addict #carer

[drferox]

So, now I’ve got a moment to recover, let me tell you about this weekend.

I already know the first half of the day is booked, with the cat enema schedules for the last 45 minutes, which is a joke because it takes longer than that to properly wake the patient up, ensure they’re not vomiting and send them home, so I know I’m going to be stuck there late. There is only one nurse, one vet working the weekend, which is how it normally runs, but that’s why we try not to schedule procedures then.

I show up fifteen minutes early, as I like to do when there’s a hospital patient, to find staff from the local kennels already waiting in the carpark with an emergency. Great.

So I deal with that but it puts me at running ten minutes late straight out of the gate. And the first lot of clients are understanding and jovial but the day starts to get worse from there.

We are booked out from 9 through to 12,  and the phone calls have started from about ten past 9 wanting to be seen today. And for some things that’s fine, sometimes things happen overnight, but some people get miffed when their pet has had a problem for a week, they want to be seen Saturday morning, and we don’t have an appointment available before 12.

Then a local shelter needs wildlife euthanised promptly, and we always try to help them out, so they come in and are shuffled out the back. But this wildlife needs an anaesthetic gas to handle before they have the relevant injection, and I’m not allowed to do that because I’m pregnant. The shelter staff isn’t allowed to do that because it’s administering medication and they’re a layperson. The only person who can do it is the nurse, who is trying to shuffle a full waiting room. More delays.

I go back into consults, and while I’m trying to catch up somebody allows their make dog to urinate three times in the waiting room, on three different walls, defecate once, and laughs about it. So I am more delayed cleaning that up while the nurse deals with the wildlife.

Then, finally, with the consults finally finished a full fifteen minutes after I was supposed to start the cat enema, I can actually get started. And let me tell you, it’s not great when you’ve got morning sickness as well and certain smells make you want to puke.

But foolish us, we were so preoccupied with the anaesthetic and procedure, that we forgot to lock the door when we became technically closed. So 20 minutes after closing, a worried member of the public comes in with more wildlife.

Unfortunately this wildlife can’t be saved, but the member of the public doesn’t believe us, so we have to get a wildlife carer on the phone to talk them into it. While the cat is still under anaesthetic.

And then, because of course it does, the cat vomits under anaesthetic.

I am watching it at the time, because the nurse is dealing with the person out the front, so I catch it immediately and yell for help because it’s going to take two to sort out this mess, suction everything, etc.

The cat will be fine, but the enema has to stop then and there with a very careful wake up.

It’s about an hour and a half after the clinic is closed by the time the cat is awake enough to go home. I’ve caught up on my histories at least, and are just waiting for the cat’s owners. I see a car pull up to the front door on the cameras.

I think it must be them, so go to unlock the door.

It is not them. It’s a man covered in blood from the elbows down to his fingertips.

Long story short, hid large breed dog had bled out of its mouth, and was now on its last, agonal gasps in the footwell of his car. And there’s so much more blood.

I am no longer nauseous because I’ve hit this adrenaline level where nothing really matters any more and my brain will just bounce from one task to the next.

There’s not much we can do, and he knows this, so he at least gets it out onto the ground to pat it and say goodbye as I talk him through his pet’s death.

After a few minutes when the dog has passed, the nurse realises I have not come back in and comes looking for me. She gets a stretcher, and she and the owner carry this 40kg dog inside, into a room, where we can clear it up and leave the owner for a moment to process and decide what they want to do now.

And now, with a carpark that looks like a murder scene, the cat’s owners show up!

Thankfully they have enough sense to realise something bad happened, get their instructions and take the cat home without any fuss.

Then when the dog’s owner is ready, they leave and we’re left to clean up. We could vaccum the next day, but we really can’t leave all that blood just sitting there.

And then we realise that I can’t lift that 40kg dog, I can’t even lift half of that 40kg dog, because no heavy lifting when you’re pregnant. And we can’t not put her in the freezer, because she will start rotting otherwise.

So with no other option I call in my brother, who doesn’t work for the clinic but I knew would be close by because it’s our father’s birthday and I’m very late at this point, and get him to do the heavy lifting for me. Over two hours after we’re supposed to have closed.

Sunday started basically the same way, too.

Guess who has to do an enema on a cat with her morning sickness in full swing?

[sin-scythes-and-assaults]

Family Sucks: The Rant (tm)

When I see posts and videos that are like ‘aw my mum/dad/carer are so cool I relate to them so much we’re best friends!!! !! !! ! ! !! !! !!!!’ I wanna just cry tbh because I know that I will never have anything like that??? I feel like I need to get the whole story out for whoever is reading this to understand so I guess ill start with my dad. My dad, for lack of a better term, is an arsehole. For all his claims that ‘you’re my child of course I love you!’, he really had a problem showing that. When I think of him, I don't think about the now-obvious attempts to win us over in some silent war between my mum and him - I think of how he’d ask me what I did at school (aged 6), and then completely ignore what I said, saying a quiet ‘uh huh, yeah, sounds great!’ as he sat on his phone in the car waiting for my older sister. I’d remember the disinterest he had towards us in terms of our hobbies and interests, and even discouraged me at times because the things I wanted to do ‘weren’t suitable for a girl’ (it was fishing. I wanted to learn how to fucking fish like both of my brothers, and he said no because I was a girl. I had to teach myself and save up for months to buy my own rod, bearing in mind I was about 8-10yo at the time). I’d remember the screaming matches at 3 in the morning with my mother, who I didn't realise was actually standing up for herself for once. My mum, when I was younger, wasn't much different. However, she had a reason, and I excuse her for it. She used to work full time as a nurse, with very limited pay, and had to look after my three siblings and I, not to mention provide for a father who did next to nothing about the house, but contributed greatly to the bills. She was tired - and I don't mean ‘yawn ooh I'm a little bit sleepy’. I mean. Tired. She tried not to fall asleep during mealtimes, knowing that in a few hours she’d have to go on another 11 hour shift. She’d take sleep where she could, but it wasn't enough because she had to look after four of us and a father who was barely there. We were a poor family, mainly because my dad refused to help with anything other than the mortgage and the electricity and gas bills. He didn't pay for food for a family of 6 every week, my mum did, and she barely made enough money as it was. Also, I don't know why, but I have always thought that, to some extent, these severe money problems were my fault. Don't ask why, I just thought they were. She tried to connect with all of us while she could, but I think that because I was the youngest, I was the last priority. I felt excluded from the whole family, being constantly picked on by my older brothers and my sister, too. My self worth also went down when I made friends with a certain girl in my year at school. She abused me. She hit me, slapped me across the face, bit me and dug her nails into my skin until I bled. This happened regularly. I still have a scar on my hand when she decided to make me play a ‘cute game’ where one person was basically to hurt themselves until the other person completed a task. (I wont go into details about this game bc its fucking horrible) She didn't even properly tell me what was happening, only to ‘trust her’, and I ended up getting hurt for it. She humiliated me in front of someone I had a crush on for almost a year multiple times, called me fat (which prompted me to have a very bad diet consisting of only one small meal a day and nothing else, thinking it would make me attractive), worthless, and blackmailed me into staying in contact with her, even until about 4 or 5am most nights. This took a toll on my mental health, and I started to self harm. Life sucked, I finally confronted her about it with my best friend, and she fucked off, claiming she was the victim. I managed to stop self harming. Things got better. But!!  !!! !!!! ! A few years later I fell out with my Best friend over something (I cant even remember what??? I'm p sure it was my fault though and I still feel fucking terrible) and we didn't talk to each other again (I recently got in contact with her though and she’s still as amazing as ever. I missed her so much) Fast forward to the second half of 2014, where my parents arguing had come to a head (bearing in mind, the reason for said fighting was kept from me until only a few months ago) and my dad had permanently moved out. They got a divorce and now live miles away from each other. My dad, being the glorious fuckwit he is, decided to give us a total of 3 months to sell our house, find a new one to buy that was more affordable and could house 5 people (which was simply impossible) and move in. This is because he decided to stop paying the mortgage , and we had three ‘paid’ months left until it essentially got repo’d, unless we find this magical fantasy house he left us to find. As you can imagine, it didn't go well. We did manage to sell our house, but we had to lower the price drastically so the snotty family that bought it would actually consider it (they were arseholes too). So we had limited money from the sale of our house to buy the one we had picked out, which was now too expensive for us. We didn't get the rest of the money in time. We ended up homeless for a year, but fortunately, my gran had a big house. Unfortunately, there wasn't enough room for us all, even if we shared. My eldest brother, Dominic, was essentially ‘booted out’ to go live with his girlfriend and her family because he was ‘expected to’. We hardly see him now. (I miss him) I had to share a room with multiple family members, so I had no privacy at all. The only time I was alone was when I was in the shower. Meanwhile, my gran was picking apart my school life, my hobbies and my interests, saying that what I wanted out of my future wasn't worthwhile. I had to deal with this for a year. A year. I relapsed into self harm, almost went through with killing myself on multiple occasions, and thought about genuinely just up and running just so I could leave all the shit behind. We found a house. It was a shithole and the seller was wanting way more than it was worth -It was all we could afford. We bought it. We had to spend thousands damp proofing the whole house because the guy lied and said he had done it. We had to spend thousands on new windows because they had severe problems and were letting in currents of water when it rained. There was rot beneath the floor and in the attic so we had to spend hundreds to get it redone. We became very very poor again. I could hear my mum crying herself to sleep at night again. If we had been any more in debt we would have had to sell this house just months after getting it. My room is so small I cant lie out on my floor without my feet hitting a wall, the walls are so thin that I can hear my sister breathing as she sleeps in the room across the hall. I began to collect plants. They depended on me, they needed me, and that's the kind of responsibility that I needed - something wanted me. I had something to look forward to at the end of the day. I had mini hydrangeas, a trellis with honeysuckle and jasmine by my window, lavender, lemonbalm, everything. I knew what their individual needs and wants were and in turn they helped me sleep at night. They started to die. My mum had decided to spray them with a pesticide that was too ‘strong’ for them, and in the wrong places. Their leaves started to rot and they all. Died. I still act to this day that it wasn't a big deal, that it was just a silly mistake, but I know that I wont ever find that same happiness again????? I think about those plants sometimes and somehow I always bring the blame around to me and I don't understand why I do that with everything?? Regardless, I was fucking sad and my mum started to bitch about it. Then, I find out a few months ago that the reason that my mum and dad got a divorce was because my dad had been cheating since at least the mid 90′s. since a few years before I was born. For 18 fucking years he had been cheating, all with different women apparently, and I had been fucking clueless. Again, because I'm a self-depreciating piece of shit, I brought the blame back to me and tell myself ‘if you noticed sooner you could've said to ma and she wouldn't have had to go through that shit’ but the thing is, I know I wouldn't have realised because I didn't know any different??? And when I tried to talk to my ma about it one thing she said was that ‘there were faults on both sides’ and now that's got me thinking ‘what if she cheated too?’ If it turns out she has, I seriously don't know what I'm going to do??? because shes made it out all these years that they've been divorced that my dad is the ‘bad guy’ and I don't know what I'm going to do if I find out the woman I've been heralding as ‘strong and brave’ for standing up to that kind of behaviour from my dad did the same thing And it scares me so much Who knows I might add to this later through an edit but now im in a rlly sad place n I wanna stop

[gyrlversion]

Love Island star Mike Thalassitiss friends pay tribute

Childhood friends of Love Island star Mike Thalassitis blamed the pressure of his having to ‘live as a character’ for his death. 

Mike Thalassitis, 26, was found hanged in a park by his childhood home yesterday morning in Edmonton, North London. 

And today former class mates visited the park where they had played, and where the reality star took his own life, to pay tribute to their ‘talented and comedial friend’. 

Love Island star Mike Thalassitis (pictured left and right) was found dead in the woods near his hometown in Essex yesterday

Mike Thalassitis with his mother Shirley Thalassitis, 61. Mike’s parents Andreas Thalassitis, 62, and Mrs Thalassitis were too upset to comment today

One friend’s house is along the route Mr Thalassitis would have taken from his home to the park.

The 26-year-old said: ‘Michael walked by my house to take his own life and I wish, I wish that he could have stopped at my door.

‘He could have said anything, absolute anything, I would be there, I would do all that I could to help him.

‘We used to come to this park as kids man, we played football here, we got mugged here.

‘There are so many memories of Mike here, we used to run out to the flats there.

‘We used to knock around and play football here and loads of other things.’

He described his childhood friend as ‘not just a footballer, he had the brain matter to think of things and then carry it out’.

Thalassitis had just went through a public breakup following a seven month relationship with fellow The Only Way Is Essex star Megan McKenna

He said: ‘I know Mike, he would have me in stitches laughing, he was comedial, he had so much talent. 

‘Mike must have been lonely. A character, he had to play a character.’ 

It has been suggested that Mike had been struggling with the death of his grandmother and had recently been dealing with debt. 

The reality TV star had moved in with the 94-year-old after her deteriorating health meant she needed a full time carer. 

The reality TV star had moved in with the 94-year-old after her deteriorating health meant she needed a full time carer

He had also been suffering from the end of a football career when a re-occurring injury forced him to quit playing for Stevenage FC.

The end of his career led to the 26-year-old entering Love Island where he faced abuse for his treatment of the women in the reality show.

But his friends remember him as so much more than ‘muggy’ Mike.

Another childhood friend said: ‘He was a talented footballer but he was out on an injury, I remember growing up his dad used to push him towards football in a really good way.

‘His dad would get him up and say come on let’s go let’s get there early. His dad was a good guy and he had an amazing mum.

‘Mike played for Stevenage and imagine your whole life you think this is what I’m going to do, you get to division two and the injury comes and it’s over.

‘It was bad, it was a reoccurring injury. You have dreams and ambitions and then it’s gone.’

A Metropolitan Police spokesperson said: ‘We were called to a park near Latymer Way, N9 at 09.28am on Saturday, March 16 to reports of a man found hanged.

‘Officers and the London Ambulance Service attended and found a man, aged in his 20s, deceased.

‘At this early stage, the death is not being treated as suspicious.

‘Police are in the process of informing the man’s next of kin.

‘A file will be prepared for the coroner.’

This morning former Love Island contestant Montana Brown said that Thalassitis had been ‘in a dark place’ recently, wishing she had done more to help. 

The Metropolitan Police confirmed this morning that the body of a man had been found at 9.28am on Saturday, with the circumstances around the death not considered to be suspicious. 

A spokesman said: ‘Officers and the London Ambulance Service attended and found a man, aged in his 20s, deceased. Police are in the process of informing the man’s next of kin.’       

Former Love Island contestant Dom Lever tweeted that once people had finished on the show then there was no support

Malin Andersson also tweeted and said that ‘Enough is enough’ following the death of former Love Island contestant Mike

Mike (pictured above) rose to fame after his stint on the hit ITV show Love Island, which shows a group of singles try to ‘couple up’ in order to win a cash prize

Malin Andersson said she received no support of help from the producers of the ITV shows following the death of her daughter

Mike’s parents Andreas Thalassitis, 62, and Shirley Thalassitis, 61, were too upset to comment today at their semi detached home. 

While his mother’s sister Laura Goldsmid, 60, said that everyone was ‘in shock’ following the tragic news.   

It was reported today that Mike had been dealing with huge debts in the months leading up to his tragic death after overextending himself with a party lifestyle.

A source told The Mirror: ‘His party lifestyle came at a price and he wasn’t earning a lot of cash after Love Island, especially as he became his nan’s carer.’   

Thalassitis had also been due to open a restaurant in Essex called The Skillet with former professional footballer Scott Neilson, according to filings at Companies House.   

The reality TV star had been overseeing construction work to open his new business in a former bakery in the wealthy Essex town of Loughton.

Building work on the 1,613 square foot restaurant called The Skillet appeared to be at an advanced stage today.

A solitary bunch of flowers in memory of tragic Mike, 26, was seen on the doorstep of the business this morning. 

Former co-stars and friends of Mike have said that ‘enough is enough’ as they claim that they are left abandoned once they leave the reality show’s villa, having to deal with instant fame alone.  

This morning, former Love Island contestant Montana Brown paid tribute to Thalassitis on Instagram saying she wished she had done more, and revealing he had turned to self-help books in recent months. 

She said: ‘Now I know you were in a dark place a few months back and I thought you were past it and that you were on the up.

‘I got you to buy (self-help book) The Magic, you wrote down your gratitudes, you had the pictures of your family in your car to remind you to be grateful for them.

‘I just don’t know how I didn’t notice… I am absolutely heartbroken that I couldn’t help you’.  

This is the reality TV star’s last Instagram post and fans posted their heartfelt tributes to Thalassitis after the news of his death broke

This morning, former Love Island contestant Montana Brown (pictured together) paid tribute to Thalassitis on Instagram saying she wished she had done more, and revealing he had turned to self-help books in recent months

Mike Thalassitis died aged just 26. He is pictured here as a child with his father. Mike’s parents Andreas Thalassitis, 62, and Shirley Thalassitis, 61, were too upset to comment today at their semi detached home

Brown also revealed details of their last phone call, in which Thalassitis congratulated her on a recent swimwear launch.   

And added: ‘I’ve thought long and hard about what I want to say, I’ve woken up and unfortunately this wasn’t just a nightmare so this is to you Mr Thala.

‘Firstly, I’m so angry at you for doing this because you are so loved by so many people and I just wish you picked up the phone so we could’ve sorted this out. This didn’t need to happen.

‘Secondly, it annoys me that you were so misunderstood. ‘Muggy Mike’ was your stage name and let’s face it, the ladies did fall at your feet BUT everyone had this impression of you and you were literally the opposite you were one of a kind.’    

After learning of the news of his death, former Love Island co-star Dom Lever slammed Love Island for its lack of support once contestants leave the villa. 

He said: ‘You get a psychological evaluation before and after you go on the show but hands down once you are done on the show you don’t get any support unless you’re number one.’ This followed a tweet where he expressed how shocked he was at the news. 

Love Island presenter Caroline Flack posted a touching tribute to Mike which read: ‘Mike…you were a total gentleman…I won’t forget that…it’s so sad’

Sheridan Smith tweeted her condolences and said that the news of Mike’s death should be a ‘wake-up call’

The former footballer enjoyed a seven-month relationship with Megan McKenna (pictured on a break away together in Tenerife) following his stint on Celebs Go Dating

The Only Way Is Essex star Mario Falcone shared his condolences on Instagram with a picture of the pair. He encouraged others to speak up about mental health struggles  

Malin Andersson, who lost her daughter earlier this year also hit out at the show and said she ‘wouldn’t have been able to cope’ after the show if she didn’t have a ‘strong head on her’. 

She said: ‘If I didn’t have a strong head on me that my mum passed down to me, I wouldn’t have been able to cope with this all. But not everyone is like this. PLEASE IF YOU FEEL ALONE, OR SAD, OR STUCK REACH OUT TO SOMEBODY! 

‘Nothing when my mum died. Nothing when Sophie died. Change needs to happen.’  She also urged the show to ‘wake up!’ and said that enough was enough.

‘I got flowers from the producers when my daughter died. No f****** phone call. No support, or help.’

Other famous faces, such as Bafta award-winning actress Sheridan Smith said Thalassitis’ death should be a ‘wake up call’ and highlighted a need for change across the industry.

She said: ‘This should be a massive wake up call, I feel sick, reach out, sometimes to the most confident friend. we can only learn & try to change’.

Mike – who rose to fame on season three of Love Island – was also preparing to open a restaurant in Essex. 

The former League One footballer, who comes from a Cypriot family,  enjoyed a successful playing career before becoming a beloved reality TV star.

Olivia Attwood gazes at Mike Thalassitis during the third series of Love Island, with rumours flying about a potential romance between the pair

Comedian London Hughes, who starred on Celebs Go Dating alongside Mike, paid tribute to her co-star on Twitter

He made an immediate impact after entering the famous ITV Villa in 2017 – where he was affectionately nicknamed Muggy Mike for being an instant hit with the ladies – as a late replacement. 

Mike had previously spoken out about the criticism he had received during his stint on Celebs Go Dating and said: ‘It seems like people are out to get you a lot of the times people want to see you slip up constantly.’ 

Kady McDermott, who also appeared on the show, and has recently been in the press for arguing with former TOWIE cast member Maria Fowler and highlighted that shows such as Love Island don’t help the contestants after the show has ended.

She said: ‘Hopefully going forward reality shows will help more with the aftermath of being on one, because I can say it definitely didn’t happen after my series when lots of us needed it. Peoples lives change over night and no one can mentally be prepared for it. The good and the bad.’

Other reality TV stars stated that they felt more needed to be done by the producers of these shows in order to safeguard the mental health of contestants.

Lauryn Goodman said: ‘Before anymore TV auditions there needs to be compulsory mental health support put in place. Not just ‘we have support there if you need.’ TOO many are dying from reality shows. Time to wake up. Changes need to happen, how many more?’ 

Mike had previously been in a seven-month relationship with The Only Way Is Essex star and country singer Megan McKenna, who is yet to make a statement about his death.

He last played football for Margate in 2017 before going on to appear on Channel 4’s Celebs Go Dating in 2018. 

Tributes for the TV star have flooded in from other celebrities, including fellow Love Islander Olivia Buckland, who said Mike would be forever loved

During his stint on the show he joined fellow celebrities such as Made in Chelsea’s Sam Thompson and TOWIE’s Gemma Collins.

In the latest series of the show Megan McKenna has also made an appearance, looking for love after the pair finally broke off their on/off relationship earlier this year.  

Love Island host Caroline Flack dubbed Thalassitis a ‘total gentleman’. She said: ‘Mike… you were a total gentleman… I won’t forget that … it’s so sad …you will be missed. RIP.’

Voiceover star Iain Stirling could also be seen lingering behind Mike in the picture which appears to be captured during the Love Island 2017 wrap party. 

Previous Love Island star Chris Hughes also took to social media tonight to pay his respects.

He tweeted: ‘His name wasn’t Muggy Mike. Please stop brandishing that. His name was Mike Thalassitis, and every inch of my heart goes out to his family & friends. A good guy, taken far, far to soon.’ 

Fellow Love Island contestant Olivia Atwood posted on Instagram: ‘Literally don’t know what to say. Another one gone too young. Thinking of mike’s family and friends at the horrendous time. you will be missed terribly.’

Michael Thalassitis playing for Stevenage in August 2011 (left), during his fledgling football career that saw him play for the Cypriot youth teams. He is pictured (right) in his Bishop’s Stortford kit

Thalassitis gained notoriety on the hit ITV show for opting to pair with Atwood, despite the fact she was in a relationship with Chris Hughes.

Love Island star Chris Hughes tweeted his upset after learning of the death of his friend and former co-star 

One Twitter user said that the former Love Island star had been ‘taken far too soon’ as she tweeted her respects to the celebrity

Another social media user urged people to be kind to others after learning of the death of Mike Thalassitis

One user highlighted the growing needs of mental health support in the UK and said that ‘so so much more’ needed to be done in order to protect mental health needs

His death comes as an inquest into the death of another former Love Island star Sophie Gradon was cancelled after her parents asked for more time to consider a report which was recently received.

The inquest, scheduled for next Thursday, was cancelled by Northumberland Coroner’s Court. The 32-year-old who featured on the show’s 2016 series, was found dead at her home in Ponteland, near Newcastle, on June 20 last year. 

Her boyfriend, Aaron Armstrong, died 20 days later at his home in Blyth, Northumberland.

The inquest into her death was cancelled after her parents received ‘new information’.

Scheduled for next Thursday, it was cancelled by Northumberland Coroner’s Court.

A statement said: ‘Please note that it has been necessary to cancel the hearing date.

‘Sophie’s parents have requested further time to consider a report which was only recently received.’

Vicky Pattison tweeted her condolences and said that Mike had been a ‘beautiful soul’ and said her thoughts were with his family

Her mother, Anastacia Beverhousn, wrote on Twitter in February that the family are still waiting for access to her iPhone almost nine months after her death.

Mike had dated Megan McKenna for seven months and confirmed their separation in August. She had previously highlighted that Mike wasn’t a ‘nasty person’ and had told OK Magazine that the pair were just ‘two different people’.

‘I can’t even say why we split. I just feel like we’re both at different point in our lives.

‘We both respect each other and we didn’t want it to get nasty or messy. There is only so much you can do in a relationship and when it’s not working you’ve got to take separate routes.’

She continued: ‘But I wish him all the luck in the world, he’s not a nasty person. Everything happens for a reason. It wasn’t one of those break-ups like ones I’ve had in the past where it was really bitter and nasty, this was more a decision we made together.

‘The way I dealt with things in the past with my exes was by screaming and that was not a good way to deal with it.’

Today, Beverhousn tweeted her condolences to the Thalassitis family saying: ‘Thinking of you, wishing you hope in the midst of sorrow, comfort in the midst of pain. Love in your darkest hours.

‘I’m walking the same road as the inconsolabe mother of Sophie Gradon.’ 

Shocked fans of Mike’s took to social media to pay tribute to the reality TV star as the news emerged. One fan tweeted: ‘RIP Muggy Mike’.

Another took to Thalassitis’ Instagram account to pay tribute, writing ‘Rest in peace’ below his most recent post.  

Chelmsford City FC tweeted their condolences and said: ‘The Club are saddened to hear the news of the passing of former striker Mike Thalassitis. Our thoughts and prayers go to his family and friends at this time. 

Another TOWIE star, Mario Falcone, took to Instagram to share his condolences and posted a picture of the pair. 

He said: Truly heartbroken by the news. He was always a complete gentleman. I know you had your struggles. A young man with so much life left to live. Please guys, if you are struggling, talk to someone…RIP brother.’ 

Comedian and fellow Celebs Go Dating star London Hughes said: ‘Rest in peace Mike, I’m in shock. My heart goes out to his family. The guy was the absolute coolest!!! I’m so confused, this is so sad’. 

This is while Geordie Shore star Vicky Pattison said: ‘I just realised we have no pictures together- I’m sorry, I do not even know what to say. I’m shocked and so incredibly sad.

‘You weren’t the person people thought you were mike- you were a beautiful soul and always made me laugh and cheered me up when I was down. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. This truly is a tragedy.

Rest in Peace my dear and I hope you know you were loved.’

In a statement a spokesperson for ITV said: ‘Everyone at ITV2 and Love Island are shocked and saddened by this terrible news. Our thoughts and deepest condolences are with Mike’s family and friends at this very sad time.’

In an additional statement a spokesman for ITV added: ‘Care for our Islanders is a process the show takes very seriously and is a continuous process for all those taking part in the show.

‘We ensure that all of our Contributors are able to access psychological support before, during and after appearing on the show. The programme will always provide ongoing support when needed and where appropriate.

‘We also discuss at length with all of our Islanders, before and after the show, how their lives might change and they have access to support and advice to help with this.’

Danielle Sellers, Mike Thalassitis and Chyna Ellis

Mike Thalassitis pictured with Jessica Shears, after they were both eliminated from the Love Island are villa at the same time during the series in 2017

Ex Tyla Carr leads heartbreaking tributes to ‘lovely’ and ‘kind’ star

Tributes have flooded in for late Love Island star Mike Thalassitis after he was found dead near his hometown on Saturday.  

The reality star’s former co-stars took to social media to express their condolences after reports emerged that the 26-year-old had passed in a forest in his hometown in Essex. 

The former League Two footballer enjoyed a successful playing career before becoming a beloved reality TV star after appearing on season three of Love Island in the summer of 2017.

Former Love Island star Tyla Rosie Carr said: ‘I can’t believe the call I’ve just had. Mike, you were love by all the Love island family. You’ll be missed so much. All my love goes out to your friends and family. Shocked.’

Heartbreaking: Tributes have flooded in for late Love Island star Mike Thalassitis after he was found dead near his hometown on Saturday 

Thalassitis was a former professional footballer who was even called up to the Cyprus national team, though he got injured and never ended up playing for them 

If you have been affected by any of the issues raised in this article then you can call the Samaritans on 116 123, alternatively you can visit the website at by clicking here.  

Sophie Gradon inquest is CANCELLED: Coroner pauses probe into death of Love Island star who died at her home 20 days before boyfriend was found dead – after family receive fresh information

By Luke Andrews for MailOnline 

A Love Island star’s inquest has been cancelled after her parents received a report.

Sophie Gradon, 32, who featured on the show’s 2016 series, was found dead at her home in Ponteland, near Newcastle, on June 20 last year.

Her boyfriend, Aaron Armstrong, died 20 days later at his home in Blyth, Northumberland. 

Sophie Gradon, 32, who starred in the 2016 series of Love Island was found dead in her home near Newcastle, on June 20 last year. The inquest in her death, scheduled for this Thursday, has been cancelled

Her boyfriend, Aaron Armstrong, was found dead in his home 20 days later 

The inquest, scheduled for next Thursday, was cancelled by Northumberland Coroner’s Court.

A statement said: ‘Please note that it has been necessary to cancel the hearing date.

‘Sophie’s parents have requested further time to consider a report which was only recently received.’

Her mother, Anastacia Beverhousn, wrote on Twitter in February that the family are still waiting for access to her iPhone almost nine months after her death.

‘As the heartbroken mother of Sophie Gradon we are still waiting for an inquest date eight months after her unexplained death. Why?

‘Because the Police cannot open her iPhone for data extraction.’ 

Her boyfriend Aaron’s inquest will go ahead on Tuesday after his body was found at his home in Blyth, Northumberland, five days after the star’s funeral.

Sophie’s funeral was held at St George’s Church, Jesmond. Posting from the day, her boyfriend said he loved her ‘with all my heart’

Releasing a statement following both deaths, Sophie Gradon’s parents said: ‘Sophie spent an idyllic childhood in Gosforth, Newcastle, and then moved at the age of 10 to Ponteland in Northumberland.’

Sharing pictures of Sophie at a garden party they said she ‘told us she had just met someone new and had been on a lunch date with him. 

‘She was excited at the prospect of starting a new relationship and it was her fullest intention to introduce us to him when the time was right.

‘At the time of Sophie’s sudden and tragic passing, she had only been involved with Armstrong for five weeks.’

Sophie Gradon was also originally Miss Great Britain before going on Love Island

Aaron’s last Instagram post reads: ‘Just wish I could cuddle you all day. Miss you so much man Sophie. Not a minute goes by without your gorgeous smile being a picture in my mind.

‘Everyday we spent together was so amazing. I need them days back.’

Another post from the day of her funeral reads: ‘I love you with all my heart my beautiful angel. 

‘I’m absolutely heartbroken. I can’t stop crying and I can feel your spirit in my soul. RIP Sophie Hannah Gradon.’

On a post from July 3 he wrote: ‘After a massive meltdown since yesterday I took Sophie for a drive and stuck her on a mountain as high as I could so you can have as much zen as you need baby girl.

‘The view is amazing. Hope you love it. I will come see you every day my angel. I love you smiler.’

Sophie Gradon, a fashion icon and model who shot to fame on Love Island, had previously been Miss Great Britain.

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5000 Question Survey Pt. 41

3901. What is the most annoying tv ad? idk, i hardly watch tv anymore. 3902. If you died, how would you hope others would remember you? for making them happy. 3903. Name 2 questions that you will most likely never say 'no' to: 1. do you want a massage? 2. do you want free tickets to (anything)? 3904. What is the softest part of your body? boobs lol. 3905. What family do you want to see in place of the Osbournes when they finally stop doing their show? none. never really got into those family reality shows.

3906. If you could pick 3 bands to go on tour together who would they be? meh, idk. solo artists would be cooler. 3907. What is a main differance between western and eastern philospohy? i don’t knowwwww. 3908. Would you be fooled by Joe/Josephine Millionaire? yeah but i wouldn’t let that stop me if i actually fell in love with them. 3909. Do you believe Michael Jackson does innoprpriate things at his Neverland Ranch? Like what? honestly, unless there’s solid proof i don’t think we’ll ever know.  3910. What do you think of gov. Ryan who cleared out Illinois' death row? idk anything about it. 3911. Would you want a $500 gift certificate to: Kmart or Target? either or, i’d gladly take it. Macy's or Hot Topic? macy’s. Border's Books or Spencer Gifts? borders. Victoria's Secret or Frederick's of Hollywood? vs. 3912. What do you think of this website: www.blackpeopleloveus.com/ feeling too lazy to click it lol. 3913. Man vs Elephant. A zookeeper was treating a constipated elephant. He gave her too much laxitive. Suddenly everything exploded out onto the zookeeper. He was knocked to the ground where he hit his head on a rock and got knocked out. There he suffocated under a pile of elephant dung. True story. Is it a funny story? If yes, what is funny about it? Why is it so taboo to laugh at death? i think it’s unfortunate. it’s not funny to joke about death. 3914. What are your favorite five things from this list: alternate realities, animals, astronomy, birds, camus, cats, cheap trick, cocaine, cooking, costumes, dancing, elvis, gambling, greta garbo, james dean, jeff buckley, joy division, marilyn monroe, mixed drinks, moody blues, morrissey, mozart, my bloody valentine, orbital, pizza, playing flute, prince, radiohead, rummy 500, scrabble, table tennis, talk talk, van morrison, writing cooking, mixed drinks, scrabble, gambling, pizza. 3915. Do you have to read lots to be able to write well? not always but it can definitely help expand your vocab. 3916. Vanilla ice. Everyone loved him, suddenly everyone hated him. What was the deal?? too young to have followed him. 3917. If you could kick one person out of the grammies who would it be (Avril, Eminem, etc)? taylor swift lmao. 3918. Studies have revealed that when sending out a resume a person has a 50% higher chance of getting a responce if their name is white sounding than if it is black sounding. What do you think about this? it sucks. it’s not even just ‘black sounding’, it’s just ‘ethnic sounding’. Why do companies respond this way? ask them. 3919. Should Big Fat Greek Wedding really be a Big Fat Greek sitcom? idk. 3920. What are you addicted to? sleep. 3921. What fascinates you? a lot of things. i’m easily amused lol. 3922. What is fascinating about you? idk :( 3923. Personality wise, is anything the same for all human beings and if so, what? we’re all conscious? idk lol. 3924. What kind of a contest woud you have a shot at winning? post your favourite travel photo and tell us why. lol idk. 3925. You see a dirty punk kid who had a giant cowboy hat on who is rolling his own cigarettes. Your impression? nothing. who am i to judge? 3926. What would you never want to have more than 2 of? cars. lol idk. 3927. Is there a movie you just could not finish watching? What and why? star wars, the one with natalie portman and hayden christensen. idk i was really young, everyone at school talked about how cool star wars was so my godmother took me to the movies and it was just way too long and boring. 3928. Is there anyone that you love and want to be around for no explainable reason? sure. 3929. Would you go to times square for new years? no, it’s a living nightmare in my eyes. only way i’d do it is if my hotel room overlooked times square lol. 3930. Do you think that there are to many signs blocking up the scenery? not really, it’s part of the appeal. 3931. Did video really kill the radio star? meh. 3932. What was your favorite atari game? idk. 3933. what is your favorite neon color? blue/purple. 3934. Do you get depressed eveytime it rains? If yes, why? no, i actually love it. i do feel a little gloomy if i have to go to work while it’s raining though. 3935. 'The more you admit that all your actions are robotic, the less robotic you are.' What does Tim leary mean by this? you’re acknowledging you’re being robotic so it suggests you’re actually conscious of it rather than just doing it without realizing. Do you agree or disagree and why? eh, neither. i don’t really relate to it. How much of your actions do you admit are robotic? not much tbh. 3936. Are we not men? i’m not. 3937. Is it easy to be you? Would being someone else make it any easier? it’s actually very easy to be me right now. 3938. Why are sex religion and politics such taboo subjects? too many conflicting opinions, that’s why. 3939. Is there really a differance between republicans and democrats? different beliefs. 3940. Imagine someone has a great personality, sense or humor, family and job. they also really really like you a lot. Would you consider dating them if they: were fat? limped? were a midget? had hiv? were paralized in one arm? had a glass eye? had only 6 months to live? i would honestly consider all of these. i’m not one to really analyse a situation if i start falling in love. 3941. What makes you experiance nostalgia? old photos, music, movies, memories etc. 3942. What do you remember about these historical figures: Woodrow Wilson? an american president? lol idk i’m not americans. Hellen Keller? she was both deaf and blind. amazing woman, google how she used to communicate with her carer, it’s awesome. Christopher Columbus? founder of places and shit. 3943. Out of the above three figures, one is a huge racist, one is a socialist and one is a slave trader. Can you guess which is which? Racist: no idea. socialist: slave trader: 3944. Betcha they didn't tell you that in american history. Wilson, Keller and Columbus are painted as heros, impossibly good, ideal people. Why are so many things ommitted from and lied about in american history text books? i’m australian, i wasn’t taught american history.  3945. Do you drink super caffinated energy drinks? no. 3946. eminem or moby? eminem. 3947. spongebob or the animanicas? animaniacs. 3948. Why do people rush to grow up only to wish they were a child again? idk. that’s just how life is. 3949. Why do people sacrifice their health to obtain moneya d then use the money to restore their health? i don’t think they realize they’re doing that. 3950. Jetsons or Flintstones? jetsons. 3951. What are you saving up for? a house. 3952. Would you rather improve your cooking, creativity, body,logic or charisma? body. 3953. Is it more important to have stregnth or speed? strength. 3954. What is your favorite thing to do each day? sleep. 3955. When you are driving do you ever feel like turning the car towards someplace unfamiliar and not comming back? no, i absolutely hate driving to places that i’m unfamiliar with lol. 3956. Have you ever gone to lunch at a job and never gone back to the job? no. 3957. What kind of a dining room set defines you as a person? a normal plate, knife, fork, spoon and glass lol. 3958. Kiss, with or without the make up? without is a lot easier. 3959. Madonna or Courtney Love? madonna. 3960. Are you down with james Brown? i only know one of his songs. 3961. Do you believe in miracles? not really. actually, sorta. 3962. Are you living a lie? no. 3963. If you had to give up one would it be caled ID or call waiting? call waiting. 3964. Are you ready to switch to an electric or solar powered car? i’d love to if i could afford it. 3965. What is the greatest band of the 90's? idk lol. 3966. What's the appeal of Alley Mcbeal? nothing. my mum did love that show though. 3967. Fill in the blank. ___ aint the kind of place to raise a kid. a casino. 3968. What song goes: starry eye surprise, sundown to sunrise, we're gonna dance all night to this dj' and who is it by? idk. 3969. What ever happened to the mtv vj Kennedy? no idea.  3970. if you could sing with one band for a day what band and what song would you want it to be? haha idk. 3971. Josie and the PussyCats or Jem? josie and the pussycats. 3972. Wouldn't oyu like to be a pepper too? no. 3973. Britney spears, school girl or sexy, which do you prefer? either or. the britney in toxic was fire. 3974. Would you get married on tv? no lol. 3975. Where do you go looking for the secrets of life? nowhere. i don’t care for secrets. 3976. What is the fuel for your soul? inspiration. 3977. Why do people watch american idol (I think it's for Simon)? no idea. 3978. What makes life sweet? being around people you love and doing things you love. 3979. What does it take to make a great band? chemistry. 3980. What do you think of when you hear the word 'devo'? devastated. 3981. What song or movie represents the 80's for you? the breakfast club. 3982. What song poem or other piece of writing would you want read when you died? not sure. 3983. Is a stable job home and family pretty much your goal or do you want more than that and WHAT? i would definitely want that and more. mostly happiness really. 3984. What tv show that is no longer on tv do you miss? the office! 3985. Remember when Chris from nirvana threw his bass in the air and hit himself in the head with it? nope. 3986. What commercial is really annoying you(almonds, want some almonds, you're a big fellow aren't you)??? i hardly watch tv. 3987. Nominate a rockstar for president: kanye lol. 3988. Who amazes you? myself haha. 3989. What's the best musical act to come outta your own country? another country? idkkkkk. 3990. Is your life glamorous and exciting? not at all. 3991. Greatest oldschool rap artist: tupac. greatest newschool rap artist: kanye or kendrick. 3992. DJ Jazzy jeff or Will Smith, which persona? will smith. 3993. Ever try yoga? no. i’d like to though. 3994. Are you a brick shit house? no. 3995. What products do you use? depends for what? i use a lot of products for different things. 3996. How good do you look? not good right now. 3997. Tonight you're going to party like_________ i’m about to sleep lol. 3998. Have you ever written a song? as a kid, yes. if yes did you record it? no. 3999. What would you like to have 999 of? $100 bills. 4000. Do you own a metal detector? no.

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FORGET CROCODILE DUNDEE - NOW WE'VE GOT KANGAROO DUNDEE!

No doubt you've heard of Mick "Crocodile" Dundee but what about Australia's real-life "Kangaroo Dundee" - Chris 'Brolga' Barns? It's early morning and a human call travels across the red, scrubby earth of central Australia. Little heads begin to pop up all over the landscape. Soon, a mob of red kangaroos is bounding towards a tall man in an Akubra, holding a feed bucket. Breakfast is up at The Kangaroo Sanctuary, just outside Alice Springs.

Chowin' down at the Kangaroo Sanctuary Chris 'Brolga' Barns established the kangaroo sanctuary near Alice Springs, in the middle of the Australian Outback, in 2009. An animal lover since he was a child, the 41-year-old worked at various zoos and sanctuarys before devoting himself to saving joeys (baby kangaroos), whose mothers are frequently killed on Australia's roads He is now widely known in Australia as the joey rescue man, and often gets calls from people who have found animals in trouble hundred of miles away from where he lives. The distance never deters him, however, and if he can't pass the joey on to a carer closer by he will drive to collect it.

A trio of joeys at the Kangaroo Sanctuary There are currently about 30 kangaroos at the sanctuary, run by Chris 'Brolga' Barns. Most were brought in as orphaned joeys. A few were once kept as pets. Some joeys have been brought in by Aboriginal people after being orphaned by hunting. Mr Barns told One Plus One's Jane Hutcheon... "When they heard about this tall skinny bloke (who) set up this place in town where people can drop a baby kangaroo, they would travel out of their way - In the car with 10 people and three dogs is a baby kangaroo that they're bringing in to give me" The Kangaroo Hospital The Kangaroo Hospital has been a dream of Brolga’s for over a decade. Brolga has always seen a need for a hospital in the centre of Australia, as the nearest wildlife hospital is over 1,500km away. The Kangaroo Hospital provides specialised care for kangaroos.  It is also a place where many baby orphan kangaroos will be cared for and raised by volunteer wildlife carers until they are ready for release back to the wild.

The Kangaroo Hospital has been a dream of Brolga’s for over a decade. Brolga has always seen a need for a hospital in the centre of Australia, as the nearest wildlife hospital is over 1,500km away. How you can support the Kangaroo Sanctuary The Upside Down Under rarely promotes causes however if you feel like supporting this most worthy cause then please feel free to do so.  Your donations are directed to the rescue and care of  orphaned baby and adult kangaroos at the Kangaroo Hospital. Donations are debited in $AUS.  Click here to  be redirected to the kangaroo hospital donations site..

The Kangaroo Hospital How it all began... Brolga grew up in Perth in the 1970s. By his teens he was already 6 feet tall (1.82 metres) which may have contributed to a little shyness. He says he did not shine at school, but was always drawn to TV shows featuring the outback. "I remember rushing home from school ... to watch Skippy," he said.

Skippy the Bush Kangaroo had an impact on Brolga's life. "Just the thought of a kid (Sonny Hammond who befriended Skippy the kangaroo) out in the open space ... he's got all that freedom and an animal that I didn't get to see ... a kangaroo - that was just a dream for a kid. "We always see the outback on TV and the farmer talking about how he's had endless years of drought and the windmill creaking - but it's a lot more to it than that. As a kid I did see this adventure, that's something I really wanted." Barnes, who also worked part-time as a bus cleaner, set up his sanctuary in 2009 after finding a newborn joey in its dead mother’s pouch by the side of a road. “There was a family of kangaroos that was about to be shot because they weren’t well enough to be set free,” he explains. “I couldn’t let that happen. I decided to build my own sanctuary for animals to rest and recover.” So, over two years, working seven days a week, he did it. He dug a 2.5-mile long trench and fixed 4,000m of fencing over 90 acres. Barnes now raises 200 joeys every year. To be near his beloved marsupials, he lives in a tin shack with no heating or running water, surrounded by snakes, dingoes and camels. The call of open space and his love of animals saw Mr Barns leave home at the age of 17 to make the move to Broome in the Kimberley region of Western Australia, to become a zoo keeper. He worked at several wildlife parks before trying his hand as a tour guide. Driving long distances between Alice Springs and Uluru, he remembered what other zoo keepers had told him about leaving dead wildlife on the highway. So he decided to stop and check the 'roadkill' to look for little survivors. "I'd stop to check the kangaroo for a joey. But (it's also) really important to drag it off the road."

Joeys don't stand much of a chance after their mum is killed. He said other animals, such as eagles, are often killed or injured near roadkill sites as they search for food. "When I was a young zoo keeper I used to check wallabies in Broome and one day found a joey, and then years later being a tour guide - met with a very big, remote outback between here and Uluru - and no-one was doing it. "So I starting doing it ... then I wanted other people to do." Mr Barns then realised that it was not enough for him alone to save the lives of helpless kangaroos - he needed to spread the message. "That's why I decided education would be my life - teaching people how to become kangaroo rescuers themselves," he said. Forget Skippy - meet Raging Roger! Barnes found Roger in his dead mother’s pouch and raised him in his Kangaroo Sanctuary. Not being able to let Roger into the wild helped Mr Barns come up with the idea behind the Kangaroo Sanctuary. Mr Barns explained that finding a living joey in a carcass that had been left on the side of the road 'transformed his whole life.' 'I look at it like the lotto, going around checking the dead kangaroo's week in, week out. You might not have any luck…but then one day you find this little one . Sometimes they're still alive in the pouch of the mum who has been dead 2 or 3 days,' explained Mr Barns. 'What comes to you is how vulnerable the baby is. I thought, 'I'm going to have to keep this.' I knew education would be my life and I could teach people how to become kangaroo rescuers themselves,' he continued.

Barnes found Roger in his dead mother’s pouch and raised him in his Kangaroo Sanctuary. “Roger has recently been recognised as one of the ten most famous animals in the world. Photos and videos of Roger go viral all the time because he’s world-renowned as being really muscular, with a great physique.” Says Barnes.

Roger's muscular physique is capable of crushing a steel bucket. The ripped 'roo measures more than 6 1/2 feet from head to tail and weighs almost 200 pounds. Chris "Brolga" Barnes states that Roger's got a knack for crushing metal buckets and seems to enjoy sparring with other males. Roger shot to international fame after a photo of his large arms appeared on social media.

Roger's 'ripped' appearance caused a social media meltdown! So why are his muscles so big? According to Dr Natalie Warburton from the Murdoch University of Veterinary and Life Sciences the size of a kangaroo’s arms is a key factor in their ability to attract a female. "Forelimb measurements showed that whereas female musculature growth was proportional to body size, male musculature was overwhelmingly exaggerated," she says. "It has to do with youthful sparring. Much like humans, youthful kangaroos play fight and wrestle. Building their muscles as they get older and the activity becomes more aggressive "Male kangaroos establish and maintain their dominance hierarchy through sparring contests that involve grasping their opponent and using their back legs to box them. "The stronger they get, the more wrestling matches they win which make them stand out in a crowd of potential partners.

Kangaroos like to fight and wrestle. Dominant males spend a lot of time posturing to ward off physical challenges. Dr Trish Fleming explains: You'll usually have a couple of really large individuals, and they'll be very bulked up, If you look at them from front-on, they look like they're body builders and they'll spend quite a bit of time posturing and displaying to females, but also to other males. Obviously, that's part of their competitive success. Unfortunately the bulkier the kangaroo, the shorter the lifespan. The team from Murdoch University believe this has to do with the higher body mass that the kangaroo has to maintain. So if a drought or a bout of famine strikes, it will hit the males harder than the females. Sadly, Roger is nearing the end of his lifespan.  Brolga said of the tired looking red kangaroo.. ..although he is still big and strong, he is an old man and old man don't fight,' 'So  his last few years, or year, to be happy out here in the bush and I'll be keeping a really close eye on him, but is my best mate, he is my son and I love him so much.' Brolga has a run-in with Roger – once a helpless orphan, now the mob boss, and even Brolga has to watch his step. Sources: The Kangaroo Sanctuary Website http://www.abc.net.au/news/2015-09-11/kangaroo-rescuer-chris-brolga-barns/6759582 http://www.telegraph.co.uk/telegraphtv/10549234/Chris-Barns-being-a-mum-to-orphaned-baby-kangaroos.html http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3227235/Man-nicknamed-Kangaroo-Dundee-reveals-despite-finding-wife-priority-life-rescuing-orphaned-joeys.html http://www.huffingtonpost.com.au/entry/kangaroo-crushes-buckets-roger-photos_n_7512016 http://www.telegraph.co.uk/women/womens-life/9852888/Tie-me-kangaroo-man-down-girls-why-women-are-lusting-over-animal-lover-Chris-Barnes.html http://www.nationalgeographic.com.au/australia/rodger-the-kangaroo.aspx   Read the full article