#he physically assaulted me the night before my grandmothers funeral and i had to show up and face him the next day like nothing happened | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

slutdge · 1 year ago

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I dont really think ive processed just how badly my dads behavior has effected me this year its really the worst it has ever been and i think im avoiding thinking too hard about it cause i know im a danger to myself if i do lol

#multiple times this year he told me that my disability is “killing mother'' on my moms behalf when she never #asked him to say that and never expressed that #like yeah my moms not great but she never said me being disabled was ''killing her''#he physically assaulted me the night before my grandmothers funeral and i had to show up and face him the next day like nothing happened #every time i was unable to do something because of my disability after my grandmothers diagnosis #he would really lean in to telling me i wasnt ''that bad'' and basically just say i wasnt allowed to suffer because my grandma was dying #like i was supposed to suddenly stop being disabled because of that #and on multiple occassions he implied that i didnt cate she was dying despite me going to see her a hundred times more #than he did after she was diagnosed #he lied to a judge and got a court order to have me arrested and institutionalized #during which i was slammed face down into concrete by police while they were ''apprehending'' me #and then i had to spend 6 hours talking to psychoatrists trying to make them understand that he is doing this maliciously #for them to just tell me to ''calm down 🙄'' like it was unreasonable to be upset #and also be mocked by the cops who arrested me the entire time i was in police custody #i hate him i hate him he deserves to kill himself not me

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