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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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Thinking about the Sha'tari Skyguard reminded me of something I've thought about a fair amount. I think flight-based nomadic cultures are something that is woefully unexplored, not just in Warcraft, but in fantasy in general.
Guild Wars 2 has a group called the Zephyrites that travel the world in airships. Avatar: the Last Airbender has the Air Nomads and their sky bison. Can't think of many others off the top of my head but both of these examples are ones I love and I'd love to see stuff like this focused on more. It's just such rich ground for fantasy.
#wow#world of warcraft#fantasy#flying mount#gryphon#wyvern#nomad#nomadic#guild wars 2#gw2#atla#air nomads#sky bison#since this IS a warcraft blog#I will also specify that given how often they give specific flying mounts to specific cultures in the game all the time#it's not much of a stretch to take it all the way#also it could be a good avenue for different human cultures in-universe#plus there are groups that are capable of flying on their own like the harpies#I've maybe thought about this too much and I have not slept today
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"his lips tasted like ice and sin"
#so ive been reading this mega popular super long fic for a fandom i dont care about for a ship i dont care about (a procrastination method)#anyway ive read too much of it and felt obligated to keep going but i disliked it more with each chapter#coming at it from an emotional distance helped make it something of a mental writing exercise: pull it apart see why and how it works#my envious little writer heart just wants to know (i mean the stats on this bitch were rising in real time)#but i come upon the above sentence and i let out the ugliest laugh#i stop reading the fic just to process the silliness of what i just read#cue later i reopen the tab and my eyes instantly land on that sentence#suffice to say today i am free of that fic#its on me i shouldve stopped reading when the love interest was described as a 'fallen angel of death'#and its like the writer instantly realized what she's done so the next paragraph immediately starts with 'it was a cliche'#yeah girl it is#(love it when an author leaves their mental self-negotiations over a writing choice right there in the published text)#my decision to stop reading even tho im past the halfway point means i no longer have to read about eyebrows 'quirking inquisitively'#altho sometimes the eyebrow quirks questioningly; often curiously; one time it quirked disapprovingly; but its always quirking & so are lip#and people 'roll their jaws' (no i dont know what that means)#its a fanfic so im fine if the love interest smells like 'oakmoss and papyrus' (sillier scents have been sniffed on love interests)#but if you tell me he smells that way more than 7 times in the span of a few chapters i start having objections#given how many times it was mentioned i started wondering if its plot relevant (its not)#i have so many more thoughts but i like writing in the tags because its the tumblr equivalent of muttering out loud to myself#you might ask 'jyu why are you shredding someone else's work' the answer can be found in the words of contemporary philosopher lil nas x:#'i wanna fuck the ones i envy'
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you're laughing. your dad just told you, age 26, that your family has chronic liver issues, and you're laughing.
#moss.french#least involved guy on the planet wins I guess???#Mr Guy my liver has shown signs of damage for years and you haven't thought of sharing this before???????#to be fair what the fuck was up with my old GI who read those blood tests and said yeah that's fine#Anyway. ahah. eheh.#MRI soon.... Biopsy later......... Call Mr AllDepartmentsWide#Dermatology. GI. Hepatology. Boomers in the waiting room wish they were me.#I'm kidding BTW eheh I'm trying not to get too mad sad despaired etc#remember when instead of connecting the fact that overuse of steroids caused bone erosion#I was just given opioids to deal with the âmysteriousâ pain#Remember when medication caused my psoriasis but we kept me on it#And said psoriasis spread so much that I could have died lol#Remember when my liver results have been showing damage for years and I might Just Have chronic liver disease but#It took me moving here for it to make sense#Ohhhhhh myyyyyy godddddd#perhaps I should become moss frfr#Anyway. In non complaining news I made good progress on translation today
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some important calvin and hobbes facts in case you haven't read the original comic strip in a long time or only absorbed stuff on it from memes and out of context bits on here:
Calvin's last name has never been given, and neither has any of his parent's names. This was actually why his uncle Max only showed up for a brief storyline; the creator of the comic, Bill Watterson, ultimately felt that while it was fine to have him as someone for his parents to talk to, it felt far too awkward to never have Max refer to them by name and he never made a return appearance.
The general tone of the comic is fairly light-hearted, with a big emphasis on goofy slapstick comedy contrasted by clever wordplay and often surprising adult-centered jokes that'll hit you like a slap. A big part of the comedy is, as Watterson put it (paraphrased) "It's really funny to me when people express deeply stupid ideas with really fancy terminology." One notable example you might have seen is that one bit where Calvin asks his mom for money to buy a Satan-worshiping rock album and his mom replies that there's nothing genuine about them and they're just putting on the attitude for shock value, and comisserates with Calvin as he deplores that mainstream nihilism can't be trusted. He concludes that childhood is disillusioning.
There is a LOT of criticism of the extreme materialism and selfish mentality of the late 80s, when the comic was initially written. This may go a long way to explain how its aged so well; much of what it criticizes resonates well with people today.
Bill Watterson views comic strips a legitimate form of artwork, and repeatedly fought to have more space to draw more beautiful and artistic backgrounds, which was a very hard fight and unpopular even with other comic strip artists. He eventually did win some compromises and a lot of Calvin And Hobbes' artwork shows it, with the use of space to indicate time as well as a sharp contrast between the often plain environments of mundane life contrasted by the wildly beautiful imagery of Calvin's imagination (which often sports realistic depictions in an art shift of sorts).
Hobbes is explicitly not an imaginary friend, by word of Watterson himself. We don't know WHAT he is exactly, and Hobbes is apparently unaware of the strange nature of his reality; people look at him and only see an ordinary stuffed tiger plushie, but he has a tangible effect on the world that would be physically impossible for Calvin to do on his own. He's apparently been around for a while, and was apparently around when Calvin was a young baby.
On that note; Hobbes has implicitly killed (notably treated as both a gag and also with the vibe of 'he's a tiger, duh') and while he doesn't do it again on-screen, he doesn't have any moral issues about it. Calvin claims that he's never had trouble bringing Hobbes to school because the last time he did, Hobbes killed and ate a bully named Tommy Chestnut and simply comments that it was gross and he needed a bath. Calvin's tried to repeat this again, but Hobbes was grossed out at the thought having to eat a kid raw and not being allowed to use an oven first, or complaining that children are too fattening.
Hobbes became gradually less human-like in body language and more like an actual cat in both body language and behavior; this was due to Watterson drawing more inspiration from his cat, who also inspired a lot of Hobbes' running gags, such as pouncing on Calvin when he got home. Several years into the syndication of the strip, Watterson's cat passed away, and he did a tribute to her with a comic strip of the two of them agreeing to try to dream together so they can keep playing when they have to sleep; Watterson's commentary (if I recall right), remarks on his cat: "We can see each other again in dreams."
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like a month ago a guy told my friend he thought she was cold and disrespectful the day before at a girl's party and since she and i are always together the description has to apply to me too especially because he was talking about a moment where we were talking just the two of us so we reference it 24/7 and the other day we were like this is just like art and patrick who's cold and who's disrespectful...
#and like i say: brf slt#we decided i'm cold and she's disrespectful#i don't think she's disrespectful (i don't think we're cold and disrespectful) but i can see cold for me. because i'm shy#and we agreed on who we thought was ice and who we thought was fire#it's this whole thing we're always like NOW they won't be able to say we're cold and disrespectful (even though it was just the one guy. it#was antifeminist guy if you remember back when we were friendly because i was literally at his place the night he told her that but i had#already left when he told her that. and we were only 4 so it wasn't a big thing with everyone)#and i DON'T like spending time with the people we have classes with without her because even though we're always together and we pretend#we're both known for being cold and disrespectful she's not as shy and awkward as i am and when she's without me she's like normal. i can#spend 10 minutes without saying anything because i'm soooo awkward. but anyway we were added to a groupchat to get a guy a gift because#we've been well not really hanging out but i guess yeah we kind of have been and like we often sit next to each other the three of us when#we all have lunch together he's the guy i said i had a friend crush on the other day. like two weeks ago or three. we were added to the gc#for his birthday gift because his other friends who we don't talk to as much were like wait they're kind of bffs with him so they should#participate too and it's funny because we obviously like him but we were also like since we're bffs with him now they're gonna be like#they're not so cold and disrespectful they talk to people who aren't each other!!!! and it worked. very funny#because we aren't even actually that close like we don't even text. i haven't seen him in a week i haven't talked to him in a week so not#actually bffs. but i understand why they would think we are like we go see movies together etc etc. and also no one but me used the term#bffsđ but anyway my friend isn't here rn she's in a different town and they were like we're getting together to choose what we're getting#him and i didnt want to go because ive been alone with them without my friend before and sometimes it was terrible like i said i wouldnt sa#a word for like ten minutes i didn't want to go but i went and i spent two hours with them and i had a good timeđ neither cold nor#disrespectful#i was like we have to do the gift what if we don't then we'll be cold disrespectful AND stingy we'll never come back from that. and i guess#i could have just given the money (it's not expensive) without going today but it's good that i went they'll be like oh she can be semi-#normal even without *my bff*. this sounds like things i would have said in middle school BUT very proud of myself for being kind of normalđ
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save me aughts-blogger, aughts-blogger save me
#and they have! or at least given me a sense of hope#(today's problem was: wtf to do with a standard hotel room and a little kid who needs to go the fuck to sleep and leave me alone#'just get a suite' say the listicles and reddit yes THANK YOU I THOUGHT OF THAT#'paracord and command hooks' says the aughts-blogger#and y'know what! that might work! easy to pack certainly! can't hurt to try!)#anyway I am attending the first Real Shebang Wedding (with Wedding Party) of my adult life this coming weekend#and oh boy do I understand aaaall the hate I've ever seen#what a completely insane stupid thing to do WOW#it's not even extraordinary by any reasonable metric but good CHRIST#I enjoy and respect both logistics as a thing and the labor behind even Just A Party#this is too fuckin' much of both of those. no. down with weddings. ban 'em
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i cannot stick with a title to save my life, but progress update on the two bigger rough drafts i've got going on (also venting in the tags!)
#mad at past me for having too many goals today!#they normally help me because there's little i love more than annihilating a goal#but i've got one goal i thought was pretty simple for this month that i honestly don't think i'm gonna meet now#so i'm already upset about that which is SILLY bc there are no punishments for losing#it's a self-given goal!#but bc i'm upset about it i feel upset with writing in general which is double silly bc i literally only do this anymore bc it's fun#but my true vent rn:#my shiro keeps reading too much like my keith god dammit#this is a story where i don't want him to be some perfect grown up brother figure#but somehow that's turned into him being âkeith plus 4 yearsâ#i keep telling myself it's a first draft but like#i don't wanna have to come back and completely change events bc shiro's acting completely ooc!#but to try to wrap back around to positive stuff! scroll back up and look at those word counts!#not bad for a project i first came up with in july#and that's the wc while i'm feeling stuck on it! so truly not bad at all#maybe soon i will get the right vibe again and can get back to adding several thousand words a week to those
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the struggles of today proved to me that i might indeed be a little mentally unwell
#not enough to go to therapy but at least now i know what i should work on#correct me if i'm wrong but most people probably don't start to feel suicidal if there's like. a problem at work#i've been asked to support the back office and help with managing cases which is okay i guess. but i'm not a support team person so#i don't know how to do a lot of things despite using the learning resources provided by the workplace#and this one case i'm handling was rather easy on the surface. no info in sys so parcel can't move forward. ask origin to release data. eas#but then origin says that they can't because they get an error message when putting in receiver's acc number. ruh roh#if origin can't release data no one can. i've asked them to handle it with IT but had no response. in the meantime the other involved CS#started getting involved and now a production in a factory is stopped. and i know it's not my fault but i could've done better#acted faster. thought smarter. and i hate this kind of responsibility. and that i care too much#i've cried so much today i'm so tired. from the stress of this task i've been given and because of the IT issues popping in all the time no#i logged into work 45 minutes late because the VPN i've been using shit itself and i had to get a backup one#i should've gotten it installed ages ago but nooo let's do that laterrrrr you definitely won't regret that#i hate having to put up with this bitch (me) .#another thing is. it's currently summer vacation season so i'll have to brace myself for more support work to come. it's probably gonna go#just as bad if not worse. i'm so not cut out for this. i'll have to ask my boss if he can move me to a different service#so i can have an excuse like sorry i can't help i'm no longer associated with tnt~#but that's gonna have to wait until he;s back from his vacation in august . oh well#also all this stress might result in me getting something akin to an ED#my stress response other than crying and shaking is not feeling hunger. i ate something substantial at 5pm and had breakfast at 6am#between that i had two small pieces of candy and water#i'm already bad at feeding myself or at the very least eating nutritious food . this could make me worse#âoh but kav everyone makes mistakes and it's important to learn from them! keep fighting!â bitch i don't want to i didn't sign up for this#if i wanted to work for Support Team i'd have applied there. i did not wish to get involved with them and their work#sorry i needed to get this out of my system. i'll probably complain to some irls too but i might be able to do that without crying now#laments#<- i think this is going to be my vent tag
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imagine youâre dating ghost and no one knows. the two of you have kept it a secret on your end and his just for your protectionâ because ghost knows what could happen if someone finds out, how someone might try and target you to get to him, or worse, given his line of work.
but then imagine that heâs on a mission, interrogating some piece of filth ready to decorate the fucking wall with his brain matter when the guy says âyou know what, simon, killing me would be the biggest mistake of your life.â
immediately ghost would pause, eyes narrowed, though his hardened demeanour wouldnât fade much, heâd just blankly stare at the prick like âoh yea? nâ why donâ you tell mâ why.â
the shit-eating grin that would crawl across that fuckers lips would have ghost ready to kill him right then and there, but then heâd say âreach in my pocket. pull out my phone.â
id like to think ghost would have absolutely none of this assholes bullshit, not at all entertained by his theatrics. iâd like to think heâd just press the muzzle of his gun to the fuckers temple within an instant, all teeth barred and ready to get it over with when the guy would add,
âyour girlfriend is a fucking beauty, isnât she?â
everything would pause. ghost, time, the world, air, the universe itselfâthe life that would drain from ghosts face would almost be enough to make his alias a reality. his heart pounding in his throat, his fingers fucking trembling as he immediately reached into the assholes pocket to find his phoneâa picture of a woman tied up (face not in view however) lighting up on the home screen. thereâd be no thinking rationally, no thoughts in ghosts head except for making sure you were fucking okay. heâd do whatever heâd have to do, kill the guy, leave him strapped there, whateverâheâd be out of that room in two seconds flat and personally flying the helicopter back to your house calling you nonstop every fucking second until you answered.
âhello? si?â
heâd wait a second before answering. taking everything in. background noises, the inflection of your voice. it sounds calm, maybe too calm? heâs grasping his phone so fucking hard itâs a miracle it hasnât shattered between his fingers.
âprincess,â he breathes, fighting with everything in him to keep his voice steady. âsee any birds today?â
though it was a genuine question, it also was an established one. ghost had set up a series of questions for a situation precisely like this. if you said blue jay, it meant you were fine, at home, as usual. if you said crows, it meant you werenât.
âoh just the usual blue jays, si.â he could almost hear the smile on your lips. âeverything okay? i miss you.â
ghost would exhale a shattered breath. âiâm coming home.â
and then heâd show up, not all but a few hours later, hands still trembling slightly, heart rate still struggling to regulate. it was too much, reminding him too much of his past traumas, he knew he needed to find better protection for you, but that was a conversation for another time.
heâd come in the house, barely even taking the time to shut the door behind him, almost frenzied again, relentless, unable to relax until he could finally lay eyes on you. and then, the second he did, heâd just pause and look at you, all messy hair and pyjamas still on, in the kitchen cooking breakfast for you both since you knew he was on his way.
and he wouldnât say a goddamn word, heâd just come up behind you and wrap his arms around your waist, hugging you so tight youâd hardly be able to breathe, his face buried in your hair and his heart thumping at your back. youâd feel the pain the fear the anxiety radiating off him and you wouldnât try to say anything because you knew he needed this, you knew he needed to see you, hold you, feel your pulse stable and alive. you knew he just needed a moment to breathe.
and so the two of you would stand there like that for a while, and then heâd take a big inhale and spin you around to face him, pulling up his mask to plant soft kisses on your jaw.
âi love you so fuckinâ much.â
#simon riley imagine#simon riley cod#simon riley x you#simon ghost riley#simon ghost x you#simonriley#simon riley#simon#simon riley call of duty#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x reader#simon riley smut#simonrileysmut#ghost smut#simon ghost smut#ghost riley#ghost#ghost cod#task force 141#taskforce141
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anatomy of us (3) | alpha!ghost x f!omega!reader
type: limited series, part 3 (9.8k), AO3 in an attempt to tame an unruly alpha, you are given. he did not come with warning labels. but neither did you.
series cw: reader described as plus-sized/curvier, alpha/beta/omega dynamics + universe, dark!simon, mature language and content, suggestive language and content, graphic depictions of murder + violence (this part contains graphic depictions of gore + murder + minor character death), military criticism, protective!simon, dubcon (but reader does consent), possessiveness, dom/sub dynamics, size kink, praise kink, unprotected piv, cumplay, oral (fem!receiving) 18+
PART 1 †PART 2
The mirror betrays you. Thereâs someone staring back, but it isnât you. You donât recognize her. Whoever is there, sheâs a traitor. A liar. She stole what used to be your body, and now you can only stare back as she lifts her hands to your face and touches your skin.
Itâs warm. Your cheeks are warm to the touch, skin bouncy and firm. When you pull on the apples of your cheeks, they bounce right back, elastic almost. Youâre glowing, too. Your skin has never looked so soft, so smooth.
Somethingâs different.
You bring your hands up and cup your own breasts. When you squeeze, you shudder, realizing how sensitive you are. They ache a little, feel heavier than normal. Your bra feels a little tight, too. Your hands drop and grip the sink firm, and you swallow hard before turning to face the door.
Your body is telling you something. Itâs trying to talk to you. Itâs natural, you know it is, and it is inevitable, and you shouldnât hate your omega for it because she canât help it, but you do. Itâs whatâs happening to you because youâre off your meds. Your hormones are firing like they never have before, and the voice in your head is starting to talk to you in a way that sounds way too appealing. Sheâs starting to sound right. You like the way sheâs talking to you, especially afterâŠ
You havenât spoken to him yet. You havenât talked about it. Itâs only been a few days, but you donât think you can sleep next to him for one more night and pretend like you donât know what itâs like for him to be dick-deep inside of you and satiating the shrill insanity that lives under your skin.
So big. So capable. Isnât he so strong? I bet he tastes good. Letâs find out.
You open the bathroom door slowly. Simon is sitting there on the bed, phone in his hand. Heâs typing, eyes narrowed in thought, and you make the door creak so he knows youâve come out.
âEverythinâ olright in there?â Simon asks. He doesnât look up from his phone. You decide to be mean, because you can be. You want to be.
Fuck off, you tell her, try to. All she wants to do is get Simon on his back on that bed.
Can we just suck his dick already? Itâs right there.
âWhat do you care?â You mumble. You go to the closet to pick out something to wear. Itâs a Sunday, which means there wonât be much to do today besides relax and eat. Johnny invited you to Mass, which you promptly declined, and you didnât much feel like spending time with Captain Price or finding out which beta would be underneath Gaz tonight (more than one, would be your guess, but it couldâve been another alpha, too, he doesnât seem to care as long as he can devour something whole).
You donât turn around to see Simonâs reaction. Maybe he doesnât react at all. You grab a pair of jeans and drop your sleep shorts. Ever since Simon had taken you on a roof, you decided it was no use trying to change in the bathroom anymoreâheâd seen everything, anyways. You step into the jeans and pull them up, jumping a little to get them over your hips, and just as youâre about to adjust the waist, you feel him come up behind you.
Simon grips both sides of your jeans and hikes them up around your middle. You suck in a breath as he slides his hands around, zipping them up, deft fingers finding the button and fastening them. You huff as he keeps walking, forcing your front flat against the closet doors until he can press his chest up against you from behind.
Remember how good he felt? Letâs do it again. Take them off.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â You hiss. Your omega purrs. She softens your insides. You grip the closet, irritated, but you canât help the way you bend at the hip and push back into him. He snarls as he puts his hands on your hips, holding you there. You can feel her, pushing against you. Itâs getting harder every day to shove her backwardsâthereâs a part of you that doesnât want to.
Is that part me? Or are we drifting together?
âWot does it look like?â Simon murmurs. âI smell you.â
Yes, yes, yes, let him. Take it off. Take them off. Let him have it.
âWhat did I say before?â You let your arms fall, and you smack his hands off of you. You turn around to glare up at him, grinding your teeth. âBoundaries, Simon. You need to ask for permission.â
âI donât have to do anythinâ,â Simon bites back. âI said some things before, too, didnât I? Yâr mine.â
Oh, thatâs how he wants it to be. You can see it in his eyes, the way his alpha is feeding him lies. Feeding into his ego. Heâs got tendrils that are choking him from the inside-out, trying to tell him to be the bigger species, the more dominant figure. Your omega wants to let him, but that isnât you. Fuck submissionâitâs just not your style. Youâre a taker, not a giver, and your omega will need to learn that the hard way.
You lean up on your toes, pressing your forehead to his. You meet his alpha in the middle, not backing down. You can be nasty, too. You can be dangerous. You might not have his build nor his strength, but omegas have teeth, and they are sharp.
âThen you better sleep with one fucking eye open, Simon. Cause Iâll kill you if you put your hands on me without asking.â
You make sure you hit him on your way around him. You open the drawers of the dresser angrily, ripping a shirt out. You slip your pajama shirt off, tossing it onto the floor, and you fit your bra straps over your shoulder before turning around. Simon is still staring like a dogâeyes watery and intense, staring right at your tits, and you grab a pillow off the bed and throw it at him.
âOh my god!â You cry, and he sucks on his teeth under the mask.
âMmmâŠâ He puts a hand over his chest, rubbing there. If he didnât have it on, you have a feeling heâd a smug grin on his stupid face. âMy mate is fuckinâ naked, wot you want me to do, look away?â
âYes, exactly, you pig,â you mumble, clasping your bra and fixing it to cover yourself before slipping your t-shirt on. You frown as you pick up a clip to tie up your hair. âAnd weâre not mates.â
âThaâ right?â
âThatâs right,â you say curtly. You turn to give him a hard stare as you slip your boots on. âAs far as anyone else can tell, Iâm not claimed.â You run a few fingers over your scent gland. Soft. Unmarked. Pulsing.
Itâs like youâre taunting him. He snarls a little at that, something low and territorial under the mask.
âThaâ wot you want? Me to claim you?â
âNo,â you stand on your toes, faces barely touching. The air in the room is humid and thick, curling, competing scents making you a little dizzy. âI want you to drop dead.â
Itâs half of a lie. It would be funny, you think, to see Simon eat a bullet or catch on fire and perish in a frenzy of equal pain and misery, but you know Kate would just do it all over again to you. There are no shortage of alphas at her disposal. With a swipe of her signature, she can have you moved halfway across the world again, and youâd like to not end up on the CIAâs bad side because you keep spending all their money on flights and bribes to get you some kind of mate that will tolerate an indifferent omega such as yourself.
An unruly one. A terrible one. A decisive one.
You donât really want Simon dead. Better the beast you know than the one you donât, and from the time youâve spent with Simon, he is all bark, no bite.
For now.
Meals are always awkward. You feel like all you and Simon do is snap at each other lately. Call each other names. Spit nasty insults. Maybe it isnât fair to be angry with Simon; you have a feeling he didnât have much of a choice, same as you, but it doesnât matter, because nothing really changes in his life the way it changes in yours.
Simon isnât the one that loses himself. Simon isnât the one that has to wear a brand on himself, a permanent reminder of his submission. Simon isnât the one that has to succumb to things he canât control about himselfâthe heats that last for days, the ones that will burn you from the inside out until it gets that nasty fill that your omega was born for.
Ruts just arenât the same, you donât believe it. They can swallow them down. Save them for later. It isnât a comfortable thing to do, but if an alpha is missing their omega, they can satiate themselves with a lazy hand or a soft mouth until they get what theyâre searching for.
Omegas arenât offered the same luxury. If you donât get what your omega feeds off of, she might kill youâand you donât need to be reminded that you and your omega arenât exactly on great terms.
The boys are quiet at breakfast. John has secluded himself in his office for the day, but Simonâs sergeants are pretty quiet for how much they usually babble. They are, however, shoving their faces in with food in a matter that makes you scowl.
Theyâre dogs, really. Johnny looks positively famished. Heâs got his cheeks pillowed with eggs and toast, and you look away from Gaz as he tips his head back to wash down a mouthful of ham with coffee.
You jump when you feel a fist hit the table. It rattles the trays, and Johnnyâs orange juice splatters a little outside of the cup. Simon is back from the kitchen, sliding your own tray in front of you. Your mouth waters a little at the smell of the freshly baked croissant and moka pot of coffee that waits for you, and the sergeants grumble a little as they look up at their lieutenant.
âWould you both fuckinâ eat with yâr fuckinâ mouths closed?â Simon snaps. âBloody rats eat more proper than you lot.â
âWhatâs the matter, LT?â Johnny gulps down his food, wiping his mouth with a wet thumb. He smiles at you with teeth, and you pick up your fork to busy yourself. You can see feel his crazy eyes on you, trained on your face. He licks over his teeth as he does. âWant us to be proper gentlemen around yer bonnie girl?â He wiggles his tongue at you. âWhatâs proper about knotting a pretty little omega like thaâ, aye? Can smell âer from âereâŠSmell like taffy.â
Simon takes a seat on the bench next to Johnny. You stare wide-eyed as Simon cocks his head to the side. Your eyes water a little as you see Simon slide a big hand up Johnnyâs neck. He leans into it, clearly comfortable (youâre going to try and forget this observation), but his face contorts from contentment to sheer pain as Simon wraps his gloved fingers into the curls of his mohawk and pulls. Johnnyâs neck snaps back at a hard angle, making him hiss and kick his legs out. They bang against the table, shaking it, and Gaz looks down at his plate as Simon tugs Johnny close to him.
âYou listen âere, Sergeant. Iâll say this once, and I wonât repeat it,â Simon growls. âIf I hear you say one more word about my mateâs cunt, Iâll rip your throat out with my own teeth. Donât care âow many times youâve covered me or saved my arse on the field. My rank is her rank, so from now on, I want you to drop yâr eyes when she looks at you, and I want you to say, yes, maâam, and nothinâ else, you âear that?â Johnny grits his teeth as Simon shakes his head violently, holding him firm. âAnd if I hear about it when Iâm not around, Iâll let her cut yâr dick off, yeah? Or maybe Iâll let her shoot you in the head again. And trust me, mate, she wonât missââ
âSimon,â you interrupt gently. Simonâs face turns, and you meet his eyes. You shake your head a little. âItâsâŠitâs okay. Johnnyâs just a huge flirt, and it came out wrong. Didnât it, Johnny?â
Simon closes his fist, letting out a sharp breath. His eyes are a little darker than youâre used to. Youâre not sure heâll listen to you, but when you see his fingers start to loosen, you relax a little. You donât understand why heâs defending you, anyways, but maybe Simon has some twisted moral code when it comes to insulting his mate.
That only he gets to, and no one else.
âYeahââ Johnny spits, and when Simon lets him go roughly, Johnny just laughs a little. His cheeks are rosy, and he tries to shake it off, but you can tell by the way he averts his eyes and the smell that wafts from himâJohnny is terrified of his lieutenant.
Simon stands, making the table rattle again. Johnnyâs cup spills over the edge, and your cutlery falls to the floor as he makes his way out of the mess hall, throwing the doors open and letting them slam shut behind him. You scoff, rolling your eyes, and you swipe Gazâs fork from his tray before continuing to eat.
âWhat the fuck is his problem?â You stab your sausage with the fork, cutting it angrily, and Johnny clears his throat. His rubs the back of his neck, rolling it out carefully.
âYer serious?â Johnny scoffs. âFuckinâ big man is in love with ye.â
Not me. Heâs in love withâŠher.
âHeâs just mad because he thinks heâs the only one entitled to say anything derogatory to me,â you explain. âHeâs such an asshole, I swear. So are you, Johnny, by the wayâIâm not gonna wet your dick for you, go flirt with someone else.â
Gaz snorts, shaking his head, and you pour him a little more coffee from the pot Simon left for you and some for yourself.
âKind of sweet, innit?â Gaz murmurs. âHe cares about you, you know.â
âYeah?â You raise a brow. âHas a real funny way of showing it. You donât see him when weâre alone. Heâs mean. I donât know what goes on in your heads, but your kind jump to conclusions. And you assume. And youâre too aggressive.â
âWell, what did you expect?â Gaz asks. He turns to look at you, shrugging. âThatâs how weâre made.â
âI try everyday to be anything but how Iâm made,â you say lowly.
Itâs a lousy excuse, especially for an operative like him. Kyle and Johnny are no strangers to aversion or high-stakes. There is combat, and then there is what this team does. Youâve peeked at the papers on Simonâs desk. Youâve read the files you have no clearance to read. For the air-headedness that Simon radiates, heâs excellent at writing post-op reports, with fine detail. He doesnât miss anything. This team isnât something like SWATâthey donât carry big guns for show and break down suburban houses. They hit foreign targets without a trace and eliminate threats before they blink. They are in and out of a building in thirty minutes, and they leave no man behind and no target alive. Each of them are experts in their own subject, and even with Johnnyâs big, disgusting mouth, you cannot deny what makes him special.
He could make an explosive out of regular kitchen supplies; maybe even out of the toiletries you keep in a go-bag. His affection for chemistry is as equal to that of a good, protein-rich meal. Kyle is no differentâyouâve seen him just for fun program an auto-correct feature into Johnâs laptop that replaced every word that he typed that started with a vowel to shitfucker. You saw him do it remotely. Over Bluetooth. With a Blackberry.
These arenât just operators. These arenât just idiot, self-engorged, misogynistic and animalistic men that panted and waited for orders like lovesick puppies, they are much too intelligent and way too self-aware. You wonât take thatâs how weâre made as an excuseâitâs beneath them, if youâre being honest, and itâs infuriating. They arenât a normal pack, and they never will be, and so you need them to stop using stereotypical excuses as reason for them being just like the rest.
It is conscious. Itâs disgusting. Itâs exactly as you thought it would be.
âWell maybe if ye tried that less, tried just being what ye areâŠthings would be easier for ye,â Johnny mutters, picking up his overturned cup and sighing sharply through his nose. You drop your fork and lean forward on your elbows.
Oh, alright. If Johnny wants to play rank, then you can play rank.
âYou know, you both have a lot of nerve,â you say lowly. âI would start being very fucking nice to me from now on. Simon and I may not get along, and maybe we never will. But he sure as shit wonât stand aside if tuck my tail between my legs and blame one of you for something you didnât do.â
âThought you said he hated you?â Gaz mocks. âThought you said he was mean?â
You stand up and shove your tray towards them, starting to walk. You lean over to murmur in Gazâs ear.
âHe is,â you threaten. âBut heâs still an alpha, my alpha, and pussy talks, Gaz. Youâd know. Youâve been drooling for it since I sat down. I can smell you, too.â
You pat Gazâs cheek a bit too roughly, and he snarls a little. You smile to yourself as you make your way out, and down the hall, you see a familiar shadow disappear around the corner into the darkness. You cross your arms over your chest, sighing, and then you start towards it.
When you round the corner, heâs standing right there. Leaned against the wall, big arms crossed over his chest. His face twitches under the mask. You move to stand in front of him so you can get his eyes.
âYou know, for someone who doesnât want to babysit me, you canât seem to leave me alone.â
âI have others to answer to if something happens to you.â
âDonât act like you care what other people think. Especially your superiors.â You roll your eyes. You donât have much more time to talk to him. Or berate him, you were still deciding. A shadow comes up next to you, and when you turn, Captain Price is staring at you both, nodding his head behind him.
âI need to have a word. With both of you.â
You give Simon a look, but he doesnât give one back. He merely slips a hand down your back and puts you in front of him, ushering you to walk. Youâve never been reprimanded by a superior, not because of a mission or anything of stake, so you canât help the feeling that overcomes youâsomething of failure.
Had you done something wrong? Surely you had.
Johnâs office is bigger than Simonâs, but just as messy. Messier. Thereâs a pretty beta secretary out in front of it, and she smiles at you and waves. Sheâs too cuteâtoo sweet. She probably puts sugar in Johnâs tea to make him smile or draws little smiley faces on messages from missed calls. You pity her and wish you were her all the same. When she notices your solemn face, she shrinks and dips her head, picking up her pen and continuing to fill out some forms.
John waits for both you and Simon to sit before shutting his office door behind him. He sucks on his teeth before tossing his hat onto his desk, nodding towards the two creaky seats in front of him.
âSit.â
âRather stand,â Simon counters, but one hard look from his captain, and Simon is begrudgingly taking a seat. The metal creaks under his weight, and you take a seat next to him. John sits on his desk in front of you both, and he looks at Simon before ending on you.
The scents in the air are driving you insane. You take a breath to try and keep your eyes from watering, but itâs difficult.
âYou know, Kit, our team isnât known forâŠfollowing the rules,â John begins. âBut I was assured thatâŠif anything went wrong, that my lieutenant here would be responsible. He vouched for you.â
You fold your hands in your lap. You prepare yourself for the beratement. You sit up a little straighter, squaring your shoulders. The neutral expression your face falls into seems to irk your captain. He scrunches his nose a bit, smoothing a palm over the papers in front of him. Heâs trying to establish his air of dominance, but itâs increasingly easy to stare him back down when your alpha sits right beside you.
Thereâs comfort in his presence, and your omega feeds on it.
âI saw you shoot. Got a good eye for those kinds of things, Iâll admit,â John nods. âAnd you did well in training. Followed Simon. His orders. Saw you clearinâ rooms like youâve been on this team for years.â He grins, but it doesnât reach his eyes. Blue, but empty. âHe was right. Fast learner. You know your place.â You narrow your eyes at that, and he hums. âBut it doesnât change what this is. What you are.â
Youâre surprised at the way your omega curls in your gut. Angry. Thereâs an alpha insulting you, but this one isnât yours. She warms your hands, and you dig your nails into your chair to keep her calm. She wants to bite, and sheâs confident with Simon at her side.
âAn asset?â You try talking instead.
âA liability.â John leans forward. âYou put my men in danger. Going into heat like that.â
Your heart drops into your stomach. Itâs alienation. You are an outsider. Not part of his pack. John draws a circle around himself, and you are not included in it, and the sentiment leaks into his words like a flood, and it hits you through the chest. Your lip trembles just slightly, but you swallow down the rejection, keeping it close. Your omega whimpersâan alpha, though it is not your own, is isolating you, and it hurts her.
âShe didnâtââ Simon is interrupted by Johnâs laughter.
âYou were off comms for 15 minutes and 37 seconds, an amount of time that during an op is fucking critical and couldâve blown the entire operation!â John snaps. âI told you to be fucking careful, I told you both to take precautions, and you failed me. I can understand youââ He points at you, and omega lingers unsaid, âbut you, Simon? Youââ
âIt wasnât his fault, it was mine,â you interrupt. âI shouldâve known.â
âHeâs your alpha, itâs his fuckinâ job,â John clarifies. âBut Simon has more than one job, and on that day, it was keeping the target in his sight and waiting for my fuckinâ say.â
âDonât reprimand him for making the call,â you tell him. âIâm the one who misread what I was feeling. Iâm the one who distracted him from what he was doing. Iâm the one who was projecting so badly, he had to help. Itâs me. I screwed up. Iâm just as much of your team as they are, so hold me accountable, not Simon.â
âYou are not on my team, you are my problem.â
She wails. She grips your heart in both hands and hangs on, crying, wailing, begging you to say something to make him approve of you. She so desperately wants to be included in Simonâs pack, and it aches inside to be pushed away. You dig your nails in further, and you donât realize how much your scent is flaring. Simon gets one whiff of it and snarls. His hands close into fists.
You goinâ to let thaâ wanker talk to your mate thaâ way? You goinâ to let another alpha walk all over her? Heâs challenging you, thaâs wot this is, innit?
âChoose yâr next words wisely, Captain.â Simon finally speaks, and his tone rattles you. His voice dips low, and you can hear his alpha soaking into his words, and the bitterness in the air has to be him deciding whether or not today would be a good day to stand up to his captain.
âThaâ right, Simon?â John murmurs. âIs that an order?â
Simon stands. Immediately, the humidity in the room expands, and you nearly choke from the sting of their scents in the air. Simon is much larger than John. Heâs so much bigger, so much wider. You stand, too, and when Simon feels your hand along his bicep, his shoulders loosen just an inch.
Your omega may beg for approval and inclusion, but even she stands down when you remind her of the importance of pack bonds. You are not mated, and Simon has his own to keep, so you must appease. It hurts to do it, but you know you will thank yourself later.
âIâm sorry, Captain,â you say softly. âI-It wonât happen again. I swearâŠI promise.â Your eyes water, and you try to hold in the cough youâre holding. âFirst timeâŠand the last time.â
Simonâs task force is a unique group. Four alphasâa lot of ego and fighting dominance in one bunch. Itâs normally not done. They like to have a nice mix of betas and alphas to keep groups balanced, but Kate needed an exceptional group, so she built one. Four alphas in one pack is not common, but it worksâand she has the stats to prove it.
You wonder if she knew what would happen when she threw you into the mix. How each of them might react when an omega tried to slip in between them. If Kyle would try to sink his teeth in. If Johnny would pass out from panting so fucking hard. If John would let his resolve slip for just long enough to blur the lines between a commanding officer and his subordinate.
Maybe Simon reacted just as she expected. That he would see what was meant just for him and pull her apart so he could slip under her ribs and stay right there. You have not been claimed, and yetâit is truth. They know it, Simon knows it, you know it, and so does your omega.
Simon paces in his room. A slow pace, but paces, and you observe him from your place on the bed as he breathes deeply. His alpha is leaking through the cracks, and you can smell his anger. It fumes, makes your nose curl. Itâs a bitter scent. Your omega purrs in your chestâshe wants to soothe him.
We will do no such thing. Shut the fuck up.
âYou need to let me handle things when we get cornered like thaâ.â
âIâm a big girl, Simon,â you say softly. âAnd it was my mistake.â
âIt doesnât fuckinâ matter,â Simon explains. âIâm your alpha.â
âI donât care,â you shake your head. âYou donât speak for me.â
âNo, I speak for us both,â Simon points a finger at you, coming closer. âFor you and for me, and you need to understand thaâ.â
You glare up at him. In all the time youâve spent with him, heâs still letting his alpha bleed when heâs angry. You need to understand nothingâSimon needs to learn. He needs to learn that the omega they write about in textbooks isnât reality. You fight your omega tooth and nail for control, and you are still on top for now. Simon needs to learn this. He needs to learn that you are not easily influenced by command. You may smell like an omega. You may keen like an omega.
But itâll be a cold day in hell before I submit like an omega.
âFuck you.â
Donât talk like thatâŠyou know you want to.
âYa already âave, kitty,â Simon spits. âWould you like to go again?â
âI know this is hard for you to get through your thick head,â you whisper. âBut just because I fucked you doesnât mean anything. What happened between us was clinical. Your dick is medicine, and there was nothing I could do, and that is where this ends. You can tell yourself over and over again that you are my mateâŠthat youâre my hero, that you saved me, but maybe next time, Iâll just let my omega kill me. The thought of you inside of me ever again makes me physically fucking sick.â
Youâre a bad liar.
âYeah?â
âYeah,â you say lowly. He leans closer, until his face is nearly against yours. âYouâre a pathetic, insecure, waste of space. I will never be your mate, and I pity every omega that might come after me, that has the unfortunate mistake of thinking you could claim them with any sense at all. You use and you abuse, and you have your head so far up your ass, I donât think you know whatâs real and what isnât.â
Simon stares. You stare back. Your chest heaves, and so does his, and you keep your eyes on each other as you stare back and forth. His eyes are so dark. Beautiful, but so dark, itâs difficult to tell what heâs thinking. Itâs not long that you notice his lashes fade to blonde at the end of them. His skin, where it bleeds from the eye-black he wears to the pale color of his face, has freckles scattered around the eyes. You can see the raised, white line of a scar that is just peeking from under the mask.
Isnât he so pretty?
âOn your knees,â Simon murmurs.
Itâs whiplash. One moment, your entire body is buzzing. Angry, fieryâyou can feel it shaking you. You hate him with ever fiber, want to smack the smug look you know he wears under that mask. You hate the power that he has over you and how much he relishes in it. The next moment, in a few slow words, it vanishes.
Like it was never even there at all.
âExcuse me?â You breathe.
âOn your knees. Lose the pants. ân yâr knickers.â
âWhat makes youââ
âWonât ask again.â
We need this. We need this. We need this.
Itâs just that easy. For all the resolve that it feels like you have, maybe you really have none. You blink, but then he hears the sound of you toeing off your boots. They hit the floor, and then your cargos are falling on top of them, and then youâre turning over, sliding along the warm sheets of his bed until youâre lying on your tummy, ass up, and youâre closing your eyes as his gloved hands push your panties down your thighs until theyâre around your knees.
You donât really know whoâs doing it. Youâre afraid to think about it too hard, because you know that it just might be you.
He eats nasty. All tongue. He spreads your ass with big palms, and you gurgle when he kisses your folds with tongue. Your brain starts to fog, and you relax easily. He kisses soft and slow, but wet. You fist the blankets, pushing back, and he slides a thumb down to smooth over your puffy clit very gently. He hisses when he sees your hole flex in response, a drop of slick falling onto his palm.
âKitty, why didnât ya just say so?â Simon asks, stupid and fascinated by you. âWhy didnât you just say you wanted yâr pretty pussy kissed, hmm?â
âBecause I hate youââ You whine, and Simon slips his tongue inside of you. You babble, your mouth dropping open, and he hums as he gets a taste of you before pulling back, smacking his lips. The taste of you spreads across his tongue, and his alpha howls. Heâs never spoken to him this way, not really. The only time his alpha has ever really come to the forefront like this was the times he thought he was close to death; but Simonâs never been this close to life, either.
âI know,â he coos. âI know ya do. But this isnât personal, is it?â He uses his thumbs to open you up, growling when he sees your hole pucker a little. A dribble of slick falls, and he catches it with his tongue, swallowing it down. âHowâd ya put it, luv? âs medicine?â
âYour dick is medicine.â
âMy mouth, too, I reckon.â
âShut the fuck up, and eat me, baby,â you whimper, and he opens his mouth wide and licks with a thick tongue. He presses his mouth to your cunt and eats, bobbing his head as he alternates between slobbering licks and eager sucking. His tongue slides between your folds occasionally before slipping into you, and you curl your toes every time he brushes against your clit. His thumb will sometimes circle it, or his tongue will suck softly, but he never stays there too long. Simon likes to tease. He likes to make you a little desperate, likes to get you soft and drippy and dizzy, and then he gives in a little. He gives you two fingers, gloved still, and you push back against his face with gentle grinds as he fucks you softly with his hand. Itâs agony and relief all at once.
âLike thaâ?â He asks. He sounds amused. You hope his hard cock gets pinched by his zipper.
âMmmââ You try. You arch your back, getting up onto your elbows, and Simon uses his free hand to give one side of your ass a nice smack, jiggling it gently before kissing where he hit. You giggle at that, soft and airy.
âAnswer me, omega.â
âFucking love it,â you gasp. âBig fingersââ
Simon laughs at that. You can smell his ego, but you donât have it in you to say something smart. Itâs true. Even with his hand, he fucks good, hitting deep. His mouth did wonders, and youâre dripping along his hand. His glove is soaked, and his forearm is wet, and when you glance down at the sheets, they are damp and dark with the mess you made. Simon doesnât seem to mind. He leans in to eat more, pulling his fingers out so he can use his mouth again, tongue deep as he sucks and hinges that big jaw to get a mouthful of you and groan. You taste goodânice and sweet, thick juices wetting his chin, and he squeezes your ass in appreciation when you throw it back and smother him. He likes this. Likes the lack of air, the wet pussy, the soft whines. Heâs content here, and he doesnât seem like he wants to move anytime soon, and he doesnât complain. He just opens his mouth and swirls and tongue and fuckâyour clit is in his mouth, and youâre crying.
Itâs too kind. An alpha kneeling for their mate. Taking pleasure in their pleasure. Itâs not unheard of, but itâsâŠunorthodox. It confuses you. Your omega cries with happiness, but sheâs confused, too. She doesnât expect pleasure just for pleasureâbut she wants it, she wants more of it, sheâs digging her nails into your skin to try and get you to convince Simon to give you more, more, more.
âGive it to me,â Simon murmurs. ââs olright. Give it to me.â
âSimonââ
âMhm,â he nods, cocking his head and taking your clit into his mouth again. âGive it âere.â
Your orgasm hits hard, but itâs nice and slow. Your thighs shake, but Simon sinks into you, breathing out through his nose as he delicately laps at your clit. He doesnât stop, swallowing as you come into his mouth, keeping the pace to make sure your orgasm fizzles just as good as it hit you.
You sink to your tummy when he pulls away. Your knees give out, and he slips your panties completely off, and you flop onto the dry side of the bed. You start to cry. Not tears of relief, but tears of pain. Of what is inevitable. Of the hard truth that you loathe more than anything.
Simon can never force you. You will always want him, you think. There will always be something in the back of your mind that aches for him, and you try and you try and you try to fight it off, but you want him so viscerally, it cuts you deep where youâll never notice it.
âSay wotever you want about me,â Simon mutters. âTell yourself wotever you want that helps you sleep at night, hate me oll you want. But I take care of wotâs mine.â He strokes your hair out of your eyes, leaning down, and you cry harder. You clutch a pillow, hug it tight, and your eyes flutter open as you look at him. His mask is still hiked up just under his nose, and you can see half his face. Scars that cut across him like paintbrush strokes, adding texture and depth where there shouldnât be.
âYou have no idea what itâs like,â you whisper. âYou have no idea what itâs like for every single part of yourself to betray what you want. You donât get it. Y-You donât understand, you never will. You will always have the upper hand, and y-you will never know what itâs like to not have a choice.â
Simon continues to brush through your hair with his fingers. Soothing you gently, coaxing you into a headspace that feels like white noise. You whine, and Simon comes closer. He presses his mouth to your forehead, soft, gentle, his scent close enough that your beating heart slows down considerably just in response.
âNo, I wonât,â Simon agrees. âBut thatâs what you are. Youâre an omega.â
He says it like itâs so simple. Like it explains everything in the entire world. Being an omega is the simplest answer he could ever give, and it explains every variable, every nuance, every quirk that makes you you. It explains every time you sink to your knees for him. It explains how easily you let him fuck you on a rooftop in a foreign country. It explains how even though you hate him with every fiber of your being, there is somehow no one else you want standing over you now.
âIâm still me.â
âNo,â Simon shakes his head. âYou cannot change wot you are. Youâre fighting her, and you will lose.â
You wonder, for just a second, if Simon is speaking from experience. Have there been times when his alpha takes over? Does it take control? Are there times when he looks in the mirror, too, and doesnât know who is staring back?
âI hate her, too,â you spit. âI hate her, and I hate you.â
Thereâs a hint of a smile on his terrible face. The first one youâve ever seen. You hate the urge you have to lean forward and kiss it.
âShe is you.â
âThen I hate me. I hate myself.â
Simon changes the sheets silently. He picks you up and moves you when he has toâtwo big, burly arms picking you up like youâre a feather. You cling to his neck, studying him, and you find yourself not being able to look away. Heâs so capable. Heâs so independent. Heâs so reactive to your needs, it infuriates you, how could one man be so in tune with you, more than yourself?
He drapes all new blankets over you. He turns out most of the lights, except for the low glow of the yellow lamp on his desk. He tucks you in, making sure youâre warm, and then he bends down to say something to you, in your ear.
âDunno wot you think,â he tells you, âbut there will be no omega after you.â His voice drops low, and when you close your eyes, you hear his alpha. Threatening, affirmative, exact. âYou are mine. Iâll not âave another. The sooner you accept thaâ, the easier thingsâll be for you.â
Mine, mine, mineâ
âEat a dick.â
Mine, mine, mineâ
âMuch prefer yâr cunt, kitty.â
Simonâs protection is instinctual. Itâs not really a choice, itâs subconscious. He watches you braid your hair in your room, observes as you tuck it behind your ears and tie it off your face. He hovers as you gear up. Watches you buckle your belt, strap your tact vest, adjust your helmet. He comes over after youâve laced your boots, tugging on your vest to make sure itâs secure and fastening your helmet for you. You let him as you clip your watch on, closing your eyes as he smooths a thumb across your cheek and turns you towards the door.
Itâs a long flight. You fall asleep, your face smushed against his arm, and when you wake up, Simon is still sitting there, hands on his knees, staring straight ahead. John smokes, Gaz has a folded up little book in his hand with what seems like sudoku pages, and Johnny is twirling what looks like a fidget spinner in one hand. You blink awake, but itâs dark out, pitch-black.
Thatâs the job. Dark, where you can use night as cover. Stealth. You and Simon have been tasked with clearing out one building on your own. Several stories, possible targets inside, presumed armed and dangerous. You were given the clear to eliminate any threats on sightâthe op is capture or kill, and John made that very clear in a small room that reeked of his authority.
The bird drops you a few kilometers from where your target building lies. You flip the night-vision down, flicking it on, and you stick to Simon like glue as you follow him silently through empty streets. Youâre somewhere in Eastern Europe, somewhere cold and unfeeling and just on the border of Russia. You arenât privy to any more details; all you know is that your mission is to be Simonâs cover, and you have the face of your target memorized and burned into the back of your eyes.
You spot your target building at the end of the block. The streetlight flickers, and it looks like a low-income apartment building. Itâs very small, dilapidated, with a peeling entrance door that has the window broken, hastily patched up with duct tape. Itâs no trouble for Simon to stick the scope of his rifle through the duct table and shred the remaining glass to pieces, putting his hand through the window and unlocking the door easily.
The first few floors are clear. Simon always enters a room first, with you in quick succession. You are silent, touch and go, soft taps on shoulders that the both of you can read immediately. Youâre in tune with him. When he steps left, so do you. When he turns, you cover, when he sweeps up, you sweep down. Itâs a dance, a very well coordinated one, and it lets Simon breathe easier when he realizes how well youâve adapted to each other over a short period of time.
Just a few weeks, and you are two sides of each other.
Simon swallows down the prideful purr in his chest. Now isnât the time to get distracted.
When you make your way to the top floor, just below the roof, your chest starts to feel warm. You pause at the top of the stairs as Simon keeps his rifle trained at the first door in front of him. You swallow hard, widening your stance to keep yourself upright. You shake your head, trying to toss the jitters off of you. Your throat hurts as the saliva goes down.
Simon clears the room with you shuffling close behind. You blink rapidly when you see two of Simon, and he whips around suddenly. You can see him through your night vision stiffening in front of you. Shoulders tensing, fingers gripping his rifle tighter. You pause as he comes close to you, and your eyes water when he lifts one hand from his gun to cup your face gently.
You know what heâs asking. You nod shakily, and he taps his wrist with two fingers.
Give me two minutes, is what heâs saying to you.
You donât get two minutes.
The door behind you slams open. Two men breach inside, and they come at you with a force too strong, and you go flying towards the far wall. Your back hits it hard, and you collapse onto the ground. Your whole body aches, and you know there will an array of nasty bruises under the skin. Your helmet took the brunt of the hit, but you still feel dizzy as it falls off your head, clattering to the ground. You cough, scrambling for your rifle that is a few feet away from you now, and Simon drops one of them with a few easy bullets, but the second man uses his dead companion as cover, throwing the body at Simon until he can lunge at him.
Simon swipes the blade out of his boot and goes for his weak spots. He manages to get him under the arm, across his thigh, but Simon is wearing a lot of gear, and with the weight of a dead alpha getting tossed at him again, he gets moved backwards enough to lose his footing, and then it happens.
The manâs gun fires, and it goes straight for Simonâs head. A flash of light that seals some sick sort of fate that you know canât be yours. Itâs not you that screams in response.
It is your omega.
You launch yourself at him. In your daze, your omega finds clarity, and she seizes her moment. You slip the blade out of its place in your thigh holster, and you toss a nearby chair at him to incapacitate his gun. It gets trapped underneath it, enough time for you to jump and land on him from behind.
Heâs an alpha. Physically, you should be no match for him given your size differences, but something else is taking over. Your nails donât just grab, they pierce his skin. Digging it, shredding flesh, and you bring your blade down over and over again against his chest. He screams in pain, trying to wriggle you off. You lock your ankles around his middle, keeping your hand coming, tearing with your nails and slicing with your knife, but he manages to get an arm underneath you and throw you off.
You hit the ground again roughly, but it doesnât stop your omega. She gets right back up, but he tackles you. He uses his weight to pin you down, and the knife rings as it slides across the room, but your omega doesnât let it stop her. He got too close, and she will make sure he regrets it.
He went for your mate, and she cannot have that. She wonât survive without him. Unclaimed, but she doesnât careâSimon is hers, and she wonât let him go without something all-encompassing and violent. Heâll have to pry Simon out of her dead hands. You feel like youâre watching from the sidelines. Youâre not yourself. Itâs the first time that you donât really care.
You scream, leaning up, and he doesnât get a moment to think before you sink your teeth into the plush of his scent gland and rip it clean out.
Fuck. Thereâs blood gushing everywhere, spurting from where youâve severed the gland. The gland is precious, anatomicallyâit provides most of the oxygen to the brain, and itâs what seals the bond. While it canât be marked the same way an omegaâs can, an alpha canât survive without it. Youâre finding out just how precious it is as you watch an alpha cough and sputter once he realizes whatâs happening to him.
He crawls off of you, trying to use his hand to put pressure to his neck, but itâs no use. He leans against the wall and chokes, blood filling his mouth, and you spit out the flesh from between your teeth as you watch him gurgle and kick his feet out. He reaches out for you, pleading in his eyes, but you feel no mercy. Thereâs tears coming down his face now, and you watch with a scowl as the blood spills between his fingers instead of bringing his brain precious life.
Good fucking riddance.
You turn over once youâre satisfied he wonât get up. You see Simon still sprawled on his back behind you, and you scramble to get to him. You grab his helmet and throw it off, and you start to cry, feeling around and realizing thereâs something sticky oozing and pooling onto your fingers. You canât see very well in the dark, but you put pressure anyways, unsure of what youâre dealing with. Your heartbeat is loud, and it echoes in your ears.
âNoâNo!â You gasp. You grab Simonâs radio, hands shaking as you press down onto the button.
âBravo-6, d-do you c-copy?â You cry. âBravo-6, answerâpleaseââ
âKit?â Johnâs voice comes out surprised, low. âWhat happened?â
âSiâGhostââ You sob, âW-We need a medevac! Medevacâtop floorââ
Your hands continue to shake as you reach for the bottom of his mask and rip it off. Itâs the first time youâve seen him without the mask, but you need to know. You need to know.
His faceâit is a little ugly. The eye-black is smeared across his freckles, bleeding across his face from the sweat. He has scars everywhere; they criss-cross along his cheek, cut his lips, but you ignore that as you lean down and put your ear to his mouth.
His breaths come shallow and slow.
You cry with relief, feeling around with your fingers. When all you feel is blood, you pick up his helmet and cry harder when you notice the side of the helmet has been grazed, and the bullet casing lies near his head.
He had missed.
He missed.
You cup his face, tapping his cheeks gently, trying to wake him up.
âSimon?â You whisper, sniffling. âSimon, wake up. Please wake up. Pleaseââ
You canât carry him. Even if you tried to get your omega to help you, you arenât physically strong enough to pick him up and carry him out. Heâs too big and too heavy, and you wouldnât be useful anyways; youâd be without cover trying to haul his ass to a bird thatâs just too far away.
âSimonââ
He coughs. You gasp, wrapping an arm under him and trying to sit him up. Heâs so much heavier with all of his gear on, but you do it anyways, lifting him up and laying his head in your lap. You lean down, pressing your forehead to his, and you cup the back of his neck.
âI thought he killed youââ You sob. Simon hums, his eyes opening and closing, and you smooth a few fingers down his cheek, relieved to hear him breathe. In and out, in and out, low and slow as he blinks away the spots in his vision.
Your eyes meet. Itâs not a look you were expecting. You expected him to be angry, but heâs not. Heâs looking at you like he canât believe what heâs seeing. You must look a sight, you think. There must be blood on your face, staining your teeth, but all of your senses are dulled as you try and read him.
Your hands shake as you brush a bit of dust off his face. Your fingers are trembling, but itâs grounding to touch him and see him blink those dark eyes up at you. God, heâs not ugly, no, heâs gorgeous. Heâs so beautiful. Heâll never be prettier than the way he is now. Raw and vulnerableâSimon is most himself here, you think, stuck in the in-between of an operation. This is where he must feel everything the most. You open your mouth to say something else, to ask him if heâs okay, but then his face scrunches when he finally realizes where you are.
âOn the door,â Simon mutters. âGet yâr gun on the fuckinâ door.â
âSimonââ
âNow!â
You scramble to reach for the handgun in your thigh holster, turning to get up on your knees and cover the door. You will your hands to stop shaking, gripping the handle of the gun tight to keep them steady. You can hear Simon getting himself together behind you. Shuffling onto his feet, picking up his rifle and his helmet. When you look over your shoulder for just a second, you notice his mask is back on.
âBravo-7 to Bravo-6, east building clear,â Simon rasps. He shoves his way past you, rattling you a little, and you stare at his back, defeated, as he clears the rest of the floor before making his way up the last flight of stairs. You hear your captain responding on comms, but youâre not paying enough attention. Simon slams the roof door shut once its behind you, and you wipe your eyes as Simon gets situated for overwatch as you cover the door.
âSimon, are youââ
âI donât want to hear another word outta you unless we got contact on this fuckinâ roof,â Simon interrupts.
âI saved your ass!â You cry. âI did that! He wouldâve killed you, you fucking asshole, so for once in your life, can you just look at me and say a fucking thank you?!â
Maybe Simonâs right. If you fight your omega, maybe you will lose. She might just kill you. You know she can. Youâve seen it happen before. Omegas that didnât listen, losing themselves to the insanity of their inner struggle. Itâs a violent end. Itâs like they electrocute from the inside-out. Their minds betray them, and they let it take over, and with no alpha to soothe them, theyâre just gone. If they drift too far, you canât get yourself back.
Use me. I know what to do. I can get him back.
You do the only other thing you can try; you let your omega do the talking. The sweet, syrupy voice. The soft lilt. The edge that glides, doesnât cut, the one that will hit his ear just right and hopefully get his alpha tick-tick-ticking inside of his head. The one that didnât work on Kateâbut Kate was not your mate. Kate never responded to you at all, not the way Simon does, and Kate has never tasted your cunt. Her alpha doesnât know what sheâs missing.
I can do it. Let me in.
âPlease, Simon,â you beg. You see his fingers twitch as he adjusts the scope on his rifle. They falter, adjusting it just a few degrees too far. Simon doesnât make mistakes, but then again heâs never had his omega purring in his ear like that. âPlease.â
You make your way to him, curling a hand around his bicep. You tug him closer, trying to get him to look at you. He resists, but itâs a pathetic kind of resistance. The kind that you can overpower with just another firm tug. You can sense it, his hesitance, and your omega giggles in your head.
I have him. I can do it. Donât worry.
âJohn was right,â Simon breathes. âYouâre a problem. A liability.â
A liability because he doesnât belong to anyone but you, maybe. Heâs Johnâs liability. Not yours. Simon may be a part of their pack, but they shouldâve picked up a fucking book when they knew you were coming. Submissiveness might be an inherent âtraitâ of your kind, but you realize now that is just a lie that alphas tell omegas to keep them quiet.
To keep them soft. To keep them begging. Itâs probably something that your kind have learned over time, so distinct that you inherit it from someone that came before you, but youâre convinced that this kind of obedience and docility can be unlearned. It can be used.
If an omega cries, it would be stupid for an alpha to ignore it. Itâs in their DNAâwith just a soft whine, you can make Simon drop that rifle and bend you over any surface. They say it is for your sake. They say it is because omegas must be serviced or else they will succumb to themselves, but that isnât what this is, and thatâs not why omegas arenât allowed in the field.
Theyâre not allowed because you can make Simon defy orders; because John can tell Simon something, and you can tell him something else, and youâre almost certain you know which way Simon will lean.
âPlease just look at me, Simon,â you whisper. âPlease.â
You cradle his face when he finally does. Your palms touch his wet mask, likely soaked with his own blood. You stand on your toes and draw his face closer to yours.
Fuck them for making you feel small. Fuck them for making you feel less than. Fuck anyone that ever made you feel like you were anything but in control, including her. If she just explained what she could do, this couldâve been a lot easier. If she just told you what she was capable of, you couldâve worked together. You couldâve given her what she wanted, and she couldâve given you what you wanted, and it couldâve been so much simpler.
âGonna get me fuckinâ killed,â Simon growls. You start to cry again. Not because what heâs saying hurts you, but because heâs still bleeding, and all you can see when you close your eyes is that gun firing right at his head.
This is your ticket. This is your way out. Fuck Kate for making you believe that all you were meant for was being in his bed. Youâre so closeâarenât you? You didnât realize how close you were, but now you do, and you know exactly what to do.
Youâre going to make them very, very sorry. Youâre going to make them regret ever letting you inside. Your divisive, spitfire nature was not your line of defense. It was the indication of the future you always dreamed of, the future that is one bite-mark away from being tangible. You can taste it, like you taste what Simon wants in the air.
I can do it. I can help you. Let me in.
There was never a reason to be afraid. If anything, they shouldâve been afraid of you.
You kiss him. Itâs not a proper kiss, because his face is still covered, but you kiss Simon anyways. His cheeks warm, and his lips part, and you kiss him softly over and over as you take his face into your hands. When his arm slides around your waist, your omega is comfortable letting your knees buckle.
She knows already that Simon will catch you.
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â Û«ÛȘÛ«ÛȘ àŒŰ HARLEYS IN HAWAII â g. satoru
â sum. itâs been almost a year with your sugar daddy and as a candied sweet surprise, he takes you on his private yacht. althoughâthe thing thatâs even sweeter is the âloveâ chocolates you both try just for fun. after all, satoruâs always had a sweet tooth.
wc. 6.6k
warnings. fem! reader, sugar daddy!gojo au, age gap (early twenties/early thirties), unprotected, aphrodisiac chocolates, marathon séx, praise, dirty talk, overstim, dry humping, feral gojo, fīngering, cervīx mentions, cunnilīngus, spīt, hair pulling, size kink, premature ejac, breedīng, petnames.
†sd!gojo masterlist.
âah ah, no peekinâ sweetheart,â a husky voice purrs near the nape of your neck. your plump lips curl into a pout as heâs making you drag your feet toward wherever he was taking you to. the air felt coolly warm, so much so that it was humid. satoru told you to wear something comfortable and warm, specifically a sundress. âthere we go, jusâ a few more steps. good girl,â and the rubber bottoms of your flip flops stomp against something hardâyouâre assuming the rising platforms were stairs. your ears perk and twitch a bit at the sound of crashing waves and you start to grow curious.
âare youââ
âshhh, quiet baby,â he shushes you, and you feel various designer cold band of his rings dance against your skin. again, once you step into what seems to be some wooden platform, he stops you from walking, turning you to face another way. big hands cover over your eyes and your own hands before he gives your cheek a soft chaste kiss. âmâkay, ready to see your surprise?â
with a nod, he removed his palms from your face and your eyes widen at the revealed sight. a yacht, not just any yacht though, but a private one â the satoru gojo yacht that was probably worth millions. it was huge in person, and you donât even realize the two of you are both in the middle of the ocean until seconds later. âsatoru,â you sheepishly say, feeling a wave of butterflies thump through your heart. the older manâs got the cheekiest grin and he takes off his sunglasses, putting them over your face. âwhen you said âsurpriseâ i thought you meant like new earrings or something.â
âi can always give you those too,â he strokes your cheek, watching as you fail to maintain direct eye contact. despite having the tinted expensive lenses protect your eyes from the sun, it still shined brightâmaking you squint a little. satoruâs voice pitches low before he playfully lifts you up, fixing the back of your sundress. âbut sweetheart, this weekendâs just about you ân me,â and once your arms cling onto him, he starts walking near the lower part of the rumbling yacht. âbesides, i have one more surprise to show you. felt like spoilinâ you a bit more today.â
you were quite literally living in luxury. .
as if the outside of the yacht wasnât breathtaking, just wait until you saw the master bedroom.
despite how you were slowly starting to get accustomed to this lifestyle, his lifestyleâyou couldnât help but be amazed at such royalties being given to you. his yacht was even prettier inside, but this was the norm for satoru. and with him, he had no problem sharing his luxuries with you, his favorite girl.
just for you and no one else.
but you couldnât think but get trapped in your mind at certain thoughts plucking through your brain. you started to wonder what would have happened if satoru was never a passenger of first class when you used to work as a flight attendant.
youâd constantly wonder the what ifâs, but of course you were always always grateful. itâs one of the many thingâs satoru liked about you, how you were always thankful without even saying it. youâd show it, even going far as to giving him gifts.
âimagine we lived here,â satoru hums, leaning back against the satiny cushioned pillows. the entire room was spacey, with rose-gold paint covering the walls. he brushes a thumb over his cocktail glass as he sits on the burgundy sofa. the slick floorâs a sheeny beige color, and in the background, played some old vintage noir.
âsunset boulevardâ, one of satoruâs favorites.
he preferred lots of silent films and adored more than anything when the two of you would watch them together. heâs got on a silk red robe, twirling a bit of his white shown chest hair with a finger. âlife on the water. sounds romantic, yeah?â
âwhat if we drowned, âtoru,â you mumble, stepping out of the bathroom. the floor was made of slick glass crystals that made up the smooth texture, and you then pauseâstaring at the white haired man. heâs pretty, manspread and laid back with his hair slickly parted. ever since heâs met you, he grew his hair out a little and it slightly flows near his shoulders a bit. still unkempt and parted, it gives him a more maturely modern look.
his dimples poke near the inside of his cheeks before he simpers. âprincess, we wonât drown,â and he sets aside his glass. satoruâs bright eyes linger toward your sundressâone of the many heâs bought you within in the past month.
it fit perfectly, itâs a cerulean blue color that almost matches his eyes.
if it was anything he liked, it was to pick out your outfits, and of courseâheâd let you do the same for him. âphew,â he whistles, eyeing you carefully. âyou look gorgeous. like always,â he murmurs, averting his eyes away from the screen and now giving you his uninvited attention. your plush thighs cling together before you feel the room of the yacht grow abnormally warm. âoh, right. the other surprise i wanted to show you, câmere.â
âokay,â you mumble, making your way toward him. satoru slouches back against the cushioned sofa, spreading his legs even wider. slut, he knew what he was doing with his robe slit halfway open, exposing his growing chest hair. a snowy white curl of hairs glue against his chest and you gawk further down toward his lengthy happy trail. god, you found yourself swallowing thickly the more you stared and you could see the smug grin forming against his thin lips. âwhat . . is it?â
âi remember a few weeks ago you said you wanted to try tabs chocolate,â satoru mumbles, and you watch as he pulls out a thin black cover of rich chocolate. your eyes widened.
he remembered?
you stare at the pricey covered casing, already smelling the cocoa from the wrap. it was true . .
you teased satoru about wanting to try tabs chocolate one day, just to see if it was really real. you were curious on if the chocolate really could help invigorate and arouse people in the bedroom. satoru shrugs, glancing at the cursive writing displayed on the candy. â. . so, i got it for us both. i donât think it really works, by the way.â
with an eye roll, you plop down on his lap. a beefy arm snakes around your waist before you grab the slim package. âi checked the ratings online. âm pretty sure it works, satoru,â and he gives you a complacent nod with his hands raising teasingly. calling your bluff quietly, he watches you tear the plastic all the way open. his eyes follow your fingers and how they swiftly drag away at the nearly wrapped material. once everythingâs removed, itâs an entire dark chocolate bar with three perfectly attached squares. even the smell was arousing. âdo you wanna try it at the same time?â
âhow âbout you feed it to me,â satoru coos, and you feel what you think is his leg prodding underneath you. âiâll feed you yours, sweetheart.â
damn, even his sentences sounded vaguely dirty.
you felt a lump grow in your throat before you blink thrice, holding up the bar of candy. âf. . fine,â you huff, and you watch as his perfectly parted lips sprawl apart. at the same time, you both slowly feed each other a small bite of the chocolate. the moment the rich taste of maca cocoa and sugar falls onto your salivating tastebuds, you let off a soft hum. itâs sweet, but you remember reading online that the effects would take a good twenty to thirty minutes to kick in.
satoru chews it, swallowing it and he scoffs. âhoney, i think you just got scammed. nothingâs happeningââ
famous last words. .
because not even thirty minutes later, satoru finds himself dived nose-first right between your legs.
heâs feral, on his knees for you and all. usually, satoru would shower you with lots of foreplay, kissing down your neck, your thighs, every part and inch of your body â but now, he couldnât.
not when he felt so hot, his body felt like it was it was scorchingly on fire. and of course, satoru being satoru just had to lick your fingers after you fed him his single piece of chocolate.
youâre laid up on the sofa now, whimpering with a hand digging through his shaggy white locks.
satoruâs the most deranged heâs ever been, and youâve seen him feral for you in more ways than you could count. heâs laying his tongue flat, lapping up your sweet folds, still tasting the chocolate on his tongue with the mixture of your own slick.
âf- fuuuck,â heâd huff, feeling his heart beat thump through his ears. it was barely even a big bite and he was like this. you couldnât help but imagine how heâd be if he ate the entire bar.
youâre moaning, glancing out the window and taking in the breathtaking view of the dancing choppy waves staring right back at you. a pretty serene canvas of rotating watersâyou found yourself getting lost at the sea, gazing at how the waters would violently crash against the bottom of the yacht. itâs a mesmerizing view. after a while, your eyes move back down toward satoru whoâs still between your legs. heâs lowly groaning, slowly rutting his hips into the edge of the sofa. â âs like the candy makes you taste sweeter.â
âdonât stop s- satoru,â you moan, making sure to keep a firm grip on his head. his pretty lashes were closed shut whilst heâs swirling counterclockwise circles against your puffed clit.
fuck, you felt a gasping shriek snatch out from the back of your throat once you felt him starting to suck. he was always messy - always.
tangled strings of saliva would dribble down past the corners of his lips, flopping onto your sweet cunt. satoru had the kind of tongue where youâd feel him everywhere.
he flicks it around everywhere, spelling out every letter of his name before spitting on it, licking it up directly afterwards. a palm smears his bubbling saliva before he laps it up again, thrusting his tongue in and out. âooooh,â youâd squeal, feeling him wrap his mouth around your pussy. youâre twitching inside every few seconds and he feels your cute dramatic pulses. beryl blue eyes that blissfully shine against the sunlight flicker up at you briefly and heâs got that same smug grin again.
âmphm, pull on it,â he grunts, and you whine once he traps your swollen clit between his teeth, holding your throbbing nub hostage. satoru can feel himself getting more and more hard, all because of the sweet melodic sounds that left from your lips.
both lips, on one end youâre hysterically moaning and the next, youâre squelching repeatedly.
his favorite thing to listen toâsatoruâs favorite place out of all the places heâs taken you to, had to be between your thighs.
at his words, you weakly give him a soft tug, grabbing a nice handful of his perfect locks and he gets tugged forward. âgood girl,â he huskily grumbles, resuming to lick two long stripes up and down against your cunt. forever more, heâs savoring your syrupy taste that lingers on his tongue and dribbles from the chin down, moaning from the aftertaste of the chocolate that just wonât go away. âgod, this viewâs even prettier than the ocean,â he licks his lips, and you feel yourself pulsate once he breaks away for a split moment to catch irregular breaths.
satoru swipes a thumb over his naturally glossed lips, whistling against your pussy just to feel your sensitive nub throb on his tongue even more.
âoh, sheâs a cutie,â he rasps, white brows pursing together. he pulls out two long fingers, preparing to delve them inside. âso pretty ân all soaked just for me,â and you moan, your thighs curling around his shoulders. squiiish, the moment heâs easing his lengthy thin fingers inside, you gush out a bit right on him. you were indeed wet . . sopping.
you were already a bit drenched from before, and with the chocolate, you felt even more aroused. it felt like being on a rush - a sugar rush.
satoru huskily coos, delicately curling his fingers further inside before he reaches your g-spot within just two inches of a stretch. âthere it is, thereâs my other favorite girl.â
âsatoâfuucckk,â you drag out your pathetic words, gradually moving his head to side against your sopping cunt with one hand. heâs got his mouth full, stuffed, and his entire face was just flushed from being squished between your thighs. âlike that, s- suck my clit, baby.â
âbaby, huh?â he mocks your sudden pet name, feeling your fingers comb through his messy frosted strands. embarrassment washes over you and he chortles, finding your reaction to his teasing downright adorable. you whimper as heâs still vigorously scissoring long twin digits inside of you. as your stomach submissively caves in, you start to gnaw on the bottom of your lip. âaw, donât be shy. i like beinâ called petnames too, yâknow,â he whispers against your cunt, watching how easily you soak up both fingers.
your folds couldnât help but drool. streams of your own slick cascade down between the crevices of your thighs and coat the entirety of his fingers.
with a rosy flat tongue, he slurps you clean, taking every few seconds to pull his fingers out - only to push them right back in.
as your eyes squeeze shut, you start to feel your teeth clench and shatter together from the rhyming pressure.
there, once the fat tips of his fingers poke against your g-spot again, and again, and again. .
that was all it took for you to let off a cute three second shriek. abruptly, a sharp twisting coil snaps within you and he feels your thighs turbulently shake within his feeble grasp.
âfuck, fuck,â you whine, feeling his lukewarm breath continue to ghost against your clit. you couldnât stay still for the life of youâit was as if every muscle in your body snapped once you came, your jaw dropped and your eyes widened.
âohmygodohmygod,â you ramble, and satoruâs still flicking his tongue against your sobbing slit.
youâre making a mess out of him and heâs eating it up - like always. his pointed chinâs got such a pretty glimmer of shine all thanks to your glimmering slick running down. with a echoing âpopâ, he slides his fingers out of your cunt, stretching his digits further apart just to see how your sap glues against them. ângh, s- satoru youâre so nasty.â
âonly nasty for you, sweetheart,â he cheekily whispers, leaning further in to give your cunt one single kiss.
itâs a soft passionate smooch that makes you throb against his lips. only satoru gojo could make out with your pussy right between your thighs. youâre speechlessâyou could feel yourself still shaking from your recent orgasmic release, the ringing in your ears never subsiding.
satoruâs pretty azul eyes remain fixated on your wet cunt before he gives it one final suck of departure. âmmph,â and his growing white stubble starts to drench even more all because of your sweet slickness that smears against your the lower part of his face. âfuck, âm still hungry. âs not enough.â
as your legs twitch and remain spread apart, youâre gasping for air as you watch him take breaths of his own to collect himself. âdonât pout,â he huffs, sitting up to close the distance between you both. with his hair all ruffled and tangledâhe grinds himself into you. âoh. you want a taste too, pretty?â
ây- yeah,â you nod with droopy eyes, feeling the same amounts of sheer heat.
satoruâs flushed just as much as you, and it seems like as heâs leaning into you, heâs moving in slow motion. once his lips crash onto yours, you moan into his mouth.
he wastes no time shoving his tongue down your throat, pulling on the straps of your sundress. you feel a wolffish grin curl against his lips once his tongue delves even further into your mouth, feeling you part your own away. satoru canât help but grind against your warm body, feeling your legs hook around his waist. even the touchâthe skin against skin makes you both even more hotter. itâs like static rubbing off against each other, and you were about to feel yourself short circuit any minute.
âfuck, âtoru,â you whimper between sultry sloppy kisses, loud teeth smacking and clashing together. you slowly drag a hand down his hairy chest, twirling a frosty strand around your finger.
the taste â itâs candied sweet.
the rich cocoa still lingers on both twisting tongues and you moan, feeling him nip his teeth near your lip. âyouâre perfect,â he gruffly purrs, his voice having its same deep rasp. his kisses become more and more filthy and rough and he playfully licks underneath your chin. âmhm, woman you drive me crazy.â
satoru was still very much hard thoughâvery.
you could feel his boner poke from his robe, it mustâve felt painful.
he was so hard, it outlines against the silky woven fabric the more he grinds into you. satoru couldnât keep his hands off of you. heâs leaving an invisible trail of kisses all down the slope of your neck, sucking against your tender exposed skin. you always tasted sweet than any chocolate heâs ever eaten.
but itâs to his surprise once you lightly push him back against the cushioned sofa.
âhmph! hey,â he falls back, white strands sticking across his perspiring forehead. satoru eyes you with a bewildered look, wondering whatâs with the sudden bratty glint shining in your dilated irises. âthat was rude, princess. oughtaââ
âlie back,â only two words and he was at your very command. satoru couldnât lie, whenever you had the audacity to give him orders . . he found it hot.
even if it didnât last that long,
the white haired man slouches back at your command, roving his eyes down your body. he studies the pretty sundress that hugs against your curves and the way you move.
satoru ogles openly as you made your way on top, straddling him before slowly throwing your arms over his broad shoulders. ârelax satoru,â youâd breathe, and he groans the moment electrifying friction kneads against his lap. all because of your hips swerving on his raging boner, you cause a spark that ignites within you both. to say you were a âmereâ tease was an understatement. âlike that, hold my hips baby,â and his big hands gradually move toward your rocking waist. you start to jerk against him real slowly, casually grinding yourself on his lap. you swerved around, guiding his hands to where you wanted them to go.
âoh, s. . sweetheart,â he choked out a nervous laugh, his boner steadily arising underneath his robe.
for a moment, the two of you forget that youâre both on a yacht, surrounded by nothing but smooth pretty bodies of water. it was as if it was only you and him in the entire world. time stood still. it was like you were moving slow, and the more your body moved, the slower time got.
satoru stares at the way you playfully sway your hips against his. he groans, the cloth from his robe that protects his hardened cock continuing to rub against his skin. âyouâre killinâ me here. let me touch some more at least.â
âask nicely,â you lean in closely, pressing a kiss near the left side of his cheek. satoru shivers from your touch, his jaw feeling heavy. such a tease, but thatâs what he got for spoiling you rotten.
with a near pout, satoru grumps. âplease, sweetheart,â and his big hands glide toward your active waist anyway. âlet me touch my pretty girl while sheâs movinâ her cute hips on me,â and his playfulness returns within a blink of an eye. you hear the cheekiness in his voice and he leans in to nip a kiss near your neck. âfuckinâ brat.â
âthen do something about it.â you whisper with a coy grin, resuming your salaciously addictive movements against his lap. satoru grunts, his brows contorting together in frustration before he grabs your wrists, pinning them up.
satoruâs now got you in a secure grasp and a hand snakes down your waist, giving your ass a soft squeeze. a jiggling nice chunk goes into his palm before he seductively licks up your neck. âi plan to, little girl.â
and he did.
one second youâre on his lapâthe next, youâre lightly being slammed on all fours, cheek smushed ruthlessly against the padded sofa.
you squeak out a tiny gasp, feeling him practically tear your sundress apart. satoru groans, staring at your bare ass cheek thatâs peeking out of your loose clothing. youâve got a bratty smile twirling against your lips but it soon fades away once you feel that.
his fat tipâsatoru brings it up towards the opening of your sopping cunt, smacking it three times against your folds. âyouâve got some nerve, sweetheart,â he clicks his tongue, hearing your broken whimpers return.
god, even your pussy felt warm against him. fiery electricity surges through you both and he hisses, watching as your pulsating pussy desperately tries to swallow his cock wholly.
heâs so big, you knew it and you didnât even have to face him directly. all you had to do was feel.
his tip was round and thick, reddened with a rosé flushed color. satoru tosses his head back, feeling your pussy twitch against him as a sloppy greeting of its own.
âheh. sheâs so excited,â he breathes through clenched teeth, already breaking a sweat. the yacht continues to slowly create distance in the background but at that point, no one was even thinking about the yacht. âso. fuckinâ. wet.â
he smacks his weighty dick against the outside entrance of your pussy, hearing the sloshing whines squawk out of your poor needy folds. as heâs hitting his tip against your cunt, he purposely punctuates his words with tap.
âsatoruuuu.â youâd moan, desperately aching for him to just go in already. you wanted it, and the searing heat you felt coursing through your veins just from the chocolate made you throb ten times more.
âi know, baby. i know,â he coos in a rough voice, talking over your whiny babbles. panting heavily,
satoru glances down once his leaking tip finally disappears inside of your drenched cunt. you let off a shaky breath, even going so far as to wriggling your ass back against him just so he could hurry the fuck up.
âtsk. so impatient,â he snickers, velvet straps of his robe skimming against his skin. satoruâs got a bulbous fat curve and with a single hand, he gives his cock a few stroking pumps.
one, two, three . .
he groans once a bit of loose skin from his coral colored frenulum peels back. as heâs stroking himself every few milliseconds, a prodding vein pokes against his palm. bristles of white hairs that glue against his thickset base tickle against his skin.
âmhm, gonna take my time with you. now letâs see that cute arch. just like we practiced.â
moaning, your back raises slightly with your knees cowardly burying themselves into the sofa. âmmph,â and he lightly pushes your head further into the cushion. his tip was so close.
heâs hitting you from behind with his thrusts slowly, on purpose.
he wants to hear those sweet sounds cry out from your lips. satoru grunts once heâs finally going in, thick cock stretching around your elastically stretched walls.
youâre so soft â sweet gummy flesh compressing around him with such ease, wringing him tight like a vice. satoru groans, giving his chiseled hips a single shimmy before pursing his lips together.
âthaaatâs it, hngh. this pussy knows itâs place,â he grouses, and your eyes widen once you feel his plumpish tip delve further between each corner of your slick cunt. heâs fucking thick, and within seconds later he was already inches in.
once his flushing crown disappears inside of your cunt, you whimper once he gives you one single thrust that causes your entire body underneath him to quake. âfuck, âs so sensitive,â satoru nearly whines, still feeling tingly from the saccharine flavored treat. heâs panting heavily, mouth dangling open and all. âhowâs it feel, sweetheart? âm not going too rough, yeah? talk to me.â
âgood. feels good, ngh. donât stop, âtoru. harder,â you beg, a hand of yours reaching from behind, crawling near your ass. you eye satoru through your blurred peripherals as you turn slightly around and he flashes you a sleazy grin.
thatâs the look he makes before heâs about to fuck you stupid,
thatâs the look where his eyes were hooded and half lidded, panting heavily like a dog with multiple thin strands of white hair sticking across his forehead.
you were fucked, literally. .
âhah, wasnât gonna,â he moans, feeling his cock grow insanely sensitive. it was in a way he couldnât explainâso hot, his head swells up once he starts to move.
as heâs trying to create a decent rhythm with his hips, heâs oscillating deeply into your core. sloppy thrusts pound into you with such carnal vigor that heâs basically humping against your cunt.
every few elongated seconds that dragged out, his tip mercilessly smacks against that target buried deep inside your cunt, striking a perfect bullseye.
âxâ makes the spot, and his dick always knew where to locate your clit â every single time.
it doesnât take long before satoru loses it, and heâs losing his momentum. his movements consisted of want and ache.
the head of satoruâs cock was turgid, slowly dragging in and out of your puffed clit as you damp up his entire length. you whimper, feeling the legs of the sofa rattle and jitter from underneath you both. heâs got mean deep strokes that leaves your jaw dropped, toes curled, tummy churning all from how good heâs hitting you.
youâre cutely smothered into the pillows with your mouth just pried open, forming a small gasping âo.â
every stroke, every hit, every smack against your ass, you felt like you were on cloud nine - the lewd dirty version no one ever talks about though.
satoruâs got a big hand tracing down the curvature of your waist that later trails down toward your ass. he canât help but feel against the thin fabric of the sundress, tempted to just rip it off it you. heâd be happy to buy you dozens more anyway.
âfuck me, fuck me satoru,â your eyes roll crisscross, and your entire body feels itself repeatedly ringing from the merciless slaps of skin hitting against each other with determined might to reach his well awaited potency.
heâs bucking his hips against you, watching as tears of sweat start to race down the cracked valley of your ass. âfuck, âtoru, satoruâah!â
âheh, sweetheart the walls arenât soundproof,â satoru playfully bonks the back of your head. your moaning falters, and he chuckles mid-thrust. âaw, donât be embarrassed,â and you let off a soft gasp once he presses his sharp hips all the way against you. a beefy arm wraps around your neck in a safe hold before he grunts in a husky whisper right up against your ear canal. â âm sure the captain wonât mind, be as loud as you want.â
âs- shit,â you whimper, already starting to feel your thighs struggle to stay afloat. satoru towers over you completely, rutting into you from behind with irregular toe-curling hits.
heâs meanly jackhammering you further into the sofa, the screeching sounds of the seagulls outside growing louder. the loud reverberating claps of skin that roughly ricochet against skin makes your ears ring like bells on a wedding day.
as heâs feeling his cock tighten inside of you, heâs now got you in prone bone. heâs so close to you, hovering his weight behind you with his sculptured hips glued to your ass.
satoruâs thrusts now go slow, slow but deep, making sure you feel, savor, and devour every single inch. âugh, that spot âtoru, right fuckinâ there. âm close.â
a hand goes over your mouth and you let of a muffled, âmmph?â as heâs still fucking you raw.
satoruâs popping his bulbous crownhead in and out of your stuffed pussy before lowly groaning once coolly air briefly sets against his skin.
âwatch that mouth,â and you whimper, feeling his free hand grab near your neglected breasts. you lean into his touch, feeling a bit of your own saliva dribble onto his palm. a thumb of his swipes against your perked nipples that poke through your sundress and you let off a muffled moan. âsuch a filthy pretty mouth. âs a shame,â and he leans in more, licking a stripe near your neck. âi donât think girls with colorful mouthâs should cum. do you think they should?â
as if on cue, your head raises up and down, doing a cute attempt of a nod as heâs still got your mouth covered. satoruâs still thwacking his fat cockhead into your g-spot continuously until your brainâs short circuiting.
âawww, yeah?â he hums, pressing a kiss near the back of your head. and oh, heâs cocky again, deepening his hits against your core. removing his arm from around your neck, he raises your hips up just a little bit for a more better and thorough angle. âtoo bad, because i wasnât talkinâ to you, silly girl.â
and you moan even louder once a rude buck of his hips snaps into you at such untamed speed. you gasp right away, your entire body trembling beneath the sofa. âtalkinâ to her,â and as his hand drags down your back, he maneuvers a few circles against your stuffed clit.
youâre whimpering, occasionally glancing out the window. the waves continue to crash against the port side of the yacht background â beautiful.
youâd never get used to the view. the salty smell of the sea wafts against your flaring nostrils as youâre literally being stuffed full of cock, eyes rolling back with your back completely arched. satoruâs so big, splitting you open with his vast mushroom tip so easily. âgod, sheâs got so much to say today, listen to her cute âlil sentences,â and he briefly pulls out, hearing your cunt âpopâ out a word or two, wetly squelching from the continuous thrusts.
satoruâs throbbing cock drooled from the sides with seeping white droplets of pre-cum and he groans once he feels himself tightening yet again.
âfuck mee,â and he takes a second to stare at your pretty cunt thatâs got your folds slobbering with so much honeyed glistening sap. âaw, she said no,â he teases, dragging a sleazy thumb down your pleading saturated entrance. your mess quickly soaks against his fingertips, making him just as wet as you. satoru feels you writhing against his touch, begging for him to finish and he chuckles. he tsks, wrapping a hand around his shaft before another hand wraps around your neck. hmm. does the pretty baby deserve it? after that âlil stunt you tried to pull on me?â
âs- satoru, please,â you moan, feeling your weak legs gradually buckle against the fuzzy furniture. you swallowed whatever pride you had left, feeling your mouth suddenly grow dry as the anticipation grew.
you were so close - right there. practically. gnawing on the bars of your enclosure.
he knew had to tease you, keep you on the edge of your toes. with your ass cutely trying to raise up and move back against him, you let off a sobbing moan. âlemme cum, please. âm sorry.â
âno youâre not, sweetheart,â he whispers. aligning himself again between your sniveling slick slit, his wide pink tip leisurely starts to stretch throughout your gummy walls yet again. oh, that part. the way his hefty hanging curve twists its way inside, you felt like you were tasting literal ecstasy. âare ya?â
âno,â you moan, still having a bit of brat left in you.
satoru snickers, the expensive band of his watch gliding against your hip as he holds you in place.
âat least youâre honest,â and you shudder, feeling him lick a long stripe up your sensitive jugular. his girth was so broad and wide, you feel him dip every inch inside of your cunt and you were sure you were gonna break.
he treated you like a dollâspecifically a rag doll, tossing you and fucking you where it hits good.
but, fuck was satoru was ruthless.
heâs unapologetically sloppy with his thrusts, making you grind back into his pivoting hips. as his sack hangs back against his loose skin, he smears his lax lips together, groaning at how effortlessly you were squeezing against him.
âfuck, youâre gonna make me cum too, sweetheart,â and as his bodyâs still pressed right against yours, he hoarsely grunts lowly against your ear. âgive it tâ me, make a mess on âtoru, baby.â
his words poured into your ears like silk, smooth like honey. each sentence he spoke had an effect on you, more than the love chocolates ever did . .
you felt your pussy sporadically convulsing just from his raspy out of breath tone alone.
satoruâs rotund cockhead continues to bruise against your cervix, sloppily kissing around each spot until youâre practically screaming out his name. âlouderrr,â he purrs, kissing down your neck once more.
the coarse smacks of skin continue to echo against the walls of the spacious yacht bedroom and satoru grunts.
oh, heâs whipped.
his hips start to slow down by each second, and you feel that pressure within you finally snap. âthatâs my girl, thaaaatâs it,â and he talks over your whimpers yet again, creating a wet trail of kisses down your shown shoulder blade. âatta girl, atta fuckinâ girl.â
the both of you groan in unison and after a while, he shortly follows. satoruâs cock was so full, heâs snapping his hips into you at such a wicked speed that you could barely keep up. his stamina was simply unmatched.
you let off a whine and so does heâseeping his teeth into your neck. âhngh, fuckinâ shit.â and as he grabs both of your hips, slowly reeling you back into him - heâs cumming, hard.
thick ropes slowly spurt into you, spraying right near your womb and he lets off the sexiest moan.
it lasts for a good seconds, and itâs like he got defeated â your pussy being the opponent. .
satoruâs washboard abs flex beneath his rope as his head tosses back. itâs an almost growl that leaves his lips. his sensitive tip locks into your tightening entrance, still feeling ribbons of satiny ropes dribble into you at such a snail like pace. itâs so much.
heâs staring to pant more and more as globs of sweat pouring down the sides of his forehead. satoruâs cock shrivels up inside of you and he gives your ass a soft spank. his sweltering hot crown stills itself inside of your cunt as he stays still, lavishing in the sensitivity of both slick mounds enjoy the sticky feelings of fluids combining in lewd felicity. both bodies rut against each other and now it was his turn for his eyes to roll back.
âs- satoru,â you quietly whimper out, feeling the bubbles of creamy wads ooze down between the fat crevices of your thighs.
a lustrously white ring forms around his tender base before he gradually starts to pull himself out. youâre still reclined, feeling your entire body heat up even more. your sundress was still pulled up to your waist and he groans, tugging at the fabric with one hand, another touching his own mess he just created thatâs spilling down your thighs.
âsuch a sloppy girl,â he huffs, out of breath. even still, heâs cumming inside and merrily fills you up to the very brim.
you moan once he slides back in, only to pull his aching tip right back out out. itâs another loud âpopâ that resounds through each of your twitching ears.
holding a sharp breath, satoruâs cock slathers itself against your drooling pussy before smacking it against your folds yet again. âlook at that, âm never gonna get tired of that sight.â
satoru ends up fucking you stupid for hours on his yacht.
in all positionsâany position, he moved you toward the bed, folding your poor limbs like a pretzel while his cock continued to massage through your walls by stretching you open. satoru made sure you never forget the barrage he made inside with his lengthy length.
satoru was always whipped for you, but itâs like with the addition of chocolate, it made him ten times more feral. ten times more feral for you.
heâs hungry, you could see the look in his eyes. how his pupils were blown, how he made sure to give you romantically deep yet nasty strokes.
his body would rock against you in sync against your own while the yacht that carried you both continued to judder in the background.
he pumped you fullâstuffing you entirely again, and again, and again . . simply put, he was virile.
like he said before, you drove him crazy, and he was starting to think to himself, maybe . . just maybe, you werenât just his sugar baby anymore.
each time heâd spray a generous amount of cum inside of you, heâd let out a loud guttural groan. heâs weak from how warm you feel from the inside, and your moans for him to keep going only fueled him. satoruâs a literal animal, manhandling your body and fucking you everywhere he possibly could in the master bedroom.
the sofa, the bed, the wall, against the mirror. .
his favorite,
he loved to wrap a hand around your throat, making you stare at your lewd facial expressions right with him. the way your glossed lips would part and your eyes would widen once he makes you stare at the slight bulge that pokes against the lower part of your tummy. heâd serenade something to your ear in a purring deep voice like, âfeel me there, sweetheart?â making you touch the exact spot he was hitting.
a pearly stream of his seed dribbles outside of your folds and now, heâs got you in nothing more but an intimate mating press.
âeyes up here,â he rasps a soft panting tone, gently prying your hands away from your face.
heâd just coaxed you through yet another orgasm, and your entire body felt like it just ran a marathon. you were sure by now the effects of the chocolate had worn off for the both of you - it did.
but with satoru, he looked like those many rounds didnât even faze him. not one.
heâs still lodged inside of your cunt, his tip spitting out thick ropes for the nth time of the night and he groans. your eyes glance down his snowy happy trail and glance at his sharp v-line thatâs tensing up from the stimulation. âyou . . took me so well,â and he leans in, pressing a tender kiss against your lips.
âmmfââ your arms wrap around him, entrapping his skin waist with your legs. his toned body rocks itself into you for just a few more times before he steadily pulls out. his flaccid cock rests against your bare tummy and you moan, tasting the last few remnants of sugar that lies on his tongue.
satoruâs heart beats rapidly, and once he opens his eyes to stare at you, he knew you were dangerous.
tresses of white hair glue against your skin once his forehead lightly pressed against yours. within seconds, after he found himself pulling you into another deep kiss, something was different. this time, out of all the kisses you shared with him, you think this one meant something more.
it was far more slow and passionate, his body rocks against yours and he groans in your mouth, feeling your hands scratch down his soft skin. you leave a painting of scratches all down his back, a canvas he canât wait to look at later.
as your tongue continues to tangle with his, strands of spit form into translucent cobwebs before he starts to suck on your tongue. âgod, woman you drive me insane,â and he pulls away, completely out of breath. his pretty lips were all glossed and swollen, and he cups your face. âsweets, iâ,â he cuts off, locking eyes with you.
his heart was pounding,
telling him to say it - just say it.
but the way you gave him that look . . your arms remain wrapped around him, limbs tangled with each other and he lets out a soft sigh. delicately, he pulls out and watches you let off a soft moan once you were now clenching around nothing.
âah,â he shakes his head, leaning in to press a kiss against the corner of your quivering lip. âi . .â and a lump gets caught in his throat.
you strum a thumb against his undercut, a simple gesture that you knew would always soothe him.
the white haired man leans into your touch, his heart practically yelling at him to just spit the words out before he speaks against your lips, slowly lifting up your leg, kissing your ankle.
âi think . . i think âm in love with you, sweetheart.â
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You know what I was thinking of all day? Comforting our sad baby Bucky who just wants a hug. He's tired from a bad mission. His body aches. He saw things he didn't want to. He could really just use something.
Even just a smile?
He doesn't have a lot of friends and most people around the compound outside of the team avoid him. Even those who'd worked with him for ages were still wary, scared he'd snap if they just asked how he's doing. He would have liked it, even just a hello in passing. When he walks by with a scowl on his face, no one meets his eye. If they did, they would have seen the storm that was brewing inside was not an angry one.
He just needed to be held.
When he continues to make his way towards his room, he's given a few nods from a couple of teammates but he knows they're doing it while holding their breath. He reaches his room and the damn is about to break, he hasn't been held in years, he feels so cold and empty, was he really so terrifying, no one would-
"Sergeant Barnes?"
A gentle voice calls for him, forcing him to swallow the lump in his throat. He knows that voice, mustering his best smile as he turns around to find Tony's lab assistant with a cup of chamomile tea in his mug and a file with the mission report he was supposed to fill out.
"Everyone's filling their reports in the conference room, I figured you'd rather have some privacy so I thought I'd bring it to you" You give him the same warm smile you grace everyone with, handing him the steaming cup, "and of course, your favourite"
It's too much. Normally it wouldn't be but he's never given such kindness but he always gets it from you. You're so unbelievably affectionate to everyone and he really doesn't feel worthy but today he needs it so he graciously accepts the tea and file with a soft thank you.
"and call me Bucky, doll"
You stiffen at the slight crack in his voice, frowning when he keeps his eyes trained to the floor. It wasn't unusual for Bucky to keep to himself but you catch his reddened nose and glassy baby blues and it breaks your heart.
He opens the door to enter his room ready to drown in a lonely storm when that voice calls again. Surely he was dreaming. He sets down his things, turning to find you still at his door.
"Bucky?" You enter his room, standing before him when he doesn't ask you to leave, "Are you okay?"
He doesn't trust himself, nodding and desperately blinking back tears. He wished you'd leave, he wished you'd stay, he wished he could just tell you what he needed, his hands fisted into balls by his side, he should just suck it up, what was he expecting-
"Come here" You whisper, your hand coming to cradle the back of his head, bringing it to rest into your neck where he can let go, your arms wrapping around his body.
Bucky doesn't get a chance to realize what's happening because as soon as he feels your touch the first sob escapes. He's hidden himself away in your hold, his tears wetting your skin with no remorse. He clings onto you like a lifeline while you coo and comfort him, playing with his hair and rubbing his back.
You don't let go, allowing him to cry for as long as he needs. Even after his cries turn into sniffles, you comfort him, pressing a kiss to his temple while he holds you extra tight.
When he's finally ready to let go, albeit reluctantly, he's instantly shused from trying to apologize. You don't ask questions asking what happened or why he was upset. It really didn't matter. You just knew. Bucky whispers a thank you, making a mental note to get you some flowers to properly showed you how much he appreciated it.
Of course you'd always just know when he needed it so he'd thank you again with coffee.
Dinner.
Dinner again.
Eventually, a ring.
You always knew what he needed.
A hug.
That was all.
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walk me through it
for the love circuit series
âyou're used to being flirted with in front of the camera. but something about franco is really doing you in.
franco colapinto (f1) x fem!reporter reader
warnings/notes: smut, unprotected sex (no condom, yes birth control), guided masturbation, lewd photography, lots of flirting, franco is shameless (naturally), some Spanish sentences and phrases
a/n: will resume hit play for a bit after this one! enjoy franco girlies mwa
Your job was simple enough. Well, for today, at least.
Stand in the media pen, gather statements, and piece together a couple of stories later that evening for publishing first thing tomorrow morning. All in a day's work, like all the other days before.
You've grown immune to the charms of rich, adrenaline-seeking men. Didn't take you too long, the illusion breaking as soon as any one of them opened their mouths. Some you tolerate more than others, but some you'd rather steer clear of completely.
This isn't to say that you've brushed all of them off. You might have agreed to a date here and there but nothing ever stuck, the nature of your jobs a bit too similar and all too different at the same time. You've given up on the prospect that you'll somehow end up with one of the many Formula 1 drivers you've interviewed and spoken to. And you've spoken to a lot. You've had this gig since you were shipped off fresh from uni and one too many 'What happened there?'s and 'Tell me about qualifying's can put a damper on the romantic side of things.
But someone new's in town. Well, er, new in the paddock. And you'd be lying if you said you weren't even a little bit excited.
He's charming, that much you can already tell. He walks into the media pen like he's done it thousands of times before and you have to actively suppress a smile as he walks over. Confidence is always a plus. For the interview, of course.
"Hola, Franco. Antes que nada, enhorabuena," you greet warmly, extending your arm over the barrier to place the microphone nearer to him. Hi, Franco. First of all, congratulations.
Franc's eyebrows shoot up, a wolfish grin settling on his face. "Oh. I thought this was an English interview?"
You smile back. "It is, but I know my way around Spanish, as well."
"Ah," Franco nods. "Gracias, _______."
"You know my name?" You ask, momentarily forgetting that you're being taped and recorded. You clear your throat, ignoring the quiet snicker from your cameraman.
"Yeah, I've seen you around and watched some of your other interviews," Franco confirms, a hand settling on his hip as he leans against the barrier, closer to you.
You can smell his perfume from where you stand.
"Thank you, I've heard and seen a lot about you as well," you respond, trying to return to your original train of thought.
"Which is why I want to ask you how it feels on your first day as a Formula 1 driver," you quickly follow. "Have you done anything special to prepare for this weekend? Other than the obvious, of course."
Another easy smile spreads across Franco's lips. "I've definitely added to my training and done some new things to prepare. I haven't done a full F1 weekend before so everything will be new."
"We definitely don't have reporters like you in the lower Formulas," he adds.
You feel a violent blush rip up through your neck all the way to your cheeks. As if the Monza heat wasn't enough.
"Well, I'm glad you could meet me here," you manage to get out.
The thing is, Franco isn't even the most attractive driver you've met. He's definitely up there, but not the most.
That's a discussion you have with yourself semi-weekly: ranking the drivers in terms of attractiveness, factoring in personalities and general attitudes towards the people around them, specifically the media.
Look, people love to shit on the media and press, calling journalism all sorts of derogatory words, but you're just here to do your job, like anyone else. And it gets pretty fucking hard when your boss is ringing your phone every five minutes demanding four stories by tomorrow and drivers are sassing you out as if you asked them if they've murdered their whole family.
So, naturally, the way they treat you determines a big chunk of how you think your day is going to pan out.
And right now, Franco seems to be lifting your spirits just fine.
"What are your goals for this weekend? Are points on the horizon for you at your first F1 race?" You continue, trying not to stare at the way Franco starts to rub at the back of his neck, bashful all of a sudden.
"We'll try," Franco begins. He plants both his hands on the barrier and leans even closer. You have to physically take a step back.
You gulp. Franco smiles.
"Anything is possible this weekend."
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"You broke the internet last night."
You scoff, sending your cameraman a vicious side-eye. It's crowded in the paddock today, everyone wanting to get a glimpse of the new rookie, it seems. Such is the eagerness for this young driver that even that 30-second clip of your interview with him blew right up in your face. Your inboxes at capacity, your own voice speaking back to you with every other swipe on your TikTok.
It's not all bad, though. A tweet with one of your Instagram photos attached to it captioned 'TE ENTIENDO MUCHO FRANCO ES MUY LINDA PERIODISTA' did weasel out a chuckle from you.
Your cameraman shrugs, gesturing with a jerk of his head in front of you.
"There he is. I'm sure he knows all about it."
You look over to where he's pointing and lo and behold, Franco is right there, chatting with a few Williams team members, his race suit hanging undone around his waist. He turns to you even before you can fully register that it's him you're looking at.
But your training kicks in even faster. A megawatt smile appears on your lips and you wave enthusiastically at Franco.
"Hi."
"_______," Franco says, face lighting up at the sight of you. Your name seems to fall even more effortlessly off his lips.
You reach over and pull him into a half-hug with one arm, but both his arms wind around you and you have no choice but to squeeze back.
"You saw?" Franco asks, a gleam in his eye as he pulls away. His hand remains casually on the small of your back.
"Saw what?" You know what it is he's asking but you'd like to hear it from him.
"We went viral, no?" Franco says with a laugh, reaching further around you and squeezing your waist. You lean into his touch, heart jumping as his fingers graze just underneath your cropped top.
"That's all because of you," you reason, pointing an accusatory finger at Franco. "I bet you say that to all the other reporters."
The Williams team members standing nearby burst out laughing and even your cameraman affords a snicker. A deep blush spreads across Franco's face as he rubs your side reassuringly.
"No, no, I don't. Just you," Franco admits with another lighthearted laugh.
"Sure," you say with exaggerated skepticism. You pull away from his touch, catching his hand before he slips it fully off of you.
"I'll talk to you later," you say. And it's fully intentional, the words you choose to say. I'll talk to you later. Not 'I'll catch you later' or 'I'll see you later'.
I will talk to you later.
Franco understands, giving your hand a squeeze.
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Later that day, you pray that no one catches you grinning behind your hand as Franco takes the chequered flag at qualifying.
P11.
Almost there.
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"Hi. Come in."
Franco beams at you from across the threshold, stepping into your room with slow, measured steps.
"Great qualifying," you compliment, eyes traveling down Franco's body, noting the way his team kit hugs his frame just right, his hands shoved into his pockets, exposing just his arms, veins and all.
Your eyes snap back up to his face when you hear the door shut in place.
"Q2 on your debut. Not bad," you go on, taking a step back. Franco takes one toward you.
"You're just repeating what you said at the media pen earlier," Franco points out. He reaches out and gently circles an arm around your waist.
Always straight to the point.
Like this morning.
You tried not to make it so obvious when you ran into Franco earlier, but all you could think about was The Message.
You were doing your cursory social media checks a few minutes after you had woken up, still snug in your bed and unwilling to get up just yet. A message in your Instagram inbox caught your attention, sitting at the very top of your 'verified followers' tab.
Franco Colapinto: hola, hermosa đ
It took a minute for your motor functions to return, your fingers hovering over the keyboard as you pored over what to reply. You settled on a nonchalant greeting, asking if Franco needed anything.
You realized rather belatedly that this was looking a little familiar. You wished he wouldn't say the dreaded answer, the more-than-predictable response that every man liked to use.
Franco Colapinto: you, maybe?
You groaned into your pillow, not because you were repulsed by his answer, but because you liked it. If you were easy, then so was he.
You: i finish work at 9 pm tonight...? đ
It's 9 PM now. Franco's in the room and your hand is running up his chest.
Easy.
"It's such an honor," Franco teases, backing you up further into the room. His hands feel heavy on your waist and your heart hammers against your chest.
"I get to work with people like you now," Franco continues, stopping right in front of the bed.
The kiss comes as a shock more so because of how good Franco kisses. One of his hands is now cradling the back of your head, keeping you in place while he licks into your mouth, groaning with every pucker of your lips.
You pull away for barely a second to get both of your tops off before you dive back in, seemingly too desperate and too starved for each other's mouths. Franco's hands are everywhere; they run down your arms, paw at your waist, tugging at the belt loops of your jeans.
You giggle as he pulls you even closer, your bare chests pressed against each other. Franco pulls back and peers down at you, reaching behind to unclasp your bra. You let it fall, already guiding one of his hands to your tits.
"Couldn't stop staring at them?" You ask, your voice rising with an innocent lilt.
Franco kneads at the mound beneath his hand, eliciting a moan from you. He grins.
"I wanted you to notice," Franco admits simply, kissing you again.
"Perv," you mumble against his lips. Franco laughs, already undoing his trousers.
You wiggle your own way out of your jeans, letting Franco get the shortest of glimpses at your baby pink underwear before you discard them off to the side.
"Mierda, you're so sexy," Franco compliments as you crawl backward onto the bed, laying back and letting your hair splay out beneath you.
Franco pounces on you like a man starved, bare atop your own naked body, his arms caging you in.
"Big moves from somebody so new," you whisper, carding your fingers through Franco's soft locks.
"I like to make a statement," Franco says with a shrug. He glances up momentarily, something piquing his interest off to the side.
"Is that your camera?"
You crane your neck to see where he's looking and sure enough, your personal DSLR is right there on the bedside drawer. You look back at Franco, an eyebrow raised.
"You wanna use it?" You ask, not expecting him to actually say yes. But a mischievous grin settles on Franco's face and you feel your heart skip several beats.
"Knock yourself out," you say.
Franco reaches for the camera and fiddles with it for a few seconds. His eyes scan over your body and you suddenly feel the urge to hide away with how hard he's looking.
"May I?" Franco asks, brandishing the camera. Your mouth falls open as you realize what he's asking.
"You can keep them for yourself. For your eyes only," Franco hurriedly adds, planting his knees firmly on either side of you.
You stare up at him, a million thoughts running through your mind.
"Just...touch yourself."
You gasp, stunned at his proposal. Franco watches through the LCD monitor, glancing up at you through his lashes. Your bottom lip slips between your teeth, and as if on instinct, your hand inches down slowly between your legs.
"You're in front of cameras all the time," Franco reminds with a smirk. "This should be easy for you."
You suppress a whimper at his words, your fingertips swiping through your slick folds. You're already soaked and you start to wonder if it started even before Franco got here.
The shutter clicks and the lens whirs, sharp against the soft breaths you're letting out. Franco is concentrated, snapping photo after photo as you rub yourself closer to release. But it's not enough. You need more.
"Franco...," you implore, peering up with bright, begging eyes.
"Slowly, mi amor," Franco coos. "Just where you like it. Right there."
Click.
"Harder now, but still slow. Yes? Feels good?"
You whine, eyes fluttering shut as your pleasure picks up again. Several clicks. You're panting now, the tendrils of release wrapping themselves around you.
"Faster, yes, like that," Franco eggs on. Your fingers speed up against your sensitive clit and a litany of Franco's name spills from your lips. Before you know it, he's putting the camera away. You reach for him, gripping the back of his neck as he smashes his lips into yours.
Franco bites down on your lip and you cry out, your orgasm washing over you like a tide. You arch against Franco, feeling his own stiffness heavy on your thigh.
You blink, Franco's face coming into focus, barely an inch from yours. He watches you closely, pupils blown wide and plump lips even redder. You hook your legs around his waist, letting him know that you're not done yet.
Franco is quick to pick up, smiling as lines himself up with you. The groan that escapes him is nothing short of delicious as he pushes himself in. You gasp along, the stretch a welcome sensation.
Franco wastes no time and pounds right into you, catching you by surprise. You let your head fall back against the mattress, a long, drawn-out whine erupting from deep within your chest as Franco licks a stripe up your neck.
Your whole body quakes with how hard he's thrusting into you but you're clearly enjoying it if your wanton moans are anything to go by. Franco meets your eyes and you pull him down, wanting nothing more than to drown in those lips of his.
It's feral and it's unrestrained, spurred on by the knowledge that this is more than unprofessional in your line of work. Not illegal by any means, but risky enough to warrant warnings from your coworkers. Never sleep with a driver unless you're committed.
Oh, well.
Franco groans loudly in your ear, movements losing their rhythm as he speeds up. You're clinging to him as if he'd disappear if you let go, your own belly tightening once more with that familiar feeling.
Franco. Franco. Franco.
He kisses you just as he finishes. Passionate, eager, heady. You feel him inside you, a different kind of elation filling you as you release all over him.
Franco pulls away to allow yourselves to breathe. He pulls out, rolling over to your side. You hug your folded knees to your chest, too lazy to get up and find something to deal with the mess.
"No hagas eso. Eso es demasiado doméstico," Franco jokes, moving closer and planting a kiss to your shoulder. Don't do that. That's too domestic.
"RelĂĄjate, estoy usando anticonceptiva," you reassure with a lighthearted roll of your eyes. Relax, I'm on birth control.
Franco hums, laying an arm over you. He pulls you close and you face him, reaching up to brush away some of his unruly hair.
He plants a gentle kiss on your forehead.
"Happy that you're a Formula 1 driver?" You ask, grinning.
Franco chuckles. "Very."
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Isekaied as the Yandere Villain!? Pt 2
Part one
It was almost 2 minutes before I realized I was still dragging the crown prince behind me. I quickly dropped his hand and looked at him, not able to hide the embarrassment on my face. Listen- Iâm committed to the bit. I WILL be the crazy jealous fiancĂ©. But⊠Iâm still human ok. I just dragged a full grown man down several halls and a flight of stairs while I spaced out thinking about how Iâm gonna buy my cat premium wet food once I get back home to her.
Itâs fine, Iâm not flustered at spacing out about my cat, my characters just flustered because sheâs been holding the hand of the man sheâs obsessed with, thatâs all!
âWellâŠ. Did you still want to dine and take that walk?â
I expected him to scold me for my mistreatment of Cressida, grow irritated from me dragging him along like this. Instead, he chuckles and threads his arm in mine, and begins escorting me down the hall.
âAbsolutely, have you dined outside by the roses yet? Thereâs this lovely pavilion that I am eager to hear your thoughts on.â
And thatâs how I found myself under an impressive array of roses, all trained up and around a cozy dining area, creating a canopy of green and pink over an intimate tea table. The food was equally impressive, I had to keep reminding myself that the other me is used to this lavish lifestyle, to not gawk at the fancy tiny sandwiches and deserts.
âWell? Is everything to your liking? â
Iâm going off script here, how am I supposed to know how the villainess would react to a romantic scene like this?? If my âevil crazyâ side isnât supposed to be directed at him, and sheâs usually kinda distant and unsure around himâŠ. That means I should probably respond pretty curtly, polite, yet not really engaging. ButâŠ. Iâve already messed that upâŠ. I guess I can be more genuine when itâs the two of us like this. He can think that this version of me is the facade, that Iâm pretending to be pleasant, and then will start to see what a jerk âIâ truly am when Cressidaâs around. BesidesâŠ. I almost feel bad for the villainess. She really just seems like she was shy. Who knows- maybe, if given the opportunity, she really would have opened up more. Itâs clear she loved the prince, and just didnât know how to show it. So, with that thought, I made up my mind.
âItâs breathtaking! Roses are my favorite flower, and Iâve never seen so many kinds in bloom at onceâŠ. Plus the food and company leave little to be desired.â
There you go- slip in some subtle flirting! Iâm not quite sure what time period this is supposed to be, but I get the impression flirting as bit more high class here, and I think I can have some fun with that.
âIâm glad, to be honest I was a bit flustered asking you to dine with me⊠you caught me quite off guard today, but in a good way.â He reaches his hand across the table and places it on my own, âIâd like to do this more often, you and I. I feel like the confines of our current arrangement have left us practically strangers, despite being engaged for several months already. Iâm enjoying just being companionable with you, even if itâs just existing comfortably in the same room.â
Ohhhh, I know Iâm the villain in this story but I canât help but root for him- what a sweetheart! Itâs so obvious heâs been lonely, I canât wait for him and Cressida to fall in love and have a couple of kids that theyâll spoil rotten. And in the meantimeâŠ. Maybe I do have a bit of evil in me, because Iâm going to selfishly enjoy this handsome man treating me to lunches under roses and reading in cozy libraries while I can.
âI know exactly how you feel your highness. Now, you mentioned a walk?â
We spent the afternoon laughing and chatting, and it felt nice to chat without worrying too much about my role. He asked me about that book I picked out earlier, and listened attentively as I caught him up with where Iâm at in the plot. In turn, I asked about what papers heâs been signing, documents heâs been drafting, etc.
The only thing I had to do was send glares to any young ladies we passed, settling my hand on his arm possessively, and I saw their eyes widen and faces disappear behind fans as they whisper to one another. I can picture this illustrated in a manhwa- the nasty princess sinking her claws into the gullible prince⊠hopefully all these ladies will start gossiping and we can really cement this evil persona of mine now that Cressidaâs here.
When we returned to our separate apartments, I explored my rooms a bit until servants came to get me ready for dinner, and I slipped back into the frigid bitch persona. The servant girls dressed me in a slightly stuffy gown, but I had to admit, I looked gorgeous. I sat stiff and straight as they did my hair, forcing myself to be the very picture of cold indifference. I then dismissively thanked them for their help, then sat there awkwardly as they stared at me like I was crazy.
Ohhhh shitâŠ. The original story hadnât prepared me for this. My character was a villain, yes, but a side character for the most part! How was she supposed to act towards her servants? I went over what I knew- the novel showed the villainess alone quite often, usually obsessing over Eric and plotting/stalking. It showed her with Eric, and how distant and awkward their relationship was when together. And then of course the numerous scenes with Cressida where the Villainess did all sorts of heinous things to the sweet girl. But⊠it never depicted her with servants, or even any friends or other nobles. Just⊠Eric and Cressida. Was other me not actually a bitch all the time? Am I being unnecessarily rude right now? Oh god Iâm such an idiot.
The story is told through Cressidaâs point of view- of course thereâs more depth to my own character than I initially thought! The Villianess must be a misunderstood introvert! Unsure of how to act around her crush, sheâs fiercely insecure and jealous of this new girl who doesnât struggle the same way she does. When she notices the prince slipping from her grasp, she acts out against Cressida because she canât bear to lose Eric!
As someoneâs whoâs worked minimum wage jobs and struggled with social anxiety most of my life, I try to be nice to the people just working to survive, but here I am acting like these poor women are the dirt beneath my shoeâŠ. Ok. Um. Well theyâre still standing there in shock, I can fix thisâŠ.
âYou really did a lovely job⊠my hair has never looked so gorgeous, youâre truly talented! And I think the prince will be very pleased with this choice of ribbon!â
There- I was nicer, and I brought it back to Eric, so Iâm still the lovesick fiancĂ© whose entire world is waiting for her in the dining room. I frowned as the servants scuttled out of the room with hurried excuses, all of them looking like they were about to faint. Damn it⊠I canât believe I misread the relationship between us. I probably just ruined their night by being uncharacteristically rude. Iâve gotta learn their names next timeâŠ. Maybe ask them to help me eat some fancy pastries as an apologyâŠ?
I didnât know it, but while I was lamenting how wrong I was about the Villainessâ character, the servants were all gossiping to the others about what had just transpired.
âYouâre telling me she said THANK YOU!?â
âYes!!! And then you should have seen how nervous she got! She just rambled, blurting out such a sweet compliment, and she even tied it back to the prince!â
âI had no idea how precious she was⊠I canât believe I never realized sheâs just shy! In a new place, all alone aside from her new fiancĂ©âŠ. Who I gather sheâs got a bit of a crush on! Poor dear.â
âOhh our sweet girl, Iâm sure it must be hard bonding with the prince, when all you do is sit yards apart and hardly speak âŠâ
âWell I may have some news about that⊠and itâs no wonder she was a bit flustered today, because I saw the two of them in the gardens today! They were both nothing but smiles- absolutely smitten with one another!â
âSuch a lovely girl, and we never knew it all this time!â
Apparently, I had it backwards. The real villainess truly was a 2D, basic character. She was insecure and possessive over the prince, bullying Cressida half to remind her who Eric belonged to, half for the fun of it. But she didnât let on to anyone about the true depth of her love for him. She didnât gossip to her handmaid, didnât ask the servants which dress he would like better. Simply acted as if they did not exist, hardly saying a word to them.
While I thought my blunt âthank youâ was colder than they were used to, and then tried to smooth things overâŠ. It was more words than theyâd heard from me in the whole time Iâd lived in the palace. They lapped it up and declared me their own shy little dove after that.
When I arrived to dinner, I realized why daily dinners werenât exactly a bonding activity for the villainess and Eric. The table was massive, and only held two chairs, one at either end. It felt soâŠ. Cold?
Eric had beat me there, and quickly stood up from his seat, waiting until I sat and a servant pushed in my chair to retake his own seat. He smiled at me and said,
âGood evening, princess.â
He had to project his voice slightly. It wasnât like he was shouting or being loud, it was just the manner of speaking you use when talking to an elderly relative, clearer, and enunciating better so they could hear you.
I replied back, projecting my voice similarly, and found the conversation was, in fact, more awkward than it had been earlier. We ate our food mostly in silence, occasionally one of us would say something and the other would stop moving their utensils on their plate, listening closer as they ask,
âWhatâs that?â
By the time dinner was over and we each went to bed, I felt drained. I could have just been louder I suppose- but itâs so hard to keep up a conversation like that. I know we get along- we had chatted all afternoon after all. But some part of me realized itâs probably good to keep a bit of distance between us, even if Iâve rewritten things to be a bit chummier between the two of us. Cressida needs to swoop in and steal him from me⊠and my job is still to leave that room for her to do so.
Itâs hard trying to be someone else, yet also making sure you lead the plot in the right direction- itâs exhausting! I feel like both director and actress!
Itâs with this in mind that I launch myself into the softest bed Iâd ever felt, and passed out. My first day as princess consort, the Yandere fiancĂ©, complete.
While I was getting acquainted with my feather bed, Eric was speaking with the head waitstaff.
âYes, tomorrow, would you mind adjusting the seating situation? Iâd like for the princess consort and I to be closer together from now on. Yes, and ask my assistant to arrange my schedules like so, Iâve detailed it here. Thank you.â
At the same time, Cressida was recounting her run in with the prince and I to her handmaiden as she finishing unpacking and settling into her familyâs guest apartments. Which, unbeknownst to me⊠was right across the hall.
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jealousy, jealousy / aaron hotchner
hereâs my masterlist! pairing: aaron hotchner x bau!reader / shy!reader word count: 2.4k genre & cw: fluff, a little jealousy and pining angst if u squint, mentions of made-up case, different use of cm character a/n: thank u so much for all the support i've been getting on my fics!! hope you love this one as much as i do, i really enjoyed writing this one the most!
Today was a bad day. That much was clear. From the moment you woke up to the minute you arrived at the BAUâ youâre convinced that the universe has simply gone the extra mile to make your life a little harder.Â
You slept through your alarm and a few phone calls from Garcia, making your morning stressful and complete chaos. You didnât have time to grab a cup of coffee or a snack, and apparently you also didnât have time to remove the colorful pimple patches that adorned your face.Â
Your blouse is buttoned asymmetrically, your hair resembling a bird's nest, and you left your ID at home, making your arrival more delayed as you had to employ Garciaâs help in presenting a copy of your ID to let you through.Â
That too was not without stress given that your phone was on the verge of dying as you were in the call, but thankfully you could finally breathe in the elevator. Or so you thought.Â
There were two things that immediately caught you off guard as you walked into the bullpen: one, almost all the desks were deserted and two, Reid and Morgan were watching you- as if waiting for your reaction, which led you to look around in anticipation. Is there a surprise? A prank? Did I miss a patch? IâmâŠwearing pants, right?Â
Not wanting to prolong your search, you look at the two for any indication or clue. Tilting your head to the side as if to ask what? But to your surprise, they both nod their heads in one direction. Oh.
Strauss was in Hotchâs office, along with Rossi and a woman you donât recognize. Hotch looked a bit tense, Strauss firm, Rossi is as relaxed as ever, and the woman⊠is looking directly at Hotch. Just Hotch. Huh.Â
You were stood just shy of your desk when you shook thoughts out of your head, slowly approaching your desk to settle your things. Dozens of scenarios were running through your head, trying to make sense of new additions to an otherwise normal day.Â
But the way she was studying him made your chest tight like someone was stepping on it.. and you couldnât figure out why.Â
You approach the two rascals only to lean on Derekâs desk as you whisper under your breath, âWhatâs happening there?âÂ
Morgan shrugs but his focused face remains, âI donât know, kid. I tried Garcia but she doesnât have a clue either.â Eyes studying the people in the room, noting anything that could tell them something.Â
Mulling over more possibilities, you hum in response. Turning to Reid, you ask him- hoping that his eidetic memory can tell you anything about the woman even if theyâd only met in passing.Â
âDo you know anything, Spence?â But Reid only pouts at you, a sign that heâs thought about it hard but is coming up empty.Â
Shaking his head, he soberly replies, âNo..I donât think so. Iâ Iâve never seen her before. Sorry.âÂ
Before any more thoughts could be voiced between the three of you, the door to Hotchâs office opens and all four of them file out- the woman walking a little too close to Hotch.Â
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Youâre approaching your usual seat on the jet beside Morgan and across from Hotch when suddenly Agent Seaver overtakes you and sits on your seat. Caught by surprise, your eyes instinctively go to Hotch whoâs already looking at you.Â
He nods to himself, moving from the aisle seat to the one by the window. But it appears Agent Seaver misunderstood his gesture and moved beside him, âOh! Thank you, sir.â Even going as far as touching his arm and leaning closely.Â
Now, youâve never been a violent person. Rage has just never overcome your senses like that but today.. of all daysâ you couldnât help the image of spilling your hot chocolate all over her cream blouse.Â
You donât even notice that youâre frowning as you sit beside Morgan, somehow still unaware of how much their closeness really upsets you. You honestly thought youâve maintained an expressionless face until Morgan looks up from his file and leans close to whisper in your ear, âYouâll need claws not paws, baby girl.â Winking at you as you separate.Â
You steal a glance at Hotch only to see him watching you and Morgan with furrowed brows. He almost looks normal if it werenât for the clenching of his jaw thatâs his tell of irritation. Moving your gaze to Seaver, in case you missed something thatâs causing his new mood, you find her reading the case file.Â
As you return your gaze on Hotch, you watch as Seaver touches his arm again and engages him in conversation about the case. Itâs through the whole jet ride that you had to stomach the constant Agent Hotchner, Agent Hotchner! paired with a giggle or a slight touch. UGH!
If it werenât for Strauss personally recommending Agent Seaver as a consultant for this case, you would have doneâ âŠstill absolutely nothing. You had no claim whatsoever over Hotch. Morgan and Rossi may tease the two of you occasionally, forcing that he treats you specially or whatever but his behavior could simply be chalked off as him being a good and attentive boss.Â
And yes, okay fine. You may have some moments here and there⊠but! they could honestly just be built up in your head because of the feelings you have for him. Like when he said he likes it when you stare? Come on, being stared at can be flattering and thatâs just a universal truth.Â
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After a whole day of coming up with theories, visiting crime scenes and M.E.âs, youâre all completely spent. Lounging in the makeshift discussion room, all of you are still working tirelessly on the case given that the unsubâs on a spree and his timeline is alarmingly short.Â
Reidâs been silently staring at the board for 20 minutes while Morganâs pretending to read files of potential suspects with his legs stretched out and feet on the table, âThis is impossible. We just donât have enough.â He exclaims as he tosses the file on the table with a thud.Â
To the left of Morgan, youâre also silently mulling over files of potential suspects. Not wanting to admit that heâs right, you guys donât have enoughâŠbodies. You barely have anything on the guy, barely any clues- for a working profile.Â
You sigh heavily, peeling your eyes off the paper and looking at the board. âReid?â The boy genius shakes his head softly, confirming that the known dump sites donât say much about the unsubâs comfort zones or hunting ground.Â
You suddenly wonder where Seaver, Hotch and Rossi are. You and Morgan got back to the precinct at around 11PM, and you realize you havenât seen any of them, âWhere are the others?âÂ
Morgan, in an effort to lighten the mood, jumps at the chance to tease you, âHmm. I think what youâre really asking is: Whereâs Hotch and is he with Seaver?â He punches your arm lightly, making it obvious heâs only teasing.Â
The smug, playful smile on his face makes you fight one of your own, desperately trying to not give yourself away, âShut up,â hitting him in the head softly with the file in your hand.Â
While you two were exchanging playful glares, Reid interjects, âSeaver wanted to turn in early since sheâs also the one meeting with the families tomorrow so Hotch brought her to the hotel.âÂ
You instantly lift your gaze to him and watch as he removes the markerâs cap and scribbles rapidly on the board, quickly adding âAnd Iâm pretty sure Rossiâs getting us coffee from the diner around the block.âÂ
You want to blame it on your exhaustionâ your inability and ineffectiveness at hiding how you truly feel about what Reid just revealed to you, groaning loudly in pain and frustration. You put your head in your hands, muffling the sounds youâre making that are somehow a combination of a laugh and a sob.Â
Morgan understands your reaction immediately and laughs out loud.Â
âItâs not funny!â There was honestly no point in hiding it. As much as Morgan teased you, you knew he wouldnât tell anyway, and Reid.. well, he was honestly an even better keeper of secrets than Morgan, Rossi and Garcia.Â
He puts a hand on your shoulder to comfort you, âBaby girl, worry not. You know you hold a special place in boss manâs heart.â Then gripping both your wrists to pry your hands off your face.Â
Pressing your face even further into your hands, you let out a muffled version of âThatâs not true!â that came out more as âDaffs noft thwu!âÂ
When Morgan successfully pries your hands off your face, youâre surprised to see Reidâs moved from the board to behind Morgan, half leaning half sitting on the table, curiously watching you.Â
Morgan turns around to look at the door behind you, making sure the coast is clear before he says, âKid. Be real with me for a sec⊠are you blind?â That was not the question you were expecting.Â
You must have looked so lost because he continues, âHotch cares for you. Deeply. And not in the same way he does for us. Youâve gotta have felt that, kid.â Funny, you are starting to feel like a kidâ the only thing missing are his hands on your shoulders to complete that huddle pep talk experience.Â
âThatâs just notââ you try to start. But Reid swiftly raises his hand, signing you to stopâ
âDid you know that every morning Hotch makes sure all the pens and mug handles on your desk are pointing to the rightâ the way you need it to beâ in case the night janitors move any out of place?â
âOr that he never really ate lunch in the office before but started bringing sandwiches and other food he could microwave, while timing his lunches with yours presumably so he could strike up a conversation with you during break?âÂ
âOr do you remember that one time the AC in the bullpen broke and we were all sweating badly, and I said the heat was making me too thirsty then he disappeared into his office and came back with a bottle of water and an orange juice box only to give it to you?âÂ
Morgan lets out a loud laugh at that one while Reid pouts playfully, âI mean I was genuinely dying then.âÂ
Not without his own input, Morgan smiles softly at you with a raised brow âDid you know he personally restocks your favorite hot chocolate in the pantry and on the jet? Including the marshmallows.âÂ
You breathe in deeply, the revelations sounding too good to be true but winding nonetheless. You crack a small joke, trying to play it off âAnd I thought the bureau was just feeling really generous.âÂ
The two, who have grown to be such brothers, give you the exact same look of Really?Â
As Reid rounds the table to go back and stand by the board, Morgan catches your attention and holds your eye, âLook, thereâs so much more, kid. But they all point to the same thing.â He says this as softly as possible, as if to not scare you away.Â
You let out a soft, breathy laugh. Shaking your head, âThat just canât be true.âÂ
With all three of your backs to the door, you donât notice Rossi nearing. You just suddenly hear his voice from behind, rounding the table and settling the coffee cups in front of all of you, âCoffee, anyone?âÂ
As if trapped in the null of the previous conversation, youâre still looking at Morgan as you lean back in your chair, slumping further to seek non-existent cover. Reid, who is now back in his own world with the board, is handed a cup by Rossi, who didnât even turn to look- only stretching out an arm to receive it and mumbling a distracted âThanks.â Â
Rossi, who is simply too smart for his own good, impressively senses something hanging in the air, nonchalantly asking about the tailend of a conversation he was not supposed to hear, âSo⊠what canât be true?âÂ
Back to lounging excessively on a chair that is a tad too tiny for him, with legs outstretched and feet on the corner on the tableâ Morgan spouts, âThat sheâs Hotchâs girl, and has no reason to be jealous of Seaverâ who by the way needs the HR orientation more than Penelope and I.âÂ
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Nowâ all of your backs are to the door except Rossiâs. Not one of you tried to move due to fatigue, let alone look.
Unbeknownst to you, Morgan, and Reid, on the way back to the precinct from the hotel, Hotch had the genius thought of picking up Rossi so the latter wouldnât have to walk a block with trays of coffee on hand.
Hotch and Rossi arrived together. And as Rossi went around the table to give you your cups of coffee, Hotch stayed behindâ leaning on the doorframe with arms crossed, watching you and the team.
Imagine his surprise, hearing what Morgan just said. His heart skipped a beat, his stomach dropped. His entire being froze entirely.. What? Jealous?Â
In his mind, he had two choices: Act like he didnât hear it and save you from embarrassment or use it to his advantage and make his intentions clear..ish.Â
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You gasp loudly at his bluntnessâ and in front of Rossi! Straightening in your chair and pointing an accusatory finger at Morgan, âYou littleâ I am NOT jealous! and I am NOT HotchâsââÂ
Cut off by someone loudly clearing their throat from behind all of you, you all freeze, including Reid who hasnât been actively paying attention until now.Â
The hair on your neck stands up as you hear the nearing footsteps, already envisioning digging your own grave in your head when finally, Hotch is standing right beside you.Â
Youâre all still pretty frozen, save from the slow movement which is your eyes slowly lifting its gaze to the man in question until they meet his hazel orbs. He holds your stare as he leans on the desk, arms straining in his shirtâÂ
Out of the corner of your eye you can see Rossi fighting a smile, and just as youâre about to mentally curse him in your head, youâre broken out of your thoughts by a deep voice,Â
âYou donât think youâre my girl?âÂ
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