#he is going to pamper the shit out of her lmfao

[urlocalwhumper]

here's more, sorry i'm obsessed lol

rayan belongs to @sowhumpshaped (even though he's never referred to by name here LMFAO)

nana loved everything about her new home.

it wasn't as big as her previous master's, but that hardly mattered to her at all. she wasn't allowed in most of that house anyways. but here, her new master had told her she could go wherever she wanted, just to knock first if the door was closed.

her new collar and tag jingled slightly as she wandered around, carefully exploring. their quick trip to the pet store had been scary and stressful for her - so many other pets and people, so many sounds and smells and eye-grabbing colors - but master had gently insisted on buying her a new collar, especially once he saw how raw and chafed her neck was under the too-tight leather.

her new collar was lime green and made of polyester, and sat around her neck loosely enough to not chafe, but tight enough to not come off. her new tag was shaped like a bone, with her name on the front and her master's name and phone number on the back. even something as small as that made her feel warm inside. her old master had never bothered putting any contact information on her tag, claiming that if she somehow got away, he wouldn't want her back anyways.

as both an apology for the ordeal and a reward for being such a good girl, master took her to pick out a new toy once they'd gotten her collar. she'd been a little overwhelmed at first, faced with an entire aisle of possible selections. she'd never had a toy before. but master assured her that she had all the time in the world to decide, and after a few minutes of pacing back and forth through the aisle, she returned to his side with a stuffed frog between her teeth. it was soft but firm, well-stuffed, and she liked the green.

"nana!" master called from another room, snapping her back to the present. "would you come here please?"

she obeyed, following the sound of his voice into the apartment's single bedroom. there, she found him kneeling and adjusting... something, she couldn't quite tell yet, over in the corner of the room.

"surprise!" he said happily, moving out of the way. in the corner of his bedroom, he'd rigged up a sheet to form a little canopy, and beneath the little sheet-tent was a soft, plush looking pet bed, with an equally as soft looking blanket draped over one half, and her stuffed frog sitting on the other. "it's your bed!"

she blinked, awestruck. her bed? this was all for her? she gingerly stepped forward, until she was close enough to climb into the bed, curling up with her frog in her arms and pulling the blanket over herself. peering out through the gap in the tent, her back to the wall and surrounded by a cocoon of warmth and softness, she felt her nose starting to burn and her single eye filling with tears.

she'd never felt so safe and loved before, and found herself overwhelmed by the onslaught of emotion. this is what she'd needed, all her life, this is all she'd ever wanted.

"do you like it?" master asked, peeking into the tent. he seemed saddened, but not surprised to see her crying. "oh, sweetheart," he soothed, "it's okay. no one's ever gonna hurt you again. it's only gonna be pets and treats and toys and soft beds from here on out, okay?"

his kind words only made her cry harder, but she eagerly nuzzled into his hand when he moved to pet her hair, hoping to convey the depth of the love and gratitude she already felt. she might have been weeping, but her tail was wagging so hard it had started to audibly thump against the wall behind her.

the two of them just sat there for a while while she cried, and master didn't stop petting or reassuring her for a single moment until she finally settled down, snuggling further into her soft bed as it finally hit her just how drained she was from the day's events.

"oh!" master suddenly exclaimed. "you must be hungry, it's almost dinnertime." he moved to get up and gave her one more parting scratch behind the ear. "i'm gonna go cook, you just settle in some more. or you can take a nap if you want, you look tired." he smiled. "i'll wake you up when it's time to eat, okay?"

nana simply nodded, huffing contently and burying her face into the soft fabric of her stuffed frog. she distantly registered master pulling her blanket more securely around her, before she was out like a light.

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bonus

nana's frog:

[fiona-my-love]

Headcanons for what Valentino, Angel Dust, Asmodeus, and Fizzarolli are like on dates? - Platypus anon

YESYESYESYESYESSSS

How Valentino, Angel Dust, Asmodeus, and Fizzarolli are on dates

Angel Dust

- He’s gonna SPOIL YOU.

- There’s two different kinds of dates he’ll take you on—it’ll either be a big drag show that he takes you to, or just a chill bar or movie date.

- You guys are getting dolled up. Case and point.

- Super affectionate. He’s yours and you’re his, he doesn’t give a fuck!!

- As long as he has you by his side, he’s not letting anyone boss you two around.

- Cherri isn’t a third wheel exactly, but she’s a killer wingman! It’s always a good time when the three of you get together. She knows your boundaries, and you know hers.

- You two definitely run the town on date nights. Whatever trouble you two get into is just apart of the fun.

- Shopping sprees together!!

Valentino

- Another one that’ll spoil you!!!

- Anything you want, you get. No questions asked.

- Expect the vibe to be off the entire time lmao

- Sugar Daddy. That’s it, that’s the headcanon

- He’ll probably try to talk you into a really sketchy deal half way through. Don’t push your luck.

- BUT, if it makes it any better, he does sometimes show genuine interest in what you’re saying! He knows how to turn his charm on.

- He’s a bit distant- like, when you want something he just does it. No additional comments.

- The more you ask for, the more you’re gonna have to do to pay him back, so make the most of it lmfao

Asmodeus

- I’m stating to see a pattern. I think all of these guys are the type to spoil,,

- Sugar Daddy BUT. Complete opposite of Valentino.

- Instead of just getting people to wait on your hand and foot while he stares creepily, he’s gonna be absolutely PAMPERING you!

- He loves to see you happy, no matter the cost!

- Definitely taking you shopping, no questions asked.

- He’s by no means an obsessive perfectionist, but he does want everything to be perfect for you.

- And, it will be whatever you consider to be a perfect date. From movie nights at home to expensive dinners, he wants you to know how much he cares.

- After everything is said and done, you two go home and cuddle. Not only is he super warm and cozy, but he’ll make you a lovely breakfast in the morning!!

Fizzarolli

- Oh boy, you two are gonna get into some trouble!

- Make sure to dress nice if you’re going out! The paparazzi will be on your ass.

- You two are for sure blowing Mammon’s money on some random shit.

- Definitely taking his quievies (I think that’s what they’re called?? The fucked up chihuahuas) with you two on occasion!!

- Anywhere you want to go, you two are going. Perks of being famous.

- He would totally wink at you during big performances. He can’t take his eyes off you, and everyone knows it.

- You’re going rollerskating, along with other activities like that.

- He spends forever getting ready, but he always looks amazing, so can you blame him?

[harventheblorbo]

Their Love Languages! Autobots➥

Containing:.. everyone that's a Autobots (that I know of) .. Gender neutral reader

___ is gender neutral (human or cybertronian is up to you)

Warning:.. May have some errors or misspelled stuff. Didn't feel like writing it on my laptop lmfao. Little swearing

authors note: it was legit 4 am and I thought, 'let's make something that you will regret if you don't finish it!' and I pulled this out of my ass so enjoy this and please request anything I’m bored out of my mind💀

Optimus Prime;

Giving; His main love language is quality time and gift giving. His favorite moments are just spending time with you as that might be the only way to communicate how much he loves you. For gift giving, he sees gifts as if they have meaning you each one. He does try to put some meaning behind it as well.

Receiving; he loves receiving acts of service. To him it shows that you are willing to show that you love him by helping him with his life

Ratchet;

Giving; despite this man being a grumpy man, his love language is Quality time and and acts of service. He enjoys just sitting there as you two chat about random things as he works. When he isn’t working he likes to help you with things.

Receiving; This man is VERY simple with what he gets. He likes acts of service. He likes how someone helps with him and thinks it has meaning when you help with his stuff so it doesn’t take longer to do what ever he needed

Bumblebee;

Giving; Words of affirmation. Simple as that. He loves pampering you with compliments and sometimes enjoys when you blush at his comments. He wants to make sure that he loves you by telling you the usual ‘I love you’s and just wholesome stuff that he would say. (Or in this case beep and whirr at you)

Receiving; He enjoys physical touch. Either that be simple hand holding or to cuddling he just enjoys it a lot and begs you with puppy eyes for late night cuddling or random naps together.

Arcee;

Giving; She shows her love through Acts of service and gift giving. She may not be the best at showing her love through love so she shows it in different ways and just prays that you understand how much you mean to her.

Receiving; As in return, she loves Physical Touch. She is extremely touch starved so she enjoys you hugging her a lot of just hand holding. She loves it when you are just talking with her and you two are holding hands.

Bulkhead;

Giving; his main thing is acts of service. He helps you with sometimes reaching up places where you normally can't. Or just helping you carry stuff that you can't

Receiving; he likes words of affirmations to praise his acts of service. It also shows that you truely love him and not just trying to ignore it.

WheelJack;

Giving; his love language is physical touch and words of affirmations . To him, it's the true way to show how to love a S/O. When it comes to physical touch, he will random just cling to you and not let go. It will also be very random but can last along time being in cuddle bug mode. When it comes to words affirmations he will say random 'love you's and random bullshit that Just makes you flustered.

Receiving; he is not picky with what he gets. He enjoys when he has a S/O that gives him physical touch so it's just cuddle bugs with cuddle bugs.

Ultra Magnus;

Giving; Gift giving and words of affirmations. He is the best at gift giving as he finds that he will randomly find and will buy it for you if it reminds him of you. You if you straight up ask him.

Receiving; physical touch, I think that he is EXTREMELY touch starved so when you touch him in the slightest, he will fall harder for you then he already has.

Smokescreen;

Giving; words if affirmations and physical touch, his favorite thing to do is to cuddle you and just tell jokes or say shit that will make you flustered as all hell.

Receiving; Quality Time. He loves it when his S/O just wants to spend time with him like a little lost puppy.

Cliffjumper;

Giving; Quality time and words of affirmations. He just enjoys spending some time with you as he spoils you rotten with compliments.

Receiving; he loves Gift giving. He just thinks that it's cute when his S/O gives him little things.

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

so my valentines was spent...

at work in 4°F with basically a blizzard running out orders or handing them out of the window and constantly cleaning up slush bc the dumbasses who not only came to get some ~chicky strips and borgers~ in a blizzard BUT DECIDED TO SKIP THE QUICK DRIVE THRU AND WALK INSIDE TO GET FOOD AND HAVE TO CAREFULLY WALK BACK. and they couldnt even be bothered to TRY to stomp their shoes off on the welcome mat thing??? lmfao

but there really wasnt many customers which was especially weird for a sunday (yeah there was a blizzard but the people of my town are utter morons) so there was a lot of down time

that sounds nice but i then spent the rest of the time anxious af about not knowing what to do with all that down time bc ik the managers would start getting upset if things werent getting done like they do normally but like??? you can only clean so much and restock so much??? what do i do then??? fake clean or fake check stock????

anyways that lead up to me during my last hour suddenly realizing my anxiety at work is directly influenced by how my f*ther will get annoyed and snippy if he thinks everyone is sitting around or not doing the task HE thinks needs to be done (even if im working on homework he still acts annoyed that im not doing his thing) and is constantly wanting to know what we are doing/where we are going which leads to me constantly telling my managers “im getting the mop” so they know my whereabouts bc im just so used to being monitored ig

and also on days my moms at work i have to act as her stand in and constantly be at his side asking what he needs me to do to avoid getting passive aggressive remarks or his chihuahua growl or whatever (high pitched but still low and dangerous sounding) for not being his mom or whatever the fuck you wanna call the horrible relationship between him and my mother

and this is an old realization but the reason why im so good with customers is bc living w my f*ther for 23 years has made me exceptionally good at pampering and bending to every whim to pacify customers. im so used to hearing him pretend like hes the only one thats right and as soon as someone else has A Point he makes A Point of shutting us down and saying that hes right--end of story. or not reading the signs and acting like its our fault they (he) didnt understand

oh and he drove me to work today too so i had to spend an awkward 10 minutes w him and he was already in a foul mood bc he took my mom to work and ig when he got back he needed to let addie out to pee so she didnt make a mess of the garage floor and accidentally set off the alarm and was cussing at me to just close the door bc the dog was nosing her way there (never answering my question of whether he thought the roads were safe or not for him to take me) and then we kept having this back and forth argument on the way there (basically he wanted me to keep my phone on me at all times in case the weather got bad so he could call me lmao as if i could answer at work LMAO but i kept trying to explain my pockets were too small for my new phone and somehow he thought NOTHING fit in my pockets and THEREFORE i needed to give him everything except my license and credit card until i finally repeated it enough times ig he finally figured out my WALLET AND KEYS can fit in my pocket but my PHONE cannot but i can safely store it away in the break room.) that was making me nervous bc i could tell he was ready to snap and i was just trying my best to remain calm and explain. 

and i had my near-breakdown or panic/anxiety attack (whichever one involves shortness of breath/squeezing chest/feeling of dread/shaking) at the end of my shift and got scared shitless when i noticed his car in the parking lot about 15 min before i was scheduled to go and so i snuck back to the back to check my messages and make sure he wasnt needing me there asap so i didnt hafta hear him bitch about waiting on me. he said to take my time and “whenever” which is always a precarious place like “whenever you can” or “whenever so long as its like right now” and so once i left i was trying hard not to shake and keep anxiously dumping my day to him so there was no room for him to talk 

also the anxiety killed my stomach and so did the fact they put me on break early so only breakfast foods and the combo of early morning + eating = nausea and gagging through my food and then dinner was ribs which my f*ther took to DROWNING in bbq sauce for his own needs and the fact that those ribs make me sick bc of one time where i had a HORRIBLE headache and ate one bite before getting sick so now my brain associates the taste/smell w getting sick so theres that. oh and sauce in general makes me sick and like i said this shit was DROWNING in bbq sauce. oh and he made egg salad (which i dont eat) and when my mom got back from work he asked her if it tasted right and she said “more mayo and sugar” and he did and the mayo was SO DISGUSTINGLY STRONG SMELLING it nearly tipped my stomach over the edge.

 so all of that combined means i feel sick af...mentally AND physically...

[hellsbellschime]

Even the motivations of the character in TO make no sense even by cutting all TVD ties. How come Mikael cares only for Freya? So he hates Klaus. He still has many more children. Like Rebekah is it is gender thing and he is more inclined to love a daughter than his sons. In TVD he watched Rebekah with love and longing. Even in TO it does not make sense for Mikael to suddenly change tune only for Freya that as it happens has no emotional ties with the audience. It is just a cope out.

They just showed Mikael getting out a taxi cab! Seriously! Next time have him ride the bus too.

To melt the witch. The evil witch. The wicked witch. For the princesses and the daughters. Welcome to disney. Anyone over the age of 2 is not invited.

You crone?...Are you ready? I was born ready. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? LMAO Who writes these shitty dialogues? I cringed and then burst out cackling! And this particular 'I was born ready' phrase is a freaking parody used even in great movies as a satire and is ridiculed and mocked and used as a comedic relief and here they used it as a serious response. This show is just beyond ridiculous LOL

This show is testing my patience. These writers cant be normal. This is not normal. The write a show supposedly with Klaus as their main lead. They spent money producing it. And then what? They kill Ansel for no reason and after years of hype from TVD from the times they get the chance to answer why Mikael hated Klaus and they go for...I don't know? I just did? IF THESE SHITHEADS DON'T KNOW THEN THEY SHOULDN'T WRITE! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH THEM? Yes I am salty now! A FACTORY of SALT!

Blah. The baby this, the baby that. No one cares! And maybe people would be more inclined to care if the show actually paid more attention to the things that people actually do care about. But no. We have a miracle baby to deal with because who would want to see Klaus' origins and his father and to get more depth and layers to his relationship with Mikael that didn't know he just did. But yeah. The baby is so more important. Out of every vampire story that's what is truuuuly intriguing. Sigh.

Evil plants? Really? I can't LMFAO

Cami seriously has no relevance to the plot. I have never seen this so aggressively displayed on my screen before even with other characters that were there to just be props. There is not subtlety here. You could literally trade her character with an inanimate object and nothing would change in the plot or the story or the dynamic of the characters. Her preaching is annoying and tedious and provides nothing but her character is basically a non character. Unbelievable.

PT can't emote. She just stands there with a vacant gaze.

They framed Klaus Mikaelson the mass murderer for the murder of an irrelevant character and somehow this is a great twist that makes sense and is a tipping point. I hear crickets in the distance. I have nothing.

“I would profess my innocence and BECAUSE YOU ARE YOU YOU WOULD BELIEVE ME.” This settles it then. And it summarizes Camille’s character. She is a victim and quite dumb and Klaus knows it. He has found someone to coddle him and stroke his ego and knows that she is just so naïve that no matter what in the end she will fall for his fuckery. No challenge. It is an illusion Klaus wants to maintain and Cami is there to feed it. He won’t ever find such a tool like her again no matter how he tries.

They take out Klaus. Their biggest weapon. And they run to a swamp. Yes this makes sense. I knew they were not that smart but still LOL

So Esther and Mikael were one more Stockholm syndrome. These writers just have no chill with their misogyny and offensiveness do they?

Hayley is such an asshole and the fact that they try to portray her as the selfless mother when she is being an asshole makes it a thousand times worse. For all their faults the Mikaelsons have bent over her (a nobody) and sheltered her. From the moment she decided to have that child she knew where she was getting into. She knew who Klaus was. She knew the baby would be inheriting enemies by its name only and the fact that Hayley does not want that now that does not change who the baby is -

- the enemies she speaks about will be coming from the spawn anyway and Hayley's only defense will be what? A swamp? Without the Originals protecting baby it will be easy pickings. Hayley is essentially powerless and all her power came from the Originals to which she claimed to be part of their family in spirit but obviously only when she found it convenient. So they gave her a roof. Clothes. Money. They crowned her as a Queen and indulged her wolves. They pampered her but she as always -

- bails and stabs everyone in the back when she finds something to suit her better. In the same way she was ready to sacrifice Rebekah and in the same way she is taking the baby from Klaus. Hayley is a leech. And she is not even thinking for herself. It is always what a man tells her to do and she is taking the power of others for her shield when on her own she has no worth at all. People fall like flies for her baby and she is sorry got to go because Jack wants me too and I pretend its for Hope

- and that asshole actually had the audacity to call Tyler a backstabbing piece of shit. And somehow the writers wants people to believe that we must be rooting for her? Come on now. Her only importance is because of that baby and because of that baby's connection with the Mikaelsons and she can't even remain loyal or at least logical enough to realize that she is cannon fodder and that all her worth begins and ends with the Originals she is now betraying.

"I never cared for Hayley" surprise surprise no one else did either LOL

I am crying literal tears LOL Just when I think that's it! They can't get more ridiculous they manage to top their previous crap with new one LOL Hayley in the rain in the muddy swamps in a hoodie making a Queen's speech & everyone kneels and I kneel down in hysterics LMAO I can't! That's just LMAO And PT can't support it and the concept is so ridiculous and I can't believe people wrote this and then watched it as it was acted out and said yeah we are good it is a wrap. Like how even? LMAO haha

They killed Gia. Of course they killed Gia. I don't know what I was expecting. Anything that remotely works in this show they kill it with fire. And for what? For Elijah. They kill a woman of color in such a way for a white man's male tears. I mean of course. Misogyny and racism could very well be the title of the show since it is not as if the Originals has anything Original about it.

Every character is cannon fodder. Why even bother when we already know that anyone that gets introduced is going to be irrelevant and only used for shock effect? That does not even work because they are not used properly since we all have to care only for the baby, Hayley and occasionally Cami. God forbid we care for the real Originals though. That would be unthinkable.

Okay yeah. Klamille is so healthy. I mean he does compel her and manipulates her. And he does bite her to the point of near death but it's okay. All abuse here is justified because Klaus has a plan and by all means that excuses all his abuse. Plus Cami's physical and mental health is truly expendable because Klaus' needs and plans come first and he wouldn't really hurt her. And of course she knows he is good deep down despite standing besides Gia's burned corpse. But it is fine. Klaus is good.

Cami truly reminds me those battered victims with codependency issues with their abuser that despite everything they normalize all the abuse and even glamorize it and label it as love and it becomes an unhealthy addiction that sooner or later ends with them in a hospital or in a shelter or worse in a grave. For a therapist she truly does not get that she truly needs therapy. It is not just a case of stockholm syndrome here. She is a poster child for BWS (Battered Women's Syndrome).

Klaus cursed Hayley LMAO. Now THAT I like! A glimpse of the old Klaus. More of that please! Also keeping Hayley as a wolf would definitely be a better bargain for the show. At least the wolf and the CGI will be doing a better acting.

How nice of them to resurrect Esther and to give her a red lipstick.

That's it? That is why Cami stays in NOLA and risks her life every second day? Because of Klaus? She has no other life. No other ties. No friends. But she stays for a man. That is her sole purpose. That's her sole goal. A man. A monster that abuses her and puts her in danger. The girl needs a life. She is like the cautionary tales we are told by wiser adults when we are kids and teens. Girls never put your life second for a man. Girls a man is not worth your life. Poor Cami. I feel sorry for her

This takes the cake. Snowflakes. They are defeated by snowflakes LMAO. And then Esther and Dahlia the bid bad watches get to recreate The Little House on the Prairie I CAN'T LMAO. I knew this show was bad and then I knew it was truly bad and so very bad but so bad? My bad LOL...I should have seen it coming LMAO

What is wrong with this show and babies? It is like the only thing that drives the female roles of the show. Hayley and the miracle baby that everyone is after. Freya and the baby she lost. Esther that couldn’t have babies. Dalhia that wants all babies. Rebekah that is now crazy for having a baby that hijacks a corpse. What’s even happening?

But the fact that they recognize how awful actress Phoebe is that they basically erased her from the finale LOL...And then finished it with Klaus holding a baby and saying a fairytale. Because there are always more ways to destroy his character and leave nothing standing. That was the cringiest ending I have seen in the cringiest season I have ever seen in the cringiest show that exists.

I finished S2. Not much of an accomplishment but it was a struggle because you were right. The impossible thing happened. It was far worse than S1. My mental faculties are somewhat compromised but I survived. Please PLEASE someone tell me that S3 is not even worse than S2. It just can't be. I mean at this point I will believe it because I didn't believe it for S2 but now I am believer. But how worse can it get? This was the worst thing I have seen in any television product in EVER!

LMFAOOOO yaasss the “I was born ready”, I died at that too, as well as Klaus making that epic superman jump across the church or whatever and just landing face first into the pulpit, it was hilarious. And EVIL PLANTS KILL BABBY. And the whole neverending swamp wandering with Hayley and the baby bjorn and Jackson and his bow and arrows was also hilarious, punctuated by the epic kneeling in front of Queen Hayley. And clearly the “I never cared for Hayley” was a eternally shared gif. Also I thought the way they styled Esther when she came back made her legit look like she was maybe 3 years older than Elijah, which weirded me out. And yes, the witches just died by like, choosing to die? Honestly when Klaus was like “well I guess we’re orphans now” I was like well thank you for saying that out loud Klaus because I did not even understand what the fuck was going on at that moment and I wouldn’t have taken it as Esther and Dahlia being dead. I wish Klaus had looked into the camera while he was telling his epic fairy tale to the baby at the end of the season too. And as far as I know season 2 was the worst, but season 3 is the year of Hawpe as a toddler and the Klayley custody battle, so goooooood luck with that. I only saw a few clips of it but legit must have blocked it out of my head because it took me the entire writing of this message to even remember that there was a time between Hawpe being a baby and Hawpe being a talking ginger. Godspeed to you if you can actually make it, after season 2′s finale I was like I literally cannot watch an episode of this show ever again for my entire life. 

[tamiddyinyourcity]

6:07pm.

Every time I consider getting my mom a gift for Mother's Day, a voice in the back of my head has to remind me of something.

"Maybe she wants a card and some of the mason jars I bought?", followed up with "Remember that time you dislocated your shoulder on the stairs at school and she still yelled at you and forced you to clean the dishes?"

Sure my shoulder magically did pop SOMEWHAT back into place as I did it, but BITCH??????? WHY-- AAAAAAAAA.

But, she got me "chicken fried chicken", (deep fried chicken steak) and a lot of hot food today, so, I'm in a better mood.

I figure I'll give her some bath bombs I don't use, and put them in a nice mason jar or something for her. She's a cross between someone that pampers herself well, but, not exactly enough.

Poverty sucks. I know my mom is a not so good person, (i am avoiding speaking ill since I was given free food and do not wish to tarnish my good mood with memories of her beating me in the shower over and over--oh too late, lmfao,) but still, I imagine she'd be pretty stress free if she could afford and have access to therapy, healthy foods, and the things she wants.

Its a shame, really.

Not much to do about that, other than to be a successful kid and I guess if I can somehow make enough money, then I'd help her out. Still would estrange from the family, but, some cash could still at least help her with her life.

Anyway.

But for now, she gets a mason jar and bath bombs or something, since it's still some time till then.

Anyway, thoughts:

I found the video that made me tired of waiting for my ex. The awkward point between that really good call we had, and ur, certain things my mind doesn't want to recall.

It's a good video. Anyone under 20 should watch it. Save your youth for yourself.

And the other night, I was just vibing on my phone, trying to look for some ancient photo..... Aaaaand guess who awkwardly stumbles upon the weird burst shot photo collection of eating breakfast with their ex boyfriend? Me.

Not much a girl to do except think "God, not this stupid asshole", with a sprinkle of "I'd probably kiss him though, if he asked politely if the situation was completely different " for good measure due to the state of horniness during quarantine or whatever.

I don't like his actions, above anything. Wishy washy men, and liars, are the most unattractive men to be. It proves a lack of spine. Plus the ones that cant keep promises, show basic respect, or acknowledge their actions and show reasonable change. For people in general.

I imagine a lot of my relationships and friendships would be healthier, if my overly welcoming ass did not accept 1) malicious people, and 2) cowards with no spine who cannot bother processing their emotions by themselves. As nice as it is to accept others, its painful to keep their asses around without being hurt by their lack of accountability and often thoughtless actions.

Shoutout to College Audrey, who I met on Instagram, (I also appreciate the fact that people are still stunned that I make friends from any social media out there, if the opportunity can exist, lmfao,) who was a bullheaded bitch. You can't be mad at me for writing this, if you describe yourself as it. (She's never gonna even read this, at all.)

She was such a b-word. I really hate disliking other women, but her temper was extreeeeemely aggressive. At any little thing. One second, she could adore you, then the next second she could glare at you in the same way teachers glared at the boys in school for saying women should not have positions of power. (Except unlike the teachers, Audrey never had a reason to glare, she just is an emotional rollercoaster of a fucking person. Not in a good way, either.)

Like how she invited me to go thrift shopping with her, just to literally once we got in the store, treat me like ABSOLUTE shit and call between 4 to 7 other people, to make conversation..... instead of..... with me?????

Then I asked a woman sitting near a line if she was in it, and Audrey snapped at me so condescendingly and harsh, thaaaaat when we got in her car, and she tried to cover up her hostility by blasting music and shaking her hair to the beat, I was pretty unresponsive.

Then cried.

She felt bad. Got scared of me ghosting her ass. Long story short, she got pressed over me not texting her as soon as possible later that night after several outbursts with her..... God, she's so dumb.

I guess the good thing about ending friendships with bad people, is you don't feel bad. Its like a weight lifting off of you, and you forget them entirely.

I forgot about Mari instantly when I cut her out my life. She was also the "doesn't genuinely like me, but sees me as 1% better than being alone and doesnt actually care about my future whatsoever" type friend.

And frankly, why have a friend that makes me feel dragged down, instead of enlightened? Truly.

6:44pm.

I do and don't miss my ex, the brown haired one.

Moreso just really ashamed of his actions. I'm sure they're gonna bite him in the ass eventually, if he never manages them.

I hope he still has therapy, at least.

....

I really loathe liking a person at all.

Since in any given circumstance, its not appreciated or ever taken seriously.

Romance is stupid, if its constantly "dont show a person that you like them, just demand things from them and make them cherish you even giving them the time of the day."

Since what if I want to be cherished for when I actually do try? Like, why's the interest gotta vanish when its "oh, the pretty girl finally likes me back..... i now no longer need to do much to make her smile, cool; lets get disrespectful!"

But let them vanish, if it's really like that for them. They're not the types meant for actual connection if reciprocation makes them lose all interest entirely....

.......

Even the one ex I was almost on good terms with did that.

Fucking Blonde Thot Patrick.

Whoohoo, nigga changed up. Went from "I haven't been able to have sex whatsoever or feel loved since I had left you, I genuinely was afraid you'd forget about me, am I better than any other guy you've been with? Am I doing things alright?", with me, to what he did.

I.... just....

A very attractive and slightly himboish man developing strong feelings for me to the extent of crying at the idea of not seeing me? Bless them.

Them then trying to put on a facade to distance themselves from me, try to forget my existence entirely, just to ache at me doing the same shit and moving on?

The difference between me and him? I was honest the whole time. He knew Patrick #2 existed, even before we got official. I made my feelings clear, and said communication and talking things out was the way to do things.

He never let me talk.

...........

Then BOOM, got a new boyfriend.

Maybe don't act single, then be surprised that your single ex girlfriend moved on. There wasn't a fucking difference at all, not remotely. I don't care if he didn't have feelings for those women, since he still lacked the cahones to be a REAL motherfucker, and go "I'm kind of surprised and hurt by things, I pictured a relationship with you and wasnt attached to the people i had been seeing, can we talk about where it all goes from here?"

And he didn't. Ever. That's why he got fucking left twice in a row, that prick.

Jesus.... Dude.

Glad that me and Patrick #2 had a good one before the major shitshow in December.

Would've been nice if he and that other bitch hadn't been a shitshow as well. But hey, I'll just be glad I left the circus before the clown makeup fully dried, you know?

Also, for good measure: Azalea, you're still a shitty person, and you still could've spent more time throwing shade onto your 2D looking artwork than throwing shade at me. You'd be in a museum by now, if the massive amounts of shadiness and red you saw towards me.... went on a CANVAS, you feel me?

(Also, I manifest healthy friendships with women similar to me, and more loving and open minded people entering my life soon.)

Hmmm....

Got to talk to my old buddy Jedi today. He's still dope as hell. Congratulated me on the freedom and release from the hell of my grandmother, AND the ability to touch walls or surfaces with feeling her feces on them. Haaaaallelujah!

And we're talking about some film concepts I had. He seems to dig the ideas! Good guy. I appreciate his company, we stan dude friends who keep things platonic. (The type to call me "bro" and not say weird shit, and who's girlfriends I'm also friends with.... GEE, WOULDN'T THAT HAVE BEEN NICE WITH A CERTAIN SOMEONE, I WONDERRRRRRRRRR.)

Having a pleasant day so far. Finally found all the parts to a mic stand I own!!!! Prepare for a green screen and great concepts, hoes.

Love yall. Be safe.

7:08pm. Gonna put my focus on something positive for now. God bless and amen. Peace yalls.

[sh-lan]

last winter quarter mumbles...

First day of winter quarter: Only one class! #yas #nolab Also secret santa with the house! The circle: Me -> yuri -> vania -> leighton! Also i think i’m sick… EDIT: I AM SICK FUUU

cogs 187b - random groups pls kill me side note, there’s this guy that looks like jeff and i keep thinking that it’s him but it’s not so it’s super awkward when i stare just 0.1 seconds too long

damn what a wild morning i literally. cannot. with. my. body. this. first. week. #mlkday EDIT: in case i forget, i had like the worst case of food poisoning i have ever had in my life

bruh like i basically had a 4 day weekend cause i’m hella fuckin weaksauce these first two weeks wot is life side note: retreat was fun! and also lake arrowhead that we’ve been going to? IS WHERE THEY GET ARROWHEAD WATER i’m deceased. today i learned

y’all i can’t believe bts is going to have a comeback in february also i can’t fckin believe that the army bomb v2 has its own teaser photo bighit is so extra

Omg i fucked up one of my eyebrows …time to grow it out and then get it fixed

i think i’ve literally been living under a rock how did i miss the fact that mom literally has THE BEST matcha latte ever on campus? wtf what a concept

I somehow managed to get a free trial for BTS channel+ 아싸! Things are starting to look uphill from here cause my ded self is risin’ Bless

8am on thursday of week 2 woke up at 7:20 by yuri - the time i was supposed to leave gg to the both of us for not waking up omg LOL we got to school late but that’s besides the point i should probably get some waterproof jeans or something lmao

when you don’t think your stomach is strong enough to handle coffee just yet but everything in mom smells hella fckin good

sometimes…why…can’t…you…think?!?!?!?!?! #struggles

OMFG army bomb v2 changes color everybody go home wtf this is great #goodbyemoney

missed the army bomb v2 preorder, got sold out cause we waited too long :< EDIT: OMFG I CHECKED THE ANAHEIM TICKET PAGE JUST FOR KICKS AFTER MY SHOWER AND THIS GURL WAS LIKE THE BOMB IS GOING IN AND OUT OF STOCK AND I WAS LIKE HAHA NO WAY. so i went to check it and OMFG IT WENT BACK IN STOCK SO I WAS LIKE OMFG VANIA DO WE DO IT and we did it and it has been done there is no going back this is happening we bought the army bomb lol and immediately after i preordered it, it went back to being temporarily out of stock again wow wot is life

Thursday week 2 I didnt realize i was awake since 7:20 today…my brain thought what happened this morning were events from yesterday

The rain is so real. Almost skipped discussion. Good thing i didnt :O

BTS comeback on feb 13th Preorder starts jan 25th Im fuckin ded i just bought the lightstick Im hollerin

fml both versions of the album are my aesthetic i want to cry

omfg why did tumblr change the tags into bolded font TERRIBLE

Lol omg i was gonna go to sleep but then someone logged onto the monsta x plus channel and i was like i wonder who it could be AND IT WAS KIHYUN so i stayed lul wot

내 미래를 향해 가 저 푸른 바다와 내 헤르츠를 믿어 Hey oh, oh hey oh yeah #rediscoveringlyrics #andfallinginlove

really debating getting the bts album(s) but i shouldn’t because money because i should pay for my trip because i should have priorities EDIT: i got them

omg i want to die i just sent out like 3 job applications with the wrong dates on the cover letter shoot me

this girl straight up braiding her hair in the seat infront of me but dropping her hair onto my laptop SMH

but like why doesn’t pokemon go work on my phone anymore?????

daily reminder to take one step at a time

been pampered by coffee on campus that starbucks taste real shitty

LUNAR NEW YEARRRRRRR #year2kbbq Lol omg so we decided to have a house dinner. And then we were like ok korean food and so we ended up deciding to go to kogi! So we were like it dun matter if we go to happy hour since it happens after 9pm but lol we got there around 8:20 but ended up waiting until like 9:30 anywayssss. Dinner was so great i ate so much meat tbh i dont even know whether or not i need to eat tmr LOL Then we drove home at like 11:30…and sat in our garage from 12 to 12:30 because we were too lazy to move from the car HAHA WHO R WE Also apparently, according to yuri and vania, we had the same waiter as last year and lel LEAVE IT TO US TO GIVE HIM HIS NEW YEAR GREETINGS HAHA. And here i am in bed with the biggest food coma. Let me end this with some season’s greetings lol 새해 복 많이 받으세요. 祝大家新年快樂！ 生體健康、學業進步、年年有餘、and most importantly 心想事成! ✨

I just got three bug bites on my ankle out of nowhere like???

after thinking long and hard, vania and i pre-ordered the albums today #goodbyemoney

why do i always find live streams for bts things at inopportune times??

i really still can’t get used to the way my vis60 professor lectures. she pauses at the weirdest times and emphasizes the most inopportune words… “i can think of. Perhaps - the most different. contrasts” ”the decisions. to make. something.” like…that is so hard to understand at 8am…

y’all i can’t wait to watch all the run BTS videos i’m so excited

Nervous about tomorrow but also excited about tomorrow I hope everything goes well! #interviewtime

bighit literally has no chill right now i thought concept 2 photos were going to come out a week later but then BAM IT HITS US IN THE FACE ONE DAY AFTER ANOTHER

2/2/2017 A day full of stufffs #praying #hoping #maybethingswillworkout Honestly, super thankful that my AB experience prepared me for group activities and on-spot presentations lOL (but like lowkey doe this one guy would have failed my group activity if he was interviewing for my trip smh) ALSO I MADE FRIENDS ;____; but i only managed to add one of them on fb, i should’ve added the other guy too *crying* but that’s ok. if fate has it, we’ll see each other again lel. EDIT: daily reminder that we fall down just to get back up

Bruh photography class got me like ??! CAUSE INCLEMENT WEATHER AND I SHOULDVE JUST TAKEN PHOTOS YESTERDAY I’M SUCH A NOOB

i made my own wintermelon tea and then my own wintermelon milk life is ok and going good

today yuri and i saw violin guy while we were sitting outside of ledden and i may or may not have freaked out too hard and he may or may not have noticed lol

watching hwarang and thinking wow park seo joon has come far since his dream high 2 days lololol

I saw a really cute ring on etsy Debated for a few days and …i bought it

I lost the little screw in my car key gg

Went hiking today with part of my group! It was lovely and 6 miles and now i’m tired hnngh

omg everyone park seo joon released his own version of that tears song for hwarang and it is like actually one of my favorite songs from the soundtrack HNNNGH

lowkey getting overly excited about hwarang ost fklewjafkelwa

This guy behind me straight up talking about how there’s some kind of apocalyptic event every century and how after each event, stability is restored. He was telling his friend to….create an apolyptic event right now to restore stability. I’m boutta flip a shit LOL WHAT ARE THEY TALKING ABOUT IT BETTER BE SOME FICTION NOVEL

Week 5 meeting MY AND HARRY’S FIRST FULL MEETING HOW EXCITING I LOVE IT

omg my professor is cancelling class on feb 14th and omfg BLESS NOT HAVING AN 8AM AND ALSO I CAN STREAM BTS CAUSE COMEBACK. LIFE IS GREAT. EDIT: no streaming because the first time they perform will be at the concert omg so shookt

not to be petty but i checked the revision history to see how much work my team members did and this one guy (who didn’t contribute last time either) did one slide and all he did was add the title somebody hold me back why do i always have teammates where i need to carry #hardcarry해 #smh

I fucked up by updating the messenger app smh

Finally got my tdap booster today It hurts Like an itchy mosquito bite Smh

y’all i was so shookt when i woke up to not today’s teaser OMFG JFKELAJFKELSJA IT’S GONNA BE LIT

I woke up at 7:30 on a sunday morning to watch the spring day music video and i’m so shookt by the edting and the song almost made me cry because lyrics And there’s the whole theory where they’re dedicating this song to the sewol accident and i just ;____;

그래 우리는 extra Omg i cant believe rapmon said that LOL SO ICONIC MY LIFE MOTTO FOR THE NEXT MONTH

when i first heard not today, i wasn’t really feeling it much since i feel like the teaser hella hyped it up but now i’m hella feeling it this is fire 2.0 LOL

ALICE CAME TO VISIT week 6 weekend Sushi ota on thursday night - BLESS NO MEETING HAHA Friday night bbq with the same waiter from lunar new year LOL he spoke to me in korean omg i almost forgot how to speak? Saturday morning cowles hike! And then….boba…and then ded Sunday didnt see alice ): but das ok i got to just rest and do a bit of hw

why 왜 為什麼 為何我做的事你也要跟著做 Side note. Why is the font size inconsistent for my chinese keyboard ???

Dont like the new gmail But it’s not actually new cause im just a noob for not updating Sigh

ARMY BOMBS HAVE SHIPPED. I REPEAT. ARMY BOMBS HAVE SHIPPED.

i had a dream that i was on a korean show or something and then i got assigned to sit next jungkook (omg it was like not up to me but then i was like holy shit holy shit?) and then we took a trip to the grocery store to get snacks? but like the thing i wanted was too high for me to reach so he grabbed it for me? but then somehow we ended up exchanging kkt somewhere in the grocery store lmfao what kind of dream is this but then his managers chased him down because he’s not supposed to do that or something? oh well LOL wut EDIT: who am i

i accidentally swallowed some toothpaste this morning

fml i just saw spoilers for hwarang EDIT: OMG SO DANGEROUS I ALMOST JUST SAW ANOTHER ONE AND NOW I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. NEED TO UNFOLLOW THE TAG FOR NOW

han got me pizza and a shitton of parmesan bites for valentines day :> happy child

man holy shit ep18 of hwarang had too much shit i cannot process

omg i’m gonna die park seo joon is so cute in she was pretty

omfg i was JUST wondering if park seo joon would have to go to the military qq BUT HE ALREADY WENT!!!!!! side note: i told vania i was going to finish she was pretty in two days and i really finished it in two days…

Week 6 Thursday ARMY BOMB IS HERE! #yas in retrospect, should’ve just bought the albums from the official shop cause who knew they were paying for EMS cause dayum, my army bombs got here in 3 and ½ days. SHIET so excited it’s lit

Seventeen’s lightstick hands down the prettiest lightstick i ever seen omg

i need to stop this whole “treat yo self” mentality went to return pants to zara that cost 42.99 walked out of f21 with 42.09 worth of clothes lol wtf BUT THAT FREAKING 65% OFF ON TOP OF THE ALREADY MARKED DOWN PRICE? i got three things for $9.10 omg bless? but that one other jacket i got was 29.90 ): is it worth it? eh we’ll see however, i would’ve stayed if it weren’t for my yogurt in the car…and actually shopped a lot LOOOL it was so worth then i came out to a storming STORM GOD SO MUCH RAIN but now i’m home and dry and happy

i’m sitting here streaming the bts wings tour in seoul and getting highkey emotional it’s 1:30AM what is life when bangtan is life

WEEK 7 HAN CAME TO VISITSSSSSSS

unbelieveable han puts me on do not disturb on his laptop SMH

hello but can we talk about the not today mv HOLY SHIT not as fire as fire but still so JKLFJEKLSJF there are so many things in this mv that are just. omg i cant side note - i made han watch it with me LOL

tae and rapmon’s headband look jungkook’s pink highlights yoongi’s blue highlights what’s not to love

highly likely to go blind cause of vis 60

really been craving strawberry milk …and thai food

gonna give up sugary drinks until the end of this quarter *gasps* goodbye amazing tasting coffee drinks T^T

my arms are so sore from the spam musubi making fuuuuuuu

i forgot harry was only 19 and then i was like omfg jungkook is still only 19 too wut

thanks to jungkook, i have finally pinpointed one of my more or less favorite genres: tropical house…which han apparently doesn’t like LOL

Want 족발 Must go to grandma’s lunch on a weekday qq

Rewatching fire mv Why are they ironing jin at the behinning Suga has fake freckles? Why does 1thek have 5 million ads/links

Spam musubi and 8am got me so tired I went to sleep at 12am Why is it that when i go to sleep early, nothing happens in my social life and everything happens in bts life While when i sleep late, everything goes on in social life but nothing in bts life????

The world does feel really slow when you’re in a rush

dreading the photography critiques sigh

Stayed up to stream mcountdown because lol why not right? Even though i have an 8am…. NOT TODAY PERFORMANCE WAS SODIJWWJDIWK FUCKING JEON JUNGKOOK WINKING AT THE END HOW RUDE wtfbbq And also spring day choreography got me feeling some typa way? Shiet….maybe i can learn this…maybe ALSO ONG won that 1st place by a landslide WE ARE A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH y a s

Just realized that there’s no “winking” emoji without the kiss What even Also i just unconsciously winked at my phone while looking for the wink emoji… Imagine the possibilites of face detection to emoji translation. Texting would be so much faster #busthoughts

omfg i was like where am i gonna ever use my bts cd ON THE CAR DUHHHHH!!

REALLY DREADING GOING INTO REVIEW ON MONDAY BECAUSE PICTURES WERE NOT GOOD FOR PROJECT 3 want to crawl into a hole why didn’t i take this class p/np lmao who am i EDIT: everything is ok she actually didnt hate them

Feels so great to not do anythingg this weekend??? Omfg But yo i literally slept from 8pm till 10am almost 11 and if that doesnt scream me i dont know what else does

i bought a “day old” pastry from mom today and it’s an espresso mocha chocolate chip scone thingy and i’m in loveeee

waiting for packages from korea to come~ no EMS is sometimes a pain~ we’ve been too pampered by amazon prime~

Feeling a little discouraged BUT i’ll stay positive!

I mean I can technically go to those concerts in japan Technically

Omfg leave me forever incapable of closing my water bottles correctly? SMH PLS DONT

Found out that my photography TA is 26. Das like alice age And also her first phone was the peanut looking motorola LMFAO CAUSE ME TOO

봄이왔다~ 春天到了~ CAUSE IT’S MARCH AND THE WEATHER IS REALLY NICE and i’m, for some reason, in a really good mood. it could be the music but it could also be the weather ahhhh this feels nice :>

Omg my ring from etsy finally came!! GREETINGS FROM SPRING AMIRITE After a whole month ;___; it finally got here on march 2nd Ugh but it’s so nice and pretty i’m about to die And it really was made to order! That’s crazy. It’s so cute and adorable If only their stuff wasnt so expensive I would buy like everything

When the right volume for your music is right in between the button volumes so you gotta manually slide the thingy VERY carefully

OUR KOGI WAITER WE JUST SAW OUR KOGI WAITER AT PC OMFG

Issue night: “I dont know how they had time to come up with an acronym (USA PATRIOT) maybe they were in shock or something….(from 9/11)” LOL “Lowkey sus” - Abe [the babe]

cooked curry with everything today reaffirmed that i dont like carrots that much

Debating getting more rings on etsy HNNNNGH struggle is real

I saw a license plate the other day that said “NUTELLA” and the same “UOUOUOU” car parks in peterson all the time lol

Had a dream that i met jungkook while checking out the bts schedule with vania Like the schedule said that they just had a fan meeting and they were gonna walk around the area and their fans could follow them or soemthing And i was like shit but do i wanna do that and vania was tryna convince me…but i thought that there would be too many fans so… And then jungkook fckin pops outta nowhere and somehow we got talking and ended up somewhere? Like their dorm or something And we were just browsing through army pictures of them and whatnot And then he was being all kinds of diff “kook” where he was a fangirl kook…and then regular jungkook where he “kissed” me on the cheek it was weird Dont remember the rest cause i woke up LOL EDIT: i think i wrote this while still being half asleep please excuse my fangirl tendencies LOLOL

Omg the kettle cooked jalapeno chips are so good wtf Dangerous

want to watch hyungsik’s new drama but i shouldn’t i shouldn’t

jungkook’s look in the spring day dance version is so boyfriend i cant

oh yeah how did i completely forget to mention that my week 8 was pretty much entirely occupied by yuri on ice!! after freaking week 7 annoying ass shit with everything due that week wow what a struggle

rewatching haikyuu!!

I. AM. SO. EXCITED. TO. READ. AEOE. AHHHHHH if only i could find the third book of the series as well )): qq EDIT: TIFF FOUND IT. bless her soul

March 6th The one day i decide not to check the mail THE ALBUMS COME IN A PACKAGE BY THE FRONT DOOR VANIA CAME HOME AND WAS LIKE AHHHHHH it was definitely a “shut the front door” moment Also onfg we took forever going through the album and just freaking out Vania got rapmon and jungkook photocards While i got jhope and jungkook photocards In retrospect, it was shipping like on feb 20th and took only around 2 weeks to get here so i would say that was pretty damn great Ugh they’re so beautiful why We also got random photocards created by kpopmart so those were a nice gift! I put them on my wall and kept one in my card holder thingy LOL I also put up a standee on my desk Now where to put the posters 🤔 HA It was a nice surprise :>

Lmao the recruiter called me this morning at 8:30AM but our call was supposed to be at 11:30AM, i’m surprised i even woke up It’s a miracle i even stuttered through that phone screen #shetotallymissedthepart #whereiwrote #PST

Craving chocolate milk and i neglected to get that On the otherhand, i spent around 21 bucks at trader joes getting all the healthy foods that i love AND ALSO STRAWBERRY YOGURT O’S THAT WERE JUST MY AESTHETIC EDIT: ok but like not only were they aesthetically pleasing, they also taste great. also the fact that they’re just a bit fatter means that they’re crunchier and takes a lot longer to get soggy in milk im in love

You know what they say When you crave choco milk You been traveling through time and space

had a one on one with harry at k cuisine today definitely gonna find time to go back and eat more chicken glad harry wanted to eat korean chicken and i actually had a place in mind also they were playing so many kpop songs that i knew and all the goblin songs were getting me real emotional lmao

Hnngh they’re gonna sell merch at the bts wings concert What is gonna stop me from buying shit if there’s actually enough stock Im ded EDIT: jk i cant believe that official merchandise goes on sale on march 9th aka tmr because korea time and like wtf ok bighit just let our wallets die and wither away smh i cant

Gonna have to hold off on buying rings or not buying them at all because bts merch ;___;

omg but ?? the video that jungkook made yoongi was so damn cute? also…editing on point… EDIT: i would fall in love with editing because it’s the damn iphone 7 promotional video that apple made. wot is lifeeee omggg that was crazy (why don’t i keep up with current trends? where was i??)

lol watching all the wings md getting the little “temporarily out of stock” red sticker haha

JK got new piercings right where i wanted to get them please stop tempting me i already told my dad i wouldn’t ask again hnngh

omg i had thai food for the first time in forever~ (ok realistically like week 3 but like still)

all these photos from the concert im ded because how do people have the money to go to multiple concerts esp in different countries? (aka headliner…) tumblr is too distracting

i broke my comb that one weekend that leighton went to irvine…because i dropped it on the floor…i was, to say the least, shocked weekend before week 10, i finally bought a new comb lOL

GOT7 never ever thoughts Yugyeom’s voice hit me in the face Choreo at the beginning looks nice I dont know how i feel about the chorus doe Wait. Yugyeom cant happen to me because omfg jungkook but wait they’re such a killer bffl pair fml

new highlight song got me shookt because…..b2st will always be <3 in my heart esp yoseob’s vocals

i’m having another watch phase dammit

actually really like bap’s comeback this time side note: harry calls it “bap” like “bop” but with an A. LOL

Day of daylight savings Couldnt sleep Reading AEOE Didnt sleep til 5am And now skipping 101b What needs saving is obviously my body not the daylight

When you realize out all the current playlists made on spotify, your music taste is closest to jin’s LOL

Week 10 tuesday Broke my retainers D: EDIT: got an appt with an ortho because need to get them imprints before my teef get shifted but holy shit dude it’s $350 for one retainer im ded. And i called 4 different places and it just keeps going higher and higher im

sharing opinions in photography class is hard because i can’t words

GLOW. IN. THE. DARK. RETAINERS. #gottagetmoneysworth

do you ever do that thing on facebook where you’ll be like “i’ll just scroll to a place where a video stops playing” but then the moment the first video stops, another comes into the browser and starts playing oh wait oh my god THEY MUST HAVE BUILD THEIR PAGE TO BE RESPONSIVE TO THE SIZING OF THE WINDOW SO THAT THAT WOULD HAPPEN AND THUS IT WOULD KEEP PEOPLE SCROLLING ON FACEBOOK facebook is evil everyone

too loud -_-

Discovering a tiny mole on jungkook’s nose

i can’t believe i’m sick for the 3rd time this quarter body r u ok also…runny noses aren’t fun my nose is literally leaking can barely reach for a tissue in time smh

i just saw a spoiler for the run bts episodes -_- tumblr is never safe

It’s hard to believe that i’ll be leaving for my trip in 4 days It’s hard to also believe that after that, vania and i will be heading over to see bts Oh man This is exciting

Flood warnings in peru making me have high blood pressure #pleaseleteverythingbeok

my trip got cancelled i am in shock still

Im so numb I think im ready to pass out

I broke one of the little feet thingies on my charger…. SMH

I feel broken But Getting it back together Currently on do not disturb

lol.....gonna end this one on a somewhat sour note because that’s actually how the quarter ended. spring break was a week full of shit as well. however, it was also a week full of healing and self love - as much as i can give myself for that matter

so we’ll leave it here. last winter quarter of my college career - one of the most busy in terms of AB life and one for the books for all the shit that has happened. i really wish that #adversity won’t be associated with this forever but looks like it’ll be related to this for a while. lOL.

moving right along~ things I can look forward to: spring break mumbles, last quarter mumbles! #staysane #staypositive