#have a dull headache

[shmingleping]

Meh.

[runawaymun]

Bruhhhh I just want to wake up and not be in pain for once 😭 need a break

[there-will-be-a-way]

Still chilling in bed waiting to sober up. An hour ago I got checked again and was down to 1.25. Withdrawals already start to kick in. And I'm thinking about how drunk I really was all the time. Like, rn I feel sober but obviously I'm not. Also thinking about where to charge my phone. Where to shower. I went looking for a socket and found one down the hallway. I forgot to pack my shampoo. Hm.

[pizzacrustdisposal]

pain almost feels good when you’re high.?

[phanboyo]

You know it's bad when you can't decide which you relate to most, "what door? The door to the miCROWWAVE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" or "I say—I think—I haven't—look, I have trouble even mentioning, even saying to myself in my own head the number of years,"

[piningpercussionist]

Sounds like fun for when you do find a 'gem' of a trash film. Do you keep names of any of the gems you do find?

Also for no evil reason or so, do you by chance like gifts?

-✨ Anon (Sparkles Anon)

Nah, not really. I used to have a list, but it got tossed out when I moved apartments I guess.

We probably still have them in the back, though. It's extremely rare that someone comes in asking for something that isn't just on display already.

A lot of them were foreign films, so some of them are probably a lot better than I'm giving them credit for. Visuals are important, but the writing is what I enjoy most in a good movie. If the movie has subtitles, which most don't, then usually they're really off, from what some of the people who HAVE actually rented them tell me. Stuff like that can really color your interpretation or general enjoyment of the media, depending on if it's just clunkily translated or outright altered.

Otherwise, there are some really terrible horror flicks I like to put on- those would be easier to name, and probably more recent, but I'm drawing a blank at the moment. Maybe I can come back to you on that.

I like the ones that are either just really, unforgivably bad, ones with really horrible special effects for the gore, and ones that are just kinda brutal, admittedly. I like to see a good rampage, now and again.

As for gifts...

I mean, I'm alright with them. It's a bit disconcerting when you mention them with the word "evil" in the same sentence, though. So you'll have to forgive me if I'm a little wary of that...

[77pupu33pipo]

i started venlafaxine for chronic pain a tiny little while ago and it's working well? im no longer constantly hurting?.. have i entered the good timeline??

[mayonakano-archive]

i always think i'm gonna do something and then my head starts hurting like can i go one day without a headache, please?

[hauntingofthelamb]

my meds are making me dizzy, silly dizzy dolly laying on her soft bed 🕸

[earmo-imni]

I don’t know what’s fucking me up more today: my lack of decent sleep last night (didn’t go to bed until 2 am + forgot to turn off some of my alarms so I got woken up at 6:30 and 8-ish, though I didn’t fully wake up until 9:40 and didn’t get up until 10) or the fact that the last episode I watched last night was X-Men ‘97 Episode 5 (watched characters I knew and loved/cared about die horribly, my favorite character seemingly died even if I know bc of spoilers he didn’t, said favorite character was trying so hard to do better, be better, to accept that humanity and mutantkind could coexist, and then humanity spat in his face and subjected him to a second genocide attempt that caused him to break down and relive some of his worst memories while STILL PROTECTING HIS PEOPLE and now he’s going to go full villain again out of the sincere belief that his people can’t live in peace while humans still live)

[jimalim]

Rode one of those Lime motor scooters today for the first time. The model I was on was clearly old as shit and beaten up, we were working up a very very gradual incline and the thing wouldn't accelerate at all so it was going a measly 7mph. But once we rounded the corner, the next road was a decline (not steep but more significant than the incline for sure) the damn thing sped up so much despite me not even pushing the accelerator and trying to squeeze the brake. Break was not working, the speed topped out at 15 or so before I had to bail to avoid running into a parked car.

The fall left me with some road rash on my arm, and on one ankle. The other leg got super bruised. Luckily I was prepared for impact so I was able to kinda roll into the slide and keep my head up. But boy do I still feel so much pain hours later.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

HOW TO WRITE A CHARACTER WHO IS IN PAIN

first thing you might want to consider: is the pain mental or physical?

if it’s physical, what type of pain is it causing? — sharp pain, white-hot pain, acute pain, dull ache, throbbing pain, chronic pain, neuropathic pain (typically caused by nerve damage), etc

if it’s mental, what is the reason your character is in pain? — grief, heartbreak, betrayal, anger, hopelessness, fear and anxiety, etc

because your character will react differently to different types of pain

PHYSICAL PAIN

sharp and white-hot pain may cause a character to grit their teeth, scream, moan, twist their body. their skin may appear pale, eyes red-rimmed and sunken with layers of sweat covering their forehead. they may have tears in their eyes (and the tears may feel hot), but they don’t necessarily have to always be crying.

acute pain may be similar to sharp and white-hot pain; acute pain is sudden and urgent and often comes without a warning, so your character may experience a hitched breathing where they suddenly stop what they’re doing and clench their hand at the spot where it hurts with widened eyes and open mouth (like they’re gasping for air).

dull ache and throbbing pain can result in your character wanting to lay down and close their eyes. if it’s a headache, they may ask for the lights to be turned off and they may be less responsive, in the sense that they’d rather not engage in any activity or conversation and they’d rather be left alone. they may make a soft whimper from their throat from time to time, depends on their personality (if they don’t mind others seeing their discomfort, they may whimper. but if your character doesn’t like anyone seeing them in a not-so-strong state, chances are they won’t make any sound, they might even pretend like they’re fine by continuing with their normal routine, and they may or may not end up throwing up or fainting).

if your character experience chronic pain, their pain will not go away (unlike any other illnesses or injuries where the pain stops after the person is healed) so they can feel all these types of sharp pain shooting through their body. there can also be soreness and stiffness around some specific spots, and it will affect their life. so your character will be lucky if they have caretakers in their life. but are they stubborn? do they accept help from others or do they like to pretend like they’re fine in front of everybody until their body can’t take it anymore and so they can no longer pretend?

neuropathic pain or nerve pain will have your character feeling these senses of burning, shooting and stabbing sensation, and the pain can come very suddenly and without any warning — think of it as an electric shock that causes through your character’s body all of a sudden. your character may yelp or gasp in shock, how they react may vary depends on the severity of the pain and how long it lasts.

EMOTIONAL PAIN

grief can make your character shut themself off from their friends and the world in general. or they can also lash out at anyone who tries to comfort them. (five states of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and eventual acceptance.)

heartbreak — your character might want to lock themself in a room, anywhere where they are unseen. or they may want to pretend that everything’s fine, that they’re not hurt. until they break down.

betrayal can leave a character with confusion, the feelings of ‘what went wrong?’, so it’s understandable if your character blames themself at first, that maybe it’s their fault because they’ve somehow done something wrong somewhere that caused the other character to betray them. what comes after confusion may be anger. your character can be angry at the person who betrayed them and at themself, after they think they’ve done something wrong that resulted in them being betrayed, they may also be angry at themself next for ‘falling’ for the lies and for ‘being fooled’. so yes, betrayal can leave your character with the hatred that’s directed towards the character who betrayed them and themself. whether or not your character can ‘move on and forgive’ is up to you.

there are several ways a character can react to anger; they can simply lash out, break things, scream and yell, or they can also go complete silent. no shouting, no thrashing the place. they can sit alone in silence and they may cry. anger does make people cry. it mostly won’t be anything like ‘ugly sobbing’ but your character’s eyes can be bloodshot, red-rimmed and there will be tears, only that there won’t be any sobbing in most cases.

hopelessness can be a very valid reason for it, if you want your character to do something reckless or stupid. most people will do anything if they’re desperate enough. so if you want your character to run into a burning building, jump in front of a bullet, or confess their love to their archenemy in front of all their friends, hopelessness is always a valid reason. there’s no ‘out of character’ if they are hopeless and are desperate enough.

fear and anxiety. your character may be trembling, their hands may be shaky. they may lose their appetite. they may be sweaty and/or bouncing their feet. they may have a panic attack if it’s severe enough.

and I think that’s it for now! feel free to add anything I may have forgotten to mention here!

[end3rs-eye]

on like a week of bad pain days... today is ✨different✨ though

[mothmeats]

I feel soooo fucked up after having to do an assessment for someone at their home yesterday, where they didn't so much as have a window cracked open or anything but were CHAINSMOKING at Least 4 cigarettes in the enclosed room, maybe up to 7 or more, I lost count 😭

Not to shame them or anything bc they're clearly going Through it if they're smoking that much. But I've never so much as touched a cigarette or nicotine vape because I smoke weed instead and all that secondhand smoke from the two hours-ish I was there feels like it fuckin messed me up, I've been feeling like shit all day today 🥲

[homunculus-argument]

And speaking of scurvy, I am eternally amused by the thing where some ancient form of healing that was born in a time where people didn't know exactly how the human body works, or what causes it to stop working sometimes, that still somehow worked. Like how so many old folk medicinal plants were listed as a cure for various ailments that - from a modern view - are clearly just symptoms of scurvy, and the plant itself is rich in vitamin C.

I recall reading some story, no recollection of the exact time or place, where the king of a large empire suffered from constant horrible headaches and was incapable of falling asleep unless drugged or blackout drunk. Sick of taking temporary fixes to dull the pain and having to be sedated every night, he called up some old sage healer who was said to know how to fix things nobody else could explain, and the healer heard his symptoms and went

"Hmm. You spend too much time being a king. Your skull is packed so full of kingly thoughts that they don't all fit in there and that's why your head is in pain. You need to spend time not being a king." And prescribed him to schedule three days every month where he must go to a peasant village where nobody knows he's the king, live with a family there under a fake name and identity, work in the rice fields with them, eating the same food and sleeping on the same mats. Absolutely nobody is allowed to address him as the king, speak to him of any royal or political matters, and he himself is not allowed to think any kingly thoughts or think of himself as the king.

And naturally, this worked. Taking a regular scheduled break from a highly stressful office desk job to completely decompress, paired with physical exercise in the form of hard but simple physical labour, plain and simple food and Just Not Thinking About Your Fucking Job All The Time does help chronic stress, which here was worded as "spending too much time being a king clogs your brain."

Sometimes you do have ghosts in your blood, though I'm not entirely sure whether you should do cocaine about it.

[what-even-is-thiss]

While I have a migraine on Christmas Eve let’s talk about other aspects of migraines besides the pain that comes in waves because for me and many others the pain isn’t the worst symptom of migraines.

Migraines may include:

Feeling tired

Your brain feeling like mush

Getting a stuffy/runny nose (why many people think they get sinus headaches when really they are getting migraines)

Before a migraine, hallucinating smells

Nausea

Vomiting

Feeling tired and full of brain fog the next day

Muscle pain in your neck and back

Dull uncomfortable pressure rather than pain

Distorted vision/general sensitivity to light

Sensitivity to sound

Irritability

Scalp tenderness

Lightheadedness/dizziness

And more!