#haven't done much with water so its fun trying out things each time lol

[sketchesfromthemoon]

i’ve recently gotten back into mha and i can’t stop thinking about ghost aus

[like-wuatafauq]

You're so right like as painful as it was at least now you know exactly what you DON'T want in a partner. Anyone would be blessed to be on the receiving end of your affection. I just know your future partner is going to feel like the luckiest girl in the world :(((

And yesss it's been such a blast making all these new online friends! Haha probably they all just want to follow me because of how pretty I am right? Lol kidding... 😋

But no for real my moots are mostly other lesbians! If you don't know there's this whole "lesbian apocalypse" trend happening where we're all mutually following each other

And thank you for the sweet compliment on my femme game!!! Wahhh I'm blushing ☺️

I'm more into the himekaji aesthetic (it's a specific Japanese gyaru substyle) and I'm still learning all the ropes but there's so many other aesthetics I'd love to experiment with too eventually

And I can say the same about butches!!! You guys are just CHEF'S KISS like I'm trying my hardest not to turn this into a full-blown rant about how cool and handsome butches are but let's just say I have a massive appreciation for you guys <333

Ooh random questions! Do you consider yourself more of an extrovert, an introvert, or a mix of both? And how's your day going so far? Have you had a chance to eat and stay hydrated?

From ♡

Exactlyyyyy and thank youuu, I hope she does end up feeling like the luckiest girl in the world and like the prettiest girl in the world too!! :)

That sounds so much fun you sound more extroverted would you consider yourself that? And oh I haven't heard about that mutual following each other things but that sounds nice! And himekaji sounds really cute are you Japanese is that why or you just like the aesthetic? I could never pull that off bcuz I would feel so itchy wearing femme clothes. If I wear femme clothes I like dark aesthetic like that, I would wear or traditional Mexican clothes which is waaay brighter but that's the only bright style femme clothes I'd wear.

Also thank you for the butch appreciation I love butch4femme so much because the history of it is sooo beautiful. I also have a hard time getting away from women who come up to me at bars it's really really hard for me to be mean to women so it be nice if I had a femme close to me so they wouldn't come close or if they did she'd handle it easier than I can bcuz fr fr I notice I'm not as mean as I should be when women do something fucked up towards me. I don't want to sound codependent about that I really try working on it but it's hard because I don't like raising my voice or doing a negative physical act against a woman so I appreciate femmes sooooo soooo much when they help with that.

I think I'm a mix of both introvert and extrovert depending how I feel and situation I'm in. As for my day ngl I just woke up (for reference its about to be 3pm) because I had to go in at 7 am to get 2 MRI tests done amd that took 2 hrs and when I got back I tried to put my eyebrow piercing on and I almost passed out so i still haven't put it on because I tried eating a sandwich and drinking some water then fell asleep but I just woke up and tried doing some things and I feel very drained. My body feels super weak and I feel dizzy and stomach and chest feel weirs so not so good I guess.

But! I'm gonna try to drive like 5 minutes out and get me some real food and if I still feel terrible I'm gonna call my nurse, so we shall see!!:)

[greydiminishing]

Jan 20, 2024

Since my last writing about two and a half weeks ago, I've packed up, moved 6 hours away to school, unpacked and moved in, and had a whole week of classes! Well almost whole, it was a 4 day week.

I am doing,, just okay. I am so excited to be back on campus and in school. But I feel super behind since I've failed so many classes previously, and took basically 3 semesters off. I'm essentially a 22 year old 3rd year. I've been a student in this school for five years. I was supposed to graduate this year, but I have two more years left, at minimum. Some of the kids I have classes with were highschool freshmen when I was a college freshman. I feel self consious and ashamed about that.

I also feel like i'm already behind in some classes after only two actual class sessions (tues/thurs and wed/fri classes). I didnt get as much studying done as I would've liked in those five weeks that i time blocked (But getting into time blocking was definitely worth it, thats helping me so much).

I haven't had to do any actual math in TWO YEARS. I celebrated taking the "last math class of my life", completely forgetting that I need to take a calc-based physics class. Now im struggling in class to find the sides of a triangle with sohcahtoa 😭 If i don't glue my eyeballs to khan academy i'm gonna be a wreck trying to integrate and find derivatives.

And one class has an "Assignment 0" which is just downloading and setting up all the software we're gonna be using, and just trying to clone my gitlab repository took me several hours to figure out.

All the deadlines and assignments and quizzes and project dates has my head spinning. One class requires you to upload your notes to the lecture video before every single class (m/w/f class, so 3 times a week), and its something like 10% of your final grade. Idk i just think thats stupid lol. And I can't help but write notes differently when i'm concious of the fact that someone else will be reading them :/

But I will be studying hard, and getting stuff done early as to not fall behind.

That was academics, now onto my roommates.

I was placed in a random campus apartment with 3 other roommates. We each have our own room, but share the living room and kitchen. They're nice and i want to be their friend so bad, but I'm so socially awkward and i don't know how to make friends 😭. The thing is, I'm coming into "their" apartment mid-academic year, and thats only because their other friend moved out for an internship or something, so I got put in the vacant room. They're already a little friendgroup, the three of them plus the friend that moved out which they're still in group chats with. They might've even know each other before living here, they seem pretty close.

They're not intentionally excluding me or anything, but everytime i'm chatting with them it feels so awkward, and when I go back to my room and I can hear their fun conversations finally ignite. They talk about their mutual friends, and their parents, and plans to roadtrip. Then I go back out to fill my water bottle or make tea or something, mostly an excuse to join their conversation, and the conversation goes back to quiet and polite. I know I act the same way around new people as well, so its not their fault, but I dont know what to do, how to get around this. I heard them from my room talking about anime, and I so badly wanted to join them, but I didn't know how to do so naturally without creeping them out like I was eavesdropping their convo the whole time. You can only go fill your waterbottle so many times.

Its already the end of week 1 and i've barely talked to them. I'm afraid if we don't get more friendly soon, as time progresses, we'll get more stuck in the same routine and we'll only be able to be awkward and quiet around each other for the rest of the semester. I want to suggest we order some food tonight and maybe watch a movie, but idk is that weird? To suggest out of nowhere and not really knowing them? And theres no TV so we'd have to watch on someones laptop. Aughhhh idk. Plus I really need to get started on all this work i already have. Maybe i'll suggest it next weekend.

I'm already planning on making cookies for everyone tomorrow. A freshly baked cookie is the way to friendship, surely?

[stormblessed95]

Going to correct you on a few things but I hope it's not considered nitpicking since I find a lot of your reasons for thinking they live together pretty interesting. Jimin teasing Jungkook about his snoring on ITS. Hobi commented about Jungkook's snoring also so he too was aware and Jimin also mocked Namjoon's snoring so it goes without saying that they all know how each other sleeps given how long they've been around each other. As for Jimin knowing Jungkook didn't exercise, Namjoon also knew about Jungkook not exercising if I recall but I might have misunderstood lol

Also in Lee Hyun's video, Jikook weren't leaving the company, they were going to another room. The one where Jimin is pulling on Jungkook from behind while Jungkook sings.

Hello, I'll ALSO correct you on a few things and maybe just assume you are new here to my blog and haven't yet had the time or made the effort to go through my masterlist. And yes, you are getting confused on a few points here too.

1. You can find more details about my thoughts over the ITS snoring moment on my masterlist, but I'll also link it here for you. You're welcome.

My point wasn't that only JM knows he snores. Literally they all lived on top of each other for years. They all know who snores and their weird sleeping habits. But Hobi said "I'll room with JK" then Jimin reminds him that JK snores and snores LOUD. And Hobi goes oh yeah that's right and they all tease and joke and laugh and then go oh and remember Joon snores loud too, then they move on to teasing Joon. And Hobi ends up deciding to not room with JK. My point wasn't that only Jimin knows how he snores but that he seems to remember it without needing to think about it where Hobi had to be reminded. Kind of like Jimin has still been listening to it where as Hobi hasn't been listening to him snore every night and momentarily forgot how bad it was.

2. Yes, Joon did also chime in on the workout thing but Jimin stated his as a "I was there, i know what happened" statement and Joon stated it as a "Ah yes, you wanted to work out and it didn't go as planned. You told me about this." Reaffirming and repeating his statement. His typical leadership and strong communication skills stuff. And the rest of the members didn't seem to know much about it. This also goes hand in hand with the butter vlive where JK talked about doing a water fast and no one but Jimin knew he did it and it seemed like he might have even done it with him.

3. And you are just wrong here. Sorry. Yes they do leave the room together to go to the next room for the interview. But I was referring to the very end, right after Jimin jumps into JKs arms. He gets down, they say goodbye to everyone and say "we have to duck out" and Jimin leaves, JK following him out the door. You see them leaving with their black and blonde heads in the left corner in the screenshot after saying goodbye to everyone.

Then a little bit later, everyone else starts saying goodbye as well and leaving on their own. Then the video ends with Lee Hyun and Jin leaving the company together and laughing/talking in the car together. Editors even said "finally leaving." So yes, they were leaving the company together on this instance.

Not to mention that when Jimin is pulling on JKs shirt, they were singing and harmonizing together too, it wasn't just JK singing.

Glad you found my other points "interesting" lol but I wasn't trying to convince anyone. Just give my opinions as I was asked. If you don't think they live together, that's fine. I also have no problem being corrected if I have misunderstood a situation or got some information wrong, just check the comments under that live together post where 2 different people corrected me on some timeline info for examples I used and info about JKs apartments. But the tone of your ask here was a little irritating combined with the fact that you obviously never went through my old posts to see that I have talked about one of your points already. I can see where maybe you misunderstood what I was saying with that one, but hopefully it's more clear now. Plus it's a little irritating that you tried to correct me with incorrect information too. Thanks anyway though. 💜

Maybe I misread the tone of your ask here, not sure. It's been a long ass week though and my patience level is very low. Sorry. Anon, hopefully you have a wonderful day. And if in the end, we disagree, that's simply okay. We can think differently on certain matters. No worries. 💜

[helloalycia]

alex WILL kick my arse // supergirl

summary: you learn that being supergirl's doctor came with its challenges

warning/s: none.

author's note: i’m lowkey posting a bunch of stuff that i posted on my wattpad a while ago lol

masterlist | wattpad

I was sat in the medical unit of the DEO, reading through some medical reports from the past few months. I had just transferred from the DEO's desert facility, where I was one of the doctors there to help with any of the agents' injuries. After a long time there, I decided to transfer here when there was an opening for the lead doctor.

I thought it would be best to settle in by having a look at what severe cases had been dealt with recently. It was usually the same stuff – agents injured on field missions. Bullet wounds, broken bones, sprained muscles, thankfully nothing too severe. There hadn't been many major alien attacks which meant less risky field operations.

I was pulled from the reports when the red alarm light began to flash for a few seconds, accompanied by a siren, before turning off.

"Agent Y/L/N, Supergirl is incoming with J'onn," my radio went off – it was Director Danvers. "She's had a solar flare and got a gunshot wound."

I recalled what a solar flare was from research I'd done in Supergirl's medical records. That was something I prioritised when coming here, since we didn't have Supergirl at the other facility.

"I'm prepping a bed and equipment now," I replied through the radio, before hurrying to do that. J'onn could literally fly, he'd be here any minute.

With the help of some nurses who were around, I prepped a bed and had the solar energy panels on standby for when/if her powers came back sooner than we thought. I had the tools ready to bandage up her gunshot wound temporarily when both heroes appeared beside me.

J'onn was stood there, holding Supergirl bridal style and lowering her onto the bed.

"Still getting used to that," I mumbled, surprised at how he just sped in here.

"I said I'm– agh, I'm fine," Supergirl complained, clutching her bloody wound and trying to sit up. "My powers will come back."

I stepped by her bedside and pushed her back down gently, moving closer to inspect her wound. "Please stay still for a second."

"Listen to the doctor," J'onn teased to lighten the mood.

Supergirl rolled her eyes and stayed still. I removed her hand and noticed it was covered in blood.

"Can somebody come clean this up?" I called out to one of the nurses, motioning to her hand.

One of the nurses did as I asked as I took a look at her wound. The bullet was still in there by the looks of it.

"How many times do I have to tell you not to overwork yourself?!" Director Danvers' voice called out as she walked in.

She was glaring at Supergirl, though the worry in her eyes was evident as she took in the hero's appearance.

"It's barely a scratch, Alex, it'll heal," Supergirl said dismissively, but as I cleaned up the blood with a cloth, I saw her clench her jaw a little.

"You need to be careful, you're not indestructible," Alex reminded her, before looking to J'onn. "Can you believe her?"

J'onn chuckled. "I'll leave you both to it. I should get back." He glanced at me. "Good luck."

I nodded his way, offering a small smile as he walked away.

"As fun as it is watching you both glare at each other, I do need to remove the bullet," I spoke up, interrupting both girls' staring contest.

"Go for it," Supergirl said, her eyes meeting mine.

"With anaesthetic," Alex added, shooting another glare towards the blonde.

"I don't need anaesthetic," Supergirl countered with an eye-roll and scoff.

"You're human for the time being, remember?" Alex reminded her before looking to me. "Anaesthetic, please."

I bit my lower lip as they erupted into another argument about how I should proceed. I didn't know either of them well enough to cut in, so I stood there awkwardly, trying to stop the blood loss and planning out how I could temporarily bandage her up so it could heal itself when she gets her powers back.

"I have to go," Alex finally said, pulling me back into reality. "I have to check on the bank robbery." She didn't seem too happy leaving Supergirl here, but she gave her a knowing look before looking to me. "Please make sure she stays put?"

"You got it, Director," I said with a playful salute. How hard could it be to keep her here?

Alex gave Supergirl one last warning look before leaving us be. I looked to the blonde who was finally breathing out, letting her guard down a little now that it was just us.

"The anaesthetic will make it bearable, just so I can remove the bullet," I spoke, causing her to open her eyes and look at me. "I'm just gonna bandage you up temporarily and you'll heal yourself when you get your powers back. Shouldn't be more than a few days, according to your medical history."

She swallowed hard before shaking her head. "I've been through much worse. It's okay. Just remove it and bandage me up. The sooner I'm out of here, the better."

I was ready to argue, but she gave me a convincing look and I couldn't help but give in.

"Fine, but you stay here and rest," I reasoned, to which she gave me a small, cute smile.

I got to work and surprisingly, she managed. It went well and I managed to bandage her up quite quickly, though it did mean I had to cut into her suit a little. Better safe than sorry though.

"Okay, you're all done," I said, patting her arm supportively, before packing away the gauze. "I'm gonna go get you some water and then you should take it easy, stay here maybe until you get your powers back. That alright?"

She gave me a thumbs up and a promising smile. "You got it, doc."

I was fairly confident that she would listen to me, since she seemed polite and was a trooper throughout the whole thing. However, I soon realised how naive I had been when I returned and her bed was empty.

I facepalmed and shook my head, realising she'd definitely played along the whole time.

The first thing I did was look around the DEO, asking around if anyone had seen Supergirl. I eventually followed the commotion coming from the main hall and spotted both Supergirl and Director Danvers having an argument.

"...stay and rest! You can't keep ignoring simple instructions, Kara!" Alex shouted around her.

Supergirl rolled her eyes and continued to look at the tablet in her hand. I approached the two and cleared my throat loudly to get the blonde's attention.

When she noticed me, she gave me a sheepish smile. "Doctor Y/L/N. Heeeeeeey."

"One job, literally," Alex mumbled, giving me a knowing look, before storming off.

I breathed out and glared at Supergirl. "Are you serious? I asked you to stay put!"

She straightened up and spread her arms out for emphasis. "But I'm fine! See? Nothing hurts, I'm walking, it's all good! Job well done, I must say. You're new, right? Well, I know why you got the job!"

She avoided my glare as she walked around me to get to the other side of the desk.

"You've heard of the term 'first impressions count', haven't you?" I asked her, raising an eyebrow.

She gave me a knowing look. "C'mon. You can't hate me for this."

I sighed. "I've got work to do. Call me if you tear your stitches."

Resisting the urge to roll my eyes, I turned around and began to leave.

"I'm not gonna tear them!" I heard her call out from behind me, but I didn't care. I wasn't her parent, she could do what she wanted.

I wish I'd known I was dealing with a stubborn Super before accepting this job though.

–

"What a surprise," I said sarcastically.

A few hours later, I'd been called into one of the medical rooms because apparently, Supergirl had collapsed from blood loss and tore her stitches. Shocker.

"Is she going to be okay?" Alex asked as I got to work for the second time that day.

"Yeah, if she decides to listen to me this time," I said, sighing. "Is she always this stubborn?"

Alex clenched her jaw. "Unfortunately, yes... you think you can keep her here next time?"

"I'll give it my best shot," I promised her. "I'll call you when she's up?"

Alex nodded, patting me on the shoulder. "Thanks."

She left me to do my thing and this time I did things my way, the right way, with anaesthetic and IV fluid. I managed to sort out Supergirl's mess before going back to my office to fill out some more paperwork.

Some time passed when I found myself going back to check on Supergirl and see if she was awake. I was cleaning up a little around her side table when I heard her stir awake. She seemed confused at first, as she looked around and saw the tube coming from her arm. Eventually, realisation set in and she sank into her pillow.

I decided to stay quiet as I finished up, about to leave, but she stopped me.

"Wait," she called out. I paused as she continued, "I'm sorry."

I turned around and waited, watching as, unlike before, she wasn't joking or being unserious.

"I should have stayed put before. And listened to you. I didn't mean to offend you or come across as rude," she continued genuinely.

I crossed my arms and straightened up. "Well, Supergirl–"

"Kara," she interrupted. "It's Kara."

I nodded. "Okay, Kara. Yes, you probably should have listened. I redid your stitches and I'm asking you to stay put again. You're human for now and you need to act like one."

"You're right," she agreed, breathing out. "Sorry."

I realised that she seemed to mean it and at the end of the day, I was her doctor, so I couldn't hold a grudge. Instead, I went to her bedside and checked her monitors to see how she was doing.

"How are you feeling?" I asked, glancing at her.

"Tired. Achey. But better than before."

"That'll be the meds kicking in," I said, giving her a reassuring smile. "I did have to get in there twice."

Her cheeks went pink as she smiled with embarrassment. "I'm not used to being so..."

"Fragile?" I finished for her.

"Exactly," she said, nodding. "I'm not used to it and staying put isn't exactly my forte."

"I could tell," I joked, making her laugh a little. She had a nice laugh.

"About that first impressions thing..." she began, blue eyes holding mine nervously.

"It's nice to meet you for the first time, Kara," I said, holding out my hand. "I'm Y/N. Your doctor."

She cracked a smile, realising what I was doing. She shook my hand and said, "Nice to meet you, too, Y/N."

"Okay, I should go and get Alex," I said, backing up to leave. "Now please don't leave because Alex will kick my arse if you're not here when she comes back."

She laughed again. "I promise I'll be here when you return."

"Fingers crossed you're not playing me again," I mumbled loud enough for her to hear.

Her laughter seemed to follow me out the room, leaving me smiling to myself.

[makeste]

I was glad to see you enjoyed my Top 10 ask. You did mention you had a ranking for the arcs - would you do a ranking for them? Like, worst to best? (My guess (of the arcs you've finished): Internship arc, Hero Killer Arc, License Exam, USJ, Intro Arc, Culture Fest, Battle Trial, Pro-Hero arc, Final Exams, Sports Fest, Camino Ward, DvKp2; since you haven't liveblogged Joint Training Arc yet, no clue.) Just curious.

good morning evening everyone, and welcome to another Wednesday episode of “makeste tries to answer asks from two months ago while on the bus.” this one is a bit of an interesting challenge since it involves ranking and that always takes me a long time, but as you said, I did have an ongoing ranking of the arcs in my head, so we’ll see. at the very least the ones at the beginning and end shouldn’t be too hard, and you can probably guess them already. (in fact, you actually did.)

(ETA: yeah this took me two sittings to do, so I ended up posting it on the ride home lol. I just like BnHA you guys. almost as much as I like talking about how much I like it!)

okay so here goes.

14. Basement arc - yeah so let’s just go ahead and get this over with. this is the one and only BnHA arc that I actually dislike. fortunately it’s an outlier and suffered from a bunch of one-time issues, most of which stem from the fact that Horikoshi was apparently trying to write a longer and darker arc than usual. well he succeeded! and thankfully learned his lesson. and at least this arc gave us Eri and Mirio and some good Kirishima flashbacks and Chekov’s Quirk-Be-Gone bullets and the Highway to Hell. hopefully the anime can improve on the rest.

13. Provisional License arc - okay, so it might surprise a few people that this arc is all the way down here. let me explain. this is a perfectly fine arc, and I like it well enough, but it’s a bit longer than it needs to be, and not that much happens in it aside from our introduction to best boy Yoarashi Inasa, and the Great Toga Conspiracy (which is admittedly excellent). there are some great moments (Aoyama doing his best impression of “THE BEACONS ARE LIT” from RotK comes to mind), but overall it’s fairly forgettable, and it suffers from being placed directly in between my two absolute favorite arcs, which means I have a tendency to overlook it, which isn’t really the arc’s fault.

12. Hero Killer arc - this one is interesting because I really lost patience with it during my first read-through, but strangely enough when I watched it in the anime I actually really enjoyed it. it was also much shorter than I remembered. I’ve belatedly realized that reading it while doing commentary really slowed me down, because for the parts that I wasn’t feeling, doing the commentary took a long time and also left me dwelling on a lot of the things I didn’t like. but in actuality, Stain’s Annoying Rants aside, this is a pretty enjoyable arc full of Big Hero 6 flashbacks, hot revenge-driven Iida, Gran Torino’s introduction, Deku learning full cowl, Bakugou’s Best Jeanist internship, and Todoroki saving Deku and Iida’s lives by being glued to his phone when he really should have been paying attention to his own internship. get off that social media already Shouto.

11. USJ arc - this is a great arc, but it just feels small compared to everything that happens afterward. but it’s fun to look back on because there are lots of little hints for future developments to come. the traitor theory, for instance. and this is also our introduction to the League and to Tomura and the Noumu. and that final fight between All Might and the Noumu is still one of my favorite scenes in the whole series, especially in the anime. it’s so fucking good you guys. shit.

10. Intro arc - just FYI, I lump everything from the first chapter up until USJ into one arc since it’s easier. anyways, so this is roughly on the same level as USJ, but gets a slight edge because there are some iconic moments here. namely, the first chapter (which is still one of the best shounen intro chapters I’ve ever read, if not the best); Kacchan VS Deku 1; the entrance exam; and our introduction to the rest of class 1-A, particularly Ochako and Iida. oh, and Aizawa! gotta love how he starts out all ready to expel some bitches only to wind up falling in love with the whole class. fatherhood agrees with him.

9. Band AU arc - I actually love this arc. I just love all of the ones above it on the list a bit more, and I can’t really justify it being any higher than this. but it has The Band and the Babysitting Squad and Mirio being the best big brother in the world and Eri being just ridiculously, astonishingly cute. Gentle and La Brava are also great villains, if not quite my favorites. there are a few questionable plot holes in the arc, and it lacks any sort of big impact on the rest of the series, but it’s basically a canon filler arc and it’s so much fun and I can’t wait to see it animated.

8. Fanfic Lodge arc - you guys this arc started out so fucking cute and ended up so fucking tense. and this was our intro to the League of Villains proper, including Spinner, Twice, Tuxedo Mask, the prodigal Todoroki son, and my best girl Toga. Deku VS Muscular is still hard for me to read (his liiiiiiiimbs) but it’s one of Deku’s best moments regardless. and the angst at the end of the arc is almost unparalleled. god I love it.

7. Final Exam arc - a.k.a. the one where all the kids team up with each other to shoot their teachers in the fucking face. this arc has it all: Momo character development, Bakugou character development, TodoMomo, BakuDeku, and Aizawa being a total badass. (and All Might too, but he’s kind of overkill tbh. which is its own kind of awesome though.) there’s so much good stuff in this arc that this description is a bit vague because if I got any more specific we’d be here all day. it’s just a lot of good stuff that I like.

6. Joint Training arc - dudes I love this arc so much. class B and their array of ridiculously awesome quirks! class A and their impeccable teamwork! Bakugou joining the OFA Scooby Squad and showing off his new WIN AND RESCUE COMBO! Monoma! Shinsou!! SIXQUIRKS!!! god there’s so much great content.

5. Endeavorhawks arc - this arc would be even higher except that it’s a bit short (though it’s perfectly paced, so that might actually be a plus) and it doesn’t feature as many of my faves. but Hawks’s intro + our intro to The Great Noumu Conspiracy + Todoroki Family Drama + some of the best character development I’ve seen in a shounen manga (god I still can’t get over what a ballsy move it is to try and redeem Endeavor) = solid gold. and it’s so well done. and caps off with one of the best plot twists in the series to date, which sets up what promises to be one hell of an interesting arc later down the line. just. it’s so good. possibly the best-written arc to date, even if it doesn’t quite top my list.

4. My Villain Academia arc - and this isn’t even done yet!! and it’s still already this high!! Tomura flashbacks! Toga flashbacks! TOUYA FLASHBACKS???! (we’ll see??) creepy cults! my new favorite character One-Handed Giran, the biggest badass in the whole fucking series! worldbuilding for days! Dr. Robotnik! more Noumu shit! etc. etc. this arc has been non-stop goodness and I almost feel spoiled at this point.

3. Sports Festival arc - the most fun of all the arcs. I have rewatched the cavalry battle in the anime like a bazillion times. there used to be this show on Nickelodeon called Wild & Crazy Kids where kids teamed up for all these zany competitions (water balloons were usually involved), and I fucking loved that show, and parts of this arc kinda have that same kind of spirit. it’s just fun. and then to top it all off we have our Shouto character development, as well as Bakugou’s little character arc that he also has which is excellent. not to mention what is probably Ochako’s most badass moment to date. love it.

2. Kamino arc - guyyyys where do I even start? this arc is perfection. good VS evil. All Might taking a stand even when he’s got nothing left in the tank, because the world needs him and he won’t let them down. the sheer visceral terror of AFO’s introduction. my favorite character getting fucking kidnapped and being brave AF and his friends rallying to save him yesssss. and the reveal of All Might’s secret, which is arguably the most powerful scene in the series. I get chills every time. “my heart is still the heart of the symbol of peace.” if All Might had announced at that moment that he was starting a new religion I would have been like “yeah okay.” I would follow him to the ends of the earth. how can one man be that selfless and brave. anyways this arc is absolutely incredible and objectively one of the best in all of shounen.

1. Deku VS Kacchan Part 2 - nothing to see here, just two boys who’ve known each other since they were in diapers, who’ve done everything together and have always been together but have never actually understood each other until now. just the two of them finally opening up to each other, because the one who always tried to act so tough actually isn’t that tough, in truth, and in spite of everything, he trusts the other enough to let his guard down around him this one time. just two rivals, sorting out their shit and figuring out what it all really means. and their dad, helping to facilitate the whole thing because he knows that one day, somewhere down the road, this bond between them will mean absolutely everything. is this really even an arc?? it’s only like six chapters, and only one event actually takes place. but do I care?? yeah, no. Deku and Kacchan’s relationship is the series to me, so yeah. to me it counts as an arc. and not just any arc, but the best arc.

so there you have it! I hope I haven’t accidentally left something out lol. but this should hopefully be a pretty definitive list, at least for now. looking back at all of this really makes it sink in just how good of a story this is, though. damn.

[silverlingthewitch]

Crystal Grid Masterpost

A grid can be defined so many ways. At the heart of its definitions however, it is a geometric pattern made of crystals; minerals and sometimes even herbs, flowers and other harvested flora; arranged with purpose and focused intent with the will to affect a change in our world.

***It's a magick mandala, folks.***

After they do a ritual act like a prayer, skit, meditation or chant, they ceremoniously destroy the work of beauty and art to symbolize impermanence and break material attachment.

Tibetan Buddhist Monks lay these elaborate, colored sand mandalas on a sacred surface. It takes days, sweat and an exceptional amount of stamina to pour that amount of energy into these mandalas. The end result is a gorgeous, aesthetically pleasing design of geometric shapes, patterns, symbols, words of intent and prayers.

***"Sounds fun! Let's go!"***

No. Hold your horses. This is the slow boring part but the good news is that all the time and energy you pour into preparing for the Crystal Grid, it counts! It only adds to solidifying your intent and building power for the ceremonious or ritual aspect of laying a grid. First things first, vision.

Crystal Gridding is a lot like this. You'll find a need, set your purpose, solidify your intent, select your crystals, assemble materials, prepare your materials, prepare your space, prepare yourself, arrange your crystals with intent, maybe add a bit of ceremony to it, activate your grid and after awhile, you'll destroy it.

What is your need? Guidance? Protection? Self Confidence? Prosperity? Okay, now we know. Try to clearly see this in your mind and work it down to one or two words for focus. Now is not the time to worry about details.

Good, now you have your need. It's going to become a purpose as you start to formulate your plan! Start thinking up things that correspond to your need, if it's prosperity we can surely think of a few things that represent money and gain! Pennies, currency symbols, basil is a common money herb, specific crystals and metals! Gold, copper, silver, etc. Oh, and squares have always been well know for prosperity as they symbolize buildings where business is done, dollar bills, service bills themselves! What about numerology? Four is a good money number, seven could be too but it doesn't match very well with a square, eight is awesome in a grid but doesn't really match the purpose so perhaps it would be better to stick with four?

So now we are focusing our intent by putting all these puzzle pieces together and drawing inspiration from those aligned influences or correspondences. This is the hardest part. It's the artistic part. This is where the details become more important and where everyone will "see" a different grid. Some may decide to add artistic flourishes, maybe add an appropriately colored candle or add the appropriate herbs to the layout. Maybe you'll go with a square grid. Perhaps round. Maybe asymmetrical! Could literally be in the shape of a currency symbol or laid into a runic shape. This is your grid, you makes the rules.

A word of caution here, just because you can do anything with your crystals doesn't necessarily mean you should do anything with your crystals. I'm all for individuality but there is a reason things have always been done certain ways. Do the runic shape, use a random herb you were called to use. Add that strange avocado shaped candle. Do what you have to do but if you're doing it, know why. The more your grid elements "tie in" to each other and purpose, the easier it will be for your intent and energy to flow through them.

Yup. I said it.

Now you have this awesome vision for a Crystal Grid, you've researched correspondences and squished them all together with the purpose of forming a power packed intention. Time to select your crystals.

Just because Jade and Green Aventurine are both linked to prosperity doesn't mean that they should appear in the same grid. Check your crystal definitions well and try to make them "tell a story" make them mean something by putting them next to each other. For example, I might use Green Aventurine to symbolize my wealth but pair it with Imperial Topaz for Manifestation of Will and Desires. Create a relationship between your crystals.

There are nearly endless possibilities here.

Like with your materials, correspondences and vision, you'll want to make sure your crystals are all aligned with your intent.

Furthermore, you'll want to make sure that your crystals are all aligned with each other.

Now we know what, why and which so now let's focus on the how.

I like to start from the bottom up with my grids, so lets talk grid mats. Some folks use them, some don't. It all depends on your preference, really. As for me, I find that one design, like a Flower of Life grid mat, doesn't really suit all of my grid intentions! I like to wing it on a bare surface. Which leads me to my next point, if you are not using a grid mat, try to find a small table, box top, slab of wood, stone, etc. to devote as your grid surface. As luck would have it, I found a pretty pie crust side table while walking through a flea market one day and for $10 it was my new grid table! I have also used grid mats, scarfs, swaths of fabric, a slice of oak and a sheet of slate. When selecting your surface, try to correspond it with your intent! For example, a grid for protection would do really well on a slice of oak with it's strong, earthy, protective vibes but a grid for increased focus and production would probably do best on a uniformed, clearly lined grid mat.

Now to prepare your space, materials and yourself for a gridding session! How exciting!

There are a fair number of ways you can do this, I usually go for two of the easiest and quickest ways. Sage smudge smoke or a bell. With the smudge smoke, you'll gently waft it's smoke around your gridding room or area, waft it over the materials, surface, anything that has to do with your grid... then waft the smoke over you! Like a waterfall of burning herbal smoke-water, let the sage cleanse your auric field and wash away any negative energy. You can also use a bell, which is excellent if you aren't able to use smoke, in which case you would ring the bell around the area, you and over the materials, visualizing it's sound waves vibrating and dissipating any negative energy.

Wow, that's a lot of work. We haven't even laid the grid yet and we have already done so much! Don't worry, you're almost through it!

1.) Clockwise directions represent opening or increasing energy. Counterclockwise directions represent closing or decreasing energy.

2.) Outwards directions represent sending out of energy. Inwards directions represent the drawing in of energy.

Why not rope that in to a Crystal Grid working? Now I don't make the rules, you do, but I really, really, really recommend laying your crystal grid down, center to edge, clockwise direction.

So start with the center stone. Some people like to use a candle here, or place a paper with the intention written under the center stone. Whatever floats your boat, the sky is the limit. But the very next stone should be the next layer OUTWARDS in the EASTERN side of your grid, the third stone should be a clockwise progression from the east. Think about how a spiral looks!

Now you've done all that work, your crystals are all laid out, everything is in place, now what? Seems strange to just walk away! Well, we won't do that then. Now we are going to activate our grids!

Wait, what energy?

So we are going to draw energy from one of two things. Either the cosmos or the earth. This is another thing that you should correspond with your intent! A grid for spiritual progress would be better activated by cosmos energy from the universe. An earthy need grid for prosperity would be better activated by the earth energy.

Here comes the fun bit! Laying the grid!

Now, there are a few things I have come to know about magick.

3.) East is a really nice direction to start any project in. As the sun rises there and sets in the west. What a lovely natural rhythm to tune into.

4.) The more thought and ceremony that goes into a magickal working, the more "oomph" you get out of it whether it is literal strength of power or quickness of it's influence.

Don't stress if you get excited and skip over one, gently refocus without selfjudgement, go back, do the thing and keep going. I usually take a moment to readjust my grid layers as I finish each full circle.

Either way, go out into the stars or down into the earth to pull down or up on the energy you find there. See it flowing from the center stone, down the paths, through your crystals and into your environment. Take as much time with this visualization, try to make it as strong in your mind as possible.

You may be a little dizzy or faint after pulling energy like this and working with the stones. Don't forget to eat something to ground you and rehydrate! If you have trouble grounding and centering after crystal gridding, try sitting or laying on the floor or earth. Send that extra energy into the earth.

A lot of people will tell you that you need a wand to activate a grid but that just isn't true. You can use your pointer finger or use your open palms to send the energy into the grid.

How long do I leave a Crystal Grid up?

This is at your discretion. Some people leave it up until their intention manifests. Some people take it down as soon as a curious cat compromises the energy flow (lol) and even still, others leave it up for 24-48 hours and deconstruct it.

How do I take down my Crystal Grid?

Very easily! Just the opposite as how it went up! So instead of going from the inside to the outside in a clockwise fashion starting in the east; start with the last stone you laid down and go counterclockwise from the east, outside to the inside, ending with picking up the center stone. It's nice to say a little thank you as you're doing this and any herbs or biodegradable materials used in your grid should be returned to the earth.

Thank you so much for reading through this tutorial, remember that it isn't a set in stone, only one way, thing. Play with my technique, create your own techniques, experiment, learn, enjoy!

Love n Light!

-Silverling

[jewpacabruhs]

I was reading your tags and please, for the love of God, write a Mafia AU. I haven't been able to find any good ones.

i wanna so bad! i find organized crime fascinating, & i’m also a big movie nerd, with crime films being my fav genre, so im super into that sorta thing. definitely would love to see it, but o boy, maybe ill jus write it myself?? gotta do everythin myself haha

i’d def go the historical route, so it’d be interesting to try to both apply characters that are firmly rooted in 90s/2000s behaviors & beliefs, and stick them in the 1900s. oh, boy, writing historical stuff is a pain. so much research. worth it tho, if it’s done well. aye, and it’ll be cool to try to keep it as nonfictional as possible. like, attempting to insert the kids (as adults, obvs) into crime history. i wonder if i could do tht? it’d be fun. it’s definitely uncharted waters. there’s a lot of potential there.

but, hmm, i think mafia aus are so rare in fandom (not just the sp fandom, but across the board) bc they contradict everything that’s popular in fanfic. mob aus would feature violence, business, finances, and corruption. whereas fics prefer cuddles, leisure time, a world where money aint an issue, and wholesomeness. and considering the majority of fic is written by horny and/or love-starved teenage girls who dont know or care about the aforementioned subjects, it makes sense. kinda a bummer, but understandable. in the defense of like everyone, lmao, those sorta fics take a lot of planning, & aint nobody got time. so i get it.

oof i think a major thing too is how gay-centric fic/fandom is, when the mobster world is undeniably a heterosexual one. thats an issue. shit, i wonder how many gay characters i could get away with while keeping it realistic. i mean, im sure there were gay mobsters, in fact i’ve read about a couple, but the lifestyles did not go hand in hand, lol.

IM STUPID NO ONE CARES ABT THIS DUMB SHIT HERES IDEAS

i’m thinking 1940s new york. im inclined towards kyman, as u probs kno, but again, the gay thing. huh. maybe i can figure it out. maybe theyre young bachelors, and theyre business partners & fuck around sometimes. we’ll see. anyway. if we’re gonna include all characters….

cartman would pull a goodfellas - he’s of, what, german descent? hell, considering his parents, he probably wouldn’t even exist in this universe. eh. well. he’d def be from yorkville, manhattan, cuz tht was a german neighbourhood. anyway he’d weasel into the italian mob, bc he’d be into the idea of 1) exorbitant amounts of money, and 2) being feared/respected. his authoritah! psh. and someone would notice how smart he is & mentor him, regardless of nationality. he’d quickly make enemies, though, because he’s rude & brash. he’d also quickly become one of the most respected young dons (would he reach that level, without a family? doubt it. he’d have to become a made man, which i believe is reserved exclusively for italians ….. ehhhh ill figure it out. maybe he’d branch out, start his own crime family. that’d be interesting. ooo.) damn, ukno, i think the 40s would make a real interesting character out of cartman. huh. yah, that’d be cool to explore, how that time period would shape him. like i said, he likely wouldt even exist. did the denver broncos exist back then? doubt it

kyle would get wrapped up in the jewish mob (which existed, and which i’d personally l o v e to be a part of lol - if i was born 100 years ago), maybe while trying to protect ike from getting involved? that’d be cool. maybe he’d demonstrate his brains & be offered a job as an accountant or an attorney, and he’d be forced to comply, either bc 1) his fam was threatened if he declined, or 2) his fam was doing bad financially & needed it. maybe both. hell, maybe he avoids the jewish mob & gets involved with the others. MAYBE IKE IS THE ONE IN THE JEWISH MOB & WANTS HIS BROTHER BACK FROM THE ITALIANS. OOOOOOOOO also they’d be from brooklyn, likely, bc that’s where jews were primarily located back then. u kno there was 400k jews in new york in 1899?? including my great great great grandparents. that’s a shit ton of jews lol. lil fun fact for ya. 

wait ok so oof this is hard now, bc the mob was primarily divided into three chunks - the italians, the jews, & the irishmen. there was also the puerto ricans, but that was, like, a different division. i’m mentioning this because nationality was important to mobsters, to all organized crimes groups actually, but south park doesn’t make a habit of mentioning what countries each character’s ancestors came from, lol. so it’d be a lot of writer interpretation. and that’s cool and all, but doesn’t give me much to work with, considering most of the kids are white and likely german/england-descended. 

i could make kenny & butters irish. that’d work. i think kenny’s last names irish, actually. they could be from hell’s kitchen, which had a p hefty irish-american population. maybe i could make stan irish, too. wendy might be able to pass for italian (little italy manhattan??? maybe the bronx??? im tryna think geography lol. for scale.). that’d work, if i wanted to put some stendy in there, bc i love making stan the token het guy, haha. maybe wendys dad marries her off to stan to form an alliance between the italians & irish. that’d be interesting. maybe cartman was rallying to get wendy to marry him, bc he needed to marry someone bc of, like, societal expectations, & she was the only girl who caught his interest. maybe he declares war on stan, to win back the bride he wants. maybe kyles best friends w stan, tht happened somehow, & interjects. goes to meet cartman to discuss a way out - ohhhhh theres my kyman babay!!! oooooo!!!

omg. plot forming. this is def an interesting concept. maybe i can use it as a chance to write a plot-oriented fic that doesn’t rely heavily on ships. that’d be awesome. i’ve wanted to do that for ages.

maybe we can squeeze christophe in as a french immigrant, maybe an associate of someone. same with gregory, but, like, british. that’d be fun. craig & tweek can be somewhere in there, too. associates of cartman or something. maybe they own a brothel. oooh. who else. bebe! maybe she can be a cabaret dancer who someone falls for. nothin wrong w hetero nonsense if it’s done right & if it aint nonsense. yah? maybe she can be ken’s love interest. also maybe token & nichole can be in there somewhere, from harlem?

this sounds fun as fuck, though, def. im really obsessed with new york right now, so maybe writing this could be a love letter to its history. that’d be dope. ooh, and im from las vegas actually, born & raised, so maybe i could do a chapter set there, considering the mob was very influential in the strip’s development. that’d be rad. holy heck. im excited abt this now. gotta finish oboitd asap & get into this, haha.

o shit. i jus realized, like, just how much research i’d have to do. like, not only about organized crime, abt 40s slang & dress, abt new york, abt everything. oooh boy this is a Project

ill get on that eventually haha, im into it now. it’s 4am rn tho so ima sleep, gnite anon

[sniper-rifle-coffee]

Finally another hot cup of koffee it's been needed. Rant?

Or maybe it's just story time to vent either way eh ahh.

Sometime when I just write down how I feel or the shit I go through helps me a little gives me serenity, I think it's because the younger me always wanted four things in life, to be a writer the thoughts of life / war an love or poetry,

i think it would've been a theoretical story making I'd do or something like war & love there was an old book i use to read it was named a boy no more. i believe so, also quick description i recall it was a young boy with two military parents that made him always move taking military schools across seas as soon as he would make freinds he'd have to leave moving base to base then found a love but had to leave grew older served to only return alone no family no friends with that being said this story reminded me alot of how my mother grew up non military but law enforcement younger time always on the move & bullied & abandoned to survive with her older brother bless that man had a pure loving caring soul may he rest easy in peace still hurts. anyways things that hit home an It's what made me want to do writing long ago.

So those dreams

¹writer ²military Infantry ³wildrenss survivalist ⁴fatherhood.

then the shitty reality I've failed all my dreams & have to give my true dreams or callings up so I can try to find new ones but I haven't had any since then from years ago I still try to push for those on odd blue moon's, but i just simply can't not I do or have those life eh ahh.

but that's the amazing thing about life each day is going to be something new, could be good or it could be bad, but what matters is that we take all those days anembrace them without knowing it, i love just reflecting time to time in life & just gotta really appreciate all those small little things in life it's things like that which makes it purely feel like the soul glows warm soft freely, but even for those bad days or times i think how it pushes us to stop but we always keep fighting gotta love that flight or fight in us all so for those times best thing keep moving it can be rough can take long but like those bad days everything falls breaks but something can always fall break with time things will rise back up or heal but on hard times i find its what has built/formed us to grew to learn from those days where we can slowly stand proud again to take a moment breathe relfect we get bad times but if we stop to breathe more often we can heal to relfect an love life. So I completely lost myself here hmm hmm haha dis why you shouldn't smoke a thick bowl in-between gaming an write lol

So i just spent roughly 4 or 5 hours planning out a small, um hmm yeah small, naw this is gonna be fucked doing a solo renovation project so far all i know i got walls and floors & some electrical work plus down the road i might need to redo some more plumbing adding another ½ or ¾ bored to the subfloor might even have to rip the old sub floor ffs but meh least it's on my own time & get to do all my final touches to my work, but I have an odd feeling I'm gonna be able to have these projects done pretty fast

Now the shopping list lol I'm sure I still need to add more down the run but this can least get the gears rolling & keep my bored high ass busy lmao

So it's also been i think about two weeks since I quit my slave labor shit job, even though I left i still barely was given anytime to try an recover I'm still stuck in my self recovery but I got to keep pushing myself more & more it's so fucked really sucks I barely can eat i think it's been nearly two days an I've only been able to barely hold down a bowl of cereal all that's keeping me from full on shock is trying to keep my hydration up taking everything I can just so I can keep up with my addictions my vape an lots of weed just to force or trick myself into eat also mix those two thing you'll dehydrated real fast, so i gotta drink teas G-aids water apple & orange juices an of course always sacrifice for coffee even right now all I can do is drink it black with nearly no sugar just because the creams to much plus coffee is so much better black it's amazing flavors oh & my sleep! Oh the fucken true hell that job has done to me my sleeping habits are supper fucked well I was working I'd run on a rough 4 or 3 hours of sleep then just work 12hrs just to repeat so year an half nearly no sleep only meals if I was able to was my dinner meals no breakfast no lunch barely had the freedom to have water for 7 or 8 days a week it damn well near killed me maybe still is anyways so stress love that word so no sleep no food or water with me always on the move doing fucked solo labor for two months it really broke me it's fucken terrifying trying to recover my body & mind then what doesn't help covid I'm so paranoid couldn't handle it any longer each day going into peoples homes doing there windows or doors moving there fucken shit out of the way or hopping up around there sinks tubs ripping out there old dirty nasty ass trims doors windows all of it, it fucken sucked I just want to forgot that shit I need to rant that shit out but haven't been able to other then just rants helps but anyways enough of that haha lovely so new mind set rollback finally got some temp work lined up new days slow new me exited to try an enjoy this break an recover time so time for more great black rifle coffee gonna try some M.O & get super lit up with the bong & atm about to kill my joint then kill it on cod got a new gamer crew with a old bud it's been fun also amazed on the audio in these games damn well near spot on for most firearms in there it's awesome lol

23 years old fucken feel so old lmao

So far this is my list 💀🧫💀💨☕