#he also said i have misha vibes

[twinkchester]

My friend told me I look like Misha and I'm gonna spend the rest of my life crying :')

[metalcorebarbie]

okay tbh. can we stop treating anything an actor says as an absolute truth. this also applies when you like what they say. i just think it would do good for us to remember that the interviews don’t necessarily mean anything because the actors don’t. you know. write the show. even when the actor understands their character well everything they say about their character’s future is basically the same as us coming up with headcanons and speculation.

[carolinagirl80]

I honestly don’t understand the whole “it’s just a joke”, “that’s how guys talk” like no?

First of all that’s a lame fucking excuse for his behavior. Just because you’re a fan doesn’t mean you have to protect every fucked up thing he says.

Let’s be honest non of us know them personally, we see what’s online and hear what’s said. So pretending like you know them, saying “he’s a good guy” and defending him like you do is embarrassing.

I use to be a fan of Misha. Well, more like I use to respect him as an actor and I enjoyed him in SPN. This year I had the privilege to meet him at a con. I say privilege because I know that many can’t afford to or haven’t had the opportunity.

It was so awkward, he clearly didn’t want to be there. Everything he said during his q&a catered to the audience. It was over all very fake, I still can’t understand how people feed into the stuff he says.

It really put a bad taste in my mouth. I’ve never been his biggest fan, just thought that it would be fun to meet someone, from the tv show the show I’ve loved for years. That being said if I could go back, I’d save my money instead of wasting it.

I’m not saying he wasn’t nice to me, I did have a longer interaction than others that had been in line. But as someone who hasn’t ever been an obsessive fan, I think it might have been easier not feeding into all the crap he says.

People forget that he gets paid to do this stuff. The reason why he’s a fan favorite is because of destiel. So ofc he’s going to milk it, since that’s the only thing he has to talk about.

All the questions were destiel related, he has nothing else to say about the show. Honestly I don’t think he remembers anything that happened in the show, except from all of the scenes where he can confirm that destiel is canon.

Anyway after that con I watched a few videos of other panels online, because Jensen and Jared didn’t attend the one I went to. And I have to say I agree with a lot of the things you’ve posted.

It’s clear that he tries hard to push Jared out of the picture, he forces this idea of being besties with Jensen at cons. It’s always so awkward watching them together. Most of the time Jensen just goes along with stuff Misha says, so he doesn’t have to answer the same questions about destiel being canon or not.

Jensen obviously takes his acting seriously, he played Dean for 15 years. So I don’t get when he says over and over again, that destiel isn’t a thing. That people can’t accept it and move on. I love Dean, but I’m not going to pretend I know him better than Jensen. He WAS Dean. He knows him inside and out.

Then we have Misha that eggs the fans on during these panels. It’s like Jensen tries to answer the question seriously. Then Misha swoops in makes a small joke out of it, like Jensen has no idea what he’s talking about and proceeds to talk over him. Giving them the answer they want to hear.

It even feels like he’s making fun of the fans at times, knowing that they feed into this crap and thinking it’s funny that they do.

Gives me the same vibes of Regina George saying “I love that bracelet where did you get it”. Then going back to the green room and making fun of it.

I mean he’s made fun of the show and fans before, there are literally videos or posts online.

ALSO!!! The whole thing Jensen said about it not being subtext it was clear text, has been so fucking twisted.

This has turned into more of a rant, sorry. But what I mean to say is I agree with a lot of the things you’ve said. I just don’t understand how people can’t see it? It’s so frustrating.

I don’t hate Misha, it just really really fucking bugs me, that people don’t see what he’s doing. I just don’t get that you, like others who point it out get attacked.

People go on and on about how hateful others are, then proceed to bully people online for pointing shit out? Make that make sense.

Hi Anon! Saw your other message, and yeah, I don't blame you there, but you are good, so here we go. Thank you for the message btw. Very refreshing after my last few that's for sure.

I will start by saying that I have never seen a group of people so willing to turn a blind eye to the numerous inappropriate things their fave does/says as the hellers/Misha Stans. Their mantra in life is "oh, it was just a joke". I mean, they have to say it constantly because Misha can't stop being inappropriate. He kinda has to though doesn't he? Otherwise, he couldn't keep them entertained and he'd float on off into obscurity.

Unfortunately, that requires the use of Jared and Jensen's names.

I'll start with Jensen just because I happen to already have a link ready.

So, with Jensen, he's going to play that Destiel/Cockles card as much as he possibly can. Always has, always will. Jensen has always said that Destiel doesn't exist. (Thanks to @Sammyiscat on X for posting this today, just when I needed it!)

Once upon a time, Jensen did do a little fan service and lean into it slightly during JenMish panels. However, he always made it as clear as possible how he really feels. Then the hellers called him homophobic for it. So earlier this year, as you mentioned, he called it "clear text" not subtext. He tried to be as diplomatic as possible. The unfortunate part of being diplomatic is that it allowed the hellers to twist themselves into pretzels making it sound like Jensen said the opposite of what he actually was saying.

What I find the most interesting is that in the last few years, Misha is on his best behavior around Jensen. He only runs his mouth off when Jensen isn't around. Usually when he's at a European con alone. I'd LOVE to know how that transpired. Jensen is also usually in a pretty bad mood leading up to a JenMish panel these days as well. He was surprisingly ok in Charlotte (except for that one damn question). However, let's look back on San Francisco. Remember when he ran from Misha trying to hug him?

That is the definition of an unhappy Jensen....Yet hellers, CANNOT SEE IT! How can they not see that? Anyways...I could go on and on here....

So let's move on to Jared...

Sweet silly Jared. How anyone could be mean to him I'll never know. Something has changed there too. There was a lot more joking from Misha where Jared is concerned once up a time. Now, everything Misha says about his sounds bitter and or malicious.

He loves to point out that Jared was discovered just walking down the street, or that he has no training or that he didn't go to college.

Then there was the airplane story from last month in DC. It was partially true, but heavily embellished to make Jared sound bad, and what happens every time that happens? Tons of hate descends onto Jared online. People telling him to kill himself. Just pure bullying and hate. Misha HAS to know that is what would happen.

Just this past weekend he mocked him: (Ignore the person who tweeted this. You don't want to go down that route)

What an asshole. I mean really. I know, I know hellers, "oh, it's just a joke" right? Let's not start the "you and your friends have no sense of humor" crap again.

As far as con experiences go? I've heard people say many times that they have had negative experiences meeting Misha. Unless you are known to him already he couldn't care less. Been there, done that, can confirm. Like I said in another post, glad I already didn't like him because I sure wouldn't now!

Edited to add another link of Jensen denying Destiel.

[arrthurpendragon]

I got home from school and I couldn’t find Misha kitty. If I say any word that starts with the letter f he comes running (he assumes I’m gonna say fancy feast) I kept calling for him but he never came. I searched the usual hiding places, but couldn’t find him. I assumed he got outside somehow. So, I called the humane society - they were closed. My vet across the street said they didn’t have any missing cats either. So, I tore my house apart.

I found him hiding in a tipped over laundry basket beside the washer. I pet him and he started yowling. For those who don’t know, Misha is the biggest attention whore and he doesn’t hide unless scared. So, I managed to get him to my bed and then I kicked all the other pets out of the room after Misha yowled again. He settled down a bit when he was just with me, but was still occasionally yowling. His bladder felt full compared to Tallmadge kitty’s.

I thought maybe he was just being picky about there being older litter mixed in the box, so I dumped it and put fresh stuff in before I carried him and set him in the litter box. He tried 4 times and nothing came out and he didn’t want to jump out of the box.

So I made the decision to drive 75 minutes to the emergency vet. Whether the car ride is 5 minutes or 3 hours, Misha kitty vocalizes his displeasure the whole ride. He didn’t make a peep the entire drive.

Good thing I brought him in. He has a blockage and will stay there until Thursday. They said I caught it quick.

Although, when they were just observing him for the first few minutes they didn’t think anything was wrong because he walked out of his carrier and demanded pets and rubs! That’s my little attention whore! Haha. He’s gotta ham it up for all the attention even when he’s not feeling well.

This will be the longest Tallmadge, his litter mate, has been without Misha! They’re 4 and the longest they’ve been separated is like 12 hours.

Also, I’m glad my sister told me about care credit otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to cover the necessary funds for this.

Needless to say, it’s been a long day and the kitty I force to snuggle with me after stressful days isn’t home to make me feel better.

If you could send healing vibes Misha kitty’s way that would be appreciated. He is such a special cat.

[janedoechronos]

I already talked about this with a friend by I modified some things:

Jane with the Queen of hearts design, and her performance would be like:

When she says " Or it is lost somewhere with my head? " the choir does the ' off with your head ' sign in the background, and she touches her neck, like if they said she would lose her head.

And the flight part where she would like fall trying to search for something to grab and stop herself of falling, like Alice falls from the rabbit role, also the choir members holding white roses but dirty with red, since I read somewhere that the Queen of hearts uses the blood of the people she decapitated to paint the roses, so they used Jane's blood to pain the Roses or something like that.

But her performance wouldn't be Queen of hearts related, more like she was a card that was decapitated by the Queen, but who would have a queen related performance? Ocean cause why not, Ocean would even use a little crown during What the world needs, and everyone has a card, but Jane's card is different because Ocean doesn't see and admit Jane as a member of their choir they forgot about (a personal hc of mine)

Then Noel represents the caterpillar, the Monique outfit having some blue details, and she would be smoking whatever that caterpillar smokes

Misha represents the mad hatter, the This song is awesome performance would be like a crazy tea party, and in Talia things get calmer, and it has some flowers, representing the Wonderland's flowers but also Mad Hatter's more gentleman side, since he is not that crazy.

Ricky is the Cheshire cat, he's performance is a bit more mysterious, mixing space and purple tones, and maybe some special effects smoke when he appears in the Space Age Bachelor man suit

The birthday song is like a mini tea party for Jane

Constance is the white rabbit, and it has some broken clocks, like if the Rabbit had missed the time but doesn't give a damn about it

The portal to go back to life is a rabbit hole, in the end of It's not a game/It's just a ride they all go in, 2016 off-Broadway vibes, and when they go in Penny's shadow appears, dressed as Alice, reveling she wasn't just a card but yet an important part, she was the Alice of their Wonderland.

I'm still working in this, it will probably stay forever in my imagination, but thanks for hearing me out!

@theangelcatalogue

...Yes

WE LOVE THIS SO MUCH?? WHAT????

[ashen-sky]

The Penacony brainrot is so real, here are some thoughts:

this place is Alice in Wonderland meets Las Vegas, like I always got Vegas vibes (and a bit of early micky mouse honestly) but actually playing the story gave such Alice in Wonderland vibes. The meme? The Jabberwocky. Misha? That boy gives such white rabbit vibes. Is Black Swan the Cheshire cat? Now that i think about it, ya.

Sunday, the bird man, he may be surrounded in holy imagery but ohhhh boy are the thoughts he gives me anything but holy (this is a half joke, but i seriously can't wait to see more of him)

I DON'T THINK FIREFLY AND ROBIN ARE DEAD! There, I said it finally. This theory has been eating at me. The meme has an attack that puts your characters in a "dead" state that allows revival, and the exact same animation for that attack plays during Firefly's death. Also it doesn't make sense to kill a character before running their banner, so I think those girls are coming back.

Sam. I like Sam. And Aventurine. Aventurine's design reminds me a lot of Luka from the company that shall not be named. Honestly all of the Penacony characters bring something I adore in characters, that glitzy overconfidence of a gambler who knows his stuff, that twisted salvation, ect.

Also, I don't think people really sleep in Penacony, none of the guest rooms have beds. I think maybe Penacony natives might have a real bed, because the idea that their options are dream world or napping in weird spots seems odd, but they might not. (It did give me a fun idea for a fanfic of a character that forces themselves to nap outside of the dreamscape because they suffer from chronic nightmares and don't want to become dependent on the dreamscape)

I have two thought on Sampo, the first is what the hell was that dream and why do those damn trash cans hit so hard.

Next, everyone was sure he was a masked fool, and lo and behold they were right. However, I would like to turn your attention to Black Swan's character quest. Firstly, something is coming to Jarilo VI, something so big it is cause SAMPO to take action. Sampo, who is known for skirting AROUND conflict, is putting himself in someone else's hands (someone he explicitly states he isn't too fond of) to take action. I don't doubt he'll stay behind the scenes, he isn't the kind of person to work in the spotlight, but whatever is coming has concerned him enough to ACT. This isn't a testament to how he feels about the planet, this is a testament to the oncoming danger. EDIT TO ADD- the reason i don't say this is a testament to how much Sampo cares about the people of Jarilo VI is because of how much he trusts them to handle themselves. He cares about them yes, but by taking action he's saying he doesn't think they can handle whatever's coming on their own even with the recent reconnection with the IPC and working to recover their old technology.

All this is to say WHEN IS THE NEXT UPDATE, please, god, feed me story.

[theangelcatalogue]

If you guys haven't seen my RTC Wonderland production idea, it is NOT a real production, just something I brainstormed in the middle of the night.

First Part

Second Part

(Under the cut for the people who can't access the link or just want to read about it in this post)

(Also there is a Gif of Anne Hathaway as White Queen, just warning cause why not)

FIRST PART

I already talked about this with a friend by I modified some things:

Jane with the Queen of hearts design, and her performance would be like:

When she says " Or it is lost somewhere with my head? " the choir does the ' off with your head ' sign in the background, and she touches her neck, like if they said she would lose her head.

And the flight part where she would like fall trying to search for something to grab and stop herself of falling, like Alice falls from the rabbit role, also the choir members holding white roses but dirty with red, since I read somewhere that the Queen of hearts uses the blood of the people she decapitated to paint the roses, so they used Jane's blood to pain the Roses or something like that.

But her performance wouldn't be Queen of hearts related, more like she was a card that was decapitated by the Queen, but who would have a queen related performance? Ocean cause why not, Ocean would even use a little crown during What the world needs, and everyone has a card, but Jane's card is different because Ocean doesn't see and admit Jane as a member of their choir they forgot about (a personal hc of mine)

Then Noel represents the caterpillar, the Monique outfit having some blue details, and she would be smoking whatever that caterpillar smokes

Misha represents the mad hatter, the This song is awesome performance would be like a crazy tea party, and in Talia things get calmer, and it has some flowers, representing the Wonderland's flowers but also Mad Hatter's more gentleman side, since he is not that crazy.

Ricky is the Cheshire cat, he's performance is a bit more mysterious, mixing space and purple tones, and maybe some special effects smoke when he appears in the Space Age Bachelor man suit

The birthday song is like a mini tea party for Jane

Constance is the white rabbit, and it has some broken clocks, like if the Rabbit had missed the time but doesn't give a damn about it

The portal to go back to life is a rabbit hole, in the end of It's not a game/It's just a ride they all go in, 2016 off-Broadway vibes, and when they go in Penny's shadow appears, dressed as Alice, reveling she wasn't just a card but yet an important part, she was the Alice of their Wonderland.

-

So… I'm back but this time I want to talk about Karnak and the opening of the musical, and other extra details that I don't know if i include or not:

Karnak is the march here, that is the craziest in the Wonderland if you think well, Mad Hatter is crazy, but he has a gentle side, the march hare is crazy and messy, which would be ironic for Karnak, his name could be " Karnak, the amazing hare . ", but he prefers " the amazing Karnak. " Karnak could also be interactive and change a bit on the songs, he could close his curtains while telling the choir's stories and when he opens up again. My idea is:

He uses a " Vote for Ocean " pin that Ocean herself made the choir members use in What the world needs

a beret during Noel's Lament

sunglasses during TSIA and a flower crown during Talia

A little cat ear during SABM, not the mask, just the ears

His curtain would be closed during TBOJD, since he says he never read her fortune

Some confetti during Sugar Cloud

Virgil could be dressed like mad hatter and the hare, or maybe he could be a rat with another details inspired by the jabberwocky

The opening would depend on which song to use, but i like to think of the use of simple effects that could represent the choir died and now are in the limbo, a little changing of lighting and props maybe? My idea is that the choir falls in the floor when they finish singing the opening, like they just fell from the surface and ended up in wonderland

Jane's design, I imagine her makeup being like Lizzie's heart from Ever After high, her hair could be totally black, and her doll would be dressed like a queen, my idea is that she also has a little crown in her hair, that Ocean takes it off during WTWN, Jane would try to search for it, but Ricky stops her, but after Ocean finishes her song, he takes the crown off and gives it to Jane (idk if i include this or no)

Some background bonding scenes with Misha and Jane, since the Mad Hatter is found of Alice in the movies (I'm mixing the book and the movies a bit) and really implied Spacedolls

Thanks for hearing and sorry if i'm bothering, i'm thinking of writing a script for this specific production because why not?

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YES I COPYPASTED IT DON'T JUDGE ME

[32bitterra]

I'm interested in your headcannons for Misha's family! You once said that maybe Misha could have a lot of sisters and brothers

Hello! Sadly, most of my ideas about Misha's family are very vague and it's difficult for me to explain, but I will do my best. In my mind, Misha seems like someone brotherly. I don't remember if I specified it in the post I did with some of my headcanons/ideas/interpretations of him, but I think he is the oldest of his siblings. It's hard to explain why I think it. It's just the vibe I get from him based on how he interacts with Maloof. I've already explained how I think his friendship/alliance with him has a brotherly aspect to me, so I won't dwell on it. (I'm also the eldest sibling, so I can tell these things lol) I haven't given much thought to his siblings regarding how many he has, how many of which are brothers or sisters, or if any are psychic like him, which is a bit disappointing. I imagine he likes to roughhouse/play fight with them. He uses his powers when playing, of course. If your older brother was psychic, wouldn't you want him to toss you around with his telekinesis? lol. He doesn't hurt them though, it's all just for fun. I think they have a lot of fun with him. (I think he tries to play with Maloof like this, but Maloof does not respond well to it. Just a funny random thought I had.) I also haven't given much thought to his parents, but I think they are good to him. I think he inherited his abilities from his father. I also think his father may have been a lot like Misha in his youth (wrestling bears and whatnot.) I don't have many ideas about his mother currently, but I think she is good to her son. I think that's all I have for now. Hopefully I was able to explain my thoughts in an easily digestible manner. Thank you for your time, have a Misha for your consideration.

[t4tgempearl]

cast your moots in rtc

Rtc!! I love rtc :3 (If you couldn't tell already by my icon cough cough)

This is based on vibes and my innate psychic abilities only /silly

Ocean - It's me sorry ya'll </3 she's just my girlie and I can't let her go She's awful but I could fix her /j

Constance - @ireallyliketalldarksultrymen it's the vibes i fear 😔 and i think constance would also love treebark (doomed yaoi <3)

Noel - @fruity-phrog I think you have the passion for it :] (also i feel like you said at some point that noel is your dream role, so :3)

Misha - @tedfagoffski i want to see you sing "my life is awesome" because i think you'd radiate such immense transmasc swag 💪

Ricky - @royall-ass silly fella :D also your paul & richie catboy post

Jane Doe - @just-watching-dont-worry quiet watchful vibes /pos also i think we need more jane does with a purple-ish theme

Karnak (remembered he's also there) - @abatinthelibrary i think you'd be a fun storyteller :D

Virgil (+ the rest of the rat band) is up for grabs ✨

[dotthings]

Liveblogging the stupidity (I'm using the tag jibcongate if you want to mute it or read along and eat popcorn) and some bitter Jared stan who has worked cons decided to open their big mouth and made a thread that amounted to claiming "Jensen and Misha are faking it with all of you and are actually disgusted by all your fanart. They only sign it because they're scared you'll beat them up on social media" and apparently Jensen and Misha are so impoverished they need to sign Destiel fanart or they might starve. And that the reason Jensen and Misha keep returning to Jibcon is that they are "treated respectfully" so I guess CE Con, which doesn't have a policy to block PG rated fanart from Jensen and Misha, is just a bunch of disrespectful meanies who are cruel to actors and jibcon is their only safe haven to save them from The Destiel Menace.

Also claiming that Misha had his arm twisted by the fan in question to sign her art when anyone who read the fan's story knows that when Misha heard that the art had been blocked from signing, he was indignant and said "of course it's allowed!" And was delighted and very sweet to the fan.

Flipping the bird as a peaceful general defiance gesture has been used in countless photo ops is now being treated like an act of violence. (Meanwhile the entire cast of The Boys including Jensen Ackles, use it as part of the branding of a highly successful show but do go off how a Destiel shipper is a terrorist for a general defiance gesture that was not an attack on any individual).

The homophobic Jared stan then compared PG rated Destiel fanart to demanding piggy-back rides from actors.

And concluded this stunning example of incisive brilliance with IF ALL DESTIEL FANART IS BANNED IT WILL BE ALL YOUR FAULT, HELLERS.

Because little fandom fascists don't really have anything else but victim blaming and outrageously obvious homophobia and faux moralistic outrage that has the exact same vibe as ultra conservatives screaming THINK OF THE CHILDREN!!!! while banning drag readings and trying to remove LGBTQ books from libraries.

They're really really REALLY showing who they are. Really. All their uwu talk about inclusion has been nothing but a smokescreen to cover up their actual biases and all the poison is spilling out louder and louder.

[lorata]

OKAY, this is a long one but I've been mentally playing around with another absolutely ridiculous AU that would ruin the timeline and makes no sense! BUT! I think it's also a fun way to play with the characters so I thought you might like it. Let me know where any of my thoughts here go wrong but here it is:

This all started on two things I remember:

At some point way back, you said tribute!Joseph would be an Adessa boy (your mind, I love it)

 In the injured Creed AU, I noticed when Alec was in full Callista-tribute mode, all vicious and predatory, both Creed and Joseph thought he reminded them of Adora which made me think as a trainee Adora must have been at least a little bit feral

So a few notes of what I imagined this might look like:

Joseph and Adora are back-to-back victors (I aged Adora up a year because I didn’t think it would affect too much)

Adora wins a year earlier so when Joseph wins she sees him as The Village Baby ™ at first even though he thinks she’s ~pretty~. This is simply because I enjoy laughing at Joseph.

Adora, I think, is mentored either by Hera (if you’re willing to also push her age up) or Caius otherwise. This is purely vibes-based.

As I already wrote, Joseph is mentored by Adessa

TBH I think as a mentor-victor pair, Joseph+Adessa  would have a lot fewer problems than Nero+Adessa

Adora mentors Callista, which is deeply funny to me lol good luck

For Victor!Joseph, I grapple with what to do with him. Does he get a victor? Who?

It would be fun to have Adessa pull Nero later but leave Joseph as one of the first to never bring one home. Joseph grappling with that sense of ~faliure~ would be fun to play with + seeing him as Nero’s older victor brother would be deeply funny. Have fun getting buried under a very large, sweater-wearing, cuddle puddle!

Alternatively, Joseph mentors Nero. Both because this plays off Adora and Calli but also, it makes things so interesting to me

Weirdly,  I feel like Joseph is probably better with Nero’s touchiness than Adessa? He’s not cuddly by any means but to me, he’s also never seemed touch-averse? Anyways maybe here Nero gets A Hug more often once it becomes clear he needs one. It does make me a bit sad because I love Adessa + Nero mentor moments.

The big thing that makes this so interesting for me is to see Joseph grapple with his sense of Loyalty and Duty when Nero’s deal gets struck. Like Adessa, he’d be devastated but now you've got the added issue of having his entire worldview/purpose getting thrown in his face

Maybe we don’t get an…entirely loyal Joseph here, at least not to the president.  I imagine that much like Adessa he fantasizes about the things he could do to Snow’s kidneys if he got the chance but alas, district and country before self

Also on a lighter note, it’s 10/10 funny to have Joseph accidentally being the baffled start of the absolutely feral Nero line

All of this may culminate in a crack fic when poor grandpa mentor Joseph gets saddled watching a fresh-out Misha because again, I like bullying him.

Entirely unimportant note, in any Frigga AU I get intense vibes that she could be a Joseph tribute for zero reasons.  This would also probably go better for everyone because say what you will about him (and there are many, many things), when Frigga makes the same offer as she did with Odin the only reaction I can get from Joseph is “Oh Dear™ N O  thank you”

One more thing, I could be entirely wrong here but I wonder:

I feel like both Joseph and Adora are more adjusted in this universe. They would have arena trauma like the other victors but nothing like Joseph’s residential thing + all those years in the force. Here they also have mentors + support + therapy and I imagine they’re better off for it?

Maybe (?) they’d have a chance to be decent parents here? Could be wrong but I feel like a big majority of their Issues, at least in THG universe, stem from a combination of intense trauma with no therapy or support + all the things they witnessed in the peace force of a totalitarian murder government. I don’t think they’d ever be… amazing parents but maybe also not bad ones either? IDK I’d at least like a universe where Alec and Creed get a slightly healthy time.

this is incredible and I want it to exist so bad

i'm only vaguely coherent today so here are some point-form thoughts:

every time I think I have made a decision on Joseph as Nero's mentor or mentor sibling I change my mind AGAIN because they're both so fun thematically and provide different opportunities so I really will have to think about it

Joseph as Frigga's mentor MUST happen because honestly "oh dear. no thank you" has made me laugh for two days

I agree that any universe with Victor Joseph & Adora automatically creates a better parenting environment (sad but true) and I do think a double universe would do the same

everything about Joseph's loyalty is fascinating (I've played with it a bit in a Victor Joseph AU where the powers that be demand Creed as a volunteer after everything he tries to do to keep him out) and I love it, I want to see more of this

the one thing I've been rolling around in my brain is that I don't ... think ... Adora would mentor? I think she'd go back to the Centre (like Frigga in the AU) and work with the Residential kids, help prepare them as much as possible

also re: bb Adora, I think her thing was less out-of-control wild and more ........ ruthless? she saw what she wanted and she went for it, which is what Alec managed to unlock in the Injured Creed AU and Callista highly encouraged before the Arena

so Arena-Adora would have been the same, she's got that sort of wicked charm at first but the longer the Games went on the more the smooth edges start filing away to get to the feral underneath

Joseph would definitely think she's out of his league which I find VERY funny (I also like to bully him)

[sky-is-the-limit]

I don’t know if I’m in the wrong with this or not (I love misha btw) but the things he’s saying about dean and cas .. I dunno it feels weird.. I’ve been a Destiel shipper for a long time but… damn I don’t know.. talking about a coworker’s character like that with your own I just.. man I don’t know like I understand what he’s doing like I get it but it feels strange… I feel awful saying this because I understand completely what he’s doing

And I understand that completely, Misha is not everyone's cup of tea and people have every right not to vibe with what he is saying all the time (which 99% he's wilding)

However he and Jensen know each other 15 years now? And they're really close irl, Danneel is also really close with Misha and they hang out outside of work as well and I'm certain that if Jensen was truly uncomfortable with what Misha is pulling 99% of the time, they'd definitely talk about it behind the scenes.

Like Jared used to joke about W*ncest/went on a homophobic rant about Cas and Jensen never said anything about it, I'm sure Misha joking about Destiel which is what he's been doing at cons with Jensen on stage as well, won't be such a big deal between them and if it is then I'm sure it will be discussed between those two.

Like you said, these are fictional characters and the majority of the fandom is literally asking for what Misha's been joking about, if Jackles is uncomfortable with such jokes, I'm sure he will discuss it with Misha since they are friends and not just coworkers.

Idk to me, it's all just humour, is it questionable? Most of the time yes which is why it's not for everyone, is it offensive/problematic to joke about two fictional men fucking? I honestly don't believe so and if it is they can talk about it.

P.s there's no "in the wrong/in the right" about everything, people can have different opinions on such things (not extreme situations obviously) and it's okay!!

[amberjazmyn]

you're everything

𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓮 - you're everything 

𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 - wedding, happy crying, jensen & louden swain singing at her wedding, callie making jared cry 

𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 - callie and jared are at their wedding reception and, to surprise her husband, callie decided that she'd get jensen & louden swain to sing their couple song as flashbacks of their entire relationships also are intertwined. 

𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮 - this was inspired by my favourite michael buble song, everything so as you could've guessed, lyrics will be in bold italics, flashbacks in italics and the wedding itself in the normal font. i also recommend listening to everything on repeat whilst reading this cause it'll set the vibe and make it cuter. 

masterlist listen to "everything" by michael buble right here!

- - - 

"you're a falling star, you're the get-away car. you're the line in the sand when i go too far." 

no one expected callie padalecki to surprise her new husband during their wedding reception. most especially jared himself. callie wanted to give her husband the best wedding present and, the only thing she thought that was special enough was for her and jensen and louden swain to sing their couple song, everything by michael buble. that song was probably the most important song in their relationship. the amount of times the couple would hear this song whenever they'd go somewhere was comedic at this point. so, that was when they decided to make it their couple song since they were always hearing it.

jared and callie couldn't help their laughter as they stood at their autograph tables. they were at dallascon about to do autographs when everything by michael buble started to play over the speakers. throughout their dating lives, as they were now engaged, the amount of times they had heard this song was a crazy amount. it was now their couple song for that reason because it started to become a staple in their relationship and they'd hear it everywhere.  

then, all of a sudden, the couple got up from their tables and they just started to dance. jensen, misha and mark sheppard all watch with smiles on their faces at the young couple who were just clearly enjoying themselves as their couple song just happened to play over the loudspeakers.

just to make it even better, callie decided to sing the lyrics to her fiancé as they danced together, just having the time of their lives together

"...you're a falling star, you're the get-away car. you're the line in the sand when i go too far..."

"you're the swimming pool on an august day. and you're the perfect thing to say." 

it was a nice summer's day in august when it was decided that jared was going to invite his girlfriend, callie and the rest of their costars over to his house for a pool day. everyone had said yes so, it hadn't taken the group of ten (rob, jason, jensen, misha, callie, evangeline, evannah, mark sheppard and richard) more than ten minutes to all arrive at jared's house for a pool day.

this was also the first time that callie had worn a bikini in front of the entire group that wasn't just jared. she had been so scared for so long but, jared had told her that she looked absolutely gorgeous that she trusted her boyfriend that nothing she wore was going to change that fact.

and, it turns out callie didn't have to worry about anything. the second the girls, evangeline and evannah had seen her, they all fawned in excitement at their friend and they all asked her where she got her bikini's from. she then took a moment after telling the girls where her bikinis came from to look at jared who gave her the sweetest smile ever and blew her a kiss. making her blush, that's how she knew she needed to marry jared. he was the perfect thing she needed when her judgement was clouded and she just needed someone else's opinion on something.

the group of ten were having the most amount of fun they could haev ever had together. it was totally uncommon for not just all ten of them to all be on the same vacation schedule but all be in austin, texas together at the same time since they weren't all living in texas together unlike jared, jensen and their girlfriends were. however, it seemed as though this august summer day, they all were and it just turned out perfectly.

jared, jensen amd misha were chucking their girlfriends into the pool as their cheerful screams and giggles filled the entire backyard of jared's austin farmhouse. hearing those giggles and screams gave the utmost joy to the three guys as well as the rest of the group. it was obvious how in love they all were and it truly felt like they were a family and that they were just a bunch of overgrown children that just happened to be adults. they never seemed to get bored of acting childish when they were all together in a group.

the group stayed until around eight pm when they all decided that after one more late-night swim that they would start to leave. jason, rob, misha, mark, richard and evannah had all left so it was only the last four, jared, jensen and their two girlfriend's callie and evangeline. they all sat together outside just to dry off as they took the longest in the pool after the other six had left as they happily sat in silence to think about how great of a day they all had had together.

"...today was an amazing day. it was a successful day, don't you think babe?" jared whispers into callie's shoulder as jensen and evangeline watched on from the other side

"it really was a great day, babe. we should do this more often as this group of ten. i still cannot believe that we were all in austin though at the same time like, that never happens!" callie smiled as she fiddled with jared's fingers as he smiled, jensen and evangeline agreeing

"it for sure was. i still can't believe that either. i was for sure thinking that rob at least would've got back to la for a bit for certain!" evangeline spoke up, callie immediately agreeing with her best friend 

the best friends continued to laugh and make jokes together until was time for jensen and evangeline to go home since an early day was on the horizon for the couple. jared and callie then also walked back inside of their farmhouse to continue their winddown in their living space together. changing into some more comfy clothes, jared gave his girlfriend one of his football jersey's, they sat together on the couch, their legs intertwined as they watched some late-night movies before falling asleep in the positions they started in.

"and you play it coy but it's kinda cute. ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do." 

it was well known that whenever jared smiled, it lit up an entire room because he knew exactly the power of his smile and how powerful it truly was. however, he'd always be coy and act shy about it as if he had no idea how much everyone adored his smile. callie found it cute how shy and coy jared would become after he got complimented for his smile. because he knew that she knew how crazy it drove her whenever he smiled. it wasn't hard to figure out that callie adored her husband's smile. whenever the opportunity arose, callie always took time out of her day to let everyone, far and wide, know how much she loved her husband's smile. it never took a genius to figure it out.

callie watched her husband as he shyly smiled at his seat, watching his wife, best friend and a band that also had more of his best friend's in it, sing on the stage in front of him which was probably his favourite sight to see. besides acting together, whenever jared got to see his wife sing alongside their friends, it brought him a different kind of joy than acting. it was obvious that if callie wasn't an actress, callie would love to have a record label, albums out, and be doing around the world tours non-stop.

"...your smile is absolutely gorgeous babe, have i ever told you that?" callie speaks softly, biting her lip as she caressed her boyfriend's face as they rested together in the white, crisp hotel sheets after a long convention day as jared giggled softly

"yes, you tell me that every second of every day, every chance you get. and i love you, even more, every day for it!" jared smiles shyly as he rolls over to see his girlfriend's face, making her giggle slightly

"i love you most! besides, why do you get so shy about getting complimented on your smile? it's truly the best thing about you that i can see every singel day. i men, your entire face is gorgeous but, it was truly your smile that made me fall in love and want to date you straight away. also the fact that you've got one of the best personalities i've ever seen also..." callie trailed off as she suddenly became tired that her hand had started to limply fall against jared's face, making him chuckle

"...you tired baby girl? you can go to sleep, it's okay!" jared whispered, his texan accent strong as callie tried her hardest, after hearing jared chuckle at her exhaustion and the soft smack to his face, to stay awake as she smiled

"you sure?" callie muttered sleepily as jared smiled, hugging his girlfriend closer

"i'm positive darlin', we had a long day today, you deserve to sleep!" jared whispered as callie smiled into her boyfriend's embrace

"'kay, goodnight," she mumbled as she slowly fell into the best slee she was ever going to get during convention week and she was grateful for it and it was all because of her boyfriend and his to-die-for smile

"baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true. cause you can see it when i look at you."

everyone giggled as jared nodded his head at this lyric that callie and jensen sang together at jared. although jared loved to pretend he didn't know the amount of control his smile had on people, he knew it was true because he could see it when callie looked at him. it always drove the couple crazy when the other looked at them. it always made the other flustered and get all nervous around each other because they literally turned into two teenagers in love around one another. but, that was the beauty of their relationship and now that they were married, they knew it was only going to get better that they were going to stay as lovesick teenagers together.

in all honesty, it still shocked jared that today had happened, that he had married the love of his life. throughout everything that was happening during the wedding reception, he couldn't help but just look all around him as he saw his best friends in the entire world as his groomsmen, some of them onstage right now in the band and as his wife's bridesmaids. he was feeling an abundance of joy right now as his family and wife's family all sat together as they watched their daughter/daughter-in-law sing for their son/son-in-law at their wedding which was the happiest day of their life.

jared moved to the song as he kept direct eye contct with his wife who did the same. it was clear how in love the padalecki's were with one another. even a blind rat could feel the love that the couple had for each other as it wasn't rocket science by any means.

"and in this crazy life, and through these crazy times, it's you, it's you, you make me sing." 

and it was true, no matter how crazy life got for the couple, it was always jared that made callie sing in times where she felt like she couldn't. it made jared's heart light up whenever he heard callie sing, she sang so beautifully. whether it was this song by michael buble or heaven by bryan adams, it was always jared that could convince callie to sing whenever life felt crazy.

as she, jensen and rob all sang and as jared listened and danced around, the memory of when callie first sung at a supernatural convention seeped through both of their heads at the exact same time. however, it was a memory so extensive that it was never shared with anyone that was outside of the orion concert hall in rome, italy 2016. it was the year after jared had his breakdown and had returned back to jibcon which meant that it was a very emotional weekend. so, due to how emotional it was, it was a memory that was rarely spoken about outside of the jib convention. this means that this memory will not be shared in flashback form as callie wanted to concentrate and get through her favourite couple song without crying. it also seemed as though jared didn't want to share this memory either because he also didn't want to cry any more than he already had today.

"you're every line, you're every word, you're everything." 

jared knew how special he was to his wife. he knew all too well that he was his girlfriend's entire world so, he never took that for granted. he never could because then that would make him greedy and selfish and, that wasn't the person he was. he was always someone who desired to be selfless and give to those who needed him. and, that is who he is. he always gives himself to everyone but, sometimes, he gives too much of himself. but, that's what callie's for. whilst jared means so much to callie, she also acknowledges that she needs to be everything that jared needs, just like he is everything that she needs. they were both every line, every word, everything.

"you're a carousel, you're a wishing well, and you light me up when you ring my bell." 

now, this for sure could be taken in a sense of umm, you know what. however, it just makes jared and callie laugh every single time. i mean, if you really wanted the couple to take this lyric seriously, callie would occasionally use jared as a playground just like a child would use their parents (usually their dad) as their playground but, she would also use him as a wishing well where she'd be granted all of her wishes. whic, would then at the drop of a hat (not a ring of my bell) light her up inside because of how happy she was when her wishes came true. of course, it seemed childish but, that was something callie didn't really get to have due to the copious amount of trauma and abuse she suffered growing up. so, when it did come to callie acting "childish" it was never something she was offended by when itr was asked during a convention by a fan or just by a random person that walked past.

callie watched with a bright smile as she saw what was left of her family which were her uncle and aunt on her dad's side which was "in all honesty) the only side of the family she had a relationship with and then the rest of her siblings as they all mingled with jared. her aunt and uncle, who she actually called mom and dad, were on either side of jared as they talked with big smiles on their faces as every couple minutes, laughter would ensue and, it just made her heart burst. she was glad that they were jared's father and mother in law because they really were the only two fit for that job. they absolutely adored jared and jared absolutely adored them and it was a match made in heaven, in true honesty.

"you're a mystery, you're from outer space, you're every minute of my every day." 

everyone squealed in excitement, including callie when jared rushed on stage to join his wife as he was getting reckless, wanting to dance with his wife so badly. thankfully, louden swain and jensen were still there singing background the entire time so if the moment was to ever come up, they were going to take over the rest of the song.

she giggled, the mic picking it up as jared pulled her away so he could get her do dance with her. thankful she was wearing a slip dress, it was easier to dance in so jared nor callie had to worry about tripping hazards or ruining it.

just because she was away from the microphone, that didn't mean that callie had stopped singing. whilst jensen was the one being heard singing on the microphone as rob joined in for background vocals, callie's voice was the only one jared was hearing.

that was until he decided to join in on the next verse, which was callie and jared's favourite part of the song and it showed as they danced to it with the most amount of energy possible.

"and i can't believe, uh, that i'm your man, and i get to kiss you, baby, just because i can!" 

jared jokingly sang to his wife, making her giggle as the crowd cheered as jared then dipped his wife. only to kiss her in the most glorious way as the smile on her face could have cured all the diseases and evil in the world. her laughter could be heard from miles away as the wedding guests watched on in awe and love for the married couple. seeing their best friend, daughter, sister and wife so happy and giggly like a little kid was always an emotional thing. jared's smile and laughter also had the same effect on the world as well but when callie and jared smiled and laughed together, then it truly was double trouble. their smiles and laughter brought peace and happiness to every single person. it made everyone feel safe and like nothing could go wrong because they had jared and callie so happy and giving the gift of joy to everyone who encountered the couple.

the husband and wife danced together in the middle of the dance floor asthe soulful voice of their best friend, jared's best man, jensen rang through the austin, texas barn that was housing the padalecki's wedding reception. callie twirled as jared brought her back into his chest as they continued to sway side to side with huge smiles on their faces as they softly sang the lyrics to each other

however, it was obvious that it was getting boring that it was only the married couple on the dance floor so, that was when callie called out and motioned for everyone alongside jared that they could if they so chose to, join her and jared on the dance floor.

"...come on y'all, if you want, you can join us!" callie called out, jared doing the same thing as everyone cheered in excitement

within a couple of seconds, everyone was out of their chairs and all on the dance foor dancing with their friends, siblings, partners or even on their own or in small groups as jensen, rob and louden swain continued to sing.

"whatever comes our way, ah, we'll see it through, and you know that's what our love can do." 

jared and callie smiled as they danced together, they were way too excited about what was to come next in their marriage, especially considering that right before the wedding, callie had taken a pregnancy test. of course, she let jared know she had done it but, she had done it with evangeline and evannah and they still had no clue whether or not it had come back positive or not. whilst they were hoping for it to come back positive, if it hadn't, it wasn't something the padalecki's were going to ugly cry over. because, in all honesty, jared and callie should not have "broke tradition" by having pre-marital sex literally days before their wedding but, they did and they went just a little bit far.

"and in this crazy life, and through these crazy times, it's you, it's you, you make me sing." 

it seemed as though, due to how jared and callie saw t heir best friends and bridesmaids facial expressions, the pregnancy test results had come back had that they needed to tell the couple. thankfully, everyone else was all preoccupied with jensen, rob and their dancing so no one seemed to notice that the married couple were now no longer in the middle of the stage as they all just sub-consciously went to fill in that gap as they continued dancing and focusing on jensen and rob.

"-what's going on girls? everything okay?" jared is the first to ask as he holds his wife's hand as they are slightly out of breath from all the dancing they had done

evangeline, jensen's wife, breaks first, handing over the first pregnancy test out of the three that callie had taken. grabbing it out of her best friend's hand, callie looked up to her husband before smiling at each other as she then looked at it. the smile that blew up her face was a smile that hadn't ever been seen by anyone in ages. it was the smile that only came to see the light of day at a pregnancy announcement and because jared was so familiar with it, it clicked in his head pretty quickly what his wife's pregnancy test said.

"what...what does it say babe?" even though he was pretty certain he knew, he still wanted to hear his wife say it because just hearing that would make his wedding day to his wife even better

"we're...we're pregnant jared! i'm...i'm pregnant with our first child!" she squeaked out in excitement as she couldn't help the squeals that left her mouth as jared felt tears well in his eyes as he picked up his wife

"we're gonna be parents, baby!" he squealed out tearfully, spinning his wife around before placing her back down as she nodded her head

she then looked at evannah who was holding the other two as she had a huge smile on her face.

"the other two say the same thing?" callie confirms with evannah who smiles and nods her head which causes the four of the them to squeal again in happiness at the news that callie was pregnant at her own wedding and no one else knew but this group of four!

"you're every line, you're every word, you're everything so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la. so, la, la, la, la, la, la." 

now that mr and mrs knew that callie was pregnant, they danced the rest of the night away in jubilation. they also knew that they next needed to tell their families. however, they knew they were needing to wait since the pregnancy was still on the border of being early and the start of second trimester. but, were they worried to tell their families about the fact they had pre-marital sex and were now becoming parents just mere days before being pronounced as husband and wife, absolutely not. because, funny enough, the same thing happened to callie's biological parents that she emancipated herself from. they became pregnant with her on their wedding day.

it seemed as though both families could already sense it due to the change of joy but, the families didn't disclose if they did know or not.

rob and jensen then gave them strange looks as they then told them they'd tell those two later as the two men continued to sing. finishing up the song so they could then start the next song and continue the party.

"and in this crazy life, and through these crazy times, it's you, it's you, you make me sing." 

everyone screamed out from the tops of their lungs as they all danced together in joy and celebration for the married couple that they had just witnessed get married.

"you're every line, you're every word, you're everything." 

jared and callie giggled, sang, twirled, dipped and kissed as they couldn't believe the fun they were having at their own wedding. they for sure would've thought they'd have bailed on their own reception to have some private time together but, they didn't feel the need to do that. all because they felt all the love in the world from their best friends, they didn't need to run away to get it from one another. and it was also because they didn't want to spend any time away from their family and friends. they wanted to soak up all the love and laughs from them all.

this was everything.

"you're every song and i sing along. cause you're my everything. yeah, yeah." 

it was true, jared was callie's everything and callie was jared's everything. they didn't need nor want anything else apart from each other and their newest addition that was their new baby padalecki.

also, they told jensen and rob and the rest of the bridal party ended up being the best part of the whole thing. if anything, they had the best reaction to anyone that the couple had either told or those that guessed. so, let's just say that jared and callie padalecki's wedding was a success. even with the tears from the bride, groom and the wedding guests, nothing could have ruining the wedding.  

"so la, la, la, la, la, la, la. so, la, la, la, la, la, la, la," 

- - - 

hmm, i could have certainly done this better but, that's okay! i still love it and find it adorable. 

ok bye ily xx

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[insertcurrentintresthere]

So I accidentally deleted my account so I’m reposting this :)

Why Mischa Bachinnski is such a tragic character

He has nothing to be brought back to life for

I was thinking about how Mischa didn’t even want to be in the choir in the first place. He just had to be there as a punishment. He ended up dying because he stole some wine for his cousin, as a gift. (One of) The songs mischa sings is all about how he wants to be brought back to like for talia. And talia, most likely, doesn’t actually exist. Even if she does, it’ll probably take a really long time before Mischa actually has enough money to go visit her. Mischa’s life also seemed like it sucked in general, he was neglected by his adoptive parents, had to leave his home and mother that he loved And most likely didn’t enjoy school. If you think about it, Mischa basically has nothing, at this point, to want to be brought back for. His afterlife is already much happier than his actual life because he has this group of friends, the choir, that act as his family.

He was poor before he came to Canada

The first solo song Mischa performs called “this song is awesome” is a rap about how great his life is and that he's a baller ect, ect. The thing is, everything he raps about are just normal things for a middle class family to have.

For example: “THE PLAYSTATION'S UP ON MY 60-INCH SCREEN”

A 60” screen is a pretty average size for a tv

“SPARKLING ALL OVER MY STAINLESS STEEL APPLIANCES”

In this day in age, many people own Stainless steel appliances

“CRUISE INTO THE LOT OF THE HARD ROCK CAFE”

The Hard Rock Cafe definitely isn’t usually a place for rich people or fit Mischa’s new-money rapper vibe.

“I'M ROLLING IN MY CIVVIE” (civvie being a Honda Civic)

Honda civics are not very expensive cars.

Mischa talks about all this stuff like it’s bougie and expensive, when in reality, they’re just normal things that most people own. When he was living in the Ukraine, Mischa’s family probably didn’t have much money, considering his whole family was just him and his mother, and his mom was a custodian, a job that doesn’t often make much money. When Mischa moved to Canada, he saw all this stuff that he never had at home before and assumed it was really nice stuff.

His home life

When Mischa was about 16 (assumedly) he had to be sent to Canada because his mother was dying. He was already going through a lot because of this, and the fact that he probably had no way of contacting his mother. So he doesn't even know if she's currently dead or not. When he arrived at his new home, his new parents forced him into the basement, not to come out unless his mother would start sobbing. Of course, his parents might be going through some problems of their own, but they treat Mischa like he’s some sort of monster, like he's the source of all of their problems. Mischa states before performing “this song is awesome” that he was saving up to move back to ukraine. Now, I can only assume that Misha's parents don't give him any money. Evident by the fact that, as karnak says “whenever his mother saw him, she would weep” and that he had to steal communion wine, instead of buying it, for his cousin.

How he’s changed since moving

Now, you might be thinking “you don't know what mischa was like before he moved” but on the contrary, there is some evidence towards it. Because Mischa was so mistreated by his parents, Mischa gets so flooded with anger and disdain for the world. Even though mischa does say that the only feelings ukrainian men have are “rage and passion” my first thought after rewatching mischas intro was, he wasn't always like this. Karnak clearly states that he becomes known as the angriest boy in town after he turns to “self aggrandizing hip-hop”. Throughout the show, mostly in Talia, we can see Mischa start to act a little more passionately and less angry. For example, before he performs Talia, he has a monologue about his fiance, in one part of said monologue he says “let rivers run wild, or let them be damned”. Mischa is a poet, in the right scenario, he is. Mischa is so passionate about Talia, that even without exact proof that she actually exists, he is willing to save up all his money to go be with her.

Sorry for the big blocks of text, this is incredibly ranty

[mlobsters]

supernatural s8e8 hunteri heroici (w. andrew dabb)

(huh, has he written without daniel loflin before? looks like no, but does exclusively after this)

literal cartoonish death, always a great sign. to go along with the very serious business in the recap

that's one creepy ass smile there, misha lol wtf are you doing. i wanna be a hunter *performing human smile flawlessly*

CASTIEL Can I, uh, at least ride in the front seat? DEAN and SAM simultaneously [SAM while shouldering CASTIEL out of the way] No.

so this is how it's gonna go

DEAN Listen, you see anything weird, anything out of the box, you give us a call. DETECTIVE Whatever you say, Scully.

where the hell did that come from? (picking scully instead of mulder)

*blurry flashback on sam starts to fade in* me, out loud: OH JESUS CHRIST. i know amelia was in the recap but i forgot, okay. i'm so tired of this plot mechanic

this man (brian markinson) has been in so many of my things

the x-files s5e9 folie a deux as gary lambert

the killing s2e12 donnie or marie as gil sloane

mad men s6e2 the doorway, part 2 as dr arnold rosen

the magicians s4e7 the side effect as everett

god mad men was a beautiful show. look at the sets and costumes and lighting. gahhh. and second, he played the character in the magicians that basically caused quentin to kill sacrifice himself and i just got real hurt over it all over again good job, brain-o

i swear i keep getting natalie portman's character in garden state vibes from how she's playing this part

SAM Uh, no. Maintenance, mostly. STAN Ah. Well, that makes sense. 'Cause I got to say, Sam, you look like a real fixer-upper to me.

i laughed out loud because ????? and also sam🧍‍♂️

DEAN Cas, you gonna book a room or what? CASTIEL No, I'll stay here. DEAN Oh, okay. Yeah. We'll have a slumber party, braid Sam's hair. Where are you gonna sleep? CASTIEL I don't sleep. DEAN Okay, well, I need my four hours, so... CASTIEL I'll watch over you. DEAN That's not gonna happen.

what a weird little interaction. i guess cas is back to being clueless about social stuff for comic relief. he had some really good snarky moments there for a bit, why are we backsliding

all right so. weird feelings about this dean cas convo. dean being very.. forthright demanding a serious conversation with cas. but this...

CASTIEL Dean, I... When I was... bad... and I had all those things – the... the leviathans... writhing inside me... I caused a lot of suffering on earth, but I devastated Heaven. I vaporized thousands of my own kind, and I – I – I can't go back. DEAN 'Cause if you do, the angels will kill you. CASTIEL Because if I see what Heaven's become – what I – [sighs] what I made of it... I'm afraid I might kill myself.

i don't like how this is framed to gain sympathy (and i have a general great distaste for how suicide is thrown around in media anyway)

ORDERLY It's creepy, right? A lot of these people – they just tune out and live in their own heads. It's like maybe the real world is too much for them, and they just run and hide, you know?

the way i laughed at that prompt for a flashback

STAN I think the two of you are holding on to each other, yeah. 'Cause I know she's scared. After what happened to Don, I don't blame her for taking off. Needing to run away and hide – I know why she did it. The question is – what are you running from, Sam?

yeah current!sam, what are you running from huh?? good thing the kevin tran thing drags out for a long time so you can figure out you wanna keep hunting or whatever by the time it wraps up

oh gosh, it's bj from mash

m*a*s*h s10e18 heroes - mike farrell as bj hunnicutt

*mumbling threats at the screen, if you flashback again because dean said something about living in a dream world........ 🔪*

SAM Look, it can be nice living in a dream world. It can be great. I know that. And you can hide, and you can pretend all the crap out there doesn't exist, but you can't do it forever because... eventually, whatever it is you're running from – it'll find you. It'll come along, and it'll punch you in the gut. And then... then you got to wake up, because if you don't, then trying to keep that dream alive will destroy you! It'll destroy everything!

it's a 3 way pep talk. everyone here needs it. personally iffy on the whole cartoon schtick but i do like this test pattern room effect

bro please i'm having extreme flashback fatigue 😭

LOL i took a screenshot of dean opening the bottle this way at the beginning of the episode because i was like this is so strange that they're focusing on it, is he using his pocketknife?? also like, opening a beer while getting in the car still at the gas station? well. now i see, more silly setup for a silly payoff later

SAM My, uh – my brother used to do that. STAN Yeah? SAM Yeah. STAN He a good guy? SAM Yeah. Yeah, uh, he – he was... the best. Uh, I, uh... I lost him, and, uh, I ran.

i don't hate the story they're telling through the flashbacks, i just hate how it's executed. i can see why they're doing it this way, so we're not actively suffering through the separation, it already happened. and the people want sam and dean together. but avoiding separating them has also made this really clunky and drag out by chopping it up and sprinkling it over so many episodes

anyway, resurrecting amelia's not-actually-dead husband certainly gives us all a guilt-free out of this whole fucking situation

[darklyndivinely]

I finished reading the shadow and bone series and I've got thoughts and some unpopular opinions so let's go. Spoilers for the books btw.

I downloaded the books back in April 2021. I saw six of crows being recommended everywhere and wanted to read the whole of the story. I remember coming here on Tumblr to scope out the vibe of the books as well as to read some reviews perhaps. What I learned then was that people hated Malina, loved the Darkling, and hated the ending. I did try to start reading the first book back then, but got distracted.

I picked them up again a week ago after watching season 2 of the show. The majority don't like Mal, albeit Show!Mal is a bit more loved. Perhaps it was the awareness of this already widely agreed upon opinion of everyone's or maybe it was just the image of Archie Renaux in my mind, but I did not hate Mal at all. I actually really understood him. I'm not saying he's the best love interest. He's not. He's got some glaring flaws. But he cares for Alina. And he's done some mistakes. He was an absolute ass to her, but he apologized. He admitted his mistakes and tried to do better. You can't tell me that you wouldn't try to distance yourself from the person that you are in love with if you realised that that is the good thing to do. He can be shitty, and absolutely terrible at communication, and he's got some bad coping mechanisms, but he's human. I don't know why the fandom doesn't try to understand him.

Let's move on to Alina, who despite being the protagonist, isn't as loved as I had expected. Many people said that she's a Mary Sue. That she just doesn't have flaws and starts and ends the same way. I'll admit it can be a bit difficult to see it, but I thought she really grew into herself. She was more confident, cunning, outspoken, understood different people's perspectives and experiences better. And she's absolutely hilarious (I was thinking of compiling all the bits from her that made me wheeze). She isn't a total Mary Sue (maybe a bit, I'll admit that). The answer is clear when you compare her to an actual Mary Sue character like Rey Skywalker from the Star wars sequels.

Her story has a circular ending. She starts as a nobody and that's how she finishes. I'm still a bit sceptical about it. I'm with it, but I'm also not. The foreshadowing for it (the soldiers of light bit) was decent. Her losing her powers made sense, cause if she hadn't she wouldn't ever be able to be at peace again, she'd have to spend her entire life shouldering the burden of being a one of a kind grisha and a saint. But I also do not like how she's being forced to live without them when it was so integral to her well being. The loss of them has been described as the loss of a limb. And I feel deeply for her.

I really enjoy Nikolai, he's absolutely hilarious. Misha is baby. Tolya and Tamar are amazing (wtf why aren't there more fics about them????).

Moving on to The Darkling. I do not ship Darklina, but I did enjoy the connection they had for the entirety of the third book. The confidence of telling Alina his name touched me a bit. What I really enjoyed, however, was the way he isn't portrayed as a complete morally black character. He's done fucked up shit but when you look at it from his perspective you realise that all that he has been through, the pain, the heartache and the betrayals have led him to shy away from attachments. He's not redeemable, and that's fine. I don't ship him with Alina, but I can appreciate the underlying intent for his actions. He did them the only way he knew how.

Overall, I really enjoyed the books. Gonna move on to Six of Crows now. If you read all of this, I appreciate it <3