#happy almost february 🫶🏻

[hanabeeri]

nach diesem intensiven tatort brainrot ist es an der zeit sich wieder der uni zu widmen 🥹

my plans for today (and for the upcoming weeks are: studying 3-4 hours vocabulary in the morning, 3-4 hours grammar in the afternoon and every other day practicing talking in the evening for my oral exam 🥹💦❤️‍🩹 i will be dead tired at the end of february, but it will surely be worth it 💞💕💕 knowing myself i wont be following my own study plan and will end up studying more.. and sleep less.. may God be with me during that time of sleepiness. little improvement: i haven't had to take a pill against anxiety for days now! i do feel the anxiety rising sometimes but i can manage and keep my mind away from scary thoughts 🥰💕💕💞🩷

im really excited for february despite the seven exams!!! 🥺🥰🥰💕💝 i cant wait to help E move into her new place. she plans on painting her walls and will most likely ask me and a few other friends to help 🫶🏻💞💕

i want to finish the books i wanted to read in january throughout this week, so i can start reading the books i planned for february soon (i may have to adjust my plans, i completely forgot how stressful exam phases are for me, they drain so much of my mental energy that i end up staring into empty space for hours without moving 🥹) i would also like to fill out a few pages of a bullet journal my friend and i are working on 🥰💕💕💞 i have so many ideas!! and so many new stickers www

now that the sun is shining more often i feel a lot happier. i think i said this before, but it really is strange and scary how much the weather influences my mental health. its hard enough being more prone to falling back into depression, its even harder when environmental factors contribute to that as well. but on the brighter side, i feel extra happy when the sun shines 🥰💞💞💕💝

this turned into a very very long post. i just had a small breakdown, i wont dwell on it too much, but i was cursing a person and i told myself and if i will die and be judged in the same way then so be it because i cant be saved. but thats not true. God is forgiving and God is everloving and one day when i will die and meet Him i will cry and cry and cry at His feet. and His light will shine on me and then i will find true peace.

a picture of puppy adam and japanese morphology notes i took a week ago (january feels so long..). one of these days i will post some pure japanese notes and entries (i always wonder if my jpn professor hates my stylised kana and kanji www but its so much easier to write in cursive and abkürzungen..)

[zhongrin]

🎁 ᴢʜᴏɴɢʀɪɴ 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 ᴡʀᴀᴘᴘᴇᴅ 🫶🏻

ー just a little thing i wanted to make as the year ends 💗

𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐇𝐮𝐛𝐛𝐲 💍

① 👑 zhongli 👑 ✼ best husband, best comfort f/o, best everything. my ultimate blorbo 🧡

② al haitham 🌱 & wriothesley 🐾 ✼ he's such a silly guy. i love him so much. ✼ who's a good puppy! who's the goodest boy! yes you areeee~! <3

ⓧ runner up // neuvillette 🦦 ✼ his en voice almost made me simp. almost. damn you ray chase /lh

𝐅𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐌𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 🎶

ー✼ the ebg back in february and october! so so so so much chaos fun! both took all the creative juices and sleep i had, but it was all so worth it! i got to connect with more people and interactions were off the charts for the whole week. and coviello... my precious babie <3 i'm pretty sure i'll join another ebg next year given the opportunity.... or perhaps even host one, but with a twist-

ー✼ got matched up T W I C E (well, thrice in total) with mr. i am here's alternate universe selves al haitham. thanks @/ansy-tea / @/kopidense 👍🏻 i shall endeavor to make an effort to discombobulate and fool the silly sprout man in 2024 if there are any other matchup events open lmao

ー✼ teyvatweets! it was so much fun compiling everyone's tweets and coding the website hehe it didn't really blow up or anything due to how 'personal' that project was, but i think about it from time to time. such a fun lil thing!

ー✼ that 1 pity c0 al haitham who came right after ayato.... thanks dad for gracing me with your birthday luck 🙏🏻

ー✼ finally treating myself and indulging in all the selfship commissions. i'm grateful i have the ability to indulge and i'm hoping to do the same next year. and the way everyone just gifted me things for my birthday made me feel so so loved. i couldn't celebrate it with anyone since i wasn't at home, and it was on a weekday meaning my friends were all busy - so it felt like a mini-party... truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much ;w;

ー✼ personally, i'm super happy and kind of proud of getting very comfortable with sharing my art and improving on it! i used to go back and forth whenever i'm trying to post art, but now i'm confident enough to not think too much about it! naturally i have lots to improve and i'm nowhere near 'good' but that's fine with me! i owe it all to yall's support and lovely comments <3

ー✼ all the anon drabbles and charanons!!!! always such a nice sight to wake up to. they're like surprise gifts whenever i open tumblr because i don't have notifications on, and i adore them so much! big big big shoutout to @/floraldresvi, @/crystalflygeo, and @/soleillunne yall are amazing ;w;

ー✼ all the super sweet messages all of you left in my christmas tree.... i'm cradling all the wishes and silliness and messages from my f/os so close to my heart!! ceo!haitham tho. bruh you're still making me work LEAVE ME ALONE- /silly

ー✼ that zhongli birthday celebration series... they're not much, and even with all posts combined they have way less notes than a random vent drabble i dropped in the middle of it lol but i had lots of fun writing, designing, and inserting all the 'golden threads' across the fics nonetheless!! i'll highlight them later so the people who have been following the little series can go 'OH' lol

𝐀𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐏𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 🫂

@ainescribe ❀ @silentmoths ❀ @crystalflygeo ❀ @moraxsthrone ❀ @floraldresvi ❀ @sheepmc ❀ @zhxngii ❀ @localplaguenurse ❀ @mysnowmanandmebaby ❀ @the-travelling-witch ❀ @watatsumiis ❀ @kurikurikurisu ❀ @leftdestiny-posts ❀ @kaeffeinee ❀ @queen-belial ❀ @abyssmal-skies ❀ @dawndelion-winery ❀ @yinyinggie ❀ @silkjade ❀ @dustofthedailylife ❀ @scarasmood

@euniveve ❀ @soleillunne ❀ @faesther ❀ @ansy-tea ❀ @vennnnn-diagram ❀ @navxry ❀ @celestetalkstoomuch ❀ @minhosairfryer ❀ @xeraeus ❀ @pearlywritings ❀ @ryuryuryuyurboat ❀ @mochinon-yah ❀ @asoulsreverie ❀ @xiaosonlybeloved ❀ @mooncreates ❀ @jingyuansbird ❀ @tearskillstardust

i love you all and i'm so so glad to have made a connection with you! be it knowing each other from mutual friends, from a drawing/writing commission, or even if we just stumbled onto each other randomly by pure chance - know that i appreciate you! every single one of you are so talented and so wonderful. thank you for being the threads that shaped the comfy sweater that is 2023 for me <3 ps. and for my former moots who are minors but have respected my boundaries, i'm sorry i didn't tag you but i had fun befriending you lot. my best wishes for you in the years ahead too! pps. some of you might know me from my main @/meimeimeirin instead! i separated the list into 2 paragraphs bc tumblr isn't letting me have that many texts in one block apparently hsldfjsd also, if you're not in the list i either 1) forgot, bc i have the memory of a goldfish, or 2) remembered, but felt like it would be intrusive for me to tag you <- (more likely tbh) 😔

@/jjovin3221, @/starffox, @/syrenkitsune, @/finleyrambles, @/dr-birb, @/smokipoki, @/1117sblog, @/virdiaura, @/lawnfei, @/lady-alexis-salt, @/local-ragamuffin, @/the-knaves-world, @/alhaithams-fanfic-stash, @/interpretpages, @/magicalink, @/starlingcore, @/lyralibra, @/crazyrichdaughter, @/winterhuntsman, @/ladycoleigh, @/bettybeako

ALSO, HUGE SHOUTOUT to the people who frequent my notifs. i can't remember most of yall's handles accurately (and for some of you i remember by your pfp instead hskdhskd) but whenever your username pops up, know that i always go "!!!!!" and my imaginative dog ears perks up and my metaphorical tail just starts thumping on the floor <3 thank you so much for your continuous support!! (and i know some of you wrote in my tree so thank you for that too hehe) note: that wasn't an exhaustive list, but more like the blogs i remember seeing a lot on top of my head!!

𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐌𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 🧡

thank you for such a lovely 2023! thank you for being here and for always supporting my works, my silliness, and myself as a person. here's to more fun shenanigans ahead, and i hope 2024 will be a year that makes us all a better person <3

ꕥ xmas dividers © cafekitsune

[i-tzi]

Two words about Pokeddexy 2023

[Pokeddexy 2023 - All entries]

So, here we are!

It still feels so strange to write this, I was so sure I was going to quit the challenge in the middle for a whole host of reasons, and instead I managed to finish it all despite life deciding to kill me over the course of this very long month💀

It was really good and fun. Not only the purely artistic part, deciding who and what to draw day by day; but also the circle of people that was slowly created. I really appreciated everyone's work, despite the fact that I gave up likes and reblogs almost immediately (because I'm slowwww y_y), and so I thank you all in general because if I kept going it was also because of you💕

I think the best thing this challenge has left me with is learning to recognize, after a while, the posting time of each artist😂

Arriving at a certain point in the day and saying "oh, it's this time here, I wonder what their entry will look like today!" was honestly fun, as was thinking that in the end we are all scattered around the world enjoy fictional little creatures!

So I'll end this somewhat corny post with one last thank you: to Saph who convinced me to participate and who has been indulging my nonstop spam of pokémon-themed shitposting for almost a year now; and then to Toffy who honestly brought a chaotic energy to my challenge that I didn't expect but loved (lmao).

I know I already told you but I'll tell you again because really, it was all beautiful but I was really happy to share it with you two🥺💕

For February, I don't know what I will do: this month will be even busier than January, as I will be attending my first Pokémon Regional this year in Bochum. But I still hope to have time to draw something anyway, between exams, my thesis and various games!✨

Thanks again for sticking with me during this challenge! Love you all🫶🏻

[rapmonkive]

Joonnie I love you so much, I hope you're healthy and happy there at the military, I miss you so much, we miss youu🤧💔

I love you so much Namu🫶🏻💜💜

Aw, thank you so much, Fanyyy. I really appreciate this letter. Getting things like this really makes the days go by much better and faster.

Days are going by. Some days are far more challenging than others. We had the cold weather training in January, and if you don't know what that is-it's when you go out with just your gear and tents and you do training exercises for four days out in the cold and snow. Where I am in Hwacheon, it's constant snow. Even if it's not snowing, it remains cold enough the snow doesn't melt and it remains for a very long time.

We did shooting practices in the snow. We set up our tents in the snow. There was no electricity so we had to rely on making fires to keep warm, hand warmers, and our winter gear. There was huddling and pushing on each other to reach the fire.

There was a practice where you have to hike with your gear for several km in the snow, and also where you practice carrying your wounded, so we would put our bags and weapons on stretchers until it weighed about as much as a man does and carry the stretchers (or drag them) long distances.

that was January though, and weirdly February is warmer. When the temperature goes up a few degrees it almost feels like spring. I've gotten a lot of care packages from my loved ones. I'm also at the point where I can come home on weekends or at the very least leave the base when my duties are over. I've got more freedom now and my phone. There's an internet cafe on base I go to every day to eat something not cafeteria food and just be online awhile.

And fanyyy, I've seen your tarot readings before! I've run across those posts! They are interesting. Keep that up.

[decembermoonskz]

Izzy moon, mi love! I just saw your reply 😭 lmao I am still buried deep in my mind forest bc even February felt like a train wreck but it has significantly calmed down for me 💀🫶🏻 wishing you super well from my thick teal leaves and dandelion seeds!

Amg about Engage— I have a lot to say 😂 it definitely feels like a spin off > an actual main title game. I think bc it’s been awhile since I played any of the previous main title games so Engage was ok for me but my twin went off about how it’s such a downgrade from Three Houses. In her words, “the new game plus is not fresh.” I miss having the 2nd gen kids in the second half tho 🥺 the parent-child supports were always a fave of mine

OHH YESSS FINAL FANTASY AND GENSHIN 😭I need to catch up. I haven’t played Genshin in a hot minute and have all these quests piled up 😭 who do you main? who’s your fave? Reminds me of Bin’s samsung ad like 👀 Changbin ganyu main??? and aaaa :’((( ff xiv I’ve been considering playing it when my fantasy drive comes back bc I often get commission requests and their charas look so fun to draw (then cry bc of all the details)

Sending you much love again tooo, Izzy moon 🌙 I miss you lots 🥺💖 and I hope you’re enjoying your rest time too!! Mwah mwah mwah 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

— chia 🐏✨

hi chia!! I’m glad things have calmed down somewhat for you!! that makes me happy to hear 🫂🫂

and I’m honestly thinking about giving it a try I just really love the colorful art style for the most part tbh lol my inner artist ig lmaoooo but honestly I wasn’t that big a fan of three houses tbh, I adore the characters but as a game it didn’t click with me I kinda dropped it after finishing claude and dimitri’s route (bc they’re the only lord for me 😔🤌🏼) but the game seems interesting. I wanna at least give it a try to form my own opinion yk??? but unfortunately it’s gonna have to wait bc I have TOO MANY GAMES TO PLAY ATM 😩😂

aaaah I haven’t been playing genshin as much since that message but I got back into a bit to pull xiao and alhaitham hehe. speaking of, I’m an unabashed xiao lover and use him in almost every team I make LOL I also like using kazuha, heizou, zhongli, kokomi and raiden >w< I wanna level alhaitham and cyno someday to use too 😔🙏🏼 also hello changbin plays genshin on that Samsung ad?? bruh I missed that completely 👀

and omg if you ever play it you’ve gotta let me know I’d love to play with you and stuff 🥰🥰 (no pressure ofc but yeah it’d be lots of fun!) I love my girl so much whenever I log in I’m genuinely so happy to see her that’s how much I love her 😂😂 and yes omg so many details it’s wild :))) (speaking as someone who tried to draw ffxiv stuff sometimes I can agree it’s a ton haha)

I’m always happy when you send a message chia so here’s my affectionate reminder that you can always send one if you feel like it!! 🥹💜 be well and talk again soon!!

[veritas-wish]

Success story

I am sorry that I took one year to update lol.

So here’s my update.

They broke up 1/1/2024. This is a crazy date because the same date but 2023 they had a huge fight that almost made them break up.

Officially my sister doesn’t have his presence around February. We all almost thought that it was impossible to recover my sister BUT I DID IT.

When she announced that James left her I was literally happy and accomplished. I felt so fulfilled. That was the first step for my sister to leave that toxic situation.

This is the sign that if you or someone is in a VERY toxic relationship with someone, you can manifest the toxic partner to leave your or other's life out.

I am one of the testimony that whatever the circumstances you are, you can manifest whatever you desire, even for other people as well.

Now my sister is recovering herself and she feels way better than when she was with that douchebag.

For more questions you can leave under this post or in my ask box🫶🏻

Manifestation goal.

“James to be gone”. (The name is fake)

James is an asshole and douchebag. He is toxic and abusive. He manipulates my sister for years being aware that he is causing pain to my sister to feed his ego. James is controlling my sister’s life, because it is way too good to feel a god when someone is just here for you and be your yes man.

What I am going to do:

☆ Listening to subliminals. I am way too lazy to make one so I am gonna listen one for karma and one for him to leave me and my family alone.

☆ Meditation. Meditate the state of being free and finally a sense of relief that I don’t have to see his existence in my life anymore.

☆ Affirmations. Act as if I am recording a video and spill the tea about how I manifested James to leave my sister’s life.

I have some limiting belief around this. So not gonna lie, I am not expecting him to instantly leave her and my family alone because of my limiting belief.

This is my first time manifesting a real toxic man to leave my sister alone. I manifested for a whole year to bring karma for him (which I successfully did it **WITHOUT** any consequences, I will eventually tell this story), I don’t know why I never thought of manifesting him to leave our life alone.

Maybe because I hoped he could change with bringing some punishment to him, but it seems that he has a stubborn mind.

I know I can successfully manifest this. I’ll update it in the next three months.

This is one of my main goal lol.