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shoutokozume · 3 years ago

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Hello! Can I request a Kuroo x fem reader angst to fluff, where they are childhood friends and reader have always liked him. But Kuroo thought he only saw her as a little sister until he saw a guy confessing to her? 🥺 I hope this is okay! Your writings are awesome! Have a nice day!

I hate that I love you

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(Thank you so much❤️❤️❤️)

Pairing - Kuroo x F. Reader, (Slight Tsukki x reader)

Warnings - Mentions of fuckboy Kuroo, drinking, Swearing, and I made Tsukki a huge ass (I swear I love him so sorry.)

Genre - Angst to Fluff

You walked into your best friend's apartment, greeted by a hickey covered girl wobbling out of the door. That's the fifth one this week. Kuroo was hot and he knew it, he never wanted a deep relationship with anyone and only used his looks so he could get someone in bed.

"God Kuroo, can you not be such a whore for one day." You sighed, watching the poor girl slide into the elevator with a goofy grin.

"Y/n, I can't help it if I'm irresistible." He teased, not knowing how much you secretly agreed with his statement.

You hate yourself deeply for falling in love with such an ass.

"Enough about my sex life, why'd you stop by?" Kuroo asked, quickly pulling a shirt on and not bothering to do the same with any pants.

"I was just bringing back the textbook that you left at my dorm." You explained, tossing the hard book to his chest with an annoyed grunt.

You and Kuroo used to not be such a love-hate friendship, you both used to be close friends who many assumed would end up together. You were always each other's dates to the dances, and he always sent you cute Valentine's on that romantic holiday.

What changed? Is what many asked, especially the well known 'third wheel' Kenma.

Kuroo changed, that's what happened. He started to grow into a more masculine build, attracting many horny girls his way. The more hookups and girls he had under his belt the cockier his presence became. It came to a point where you stopped talking to him on a daily basis, only chatting once a week.

You loved Kuroo, but not the one standing in front of you. You fell in love with the slightly dumb but optimistic boy who saw you as a little sister, constantly treating you to dinner and sleeping over everytime it was storming out. The man you loved was identical to the man standing in front of you, but his personality was no where to be seen.

You remember the times where you'd actually look forward to seeing his face, a beaming grin welcoming you as he ruffled your hair. Now all you were left with was this homesick feeling, knowing that man probably doesn't exist anymore.

You weren't the only one to realize how much your friendship with Kuroo has changed, he's noticed it too. Realizing how little he sees you know, how cold you've become, and how disgusted you look whenever you see a girl leave his apartment. He didn't think it was that big of a deal, you only saw him as a brother anyways.

"Now that you have it, I'm going to head out." You reply, avoiding his lingering gaze.

"Why don't you stay for a drink? I've got plenty of beer in the fridge." Kuroo asked, rushing towards you with a hopeful glint in his eyes.

"I can't tonight Kuroo-"

"You always reject me now." Kuroo interrupts, sounding a bit hurt by your neglect.

"Yeah, but tonight I have a reason. I have a date." You explain, watching his eyes turn into saucers.

You walked into the hallways, watching as he followed you until you gave him a name. Kemna warned you about telling him who you were going on a date with, telling you he'll nag you and be annoying. But his constant question was becoming just as annoying.

"Who is it-"

"It's Tsukishima, happy?" You hissed, watching his excited smile turn into a slight scowl.

"Kenma why didn't you tell me!" Kuroo demanded, flopping down on the gamer's bed just after he walked away from you in silence.

"Becuase you'd react like this." Kenma replied bluntly, not even giving the much taller boy a single glance.

Kuroo felt this urge of protection wash over him, he couldn't let you go on that date. You'll get hurt by that prick, and he doesn't deserve you in the slightest. How could you accept an offer to date such a salty brat? This wasn't like you, or at least the person he used to know.

"Why are you so upset anyway, it's y/n's life not yours." Kenma reminded, tired of this stupid frat boy behavior Kuroo has been giving for the past year.

"But he's not good for her, she's making a huge mistake-"

"You sleep with girls every other night and brag about it, treat them like sex toys with no hearts, then dump them. Yet has y/n ever verbally judged you for it?" Kenma muttered, making Kuroo shut up in an instant.

It was rare that Kenma would get involved with any drama, usually just sitting back and sighing when either of you ranted. But Kenma began to realize how much Kuroo's egotistical actions have damaged you. You barely smile anymore and never hang out unless it's a holiday or if you have to drop something off, he's pretty much ruined the thought of trust for you.

"But you have to agree that Tsukishima is bad news." Kuroo begged, showing a photo from his instagram where Tsukishima was drinking with a whole bunch of girls latched onto him.

"Honestly I don't see much of a difference between you and him. The difference is, you've already hurt y/n while he hasn't gotten the chance." Kenma replied, looking up from his game to try and make Kuroo realize what he's done.

"I don't know what you're getting at-"

"Y/n loves you. She has since highschool and you led her on to think that you liked her too than completely left her in the dust." Kenma explained, shutting off his switch when Kuroo slumped his posture in astonishment.

Kuroo didn't know how he felt about you, he loved you but he didn't know if he loved you in a family way or a relationship way. He's always seen you as a little sister who he wanted to protect, he never really though much of the kind gestures he used to do either.

"But I don't know if I like her that way..." Kuroo muttered, his brain fogged with thoughts.

"I think you do but won't admit it." Kenma pointed out, sitting next to the much taller friend of his.

"If you don't like her like that then why do you care that's she's going on a date? I'm her friend too and I don't care as much as you do." He continued, the taller boy starting to click the puzzle pieces together.

senior year

"Have any plans for prom y/n?" Kiyoko asked, assuming you'd go with Kuroo since you two always go together.

"Yeah, I'm going with Kuroo as usual... But something odd happened." You revealed, not knowing that Kuroo was listening behind his locker door.

Was he too obvious with his flirting this time? Did he disappoint you? What if Kenma asked you two! What if you take the both as dates. But if Kenma was there, that would ruin his plan on giving you your first kiss on your guy's last dance together.

"Tsukishima asked me to prom, and then kissed me against a wall. He kind of forced it on me, luckily Kenma was there to pull me away. What a waste of a first kiss." You grumble, gasping when a light slap to your behind surprised you and Kiyoko.

Following the slap was a smug Tsukishima and his clearly disappointed friend Yamaguchi, Tsukishima was taller than Kuroo by an inch and could easily be a tough match to compete against.

Everyone in school knew how obvious you and Kuroo were, that's why no one ever flirted with either of you and they hoped one of you would just confess at some point. But ever since Tsukishima transferred to your school, he's been non stop going after you.

"How does it feel to know that I'm the only one to taste y/n." Tsukishima huffed, hissing it in Kuroo's ear lightly.

The blonde giant pushed his shoulder harshly before walking off with a sly smile, laughing darkly as the entire hallways wondered what he had whispered. Kuroo never felt more frustrated with himself, if it weren't for being a coward he would've been your first kiss and could've claimed you as his before Tsukishima made his arrogant moves.

Tsukishima was the only one who was willing to get in the way of you and Kuroo dating.

"I need to go talk to y/n." Kuroo announced, already making his way to the door.

"She's at the café downtown, they left fifteen minutes ago." Kenma revealed, passing Kuroo the keys to his car.

"Don't be an idiot for once." The cat like boy warned, pushing him out of the door so he wouldn't hesitate any longer.

Kuroo practically sprinted to Kenma's car, backing out of the dormitory parking lot. Kuroo knew he needed to speak with you, but he didn't know what he was going to exactly say. 'Hey y/n I love you, sorry for being a coward and trying to hide my love for you through sleeping with a whole bunch of girls and completely brushing you off for years now.'

Kenma was right, him and Tsukishima weren't that different anymore. Kuroo felt disgusted by that fact, the last thing he wanted to do was hurt you and that's why he tried to make you uninterested in him... Only tearing you apart instead of making you get over him.

He convinced himself to think he ever loved you, when in reality you were his world and jealousy just got the best of him. The worst part is the fact that he didn't even make an effort to actually see the truth, he just heard what Tsukishima said and then left you in the dust without asking you directly about your thoughts.

He pulled up in front of the café, noticing that neither one of you were even there. He was about to text Kenma and tell him off for sending him wrong directions, but that's when he heard your meek voice telling someone to slow down and stop.

When he followed your voice to the alley beside the coffee shop, he was infuriated to see Tsukishima pressing you up against the wall and forcing himself onto you. His lips slobbering across your neck as his hands squeezed your chest to your disappointment.

"Get the Fuck off of her!" Kuroo yelled, kicking the blonde in the balls before pushing him to the ground.

Without another word from either boys, Kuroo pulled you into Kenma's car and drove off to god knows where before you could even get your seatbelt on. You both heard your phone ringing constantly, all of them from Tsukishima threatening Kuroo and saying you would've liked it if you got used to it more.

A long silence filled the car as he parked it in an empty parking lot, the only sound was his annoyed huffs and occasional rakes through his jet black locks.

"Thank you." You muttered, refusing to even look in his direction.

"You don't need to thank me." He retorted, gently placing his much longer pinky over yours.

"Kenma told me where the date was, and I couldn't help but doubt my trust in that salty blonde. I still don't get why you'd go out with him." Kuroo continued, not realizing the tears that threatened to spill from your eyes.

He only realized your sadness when you stepped out of the car and slumped across the front of it, shaking gently as you silently cried into your hands.

Kuroo cautiously moved you into his arms, wrapping his volleyball jacket over your shoulders as you began to cry into his shirt. This reminded you of the old Kuroo, the one you always loved and fantasized about. Was he still there?

"Don't comfort me if you going to be a complete ass two minute later. I'm not sleeping with you." You hissed, getting your thoughts back together and pushing your old friend away from you.

"I don't want to treat you like those girls y/n, and I won't. The only reason I actually slept with them is because I thought it would fill the void that you left, I convinced myself that you would never love me. Especially when guys like Tsukishima were after you. " Kuroo mumbled, making you attention completely focus on his voice.

"And I'm not saying this to get in your pants, I'm saying this so I won't hate myself more than you hate me. I'm a coward, idiot, and whore, who completely missed the opportunity to be with the most amazing girl in the world." He continued, staring blankly at the night sky as his eyes lacked any sign of joy.

"Kenma told me about your feelings... So if it makes you feel any better, I faked all of my orgasms. I wasn't attracted to any of the girls, so I never got any pleasure out of it. I couldn't get attracted to anyone because I would compare them to you, who is ten times the better person than anyone I've met. " He finished, making your palms sweat as he revealed that he knows your secret.

In that moment, you didn't know if you were imagining that your Kuroo was back or if he actually was. But either way all of your old emotions that you hid away for so long, busted out of you. Your body moved before you could process what you were about to do, your lips crashing into Kuroo's as you pulled him down towards you.

His lips tasted like warm apple pie on a winter night, both of them were so plump and soft as they immediately returned the gesture. His hands cupping your face instead of your ass like he's done for the past year to other girls. This made you realize that he was being sincere, not just playing with your heart to get you in bed.

He was too impatient to butter anyone up and you knew that.

"I'll give you another chance, so don't fuck it up pretty boy." You teased, smirking slyly as you admired his breathless expression.

"Y-yes soft- I mean y/n" He stuttered, his cheeks turning Cherry red as he rushed into the drivers seat.

He knew he had a lot to make up for, and he was willing to pay off his mistakes and much more. You were 10x the person he ever wanted anyways. He may have been a big soft dummy, but you hate that you love him for it.

"I'm a better kisser than Tsukishima right?" Kuroo asked, relief filling his chest when you burst out in laughter while nodding.

An hour later in the group chat

KM - An hour has past are you guys dead or ignoring me? I'm fine with either.

KM - By the way no boning in car... Please.

KM - If you two are boning I'm going to set my car on fire and then bleach my fingers.

KM - It's bad enough that I caught my parents doing it in there. I'm not going through it again.

Y/n - Kenma... My phone was on silent you can relax.

Y/n - See no boning, just getting McDonalds

KM - Get me a mcnugget meal.

Y/n - Send me money and I will.

KM - I bought you that Zelda amiibo and this is how you repay me?

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ilovebokutokoutaro · 3 years ago

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𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲

𝐋𝐞𝐯 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐛𝐚 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

Warnings: angst, crying, Not proofread, major character death, mentions of disease (none specifically) and well just angst

Overview: lev only ever wanted to have you back, but some people fall in love...with the wrong people sometimes.

𝙎𝙤, 𝙞 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙮𝙤𝙪,

𝙂𝙤𝙙, 𝙞 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙩𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤.

Sometimes she wondered how much of him she was still to find out, everytime she thought she knew him he'd pull up something she had never seen before. she tried to get to know him better she really did, and he did so too.

They both loved each other immensely so it was obvious enough to have a need to get to know each other, right?

𝘽𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙙, 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙

She blindsided him, unable to look at anything except her, he was bound to love her even if it hurt him. He'd love her even it hurt him, it was as if he was being attacked from back. He couldn't see it coming but he knew it was. He was more addicting than any drug she had ever thought of, he made her want to stay but at the same time disappear into nothingness.

𝙏𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙬𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙙𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨..

𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮, 𝙞 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙝.

They say loving is the most beautiful feeling ever, they also say loving hurts, but it's inevitable. afterall, You can't just stop loving someone just because you want to. She was trying so hard to keep him with her and he was trying just as hard to let her go. They were both foolish, but both were in love.

𝗛𝗶𝗻𝗱𝘀𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗯𝘃𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀

Cuz only after he lost her did he know how he could've possibly made things right. It was so obvious, their relationship was falling so visibly yet concealed behind the walls of love they held for each other.

𝙏𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙖𝙬𝙮𝙚𝙧,

𝙎𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 "𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚'𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙜𝙪𝙮?"

𝙎𝙖𝙞𝙙 "𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨"

"i really did love him but some people just aren't meant to be i guess" was the last sentence she told her lawyer before they departed, she secretely wished she had to never see this place again, and he secretely wished he'd see her again and again yet never again. They were pained to be apart but the pain only grew when they were together.

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚.

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮.

"it's ok-ay" she found herself sobbing the next night, the pain of being away from the person she obviously loved was slowly and gradually fading away. but healing takes time, so does resisting the urges that cover up your heart, he knew she'd cry and he was dying to wipe the tears away but he was no longer in any place to.

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚,

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣

"BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH" that was probably the first time he ever raised his voice on her, a sob escaping past his chapped lips. "It's just not working anymore" she cried back they were falling apart both of them knew it was better to let each other go, because maybe they were more in pain then they were in love.

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮.

"it's okay" he sighed, watching her sob out a series of 'I'm sorry's' and 'i should have been more careful'. He chuckled, slowly pulling her into his chest as she clinged onto his shirt as if her life depended on it. she always hated fighting with him, this time it resulted with his hand bleeding. It was accidental,but to a person looking from a distance it would still look toxic, it would still hurt, it would still bleed.

𝙄𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚.

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙖𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮, 𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙚.

They were both scared to give each other up, knowing how much they were used to the other being around, it wouldn't be easy, but in the end it was better for them. He wondered if after the years if she were to find her way back, would they still look at each other the same way. She wondered if the next time they cross paths, would their hands be holding another pair of world they built with someone other than each other.

𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙛𝙪𝙣𝙣𝙮 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙖 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙮

𝙏𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙨 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙤 𝙖 𝙗𝙖𝙙 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢

He found himself panting as she, walked father and farther away, it was

The same place they first met. But now she wasn't blushing and stuttering, whe was fading away while he ran to grasp her hands in his. He screamed,the louder he screamed the quieter the sound came out, and he was immediately sitting up once she faded to nothing. He sat up that night, shaking in his own embrace.

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙧𝙪𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙙 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙨 𝙫𝙤𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙚

She imagined all those lovely memories with him, maybe that's why it hurt so much. But, it changed so rapidly, she never imagined something like this happening....maybe that's why it hurt so much.

𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗳𝘂𝗻𝗻𝘆 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝘁 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀.

Cuz maybe he knew the next time he meets her, they won't be holding hands, she won't be near him. She won't be.....his anymore. It may look funny to other people, or maybe even him after years when he's old and bent over. But right now, the changes weren't quite laughable.

𝗘𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝘂𝗽 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿𝘀

They feared it, having to walk past each other like they knew nothing. As if they weren't willing to break down any walls for ages.... untill they both just couldn't anymore, she couldn't deal with funny ideas of laughing with his fangirls, and he couldn't bear the thought of her complaining over it. It was toxic, i say it was. But they were losing each other as a punishment....a bit harsh, but it'll do.

𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗲 𝗯𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝗱𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗮𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝘂𝘀𝗲.

He remembered the house they talked they'd build near a lake, with a very huge garden, filled with his favourite flowers, and her favourite plants, it was as if when he stepped down the last stair of the huge court, everything came rushing in and the happy image he built burnt without a trace.

𝗧𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗳𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿

𝗛𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗲

She remembered how he shook under the table, while asking her father for her hand in marriage, she remembered his hands sweating, but it was all hidden, from her parents. But her? She could see it all even with eyes closed.

𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗶𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲

𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀

They hated breaking it out to their families the most....they were just....so in love "why? How? When did it get so bad?" She cried, and he sighed in response, his breathe coming out shaky. They remembered the heartbroken look there parents shared, but it was nothing compared to the feeling of fire burning both their chests.

𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆

𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲

𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗻

𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝗸𝗮𝘆

𝗜𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗲𝗻𝗱, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗲

𝗧𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗮𝗹 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆, 𝗯𝗮𝗯𝗲

"it's okay, dear" her mother comforted her as she sobbed, yes. Again. This was probably the third time this day but she could care less....wait did she even stop crying? It was so heartbreaking how everything was coming to an end all the hopes all the dreams crashing away somewhere she didn't bother looking.

He was a just as much of a mess and he collapsed in his sister's arms, seeking comfort as his eyes teared up, there was so much he had to do, so much he wanted to do but he couldn't bear anymore of the fights, it was better for them, yes. It was. But it doesn't ease the pain. It doesn't keep his heart from clenching in pain as he sobbed for the first time today, after finally accepting the fact what he was looking for was now....gone for.

Gone for...good? Bad? The future will tell.

𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 ��𝙖𝙮 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡

"i wish i never loved you, i wish we never even met" he cried and she shivered. "And I'm glad i got to love you" she whispered her voice shaking and eyes watering. To this he looked up, finally looking at her in the eyes, "we lost it and we haven't even....we haven't even started yet" he mumbled and the tears slid down right then. The pain engulfing them both in huge waves, but have you ever seen a tsunami raise forever? It'll soon paas away and they'll be in peace again....or so i hope.

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙖𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙩

𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙄 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙡

"thank you for....just everything" she sighed, finally entering the court, they knew it'll be done today, they'd be officially and legally divorced today. It'll all come to an end, they weren't looking upto it ofc....but it doens't really matter anymore. What has to happen, will.

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚

𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙙

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮

𝙄𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙, 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙖𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮..

He remembered the way a month before today he got a phone call from your mother...someone he had never contacted in seven years since the divorce. "She's....come lev she's asking for you" Was all she said and he was already in his car rushing to God knows which city wishing he could reach before she left him for good this time. His feet took him inside the hospital by itself. His hands trembling when he turned to the receptionist for her room. He Remembered the sour smell of phenyl filling his nostrils when he neared her room. Her parents stood outside, crying as they hugged their grandson, wishing his mother didn't have to leave so soon.

Just as he walked out of his daughter's bedroom after telling her the story he wished would've ended well, he found his wife standing right outside with tears welling up in her eyes. And he smiled, engulfing her in a big hug, which only resulted in more tears. "She was such a lovely person lev" the girl mumbled into his chest. "She was." He responded, "She was...never thought a day would come where I'd love anyone but her but things change, they changed for better for me and even her....we couldn't prevent it tho, could we?" He whispered tightening his hold on the trembling woman.

When he turned the door knob open, he saw her hands laying against a pair of another as the man smiled at her, that man's eyes were watery but he still made her laugh, that man. Her partner.

And when her eyes laid on him, she just smiled, she looked...just so frail. Her husband rushed out of the room at his arrival and he bowed to him, silently thanking his wife and her husband for being so understanble of her and him.

When he sat on the chair near her bed, he couldn't look up at her, only when her hands trembling yet still reaching for him came into his vision did he hastily move, interlacing herr fingers making her grin, she was still so pretty, but thin...very thin.

Oh why was a disease stealing her away from your perfect life ahead, not with him sure, but still.

They both only looked at each other for a few minutes before her son came rushing in. "Mama" he cried trying to climb on the bed with his tiny body to which his father grabbed him up, hugging him as he sobbed while staring at her now limp and lifeless body.

"she's gone" her father had to whisper into lev's ear to make him let her hand go. He was letting her go....this time for ever.

He wondered if in anotehr life she'd be able to live....with him. He wondered if her son would do okay without a mother, he wondered how helpless her husband must've felt watching her die daily.

He wondered how many people would be more hurt than he was, but in the end it was leaving again, he couldn't have her in this life...so maybe

......𝙄𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚.

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A/n: this is idk well just some sad drabble, i was very motivated to write and hahahahha. Get some tissues and stuff before reading this pls. Also LEV DESERVES MORE LOVE AND APPRECITION OMG. LEV SUPREMACY🥰🥰💜