#haven't been on my side blogs in FOREVER😭

[deadpuppetboi]

I sent an ask to your Batman side blog.

Oh, I haven't been on my Batman side blog for so long.

Better get on it then!

[jasntodds]

Alive | J.T.

Pairing: Jason Todd x Fem!Reader

Request: yes, here

Summary: Red Hood shows up at your apartment only to reveal he's your not-so-dead boyfriend

Warnings: Swearing, 18+, smut, some fluff, mentions of death, mentions of canon drug use (he's not actually high in this but it's mentioned)

Words: 3,412

A/n: A huge thank you to @tenpintsof-sundrop for the idea 😭 please go check them out if you haven't already!! This kept turning into angst (why can't I just write fluff and smut ffs) which is why it took forever I'm so sorry to the anon who requested this lol but there's no angst!! If you wanna be tagged in my fics, you can click the link below, send me an ask/comment, or follow my library blog @jasntoddslibrary and turn on notifications if you prefer that!!

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Gotham’s city lights are the only thing illuminating parts of your room where your curtains don’t quite close all of the way. The sounds of distant sirens and passing cars echo into your room as you’re finally getting some much-needed sleep. Bruce called you three days ago with the news about Jason. Nothing really seems worth the energy anymore, including sleep but tonight it’s as if your body finally caved under the pressure of grief. But, you’re not asleep long before something wakes you up.

You stir awake to the sound of creaking near the window. Your eyes shoot open as you keep on your side, facing the opposite direction. Your heart starts to thunder and you swear you locked that window. It’s Crime Alley in Gotham City, you always lock your door and window. Jason even got you good locks for your window and your door. Someone can’t possibly be breaking in but that’s the only explanation. 

You reach to the side of the bed, slowly, careful not to make quick and harsh movements so whoever is in your home doesn’t realize you’re awake. The metal of the baseball is cold against the palm of your hand as your fingers curl around the handle. It’s not a knife or a gun, but a metal baseball can kill and incapacitate all the same. All you need is one really good swing and you’re good to go. So, you suck on a deep breath, gripping the handle as hard as you can before you sit up quickly, turning around on your knees to face the intruder.

“Get out of my apartment!” You yell, baseball bat swung over your shoulder with your arms ready to swing the second he comes close enough.

He takes a step forward into the light coming from your window and your heart drops. 

Red Hood.

Why the fuck is Red Hood, Gotham’s newest crime lord, standing in your apartment?

“Don’t freak out.” He says, the voice modulator disguising his voice.

You almost laugh at the request. He’s killing people out there and is ruthless but he doesn’t want you to freak out when he’s standing in your bedroom? That makes perfect sense. And why does it have to be your apartment? There are so many other ones he could have picked but it just had to be yours.

Jason is careful as he takes the helmet off, revealing himself to you. Your eyes grow wide as your jaw starts to fall open. Jason can see your grip on the bat start to loosen as his chest starts to swell. He always questioned your choice of a baseball bat, thinking you'd never wake up with enough time to grab it and defend yourself. He's happy he was clearly very wrong.

“You…you died…?” You question, almost certain you’re dreaming.

Bruce Wayne himself called you and told you Jason had been killed. You knew he was Robin and it was all over Gotham City News. Robin had been killed by the Joker. But, Jason Todd is currently standing in front of you, his chest moving with every breath which means he's alive.

He's desperately trying not to think about dying. That's not why he came here anyway. It wasn't to discuss the gorey details of a deranged clown with a bloody crowbar. It was just to see you and let you know he was alive. That is it. No more reminders of dying, not tonight. Not when he isn't high enough to numb the panic or pain of the thoughts. All he wants to do is see you and exist in a moment with just you and him.

“Didn’t stick.” Jason chuckles softly, holding the helmet on his hip.

There’s something Jason would describe as a chortle escapes your lips. “Didn’t stick?”

Jason shrugs his shoulder easily but there’s still some tension wrapped around his bones. “Yeah.” Jason clears his throat, looking to the floor and then back to you, thinking you probably don't believe him. Who would?

“How though?” You ask and you’re not sure how this is real.

Maybe you think you’re actually hallucinating now. Maybe grief has sucked you into insanity. But he sounds just as you remember and he looks the exact same. Jason dying and coming back as Red Hood, still fighting crime in some way, does sound like a very Jason Todd thing to do.

“Gotham.” Jason scoffs. “It’s a long story.” Jason skimps on the details, partially because he doesn’t really know how it works and also just to keep you out of it. He didn’t really like that you knew he was Robin anyway. Too dangerous.

Jason takes a step forward as you watch him closely. Maybe it’s a dream. But, it’s Gotham City and the weirdest and most unbelievable shit tends to happen here.  Jason being resurrected isn’t actually the most insane thing you’ve heard of happening. It's just one of those things that's hard to believe because losing him hurt so bad you swore you'd never recover. You want to be positive it's him before you let your hopes up even if they're rising like a steady tide. Jason can see the hesitance the way your brows are still creased and the bat still hanging over your shoulder.

“Not convinced?” He asks through a shallow breath, his own hopes falling.

He didn't really think of what he'd do if you didn't believe him.

“In my defense, this is insane.” You state as your grip tightens on the bat. "I mean, resurrection or being zombified, kind of insane."

Jason lets out a sigh as he starts listing things only he would know about you and only things you would know about him. He tells you about your first date which wasn’t anything fancy but was yours. He told you about how he has his half of a photobooth picture you two took on your third date as a bookmark. And he tells you about Alred teaching him how to make chocolate chip cookies his first week at Wayne Manor because Jason couldn’t sleep. It was too quiet in the manor.

“I also told you the bat was a shitty idea because you’d never wake up in time to grab it.” Jason offers a smirk.

“Guess you were wrong.” You point out with a teasing look.

“Yeah,” Jason scoffs. “But you didn’t take a swing so…” Jason shrugs his shoulders, a grin splitting his face.

“Haha.” You scrunch your nose with the sarcastic remark. "I'm not gonna just hit someone with a bat." You shake your head dramatically.

"I broke into your apartment?" Jason lets out a chortle "I mean, don't fucking hit me now but someone breaks in, do something, babe."

"Oh, it must really be you because only Jason Todd would criticize my weapon of choice and then criticize what I do about someone breaking in my own apartment." You quip right back as you place a hand on your hip, the bat now hanging loosely over your shoulder being held with just one hand.

Jason's smirk turns softer, a gentle smile pulling at his lips as he looks to the floor and then back to you. "Yeah, it's me." His shoulders move forward as he sucks in a breath, letting it out slowly as if the very act of breathing too hard might make all of this disappear.

Your face softens and as hard as it may be to believe, it has to be him. Everything he listed is all stuff only the two of you would know and the quick quips, Jason never missed a beat. You don't know how or even why he's alive, but it's him. So, you drop the bat to the side of your bed, quickly getting up from your bed. You don't notice how cold the floor is as you run up to Jason, colliding into him with a force study enough to make him step back just so neither of you wall.

Your arms wrap around his neck as you bury your face into his shoulder. He smells different than before but somehow the same. He smells like gunmetal with a mix of the minty shampoo he always used. But, his arms come and wrap tightly around your middle and it all feels the same. His arms are still as sturdy as always and warm. He still feels like home and you do for him, too.

His chest erupts in warmth like a dormant volcano erupting for the time in decades. Every piece of him starts to be encompassed in warmth and a sense of comfort. It's been the longest three days of his life but that doesn't really matter, not right now. It just feels safe here. Between coming back, the drug, and Crane, it's been busy and hectic and heavy. But, he's standing here with you and all he wants to do is focus on this moment because it's not so heavy or loud anymore. You always let him just exist in a way no one else ever did.

Jason's the one that pulls away first but only until you look back at him. The corner of his mouth perks up before he collides his lips with yours. The kiss nearly sucks the breath out of your lungs as your eyes close and your hands tangle in his hair. Jason's grip tightens around you as if he's afraid you'll fall away from him if he lets go.

You can feel him smile against your mouth and it's something that always sent your stomach swirling. Jason Todd genuinely happy is something irreplaceable. And he is always happy to be anywhere near you.

The kiss starts to grow sloppy and desperate, teeth clacking against each other. The happiness of being reunited starts to collide into relief and desperation to never let go again.

Jason's arms loosen just enough to go to your hips, his fingertips sliding under your shirt and digging into your flesh. He's missed the feeling of your skin against his. It's been three days but dying really has made it seem like it's been years and he doesn't want to waste the time he gets anymore. All he wants to do is be with you and you slide his jacket, then hoodie off of the armor.

"Miss me?" Jason asks against your lips and you can feel the devilish smirk that's splitting his face.

"Always." You mutter before Jason tugs your shirt over your head and tosses it to the floor.

In a heartbeat, Jason has you backing up until your knees hit the edge of your bed. The two of you fall onto the soft mattress, Jason bracing the fall for the both you and his lips never leave yours. He slides his leg onto the bed, slotting his knee between your legs right until his thigh meets your wetting slit.

You almost groan at the contact and Jason feels the tremble of your lips against his. And he fucking smirks again.

"Seems like you missed something else, too, huh?" His voice is low but easy with the teasing remark.

"Shut up." You bite back.

It's something about the way he says it that you almost want to bite him and melt under his touch at the same time. Jason has never been one to just let things flow and meet in the middle, he always had to have some sort of comment about it with the corner of his mouth perking upwards. He just can't help himself and maybe you always found it a little bit endearing, even when he's annoying.

Jason pushes his thigh against your slit again and this time he's successful in getting a quiet moan from the back of your throat. The pressure is hot and thick as your underwear start to stick to your pussy. You grind yourself on his thigh and Jason knows he has you exactly where he wants you, not that you would rather be anywhere else right now.

You help Jason tug the armor off and onto the floor, leaving his chest bare and every toned muscle on display. Your mouth practically waters before you yank him back down to you.

He keeps his leg slotted between yours as you slide your hands over the muscles of his back, feeling every raised piece of skin where his back is tensed. His skin is always warm under your fingers. You can't help but glide your fingertips along the skin before digging your nails in.

Jason arches his back, a snarl leaving his throat before his eyes lock with yours. His pupils are blown, black consuming almost every trace of green. So, you do it again as a smirk tugs at your lips because you know that'll get him going. The look he gives you turns feral and hungry as if he hasn't eaten in weeks.

His thigh is pushed harder against your slit, earning him a whimper before he takes it away entirely. There's a triumphant smile on his lips as he raises his brow.

"I can still play the game better than you, babe." Jason teases before he kisses your cheek and moves down to your neck.

"Up for debate." You quip back as his teeth graze your pulse point.

Your heart jumps and you know he can feel it. A snicker falls from his lip before he nips down and starts sucking a purple mark into your skin. A reminder that you're his.

Jason slides his leg back between yours and as if connected by a magnetic force, you don't miss a beat in grinding yourself back on him. Jason scatters just a few more marks across your chest as your breathing becomes quicker, a warm and static pit growing in the pit of your stomach.

"Could just leave now." Jason huffs as he comes back to your lips, sliding a hand between your bodies.

"Don't you dare." Your threat is weak and almost pitiful.

Jason tugs the elastic of your underwear up, exposing your pussy to some of the cool air in the room. You wiggle against him, desperate to feel more than just his thigh. But, then he snaps the elastic back, making you jerk forward and let out a displeased whimper.

"Jay." You scold, a hollowed glare on your face as his face fills with amusement. "Come on." You whine, pushing yourself against his thigh as your hands trail from his back and to the zipper of his pants.

"Since you asked nicely." Jason offers you a toothy grin before he sits up.

Jason reaches for a condom from your nightstand before tugging his pants down and sliding it on. His hands come to your thighs, pulling you to the edge where he can position himself right up to your leaking slit. He nearly licks his lips as he slides a finger through your folds.

"All for me?" Jason asks with a confidence that makes you want to burn from the inside out.

You almost tease him back but you know if you do, he might just plop down next to you and get himself off.

"I missed you." You stick out your bottom lip, offering him a pout.

A rumble comes through his chest as he moves his finger to your clit. You lose all bite and snark from your words as the rest of the room melts away. It's been the longest three days of his life and he's missed you, too.

It's more than this that he misses. You always had a way of making any place feel like home. You always got him to feel comfortable in his own skin even when his own mind was running away with damaged versions of himself. And he's missed the way you go back and forth with him. A lot of people find him obnoxious and sure, you do, too sometimes but you still go back and forth. He's missed the way you always smile at him, with something like warm and kind. It's a relief being alive again, but it's also a relief getting to see you again.

"I missed, you, too." Jason finally says and he pulls his finger away.

Jason grabs his throbbing length in his fist, pumping himself a few times before he lines himself up with your pussy. He pushes forward, slow and steady as he rests a hand beside your head, holding his weight up. You turn your head, offering his forearm a kiss and the feral look in his eyes softens.

As he bottoms out, Jason places his other hand on the other side of your head, bending down to offer a soft kiss to your lips. His chest is heaving, moving rapidly but his lips are gentle against yours.

You slide your hands into his hair and instead of tugging, you wrap your fingers around the messy strands gently, as if happy to have him near you. Jason pulls out and then pushes back in, keeping up a steady rhythm as the two of you seem to savor the moment with each other.

He showed up as Red Hood. In the back of your head, you know he'll probably leave after this. He's not injured and he didn't seem upset. It's not really late which means he probably has something to do after this. Maybe that raises a lump in your throat for a split second because he's Red Hood.

It's not that Jason Todd magically came back from the dead and he's here again. It's that Jason Todd was murdered as Robin and then came back from the dead to be Red Hood, pick up being a vigilante just a more brutal and ruthless version of one. Being a vigilante is dangerous, as was proven just this week but Jaon comes back to go right back in the game. That part is scary.

Your heart skips as you kiss him back and you'll always be worried as he goes out there. Knowing it'll happen again. But, there is a part of you that admires him for it. He gets murdered and instead of quitting, he comes back to fight harder. Maybe that's completely insane but it is admirable. And you're proud of him for it. Worried, sure, but proud of him. So, you savor the way his lips are chapped against yours and the way his thrusts start to become a little quicker and desperate.

"Missed you." Jason mutters against your lips, his voice raspy and staggered.

"I missed you, too." Your voice is caught between a whimper and a whine.

Jason slides his hand between the two of you, finding your clit. His finger is gentle against the bud as your eyes roll back. He quickens his movements, matching the speed of his thrusts. A pit grows deeper in his own stomach as he nips your lip between his teeth.

He gets a low moan from you and he nearly finishes right then and there, his hips almost stalling. But, he recovers quickly, moving his finger in the way that always got you to unravel.

Your hands move to his back, nails digging in as the pressure feeling grows, echoing into your legs and down to your feet. He's pistoning out of you, the sound of skin on skin mixing with your moans and his groans fill the room. You tug him closer to you as you wrap your legs around his waist.

"Jay." You manage to get out as your throat feels like it's closing.

The room spins and Jason is relentless, knowing you're close. You can feel yourself pulsing around his length and you think your head might explode while your heart shoots out of your chest.

"Gonna cum over my cock for me, princess?" Jason drawls, his breath hot against your lips before he moves back to your neck.

"Uh-huh." You sputter out feeling the stars start in the back of your head.

His name falls from your lips loudly and sharply as everything around you explodes into static and stars. Your toes curl as everything starts to shake and convulse against Jason's length. The squeezing of his length sends him falling right off the edge with you, biting down on your neck as the orgasm rips through his body.

Jason works you both through your highs, slowly sitting up but keeping himself inside of you once your legs fall from his waist. He gives you this smile that's a contrast between cheeky and gentle. He bends down and presses a kiss to your forehead, earning a tired but loving smile from you.

"Thanks for stopping by, Jay." Your voice is hoarse but soft.

"Can make it a habit." Jason's grin turns into a smirk, but there's a softness in his eyes.

"Uh-huh, okay, Jay." You roll your eyes, kissing him back.

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[shysheeperz]

love ur blog!! I check it out before starting an anime/manga 💞

just wondering do u have any recommendations for complete anime/mangas?

thank u either way!!!

Completed??????

Manga:

Fullmetal Alchemist- the gold standard

Silver Spoon- by the same person who did FMA. Agricultural school stuff. Cute.

Agravity Boys- space sci-fi gag comedy, a wild ride to say the least, I miss my stupid boys

Magu-chan: God of Destruction- cute digimon/pokemon-shaped gods get woken up and mingle with a bunch of middle schoolers. Cute fluff mostly, will occasionally pull at your heartstrings (including the ending)

High School Family: Kokosei Kazoku- comedy/ slice of life, about an entire family attending high school. Has a volleyball arc that rivals the likes in haikyuu!!

Haikyuu!!-sports manga, if you want to cry over boys and their love for the game then this is for you, Boys x Volleyball is the tru otp of the show

Hell's Paradise: Jigokuraku- dark historical fantasy, so very, very good. Don't get attached.

Dr. STONE- sci fi, technically the main story is complete. We still have been getting the occasional side chapter or three that continue where the main story left off tho. A very solid shonen jump series. includes one of the best shonen jump dads in the history of ever. Will make u emotional over lightbulbs and stuff. hard not to root for the main cast.

Dr. STONE Reboot: Byakuya- a non-canon little one volume spin-off about byakuya and mainly about a funky lil robot that will make you sob uncontrollably I'd personally say to read up to the end of the Treasure Island arc in the main story first before tackling this one (about ch 140ish)

Dr. STONE 4D Science- a continuation of the main story, only a couple chapters, the ending is a really cruel tease imo and if Inagaki/Boichi don't give us more may they be cursed to lose all their left shoes forever

Food Wars! Shokugeki no Sanji- spin-off of sanji side stories by the duo who did food Wars. ONE PIECE related ofc. Tasty looking food. Sanji too cool for school. One volume.

Astra Lost in Space- space sci fi survival, solid story that deserves more appreciation, the ending is just a tad lackluster in actually showing what a lot of readers would have liked to physically see. By no means ruins the story tho.

Blue Flag (Ao no Flag)- high school, romance, slice of life, boys and gals just trying to figure out life and relationships. Solid.

Mashle: Magic and Muscles- gag comedy that leans a little too much into the shonen battle-esque stuff towards the end imo, but a decently enjoyable time. A mash up of Harry Potter and other various manga like mob, opm, etc.

Mitama Security: Spirit Busters- comedy, axed but I enjoyed it. Goofy fun. nothing spectacular but reading it won't hurt anyone.

My Hero Academia: Vigilantes- spin-off of mha obviously, average joe Koichi >>> deku FIGHT ME, the goodest of boys, world building u don't get in the main series, Aizawa's backstory, Knuckleduster is the man the myth the legend.

Chihayafuru- screaming crying throwing up, it's niche it's technically a sports manga, romance, female MC, growth™, love triangle but at the end of the day that's not what's important

My Love Mix-Up!- comedy romance, big big mix-up on who loves who and lots of shenanigans ensue.

Noragami- TECHNICALLY not complete until like 2 days from now when the final chapter releases. my emotions! MY EMOTIONS!!!! 😭

Gintama- comedy/gag with dashes of really good drama

I have no idea what your tastes are, anon, so here's a mix that I've personally enjoyed. Some of them were axed, but technically that makes them complete so I included them :P yes I cheated.

Anime:

There's a lot less of them bc I haven't actually watched a lot of completed series.

Run with the Wind- more boys x sports but this time it's about running. Also the boys are in college. Will trick u into wanting to run.

91 days- ol timey story about VENGEANCE. Set during the prohibition.

Tengan Toppa Gurren Lagann- makes you emotional and feel all fuzzy inside, sci fi, mecha

Cowboy Bebop- a classic

Samurai Champloo- also a classic and I actually prefer this one over cowboy bebop tbh, god tier baseball episode

Astra Lost in Space-the anime version, if you'd prefer watching over reading, but I always prefer manga > anime just cause.

FMA 03/FMA BROTHERHOOD- the gold standard. I appreciate both versions. 03 goes the anime original ending root bc obviously the manga wasn't completed yet no biggie.

Mob Psycho 100- MOB!MOB!MOB! and tumblr sexy man reigen arataka

Gintama- animated version alternative lol. The voice actors bring the characters to life.

Obv there are the old school classics like Sailor Moon, Cardcaptor Sakura, Gundam and all that jazz if you haven't already checked out some of those. Oldies but goodies.

[hokusu]

hello im a new fan of touya.. maybe not yet a bnha fan but definitelly touya. i have been avoiding bnha for the longest time and now i feel like i've opened up a treasure chest filled with diamond when i found touya.. i instanly fell in love with him. with tears filled my eyes and sobbing really really hard cause unfortunately i fell in love with him right after watching an edit of him fighting with his family.. watching him dying and in the most vulnerable states. but i guess its better late than never. (right?)

he's so beautiful and yet tragic and i believe there are so much depth in him. but where do i start as a new fan? any recomendations.

also since im collecting plushies can you please tell what kind of plushie touya have out there? i need to get my hands on them. do you also collect his merch and would you mind share it with me?

(sorry if i was rambling i wanna pour my heart out to someone, and you are the only one i know cause im a levi fan as well hehe, have a nice day^^)

Ohhh, hello hello Anon!!

I love talking about my beloved tragic beautiful Dabi... and have been thinking about him so much since the recent episodes. He's so painfully soft behind the hurt and revenge...

Congrats on coming over to the Touya side! Absolutely better late than never and there is still plenty of Touya left to love. The Todorokis have the most interesting plot line in bnha in my opinion. I really love this story in spite of it's end, so I hope you find time to consume it fully. Since you're not a bnha fan yet I assume you haven't consumed the anime or manga content either.. but if I can say, he does not die in battle. And in my opinion, it's clear he lives on even post-war even if I wished to have seen a more concrete happiness for him! 😭

The best way to enjoy your favorite character is always to consume all the content for them lol. There's so many edits and fanart of his beautiful face and you are welcome to go through my blog tag of '#Dabi' if you wish for a place to see a good collection of them 🥺... And of course my personal favorite is reading him in fanfics, where we can truly explore his character.

If I may, might I introduce you to the other half of my love that will always go hand in hand with Touya for me... Takami Keigo/Hawks? 👀 They are basically two sides of the same coin.. constantly in parallel and Hawks is yet another tragic beautiful character. I particularly enjoy his interactions with Dabi in canon, but the fandom world for them together is endless and I could talk forever and absolutely rec some amazing fics if you decide that is also your cup of tea. 🤣

Oh plushie Dabi's yes! I want them all as well but have found them harder to come by than plushie Hawks so I am also still looking for him. (he is also sometimes quite deformed 😭 so it's hard to find good ones!) 🥲 But 'Banpresto' has released a few plushies of him in various sizes from mini keychain types to a medium more firm size and it depends which but some you can find online or others you'll have to import from Japan. I've used 'AitaiKuji' for a good place to browse in the past. There's also a 'Mochibi Dabi' which is more like a tsum tsum shape (relatively easy & affordable to buy). There's also some round ball plushies of him like from Fuwakororin and I've seen some custom fanmade kitty versions of him 🥺 like the one from AgiJagi. Beyond that he has a selection of figures, where his face looks better than others 🤣 so choose wisely (his nendo is super cute tho!). There's also been some collectible very expensive custom ones of him like the one from 'weareanimecollectors'. Anyways, happy merch collecting, I've only had the luxury to start doing more of this in the past few years so I'm no expert! But I can take some pics of the ones I have if you want to see mines. 😉

Always happy to talk more about Dabi! Please feel free to ramble haha. And ohhh hello fellow Levi lover, it's nice to know someone remembers my love for Levi too 🤣 since it's been quite some time since I screamed about him (blame dabihawks lol they took me like the wind) , but he will always be dear. 🥲 💛 Have a lovely day💛

[h0estar]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....

Hi! Yes absolutely! I am so sorry it took so long. I haven't opened Tumblr in forever. I'm not sure if I can list down 2 characters from the same media platform once but just in case I'm not, I'll just list down one. This is based on the order I remember them by since I have really shit memory and there might've been a few fave characters I missed 🥲

I'll list down what comes to mind first haha

1. Yukine (Noragami)

-I love him SO MUCH. The first time I watched Noragami back in 2016, I knew I would love this boy with all my heart. Something about troubled and misunderstood anime kids with fucked up backstories just make me want to take care of them man. He's my adopted baby period. His character development is also very beautiful.

He's a very complex character. Idk why people shit on him for acting like a child when he is quite literally a child 😭 let him be a kid man, let him be immature, I was also immature at 14 and I'm happy for him bc he's got someone understanding by his side at all times.

I wish the ending would do justice to his character fr.

2. Kagura (Gintama)

She's funny asf. Also, strong asf. I love good female rep in anime and Kagura takes the cake for me. She has no filter, she's really cool, really funny, and just a fun and enjoyable character overall. (You should watch Gintama btw, it's my favorite anime).

3. Usopp (One Piece)

People shit on him a lot and I'm sick of it. I love him because he is SO REAL. He represents ordinary human beings in the One Piece world and I admire his bravery so much. His goal isn't even something grand, he just wants to be the bravest man who crossed the sea and I love that for him. He's a coward fr but seeing him break out of his shell and take courage to face his fears make me so emotional and proud. He inspires me to face my fears too :')

4. Izaya (Durarara!!)

He was lowkey the reason why I majored in Psychology. I love this cunning man. Watching everything go into flames bc of the shit he pulls excites me so much. I love watching him work. Totally not bc of his VA.

5. Newt (The Maze Runner Series)

Okay, this person was also real as shit. The way he's depicted in the books? Perfection. He's just so kind and caring and gentle to the gladers and to people they met during the scorch trials and ugh he deserved sm better :(

the way i have a whole 'nother blog dedicated to the maze runner series and it's always just abt him 💀 i was obsessed w him man. something abt broken/complex characters who are just so kind and tragic always have my heart.

6. Chuuya (Bungou Stray Dogs)

After I read stormbringer, I was never the same again. He is actually super sweet and super down to earth. I love him so much because he is so genuine with his intentions? Also, the shit has been through man... Yet, he still chose to live and fight. I admire that so much from him.

he is also a very complex and tragic character. i love him sm bc of that... i'm sensing a pattern here.

7. Armin (Attack on Titan)

His smartass made me fall in love with him. My boy just wanted to see the sea man. I admire his bravery so much and he gets shit ton of hate too for not kissing Eren's ass but I love him so much for standing his ground and having faith in his best friend. He was lowkey psycho too tbh. Smart men>>

8. Yuuta (Jujutsu Kaisen)

Okay, something about timid guys who are lowkey psychotic always get me going. He's a cool character and he's sexy. Period.

9. Killua (Hunter x Hunter)

ALSO MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!! He deserves the world 😭 He went through so much at 12 bro and I just want to take care of him so much bc he deserves to be a kid!!!!! Big brother Killua also has my heart. He's so sweet and caring and kind and genuine and UGH I LOVE HIM.

the way he just wanted a friend 😭 i'd gladly be his friend man if i were in the hxh universe. he's too sweet 😔 and he deserves sm better!!!

10. Jo March (Little Women)

I SEE MYSELF IN HER SO MUCH. The way she just wanted everything to stay the same even when change was inevitable and the people in her life ended up growing up. I love how as I watched her grow up, the traits that she had as a kid were still there yet she was slowly opening to change. I just relate to her so much and we are so alike in so many ways.

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That's it, I think! Those were the only characters I could think of. I am so sorry if I didn't word it correctly. I suck at writing and english isn't my first language but I hope you got a gist of why I love the characters 😭 Most of the times I don't really have a deep reason for liking a certain character, they just appeal to me and I get that gut feeling that oh I think I will obsess over this little shit for the rest of my life and it's usually always correct lmao. This was fun! Thank you!

[withleeknow]

don't even- 06.13 is going to be one for the history books 🐹 I had to share these gems from armytwt bc they're all so relatable 😫😫 https://tinyurl.com/87s587z3 https://tinyurl.com/yx5ym64t https://tinyurl.com/4ejvjk4e

it's been a while since I've had a mimo moment in my asks: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeVxcCwu/ - that chuckle is so endearing + his thought process in that millisecond was “oh god me- hi!”

lmao seeing dk + hs in one frame triggered an epiphany like wow I really do have a type but also dk is another breed of duality + chaos https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGeVQBcJB/ it's like someone clicked the “randomise” option on the character selection menu

also I will never stop encouraging our enha brainrot so here's this blessed-cursed angle of jake's fatal trouble moment https://tinyurl.com/4karzj9t this is us but virtually ♡ I genuinely wasn't expecting this EP to have such a chokehold on me but the boys are slaying all their content ✨️

idk how I managed to plant two easter eggs in this but there we are ilysbm I had a full-on moment reading your last message 🥺 also am forever rooting for you + your creative career aspirations (side note: have I ever mentioned how much I love your blog format, it has my INTJ-seal of approval 🫡) 💌 LASTLYY I hope you have the most wonderful bday week! get ready for my festa spam this month lmao <3

NOT THE LAST LINE IN THE LETTER 😭 wow i really will be a sobbing mess on the day that he comes back fr. emo about the anniversary + emo about seokjin coming home = double kill 🫡

oh mimo :( him and his tiny wave, i love him sm onigiri :(((

"it's like someone clicked the 'randomise' option on the character selection menu" STOPPP WHY IS THIS SUCH A SPOT ON DESCRIPTION. i haven't even watched a lot of svt content (except for nana tour and a few eps of going seventeen) and i'm already obsessed with his brand of chaos. i'm just really drawn the black cats and the crazy ones these days lmao

oop alkdhaksjf i'm not looking i'm kinda looking 🫣 i'm really enjoying enha's music lately! if they ever go on tour near me i think i miiight just try and fight for tickets hehehhe

i appreciate the easter eggs very much 🤣 honestly you become a more and more comforting presence the more i talk to you. you really do sound so similar to the friend i had on the other blog who helped me through some pretty rough patches. sometimes i just think, ohhhhh the tumblr gods sent me another one 🥹 thank you sm :') as for the blog, i am wayyy too obsessed with the aesthetics of my blogs lmao i cannot rest until i'm at least 76% satisfied with how they look 😂 thank you hehehhe i love it whenever someone comments on it :') and NO WAYYY you're an INTJ too omg are you me from another universe 😭

[regulatedchaos]

Keep trying, self.

pama has access to this, blog. Well, the only person who has access to this and pretty much my entire life since hs. Grateful for Pama. Always trying to look after me kahit magkalayo kami and for some reason we feel each others sadness without checking in.

So every now and then she reads it and sends me a message sa FB Sabi nya I need rest daw. Like let go and let God. I told her na I never knew what rest meant since I took responsibility of a lot of things since I started working and nung sinabi nya na mag rest ako. I didn't know how. She's been a great reminder of the things that I have to do for myself cos I tend to forget. Grateful for her, I miss her 😭 I love her forever🥹

Her recommendation(rest) has left me questioning when was the last time I did rest and how did I do it? I can't remember if I ever did or I knew how. And then I remember how at peace I am whenever I'm with Cassie and I just realized that sya yung pahinga ko. He is my home and I haven't been able to rest but I try to rest padin as much as I can. It's different lang cos it's not with him. Idk if it's my hormones but I've never been this attached to anyone in my life and I don't know this feeling of longing and yearning for him na I've never felt before.

I give up easily. I barely try being with people I'm easily disappointed and I bail out at the slightest inconvenience. But with Cassie, I kept holding on.

I have felt different kinds of love before, selfish, selfless. One way, some were low-key manipulating, convenient-kind-of-love, even toxic ones. Different people good and bad ones, but I am the always one to give up on them.

If I were to describe our love (Cassie's and I) the first thing that I could think of is "nurturing". I can't tell if he feels the same way. I don't wanna assume lol but.. He just loves me even if he's seen the bad side of me I think I have a worse and worst side not sure if I've let it out but. The love that I felt from him lets me grow, it's a learning and loving experience at the same time he tolerates me and corrects me din. And Ive felt like I have become a better person because of him and I don't think he's even aware of that.

I can't even begin to think to be with someone else. I tried cos he gave me the idea na baka maghanap ako ng iba, but wala eh di ko din alam. I've never felt like this before. It's a roller coaster ride. I don't think I've ever loved and cared for someone like this, too. It's definitely new to me and tbh I didn't know that I had it in me, to love and accept someone like this. I have quite low tolerance with people in general. I guess he is "my greatest love" idk what you call it I'm not really good with describing what I feel

I can't wait to be back in his arms and rest. And be at peace cos I know that when I'm with him everything is gonna be okay, like my mind and my heart can automatically pause which is unusual cos it runs 24/7 and I'm never not overthinking. Sabi ko nga sa kanya nagayuma ata ako ewan. Everything is just better with him like he doesn't need to give me anything material for me to feel loved. Siguro din kasi sA kanya ko n aexercise yung other love languanges receiving and giving. I learned to much when I tried to give him his receiving LL.

Fucking hormones I'm such a softie, is this my hormones lang or inlove and sobrang yearning lang ako Kay Cassie??? this message is so clingy. I kinda hate that I feel so needy. I can't wait for another call from him tomorrow. He won't be able to call me everyday until next month which is the right timing I think cos I'll prolly have given birth to Papicito by then.

25Nov23

[somehowmags]

GSRHSCTAHCTHAZFBAGAGSGZVAGS TUMBLR USER SOMEHOWMAGS 😭😭😭 IM IN TEARS!!!! YOUR SIDE PROFILES ARE GORG!!! /! you've had so much improvement from your previous pom fam drawings in your facial anatomy and that is great. you gave rook's bob a really nice shape and volume and epel is exactly how i depict that mf in my head annd hrggngh.. ;÷ks.. vil... :)

TYSM!!!!! it was so nice drawing them since i haven't drawn them for like. shit has it been like three years? God. BUT TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO TALK ABOUT DESIGN CHOICES rook's hair was inspired by these pictures of magical angel creamy mami (an old 80s magical girl anime) that i've had saved to my phone as art inspiration for forever. im so sorry also these are probably edits done by somebody but again theyve been on my phone so long that i no longer know who theyre from so if these are yours pls tell me and ill credit you askldfhahlkd

i really love the way they draw her bangs when she's transformed...the lineart is so like. intentional but it has so much weight to it. that makes no sense to anybody but me i know but LKAJSDHFLKAJSDFH i won't post all the art i used as inspiration and reference because some of it is fanart and also there was a Lot of it but one of the best tips i can give any artist out there is to save all the art you like into like a special folder or something so you can look at it and study it later! you never know whats gonna Get you so save it!! make a tag for it on your blog have a folder on your computer or your phone print it out even!

but anyways epel i think is the best drawing out of the three of them- for rook i was under the assumption that i would be redoing the lineart for him (i didn't aksdljffhalshdf) so its not as clean and isn't really in the same style as the other two, vil i just really struggled with for some reason- for some reason his mouth and his proportions just wouldn't come out right- but epel is where i hit my stride and i really like what i did for him!

[carpisuns]

Just wanted to come there quickly and just share some love and appreciation. Way back before I even got my own tumblr yours was one of the ones I would always love to check and go through. I adore you talking in the tags and my favourite thing ever is you rambling in the tags and just the way you gush and fangirl over posts and all the beautiful fanworks. There's just something about seeing that love that just adds so much more to the post idk it's just so lovely to see all that being expressed. And all your creations as well man!!! Your fics and lil rough sketches and comics and fanart they are all so beautiful and you are one of the funniest people for me when it comes to ml I just love the humour you inject into your works! The fic you wrote for my commission just asdfghjkl thank you again from the bottom of my heart. I feel like you've worked so hard and created so much this year alone and I hope you can see that!! I'm in love with pink and in awe of all the chapters. You have made so much and shared so much with us and it has been more than enough. Please don't think that you haven't been contributing as much idk just I get the vibe that you're a bit unhappy with the pace at which you're completing things/the amount you've created over a span of time? And I just wanted to wholeheartedly say please don't be hard on yourself you've made so much and it's all been brilliant. And even if you weren't to make any of your own content for a good while and stepped away I hope you can see you bring so much to the ml fandom and people's tumblr experience regardless. The joy I get from viewing your blog and reading your tags and just getting to see all you share is more than enough it's so precious and brings so much enjoyment. Anyways hope you have a wonderful day and sending you all the love💞💞

honestly I can’t even tell you how much it meant to me to get this ask. it came at a time when I really needed it. I’m super grateful. seriously 😭💖

I don’t want this to be a big vent post but I have been struggling with stress and burnout a lot so this felt very validating 🥺 it’s taken a toll on my general energy level and my ability to create and it’s just tough for me to not be able to be as enthusiastic and involved as I used to be. I’ve had a really hard time with creating, to the point that I’m almost worried I’ve just like lost those skills forever 😭 and I also haven’t had much energy/motivation to consume content and give feedback either which is a bummer and makes me feel frustrated with myself. I really value being part of the fandom and feeling like I’m contributing to the ongoing dialogue among all the fans so it’s hard to feel like I have nothing much to give anymore, on the creator side and the consumer side.

Anyway this message just really hit me and felt like a big hug! Thank you so much for the kind words and for going out of your way to deliver them. I know it took time and energy to do that and it means a lot that you did. You are a really compassionate and thoughtful person 🥺💕 and thanks for commissioning that fic as well! i really enjoyed writing it

[the-pigeon]

hullooo pigeon!!! long time no see

idk what to ask actually but ill read anything you say hehe. whats your life been? what do you think about ctommys finale? any new fav streamers/yts?

also ive seen vin/voni pronouns, thats such a nice lil latinization of ukrainian pronouns :D real nice

i began noticing that it looks like a letter wth. i guess school attacked my memory with letter writing pattern that its too much for me to bear ig o(-(

(plz dont forget to tag me when you answer this lil semiletter :)

HIIIII HI HI HI IHIHII HI hello omg sniffs you like a dog sniffs new people omg i cant remember when we last spoke and i tried to dig thru my blog to find it but. tumblr search feature hates being functional obvs but anywayyyy hi hi hi hi i love letters i love your letter so here is my strange letter for you o7

my life has beeeen okay. i think. fully finished high school finally so im Moving On from that hellhole. my final graduation presentation night thing is this friday and then it is. over. forever.

and to be. honest. i haven't watched the ctommy finale 😭 idk if it's out of refusal bc of dream or becausre apparently it's bad. as i said i havent watched it so i dont know what happened in it but i've heard it's . bad. have u watched it? because. if so what do u think. is it bad as i've heard lmao

i dont think i have any. new fave streamers? at this point i've been one of those bench trio fans for so long i can't escape. i have gotten a lot more into like hermitcraft nd the life series side of things but i dont really watch all that many streams of it. i've used my prime sub on foolish tho if that counts as anything.

also also not really related but also kind of related (not that much) but i've also gotten into like dhmis and the quarry and also i watched the new wednesday series and as a goth i liked it :] also i've started making a lot of kandi bracelets so that's fun hehe

alsssoo thanks :D on the pronouns i mean. it started because i came out to my grandfather who mainly speaks ukranian so i had to explain how to use they/them and thus ! voni.

how have you been. hooow has. uni been. ur title says ur in uni what are you studying ? i applied for uni next year to do a physics major and creative writing minor but idk if i've gotten in yet sooo how knows. but how has you've been?

and that's my letter in return to you :D @spoiledlbleach

[neonacity]

hiiii! i'm a silent reader of yours and i haven't sent you an ask until today. >< i was honestly happy when i learned you're a filipino too! just turned 18 a month ago and it's my first time voting. i thought we'd finally have a good president but.... 😔

you're like an ate because i can see how you respond to your readers and your blog radiates safe place and i feel like you're the right person to ask something about life or adulting 🌹 i'm currently a humss student and will be in college soon. i was thinking that i will most likely take courses aligned to my strand like social work, but i'm still very undecided. my parents said an uncle living in the states is willing to pay for everything if i take nursing. problem is i'm a scaredy cat and i don't know if i could make it. only thing i want in the future is to leave the philippines, specially because of what's happening right now lol 😭 what should i do? T^T

Hi darling! Oh my gosh, I wasn't expecting this ask and now I'm feeling a little nervous answering it because I feel like it holds a lot of weight BUT i will try my best to help. 😭

First of all, I am so SO proud of you for being a part of the youth who chose to stand in the right side of history. It is a very heart-breaking era that we're facing right now in the Philippines—i have been staring at nothing and felt so empty after hearing about the results of the elections—but I want to believe that it's people like us, especially young blood like you who can give us hope.

As for your course, I know it can be difficult to make a decision especially with a fully-paid tuition involved but if you ask me, I'd go for whatever it is that I really am interested in. It sounds cliche, but i really do believe that if you like what you're doing, you really wont have to work a day in your life, or at least it will make the hard times of your career (and believe me, you will have them) livable because you believe in what you're doing. BUT i do understand why you would consider the other option, especially with the possibility of our economy crashing. Also, if you do choose nursing, that doesn't mean you'll be stuck with it forever. We can always start and restart no matter which stage we are in life.🙂 personally though, i'd prefer choosing what i love. Maybe you can ask yourself, "will this make me happy?" "Can i live with this?"

Anyway, i hope this was helpful! I feel like i just ranted there lol. Oh. And maybe you can listen to T.Swift's song "Only the Young." I have been listening to it on repeat and i think it suits our situation now. You might find inspiration from it. Laban lang. 💖