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skylar102 · 1 year ago

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NLBF - Chapter One

Four years ago

Rain poured down like the Niagara waterfall, seemingly with no end. Alec didn’t even feel his clothes getting soaked as he rushed down the sidewalk, anxiously looking behind him every second. He shouldn’t have been worried, he’d planned this meticulously. Not a single hole in this plan; it had to work. If it didn’t, Alec didn’t know what he was going to do.

He glanced down at the fire message he’d gotten earlier that night, now damp from the rain. His contact got back to him after two weeks of radio silence. Alec had been doubting that he would even hear anything and had worried that he would have to go through what his parents had in store for him. He shivered at the memory of that ‘meeting’ his parents made him join.

Marriage.

At twenty-two years old even Alec knew that Shadowhunters weren’t that behind on the times. This was his parents' way of gaining more favor with the Clave. Plain and simple. The Branwells were a respectable family, one with more power within the Clave than the Lightwood name. The Lightwoods were once a prominent name, then Robert and Maryse had joined the Circle and ruined any favorable reputation they had. Now Alec was paying the consequences of their own actions.

Lydia was a smart woman, but it was clear she was not happy with the situation. Upon further talk with her, Alec found out that she’d actually had a boyfriend for two years. Not only that, but he had proposed to her already. Her parents knew this and still wanted her to go through with this farce of a marriage. It made Alec pissed off not only for himself but for his supposed bride whose heart already belonged to someone else.

Neither of them deserved this pain.

It wasn’t like the marriage would be anything other than binding. Alec had no romantic feelings for her. He had no feelings toward any woman in the Institute.

No one knew he was gay and he planned on keeping it that way. Isabelle had started giving him looks recently like she knew, but he made sure to never admit it to her and she never asked. Jace was as blind to his feelings through the bond as he was to everything that involved his parabatai. He loved his siblings and would do anything for them but it was clear they didn’t feel the same.

They would always tell him to relax and not let Mom and Dad get at him. They never truly saw how much he suffered at their hands. Days locked in his room that he couldn’t leave whenever something went wrong. Slaps on his wrists from his private tutors when his penmanship was just a smidge away from perfect.

Everything had to be perfect, perfect, perfect.

Alec felt like he hadn’t been a part of the family for a long time. All the responsibility that his parents shoved on his shoulders, not once asking Jace or Izzy to help. Letting them be able to grow up like other shadowhunter kids where he was stuck inside, training and learning. If his siblings got in trouble he was to blame, even when he wasn’t there. Maryse and Robert berated him for not having a tighter leash on his siblings.

Lost in his thoughts he missed the person walking in front of him. He shoulder-checked the man and went knocking to the ground, the stranger's umbrella scattering away. Panicked, he got up fast and repeatedly apologized to the person, helping them off the ground.

“Well that’s one way to ruin a good pair of pants,” the man sighed.

“I’m so sorry, I wasn’t paying attention,” Alec apologized.

“It’s alright, these pants are outdated anyways,” the stranger laughed and then under his breath, “by at least forty years.”

Alec nodded, not understanding the man’s point. He kept his head to the ground, not looking at the man’s face. If people saw through his glamor, they’d try to drag him back to the Institute. He didn’t know if this person was a part of the shadow world or not, but better safe than sorry.

“What’s your name?” The stranger asked.

Alec’s eyes widened in panic at the question and with more speed than a normal human should have had, he rushed to grab the stranger’s umbrella, handed it back to him, and ran away with another whisper of an apology.

He ignored the man’s calls behind him and continued on. He’d wasted too much time and he didn’t know if this person would go back on their deal if he was late. He slipped his stele out from his pocket and ran it over his speed rune, just in case that stranger tried to tail him.

He made it to the warlock’s place in the nick of time. He did not waste a second rushing up the stairs to knock on the door, more frantic than planned. He shook off what water he could from his hair now that he was under the roof of the porch.

The door opened to reveal a man dressed like the eighteen hundreds. His skin was a light green, hair white as a ghost, and horns protruding from his head.

“I see you got my message,” Ragnor greeted.

“I did,” Alec panted. “Please tell me the spell works.”

“Well first off, I’m not going to have you soak up my floors.”

With a snap of Ragnor’s fingers, Alec’s clothes were as dry as they had been when he’d left the Institute. He let out a sigh of relief as the clothes seemed to emanate a slight warmth like they were just pulled from the dryer. Ragnor opened the door the rest of the way and beckoned him in.

“The potion works perfectly,” Ragnor said. “My friend and I worked on it tirelessly the past two weeks since you were in such a rush to get it done. You’re lucky you paid handsomely upfront for the spell or I would have made you wait behind all the other clients I had before you.”

“Thank you again,” Alec said. “I know you are a busy man, but I appreciate you doing this for me.”

“Yes, well any person who’s trying to escape a marriage by faking their death is always a matter that’s way more interesting than a sob story about a person who wants to get revenge on their ex.”

“So you got it to work?” Alec asked timidly.

“Of course I did,” Ragnor sighed. “Did you not just hear how I spent two weeks working on it? What? Did you think I sent you over here just to tell you I had nothing?”

Alec didn’t hear the condescending questions; he’d stopped listening after he heard the spell worked. He didn’t know when his knees gave out, but when he came to, he was crying on the floor of Ragnor’s house and the man was worryingly hovering over him.

“I’m free,” Alec laughed hysterically.

This was more than just about the marriage. This was about him being free from the shackles of his parents’ iron rule and finally getting to be himself.

“I have a sense that this is more than about a silly arranged marriage,” Ragnor guessed, hands hovering over, Alec unsure how to help. Alec must have looked like a fool on the ground, tears falling from his face.

“Yeah,” he croaked out, swiping his sleeve under his nose. He quietly grabbed his stele and removed the glamor. He heard Ragnor shuffle backwards and the distinct smell of a forest after it rains was the reason he knew the warlock had summoned his magic.

Alec stayed on the ground; he didn’t want to give the man reason to attack him without a chance to explain.

“I asked for this because the marriage would have made me a mindless drone for the Clave to use, manipulate, and abuse any way they could. I’m the scapegoat for my parent’s actions during the Uprising. They wanted me to marry a woman who was already in love with another and set to be married with for me, a nobody,” he explained, his head tilted to the floor. His nails scratched at the carpet beneath his hands as he tried to reign in his fear.

“If I had gone through with the wedding it would have absolved my parents of their horrendous crimes against the downworld and made me the punching bag for their crimes.”

He remembered the way his parents had looked at him without a single flicker of love in their eyes. Only seeing him as a pawn to gain their status back in Nephilim society. It wasn’t like Alec had spent years of his childhood helping in any way he could even when he was clearly too young to handle the pressure they put upon him. But he did it with gritted teeth in hopes that eventually, they would back off.

What a false sense of hope that was.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I was a shadowhunter,” he apologized. “I knew that if I came to you begging for help you would refuse me.” He let out a self-deprecating laugh, glancing at the sight rune on the back of his hand. “All the others did, saying I got what was coming for me. But I didn’t do anything, I was just a child-”

His voice broke and he watched his tears stain the carpet. He hadn’t meant to bear his entire heart out to this stranger, but if at least one person was going to listen to him, he’d let it be the person who was about to kill him.

Either way, he’d escape the hell of the life he was living.

“I was two years old when the Uprising ended. I was a child whose parents, rather than accepting their wrongdoings, would push it all onto their first born who didn’t understand why he was being treated badly. I just want to know what it feels like to inhale a fresh breath of air without suffocating from the toxins I grew up around. I just want to be fully myself without having to hide.”

He closed his eyes, waiting for Ragnor to kill him. It was so silent in the house that the only sound he could hear was the rain and thunder outside, seeming to hit harder than before he got here. He awaited whatever Ragnor wished to do to him. Maybe if he was lucky, he’d be turned into a frog and live out the rest of his life in a nearby pond.

Instead, there was a sudden presence wrapping around him.

“What-,” is all Alec could get out before he was pulled into a hug. His breath escaped him as Ragnor seemed to want to squeeze the life out of him. Not how he’d thought his life would end, but he'd take it. Better than being sent to Edom or trapped in the Seelie forest forever.

“You know, I have a friend who also has a shit parent,” Ragnor started. “I remember meeting him right after he escaped a hell hole. The fool was an absolute mess, didn’t trust anyone. It took a solid year before he could even be comfortable in a room alone with me. He fought hard against his parent’s teachings, wanting to be happy and experience the world through the eyes of a free man. He got that chance because he was hard-headed. A trait he still, unfortunately, has to this day,” Ragnor grumbled, getting a wet laugh out of Alec.

Sounded like this person and Alec would get along swimmingly if given the chance to meet.

“What I am trying to say is that this is not an easy path to take.” Ragnor pulled out of the embrace but kept his hands on Alec’s shoulders. “You’re going to have to unlearn a lot of the teachings you grew up with to survive out here in the real world.” Ragnor gave him a once over and grimaced. “And probably a lesson in how the mundane world works. I know how you Nephilim like to ignore the rest of the world you live in.”

“I- I don’t understand,” Alec said.

“If you think that you are going to be able to survive out there on your own, you’re wrong,” Ragnor stated. “The world is a cruel place for a Shadowhunter who’s escaping. Not every Downworlder is going to be as kind as I am.”

“I didn’t ask you to do anything more than create the spell,” Alec reminded the man. “I can’t ask you to be connected any more than that. If by some chance it gets out that I faked my death with the assistance of a downworlder it could mean the end of a lot of good people. I can’t ask you to do that. I’d rather just find my way alone.”

“And end up dead within a week? Absolutely not. I have a farm in Ireland I won a few years ago that could use a person who will actually care for it,” Ragnor suggested. He let go of Alec’s shoulders to tap a finger to his chin. “Now that I think about it, I don’t think I have visited it at all in the past fifty years which means it will need a thorough cleaning. I hope you are up to the task.”

“I can’t ask that of you,” Alec meekly stated.

“You didn’t ask, I am giving. Now,” Ragnor stood up and walked over to his potion table, grabbing a piece of paper, “this is the spell. Even a shadowhunter like yourself can cast it as it requires only a magical object for it to work.”

Ragnor handed him both the paper and a bracelet. Alec read over the spell and it seemed easy enough to cast. Now all he had to do was create a situation where he could fake his death. He remembered hearing some shadowhunters talking about a demon nest that needed taking care of earlier that day. If he didn’t schedule anyone to take on the nest in the upcoming days, he could make this work.

He felt his emotions start to get the best of him again. He’d kept them in for so long that it was hard to reign them back in. All those times when he couldn’t express anything or let anyone know how he truly felt.

It was a relief.

“Thank you for this,” he croaked out. “For all of this. I owe you my life.”

“You owe me nothing more than meeting me in Central Park after you go through with the spell. I will portal you to Ireland where we will immediately hide any trace of you so no one can track you there.”

“I already have a deruning device so they can’t track me,” Alec explained. At Ragnor’s look of confusion, he explained more. “You don’t need a Silent Brother to remove runes. It’s only used against shadowhunters who have broken the law. It’s the most painful way to get it removed, but I can’t risk the Brothers bringing word back to my family.”

Ragnor looked at him in horror. “So you’re just basically going to torture yourself to get the runes removed?”

“Pretty much?” He shrugged nonchalantly. “I already assumed I would go catatonic for about three days once I removed my parabatai rune.”

“You’re parabatai-” Ragnor sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. “You are worse than my friend when it comes to enduring pain, and I thought that was impossible.”

“Well I didn't have a support system when I was planning this out so it was either suffering through the pain of getting my runes removed or just dying,” Alec admitted. “And I didn’t want to take the easy way out.”

Ragnor mumbled something under his breath before speaking louder. ”Fine. Fine! I will reschedule my busy life to take care of your idiotic self for those three days.”

“You don’t-”

“If you finish that sentence I am turning you into a horse,” Ragnor threatened. “Okay, I need to cancel dinner plans but I will be there when you decide to do this. Now get going.” He started to push Alec towards the front door. “Here’s my number, I expect you to tell me everything about when you plan to do this, or I will hunt you down myself.”

“O- okay.” Was all Alec could get out before the door closed behind him. He heard muffled grumbling as he was left alone on the front porch of the townhouse.

He looked down at the items in his hands and couldn’t stop the smile that formed on his face. He made his way down the stairs. The rain had stopped and all that was left was the same smell of Ragnor’s magic. Alec took a deep breath and started to feel new and fresh in a way he had never felt before.

#malec #shadowhunters #my writing #fanfiction #Nothing Left But Forward

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years ago

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Hola Dani 👋🏼 ¿cómo estás bebecita? Espero que tu día haya estado mucho mejor que el mío (that bar is low AF) mi día fue largo y lleno de reuniones tediosas que habrían podido ser un email 🤦🏻‍♀️ I really miss being a preschool teacher!! Kids are fun and never ever boring 🙌🏼

At least I had LBAF'S newest chapter to look forward to...

The One with the Equal

Magnus kept telling himself that he would simply run into the boy in a century or two.

He can’t really be dead, can he?

He cannot, he is NOT!

Look at him sleep so sweetly. As if he hadn’t been causing earthquakes in the Baltic Ocean an hour ago.

🤣🤣🤣

It took them less than a minute to find him – with the magic of tracking and pure parental terror.

Malec are strong AF because I would have die 3 times if mi bebé precioso had called me in such a panic 😭😭😭

“She is still breathing,” Alec yelled as he picked the girl up, she was limp and unconscious in his arms. “Magnus. We have to go.”

Oh thank every force in the universe, I was actually scared of the "Dani strike again" but alas, you've shown mercy this time!!

“Magnus, we don’t have the time. We have to get her help,” Alec said urgently.

Yes, there is, take it, take it taaaaake it!!!

His pale eyes filled with regret. “It’s real.”

Well duh... all of this could have been avoided if you hadn’t treated him like the crazy bitch he was!!

Gigi wanted to say something dramatic like ‘I don’t need Lexi! I need answers!’.

Marcus didn’t deserve an ironic death. He deserved a painful one.

I agree!! I wanted fire lots and lots of fire!! 🔥🔥

Rafael kissed her hand. “You like him, don’t you?”

Who doesn't like my son?? He is the sweetness 🥰

Hot tears started to fall down his cheeks. Rafael sobbed quietly as he held her hand and begged her to come back to him.

¡Ay no! Mi bebé precioso no llores, ¡rápido que alguien abrace a mi bebé! 😭😭😭

“Like your dad,” bapak said gently. “I like it even more now.”

Me too!!! Also I want to peek at that list!!

“It’s a privilege to be someone’s namesake,” bapak smiled. “It means someone loves you and respects you enough to want more of you in their world.”

I love this so much!!! 😍 I have so much love for my twins not only because they are awesome and great gay disaster but because we share a name and I feel connected to them 💚💚💚

She wondered where he was right now.

In hell where he belongs!!! Burning as he should!!!!

To be killed by the very thing you love.

Mallory wanted to die in Max’s arms. She would love that.

Please, please, please, let this be foreshadowing 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

“You have a warlock boyfriend?” mum asked. “Can he help bring Marcus back?”

No!! What she has is a severe case of the crazies!!

These bitches are really jumping all the way into crazyland, I'm an astounded by their deliriousness 😯

When the seashell fell open, she was blinded by the blue light.

Fell open??? What do mean "fell open"?? Nope... I don't like this!! I knew they should have taken the seashell!!!

“Didn’t I tell you?” she asked. “I am his equal.”

Daniela what have you done?? Why would you do that???

Thank youuuu Dani!!! I am beyond terrified about this Mallory development... babygirl you are an evil genius, I did not see that coming, holy fuck!!! But I'm also beyond excited... is it friday yet???

Thank you, thank you, thank you... I am love you 💚💚💚💚💚💚

omg alex why is adult life literally just attending meetings that all could have been email??? i hate this shit too. my day was okay, i think. i had a task to do and i didn't do it so i am not very happy about it. I'm hoping to finish it by tomorrow morning!

AND AH SORRY ABOUT MALLORY SHE JUST DOES HER OWN SHIT DNCKDNCJKS SHE IS OUT OF CONTROL ISTG.

I am love you too and hope tomorrow is kinder 💚

#lbaf

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onetimetwotimesthreetimess · 1 year ago

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Okay of course I am here to obsess over Lrhwy past 2 🥰🙃

Baby Max

Just obviously the cutest little blueberry to ever exist. It hurt my heart of his neglect and diagnosis 🥺 I never ever deserved to be treated so bad and have so many people abandon or reject him. I’m so happy he found a little beautiful family in the Lightwood Banes. I was losing my mind when Arrow and Chairman were all sad when he had to leave!!! Not just cause they sensed Alec was sad but because they knew he belonged there too ☺️

Daddy Alexander

Ummmmm. Protective Alec? Hello?!?! I loved how much Alec was invested in Max and just felt so right having the little bean in his arms. I was so sad he had to let go but so happy he got to be a dad in the end. The way he was trying to fight off everyone in his family to protect baby Max!!! He was so right for that tbh.

Malec adopting

Okay so I am so proud of these babies for how they handled this situation. Alec not pressuring Magnus to want to adopt, Magnus surprising Alec with one of the loves of his life. They acknowledged this situation, respected that there were limitations to them being parents (deployment + addiction) and did what they thought was best. I’m so glad Magnus had an opportunity to realise he wanted to be a father. He needed that to give him the motivation to not let his own personal situation stop him from having thr happiness he deserves. I’m so happy for them!!

Anyway I was obvi sobbing after this. I am so excited for more Max chronicles and Rafe and maybe Ari too!!! Parent Malec are kinda my fav cause they older, still so obsessed with each other and so soft with their kids.

So much love Eeshu! <3

I had Max’s chapter planned since so long—I’ve been waiting to share this with y’all. I’m so glad you loved it.

Max is the sweetest little blueberry indeed and Chairman and Arrow adore him.

Alec is always going to feel this “this feels right” feeling whenever he holds max for the first time in every universe. Meant to be.

I think the decision to have kids should lie with Magnus since he’ll be the one with them for most of the year. Alec understood that so he didn’t try to push Magnus. They have come very far in understanding each other and how their jobs affect their lives. I am incredibly proud of their growth.

And yes—parent malec are my favorite too>>>>>> I am love them. Can’t wait for you to meet Rafe (and maybe Ari too)!

#LRHWY #Mia bb

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my-head-is-an-animal · 2 years ago

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Happy Wednesday

Chapter 5

You lay with Harold, your back pressed into his chest, his arms wrapped around your aching body, his mouth kissing tenderly over the spot that he was sure there would be a mark in the morning, his fingers tracing over your arm and nothing in the world to worry about beyond Harold.

‘You still feel jealous?’ You asked, half joking and it made Harold snigger into your shoulder.

‘It’s not my main emotion right now, no.’ He said, kissing your neck and sending hot rushes through your body. ‘I’m mostly feeling… relieved.’

You frowned, turning your head slightly, silently asking the question.

‘After seeing Alec tonight, I realise you could have any man you wanted,’ he inhaled deeply. ‘There were plenty of others checking you out and I’m sorry I noticed that, but you chose me and maybe Alec was right and I have something I’m entirely unaware of that attracts you, or…’

‘Or?’ You asked curiously.

‘The alternative would be something more sinister, but you’re not that sort of person.’ Harold told you, he was right, you couldn’t imagine using someone for any reason. ‘I worried for the longest time that anyone I found would only be interested in my money or the company, even the machine, but after six years of getting to know you, three months of being with you and even after telling you everything, you still don’t care about any of that. You laugh at my jokes and seem to enjoy our conversations… I suppose I’m just relieved that I found you.’

You found yourself smiling through Harold’s explanation.

‘Well, I don’t know what it’s worth, but I feel relieved too.’ You said, noticing his arms around you tightened their grip momentarily. ‘I never thought I’d find someone so willing to put up with my baggage, you don’t know the half of it either.’ You chuckled, not really intending for it to come out that way.

‘So, tell me.’ Harold said, simply, kissing your shoulder once again making you feel as if you really could be honest with him. ‘I want to know everything about you, the good and bad. I don’t care what it is, I just want to know.’

You thought for a moment and wondered if this was a good idea. ‘I don’t know if I should get into it.’

‘I’m not going to force you, but I would like to know.’ He was so gentle, never pushing you for information, never demanding anything from you, just wanting you to be happy and safe. How many people like that really existed in the world? ‘I also think my stellar performance warrants reward.’

You burst out laughing. ‘I knew your ego would inflate; I should never have told you.’ You joked.

‘Cats out of the bag now,’ Harold defended. ‘You can’t take it back.’

‘No, clearly not.’ You turned so that you were fully facing him, watching his darkened blue eyes take in everything about you. ‘How did you learn to do that anyway? You had a string of lovers I should be wary of?’

‘You serious?’ Harold chuckled. ‘It doesn’t take a genius to listen, I find people will usually tell you what they want, you just need to figure out how to listen to them.’

‘I see.’ You kicked your lips. ‘And what is it I want?’

‘To be treated with the respect you deserve.’ Harold ran his hand over your arm, feeling the cool skin. ‘To be with someone who will ask permission, rather than take what you might not be willing to give. I think what you really want is someone who is kind and gentle with you, who cares about you on a level others have failed to show… but that’s just what I’ve observed.’

You smiled, wondering more and more about Harold. He really was a bit of an enigma.

‘You know it’s funny,’ you said, shifting closer. ‘You’re not the first person to say that to me, but you are the first person I really believed could give me what I need. The only question remains, can I give you what you need?’

Harold watched you for a moment, he wasn’t sure what you were trying to tell him. ‘All I need is for you to be happy.’ He frowned. ‘If I can help you towards that goal in anyway, I’d gladly do it.’

You weren’t sure what to say, so you smiled and leaned over to kiss Harold, his lips still soft and warm and addictive. He was just perfect.

‘So, just how rich are you?’ You teased, making him burst out laughing.

‘You’d be disgusted.’ He said honesty, making you groan.

‘Are you serious?’

‘Unfortunately so.’

‘God, don’t ever let me know how much money you have, I don’t need to know that.’ You laughed.

‘Why do you hate money so much?’ Harold frowned, his curiosity getting the better of him.

‘I don’t know,’ you sighed. ‘I never had it, people who did were always taking advantage of us and I still don’t really have anything. I guess I just feel uncomfortable about that.’

Harold paused before speaking. ‘You know there are ways of making money that are perfectly legitimate and anyone can do it with any amount.’

‘Like what?’

‘Stock market for one.’

‘That always sounded so complicated to me.’ You shook your head.

‘It doesn’t have to be, again, it’s just about listening.’ Harold insisted. ‘I can show you if you want, it’s how I make a little side cash anyway.’

‘Side cash? I assume you mean a couple of million.’ You noted Harold’s silence. ��Oh god, Harold.’ You just laughed. ‘What do you even need that much cash for?’

‘I have plans.’ He said it rather cryptically and it got you curious.

‘Plans, huh? What do these plans involve?’

‘Nothing significant,’ he shook his head, but had a wry smile on his face. ‘Just saving the world.’

You both began giggling like teenagers, unable to control yourselves and it was more of a relief than you could possibly explain to Harold. You’d never felt like this about anyone before and in a lot of ways it surprised you that Harold was the one to make you feel this good. He had a quiet confidence about him that just brought out your playful side, something you’d always been happy with in an office setting when you could share banter, but this was something else entirely beautiful.

‘I’m glad you’re here.’ Harold whispered as you’d found yourself running your fingers through his light smattering of chest hair.

‘Where else would I be?’ You smiled gently, his blue eyes piercing yours. There was just something incredibly beautiful about Harold and you adored it in every way.

You couldn’t help yourself, your previous question was forgotten, because all you could think about was kissing him. His lips were so soft, so giving and caring, nothing assumed, just the moment you shared absorbed into memory.

‘I love you, Harold.’ You whispered against his lips. ‘Don’t know if I’ve mentioned that.’

You felt him smile as his hand came up to drag through your hair. ‘I’ll always want to hear it.’ He whispered back and sank into another slow, languid kiss.

Again, nothing assumed, but everything given.

Harold watched you sleeping in the dim light, the way your soft skin reflected it, you weighted breathing, the way your soft hair splayed out over the pillow and your whole being relaxed next to him. He could get very used to sleeping next to that sight and never get bored. He went over the night you’d had together, his memories taking him even further back than that, all the way to the first day you met.

SIX YEARS AGO

Harold had been struggling slightly under the weight of the work he was doing at his desk and the side project he was starting to build in secret, he needed the help.

Dave showed you around the office, but it was obvious from the start that your instincts were sharp and were telling you not to get too invested with Dave. Harold watched the way your bright eyes darted around, desperately trying to take in your surroundings and orientate yourself as quickly as possible.

Harold wasn’t stupid, he could see how attractive you were, not in an outwardly glamorous way, but in a soft and soothing way, the kind of beauty that catches you out over morning coffee. You were kind and polite to everyone you met, you always went the extra mile with another question and you listened closely.

When you finally got shown your desk, Harold stood up to shake your hand, wanting to make a good impression.

‘Harold, this is Evie, she’ll be working opposite you,’ Dave introduced you, but you looked a little uncomfortable.

‘Evelyn Brooke.’ You corrected him.

‘Evelyn, it’s good to meet you.’ Harold smiled.

‘You’ll be lightening Harold’s load, don’t get too excited Harold.’ Dave joked, but neither yourself, nor Harold laughed. In fact, you cleared your throat at the awkwardness and proceeded to ignore Dave.

‘So, Harold, you want to show me what you’ve been working on?’ You asked, ready and eager to get to work.

‘Yes, of course.’ Harold gestured for you to come around and take a look at his computer.

Dave eventually left you both to start work and Harold was immediately taken with how focused and quick you were to understand the complexities of what he was trying to do. From that day on, it was plain sailing, you worked great as a team and Harold could see that one day you’d be running your own company, if that’s what you wanted.

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erricdraven · 4 years ago

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ooooh okay 11 recovering from an illness/injury + T secret relationship + 34 “Is that blood?” pretty please ❤❤❤❤

i was immediately inspired by this and i hope it does your request justice! thank you lovely! x

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If Alec were a different person, he wouldn’t be in this situation at all. It didn’t do any good to think such things, but he did.

If it weren’t for his secret relationship with Magnus Bane, the High Warlock of Brooklyn, he wouldn’t have been on his way to a clandestine dinner date on the other side of town. If he hadn’t been on his way across town for dinner, he wouldn’t have come across the pack of rabid hellhounds. And if he hadn’t come across the pack of rabid hellhounds, he would never have ended up leaning against the locked doors of Nightingale Towers bleeding profusely from a particularly deep wound in his side.

Fumbling for the call button with a blood-slick hand, he managed to press the one emblazoned with “PH1” in delicate gold print. For a few seconds, there was silence.

“Fuck,” Alec exhaled, swaying on his feet from the horrible combination of exhaustion and dizziness washing over him.

He hadn’t actually thought about what he would do if Magnus couldn’t help him; now it seemed totally idiotic not to have come up with a plan B. After all, to Magnus it must have appeared that Alec had stood him up only a week after an argument in which Magnus had accused him of being unwilling to make time for their relationship. If he ended up having to drag himself to the subway, he would only have thirty minutes to come up with a believable explanation as to why he had snuck out late in the evening without telling a soul to go to some dive in Queens.

Suddenly, Magnus’ voice crackled through the speaker. “Who is it?”

“Magnus, it’s me.”

A terse sigh echoed in the vestibule. “Is there something you want, shadowhunter?”

Even just shifting his weight to make for the door made Alec feel as though he very well might pass out. “Look, I know you’re pissed at me and maybe in a way I deserve it, but I—” The low whoosh of a portal opening interrupted him, materializing next to him. With the little bit of strength he could muster, Alec half-stepped, half-fell through it. His legs buckled beneath him when he landed on the pristine carpet of the loft, and he errantly hoped he hadn’t stained it.

“You couldn’t be bothered to call, yet you—” Magnus trailed off abruptly, and Alec forced himself to look up at him even as his vision swam. He looked disappointed. And angry. But once their eyes met, both dissipated to be replaced by shock. “Is that blood?”

Alec tried to answer but all that came out was some kind of incoherent murmur, and he felt his body tipping forward as the floor rushed up to meet him.

When next he opened his eyes, Magnus was leaning over him with a look of consternation as pale blue pulses of magic emanated from his palms. His necklaces spilled over Alec’s chest, a cold brush along his now bare sternum. “Hey,” he managed to rasp.

“Shh.” Magnus spared him only a glance, his gaze soft with sympathy that Alec almost felt guilty to be the intended recipient of. “You need to lie still for me, Alexander.”

He opened his mouth to protest, but ultimately held his tongue until Magnus had secured gauze over the raw but healing skin. “I’m sorry I missed our date. It wasn’t intentional; I swear on the Angel, Magnus.”

Pursing his lips, Magnus finally sat back and looked at him. Alec couldn’t swallow down the lump that rose in his throat at the sadness that softened his eyes and turned down the corners of his mouth.

From the first time he laid eyes on Brooklyn’s esteemed high warlock, Alec was enchanted. At first, it didn’t occur to him to be concerned that the man in question was a downworlder, that he was a man at all. It didn’t occur to him that this was someone with a reputation that preceded him, and spanned lifetimes. It didn’t even occur to him that he was the furthest thing from qualified to speak about feelings. All he knew was that his heart was beating hard enough that it might break his rib cage apart and he couldn’t care less so long as he didn’t have to look away just yet.

He should have known better than to think he could endeavor to have anything so exquisite.

“I was on my way to meet you when I got ambushed by rabid hellhounds. I tried to call you but the battery was dead, so it was all I could do to get here, to you. I’m sorry, Magnus, I didn’t know what else to do. Maybe I should have just—”

“I’m not mad that you missed dinner tonight,” Magnus cut him off softly. “I’m very glad you made it here in one piece. It certainly made my job easier. With some rest and being responsible about your activity, you’ll be good as new in a few days.” Standing up, he made for the drinks cart and skimmed his hands, caked in dried blood, over a few glass decanters before choosing one.

Alec hesitated for a moment, sitting up against the arm of the couch gingerly. “But you’re upset.” Magnus made no move to reply, instead downing three fingers of whiskey in one swallow and leaving the ice to clink against the bottom of the glass. “We don’t have to do this to each other, Magnus. I know that I started it, so maybe it’s my job to be the hypocrite. You take a step forward and I take a step back; you move to follow and I walk away. It…it fucking sucks.”

“God help me, I care for you. Very deeply, Alexander,” Magnus exhaled shakily.

“But I’m—”

“For better or worse, I lo—I feel inexorably connected to you,” he continued as though Alec hadn’t spoken at all. The taught lines of Magnus’ back made appear as a man made of marble. And he felt just as unreachable to Alec. “And this is what you are. Being a shadowhunter will always be your priority, and I respect that you have made your decision to continue down that path, but it’s not one where I can follow alongside you. I can’t be happy only seeing you when a lie is convenient and buys you some time, or when you’re beaten half to death and I’m left with your blood on my hands. I very well might love you, angel, and in another life maybe it would be enough, but we don’t have the luxury of a simple solution.”

Feeling his throat start to close as he fought back tears, Alec forced himself to his feet and took a few steps towards Magnus. His hands, always so steady whether they wielded a blade or an arrow, or grew mottled with bruises blooming dark beneath his skin, were now trembling and there was nothing he could do to stop. It felt as though he were walking towards the precipice of a vast chasm that was ready to swallow him whole, and the longer Magnus’ words hung over them like a dark cloud, the closer he got to falling in head first.

“I was scared,” Alec blurted out. It wasn’t exactly where he had intended to start, but at this point, it hardly mattered. “I was scared that if I made room for someone in my life, in my…in my heart too, that then what I’ve been running from for so long would catch up to ruin everything. I’ve never been as close to happy as I am with you, and I know the minute I let this become anything more than some kind of stupidly perfect life I’ve built up in my head, it wouldn’t be safe anymore. That’s something I should have been honest with you about, though, and I see that now. I—I’m sorry.”

“Alec—”

Holding up a hand, he continued. “If I don’t say all of this now, I’m going to lose my nerve and I don’t know if I could live with the consequences. Look, Magnus, you were right to be frustrated with me, and I’m mad at myself too. But if it’s not too late, if you can still find it in your heart to give me a chance to make this right, I would do anything to deserve it.”

For a few agonizing moments, Magnus expression was unreadable. And then he spoke.

“I hear relationships take effort.”

Alec inclined his head slightly, a tentative smile starting to play at his lips. “I’m all for effort.”

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delu-jean · 3 years ago

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𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐋𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 (𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝐅𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭)

Hello! As this event takes place, requests will be closed since juggling both will be a little tiring!

-> Thanks: Thank you guys for 100 follows! I’m glad my writing is something others can enjoy, and I’ll keep on doing my best to both improve, and deliver.

Event:

-> Song-Fic/ Song Lyric Event: There are forty five prompts with different song lyrics! Some angst, and others fluff, but all revolve around romance~

->Each fic will revolve around the lyric specifically, or the entire song!

->Eg of fic with just the lyric (specifcially): I may use the lyric as a line you, or another character would say, it might pop up when needed, and etc. A fic example would be: “Before You Go” (Nanami Kento x fem!/reader).

->Eg of fic with entire song: Basically a song-fic

->Eg of fic wihtout lyrics in it: I present the lyrical prompt at the beginning of the fic, and write w/o needing to use it as an actual line, or anything else.

->Whichever is found fitting, will be used!! ^^

->Either way, the fic will be written about that lyrical prompt!! :))

Rules: (A must)

This event is one for (fem!xreader) x (<inserted male reader>)

He needs to be a character from one of the five fandoms I write for!

Jjk, Mha, Haikyuu, Aot, and Demon Slayer

If your guy isn’t on the list, by all means, request and I’ll tell you if I feel like I can write for him!! ^^

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This is a non-nsfw event, and topics over 18+ aren’t allowed!!

You can only request one character per prompt, unless, the prompt calls for two! (Even then, you can choose to only ask for one)

My rules still apply for this event, if you would like specifics, please do ask, or look through the rules post!

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Key:

Angst

Fluff

You can request more than one character (max would be two) = ☆

Prompts:

"What if I said I'm sorry, what if I made a scene? Wouldn't that make you mine again, you're all I'll ever need," -What If I Said I'm Sorry (Caliber)

"You won and she chose you, and she loved you, and she's gone…" -Its Over Isn't It? (DeeDee Magno Hall) ☆

"She's a she's a lady, and I am just a boy without a line," -Line without a hook (Ricky Montgomery)

"Knew I was falling when I looked inside your eyes, and you said…'I know you are but what am I?" -What Am I? (Why don't we)

"I need a man who loves me like my Father loves my mom," -Like My father (Jax)

"You make my heart beat faster than adrenaline, you kiss away the pain of all the hell I’m in," -Medicine (James Arthur)

"It's always one step forward, and three steps back. I'm the love of your life until I make you mad," -One step forward, and three steps back (Olivia Rodrigo)

"Let's write our story, and let's sing our song. Let's hang our pictures on the wall," -Memories (Shawn Mendes)

"Maybe you and I have history, but I don't think you know me. Have we met before?" -Have we met before (Eric Nam, Sarah Barrios)

"Hey baby won't you look my way, I can be your new addiction~" -Everybody Talks (Neon Trees)

"She gets the flowers...right? The post made about her. A love that is perfect, a love I deserved, yeah. A love that I gave,” - She Gets the flowers (Betch MCcarthy)

“I just heard you found the one you’ve been looking, that you’ve been looking for. I wish I would’ve known it wasn’t me,” -We Don’t Talk Anymore (Charlie Puth)

“Even when we go through changes, even when we’re old. Remember that I told you I’d find my way back home,” -Way Back Home (SHUAN)

“You say that it’s all just a blur, but I see you kissing her. No no, you gotta go, go, and I’ll be just fine without you,” -Goodbye Boy (Peg Parnivek)

“You say that I'm too insecure, you want me to be someone else, but if I'm not the one you want...Just go ahead and walk right out the door,” -Who I am (NIve)

“She’s In The Rain, you want to hurt yourself I’ll stay with you. You want to make yourself go through the pain. It’s better to be held than holding on,” -She’s In The Rain (The Rose)

“If all it is is eight letters, why is it so hard to say? If all it is is eight letters then why am I in my own way?” -Eight Letters (Why Don’t We)

“Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful angel. Love your imperfections every angle. Tomorrow comes and goes before you know...so i just had to let you know~” -Beautiful (Bazzi)

“Congratulations, I heard you’re doing great...congratulations, how are you okay? I hate that you’re happy, I hope that you can’t sleep,” -Congratulations (Day 6)

“I know I can treat you better than he can. And anyone like you deserves a gentleman,” -You Better (Shawn Mendes) ☆

“Congratulations, you’re finally leaving. Let’s throw a party here tonight, and toast to the end of you and I,” -Congratulations (Eric Nam)

“Wise men say...only fools rush in. But I can’t help, falling in love...with...you,” -Fools Rush In (Elvis)

“Don’t say you miss me, when you don’t call. Don’t say you’re hurting, without the scars. Don’t say you’re here tonight without tomorrow too. Don’t say you love me, unless you do,” -Don’t Say you Love Me (Fifth Harmony)

“A lifetime of laughter at the expense, of the death of a bachelor,” -Death Of A Bachelor (Panic At The Disco)

“She told me that she loved me by the water fountain. She told me that she loved me and she didn’t love him. And that was really lovely cause it was innocent, but now she has a cup with something else in it…” -Water Fountain (Alec Benjamin) -> Oikawa x Reader ☆

“And I don’t need a reason to keep on dreaming. That we can with this stupid thing...called love,” -Lose (Nikki)

“Don’t take this personal, but personally, I think you should get with somebody like me. But worst of all...you don’t even see,” -Personal (The Vamps)

“But you got a lot of great songs 'bout a lot of shit guys, you did more with 3 minutes than they'll do with their lives. And we'll buy ourselves houses with our heartbreak songs, screw everybody else who ever treated us wrong,” - Three Minutes (JP Saxe) ☆

“I’ve got all my money on you, got all my dollars on you. And I feel like a million bucks, a million bucks, and I give no f**ks when I’m with you,” -Million Bucks (Smallpools)

“She put my name in yellow hearts. Her favourite colour like the stars. I didn’t listen very hard, when she told me she was crazy from the start,” -Yellow Hearts (Ant Saunders)

“And I want you to cry, cry for me. Like I cried for you baby, cry for me,” -Cry For Me (Twice)

“Please don’t let this love die young, please don’t let this love die young. If I’m going to lose someone, don’t let it be you,” -Love Die Young (Eric Nam)

“Ain't never felt this way, can't get enough so stay with me. It's not like we got big plans. Let's drive around town holding hands,” -ILYSB (Lany)

“Maybe I don’t want to be just friends, see you only on the weekends. Sorry hope you understand, I like you a little too much for that,” -Just Friends (JORDY)

“Golden eyes, if it ain’t you girl I don’t want to try. Baby, baby, baby you’re my diamond shine,” -Golden Eyes (Layto)

“I like me better when I’m with you. I like me better when I’m with you. I knew from the first time, I stayed for a long time cause~ I like me better when I’m with you,” -I Like Me Better (Lauv)

“Hey pretty Stranger, I think you look cute, I don’t think I’ve ever met someone like you,” -Your Text (Sundial)

“And They say, Chivalry is dead. So let a real man pick up the slack, and treat you with respect,” -Chivalry Is Dead (Trevor Wesely)

“And I Know there’s no making this right, and I know there’s no changing your mind. But we both have each other tonight. So if love is nothing more than just a waste of your time, waste it on me,” -Waste On Me (BTS)

“I hope he treats you better than I ever could. Cause you deserve the world times two and the perfect afternoons. For you to find who fills your heart even if I’m not the one you choose,” -Chicken Tendies (Clinton kane) ☆

“It’s bittersweet to think about the damage we do, cause I was going down but I was doing it with you. And I say that I hate you with a smile on my face,” -Favourite Crime (Olivia Rodrigo)

“Find me, in another place in time. If only, if only you were mine. But I’m already someone else’s baby,” -Baby (Clean Bandit)

“And I might never stop your sorrow, fix you up good as new. But that don’t mean that I can’t hold your hand in mine,” -Someone You Like (Girl And The Dream Catcher)

“Cause when you said jump I said ‘how high?’ But when I jumped you said ‘goodbye,’ “ -Walked Through Hell (Anson Seabra)

“I want to love me, the way that you love me. Oh, from all of my pretty, and all of my ugly too, I love it when I see me from your point of view,” POV (Ariana Grande) -> Giyuu x Reader

Have fun :)

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theshadowmalec · 4 years ago

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So i’ve read The Land I Lost recently again and I never had the courage to do a review because it’s so good i’m scared that my words is not enough to describe how amazing magnus and alec are, and i’m not a writer... sooo..

(This is not a review probably more like a rant)

I want to start this by saying how much i love Alec Lightwood. How he inspires people, shadowhunters and downworlders alike. But that’s not all. Alec doesn’t just inspire people from his generation or anyone who knows him, he inspires people like me too.

Ever since The Mortal Instruments, Alec is already someone that caught my eye. He seems like an interesting character, the way he protects his siblings, as well as his “sour” personality. I am grateful to be one of the people who saw him develop from a shy boy to someone who’s confident enough to defend not just his siblings, but other people - as well as himself.

In the land i lost, it started with Alec and his life with Magnus and Max. My heart is so full of love and happiness reading about the three of them. How their relationship came this far. How their love for each other extended for one more person, for their kid. How Alec was so insecure before, thinking he would never get to be himself, love someone and have someone love him back. But look where he is. He deserves it.

I said it once that Alec ruined men for me. How he loved Magnus with everything he has and so much more. How, in the long life of Magnus, he never met someone who could love him as much as Alec does - to the point where his goal is to change the world for him. For Magnus. For the world to be a better place. To be kind to Magnus and everyone like him.

I love the details about how he wanted to learn a lot of language but his first PRIORITY is Indonesian because he wants to learn it for Magnus.

I love that we get to see the TMI gang again. How much they loved little blueberry. How Jace once put him inside a bag to sneak him out or how Isabelle and Lily seems to spoil the hell out of him.

The first few pages started out as comedic especially with the scenes with the vampires at dumort. I love Elliot. At the same time, my heart breaks immediately at the mention of Raphael. I know how much he meant to Lily, and how much Lily meant to him too. And how Alec noticed all of that and wanted to be someone there for Lily too. He’s always protected his siblings, everyone who needed protection. This is one of the things i love about him.

I clapped my hands so hard when Alec went to the Buenos Aires Institute and was told how women were said to be not suited to run one and he responded with having Jia and Clary as leaders and that anyone who says women are weak is afraid that they’re too strong. 👏🏼👏🏼 As well as that scene where he told them off about checking how they talk about Lily, or Magnus. This attitude makes me love him more. It makes Alec such a great character because HE IS.

He is one of the heroes in the dark war. He is the son of the inquisitor. He is Jace’s parabatai, and as stated in the book, he was protected in a way many others were not. That meant he had to use whatever he had, for those who do not have protection. I screamed. He is amazing. And Magnus’ putting a spell and magic for protection was heartwarming. This feels like a fanfic coming to life. My heart is so full, i love them so much i feel like i’m going to burst.

Alec often mentions how Magnus seems to humble himself with how he help other people. That, he doesn’t know the magnitude of the help he did and that he deserved the praise. The whole time he was saying that, i was like???? Alec is the same. He often brush off those achievements and calls it a day — calls it his responsibility, as is many shadowhunters are like him. This made me appreciate the scene with Juliette, with how Alec rescued her and now she’s here a Queen of the Market. I love how she was so hostile when she introduced her faerie child, as if she’s protecting and and defending her to those who will deem her not worthy of being a werewolf mother to a faerie child, then alec was just like “oh well i have a son who’s not like me too, here’s max” and it’s so pure and just SO alec.

I also love how they teased Alec about his looks. How he still feels like he’s not someone to appreciate.

Random mentions of Will still hits me. How Alec’s blue eyes are like will, but he wasn’t Will, any more than Jace was. No one of them could ever be Will.

What stands up to me most is Lily’s story. It breaks me. It made me cry. How she met Cordelia and most importantly, how she met Raphael. How Raphael is someone she never expected to love. How even in his death, she values and respects him enough to take care of everything he had when he was alive.

I also am happy with the way they introduced Rafael. How Alec felt connected to him. How he felt for him. How he wished kids like Rafael didn’t have to suffer the same fate. How the Law should be so much better for the children. I lost it when he mentioned wanting and loving teaching a child simple things, how he planned on doing that to his little brother when he gets older, but he had not grown up and never will be.

If there’s someone who understands Alec when it comes to his relationship with an immortal. It would be Jem, and i’m so happy with the conversation they get to have. How their love for Tessa and Magnus should be enough, and how they should trust them enough to live and laugh after they are gone.

I also love bits of pieces where his relationship with Clary progressed. How i remember that hatred he got when i first read city of bones and now here they are — getting tacos together. How he had come to love her, after resenting her so much at first.

How talking about Will, Jem’s parabatai, reminds him of Jace. How Alec had loved and felt responsible for his family. There had never been any choice, but with Jace it was different. Jace, his parabatai, the first person who’d ever chosen him. The first time Alec had decided to choose someone back, to take on another responsibility. The first choice, opening the door to all the others.

Alec Lightwood, leader of the alliance. I will never get tired of saying how proud i am of him. Those moments with Robert are so heartbreaking, considering i’ve read Lord of Shadows and knew what happened. I hated how Robert treated Alec. But Alec is kind, and everything good, he forgave his dad and Robert is trying, who are we to judge that? He doesn’t understand most things — but he TRIES. He loves his children that much. And it’s amazing how Alec stood up for Magnus. How he get shy but never ashamed, he spent his childhood resenting what he wanted, why should be do that now? He never have to be ashamed anymore. Not when it’s Magnus. Not when he’s worth everything he’s fighting for.

I love Robert bringing up him being the next inquisitor, how, when Alec heard, immediately thought of changing the laws for everyone. For Magnus, always for Magnus. Now for his kids too.

“You’re a good man, Alec,” he said at last. “You’re a better man than I am.”

Alec loved his father and would never be cruel to him. So he didn’t say: I had to be. Instead he reached out and pulled his father into an awkward hug, patting him on the shoulder before he stepped back.

Raphael being part of the Lightwood-Bane makes me happy. I was not kidding when i said i have no words and i feel like i don’t deserve to write something about them because it’s too good that it’s not gonna be enough. But here’s what i wanna say. I love the love Magnus and Alec have. Is it possible to love two person inlove so much? Because i do. After what they’ve been through, they deserved that. Alec deserved that. Magnus deserved that.

I will forever love Alec. I will forever remember how he loved one man so much he changed the world for him.

#land i lost #gotsm #cassandra clare #cassieclare #magnus bane #malec #alec lightwood #max lightwood bane #rafael lightwood bane

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cassianstattoo · 4 years ago

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HAPPY ACOSF RELEASE DAY!

(ACOSF SPOILERS AHEAD) ARE YOU EXCITED?

I personally am. It’s time for Nesta’s story (and not just hers) to be told. So, this leads to another thing I think (and hope) you’ve been waiting for.

LET’S EXPLAIN THE PLAYLIST! (Read every song’s meaning while or after reading the book) And thank you for all your love and support.

“Alone” by Melancholia: It describes the Cauldron scene at the beginning of the book. In this song you can feel the rage and how hard she’s struggling. This song is not about weakness. It’s about her strength.

“Impossible” by James Arthur: Chapter 1. Even if it’s not so clear in this chapter, I think this song represents how Cassian feels when Nesta’s around. He feels worthless and not so different from the other men she beds (as he thought in ACOFAS). He lost his hope of an happy future with the woman he loves and he feels like he’s breaking that last promise she made her. Everything just seems so impossible.

“Sister” by The Black Keys: Chapter 2. This just makes me think of Feyre and Nesta’s fight. It’s from Feyre’s pov.

“New House” by Toro y Moi: “I want a brand new house Something I can not buy, something I can afford I just want a long shower I been feeling so crowded” Chapter 3. It’s about Nesta settling down in the House of Wind. It’s not the place she feels she can call “home”. First of all, it’s not really hers. The last two sentences of this verse are about her breathing and trying to calm herself at the end of the chapter. She’s just tired.

“My Mother & I” by Lucy Dacus: Chapter 4. The whole song is about Nesta and the relationship with her mother when she was a child. I think there’s nothing else to say. Also, in the 1st Chapter it says that she’s born in spring, so the song talks about a girl who was born in May. It all fits.

“Teacher’s Pet” by Melanie Martinez”: “Teacher’s pet If I’m so special, why am I secret? Yeah, why the fuck is that? Do you regret The things we shared that I’ll never forget? Well, do you? Tell me that I know I’m young, but my mind is well beyond my years I knew this wouldn’t last, but fuck you, don’t you leave me here” Chapter 5 and 6. Nesta and Cassian’s first day of training together. She basically doesn’t want to act like she’s his pet and she’s got to do whatever he want just to respect her sister’s will.

“Dangerous Man” by Valley Of Wolves: “They say I’m a wanted man Holding line and break the fire I’m setting all the captives free But I’m hanging by a wire” Chapter 7. It’s about Eris and his double-cross. That’s how probably Cassian pictures Eris in his mind tbh.

“Control” by Halsey: Chapter 8. Nesta facing the stairs. It can be linked to other chapters too because if you take this song as a whole and not just a few verses, it really contains A LOT of things. For example, the line “The House was awake”. Also Chapter 9, when people start calling their children. You can find this moment in the song when it says “All the kids cried out ‘please stop, you’re scaring me”.

“Bookstore Girl” by Charlie Burg: Chapter 9. The bookstore girl is Gwyn and Nesta tries to know more about her.

“Wrong Direction” by Hailee Steinfeld: “I don’t hate you” Chapter 12. This song is about the chapter’s ending.

“You’ve Got a Friend In Me” by Cavetown: Chapter 13. Nesta and Gwyn’s interaction. Also, Nesta helping her.

“like that” by Bea Miller: Chapter 16. Nesta and Cassian’s tension is hilarious, but this song makes me thing about this scene so much.

“Queen” by Shawn Mendes: Chapter 17. Elain fighting with Nesta. This lyrics is so powerful. The first part is Elain talking to Nesta. The second part is Nesta talking to Elain.

“You’ll Follow Me Down” by Skunk Anansie: Chapter 17. Same scene. This is totally Nesta. She’s so scared of herself and of the world that surrounds her. She’s afraid to lose her sister in this world she still knows nothing about if not violence. She wants Elain by her side, even if it means dragging her down with her.

“Teeth” by 5 Seconds of Summer: Chapters 18/19. I like to call it “THE chapter”. Do you need me to explain why I chose this song? Um, I don’t think so. You know it.

“Only You” by Ellie Goulding: “Baby I’m on my knees” Chapter 22. He’s... returning the favor.

“Revolution” by Diplo, Faustix, Imanos, Kai: Chapter 24. Our girl Nesta knows what she’s doing. What she’s starting.

“Best Friend for Hire” by Anthony Amorim: Chapter 25. The whole song is about Nesta and Emerie’s interaction. Everytime I listen to it I can’t help but cry.

“Moment’s Silence (Common Tongue)” by Hozier: Chapter 26. Nesta’s worried about Cassian and gives him relief.

“Rise Up” by Andra Day: Chapters 27/28. These three girls are going to rise up, bitches.

“Nina Cried Power” by Hozier, Mavie Staples: Chapter 29. This song is really powerful, just like Nesta. She always is, but in this chapter we learn HOW MUCH.

“Fix Me Now” by Garbage: “Bring me back to life (fix me now) Kiss me blind” Chapter 31. THAT scene. HE HEATED UP THE WHOLE ROOM Y’ALL. Cassian literally kissed her back to life.

“Ready or Not” by Fugees: Chapters 34/35/36. I can’t choose only one quote from this song. But can you hear its vibes? Nesta’s leading a dead army. This is THE power.

“PILLOWTALK” by ZAYN: Chapter 37. *wink* This song says everything.

“Go Fuck Yourself” by Two Feet: Always chapter 37. I couldn’t choose just one song, you know. Also, lowkey Chapter 38.

“Never Again” by Breaking Benjamin: “Never again, never again Time will ot take the life from me” Chapter 38′s ending. All I can say is: NEVER AGAIN.

“Boy In The Bubble” by Alec Benjamin: Not linked to just one chapter. It makes me thing of Azriel a lot.

“Past Lives” by BØRNS: “I've got the strangest feeling This isn't our first time around Past lives couldn't ever come between us Some time the dreamers finally wake up Don't wake me I'm not dreaming“ Chapter 39. Gwyn and Azriel. Well, these lines are about them, but I think the rest of the song represents Elain and Azriel, too. I don’t know if you feel the same.

“Boulevard of Broken Dreams” by Green Day: THIS IS AZRIEL’S SONG. YOU CAN’T TELL ME OTHERWISE.

“Watch Me While I Bloom” by Hayley Williams: Chapter 41. Nesta teaching Cassian how to treat a woman. She’s got big dick energy ayeee

“R U Mine?” by Arctic Monkeys: Still chapter 41. Cassian taking control of the situation. This song just screams “dominant” lmao.

“Walls Could Talk” by Halsey: So Halsey once said “The House was awake” (Control). What if those Walls Could Talk? Like, poor thing. It could have a mental breakdown. This song is dedicated to the House of Wind ‘cause it needs respect. It’s alive. Just imagine how’d you feel watching non-stop those two fucking and fighting. Also Azriel, you’re loved.

“Despicable” by grandson: “If I were you I wouldn’t love me neither” Chapter 43. Tamlin deserves a song, too.

“Part Of Me” by Katy Perry: Chapters 45/46. It’s all SO chaotic. This song means a lot of things. They all lied to her, but this song is particularly about Nesta and Amren’s fight. In my opinion, she did the right think telling Feyre the truth ‘cause she deserved to know, but it just wasn’t the right time and space.

“Don’t Give Up On Me” by Andy Grammer: Chapter 47. Cassian’s going to take care of Nesta. She made a mistake but she knows here better than anyone. He won’t give up on her.

“There You Are” by ZAYN: Chapter 50. Cassian comforts Nesta when she finally explodes. He’s there for her with open arms.

“You Found Me” by The Fray: Still Chapter 50. This chapter was so hard to read and this is another song that can describe it best.

“Locked Out Of Heaven” by Bruno Mars: Chapter 51. Illyrian bat boys just love flat objects. I see.

“Thin White Lies” by 5 Seconds of Summer: Chapter 51. Yeah, still thinking about that desk.

“Chosen Family” by Rina Sawayama: Still Chapter 51. This song is wholly dedicated to Nesta’s new found family. Not only Gwyn and Emerie, but also Cassian.

“Library Magic” by The Head And The Heart: Chapter 52. Listen to this song and read the scene at the beginning of the chapter.

“Battle Cry” by Imagine Dragons: Chapter 54. I know it’s weird but I feel this song talks about Lanthys and Nesta’s fight.

“Hurt” by Christina Aguilera: Chapter 55. Nesta takes Cassian to the place she lived with her family in the mortal lands. It’s dirty and broken now but it’s still there. Nes talks about her father and realizes how much he’s done for her and her sisters.

“Story Of Another Us” by 5 Seconds of Summer: Chapter 56. I know this sounds like a sad song but to me it represents Gwyn’s present. The story of their past (of another “them”) and also their present.

“Drama Club” by Melanie Martinez: Chapter 57. Eris vibes, y’all. I know you can feel them. Everytime I listen to this song I can’t help but thinking of him. So the only thing I can tell you is: listen carefully.

“Genius” by Sia, Diplo, Labrinth: Chapter 57. Hear this song. It just makes me think of a ballroom where two people try to talk to other people and they’re avoiding to make eye contact. And they fail (yeah, those people are Cassian and Nesta btw)

“Therefore I Am” by Billie Eilish: Chapter 57. Still about Eris, but also Cassian. They can’t stand each other. So imagine the astronomical energy (inside of this bus lmfao) when Nesta comes in between.

“All About Us” by He Is We, Owl City: Chapter 57. Nessian dancing.

“Rock Bottom” by Hailee Steinfeld ft. DNCE: Chapter 58. This song is SO accurate. This is the moment I realized “That’s it. I think I can die happy now” and then I started crying. Nesta just thinking she’s not enough and she deserves to be with someone as ugly as she thinks she is. Cassian is like “shut the hell up, woman” and yeah. That’s the kind of energy and conversation I was waiting for.

“Stop Crying Your Heart Out” by Oasis: Chapter 58. Their life becomes brighter. They have to stop crying their heart out because of their fears and the emotions they keep trying to hide. They need to feel free and express all the love they can give to each other.

“Fade Into You” by Nashville Cast, Sam Palladio, Clare Bowen: Chapter 58. Finally the truth comes out and everything becomes real. Even if the song is pretty sad, the lyrics is just SO accurate and it describes the scene perfectly.

“I Miss You” by Adele: Chapter 59. Basically Nesta feeling needy ‘cause she doesn’t see Cassian for days, but it’s more than that. Pay attention to the depth of the song. It shakes you. And that’s what Nesta feels when she thinks of Nesta.

“Beautiful” by Christina Aguilera: Chapter 59/61. I want to dedicate it to my favorite girls in this book: Nesta, Emerie and Gwyn. They’ve been through a lot but they also learnt to face their fears. And they realized that unity is strength.

“Smile” by Uncle Kracker: Chapter 62. Cassian’s sooo happy to be with Nesta it breaks my heart. And his own too.

“Broken Pieces” by 5 Seconds of Summer: Chapter 62. Aaand here we go again. Cassian just wants Nesta to give him the chance to be happy with her.

“Carried Away” by H.E.R.: Chapter 62. Nesta thinks they got too carried away and now they’re at a point of no return. She opened herself to him too much. It’s not like she regrets this but she understands that now everything’s too real and changing. She doesn’t feel ready.

"What’s Up?” by 4 Non Blondes: Ending of Chapter 63. Okay, I’ll make you laugh but this is me after reading it. I needed to put a song about how I felt when I read this freaking ending, after all the devastation Chapter 62 brought into my heart. And the fact that Nesta’s 25 and the first line begins with “25 years”... I DIED. Also I think of her just screaming to the word “WHAT’S GOING ON?!”.

“Sisters Are Doin’ It For Themselves” by Eurythmics ft. Aretha Franklin: Chapters 64/65/66. DO I NEED TO DESCRIBE IT? NAH, I DON’T THINK SO. THESE GIRLS ARE POWERFUL, STRONG AND SMART AS HELL.

“Run The World (Girls)” by Beyoncé Chapters 67/68/69/70. The girls want to win and they’re going to conquer everything with no mercy.

“Puppets” by Depeche Mode: Chapter 71. Eris impotence t is heartbreaking.

“Warriors” by Imagine Dragons: This song is for every character. It’s about Nesta, Emerie and Gwyn, but also Cassian, Azriel and Eris. They’re fighting different battles and they’re doing it with every ounce of power they have.

“Emperor’s New Clothes” by Panic! At The Disco: Chapter 74. Nesta kicking Briallyn’s ass.

“Survivor” by Destiny’s Child: This song is dedicated to Emerie and Gwyn. They spent all their lives learning how to survive. At the end, they finally won.

“Set Fire to the Rain” by Adele: THE Nessian Anthem. I put this here ‘cause FINALLY they’re endgame. But something bad’s about to happen...

“Cancer” by My Chemical Romance: Chapter 76. This chapter’s been the hardest one to face. I had to put the book down for a minute and breathe. I know this song made you panic and ow you know why I chose it. I can’t stop crying thinking about Feyre in those conditions and all the IC and her sisters surrounding her. I’m still so heartbroken.

“You Saved Me” by Skunk Anansie: Chapter 77. Nesta cares about Feyre. She’s her little sister and she just can’t let her die like that. She gave her a happy ending even if Nes had to lose almost every ounce of power she had and learned to accept. But they’re worthless in comparison with her sisters life. She just loves them both. She’d do anything for them and this scene proves it.

“Lean on Me” by Bill Withers: This song is about friendship and sisterhood. Nesta’s relationship with Gwyn and Emerie, but also with Feyre and Elain (and lowkey Rhys). Also, I dedicate it to little Nyx, too. They all love you, babyboy, and would do anything for you. Welcome to this chaotic world, kid!

“Sorry” by Halsey: Chapter 78. These are not explicit apologies. Nesta doesn’t need to say “sorry” vocally. She already demonstrated it. Her actions speak louder than words and her sister know it. This song is not about a “romantic lover” but a “person who loves” and they all love too much and strongly.

“Amazing” by Aerosmith: WE FINALLY SEE THE LIGHT. This is the happy ending they deserve (but the cliffhanger is killing me tbh). It’s about everyone in this book. I put it in the playlist ‘cause at first I thought it could refer to Azriel and Cassian. But the more i listened to it, the more I realized it just describes every single character.

“The Reason” by Hoobastank↓

“this is me trying” by Taylor Swift: Both the songs refer to Chapter 80. Nesta visiting her father’s grave is one of the first steps to finally go on. The songs represent what she really wants to tell her father. He’s the reason to start over. And she’s trying. Even if she made mistakes she’s ready to fight for the happiness and love she denied herself years and now she knows she deserves it.

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moonlight-breeze-44 · 3 years ago

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we found love (right in front of me) ~ Jalec Secret Santa 2021

Hey, guys! Today's fic is written for @takaraphoenix through the 2021 Jalec Secret Santa. [To my giftee: I really hope you enjoy this! I played with your soulmate AU prompt and added some hurt/comfort for our favourite parabatai pair.]

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ Alec has wondered for years when he'll meet his soulmate; Jace has struggled for years to accept that he may never have one. What they don't know is that, when secrets are revealed, Jace and Alec might just find their own story written between the lines of themselves. Read on AO3

It wasn’t that Alec needed a soulmate. It wasn’t that he was any less of a leader without one, or any less of a person or brother or friend. He had taken care of Jace, Izzy, and Max their entire lives, straight from the day Izzy was born. When Jace came to live with the Lightwoods at age ten, Alec had adopted him into their family from the moment he saw him. He had fed them, trained them, disciplined them, and made sure they felt loved all their lives. He had been running the New York Institute since he was fourteen, and he was Idris’ top pick for the Consul come next election. He knew he was lucky – he had family, he had friends, and he had his title. He had love, respect, and influence. Every morning, when he caught sight of the black soulmark, a tiny deflect rune swimming in the shadow of an ink-black sun on his ribcage, he tried to remind himself that he had everything he needed to be happy, to succeed.. He didn’t need a soulmate.

But that didn’t change how much he wanted one.

Alec had been in love with the idea of soulmates since he was four years old and his mother had told him stories of the first Shadowhunters to be marked, who were destined to be together by old Law. She had told him about their love, the unbreakable bond they shared. In battle and in life, she had said, their hearts make up half of each other’s. They share one heart, one love, one death. Alec didn’t believe in fate or destiny now, not like he had back then, but some small, hopeful part of him still clung to the idea that there was someone in the world that he belonged with.

He still held out hope that somehow, somewhere, there was a heart waiting to find its other half; waiting to find him.

A frantic knock on his door startled Alec out of his thoughts, and he called, “Come in!” without looking up from the paperwork he was supposed to be filling out.

A moment later, his sister bounded into his office, a radiant smile on her face. “Alec! I can’t believe it! I have to tell you about this first, you’re my big brother and I can’t wait to show you,” she rambled, practically vibrating with joy.

“Jeez, Iz, what’s going on?” Alec asked, chuckling and setting the paperwork off to the side so he could give Izzy his full attention. “What are you so happy about?”

“Look!” Izzy pointed to her wrist, where her soulmark – a serpent and a wolf, fighting for dominance – was usually jet-black against her skin. However, Alec noticed immediately that something was different.

Izzy’s soulmark was gleaming dark yellow, almost golden, and where before it looked like a painting, or just another rune that marked her skin, it was now pulsating, like it was breathing right along with Izzy; like it had just become a life of its own.

Alec stood up from his desk and reached for her, drawing Izzy into a bone-crushing hug. “I’m so happy for you,” he breathed into her dark brown hair. “You deserve this, Iz.” Izzy returned the hug just as fiercely, hooking her arms around her brother’s back.

“You were the first one I wanted to tell,” she murmured. “I - I love you, Alec.”

Alec’s heart smiled at her words, a fond warmth filling him from the inside out. “I love you too, Iz.”

Before long, Izzy pulled away, giving her brother a peck on the cheek before she headed for the door. “You can meet her tonight,” she promised. “We can all have dinner together. You’re going to love her, Alec.” Quieter, almost to herself, she added: “I do.” With that, she was out the door to return to her newfound soulmate, or perhaps to tell Jace and Clary and Simon, but not before giving Alec one last smile, smiled, as bright and beautiful as heavenly fire. Alec couldn’t help but smile back.

It’s about time Izzy found her soulmate.

She deserves this.

Alec tried to refocus on his paperwork, but the thought of Izzy and her soulmate wouldn’t leave his mind. Mixed in with the happiness for his sister and the relief that she had found the person she was meant to be with, he couldn’t help the bitterness that crept up his throat, or the sadness that threatened to choke him. He was happy for Izzy, so happy that words couldn’t even begin to express it, but beneath that, he felt a small well of despair that he couldn’t seem to rid himself of.

Abandoning the paperwork for now, Alec grabbed his keys and his stele and exited his office, turning towards his bedroom. He wouldn’t get any paperwork done like this. He needed to grab his bow and work off some of his feelings in the training room. It would do no one any good if he sat there moping all day, least of all Izzy and her new soulmate.

When he reached his room, he was surprised to find that it wasn’t empty.

Sat on his bed with one hand in his hair and one hand clutching Alec’s bedsheets, the familiar figure of Jace caught Alec’s eye. A pulse of warmth and belonging rushed through him, and Alec smiled without meaning to. Parabatai.

“Hey,” he said, putting his keys and stele on his desk and sitting down next to Jace, “You okay?” He knew his parabatai wouldn’t seek him out like this if he wasn’t upset. If he needed something work or family related, he would have come to the office. Something was wrong.

Jace made a small sound in the back of his throat and leaned closer to Alec, dropping the hand that was anxiously running through his hair into his lap in defeat. Alec shifted closer to his parabatai, placing an arm around his shoulders and allowing Jace to nestle into his side.

“Jace, what’s wrong?” Alec asked softly.

“Just…” Jace started, then stopped, heaving a sigh and twisting his hands together in his lap. “Izzy told me that she found her soulmate.”

“Yeah, she told me, too,” Alec said. He reached over and grabbed one of Jace’s hands, giving it a squeeze, as if to say Keep going. I’m right here.

“And I just – I should feel happy for her, and I do, but I just can’t - ” Jake broke off, swallowing hard. “I just can’t stop thinking that I’ll never find mine.”

Alec’s heart broke at his words, and he tightened the arm that was around Jace’s shoulders, holding his parabatai as close as he physically could. He should have thought of what the news might do to Jace. For centuries, all Shadowhunters had been marked with soulmarks. They appeared at age six, and it was often cause for celebration when a young Shadowhunter’s new soulmark was revealed. They appeared overnight, pulsing red the next morning until the Shadowhunter noticed the new brand on their skin. Every Shadowhunter had one, since beyond the beginning of their culture; since the beginning of time.

Every Shadowhunter, except Jace.

Alec could still remember when his mother had asked Jace, shortly after he’d been brought to live with the Lightwoods: “Where’s your soulmark?” And the ten year-old boy, who hadn’t shed a single tear since he’d arrived, even when Maryse had asked about his parents and what happened to them, began to sob uncontrollably.

Since then, no one had ever asked Jace about his soulmark again, but it was common knowledge in the Institute why not; Jace was the only Shadowhunter without a soulmark.

Alec had done some research, trying to help his parabatai, but information about Shadowhunters without soulmarks was limited. There had never been one before Jace. Most of the information he had been able to gather had been from the Downworld, who had their own soulmarks; it was much more common among Downworlders to have unusual soulmarks, including multiple or none at all. He had talked to the High Warlock of Madrid, who had told him that, in the Downworld, those without soulmarks were unlikely to ever find someone that they could spend the rest of their lives with. It was a fate he couldn’t imagine, and it made his worries about finding his soulmate seem trivial in the face of Jace’s loss.

“I know I don’t need one to be happy,” Jace said, snapping Alec out of his thoughts, “but I want one, Alec, so bad.” He clenched his free hand into a fist and turned to Alec with a desperate, pleading expression. “I want to find someone I love so fucking bad.”

“I know,” Alec murmured, turning towards Jace fully and pulling his parabatai into his arms. “I’m so sorry, Jace. I would do anything for you to have that.” It was true. Alec would rip apart Hell and Heaven both if it meant that Jace could find his soulmate. He would even give up his own soulmark if it meant that his parabatai could be happy with a person that he loved.

Jace tucked his head into the crook of Alec’s neck and allowed himself to cry, just a few tears, reminiscent of the day he had sobbed into his own hands when he was ten in front of Maryse, Alec, and Izzy. Alec couldn’t imagine how heartbreaking it must be, to watch everyone that he loved finding their soulmates and getting married while Jace was left behind, stuck on the sidelines of their society and tradition. He knew it had to be isolating, at the very least, so he did his best to make sure that Jace knew he wasn’t alone.

Alec was the only person that Jace had ever trusted with this, and Alec was grateful for it. He thought he knew why; at 27 years old, he was still without a soulmate, when most Shadowhunters found theirs before they were even in their 20s. Alec understood the pain of missing someone he’d never met all too well.

Jace turned in Alec’s arms, bringing him back to reality, and shifted so he could meet Alec’s eyes. His cheeks were shiny with tears, and he said in a whisper: “Can I tell you something I’ve never told anyone else?”

“Of course,” Alec reassured him, without hesitation. “You know I’ll always keep your secrets, parabatai.”

“I wasn’t born without one,” Jace said, his voice almost too quiet for Alec to hear. “A soulmark.”

“What do you mean?”

“I had one, once,” Jace said, and his voice sounded full of pain. When Alec looked into his heterochromatic eyes, they were haunted and far away. “It appeared when I was six, just like it was supposed to. I still remember what it looked like. A strength rune overshadowed by a bow and arrows. It was beautiful. I had it for a year.” He paused to take a shaky breath, and when he looked back up at Alec, it was with the unspoken promise that what he was about to say would never be shared with anyone else as long as they both lived.

“When I was seven, Valentine found my soulmark and burnt it off.”

Alec swallowed his gasp of horror, tightening his arms around Jace and fighting to tame the protective fire in his stomach. The idea of anyone burning his parabatai was almost too much to bear, but he knew he had to be strong; for Jace.

“H-He said it was a weakness. He told me that having a soulmate meant that there would be someone that enemies could use to get to me. He - He always said when I asked about it that a soulmate could take the focus away from my mission. To love is to destroy.”

Alec felt his heart break for the second time that day, and he pulled his parabatai impossibly closer, wishing with everything in him that he could make Jace feel the depth of his love, and how beautiful it was. They were stronger together.

“Do you remember what Clary said to you, when you told her the story of your falcon that first time?” Alec murmured into Jace’s ear. Without waiting for a response, he continued, “She told you that love is power. To love someone is to gain a friend, an ally, a partner in all that you do. Love is the thread that binds us all together.”

Jace nodded into Alec’s neck, and Alec pressed a soft kiss to the crown of his head. “She was right, Jace. I swear to you.”

“I know,” Jace said quietly, his voice wavering. “I just – it’s just hard, sometimes.”

“I know,” Alec echoed. “Believe me, I get it. When something is drilled into you, so hard that it seems like it’s all the way underneath your skin – it’s hard to get rid of that voice inside your head. But that voice is Valentine’s, Jace, not yours. And your voice is the only one that matters.”

Jace didn’t say anything in response, couldn’t; but he didn’t have to. Alec knew what was going through his mind. Sometimes their connection seemed to surpass even that of parabatai. Alec couldn’t imagine knowing anyone, or loving anyone, like he loved Jace.

After a few minutes had passed, Jace shifted in Alec’s arms, prompting Alec to release him and allow him to sit back a little. His gaze was focused on his lap, and he hesitated, turning towards Alec without looking at him. “No one’s ever seen my soulmark. Or, what’s left of it, anyway.”

“No one ever has to,” Alec promised him. “Not unless you want them to.”

Jace shrugged. “I kind of want you to. Just – Just to see it. So you know. So you know where it is, or where it used to be.”

“Okay,” Alec said, nodding and giving Jace’s hand a squeeze. “If that’s what you want, then I’m happy for you to show me.”

Jace nodded, and without another word he was pulling his shirt over his head, and he pointed to a mass of scar tissue on his skin that Alec had never seen before. When they trained together, Jace had always kept his shirt on, and even when they were kids he had refused to change shirts in front of Alec. He’d change pants or shorts or even boxers, but he had always kept his abdomen hidden, and Alec understood why.

The scar was cracked and thick, grotesque-looking, a spiderweb of lines extending from the center of Jace’s ribcage, where Valentine had chased the last of Jace’s soulmark across his skin, burning it until nothing was left. Alec took a deep breath, shoving down the urge to punch something. Getting angry at someone he couldn’t reach wouldn’t help Jace now.

He didn’t – couldn’t – understand exactly what this moment meant to Jace, but he knew he had been trusted with something important; Jace wouldn’t show the scar, nor tell the story, to anyone but Alec. It had taken him 26 years to utter the words. So Alec just reached for Jace’s hand again and squeezed, trying to tell the other half of his soul without the words that he was here for him, he wasn’t going anywhere, and no scar from Jace’s past could ever scare Alec away.

“Here,” Jace said, and brought their joined hands to his ribcage to rest against the burn scar. “Feel.” Alec knew, of course, what Jace wasn’t saying: Feel what I feel. I want you to understand me.

Alec pressed all five of his fingers into the scar, the remnants of Jace’s soulmark, and the feeling overwhelmed him, something close to empathy but deeper, a feeling so visceral that Alec let out a strangled sob, his shoulders shaking. A gasp forced its way out of his throat, and something exploded behind his eyes, and oh Raziel, it all makes sense now.

“Jace,” Alec mumbled, and the sound of his parabatai’s name on his lips made something click within Alec, like a lock snapping open, like a door being closed, like the end of a book or the beginning of a new story.

“Alec,” Jace answered, and his voice was full of wonder. He looked radiant standing in front of him, more beautiful than ever before, and Alec hadn’t thought that was possible, and suddenly Alec realised: He looked like the sun. He was as bright, as fierce, as capturing as the sun, and he was what Alec had always orbited around.

Alec grabbed at the hem of his own t-shirt with shaky fingers and lifted it up just enough to see his own soulmark, glowing golden. It was relief and euphoria and love all at once, and Alec didn’t even try to stop the tears from rolling down his cheeks. I found my soulmate. And all this time, he was right here.

Right in front of me.

“Soulmate,” Jace said, and there was something sure and complete in his voice, like the last piece of a puzzle he’d been trying to solve for years had finally slotted itself into place.

“Soulmate,” Alec repeated in awe. The words burned his throat, but it felt like the kind of burn he felt in his lungs after running through the city, hot on a demon’s trail, or the burn of his stele, tracing a new rune onto his skin. It felt like life. It felt like a promise. It felt like hope.

Alec moved forward almost unconsciously, following the pull of the feeling, and met Jace’s lips like they were both born to do it, and maybe they were. It was the first of many, a new beginning, and Alec knew now that he had been wrong; he did need a soulmate. He needed this soulmate. And with any luck, he always would.

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All That I’ve Got

Read on AO3 (a s02e10 inspired fic) Jace is no stranger to putting on a brave face and dealing with his thoughts on his own. It’s what he’s always done, from his time as a child trying so hard to prove he was as callous as a good soldier needed to be, to his time with the Lightwoods desperate not to be more of a burden to the family that took him in, to his casual romantic partners who never went beyond a surface awareness of who Jace really is and what he’s really thinking. And this… this is going to be no different.

Because there’s only one person Jace wants to talk to just then, to pour his heart out to about Valentine and Clary and Simon and everything, and it happens to be the same person he can’t bring himself to face.

Alec.

The look of horror, of disappointment and disgust on Alec’s face when he learned the sword was activated, and activated by Jace, isn’t one he’s ever going to forget. He’s annoyed Alec before, angered him with his reckless decisions more times than either of them can count, but this? This is different.

Because of him, dozens of Downworlders are dead.

Because of him, Magnus might be dead.

Jace doesn’t know what he’ll do if Magnus is among the casualties of the Soul Sword. He doesn’t know how his parabatai will ever be able to look at him again, much less forgive him… Not that Jace expects to be forgiven. Not for any of it, he doesn’t deserve it, because he played right into Valentine’s hands.

You’re nothing if not predictable, son

Because that’s how you are, always ready to right the wrong.

Valentine knew. He knew, and he played Jace every step of the way. And Jace should’ve known better. He should’ve seen it coming, and been more cautious. Instead, he did what he always did, and tried to be the martyr, to live up to the savior complex he’s been accused of having time and time again.

But there was one thing Valentine hadn’t accounted for.

You are not my son. I’m not your father. Jocelyn is not your mother. And Clary… Clary is not your sister. More lies.

Don’t I wish. Truth sword, remember?

The Soul Sword. Holding it, Valentine was unable to lie. Jace wonders if he ever would’ve learned the truth otherwise - clearly Valentine had no intentions of telling him or Clary that they weren’t related. Jace thought he’d feel some sort of relief over not being the son of that psychopath, but he doesn’t. It doesn’t change the fact that Valentine raised him. All it changes is that Jace, who already feels disconnected from the family names he’s associated with throughout his life, now has no family name at all. It isn’t as if he had time to chat with Valentine about whether not being his son means his real father was Michael Wayland, or if that was just a convenient cover, just another lie. He has no idea who he is, no family lineage to claim. Amidst the current chaos, this jarring revelation leaves Jace feeling particularly unmoored.

Does he wish he was Valentine’s son? No. Yes. Maybe? Would that be easier, somehow, than having no biological connection to the man whose voice he hears in the back of his mind after every failure and every success in equal measure?

Or does Jace simply wish he still thought he was Clary’s brother because it would make the ache of not having her hurt that much less just now? Because knowing changes everything, but at the same time it changes nothing, because she’s with Simon, and despite what some people might think he isn’t a complete asshole. He isn’t going to swoop in and try to break them up while they’re happy - and they are happy. They’re good for each other, and they have a simple, carefree sort of happiness that Jace knows deep down he can never bring her, not with the baggage he carries.

It’s a lot to think about. It’s almost too much, when added to the rows of bodies he walks past on his way back through the Institute. Vampires, werewolves, seelies, warlocks… people who put aside every doubt they had in believing the word of a Shadowhunter. People who trusted him with their lives, and lost them because of it.

The Downworlders will never be able to trust a Shadowhunter’s word again, and that’s on him. Him and his predictability. Him, and how easily manipulated he is under Valentine’s influence, even after all these years. He wants to stay and help, wants to try and make up for the damage he’s done, but it’s obvious his presence isn’t wanted. Murmurs and speculations follow him, and every gaze that lands on him is hateful or fearful - sometimes both. His presence is obviously not helping, so he does the only thing he can to make things better for everyone: he leaves.

Jace is quick to make his way through the quiet halls. Despite being full of people, Shadowhunters and Downworlders alike, there’s a somber silence that fills the Institute today. Any voices are quiet, hushed tones of despair and even anger quieted out of respect for the fallen. It only makes the thoughts in his head that much louder, his heavy, booted footsteps echoing against the old stone as he makes his way somewhere private.

It doesn’t take long for his already troubled thoughts to begin a steady downward spiral until he hears footsteps approaching, wondering if it would be Aldertree or Imogen, or some other Clave official sent to find him.

The last person he expects to see is Alec.

“Jace?” Alec’s voice isn’t full of anger or accusation. His expression isn’t one of hate or mistrust. There’s only a quiet sympathy, and a hesitation not out of fear but concern.

“Alec,” Jace breathes out his parabatai’s name in surprise. “Magnus, is he- did you-”

“He’s fine,” Alec’s quick to reassure him, and Jace feels every muscle in his body slump in relief.

“Good,” Jace says.

“What about you?” Alec asks, and there’s that concern again.

“What about me?” Jace echoes, aware of how hollow the words sound in his own ears.

“How are you?” Alec asks again.

The question catches Jace by surprise.

Besides himself, there’s no Shadowhunter who will suffer from the fallout of today more than Alec, yet here he is coming to check up on Jace. Here Alec is, not with the boyfriend he nearly lost but checking in with his obviously hurting parabatai.

Jace had been wrong before... this, this is too much. This is his breaking point: the moment he realizes that Alec still loves him, still cares for him and about him, even now. Even after everything that just transpired and Jace’s role in it.

So, finally, Jace allows himself to break. He talks, explaining everything to Alec, confessing everything to Alec. There are a few tears and a lot of regrets, but mostly there’s a sense of relief. Alec doesn’t leave. He doesn’t blame Jace, doesn’t even raise his voice. But most importantly he stays.

It’s a small comfort he knows he doesn’t deserve but one he clings to all the same, to know that no matter what else Jace ruined today, he hasn’t ruined them. Even if Alec is the only person left by his side in the end, that would be more than enough.

#jace herondale #alec lightwood #parabatai feels #shadowhunters #valentine morgenstern #my coda series continues with more introspective scene fill POVs!#this week featuring ALL THE JACE ANGST #elle writes a few deadbeat lines #long post

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ladyhindsight · 3 years ago

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First, to anon calling what I said "bs": Looks like someone misunderstood what I said 🙄 Why don't come after me instead if you mean to be respectful? Obviously Robert can't help is he's physically scary and obviously he can't help being wrecked over his parabatai bond! Oh my god. Of course none of this means Alec didn't deserve a better father. Robert should have done better and he is very aware of that, just as I am. We already agreed Robert wasn't a good father to Alec, but Alec himself recognizes Robert DIDN'T MEAN to make him feel like that while growing up. I don't know what is your idea of parenthood, but is not everyone who is able to get over their emotional problems enough to be a great parent, and if you think that getting over his emotional problems was actually under Robert's control when Alec also recognizes Michael's absence as a shadow that hung over Robert, I can't do much about it. Nobody here is saying Robert is just a helpless victim of the world, he just should be understood the way other characters always are.

Now for you!: About whatever else Robert may have done to Alec: Robert does aknowledge he said things to Alec he shoudn't have and that he judges unforgivable off page,

“Alec.” Something about Robert’s voice made Alec turn; he didn’t sound angry, just … broken. “I did, I said—unforgivable things. I know that,” he said. “But I have always been proud of you, and I am no less proud now.” (City of Heavenly Fire, epilogue)

The worst practical things we have from Robert against Alec is the dialogue from TRSoM (I can't send you the entire scene if you want) and from CoLS, when we find out Robert is allegedly not supportive of Alec

“My mother seems to have accepted it,” Alec said. “But my father—no, not really. Once he asked me what I thought had turned me gay.”

Simon felt Isabelle tense next to him. “Turned you gay?” She sounded incredulous. “Alec, you didn’t tell me that.”

“I hope you told him you were bitten by a gay spider,” said Simon. Magnus snorted; Isabelle looked confused. “I’ve read Magnus’s stash of comics,” said Alec, “so I actually know what you’re talking about.” A small smile played around his mouth. “So would that give me the proportional gayness of a spider?”

“Only if it was a really gay spider,” said Magnus, and he yelled as Alec punched him in the arm. “Ow, okay, never mind.”

“Well, whatever,” said Isabelle, obviously annoyed not to get the joke. “It’s not like Dad’s ever coming back from Idris, anyway.”

Alec sighed. “Sorry to wreck your vision of our happy family. I know you want to think Dad’s fine with me being gay, but he’s not.” (City of Lost Souls, chapter 17)

We have something from BtEN:

“I did do that,” Alec said. “I did give her keys. Forgive me, Magnus, I love you, I did not know she was going to be like this.”

Usually Robert looked slightly uneasy whenever Alec expressed affection to Magnus. This time, however, he was staring fixedly at the warlock baby and did not even seem to hear.

Magnus was starting to feel ever more disturbed by the turns this night was taking. (Born to Endless Night)

That's it, plus what we get from TRSoM (the only actual scene of Robert being anti-Malec, and that was the last Robert's appearence)

I'll let this for this ask! ;)

Misunderstandings, especially in tone, are fairly common when speaking through plain text. But we should be able to have these conversations and have empathy for flawed characters without it being interpreted as accepting or excusing poor or bad behavior. People have a wide set of feelings and ways they approach these characters and circumstances surrounding them, and I understand that not everyone likes the same character for the same reasons others do and are able to empathize with them. Here Robert for example, or why Jace was still much loved in The Mortal Instruments despite all the things I dislike him for.

Children of course aren’t responsible for their parents’ emotional lives. That responsibility to not let it affect your kids are solely on parents themselves, and for which I think Robert was a flawed parent to Alec. He wasn’t able to control his own emotional issues enough to be the father Alec needed and deserved. But I also think it is a tad too polarizing to call it a choice made by Robert, as if Robert’s character is choosing to be a bad father or that he is motivated by hatred, disgust, or anything malicious when that is not the case in any sense that we’ve seen his character acting.

Robert asking Alec what he thought “had turned him gay” speaks to me more about great ignorance rather than about malicious intent. It is also troubling to have Alec’s interpretation of his father’s attitude when his father isn’t very emotional or forthcoming person either. And when Robert speaks on it, it always comes down to how much he loves Alec and is proud of him. How he can’t believe Alec is his son the same way he could not believe Maryse was the one to choose him in The Evil We Love. It’s a pretty multifaceted topic that wasn’t delved too deep into or given enough room and time and development in any text.

When I wrote my review about The Red Scrolls of Magic I did note that

“I do appreciate the complicated nature of Alec and Robert’s relationship, that Alec still misses his father and wants Robert to be proud of him. I also appreciated that the narrative doesn’t treat Robert or his difficulties overcoming his bigotry and his character expressing these thoughts as wholly evil and cartoonish-ly bad but rather shows that in spite of it he still does love his son and wants what he thinks is best for him. No matter whether it would in actuality make Alec happy at all or even be the truly best for him.”

That’s what I was personally left with after reading the book. I went to read the scene again (because I had completely forgotten it existed…), and after having read The Evil We Love I see it more as Robert’s own fear and cowardice he projects onto Alec, Michael having loved him and Robert not being able to accept it or compute it on any level. Also there’s the very essential fact that Robert is afraid of Magnus telling something about him and the Circle days to Alec when Robert isn’t there to explain or defend himself, potentially alienating Alec further. Very interesting. Of course, others might interpret this very differently!

And I’m sorry, but Robert being so in awe of and fixated on M&M is just too cute. 🥰

#Robert Lightwood #Alec Lightwood #Reply

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years ago

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Hello, long time no long ass ask from me but I am back 😎 Hope you are doing good.

I will start from Chapter 35 which was great to read and get to know what Rafael is thinking about.

He wakes up as he always does.

For some reason I found this funny?* this bitch though he gonna turn into Aurora 😂

•The family dynamics in the beginning shows how much love everyone has for each other

• Max being a little shit and giving condoms to his brother

•Ben was not wrong there's so much of Alec in Rafael, you can clearly see the resemblance when he is with Anjali (who is queen🌟) their date was SO cute I was so happy to see her bully the bullies hehehe got what they deserved.

•Rafael got his kiss it reminded me of the first kiss between Alec and Magnus in the books byeee

Me to Charles Buford:

•Monopoly wars Max you go my baby destroy Shinyun. Also sibling bonding I REPEAT SIBLING BONDING MOMENT 💖

• I know Magnus and Shinyun broke up and they're just friends BUT HE DIDN'T TOLD ANYONE, he's being all coupley and shit with her in front of his ex husband the man he says he love. Like, dude, DUDE WTF AT LEAST TELL HIM.

Alec seeing Magnus hugging and kissing Shinyun

• Rafael and his Dad finally having a conversation and making everything right again 💞

Now to chapter 36 🤌 Everyone say YESS TO THERAPY

•Robert may not have been the best father to his children but at least he tried and fought for them at the end, I can respect that so RIP.

•Alec baby, my sweet little angle, I love you but you make me want to slap you.

Because wtf you think you are doing getting angry and drunk and shit.

• if someone dare to compare Alec to Camille again I will behead them

• As much as it hurt to see them get divorced I can see why it was necessary, because holy cow they became so toxic for each other, The fights, alcohol abuse from Alec, Magnus already made his mind way before anything, there was nothing they could've done to prevent it.

“You look beautiful,” Alec points out.

Alec do you mean :

He looks up, still kneeling in front of Magnus

✨Jem Break My Back Carstairs✨🧎‍♀️

There's so much to say about the conversation as to why the divorce was necessary and I would only be repeating myself lol.

Rafael snickers and Max rolls his eyes fondly. Magnus and Alec look at each other.

Yup everything will be fine.

I loved this so much. The memes killed me 😭😭😭

Here is a tiktok of Alec being 🥵🥵🥵

#tlnd

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raindancer2004 · 4 years ago

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Blended Family

Word Count: 4,543 Demetri x OC - Part Three Warnings: Language, Fluff, Angst, Description of torture / murder

When Demetri and Nico arrived back at the castle the following afternoon he dropped off Nico to Heidi’s room “Can you watch him for a bit please, I need to have a private conversation with Felix?” “Of course D. It will give us a chance to catch up and maybe I can find out more about his new friend” Heidi smiled at him and Nico looked up at Heidi excitement clear in his blue eyes “Sophie and Ellie are great but Ellie is so tiny…” Demetri smiled and closed the door knowing Heidi was going to hear all about Sophie and Ellie.

He found Felix in his room along with the twins “Afternoon Demetri, enjoy your ‘sleepover’?” Jane asked, amusement clear in her voice, he chuckled “Afternoon Jane and yes I enjoyed spending time with my mate” He replied “So that talk went well then?” Alec asked “Yes it did and she is absolutely fine with everything…including our diet” He replied “Did you tell her about Nico’s mother?” “Yes Fe, I did and she was ok with that too. The conversation that followed was a little more difficult to deal with…for me” Demetri replied taking a seat beside Felix on the sofa “Ah…the complication of Ellie’s father” Jane said softly “DON’T CALL HIM THAT!” Demetri growled at her, his eyes darkening and Jane visibly flinched “D…calm down” Felix said placing a hand on his friend’s shoulder, Demetri took a breath “I’m sorry Jane but-but that man doesn’t deserve the title of father…” His fists curled into balls “Demetri” Alec warned this time “Sperm doner” Jane said low looking at Demetri “We’ll refer to him as the sperm donor…better?” She asked and he nodded seeming to calm a little “Talk to us D…maybe we can help” Felix sounded cautious “I won’t tell you everything as it’s…private and not fair to Sophie but…” He took another deep breath trying to stay calm as just thinking about what happened to his mate angered him “We have a human to hunt down and kill…she deserves to feel safe again…I owe her that much seeing as I wasn’t there when….” Demetri trailed off and realisation flashed across Jane’s face although Felix and Alec took a little longer to catch on “Tell us when and where and we’ll help you Demetri” She said firmly “I was actually just going to ask Felix…” “We’re family and we protect what’s ours” She growled low cutting him off “Agreed” Alec and Felix said together “Thank you. That means a lot” Demetri replied.

Demetri met with the Kings in the throne alone, the guards on duty having been dismissed by Caius “Demetri, how did things go with Sophie?” Aro asked holding out his hand “May-may I tell you rather than show you?” Aro looked a little shocked as Demetri had never refused before “I mean no disrespect master, it’s just…Sophie disclosed something…personal…pertaining to Ellie and I want to respect that….it should be up to her to share that information with you” Aro nodded “Say no more my dear boy, I think we can…fill in the gaps” “Thank you. Although I must confess, I will be dealing with the problem personally as it hasn’t been dealt with by the human authorities” He told them “As long as you cover your tracks and take Felix and the twins with you, you can deal with the matter however you wish. After all our mate’s safety is what’s important” Caius replied “Thank you, I appreciate your support master” He replied looking at Caius. “I’m glad she has accepted you and Nico and vice versa. I hope you all have a long and happy life together” Marcus smiled “Yes, quite. We are looking forward to meeting them both” Aro added with a smile.

Demetri and Nico had been spending time with Sophie and Ellie the last month or so and Nico started to notice differences between himself and Ellie that left him a little confused. “Daddy how come Ellie isn’t growing up as fast as I am?” Nico asked Demetri “Ellie is human the same as Sophie” “Why does that matter daddy?” “Well, you are half human / half vampire and as a result you will be fully grown in seven years, whereas Ellie won’t be fully grown until she is sixteen” Demetri replied “Oh ok, but I thought you said I was younger than Ellie” Nico replied looking a little confused “Although you are younger than Ellie in age, you will look older than her physically because of your vampire side, so essentially you will be like a big brother to her as she grows up” Demetri replied “Will Sophie and Ellie become like you dad, a full vampire?” He asked “Yes, I will change Sophie once Ellie is a little older, and once Ellie is old enough to be changed, I will change her too” Demetri replied “So you and I have to protect Sophie and Ellie until they become like you?” “Exactly Nico. Although I will protect all three of you forever” “So, Sophie and Ellie will be with us forever?” Nico asked looking hopeful “Yes Nico, they will be with us forever, I promise” Demetri smiled and wrapped his arms around his son holding him close “Good, I will help you protect them forever too” Nico replied snuggling into his dad.

Demetri told Nico that he had to go away for work and that he was going to ask Heidi to look after him but Nico had a different idea “Can I stay with Sophie and Ellie whilst you’re away Daddy, please?” “I don’t know if that’s a good idea buddy” Demetri replied “Why not?” “What if something happens, Sophie can’t protect you like Auntie Heidi can” He replied “Nothing will happen. It’ll be a sleepover just…without you” Nico replied “Exactly Nico, I won’t be there to keep you all safe” “Please Daddy, I promise to be good for Sophie” “I know you will, but that isn’t what I’m worried about” Demetri said “You don’t think Sophie will want me there without you” Nico replied sounding sad, eyes becoming a little glassy “No, no that isn’t it either buddy. I’m just worried that Sophie will be a little overwhelmed looking after you and Ellie alone” “Honestly?” Demetri lifted Nico onto his lap “Honestly” He cupped his Nico’s face and wiped away the lone tear that slipped down his cheek “I’ll ask Sophie and see what she says” “Thank you Daddy.” Nico hugged him and Demetri smiled.

Demetri rung Sophie later that evening after Nico was asleep and asked if she would look after Nico for the weekend whilst he was away on a mission “You-you trust me to look after Nico alone…without you?” Sophie couldn’t help sounding surprised “Yes, I trust you with Nico. You’re my mate…but you don’t have to agree if you think it’ll be too much” He replied “I’d love to have him for the weekend and…it gives you a reason to come and see me when you get back” She answered smiling “I don’t need a reason to come to see you” He replied “I know, I’m just teasing Dem. When are you going to drop him off?” “Friday about 11.00am if that’s ok” “Perfect. It gives me time to go shopping tomorrow for food” She replied. Demetri was happy that Sophie wanted to look after Nico, although he was a little worried about him being away from the castle without him.

“He’ll be fine D. Sophie’s a mum and will look after him” Felix said from the doorway “I know. It’s just he hasn’t stayed away from the castle without me” Felix nodded and entered the room taking a seat on the sofa, Demetri sat beside him “When we get back, invite her to the castle to meet the Kings and me of course, then ask her to move in. You’ll feel much better when she and Ellie are living here with you” Felix said “What if she thinks it’s too soon to move in here?” Demetri asked, worry evident in his eyes “Discuss her concerns and reassure her that she is the only one for you and that you are offering her forever. Be patient and you will get the result you want” He replied “When did you get so wise?” Demetri chuckled “Common sense D. You love her and want her and Ellie here with you and Nico, I can see that, especially after what you told me the other night. Isn’t this why you want to take care of that human, so that they’re safe” Felix replied “Yes Fe, it is. I guess I’m just worried that I may not get my forever with her…once she knows I’ve dealt with him” “You plan on telling her then?” “Yes. I will not lie to her and I want her to know she’s safe. I want her to know that I will protect her and the children always” Demetri said looking over at Nico asleep in his bed “You know what you have to do when you get back…take my advice and bring her here to meet us and take things from there” Felix smiled and Demetri nodded.

Nico was excited that he got to stay with Sophie and Ellie whilst Demetri was away “Thank you for letting me stay Sophie” Nico said with a smile “You’re very welcome sweetie” She replied and watched as he went straight to Ellie’s room “Thank you for this Sophie. Nico asked to come and stay with you instead of staying at the castle with Heidi” “It’s not a problem Dem, really. I’m looking forward to having some company whilst Ellie naps” She laughed and he smiled at her “I wish I was keeping you company” He replied low and pulled her against his chest capturing her lips with his “Feel free to come straight here instead of the castle once you return” He felt her slip something into his pocket and he looked at her confused “Spare key. So you don’t have to worry about waking me or the children if you’re back late” She replied “You are amazing cara mia” He said and kissed her again “See you in a few days Dem” Nico came running back to the hallway “See you later Daddy” “See you all soon” He replied and kissed his son and mate goodbye “Give Ellie a kiss for me” “We will” Nico replied and watched as Demetri left, making his way back to the castle.

Demetri, Felix and the twins left the castle and took the private jet to Seattle to deal with the sperm donor, as Jane calls him. Jane made Demetri promise that she could ‘play’ with the lowlife before Demetri and Felix dealt with him permanently. Jane used her gift on him, starting at the lowest level and working her way up to the highest level, Alec took away his senses one at time just for fun during the ‘downtime’ Jane gave him. Demetri couldn’t help the wide smile on his face as he watched the twins torture the man “I think they’re enjoying this a little too much” Felix said low “Good. Let the bastard suffer. I plan to kill him slowly, until he’s begging for a quick death” Demetri replied and Felix noticed his best friend’s eyes were black, despite their recent hunting trip ‘I don’t envy that human once Demetri gets his hands on him’ Felix thought to himself.

Demetri and Felix torture him a little too as they kill him slowly “Hold his arms down Fe” Demetri growls and Felix nods and moments later Demetri’s foot comes down on the man’s hand, shattering every bone within it “Arrghh” He screams out before Demetri’s foot crushes his other hand, another scream leaving the human’s lips. Felix then bends the human’s elbows backwards, breaking them in the process; Demetri smiles as the human screams again, laughter leaving the twins as they watch the human being broken bone by bone. Alec can’t help himself when he sees the human’s feet moving about as he writhes in agony and steps down hard on them one at a time breaking both feet, more screams filling the air and Alec shrugs when Demetri meets his gaze “He was moving about too much” Demetri nods in agreement before leaning down and punching his ribs, a cracking sound can be heard before he screams again “Wh-who are y-you?” The lowlife stuttered out pian lacing his voice “That doesn’t matter” Demetri replied “Wh-what did I d-do to de-deserve th-this?” “You hurt someone that I love and got away with it…until now” Demetri responded “I-I ha-have no idea wh-what you’re talk-talking about” “DO NOT LIE TO ME” Demetri growled and nodded at Felix who began choking the human, he started coughing and struggling to breathe “I-I d-don’t…” Demetri growled low before moving Felix’s hand from the human’s neck, wrapping his own hands around it instead and twisted; the crack that sounded out in the quiet room assured them the human was dead. “Let’s clean up and head home” Jane said looking at Demetri and Felix, who nodded “Hey D, let me do that, take a walk…cool off” Felix said placing a hand on his friend’s shoulder “I’ll help you” Alec added. Demetri stepped away from the dead body and watched as Felix ripped the human’s limbs away from his torso, Alec throwing a match onto the body parts, ensuring to cover their tracks.

Meanwhile, back in Volterra, Sophie and Nico spent Friday watching movies and cuddling and playing with Ellie when she wasn’t napping. Saturday afternoon Sophie baked cupcakes with Nico and showed him how to decorate them, something he thoroughly enjoyed “Mmm, that’s yummy”” Nico said as he licked the frosting off his fingers, Sophie chuckled “Glad you’re having fun” “I am, I don’t get to do this at the castle” Nico replied and Sophie smiled “I promise to do ‘human’ things with you when you’re with me” “Thank you Sophie, I’d like that” He replied smiling. Sophie and Nico made pizzas for dinner, something else Nico enjoyed doing for the first time, before getting comfortable on the sofa to watch more movies together.

Demetri got back late to Sophie’s and let himself in, locking the door behind him. He walked into the front room and saw Sophie and Nico cuddled up together on the sofa under a large blanket, he smiled to himself before carefully lifting Nico up into his arms and putting him to bed on the sofa bed in Ellie’s room “Goodnight son” He kissed his hair and tucked him in. He walked over to Ellie’s crib and leant down over it, inhaling her scent “Goodnight princess” He placed a kiss to her forehead and returned to the front room; he lifted Sophie up and carried her to her room and gently laid her down on the bed beneath the duvet. He changed into a pair of lounge pants and a t-shirt that he had packed in Nico’s bag and climbed in beside her, taking her into his arms “Goodnight mi amore” He kissed her cheek “Goodnight Dem” She rolled over and snuggled into him, his grip tightened a little holding her closer to him.

The following morning Ellie woke up early and Sophie rolled over ready to get out of bed “Let me” Demetri said and moved quickly to Ellie’s room, Nico was standing beside her crib, he had slid his arm between the bars and was stroking her head “Sshh, sshh, you’re ok” He said low, trying to soothe her “Come here princess” Demetri said as he lifted her out of her crib “Daddy” Nico wrapped his arms around Demetri’s legs “Missed you” “Missed you too buddy. Come on” Nico followed Demetri back to Sophie’s room and Demetri climbed back in beside Sophie as Nico stood in the doorway “Come on sweetie” Sophie said smiling as she shifted towards the middle of the bed making room for him. Nico climbed in and snuggled into her as Ellie snuggled into Demetri’s chest “Sunday mornings are a great excuse for a lie in and cuddles” Sophie said smiling “I agree” Demetri replied “Me too” Nico added and Ellie cooed before falling back to sleep, along with Sophie and Nico; Demetri closed his eyes enjoying the sound of his family’s steady breathing and their heartbeats.

That Wednesday Sophie met Demetri by the fountain in front of the castle “Hi mi amore” He wrapped his arms around her “Hello Demetri” She replied hugging him back; he leant down and kissed her. Ellie recognised his voice and started cooing and making babbling noises, Demetri chuckled “Don’t worry princess, I haven’t forgotten about you” He leant over the pram smiling at her and she smiled back, happy she had his attention. “What if they don’t like me?” Sophie asked as they neared the doors to the castle “They’ll love you, I promise” “But…” “Nico has told everyone about you and Ellie” He cut her off wrapping an arm around her waist “They can’t wait to meet you both” He kissed the top of her head and he felt Sophie relax a little in his hold “O-Ok” She replied. They entered the castle and saw Nico waiting for them; the four of them made their way to the south facing garden where Demetri had blankets laid out on the grass and a picnic basket filled with food for Sophie and Nico, and a flask of blood for himself.

The three Kings were in Caius’ study that overlooked the south facing garden and observed Demetri, Nico, Sophie and Ellie as they sat in the castle garden spending time together. Marcus didn’t turn to look at his brothers as he confirmed Sophie was indeed Demetri’s mate “Demetri and Sophie are known as ‘True Mates’ and their bond is strong despite the complications of children being involved. Demetri feels very protective of both Sophie and Ellie.” Aro found it amusing that Demetri hadn’t figured it out when they met on the plane “How did he not know Sophie was his mate when they first met?” “Fate works in mysterious ways brother” Marcus mused “All that matters now is that they have found each other and they need to find a way to blend their families together. In fact, a ‘father / daughter’ bond is forming between him and Ellie as he already sees her as his daughter” He added. “Are there any bonds between Sophie and Nico or between the children themselves?” Caius asked, curious “Sophie and Nico have a ‘mother / son’ bond that is very strong; in fact, that bond probably took hold before her bond with Demetri...” “Really? How come?” Caius cut him Marcus off “Yes brother, and I put that down to the fact that Sophie is a mum and she naturally stepped into that role for Nico early on. There is also a ‘sibling’ bond between Nico and Ellie and although Nico is younger that Ellie; physically he appears older than her due to him being a hybrid” Marcus added “Let’s hope things work out for all involved” Aro said “They will brother I’m sure. I will say this though, some leniency will be needed with regards to Sophie staying human until Ellie is a few years older and even then she will need to spend her newborn phase here with us; with her daughter” Marcus replied “That is something that can be accommodated I’m sure…as long as they move into the castle; move into Demetri’s quarters, which can be extended to include the vacant room opposite his; I mean the room can be split to accommodate both children” Caius added “I’m surprised you agreed so easily brother” Marcus commented “I won’t have mates separated, it’s cruel and heart-breaking for all involved, not to mention without his mate our dear Demetri will become like you brother and I know you wouldn’t want that for him. None of us would” Caius replied “I think you’ve mellowed a little brother” Aro mused “I will never allow mates to be separated especially when they are mates of our guards. Anyways, my wife is rather fond of Demetri and Nico and she would make my life hell if I did anything to upset or hurt them” Caius replied honestly “I think my wife would do the same brother” Aro said in agreement.

Demetri had arranged for Sophie and Ellie to meet the Kings and Queens that afternoon, Marcus suggested they meet outside in the garden as it might Sophie less nervous. Athenodora and Sulpicia were excited to meet Sophie and Ellie “Just don’t over crowd her mi amore, she’ll no doubt be nervous about meeting us” Caius said softly as they neared the doors to the garden.

“Good afternoon Demetri, Nico” Marcus greeted them with a smile “Master, Marcus” They replied together. Demetri stood up and helped Sophie to her feet too “This is my mate Sophie, Sophie this is Marcus, Aro and his wife Sulpicia, Caius and his wife Athenodora” Demetri introduced “Hello, it’s nice to meet you all” Sophie said smiling “And you my dear, Demetri and Nico have told us lots about you” Aro smiled, resisting the urge to take Sophie’s hand in his. “This is Ellie” Nico said looking at up everyone, Ellie sitting on his lap babbling away “She’s beautiful, just like her mother” Athenodora smiled, Sophie blushed and watched as the Queens sat beside Nico “May I?” Sulpicia asked looking at Sophie, who nodded, before looking at Demetri who smiled back at her “You may not get her back for a while” “That’s ok, Nico seems to like holding her a lot too” Sophie chuckled “She’s just so huggable” Nico replied smiling at Ellie. “I really like Sophie and Ellie” Athenodora said low to Demetri “Thank you mi’ lady” He replied “When are they moving in?” “As soon as possible, if I get my way. We need to have that talk” He replied low “The sooner the better my dear, it’ll be nice to have them here with us” Caius rolled his eyes “You cannot steal the little one my dear” He whispered “I wouldn’t steal her Caius, but I would look after her and Nico if…Demetri and Sophie wanted alone time” Demetri chuckled as she took Ellie from Sulpicia “I’m going to assume Sophie and Ellie have your approval” “Definitely my dear boy” Aro answered smiling.

Later that afternoon Demetri took Sophie and Ellie up to his room and met the twins in the corridor “Hello Demetri, Nico” Jane smiled “Hello Jane, Alec. This is Sophie and Ellie. Sophie this is Jane and Alec” He introduced “It’s nice to meet you both” Jane said smiling “Yes, we’ve heard lots about you” Alec added “It’s nice to meet you both too, Demetri has told me about you both also” Sophie replied with a smile. The twins followed them into Demetri’s room taking a seat on the sofa “They want a cuddle with Ellie” Demetri said to Sophie as she watched the twins get comfortable “Oh ok. I’ll change her quickly and then she’ll be ready for a cuddle” Sophie said before entering the bathroom to change Ellie’s nappy. A few minutes later and Jane is cradling Ellie in her arms, Alec sitting beside her “Ellie’s loving all these cuddles and attention” Sophie whispered to Demetri, although the twins heard “There’ll be no shortage of offers to look after her and Nico should the two of you want alone time” Alec said smiling “As long as I get first refusal” Jane said looking at Demetri “You’ll have to speak to Athenodora, I think she called dibs first” Demetri chuckled “My room is closer” Jane replied, Demetri and Sophie nodded at her. Nico went and beside Alec waiting for his turn to hold Ellie again.

Sophie and Ellie stayed over the night and Demetri saw to Ellie when she stirred, crying a little, allowing Sophie to get a full night’s sleep. The following morning Demetri caught her off guard with his topic of conversation “Sophie I would like you and Ellie to move in with me, here at the castle” “Isn’t it a bit soon to live together?” She questioned “Sophie, remember what I said about my kind being protective of our mates…” She nodded “…In my case it’s worse as there are two children to protect also” He continued “I must admit I like it when you stay over, but I miss you both when you leave” She replied “I miss you both too when we’re not together. I want my family together, I want us all under one roof, so I can protect all three of you” Demetri said looking at Sophie, Sophie was speechless hearing Demetri say her and Ellie were his family “I love you Sophie and that will never change, I promise. Please move in with me mi amore” He asks holding her hands in his and she nods, her eyes tearing up “Ok, we’ll move in with you” “Really?” He asked “Yes, Dem really. I love you too” Demetri smiled wide and lifted her onto his lap, wrapping his arms around her, her arms wrapping around him too. “Hear that Ellie you’re moving into the castle with Daddy and I” Nico said smiling at her and she made little noises back at him in response, causing him to laugh “I need to teach you to talk once you move in” He added, Demetri and Sophie chuckled watching their children together.

Demetri moved Sophie, Ellie and their stuff into the castle that weekend with the help of Felix and the twins. “Sophie the room opposite yours and Daddy’s is my room, but I haven’t really stayed in there as I sleep in Daddy’s bed, but now you and Ellie are moving in with us, that room will be now be mine and Ellie’s shared room” Nico said smiling and pulling her into the room “It looks nice but are you sure you want to share with Ellie, she doesn’t always sleep through the night” She replied “I like sharing with Ellie when we stay with you and I don’t mind if she cries in the night” He replied “You won’t change his mind mi amore” Demetri said in her ear, his arms wrapping around her waist from behind “I just wanted him to be sure Dem that’s all” “I know but trust me, Nico wants to share with Ellie..” “He told us all how this is his and Ellie’s room now” Felix added cutting off Demetri as he entered the room with a box of Ellie’s stuff. “Thank you for helping us move in” Sophie said to Felix and the twins “You’re welcome, although I was surprised you didn’t have more stuff” Alec replied “The apartment came furnished and all I had was mine and Ellie’s clothes and a few toys when I moved over here. I bought a few things that I needed once I moved in and planned to get more as time went on but…” “Anything you need just let me know cara and it’s yours” Demetri cut her off but she didn’t reply, choosing to just smile at him.

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