#he got so much prettier. wtf is this allowed

[readychilledwine]

hello helloooo! I’m back with another fic idea if it interests you ✨so little Nyx is old enough to go to school maybe like kindergarten-ish age? And one day the IC is eating dinner and Nyx is like “I have a mate!” And obviously he doesn’t but still Rhys and Feyre are like WTF and then read his little bby mind and find out he’s just infatuated with his teacher. (Nyx gave her a cookie that he baked with the help of Elain which she ate and now he thinks they’re mates bc he’s too young to understand that that’s not how it works) and then during a school carnival or gathering or cute kindergarten level graduation the IC attends with Nyx and ofc Azriel is there. He doesn’t even know who Nyx’s teacher is but then he sees Nyx dragging a young female over to him where he introduces her to him, proudly saying “this is my mate!” And she just laughs but then the bond snaps for her and Azriel. And then fluff ensues from there with everyone trying to explain to Nyx that she’s not his mate and that she’s Azriel’s to which he takes forever to understand. He keeps trying to give her treats and flowers so that they’ll somehow be mates. Azriel becomes public enemy #1 in Nyx’s eyes because he stole her from him. And then fast forward to when Nyx is older, maybe finally with a mate of his own and they tell him the story at his wedding and he’s so embarrassed about it. could def see this as an OC fic but x reader works just as well!

Infatuation

I love writing little baby Nyx 🥺🥺🥺

Warnings - Nyx being a bit of a menace to society *well Az*

Nyx was beaming. Bouncing as he ate his dinner, little wings flapping every so often.

It wasn't unusual. Being surrounded by this much love, this much joy, this much devotion had made the little heir the happiest of babies, then a happy toddler, and now a happy 5 year old.

He picked up his little cup, sucking on the straw and took a big drink as Rhysand and Feyre shared a look. He set it back down with a satisfied lip smack and went back to his mashed potatoes.

"Alright, I'll bite," Cassian put his knife down. "What happened at school today?"

"I met my mate," Rhysand's face dropped at his son's little confession. "And she's perfect, and nice, and prettier than mommy."

Feyre hid her laugher behind a mask of concern before gently digging into Nyx's head.

There, as Nyx thought about his mate, was Miss Arianna, legs crossed as she read to them on the floor. Her black hair was tied up in two buns with pieces framing her face. She had a big smile on her lips as she read in different voices from the children's book.

Feyre and Rhys, despite their status, sat on a waiting list to have Nyx in her lessons. She was highly sought after, her students were all advanced for their little ages, and she allowed time in their schedules for naps. Something many teachers felt was unnecessary.

Rhys had loved you the moment he made the choice to ignore his morals and enter your mind during their interview.

You didn't care who they were.

You didn't care about their status.

You cared about the faelings.

You took children from every walk of life in Velaris. The poor, the rich, high fae, low fae. It didn't matter to you.

Rhys and Feyre both shared a look and chuckled. "And who is your mate, Nyx?"

He sighed with a dreamy look in his eyes, mind now flashing to you comforting him after he got hurt at recess, "Miss Arianna. I gave her a cookie, and we shared it, so I'm a taken male now."

Nesta had her hand over her mouth, eyes sparkling. "Well," Cassian started before a slap came to his thigh, warning him to let Rhys and Feyre take care of this gently. "You did better than Auntie Ness. She offered me a stale biscuit."

"Your mom made me a can of soup. Worse can of soup I've ever had. Lucien, what did Elain give you?"

Lucien smirked and leaned back, hand on Elain's pregnant stomach. "A five course meal with dessert."

They were all hoping Nyx would understand the implications of what they were saying, but the far-off look and content sigh told them he didn't.

A few weeks later, the inner circle and all of their partners and mates were at the school's end of the year celebration.

The grass had been packed with games, little events for the children, vendors charging nothing for sweets and foods at the kindness and generosity of the High Lord and Lady.

Nyx had long abandoned his family. Opting to run and play with his friends. Cassian and Nesta stood with their daughter, looking over the schools information sheets and the application to join Miss Arianna's class for next year.

"Mommy!" Feyre turned at the voice, beginning to laugh as Nyx dragged his teacher behind him. "Mommy! You were supposed to be behind me!" The heir tapped his foot, Miss Arianna looking away as she hid her smile at his little antics. "I had to bring her all the way over here!"

Arianna and Feyre held eye contact both of their eyes sparkling and knowing where this was going. "Mommy, this is my wife and mate, Miss Arianna," he pulled her to Mor and Emerie first. "This is my Auntie Mor and her wife Emerie." He didn't wait before ripping her to Amren and Varian. "Aunite Amren and Varian. You'll like Auntie Amren. She's real smart." She was pulled to Rhys next. The two adults shook their heads, smiling. "This is daddy. You can call him.... uh. Daddy?" He pulled her to Cassian and Nesta. "Auntie Ness and Uncle Cass," he looked around brow knit in confusion. "Where's Uncle Az and Clarissa?"

Rhys patted his head. "Ris wanted cotton candy, so Az took her to get cotton candy. Why don't you go play too? Then we can talk to your wife."

They watched as Nyx ran off. Clearly not looking to play but trying to find his missing uncle. "I tried telling him, but he's so attached to the idea of us spending the rest of our lives together that he doesn't fully understand."

They all laughed. "We tried too. He told us that we didn't understand."

"Strange. He said to me that the bond didn't snap right away for you either, High Lady, so he'd find the Suriel to tell me, and I'd feel it after that."

A soft pout came to Feyre's lips. "He doesn't understand why you won't be their teacher next year."

Arianna's face fell, the fine features morphing into sadness and longing. "I introduced them to Alexios and even had him sit and answer questions during round up day. I can talk to him. I'm so sorry. I wish I could keep them until higher level learning. We just-"

Feyre hugged her, stopping the unneeded apology. "We know. Cassian and Nesta were hoping to get Clarissa in your class."

"And we were hoping to hire you for private tutoring," Rhys, like his son, was not ready to let Her go. He had spent countless nights looking for ways to keep Nyx in her classes. "We would pay you well."

"That wouldn't be necessary," she turned to Cassian and Nesta, a big smile on her face. "Would you like to see my room? I'll have a different theme next year, but it will give you an idea of my environment."

"Lead the way," Cassian held Nesta close. Watching the two females interact, inserting questions as they walked into her classroom.

The Inner Circle all went to find food and place to eat, enjoying the small screams of joy and laughter around them. "She's really pretty," Emerie started slowly. "Maybe we should hook her up with Azriel. He hasn't dated since Gwyn."

Varian visibly flinched at the mentioned of Gwyn. "Does he still hate Tarquin?"

"Yes," they all answered together.

Azriel joined them seconds later. He was carrying Risa and holding Nyx's hand. "She crashed. Where's Cass? I'm going to take her home?"

Rhys motioned towards the schoolhouse, pulling Nyx to him and telling him to sit and eat. "Arianna offered them a tour of the classroom. A quiet place out of the sun might perk our niece back up, too."

Azriel nodded, carrying the small illyrian into the school house and following his shadows. He could hear melodic laughter and Cassian's loud voice, pausing at the doorway as his niece stirred and snuggled back into him, whispering for daddy. "He's right here, princess."

Nesta motioned for Azriel to join her. His jaw dropped at the sight of the classroom. It was a domed open glass ceiling, but the second it he entered, it began filtering light. "It knows she's sleeping," that voice had his shadows dancing. "I enchanted my room for my students so they're always in a comfortable environment. Never too bright, hot, or cold."

The room was filled with toys and exotic stuffed animals for snuggling. It was decorated like a rain forest from the continent, and an occasional call of something wild could be heard. "I suppose you enchanted all of this too?"

Azriel didn't look her direction, a look of shock and amazement going Nesta's way. Lady Death nodded eagerly, her eyes almost watering. She'd be heartbroken if Clarissa wasn't here next year, Azriel realized.

"Is this the little potential enrollee?" She walked over to Azriel, and nothing else was heard in the room. They didn't hear Cassian or Nesta respond, they no longer heard the soft sounds of animals and birds calling in the distance.

It was like everything in Azriel's life fell onto a new axis.

Arianna was his mate. The female he'd spent forever looking for.

And his nephew was obsessed with her.

Arianna spoke first, "We can't tell Nyx."

Azriel nodded. "I'll get banished to Mother knows where if we do."

Cassian looked between them before smiling, "Did you just secure my daughter's spot in her class? What kind of Aunt wouldn't teach her niece?"

Nesta smacked him hard, smiling from ear to ear. "Have dinner with us tonight? We share one of Rhys' and Feyre's houses with Azriel. He could fly you up for dinner, and we could all get to know each other."

"Only if you want that," Azriel nodded the second the sentence left her lips. "As, am I allowed to be blunt now?" They all nodded. "I was going to take her regardless," she turned to Nesta. "Morrigan scares me. It's why I took Nyx, too."

Arianna held Azriel's hand tight as they walked to the Riverhouse.

They had spent the summer getting to know each other. Going to coffee, to dinner, on long walks along the Sindra. It had taken all of a month for the two of them to decide this was serious, and they both wanted to move forward with the bond.

But that meant telling Nyx, who was still very much infatuated with her.

Azriel sighed as he grabbed the handle, "Ready?"

She nodded, hand stick folded delicately on his bicep. "Only if you are."

Azriel pushed the door to the lavish home open, smiling at Rhys and Feyre, who were waiting for them. They, Cassian, Nesta, and Azriel, had all decided the best way to do this was over a full family dinner.

"Uncle Az!" The shadoesinger stiffened. He had thought they would at least get to the table before the little heir appeared, but the Mother must have had other plans.

He came bounding into the room before stopping at the doorway with a loud gasp.

Azriel had never felt more like chopped liver as Nyx ran to his mate, hugging her legs. "Uncle Az brought my wife to dinner, Daddy!"

Rhysand scratched the stubble he had allowed to grow out due to his days being spent caring for Nyx as Feyre sat the throne. "We should all go sit on the couch, buddy. We need to talk about something."

Arianna allowed Nyx to pull her with him, looking back at Azriel with tears in her eyes.

He had discovered during their time together she had a Cauldron gift, one that had never been trained and just thought of as a personality trait. Arianna was an empath. She felt the emotions of others so deeply and could manipulate them if she tried.

It explained why she was so attached to children and them to her.

It also made her very useful in stressful situations. "Just breathe," Azriel mouthed as they all followed.

"Oh shit," Nesta whispered quietly. "We're doing this now?"

Rhys nodded. His eyes were already lining with silver as he sat across from Nyx with Azriel on one side and Feyre on the other.

The room was very quiet until Azriel spoke. "Nyx, Miss Arianna and I really need to tell you something, and we need you to try to stay calm." The shadowsinger sent a silent prayer to whatever Gods would listen and watched as one of his shadows held Arianna's free hand.

"Miss Arianna is my mate. I asked her to marry me."

The heir's face morphed into a little look of betrayal, his eyes starting to water as Rhysand and him held eye contact. "She's my mate, though."

Nyx looked at Feyre, hoping for support before looking back to a defeated Rhys. "I'm sorry, buddy, but She's Uncle Azriel's mate. Do you remember me telling you about the thread that connects me to Mommy?"

The heir cuddled closer into Arianna, glaring hard towards Azriel. "Why are you so mean?"

Feyre gasped at the question, immediately grabbing Azriel's hand. "Nyx!"

"He's trying to steal my wife!"

Arianna was in tears. The heirs emotions were overwhelming. She took over the conversation, blocking everyone from Nyx by taking both hands and sitting on the coffee table. "Nyx, honey, I'm so sorry, but Az and I are mates," they all felt the small tinge of magic shift. "I know this is hard for you. Your feelings are so valid, and it's difficult when you feel something this deeply to let go of that notion. It's hard processing such big emotions."

She wiped one of his tears. "Your mate is out there, hun. And she's wonderful, kind, smart, and closer in age than I am to you. You two will have so much more in common, and you will find joy and happiness in her that you never will in me."

"But she won't be you," Nyx sobbed heavily. "We're supposed to spend forever together."

She smiled softly. "And we will. You will always have me in your life. We will always be friends."

He glared towards Azriel, and Arianna turned his little head towards her. "You are hurting his feelings. Uncle Az loves you. We've spent a lot of time talking about how to handle this because he knew it would upset you, and it hurts his heart to see you so sad. You don't want to hurt Az. I can see if in your little face."

Nyx still glared at Az. "What if you two break up?"

"You'll be the first to know, bud," Azriel said softly.

"Good."

"Good," Azriel repeated.

"Fine."

"Fine," the heir smiled as his Uncle teased him.

It was then that Nyx decided to dive on Azriel, the Illyrian coming out of them as he started a tickle fight. "She was mine first!"

Azriel was laughing, holding the smiling boy close to him and allowing him to win. "And now she can be our. We can make her go places with us, bug her while we fight with our training swords, do pranks."

The heir stopped, that dimpled smile coming back out. "Prankies?"

Arianna's face fell as everyone started laughing. "Wait. What?"

Azriel smiled at her, sending her his love as Nyx whispered in his ear.

"We good?" She mouthed to him. He nodded, holding Nyx close. She stood to go comfort Rhys and Feyre, only for a shadow to trip her. "AZRIEL!"

The heir and shadowsinger ran off laughing as the other couples watched Arianna with shared grins, "Don't worry, sweetness," Cassian helped her up. "They're just getting started."

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[papirouge]

sorry for the Tekken sperging

if you want to have an idea of how much japanese game developer hate women, just look into Tekken tbh

there is no female character beyond 25 years old

since there's been a 15 years old gap between Tekken 2 and Tekken 3, and while ALL the male characters who were in Tekken were allowed to get old (Heihachi, Lei, the Laws (father & son), Kazuya, etc.) AND still got included in the next games, the female ones didn't 🙃

Michelle Chang? she got a replaced by her "daughter" Julia in Tekken 3. The William sisters got cryogenized for all this time so they biologically didn't age. And now they're basically doing the same for the next opus by bringing back Kunimitsu....through her lookalike daughter (same mask and all) ??? wtf is this?? that daughter doesn't even have the same swag as Kuni. That Kunimitsu #2 looks like a cute anime girl, when Kunimitsu was that mysterious morally ambiguous ninja thief, like- HELLO??

glo down of the millenium tbh. rEAL KUNI WHOULD NEVER SHOW HER FACE!!!! Tekken hasnt got a decent/original character since Tekken 6 anyway.

Oh and they killed Jun after Tekken 2 (that may or may not be back from the dead somehow, but ofc won't be old cause she DIED AT A YOUNG AGE WHEN JIN WAS STILL A CHILD !!!! so probably her reincarnation, ghost or some random nonsensical shit like that)

And let's not talk about Julia tragic makeover between Tekken 6 and 7 and became a whole different person : she went from a caring, environment defender Native American to....a hyperconnected bimbo'ish geek?? ...all of this was to cater to scrotes ofc bc OG Julia wasn't really sexy to begin with (kinda horse girl'ish - she was the -less sexy- equivalent of Hitomi in the DOA franchise imo). Her character was more serious and had so much substance than she does now...

I also HATE how there's a gag overkill in the serie (esp the Mishima e.g their endings in Tekken Tag 2 aaaaaand IDC if the TTT games are not canon, stop trying to make this dysfunctional family where everyone wants to kill each other look like a comedy skit EVERYTIME, it's getting old)

CANT WE HAVE SOME SERIOUS RELEVANT CHARACTERS WHO ACTUALLY MAKE THE PLOT MOVE FORWARD??

Tekken story plot went down the toilet after Tekken 5 anyway, and the overall chara design tanked big time after Tekken 4 (exception for Dragunov who was truly a novelty I'm always a sucker for mute characters and Lars who's my haafu husbando). My biggest Tekken crush has always been Hwoarang and they made him unrecognizable lately (he was perfect in Tekken 5)

But yeah, Tekken hates women, has become shit, and it bums me out so bad bc that's basically my first video game, and the storyline/lore used to be so good (Tekken 3 had the best plot!!! Heihachi shooting Jin -his own grandson- with a bullet in the head in his ending got 9 years old me SHOOK. Ogre was sooo creepy, his Tekken Tag Tournament 2 ending is legit nightmare fuel)

I mean, even Dead or Alive that is infamous for catering to scrotes has a more attractive male roaster at this point (Hayate <3). They also did a brilliant chara design overhaul for DOA6 that made the characters so much prettier and is actually consistent and done tastefully.

Because yeah, what shocks me the most is how SHITTY Tekken chara design has become. It peaked with Tekken 4 (Jin Kazama tracksuit will forever be iconic dont @ me) but it's now such a convoluted tacky mess. Characters don't even have their own style anymore. Lars has the same tacky outfits as King (who's a luchador!!!). Also : WHY HAS HE BECOME SO BUFF??? Did he take the same steroids as Chris Redfield?? He was so hot in Tekken 6... WASTE!

They should take a few pages from Team Ninja who knows how to make shit done when it comes to rework characters aesthetic. Look at this work of art

[imminentinertia]

I'm revisiting this as @the-conversation-pod brought up some interesting points here (thank you - I'm not a podcast listener but the transcript is great for people like me, and I enjoyed the episode so much). Also I can't seem to let The Eighth Sense go.

The above post was written well before the show ended, and neither of the two Hedwig themes was directly revisited, nor did the Hedwig guy show up again, but I'd say that Ji Hyun - who underwent some character changes after his accident - went hard on "deny me and be doomed". He doesn't deny himself, and nor did he ever, really, and he doesn't let Jae Won deny him either.

Ji Hyun has upped his levels of sass, and the Hedwig guy gets the first taste of it, and when The Conversation suggests it's "this show taking shots at performative queerness happening with BL in particular" that makes so much sense. It's a lot more subtle than the hamfisted attempt made in Step by Step (and retracted by editing the episode post-airing, good lord my friends, own your criticism ffs), but it can definitely be read into Ji Hyun and Ae Ri making fun of and dismissing the Hedwig person - who then stomps off fully dressed in his costume, in a foil of Hedwig's own exit stage stripped of their everyday clothes and wig.

Hedwig person's other half is firmly lodged outside him, still.

I agree with The Conversation on this being a clunky part of the show, and I think it's the only actual misstep. It looks to me like Werner du Plessis and Inu Baek made the extremely rare mistake of overestimating their audience, and that they themselves couldn't have predicted the general take of "wtf is up with the casual transphobia" - which I, who know HatAI well and love it dearly, didn't see coming at all and was very surprised by.

Would anyone get the lesson of learning your cultural history as a queer? Hopefully some did, hopefully some looked HatAI up and watched it, and hopefully those who did refrained from dismissing it as ancient and problematique ten minutes in.

But I doubt it, to be honest, I think the casual viewer either moved blithely on or got mad at T8S.

So when The Conversation goes "[Ji Hyun and Ae Ri] engaged with the source material, they understood it, and they moved on, whereas he's cosplaying as Hedwig, a gay character. Does he appreciate the life of this gay character?" I'm all YES THAT'S IT. He IS fucking cosplaying. He picked up on the drag, and the two main themes are there to find for anyone with access to a search engine, but he missed a hell of a lot going on in the film.

I do wonder why Hedwig person latched on to Hedwig and not something neater or sexier or prettier - HiaTI is gritty and grim while also sparkly and bright. He may be on his way to finding his other half within himself, eventually, but he seems to have missed a few steps on his way and that's how he ends up with his surface analysis in costume while the actual gay guy does a good job of his analysis assignment.

I also wonder why Werner du Plessis and Inu Baek didn't use a more accessible film for this, fave or not (I'm sure they have fave films that would have worked more to the purpose), but everyone's allowed a misstep. Or maybe they got exactly the reaction they wanted. The show is for the young people, not I-had-to-walk-50-kilometres-in-a-snowstorm-to-get-my-queer-film-fix people like me, so personally I would have recommended a classic that the younger crowd might be more familiar with.

I may have some feelings and possibly some actual thoughts about Hedwig and the Angry Inch's appearance in The Eighth Sense. Under a readmore because of spoilers - for both.

So I'm old enough to have seen HatAI in a cinema in 2002, and it's a very important film to me. It's an iconic queer film classic by now (and an iconic queer musical classic), but it's also a cult film and certainly not something I expect everyone to know about.

My first reaction to the Hedwig person scenes in T8S was something like "oh my fucking GOD they're doing HEDWIG I love Inu and Werner so fucking much, but oh, that's an odd thing to do, making Ji Hyun and Ae Ri be that dismissive to Hedwig person?".

Nothing in a show is accidental or random, certainly not full scenes such as these, and I think there are a couple of ways referring to HatAI in T8S* could go.

Keep in mind that I have no idea if it can be expected that a Korean audience knows HatAI, but then again, it's obvious that Inu Baek and Werner du Plessis intended T8S for an international audience as well as a domestic one. HatAI is still not a reference I'd expect the international target audience of a Korean romance between two students to get.

Your other half is within yourself

The central theme in HatAI is Hedwig's search for their** other half. That is all ye olde Plato's soulmate theory about Zeus splitting each human into two. However, Hedwig's conclusion is that your other half is within yourself (on a number of levels, and sometimes, as with Hedwig's fluctuating gender expression, it's a bit on the nose. It's still a wonderful film). The film ends with Hedwig/Hansel walking away, alone, naked, after a scene that is both unsettling and forgiving.

The Hedwig person in T8S gets a walking away alone scene too, although fully dressed, after an also rather unsettling but not forgiving scene where Ji Hyun and Ae Ri are dismissive and a bit rude - perhaps partly because since almost dying, Ji Hyun has run out of fucks to give about anything much, perhaps partly because the odd almost-pass the Hedwig person makes at Ji Hyun needs to be turned down for Hedwig to fit their own story.

And possibly Ji Hyun and Ae Ri, for a narrative point to be made later, must be condescending in these scenes, making fun of the Hedwig person's admittedly over the top presentation.

Either way, going down the "your other half is within yourself" path would show some finding strength in oneself (as Ji Hyun does all along, and perhaps Jae Won needs to learn?) may not hand over a happy ending in the sense that Ji Hyun and Jae Won live happily ever after.

Deny me and be doomed

This quote is often interpreted to mean that Hedwig/Hansel can't deny themselves - the person they were meant to be, up until their life really went off course. It can also be interpreted as Hedwig's right to be seen, to be acknowledged by their surroundings, to not be ignored.

So who must not be denied in T8S? Possibly Ji Hyun, who will have Jae Won and who's come out to his friends and who will not let anything get in his way anymore. Possibly the Hedwig person will resurface to teach them a lesson about this or pay Ji Hyun and Ae Ri back, like Eskild schools Isak about his homophobia in SKAM.

Possibly it's a lesson Ji Hyun is supposed to bring to Jae Won, for him to stop denying himself and tear himself loose from the trappings of the chaebol, the rigid hierarchy and the conservatism.

Going after the being seen point in HatAI might make for a bigger chance of a happy ending/Ji Hyun and Jae Won living happily ever after, as they could see each other - without being Plato's two halves of a whole.

I don't have any answers and I'm always reluctant to analyse too much until the very end, but I needed to get some thoughts about Hedwig and The Eighth Sense off my chest. Also I'm absolutely certain I've forgotten lots of points from earlier episodes that need to be tied in with this.

(On another T8S topic, the overly bright cinematography and disjointed narrative in episode 6 made sense to me after watching episode 7 - I believe Jae Won was the narrator, he definitely wasn't in the best of shapes, and he twisted and glossed over events and shoved the aftermath of the accident away, as it was represented only by him sitting alone on the beach. Also the music-less intro to episode 7 was so claustrophobic I nearly screamed.

Also do we really need to do coming out to your mate scenes that explicitly accepting. I found that a little jarring, I'd expect Joon Pyo to jump rather more around in the salad.

Also also that was an incredibly satisfying punch, Jae Won.)

*Sorry if the acronyms are annoying, but there are only so many times a person can stand to write or read Hedwig and the Angry Inch and The Eighth Sense.

**Stephen Trask, one of the creators of HatAI, refers to Hedwig as they these days, so I do as well.

[iholli]

haven't even seen the episode yet and I'm having SUCH fucking brainrot. head empty no thoughts just best boi finally, actually back after a decade. unfollow me now I'm not going to be able to think about anything else for three weeks at least

[shieldofrohan]

Thoughts on Lysa ?

Hello Anon,

Well tbh she reminds me Cersei.

It feels like Martin wrote them very similarly. Or maybe I should say that his approach to these two characters is similar.

Jealous of older/male sibling (Catelyn/Jaime).

Couldn't get the man they wanted (Petyr/Rhaegar) and they ended up with older/abusive men (Jon/Robert).

Daddy issues

Their family don't think good about them that much (All Lannister men/Bryden Tully etc)

Challenging sons (Joffrey/Robin)

You can add more because there is more.

So I would say Lysa also suffers (sometimes even unjustly) author's sexist writing like Cersei does.

Both Cersei and Lysa are women who were used/abused by their fathers first and later they had to suffer their husbands. We know that Robert even r*ped Cersei during their marriage and we also learn that Lysa didn't want to sleep with such an old man like Jon Arryn. So it is safe to say that they had to endure a lot during their marriages.

Martin makes these sufferings quite clear by writing these characters complaining about their marriages which is refreshing to read.

Because we have examples like: Daenerys who fell in love with her abusive/r*pist husband, Sansa who is not allowed to make a bad comment about men who molested her without whitewashing them in next sentence (I beg you to stop it Martin... yes Sansa is a nice girl but enough is enough), Lollys who was r*ped only to give Bronn a larger role in the story, Jeyne whose suffering was all about Theon etc.

So it was refreshing to read these two women talking sh*t about their husbands and seeing how their misfortunes were created by their fathers in the first place. This was some realistic aspect of patriarchal society.

But what bothers me is this: Both Cersei and Lysa are written in a bad light. They are paranoid, awful women who got fat and bitter after their awful marriages.

I mean, these two women are very vocal about their misfortunes and how does author reward them??? By making them fat, ugly, drunk, obsessed, bitter and paranoid. I don't like this.

Another thing that bothers me is: Author made sure that they were "evil" from the beginning. Cersei killed (?) her friend when she was a child and Lysa r*ped Petyr when she was a girl. But their punishments in the end weren't even for these crimes. I mean, Petyr didn't kill Lysa because she r*ped him when he was a boy, he killed her because he didn't need her anymore.

Also I find it interesting that Jon and Petyr are almost the only male characters who suffered sexual assault (by women) in the story but author doesn't examine them either (well Jon questions Wildlings' rape culture but somehow he can't see that he is a victim too -he struggles because of his honor, he doesn't question the consent issue that much- and he ENJOYS the molestation- WTF?). So what was the reason of making Lysa a r*pist?

And I think Martin failed to subvert the trope of older woman is jealous of younger-prettier girl trope with Lysa... But his subverting is better with Cersei in this case.

So in conclusion I would say that I don't like author's cruel take on Lysa. She could have been written better. I wish he hadn't made her a r*pist and I wish she was a protecter for Sansa instead of being the paranoid jealous aunt (imagine Petyr getting rid off her because she was trying to protect her niece from him!!!). Also I wish her family leaving her alone was examined better.

And Martin should let women (and men) be vocal about their traumas in TEXT (not subtext) without making them cartoonishly evil, paranoid, bitter, stupid and ugly.

Thanks for the ask.

[ivyglow]

when i was younger, i used to scooter pantless around my house with a hannah montana wig underneath a bratz bike helmet, with bangles and bracelets covering both my arms, necklaces stacked on necklaces around my neck, my mums heels, and makeup she didnt hide good enough from me smeared all over my face (im talking green eyeshadow as blush and red lipstick as eyeshadow) and i can just imagine barzys daughter matching that energy but being so much more because she after all is half of mat who was, as we all know, a chaotic kid. so when you leave her at home with him for a few hours, i can just imagine that you come back to find mat sprawled out in the middle of the living room, with disheveled hair and lipstick & eyeshadow smudged all over his face because apparently she wanted to make him even prettier, with a mess of toys and costumes surrounding him, and you see a stray wig there too somewhere, blankly staring up at the ceiling and looking like he just got back from wrestling with an alligator because he’s just DONE and cant match her energy. you’re like wtf is going on, what happened, why are you barely alive and just as you ask him where she is, she comes biking into the room in yet another costume, probably a superhero one (but really its just a random sheet she probably pulled off a bed and wrapped around her neck), with your jewelry hanging from her (pairs of earrings are hanging from the necklaces because she wanted to wear all of them at once and bracelets around her ankles (which are covered with mats socks. i know you’re wondering why but... dont question it) because she couldn’t fit them on her wrists) screaming about how she’s gonna have to destroy mat because apparently, and unbeknownst to him, mat’s the villain she has to defeat to save the world. mat just has a petrified look on his face and turns to you with pleading eyes before he musters up enough energy to run away to another room and save himself. while he’s exhausted & spent and his body is hurting more than it does during a rough hockey game and he’s complaining about how sore he’s gonna be tomorrow and how much work your kid is, at the end of the day you know deep down he loves that he gets to put that big of a smile on her face when he lets her do his makeup and nails, when he joins her tea parties, when he allows her to defeat him in whatever game they’re playing, and when he goes along with whatever make believe world they’re pretending to be in, because his little girl’s happiness is his number one priority, and he knows soon enough she won’t be so little anymore and moments like those are ones she’s gonna remember forever

<3 anon

IM SOBBING!!!

He would def her win every time and that’s how much he loves her because we all know he’s competitive. It would be fun watching it all unfold tho jajaja can you imagine him calling his mom to ask for helpful tips with an energetic kid and she goes “good to know she’s just like you when you were a kid, now you get to see what I had to go through with your chaotic ass” you’re beside him listening to the conversation and you can’t help but to laugh because damn if she doesn’t have a point

[scarefox]

Not that I expected anything different but still. Woah, the whiplash. That mixture of exaggerated cuteness and dark uncomfortable drama (because of the realness) is a bit hard to stomache sometimes. I am excited but also afraid, we are just at ep5 of 12...!

first of all: Gene renamed his novel to “Lovely Writer”. I can’t. How deep do we go... (also have the feeling there will be a conflict with Hins novel that is also based on Gene and Nubsibs ‘relationship’)

Aoey.... this boy is even creepier faking emotions and manipulating people than Nubsib

I CAN’T TELL IF HE’S GOOD OR BAD

his whole family and lover backstory is so damn sad, someone wrap this guy up! He is so lonely and hurting. He is definitelly not ok mentally.

but at the same time, pls don’t unload your anger and sadness on Gene?? (and Nubsib)

I have the feeling he didn’t confess to Sib? We, as the audience aren’t allowed to see what really happened at the dinner (yet) and that is very suspicious. Does he just want to make Gene jealous?? Like he knows something is going on with Sib and Gene. He kind of told Gene he notices it? Still he goes to Gene telling him he likes Sib and even asks him for help to confess to him? 

But why does he do that? I wish he just wants to push Gene to come clear with his feelings...

yeah but that’s not gonna happen here, he’s gonna be the one who forces them apart isn’t he :(

but then he kisses the other guy (what is their relationship, looks like exes / unrequired love? Also what tf is up with his ex Time and what’s the real story here?)

This makes me feel once more, that he isn’t really into Nubsib. But maybe just wants their fake ship to be as real as possible to get famous / succesfull to stick it to his father. But Gene involuntarily ruins this plan.

but on the other side Sib is cold to Aoey since the very beginning 

and next episode we get to know that Sib and Gene knew each other as kids wtf is going on between all of them?!

Well, here some things that made me happy this episode:

Nubsibs stupid smile when he noticed Gene is jelly

Nubsibs puppy expression when Gene told him he knows Sib likes Gene (also Gene saying that without being shy! progress!)

so much Tum & Tiffy interaction!

Tum & Tiffy on Tiffies bike! (I love the “hold tight” trope and bikes lol)

Tiffy telling him AGAIN that he’s prettier than a girl (???!!!) What the f is up with that, is it just her bi-panicking or 

trans Tum hints?? this my headcanon leave me alone

she is also a bit confused over his new -more masc- style?

still lowkey afraid she just thinks he is gay because he’s feminin but she was joking about him crushing on her (poor Tum lol) so that would be a nope to the gay theory? And she got a bit shy with him as well.

the Aoey and Tiffy moment :( hope he opens up to her before he explodes

also Nubsib -king of consent- striked twice this episode! He called the director out for making the already problematic kiss into a r*pe scene. Then he told those girls to ask for permission first, when taking photos of people 

[mgkconfessions]

Omfg the plastic surgeon when he first posted the pic the comments were turned on and he said “good genes” and people started commenting on how you don’t go to a plastic surgeon for good genes and ig they said some more stuff about her appearance bc he turned the comments off and changed his caption to “ she’s even prettier in person” and I bet it was Megan that made him do that bc none of his other post has comments turned off and I bet she read all those negative comments. Wtf is she doing in the public eye if she literally can’t handle any feedback or backlash. Even people she callabs with she makes them turn the comments off. Is she that insecure or maybe she’s not use to dealing with people giving her backlash bc who is she is and how everyone loved her so many years ago. I can already tell she wants the fame but not the criticism, she’s not going to be able to handle any of this. You can’t have one and not the other and she’s going to have to learn to deal with hate, backlash and criticism

You don’t know how hard I had to laugh about that! ^^ I can imagine that the deal was both of them post the pictures and Megan gets a treatment (filler, botox) for free but since Megan doesn’t allow any freedom of speech when it comes to her, the beauty doc was supposed to turn the comments off from the beginning. But because he changed the caption it makes me believe more that Megan couldn’t handle these few comments that weren’t even mean or hateful, but rather showed that people aren’t dumb and nobody goes to that guy because they don’t need to change anything because they have “good genes” when a couple of years ago I believe Megan made headlines for her “new face” because she obviously got so much work done that she looked noticeably different. Therefore I don’t understand why she and the beauty doc are still trying to pretend that she’s all natural and has no botox when she has. You can get botox and still be able to show some wrinkles. The before and after pictures of her face really speak for themselves and aren’t open for discussion. So I can imagine as well that Megan got triggered by these few comments that were just saying it how it is and the guy needed to turn the comments off, because Megan didn’t want any hate and needed to change the caption because we all know that Megan’s face isn’t the result of “good genes”. Megan seems like a person who hears or reads one harmless negative comment like nobody would go to a beauty doc if they had good genes, because there wouldn’t be any need for it and then gets triggered and claims that the whole world is against her and everyone is so hateful and mean to her. She absolutely wants the fame, but not one single criticizing comment or comments who call her out on her bullshit!

[mgdn]

XD84 build - what is this madness

I’m building up a new XD84 pro from KPRepublic. This is my 3rd build with this style of PCB, the 87% keyboard, but the first time building a pro model. 

From a previous build, I had an unused aluminum case in black just sitting here, so I figured I’d build something around what I had... kind of like if you have 4 tires sitting in your yard, and one day you say to yourself “I might as well fill up the space between those tires with the rest of a car”, then start buying car parts from China. You know the story, it’s happened a million times.

So of course I want only the finest for my beautiful anodized case 

There she is, all nice and pretty like a pony.

I start plugging these lovely SP-Star weirdo clone MX keyswitches into the PCB & plate. Testing fitment, making sure everything is all squished in before soldering in the switches. 

Things are coming along quite nicely. 

EXCEPT..

The PCB will not fit in the case. 

See the Pro model of the XD84 now comes with this:

“Oh cool” you might say, “It’s an expansion port of some kind! Looks standard as hell. It’s probably to add an LED strip or something that would be useless in this case. Let’s see what it is”.

Now I am dumb, yes. This much can be proven scientifically. But I am not a bad googleman. I can Bing with the best of them. You can Duck Duck Go fuck yourself if you think otherwise. I could not, for the life of me, figure out what the fuck this huge connector was for. 

There’s loads of awesome info out there for the older versions of this board, like this right here: 

This new board is perfectly different than the old one. It’s much prettier for one, but there’s less expandability (probably a good thing as that seems pretty unnecessary given this form factor) and a way better onboard controller. 

If you look on the XD84 Pro product page, there’s plenty of pictures and a decent English writeup of what’s what.

Here’s what the specifications are for the board

Parameter Specification 1\75% kit 2\Can support MX Switch 3\Compatible with KLE custom key 4\Supports TKG-TOOLS offline and TKG online flash 5\Standard ICSP interface 6\REVB and REVQE compatible expansion port 7\Support Underglow RGB PCB 8\Support Type C USB port

OK. Neato. What? 

WTF is REVE and REVQE?

WTF is a standard ICSP interface?

Maybe this bulky POS connector is one of those things. Research time.

Start looking up REVQE (because why would I use the obviously inferior REVE???) - that leads me here.

Not a lot of help at first, then some helpful dude is like “

Pins F4-F7 land on expansion pin-out at the top of the board (cluster labeled P5). From top to bottom, they are F7,4,6,5.” Oh here, check out the schematics of this other, similar board

Now if you’re a dumb dumb like yours truly, you see that and your eyes go cross. Plus, that looks nothing like this 4 pin connector in any way, that’s lots of lines, this should be around 4 lines. More likely than not, this stupid port is not REVE or REVQE. Onward! 

Let’s look up ICSP:

ICSP stands for In Circuit Serial Programming, which represents one of the several methods available for programming Arduino boards. Ordinarily, an Arduino bootloader program is used to program an Arduino board, but if the bootloader is missing or damaged, ICSP can be used instead. ICSP can be used to restore a missing or damaged bootloader.

A typical Arduino ICSP header has six pins, arranged 2x3. The article Connecting the Programmer: In-Circuit Serial Programming (ICSP) at Sparkfun describes some of the functions of ICSP pins, which include MISO, MOSI, SCK, V+, Ground, and Reset.

Each ICSP pin usually is cross-connected to another Arduino pin with the same name or function. For example, MISO on an Uno or Nano's ICSP header is connected to MISO / digital pin 12; MOSI on the ISCP header is connected to MOSI / digital pin 11; and so forth. Note, MISO, MOSI, and SCK pins taken together make up most of an SPI interface.

Several Arduinos, including the Uno, have two ICSP headers. One of them is for use with the ATmega328 (or similar), and the other for use with the ATmega16U2 (or similar) chip that implements USB. When present, this allows reprogramming the USB chip.

Yeah pretty sure this ain’t it either, and if it is, I shouldn’t need it. So. What the gosh darn shit is this thing?

I go back to the XD84 page because at this point I have no idea what’s going on. I’d been searching around for hours, getting nowhere and getting there really slowly. Somewhere on the page there’s a “link” to a video 

How to assemble XD84 Pro ? pls click this link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKw4b7gEG80

Unclickable link, right. Good job web design homie. I start watching the video, it’s actually pretty funny since it seems like this guy is either left handed, filming with his left hand while trying to use his right hand to clumsily grab stuff.. or he’s got his phone in mirror mode or something. Lots of table slapping trying to find the thing

Hold up, what the FUCK is that thing That has the same goddamn connector... what the shit??

OH YOU MOTHER FUCKERS So, guess what time it is?

SNIP SNIP BITCH

So now the bottom of the board is so fresh and so clean clean

The ol’ full disclosure “I tried to desolder it first” shot

GLAMOROUS

This shit’s going to be so dope looking when it’s done. 

Almost ready to start soldering, just waiting on flat-top 3mm warm white LEDs for the backlighting. In the meantime, why wouldn’t I make the most obnoxious CAPSLOCK indicator??

5MM bright white LED will let me know that Cruise Control For Cool is in full effect.

[sofhyuck]

Greasy Baby

Genre: fluff, greaser!hyuck

Word Count: 2.4k

A/N this au stems from some enlightening conversations with @cinanamon who is graciously allowing me to use some of her ideas, this one’s for you bb ;))))

greaser!hyuck is...a lil shit to say the least

like ye he’s a handsome boi i mean,,,imagine him in a leather jacket,,,hair gelled back,,,yes pls

but he knows him and his group of bois (dreamies hello) are hot shit and he’s not afraid to show that he knows it

him and the dreamies are always seen cruising around town,,, harassing hollerin at the ladies from the inside of hyuck’s beat up mustang (is that a time period correct car??? idk and idc to look it up lol)

he never actually physically harasses anyone, it’s all fun and games (for them at least don’t accept cat calling kids men ain’t shit)

there’s just...nothing else really for them to do around town

the only forms of entertainment come from the drive in theater and the soda shop that all the kids hang out at after school

he attends his local university since him and the gang come from a small town and didn’t really care to leave or have the grades to go to a better school

and you...well you don’t really know why you decided to attend a university in such a dinky little town

maybe it’s because you wanted a change of pace from the city, and maybe it’s because it’s your mother’s alma mater and you spent a few of your summers there

but somehow you find yourself at the school

the only problem is,,,everyone who attends the school grew up in the dumb town,,,meaning everyone already knows each other and has their friend groups and cliques

leaving you to fend for yourself and kind of live as an outsider

sure you make acquaintances in your classes but,,,it’s hard for you to make solid friends when everyone else already knows everything about everyone else 

so you’ve been living your life on campus, smiling at the acquaintances you’ve made when you pass by them on the street, but you never really hang out with anyone after school

your sophomore year you got a job at the soda shop bc college ain’t cheap and they were hiring

surprisingly enough you made close friends through the job, your coworkers went to the same uni as you and the clientele were also in some of your classes

so you began to actually go out more (when you weren’t working obvi)

on day you were on campus walking to your next class and you saw one of said new friends

but while you were distracted with waving to them you bumped into someone and woop guess who????

you guessed it our boy hyuck with the rest of 00 line walking past

he was bouta pop off but then he sees it’s you the cute lil waitress from the soda shop that he’s lowkey seen around and been crushing on for a few months now

so when he sees you stuttering out an apology bc boi is brighter than the damn son and took your breath away

he just smirks and lets out a lil chuckle and just says ‘don’t worry about it sweetcheeks’ with a wink and then he’s off

you stand there for a moment in shock bc like obvi you know who he is even if you’ve only been around a few years who tf doesn’t know hyuck and co

and ofc your friends all saw and were like...b don’t even worry about it he just be like that sometimes ya know

and you’re like yea u right and forget about the whole encounter

but guess who doesn’t ohohoho it’s mister lee donghyuck himself he be thinking about it the rest of the day bc wow you’re even prettier up close huh

and the rest of dream are like...mmhmm ok mr. lee not sus at all we’re on. to. you.

so guess where hyuck ever so casually zooms off to after his classes are over????

oh boy you guessed it right off to the soda shop but oomph poor bb you’re not actually working that day and bb is sad :(((( meanwhile his boys are just laughing at him bc omg hyuck is so w hi p pe d

so now bb is going to the shop every moment he can until!!! finally!!! you’re working again god bless!!!

as soon as he sees you’re working baby sits bolt up right and starts fixing his slicked back hair that he had totally not been running his hands through out of nerves

the other boys weren’t there bc??? they have better places to be than at the soda shop for the 50000 time that day even though chenle and jisung had been there earlier just to laugh at him

but now holy shit you’re coming over and you look so cute in the dumb poodle skirt they make you wear as a uniform with your hair placed in a high ponytail

meanwhile you’re sw e a t i n g bc shit it’s hyuck and he’s still a handsome ass boy and you have to serve his table n ow f u c k

so you sidle on over and give him your usual spiel asking what he’d like to order n shit

and this boy omf remember when i said he was annoying?

well yea he fucking goes ‘are you on the menu bc I’d certainly like to have a piece of you’

and you’re like...boy tf oh my god i want to SLAP him 

but you grin through it like ha ha...funny ok...our specials for today are...

hyuck ain’t listening anymore bc he’s busy mentally kicking himself bc??? really hyuck??? you’re trying to make her like you wtf were you t h in k i ng

so he just points at some random thing on the menu, his head hanging in shame

and yea you’d think it was cute if he hadn’t just gotten on your damn nerves

but, alas, you have to continue serving the boy who had ordered literally just a fried egg but you know who were you to judge

he eats the egg rather quickly and then just...sits there...not doing anything...and you don’t know what to do like you can’t kick him out he did order something and it’s not particularly busy

meanwhile hyuck’s head is spinning trying to think of how to woo you after completely embarrassing himself earlier

after like an hour passes you head over to him, ready to ask him again if he wants anything else to eat 

but as soon as you get to him he jolts upright scaring the shit out of you and he’s like fuck sorry i didn’t mean to scare you 

and you’re like it’s fine now seriously do you want anything else-

but he cuts you off and suddenly...lee donghyuck?? is grabbing onto your hand??? and rapidly apologizing to you for being so Gross earlier

you gotta shake the boy off of you and honestly,,,he’s really endearing like aw he’s so embarrassed what a bb

when you get out of his grip you’re like bro it’s ok tbh i get much worse all the time

suddenlt hyuck is ready to f i g ht like who tf??? i will square up 

in your head you’re like,,,bitch ik you catcall don’t even try...but in reality you’re like mmmhmm sure ok you couldn’t hurt a damn fly

hyuck is angery now like wdym im tough >:( don’t you see my leather jacket and cool hair and car???

and you,,,oh you little reader pat lee donghyuck’s fUCkiNg head and now he is blushing oooooh

in a smol voice he asks for his check and leaves you a v generous tip despite your protests

and by that time his confidence seems to come back bc he winks and tells you he’ll be back

you giggle and give him a lil wave bc...wow lee donghyuck is just a cute shy lil bb hehe

and now hyuck is coming in every day,,,sometimes with his boys,,,sometimes alone but no matter what he’s always sure to, in a respectful manner, flirt with you and chat you up while dream just look on in amusement bc, again, hyuck is wh i p p e d

y’all just kinda...live like that for a few weeks but it’s v clear to e v er y body that there is shit going down between the two of you

like at this point hyuck’s hanging around campus with you too so like,,,everyone and their mother knows at this point bc,,,like i said earlier,,,everyone in this damn town knows everything about everyone

so ya’ll are stagnant, hyuck flirting, you laughing and sometimes flirting back

until one day ohhh boy there’s a new boul in town and he is not ashamed at all

and by that i mean he’s the biggest fucking asshole to ever step foot in the town, thinking he’s hot shit and everybody wants him when everyone hates his g u t s

and this boy has been hanging around the shop, livin his life, waiting for his moment to strike

but uh oh he made a mistake bc the first person he attempts to come on to...is you

and hyuck has been there bc he knows this guy has been hanging around and he wants to keep an eye on you his girl

it was a good thing too bc... this boul is going all out

tugging lightly at your skirt when you come to take his order while he uses the same cringy line hyuck used on you that first day

and hyuck knows you’re a big girl who can handle herself which you make very clear by firmly rejecting him with a smile plastered across your face

but...boy does not and will not let up

and you’re getting more and more frustrated and hyuck can tell esp when you keep throwing exasperated looks in his direction w the occasional eye roll

he would laugh but he’s too busy trying not to flip his shit

until boy fuckin just goes to grab your ass and you immediately move back, ready to reprimand him

but all thoughts are brushed aside when a loud crash sounds followed by heavy footsteps

hyucky had stood up so harshly that his chair had fallen over but he hadn’t even bothered to fix it bc he immediately stormed over to you, loosely wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you into his side 

he is m a d like you thought he couldn’t fight before but now he looks like he could rip a guys head off and you lowkey find it hot but that’s not what’s important right now

the guy is like oh woops sorry bro didn’t know she was taken but hyuck is not having it going off about how you shouldn’t treat anyone like that period no matter if they’re in a relationship or not

and yes hyuck and his friends had been the same way a few months before but meeting you changed his way of thinking and his friends as well

bc the idiots had never had any female acquaintances before but now they have you and you’re like a sister to them except for hyuck obvi bc he’s in looove

anyway back to the matter at hand i swear i keep going on tangents soz

you have to calm hyuck down before he actually punches this guy in the nose and the guy throws some money on the table before booking it out of there bc he’s high key scared rn lol puddy

your boss comes out and is like...y’all good? and you’re like uhhh yea mind if i talk to him for a minute? n he’s like ya sure whatever

so you pull hyuck over to a back room and you’re like,,,bro,,,wtf you good now??

but hyuck is on a roll now and just flat out says ‘i’ve liked you for a while now so will you do me the honor of being my gf?’

you ??? for a second before snapping himself out of it and you’re like ??? hell yea boi tf???

so now y’all are dating woo!!!

he makes sure to come to the shop whenever you’re working

at first he even would miss classes but you were not gonna have that oh no education comes first kids >:(((

and he was like ugh ok fine but he always managed to get other dreamies to be there when he couldn’t just so he knows you’re ok :(((

you get really close with the other dreamies tho so now you’re all one happy family

even when hyuck isn’t at your shift he makes sure to pick you up afterwards

waiting outside, leaning against his beat up mustang …leather jacket on…waiting for you to come out…and when you walk up to him he grabs you by the waist…pressing a chaste kiss to your forehead…before opening the door for you…driving off to who knows where…but neither of you care as long as you’re together…

sometimes you go to the drive in and cuddle up in the backseat making out for the duration of the movie hehe

you climb onto his lap and sometimes you can hear the people in the next car wooping and hyuck just gives them the finger before bringing his hand back to settle on the back of your thigh

ahem anyways enough of that

other times you just,,, drive around,,, windows down,,, blasting music and laughing,,, just living your life as two college students should hyuck’s hand resting on your thigh shhhh

you always stop at the same dingy diner that’s hidden away on some side road

(shout out to steph for this next part love you bb uwu)

and hyuck always rummages through his pockets  for change to buy you a drink, even when you say he doesn’t have to and you know he doesn’t always have the most money he says he wants to

trips to the diner are always followed by sunset drives where you have to remind him to watch the road bc  he finds it so much fun to smiles t you and try to kiss you while driving and you scold him that he’s going to die one day, him saying it’s better to live hard, die young

[dreammutual-remade]

best friends to lovers!lucas

request: ok ur SO FUNNY when i was reading ur hyunjin scenario i almost pissed my pants istg ur fckin hilarious !! and could you do like a best friends to lovers type trope with lucas from nct? love ur writing and please go nuts my guy <3 <3 - @nctro​

word count: 3.7k

a/n: djfhgkhdj thank u sO MUCH everyone who compliments me on here makes me blush dhbfkhsbdk anywhom I actually enjoyed writing this so much mainly because I love big dumb boys and Lucas is one of those !!!! I hope u like it bby<3

warnings ?: cursing and brief mentions of underage drinking 

okie doke babe

l e t s d i v e i n

let’s set the scene fellas

you’re in like the second grade right

boys are: disgusting and mean

but this is when you meet your bestie !!!!!

lucas was a new kid all the way from china and he was , the only boy you’d ever found cute

(i mean y’all have seen those baby pics oh my gOD HE WAS SO CUTE)

and when the teacher introduced him he was obviously a bubbly kid but none of the others in your class seemed to warm up to him

:((((

later when you all are at recess he keeps trying to join the boys but they won’t let him because as previously stated

THEYRE MEAN AND GROSS

he looks so so sad and lonely and you’re a Sweet Baby Girl so you go up to him and ask if he wants to play w/ u :)))

he’s so excited !!!! hooray !!!!!!!!!!

you guys play house and BAM

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER

your friendship lasts all through elementary school !!

even in fourth grade when you guys were in different classes he would come find you at recess and your moms would arrange play dates :))))

middle school was,

middle school

we don’t talk abt that

all you need to know is that it was embarrassing

and yeehaw we’ve made it thotties aLL THE WAY TO SENIOR YEAR

let’s do a brief summary of 9th-11th grade

9th grade:

lucas is taller than you but only by a little and his voice breaks every other sentence

his ears are still too big for his body :(

you are a late bloomer and still look 12 but you’re , TRYING YOUR BEST

you guys have about half of your classes together but remain really close since you eat lunch together and hang out after school too

lucas attempts to join the basketball team

he . doesn’t make it and is v upset so you have to come over and comfort your Pitiful Man Baby

he cries a little and ouchie yOUR HEART hurts

but then he’s like u never saw that THOT

and so you are forced into silence rip

10th grade:

lucas FINALLY gets his permit halfway through the year because he fuckinh forgot to do it last year and you’re TERRIFIED but it’s fine

you’re starting to look more like a female and less like a fetus congrats !!!!!

lucas has now grown to almost 6 feet tall what the FUCK BRO

he grew at least 6 inches over the summer and you don’t really notice until one day you’re like uhhh excuse me since when are you half a foot taller than me

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and this boy LORDS his height over you

purposefully places things where you can’t reach it so he can be like

*tips fedora* m’lady , are u in need of assistance

after this you have perfected the art of pinching his arm til he screeches

also his voice has gotten sooooo so so deep

like okay darth vader CHILL OUT

with all this height though he is even clumsier than before

it’s like he forgets he’s now a giant 15 yr old

he’s always covered in scratches and bruises so you’ve taken to carrying disney princess bandaids

they’re disney princess because you thought it would embarrass him and encourage him not to get hurt but

he loves them so it didn’t work rip

he tries out for the basketball team again and genuinely makes it based on height alone

i mean the boy can barely dribble but ??? he can learn i guess

he calls you when he makes it and screams for 45 seconds straight

you don’t know wtf goin on so you’re like oh mY GOD ARE U OKAY

and he’s like yES BITCH I MADE THE TEAM

and then you scream for 45 seconds

next time you see him in person you tackle him with a hug and he lifts you up and spins you around because wow !!!!! so happy !!!!

11th grade:

ah, yes

the year of PARTYING

you always go to parties together and switch who’s dd each time

eventually more friends start coming with you so that you can both get drunk tho ayy

but for the first couple times it’s either drunk lucas half draped on you as you drag him home or sober lucas carrying your lightweight ass to the car

he’s a real one so he won’t say anything about the time you were really drunk and got separated from him so you stood on a table and screamed his name til he came and snatched you down lmao

lucas has reached full height as well so he’s like, so much bigger than you

also he’s gotten so much better at basketball and is practically the star of the team

you go to every game and cheer as loud as you can bc that’s your BOY

puberty is Complete for you and you look female and everything!!!! go off queen 

lucas is now on Protective Mode since you’re really cute and a very agreeable drunk and under no circumstances will he allow you to be taken advantage of

NOT on my watch- lucas

alright we’re gonna make senior year the present timeline bc

YOLO

lucas is officially more popular than you

BUT

he actually sticks around because he’s The Best

okay also this guy just keeps getting larger

like he got all tall but THEN

he was doing basketball so much and just genuinely enjoyed doing sports in general that our boy was thicc with two(2) got damn c’s

you don’t notice that much until he gets into a habit of throwing you over his shoulder whenever you won’t pay attention to him

and it’s , unnerving how easily he does it

he’s started wearing shirts that show off his, eh hem, assets

long story short he’s hot as fuck and even you see him and you’re like DAYUM

also every female in your school is. ALL OVER HIM

it’s hard to walk next to him in the halls because people genuinely shove you out of the way to get next to him

at first you just kind of let it happen and he didn’t notice the first few times

that made u hella emo :(((((

but now he INSISTS upon holding your hand and dragging you behind him through the crowds

you highkey blush the whole time and everyone is all ArE yOu GuYs DaTiNg ?!/&:&:$

lucas is like NO.

:))))

ouchie

you start overthinking things because ??? would it really be so bad to be dating you jeez

you’re not terribly ugly or anything ???

at least you don’t think so

oh my god he thinks you’re ugly and annoying and he hates you

self hatred commence in 3,2,....... someone play the icarly theme song

you lowkey start distancing yourself and he himself is busy busy bee so

you start seeing less of each other :/

and you miss him soooo so much (this is your own doing BITCH) but it doesn’t even seem like he misses you at all wtf

he’s just having a great time w/ his basketball boy(friend)s and everyone loves him and you’ve been hashtag left behind :(

he really didn’t mean to he just !!!! has so much going on aaaa

and like in his absence you start realizing a lot of things

like how much you actually liked his cringey ass flirting

you would always smack him every time he was like “oh sorry, just got lost in ur eyes what did u say :3”

you miss his hugs because they were really rEALLY GOOD

he tucks you under his chin and squishes you or he’ll just wrap his arms around and pick you up

your feet just ???? dangle

you miss when he would show up at your house at like 11 with a bunch of shitty foreign films and force you to watch them with him

you miss when you both would fall asleep in a pile on the couch and he would wake up and carry you to bed

because he’s an angel THATS WHY

anywhom

you miss everything about him and you just are so upset that he doesn’t pay that much attention to you

it gets WORSE when you notice some other girl hanging out with him

and she’s prettier than you and apparently good enough for his attention when you aren’t and you’re just so full of

what’s the word

JEALOUSY.mp3

go listen to jealousy by monsta x

but obviously you’re not going to acknowledge that because what’s a good friends to lovers story without a hearty helping of denial

he still tries to hang out with you so you guys do see each other in class and at least a couple weekends out of the month but :(((

it’s nowhere near how close you were

it all comes to a head when one day you’re walking in the hall and it’s hella crowded

way worse than usual

and in the center of the crowd is

you guessed it :’-)

our boy yukhei

and he just asked this girl to the winter formal and she’s nodding and smiling and hugging him and he’s smiling too and you

gotta go

your eyes are already starting to water and you start skirting around the edges of the crowd to get to a bathroom

one of your other friends jeno who also plays with lucas on the team sees you and smiles and lifts his hand

but it immediately shifts into a frown when he sees your face

he reaches out to grab your wrist and asks if you’re okay and what’s wrong

you just bring your other hand up to sloppily wipe at your watery eyes and whisper that it’s nothing

the hand he’s got in his grasp has started to shake and he looks really worried so he tugs you around the corner until he doesn’t see anyone around

and he turns to look you in the eyes all Serious

“alright. spill”

and you just

BURST INTO TEARS

he panics and hesitantly puts an arm around your shoulders to pat your back

you just press your forehead into his shoulder and cry

it’s a short cry though because although we are dramatic out here we aren’t doing The Absolute Most

you pull away and wipe your eyes and take a few deep breaths before you apologize

jeno smiles sadly and pats your head and says it’s okay and that he hopes it helped

you stand there for 37 seconds exactly in silence

jenos been counting

and then you let the cat out of the bag

you adMIT FINALLY !!!!!

that you are really in love with your bff/sort of ex-bff and you’re really jealous and sad because he doesn’t even CARE about you anymore

at first jeno is quiet but then he starts laughing

and he won’t stop

and you’re like if you keep going i’m going to cry again please i’m so sensitive

and he shuts up immediately and is like o_o

but then he grips you by your shoulders and is like hEY

“guess what”

“god jeno i am really not in the mood”

“no for real guess what the fuck is up”

“what is up ???? what is up you asshole ???”

“yukhei is in love with you too”

you scoff and roll your eyes

“this is a really lame attempt to make me feel better”

“no really i’m not even lying i swear he talks about you all the time in the locker room and he literally thinks you’re an angel”

“okay but its platonic as hell like obviously we love each other after all these years but he doesn’t like ME in the way i like HIM”

“how do you know??”

“how do YOU know ?????”

“,,,,,, you got me there”

you pat his shoulder and you’re like listen i really appreciate you trying to make me feel better but it’s time for me to accept my fate

now you and lucas still text semi regularly and send each other memes and stuff

but you just, cut him off because you physically can’t move on if you interact with him at all you LOVE this boy

he def notices and texts you a few times like

y/n ??? hello? is your phone broken?

but when you stop waving back at him in the hallways and actively avoiding him he realizes you’re not talking to him

and this poor boy cannot for the life of him figure out why

he doesn’t UNDERSTAND

god he’s dumb but we still stan

he figures you want him to leave you alone so he just stares at your forlornly from afar

this just pisses you off bc like wtf nOW YOURE GONNA PAY ATTENTION TO ME ??????

a couple weeks pass and it’s time for winter formal

yay.

you’ve been dragged here by jeno who is SURE that something important is gonna happen tonight and lucas is gonna Fix Everything

yeah OKAY

SURE

you may not want to go but you wouldn’t be caught DEAD not stunting on these hoes

you show up looking absolutely SPICY

QUEEN OF WINTER

you know you had to do it to em

jeno forcefully pulls you into the doors of the gymnasium and then disappears after he threatens you with an

“i told chenle not to let you leave”

and you turn to look at chenle who is SGA and helping with the dance and he gives you an “i’m watching you” hand motion

god this is ridiculous

you sigh and go find some of your other friends

you hate to admit this but. you actually had a little fun

and then of course

a slow song was played

and the dj is all yo everyone find you a honey it’s time to slow it down for a bit

sigh

you go to walk off the dance floor or find jeno or do SOMETHING other than stand around looking awkward surrounded by couples

but someone has snatched your hand up yo wtf

it’s LUCAS

and you just look at him with confusion

“dance with me, please. just this once,,,”

and you’re like hmmm pls don’t make me do this

but he hits you with Them Puppy Dog Eyes and you’re a goner

so you let him pull you close and hold you against his chest and rest his chin on the top of your head

you lift up on your toes so you can talk in his ear

“where’s your date?”

“dancing with her girlfriend”

“um. what”

“she’s not super duper out yet so i’m being her beard for the night. it was mainly to get her parents off her back”

“oh. huh”

“plus i missed you :(((( you disappeared”

your hands tighten in the fabric of his button up bc you’re like aw FUCK

you just shake your head and rest it back on his chest and close your eyes to enjoy it while you can

as much as you want to be convinced that things can go back to the way they were now

they cANNOT because you still love him and he still just thinks of you as a friend

maybe not even a best friend anymore :(

(again,, YOUR FAULT BITCH)

his GIANT warm hands slide across your waist to press you forward by the small of your back

at this point you are pressed together basically head to toe

and you can’t tell for sure but , you think he kissed the top of your head ???

maybe you were freakin hallucinating though since you’re losing oxygen fast due to his close proximity

the song ends and you slowly stop swaying and pull apart while everyone gets back to being wild

“can we.. go talk outside”

this sentence strikes FEAR in your heart but you take his proffered hand as he leads you outside

it’s cold as hell so you’re already wound up tight and wrapping your arms around yourself to keep warm

he notices quickly and wraps his jacket around you before turning to face outward towards the road

it’s quiet other than the muffled music from inside and crickets and other night noises

he opens his mouth to say something but you just blurt out

“i like you!!!!”

and he whips around to face you and you just. keep talking

“it’s oKAY i know you don’t like me back like that and i would never be mad at you about that i didn’t distance myself from you bc of that!!!! i just had to because it was hurting me to be around you and see you be with other girls and i really wanted to move on so that we could get back to being best friends if you even wanted that i just !!! IT JUST HAPPENED OKAy i’m sO SORRY AND I ComPLetely understand if you never want to speak to me again”

and he’s just staring at you and panting

why is he out of breath he’s just been standing there

you’re getting super duper nervous because he hasn’t said aNYTHING and it’s been at least a minute

and then he just goes

“you… like .. me ???”

and you’re like ugh YES you dumbass have you even met yourself you’re so cute and sweet and such a goofy boy and you’re way too nice to me and also HOT so like. you were asking for it

and he immediately swings you into his arms and gives you a big sloppy kiss on the cheek and buries his face in your shoulder and squeals

this man. SQUEALS

and you giggle because it’s tickling your neck hey stop that

and he’s laughing that loud ass cackle of his so you’re laughing too i mean have y’all heard that shit

GOOFY AS HELL

also he’s hugging you almost just like he used to with your feet dangling off the ground

and he pulls back to set you down but then

HE GRABS YOUR FACE

AND KISSES YOU  ??!/&8:$:$:92&

b i t c h

he’s so gentle and is patient when you kind of freeze at first, pulling away and pressing his lips very gently to the corner of your mouth before going Back In

and even though he’s given you NO EXPLANATION FOR THIS you kiss him back because this may be a one time only opportunity and you will NOT be wasting it 

he goes very slow and sweet and right before he pulls away he presses a cute lil smooch to your bottom lip and presses his forehead against yours

“what was that for?”

“oh yeah, i forgot to tell you!! i’m in love with you”

“oh hEY me too ??!!?!&/&”

and you’re both pressed together and giggling

“hey, you wanna ditch and go get some ice cream”

“absolutely”

so he lets his date know and you text jeno

(you: bIIIIIIIITTCHHHH    jeno: I KNEW IT)

and you’re off

he holds your hand the whole way there and when he parks he spRINTs around the car so he can open it for you

you each get an ice cream cone and sit next to each other at a picnic table and just talk and catch up with each other since you haven’t been talkin :/

one of your hands is laced with his and your head is leaned on his shoulder and he’s like hEY watch it this is my favorite shirt

and he flexes his arm with your head on it and you’re like god dAMN that’s a bicep

and he’s like ayy lmao arent u glad ur dating a greek demi god  🤪🤪

and you smack HIM

“i cant believe you just declared us as dating in the same sentence as calling yourself a greek demigod”

“are we ,,,, not dating”

“i mean personally, i haven’t gotten asked on a date yet. hmmmm, have you? :-)”

and he sighs dramatically before wrapping an arm around your waist and leaving a somewhat sticky kiss on your temple from the ice cream

he leans down to your ear

“hey so there’s this girl and her name is y/n and she’s so beautiful and funny and i love her so much do you think she would go on a date with me ? :3”

“hmmm well i guess so,,, she could give you a chance…..”

you hold a straight face for less than 5 seconds before you get all blushy and smiley and he squeals at you

......again

and grabs your face with his hands since he literally dEVOURED that ice cream cone

he presses a kiss to the tip of your nose and then to your lips and says against them,

“please~”

another kiss

“for me?~”

another

“cmon~”

and he goes in for another but you’re like oKAY okay i’ll date you you giant pain in my ass

and he’s like :-(((((((

(DONT BE MEAN TO THE BABY BOY)

and you’re like aw i’m sorry you’re MY giant pain in the butt

he seems pretty satisfied with that and after you finish your ice cream cone he is already at the door waiting with the door open

“if you dARE say m’lady i will walk home”

“of course ,,,,,,,,, m’lady”

“alrIGHT THATS IT”

he grabs your hand and pulls you back toward him to keep you from leaving and presses a kiss to your forehead and ruffles your hair a little

before he kindly and gently shoves you into the car

he drives home with one hand on the wheel while you mess with the fingers of his other hand because wow

that shit is amazing he’s got some big ole beautiful hands

when you arrive he walks you to your door and

this mf presses you against it and presses an absolutely SINFUL kiss onto your lips before turning around and heading back to his car

“bye, baby!! i’ll see u tmrw at school :-)))))”

and first of all: KKDKDNDKDJ

second: he called you baby it’s officially over for you bitch

you wave back blankly because what the hell just happened and then you go inside

you press yourself against the door after you close it behind you and press your hands into your warm cheeks

and woooo bOY what have you gotten yourself into

a supportive and caring boyfriend who LOVES YOU THATS WHAT !!!!!!!!

okay goodbye i really love wong yukhei xuxi lucas whatever the fuck his name is

[showcub]

boyfriend!au minhyuk

it was your sister’s wedding day and you were one of her bridesmaids

but one week prior to the wedding day you had a huge HUUUGGGEEE huge argument with your parents 

you wanted to drop out of college because you just couldn’t take it anymore

plus, it wasn’t in your life plan at all to attend college 

you were forced by your parents because for them “only with education you will be respected by the society” like wHAT

because all of their rich top-notch friends with billions of money would look down on them for having an unsuccessful child

do what you want don’t let people tell you who you can be or who you can’t be no matter what your relations are like nobody has the right to decide your life choices

you were definitely not the studious type at all

like you’re just lucky you graduated high school with average result

it was a pretty big argument that you had not contacted your parents for almost a week.........

you were considering to bail on the wedding but you couldn’t leave your sister hanging just like that

like she already paid for the bridesmaids dress and all

also it was none of her fault and the last thing you wanted was to drag her into the big mess

your plan was to not make any eye contact with your parents and to hurriedly hide if you bump into them

but when you were watching your sister walking down the aisle with your dad he was already giving you the death stare

and you were really sorry for your sister because you ruined the whole mood

so at the after-party you were getting ready to leave but your mom immediately held your hand and brought you to somewhere (not-so) enclosed for a ‘private chat’

so long story short, both of you were already raising your voices and the ‘private chat’ turned into a very heated argument

and your mom were raising her hand to slap you but he was taken aback when somebody held her arm

it was a guy whom you never knew or met before but he said “i’m sorry ma’am, but i won’t allow you to hurt my woman like that”

and you were like wHAT THE HELL IS THIS RANDOM GUY TALKING ABOUT

and he held your arm and said “babe, let’s go”

so he dragged you out of the room and left your mom dumbfounded 

ok what the hell is going on

you could’ve sworn that your face was just as dumbfounded as your mom

first this random guy just claimed you to be his WOMAN and now he’s holding your hand ??///????

but you were willing to leave with this random guy rather than continue arguing with your mom and turn the already big mess into a horribly bIGGER MESS

so he brought you to the parking lot and he let go of your arm

and you were like “ok first of all who are you and second of all who are you and third of all who are you”

“minhyuk”

so you’re like ok..................but minhyuk who

and he’s like minhyuk who just saved your ass 

you were glaring at him like do you think it’s funny????!!!!11!!!

so he’s like staring at you too and suddenly he winked and you were like..................wtf........this guy is seriously creeping you out....................

you were like planning to just leave him there then suddenly he said “if you think i was winking at you, you deadass wrong. just the way i normally blink”

and you’re like ok.......this guy........is definitely.........one of a kind..............also....a weiRDO

he explained to you that he was actually in the same room sitting at the corner but neither you nor your mom noticed him

he was also a friend of the groom but he got bored so he was waiting for his other friend there

so you’re just like and shrugging it off and ok............then it suddenly hit you

your mom would probably be telling everyone you have a boyfriend now

not that you never had a boyfriend but all of the relationships before never work out

then you’re like hitting him on the chest like WHY DID YOU CLAIM ME AS YOURS??? IN FRONT OF MY MOM????/ LIKE TF????/?///?/

he’s like i don’t know!! my reflexes are really bad 

he apologised and you’re like that’s ok i already have a bigger problem now

then he took a step closer to you and like “do you want to talk about it?”

and you’re like nooooooooo but tears already swelling up in your eyes

and in just a matter of time you already breaking down RIGHT. THERE. IN. FRONT. OF. A. GUY. YOU. BARELY. KNOW.

so he’s like “come on, let’s ditch this party and get some fries and coke to talk it over”

you hurriedly took your stuff and got in the car with minhyuk

and he brought you over to a park and you cry over it and he constantly gave you pats and rubs on the back

he reassures you that it’s all gonna be fine

at this point your make up is ruined and you’re crying your eyes out to the point where you get hiccups

then he’s like “let me take you home” but you’re like “no i want to scream”

so he’s like ok scream

so you screamed your heart out and he was just smiling at you sheepishly like what have i gotten myself into

so that night he took you home and he gave you his number just in case “you need a shoulder to cry on”

but a few days passed and you didn’t contact minhyuk nor your parents at all and you kind of have gotten over you never get to drop out of college

and suddenly you mother called you and said “y/n, i’ve changed my mind. come over so we can talk about it”

and you’re like if silent treatment was all it needed you would’ve done that a long time ago

so you came home and guess who’s also there

MINHYUK!!??

then your mom like “your boyfriend explained everything to me and i believe you’re mature enough to make your life decisions”

the he’s smiling at you and winking but this time it’s a real wink 

then you take him out of the house and like tELL ME YOU DIDN’T

and he’s like oohh, i just did

but you’re like speechless and just thank.....you.......i guess............

and he’s just like you’re welcome and patted your head but then you remember that he introduced himself to your mother as your ’’’’’’’’’boyfriend’’’’’’’’’’’’’ and you’re like minhyuk yOU GOTTA MAKE THINGS RIGHT

and he’s like ok sure be my girlfriend

and you’re like “stop giving me heart attacks”

and he’s like “what???? i’m making things right”

“the moment i saw the tears i just know i want to protect you”

then he gave you a quick, soft peck on the lips which left you wanting for more..........................

so you wrap your hand around his neck and brought his head closer to yours and kissed him

and he’s like “i’m gonna take that as a yes”

the thing about minhyuk is your parents love him so much like he talks too much and he is definitely a sweet talker who keeps complimenting your mother

like no wonder he successfully talked her out to let you make your own decision

even if it is a formal dinner of your parents’ business your mom always invites him

and let him host the dinner.............which led to a wild party afterwards

his ideal date is to bring you along with him to volunteer

there was one time where you guys went to the zoo and at every animal he meets, he meows at them

“look, y/n! a horse! meow!!!!”

he’s never afraid of talking about his future plans

like there was one time he’s asking you how many children you want

and when you don’t answer “i want as many as possible like can you imagine how cute mini minhyuk and y/n would be?????????”

whenver you guys fight it would always come down to him following you around the house to annoy you

and he’s like “i want to talk about it” and you’re like “i thought we’ve gotten over it” and he’s like “never!!! unless you’re buying me ice cream”

“there’s nothing ice cream can’t fix, and that includes our relationship!!!”

he’s very bubbly and cheerful that sometimes you wonder what his parents fed him when he was a baby 

hOL UPP HE STILL A BABY

you and him always have huge karaoke session which includes songs from all centuries and genres

but he never karaoke the normal way

he does impersonations of the real singers

he can never keep his mouth shut so whenever you guys take a scroll at the park he’s just like “is the flower prettier or am i prettier?” “y/n let’s buy a kite!!” “looookk! there’s a tree” 

and sometimes he joins the kids playing at the playground

but it just makes you fall for him more and more

like your friends all said that he’s a perfect match for you as in you’re hot-tempered and dark and all at the same time and minhyuk is just.....minhyuk (you know what i mean ;))

and you guys complete each other

he’s a pda kind of guy like he holds your hand, gives you pecks on the cheeks randomly at the public and he loves it when you cling onto his arm

the first time he said i love you to you, you guys were at a mall where he suddenly went missing and suddenly you can hear announcement through the speakers

“good evening ladies and gentleman and today you’re going to witness me confessing my love to my girl, my name is minhyuk and y/n, i love you!!!”

find more from this series: boyfriend!au shownu, boyfriend!au wonho, boyfriend!au kihyun, boyfriend!au hyungwon, boyfriend!au jooheon

boyfriend!au i.m coming up soon!

[bambamsgotjams]

Badboy!Chan

okay so i’ve had this idea in my google docs for a long time now

and for some reason i just never got around to completing it???

so i hope you all enjoy it because it’s been in here for months and its time for me to start posting more content on my blog

chan is basically known as the scariest man on the university campus

well maybe not the scariest

but defiantly the most intimidating guy you’ll ever meet

what really gives off his intimidating vibe is mainly all of the dark clothing and chains he’s seen wearing around campus

like he basically lives in ripped jeans, leather jackets, and dark tshirts

he has some pretty curly gray hair that looks really nice with his tan skin

omf imagine this

bad boy bang chan with an eyebrow piercing

omg i would live for that

if it wasn’t for the fact that almost every student was terrified of him

all the ladies would probably be pinning over him and probs some of the men too tbh bc chan is a looker

but anyways chan is lowkey kind of offended that everyone is too scared to talk to him because he really isn’t that bad of a guy

his whole life he just kind of grew up with this thought that everyone loved bad boys

thats basically what his high school days taught him

but it turns out that he didn’t really need to change from his normal cute self to this bad boy but it was a little too late for that because everyone already had this attitude that chan was not someone anyone should mess with

he has a couple good friends that don’t mind him for his personality like his roommate woojin who knows the real chan after living with him in a dorm for almost 3 years

and new freshman changbin who looks up to chan and tries to act like a bad boy too but according to everyone else he fails and is basically just like a small kitten

and then savage smarty pants minho who could really careless about wtf chan wears and does

as long as he isn’t doing something stupid or something that he’ll regret because minho really does care about him a lot but he’d never admit that publicly

woojin, minho, and changbin are really the only friends that chan has and even though he wishes people would stop looking down upon him for his outside appearance he really does love and cherish the friends that he has

so basically half way though every year the student body holds this big ass part to celebrate finishing their finals

and even though there really should be adult supervision the professors and administration could care less

so you can basically put the pieces together and figure what kind of shit goes down

ding ding ding

thats right

lots of horny teenagers and alcohol

chan and woojin would normally go together for a couple minutes before everything turns into chaos

but this year the decided that for some goddamned reason that they would stay for a little longer

mainly to make fun of the way some of the drunk students would dance or act stupid and stuff

minho decided to stay in and work on homework minho you nerd

and changbin had been invited off campus for the weekend by his best friend felix to go check out this new arcade that was just put in a mall strip in their hometown

and this is where you come in fellow reader

you were just a new transfer student who had just finished their first sophomore semester on a brand new campus

you had tagged along with your roommate and her friends to the campus party

and wow were you overwhelmed

you guys had arrived at the party just as the chaos had started

and basically almost everyone there was either already tipsy or just flat out wasted

you had tried your best to stay close to your roommate so you wouldn’t get lost

but the crowd of people was just so pushy and everyone was literally all over the place so you did end up getting separated

for the sake of trying to stay away from the madness you headed off to the side of a small bar table and sat down on one of the benches

there wasn’t a whole lot of people around there expect for a couple playing a shot game, the bartender sighing because he rather would be doing something else, and these two boys who didn’t look too much older than you

one with dyed blonde hair who wore a pair of black skinny jeans and a grey hoodie

the other in all black with a silver chain, grey hair, and a very hot eyebrow piercing

you ended up making eye contact with the later and his gaze on your own made your blood pulse

he look kinda intimidating with his outer appearance but his eyes looked soft and inviting

you looked away and broke eye contact with him and you were basically blushing as red as a ripe strawberry

after a few more minutes of you just sitting at the bar watching everyone having fun

this weird smelling boy walked right up in front of you and flashed you a gummy looking smile

his body smelled terribly of alcohol and you wanted nothing more than to get out of there knowing that something bad was gonna happen

but of course the boy just had to speak up and pull you away, asking you to dance with him

you wanted so badly to object his offer but his grip on your arm was strong and you weren’t exactly the strongest girl yourself

he pulled you into the crowd of students dancing and he too began to dance around you

well more like he was dancing on top of you

you just kind of stood there as stiff as a pole and you were frozen in shock not knowing how to respond

it wasn’t until you felt him starting to grope your body when you tried slipping away

but he was too quick and held tightly onto your waist

you could feel him starting to slightly grind his body against yours and you were like

“yep this is how im gonna die”

you kindly asked the man to stop but he didn’t answer you so you got a little bit louder until you were basically yelling at him to stop

and then you felt him being ripped off your body

you were confused for a second and then turned around to see what exactly was happening

there was the boy who had been harassing you lying on the ground as the very attractive gray haired boy from the bar had his fist raised

the boy on the ground was huddled into fetal position with a red mark on his cheek

everyone around you turned to see what all the yelling was about and stopped to watch as your savior continued to beat up the boy

he only stopped once he saw your terrified eyes looking at him

he cursed to himself and looked to the boy on the ground back over to you before walking up to you and asking if you were okay

you stared at him in shock because wow this boy was even prettier up close

but also he did just beat the shit out of a boy on the ground

asshole deserved it

you nodded your head quickly and thanked him

you noticed as the grey haired boy suddenly started to become nervous and flustered as he rubbed the back of his neck

“c-can i walk you back to your dorm,,,,,you know,,,,in cause something else happens”

he suddenly would look less and less of a bad boy and more as a soft little lamb

you gave him a cute innocent smile and agreed to allow him to walk you back

he hesitantly reached for your hand and walked you back into the direction of the bar where the blonde boy stood smirking at the two of you

gray haired boy leaned over and whispered something in the blonde’s ear before leading you away, the blonde boy whistling behind him

you watched as the gray haired boy flushed pink

once you were a good feet away from the party the gray haired boy let go of your hand and apologized

you shook your head and told him there was no need to be sorry

the whole walk home he basically talked to you about how much he hates parties but was only there to watch the people for entertainment

you learned that his name was chan and that he was kind of known as this intimidating bad boy on the campus

but you were like ??? i don’t see it??? especially after how cute and flustered he was acting around you

and you too felt the need to tell him a little bit about you like what your name was and how you were a new transfer student and that you lost your roommate in the crowd and stuff

chan acted a little sympathetic towards you and then with a smile offered to show you around campus sometime

and of course you agreed because honestly who wouldn’t agree to spending the day with a really attractive man

and with that you arrived at your dorm

but you didn’t part ways without getting his number first,,,

everything after that seemed to escalate pretty quickly

you didn’t really understand why people chose to be afraid of chan without getting to know him first because he was truly a really sweet guy

you also become pretty close friends with woojin and changbin

it took minho a little bit to warm up to you but according to chan he’s just a pretty cautious guy who would do anything for his friends

besides chan you probably got along with changbin the best with both of you having a mutual admiration for chan

apparently you were pretty oblivious to the way chan treated you

according to woojin’s words chan was absolutely whipped for you

and you didn’t really believe it at first because why would chan like this average college student who couldn’t even afford to buy ramen

but it turns out that woojin was right

chan started doing little things in hopes of making you fall for him and understand his feelings

like he would go out of his bad boy character to the flower shop down the road and buy you cute little daisies

which you really admired and appreciated

after a couple months of pining after you and woojin practically forcing him to declare his undying love for you he finally confessed

he took you to the local coffee shop and told you everything he felt

and lucky for him you returned his feelings

bad boy chan as a boyfriend would be so cute omg

he would be pretty protective over you and always offer to walk you to your classes even though it would make him late to his own

which he didn’t mind because the teachers already expected that out of him

he would always lend you his hoodies and leather jackets if you got cold

and omg they would be large on you and his heart would melt at the way they just seemed to swallow you whole

you were the best thing that had ever happened to chan and he loved that you weren’t quick to judge him for his appearance

and you accepted him for who he was and made him feel like he didn’t have to look dark and menacing for people to like him

when he first introduced you to his family they immediate opened up to you

they loved how much you cherished and appreciated their son for who he was and the way he was

you found out from his little sister that you were the first girlfriend that her channie oppa had ever had

and he was a blushing mess as he tried to keep her quiet

you simpily giggled and kissed his cheek telling him that you felt honored to be big bad channie’s first girlfriend ;)

being with chan had really changed you just as you did with him

he no longer felt the need to hide his real self away from people and he actually made an attempt to talking to people first

which of course did freak them out because everyone still had this strange fear over him

but seeing chan with an average girlfriend did get people to warm up to him better

especially after they saw how sweet and caring he was towards you

and honestly bad boy chan would just be literally the best boyfriend ever i dare you guys to fight me on this

[yourkpopscenarios]

Friends to Lovers Lee Euiwoong

aight, les do this

so, rather than friends, euiwoong is actually more of an acquaintance

the reason you two even talk to each other is because he’s super smart and sociable, when you were struggling in biology, so your friends had recommended you ask euiwoong for help

he had offered to tutor you

for free

hell yes to free help

euiwoong is like a super good tutor too

he doesn’t get annoyed or impatient, even when you ask him to repeat the steps of meiosis for the third time, and he’s always praising you when you answer his questions correctly

a part of you kinda figures that euiwoong is tutoring you cause he has a lot of free time and genuinely likes the subject

but one day, his friend hyungseob came up to you and commented on how special you must be because, even though euiwoong had to work at his parents three stores, he spends the little free time he got tutoring you

you were like ‘wut’ because, euiwoong works at THREE STORES?, and also, he’s making time just to help you?? for nothing in return??

you go up to him and you’re like ‘euiwoong, wyd’ and he’s like ‘what are you even talking about’

his face when you tell him hyungseob told you about him being super busy is something you will remember even in your next life

he keeps insisting that it’s not a big deal, though, and continues to tutor you

but you start to notice just how tired he looks somedays, so you suggest trying to get his parents to give him some time off

you’re the one that suggested he go on hello counselor

and when he told you that they accepted his concern, you were like ‘i hope it goes well for you’ when he tells you that he wanted you to go on the show too, as someone who’s seen how tired he is

obviously, you agree, cause supporting euiwoong is the least you can do after everything he’s done for you

so you, euiwoong, hyungseob, and his parents go on hello counselor

being highkey proud and lowkey jelly when everyone is going crazy over how good looking he is

when the camera shows you and hyungseob, the mcs are like ‘omg, is that your girlfriend, she’s so pretty’ and both of you go blushy

hyungseob does not help

at all

encourages and initiates the teasing the most

after that day, though, all three of you get casting calls from various agencies because of your guys’ looks visual gods, y’all

the boys chose yuehua, but you choose cre.ker

that’s where you meet ju haknyeon and the rest of the boyz trainees, and get super close

you still keep in touch with euiwoong, but it’s not as often because you both are busy with school and training

you guys lose contact for a while, and you haven’t seen him or hyungseob

UNTIL PD101 SEASON 2 COMES AROUND

you watched it to support haknyeon, but when euiwoong and hyungseob come on the screen with three other trainees, you lose your mind

you: ‘HAKNYEON, THE YUEHUA TRAINEES, OMG, MY CHILDREN’

hwall: ‘three of them are older than y-’

you: ‘MY CHILDREN’

when you’re only allowed to vote for two trainees, you get all pouty because

a) you want all the trainees to make it top 11, wtf

and b) there are three people in particular that you wanna vote for, but haknyeon would actually disown you if you voted for euiwoong and hyungseob over him

in the end, your pick is haknyeon and euiwoong

you were able to go to one of the performances, which was the one where he was in oh little girl

and you screamed because in the episode just before that, he was this badass rapper that owned the stage, and now... he’s so soft... and cute

he didn’t notice you, but you’re sure hyungseob did, because the two of you had some awkward eye contact when he was on stage

when the recording was done for the day, he told euiwoong that he saw you in the crowd and euiwoong freaked the fuck out

like ‘OMG, WHAT, WHERE, DID SHE LEAVE ALREADY, WHAT DID SHE LOOK LIKE, SHE DIDN’T LOOK TIRED DID SHE’

hyungseob: ‘smh, you’re already an overly concerned boyfriend’

euiwoong not even paying enough attention to hyungseob to deny it

you were on his mind now, and he couldn’t stop thinking about you, so he went to go find haknyeon back at the dorms and ask about how you were doing and if you remembered him

haknyeon basically spilling the fact that you had a HUGE crush on euiwoong the last time he checked, and that he was pretty sure that if people were only allowed to vote for one trainee, you would pick him over euiwoong

so he makes sure that your number is still the same, then texts you asking if you two could meet up

obviously you say yes, this is lee euiwoong we’re talking about

you head over to the yuehua building, and justin is the one that greets you at the door and lets you in, telling you that euiwoong is waiting in the first practice room on the third floor

when you walk in, euiwoong like tackles you in a hug, telling you how much he’s missed you

and you’re like, omg, i miss you too, i thought you forgot about me

euiwoong, pulling back to look you in the eyes with the most offended look on his face: how DARE you think i could forget about my favorite person in the world

hyungseob, back in the pd101 dorms: i feel a disturbance in the force

sorry hyungseob

anyways, euiwoong started telling you about how hyungseob saw you at the performance for oh little girl, and how haknyeon had told him how you had been voting for him

euiwoong: i was si excited to hear that you were still thinking about me, because i’ve liked you since the first day we met, and-

you: you... like me?

euiwoong:..... oh

you: i.... like you too

euiwoong: OH, THANK GOODNESS, I WAS SO WORRIED FOR A SECOND

then he gets kinda quiet before shyly asking you if you wanted to go on a date some time, and you’re like, yes, pls

and it’s kinda simple and casual, because you both are trainees, and euiwoong is already recognized by fans and stuff

but it’s really cute, euiwoong sets up an indoor picnic in his practice room, and he hands up fairy lights to make it a little prettier, and he has this really cute playlist playing in the background

and even when you guys become an official couple, the effort he puts into planning events for you doesn’t die down

basically the most perfect boyfriend ever

like he keeps little mementos from each date you two have, and even gives you hand written letters sometimes

a lot of the time, they’re to say he’s thankful for everything that you do, and he hopes you don’t forget that you’re really important to him

your first kiss was during christmas time, and it wasn’t under the mistletoe, but rather because you were practicing for a special stage for music bank, and when you looked at euiwoong happily for his opinion, he just thought you were the prettiest person he’d ever seen

like, you’re always beautiful to him, but when you were practicing so diligently, no makeup, wearing one if his hoodies and a hat covering your slightly messy hair

he couldn’t help himself, you just looked so perfect

the boyz walked into the room as his lips are still on yours, and the two of you go real shy and blushy, but euiwoong still reaches out to hold your hand because it comforts him

the boyz and yuehua sprouts don’t let this go, ever

you’re now the otp of both companies, and basically joined the two groups together

now jungjung, younghoon, jacob, new and sangyeon nag you both at the same time, and you and euiwoong are like... guys.... pls

sunwoo, q, haknyeon, and seunghyuk always wanting to tag along when you go out for food, and you two always let them go along because they actually pay for their food, and even your guys’ when they feel especially nice

justin, hwall, and eric always ask you guys to buy them food or some kind of gift, which you guys always say no to because.... justin.... you can buy that whole building if you wanted to... do not

also hyunjae, kevin, and hyungseob are your number one fans, they once made signs with both your names on it and hung them up in the practice room

concept: euiwoong keeps all the things the sprouts and the boyz make for you guys and hang them up in the practice room on your one year anniversary, and he sets up a projector too so you guys can watch movies together and cuddle

and, surrounded by all the pretty decorations and memories, sitting in euiwoong’s arms, you’re really thankful that biology never seemed to make sense to you

[cupcakeblake]

Of course, of course! Let me use names, it might make it more understandable :) But feel free to switch their roles! "Modern AU: Clarke can't sleep at night; Bellamy often wakes up with nightmares. He ends up seeing all of her late night Snapchats and Instagram posts. Cue adorable late night talks, etc." Hope this helps!

I twisted it a little bit because Im incapable of writing angst… So it’s Bellamy having weird dreams and Clarke not sleeping at night! Social Media Au!

thank you @bellamybb for reading this over! tagging some people who showed interested in this @francyfifty @prongsno​ and also @selflessbellamy​ @marauders-groupie​ @boob-morley​ @hiddenpolkadots​ because i want your thoughts on this

Keeping me up at night

ClarkeGriffin: Should I stop drinking coffee or should I continue not sleeping atnight?

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           Wells Jaha:you’re gonna die at 30

           Raven Reyes:you could never stop drinking coffee. Rip friend. Nice knowing you.

Clarke wasn’t a big sleeper. Everhad been. Apparently, she didn’t need a lot of sleep to function.

However, she needed a lot ofcaffeine.

Her phone vibrated with a newFacebook notification: Bellamy Blakecommented on your post.

          Bellamy Blake: I knew you were a fake. Idon’t sleep at night by my own means thank you very much.

She smiled and immediatelyanswered.

           Clarke Griffin:yeah you’re right. Coffee got me awake since im a baby…

           Bellamy Blake:clearly. Don’t do drugs kids.

She didn’t know Bellamy thatwell. She only met him once for one of Octavia’s birthday party but theysomehow ended up following each other on most social medias. She wasn’tcomplaining because he was fun and he seemed to not sleeping at nights, justlike her, and they always ended up talking through the night… She liked him.

Clarke laughed out loud when she saw the picture Bellamy sent her inreply of her story. She opened the messaging system and typed:

           C: so what’s the problem tonight mister-weird-dream?

           B: Have you ever dreamed you were in space?

           C: of course. what do you think am i? an amateur?

           B: fair enough.

           B: but how was it for you? because it was weird for me

           C: you sound like you tried some new weird sex thing

           B: why are you messaging me again?

           C: i like the weird sex stories (:

           B: this conversation is over.

           C: come on… distract me im bored

           B: well go to sleep.

           C: haha funny

           B: I try.

           C: anyway when i dreamed i was in space i was alone floating in thesky something aesthetic like that?

           B: okay…

           C: what? What did you dreamed about?

           B: earth was destroyed, people lived in space in a weird ship? Andthere was a fucked up system where people were sent in prison for anything? idk

           C: you’re really weird

           B: thanks.

It was actually a little weirdthat they didn’t run into each other yet. They did live in the same city. Theydid have friends in common. It was only a matter of time… And apparently, timewas up.

Clarke had her eyes fixed onher phone, her bag falling of her shoulder, her hair falling in front of hereyes, the phone in one hand, a cup of coffee on the other one. She bumped intosomebody, spilled her drink. And of course, it was Bellamy.

“Oh I’m so sorry! I’ll get youcleaned up, I’m sorry I wasn’t looking!”

“Relax, princess, I wasn’tlooking either.”

Only then – only after hearingthe nickname – she leveled her gaze up and met his. Bellamy Blake was wayprettier in real life.

“Oh it’s you.” She just saidand she winced because what the fuck wasthat?

He laughed. “I’m sorry to be adisappointment.”

Her eyes widened. “Oh no! Ididn’t mean… I’m sorry-”

“Hey relax. I was just messingwith you.” He shrugged and ran a hand through his hair. Clarke simply blinkedtwice.

“You’re still wet.” She said,because clearly she was weird and he had a bad effect on her. He raised aneyebrow at her, a small smirk forming on his lips. “I mean… You still coveredin coffee…”

He licked his lips then andClarke blinked once more.

“Clearly” he said “but exceptif you have a shirt in your bag I don’t know how this situation would evolveany time soon.” The smirk was fully on his lips then. So she rolled her eyes.

“Okay Mister Smart-Pants. I’msorry I ruined your very basic and very brown shirt. I’ll buy you another oneone day if you want.”

“Wow someone is cranky.” Buthe was still smiling.

“I need coffee to function.But you got my cup all over yourself so…”

“How is it my fault now?”

“You did say you were not lookingeither, remember.”

“It was your coffee! Youshould have watch out!”

“Okay Mister-Weird-Dream youshould stop right now because-”

She didn’t have the chance tofinish her sentence because Octavia showed up right at this moment. Oh right.She was supposed to meet Octavia. Not her brother.

“Hey O.” Bellamy said, thesmirk still on his lips.

“Hi… Bellamy? Clarke…” Octaviahad a confused look on her face and Clarke couldn’t really blame her.

“So I was going to the malland Clarke spilled her coffee all over me… I’m gonna go now!”

He went in the directionOctavia came. Clarke could still see him smirk at her and wave as he lookedover his shoulder.

“Why were you flirting with mybrother, Clarke?” Clarke choked on nothing and scoffed.

“I was not!”

Later that day she received atext from Bellamy.

10:34pm [Bellamy] You owe me a shirt.

10:35pm [Clarke] Well you owe me a coffee jerk. She replied. Andit was only later that she got the date subtext… Oh well…

@bellblake: had the strangestdream. Was a salmon, got eaten by a bear. #wtf #terrifiedforlife

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@thegriffinprincess: @bellblake Iraise you with my became-a-real-life-dragon-and-destroyed-earth dream

@bellblake:@thegriffinprincess from what I’m hearing you became world’s ruler and I goteaten… which is worse?

@thegriffinprincess: @bellblake surelyit’s being world’s ruler too much responsibilities.

@bellblake:@thegriffinprincess you’re right as a salmon I lived a pretty nice life

@themurphylife:@thegriffinprincess @bellblake please go be eaten by a bear. BOTH OF YOU.

Bellamy couldn’t help butsending her a private message.

           B: i see youhave been having weird dreams too. welcome to the club

           C: I hardlysleep… and it was maybe when I was five?

           B: you dreamedyou were a dragon destroying earth at five?

           C: yeah

           B: you’refucking terrifying.

Clarke smiled at her phone,fondly.

BellamyBlake: any ideas for things to do when you cant sleep (aka every night?)

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           Clarke Griffin:Read, watch TV, have sex, learn a new language, draw, pull pranks on yourroommates, cook or eat, do your laundry, dance naked on your living room, takea bath, write a novel, watch videos of funny cats on youtube, rewatch yourfavorite tv show, go visit the city at night, take pictures, annoy all yourfacebook friends with pointless posts?

           John Murphy:Are you volunteering to have sex with Bellamy, Griffin?

           Octavia Blake:Clarke, you can’t… You just can not tell my brother to have sex like it’snothing and getting away with it…

           Nathan Miller:Clarke you can’t… You just can not tell Bellamy to dance naked in the livingroom. Sometimes I get up at night and I don’t want to be terrified for life.

2:45pm [Clarke] So I’ve got you anew shirt.

3:02pm [Bellamy] Great. I bet Icould find a place to find you a new coffee.

3:03pm [Bellamy] meet me at CostaCoffee? At 5?

3:05pm [Clarke] in England???

3:05pm [Bellamy] why are youmaking this so difficult?

BecauseI’m nervous as hell…

Clarke breathed deeply beforeanswering.

3:07pm [Clarke] Yeah okay

It was definitely a date. Ifwe were defining it by how much Clarke was freaking out. She was pacing. Shealready thought of changing of outfits to look nicer. She checked her make-up,her hair. She was freaking pathetic.

She only had herself to blame.She sent him the text. But she had missed him… Since that Facebook post hedidn’t interact with her as much as he used to. And she missed him.

3:34pm [Clarke] I might like yourbrother a little more than I thought

3:35pm [Octavia] shocking

She smiled at her phone,seeing in her friend’s sarcasm a blessing of sort?

3:35pm [Clarke] i might have adate with him?

3:35pm [Octavia] what do you mean /might/have?

3:36pm [Clarke] well we didn’texactly use the word “date” but we’re meeting for coffee?

3:37pm [Octavia] just go clarkeyou’ll figure it then

And she did. She showed up afew minutes before 5 but he was already there. She resisted fixing her skirtand walked to him. He welcomed her with a big smile and her heart did a funnything.

“Hi, Clarke.” His voice wassoft. He looked perfectly calm and at ease. She sat in front of him and relaxedunder his gaze. “What are you taking? My treat.”

“Well, it was the deal” shegrinned. But her face immediately turned into a horrified one.

“Wha- What Clarke? What’shappening?”

“I… Err, I forgot your shirt?”

He didn’t say anything for afew seconds, didn’t move an inch. Clarke began to take a deep breathe butBellamy bursted out laughing.

“That’s seriously notimportant” he smiled a little shy but with the same soft face.

She bit her lips, suddenlyoverwhelmed.

“You’re paying then? I thinkgonna take a mocha and a donut and…”

@bellblake: why am i alwayshaving these weird dreams

@thebetterblake: @bellblake ualways had these dreams y r u questioning this now

@bellblake: @thebetterblakeim allowed to be concerned of my mental health

@natemiller: @bellblake@thebetterblake i can tell u if u want: u r freakin mad

@bellblake: @natemiller@thebetterblake i knew we were friends for a reason

@thegriffinprincess: @bellblake whatwas it now?

@bellblake: @thegriffinprincessi was elected president and trump ate me

@thegriffinprincess: @bellblake wowyou like getting eaten

@thebetterblake:@thegriffinprincess @bellblake clarke……………………..

@thegriffinprincess: @thebetterblake@bellblake I MEANT LIKE THAT OTHER DREAM HE HAD

@bellblake: me featuring inmy weird ass dream of last night

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Clarke barely heard her phoneringing under the shower. She made it in time just before it goes to thevoicemail. She answered it without looking at the number.

“Hi?”

“Clarke, hi?”

“Bellamy?”

“Yeah… I’m sorry… I shouldn’thave called… You probably have other things to do.”

“Bellamy it’s 2 in themorning… I have literally nothing to do right now. What’s up?”

“It’s nothing really… But youwere the only one I know who could be up this late…”

“No problem seriously.”

“I had this dream…”

“You always have weirddreams.”

“It was more like a nightmareactually…”

“Oh.”

She listened to him as he toldher about this nightmare. How he dreamed he was 10 again when his step dad beathis mother and how he would hide Octavia to protect her. And then he was backinto the present time and this man came back into their lives and manipulatedOctavia who ended up in the hospital because of him but blamed Bellamy foreverything…

Clarke listened as his voicebroke with a few sobs sometimes, showing how deeply he loved his sister and howimportant she was for him.

When he was done, shewhispered a few words, letting now that everything was okay, that he couldcount on her. Always.

They moved on on another topicand spent the night talking to each other, discovering the last parts theydidn’t know about each other.

1:54am [Clarke] are you taking ascreenshot of every one of my snaps?

1:56am [Bellamy] yes and?

1:57am [Clarke] nothing.

2:03am [Clarke] i do the same

3:02am[Clarke] I still have your shirt.

3:04am[Bellamy] my shirt?

3:04am[Clarke] you know the brown hideous one i got you to replace thebrown hideous one i’ve ruined with coffee

3:05am[Bellamy] oh that shirt.

3:05am[Clarke] yes. want it?

3:05am[Clarke] im at your door.

Bellamyopened the door and it was the most beautiful view Clarke could imagine.Bellamy wearing a large shirt and some sport pants as pyjamas. Looking at herlike she was stars.

“Could we date?” She blurted out. “Like really date?With kissing and maybe more. And spending afternoons at each other’s place. Andhold hands, I really would like to hold your hands like always.”

She seemed to realize that she said that completelyout of the blue and blushed. But it wasn’t really out of the blue, was it?

“You know what I mean… I got your shirt” she addedlifting a bag.

“I couldn’t care any less about the shirt, Clarke”Bellamy said, his voice deep.

“I’ve made of these efforts to find the exact same oneas this ugly shirt you wore that day and you’re telling me you don’t care?That’s rude, Bellam-”

“Clarke, shut up” he said as he put a hand on herwaist and bringing her against his chest. She laughed and put a hand on it. Sheraised her eyes then, to meet his and smiled, biting her lips slowly.

“Could we date?” She repeated as his lips weredescending to hers. She was smiling way to much to be a proper kiss but shedidn’t care and he didn’t seem to either. She fold her arms behind his neck toput him even closer and he almost lost his balance.

“Let’s date” he finally said between kisses.

Octavia Blake posteda new picture of you.

Herewe go. Bellamy and Clarke being the worst couple ever. Delete them from theInternet please.

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credit to @mrsiriusblack​ for the last manip!

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Movie reviews

So I have to study for my finals, but in order for me to not go completely crazy I have been watching some new movies at night. You might not care, but I’m gonna share what I think of them anyway ;)

First up: La La Land!

La La Land (by Damien Chazelle) is a romantical comedy musical. With Ryan Gosling (ughh, so perfect) and Emma Stone (now that’s what I call acting) as lead actors. They are so perfect togheter, I love them. They tooootally make this movie worth watching. I mean, I’m also very excited by all the musical numbers and by the story itself but the movie was 10 minutes to long for me... the 5 years later framgent didn’t really do anything for me. 

But aside form that: the acting is fenomenal, the singing and dancing takes you back to the early hollywood musicals, the scenery is breathtaking (honestly, I think they made LA way prettier that it normaly is) and the story is rather cliché, but it doesn’t get boring. At least not for me...

I think it’s really interesting how they show a side of the showbussines that’s not talked about often, but actually does exist (one of the audition scenes actually happened to Gosling once) + if you’re an romantic at heart, Gosling is just the man for you!

Reasons not to watch:

Quite slow

Oldschool jazz musical numbers (the younger audiences might have trouble getting into that)

The last 10 minutes

It’s rather cliché

Dissapointing ending, to me at least

Reasons to watch:

Emma Stone

The scenery

The opening scene

The chemistry between Stone and Gosling

VERY cute dance scenes

The club scene with John Legend (who is rather good)

Emma Stone

If your are a jazz fan, this is your movie

Moonlight

THIS MOVIE!

Okay, Moonlight (by Barry Jenkins) has an absolute star cast if you ask me. The story is about a black boy (Chiron) who grows up in a though neighbourhood in Miami in the  late ‘90s and who struggles with his sexuality, his crack addicted mother and bullying. 

We see Chiron in 3 stages of his life, all played by different actors AND THEY ARE SO GOOD! These kids man! Okay, remember these names: Alex Hibbert, Ashton Sanders and Trevante Rhodes. REMEMBER THEM! A new generation of A List black actors has been born.

Along side them also star Janelle Monae, Naomie Harris (wtf) and Mahershala Ali. I’m blown away by all these actors, Ali definitly deserves all the awards he is winning and I wish more people would recognize the work of Harris. She aboslutely blew me away.

I love everything about this movie: the characthers are allowed to feel vulnerable, to show emotions and I have never seen a movie where black men (!) get to do something like that. It’s heartbreaking to see Chiron struggle with his mother and himself and how he grows up in a neighbourhood where he has to be though and ‘manly’. 

Movies like this are way overdue. This movie gives black gay men something to identify with. I hope this movie gets the praise it deserves.. At the Oscars it will probably be La La Land who wins everything, but I hope Ali, Harris and Rhodes get (at least) nominated and hopefully win something aswell.

Reasons not to watch

None

Reasons to watch:

The whole cast, but Rhodes, Ali and Harris blew me away

The story

The music (Nicholas Britell)

The vulnerability

THE STORY! 

Representation

Even if you don’t feel like it, you owe it to the Black community, and more specific: the black gay men, to watch it because only if many people watch it, then maybe the perseption and stereotypes about these people might change and it’s so important to give them a voice.

Swiss Army Man

This movie is so fucking weird, but also really beautifull? 

Swiss Army Man (Daniel Kwan and Daniel Scheinert) stars Paul Dano and Daniel Radcliffe. In all honesty, I only watched this for Radcliffe (Potterhead over here!) but Dano is SO FUCKING GOOD in this movie. They both are actually. You need a good chemistry in order for this movie to work, and they did!

So if you don’t know what it is about: Dano’s charachter somehow got stranded on a deserted island and is about to kill himself, when a body (played by Radcliffe) shows up on the beach and appears to have powers. I should also warn you about the many farts, erections and stories about masturbating there are, they are super essential to the plot. 

It’s a movie about love, friendship, acceptance and feeling left out. You’ll just have to take my word on it that the farting isn’t as weird is as it sounds. 

I didn’t expect to like this movie so much, but I do so I encourage you to watch it! 

Reasons not to watch:

Sometimes pretty weird and surreal, not easy to wrap your head around it

Creepy stalker stuff

Dead body (if that’s a trigger for you)

Reasons to watch

Daniel Radcliffe

The dynamic between Radcliffe and Dano

The story: I thinkg everybody will recognize stuff about themselves in it, and it allows you to interpret the story the way you want to

SOUNDTRACK! (By Andy Hull and Robert McDowell)

The overall weirdness 

The fact that it’s definitly something you have never seen before

Hidden Figures

OMG, last but not least: Hidden Figures (by Theodore Melfi) stars some of my all time favourite women: Janelle Monae, Octavia Spencer and my fave Taraji P. Henson! 

How did I not know about these real life women??? Again, this movie proves that there are so many women who made significant changes for our world, and we never even hear about them. 

The story centers around 3 African-American women who worked for NASA and who made groundbreaking changes, both for NASA and for black women. Remember their names: Katherin Johnson, Dorothy Vaughan and Mary Jackson. 

While the story is beautiful and the acting was suberb, the movie sometimes laks dept and change. It’s all very feel-good, and while it shows the struggles of these black women in the 60s, it sometimes feels as if they could have had more attention and more debt for these women. Also I don’t think the soundtrack (Pharell Williams) realy suits the story, but thats just me!

Reasons not to watch

Not enough debt

I didn’t like Jim Parson’s acting (sorryy)

Soundtrack doesn’t suit the movie

Very American, lol

Reasons to watch

The actrices, especially Taraji P. Henson! She has this 1 scene where she delivers a heartbreaking monologue and just for that she deserves an Oscar.

To honor the real women behind this stroy

To feel empowerd (go girls!)

Space (I’m a space freal lol)

And that’s it! :)