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Swap Douma!
I know he doesn't look good shut up-
#i cant draw his face#i also#cant draw his hair#but by some miracle#it doesnt look that bad here#my swap au focuses on canon divergence#what point of this characters life is where they chose to be a demon or hunter#lets reverse it#douma doesnt have a big catalyst#he just felt like being a demon#so#i decided to make him weirdly talented#he rose up the ranks really fast as a demon so i figured hed be an exceptional swordsman as well#he joined the corps after (shinobu) and kanae attacked his cult#and he somehow managed to kill an upper rank without ever having picked up a sword#i figured his weird talent and lack of care for the mission is just a good a reason for akaza not to like him in this universe as well#i have a lot of thoughts about him and his relationships with other characters#but im done for now#my art#kny douma#kny fanart#kny swap au#demon slayer swap au#douma
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not to go off topic but i think that ideal post-canon dungeon meshi situation for kabru is for him to simultaneously have a slowburn domestic cozy noodles and rare escapes to go monster hunting and falling asleep in the same bed situation with mithrun AND some sort of high politics high stakes power dynamics they can't escape, manipulation equally matched by hopeless affection, glances shared over council tables, getting caught in the closet with the king again (explaining basic social protocols to him) thing with laios.
then just as he's coming to terms with his own feelings and the possibility that they might be romantic he learns that mithrun and laios have in fact been carrying on some sort of psychosexual no-strings affair the whole time (mithrun sits on the dresser and dispassionately explains horrific and bizarre monster situations from around the globe while laios gets off seven feet away)
#dungeon meshi#mithrun#laios touden#kabru of utaya#labrumisu#sometimes Mithrun tells Laois about how he would have mercy killed him#and laios tells Mithrun what it felt like to have the demon spasm and die under him#hashtag just boys night#before you ask me how kabru didn’t realize this was happening#he KNEW they were having little secret meeting he just thought it was therapeutic#which in a sense trying to make each other cry is but#they always looked like they’d had a really cathartic conversation when they came out of laios’ room! mithrun was so cheerful afterwards#in fairness it was good for them#they were both having fun and letting off steam#it’s only kabru who’s being weird about it per usual
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Rengoku-san was so, so close to cutting off Akaza's head, yet Akaza still felt more terror about dawn.
#i'm just#sitting with this#Akaza was stunned by Rengoku's strength yes#but he's seen a lot of Hashira who were ultimate unable to overpower a demon#Rengoku was already clearly dying at that point if he stayed human#Akaza was more worked up about that than his own peril initially#Rengoku was so strong and yet#AND YET#it just goes to show how overwhelming outmatched humans are by nature of being humans#but Rengoku chose this#for him it wasn't about winning and proving his own strength#like what might have motivated easily disheartened Rengoku ancestors#it was about not letting that demon harm anyone else there#hence why Tanjiro dying would have truly meant Rengoku's loss#but despite his hard earned victory#Akaza felt no fear of him#not really#humans just aren't the sun#and this is why the 12 Kizuki are always so stunned when they are defeated#BUT MUZAN DIDN'T TRULY KNOW FEAR UNTIL YORIICHI ANYWAY which goes to show how far a league of his own lonely Yoriichi was#my head is in my hands#things that happen when Mugen Ressha music goes through your head during the work day#rengoku kyojuro#rengoku kyoujurou#akaza
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another genius element of mxtx protagonists is how one of the love interest always toes the line of potential victimhood Just enough to make you concerned while reading & then you see their interactions with the other love interest & it's like! oh! they're both fucking freaks! i get it now
#hua cheng could be seen as xie lians creepy controlling stalker IF xie lian didnt have the power to stop him / felt uncomfortable#but . hes literally the most powerful being . & also hes a fucking freaj who invited a ghost king to sleep with him like. hes just insane#shen yuan COULD be seen as a victim of lou binghe's obsession IF he didn't have the absolute end all power over binghe#where if he truly showed no sense of adoration for him--it would be over. but instead even when he's running hes like !!! binghe!!#bc hes a FREAK & is obsessedwith having demons do stuff to his body so like. freak4freak#THE WHOLE SCENE WHERE HE SEES LOU BINGHE CARRY HIS DEAD BODY FROM BED TOGETHER AND EVERYONE IS LIKE U GROSS FUCKER#& shen yuan's just like he's so lonely ! :(!!#they all deserve eachother#mxtx#tgcf#svsss
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MCD except the Divine Warriors are Actual Gods(TM) and are looking down from their little divine perches and occasionally go "what the actual fuck guys" to their champions/decendants
#i have a whole AU concept for this lmao#irini is observing s1 adoni (Aphmau) like “why are you putting all the attractive villiagers in one house. just. why”#plot twist her ACTUAL champion is Vylad#adoni is simply a divine gift to the world that she felt like sending#adoni may or may not be pandora#Eamonn (esmund) is very exasperated by garroth at all times but he still prefers him to zane#the only way zane escapes being smited by multiple gods is because he has divine protection#not from irini#from xavier#because xavier is like “but. but i like his partner and theyd be sad if he died :[”#his partner is janus and they might be a decendant maybe???#memphis (menphia) sneakily gives katelyn boosts because I Like Her Shut Up Eamonn#kul'zac remains unproblematic in all ways#enki is yelling at travis to Take Notes on his demonic heritage#sycar is... being sycar about Aaron#divine warriors#minecraft diaries#mcd#mcd rewrite#lady irini#eamonn the protector#esmund the protector#enki the keeper#kul'zac the wanderer#menphia the fury#memphis the fury#lady irene#xavier the admirer#xavier the silver death
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looking back at the yjh webtoon screencaps i have saved and giggling... hes so cute... moe... my pookie ^___^ 🥰🥰 poor little meow meow woof woo- *eliminated where i stand*
also these poses are sooooo... ��아악🖤🫣🫣🫣🫣
#talk tag#orv liveblog#<--gonna just tag my orv misc posts as this now#i looooove when the webtoon artist draws him like a demonic beast#its genuinely so moe to me smdbsndn like hes supposed to be rly handsome but theyre not afraid to make him look unhinged#i rmbr livetweeting that yjh hibernation pic captioned 'hes so moe'... apparently that was 2022(just dug it up)#more than 1 person has told me that theyre surprised i bias yjh from the webtoon alone#bc apparently they dont do his chara justice(v 😔😔😔 to hear that...thats not good..)#BUT HOW COULD I NOT BIAS HIM!!!! (apparently this is not a universal experience aldjskdj)#this just makes me even more uncontrollably excited to read the novel i cant wait to love him more than i alr do#and i love when he glares and makes a disgusted face at kdj... its so cute 🤭 he's like an angry black dog to me. hes like a wolf puppy#*tries to pat his head and gets cut down in .00001 sec... no he wouldnt waste his sword on me... i would simply perish from being in the#the presence of his aura#literally the tsundere ever#aside from hiei... hiei rly primed me to like male tsunderes guys#like after him i have loved sm tsundere male charas since#yjh is in a league of his own tho. like idc how many similar/near identical charas have come before or since#he OWNS the yjh archetype literally everyone else is just copying him <33#even if it was a choice btwn yjh and cedric id have to go w yjh... he is the original im sorry... i love u cedric#and i love that the whole point is that his design/chara archetype ISNT supposed to be original... thats the Point#he's the typical op dark haired stoic cold brooding (and sexy) protagonist...#his chara concept is supposed to be that trope... but what orv does w him is so subversive#and the fact that he is supplanted from his position as the protag in the narrative... i love it sooo much#like maybe i wouldnt care as much if he actually was the protag? bc again it wouldnt rly be new#but the fact that he isnt the actual protag is sooo good#IM NOT RLY SAYING OR ANALYZING ANYTHING RN BUT I JUST FELT LIKE YJH LOVEPOSTING#o sidenote his webtoon faces make great rxn images slfnsmd I LOVE USING THE FIRST ONE#i love using heartwrenching anime/comic moments out of context as rxn images its so funny to me#me @ the orv live action cast announcement
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I like to think in the P.E au that Anya and Curly specifically get haunted hard by Jimmy's weird reality crossing guilt manifested.
It's targeting them because Jimmy's guilt grows more around them. The idea of him acting and playing nice despite what he did. It's like a buffet that allows it to pick from their plates.
Anya sees this stagnant version of her, blood from her mouth, clutching her stomach with a bottle of pills in her other hand. She's talking about not being heard, a pixel, relief from a burden. She tries to ask a question and it's never the right one. She's not understanding but in a way, she's getting that this version of her is in pain. She tries to help, extends a hand and asks how she can help, stop it. She stares and there's utter despair and disappointment in her eyes.
What did you do?
Curly sees this burnt mangled thing. But he can't call it that. Even with no skin and chipping teeth, covered in sullied bandages and smelling of death overdue, he can see his face. He can recognized that eye, he stares at it a lot in the mirror, usually a second one is attached but he digresses. They are just watching, staring and unmoving. He asks himself what happened, how can he help and his own retched mangled voice comes out from a empty maw.
I told you.
They have no idea what it really means. They don't know who to tell. Flashes of a life they don't know or maybe a future they haven't lived yet. Perhaps they treat it as their own minds trying to tell them something. They bare that burden themselves and that alone makes it heavier. Plumper. More appetizing to the guilt causing it.
Tragically that guilt is not their own.
#refining the au and the crew cant see the entity always but pretty much its always felt sort of like a mind over matter debacle#it is like the code scanner sections where only jimmy sees it but it can kinda interact with things to an extent like a force of negative#energy jimmy cant just outright tell them cause theyll just think he's insane but he can't ignore it cause he can't ignore the guilt anymor#anya and curly are its biggest targets as it is relatively easy for him to rectify the issues with Swansea and Daisuke vs the internalized#problems he has with Anya and Curly and its sort of about him no longer becoming that person he was in that future cause its the same#timeline but like divergence he was sent back with something awful and the story is less about forgiveness and more about repenting#hes still weird and an asshole he is being tormented but no one else gets seriously hurt so bittersweet#its like a fix-it but like imagine getting put into a perfect world with all the knowledge of ur fuck ups and now being haunted by the#guilt you will do the same shit again because you already have and having to prove you arent that person but then you also prove you didnt#ever have to be that person so you damn yourself even more like this doesn't end happy for Jimmy like ill tell you that but he'll actually#learn something so yeah thats somethting but everyone is still a little worse after this but can move on happily#the demons are tormenting each other by blaming them for Jimmy's actions invertedly cause while its not her fault anya in the reg timeline#def wondered if she stayed silent if this all wouldve happened even though it really isnt her fault and Curly knew deep down how bad Jimmy#was how bad he was to him and he likely told himself Jimmy would be the end of him and a lot of other but was so beaten down he couldnt go#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#anya mouthwashing#nurse anya#jimmy mouthwashing#pe au#thinking of calling it pestilent equine au? that sound good? we like P.E is just the short funny name for it?
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seen people talk about how marcs 2012 season was the reason the penalty point system was introduced (that made vale start from the back in 2015 which is admittedly absolutely absurdly funny) so here i am to ask my favorite motogp historian for thoughts (and prayers?) mostly about what exactly marc DID to make that happen (kinda funny also that he was branded a track terrorist from day 1 😭) and why they struck it in the mid 2010s?
okay so I'm gonna be lazy here and start out by just including what I put in the marc race recs post:
phillip island 2011 was the worst incident, and marc was criticised by motogp riders too, including valentino and casey. that one was like... it was just straight up dangerous and also incredibly stupid, I mean you're trying to get an extra lap in at the end of fp1 and are putting yourself and other riders in serious danger (definitely a case where you can argue that the penalty didn't go far enough and a race ban would have been warranted). marc can sometimes be pretty bullish in response to criticism while still going away and kinda realising what he'd done was a bad idea, quietly adjusting his behaviour... examples include this, where he had his team appeal the penalty, as well as of course 2018 argentina, where he talked down the 'mistakes' he'd made and said he'd done more wrong in the aleix than the valentino incident (which may be true, but it's the rhetorical equivalent of saying it's better to go up to someone's home and throw bricks through the windows than it is to set it on fire) - he is fairly good at learning from his mistakes, even when he doesn't always fully admit to them
that being said, of course he did continue getting himself involved in a fair bit of controversy during 2012. but it's worth pointing out that the penalty points system wasn't just a case of 'oh this kid is so bad, we've got to do something' - it was also a case of 'yeah this is being handled in a super inconsistent manner, actually'. like, there were times people felt marc should be penalised more, yes, but other times where they felt it was too much... it was just a bit all over the place. luckily, inconsistent stewarding is a problem they've managed to fix in the intervening twelve years, so we never hear about that stuff any more. let's just give a quick summary of the four biggest 2012 flashpoints:
qatar: marc runs luthi off-track in a deliberate and pretty dangerous way and gets a slap on the cooldown lap for his troubles, plus a reprimand from race direction
catalunya: towards the end of a race in which marc made several questionable moves, pol espargaro attempted to overtake marc who had just saved a fall - marc cuts across the track to rejoin the racing line and ends up colliding with pol. he was initially given a controversial penalty in the form of a minute added to his final time, before that was rescinded (which was unsuccessfully appealed by pol's team). see here for valentino and casey's reactions
motegi: marc 'torpedoed' kallio in saturday morning practise, riding into his side while kallio was on the racing line headed into a turn and causing kallio to highside... which he was not penalised for. some responses to the incident below
valencia: marc attempted to overtake corsi in friday practise, causing him to crash. this time, race direction handed out a back-of-the-grid penalty
it's a subtle distinction but an important one so I'll just stress it again: the stated aim of the penalty points wasn't to hold back aggressive riders like marc but to attempt to reduce inconsistency, which had been exposed in part due to how differently these marc incidents were handled. what marc did was create several high profile controversies, in each case prompting some level of frustration with how race direction handled the whole thing. obviously, there were other non-marc-related stewarding controversies, but it is inarguable that he was a significant factor in causing a revamp of the system
by the way, here's valentino's criticism of marc after the valencia incident:
here's a quick explanation of how the penalty points worked:
and, you know, for what it's worth marc did calm down in motogp... he certainly became better at operating in the grey area of the rules, approaching his racing in a manner his competitors didn't always appreciate but was certainly a lot harder to penalise. though there were also incidents that of course people felt marc should be penalised for - say after jerez 2013, jorge did kinda go 'okay but surely you can at least give a few penalty points for this, isn't this what they're for'. but it's not like there was unanimous agreement on that, see the immediate responses of some of the riders:
(bradley smith saying that jorge's last serious race was motegi 2005 - the one he got the race ban for - is a bit of an insane stance to take and doesn't really match up to reality, but it did make me laugh so that's something. of course the general point that during the alien era most of them were avoiding doing much actual racing isn't exactly wrong but. still)
not to make this a riding standards post, but this is the underlying tension when you're trying to decide how to regulate the sport... jerez was the first serious test that system faced - and it's one where race direction ended up calling it a pure racing incident. which is a tough call! I talked about it a bit in the sete post and what his stance was on the jerez 2005 incident, where he feels like this isn't a contact sport and shouldn't be adjudicated as such. it's a fundamental philosophical difference that became very relevant again when marc showed up fresh from his controversial moto2 campaign and woke up the entire class with his own particular brand of racing. from a write-up of the jerez 2013 race:
(motegi 2008 not motegi 2010, which is something I remember because casey's pass also allowed valentino to immediately swoop on through. should be noted that casey may have apologised but he did not give the position back to dani lol. also motegi 2010 is pretty memorable if we're talking about hard racing. fair to say that valentino demonstrated he did not share the approach of his fellow aliens when battling jorge)
and more on the shift marc brought about:
this is the thing, right - a big part of understanding that time period is concerning yourself with what came just before. the general feeling (unsurprisingly not shared by casey, jorge or dani) was that the series desperately needed some new life breathed into it, that the racing had become stale and sterile and far too predictable... there were several factors that contributed to this, from the beloathed 800cc bikes that were only replaced in 2012, to the approach of those three aliens and how adept they'd become at racking up wins by dominating out front, to how valentino (generally considered the most 'exciting' racer of the lot) had taken himself out of the competitive picture... I mean, in all honesty the racing is still not great in 2013 compared to the rossi heyday (it had gotten better by the very end of the 2010s), but of course there's a lot more energy to it than the years before. which meant the sport as a whole was in a tricky place where they both had to be seen to be constraining marc, stopping him from being an active danger to himself and others, while also kind of... letting him loose. a little bit of controversy is hardly a bad thing, after all - love him or hate him, everyone had a take, and that's the kind of thing that's obviously healthy for a sport
marc did get two penalty points that year for ignoring yellow flags in silverstone and crashing in the same place as cal crutchlow had just gone down:
(for obvious reasons, 'ignoring yellow flags' is extremely dangerous, but there's no reason to believe he wasn't being honest here)
he was also given another penalty point for the contact that caused dani's crash in aragon, taking him perilously close to that back-of-the-grid penalty:
and that was basically their position - it's a warning. broadly they wanted him to not completely revamp his approach, but just apply a little more discretion, exercise his judgement. a little more caution, a little more restraint. it's still fundamentally a different philosophy of racing than the one that had been espoused for several years by the other aliens save for valentino - but marc could get to a place where he was engaging in hard racing that generally toed the line without crossing it. a little more detail on the aragon incident and marc's approach to racing in the context of the time period from this write-up:
this is the issue, right, marc was riding on just the right line of acceptable that race direction would not have in any way been justified in slapping out race bans - though you can certainly argue that in some cases, you could have handed out more penalty points, which would then have meant he would have faced more 'real' consequences. in any case, they couldn't actually 'teach him a lesson', because he'd already more or less learned it... if the lesson is 'hard racing and contact is fine, just don't overdo it'. which of course, not everyone would agree with. the odd memorable exception aside, throughout marc's premier class career he's been very aware of that line, and has taken care to avoid bringing the wrath of race direction upon himself too severely
the penalty points thing and sepang 2015... well, first of all let's quickly bring in what the actual ruling was:
honestly, I imagine that if they didn't have a penalty points system, they would've figured out a different way to penalise him, and might have slapped him with a back-of-the-grid penalty anyway. not in a 'oh the fim had it out for valentino rossi!!!!' way, more that they did need to be seen doing something. the penalty points felt like a fairly elegant way of giving a penalty that wasn't that harsh and wasn't making any judgement calls over whether valentino deliberately kicked marc, while also in an indirect way ensuring that valentino would suffer consequences. and yes, it is a nice bit of dramatic irony - but the piece says it, the penalty "had to be severe enough for rossi to feel truly punished". the penalty points happened to be the tool they had available and perhaps with a different set of rules, valentino would have been handed a slightly different flavour of punishment. but really, this is more 'fun historical coincidence' than something that massively changed the events that played out
of course, it was a controversial decision that few people felt 100% comfortable with. on the one hand, if you believe that valentino kicked marc, then you probably would have wanted him to be disqualified - three measly penalty points does not feel enough in that situation. on the other, if you believe that valentino engaged aggressively with marc but without deliberately trying to make him crash, then a back-of-the-grid penalty that essentially decided the outcome of the championship before the final race even started is a tough pill to swallow. (of course there's also a position somewhere in between where valentino didn't literally kick marc but did attempt to run him off track, which would make the penalty 'about right'.) of course, the championship standings should ideally not determine what sort of penalties are being handed out - but equally, it's something that did limit the intrigue going into the race, and over something that felt quite arbitrary. the other penalty point he'd gotten to rack up the four total was about a qualifying incident in misano - which either feels like a silly thing to determine the ultimate outcome of the championship, or instead is a demonstration of how the cumulative nature of the points system is supposed to work. but yes, it did get a lot of criticism in the aftermath, with concerns over whether future title fights could end up being defanged as an indirect consequence of relatively minor incidents earlier in the season
and of course, the penalty points were eventually scrapped in early 2017. here's a bit more on that decision:
basically, sepang 2015 was a contributing factor to broader changes in how motogp was regulated, which down the line had the knock-on effect of getting rid of that penalty system entirely. rightly or wrongly, race direction felt like they had better tools available to penalise riders and this system was now redundant. anyway [insert another lazy gag about how the switch to a stewards panel has completely failed in eliminating controversy from stewarding] [insert pithy closing line] [press post]
#not to get into stewarding discourse on a tumblr blog but personally I wasn't really a fan of dropping the penalty points#brr brr#motogp#//#batsplat responds#alien tag#i was flicking through casey's autobiography looking for what he said about valentino's behaviour in 2006 while writing the sepang '19 post#and rereading some of his other valentino comments just before reading that jerez 2013 write-up did make me go. god#I almost think I undersold how much casey would've hated racing marc. like you think valentino is terrible??#'to ride as close as we do at that speed you have to really respect and trust each other. we get to understand the body language of other -#- riders and learn there are ways to pass someone without making contact; without pushing people onto the kerb; but somehow valentino -#- and I weren't on the same wavelength and as a result I always felt I had to be super-alert when I raced him'#yeah no#valentino ended up being tied to a lot of the things casey despised about the sport but marc is like casey's sleep paralysis demon
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Kestrel "Kes" de Riva 🐦⬛
🟣 Age || 31 🟣 Lineage || Human 🟣 Pronouns || He/Him ~ Transgender 🟣 Identity || Gay 🟣 Class || Mage 🟣 Specialization(s) || Spellblade 🟣 Faction || The Antivan Crows 🟣 Romance || Lucanis 🟣 Besties || Neve & Emmrich 🟣 Frenemies || Davrin
#oc: kestrel de riva#my ocs#my screenshots#dragon age the veilguard#datv#datv rook#rook de riva#antivan crow rook#antivan crows#crow rook#rook#aka: de riva de diva#and he is one too my goodness#his impulse control is as uncontrollable as his need for style#the first thing he complained about when he got sidelined was the fact that he'd have to turn in his crow clothing to lay low#he and viago almost had it out because of it but teia stepped in--as she always does#he just likes the finer things in life 🤷♀️#and he never wants to lose what he gains...which makes things difficult as one could imagine#he came from a crappy family growing up--one that unfortunately got his parents contracts taken out on them#his family resented him for having magic and were heavily andrastian--lots of religious trauma i imagine there#but they were also hypocritical and...not good people. i'm still working out finer details :T#kes was spared and 'mercifully' taken in by the crows as they saw his potential#again still working out the finer details of his life but he's been through the ringer in a way and takes being a crow to heart now#he likes the infamy and what it can get him and stepped into leading the veilguard more reluctantly than others#but he soon understood the necessity of this job--and a crow never abandons a contract 🫡🫠#getting to meet the demon of vyrantium (and wooing him) was a bonus even he didn't expect 😏#truthfully he's the one who was wooed he just won't admit defeat lol#viago has also been there since his transition and fully supported them in any way possible--even if kes is an idiot lol#kes felt like the crows have been truer family than his ever were to him buuuut that may be a bit of the indoctrination talking as well ~op
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Unfinished comic that I’ve bee sitting on for literally over two years. Anyways when you and the bestie have a complex situationship that very quickly spirals into something so agonizingly one sided (unless….? 😳)
#genzen#zengen#genya shinazugawa#zenitsu agatsuma#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#dude my girlfriend and I literally went fucking insane over yesterdays episode#we genuinely have been frothing at the mouth airing for this episode to be animated for literally like five years#genzen nation this is what we’ve been waiting for.#rise up.#*crickets*#I’ve been seeing a few people on twitter talking abt them in nthis episode hopefully genze finally gets it’s just desserts#I pray to god we get more people into this ship I need it I need it in my blood I need it I my veins#my girlfriend and I were sitting there beating each other to death the entire episode they showed up on screen next to each other#we felt nothing but genuine pure unbridled insanity#anyways a bit of lore for some of our au we’ve been cookin#genya and zenitsu both mutually have a crush on tanjirou but they both know he’s way too out of their league#so they end up forming a bit of a semi codependent bond on one another for comfort and helping each other through various other aspects#of extreme mental illness 💀#they both also end up developing feelings for one another but genya is too stubborn to admit that he could ever like zenitsu#zenitsu is more open to the idea of being romantically attracted to genya#he oftentimes tries to do things under the guise of their preestablished situationship#but it’s really him pretending that he and genya are doing things together like a genuine couple#and he ends up getting his feelings hurt every time bc genya ultimately rejects the idea of it being anything beyond platonic
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I know how it sounds at first, but I really gotta feel bad for the boys that sacrificed edwin; I mean even the term “sacrificed edwin” paints them in a more sinister light than they really deserve– considering that wasn’t really, actually their intention.
they were bullies, they were homophobic (and/or were self loathing gay boys themselves taking it out on edwin, or were equally likely peer pressured into acting a certain way), they planned something stupid and mean to do to an innocent, anxious boy with the goal of scaring the shit out of him, all because he was effeminate and an easy target. but they didn’t know or expect any of the ritual stuff to be real. they were all laughing and joking during the ritual because it was just that to them– a joke. a cruel joke, but a joke.
teenagers can be mean and stupid and they usually regret it as adults and grow out of it / grow from it. they were stifled the chance to grow out of it, at least while alive. none of those boys deserved to be instakilled and sent to hell; they’re really not that much less deserving than edwin himself. they were all just kids, after all.
#random thought but. yeah……#I mean think about if crystal happened to be killed somehow pre-demonic intervention#she would’ve been deemed deserving of hell by the standards we’ve seen. no doubt about it. if the dragon guys were pulled to hell then yeah.#she would be as well. simply put- she was a bully#she was also a teenager. not a fully developed person. a very damaged and neglected teenager at that#it’s kinda like the criminal justice system right. it’s like. hey you really think sending them to be tormented is the most humane and#efficient way to heal these kids of what makes them act out and allow them to grow and improve?#Crystal’s such a good case to look at because she’s. well. to compare to The Good Place which you can probably already tell I’ve watched 800#times and adore with all my heart. she’s kinda the michael of the group#no one knows it at first but she’s actually kind of a terror to people most of the time. but she’s put in a situation where she#suddenly has a support system- people who care about her and want the best for her- she’s given a purpose and realizes how much better it is#to use her powers to help rather than hurt (well. sometimes helping can involve hurting but you get it)#and by the time she’s regained her memories and has a place in the agency it’s much easier to reflect on her life and be like huh!#this system kinda fucking sucks!#not that edwin wasn’t an example unto himself but he was a ‘clerical error’ not a ‘rightfully’ condemned person#with his situation someone could argue that the problem isn’t with the system being wack as a whole- it should just be maintained better so#these ‘errors’ don’t happen and all the good kids go to their afterlives and the Bad Evil Kids go to hell.#yes yes I know they’re not in hell forever (hopefully) but uhh Simon was still there for over a century and for fucking What?#gay self-loathing and catholic guilt? his intentions were clearly not Truly Evil and more than anything he seems to have been punished using#how much he hated himself for being gay and how guilty he felt for it all. like shit aren’t those feelings enough of a punishment? if he had#lived through that ritual and edwin hadn’t– do you think he would’ve been Okay? I think it would’ve crushed him. chronically#man. anyway#this was an especially long ramble huh#rambling#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives
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UMETAROU NOGUCHI - Demon Slayer [sketch redraw]
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#my art*#oc: umetarou noguchi#artists on tumblr#demon slayer#kny oc#kny#demon slayer oc#my ocs#original character#character design#digital art#okay yes clarification: I have already drawn him but his original design always felt off to me#I loved how dynamic it was BUT#since developing him more I felt the smiling while he holds his sword didn’t sit right#he doesn’t like fighting… he didn’t wanna be a slayer… so being happy to do it wasn’t right#hence the new design#he’s more comfortable just chilling and being helpful#he’s also chaotic af so him looking calm while fighting… hmmm not it#as we speak I am currently rendering him!!#so will be finished soon hopefully#but honestly drawing is something I really wanna do atm but I’m struggling for mental energy#I keep waking up on the verge of a panic attack and I’m so defeated#just… wanna be chill again#but I doubt that’ll happen#anyway I hope you like the new version!#sorry for the semi mental dump
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huh. crazy how the secrets sam keeps arent about trauma right?
#ok i need to stop hurting myself#anyways#sam keeping the secret about the demon blood/dreams in s1-3 is COMPLETELY fair#and totally related to trauma when your family LITERALLY HUNTS MONSTERS#and on top of that#when you have felt unclean and evil since childhood#idk man#i think thats fair#and then s4#s4 my absolute beloved#do i care that dean keeps secrets from sam in this season? not really#the secrets i get mad at dean for keeping are the ones that are about sam's personhood#like sam has the right to know about being soulless bc fuck dude that was literally him#sam has the right to know that their dad said to kill him bc fuck dude that's literally about! him!#but dean not telling sam about hell? yeah thats fine whatever#the demonblood tho.. oof thats just good storytelling#i love that shit#its just so intertwined with sam's self-image#along with the fact that he is an addict#of course he's not telling dean#dean actually literally in canon almost kills sam over it#and its my favorite television ever#anyways there is a double standard here bc you think sams secrets have nothing to do with his trauma when. uh. yeah they fucking do#lea speaks#fandom wank
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Wild idea: Alex Jones was one of Azazel's Special Children that he made just for funsies.
Research I didn't actually have to do but did: The Special Children Activation happened between 2006-2007 and Alex was kidnapped by Celia from her family smack-dab in the middle of that. 😃
#Eric Kripke did... did you want to get into that if Wayward Sisters got picked up?#Alex is so Sam-coded from being the younger 'sister' to her appearance to wanting a normal life you Gotta give her double blood weirdness#Imagine being 12 - we're starting off strong with the Horrors - and having awful migraines and dreams about monsters#And then one night monsters pour into your home and at first you're calm because you think it's another nightmare#But then you feel the warmth of your mother's blood on that wild-eyed woman's palm on your cheek and you realize It's Real#And you live in the nightmares now and you've gotta learn to love the monsters in order to survive#...Not to disappoint but... This Is Still About Lucifer in Wayward Sisters#Lucifer realizes that Alex is one of Azazel's kids like Sam and but he knows how Sam felt about the demon blood#[Sam sharing withdrawal symptoms in the Cage before Castiel yoinked their body]#So the math is 'Demon blood = powerful Sad human but Azazel = demon + pinch of my grace so I gotta give Alex my blood to fix it'#Something something Alex gets so much grace wrapped around her soul that it sings in pitches Claire can hear and she gets tiny wings#And Lucifer gets to groom her teensy useless wings and she's a new type of monster that they're just calling pure. Neither human nor angel#Lucifer and Alex get to be a little fucked up in this take there's a point where Lucifer is slipping his blood in her food#And another where he's stabbing a crazy straw into his heart for her. Also maybe Alex ate human flesh as a preteen. Who can say?#Important to note that Lucifer Didn't Know Alex would get Great Value Angel'd he just does Experiments sometimes.#It's how he made Lilith and the Princes and Cain he's just gonna give some humans incredible power and see if they blow up#He started real small and responsibly on the archangel blood (possibly had a trial run first Alex is Special to him)#Neither Azazel's blood nor Lucifer's blood makes Alex a perfect vessel for Lucifer but she gets tuned into Angel vision at some point
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This scene is destroying me...
been obsessed with @exilethegame recently. I love my commander so much i will post about him soon. Clarisse is his true mom.
Go play it!!!! It's by far my favorite interactive fiction i've played
#exile the game#the exile if#IM NOT CRYING IM NOT#oc: voxe kalesko#the deathless demon#“this is your bedroom not the barracks.”#i like to think that clarisse doesnt see him as a royal so much as her little boy#growing up she was the only one he really felt like he could just be voxe around#instead of being the lost prince or the deathless demon. to her he's just a kid#she could never be scared of him#not like marcelle and emeline always seem to be to at least some degree#or at least scared of what he represents#augh im so excited for the rewrite... to see how this scene changes/ stays the same#it holds such a special place in my heart#“Even if I should be.”#WAAHHHHHH
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the only thing worse than right person wrong time is falling in love under the worst circumstances and knowing you wouldnt have met otherwise. there was no place for this love to grow other than the cracks in the sidewalk. it is a disease and i am too weak and foolishly hopeful to carve it out of myself. there is so much grief here and the agony of knowing we will have to part only makes it worse. how long will it be until i look at your face and see only the suffering i endured for it?
#it's like. do u htink dean wouldve fallen in love with crowley if he wastn a demon that summer? if he wasnt angry and broken and hurtign#and crowley was hte only person he could trust? do u think crowley wpuldve fallen in love with dean if he hadtn gone through the agony of#the trials and felt all hte guilt and pain of being a human again. anywya this i was also kidn of thinking about akiangel im just going#insane out here. agony or whatever yk#the pig squeals
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