#happy birthday pls get out of jail I miss you

[eijunes]

dazai osamu [19.06]

— “Certainly, people are sinfully stupid. But what's so wrong about that?”

[invaderzia1]

Love Game

Chapter 8: Truth

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pls ignore the date in the first text, lmao it won’t let me change it

By the time Kazutora had arrived at her apartment, Emma had helped her calm back down and cleaned up the living room while Y/N taken a shower. As he knocked on the door, he saw Emma open it as she nodded to him, inviting him in. She slipped past as she waved goodbye to her friend and left them alone. The sight of seeing her again made him anxious, having not seen the blonde since middle school.

Entering the apartment, Y/n sat on the couch looking towards him, but avoiding his face, only making him feel worse for keeping this secret. He made his way over, opting to take a seat on the large chair facing the couch instead of next to her.

“So, I guess I should explain all of this.”

She just nodded, chewing on her bottom lip as she watched him. One hand was rubbing circles on the skin of her other, trying to self soothe herself as she prepared for the worst to come from his mouth.

“Did Mikey or Emma ever tell you what happened with Shinichiro?”

“They mentioned someone broke into his store one night and hit him in the head. Said it was some old friend of theirs.”

It was silent for a second as Kazutora watched her face, noticing the way it morphed as she realized. It went from a sudden realization to horrified then to sadness, his stomach churning as he watched. He hated having her see him in this light.

“Oh.”

“It was a dumb mistake, but I did a year in juvie for it. I didn’t know it was his shop and I just wanted to get Mikey a cool bike for his birthday.” He stopped, replaying the moment he saw Mikey’s face as they walked out of the shop by police. “We didn’t talk much after that. I was stupid back then and didn’t come from a great home life, so I blamed Mikey for it happening.”

Her eyes widened, she knew he was involved in some gang activity in the past but hearing of this was all new.

“That’s not the only thing.” He spoke up, nervously scratching the back of his neck avoiding looking at her again. “The reason I left Mikey’s gang was to join another to attack him. Baji followed me to keep me safe and I repaid him by stabbing him.”

All this new information was a lot. Finally putting the missing pieces of a puzzle together, no wonder Mikey had been so distant with her.

“I did a lot longer in jail after that.” Kazutora say silent before looking up at her, making sure to keep eye contact. “He visited me once, and that was the last time I saw him.”

She still sat quiet, absorbing the information as Kazutora waited for any response from her. Each moment he waited feeling like torture, but he felt it was his punishment for waiting so long.

What caught him off guard was when she stood up, walking over toward him. He expect a very different response then the one she gave him, wrapping her arms around him and hugging him tightly. His eyes widened as he felt himself get emotional at the contact. He let her pull him closer as he relax into her touch.

“I know you think I’m going to tell you to get out or that I never want to see you, but I got to know a man who made me feel happy and cared for again. A man who would come to my house at night with a bag full of food just because he heard I was sad.” Pulling back, she looked down at him, seeing the way tears were forming in his eyes at her words. “While I acknowledge what you did, I don’t think I can change how I feel about you.”

His bottom lipped began to wobble as he pulled her into his lap, crying into her shoulder as she rubbed his back. It was nearly therapeutic, knowing that she could forgive him for his atrocities.

“I’m so sorry,” he babbled out, “I didn’t mean to not tell you, I’m sorry.” His words were muffled by her sweater as he continued to cry onto her. One of her hands reached up to comb through his hair softly, stroking it to comfort him.

“It’s okay,” she soothed, humming to herself.

They sat there for a bit as Kazutora calmed down, using some breathing technique him and Baji had worked on the night before. When he finally relaxed, he couldn’t help but feel embarrassed at having broken down in front of her.

Her hand was still brushing his hair as she held him clothes. It was comforting, being able to feel so safe in another’s arms even after telling them your deepest secrets.

“Hey, Tora.”

“Hmmm?”

“I really like spending time with you. And being close and cuddling and kissing, all that relationship stuff.” She started, trying to make it less awkward then it was. “Do you want to make this official?”

It took him off guard for a second, his eyes wide as he realized what she had asked, luckily his body reacted faster than his mind.

“Yes.”

Y/n smiled down at him, pressing a kiss to his forehead and continuing to cuddle up to him.

They sat there, Y/n asking questions around his past that he was less scared of answering now. Finally he felt more free than ever having revealed this part of him. The rest of the night spent between the two as they got to know each other better than before.

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ur lying it you say baji doesn’t use old cat memes

[collecting-stories]

Manslaughter - Rafe Cameron

Request: Can I request sth. for Rafe ? :) How would he and y/n reunite after years where he broke up with her, went to jail or some facility for killing Peterkin and she went on with her life ? I love your writing!

Request: Hey can i have an vvv angsty rafe x reader pls? Love ur stuff xx

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A wealthy family, good behavior, and a renewed plea of insanity at the time of the crime all met at the crossroads of Rafe’s review trial. It was ten years after Peterkin’s death, ruled manslaughter despite him driving to the airstrip with a gun, that the review board decided Rafe could be released on house arrest. Two years he would have to spend in the house only allowed to leave for parole meetings and therapy.  

“I shouldn’t have to do some dumb therapy shit.”

“I don’t really think you’re in the position to bitch about anything Rafe.” Wheezie commented, sitting in the car with her brother. In the time that he had been behind bars she had gotten a license, graduated high school, and was in the process of getting her masters. It was because of that Wheezie asked you to stop by.  You had kept in touch with Wheezie after Rafe had been arrested, knowing how difficult it had been for her to see her brother arrested and how alienated the family became from each other afterward. You had always loved the youngest Cameron like she was your own sister and you had stayed close to her. When your daughter was born years later after you finally felt ready to let Rafe and your past go, she was the godmother. So when she asked you to come to the house you did, even if it meant walking back into those memories.  

Being back in front of Tanney Hill was like walking into a liquor store when you knew you were an alcoholic. The amount of time you had spent there during your youth was synonymous with the amount of pain it had caused you. Not the house, of course, but the boy inside. The one who was all grown up now, nearing thirty, and far removed from the person you fell in love with. Though, to be fair, he’d hadn’t been that person the last time you were behind the doors of Tanny Hill either.  

-

“Don’t move!”  

You hit the wall, hands up as you watched Shoupe push Rafe against the counter, Thomas’ gun trained on your boyfriend. Another cop kept their gun on you as you watched them handcuff Rafe, zip ties a little too tight.  

“What’s going on?”

“Don’t move.” The cop in front of you repeated Shoupe’s warning, holding her gun steady as she stared you down. You looked passed her where they were trying to lead Rafe away as he struggled, shouting about his dad and lawyers.

“Rafe!” You called his name but it was no use, he couldn’t seem to focus on anything that was happening as he fought against Shoupe, much less on you. The cop across from you held her hand out as if that was supposed to ease your nerves as she holstered her gun.  

“Miss, I need you to calm down.”

“I don’t understand, what’s happening?” Your voice sounded distant as you spoke, hysterical even.  

-

The door to the old white house opened and a dark-haired young woman stepped out, well-dressed and only half paying attention as she texted someone. A far cry from the thirteen-year-old you had once known.

“Wheezie...Louisa,” you smiled when she looked up, her own smile matching yours.  

“Thank god, you’re here. Thank you for coming.” She said, shoulders relaxing, “I just...don’t want to leave him alone.”

“I’m sure he appreciates you treating him like a baby.” You stepped inside the house after her, the entry way looking just the way it had the last time you were in the house.  

“Yeah, well, I don’t know what else to do, I don’t want him leaving the house.” She replied, “he’s in his room anyway.”

“Hope he stays there,” you mused, trading places with her as she moved to leave the house.  

“He’s been really depressed, I think,” she replied, “if it’s too much, you don’t have to stay.” She knew she was asking a lot but she didn’t know who else to ask. She didn’t speak to her mother anymore and her father had fled the OBX and America days before her 14th birthday. Sometimes Sarah stopped by but even that relationship was tense.  

“I’ll be fine Lousia, promise.”  

“Okay, I’ll text you on my way home,” she said.  

-

“He’s in his room.” Rose said, letting you into the house. She stood off to the side, barely interested in your presence and looking more annoyed than anything that she had to open the door.  

“Thanks,” you moved into the house passed her, waving to Wheezie when you spotted her in the other room. You hurried upstairs and down the hall to your boyfriend’s room, slipping inside and away from the rest of the household. Rafe’s room was like a sanctuary from the rest of his house and sometimes even from the rest of the island.  

He was still sleeping when you went in, beer bottles on the nightstand along with an ashtray, half smoked cigarettes, a bong and his lighter. You shut the door, locking it behind you and tiptoeing across the room so you wouldn’t wake him, though that was doubtful given the music coming from his stereo. If that didn’t wake, not much else could. He was stretched out almost diagonally on the bed, on his stomach, comforter twisted around his legs and pushed down to his waist. You toed off your sandals and climbed up on the bed on your knees, crawling over to your boyfriend and straddling him.  

You leaned down over him, brush hair away from his face and kissing below his ear. “Rafe, wake up.” You were supposed to be going to the island club with him and Topper and you definitely hadn’t woken up this early to sit around while your boyfriend slept.

He groaned and twisted his arm back to try and swat at you. “Go away.”

“Not a chance,” you laughed, trying to move away from his arm without getting off his back. “We have to go.”

“I’m not going,” he mumbled, pressing his face further into the bed.  

“You told Topper-”

“Fuck him,” he twisted, knocking you onto your side on the bed as he laid on his back. “Come here, I wanna sleep.”

“God, you are such a baby.” You teased, already giving in as you repositioned yourself to cuddle up beside him.  

-

You stood in the kitchen, reading through emails on your phone and fighting the urge to walk through the house. When Wheezie had let you in your first inclination had been to walk straight upstairs to Rafe’s bedroom the way you used to when you were younger.  

“God, of all the people I didn’t expect to see.” Rafe’s voice caught your attention and you looked up to find him standing in the entryway of the kitchen, sweatpants obscuring the house arrest anklet that he wore.  

“Wheezie asked me to be here.” You replied, looking away. Would she consider you still helpful if you went and sat in your car until she came home. Being here, with Rafe, was harder than you thought it would be. In the black and white world of what was good and what was bad you knew exactly how you felt. Peterkin had been more than good to your family the whole time you lived on the island and you had been horrified to discover someone had murdered her. Knowing that person was Rafe was asking you to choose who was more important.  

“That’s the only reason you’re here?” He asked, moving further into the kitchen.

You hadn’t ever let go of the feelings you had for Rafe though. He was your first boyfriend and you had weighed everyone else against him for a long time. “I’m not here for you.” You finally said.  

“What happened was a mistake,” Rafe said, “I wasn’t in my right mind.”

“You know what? I would’ve loved to buy that when I was a kid but I’m not anymore, you can’t sell me an excuse.”  

“So that’s how it’s gonna be?

“I told you Rafe,” You replied, taking a deep breath to steady yourself. This was all harder than you thought it would be, “I’m here because Wheezie asked me to be. I moved on, I have a life that doesn’t include you anymore. Yeah, when we were eighteen I thought you were it but I’m almost thirty...I’m not so naive now. I’ve got a kid, I’m getting married,” you shrugged, “I would do anything for your sister, she’s like my own, but I’m not still hanging onto you.”  

“Getting married huh?” He asked, “to someone around here?”

“Yeah.”  

“Who?”  

“It’s none of your business, actually. You’re not part of my life anymore.” You said.  

He nodded slowly, trying to steady his breathing and the pounding in his chest at your words. Finally, he grabbed a water bottle from the island, “I’ll be upstairs.”

“I’m sorry, you know, that things couldn’t have been different.” You admitted as he walked away, “I loved you...I loved being here with you, if things had been different...I’d love to think that we’d be together still but, I’m happy now.”

“Good for you.”  

You listened as the door to his bedroom slammed shut and closed your eyes, fighting back tears.  

-

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[villca]

* RICARDO HOYOS, CIS MAN + HE/HIM | you know CHASER ‘CHASE’ VILLCA, right? they’re TWENTY-THREE, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, ONE YEAR? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to TRUTH by ALEX EBERT like, a million times this year, which makes sense, ‘cause they’ve got that whole COWER OF A DOG AROUND FIREWORKS, FULL BODY FLINCH OF A HELD HAND & CAKED MUD IN THE KNOTS OF THEIR HOODIE’S DRAWSTRINGS thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is NOVEMBER 10TH, so they’re a SCORPIO, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( tasha, 22, est, she/her)

hullo!! my name is tasha and i Hope Everyone is Doing Well During these Unprecedented and Uncertain Times n also having a happy ny x my second lockdown quarantine fixation of choice was degrassi n it shows FJGHK anyways b4 i go back to binging more (it’s all on youtube?? iconic??) here r the deets on my boi! i look forward to plotting w all of u :~) my discord is tasha#3566 pls feel free 2 add me!! tw for cults and brief mentions of violence/neglect/abuse. 

backstory !

was raised in a traveling commune, which bounced between state parks and forests. all intense survivalists but also...not, like obvs can’t have sustained agriculture traveling from park to park, so the group’s leaders would often detour alone to pick up supplies every now and then. 

but a horrible place to grow up, not that he knew that ‘cos it’s the only life he’s ever known. was just a pretty violent / toxic atmosphere with a hyper survival of the fittest mentality, a lot of sparring that would go too far, not nearly enough resources for the weather conditions, or anyone with actual medical training for when anyone got sick or injured - all under the guise of self sufficiency.  

also very poorly homeschooled, chase barely knows how to read, and stories/info was often read to them or recited by memory. 

at eighteen he’s given more responsibility, gets to go on supply runs. goes to like, cvs, for the first time. hates it FJHG, really just has no desire to explore more of the world even though he knows for sure it’s out there now. his ‘family’ are thrilled about this - knowing they basically have him for life.

trains and mentors the younger members, unwittingly encourages violence, sort of pushing them to their limits because for the group it’s less about winning and more about being able to survive - endurance and being able to endure is so wrapped up in reverence which he mistakes for love. 

when he’s twenty the whole commune gets busted, apparently they had been secretly under investigation for a while. his parents were in the commune too but never make that distinction known so the cops tell him and he’s like ok and ? just like, doesn’t know that that’s meant to mean anything.

goes to jail directly to jail does not pass go ... takes a bit to go to trial, but he ends up serving two years. and that’s what you missed on glee ! currently living with his grandparents at lilac ridge, which is weird. they feel very much like strangers. also on parole still, f in the chat.

personality !

hates it here, feels like shit just wants to go vibe in the woods again. is a lot more quiet than he used to be, truly flopping like a fish out of water.

always saying the wrong thing then getting frustrated at himself bc humiliating ! and if no one respects him, ‘cos he knows nothing about anything anymore then how can anyone ever love him ! this thought depresses him - finds it super hard to make friends ! doesn’t understand any pop culture references.

can be a bit rude, a wee bit hostile, physically aggressive, immature. just doesn’t think before he speaks smh. won’t admit when he’s wrong either will just be like, ya that’s what i meant. 

competitive as heck ! catch him trying to out chin-up the person next to him at the outdoor gym down at the beach. loves games too, but not like board games, think he’s only ever played cards anyways ... but like, duck duck goose. 

for all the survivalist training, not even that street smart (and not book smart at all). like ya he can identify types of mushrooms and wipe his ass with a leaf in a pinch but i mean he doesn’t need to do that now rip. 

easily influenced but pretends he isn’t, his grandparents were like chaser ? that’s no name. we’ll call you chase. and he was all like whatevs ... but now he introduces himself to people as chase.

fun facts !

other song choice for app was cop car by mitski, but chase doesn’t listen to music. or particularly like it, but he’s had to get used to his grandparent’s excessive radio use.

has dimples, very cute when he smiles. this is a fact and i personally find it very fun.

will eat anything. tho his fave food is honey on toast the cottagecore girlies are quaking !

favourite story is jack and the beanstalk which he still thinks was made up by the commune. doesn’t know it’s an actual book/tale bc they’d always recount it by memory.

everyone called him chaser because he was good at chasing people FGHJ, king of tag !

begrudgingly saving up for a phone, doesn’t see the point of it but apparently it’s imperative for his “ future life prospects ” ???

wanted connections !

really feels out of the loop with everything like he’ll never be caught up but, someone give him a pop culture 101 lesson ! 

someone to get him into music, film, art etc ... 

makeover montage ? rly do imagine him with the worst style !

someone who gets him out of his shell a lil, makes him has fun, takes him to a party or the arcade, endless possibilities truly. 

a future roommate, he simply does not have the funds to move out yet... but imagine...if they let him stay with them for free KFGH or let him crash whenever. honestly probably the worst housemate, just pacing at all hours, leaving the fridge door open. 

alternatively people who either know his grandparents ( who i imagine as a muriel and eustace FGJKH ) or live in lilac ridge ! 

people he gets in fights with...grew up where violence was a first resort unforch so the moment things get heated he’s throwing hands. or like, him asking who do you need me to beat up to someone sad over an ex or smth and actually meaning it...

co-workers ( where he works tba ).

and all the usual jazz, friends, enemies, hook-ups, unrequited crushes.

also stuff specific to the locations could be rly cool !

[jimimn]

HI ITS ME WHO'S NOT OVER JJK BLONDE SELFIE AND WILL NEVER BE -💫

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO <33333333

HONESTLY ITS THE WAY YOH SAY SUCH NICE THINGS AND I DISAPPEAR FOR DAYS ON END BECAUSE INCONSISTENCY BLEEDS INTO EVERY CORNER OF MY LIFE FNEKALKD BUT I'M GETTING DONE WITH MY FIRST LEG OF EXAMS ON MONDAY SO YAY TO THAT!! OKAY I THINK WE'LL MOVE SLOWLY WITH BABY STEPS JUNGKOOK DROPPED SOME SELCAS JIMIN DROPPED SOME SELCAS IN THE WORDS OF THE LEGENDARY JEON JUNGKOOK ALL WE NEED NOW IS "together..BAM!" (THAT'S LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE MOMENTS EVER THE WAY HE SAYS IT 🤧)

YES IN THIS HOUSE WE SCREAM OVER JIMIN'S DISRESPECT HE IS THE PARAGON OF A MULTI-FACETED MAN THAT HAS US WRAPPED AROUND HIS FINGER. THE AUDACITY 😤

CHANEL X JIMIN LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN AND OMG THAT SELFIE THAT DROPPED?? SIR???? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?? I MEAN YES BH SAID LET'S DROP SELFIES IN BULK BUT THAT ONE PICTURE OF HIM IN BLACK(GREY? I DONT KNOW FHSKKAJF) WITH THE SHIRTS UNBUTTONED!!! THEM COLLARBONES ARE FREE AND THEY'RE THRIVING IN THE OPEN IN THAT ONE. ALSO HIS LIPS ARE SO PRETTY. OH GOD LITERALLY HE HAS THAT COCKY SMIRK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE KNOWS HE DOES HOT BOY SHIT LIKE SHUT UP OK YOU CANT DO THAT JAIL FOR U NDNSLSKAJJW

SUCH A FUCKING TEASE THATS RIGHT!! EVEN STRAIGHT MEN?? BRO LIKE HOW DO YOU HAVE ALL GENDERS JUST TRIPPING OVER THEMSELVES FOR YOU IT'S INSANE AND OMG MISS SHIVI HAVE YOU SEEN THAT ONE CLIP IN WHICH JIMIN HOLDS HIS GAZE WITH THESE MEN WHO LOOK AT HIM (i think it was bon voyage?) and when they cross each other he JUST SMIRKS AND RUNS HIS HAND THROUGH HIS HAIR LIKE YEAH OK ALEXA PLAY I'M SEXY AND I KNOW IT. AND YES I'LL LISTEN TO EVERYTHING YOU HAVE TO SAY ANYTIME 💗💗

12PM KST IS THE HOLY HOUR I TELL YOU ALTHOUGH I REMEMBER WAITING THE NIGHT BEFORE BE CAME OUT WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO COME AND BH WAS JUST LIKE "yea...no" OMG THAT'S AWESOME YOUR COUSIN'S VISITING YOU

HHFJDOSO YEAH IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE THEY DID THE JUMP ALTHOUGHHHH I'M POSITIVE THEY'LL DO SMTH COOL LIKE THAT IN THEIR CONCERTS BECAUSE THEIR PERFORMANCE QUALITY IS JUST.. THROUGH THE ROOF IT'S CRAZY!! WHEN THE PERFORM WINGS?? LIKE HOLY SHIT NO CHOREO NO POSITIONS JUST BTS RUNNING AROUND THE STAGE MAKING THE CROWD GO FERAL I LOVE EVERY WINGS PERFORMANCE SO MUCH MY SEROTONIN LEVELS ARE ALWAYS AT A HIGH THEN. OOHH MY GODDD BS&T IS REALLY THAT BITCH!!!! WHO'S DOING IT LIKE HER TODAY NO ONE IS EXACTLY. AND NOOOO I TOTALLY GET IT WE THINK ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH THAT ACCIDENT HAS THE SAME EFFECT ON ME. IF ONLY YOU'D TOLD ME THEN IN 2016 THAT THAT ACCIDENT WAS THE START OF SO MANY I'D BE PREPARED FOR EVERYTHING THAT FOLLOWED (see: him basically stripping himself that one serendipity performance. holy shit.)

FOR REAL THO CHRISTMAS LOVE DROPPED OUT OF NOWHERE AND DO YOU REMEMBER JIMIN SAYINF uUH iM nOt wORkInG oN a SoLo SoNg aT ThE mOmEnT heHe LIKE ALL MEN DO IS LIE OK AT THIS POINT. BYE. YES TAEHYUNG DID WARN US BUT ARMYS (LIKE MYSELF) PUT THEIR CLOWN WIGS ON AND THOUGHT IT WAS KTH1 LMAO. OMG I HOPE YOU DON'T SLEEP THROUGH ANY OF THEIR UPCOMING SONG RELEASES BUT I'M SURE IT'S THE BEST FEELING TO WAKE UP TO CHECK YOUR NOTIFS AND SEE "Big Hit Labels" BECAUSE THAT'S HOW YOU KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE FIREEE. DUDE SERIOUSLY I NEED JIMIN TO GO LIVE AGAIN (although we've been well fed by namjoon for now🤧😌💗) LIKE THAT ONE YT LIVE WHERE HE SAID "O...M...G" SHUT UP STOP BEING SO CUTE I'M DHJSWLIFJWKALS

LMAO OKAY YEAH THAT'S VALID YOUR BLOG THEME IS BASICALLY ✨jimin✨ AND I LOVE THAT IT REALLY GRAVITATED ME AND YOUR URL OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD YOUR BRAINNN 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️

YES YES YES JIMIN IS SO PERFECT AND THE SOCK DOODLESSS 😭😭😭 oooo so when did you get into giffing? how did you start? BROOOOO YOUR URL'S ORIGIN STORY. I LOVE IT WOW YES IT'S DEFINITELY GOT THE REQUIRED ✨pazzaz✨

NOOO OMG THIS URL IS YOUR BRAND LIKE YOU'RE A LEGEND ON ARMYBLR I LOVE IT SO MUCH. BUT STILL!! IT'S YOUR CHOICE AT THE END 💖

OMG QUARANTINE DID IT'S ONE GOOD JOB AND GOT YOU INTO BANGTAN YAY. OMG YOU AND MISS LIFEGOESMON ARE FRIENDSS??? LEGENDS INTERACTING THIS IS SO COOL. LMAO THE PARADIGM SHIFT YOU MUST'VE FELT FROM LISTENING TO STAY GOLD (WHICH BTW THE MV...THE LITERAL CUTEST OH GOD THE LITTLE DOG AND JIMIN'S LITTLE SMILES DHSJAOWO) TO THEN GOING TO BST IN WHICH JIMIN IS BASICALLY STRIPPING AND JUNGKOOK IS UPSIDE DOWN LMAOOO. YES BS&T HAS EVERYONE HOOKED THE POWERRRR. YOU FALLING DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE WITH YOUR FRIEND'S ASSISTANCE OH GOD THIS IS SO CUTE 💓 EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM 🥺🥺🥺

AAAAH OKAY MY STORY ISN'T AS INTERESTING AS YOURS IS BUT IN 2016 BASICALLY ALL I KNEW OF KPOP WAS GANGNAM STYLE AND WASNT WILLING TO CUANGE THAT PERCEPTION (FOOL BEHAVIOUR I TELL YOU) AND WAS TOO BUSY OBSESSING OVER ONE DIRECTION'S REUNION AND SO ONE NIGHT (THE NIGHT BEFORE JIMIN'S BIRTHDAY 🤧🤧) I JUST STUMBLED UPON THEIR BS&T TEARS MV AND I HEARD IT AND I WAS LIKE OMG!! THIS IS THAT SUPER ADDICTIVE SONG THAT I'D HEARD SOMEWHERE AND IT JUST SPIRALLED FROM THERE I REMEMBER SEEING JIMIN AND BEING LIKE 👀👀👀👀 WHO IS HE I LIKE HIM AND JUST HIS AURA DREW ME IN SOOO MUCH AND WHEN I WAS GETTING INTO THEM I REMEMBER WRITING THEIR NAMES IN MY NOTES TO SEE IF I COULD REMEMBER 🤧 AND I STILL HAVE THAT NOTE FROM 4+ YEARS AGO 💓 AND YEAH BASICALLY SEEING THEM DO ALL THE MUSIC SHOWS AND STUFF AT THE TIME WAS SO COOOL AND MIND YOU BH DIDN'T HAVE SUBS FOR BANGTAN BOMBS THEN SO WENT ON THESE SKETCHY DAILYMOTION TYPE SITES LOOKING FOR ALL THE CONTENT I COULD CHURN OUT LMAO

AND YES!! COURTESY OF YOU I DID WATCH SOME RUN EPS!! I WATCHED THEIR CANADA ONES SPEAKING OF WHICH I LOOOVE THAT PART WHERE THEY'RE DOING THAT SONG GUESSING THING IN THE MORNING AND JIMIN SAYS "are you cold?" 🥺🥺 TO TAE AND HUGS HIM URRHRHEHSJSJSH AND I ALSO SAW THE ONES WITH THE PUPPIES GODDDDD I LOVE THE PUPPIES ONE SO MUCH LITERALLY JUNGKOOK AND HIS DOG (MIRI?) OH MY GOD THAT LIL FLUFFER AND ADAM IS MY ICON WITH HOW HE JUST DID HIS OWN THING LMAO.

BUT ANYWAY!! DO YOU HAVE A FAVE ERA?? LIKE DO YOU EVER LOOK AT THEM AND GO "Damn I wish I was a fan then" BECAUSE HONESTLY I WISH I HAD STANNED THEM IN THEIR DOPE ERA BUT I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE SURVIVED JIMIN THEN DHKSOWID-💫

FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME!!!!!!! ITS OKAY!!!!!!!! I TOTALLY TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!!!!! AND YAYYYYY CONGRATS I HOPE THE FIRST LEG OF EXAMS WENT WELL <333333 AND OH MY GOD you’re gonna make me cry with the together baam goddddddd same one of my fave moments and jimin’s giggles after that 😭😭😭😭 my babies <3 :((((

that..... black suit selca....... that opened button...... like open one more dear sir who’s stopping you... just do it <33333 YEAH he totally needs to shut up with his i know im hot side it just kills me every single time 😭😭😭😭😭

LISTEN THAT BV3 MOMENT  S H O O K  ME OKAY????? THOSE GUYS LOOKED AT HIM AND HE WAS SO FUCKING SMUG ABOUT IT (AND HE SHOULD BE) AND THE WAY HE LICKED HIS LIPS AND RAN HIS HANDS THROUGH HIS HAIR????? LIKE HE KNOWS HE HAS EVERY SINGLE PERSON; NO MATTER WHAT GENDER; WRAPPED AROUND HIS LIL PINKY LIKE THAT???????

OH MY GOD ME TOO I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE THE WINGS STAGE AND WATCHING THEM HAVE SO MUCH FUN IS JUST SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I ALSO ABSOLUTELY LOVVVEEE THEIR ENERGY DURING THE SY TOUR MEDLEY WITH IDOL AND BAEPSAE AND FIRE AND DOPE ZSXDFGFCHGVJBHJN THEY JUST LOSE THEMSELVES IN THE CROWD AND THE MUSIC AND ITS JUST SO FUCKING SURREAL TO WATCH HOW MUCH THEY ENJOY DOING WHAT THEY DO!!!!! kinda makes me want to find that happiness and passion in whatever i do in my professional life <3 and LISTEN jimin said the break the soul commentary THAT HE COULD DO SERENDIPITY SHIRTLESS TOO. THE AUDACITY. HE SAID THAT WITH HIS WHOLE CHEST. 

YOU KNWO WHAT I THINK JIMIN WON’T GIVE US A HINT BEFORE DROPPING PJM1. HE’LL JUST DROP IT ONE FINE DAY OUT OF NOWHERE LIKE HE DROPPED PROMISE AND CHRISTMAS LOVE (i wasn’t here when he dropped promise but i read that on twitter sdfghjkl) AND NO PLS NO I DO N O T WANT TO SLEEP THROUGH JJK1 OR KTH1 OR PJM1 OR KSJ1 OR NAMGI MIXTAPE 3 OR HOBI MIXTAPE 2 OR ANYTHING BASICALLY YOU GET IT i had slept through dynamite cb because i had NO CLUE that they were gonna drop it at 1pm kst rather than 12 am kst. i was under the impression that since they dropped all the teaser pictures and the teaser itself as 12 am kst, the mv will drop at 12 am kst too. and I woke up like two hours after the mv dropped (which was almost noon my time) and i felt like A FUCKING FOOL AND I JUST 😭😭😭😭 NEVER WANT TO FEEL LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN 😭😭😭 

AND YES BABIE NEEDS TO COME LIVE SOON PLS I MISS HIM SO FUCKING MUCH :((((( AND HIS O...M.....G HAD MADE ME FUCKING SOBBBBBBBBBBB his yt live god he looked sooooooo fluffy with his hair and his tiny hands and his puppy eyes and soft voice im just so 😭😭😭😭😭😭

NO NONNONONONO PLEASE IM NO LEGEND DON’T SAY THAT IM EMBARRASSED im just a normal fangirl who makes okayish gifs 😭😭 and ok yes so i started giffing LONNNGGGGGG time back on a different public fan forum from my country but i never knew the right process and stuff so obviously the gifs were shitty lmao BUT ANYWAY i got into gifmaking PROPERLY this in july last year and obviously struggled a lot in the beginning because i didn’t know shit about colouring and stuff lmao but i kept practicing and even though im not perfect rn i do think that i got better. i love giffing tho. its such a nice creative outlet and whenever i gif the boys it brings me so much happiness :( <33

AND YES ASDFGHJKL ME AND HER ARE FRIENDS SINCE A VERY LONG TIME SDFGHJK LIKE LONG BEFORE BOTH OF US GOT INTO BTS SDFGHJ and ah yes the whiplash lmaooooooo and you’re right god the stay gold mv is SO FUCKING PRETTY THE COLOURS IN THAT ENTIRE MV HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND JIMIN AND TAE AND JOON WITH THE DOGGO JUST EVERYTHING SDFGHJK <3333333 AND BS&T DUDE I GIFFED THE MV YESTERDAY AND IM 💀💀💀💀💀 (like i just giffed jimin from the mv but i did watch the whole thing 5647589 times <333333) AND GUESS WHAT!!!!!! I WAS A LILLY SINGH FAN (IDK IF YOU KNOW HER SHE’S A YOUTUBER) BACK IN 2016 AND PEOPLE BACK THEN HAD REQUESTED HER TO REACT TO BS&T MV AND I HAD WATCHED HER REACTION VIDEO AND (although it didn’t stick with me back then because i was a fucking fool) I DID SOMEHOW REMEMBERED THE JIN AND STATUE KISSING MOMENT AND WHEN IN 2020 I SAW THE MV AND SAW THE KISSING MOMENT MY BRAIN JUST!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS LIKE HOLY SHIT I HAVE SEEN THIS BEFORE SOMEWHERE AND THEN I REMEMBERED I HAD SEEN THIS IN THE REACTION VIDEO LMAOOOOO i wish i hadn’t been a fool and gotten into them back then :((((

AH NO OMG YOUR STORY IS SOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEE ATLEAST YOU WEREN’T A FOOL LIKE ME TO NOT GET ATTRACTED TO BS&T THE FIRST TIME OF SEEING IT!!!! I WANNA HIT MY 2016 SELF LIKE DAMN YOU YOU FOOLISH ASSHOLE AND yes omg how did y’all do the subs thing damnnnnn i can’t imagine

AND YES THE CANADA RUN EPIS ARE LOOOVVVEEEE and that vmin moment plsssssss i cry everytime 😭😭😭😭😭 it is just so soft and innocent and tae’s little smile after jimin just turns around and hugs him 😔😔😔😔 i love soulmates 😔😔😔😔 AND MIRI YES OMG EVERYONE WAS SO IMPRESSED BY THE LITTLE CUTIE AND THE WAY JUNGKOOK JUST KEPT ADORING HER THROUGHOUT MADE ME SO SO SOFTTTT and bro adam is me. i am like that. lazy and un-motivated AF. although if i were a dog and jin were to be my owner i would listen to him so well and jump on him every chance i’d get 😌😌😌

GOD YES RED HAIR DOPE ERA JIMIN 💀 BABIE BUT MAKE IT SEXY 🥵🥵 AND OMG YESDGFHG MY FAVE ERA IS HYYH. ORANGE HAIRED JIMIN. PLS. HE’S EVERYTHING. I WISH I HAD GOTTEN INTO THEM DURING THAT. LIKE THAT ERA IS ..... SOMEHOW SO FUCKING WILD AND STILL SO ASSURING AND CALMING ????? KEEPS ME ROOTED LIKE IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN DFGHJKL AND WINGS TOO DAMN I WISH I WAS HERE TO LIVE ALL THOSE AMAZING ERAS. but even though i wish i had gotten into them earlier... i think i found them when i needed them the most. I was going through a very difficult time last year and they somehow they made me feel so fucking safe and at home that the connection was instant. honestly i’ve never stanned or felt a connection with any celebrity as strong as the one i feel with bangtan. its like... they don’t know i exist but they still know EXACTLY what im feeling and what to say or do at that time to make me feel comforted. Its weird god but its true :((( SORRY I GOT EMO I JUST LOVE THEM A LOT SDFGHJKL

[1112lw]

Every question!!

SDFFSDFG DAM OK SIS

LONG POST AHEAD IF U LITERALLY WANNA KNOW ME PERSONALLY JUST READ THIS LMFAO

1: Name: Arche/Jupiter, my close friends know my real name so!

2: Age: High school has just been done so try to guess

3: Fears: Heights, oral presentations, the dark

4: 3 things I love: Drawing, men- concept art n stuff like that

5: 4 turns on: Oh here we go- uhh thighs, messy hair? when they give u The Look or when they. say things i will not talk about here HHGBDF n uhhh Arms 👀👀

6: 4 turns off: weird macho attitude, overly confident bullshit, being selfish and fuckboys in general

7: My best friend: not sure what this means but my bff is named Daphnée n i love her and ive known her my whole life so 

8: Sexual orientation: homosexuale

9: My best first date: :))))))) as if

10: How tall am I: sigh. I’m 5″4

11: What do I miss: sometimes i miss the feeling loved ig

12: What time were I born: 12:19

13: Favourite color: pink!

14: Do I have a crush

15: Favourite quote: My senior quote!! “if what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, I’m telling you I’m immortal”

16: Favourite place: well? my room ig? I like my yard too

17: Favourite food: ugh ramen,,,korean dishes are TASTE as fuck but i also like classic ass spaghetti so like lol

18: Do I use sarcasm: does it look like i dont

19: What am I listening to right now: dr.phil LMFAO

20: First thing I notice in new person: Hair and eyes!! also how they laugh

21: Shoe size: Like. a 7-8 in women’s 6 in men’s 

22: Eye color: Hazel/Golden yes bitch let me be special

23: Hair color: it’s either dark brown or golden brown idk

24: Favourite style of clothing: bruv its either kpoppie fuckboy or uwu skirts pastels

25: Ever done a prank call?: no i have anxiety

26: Meaning behind my URL:

27: Favourite movie: rise of the guardians and HTTYD

28: Favourite song: Comeback Home (BTS cover)

29: Favourite band: looks in the camera i dont know nan molla huh

30: How I feel right now: I’m fine im hungry

31: Someone I love: shoutout to my babeys in my server ily

32: My current relationship status: Single(tm)

33: My relationship with my parents: theyre fine ig just a bit tired

34: Favourite holiday:

35: Tattoos and piercing I have: Ear piercings? that’s it

36: Tattoos and piercings I want:

37: The reason I joined Tumblr:

38: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I sure hope not?

39: Do I ever get “good morning�� or “good night ” texts? A bit ig?

40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Literally no

41: When did I last hold hands? Like last Friday

42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes

43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i havent shaved in like months

44: Where am I right now? in my room, in quebec, canada

45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? bitch i sure hope my friends would

46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? fuck my ears 

47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yeah

48: Am I excited for anything? yeah? yeah

49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? ig? always

50: How often do I wear a fake smile? just at work tbh

51: When was the last time I hugged someone? not long ago i cant tell but my friends r cuddle monsters so 

52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i havent kissed anyone so 

53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? lemme think uhhh no not rlly im not dumb 

54: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up n i thought i had school lol

55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? oh john cock i want to be ur best friend

56: What do I think about most? i daydream 24/7

57: What’s my strangest talent? uhhh i can put my thumb behind my hand?

58: Do I have any strange phobias? trypophobia, if thats “weird”

59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? depends on what the video is, mostly behind

60: What was the last lie I told? idk answering to my deadname

61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? online

62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I slightly believe in ghosts? also aliens GOTTA exist so 

63: Do I believe in magic? i think!

64: Do I believe in luck? yeah

65: What’s the weather like right now? very pretty i filmed a video outside!!

66: What was the last book I’ve read? L’Étranger d’Albert Camus in french class

67: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes my dad’s a mechanic

68: Do I have any nicknames? a lot a lot

69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? bitch @ my birth #neverforget 

70: Do I spend money or save it? i have 40$ in my name right now

71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes highlighter

73: Favourite animal? cats or otters

74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? FBISDFD NO WE DONT TALK ABOUT IT

75: What do I think is Satan’s last name idk he can have any last name he wants!!!

76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? everytime i start hearing “waiting for you anpanman” or “i just wanna go home” 👀👀

77: How can you win my heart? aaahh. be a twink. b fashionable. b funny. cheesy. pls romance me like a npc in the sims 2

78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? s(he) died smh

79: What is my favorite word? cunt is SUCH a satisfying word

80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? oh great uh honestly cant be fucked 

81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? please have brain. PLEASE

82: Do I have any relatives in jail? i sure hope the fuck not?

83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? either invisibility or mind reading

84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ahaaa “what are your intrusive thoughts”

85: What is my current desktop picture? my lesbian sims getting married LMFAO

86: Had sex? no

87: Bought condoms? no

88: Gotten pregnant? NO

89: Failed a class? i think yeah maths last year

90: Kissed a boy? :(((

91: Kissed a girl? no

92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no

93: Had job? I have a job rn so 

94: Left the house without my wallet? yeah when i go to school

95: Bullied someone on the internet? define bullying?

96: Had sex in public? virgin squad

97: Played on a sports team? yeah

98: Smoked weed? no ew

99: Did drugs? no ew

100: Smoked cigarettes? NO EW

101: Drank alcohol? yep 

102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no i’d die

103: Been overweight? i’m twig

104: Been underweight? i think i was underweight when i was young? i was very Small

105: Been to a wedding? yes very long boring

106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? bruh. everyday

107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? probably?

108: Been outside my home country? ONCE

109: Gotten my heart broken? TWICE !

110: Been to a professional sports game? yesss canadians game!!

111: Broken a bone? no

112: Cut myself? not technically 

113: Been to prom? SOON SOON SOON SOSOSNSBFSHDD

114: Been in airplane? once

115: Fly by helicopter? i am not rich bitch

116: What concerts have I been to? noneeee- WAIT NO MARIE MAI

117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? not sex but for the purpose of pretending i have a penis yes plenty

118: Learned another language? yeah!! i learned english, i almost learned spanish and i’m trynna learn korean now

119: Wore make up? i try!! but i’m not super good

120: Lost my virginity before I was 18? not 18 yet but it’s goin that way

121: Had oral sex? as if 

122: Dyed my hair? i wishhh

123: Voted in a presidential election? I WISH THE ELECTIONS R ONE MONTH B4 MY BIRTHDAY 

124: Rode in an ambulance? nope

125: Had a surgery? yes at a week old 

126: Met someone famous? i think yes but i was super small

127: Stalked someone on a social network? define stalked?

128: Peed outside? yes

129: Been fishing? YES

130: Helped with charity? i think? we do volunteering so 

131: Been rejected by a crush? not directly

132: Broken a mirror? no 

133: What do I want for birthday? boyf......boy..boyff

134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? oh man uhh maybe 2-3, i dont know their names yet honestly

135: Was I named after anyone? MY DAD NAMED ME AFTER A FUCKIN CLIENT HE MET. as for my actual name now I named myself after my fav video game character. lit

136: Do I like my handwriting? yeah!!

137: What was my favourite toy as a child? bitch hot wheels

138: Favourite Tv Show? hells kitchen,,,,judge judy,,,anythin like that

139: Where do I want to live when older? honestly i wish i could just live in japan or tokyo, or new york? but i will most likely end up in montreal 

140: Play any musical instrument? i used to play the clarinet last year!!

141: One of my scars, how did I get it? the one on my knee, i scratched my desk with my knee 

142: Favourite pizza toping? my dad makes AMAZING sea food pizzas,,,

143: Am I afraid of the dark? a lot

144: Am I afraid of heights? A LOT

145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? idk prolly? im a bit of a goody two shoes or however u spell it

146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end: dont we all

147: What I’m really bad at: organizing my anxiety n shit i get overwhelmed

148: What my greatest achievments are: finishing high school 

149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: honestly has to be that time someone dug up my vent post about being dysphoric to try to say i hated myself with some dumbass DySphorIa Is SelF HaTRed argument

150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents’ debt off, buy 284223$ of BT21 merch, pay my whole college/uni and transition

151: What do I like about myself: idk i like how i literally do not give a fuck anymore and ive learned to love myself instead of trynna care

152: My closest Tumblr friend: @peptobismol-official​ @ace-landofthesun​ @dorkalisious​ and ana but idk her @ anymore :((( ana pls

153: Something I fantasise about: we dont talk about that

154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?: lit. please stop crawling in my ceiling !

ok now that u know my whole biography. go doxx me ig. bye bye

[thegoshdarnhero]

1-140 pls ;)

3 Fears: Heights, disappointing the ones i love, and dying without making a impact

3 things I love: sincere affection,Music, you probably 

2 turns on: Harmonics and good kissing

2 turns off: assumptions and closed mindedness 

My best friend: been awhile sonce i’ve seen him but my buddy Logan

Sexual orientation: Pansexual

How tall am I: 6ft’3

What do I miss right now: hm, probably friends in far away places

Favourite color: black& Red

Do I have a crush: man I fall so easily, i’ve tried to get rid of the notion of “crushes” because it leads to aches

Favourite place: my room

What am I listening to right now: “The Muse” by The Wood Brothers

Shoe size: 13 wide

Eye color: hazel

Hair color: brown/black

Meaning behind my URL: it’s a play on my online handle “The God Damn Hero, TheGDHero)

Favourite song: depends on the mood

Favourite band: prob Protest The Hero but there are so many other ones up there

How I feel right now: Pretty okay, indifferent

Someone I love: i’d like to say myself, but can’t but i’m getting there

My current relationship status: Eternally single

My relationship with my parents: Much better than it used to be

Favourite season: Fall

Tattoos and piercing i have: 0

Tattoos and piercing i want: I want a few tats, one being my family Coat Of Arms

The reasons I joined Tumblr: I joined YEARS ago because my GF at the time had one and after we split i never deleted it

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: Ha....no

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: Nope

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: about 45 mins

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: NOPE

Where am I right now?: Home

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: louder the better

Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: nope

Am I excited for anything?: The sweet release of D- i mean i’m going on vacation soon

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: I’d like to think so

How often do I wear a fake smile? Less than I have been

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?:You

What do I think about most?: If Global warming is a myth then why did Club Penguin shit down?

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behinddd

What was the last lie I told?: i’m okay

Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?phone

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: sure

Do I believe in magic?: eh

Do I believe in luck?: sure

What’s the weather like right now?: overcast

What was the last book I’ve read?: Girl with the Dragon Tattoo 

Do I have any nicknames?: a few

Do I spend money or save it?: i’m trying to save

Can I touch my nose with a tounge?: nah

Favourite animal?: Lion

What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: Sleeping

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: Rivers and Roads

What is my favorite word?: tapioca 

My top 5 blogs on tumblr: tbh i’m not on here enough

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: Stop being assholes to each other, Also #32 your table is ready

Do I have any relatives in jail?: nope

What is my current desktop picture?: TSM 2018 wallpaper

Had sex?: sure

Bought condoms?: always

Gotten pregnant?: nope

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: Sure

Had job?: yarp

Smoked weed?: yarp

Smoked cigarettes?: not my thing but i have before

Drank alcohol?: not really

Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: nope

Been overweight?: sure

Been underweight?: nope

Gotten my heart broken?: more than once

Been to prom?: nah, PLayed D&D insstead

Been in airplane?: yup

Learned another language?: yup

Wore make up?:yup

Dyed my hair?:Nope

Had a surgery?: Yes

Met someone famous?: a few

Stalked someone on a social network?: nah

Been fishing?: Yup

Been rejected by a crush?: Who hasn’t

What do I want for birthday?: peace and quite, and maybe a new PC

Do I like my handwriting?: eh, take it or leave it

Where do I want to live when older?: hmmm, Japan or Greece 

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?: Sure

What I’m really bad at:Taking compliments

What my greatest achievments are: Graduating from uni with my bachelors in Audio Engineering 

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: listen man, I try not to think about it

What I’d do if I won in a lottery: ensure I could invest and create growth from my gains

What do I like about myself: my wit

My closest Tumblr friend: Technically you

Any question you’d like?...

Are you outgoing or shy?: I guess shy

What kind of people are you attracted to? Kind, and caring people

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?: Bruh i don’t know if i’m eating breakfast tomorrow 

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?: not really

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?: man, i don’t even know

What does the most recent text that you sent say?: “Good and Good”

What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 1.2.3.4.5

Do you like it when people play with your hair?: if i’m comfortable with them, even then i have sensory issues

Do you think there is life on other planets?: i mean we can’t be the only things out there

Do you like bubble baths? Not really

Do you like your neighbors?: Never met them

Where would you like to travel?: at the very moment, North Carolina

Favorite part of your daily routine? sleeping

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?: Face i guess

What do you do when you wake up?: find my will to live

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?: nah

Do you ever want to get married?: dunno, prob not

If your hair long enough for a pony tail?: Yes

Would you rather live without TV or music?: TV

Have you ever liked someone and never told them?: oh sure

What are your favorite stores to shop in?: i don’t really shop like that

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: depends

Do you smile at strangers?: fake but yeah

Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?: no, not really

Ever wished you were someone else?: meh only sometimes

Favourite makeup brand? N/A i don’t know shit about makeup

Last thing you ate?: Spaghetti i made 

Ever won a competition? For what? Music composition contest that paid for my first semester of college 

Ever been in love?: you’ve asked this already

Facebook or Twitter?: eh i’m on FB more

Twitter or Tumblr?: Twitter atm

Are you watching tv right now?: nah

What colour are your towels?: White

Favourite ice cream flavour?: hmmm, something chocolate 

First person you talked to today? Jim (my coworker)

Last person you talked to today? @falulu

Name a person you hate?: i don’t hate, or try not to

Name a person you love?: you

Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?: again, i’m not big on violence like that

Do you tan a lot?: nah, just am

Have any pets?: a puppy name Iris 

Do you type fast? so-so

Do you regret anything from your past?: Sure

Ever broken someone’s heart?: Sure i have

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?: all the time

Is cheating ever okay?: Nah fam

Do you believe in true love?: Sure, hasn’t happened to me yet but sure

What your zodiac sign? Scorpio 

Do you believe in ghosts? sure

Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? ( Death and other Holidays)(Hope you’re happy Smartass)

[ellana-ravenwood]

Shit, it’s father’s day ! - Bruce Wayne x Reader

So, I’m not close from my father. Like, not at all. We’re mostly strangers. So I completely forgot that it was Father’s day today...I actually realized it was that specific day thanks to Hugh Jackman and his instagram account where he posted a picture of his dad and him...ANYWAY, I wrote something for Batman, I feel like I HAVE TO write something for Batdaddy to yo. LITERALLY WROTE IT IN TWENTY MINUTES THOUGH, cause I got things to do today but felt inspired. So here it is, hope you’ll like it : 

You can find my masterlist here : @ella-ravenwood-archives

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-Bruce. Bruce. Bruce ?!

Alarmed by the emptiness next to you in bed, you sit up. It’s not like your husband to leave your shared bed without telling you, without a kiss or hell, without making love to you. 

It’s not like him indeed, as he didn’t really leave the bed. He’s sitting on the edge of it, looking out the window of your bedroom. Worries fill your voice when you ask, a bit unsure : 

-Bruce...My heart, are you alright honey ? 

Bruce grumbles back an answer you don’t hear, and you crawl to him. Your tempted to hug him from behind, wrap your arms around his torso, your legs around his waist, your head resting on his back (he’s too tall for you to reach anything else but the middle of his back with your head)...But you feel like something is off. 

It’s pretty obvious really. The way he groaned at you. The fact he isn’t in bed anymore. The way his back is hunched and...just the fact he’s not in your arms right now. He doesn’t even look at you when you approach him, so you decide to drop the hug from behind, and sit next to him. 

He still doesn’t look at you, and you panic a little. It’s so unlike him...

-Bruce ? Please, say something...Did I do something wrong ? 

He quickly raises his head and his eyes lock with yours. Is it...is it sadness you can see in his deep blue orbs ? 

-No, no you didn’t do anything. It’s quite the opposite really. It’s just...It’s just that it’s...The day and...I’m being stupid and childish. Sorry. 

He’s about to stand up and go to the bathroom, but you suddenly understand and hold him back. This time, you hug him from behind, because you know he needs it. There isn’t a problem with you. Oh nope. 

It’s father’s day, almost 4 pm, and no trace of your boys. When it was mother’s day, they woke you up early with a magnificent breakfast, and took you out all day...

As you wrap your arms and legs around him, he sighs sadly (and makes you hurt drop, seeing him sad always break you a little, and you just have to do something about it) and the grip he has on your thigh is a bit stronger than his usual soft one. 

Yes. He needs you. 

You know he’s highly insecure about his ability as a father. Just the fact that they always come to you instead of him when they have a problem hurt his feelings way more than they think. When they ask him something, it’s “Hey dad, where’s mom ?”...They just don’t talk and interact with him like they do with you. 

He often feels guilty when he misses a birthday, or a school play because the League called him, and he wished he could know how to use words better. So that he could tell them that, even if he’s not there, his thoughts are always for them first. Everything he does is primarily for them. So they’d have a better future, and won’t have to fight as much as him, even though they already are...

It’s not like they don’t have bonding times. After all, they often played basketball or any other sports. They talk about girls sometimes (oh your Bruce LOVES to gross them out talking lovingly about you). But...it’s just not the same than with you. They’d never come to him for a hug for exemple (except maybe Dick, but that boy would hug anything and anyone). 

When they feel sad, it’s you they came to see, and only you was able to soothe them back to sleep after a nightmare with sweet words and your fingers caressing their hair lovingly. 

You know how your Bruce feels highly insecure about his ability as a father...And yet, you still think he’s the best you’ve ever seen. Well, maybe after Alfred though. 

Your own father was an asshole, in and out of jail, died of an overdose when you were sixteen and all you could think was that you finally got away from his abusive grasp. You didn’t feel sad at all. And you never celebrated any father’s day. So seeing how Bruce was actually invested in his boys’ life. 

He always made sure they were alright, he often gave them valuable life advices, so that they wouldn’t become what he became. He showed them he loved them, sure, in his own way, but...they knew it. They knew their father loved them. Even if they had to almost die sometimes, for him to hug them tight and tell them directly : “I love you my son”. It’s just...Bruce was always afraid to not be as good as his own father. To make mistakes he’d never be able to fix. Like when Jason died, and came back to life, the anger and hatred your son felt toward his father almost broke your husband. 

It was already difficult to go through his death. Awful. He felt like he was back when he was eight years old and lost his parents...But when Jay came back, and was mad at him for not killing the Joker, insinuating that Bruce didn’t love him enough to avenge him...it really nearly destroyed him. He pulled through thanks to you, and his other sons...And even though now Jason seemed to understand and forgave him, the wound was still there. 

So yes, Bruce was always very insecure about wether he was a good father or not, about wether he was doing the right thing for them, showing them enough what they meat to him etc etc...So the fact that his sons forgot father’s day, while they made such a big deal of mother’s day, well, it broke his heart. Truly. 

And you could feel it in the way he was snuggling closer to you, caressing your legs...He turned around, and wrapped his arms around you, falling on you on the bed (you always liked feeling his weight above you, even if he was quite heavy because so many damn muscles !). 

The only thing you could do right now was caress his hair, because this soothing gesture worked on him too. In a low voice, you say : 

-I’m sure they’re just...tired. Or forgot. They’re quite forgetful boys really. 

-They didn’t forget you. And before mother’s day, we had a rough night. 

-...Maybe they think you’re...

He cuts you off with a broken voice that makes your heart tighten. 

-Listen (Y/N), I appreciate you trying to cheer me up, I really do but...Just hold me. Please. That’s all I need. 

You don’t say anything, but your grip around him is now tighter. You pull him close to you. He breathes in your neck, and you can feel his sadness wash over you...Damn those boys. To be honest though, even you wouldn’t have thought that it would hit him that hard that they forgot. 

You stay like that for hours. Just whispering sweet nothing in his ears, making sure he feels loved, caressing his body etc etc...When you finally pull away from each other because hunger is hitting you both, it’s already the evening, and the sun is going down. Alfred lets you know dinner is ready. 

Your husband stands up and..Something at the window attracts his face. What...What was that on his parents’ tomb ?  He takes you by the hand and, before you can understand anything, and can dress properly, you’re running though Wayne’s Manor in your pjs, while your husband is walking really fast, only in his damn boxers. 

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Hundreds of candles. Drawing from Damian. Words written by Dick, Jason and Tim too, because, well, they “can’t draw for shit, but they sure can write”. “Happy Father’s day” cards littering his father’s tomb...What was that ? 

-I bet you thought we forgot, right ? 

You and Bruce turn around, and are faced with all your boys. They’re all smirking, of that trademark batsmirk you love so much...Dick was the one who talk, and Jason keeps going : 

-We did wake up a little late though, sorry about that. Also, we thought, knowing you, that a day with mom would be the best. Besides, you needed sleep, I bet you’re awake only since a few hours, we didn’t wanna bother you in your sleep you know ? 

Tim continues : 

-It took us the entire day to put everything on Granddad’s grave. Coming up with things to tell him about you was easy though, but we had so much to tell him that...yeah, took us the entire day. 

Not understanding,your husband just look at them, confused. So Damian explains a bit more : 

-We thought it could be good to come see Grandfather and tell him about you. So we...did all this. We told him how you were. How  great you were.

-How you’re not always the best father, but your ours, so it doesn’t even matter. 

-How you’re passionate about everything you do in life. 

-How loving you are, when you want. How you’d never give up on any of us. 

-How happy you make us when you finally say a joke. 

-How annoying you can be, but how right and fair you are too. 

-How much we love you too, even though we rarely admit it. 

-We love you because you’re the goddamn Batman. Because you don’t let anyone walk on your feet. Because you’re also a great business man, and kind of a nerd really. 

-We love you because you always know how to make us feel better. Not like mom, differently. In your own way. You teach us everyday to become men. 

-We love you because you can be so damn silly. And because, simply, you’re our dad, no matter how flawed, we’ll always love you. You could turn into the worst criminal ever that we’d never give up on you.

-Ok guys, if we say everything, we’ll take up the rest of the day, and we have plans right ? 

Bruce is stunned, and you’re almost afraid he’s going to faint as the arm he has around your shoulder gets heavier and heavier by the minute. They all talked with deep love, admiration and awe in their voice, and the power of what they say is hitting your Bruce like a grade A hurricane. All he can say is : 

-Pl..Plans ? 

-Well yes, of course. It’s not as elaborate as the one we had with mom, like we told you, we wanted to give you time to rest and spent some hum...quality time with mom (ew by the way). So we didn’t really plan the entire day. We thought honoring your dad was a better idea. Besides, we can’t recycle our ideas for mom to you, it wouldn’t work. You two are different. So...We did that instead. 

Jason is showing his grandfather’s grave, and Bruce feels his heart beat wildly. They did that for him...He couldn’t dream of a better way to show him they loved him. Oh my Gods, those boys always surprised him so much. Damian continues on : 

-It’s not it though. We...We cooked dinner for you. Alfred helped of course. But we did it mostly ourselves. 

Tim adds : 

-And we thought maybe...maybe we could have a chill movie night ? At least until midnight and father’s day is really over. Then you can go patrol if you want. But we could watch all your favorite films. Even the Sound of Music if you wanna...I’ll play one of the Von Trapp girl if I have to. 

Dick finish his father off with those simple words : 

-Or anything really. We can also play board game or whatever. As long as we spent time with you. Of course, mom is welcome. But if you don’t want her...

-Of course I want her to be here to. 

-We figured out that much. So, anyway, let’s go dad, we have many things to do ! Oh, and here. 

They each pull out a card from their pockets, and give them to their father : 

-You don’t have to read them now. In fact, don’t. But next time you feel sad or something, open one up and read what we have to say about you, why we love you and all...We hope it’ll cheer you up. 

Damian says, a bit shyly :

-At first I thought it was a stupid idea but...in fact...yeah; read them when you’re sad. I love you dad. 

-I love you too, by the way. Even if you let the Joker killed me. 

-Oh my god Jason shush. Besides, if the Joker never killed you, there would be no red robin, he wouldn’t have taken me in while already having a Robin ya know ? Anyway. Love you too dad. 

And then, he collapses in their arms as they give him a group hug. 

Tears fall down your cheeks. Oh my god. Those boys. They indeed never cease to surprise you...

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Bruce had the best father’s day ever. Of course, he thought about Alfred, he got him everything the Butler wanted and even more. Love, recognition, and tons of fancy gifts haha. Alfred of course joined in in the night of binge watching Bruce’s favorite films. 

There was no patrol that night, just a family enjoying each others, loving each others deeply...You all fell asleep in the couch, tangled in each others arms. 

A big bundle of love and affection. You woke up first, your head on your husband’s chest, in fact, your entire body on your husband, one of your hand on Tim’s back, the other in Damian’s hair, Jason’s head on your back, Dicks on his fathers shoulder....A big bundle of love and affection. You didn’t dare to move, wishing this moment could last forever...

It wasn’t always easy to have a family made of night vigilante who had tons of trouble to talk about their feelings, but you’d never have it any other way, and Hell, Bruce wouldn’t either. The love he held for each of you was stronger than anything. Anything. 

FIN.

OK SORRY IF THIS TOTALLY SUCKS ! I wrote it really fast cause I gotta go and won’t have time for a while to write and really wanted to write this and...ANYWAY. Sorry.

[the-communist-ted-cruz]

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1: Full name.Comrade Ted Rafael Edward Lenin Cruz2: Zodiac sign.Hammer and Sickle3: 3 fears.no fears lol4: 3 things I love.•communism•revolution •red5: 4 turn on’s.Seizing the means6: 4 turn off’s.Capitalism7:My best friend?My buddy, Trotsky8:Sexual orientation?Commo-sexual9:My best first date?yeah10:How tall am I?huge11:What do I miss?Lenin12:What time was I born?28th of December, 192213:Favorite color?Red and Yellow14:Do I have a crush?Maybe (here's a hint: Marx)15:Favorite quote?“lol communism great”-Lenin16:Favorite place?Glorious Soviet Union17:Favorite food?Food? does not compute18:Do I use sarcasm?perhaps19:What am I listening to right now?Soviet Union Anthem20:First thing I notice in new person?whether or not they are bourgeoisie 21:Shoe size?shoe?22:Eye color?red23:Hair color?Red 24: Favorite style of clothing?Soviet25:Ever done a prank call?that's punishable by Gulag26:What color of underwear I’m wearing now?red27:Meaning behind my URL?it's who I am, mom28:Favorite movie?Communism (the sequel)29:Favorite song?Soviet Union Anthem 30:Favorite band?Red Choir31:How I feel right now?Strong32:Someone I love.Marx33:My current relationship status.Seizing the means brb34:My relationship with my parentsThey did not support communism but no matter. They are gone now.35:Favorite holiday.Birth of Soviet Union36:Tattoos and piercing I have.Hammer and Sickle37:Tattoos and piercing I want.More38:The reason I joined Tumblr.To seize the posts of production 39:Do I and my last ex hate each other?my ex isn't a communist anymore and also dead so :/40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts?From the State41:Have I ever kissed the last person I texted?I have never kissed the State, no42:When did I last hold hands?with Lenin43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?I am always ready. for communism 44:Have I shaved my legs in the past three days? The razors belong to the State45: Where am I right now?Soviet Union, as is everybody?46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?The State47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?Союз нерушимый республик свободных48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad?They were sent to Gulag 50 years ago so :/49:Am I excited for anything?When we finally capture Antarctica50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?a women?51:How often do I wear a fake smile?this is my natural face I swear52:When was the last time I hugged someone?Embrace? A human? I'm interested 53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?:/ as long as they singing Soviet Anthem, is fine54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?there was one capitalist, but Stalin got ‘em55:What is something I disliked about today?not many means seized today56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?Caesar (to tell him about communism)57:What do I think about most?Thos means,,,58:What’s my strangest talent?all my talent is belong to the state59:Do I have any strange phobias?no60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?state provided camera? 61:What was the last lie I told?that communism doesn't work62:Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?you can't just use phones or videos for chatting smh63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?yes, every alien is communist64:Do I believe in magic?:/65:Do I believe in luck?no luck for nobody66:What’s the weather like right now?great for breaking your chains67:What was the last book I’ve read?Communist Manifesto 68:Do I like the smell of gasoline?Oil???69:Do I have any nicknames?Communist Cruz70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?one time my arm brushed against the wall71:Do I spend money or save it?I distribute the money to the people 72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Nah73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?Pink? No. Red? Yes.74:Favorite animal?The hammer75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM?seizing the means76:What do I think Satan’s last name is?Capitalism 77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Союз нерушимый республик свободных78:How can you win my heart? Redistribute the wealth79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?“He had nothing to lose but his Chains”80:What is my favorite word?Communism81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr?-1. Myself82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?‘YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE BUT YOUR CHAINS!!’83:Do I have any relatives in jail?not anymore they died84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?To seize any mean any where any time85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?none of them86:What is my current desktop picture?Globe of Soviet Union 87:Had sex?no88:Bought condoms?lol you don't need to buy anything89:Gotten pregnant?yes90:Failed a class?no91:Kissed a boy?no92:Kissed a girl?no93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?no rain in Soviet Union94:Had job?We all have job. Those unable are sent to Gulag 95:Left the house without my wallet?no need for wallet in perfect society96:Bullied someone on the Internet?no97:Had sex in public?Yes. The working class got fucked by the bourgeoisie 98:Played on a sports team?no99:Smoked weed?no weeds in Soviet Union 100:Did drugs?no drugs in Soviet Union 101:Smoked cigarettes?no cigarettes in Soviet Union 102:Drank alcohol?no alcohol in Soviet Union 103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan?no vegetal in Soviet Union 104:Been overweight?nobody overweight in Soviet Union 105:Been underweight?nobody underweight in Soviet Union 106:Been to a wedding?The wedding of Soviet Union and the world107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?no access to state provided computer that long108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight?no access to state provided TV that long109:Been outside my home country?Soviet Union is everywhere110:Gotten my heart broken?no111:Been to a professional sports game?no112:Broken a bone?no113:Cut myself?no114:Been to prom?no proms in Soviet Union 115:Been in airplane? Planes are for war, silly116: Fly by helicopter?helicopter?117:What concerts have I been to?Red Choir performance of ‘Red Army is Best’118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex?no119:Learned another language?what language is there besides Russian?120:Wore make up?no121:Lost my virginity before I was 18?no122:Had oral sex?no123:Dyed my hair?no124:Voted in a presidential election?are you suggesting democracy, and therefore capitalism? Smh125:Rode in an ambulance?no ambulances 126:Had a surgery?no 127:Met someone famous?Lenin 128:Stalked someone on a social network?Socialist Networks?129:Peed outside?no130:Been fishing?The fish belong to the state now131:Helped with charity?Charity is communist132:Been rejected by a crush?N133:Broken a mirror?No134:What do I want for birthday?no more captalism pls135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names?several and his name shall beComrade Marx McLenin-Trotsky Stalin de Cruz136:Was I named after anyone?No137:Do I like my handwriting?hey138:What was my favorite toy as a child?my trusty hammer and Sickle139:Favorite TV Show?the show where the communists win (like they did)140:Where do I want to live when older?Moscow141:Play any musical instrument?the instruments belong to the state142:One of my scars, how did I get it?I engraved the Hammer and Sickle on my right hand to show them capitalist pigs143:Favorite pizza topping?only pizza here is red144:Am I afraid of the dark?Stalin’s light evaporates the dark145:Am I afraid of heights?lol146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?that would mean death sentence, so no147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?No148:What I’m really bad at.I am bad at capitalizing 149:What my greatest achievements are.Seizing the most means yet150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me.‘Communism doesn't work buttface” (they were publically executed later that day)151:What I’d do if I won in a lottery.Redistribution 152:What do I like about myself?Communism 153:My closest Tumblr friend.@the-real-ted-cruz154:Something I fantasies about.interstellar communism155:Any question you’d likeYes

[angel-nero]

I was tagged by @wonderseverythingabove @glaspaladin and @kageyama-tobiyo sorta idk

Five Things You’ll Find In My Bag

phone


napkins

Money


lipstick

mints/halls (i drink too much Coke to be eating mints and I bought two packages and… oh god)

Five Things In My Bedroom:

computer

books

huge ass scary wardrobe

clothes everywhere

a lot of lamps cus I like to draw and I am super blind.

no posters cus they never keep there. old 14 years old me wasnt happy about it 

Five Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do In My Life:

play piano

learn more languages

travel a lot


dance ballet

art

Five Things That Make Me Happy:

food

art supplies

good education

my dog! Fuck! I love my dog!

buying things I want

Five Things On My To-Do List:

enter uni

chill


study for uni

recovery

laundry yeah same

Five Things People May Not Know About Me:

I get anxious a motherfucking lot about everything and no one irl knows besides my bffs. And family last year.

I eat a lot but can’t win weight and i am super skinny and look sick all the fucking time but…..

I might actually be v sick lmao. Im doing studies rn 

apparently I have french accent LMAO 🤠💦 some mx pals even asked me if I’m french and im like???? No??? i just cant focken speak right, okay? 

Im a coastal who doesnt likes seafood and old ppl constantly tell me shit about how i am missing the joy of life or how i am actually not a resident. yea, u rite, i am an alien 

Name?: Gabriela

Nicknames?: Bowie in school 🤠💦 gab, gabs, babe (gabe), uh, gabalooney toones? Idk dawn is nuts. dont call me gaby pls that's my mom 

Zodiac?: aries, constantly annoyed and an annoyance

Sexual Orientation?: Fuck this question honestly

Ethnicity?: mexican/Spanish but born in México, you get? Mexican

Favorite Fruit?: grapes

Favorite Season?: Summer. im a sucker for summer, find me in the beach, its too fucking hot so everyone wants to die

Favorite Flower?: idk i dont frikin care leave them alone

Favorite Scent?: scents that ain’t too strong. I rather breathe fresh air for all my life cus sometimes, no matter what smell, get me nervous 🤠💦 just… never food. any food

Favorite Animal?: all animals are cute I don’t play favorites

Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate?: Hot chocolate even if it kills me. then coffee and kill tea. The only i’ve had is fuze tea lmao. tea i believe is fucking bad in here and this city is too hot to actually care. i love frappes

Cat or dog?: dogs

Dream Trip?: idk, bex’s ufo spots is actually a good one but i wouldn’t like to go to merica. Also… i wanna go to yucatán and see the place where the meteorito crashed and killed the fucking dinosaurs. and i think yucatán has a beach w pink water!!!! but nvm i checked and apparently you cant see shit. just take me somewhere idc

Number of Followers?: never will tell u

What do I post about?: i have two blogs. I used to post Queen/beatles pics and gifs and shitposts. In this one i was sooo quiet for like, 2 and a half years, I barely followed anyone and stopped entering once cus all i saw was su and v0ltr0n i was so lost in my dash 🤠💦 came back this year and its good 😎 and…… idk just texts i tag under bullshit.txt if u wanna block em. i wont b posting jaaaackshit

Do I get asks on a regular basis?: blep? Sometimes. I laugh cus when I was so quiet I answered em all on private. Look, that experience is fuckin hilarious to me cus i didnt have hopes of the anime fandoms or whatever   

Favorite Band?: queen. But i love a lot of music bruh. Queen was my first fav band so shut the fuck up and eat dirt if you say something

Aesthetic?: bleeeh bleh bleeeh bru the sun, keith, the desert, the beach, the sky, the universe, fight club and trainspotting, big buildings, parties, cool stories, me dyin

Fictional Character I’d Date?:  Eren 🤠💦. Listen…. I love him, and i knew about him when we were both 15… it’s special….. and now we are both 19….. and we’re so alike. I picked him so we could b friends actually he a little motherfuck

Hogwarts House?: gryffindor 

Rules: BOLD the statements that are true for you!

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller

I wear glasses (all the fucking time)

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes

I have short hair

My abs are at least somewhat defined (i didnt even kno about this i checked a birthday pics w my friends and i had a croptop an suddenly i had abs. its from laughing probably)

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people

People tell me that I’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

I’m playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it

There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well (my throat is super fucked fam i barely can speak :/)

I can play an instrument

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well

I have a good memory

I’m good at doing math in my head

I can hold my breath underwater for under a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling 

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports (bleeh sometimes)

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing

FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country

I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS:

I’m in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships 

I have never been in a relationship (almost v close actually)

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”

I live close at my school

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling

I live in the united states

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CD’s

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce (axayactl but its easy tho and whe called him axa!)

I have dyed my hair

I’m listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the past week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life (yah whatever who care)

I speak at least 2 languages

I have made a new friend in the past year

i dont kno who to tag, idk who is down for this lm but if you see this and wanna do it…………… bbbbleaaassseeeee consider yourselfie tagged ily we dont have to b mutuals. tag me tho so i can read it!!!!!!!! i‘d love to 

[greenappleeyes]

Is Love Enough (part 6- angst finale)

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Summary: You try to adjust to life in captivity and make some difficult decisions.

A/N: This is the angsty finale. There is an alternative fluffy finale as well because I couldn’t decide which way to go; so I wrote both. Sue me. (Pls don’t, I have no money) Master tag list is at the end; let me know if you’d like to be added.

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“Dean. Sam.” Crowley spoke through you. “Thank you for meeting me. I’m sorry it took so long for me to contact you.”

“Sorry?!” Dean spat. “You hear that Sam? She’s sorry! Sorry for what, Y/N? For disappearing? Letting us, letting Cas, worry that you were dead? Then you just call one day, ready to reconcile? What the hell so going on?! You know that wasn’t Cas on the roof, right? It was a spell.”

“Dean. I didn’t come here to explain my absence. I’ve moved on. I’m happy now.” You internally cringed at the words Crowley was making you say. “I’ve found someone that can actually protect me from that psychopath.”

“Y/N, you don’t mean that.” Sam spoke softly. “You’ve got to believe us. Cas would never hurt you, ever. He loves you.” He held out his arms, beckoning you to come closer to hug him. “We love you, we miss you.”

Crowley knew it would be too suspicious if you didn’t hug him, so he had you start to close the gap. He stopped abruptly when he saw their faces harden and heard a familiar voice echo behind him. “Crowley!” Castiel bellowed. “I warned you.” Crowley had you spin around to face Castiel. “She’s chosen me, Cas. Just cut your losses and move on.”

“She would never choose you!” Castiel yelled as he began to advance toward you.

“I’d be careful there,” Crowley spoke, holding up your finger, causing Castiel to stop moving. “You hurt me? You hurt her. Look, I know it’s hard for you to understand. But she’s agreed to be my queen and we will raise our daughter together. And, well, being an only child is so lonely. So, she will bear at a sibling. Half demon this time, of course.”

He twisted your face into a wicked smile as your screamed inside your own head. “That wasn’t the deal Crowley!”

“Well, this has been fun.” Crowley mused. “Ta-Ta.”

Suddenly you were back in your room/ jail cell and had regained control of your body. You slumped on the floor and sobbed at being back in captivity.

Crowley stooped down next to you. “Well, that was unpleasant. Don’t waste your tears, Love. I will make you happy here. You’ll forget all about them.” He placed a kiss on the top of your head to soothe you, but it only made you sob harder.

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Living as Queen of Hell eventually got easier, to a degree. You gave birth to your perfect daughter, Lydia, and loved nothing more than to stare into her familiarly blue eyes. She became your entire world and keeping her safe was your only concern.

Crowley was surprisingly gentle with Lily. You hadn’t expected that. As much as he seemed to feel love for her, he still mainly talked about her potential power as she few older.

You knew you could never trust Crowley, but you needed him to think you did. You hated yourself for it, but you finally relented and invited him to your bed. After the first time, he seemed to trust your loyalty more and more everyday.

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Sam and Dean never fully gave up looking for you, but without any reliable leads there wasn’t much they could do. They took on small hunts and then larger hunts until they were back into their normal routine.

Castiel never gave up, it wasn’t in his nature to do so. He interrogated and smited thousands of demons to try to find where Crowley was keeping you and his daughter. He moved on to humans that made deals and even angels that had worked with Crowley. No one seemed to know anything or died to keep the information safe.

He’d speak to Sam and Dean on ocassion, but he spent most of his days alone chastising himself for not keeping you safe. His mind would wander to thoughts of his daughter. He never met her, but he could feel her. It was the only thing that kept him sane. As long as he could feel her power grow, he knew she was ok.

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It was on Lydia’s 3rd birthday that you finally got the break you were waiting for. Crowley was going to let you take your daughter to a park; a real park. Of course, you’d have a demon escort you. But getting the angel blade from them and killing them wasn’t a hard feat to accomplish.

You knew you would have a lot of time, so you immediately stole a car and drove as fast as you could to the bunker.

You were amazed you made it without Crowley finding you. For the first time in over 3 years, you thought you might be safe.

You were disappointed to find the bunker empty. The boys must have been on a hunt. Your room was just as you had left it. You smiled, noticing it wasn’t even dusty. It was as though the boys wanted it kept nice for your return.

Laying Lydia down on your bed, she started to wake up slightly. “Mama, where Papa?” Pain always shot through your heart when she asked for Crowley. He wasn’t her father, but she didn’t know any better.

“He’s working sweetheart, go back to sleep.” You ran your fingers through he hair as she fell back asleep on your old bed.

As soon as she was out, you found a spare cell phone and hoped Castiels contact info was up to date in it.

You almost sobbed when you heard a familiar, gravely voice pick up. “Dean, I’m busy. What do you need?” You heard what sounded like muffled screaming in the background.

“…Cas?” your voice was barely above a whisper. And there was a long pause on the line. “Cas, Baby, it’s me, Y/N.”

His voice was shaky. “Y/N… are you hurt? Where are you?”

“I’m safe. We’re safe. We’re at the bunker.” You tried to speak as level as possible, but it was proving to be difficult. “Baby, please hurry. I… God… I love you so much. I’ve missed you.”

“I’m already in my way. I… I missed you too. I love you. I’ll be there in 2 hours.” He wanted so much for this to be real, but worried it was Crowley trying to trick him.

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You fell asleep next to your daughter when you heard Castiel calling your name. You ran out to greet him. Seeing him felt so surreal after all these years apart. You almost had to pinch yourself.

You slowed when you saw that he had stopped moving and his face was covered in shock. “It’s really me, Cas. I promise.”

You had never seen him or any other angel cry before, but you saw tears fill his eyes. “I know. I… I’m so sorry.”

You ran the rest of the way and caressed his cheek, wiping away the tear that had fallen. “It’s not your fault….”

He pulled you in tightly and buried his face in your hair. “I should have protected you. I should have been able to find you. And now…? You’re here, you’re safe. But, the things you had to endure…” He pulled back to look you in the eyes with a pained expression as he moved his hand to your stomach. “The things you’ll still have to endure? You don’t deserve it.”

You continued to cry and were confused by his words. “I’m home. I’m safe, Cas, there’s nothing else I have to endure.”

He let out a shaky breath. “Yes, my love, you do. I should have found you sooner. Before he could lay his hands on you.”

You felt a rush of guilt come over you for doing what you needed to gain Crowleys trust. “I’m sorry, Cas. I… I didn’t have a choice. Please… fuck, please don’t hate me for that.”

He cupped your face and stared at you again. “You misunderstand. I know you did what you needed to in order to survive and protect our daughter. I’d never hate you. I love you.” He kissed you briefly and it was the most beautiful feeling you felt in years.

When he pulled away, his painful expression retuned. “You don’t know yet, do you?”

You looked at him with your face covered in concern. “Know what, Cas? You’re starting to scare me.”

Another tear slipped down his cheek. “You're… pregnant again. I’d say, about 10 weeks.”

You felt your stomach drop and you thought you were going to be sick. You only regained your composure when you heard a small voice. “Mama?”

You spun around and smiled at her. “Hey sweetheart. Come here, I want you to meet someone.”

She approached hesitantly and stared at Castiel. He stooped down to her level and smiled, trying his hardest to keep himself composed. He had been waiting for this day for 3 long years and he couldn’t believe it was finally happening.

You pulled Lydia into a hug, the turned her towards Castiel. “Honey, this is a very good friend of mine and he’s been waiting your whole life to meet you. This is Castiel.”

As soon as you said his name, the weary smile on her face dropped. She screamed and buried her face into your chest. “Noo!! Mama, he bad!! Papa said he bad!!”

You saw the pain flash across Castiels face, but he knew it was best to let Lydia calm down. So he moved away and let you bring her back to your room.

You sat in your bed with Lydia and thoroughly explained that Castiel was not a bad man, that he was a good man and you loved him. You knew it was too early to tell her the truth about Crowley, it would crush her little heart. But she needed to understand that Castiel loved her, even more than Crowley ever could. You told her how much you loved her and held her tight as she fell asleep. Before leaving the room, you whispered “I love you so much, sweetheart. I’m so sorry.”

You found Castiel sitting in the library with his head in his hands. “She thinks I’m a monster. My own daughter; she thinks Crowley is her father and that I’m going to hurt her.”

“Cas… I…” you stumbled over your words. You had no idea how to fix this. “She’s young, Cas. She won’t even remember him. She’ll know you’re her real father and that you love her.”

You wrapped your arms around him as he sat there and laid your head on the back of his shoulder. “I know things aren’t perfect, but it will work out. I know you’ll protect her.”

You bottom lip trembled when you realized you needed to tell him your plan. He wouldn’t like it, but it was the only way to keep Lydia safe. “Cas… I don’t have a lot of time. Only a few hours. Just promise me, you’ll keep her safe.”

He turned to face you. “Of course, I’ll keep you both safe. I promise.”

You let your tears fall down your cheeks. “No, Cas. You don’t get it. I.. If I stay, he will come looking. He won’t stop. He has an army of demons and more resources that you could ever have. He needs to think something happened to her. He’ll only believe it if I go back without her.” You put your head down and sighed deeply. “With implanted memories that we were attacked by angels and she… didn’t make it.”

He stared at you, horrified by your words. “You can’t do that! I lost you for 3 years, you can’t make me lose you again!” He pulled you tightly against him, like you’d float away if he let go. “Your daughter, our daughter needs you. I need you.”

You tried to console him, even though you knew it wouldn’t really work. “Cas. I know you believe that. She will have you and you will have her. She will never be safe if Crowley knows she’s alive. And now… we’ll, if you knew I was pregnant, so does he. I have no choice, he’d never believe she was dead unless I went back to him without her.”

He buried his face in your hair again and choked back tears. “Please don’t make me do this. I can’t let you go back there. Please.”

“You know this is what needs to be done, Cas. She’s more important than us. I know it’s not fair, but life isn’t fair.” You ran your fingers through his hair, surprised at how calm you were feeling. “Sometimes we have to make shitty decision and sacrifices for the ones we love. And sometimes… sometimes love itself just isn’t enough.”

He pulled back and kissed you again, this time much more desperately. You wrapped your arms around him tightly and relished in this brief moment where you could pretend everything would be ok.

You pulled back from him. “It’s time, Cas. I’m sure he’s already got half of hell out looking for us.”

He pressed his forehead to yours. “You’re stronger than anyone I know. I will get you back, I don’t care how long it takes. I love you.”

You smiled, “I love you too Cas. Tell Lydia… that’s her name, Lydia. Tell her everyday how much I love her.”

“Lydia. I like that. I’ll tell her.” He pressed his lips to your forehead and filled your mind with the awful sight of being attacked by an angel and losing Lydia. Tears streamed down both your faces and he sent you to a gas station to call Crowley, with no recollection of going to the bunker.

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The first few months with Lydia were hard. She constantly cried for you and Crowley. Castiel remained patient with her and let her learn on her own that he loved her and would never hurt her.

As she grew older, she started calling him Daddy and asked for Crowley and you less and less. He kept his promise and reminded her every morning when she woke up and every night before she went to bed, that you loved her more than anything. That you would be there with her in a heartbeat if you could, and one day you’d come home to her.

It wasn’t the life he was supposed to have; it wasn’t perfect by any means, but he had his little girl to care for. He missed you every day, but Lydia helped keep the pain to a dull ache. She loved him, he loved her, and she was safe; in the ends that’s all that mattered at the moment.

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