#have a non-angsty one because the next one is def angsty

[bamsara]

i have so many dream/nightmare related comic scenes I havent posted. anyway hold this real quick

[pastafossa]

I’ve just started reading trt like just started on the kidnapping arc just started and I’m loving it, but do you think you could lay out a list of all the arcs that have happened up until now and which ones hurst the most? Just cause I’m a little squirmy when it comes to angst and I wanna know when to expect it :D

I can! Absolutely! I keep meaning to make an index one day I'll do that. I'll be a little vague for spoilers but still open about the angsty parts. I'll also put it behind a spoiler wall for anyone who doesn't want to see it!

Matt, seen here identifying the spoilers below that Keep Reading bar...

Kidnapping arc: right now you're on the kidnapping arc! Lots of cuddling and softness after that arc (ch12-13).

Devil-Hunt: fun chapters with their version of hide and seek (affectionately called Devil-Hunt) for ch14-15! No angst, only joy.

Old Friend Visit🌧️: Next bit of drama pops back up around ch16-19 with a visit from an old friend. Bit of angst, maybe 1-2 sad rainy clouds out of 5.

Matt Gets Slashed By Nobu And Then Argues With Foggy🌧️🌧️🌧️: general sadness as we touch on Matt getting shredded by Nobu canonically and his and Foggy's fight starting at ch20. That's always depressing (canonically 5 of 5 sad rainy clouds) but no worries, we comfort him through it. There's a little bit of him being, understandably, sad and miserable, so a bit of angst, but there's a lot of comfort and cuddling and such there too to balance it - and that weekend of caretaking ends around ch26.

Various Non-Angst Arcs: Basically comfort comfort, growing relationship, some plot stuff with SHIELD, dealing with canonical events, no major bad vibes. (Ch27-31)

Away Chapters🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️: Next bit of angst has been, up until now, one of the rougher points to go through. You'll get your first hint of it starting at the end of Ch32. Buildup to Ch34 in which Reader/Jane... has to leave town for a very specific reason, and thus say goodbye for a bit. That leads us into the Away Chapters arc - what they're both up to, how they're both dealing with the separation, important plot events, etc. Fairly angsty and sad, but it's with the understanding (on both their parts) that the separation is temporary. Separation ends in Ch42 in a way that deserves fireworks!

Various Non-Angst Arcs: Lots of cuddling after that, dealing with the separation, and with any injuries that might have been gained, some plot stuff. Slight bit of angst having to do with our Mortal Enemy White Coat Asshole, but nothing major. Ch43-48.

Hypothermia arc: from ch49-52! Maybe 1 rainy cloudy? Not really though. Mostly just good god, matt, what the fuck.

Fuck-ton of Romance Arcs: Lots of romance-y things after this! Romance romance romance. Ch53-62!

Woops it looked like you almost died arc🌧️🌧️: Ch63-65 involves a short angsty, very close call and an argument about it arc, so some angst because Almost Died. Maybe 2-3 clouds. Def not 5 clouds though.

Devil-Hunt arc: More Devil-Hunt because it's fun. Zero clouds, only fun.

Buildup bits and pieces of angst 🌧️ to 🌧️🌧️🌧️: OK so this next arc's a little trickier since it's leading to a big reveal and I've set it up way ahead of time. This one involves pieces of angst slowly woven in and building up in between other more chill events - Starting around 68... what happened in Los Angeles with the fire, aaaaall of that is going to start creeping in and making itself known. You'll get, say, an angsty scene about it in Ch70 but only for the first section, while the rest of the chapter is not all that angsty. At first it's mostly woven in between other arcs - a Big Visit from a friend (Ch68-73)🌧️🌧️, dealing with some bounty hunters (ch76-78), some smut (ch78-79), and lots of Matt being very loving and soft and supportive in between. Short angsty moments range between 1 cloud and 3 clouds out of five.

You'll know you're getting close to the Angst Dive when Frank canonically shoots Matt between the eyes (Ch83🌧️🌧️) and he loses his hearing temporarily. We're gonna obviously have some comfort and caretaking and soft discussions (ch84-90) though before we get into the fire stuff, because Matt deserves it.

Los Angeles Fire Comes Out🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️🌧️: Once you hit Ch91... We're gonna slowly begin our descent into true Five Cloud Angst territory. This is the arc we're in now so I can't say how many chapters it will take, although I'm estimating another 2-3 update cycles depending on how much time I have with moving. This will likely be our darkest, angsty-est section yet - there will be misunderstandings, miscommunication, a lot of Matt's insecurity and self-loathing unintentionally crashing together with Reader/Jane's guilt and insecurity. There will be tears, hurt, and some brokenness. I will promise, though, that the storm of it will be over by morning in the fic - so our lovely couple just has to get through one night and then things will get easier (there will be comfort, cuddling, emotional comfort smut, all the good stuff). A lot of readers are waiting until this section is done to read through it, so if you're looking to do the same, I'm tagging each of these angsty updates with raincloud emojis in the tumblr updates and in the chapter summaries! There will be a little sunshine symbol when we come out of it. <3 After that, you can expect softer things for a bit because I always try to give ya'll a bunch of happy breathing room between the heavy stuff. No perma-gloom here!

As for what's in the future... I know the angsty points that are coming, just not what chapters precisely! I try to add an angst warning but if you ever need to know if the current arc will be depressing or sad, feel free to ask and I'll let you know!

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

[peterparkerincorrectquotes]

Okay, random stupid headcanon, but it made me laugh so I'm sharing it with you: Peter introduces Tony to anime (Naruto, FMA, Fairy Tail, Code Geass, etc.) At first, Tony is confused but will watch it with Peter cause it makes the kid happy. But slowly, Tony starts to enjoy it himself and becomes a (closeted?) otaku!

lmao u weeb

unrelated but fmab is literally my fave show ever ngl that shit SMACKS like it hits different ugh

•  I honestly don’t hc peter as that big of an anime fan! He probably doesn’t obsess, but some of the shows he likes happen to be anime! Peter def watches things like Brooklyn 99, The Good Place, Parks and Rec, How I Met Your Mother, and stuff!! But if MJ or Ned were to ask him to watch a couple episodes of a popular anime with them, he wouldn’t say no!! 

•  Like he watches a few episodes, thinks, “Hey that’s not actually bad!” and so he finishes the show. If it’s FMAB, he probably shows it to Tony because he thinks Tony will relate to it

•  I mean… the protagonist is a snarky genius whose greatest ally is a suit of armor…. 

•  whose love interest is an equally (but differently) smart woman who is the only one with a braincell in the relationship…. 

•  he butts heads with a colonel, but ultimately they have each other’s backs….

•  they both have father issues….

•  The only difference is Ed’s father actually turns out to not be an asshole, whereas Howard will always be a dick

•  Anyway, that’s beside the point. Peter watches the show and goes, “Oh, I bet Mr. Stark would like this!” because he sees the similarities! And next time he visits Tony, he asks if he’d wanna watch an episode with him.

•  Tony is immediately hooked. He relates to Ed’s intelligence and constant anger. He digs the angsty teen vibe. And he inexplicably feels like there has never been a character that is just so him before

tony: pepper. pep. honey. babe. pep. love of my life. amazing wife

pepper: what, tony?

tony: so I know halloween was only, like, last week, but I have an idea for a halloween costume next year

pepper: it better not be from that animated show peter had you watch

tony, signaling the iron man suit he designed to look like Al back around the corner and hiding the Winry costume he bought for pepper behind his back: whaaaat?? no!! I would never!!! *sweats*

•  Tbh Tony wouldn’t be too closeted about liking it, cuz even by non anime standards it’s a KILLER show! And the soundtrack is PHENOMENAL. Like he’d totally be workin’ in his lab, listening to the soundtrack instead of his standard classic rock.

pepper, passing the staircase to the basement, where muffled battle music can be heard:

•  Tony definitely tries to get Pepper to watch with him.

tony: ok but I think you’ll really like it, pep

pepper: tony I have work to do

tony: cmon the episodes are twenty minutes! you have twenty minutes for me! give me twenty minutes please just watch ONE episode with me

pepper:

“I ain’t no weeaboo trash tony”

•  Peter will watch with him tho :’) it becomes father-son bonding time!! When Morgan is older, she watches, too, and Pepper sits in the room, pretending not to be interested

[bisexualterror]

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so i have a lot of bookmarks saved on google chrome (hmu if you want me to do a writing resources list or a second fic rec), and i thought might as well do a fic rec! i seperated them by fandom’s and i did my very best to tell you why i love the fic, but i think i just rambled lmao

tagging my friends who i think might b interested: @ocfairygodmother​ @phoenixwench​ @leftzonkpsychicland​ @artish-calamity​ 

minor warning, this is a long list~

Vampire Diaries:

Bits of Sunshine is my favorite Vampire Diaries fic, it has a really funny and charming OC and gives you a different perspective of the main characters and it really inspired me with my own TVD fanfic, it’s still on hiatus but it’s nearly 500k makes up for it 

The Bystander offers a unique view to OCs, where the OC is separated from the main plot for the most part but interacts with main characters that eventually pull her in

Crimson Peak is really good if you love a powerful Bonnie Bennett, it explores the magic of Expression more and her family background and OC Bennetts and it offers a interesting plot and a rare pairing of Klaus/Bonnie

The Next Chapter is a Buffy crossover fanfic, it puts Buffy in the Vampire Diaries, and though I still haven’t finished it was pretty good at meshing the two shows and exploring more of an older Buffy ~

My Paper Heart is really good if you’ve been trying to look for f/f in this fandom and haven’t found it, it not only explores the oc’s sexuality but also their supernatural identity

beneath the steady waves of fearless hope and grace is also a really good queer bennett witch oc, the oc wakes up in TVD in the body of her parallel fictional universe self I guess you could say, and it has a lot of angst like whoo boi, prepare yourself, it’s so good! 

Human is pretty good, love their oc, it hasn’t been updates in a very long while but it has 100k+ and it’s 100% worth it if you’re looking for something different

Harry Potter:

Changes Everything is really good at addressing the potential problems in the Wizarding World through the lenses of an OC, and it has Harry getting the family he fucking deserves sooner rather than later, and it goes into amazing detail and depth over the magics of the universe. also, lots of lgbt+ characters~

@nonchalantxfish ‘s Rose Petal Red is so good, like, you want Slytherins being amazing and devious, this is the fic for you! you want ocs galore?? this is for you! you want changes to the plot but with serious consequences?? this one is for YOU! Although it’s on haitus rn, it has a shit ton of words, like 500k+ and it’s 100% worth it~

The Clockwork Locket is so good guys, it’s an Marauder era fic, and it has an amazing mix of humor and mystery and romance and friendship and by the end you’ll be shipping the oc with literally everyone lmao, but overall it’s just really good if you’re looking for a Sirius/OC but still want to read about the mysteries in Hogwarts and the OC has her own plot and storyline. The second installment is still in progress but the first installment is like 270k words

Daphne Greengrass, Side Character is what it says on the tin, it’s about daphne and takes a different approach to the character with humor and wit, it’s very enjoyable, still not finished but it’s at 100k+ words

To Be a Slytherin, pretty sure everyone’s seen this one at one point, it’s a really good oc potter twin fanfic, goes into detail with magic and it’s just really good and has one of the longest word count i’ve ever seen at 1,166,349 

The Observer Effect is a MCU crossover with adult fem!Harry, it hasn’t been updating in a while, but from what I remember it’s super good and funny!

Naruto:

A Holmes in Konoha is super good, an Holmes OC is reincarnated as a orphan in Konoha, it explores the Nara’s more and it’s just so good at meshing investigation, friendship and relationships, action and drama~ 

Deja vu no Justu is a time travel fic, it’s really good, have not caught up to it since it first started but it has 500k+ words written and from what I remember it was very well written, like holy shit that was good writing ~

How to Obtain a Reverse Harem in Naruto by @burntpetal16 is pretty freakin good at making me laugh, it’s a remake of their finished fanfic, Sakura, which is equally as good, it’s about an self-insert OC suddenly waking up as Sakura, and Sakura def does what it says on the tin but also there’s an air of mystery surrounding the OC and how they got in the universe who she was before

The Yondaime’s Assistant is finished at 165k+ words and it’s good, like so good, it’s an OC reincarnated into Naruto fanfic, and it’s different from a lot of other OCs in the fandom because the OC goes into the Genin Corps instead of going out into the field, the writer manages to enthrall you with paperwork basically as the OC saves people from the background, it’s also endgame poly relationship between her, Genma and Kakashi!

After the Rain is a fem!Naruto time-travel fanfic, another fic which i haven’t finished, but from what I remember it was it’s done really well and has a lot of angst and drama and action and it’s just, prepare YOSELF for HEART wrenching ANGST!! also it’s 500k+ words!

The Witcher:

The Sorceress, The Witcher, The Bard and a Girl is what it says on the tin, it’s AU and an established ot3 situation w Yen/Geralt/Jaskier and it’s just,,, family fluff, disgusting domestic with all the drama that comes with three emotionally... complicated people trying to raise a young girl who has powers, starts off in a small town

Lullaby of the Isles is more so the game/book fandom, but it’s so good that I just didn’t care about that small fact, it’s still only four chapters but all together those four chapters have 17k+, and it’s about an OC suddenly waking up as a siren, a boss monster siren to exact, right after the siren had killed someone, and it’s just really good and different

And Yet Here We Are  is a collection of more ot3 fanfic of Yen/Geralt/Jaskier, it’s basically a lot of sexy times, but also some funny situations

to grow in adversity is the only fanfic that on this list i haven’t actually read, but the premise seems interesting enough, it’s about Renfri surviving and it has Jaskier as her baby bro

Better Love is surprise! another ot3 fanfic, only this time, you get to feel the pain of an unestablished relationship, it’s basically just Yen & Jaskier bickering while Yen tries to get Jaskier to fuck Geralt. It’s v horny, with a big hunking side of angst and some fluff. Completed and waiting for me to finish the last two chapter!

Teen Wolf: 

Sonder is @musiciatee​ ‘s OC fanfic, and it’s so good??? like every update I get to read blesses my imaginary crops, cures my depression and makes my skin glow like an goddess. If you’re looking for a good POC OC in this fandom, this is it okay. 

Kerosene Hearts and Matchbox Bodies is an OC fanfic, by @thegalanerd​, it’s being reworked right now, but 100% worth the read, but like, I would recommend any of their fanfics, it’s all very good like HOLY SHET it’s good. 

Red Rover, Red Rover is a pretty damn good OC fic, it’s on hiatus but it has 73 chapters and like nearly 500k words, it’s very dramatic, angsty, slow burn, mysterious, and the OC has their own little drama to deal with outside of the main plot

The Unconventional Life of Abigail McCall is probably one everyone has read by now, but if you haven’t, give it a shot, it made me smile a lot

Doctor Who: 

Three of a Kind, The Stuff of Legends is an male OC Tyler fanfic, and by god it is so good, very angsty, lots of drama, very AU, lowkey domestic, this drama gay OC must be protecccted at all costs

London Born is another Tyler OC, but Rose and her have different dad’s and she’s a character of color and bisexual, it’s just such a good fucking story and a favorite of mine, it’s also very AU and has a lot of original stories that the OC goes on, sometimes by themselves. It’s the first in a series, but this first installment is finished so I’d suggest subscribing to the collection for the second installment~

The Blonde Girl is the first installment of an AU of Rose’s start in the Doctor’s life, starting with them meeting randomly during different parts of their life and it basically slowly weaves Rose into the Doctor’s life/past. It’s really good, haven’t finished it yet, but I liked how they changed/expanded Rose’s character. Once you finish that you’ll want to start Defender of the Earth and The Companion Connection, the other’s I haven’t read yet so I don’t know the order they go in, but they’re all like 100k+ words and the author is still regularly updating their newest installment so enjoy~

Alexander-The Seer and Changer of Time is probably the longest DW OC fic out here, and was only last updated early last, but at a word count of  1477k+, I’m sure we’ll survive. This is another fic I haven’t finished reading, but one I’d high recommend either way. If I’m remembering correctly, don’t like quote me on this, but I believe their OC was non gender conforming.

The Dread of Tomorrow and Yesterday  was sadly cut short before the author finished, but the OC is so amazing and just my hero, and a character of color, will fight everyone and probably win, and just I love this OC so much and even though it probably won’t ever be finished it’s worth the read and it’s at nearly 800k so, enjoy each word~

Sailor Moon:

Rabbit of the Moon, is literally the ONLY fic I’m rec in this fandom, mainly because it’s the only fanfic I’ve ever read in this fandom, but it’s so good, like I was just feeling nolgastic over what was my first anime, but the OC is so...scary and smart and cunning and intense af

Twilight:

Twilight'd is a really good OC, it made me laugh a lot, and it makes you love the characters more than the actual writer made you like them

A Hundred Winks of Sunshine by @tsume-yuki​ is so good, like, I don’t know how to articulate how much I love their SI!Bella, like, I don’t read these types of stories a lot, but, tbh any story made them is just worth taking the risk to read because you won’t be let down. It’s very funny and charming and so good!

GOT/ASOIAF:

How To Lose Your Dragon is not really what it says on the tin, trust me I would never read a fic that would have anyone steal Dany’s dragons, it’s just the dragons like Jon, hmm I wonder why?? kind of fic, and I really love the way the writer writes Dany 

Can beauty come out of ashes is another Dany-centric fanfic, and it’s really good so far, but I’m only on the second chapter so I can’t say much but I like the idea of the Starks and Dany becoming pack. It ignores s7-8, so we already love~

MCU:

The Scientist is a good Loki/OC fanfic, like it’s so good because the OC doesn’t put up with any shit, and is very smart and it’s just so freakin good and cute and such a fucking slow burn, like get ready for some slow burn

Just An Old Fashioned Love Song by @izhunny​ is such a good Frostiron fic, like, so fucking good, just THE FLUFF~ THE DOMESTICS??? SO GOOD!! ALSO!! ALMOST ALWAYS MAKES ME FREAKING HUNGRY!!! haven’t finished this, but I’d highly recommend it 

Code Blue by @jarvis-is-my-copilot​ likeee, I haven’t finished reading this either, haha sorry, but I really like the OCs and it’s just.....SO....GOOD!!!

The Wooden Puppet is a really good OC fanfic, very different from ur usual OC, love the way the OC interacts with the characters and I love the way it started, it’s hilarious

Archaic Kinds Of Fun is like, all of my dreams and hopes for the Avengers put into one fic with an amazing OC, like did you want the team as a family, or hell even friends??? do you want them to get fuckin therapy??? HERE YOU GO! It hasn’t been updated in a while because the author has been through a tough time, but it’s at 370k+ and it’s just really good. an inspiration to me. Bruce/OC too, which is rare, but like, it’s just so fuckin cute and the OC is super fucking close w Tony too and Loki joins in later in the fic and it adds some comic book characters but, WOO, it’s just...SO GOOD!

Lilies Say Sorry is another Loki/OC fanfic that I liked that didn’t make me concerned over the power dynamics of Loki being a, well god. It’s the first in it’s installment, still haven’t finished the second installment, shocking, I know, it’s almost like I have a habit of doing that. But I’d highly suggest reading this, it’s just so good and the DRAMA!

I Need You is a Tony/Reader, and like, I usually don’t read Reader fics, but holy shit this is so good and the Author doesn’t do Y/N to address the character, but like, it’s just really good at drawing you in and it’s good at putting the character into the movies in a fresh way. It cured my acne. Very regular updates. almost at 400k. 

Caught Hot-Rod Red Handed is a Stony fic, it’s really fucking good at making me laugh so I’d highly suggest reading this if you’re feeling low, but also don’t read this late at night, you’ll wake up ur family and make them think ur laughing in ur sleep

Life In The Fast Lane is a Fast and Furious crossover fanfic, it’s the first installment, but you don’t need to know anything about the movies to be able to read it, it’s Tony/OC, (hahha you can literally see who I favor from my recs), and it’s so good, and the OC is bisexual and I love her and more people need to read because the author writes romance and action so freaking good

ps: please leave a nice review on their fanfics if you do read and enjoy some of these, because just one nice comment can make a fanfic writers day if not week, it lets them know that real people really are reading their stuff, even if it’s just a ‘good chapter’

[acesgroupchat]

Feedback Bingo: Wrap-up and Recs!

It’s finished! At long last! One of my favorite things about doing this festival is all the awesome fics I read for it (SO MANY AWESOME FICS). It also made me do a bunch of things I wouldn’t have otherwise done, and all of them were great fun. So if you’re thinking about doing it, do it! This is a list of everything I read for this, because it was all awesome and y’all should def give some of these a try! (Under a read more because I read a LOT of stuff for this thing, and I have a lot of feelings about it)

The Best Birthday Present by Kimboo_York: 

for: rarepair, and all works from a creator

This one is GREAT. It is both super funny and super earnest. I was totally charmed. I don’t actually ship Meng Zhi/Mei Changsu, but I fully did while I was reading this.

Choices by Kimboo_York:

for: recent work, and all works from a creator

You know who I DO ship though? I ship Lin Chen/Mei Changsu like a FIEND and this was EXACTLY what I wanted for that ship. It’s sexy, it’s heartbreaking, it’s snarky. It’s exactly them and I have already read it five times.

Things Lin Chen Never Says by ofsevenseas

for: work rated gen, 2+ year old work, long comment (tbh there were a LOT of long comments in this challenge but this was the first)

by now if you follow me you know that I live for Lin Chen. This fic WRECKED me. So full of grief, so wistful. If you want to get destroyed by feels in 300 words or less this is the fic for you.

Deux Banquets by Oceanna

For: different language, <2 comments (woo first!), engage in a discussion

If you have any French at all I recommend reading this fic. It’s great! a fascinating and unexpected crossover with MDZS, and a shitwack of awesome identity porn to boot. 10/10 would read again.

South of the Summer by Saliencense

for: femslash, <5 comments, 3 works in 1 day

This one is just so sweet and beautiful! It has a very “last moments of youth” feel. Very breathless and atmospheric.

Shape of My Heart by Anchorpoint

for: Non-text work, re-comment on an old fave, 3 works in 1 day

A video! More Lin Chen of course. This is a delicious little angsty thing and a huge part of the reason I watched Surgeons. re-incarnated Lin Chen trying AGAIN to save MCS in the modern era? Yes please.

So I Heard You Broke Sima Lei’s Leg by @convenientalias​

for: 3 works in 1 day, recommend on a different platform

I rec’d this one before, but I will again here. Mu Qing! Is! So! Cute! This is the good good sibling content you’ve been looking for, and a fantastic missing scene from the early show.

Fighter and Lover by @convenientalias​

for: recommend on a different platform, 5 day streak (and everything previously but this was the one that clinched it)

Even more good Mu Qing content! This one is extremely charming and a fascinating look at what an adult Nihuang/Xia Dong courtship might look like.

Birth of a Year by @convenientalias​

for: Live blog reactions to a work, Free Square: comment on a fic the day it comes out

This one made me laugh and then it totally wrecked me with Yujin feels. The conversation between Marquis Yan and Yujin had me on the edge of my seat. Also a ton of awesome cameos by our beloved supporting characters, and a fascinating look at the kinds of familial relationships in the show.

The Measure of Guilt by hongliu

for: every chapter of a multi-chapter work, cheerlead a WIP.

Ok this one? is SAD AF. Truly heartbreaking. PEAK tragic Lin Chen content. Will 100% make you cry. Angst of the highest order. 10/10 would wail again.

Ever Onward by @aboxthecolourofheartache​

for: visual transformative work, @ a creator on another platform

I spent literally every day of the challenge worrying about how I was going to get the visual square because I don’t draw AT ALL. And then I realized Lin Chen is just a vulpix and got WAY too invested in the idea of Ever Onward GO. @aboxthecolourofheartache​ is the best and most indulgent audience for my endless dumb ideas about her work, and I had a LOT of fun making weird screenshots for this. Will we ever see Gyrados!Jingrui? stay tuned to find out!

Seriously though if you haven’t read Ever Onward yet, drop everything and do that RIGHT NOW. Cancel your plans for the next week because it’s a Long Boy, but it’s gripping and fascinating and every possible kind of fun. 10/10 will screech forever.

The Purple Cup by @convenientalias​

for: include a link in a comment

I read this one in lecture (I’m the TA so it’s ok if I’m not always paying attention) and I had to work REALLY hard to keep my look of HORRIFIED delight off my face. This is such a wild concept and goes SO MANY cool places. Also the look inside the mind of Prince Yu is fascinating and frightening in all the right ways.

It also sent me on a completely inexplicable early Taylor Swift spiral. Which I then felt compelled to share.

the mist that cloaks the river, the clouds that hide the stars by @sovinly​

for: text-based transformative works, feedback using something other than words

Parts of this work feel like looking in a mirror, and it haunts me in the best way possible. Sovin’s ICONIC Fem!Yujin longfic will absolutely rock your world. Honors the experiences of a MUCH broader swath of women than canon, and the fix-it for Xie Qi that I never knew I needed but needed DESPERATELY. Go read it right now. Bring tissues and remember to hydrate.

To celebrate the last day of bingo I decided to write a double drabble (my first!) based on this, because that Xie Qi fix-it brings me so much comfort and joy, and I still think about it even a year after this fic ruined me.

[hyliantimelordin221b]

do you have some sanster fanfic recommendations? any rating 👀

i am SO glad you asked, my friend. because OH BOY. DO I.

For safety’s sake!!! fics that i like because of the varying levels of unhealthiness in their dynamic I have marked with a (!!) so that u are aware that the fic is not sunshine and rainbows! some of them contain content warnings so pls be aware of that, n also pls read the tags on the fic before u read them bc i haven’t read all of these very recently so i could be forgetting things to mention.

also !! explicit/mature fics are marked with (E) or (M) respectively. 

Memory by ratwormGOOD ANGSTY it makes my heart ache and also a rly interesting take on sans not remembering gaster after he falls :( i like this one a LOT ,, !!!

(M) Spoiled Sweet by AngeliaDarkTHE WAY GASTER TAKES CARE OF SANS IN THIS ONE KILLS ME it’s so intimate i cry ,,, also warning tho that it’s part of a sugardaddy au and there’s an implied age gap and also implied polyamory/papster but no fontcest, in case any of that makes u uncomfortable. rly cute how much gaster cares for sans n how he pampers him ,, also not teeeeechnically explicit but definitely rated M

(E) I’ve Got A Few Things To Say About These Two by Pomanderanother collection of sanster oneshots. ALL OF THESE ARE AMAZING. i’m absolutely in love with the portrayal of their relationship here–they’re much more like equals in this than boss and assistant.  so … intimate ….. it’s … gooooooood ….. they care about each other so much …….. anyways this was literally the first fic that came to mind when i saw the eyes emoji in ur ask bc this fic is so soft in some places but i’m still pretty sure every one of these is quite explicit lkjsdfl;kjsdf

(M, only chapter 3 tho) The Dump by overlordya collection of diff oneshots, but first four are sanster! THEIR FLIRTING ABSOLUTELY K I L L S me and the puns and their dynamic is so good in the first two chapters, and the next two are amazing angst too ahhhh.  there’s a flirty line in the first chapter abt the gravitational constant and idk maybe its bc i’m an engineering major in college but it had me dYinG.  heads up that chapter 3 is M-rated (and very angsty ,, good shit) but the rest are mostly just suggestive i think

(E) Dinner and a Show by ZodiacTHIS IS A VAMPIRE!GASTER AU AND I LOVE HOW NEEDY SANS IS IT  K I L L S  ME AKLSJDL;KASDF and i also love the way gaster’s dialogue is written. this one’s def a bit explicit ,, it be like that sometimes

(!!)(M) Monstrosity by mister13eyond and tripleCrocodilianOKAY SO LISTEN. LET ME SCREAM ABOUT THIS ONE FOR A MOMENT. this one’s an RP apparently, and its almost 200k words long.  i literally CANNOT commit to reading something that long because my attention span seriously just does n o t allow for that (especially since it’s abandoned ahhhhhh), but THERE’S A SEX SCENE AT THE END IN CHAPTER 19 THAT GIVES ME EVERYTHING I WANT OUT OF THIS SHIP.  IT’S G O O D. like it’s not explicit at all from what i remember, but it’s a lot of sans dying for gaster’s approval and gaster just… using him, not really giving half of a shit about him AND SANS KNOWS IT. AND HE STILL WANTS TO BE USED.  ITS GOOD.  I LOVE IT ITS SO UNHEALTHY ITS GOOOOOOOOOOD anyways i bet the whole thing is amazing but i just re-read starting halfway through chapter 19 and i’m screaming it’s great that is all

(!!)(M) Soul Tap by Askellie(NadaNine)I DON’T WANNA SCREAM TOO MUCH BUT THIS IS ALSO GOOD UNHEALTHY SANSTER, also just overall really well written with amazing style and some rly gr8 use of extended metaphor, this one has implied rape/non-con in it tho so pls be careful :// also !! papyrus worried for sans and good skelebro angst, i’m here for it always  (also vampire!gaster au, hmm i’m seeing a trend here.)

(!!)(M) Oathbound by 0neTypethe characterization in this one is amazing, more fucked-up sanster from gaster’s perspective. be warned this one also contains implied rape/non-con. also it’s vampire!gaster again what is happening here why do i love these so much my twilight phase is haunting me in the year of our lord 2019 smh

(i also have one more rec that i’m not comfy sharing here bc of how intense/potentially triggering it is so i’ll reblog w my ns/fw blog and give it there !! check the notes if ur interested or use this link i guess)

also disclaimer: i’m probably missing some really good ones because i just got an AO3 sort of recently and keep forgetting that bookmarking/history is a thing that i can use to help me find/keep track of old fics that i like !! aaaaaa

anyways !!! those are my recs!!! lemme know if any of the links don’t work or somethin and i’ll try my best 2 fix it !! thank u for this ask, i hope u enjoy !!!

[lowkeyorloki]

The Battle of NYC

@sharrybh requested: Would you mind writing a smut where the reader is an avenger and she and Loki fell for each other while NYC is under attack

Anonymous requested: May I request something where Loki insults the reader one too many times and they just snap and end up kinda scaring Loki with how angry they get? Angst is my jam.

Anonymous requested: Can you do something fluffy with Loki being the sarcastic and sly little shit he is? IW ruined me and i just need something happy.

this is quite nsfw- also, to the last anon: this isn’t really fluffy but Loki is def being a little shit in one. 

There isn’t to much angst in here- just angsty sexual tension, so all of you still suffering from Infinity War (like me) can read for sure :))

~

Fighting the Chitauri was risky for you especially.

Even the other non-powered Avengers- Clint, Natasha- had weapons. But you weren’t trained that way, and you were dropped into a Chitauri-filled New York with nothing but your fists, along with Stark and Steve in your earpiece. 

You had learned pretty fast the a well-placed punch to the center of the Chitauri’s faces would drop them. But the city was overrun, and you were soon backed into an alley. You frantically searched for a way out of the situation when five of the creatures began pressing you into a corner. Nothing to jump to, nothing to duck behind, to many to take on-

“Not this one.” a voice came from behind the aliens. You couldn’t see its owner, but you knew who it was when the monsters listened.

Loki.

The five split away, running out of the alley to destroy even more of the city you called home; and leaving you to the mercy of the God of Mischief.

“Y/N Y/L/N.” Loki grinned. “Oh, I did hope you would show up soon. You were quite a delight to meet.” he told you, referencing your interaction in the aircarrier. Your eyes squinted. 

“Why did you do that?” you asked. “Those things had me cornered. One less mortal to waste your time on.” 

Loki’s ever-present grin grew wider. “Well, pet,” he explained, tapping his scepter on the cement, “...I don’t mind your company. You’re so easy to string along- And unlike with Romanoff, my words seem to have quite an affect on you.” your fists clenched. Loki tilted his head. “Ah, see?”

That was it. You lunged forward, throwing punches at Loki’s head, face, torso. He deflected them all, moving with more agility than anyone you had ever seen, let alone fought.

His hand shot out and grabbed your wrist. He was so strong, so solid, that the grip froze your whole body. You tried to break away, but it was to no avail.

“Oh, sweet girl.” Loki yanked you forward, bringing your face mere inches away from his. “You’re pulling your punches.” he whispered, his fingers sliding down your arm. “It’s such a shame.” he tutted. “You’re not nearly as strong as they say. To add insult to injury, you’re much more beautiful than Romanoff. And yet, you don’t even get the title of- What do you Midgardians call it? Ah, yes.” Loki’s fingernails dug through the fabric of your S.H.I.E.L.D bodysuit. “ ‘Eye-candy.’ “

You let out a yell, and for just a minute, a look of fear passes through Loki’s face. But it’s gone as soon as it appears, and Loki’s hand moves from your arm. He slips it around your back, bringing you toward him so you press all up against him. His scepter stays in his other hand, but aside from that, every part of Loki is zeroed in on you.

“Oh, you scared me there.” he says. “But that anger, that’s not at me.” Loki angles his head so that when he talks, his lips brush the shell of your ear. “You know that I’m simply speaking the truth.” Loki laughs. “Here I am, God of Evil, and I’ve given you more attention, more credit, than those you call your comrades. My own opinion of you is higher than that of your leader’s. What do you think of that, pet?”

You say nothing. Locked in Loki’s embrace, you keep your gaze at your feet. Loki seems as though he’s about to speak again when Stark’s voice comes through your earpiece.

“Y/N, what’s the situation down there?” he asks. Loki raises a finger to his lips. The action provides you with an opportunity to create distance between you two, but you stay put. “Y/N.” Tony asks. “Goddamnit. It shouldn’t be hard to answer when the device is in your head.”

Tony doesn’t say anything after that. There’s a few moments of silence when you’re standing, chest to chest with Loki, his fingers dancing around the small of your back.

You should run from him.

“What was that about your opinion of me?” you ask, meeting Loki’s eyes. 

Loki smirks, and he then swings you against the brick wall. His eyes are wild, and he drops his weapon, his purpose, on the ground next to a dumpster. The notion astounds you- Loki has come to Earth with that weapon as his arsenal, he’s surely bargained for it. And still, he’s discarded it, his attention dedicated to you.

Loki presses you against the bricks so your back is to him. His palm slides around you, caressing your stomach and cupping your breasts until he finds the zipper of your suit.

He unzips your only layer of clothing with one fluid movement, gasping in your ear when he does. 

“I must admit, a fair few of my thoughts lately have been what you wear under this.” Loki’s hands surround your shoulders, slowing stripping your coverage away. You make a noise in the back of your throat- You would have been embarrassed about it if it hadn’t of prompted Loki to press his hard self against your back. He places two soft kisses on your shoulders, and he even lays his cheek down. “Oh.” he says two seconds later. You can hear the smile in voice. “I like this.” Loki’s staring at your ass, you can feel it, and you don’t blame him. It’s basically completely exposed, you’re just wearing a black thong.

Loki grasps your ass in both his hands and squeezes. You keel over, bracing yourself against the wall for support. You gasp, searching for air. Loki’s lips find the base of your neck, and he speaks to you against it.

“It’s alright sweet.” he coos. “You’re in good hands.” He gives you another squeeze, and you jump, but manage to keep any noise in this time.

“Y/N?” a different voice comes in through your earphone. Loki makes an exasperated noise. He turns you around by the hips so you face him. “It’s Steve.” the voice continues. “I’m getting worried about you. Stark says those things got to our ship. I’m tracking you, but it’s going to take longer than-” Loki takes the headpiece away, his fingers stopping a few extra seconds to become tangled in your hair. He drops your only connection to your team and lets it fall away, stepping on it so it turns to nothing but dust. He makes a move towards you, but you stop him with a palm to his chest. He could overpower it- He has before. 

But Loki stops.

Because that’s what you told him to do.

“We can’t.” you say, though it pains you to do so. Your body is aching for Loki- It’s burning on all the places his lips and hands have already touched, and you hate to stop him when he’s standing in front of you. But... “They can’t see us... And they’re coming to...” Loki tilts your chin so you look at him. He presses a kiss to your lips. It’s your first kiss with him, and it’s terribly soft and fleeting. 

“Sweet girl...” he kisses your jaw, and the sweet spot behind your ear. It makes your shudder, and you take off Loki’s helmet so you can bury your hands in his hair. This makes him groan, and you relish the feeling of that. “Don’t you forget, I am a God.” he growls. “If you don’t want them to see, I can make it happen.” He draws away. “What am I?” he asks you. You place your hand in Loki’s, and he brings your fingers into his mouth. Your eyes flutter shut.

“A god.” you answer.

“Wrong.” Loki bites down, not hard enough to hurt, but you still let out a yelp. You regain your composure best you can.

“My god.” You breathe.

Loki takes a step back, ridding himself of his robes. He strips entirely and the sight is enticing. By the time Loki is finished, your mouth is watering.

Loki a murderer. He has killed more people than you can imagine, and his army was out taking more lives. He had antagonized you, berated you, and used you simply for entertainment.

But the man (god) was standing in front of you with his milky chest, sharp hips, and surprisingly soft kisses. His arms were open, about to hold you, and his hairline was already beginning sweat out of want for you.

This was why you welcomed Loki. He returned to you, wedging his knee in between your legs. His hands found his way to your heat, and began rubbing you through the thin fabric of your panties. You clamped your mouth down on Loki’s shoulder. The friction Loki created was insatiable, and his heavy breathing drove you damn near the edge. 

“What was that darling?” he asked after you spoke. You peeled your face away, and Loki moved stray pieces of hair out of your face. You swallowed. Loki gave you a face of feigned sympathy. “I cannot know what you want, Y/N, if you do not ask for it.”

“You.” you say, dragging your hand across Loki’s strong stomach. His eyes dip at this, and for awhile, Loki places his hand over yours as you explore the vastness of his body. Creamy thighs. Safe biceps. Arched nose. Your head drops in defeat, humiliation, on Loki. “I want you.”

Loki holds you, presses a kiss to head. He suddenly sweeps you off the ground, supporting your weight. You wrap your legs around his hips, and Loki wastes no time. He gives no warning. He enters you with a swift thrust, and you let out a moan that is thankfully lost in the cries and crashes of the battle around you. 

Your arms are strung around Loki’s neck, your face in the crook of his neck. Your chest is heaving, and Loki’s ragged breaths match yours.

“It’s okay darling, it’s okay.” Loki soothes you. He’s snug inside you, and staying still as you get used to the feeling of him. “Take your time. Trust yourself.” Loki’s voice becomes strained. “Your body knows what to do.” he rasps. One of his hands finds yours and tangles itself in it. You’re supported only by Loki’s left hand and the wall, but his hand in yours allows you enough relaxation that Loki can set a pace.

He rolls his hips, adjusting your body so it gets used to movement. You clench your eyes shut, and your fingernails dig into Loki’s skin. The idea that there will be marks on him from you fills you with a fuzzy feeling. 

Loki begins to move in and out of you in a slow and steady pace. The speed allows for you to prepare for him. You can feel every bit of Loki, your walls closing around him and your mind awaiting the sensation of it.

Loki gradually gets faster and faster, soon hitting a sweet spot. You collectively groan, foreheads falling together, and Loki traps your lips in his.

Your vision blurs as Loki continues. You have no clue of how long you’ve been doing this- You’re only aware of the feeling of Loki, of his hair against your breasts and his occasion groans. It’s finally all to much, and your head falls back as your whole world falls apart.

Loki sets you down, back to the wall. You comb your hands through his long hair. Between breaths, you murmur about how good he made you feel, and your praise drives the God of Mischief to finish inside you. He eases out of you, drawing one last mewl out of the back of your throat, and stands next to you. 

Loki then walks to his pile of leather and gold. You watch him as he dresses, the brings your own uniform over. He helps you into it, and keeps your heads together as he zips you up. 

You reach down and grab Loki’s horned helmet, setting it atop his head like it were a crown. Two of Loki’s fingers brush over your collarbone when you do this, but he stays silent.

Finally, Loki crouches down and takes his scepter back from the dirty ground of New York. It’s glowing, maybe brighter than before, and Loki strokes it. 

He turns back to you. Loki offers no smile, not even a smirk.

He says nothing. Loki simply turns on his heels and exits the the alleyway. You remain standing until his footsteps fade entirely away.

~

“Y/N.” you raise your head. Steve stands above you, offering a gloved hand. You take it, and step up to your feet. 

“Where did he go?” Steve asks. You look over to him, vision clouded. 

“He got away.” you say. Your voice sounds different. 

Steve nods and asks if you’re alright, to which you nod.

As you return to battle, you steal one last look at where you and Loki had been.

There, etched on the wall, right where Loki had you pressed up against, was one single statement:

Sweet girl.

You smile. You pick up the pace, and rejoin the chaos with a newfound confidence.

[lvlsrvryhigh]

LVLSRVRYHI-054: Hunni'd Jaws

Introductions first: for anyone who doesn't know, who are you / where are you from? Yo yo, thanks for having me - I’m Hunni’d Jaws. I'm a solar eclipse personified. I moisturize. Facts: Coconut oil is not what it’s cracked up to be, if you want the hook-up on emollients DM me...on some off the record ish. My latest conspiracy is that I'm immortal.

From New York, exiled in Berlin, I mean “based”. How does "On exile" sound? Like I’m on chic sabbatical for being a leftist multi-national expatriate. Although, ya gotta strive for "arbitrarily-detained" these days, for the social media credentials.

What music did you grow up listening to? I grew up whittling didgeridoos. On the real, there’s a rogue didgeridoo in the house I grew up in. I have no clue how it got there. No one knows how to really “play” it, we’ve all tried. If my folks got it at a flea market, I’ll be a livid that my parents are just hoarders, and that Carlo Santana’s 3rd cousin didn’t loan it to us.

I’m so thankful for access to radio like Hot 97 and NYC. Nineties pop music was an animal. Dance-pop, grunge, dancehall, alt-rock, RnB, hip hop, trip-hop, the OG list goes on. I’m nostalgic for the pop hits, from Ace of Bass to No Doubt.

Mix cds were essential living. My street punk older sister got me into punk music and concert-going, starting at places like the Chance in Poughkeepsie. Thusly train-ing to NYC was compulsory. SO former self getting signatures on my cons. I grew up technically too far to be a bridge-and-tunnel though. “Bridge-and-tunnel" is slang for someone who takes one of the bridges and/or tunnels to get to NYC by car. Bridge-and-tunnels get on the Metro-north around White Plains with vodka Coolatas and clog up the Midtown club scene.

My folks played jazz, on special holidays merengue, 60s funk, reggae some 80s pop - cuz they’re into that - oh and a lot radio monotonous news coverage, tonally so nauseating that they smell like plastic factory fumes. Afro-caribbean & latin music were solace, since I’m half dominican. My uncle was more current, and played lots of new wave, punk, or like fat boy slim and beastie boys for us. We ransacked his computer once when we finally got cd burner software.

I also was heavily into indie rock, post-punk and random hip hop or the genre one-offs, like Hold You Down by the Alchemist, I found. Finding music was everything. I wrote about UK experimental & indie music for my HS newspaper - no one cared. My younger sister got me into A Tribe, Madvillian and J Dilla. Shout out to Nora for keeping me updated on hip hop mixtapes throughout the 2000s. And in college I veered towards indie music and electronic.

I'm cutting myself off, we should pick up the conversation here for the next interview. We can highlight more cringe-worthy pleasures that did not age well and my descent into grime and club, and how I’m still an angsty tropical riotgrrl haha.

One of my earliest musical memories was going to this wedding in 1997 and dancing to radio garage house tracks - what we called techno. Recently, I had a dance floor epiphany at Monarch Club in Berlin. Soda Plains played a garage track I hadn’t heard since that era, maybe that occasion. I made a note of the lyrics, found it later, and binged on it for like a week. This is my mentality.

My first introduction to you as a DJ came via Call Dibs, the show you run with Dis Fig on Berlin Community Radio, so I wanted to get an idea as to how the show first came about and what the motivations were behind starting it together. How did the two of you start to put things together? Yeah before Call Dibs, before deejaying, I was a head in NYC. Fel - Dis Fig - and I met then, kicking it many dawns.

Fast forward, in Berlin we saw a vacancy for our musical focus on BCR - whose programming we admired and were acquainted with. It fell into place. We decided to do this plan b, instead of becoming tech-house legends.

Going through the show's archive is like reading a who's who of upcoming djs over the past few years and it's pretty impressive how on top of it the two of you have been. How do you decide on which guests to reach out to? Do you have any dream picks? Thanks! We follow music, convene on that, take turns hosting monthly, and plan logistical. There's been several artists, I heard one track of theirs and decided to ask them. I was lucky they were down. It's insanely cut-throat. There's usually a rose award ceremony and sacrifice.

No "dream picks", I’d like to work with so many people, especially unique gem artists. I'm interested in new, small, unique voices and showcasing challenging fun sounds.. The cult of celebrity dominates booking, the scene and the industry. At the same time, we don't obscurity hunt. The process is organic, why dilute it?

From what I can gather (correct me if I've got this backwards), you moved from New York to Berlin not too long before the BCR show first started. Do the two cities mean different things for you musically? Did anything change for you in that vein after making the move? Yeah definitely! I lived in NYC for a couple summers during school, then moved to Brooklyn after college for 3ish years. New York is it’s mix of cultures and hustle. There are so many micro-communities doing amazing things. It is a pace, hip-hop, outspoken, loud - the majority of new dembow in my mix, I heard blaring out of cars, at restaurants, and in cabs while visiting over in early June. Even just 2 years ago, Bushwick was not what it is now, or Crown Heights even. I grew up in the music communities in NY through Jelly NYC, Tribes, bass warehouse parties like Reconstrvct and DIY venues like 285 Kent, and lived with the Teklife extension. Ballroom, dancehall, jersey club, and footwork were foundational w/ parties like Ghettogothik, Lit City, S!ck Magic, Mixpak, among others. With all this stacked against a city, there's so much synchronicity, like Dubbel Dutch playing an arcade entirely word of mouth, or mythic rooftop parties w/ lineups of whoever is in town not playing officially in the city. Or heads from around the country, turn out to see acts on a Monday night in Meatpacking district. It’s a constant struggle and everything is bought out. I have a deep bond there, the music community has a different appreciation and gratefulness for each other. People dance. I’m idealizing hxc. It all took bites, I got bored, and was looking to contribute.

I shifted gears, and moved to Berlin, to party less. Hahah. Techno goth, crust punk aura, the gay club scene, and deejaying/producer culture are indisputably mainstream. The leftfield club scene is compact w/ Janus, PAN, Trade, Creamcake, Boo Hoo, among others. There’s a core DJ and music producer community here that inspires me, albeit, a catch-22, is insular. There’s more funding, clubs are seen as institutions. It’s still Germany. It’s much more modest, introverted, and chill. The sound is usually spot on. Flights are cheap. It’s more white, whiter than the Midwest.

If you can sort housing, it’s a refuge for creativity because of work/life balance.

You're also involved with a few programs based around teaching dj skills to women and those within the lgbtq+ spectrum in No Shade and Intersessions. What interested you about these programs? What was it like for you personally when you first learnt to DJ? Was there anything similar out there at the time? Who wants a world w/ the same people, the same cliques, in control throwing the same parties, of similar perspectives, w/ the same mega brands curating, playing the same music?  Sign me up if I'm a mega-brand.

I didn’t choose to be half black, a woman, or femme, so I def take advantage of the opportunities given to me. And I'm aware I'm somewhat priveleged. I have a lot of friends who also want to organize and pass the torch. My core ethics are merging human rights, creativity, and access empowerment. I was also involved in the Co-Op compilation w/ Ziur, galvanized to counter the tension and rise of global alt-right movements.

When I first learned to DJ, it was a necessity to socializing. And when I got more serious about it, I had to teach myself. Getting comfortable at the club and tech-literacy was another blind-fold. I’ve had to dj with equipment I've never used before - wish these moments were filmed cuz I went too hard on myself. There were some people to help me but not really. I also had several feminist social groups to help with the visibility of women in NYC, our goals were more about solidarity and the safety of women at parties.

I co-founded No Shade alongside Linnea and Caramel Mafia in association with Acud Macht. The DJ tutoring program aspect gives the participants more security and time with industry standard equipment. They can ask questions, and they are learning from women and non-binary folk. Blasphemy!

Links between music and therapy come up a lot on your social feeds and, though it's not really something I've put a lot of thought into understanding, I often find myself relying on music to clear my mood or help me move past something that's frustrating or aggravating me. Do those ideas ever inform the sets you put together or the music you listen to? That’s sick that you found a personal correlation. Music as therapy vs. music therapy vs. sound therapy vs. vibration therapy vs. however we define music and therapy has an abundance of operational levels. On your experiential level, it’s great for emotional awareness, resonance, letting out stress, etc. 

It can be deeply triggering yet cathartic too. It’s tied very close to memory. People with degenerative neurological diseases can get pieces of their identity and abilities back when listening to their old records, or happiness. In other mysteries, if you suffer a major head injury you can miraculously become a musically-creative, perfect-pitch savant. Still so much is unknown in the regard to cognitive neuroscience, music and healthcare. This is Your Brain on Music by Daniel J. Levitin and Musciophilia by Oliver Sacks expand on this.

The club is an undeniable conduit, escape. A good sound bath from a sound system will reset you. Cymatically, it manifests your physical matter. Certain chord progressions and frequencies will awaken certain feelings. Certain rhythms make you rotate your hip joints, certain vibrations catapult you to an astral plane, ASMR and whiteness soothes and entrances. I’m rambling. It’s personal, it’s human, it’s spooky, it's cyborg. There’s loads of sound phenomena to explore.

The tradition of it in the psych world is very “koombayah”, which led me away from the narrow conventional sense of it. However, there are however strides towards incorporating rap into the psychotherapy application. The history of oration down to modern rap is rooted in the "music game over the streets" to narrate the struggle. Poets from West Africa brought oration traditions over to communicate their highest spiritual being. The command of it is called Nommos. As a practice it's so very suitable for the clinical experience. Therapeutic Uses of Rap & Hip Hop by Susan Hadley discusses this, maybe overintellectualizes it, but it’s an important platitude to introduce formally to the white-coat community. I may go back to school for it, so I can dispute and defend the way. I wish I had proper exposure to composition as a kid. I was more interested in learning tabs so I could steeze on covers.

There’s truth deeper and universal, beyond niche music that privileged perspectives get to admire, be bewildered by and entertain with. It's orthodox. It seems the people involved don't consider how esoteric and self-centered this chokehold of participation is, like subjective tunnel-vision ; music culture is full of circumstance, value judgements, media infrastructure, markets, and industry. Who has access? What is contingent? and Why? What does this all mean in 5-10 years?

You seem to take a playful, lighthearted, but also semi-theatrical approach towards your moniker and press shots (covering yourself in honey, planning to do the same but with bees), which is refreshing and in stark contrast to the ultra serious DJ look (black tee, dark background, lots of shadow, plsdon'tsmile). Was that something you consciously set out to achieve? Wow, thanks for noticing! Deejaying is full of bad baaaad tropes. Shout out Kurupt FM for being as played out as possible. Satire, critiques, and creating new information are important to me but it's more unconscious and involuntary. Music gets all bent out on being serious, then plays into trends and lacks originality.

I treat creating under hunnid jaws as a full multi-medium, creative universe. My press shots were fun. They feel so old, they're from a past life at this point. The series are under themes of objectification, erotica, and sex culture paradigms mirroring a literal interpretation of my pseudonym. The general idea was around for 2 years before it came together with my homegirl Syd who's in Rotterdam now. The actual process felt like I was suffocating and stung my eyes, basically honey-board torture. I'm sitting on a lot of weird ideas and bizarre influences. Just takes one or two sentences for an idea to be a good one. I'm excited to use them when I have more content and collaborators. I'd love to art direct for others. And to do more video.  Or something extrasensory.

Did you set out with a particular idea for this mix? Where / how did you record it? I recorded it in my room on my pioneer ddj-sb controller. No set intention but this mix is a missing cut from a film reel, like a glimpse into my flashback. Disorienting like a horror flick being played in reverse.

What do you have planned for the rest of 2017? Conjuring up some gigs and beats. Ya tu sabes.

If you had to pick something for people to listen to immediately after this mix what would it be? If you can hold out, listen to Call Dibs this Thursday 6-8pm CET.

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FIC RECOMMENDATIONS

So Here it is finally ! I will class them by genre and in no particular order of preference, tbh all of the things that will be listed down below are pure gold ! (under a cut because it’s gonna be soooooo long lmao) 

I did include au’s in the categories, but I decided to create an AU category anyway, just to put, well my fave ones, like the concept y’know

                                 SMUT (first things first imirite)

@tayegi : Okay so tbh just read all of her stories ? Like every each of them are amazing af, but let me tell you my faves :

Suga, Last Nite An amazing zombie!au

Taehyung, CodeName: Shadown Cat  I’m a sucker for au and this secret agent one got my heart

Suga ft Jungkook, Cobalt and Charcoal  this one got me shook af

 Equilibrum (m but not every chapter) a multiple chapters story, it’s amazing plus guess what ! It’s centered on Jimin & Jungkook yas

And of course, last but not the least, the legendar In Bloom with a beautiful Werewolf!au centered on Jungkook

Jimin, Fuck, Marry, or Kill, He ain’t only the cute little pup he looks like

New rules, fratboy!jungkook, you’re welcome

@exobtssmutimagination : ofc when it comes to smut this is basically my reference blog lol ! Sadly they’re on hiatus right now, but if you go to their masterlist, you have a lot to go through ! Once again, basically all of their smut is great mate ! But here you go for my faves :

The better lover (pt1) An amazing serie (4 parts I think ?) starring the maknae line !

Caught red handed PET NAMES ! A nice smut with our pervy leader Namjoon !

A little fun during rehearsal not really a smut, but yeah who could resist Hoseok after seeing him rapping ?

@an-exotic-writer : Same goes for Missy, tbh her masterlist is a mine of gold, there’s a lot, like a lot of things whenever I’m bored I will read something (plus her masterlist looks really cool like) Here we go for the faved :

Smooth as fuck, Hoseok, well everything is said in the title lol, oh and gangster!hobi is hot af

Sidewalk sugar, what can I say, I’m weak for Jimin, and even more when he’s a sugar daddy

it’s a win win for you & me possessive Jin in a ceo!au

@freehoseoksdick : Friends with benefit I don’t even have the words lol just go read it especially if yo’ure a Jimin hoe like me

@jungkxook : Bad!boy Tae, if onlt this doesn’t make you want to read it, then idk what to tell you lol  Runaway

honorable mention for @hobibliophile and her RA!Jimin smut ! eheh

                                                     FLUFF

@hobibliophile : My fave non-smut from Jules !  Shades. A fluffy encounter at the beach with Kook !

@noir0neko : I probably should have mentioned them in the smut section, but I preferred listing on their cute little floof stories (but def go check their smuts too, same for Jules !) Bonne nuit. Look ! French ! lol basically Jiminie helping you fall asleep and it’s rly cute

@park-jimeme : Okay so I discovered her blog because of the Grim Reaper serie, and all I wanna say is THANKS whoever reblogged it and made me see this ! so here we go for my faves fluff :

Gang!bts basically a fluff gang!au with Jin !

Vlogger!au, Vloger!Taehyung is just too cute

Secret to tell, you have great news for Hoseok, your husband

@exobtsimagination : yeah they don’t only do smuts amazing right ?

Perfect Date With J-Hope , the title says it all !

Your Eyes Are Like … , this one’s really cute, it’s with Namjoon and all people wearing glasses should read this !

Teaching Jimin English , once again the title says it all, it’s rly short but rly cute lol

@freehoseoksdick : Starlight a floofy youtubeur!Jungkook thingy 

                                                  ANGST

@park-jimeme : once again because yeah what can I say I just love everything she writes so...

It’s over, a nice angsty serie with Suga, but dw the fluff is there in the end lol

Grim Reaper serie, it’s like a mix of every genre, there’s mostly angst, there’s fluff, there’s smut, there’s supernatural, this serie is awesome you must read it ! Oh and there’s ot7, but it’s centered on Namjoon and Suga !

Gream Reaper side story J-Hope’s one & Jungkook’s  those got me shook forreal and they are sad af. I love these, so nicely written omg

I Need U!AU, I think she made one for each member, but I only read Jimin’s so far, and yeah, well, just as the Mv it is... *sobs*

Cheater, basically in this Jungkook is an asshole and Suga is the nice guy

@btschronicles : I don’t know much about the writer since I discovered this blog recently and only got to read The depth of us, which is with Jungkook who is so oblivious it hurts, literally, but I’m sure all of their stuff is nice !

@bee-tea-ass, same, I don’t really know anything about the writer I randomly found this, and damn. I’m Okay, well clearly you guessed it, it’s not okay and it’s with Jimin THIS SHIT GOT ME ON THE VERGE OF TEARS ! I love reading stuff like this when i’m already sad af ! 

                                         FAVE AU’S (any genre)

@jiminniemouse‘s stripper!Jimin, surprise surprise (m)

@jungblue‘s Gryffindor!Taehyung  Under the Cloak (m)

@an-exotic-writer Wolf!Suga Salvation (fluff [?]) | Photographer!Suga My muse my love (m) | cop!Hoseok Maybe | FallenAngel!Jimin fallen for you (fluff) | ChildhoodFriend/college!Taehyung mine then, mine now (fluff)

@freehoseoksdick‘s CEO!Jimin, SILK (m; fluff; angst) a must, like go read it now, beautiful serie that must be finished by the time you see this | Blackout (every genre tbh)  post-apocalyptic!au

@jungkxook ZombieApocalypse!AU centered on Jungkook, to this is amazing tbh Hiraeth (m; angst)

@jungblue Purge!AU The purge not finished yet, but the 4 parts that are out are amazing !

@btssmutgalore Stripper!Jimin (well kind of) hm how did I not find about this sooner tbh like yes yes yes Sin City (m)

@perpetually-jungshook Werewolf!AU Jungkook centered I’ve been craving for supernatural AU’s and this one didn’t disappoint, sadly it isn’t finished, but you can definitely look forward to the next parts !  Without You: Bloodstone

That’s it ! I might add stuff whenever I find new ones ! ♥

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I feel like a this point, the Crown is just sick of their shit.

i have so many dream/nightmare related comic scenes I havent posted. anyway hold this real quick

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DUDE

i have so many dream/nightmare related comic scenes I havent posted. anyway hold this real quick