#happy rebirth day babygirl

[copepods]

first breaths

[id: a drawing of c!wilbur. he’s sitting up from the floor, one hand bracing himself and the other hand lifted up in front of him. he’s staring down at it, but his eyes are cut off from the top of the canvas. a streak of white hair is just visible over his forehead. he’s wearing his clothes from pogtopia, with his white button down, black pants, and brown trenchcoat. the shirt has a huge bloodstain in the middle, with a tear in the center of his chest. visible is a small pink scar, healed and bloodless. behind him is a blue wall with a l’manberg flag hanging in the center. end id]

[muvav]

29 years around the sun today , from a little girl to a grown woman. I embrace all the deaths and rebirths that have led to this moment. I am grateful to wake up and have another day to fight this fight and reach one step closer to my dreams. Thank you Goddess for allowing me to stop , breathe and take in the moments that mean the most. Here’s to my last year of my 20’s. let’s make it count babygirl , I promise it will be better than we ever expected. Happy birthday Asia Michelle 🧡

[eyeofchanel]

Unpacking.

i pressed my crystals to my palm as i said morning prayer ..

Detached feeling of calm , i could feel my pulse vibrating against their cool exterior , smoothly gliding through my hands

i could feel my blood flowing through my veins , blue stripes across flesh connecting me to my source

keeping me breathing , keeping me living

Central life source encased in bones , in skin , in scars and sunken black ink etched along outer layers designing the form she lets you see , a glimpse of her innate creativity

Artistic masterpiece , imperfect , inticing

Dark side of the sunshine she is usually showing

Deep side to the emotions she is usually presenting

Can’t keep it calm , the inner storm brewing

Lava spewing out of eyes and spilling from pink lips

Engorged heart busting through its prison

Chest rips open , Heat sets my being aflame

I ignite. Tongue sharpens and I hiss at the intruder trespassing my peaceful space

I sit in the fire , quick fix to melt down my iced out protective shield

I want to feel this shit.

I get tired of being numb , I get tired of not giving a fuck , I get lonely too I get weak too

My love makes me weak , if you get me to care I naturally submit to you , nurture you in the ways I can express , no poker face to conceal the messages coming through , no way to control how deep it’ll run for you

Some shit I don’t like to feel , vulnerability

Something I don’t like to feel , insecurity

How easy is it to trust someone with yourself after living not being able to trust anyone but yourself

no one careful enough with you ,

you love sweetly and deeply

Emotions rampant because you do everything with passion

With reason, calculating , analyzing

Is it safe for me here? In your arms?

Can I love you for real? I could never fake how I feel, I see so much confusion around me I can’t tell whats fucking fake or real anymore

Mind playing tricks on me

Decoding universal messages on a daily , Mother Earth calling me

Listen to intuition , gut feeling

Sometimes I just want some shit to be easy , because my love is easy ,

But babygirl you not new to this , you knew nothing for you is easy

And when it comes to your heart youre foolish

When it comes to giving your body you’re careless

Addicted to making people feel good, addicted to feeling good

Addicted to releasing my desires and fulfilling pleasures .. I can feel you wanting me , so why aren’t you with me

I sit within , in tune with body , going through days processing from the inside out

Layered Complexes and A gypsy soul

New to this bodily form , misunderstood

Gotta take care of myself , i have a journey ahead

Do things that inspire and make me smile

A vision of happiness that is not conventional , uniquely successful

Love freely and those who can’t receive it don’t need to be in my presence. Respecting my divine nature , rebirth of my magic.

Elevated spirit with a dirty mind

Switch me on to the next level

And ill make you feel everything you need to know

Lose me and you’ll feel the emptiness of my absence , treat me as precious jewels, a rarity . I am fragile

Not many deserve to really know me. I only want my friends , close family , & my person

I only want to be surrounded by real shit. I always want those around me to be the best they can be, I see potential in people before they even realize it for themselves

Powerful energy that gets drained from inconsistencies , from lies , from excuses

Only rock with respect , be loyal to what matches me with loyalty

Cautious with my time

I have no time for the bullshit

If it’s not some real shit I don’t want it

I cool off and sit in the smoke

I float among the ashes and rest on the floor

I lay in the silence , throw questions into the quiet

And now I listen and do not want to speak.

[tinkdw]

(2/2) It makes me a little upset to imagine that Jack will get to live in the bunker and other 'domestic' things with the brothers right away while Cas is off who knows where. I know Jack is supposed to be a Cas parallel here, but still. My question is, do you think we will ever get explicit, canon Cas living in the bunker and other human delights with Sam and Dean? Thanks and I hope the rest of your day is good!

Hi! Thank you, it was a good day, I had a McToffeeSundae and they always make me sugar-high happy :)

So… this is one of those things that I don’t really feel personally has a real “meta” reading associated with it, that we can speculate based on anything really concrete already shown in the show.

There’s meta right? Analysing canon.

Then there’s speculation. Yes sure there is speculation based on said meta, then there’s speculation based on tropes, speculation based on similar stories’ and their outcomes, speculation based on current socio-political scenarios, speculation based on…. SO many different things, it could be the way a network is run, the show runner, actor personal lives, spoilers, bla bla bla… SO many factors.

For me personally I don’t read any past events in the show as telling us if this is likely or not.

But I feel that there is an overall general theme of positivity for our endgame. Now I may be totally wrong about this, it also has loads of time to change between when I write this and when that happens, it could be YEARS from now and it could be with totally different show runners, in a totally different network environment… I mean yeah there are SO many factors involved.

This is why all day I’ve been on this “meta is not speculation” and “speculation is not an all seeing prophecy” band wagon.

So yeah, my personal feeling as it stands RIGHT NOW is that it makes sense for us to see at least a little of all of TFW’s positive endgame, but I do think it makes sense to tie up those ones that are the most obvious and have been likely pushed into the narrative most strongly before then ie. leader!sam, guiltless!sam, bi!dean, unrepressed!dean, human!cas, emancipated!cas - for payoff for the years of pain. 

Yes they in my opinion are setting up for a positive endgame and it can’t happen way too early or the time after it happens could be kind of aimless if they don’t change the way the show is run as at the moment it runs off the character arcs, so if these are tied up there is no underlying thread, however they could give us up to a maximum imo of half a season, more likely 3- 6 or so episodes of them all at various stages of happy and fulfilling their endgames whilst they just tie up the overlying plot line.

Cas as human, with the boys (not necessarily in the bunker but that’s cos I don’t necessarily see the bunker as their forever home, but that’s another story), happy, smiling, doing what it is that he has set up that he wants to do and who he is, which I hope to be established in “season who we are 13″…. yes I do personally see how this would fit best in the overall story, based on how I feel right now.

@obriens-babygirl reminded me that Cas does in fact canonically according to Dean live at the bunker as of 12x12, so it would be nice if he, you know, did hang around a bit more in his actual home :p As I say season 13 I hope will focus on all this for Cas in his rebirth, where he belongs and who he is etc as these are the themes set up as the reason for his death in the not accepting this and being depressed about this and everything else throughout seasons 11 and 12. There’s a REASON they focused on his sense of not belonging, that he feels like the boys are his family but that he is their babysitter not their equal, all that conflict is there for a reason before his death / rebirth moment.

But literally anything could change in 13x01 or in season 13 overall to totally change this point of view because that’s the nature of speculating about something that is still a work in progress, that has not ended yet, with no calculable end in sight to work backwards from.