#he makes me emotional just existing alone 💕💕💕

[sexysilverstrider]

I too love fire emblem 🥰 no matter how messy the storylines are sometimes. I see you're playing FE:Fates rn!! that was My first FE game. Are you replaying it? Who did you marry? 🥹

because its messy its my fav 💕 and yep! im playing the og japanese version. and of course gotta marry my actual husband takumi 💕💕💕

[absolberts251]

Dear Il Dottore,

I love you so much it cannot be contained into words. Even this letter is but a mere fraction of my affection. But I hope it gets the point across!

Every night when I cannot sleep and you're busy with work I imagine you laying next to me, your warm arms feel so real. I imagine you giving me snuggles and kisses. Even if in reality it is a mere delusion, it makes me happy. I care not if it is hurtful to me to love you so much, the happiness I feel with you by my side is something I will never forget nor change. Your existence brings me motivation and strength; something I find slipping from my grasp everyday without you.

In the early hours of the day I love it when I eat with you, even if it is a mere scrap or another tub of ice cream. Having you there with me is comforting. I know i'll never be alone because I have you with me! and i'm here for you as well! No matter what i'll always be here for you! 💕💕💕💕💕 I will be here to make you happy!! 💕

I love it when you tell me about how the serum you injected into patient 67 was a success or how you figured out what the missing component was to a machine. I love you so much Dottore!!!!!!! I feel like crying when you arent with me, even writing this im getting so emotional im.not evem joking.

AAhhhhh I just love you so much !!! I love you eyes, your face, your hair, your wardrobe, your ideals, your inspirations, your smile, and your EVERYTHING!!!! I just love you so much <3 WHENEVER I LOOK AT YOU I GET SO OVERWHELMED !!! I have to scratch and claw at my bed to calm myself down !!!

I love you so much I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU DOTTORE!!!!!!!!!!

I remember you were so happy when I suprised you with that cheesecake for your birthday. You picked me up and gave me so many kisses!! I was so happy. And then for my birthday you made me a giant killing machine 😊 It was the best birthday present EVER!!!!!!!! I still love to snuggle with it!. I even got it a cute pink bow so it could match with you! It's so cute!! (but you're cuter~)

I love all the segments if it wasn't already obvious too!! Even if you cringe at things you did when you were younger, which is pretty funny :3 I love our son babyttore who gets rocks thrown at him!!! I love playing lps with him (he likes pulling them apart but its ok because he puts them back together afterwards) I love snuggling with you and all the segments!!!! 💖💖 YIPPE !!! *jumps around joyfully* I LOVE U DOTTORE!!!

*BEAMS MY AFFECTION DIRECTLY INTO YOUR HEART* *BEAMS MY AFFECTION DIRECTLY INTO YOUR HEART* *BEAMS MY AFFECTION DIRECTLY INTO YOUR HEART* *BEAMS MY AFFECTION DIRECTLY INTO YOUR HEART*

I love you dottore!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you are so silly...... you are silly man :] 💕☺️ I love big spooning because it means I get to feel your soft hair!!!!!! YAY!! I LOVE YOU DOTTORE... You mean so much to me!! YOU ARE SUCH AN AMAZING MAN!!!! A BEAUTIFUL MAN!!! YOU ARE SO ADORABLE AND CUTE!!! I JUST WANT TO SMOTHER YOUR FACE WITH KISSES!!!!! AND I WANT TO HUG YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY!!!!! you hold such a special place in my heart, all my thoughts lead to you. I see you EVERYWHERE!!!! I hear you EVERYWHERE!!! I'm so in love with you Dottore!!!

My dreams, which used to be empty now have you in them, whenever I close my eyes I see you there smiling at me. I love you! you are my everything in life, my sweetie pookie bear kitten. I love being with you every day 💕 you make every day worth it!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U DOTTORE!!!!!! i love you :3 you are so smart and pretty, you're the prettiest man EVER!!!!!!!!! and I love you!!!!!!!!!!! :]

When im sad I think of you and my day immediately gets better! You bring me so much joy ! you make every day my best day! I love listening to you ramble about your experiments and theories! and I love seeing you happy.

I love kissing you!!! seeing you cute face blush whenever I kiss you makes it so worthwile! I know you think that you don't deserve it, but I will always be here to remind you otherwise! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU DOTTORE!!!! 💖💖💖💖

I have some other things i'd love to say too but... *giggles* ehe! not here *blushes* thats for private ;) giggles :3 lets just say!! I wanna make whoopie with your cushions! 💖💖💖💖💖💖 *blushes madly* hehehe..... >//////< got a bit too carried away there sorry sweetcheeks <3 lets get back to the more sfw stuff~

You have such a beautiful smile that it rivals the world. Your eyes are like a sunset and your hair is the blue sky. Your smile shines like the clouds which litter the sky and the stars that scatter at night. You're my favorite view. You light up my world.

Even if others throw rocks are you I wont!!!!!! I will shield you from those rocks and bear the pain. I will protect you my princess! I will save you from the evil tower!!! and then I will kiss you 💕 I will give your face kisses.... and then I will kiss your lips!!!! 😊😊😊😊

A world without you feels so far away, the thought of you vanishing is one that brings me pain. I would rather bear the heat of a thousand suns than think of leaving you, my beloved sopping wet beast. I'll stand by your side no matter what!!!!!!!!!!! because I LOVE YOU!

You're so smart and determined that it inspires me to be my best self everyday!!! to not let others bring me down! You bring out the best in me and I bring out the best in you 💖 we bring out the best in each other!!!! We fit together like puzzle pieces 💕 Whenever i'm with you i feel like im drowning in a sea of love and affection, a blue abyss of serotonin 🥰

Your eyes are the same color as that which keeps my body alive, maybe this is why I always find myself getting lost in them. Whenever I think of you my chest feels like its going to explode! my love for you is so strong. Your happiness is my happiness, Dottore 💕 I love your eyes so much!!! they are so beautiful and I love how you get flustered when I compliment them ☺️ you're just so cute when you blush!!! It makes me want to kiss you all over! ♡

The warmth of your body when we snuggle is a comfort I love experiencing every day!! I used to have a hard time sleeping but with you I don't! The love of your embrace never fails to lull to me dreamland at night 🥰🥰 I LOVE YOU DOTTORE!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

You bring me so much happiness, I can't even imagine a world without you!! I would probably be withering in the corner of my room like a dead fly in a fridge (reference to the dead fly that was in my fridge). I would have been turned into tiny little mold particles!! but IM NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE IN MY LIFE!!! :DDD

Ill fight the heavens to save you. ILL PROTECT YOU MY SNUGGLE BEAR!!!!!!!!! I love you so much. Even writing this I feel my cheeks heating up! 😊 and when I hear your voice I feel butterflies in my tummy !!!!! i love you so much 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕😊☺️😊😊

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOBE YOU I LOVE YOU 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Ahhh! so joyous!!

Love, Absol ♡

[bau-drabbles]

Do you think you could write something with like.. hurt/comfort? Like reader has a bad mental health day or they wake up completely in panic after a nightmare, and Aaron or Spencer is there to comfort them?

Btw I love your writing so much!! I hope you have a good day!! 💕

i loved this request so much babe, the past weeks have been rough. enjoy <33

the day had been rough on you, hotch noticed when you came in through the doors. he watched you, removing your shoes into comfier slippers and giving a little wave to jack before you looked at him. he smiled and you followed but it never reached your eyes. it felt like clockwork, something a part of your routine. nothing felt, no meaningful gestures behind it. just an act to complete and repeat until you slept and awoken the next day

"are you hungry? we could order in-" hotch stands, removing the end of his tie from his sons tight grasp. he looks to you but you look so far away from here, disappearing into another world of your own. somewhere where he can't follow. and then it hurts that you're blocking him out.

"no i'm not hungry but thank you though. you guys eat, night" you ran up the stairs before he could question you. hoping it would give you enough time to settle into yet another night of restless sleep

•••

"goodnight buddy, i love you" hotch gently tucks his one year old beneath the covers. the eyes of the small boy slowly closes. he watches for a moment, a gentle kiss to his temple and then with that, hotch sneaks away like a thief in the night making his way to you.

there you were sitting, on the bed staring into space. your eyes held so much sadness, he could practically see it radiate from you. like you were trapped all alone in a little bubble nobody could get you out from.

"hey you okay?" hotch asks softly, leaning against the door. you don't even turn, your hands covering your face for a second until you meet his gaze. let him in, please

"i'm fine hotch, just fine" the first sign was the use of his last name, it was never hotch. it was always aaron to you, always by his first name. he knows you're pulling away from him but when you both entered this relationship, he promised you'd never be alone. and he'd be damned if he broke that tonight

so he removes his blazer first, loosening his tie. his eyes doesn't move from you, his feet slowly making their way to you. wary of any loud sounds to wake up jack but to also prevent you from taking off again

"what are you doing?" you snarled, something you never did to him. he could sense the hostility from a mile away but he knows this dance, he's invented it. he knows you're shutting him out and he won't allow you. underneath the lamp, he notices your eyes watering. how you're trying to be strong, not to show any emotions and it's breaking him that you need to do this in front of him.

he opens his arms slowly as he approaches you and you're beginning to back away. your eyes are watering, god it had been so long since your heart felt as ease. and you always felt so awkward expressing your problems to hotch. he rescued lives, he's seen the worst of humanity and to say what had been bothering you felt so minimal. it felt so ridiculous to compare struggles. and against your better judgement, you soaked it all up. bottled it into nice and neat compartments. refused to even acknowledge them, if you didn't see them, they didn't exist. and there they remained, overflowing and drowning you every chance they could spare.

you smell his cologne, his warmth invading your senses. he was a couple feet away and you desperately hoped to get away. each one of those barriers were breaking by the second, your resolve was beginning to dissipate into the air and the overwhelming feeling of sadness was threatening to swallow you whole.

"what's wrong y/n?" he asks again, standing a hair away from your frame. you glare at him, pressing him back but he doesn't move.

"i'm fine, leave me alone!" your voice trembles, the lump in your throat making it near impossible to speak but you remained firm. until he reached slightly down and hugged you close to his chest. your curled fists bang against his chest but it barely budged him.

"aaron..." you warn but the tears slipped down your cheeks and you crumbled in his arms. the comfort shocked you and the world seemed it had stilled for a moment. the heaviness on your chest had loosened for a second and you broke down completely, the wall protecting you from the torture of your own emotions had splintered into a million pieces.

you clung to hotch like he was your lifeline, the silent brutal sobs rocked your frail form making it difficult to breathe. the tears were staining his shirt but his bigger muscular arms continued to hold you steady, anchoring you in the turbulent sea. each pained cry that leaves your lips felt like a dagger to aaron's heart but he doesn't falter. his arms are your sanctuary, where your guard is lowered and you show your vulnerability. where for once you can show the emotion that has plagued your mind and soul for so long. where he can help you, sit by you and comfort you as long as you needed it.

he holds you tight, stroking your back until you felt ready to say something. until you felt comfortable to say the first word. but until then, he would sit beside you in silence holding your hand. you weren't alone, never with him around.

[fuckthemforthis]

Maribor recap or long rambling, some pics and trying to make sense in my head:

1. Thank you @chibi-chellist again for reaching out, it meant a lot not to be alone! Rambling about the boys is so much better in person and when it's not one-sided. I enjoyed meeting you and sharing experiences! 💕

2. Kaj pa Ester? is one of the cringiest things I've recently seen, especially dialog wise haha BUT it is also funny and kinda cute. Very teenage-y I guess, with too much lots of kissing and parties for which scenes they used some terrible modern cajke music (like use the good old soul ripping ones that don't mention Elon Musk... teenagers today smh). Anyway, I wouldn't mind it being longer and better developed in the emotional areas which you see they scratched but need deepening to give an actual sense of plot and sense to the movie. Could be due to the fact it was supposed to be a show first tho. However, I couldn't see Bojan's personality, mannerisms or gestures so in that sense I feel he did a great job acting 👏

And THE SCENE. Oh boy. Less sad and more frustrated bojerking. Putting shame aside to admit I would love to have it available on demand, especially for some ragged breathing appreciation...

3. Bought and tried Jan's fav cookies, yaay! They're really soft and don't crumble so I approve and will enjoy. I'm sure sentimental reasons are definitely a big part of why he named them as favorite and when I think about it they really suit him but there are better Slovenian cookies like almost any from Težak bakery in Zreče.

4. Half the venue were teenagers or parents with anything between 4 to 12 year olds. I was surrounded. And since I sat a few rows above the backstage entrance, kids all tried reaching for them as they were going off stage and among all the girls there was an 8 (?) year old boy who reached out and Bojan gave him a high-five... and lemme tell you I very much dislike kids but the way that boy turned and excitedly smiled melted my icy heart.

5. Third concert of theirs, third time on Jan's side. And I think Kris somehow knows & takes revenge by not singing NGVOT whenever I'm in the audience 😔

Well Krisko, princess dear, no photos of you 😝

6. Found it adorable how as ASTP was starting, Nace went to drink some water, took his bottle and clinked it against Jure's 🥂

7. Love that Maks was there again, I like the guy. At some point during the concert he was leaning on the fence above me taking pics and I missed half a song watching him work 🙈

8. As I was behind the loudspeakers, I heard Bojan's singing fine, but talking barely because it was often too distorted. What I did hear was him saying we came there for a workout to burn all the cookie calories from the last few days... and boy are you on the wrong track because I came back home with four different packs of cookies 🍪

9. Band dad Niko's daughter was with him watching the concert from next to the stage and he danced with her and it was adorable. The existence of good dads baffles my poor unloved ass...

10. We all know how in the setlist there's a connection between Padam and Demoni because Bojan even sometimes said "and when we fall they come", but I realised the chain starts with Dopamin. First you get a dopamine rush and feel like flying but soon you experience a crash because your body used up all the good stuff and then comes the falling and the demons (and then you go back to someone so the demons would go away but that someone just plays you again - if I wanna extend it to Katrina). Yes it's kind of a concert - post concert sadness - concert rinse&repeat metaphor

11. Janči had problems with his pedalboard for the first two or three songs, he and Kiki spent minutes fiddling with it trying to get it to work. Poor guy can't catch a break.

12. So yeah, the last point is based on Jan being sick, but it's actually about the main reason I like them so much - the connection, love and care they share.

I realised Jan wasn't okay during the concert so Bojan just confirmed it for me. He obviously still slayed, and he went to play at the front a lot, but there were telling moments.

A) When Bojan came to Jan at one point and rubbed his back in a very non performative way, squeezing at his shoulder and whispering something.

B) When Jan plopped down during Padam I thought "not when he usually goes down, is he okay?" and then Bojan leaned down to stroke his hair.

C) The most telling of all, when he sat down during Umazane misli. I kept looking at him, ignoring the left-front-right karaoke. He looked so tired and off, put his head in his hands and then Kiki gave him a bottle of water. When Nace turned around and noticed him like that, he smiled encouragingly and told him it's okay three times (yep they were close enough to read lips) and that's when I was 100% sure something was wrong and he was either feeling off emotionally or sick. He then got up, went to the front, played his ass off and only when he was walking back was it visable again for a moment how empty his expression was.

D) Jure coming to comfort him and cheer him up as soon as he could lift his ass away from those drums, leading him to the front where in the end Jan turned out to be the one stroking Nace's back in a "yeah it's okay" kinda way

E) As they were leaving for the final time, someone gave Jan a wrapped present he looked actually happy about and he threw back a pick but it fell where the person couldn't reach so Nace took over making sure the person gets it.

That's it. They are all utterly beautiful. And anyone who knows me, knows I use that word to describe people first and foremost on the inside. Beautiful.

[ruporas]

hello hello! I hope you don't mind me dropping by but I just want to say I love your art so much, the way you draw vashwood is just so sweet and tender but can I just ramble about the way you draw Vash especially? More specifically, the way you draw his expressions when he's looking at Wolfwood???

I just LOVE the way you draw Vash's expression because the way you make him look at Wolfwood is so soft 😭😭😭. There's just something about it that's so tender, like whenever I look at Vash's expressions in your art I just think "that is genuinely someone who loves another person with all their heart" and it just mends and breaks my heart at once, you capture Vash's love for Wolfwood in ways I can't explain 👏

It's unbridled love mixed with the fear of hurting Wolfwood in their relationship. It's wanting to spill so much affection but holding back in fear of messing up. He looks at Wolfwood like he's longing for him so earnestly be it pre-relationship or even when they're already dating it's just so??? 💕💕💘💞💖💖💞💕

There's just something so tender and heart wrenching at the way Vash looks at Wolfwood in your art, it gets me really emotional and I hope you have a lovely day/night for real <33!!!

ouuuuu thank you so so much for your kind words and for taking the time to tell me this T_T !!! i'm glad my expressions for vash's longing gazes at wolfwood is well done enough to have this sort of response to it…

he's the kind of person that has to hold back in both words and touch when it comes to love, when it comes to wolfwood, but i think it's a difficult emotion to restrain, especially when wolfwood is kind enough to let it be.

ultimately, what they're allowed to have is the inevitable shared spaces during their travels, it's the other's physical presence, being next to wolfwood, being able to take him in through the way he simply exists. smelling smoke, seeing smoke, seeing the cigarette between his fingers, seeing the crosses littered across his person, the rosary snug around his neck, his scruff at his chin, messy bangs, messy hair, tired eyes, the canine that peeks when he speaks, and a voice carrying heavy words, but honest, and kind, and one vash could never get tired of hearing, like how he'd never be tired of just looking at wolfwood.

it's of gratitude, it's of sorrow, it's of grief, it's of love, praise, adoration, it's desperate and it's full of yearning. at first, it's a gaze he feels he has to be satisfied with until he's learned that he's allowed for more and at that point, when wolfwood has given him so much, how could he look at him in any other way?

in any case, i def like to make it known and parade around vash's deeeeeep deep deep feelings of love towards wolfwood, so i'm very happy to know i can express that clearly through his expression alone. i Also just love wolfwood so maybe the projection goes from the heart of the artist to the heart of the art.

i ended up collecting a few caps of his expressions just out of curiosity for myself :3 i have much to improve still, i'll keep on drawing vash's loving self until i can get the ultimate loving expression down!!

[siriuslysatorusimping]

Happy (AO3) Anniversary to Another Level! 🎉 (and a long-ass Kiko rant bc who would I be without those?)

If you haven't already, you can read Another Level on AO3. I'm slowly posting the installments here on Tumblr as well 💕

I posted Make A God Bleed exactly a year ago and I never imagined that it would become what it has. Honestly, I created Rinko on a whim and she took on a life of her own that I’m so grateful for. I love our lil corner. I’ve loved pretty much every moment we’ve had here.

I wouldn’t have survived 236 without Rinko and our corner. I wouldn’t have gotten through it without all of you here, sharing my rage and my anger. And I wouldn’t have gotten through all the shit going down now, either.

But I told my best friend a few months ago that I truly never would have found the courage to finally get out of my toxic, loveless marriage if I hadn’t realized that I was writing a lot of Rinko and Satoru’s relationship the way that I so desperately wished my marriage was: one filled with mutual respect and love. Two people who love each other despite the hardships, through the hardships, and facing everything that comes at them together. Loving each other even when it’s hard. Working to be better for themselves and for each other. That’s love. Sometimes it’s easy and sometimes it’s hard, but at the end of the day, it should never feel lonely. It should never leave you feeling unwanted or unlovable or like a burden. It should never leave you feeling hopeless. It should never make you feel like you’re on an island all alone while you’re sitting right next to someone who claims to love you.

*tw for trauma dump, discussion of emotional abuse

When I finally told my ex-husband that I wanted a divorce, it was in response to his threat with it. Since we got married, in almost any disagreement or argument we had, he would attempt to end it by threatening me with, “Do you want to end up divorced? Because this is how we end up divorced." When I finally told him that yes, I did want to get divorced, he listed all the reasons he believed we couldn't. After he'd given a laundry list of reasons, all of which included what others would say or think, I realized and pointed out that he hadn't once said he wanted to stay married because he loved me and wanted to be with me.

He didn't want to stay married to me. He just didn't want to be divorced. To him, marriage was a status symbol, not love. To him, divorce was a threat and a weapon to keep me in line - to keep me from disagreeing with him. As if living life married to someone who threatened divorce instead of being willing to discuss and resolve our problems, someone who didn't want to go to marriage counseling because he didn't want 'homework' and didn't want to 'listen to a stranger tell him what to do,' someone who swore at me and called me names and treated me like a child when he was upset, someone who threw things at me and waved objects in my face and broke things when he was angry, someone who said that I never took responsibility for my actions but always blamed his own on me, was somehow better than being alone for the rest of my life.

I'm not perfect. I'll never claim to be perfect or blameless. There are absolutely ways I could have been better in my marriage and in life. But I finally realized that no matter my flaws, nothing excuses the way he treated me. Nothing excuses the number of times he purposefully made me wish I was dead; the number of times he glared at me with something so close to hatred while I had a panic attack and accused me of faking it to make him feel sorry for me; the number of times he stormed out and left me wondering if my existence in his life was truly so awful that it would be better if I was gone forever; the number of times that I had to sit alone in a room, sobbing as I tried to convince myself that dying wasn't the solution while my husband told me he wouldn't comfort me because I didn't deserve it. He told me that my years of therapy had done nothing for my mental health, but the fact that I'm still breathing proves him wrong.

I didn't do it alone. I had so much help. I had my therapist, my best friend, my family, my friends, and Rinko and all of you in our lil corner. So, thank you all again from the bottom of my heart.

Our Goinko has become so much more than I ever imagined. From Another Level to Physical Paradox to Gokudō, I genuinely love that so many people adore these two idiots as much as I do. It makes my heart jump every time someone tells me they’re rereading Another Level or that it’s their comfort because, in all honesty, it’s mine, too. It's incredible to see that people are still finding it and reading it for the first time. Seeing comments from people who binged it all in one night makes my entire day.

I’ve been so busy lately with my new job and trying to navigate what my life is now that I’m divorced that I really don’t have that much time to write, but I promise I’m still here. I will finish Physical Paradox, and I will finish Gokudō. And then I just might pick up my original work again and maybe get it published someday.

Hopefully, I’ll have an update of some kind for something soon, but we’ll see. I’ve decided to try to quit pressuring myself so much.

Thank you all again for being part of our lil corner and this incredible journey over the past year. I couldn’t have made it this far without you, and I’m so excited to see what this next year brings!

Also, a side note: my birthday is next week, and I’m going to have dinner and cake with my parents tonight to celebrate a bit early. I’m excited about my birthday for the first time since before I got married. I’m happy with where I am and with my life. My mother pointed out that she hadn’t heard me say that I was happy in years.

Sorry for this hella long rant, but I appreciate you reading it.

Much love to you all, and I hope you have a wonderful day/night!!

💕 Kiko

[a-random-fan4444]

Hockey Stick brainrot is real. Have some ramblings! :D

(Also thank you so much to every single person whose rebloged, liked, or commented on my Hockey Stick stuff!!! 💕💕💕)

Part 1 | Part 2

Quick summary on “Hockey Stick”: Casey jr gets an emotional support animal, but the emotional support animal is Brother Kraang in disguise. Junior names his pet Hockey Stick.

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Casey Jr on the pet forums. His posting history is along the lines of:

“Is it normal for my pet to try to kill anyone who visits my apartment?”

“Is it normal for my pet to screech at midnight?”

“Do animals have a sense of morality?”

And respondes of:

“Yes, my own dog and cat have been acting similarly skittish since the alien invasion. Your pet just wants to protect you. I’d advice slowly introducing new friends to your pets, like through scent! Hope this helps.”

“Yes, all animals do this. I had a little mouse who was silent as well, a mouse, during the day but at night screeched like a banshee. The only insistence where this would be considering not normal is if your pet was a fish.”

“No, people may try and fool you into thinking it’s just cats that lack morality, BUT THEY’RE WRONG!!! My brother’s fish was planning to drown me, I don’t have proof BUT I KNOW I’M RIGHT!!!”

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Hockey Stick being scared of the vacuum, Hockey Stick being afraid of the vacuum, Hockey Stick being afraid of the-NO WAIT! Both Casey Jr and HockeyStick being scared of the vacuum!!!

The sound the vacuum makes reminds them both too much of the sound the portal to the Prison Dimension made when it closed.

April has on more than one occupation vacuumed Casey Jr apartment while he and HockeyStick (hidden in Casey Jr’s hoodie as to not be spotted) hissed at her from the top of the fridge. Both have ear muffs on (HockeyStick’s mini earmuffs were provided by Mikey).

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Both are discovering what it means to be “normal” by human standards.

Casey Jr adjusting to being in a world where he isn’t constantly on survival mode. Where his normal actions are now “paranoid activity”

Brother Kraang not existing in a dimension that’s nothing but vast emptiness and rubble. Pretending to be a normal part of a world that has a lot of biodiversity in comparison to the prison dimension.

Both are experiencing the beauty of planet Earth for the first time, and the joy of just being able to simply enjoy existing for the first time. (•,n,•) I’m making myself emotional.

AND both feel alone because their families are just out of reach!

Casey Jr’s family doesn’t exist anymore, the present version of them will never become the versions of the family who raised him.

Meanwhile Brother Kraang knows his siblings are alive and where they are, but he can’t do anything to free them.

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Other Random Detail:

Casey Jr lives in the same apartment complex as Draxum and April.

The name “Hockey Stick” was a suggestion from Casey, she had a goldfish in her childhood named Hockey Puck.

Hockey Stick when first taken in by Junior was the size of a stuffed bear, but is slowly getting back to his regular size.

Brother Kraang despises all animals, they have very good intuition so they attack him on sight.

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Little Plot Bunnies, Specifically the Kraang & EPS:

Prime Kraang and Sister Kraang know each other to be alive. They don’t know if Brother Kraang is alive.

Sister Kraang spends her time imprisoned thinking about how she’s gonna torture the turtles. Specifically how she’ll torture them in front of each other, making them give up any information of where her brother is. She misses her psychotic little brother.

Speaking of, the EPF (Earth Protection Force), is looking for “The Infector” (Kraang Brother). They have “The Destroyer” (Kraang Sister), and know that Kraang Prime has somehow been exiled from Earth.

Yes, the EPF can get Kraang Prime’s name right but not the other two. Sister Kraang doesn’t plan on correcting them anything soon.

Honestly I could do a whole spin off on Kraang Sister’s side of the story. While “HockeyStick” is getting belly rubs and napping, Sister Kraang is setting new records for how long a security guard can last before pleading with their superiors for a transfer.

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And Finally, Art Time:

Casey Jr with HockeyStick (What are they looking at? 👀)

Brother Kraang shifting into his animal form for the first time.

[spaceratprodigy]

could i bother u for more thoughts on faith and max in a mock apple orchard 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

@gayafsatan — I would absolutely LOVE to brainstorm some fun ideas of them in a mock apple orchard!!

I've been replaying again so they've been rotating around in my mind a lot extra hard and was especially thinking about mock apple picking bc the botanical labs also has a lil orchard where you can pick mock apples up off the ground! But I'm currently in Roseway so oughhh.. ideas....

I want you now I am going to ramble a LOT so please bear with me I swearsies it'll be more fun if we get the full lore dump from my brain 😩💖💕

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👇 ROSEWAY THOUGHTS 👇

(I AM GOING TO TALK ABT ROSEWAY THOUGHTS AS A WHOLE AND THEN EASE INTO SOME SILLY MOCK APPLE ORCHARD IDEAS AT THE END OKAY. OKAY ILY THANK YOU).

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My thoughts are very chaotic and rambly so let me try to walk though my ideas lmao

Roseway is typically where I peg Faith's death wish arc happening, and to summarize what all that entails, it's when the mask slips and the weight of everything finally hits her in full force.

I always envision this story happening over a long period of time so a lot of time has passed since first arriving at Edgewater and the Groundbreaker.

Halcyon. Her situation. Her identity. The life Phineas threw her into abruptly and his expectations for her. Making split second moral decisions where no matter what someone is going to get hurt. Being so alien and alone, no one to understand her or believe in her predicament but having to be the mysterious competent captain regardless.

It finally gets to her. Bad. And she makes some self destructive decisions. She gets sloppy, careless, hoping someone else will end this nightmare for her. Until they almost do.

I am swiftly brushing past many details so we don't get too lost in the sauce. But Max went after her, found her collapsed and injured bad, carried her back to the ship for Ellie to do whatever she could, and then stayed by her side for as long as it took for her to wake up.

This is such a key moment for them getting closer. Because there was a lot of frustration and emotion and being forced to confront the possibility of feelings existing, but nothing they fully understand or are ready to acknowledge as such yet.

She tries to brush past the subject of what happened, deflecting everything until he raises his voice in a way he hasn't since she gave him the journal and she threatened he never talk like that to her again. And it was enough to break through her facade, for her to show just how utterly broken and vulnerable she is, and they have a proper fucking conversation about where she's at mentally. He still isn't ready for the truth about her life before. But it's a step forward.

There is a lot of patience and understanding and just. Yeah. A lot happens here. Some walls come down. There grows some room for them to become softer and closer over more time.

All of this is important because a short piece I had written a long time ago took place in this area roughly after this incident.

It was a personal outlet vent piece, I will be honest. When I wrote it it was after I had a very bad panic attack after an awful scare. And I wrote it into Faith because I just wanted to get some feelings from that experience out of my system.

The shortened version of that one is Faith recovering from a bad episode, trying to calm her breathing, waiting for her ears to stop ringing and for her vision to come back. Her legs gave out on her and she was sitting under the mock apple trees. Her voice locks up on her when she's seriously distressed. Yadda yadda yadda, Max had brought along his datapad so she could communicate anything important and she was incredibly confused because she knows he doesn't like using his datapad ever and then rendered even more speechless to know he brought it specifically for her in case something like this were to happen again. It ends with her just asking if he would keep talking to her, and they sit there under the mock apple trees for a while, in no particular rush to get anywhere.

And after this point, I think the mock apple orchards become a really peaceful, therapeutic spot for her when she just wants a moment to herself. Sits there, breathes, takes in the Roseway scenery and collects herself before jumping back into the horrors of Halcyon. Spends some time picking mock apples to take back to the ship.

I've been having a lot of ideas of her asking Max to go with her. I'm of the mind if she'd ask directly that he'd either decline, or at least pretend to be uninterested but she's the one who asked so he accepts the offer.

But I can see her being vague and just saying that she's heading out if he'd join her and she leads him to the orchards. By this point they're already often in each other's company, she indulges his interests often, letting him be the one who is finally listened to. But in general, they get along very well in conversation when it comes to a handful of similar interests and their personalities and attitudes bounce off of each other well.

(In my story anyway, since she spends an extended amount of time in Edgewater and the Vale, there was also a lot of time spent doing some early bonding with Max. So do with that info what you will. They're not likeee besties yet but they're much more than strangers by this point, ya'know? Just to get an idea of where their familiarity with each other is at and why there's enough respect and trust to some extent already existing. Not to mention how much time they had spent on the Groundbreaker).

They'd be having such a peaceful time away from the rest of the crew.

Oughhh hear me out, okay, Faith loves to bake. She doesn't even ask, she just makes Max hold her bag open while she starts collecting mock apples and after they finally head back to the ship she figures out how to make mock apple pie for the crew 😭 we already know Max doesn't care much for sweets (I wonder how sweet or tart a mock apple pie would be.. Faith girl what all Halcyon ingredients are you adding to that bad boy) but.. what if.... After everyone goes to bed...... He tries some anyway........ Because she made it..........

Most of what's bouncing around in my brain is them early on having wholesome bonding time in a spot just for the two of them. Just enjoying each other's company. Realizing they have genuine respect for each other, Faith feeling like she found a genuine friend who went to lengths further than anyone had in her entire life to make sure she survived. I am specifying Faith's feelings here intentionally. I write Max in a more complicated spot very blinded by his revenge scheme more or less unaware for a long while just how much the lines start blurring between his faith and his Faith. To put it succinctly. (Look I know I'm always drawing The Good Stuff™️ but in actuality their relationship is suchhhh a slow burn. They are not the most romantically inclined people lmao).

But also.. once she realizes she can talk to him when she needs to. I think coming back to this spot, off the ship, away from the crew, she just likes it there. She likes being there with him. She finds comfort in that spot.

OKAY BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE WOULD BE CUTE.... they should come back here.. post-scylla and post-gorgon...... Ya'know......... The first being when they establish not wanting to be apart and the second being when they want to make that partnership a permanent one......... ASKING HER IN THE MOCK APPLE ORCHARDS WOULDN'T THAT BE DARLING ough okay I need a minute my brain is going too fast to comprehend

My Roseway ideas aren't the most cleaned up I know BUT so many important bonding moments exist and oughhhh LOOSE IDEAS ARE STILL WORTH TALKING ABOUT OKAYYYYY

I just want them to go mock apple picking together and learn how to get smiles out of each other and not understand why it makes their chests hurt but they know they need to do it again

ACTUALLYYYYY post-scylla when he's much more mellowed out and they're the closest they've been I think would be so so nice. they'd be so much softer and he'd probably be so much more involved in wanting to enjoy silly lil activities with her.....

Currently imagining him reading out loud to her, all the conversations they'd have, maybe he brings his tossball cards to show her, maybe they bring one of the lil games, have a lil makeshift picnic....

Godddd the transition between just how much enthusiasm he shows spending time with her is enough to make me explode. Can you see my vision. The reluctance, to the hesitancy, to becoming absolutely inseparable.

I HAVE A LOT TO THINK ABOUT BUT I'M GETTING SLEEPY SO SENDING IT!!!!!!

Literally feel free to add on or share your own thoughts I'm begging you lmao I promise there is so much room for ideas to be fleshed out and better put together, I'm mostly just spitballing what all I think would be incredibly fun ideas to work with. Plus I'm kind of thinking across the timeline and how much their relationship would change between each visit. And how over time they would enjoy it more and more and make each visit more special than the last.

WAIT BEFORE I LOSE THE THOUGHT!! They make a stop RIGHT BEFORE HEADING TO SCYLLA TO GO TO THE HERMIT'S LODGE!! Oh that could hurt so good omgggg. Okay okay I need to stop now I NEED TO STOP.

[workingchemistry]

Last Line Challenge!

Rules: In a new post, show your latest line (artwork or written) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you like!)

I got tagged by @sithfox 💕💕

I think this one might actually be a sin (in that it’s spn) and idk that it will ever be posted but I’ve been thinking thoughts about parentified Dean Winchester and what if nothing past the pilot happened actually. Jess doesn’t die. Because it’s a noodle project I’ll give a little extra.

“Aren’t you going to invite your brother in to stay the night?” Jess asks. She’s crossed her arms, leaning against the doorway and the look she shoots between him and Dean is full of intense meaning.

Sam’s never snapped at Jess before, he refuses to let anger guide him like the rest of his family, but boy does he want to now. Only self control and way more therapy than anyone should have to have holds his tongue. Instead he turns to wish Dean a good life and finds that those words won’t come for an entirely different reason.

Dean hasn’t really done emotions that don’t involve lechery, anger, or hunting since Sam was around ten but for a heartbeat after Jess speaks, Dean’s grin is wide enough to twitch his ears. It fades into an outward breath of hope and then shame crumples inward to finally be replaced with overblown machismo. “Nah. Sammy doesn’t want his big brother embarrassing his bitch ass.”

The way it’s said implies that Dean will be telling embarrassing stories and teasing him about his girlfriend. It’s not the truth. Dean’s fear of embarrassing Sam with his existence is something Sam’s pretended not to know about for just about forever. It’s an unspoken truth that suffocates them both but Sam isn’t so selfish that he’ll leave Dean to suffer it alone. Not if Dad really is gone.

Not anymore.

Instead he puts on his most annoyed sigh and changes his trajectory to snatch up Dean’s Go Bag from the back seat. “She’ll make me sleep on the couch if I don’t convince you to stay.”

Tagging @hastalavistabyebye @sithfox (keep this in your back pocket for when you gotta zinger you wanna drop ;)) @whiskygoldwings

[lymtw]

mal anon HIIII

*starts hyperventilating*

DUDDDDDEEE the new fic i’m :( allow me to kiss your forehead bc what the fuck how does someone pour this much emotion and love with just a bunch of words ur surreal deadass

tho i can’t be the only one that, while reading, I get this realization that men like that probably don’t exist. is being loved like that even real there’s no way😭

i’ve never had a boyfriend. this alone should summarize what I mean. i’m terrified of not being loved like that, cuz i love so hard so if i’m not getting that love back, i don’t want ur stupid relationship >:(

ANW I RAMBLED IMMA STFU THANK U FOR THE FIC I LOVE U

HII MALLL 😁 *Joins you in hyperventilating*

Pleaseeeesaasrssseeeerr kiss my forehead, i'm waiting 🥺🧌 You always have the nicest things to say about my writing and ilysm 😭🫶🏼

Honestly, it's so easy for me to write these lovey dovey things when it comes to Toji. That's not me trying to sound cocky or overly confident in my writing, it's me saying I spend a lot of time imagining what it would be like to make him feel so secure, and heard and purposeful to the point where he knows it's not foolish to feel the way he does and that it's the real deal. I think sometimes his mind tends to stray to the hypotheticals. Like what would become of him if you change your mind about him one day? What if you don't want to be around him anymore? What if you wake up one day and don't feel the love? etc. ☹️ That's when my thoughts go into overdrive and i'm thinking of the cure so fast like: Tojiii look!! 🥰😚🫶🏼💙💗💖💕💝

On the topic of finding someone who loves you this way... I really think it's luck of the draw if you meet someone who's as loving and patient as this man. Even so, I do think that being loved that way is entirely real. I wouldn't write the way I do if I didn't believe so 😊 I can level with you on the loving hard part, and I say you never, ever settle for less than what you deserve. Clearly, from what I read, you know your worth 💖

Feel free to ramble anytime, Mal! Love you! 💙

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*✧ — for 💕 anon :

thank you for sending your info!! <3

please feel free to message me if you have any questions 😌 i hope you enjoy my humble analysis!

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Your Vedic chart shows you are a Cancer moon (Pushya), Virgo sun (Uttara Phalguni) , and a Pisces rising (Revati) omg!

you have a lovely chart!! you have a bit more water influence than you may realize, with 4 total placements in water, which also includes your rising.

moon :

Your moon's nakshatra is Pushya, which is so incredibly beautiful! 💖 the moon is your mind 🤍

Pushya is considered the most auspicious of nakshatras, ruled by Brihaspati. it's flower is the lotus and is symbolized by the udders of the cow.

the very essence of this nakshatra is to nourish and has a strong emphasis on family. Cancer moons can feel that their moods/emotions are quite attached to the mom/home life.

Cancer moon is dreamy, we keep journals and become wonderfully sensitive to the world and pick up on emotions easily.

and you have your moon in the 5H! this is highly creative and very romantic! you may enjoy writing about things pertaining to that house, such as romance, or really anything that is generally artistic/creative, like cooking books/recipes. would not be surprised if you are a literary lover yourself!

KRS talks a bit about this 5H moon here.

You also have Jupiter aspecting your moon. A positive placement for Jupiter as Jupiter is helping the health of the moon overall. So let's say that your relationship with the mother/family is not good, Jupiter looking down on the moon from the 11H will offer you support from 11H connections.

all water moons are very intuitive, but you are probably more so than other counterparts. Cancer, Scorpio, and Pisces are all the most psychic, and you have all three of these present in your chart.

ascendant / first house :

your ascendant's nakshatra is Revati! gorgeous, gorgeous placement 💘 revati is the culmination of mercurial energy in the lunar mansions and concludes the zodiac belt.

(random: but words like reverie, reverent, and resolution have the same root as the word revati, i just think that's cute since these are all 12H/Pisces themes lol!)

from The 27 Celestial Portals :

Revati's vimshottari lord is Mercury, so you may embody mercurial energy naturally. to me, the most distinct physical characteristic feature for Revati are the eyes. depending on placement, they are usually a striking blue/green, but no matter the color they are always very entrancing and even a little mischievous.

also, your Pisces rising tells me you are probably a more introverted person, or simply you prefer long stretches of alone time in between socializing. you have saturn sitting here, in Revati as well, which is actually a beautiful placement on its own as it adds a bit of stability to an otherwise too watery disposition.

(one of my close friends has saturn in the first house and they are often told that they seem rather cold when they first meet him, so you may actually have the same reaction when it comes to first impressions)

Saturn here is directly aspecting your 7H, which houses your sun in Virgo. this can indicate a delay in marriage itself, or simply that if you get married before the age of 32, a lot of work will be needed to make the relationship sustainable in the long run.

but saturn is not 'dooming' your relationship at all, he is blessing you by making you wait lol!

also, saturn aspecting the sun in any horoscope might denote a struggle with the father, either the relationship may be broken or non-existent. there is effort needed to improve such relationship as well.

Pisces is also very spiritual though, as it's a moksha sign, so not only are you naturally drawn to all things mystical, occult, you may have found yourself drawn to it your entire life. this is emphasized even more with your ketu placement in the 12H. (makes so much sense why you are curious about your horoscope! 🥰)

another interesting prediction with Saturn in Pisces in the 1H, is that you may find more success in foreign lands, away from your birth place! long distance travel may be very, very beneficial for you. (12H is foreign connections)

this is further supported with your ascendant lord, Jupiter, being retrograde. from Brighu Naadi Sangraha:

it is worthy to consider moving away from your birth place if you have not done so already!

sun / seventh house:

next, your sun nakshatra is uttara phalguni 🌞, which is a very interesting spot for the sun to be in! it's in the Virgo portion however, so your Sun is also under Mercurial influence!

Virgo rules the sixth house of servitude, so the Sun here is geared towards honorably helping those around them. it is actually a very humble position for your Sun, as it is sitting in the 7H. the Sun here is mildly suppressed, since the 7H is naturally ruled by Libra, the Sun's debilitation sign.

so in this case, i would gently advise to be careful of how often you are serving others before serving yourself. <3

but there is grace, because the Uttara Phalguni's vimshotarri lord is the Sun, so the Sun's personality and charm shines through regardless.

and after seeing your Sun in Virgo, I'm inclined to ask if you are a writer! In Vedic astrology, the moon is the most common significator for writing/writers, and you have Cancer moon.

Mercury is the other big indicator of writing, communications in general (Gemini, Virgo), and uttara phalguni has been a prominent placement i've seen in novelists. one popular genre is erotica, believe it or not! which is very appropriate considering the sun naturally embodies that 5H/Leo energy. uttara phalguni is symbolized by the back legs of the marriage bed, so again, that theme of romance, fun, sex is there.

again, highly creative energy though!

KRS also talks about this Sun placement here.

the Sun being placed in the seventh house can also give us some clues about your future spouse as well, in fact the Sun has a really big influence on your future partner!

Your seventh house lord Mercury is in Leo, tightly conjunct Rahu. this is such a fascinating combination on it's own!! Rahu inflates anything it touches, and Mercury is the sign of communication, and it's placed in the sixth house.

this can give them, (or you!) the ability to argue extremely well. Think, like an intense lawyer (sixth house also rules litigation). They may also be very creative as well, the influence of Leo is crazy!

Your future spouse may have significant Leo placements, or placements in Aquarius. The sign opposite of your seventh lord usually shows up in your partners chart.

darakaraka :

the planet with the lowest degrees in your chart is your darakaraka, which can indicate your spouse. your darakaraka is Mars, and it's in Scorpio/Anuradha.

immediately, i can tell you that you will find a very devoted spouse. you may be naturally attracted to the Scorpio type, the intense, silent type. you yourself may desire a very protective spouse, and Scorpio will give your spouse a shade of that (think enneagram type 8)

your spouse may actually be a bit of a dominant personality, not only because of your Scorpio placement but also because of your seventh lord in Leo. The sun is very dominant, and paired with the Sun inside your seventh house, you may find yourself dealing with ego issues/balancing with your spouse.

Your Mars is also in the ninth house, which can suggest that your spouse may be from a culture different from yours, and/or you may meet them in places dealing with the ninth house: weddings, college graduations, during foreign travel, etc.

i hope this was helpful <3

[egg-emperor]

what would we even gain from Eggman being a tragic miserable depressing angsty character anyway? why does he need to be an insecure, bullied/abused/neglected, toxic masculinity suffering guy with hidden emotional baggage who wants revenge for the deaths of his family members and does evil against his will. this was not ever the idea behind his character and isn't needed to be a great villain

he's just a fucking crazy silly funny evil asshole bastard man who is genuinely passionate about being evil, loves deadly theme parks/circuses/carnivals/etc, wants to take over the world because he genuinely loves himself and has that much confidence in himself that he genuinely feels entitled to it all, and has undying determination in fighting hard to get it because he's that passionate about it 💜

he's so funny and entertaining and admirable that way, especially with his pride and certainty in who he is and what he wants and his agency and his confidence in it. I wouldn't want to change that and make him do it all out of pressure and misery and not be at his own will at all. he loves what he does and has a blast and the private Egg Memos prove how genuine it all is even when he's alone, it's no act for show

plus he already has to canonically deal with defeat after defeat endlessly which is sometimes visibly devastating and upsetting and enraging to him, one time to the point of trying to commit suicide and taking a whole city of people with him. so like does it really need to get any darker. if you want it it's already there in canon set up for you more realistically for his character

but yeah even as a lover of edgy grimdark shit, I don't like to add any level of angst that he doesn't already have beyond that. when it comes to tragedy and angst with him, I prefer to focus on how he's really the perpetrator, causing that for others most. it's fun to write the character who dishes it out instead of receiving and is the real bad guy of the story genuinely because he wants to be

and I don't want to constantly angst over his entire existence in his identity, behavior, actions, and everything he does by trying to come up with all the most depressing reasonings behind them possible. I just love him for being a silly egg shaped man who makes me happy with how funny and charming he is and thrilled by how evil and fucked up he can get 🥰💕

[deaneverafter]

Come Get Me

"I've got a few of those myself." I so want to know more about these cases that keep Beau up at night, that he can't let go of 👀🧐🕵🏻‍♂️🔍 And just more about of him in general, we've only really seen him at work so far, and with people. I want to see what he does when he's at home, reading, watching the Dallas Cowboys' games. I love his scenes with Jenny, but I could definitely sacrifice his scenes with some other people (oh, I don't know, all the scenes of him getting insulted by the McCallisters, for example. Just a suggestion 🙄) to learn more about him, his past cases, his brother and what happened in Dallas, what he likes to do for fun, how he really feels about having to have uprooted his whole life in Texas.

That scene with the rifle and the roof, that was such a smart move 🥺 Here's to the smartest sheriff around 🔥 AND he's funny "Janky meth lab" right to the suspect 🤣🥺

Beau not wanting to believe that a teenager could've committed the crimes, it just shows that he wants to believe the best in everyone. And it makes me wonder if this is part of the reason he can't realize how badly Carla and Emily treat him, even though emotionally he feels sad and disheartened after every single interaction with them 😔 Controversial opinion, but my man deserves better than this, he deserves to be spending his time with people who actually respect him and enjoy his company, people who actually like him.

"Well, why hang on to information like this all these years if you didn't expect someone like us showing up? We want to solve this case." I love him so much 🥰 How much he cares about justice and doing what's right, he really is a hero 🥺 And promising the cop that they're going to solve the case, finish his work and get justice, it has me feeling Emotions™️ It was such a caring and reassuring gesture, but also such a noble thing to do ❤💌

That one strand that always manages to escape 😍🥰🥺❣

Just when I thought my "I want to be just like you when I grow up, Jenny Hoyt" feelings couldn't amplify, she shows up rocking that ear cuff 👌🏻

There weren't a lot of "character" moments in terms of interactions this episode, but Beau and Jenny deciding together wordlessly to go comfort the rest of the gang was so sweet, they're both so protective and empathetic and soft 🥺💕

And it's so funny to me that in that interrogation, Beau and Jenny really went "let's be bad cop, bad cop" 🤣 They're so in sync they're always both good cop or both bad cop, and the best part is, it works 💫✨🤣💅🏻👌🏻💯👑

A lot of duos are forming on the show, but you know Beau and Jenny have my heart 🥺 They work so well together, literally (and emotionally) have each other's backs, support each other and can still joke around, and the slow burn has me in my feels 💕 And, as always, their conversation and banter is the best, her reminding him that psychopaths can exist at any age 😥🤣

Literal faves 🤩 I'm going to get ragged on so hard for saying this, but 10/10, even if there wasn't a big mystery, I could just watch Beau and Jenny solving episode crimes all season long!

Donno tearing up talking to Tonya and talking about how he has something to lose for the first time in his life, they're so cute together, little criminal team 🥺

Lmao, not Denise milking that trauma to keep hugging Beau. Girl, I see what you're doing, hands off Jenny's man! Hashtag, it's the girl code 🤣

Man, the scene with the murdered teenager's dad was so heartbreaking 💔😭

"I'm going to call Beau." What, he's not a "manbaby" and "so sensitive", now that she needs something from him? 🙄😒 Carla needs to go away, seriously. I honestly just need the three McCallisters to leave Beau alone right now, all they do is demean and insult him when he's around, and then remember him when, and only when, they need something. And I guess Beau is not "overprotective" and the "worst" when Emily needs consoling over a murder (or just wants him around to have an insider on the investigation? Seems much more likely based on how she's treated him so far 😒)? What, Avery wasn't enough for that? 🙄 And people blaming Beau for Emily sticking her nose where she shouldn't, what are you guys doing? 🙄🤦🏻‍♀️ Beau investigating is not the same as her snooping, he's doing HIS JOB, she did not learn this (or her rudeness) from him. Anyway, we've seen how she treats him. You think she took after him in any way? She is not "just like her dad", she's the furthest thing from him. And unfortunately, I just know that we're going to also have Carla trying to blame Beau and his job for Emily's snooping, instead of taking a good look at her own parenting and Avery and his influence 🙄 Also, side note, you're telling me that Donno and Tonya were able to find out that there's something shady about Avery and his business in a matter of hours, and Carla, a woman who's lived with this guy for years, has no idea? I'm not buying that. Maybe she just doesn't care ☕ I don't think the writers mean to make Carla as condescending and mean and manipulative as they have, nor Emily as rude and selfish and annoying and unlikable as they have, but there it is. And there's a disconnect because we're supposed to be invested in their safety, because they're connected to Beau, but it's such a one-sided relationship, Emily never wants anything to do with Beau until she needs something from him, and Carla just wants to continue to put him down, every interaction that he has with either ends with him looking on the verge of tears. So it honestly has the opposite effect, I literally cannot find it in myself to stand them, let alone care about them. And they've been given absolutely zero traits to make them tolerable likeable as individuals, so there's nothing that makes me care about them gor themselves, and then when they treat Beau like trash, it makes me actively angry at them. So why am I supposed to care if something happens to either? Avery's an ass, but..... like, the narrative isn't trying to make us care about him, so it isn't an issue.

I'm not going to lie, I'm a little scared Cormac's going to walk into something he shouldn't and get deaded 😱

There's something seriously wrong with Buck, I know there's supposed to be some stress induced weird behaviour or what, but seems to me that he might decide sooner than later that he actually enjoys Sunny's unhingedness.

Walt and Paige going full unhinged killing team, it's interesting.

The Bleeding Heart Killer, I think the pieces are slowly starting to fall together, and I'm interested to see if it pans out like I think it's going to 🧐🔍

[stevethehairington]

for the fanfiction writing asks! 6, 15, 22

vio, my beloved 💕💕 thank you for sending this in!!

6. What’s the last line you wrote?

“And we didn’t hide away to suck face, jesus,” Steve mutters, snatching his water bottle back up. He waves it at Dustin, who scoffs like he's not fooled.

15. What’s your favorite time to write?

the answer to this sort of tends to jump around depending on like. where i am in life i guess? lol

like, when i was in college i did a LOT of my writing in the dark hours of the morning, i'm talking like 1-3 am type of range lol. for some reason the inspiration bug would ALWAYS hit me then, and it was great!! i wrote SO much in college it was crazy.

as of late though, i would say early morning still but more towards the 8-10 am range lol. this is mostly because i am usually the first person to get into the office at work, and other people don't start rolling in until like 9 at the earliest, sometimes way later. so if i don't have a lot of actual real work to do lol then i will spend that alone time writing. i have gotten a LOT of writing done at work lol. (if my place of employment sees this, no you dont <3)

22. Do you title your fics before, during, or after the writing process?  How do you come up with titles?

i would say that probably about 97% of my fics get titled after i have finished writing them. there have only been a few that i have thought of something to call it during the writing process, and an even smaller number that i had a title ready to go before i've even started writing for.

and just about every single one of my fics is titled with song lyrics. there are only a couple that come from poems, and a few that are just things that i (or a friend!) have come up with.

it's funny because i have a whole entire doc filled with song lyrics that i think would make INCREDIBLE titles or that i would LOVE to write a fic around one day, but those almost never work for whatever i do end up writing lol.

and like when i look for a lyric title i try to find lyrics from songs that fit the fic, either in terms of the plot, or just the overall vibe sometimes. it's GREAT if the lyrics of the song completely match the fic, but sometimes that doesn't happen and there will be like just one stanza that goes with it, but i'm not that picky so that will work just fine for me lol. i just generally try to use songs (and lyrics from those songs) that match, whether it's the plot, the lyrics, the feelings/emotions, the general vibe.

i will say, though, picking a title is sometimes the Hardest thing in the entire world. no, you know what, not sometimes, it is ALWAYS the hardest thing skglgssf. i have literally had my whole entire fic finished and ready to be posted, but then i spent whole entire hours, plural, scrolling through songs to find something that will fit.

titles and summaries are the BANE of my existence (as are transitional scenes, my beloathed).

Fanfiction Writing Asks

[voidchillz]

Sappy Venty Rant about Kay’s Erik (With a special inclusion of my beloved skeleton💕)

I mention scars, dysphoria, and skin issues here. Be careful and mindful ❤️

As a side note about Susan Key’s Erik, I think he’s gonna be my favourite for a long while unless another Phantom can compete (though I am very much warming up to Charles Dance’s Erik). There’s a specific reason for this though. Besides other iterations kind of making it seem like Phantom doesn’t exist beyond Christine (still love the other iterations) there’s a certain level of personal sympathy I’ve felt for Erik. One of the reasons I love Sans so damn much is cause it’s a similar feeling, and that sympathy breaches me feeling physically similar to that character. I don’t think it’s as far as kinning or the many ways people feel more comfortable as presenting themselves as their beloved characters, but it’s more like slow flashes and little waves of a nice harmless delusion. For Sans it’s more like an emotional similarity, when I feel calm or happy it feels like I’m smiling like him or getting comfy in his bones. I’m not going to let myself be ashamed that it genuinely calms me down when I’m in a panic to just feel him touch my hair or stroke my neck, letting me know I’m safe and that it’ll be okay (and if anyone else feels the same way you shouldn’t be ashamed either). And Kay’s Erik has actually been the first of many of my loved characters to compete with Sans in that regard.

If you don’t already know, I’ve got eczema. And BOY is it bad right now, and has been for a few months. I won’t get into grim gory details, but apart from being a fun reference from vine, it can be seriously costly both emotionally and physically. I’ve literally got scars from it. In my experience it’s not a very well talked about thing, which can be even more frustrating when several occasions I’ve sat by the bath at three in the morning flinching and crying every time I try to wash my fucked up skin. And I’ll be blunt, this shit has made me deeply dysphoric for a long time when literally all I want in terms of body pride is smooth skin and soft hair. I don’t even mind that the eczema makes my skin dark or pale and patchy in places. I consider myself very lucky and grateful that despite being trans there’s only a few occasions I get genuine gender dysphoria or feel like I need to punish myself for looking a certain way. But when everything burns and stings and I’m surrounded by unpleasant reminders of how Human I am and I feel like it’s my fault, I fall into a very deep discomfort that lasts a long time.

I’m not at all going to pretend I understand Erik completely, I don’t have abusive parents, I haven’t been hated or rejected my entire life, and I have people that love me. But there’s been more than one point now that while my skin flares up, I let myself feel calm, and my hands are suddenly thinner and more deft. I can feel the bones beneath my skin, I can hear sweet music even in silence, and there’s a sense of collected pride and comfort that comes with that. Feeling like him makes me feel unafraid to enjoy the dark, enjoy the unapologetic wildness. I’m nowhere near as intense as he was but I much prefer to stay in my safe dark warm hidey hole with my work and my simple pleasures than much else. And still, I can appreciate sunlight and the outside, it’s just I’ve learned that it often comes with taxing uncomfortable situations. Being outside isn’t the problem, it’s the noise, it’s the exhaustion, it’s the feeling alone of people around me that I don’t like. This doesn’t mean I don’t like people, I like my friends and my family, but I still love the quiet isolation after a long day.

When I feel like I’m helplessly clawing at my skin, ruining it further and feeling wretchedly ill with how overwhelming and painful it is, it’s a strange relief to think of Erik at that point. Beauty has never really been something I wanted, but I know it’s not something I can have completely. And I’m not saying that in a ‘oh I’m so ugly, tell me I’m pretty no matter what’ way (so you just don’t have to if you’re planning on telling me that), to me it’s a fact that with my skin like the way it currently is, I won’t feel beautiful or handsome or any other way than numb and uncomfortable. Erik knew that about himself, that he couldn’t strive to be beautiful, but still admired it. The comfort is feeling like he could sympathise with me wanting to have no skin rather than this skin, pretty much.

This can sound as poetic or as dumb as anyone wants it to, but I wanted to post this here maybe just to log this feeling. This is the most personal I’ve gotten online so far I’m fairly sure, but I think it’s still important to share these things sometimes.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk :)

(Also if anyone’s worried, I am okay, my skin is not, but I am okay. The itching isn’t really voluntary and kinda just comes with the condition, but I have my plans and my coping mechanisms. I really just wanted to post this in case anyone could help feel validated if they had dysphoria and loved their characters like I love mine)

((In a roundabout way I was trying to say that Susan made a great book despite everything and that it helped me with my crap flesh))

[anything-but-predictable]

Let’s talk about Love. 💕

1. How do you know when you love someone?

2. What are the things someone can do that will surely make you fall in love?

3. Do you think once you love someone, you will always love them? If not always, in what instances you don’t love them?

4. What do you think is the secret to a happy and healthy relationship?

5. How much do you love yourself? And what are the things you do to practice self-love.

1. He’s the first and last person I think about every single day. He’s the first person I wanted to tell the good or bad news when there’s any. And even after we fell off from each other’s lives, I still pray for his genuine happiness and peace.

2. For me it’s not about what someone can do to make you fall in love with him. Honestly, the fact lang na mahal mo yung isang tao, his existence alone means a lot already without even trying to impress you. When you love someone, sitting/sleeping next to that person is pure bliss already.

3. I think we always carry little pieces of the people we truly love in the past in our hearts. I don’t think you can ever unlove a person, you just learn to welcome a different kind of love later on.

4. I am honestly not the right person to answer this. If I only knew, I wouldn’t be single right now. Lol 😂🥲

But just an opinion, for me love is not a feeling. It’s a choice talaga. I think it’s choosing the same person everyday, over and over again no matter what happen. From a point of view of someone whose been on long term relationships in the past, hindi laging masaya, hindi laging nakakalilig and darating yung point na boring na and hindi na kayo nagkaka intindihan.

5. Oh I love myself so much now. I feel like these are my prime years and I feel confident and very independent atm. Took me 3 decades of lack of self confidence, tons of heartbreaks, depending happiness on another person, questioning my worth and settling for less to learn all the things I learned right now. I am at the point where the only validation I need is the one that comes from my inner self, my family and my genuine friends; the rest are just background noise. ✨

The basic things lang naman, I do journaling, pep talks, meditation, addressing my emotions rather than ignoring them, fasting (to allow my body to rest internally and to regenerate), drinking loads of water and keep myself hydrated and well moisturized, keeping in touch with loved ones back home and pinaka mahalaga, being specific sa prayers ko. 😊

Sorry,napahaba! 😅