#hahakillmehaha

[ethereal-scramble]

May 2, 2023

Well, I'm back.

I am starting #ethereal-academic where I'll be documenting the wild ride of a STEM graduate student trying to actually graduate. I don't think I'll post daily, I'm not good with diaries, but sometimes I get bouts of word diarrhea and I need to tell someone.

Like right now. I swear, my life is a roller-coaster. I spent the past month emotionally paralysed and absolutely dreading my internship application discussion. My internal supervisor (AH for a**hole from now on) was and continues to be unhelpful and had practically told me he wouldn't have time for me. He left me to write the whole application on my own, with only a vague title to guide me and 3 papers. As a master's student, I was supposed to have help, but my project coordinator couldn't assist me since he's in another country. So, I was on my own.

But, oh my god. Guys, I did it. I wrote the whole thing - I picked the methods, the aims, everything, and this week my project coordinator approved it all. He had no revisions. He said I wrote exactly what he had in mind. I could cry from relief.

And then. I met my daily supervisor. Ohmigosh, he is so cute. And he's so nice. I am floored. He even defended me in front of AH when he tried to, once again, make me look incompetent. AH is so not-nice to me, for no reason whatsoever, and now someone finally defended me. I almost cried. And this someone is being so helpful with my stuff. I finally have actual guidance. I breathed a sigh of relief for the first time in ages.

Now, of course AH immediately said he would probably look at my application in the next few weeks. Yeah, like who's in a hurry or anything? Not me HAHAkillmeHAHA.

At least the topic of my scientific review is kick-ass, courtesy of my lovely supervisor. I think I will apply for that this week. This much I can do.

I also need to prepare for my flight home. And for my international move soon. Gosh, it's so stressful. So many moving parts.

[bigmacandcheese-99]

if i still had all the beef that I've created over the years i could run my own McDonalds

the biggest loser on earth (me)

[weetaliix]

It's ugly (and I don't know how to work the voice recording thing on mobile, but it's the best I can do I'm sorry babe :( @gaystayby

[oscar-piastri]

"Chill on the couch all afternoon, let's do something stupid on a whim and spend ALL MONTH regretting it but in a hahakillmehaha way" vibes

you know me too well aisjsidjdidndk

☄ anonymously tell me what vibes I give off ☄

[lukeisart]

i was very unaware that i had homework due at 11:59pm tonight hahakillmehaha

[itsteenageloser]

I might have told the best friend of my crush that I like him hahakillmehaha

[sxmemxnge-blog]

❝ Do you think, in some alternate universe or other timeline, you could’ve felt the same? ❞ (hahakillmehaha)

--{ Why must you hurt me this way-- } 

Samuel sighed, feeling guilty about the situation. Hell, the question hurt him more than anything. Samuel knew that he would, and honestly if things were different, he would in this time - in this universe. --“ Yes - yes of course. ” he said softly --“ You’re a wonderful guy, and if things were a bit ... different, I’d feel the same in this universe. Maybe fate can change, everything can change, ” he tried to sound optimistic ( mainly for Thomas, as he hated seeing anyone upset ) --“ Please don’t be upset, I truly am sorry. ”

[takeiteasyorillqueef]

I love how fat and flabby I am hahakillmehaha

[sylphia-plath]

It's so funny how miserable I am lol

[crownhale-blog]

About to go fall in a hole and live there for the rest of my life bcuz of school monday ... Liam, i know that you feel me.