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I feel like we don't talk about how autistic men are considered "creepy" and "dangerous" for being autistic enough. The "scary guy" who doesn't quite fit in, can't make proper eye contact, makes awkward remarks, mutters to himself under his breath, misses social cues, and sometimes is a bit greasy? There might be a reason for that.

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The link to "The Gay Ghost That Haunts Supernatural" is dead frank, what did the article say?

frank why did misha collins come out as straight

He told people IRL, so that might be a factor. It was also just a time when people were coming out as bisexual because that was the ~cool thing to do~ and then he came out straight.

Not that it has anything to do with this guy, but...

[seak1ng]

nintendo direct tomorrow hyyyyype

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People on Down Detector for AO3 are really going through it right now

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

Could you draw a very handsome cat for me?

I can try to draw a handsome cat, if you would like a handsome cat

[billyidolsbitch]

oh and one more thing..i feel so so relieved

[thankyoumskobayashi]

happy 10th anniversary to the day my dad found my cats on the side of the road

i have thought alot of times abt what id do if i met the person who left them there. probably punch that person for being a dumb jerk. but if it werent for them leaving blossom on the side of the road, my depression could easily have taken a turn for the worst during middle/high school. my floof merr has been my reason for living, even moreso than spite. now im at a place where im enjoying life a little and learning sorta how to be an adult. i'd probably thank whoever dropped my cats off but also punch them for being a jerk.

anyways, my point is that if you don't believe in yourself, or you hate your life, find something to live for. Anything, no matter how unimportant others may deem it. for me, my love for my cat and desire to make sure she's happy overrode my depressed thought. treatment was definitely a step in that, but if you can't find that find blogs abt coping with depression in everyday life and read as much as you can. after my diagnoses i read a lot from other people with depression anxiety and adhd. maybe this helps others too idk

rember too that change doesnt always happen right away either. we are constantly changing ourselves and reinventing ourselves, and it is exhausting to make the conscious choice, again and again, to be a better person. but it is a necessary one because otherwise society remains stagnant.

and stagnating things cause breakdowns and decay.

good luck in finding yourselves, and your companions throughout the journey of life. i may not be a psychologist but i can listen if you need someone to, and i can reblog that list of suicide hotlines bc your life is worth too much. im crying right now actually bc a kid in my hometown khs, probably due to not being believed over mental health issues. people "not believing in" mental illness gets me so fucking pissed off bc this shit matters! it's not little things that people complain abt, it's the small symptoms of a much larger, and much more malevolent whole which moves through the mind like a hurricant. it destroys so much of your functioning and leaves you struggling to swim in the productive direction against the current of a deeper and stronger force.

being ridiculously persistent, as adhd folks tend to be, is probably also another reason i'm here. i love my friends too much to ever let them suffer like that, so i'd hold on to the point of walking through hell and back. in that way i found the hyperfocus i wield like a double edged sword and honed the loyalty i have always developed. i love my old friends, and i love my new friends, and i'm just so goddamn happy to be having friends on this planet. i dont need a romance, because i love myself enough to not need one for validation. i think that having a relationship when you are not really into someone else as much as they are into you would feel very weird. kinda like early marina & the diamonds being in a relationship. i don't know.

why the hell am i telling you all this? because it is a stream of conscious and i am allowing you unfiltered access to my inner thoughts because these are the only thoughts i have had or will ever have at this moment at this time. and because people in the future may look back on them to see what is relevant to history. and in my case i will say that i hate donald trump, i had a great dream last night that he died of a heart attack, and they were debating whather to put his secondary prez as the next in line bc they expected p*nce to do such a horrible job too.

we need to help the environment and in order to do that we need to limit the pollution companies can create. everywhere. all across the globe. it would take huge efforts. the leaders would probably be assassinated anonymously by the ceos of huge megacorps which steal billions from the workers. we need to create huge amts of inertia, so how do we do that??? education.

we need to teach abt environmentalism. we need to teach it like it is a basic tenet of humanity to care about it, at levels that challenge & excite kids instead of bore them. this is my poetics and i guess im spelling it out now that im tipsy bc i havewords flowing from my mind. i have to go get my charger hold on. its an external battery pack that my overly controlling mother had me put in her purse this mornig. the song "hotline, hotline.... calling on the hotline to your love" has been stuck in my head for a lot of the day today and i hate it. today i was the magic carpet operator it was really cold. i hate the magic carpet for being so cold but there was a squad of 5 kids today who got a big kick out of riding the magic carpet to the top, then taking the stairs back down again. it wasnt malicious or anything it was fun and gave me smth to do other than stand coldly thinking abt how cold i was.

the woodstove hoever is very warm and i am tired and need to use the bathroom before i bring my cat upstairs to watch guardian & possibly even kamen rider kuuga before falling asleep. oh and dont forget to brush teeth before u pass out too. good night everyone. this is who i have found myself to be now. so, who are you?

[catinasink]

its more like "oh look its purple"

except my brain doesnt actually havewords in it

like

i cant hear my brain

i cant see what my brain is saying

i just

know

but like in my brain i recognize you/think of you off of your profile

but like i dont really think of you bc i dont think in sentences theres just that uh

idk

brain werid

ANARTISTWITHAMASK!! HI!! YOURE AWAK

It's only 9 lmao

Take Grumm

[michael-myers1978-non-nocere]

#Maximus is gonna get a #scolding. #BlackBolt wants to #HaveWords with him. #WordsWithFriends. #SuperSonic. #MarvelsInhumans. #Inhumans

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Fringe spoilers out of context

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Are chick tracts outsider art? Discuss.

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All the kid friendly stim supplies are cool and all but I want a stim shop that's adults only. Slime that smells like whiskey. Silicone chew necklace shaped like a penis. Fidget spinner that says fuck on it. Etc.

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this is way better than any paid gaming experience that roblox offers. you can't charge money for this kind of attention to detail.

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what if instead of gendered bathrooms we had named bathrooms. you could only go into a bathroom that has your name and if there isn’t one then you’re screwed