#he is going to pamper the shit out of her lmfao

[urlocalwhumper]

here's more, sorry i'm obsessed lol

rayan belongs to @sowhumpshaped (even though he's never referred to by name here LMFAO)

nana loved everything about her new home.

it wasn't as big as her previous master's, but that hardly mattered to her at all. she wasn't allowed in most of that house anyways. but here, her new master had told her she could go wherever she wanted, just to knock first if the door was closed.

her new collar and tag jingled slightly as she wandered around, carefully exploring. their quick trip to the pet store had been scary and stressful for her - so many other pets and people, so many sounds and smells and eye-grabbing colors - but master had gently insisted on buying her a new collar, especially once he saw how raw and chafed her neck was under the too-tight leather.

her new collar was lime green and made of polyester, and sat around her neck loosely enough to not chafe, but tight enough to not come off. her new tag was shaped like a bone, with her name on the front and her master's name and phone number on the back. even something as small as that made her feel warm inside. her old master had never bothered putting any contact information on her tag, claiming that if she somehow got away, he wouldn't want her back anyways.

as both an apology for the ordeal and a reward for being such a good girl, master took her to pick out a new toy once they'd gotten her collar. she'd been a little overwhelmed at first, faced with an entire aisle of possible selections. she'd never had a toy before. but master assured her that she had all the time in the world to decide, and after a few minutes of pacing back and forth through the aisle, she returned to his side with a stuffed frog between her teeth. it was soft but firm, well-stuffed, and she liked the green.

"nana!" master called from another room, snapping her back to the present. "would you come here please?"

she obeyed, following the sound of his voice into the apartment's single bedroom. there, she found him kneeling and adjusting... something, she couldn't quite tell yet, over in the corner of the room.

"surprise!" he said happily, moving out of the way. in the corner of his bedroom, he'd rigged up a sheet to form a little canopy, and beneath the little sheet-tent was a soft, plush looking pet bed, with an equally as soft looking blanket draped over one half, and her stuffed frog sitting on the other. "it's your bed!"

she blinked, awestruck. her bed? this was all for her? she gingerly stepped forward, until she was close enough to climb into the bed, curling up with her frog in her arms and pulling the blanket over herself. peering out through the gap in the tent, her back to the wall and surrounded by a cocoon of warmth and softness, she felt her nose starting to burn and her single eye filling with tears.

she'd never felt so safe and loved before, and found herself overwhelmed by the onslaught of emotion. this is what she'd needed, all her life, this is all she'd ever wanted.

"do you like it?" master asked, peeking into the tent. he seemed saddened, but not surprised to see her crying. "oh, sweetheart," he soothed, "it's okay. no one's ever gonna hurt you again. it's only gonna be pets and treats and toys and soft beds from here on out, okay?"

his kind words only made her cry harder, but she eagerly nuzzled into his hand when he moved to pet her hair, hoping to convey the depth of the love and gratitude she already felt. she might have been weeping, but her tail was wagging so hard it had started to audibly thump against the wall behind her.

the two of them just sat there for a while while she cried, and master didn't stop petting or reassuring her for a single moment until she finally settled down, snuggling further into her soft bed as it finally hit her just how drained she was from the day's events.

"oh!" master suddenly exclaimed. "you must be hungry, it's almost dinnertime." he moved to get up and gave her one more parting scratch behind the ear. "i'm gonna go cook, you just settle in some more. or you can take a nap if you want, you look tired." he smiled. "i'll wake you up when it's time to eat, okay?"

nana simply nodded, huffing contently and burying her face into the soft fabric of her stuffed frog. she distantly registered master pulling her blanket more securely around her, before she was out like a light.

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bonus

nana's frog:

[fiona-my-love]

Headcanons for what Valentino, Angel Dust, Asmodeus, and Fizzarolli are like on dates? - Platypus anon

YESYESYESYESYESSSS

How Valentino, Angel Dust, Asmodeus, and Fizzarolli are on dates

Angel Dust

- He’s gonna SPOIL YOU.

- There’s two different kinds of dates he’ll take you on—it’ll either be a big drag show that he takes you to, or just a chill bar or movie date.

- You guys are getting dolled up. Case and point.

- Super affectionate. He’s yours and you’re his, he doesn’t give a fuck!!

- As long as he has you by his side, he’s not letting anyone boss you two around.

- Cherri isn’t a third wheel exactly, but she’s a killer wingman! It’s always a good time when the three of you get together. She knows your boundaries, and you know hers.

- You two definitely run the town on date nights. Whatever trouble you two get into is just apart of the fun.

- Shopping sprees together!!

Valentino

- Another one that’ll spoil you!!!

- Anything you want, you get. No questions asked.

- Expect the vibe to be off the entire time lmao

- Sugar Daddy. That’s it, that’s the headcanon

- He’ll probably try to talk you into a really sketchy deal half way through. Don’t push your luck.

- BUT, if it makes it any better, he does sometimes show genuine interest in what you’re saying! He knows how to turn his charm on.

- He’s a bit distant- like, when you want something he just does it. No additional comments.

- The more you ask for, the more you’re gonna have to do to pay him back, so make the most of it lmfao

Asmodeus

- I’m stating to see a pattern. I think all of these guys are the type to spoil,,

- Sugar Daddy BUT. Complete opposite of Valentino.

- Instead of just getting people to wait on your hand and foot while he stares creepily, he’s gonna be absolutely PAMPERING you!

- He loves to see you happy, no matter the cost!

- Definitely taking you shopping, no questions asked.

- He’s by no means an obsessive perfectionist, but he does want everything to be perfect for you.

- And, it will be whatever you consider to be a perfect date. From movie nights at home to expensive dinners, he wants you to know how much he cares.

- After everything is said and done, you two go home and cuddle. Not only is he super warm and cozy, but he’ll make you a lovely breakfast in the morning!!

Fizzarolli

- Oh boy, you two are gonna get into some trouble!

- Make sure to dress nice if you’re going out! The paparazzi will be on your ass.

- You two are for sure blowing Mammon’s money on some random shit.

- Definitely taking his quievies (I think that’s what they’re called?? The fucked up chihuahuas) with you two on occasion!!

- Anywhere you want to go, you two are going. Perks of being famous.

- He would totally wink at you during big performances. He can’t take his eyes off you, and everyone knows it.

- You’re going rollerskating, along with other activities like that.

- He spends forever getting ready, but he always looks amazing, so can you blame him?

[classyruinsbarbarian]

I’m lowkey sick rn lmfao so out of curiosity:

How do you think various villains would act while sick?

(You can pick who to talk about but you know who I wanna hear about lmao)

Reason

I would imagine that he will prepare for the worse and hope for the best. Well Rhyme is freaking the FUCK out and tries to take him to the hospital whenever the cough is worse then usual.

He'll stay out of crime even if it isn't bad to avoid it either getting worse or getting someone else sick.

He stays home and rests and if he's bored do a crossword, do a chore, or just write a poem.

He is so used to the cold however that as soon as he gets a fever, he will just want Rhyme near him all the time because oh my goodness I feel like shit.

Reason would wait a day or two after he doesn't feel sick just in case.

Let's be honest they would realize that they have literally NOTHING to help with illness (idiots forgot to steal medicine while traveling)

He loves soup a lot and now he has a pretty good reason to thrive off of it for multiple days.

Victoria Best

You will NOT believe how far she will go to hiding this sickness from anybody just so she can keep her best status and if someone finds out she'll just pull the she only has a headache/stomachache and that wouldn't stop her, but if you keep pressing, she'll say "I'm the best at not looking sick unlike everyone else!". Or just use her recorder.

IF HER PARENTS OR BROTHER FINDS OUT? OH BOY.

Her parents would scold her for being sick (the shortest lecture was 38 minutes) and they would try to get her to practice something, but to avoid her from getting anyone sick they give her pain medicine and cough medicine and just leave her.

Her brother will gloat on how he's the best at NOT getting sick. He wouldn't tell their parents, but he wouldn't get her any medicine. He will leave and will have a smile on his face for the entire day.

She is actually pretty good at making sure that no one else gets sick so it wouldn't be traced back to her. (please just wear a mask, you could say that one of the butlers was ill)

If Leslie finds out, missing posters of Victoria is going to show up because Leslie took her back to her house to look after her (this has happened multiple times and no one traced back to Leslie yet)

Invisibill would give her medicine or a ice pack, he would also ask if she wants somewhere to stay, but she always said no. (then Leslie nabs her anyway)

Big Left Hand Guy

He would feel really bad for Invisibill because now he wouldn't be able to help on crimes (especially if they were planning to do one)

Invisibill would pamper him as soon as he realizes that he's sick. (This has a 90% chance of him also getting sick, this is also a reason to cuddle with him because hey! He's not going to get out of bed anytime soon)

He would try to get Invisibill to stop because pup's going to get sick, but most of the time this doesn't work.

His back and left hand starts feeling sore all the time when he's sick; it's one of his least favorite things when it comes to being sick.

The thing is, is that they are in a apartment where most of the residents are ghosts and ghosts can sense sickness so many of their neighbors end up showing up with cards, food, and other things.

Invisibill tries to make him soup, he somehow burns the water in the process.

Left gets annoyed by how much attention he gets while sick however, he rather sleep instead of having to deal with neighbors or other villains showing up. (he is a light sleeper)

Invisibill

He usually gets sick from Big Left Hand Guy.

He adores all the extra attention from everybody (though to make sure that his boyfriend doesn't suffer, he wouldn't tell anyone, just have them find out manually unless if it gets real bad)

But Invisibill cannot handle being sick, he hates it so much.

This ends up with him becoming a grumpy old man in attitude.

He still tries to do crime and ends up regretting it (he didn't even get to the place he wanted to rob)

Chip & Harry (Seymour's brothers)

Chip hates living while Harry is trying to make sure she doesn't drink too much cough medicine again because he wasn't paying attention or mistaken it for a different type of medicine (it happens again)

Seymour ends up buying a lot of things; from their favorite foods and drinks, to a shit ton of medicine, to weighted blankets and plushies.

Chip is always the one that ends up being the most sick out of all of them. Thus making xe want to avoid them so they wouldn't get sick.

Harry would be the one to drag Chip out of hiding so they can try to do something fun instead of trapping themselves in a room.

They play uno, casting shadows, or some other board game if they can; Seymour and or their mom will make something to eat.

Once Beau dates Seymour again: he brings some ice packs, medicine, and makes a dish because he usually stays until midnight.

Despite how shitty it is being sick, it's nice for the family to come together and end up doing a shit ton of stuff. (they always do this multiple times a week anyway even if they aren't ill)

[harventheblorbo]

Their Love Languages! Autobots➥

Containing:.. everyone that's a Autobots (that I know of) .. Gender neutral reader

___ is gender neutral (human or cybertronian is up to you)

Warning:.. May have some errors or misspelled stuff. Didn't feel like writing it on my laptop lmfao. Little swearing

authors note: it was legit 4 am and I thought, 'let's make something that you will regret if you don't finish it!' and I pulled this out of my ass so enjoy this and please request anything I’m bored out of my mind💀

Optimus Prime;

Giving; His main love language is quality time and gift giving. His favorite moments are just spending time with you as that might be the only way to communicate how much he loves you. For gift giving, he sees gifts as if they have meaning you each one. He does try to put some meaning behind it as well.

Receiving; he loves receiving acts of service. To him it shows that you are willing to show that you love him by helping him with his life

Ratchet;

Giving; despite this man being a grumpy man, his love language is Quality time and and acts of service. He enjoys just sitting there as you two chat about random things as he works. When he isn’t working he likes to help you with things.

Receiving; This man is VERY simple with what he gets. He likes acts of service. He likes how someone helps with him and thinks it has meaning when you help with his stuff so it doesn’t take longer to do what ever he needed

Bumblebee;

Giving; Words of affirmation. Simple as that. He loves pampering you with compliments and sometimes enjoys when you blush at his comments. He wants to make sure that he loves you by telling you the usual ‘I love you’s and just wholesome stuff that he would say. (Or in this case beep and whirr at you)

Receiving; He enjoys physical touch. Either that be simple hand holding or to cuddling he just enjoys it a lot and begs you with puppy eyes for late night cuddling or random naps together.

Arcee;

Giving; She shows her love through Acts of service and gift giving. She may not be the best at showing her love through love so she shows it in different ways and just prays that you understand how much you mean to her.

Receiving; As in return, she loves Physical Touch. She is extremely touch starved so she enjoys you hugging her a lot of just hand holding. She loves it when you are just talking with her and you two are holding hands.

Bulkhead;

Giving; his main thing is acts of service. He helps you with sometimes reaching up places where you normally can't. Or just helping you carry stuff that you can't

Receiving; he likes words of affirmations to praise his acts of service. It also shows that you truely love him and not just trying to ignore it.

WheelJack;

Giving; his love language is physical touch and words of affirmations . To him, it's the true way to show how to love a S/O. When it comes to physical touch, he will random just cling to you and not let go. It will also be very random but can last along time being in cuddle bug mode. When it comes to words affirmations he will say random 'love you's and random bullshit that Just makes you flustered.

Receiving; he is not picky with what he gets. He enjoys when he has a S/O that gives him physical touch so it's just cuddle bugs with cuddle bugs.

Ultra Magnus;

Giving; Gift giving and words of affirmations. He is the best at gift giving as he finds that he will randomly find and will buy it for you if it reminds him of you. You if you straight up ask him.

Receiving; physical touch, I think that he is EXTREMELY touch starved so when you touch him in the slightest, he will fall harder for you then he already has.

Smokescreen;

Giving; words if affirmations and physical touch, his favorite thing to do is to cuddle you and just tell jokes or say shit that will make you flustered as all hell.

Receiving; Quality Time. He loves it when his S/O just wants to spend time with him like a little lost puppy.

Cliffjumper;

Giving; Quality time and words of affirmations. He just enjoys spending some time with you as he spoils you rotten with compliments.

Receiving; he loves Gift giving. He just thinks that it's cute when his S/O gives him little things.

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

How about B, I, L, U, V for our big boi Theo? :3c

Sure thing, bub!! Theo hcs coming right up! 💙💙💙💙

I really hope you like them!!!! :3c

Fluff ABCs Template here for requests

Body -- What is his favorite part of her body?

Do y’all have any idea how hard it is for me to answer this letter without making this horny hours.

ANYWAY losing my mind because my instinct was to respond with “her tears.” And then my brain was like. Minnie that’s not a part of the body…that’s not how any of this works…But let’s pretend for a moment like I am valid, shall we?

No cap, I die on this hill. And my answer comes in two parts. The first reason tears destroy him like nothing else is because of how much she feels for the van Gogh brothers tbh. I think Theodorus is very accustomed to their situation being seen through a lens of indifference, a kind of “oh well, what can be done ¯\_(ツ)_/¯” especially. While he may argue that he’s used to it, he’s full of shit. It hurts every time–even more so because people are being dismissive about the person he loves most in the world (other than her, of course.) He’ll be silent for the most part, usually pretty stoic if those things come up, but the way her eyes glisten with tears just undoes him. He feels stupid to be so affected, but it’s something else entirely when somebody actually gives a damn. Somehow it's harder to keep his composure under that gaze...

The second reason is more about teasing. He can’t resist getting a reaction out of her sometimes, or seeing her brought to frustrated tears. That lovely blush overtaking the tips of her ears and face, to say nothing if it happens during nsfw hours. They make her face shine, a visible manifestation of all the emotion he tries so hard to deny–to run from–that it just moves him like nothing else. Where he can't find words or proper expression, she always does. Leonardo said once that a single glance at that man and you can tell he’s in love with art. And he was right, save that that kind of passion can be found in him again in moments like this. Alone, driving her to madness and pleasure.

It’s the part of him that belongs to her, and her alone.

Injury -- How would he act if she got hurt?

Lmao call Vincent instead of Theo if you actually want anything productive to be done about it.

I’m KIDDING mostly but to be honest I think he has a hard time hiding his distress when MC is hurt. If it’s something small he’ll try to play it off as mild irritation, muttering about oblivious hondjes and how she needs to be more careful. If it’s something like a bruise or a bandaged cut–maybe she bumped into something–he’ll just clumsily try to pat the pain away. Don’t try to hide it from him either because he has eyes like a hawk and will expose you. He’ll be a dumdum but it’s really sweet because he’ll be so gentle over such a tiny wound (it always amuses Dazai so much) that all the men will have to kind of hold back laughter. They don’t mean to mock the guy but he takes it so seriously it’s a little bit funny. Vincent is so unironically proud of him for being sensitive though and it’s enough to make a girl cry TwT

If it’s a very serious injury I am sorry but you are getting nothing but probably a panic attack from him. He doesn’t really do well with even the slightest suggestion of losing a loved one, so if she breaks a bone or experiences excessive bleeding–whatever the risk may be to her life–he is fighting to stay in control of his body’s response. He’s trying so hard to be strong for her, but he can hardly breathe and his vision is a little fuzzy and did they say she would be unconscious for a few days? Needless to say he’s a bit of a mess. Ideally, Vincent would do his best to help the guy stabilize while he waits for things to improve, but it’s touch and go for a bit there.

When she wakes up, he needs as much gentleness as she does in many respects. The stress attacks and constant distress have just resulted in so much tension and exhaustion, he doesn’t even have the energy for any verbal swipes at anyone. (I was going to say “he’s just a big puppy” but the irony hit me so hard I literally couldn’t finish typing the sentence). He just really needs lots of kisses and hand holds and promises she isn’t going anywhere, completely unprompted. Not to be emo (WAKE ME UP) but he really needs to be brought back to life slowly, in a way. He’ll get better with some time and assurance that she’s going to make it, but oTL hondje please, he can only take so many heart attacks in one lifetime.

Love -- How does he show her he loves her?

He does not.

I’m KIDDING but I stand by the fact that he’s more of a show than tell type of guy. He has a really, really hard time verbalizing everything that he feels, so I think the person he loves would ideally have to keep that in mind. He’s lowkey but very classy, imo. Gets surprise flowers every once in a while, buys groceries after work all the time if she needs things at home, always reliable with taking care of their finances (and in general). I feel like the thing about Theodorus is that he’s the quiet romantic; he won’t smooth talk or endlessly go on about love, but when she needs him? He’s there. Come hell or high water. When things are hard, when things feel impossible, when life just feels like one slap in the face after another–he’s warm and there and steady, leading her by the hand.

He's very proactive about just about anything other than expressing his feelings directly, so write that down--

Upset --How does he act when she's upset?

LMFAO catch him crashing at Vincent’s place tonight, no thanks murderous hondje ain’t it for me, sorry sweaty.

All jokes aside, I think he’s the type of guy who just has no idea how to handle it. I mean she’s the one that’s usually pretty stable emotionally, so when she isn’t it tends to be a big deal–the cause of her foul mood has got to be sizable. While he may be stymied upfront, will most likely go after the root cause of her distress and kill it with a hammer when her back is turned. Nobody upsets his hondje (unless it’s him) and gets away with it. The man has two modes: kill and more kill, and so he uses the second one as necessary in these situations.

That being said, it doesn't mean he's completely bereft of sensitivity. If it's a more sorrowful kind of upset, he'll try to make time for a lot of cuddling and pampering. Get her things she likes to eat/drink, rub her back gently, put on a movie she likes (even if it's boring to him). He hopes that some care and a few little distractions will be enough to calm her soon. He loves his hondje best when she's smiling, after all ùwú

Vaunt -- What is he proud of? Does he like to show her off?

Oh my goddddddd. Bih. If this man suffers from a cardinal sin, it’s pride I swear. Even if he’s Mr. Bad Mood Stink Face he will literally never say a bad word about her. There are so many people convinced he’s deadass got some kind of disorder because he has scary face, but also looks so delighted at the same time it's terrifying. Gets all puffed up about what a hard worker she is, how talented, how he couldn’t have done any of this without her. Even when he’s roaring drunk, now he just rambles on and cries about how much he loves her and Vincent and it’s beyond hilarious. Would throw down for her, would die for her, would steal a clown’s balloon for her–you name it.

She can do absolutely no wrong, so write that down.

Has a love hate relationship with showing her off (in the more blatant way) though because. Homewrecking. Does she look lovely in that dress? Undoubtedly so. If he sees one more gross lustful/covetous gaze directed at her though, he’s just gonna leave with her in tow. (He would throw hands but she doesn't like that.) Y’all know the whole Lord of The Rings’ “My p r e c i o u s” thing? That’s his vibe LMFAO. Depending on his mood he will either be like "hell yeah that's my wife you jealous bih, I'm the luckiest guy ever ik now buzz off" or he will just get more and more lowkey steamed until they leave.

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

so my valentines was spent...

at work in 4°F with basically a blizzard running out orders or handing them out of the window and constantly cleaning up slush bc the dumbasses who not only came to get some ~chicky strips and borgers~ in a blizzard BUT DECIDED TO SKIP THE QUICK DRIVE THRU AND WALK INSIDE TO GET FOOD AND HAVE TO CAREFULLY WALK BACK. and they couldnt even be bothered to TRY to stomp their shoes off on the welcome mat thing??? lmfao

but there really wasnt many customers which was especially weird for a sunday (yeah there was a blizzard but the people of my town are utter morons) so there was a lot of down time

that sounds nice but i then spent the rest of the time anxious af about not knowing what to do with all that down time bc ik the managers would start getting upset if things werent getting done like they do normally but like??? you can only clean so much and restock so much??? what do i do then??? fake clean or fake check stock????

anyways that lead up to me during my last hour suddenly realizing my anxiety at work is directly influenced by how my f*ther will get annoyed and snippy if he thinks everyone is sitting around or not doing the task HE thinks needs to be done (even if im working on homework he still acts annoyed that im not doing his thing) and is constantly wanting to know what we are doing/where we are going which leads to me constantly telling my managers “im getting the mop�� so they know my whereabouts bc im just so used to being monitored ig

and also on days my moms at work i have to act as her stand in and constantly be at his side asking what he needs me to do to avoid getting passive aggressive remarks or his chihuahua growl or whatever (high pitched but still low and dangerous sounding) for not being his mom or whatever the fuck you wanna call the horrible relationship between him and my mother

and this is an old realization but the reason why im so good with customers is bc living w my f*ther for 23 years has made me exceptionally good at pampering and bending to every whim to pacify customers. im so used to hearing him pretend like hes the only one thats right and as soon as someone else has A Point he makes A Point of shutting us down and saying that hes right--end of story. or not reading the signs and acting like its our fault they (he) didnt understand

oh and he drove me to work today too so i had to spend an awkward 10 minutes w him and he was already in a foul mood bc he took my mom to work and ig when he got back he needed to let addie out to pee so she didnt make a mess of the garage floor and accidentally set off the alarm and was cussing at me to just close the door bc the dog was nosing her way there (never answering my question of whether he thought the roads were safe or not for him to take me) and then we kept having this back and forth argument on the way there (basically he wanted me to keep my phone on me at all times in case the weather got bad so he could call me lmao as if i could answer at work LMAO but i kept trying to explain my pockets were too small for my new phone and somehow he thought NOTHING fit in my pockets and THEREFORE i needed to give him everything except my license and credit card until i finally repeated it enough times ig he finally figured out my WALLET AND KEYS can fit in my pocket but my PHONE cannot but i can safely store it away in the break room.) that was making me nervous bc i could tell he was ready to snap and i was just trying my best to remain calm and explain. 

and i had my near-breakdown or panic/anxiety attack (whichever one involves shortness of breath/squeezing chest/feeling of dread/shaking) at the end of my shift and got scared shitless when i noticed his car in the parking lot about 15 min before i was scheduled to go and so i snuck back to the back to check my messages and make sure he wasnt needing me there asap so i didnt hafta hear him bitch about waiting on me. he said to take my time and “whenever” which is always a precarious place like “whenever you can” or “whenever so long as its like right now” and so once i left i was trying hard not to shake and keep anxiously dumping my day to him so there was no room for him to talk 

also the anxiety killed my stomach and so did the fact they put me on break early so only breakfast foods and the combo of early morning + eating = nausea and gagging through my food and then dinner was ribs which my f*ther took to DROWNING in bbq sauce for his own needs and the fact that those ribs make me sick bc of one time where i had a HORRIBLE headache and ate one bite before getting sick so now my brain associates the taste/smell w getting sick so theres that. oh and sauce in general makes me sick and like i said this shit was DROWNING in bbq sauce. oh and he made egg salad (which i dont eat) and when my mom got back from work he asked her if it tasted right and she said “more mayo and sugar” and he did and the mayo was SO DISGUSTINGLY STRONG SMELLING it nearly tipped my stomach over the edge.

 so all of that combined means i feel sick af...mentally AND physically...

[tamiddyinyourcity]

6:07pm.

Every time I consider getting my mom a gift for Mother's Day, a voice in the back of my head has to remind me of something.

"Maybe she wants a card and some of the mason jars I bought?", followed up with "Remember that time you dislocated your shoulder on the stairs at school and she still yelled at you and forced you to clean the dishes?"

Sure my shoulder magically did pop SOMEWHAT back into place as I did it, but BITCH??????? WHY-- AAAAAAAAA.

But, she got me "chicken fried chicken", (deep fried chicken steak) and a lot of hot food today, so, I'm in a better mood.

I figure I'll give her some bath bombs I don't use, and put them in a nice mason jar or something for her. She's a cross between someone that pampers herself well, but, not exactly enough.

Poverty sucks. I know my mom is a not so good person, (i am avoiding speaking ill since I was given free food and do not wish to tarnish my good mood with memories of her beating me in the shower over and over--oh too late, lmfao,) but still, I imagine she'd be pretty stress free if she could afford and have access to therapy, healthy foods, and the things she wants.

Its a shame, really.

Not much to do about that, other than to be a successful kid and I guess if I can somehow make enough money, then I'd help her out. Still would estrange from the family, but, some cash could still at least help her with her life.

Anyway.

But for now, she gets a mason jar and bath bombs or something, since it's still some time till then.

Anyway, thoughts:

I found the video that made me tired of waiting for my ex. The awkward point between that really good call we had, and ur, certain things my mind doesn't want to recall.

It's a good video. Anyone under 20 should watch it. Save your youth for yourself.

And the other night, I was just vibing on my phone, trying to look for some ancient photo..... Aaaaand guess who awkwardly stumbles upon the weird burst shot photo collection of eating breakfast with their ex boyfriend? Me.

Not much a girl to do except think "God, not this stupid asshole", with a sprinkle of "I'd probably kiss him though, if he asked politely if the situation was completely different " for good measure due to the state of horniness during quarantine or whatever.

I don't like his actions, above anything. Wishy washy men, and liars, are the most unattractive men to be. It proves a lack of spine. Plus the ones that cant keep promises, show basic respect, or acknowledge their actions and show reasonable change. For people in general.

I imagine a lot of my relationships and friendships would be healthier, if my overly welcoming ass did not accept 1) malicious people, and 2) cowards with no spine who cannot bother processing their emotions by themselves. As nice as it is to accept others, its painful to keep their asses around without being hurt by their lack of accountability and often thoughtless actions.

Shoutout to College Audrey, who I met on Instagram, (I also appreciate the fact that people are still stunned that I make friends from any social media out there, if the opportunity can exist, lmfao,) who was a bullheaded bitch. You can't be mad at me for writing this, if you describe yourself as it. (She's never gonna even read this, at all.)

She was such a b-word. I really hate disliking other women, but her temper was extreeeeemely aggressive. At any little thing. One second, she could adore you, then the next second she could glare at you in the same way teachers glared at the boys in school for saying women should not have positions of power. (Except unlike the teachers, Audrey never had a reason to glare, she just is an emotional rollercoaster of a fucking person. Not in a good way, either.)

Like how she invited me to go thrift shopping with her, just to literally once we got in the store, treat me like ABSOLUTE shit and call between 4 to 7 other people, to make conversation..... instead of..... with me?????

Then I asked a woman sitting near a line if she was in it, and Audrey snapped at me so condescendingly and harsh, thaaaaat when we got in her car, and she tried to cover up her hostility by blasting music and shaking her hair to the beat, I was pretty unresponsive.

Then cried.

She felt bad. Got scared of me ghosting her ass. Long story short, she got pressed over me not texting her as soon as possible later that night after several outbursts with her..... God, she's so dumb.

I guess the good thing about ending friendships with bad people, is you don't feel bad. Its like a weight lifting off of you, and you forget them entirely.

I forgot about Mari instantly when I cut her out my life. She was also the "doesn't genuinely like me, but sees me as 1% better than being alone and doesnt actually care about my future whatsoever" type friend.

And frankly, why have a friend that makes me feel dragged down, instead of enlightened? Truly.

6:44pm.

I do and don't miss my ex, the brown haired one.

Moreso just really ashamed of his actions. I'm sure they're gonna bite him in the ass eventually, if he never manages them.

I hope he still has therapy, at least.

....

I really loathe liking a person at all.

Since in any given circumstance, its not appreciated or ever taken seriously.

Romance is stupid, if its constantly "dont show a person that you like them, just demand things from them and make them cherish you even giving them the time of the day."

Since what if I want to be cherished for when I actually do try? Like, why's the interest gotta vanish when its "oh, the pretty girl finally likes me back..... i now no longer need to do much to make her smile, cool; lets get disrespectful!"

But let them vanish, if it's really like that for them. They're not the types meant for actual connection if reciprocation makes them lose all interest entirely....

.......

Even the one ex I was almost on good terms with did that.

Fucking Blonde Thot Patrick.

Whoohoo, nigga changed up. Went from "I haven't been able to have sex whatsoever or feel loved since I had left you, I genuinely was afraid you'd forget about me, am I better than any other guy you've been with? Am I doing things alright?", with me, to what he did.

I.... just....

A very attractive and slightly himboish man developing strong feelings for me to the extent of crying at the idea of not seeing me? Bless them.

Them then trying to put on a facade to distance themselves from me, try to forget my existence entirely, just to ache at me doing the same shit and moving on?

The difference between me and him? I was honest the whole time. He knew Patrick #2 existed, even before we got official. I made my feelings clear, and said communication and talking things out was the way to do things.

He never let me talk.

...........

Then BOOM, got a new boyfriend.

Maybe don't act single, then be surprised that your single ex girlfriend moved on. There wasn't a fucking difference at all, not remotely. I don't care if he didn't have feelings for those women, since he still lacked the cahones to be a REAL motherfucker, and go "I'm kind of surprised and hurt by things, I pictured a relationship with you and wasnt attached to the people i had been seeing, can we talk about where it all goes from here?"

And he didn't. Ever. That's why he got fucking left twice in a row, that prick.

Jesus.... Dude.

Glad that me and Patrick #2 had a good one before the major shitshow in December.

Would've been nice if he and that other bitch hadn't been a shitshow as well. But hey, I'll just be glad I left the circus before the clown makeup fully dried, you know?

Also, for good measure: Azalea, you're still a shitty person, and you still could've spent more time throwing shade onto your 2D looking artwork than throwing shade at me. You'd be in a museum by now, if the massive amounts of shadiness and red you saw towards me.... went on a CANVAS, you feel me?

(Also, I manifest healthy friendships with women similar to me, and more loving and open minded people entering my life soon.)

Hmmm....

Got to talk to my old buddy Jedi today. He's still dope as hell. Congratulated me on the freedom and release from the hell of my grandmother, AND the ability to touch walls or surfaces with feeling her feces on them. Haaaaallelujah!

And we're talking about some film concepts I had. He seems to dig the ideas! Good guy. I appreciate his company, we stan dude friends who keep things platonic. (The type to call me "bro" and not say weird shit, and who's girlfriends I'm also friends with.... GEE, WOULDN'T THAT HAVE BEEN NICE WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE, I WONDERRRRRRRRRR.)

Having a pleasant day so far. Finally found all the parts to a mic stand I own!!!! Prepare for a green screen and great concepts, hoes.

Love yall. Be safe.

7:08pm. Gonna put my focus on something positive for now. God bless and amen. Peace yalls.