#he just never wanted to compete
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
fandom: captive prince other: everything goes right; modern
we have childhood friendly rivals auguste and damen
they met each other at beginner fencing class and have since competed for top spot to the point they push each other to do better for their competitions
enter: kastor; disgruntled older brother who wants to focus on his law degree than waste time picking up damen from the fencing place
enter: laurent; the younger brother who loves seeing his older brother fence and is incredibly conflicted about the rivalry with damen because a) only his brother has the authority to be cool and; b) THAT WAS REALLY COOL
damen ends up staying at their house more than he probably should as they get older, mainly because he started being pouty about being alone and not wanting to be around kastor when he starts talking law
anyway, they grow up together. auguste and damen are really good friends and laurent will never forgive his brother for introducing him to Damen who he quickly realizes is one of his first crushes of all time
they start only seeing each other during competitions but they still keep in touch
it's later, when damen finds himself helping laurent with an injury that auguste found himself in, that damen's feelings really start blooming into something
#*fic#will i continue this no#but i didnt mean to make this about that other series that cs pacat is doing about fencing because its not that#i just thought SORD and then FENCE and the rest of AU is just Making Auguste Feel Better#and unexpectedly seeing auguste fall in love with a sweet med student from a neighboring town#does laurent still scheme#he wouldnt call it scheming#'it's planning' he'd say#and it'll be all well and good if auguste could ignore the conspiracy wall of planning#damen who is less used to laurent is pleasantly shocked when he does know how to fence#he just never wanted to compete#capri
29 notes
·
View notes
Text
FNAF Pit bonnie considers himself a great dad!
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf gregory#glamrock freddy#pit bonnie#fnaf oswald#into the pit#security breach#there’s something so funny to me about this concept#like pit is a horror beyond human comprehension#literally made up of the agony and tragedy of Freddy’s#and that creature just REALLY wants to be a good dad#ITS JUST SO GOOD#pit Bonnie sees Glamrock Freddy getting called dad#another animatronic like him#BUT OSWALD is never calling this dude ‘dad’ BAHA#HE REFUSES to competely#better luck next time pit Bonnie 🙏🏾
10K notes
·
View notes
Text
mockley time it's mockley time will you have some mockleys of mine
#my art#oc#mockley#anthro#furry#dinosaur#i think i like this mockley i think i'm guiding her to where she needs to be design-wise to fit in with her human cohorts#and the lines were fun as hell to render. mockley has so many textures#been in an art rut recently. feel like i'm guiding my art where i don't want it to go. and also feel limited in what i can do#big pity party basically lol but it's good to recognise that and be like well whatever. just do some studies and get back on track#less throwing myself against the same wall and more finding a ladder to get over it. which will involve more studies and less oc drawings#and also less comparing myself to other people and especially people younger than me who have amazing art it's BAD for you#compete with YOURSELF and you can neverrr lose. you can never lose if you have fun LOSING#learn to LOVE losing#my favourite vinny vinesauce quote and one of my favourite motivational quotes ever. he said it as a joke while salty at mario kart#but it's resonated positively in my life ever since hearing it#fall in love with failing.....learn to love losing....(said to myself)
493 notes
·
View notes
Photo
Keeley & Rebecca vs Nate & Ted
#tedlassoedit#tvedit#tvgifs#ted lasso#rebecca welton#keeley jones#nathan shelley#my stuff#lots i didnt like about season 2 but i did greatly enjoy these 'parallels'#not exactly parallels but you know#echoes or something like that#nate and keeley both start out intimidated#but keeley quickly establishes herself as an equal#and she and rebecca develop a more mutual relationship#meanwhile nate idolizes ted and never escapes the hierarchical aspect of their relationship#even after he becomes a coach and - technically - ted's equal#and that's despite knowing he is more competent than ted technically speaking#also the fact that mentorship means such different things for nate and keeley#for keeley it's much more aspirational she wants to *be like* rebecca (you know - 'a boss')#nate doesnt really want to be like ted he just wants to *be liked by* ted#it's about approval for him#besides ted was never going to teach nate anything about football which is what nate thinks its all about anyway#so the head pats were his reason to stay when that runs dry he's just angry#and then how all of that ties into their relationships with their parents (keeley with her mum and nate with his dad)#anyway the contrast between nate and keeley's partings is so stark#keeley leaves because she is ready#but the way nate leaves is the very proof he is so not#does that make sense? idk#anyhow 16 DAYS!!!!#ps: im gonna beat anyone who tags this talking about nate in a way that makes it clear theyve never heard of nuance in their lives
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
this year as a lando fan while it’s had its highs (it been great to witness everything he’s achieved) it’s been an absolute struggle more so than any other year, i’ve feel myself becoming less and less attached to the sport and to do so in the year he got his maiden win and was “fighting” for wdc feels so shitty. and the fact is it’s got absolutely nothing to do with lando himself, i will continue to support him no matter what, but the discourse surrounding him, people trying to minimise every achievement he got, the bombardment of hate towards him has been nothing less than disgusting, psychotic and heartbreaking. i used to come on this site and go through landos tag to see if id missed anything he’d been up to and it was something that brought joy to my day, however now i can’t scroll through the lando tag without seeing hate directed his way by people, (who are not only losing a few braincells with their inability to correctly anti tag), who just think it’s fun to wish injury and death on people and dont seem to understand the irony in a lot of their posts. not forgetting the insane lando hate anon, while yes i enjoyed laughing at, would flood lando fans inbox’s with hate anytime he so much as breathed. anytime i go on twitter i see more hate for lando from other drivers fan accounts than i see positive things about their drivers. the anti lando hate train that some people think is cool to be on isn’t. and it just shows how rotten of a person you are if no matter what your supposed favourite driver does the first words out of your mouth are about lando norris and reason 626174 of why you hate him. it’s very telling when people who claim they aren’t fans are more obsessed with talking about him than those who are, i beg you all seek help and get a hobby because this type of behaviour isn’t healthy both for yourself and for others around you to witness.
#idk i’ve been feeling removed for a while now#like yes i’ll always watch the race because i want to see him compete and do what he loves#but the discourse around everything is so draining that sometimes i just can’t stand to be around it#anyways happy 2 week break from hell#this also ended up being a lot longer than i originally thought it would be but i just wanted to get it all off my chest#lando norris they will never make me hate you but they will make me hate the sport and the toxicity#anyway lando girlies (gn) i am so happy the majority of us seem to have our heads screwed on and don’t make hatered our entire personality
90 notes
·
View notes
Text
Katsuki is so in love with Izuku and it hurts so much
#bkdk#bakudeku#fixated on him for years#fixated on HOLDING HIS HAND for years#died completely focused on Izuku#came back completely focused on Izuku too#literally jump started his own heart#crossed Japan just to be there for Izuku in the final push#wanted to spend the rest of his life with Izuku#chasing each other and competing#these are all things that happened in canon#literally never cared that girls avoided him#he was so entirely uninterested in any of that
60 notes
·
View notes
Text
watching the elusive samurai and yakuza fiancé have me thinking about my vague assassin bodyguard hoshina au again
#fuji chats#i want to write something about being so in love you'd dirty your hands for each other#to save the other from getting dirty themselves#something about competence and trusting each other being strong enough#but wanting to protect them anyway#plus the devoted bodyguard dynamic#what if he's not good enough what if he's never good enough#what if you love him anyway#because he doesn't need to be good. or enough. he just needs to be himself#god. hoshina's so fucking loyal in canon already#what if you save him even if it means you'll never be together#what if he thinks you see him as nothing but a pawn#⚔️💜
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
i need a fic of soap bringing ghost home to his family for the holidays. his family’s always disapproved of everything; being queer, being in the military, being with ghost and it’s all over not a great time but they’re trying to pretend for the sake of the holiday. they get into it after dinner one night though and for once soap isn’t backing down, not when it’s ghost they’re attacking, when the power suddenly goes out. soap moves just in time for a shot to come through the window and he orders his family to get down
graves and what’s left of shadow company followed them to glasgow; it’s the first time they’ve been away from the 141 and they think it’ll be their best chance to take them out. johnny and simon are left behind as they become soap and ghost and soap’s childhood home becomes a battleground, his hysterical family who still think he can’t be that good of a soldier now civilians that he has to protect and get out in one piece
#its the full gambit of sisters with their partners and kids#all with respectable normal jobs and lives#then theres john still running around playing soldier and now shacking up with his commanding officer#soaps been quiet the entire time just gritting his teeth and letting them have go after go in the name of peace#ghosts been fuming the entire time but his own family trauma and not wanting to go against johnnys wishes keeps his mouth shut#and then that instant switch the second the bullet comes through the window#theyre sergeant mactavish and lieutenant ghost now and they dont give a single shit about anything butgetting out alive#‘we need to call the police!’#‘call local pd who’re drunk off their arses and never fired their guns in their fucking lives yeah right’#‘this isnt the time for you to play soldier’#‘youre right. this isnt a game. its war and youre gonna shut the fuck up and let me get you outta this alive’#ghost sneaks upstairs to get the hidden guns he brought and to get one of the kids whod been napping#soap stays to get everyone out of the way and watch out for hostiles#ghost slides him a sniper rifle and he takes out the sniper on the opposite roof and when he looks back at his family theyre#looking at him like theyve never seen him before#i just need soap whos been underestimated his entire life showing just how competent he really is#soapghost#ghostsoap#soap mactavish#soap cod#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#we’re a team. ghost team
99 notes
·
View notes
Note
i politely demand you talk about your nge/pacrim au!
thank you for enabling my behavior and for all your art omg <33333 i will attempt to coherently and briefly outline my thoughts
the short version is: yuuta/rika saves you post-battle and both are irrationally upset when it turns out that you already have a boyfriend.
yuuta would like to take some of the credit for digging you out the rubble, but the truth is, it was like his mech was on auto-pilot, overriding all of his controls to dig you out of a lifeless environment and stash your cold, limp body in the center chamber until yuuta and rika were transported back to the base.
yuuta doesn’t understand why he lost control of rika like that, nor does he understand why he feels so upset when he goes to visit you in the infirmary and there’s already some other man by your bedside holding your hand. he vaguely recognizes kokichi as a junior engineer who’s done a few surface level repairs on rika, and he’s surprised and green with envy to find out that kokichi is also your boyfriend.
yuuta doesn’t understand the anger he feels, or the headache he gets, or the panic attack that’s threatening to rise in him, or why his feet automatically drag him back to his mech, or why he feels like he could hear rika’s faint sobs and screams in his head and he lay in his pilot chamber. none of it makes sense and he can barely sleep because of it, but it happens every time he thinks about you and kokichi for too long; and strangely enough, if the thinks about how rika seemed to come to life to save you for too long. there’s some kind of missing link he can’t piece together.
when you’re conscious, you can’t seem to recall any part your childhood, and only have your memories from college onwards, save for bits and pieces of the attack you were a victim of. yuuta learns that you were studying to be an engineer, that you were moving to work at the hangar and be closer to your boyfriend, that kokichi was slated to pick you up from the airport that ended up being the site of attack. a small part of yuuta wishes kokichi had been there, thinks that rika wouldn’t have found him in the rubble.
you’re the miracle save, and somewhat become the baby of the hangar. world-renowned pilots you’d only ever studied in class stopped by to give you their condolences, offer their help. you try to remain calm when satoru gojo and kento nanami make an appearance as a duo in your tiny recovery room, calling you brave and bowing to you with a home cooked meal in hand. senior engineers do their best to recover your work from college, assuring you that your injuries and recovery period would be a non-factor in the hiring process—that you were free to start as soon as you felt comfortable. you get the most attention from yuuta, who makes himself a friend, and a critical part of your recovery, essentially firing your physical therapist in favor of fixing you himself.
everyone makes you feel welcome, but yuuta makes you feel safe. he holds your waist while you re-learn to walk, he sneaks you into the pilot’s lounge while the jaegers have their repairs done—and nods in faux-sympathy as you mourn the presence of your boyfriend, who seems busier than ever these days with nuisance repairs, jokes about how yuuji and megumi seem to be particularly reckless with their jaeger lately—he squeezes your hand when you have headaches and fractured flashbacks of your past that you can’t piece together, he holds you when you cry out of pure frustration of not being able to remember who you are
yuuta’s a real smooth talker, too. always knows exactly how to comfort you while your boyfriend is busy, always talks to the press about you so preciously, always makes you feel like you have a purpose even if you can’t remember your past self—maybe you weren’t meant to remember anything before him and rika, maybe it was meant to be this way. it’s a twisted comfort, but it’s something to cling to, it’s better than crying over memories you no longer have.
everyone notices yuuta’s weird reverse stockholm syndrome lol… the way he hovers over you like he’s your sole protector and savior, the way he demands to be privy to all decisions about your health care, the way he remains close to you with no fear of your boyfriend. nobody says anything, though—yuuta’s a pilot, a good one, and one the few solo pilots in the entire world. he’s precious and vital to humanity, worth a thousand men, worth ten thousand engineers. besides, his friends see something special between you two, especially the co-pilot pairs; satoru and kento, megumi and yuuji, choso and yuki—they know compatibility when they see it, and boyfriend or not, you have something special with yuuta. they all share a common thought: kokichi is fighting a losing battle. and even if he could beat yuuta, he’d never win against rika.
#answered#teehee there's So Much Lore that i could talk about but i tried to keep this a reasonable length#and i hope it feels slightly ominious teehee <333#this is really just me bringing back my favorite point to light again: none of the jjk boys are SHIT!#boyfriend>? never heard of him! to yuuta he's YOUR save#he and rika pulled you out of the dirt and snow and brought you back to life... hows ur boyfriend gonna compete with that? he shouldnt ://#he should give up :// it sure would make yuuta's life easier... sigh#also note! the rest of them aint shit either! bc WHY are they rooting for him 😭 terrible#there's so many versions of the au the temptation to truman show it is also there but i think i want that for something different#teehee <333 anyway thank u for ur art my dear !!!!!!!!!!#there's also another version which is simply youre a co-pilot with someone else#and the yuuta comes along looking like a kicked wet puppy and somehow he's like 98% compatible with you#and everyones like whoah what the fuck... which makes u angry bc u were perfectly happy being previously more compatible with ur boyfriend!#and here comes along this LOSER to ruin everything....... love of ur life but a LOSER#yuuta x reader#pacrim au
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
the tragedy in night and day doesn't lie in the accident because day doesn't blame night for the accident (not really, not in the way night blames himself). the tragedy in night and day lies in day having wanted night to be his big brother but feeling like he had to take on that roll for night instead and night having wanted day to be his little brother who is as proud of him as he is of day but being unable to figure out how to get there before the accident. the tragedy lies in day not understanding why night couldn't step up until after day went blind ('im just so damn lucky to be blind') and their mother and the world started treating him like a tragedy; leaving him feeling like night has always been jealous of him and is only stepping up to take the place of the golden son of the family now that it's up for grabs. the tragedy lies in night not being able to communicate to day that he was always proud of him and that him showing up to his sporting events only after day went blind isn't because day is blind now but because he has always loved him and supported him ('this is my little brother. he's a junior athlete on the national team') but now it's impossible to convince day of his sincerity and night can't forgive himself. the tragedy of night and day lies in these brother not having been given the time to naturally grow out of this crooked brotherly dynamic that was put upon them and now they're stuck under all this weight both unable to leave the night of the accident when they're around each other. the tragedy in night and day is that tomorrow isn't guaranteed and they are too stuck in the past to look at today.
#last twilight#i have a lot of thoughts about feeling like you have to be the older sibling while you arent#i have a lot of thoughts about the sick pride and sadness that comes with being praised over your sibling for being the 'good one'#i also have a lot of thoughts about feeling like a failure compared to someone you love so deeply#about sibling rivalry and jealousy and the feeling like you are competing because of all this external pressure#when all you need is a brother#i have a lot of thoughts about a great many things concerning the mother and the father and the family dynamic and how#night and day were shaped into who they were and how it informed their relationship#about nights guilt and sadness and days anger and resentment#but in the end i just keep thinking about how day is the one who is called to pick night up when hes so drunk he cant walk#and how night gifted day a pet goldfish; named it little day and how despite days claims to hate the name and never wanting the pet#he never changed the name and watching the goldfish became the highlight of his day for a year#im very emotional about them and i need them to fucking talk soon okay
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
one of the craziest bat bars like actually
#vee queued to fill the void#WHEN GOTH AND PUNK COLLIDE ITS THE HYPEST DEPRESSION LETS GOOOOOO LMAO#i never talk about kuukou and jyushi’s bond as leader/2gumi since i personally don’t think i need to lol#but the way their ideals just click together so naturally is so satisfying when the story bothers to show it lol#like i am prAyINg that we get kuukou and jyushi clashing over it like they’re both right but kuukou is still wrong lmao#like besides kuukou training jyushi in their debut track kuukou and jyushi haven’t fought yet#as of then that was indicative of their dynamic kuukou is more gentle with jyushi and more firm with hitoya#now tho there’s like………. bits in various places where they’re challenging each other#like when they were competing against each other at video games or jyushi standing his ground against kuukou’s chaos lol#i’m hopeful it’s leading to a confrontation between them fr on god no cap pls it’d be lit lmao#kuukou has won in their little matches i need jyushi to be the pupil that fulfills his wish#and gets to stand next to the man that helped and supported him lol he’s on equal footing with hitoya let’s fully lock in with kuukou#(a fun ichiro and jyushi parallel btw lol like samatoki was that figure that helped and supported him and he wanted to be his equal)#(both kuukou and hitoya are jyushi’s samatoki tho a bit more obscure on kuukou’s end)
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
love how hua cheng is just like "I support xie lian rights and xie lian wrongs, except he can never do anything wrong ever even when he kills a bunch of people. Go off king" and Xie Lian is like “This is my beautiful husband, he has committed war crimes, but haven’t we all?”
And their relationship is somehow healthier than anything I've ever been in.
#emma posts#to be fair everything involving me didn’t have me aware that it was a thing#but I couldn’t compete anyway#tcgf#is it dating someone if they never told you they were dates and you misinterpreted them?#not asking for a friend#this is just straight up every situation I’ve been in#that’s as close as I’ve ever actually gotten to dating someone#I’ve witnessed plenty of other people’s relationships though#‘we’ve been dating for six months’ ‘those were dates?!’ ‘you asked me out first’ ‘and you rejected me!’ <- closest to dating I’ve been#all the other times I didn’t even ask the person out first. the just flat out never said it was a date and I thought we were just chilling#and all the other times I’ve asked someone out they rejected me and then DIDN’T ask me out without telling me they were asking me out#how was I supposed to know he changed his mind?#I’m still not over how I didn’t know we were dating until after we broke up#just the sheer comedy of my love life gets to me#comedy of errors ass love life#I’m getting really side tracked#Xie Liana’s friends were totally reasonable to think that someone stalking someone for several centuries is alarming#but somehow those two had it happen in the healthiest way possible???#I respect it tbh#only healthy relationship I’ve ever had that much sheer dedication in is me and my favorite cat which is a very maternal relationship#and i didn’t even actually kill the people who threatened him. they weren’t real threats but they knew they did psychological damage#to this day I wish I bit them until I tasted blood#but being in detention with them would have meant being around them longer than I had to be 😑#they have probably changed a lot since then but I still never want to see them again in my life#that might actually have played a slight role in how feral I get about protecting my cat 🐈⬛#I’m getting into personal issues again#our co-dependent parental dynamic. me and my cat. is perfectly healthy and I will not change it#said by someone who is not healthy but definitely will not change this specific thing#and the co-dependency is in fract mutual. that’s why it’s CO dependent
11 notes
·
View notes
Note
finally rewatched tlm2 and been thinking about this scene ever since, but thoughts on Emmet essentially admitting to Rex the second he met him that the reason he's had so much trouble "getting on with the times" and "getting tougher" was because he heavily struggles to cope with change? And secretly really misses how simple living in Bricksburg was, despite now knowing it was a giant brainwashing scheme?
I mean Bricksburg was Emmet's home for a long time. I like to think that it’s also his hometown, where he grew up, so obviously he has a deep attachment to it and would probably be devastated to see it get destroyed.
Emmet is used to the structured lifestyle Bricksburg provided, and unlike other master builders, he actually enjoyed it a lot. So I guess you could say that he's a creature of habit, and he takes comfort in said habits.
Apocalypseburg isn't really an environment he can thrive in, because of how disorganized it seems. There definitely is some weird form of a system, but it's not exactly one that Emmet is the most okay with following.
Now I'm not saying Emmet is incapable or resistant to change. Quite frankly he seemed to adapt to the new environment pretty well, just not in a way that was accepted. (Adding on, he also adapted to being a master builder quickly too, especially considering what his life used to be like)
What people expected was for him to change himself to fit the new lifestyle following the destruction of Bricksburg. But instead of that, Emmet stuck to what he knew, and that was the habits he developed in the years he lived in Brickburg. His first home.
He struggles with the expectation that he has to change everything about himself to make others happy. Really, he only thinks he struggles with change around him. In reality, he can't handle the idea of having to change his personality.
You could consider the house he built for Lucy as a way of him tying himself down in his past, trying to cling to the last remaining vestiges of Bricksburg he could. But it's also him using his new skills to build a future for him and Lucy. One that doesn't have to abide by how he's expected to act.
I think after the first movie and finding out about the brainwashing scheme, he does look back in a bittersweet way instead of just sadness. Even though a lot of his life there ended up being influenced in a way that made everyone obedient to the rules, it was still his home.
#emmet brickowski#the lego movie#the lego movie 2#lego movie#lego movie 2#MY BOYYYY#I'm going to have to rewatch both the movies again#it's been so long#Emmet is a kind of person that enjoys the structure instructions gave him#I think a part of him is always going to miss Bricksburg#because i want to think he's never been anywhere else#Emmet is actually pretty adaptable#he just needs to take a few seconds to grapple with the new info#but when he does he's actually really competent#People think his methods are stupid and unorthodox#or just not in line with the times#but really he's just doing what he can with what he has#and what he has is endless positivity#Rex changed because he was thrown into the 'reality' that change was inevitable#and that change makes things hurt less#saffi's asks#saffi rambles
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Shi Long Lang insisting all of his agents identify themselves as "1" during team countoffs, and Manfred von Karma setting his bank PIN to #1 have the same and yet opposite energies.
#shi long lang#manfred von karma#ace attorney#ace attorney investigations#mvk thinking he is the BEST and every little thing about him must reflect that vs.#lang thinking all his coworkers are the best and wanting them to see it in themselves#both of them setting personal security; practicality and common sense by the wayside in the process#they're both just silly little guys burdened by glorious competency in most respects#and yet an utter lack in others#shame we never got to see them interact but then again miles would've had such whiplash from it#they both expect better from him and he expects better from them#i also feel like lang might be a bit nicer to miles after encountering mvk#like he'd meet him and be like "oh so THAT's where Pretty Boy gets it from' and have the most apt lang zi proverb to summarize things
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
THE WAY MOND POPPED UP IN THAT ELEVATOR AND I JUST KNEW IN MY BONES AND CURSED SOUL THIS NERDY TWUNK BITCH IS BOEING AND MEW GOT IN AND I WENT "FUCKING MOND?!?" AND TOP WAS. HE WAS FUCKING MOND.
#DJFIFIFKFFKD STFU#im so pleased to see my goblin chaos son again#they are feeding the gramyok ghostship from not me agenda#what a legend choice#look i love mix but mond is so good at playing sneaky smarmy bitches#and i would rather see him than mixs cute lil face on this instance it was such a pleasant shock#ive missed my man. hes here to cause issues.#im surprised hes causin them for topmew in a way but also not??#look his showing up has raised a lot of thoughts for me#bc blatantly he always cared more about prioritising top even when with sand so it makes sense hes happy being tops insomnia fuck#and wants to compete with mew for top. i just envisioned sand learning of it and going off the rails.#bc top said to sand boeing and him were long done but they now clearly arent.#im hoping sand will realise boeing was never a good match and now ray has picked sand and being better over the so say love of his life#sand will notice boeing never wouldve done that and will simply leave him to fiend for top and get his closure.#and for the love of god start holding boeing accountable but we'll see.#only friends#only friends the series#boeing#topmew
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
The thing is, bucktommy can't compete with buddie because of all the Lore but buddie can't compete with bucktommy due to instant insane homoromantic vibes
#it's zugzwang#like for buddie to go canon the chemistry between buck and eddie would defo have to shift (die hard shippers will disagree but it's true)#but also sooo much has happened between buck and eddie that tommy just never could compete with (which could change!)#tim minear can really do whatever he wants right now#well done on him for managing that#911
10 notes
·
View notes