#had a lot of haters and hate messages being sent by my ex-friends too

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At this point I have all my pictures downloaded and I made a list of people I want to stay in touch with after I delete my facebook account... now I'm trying to figure when would be the right time to send my message to everyone and delete my account for real... (trying to get them to contact me via whatsapp or my email instead).

I think I want to do it for real now, after more than 10 years of using it, I'm fed up and I've had enough... I recently made a new FB account for professional/uni/family stuff instead (not for maintaining fake toxic friendships with people I knew from school/uni like before). Definitely want to use my new account in a different way this time around... But it was a really hard decision to delete my 1st account and I been thinking about it for a long time, for a few years now because it's been making me miserable and upset... (it's not easy to leave because Facebook is still widely used to stay in touch with people or connect or meet with new people and it doesn't seem like it will die off any time soon). Also all these facebook groups that I used to exchange info and other stuff, I do admit that I was addicted to facebook and that's not good for you either... But I feel like it's time to leave if I am no longer appreciated among my "friends". It's become this toxic place where I don't feel valued and feel like everyone hates me or is envious of me for no reason. I can't say what I think in the chats or post what I want on my wall either because people get irritated way too easily by the slightest things and get butthurt. Not to mention that facebook encourages cyber-bullying, stalkers, trolls, envy and undercover haters. It seriously messed up my mental health and self-worth too. These horrible people will have a harder time finding me after all this shit they put me through...

I think the older generations who grew up without facebook during high school and university are so lucky to NOT have to deal with this bullshit...

[a-lluring]

｡･: * ◜ she stood in a dress that made her look like 𝖘𝖎𝖓  ❟  and it was fitting that her eyes drifted like 𝖘𝖒𝖔𝖐𝖊 above her red lips .  there is no 𝖍𝖊𝖑𝖑 that is more 𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖓𝖌 than her  ❟  drag me beneath the 𝖋𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖊𝖘  ◞

hello, there !! call me latte, twenty-one, and i go by they / them pronouns. activity will be sporadic as i have other characters but if i had to really pick, i’d say a seven out of ten. my timezone is est but - let’s not talk about my sleeping schedule - i’m probably online when i should be sleeping rip i’ve been writing for years but always finding ways to improve. i’m very chill and love love love plotting back in forth between characters, so feel free to message me if you’re interested !! sooo- let’s have some fun facts about me, ay ?? arctic monkeys is one of my favorite bands ( alex turner owns my entire soul ), i draw digitally but like once a year, and my favorite color is orange / tangerine !! i don’t have a preference between im or discord ( latte#8593 ) but i’d love to hear from you !! here’s my chaotic girlie !! 

✧･ﾟ( circe + ariana grande + cis female ) 𝒎𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒂 !! have you seen ( willow forlani ) around ? ( she / her ) has been in kaos for ( three months ). the ( twenty-six year old ) is a ( professional hairdresser ) from ( edenton, north carolina, usa ). people say they can be ( domineering ) but maybe that’s not too bad ‘cause they can also be ( intrepid ). whenever i think of them, i can’t help but think of ( lithe fingers caressing sun kissed skin, boasting about a bouquet of vibrant flowers framed to look like it was sent by a secret admirer when it was actually the sendee and touching up mauve lipstick in a tastefully decorated restroom ). ･ﾟ✧ ( penned by latte, 21, est, they / them ).

I. BASICS

( full name ) willow evangeline forlani

( job ) hairdresser, social media influencer

( age ) twenty-six

( gender ) cis female

( sexuality ) bisexual

( status ) single?

( greek goddess ) circe a goddess of magic or sometimes a nymph, enchantress or sorceress

( zodiac ) cancer sun, aries moon, libra rising

( myers briggs ) entj

( alignment ) lawful evil

( body type ) short in stature, petite

( height ) 5ft 1in

( weight ) 108Ibs

( hair ) coffee bean, brown

( eyes ) dark chocolate, brown

II. ABOUT

ever since willow could remember, she knew she belonged somewhere extravagant; that she was amounted to greatness. she was born in edenton, north carolina in a dingy starter home with only a single mother to support her and her sisters. being the youngest of three girls, she had to face a lot of obstacles to get the acknowledgement she deserved and outshine any competition. this included her siblings. whenever they’d show any form of accomplishments, willow does everything in her power to one-up them - which, with enough drive, she eventually does. willow was known as little miss perfect in her small town. she’d bake cookies for her neighbors, helped fundraise for charities and made sure anyone caught in her radius recycled their wastes. she was pretty happy with her younger years until she got into her first relationship in high school where looks became a little bit more important than community service. ( tw : cheating ) her boyfriend was her everything. she loved everything about him. from that sexy strand of hair to those harley davidson boots he always wore. it was great, they were young and in love. but things got messy quick, as high school romances tend to do. when he was seen remotely close to any female figure, platonic or not, willow would imagine the worse. she’d always berate him every chance she got until he reached a boiling point where he angrily confessed he’s been sleeping with one of her best friends. her world after that shattered. willow became bitter and pushed away her remaining friends in high school. despite winning prom queen with honors to upstage her sisters, as she always does, she didn’t feel happy at all. she focused more on her looks, eventually finding satisfaction in social media. she gained a sort of comfort when they related to her posts in terms of heartbreak and made quite a following throughout the years with her style. one of her first followers, whom she eventually became close friends with, talked her into pursuing cosmetology. another got her into witchcraft. well, she was weary at first. regardless, she made a voodoo doll of her ex to test the waters but gave up midway when it didn’t look exactly like he did - or not nearly as beautiful as she remembered him - so she threw him out into a bin. a week later, the news reported found said ex in a dumpster, seconds away from being crushed by a garbage truck. it might’ve been a coincidence but she knew that power was something she needed to obtain. so she researched, practiced, and made use of it. willow, with her luck and witchcraft on her side, made otherworldly success. she became an ambassador for versace which popularized her social media and made her a socialite of sorts, had opportunities to style runaway models’ hair, and just recently opened her own professional hair salon located in kaos, greece. now she’s enjoying her time in the sun as much as she can before she moves on to the next thing - attempt to settle down with a lover. behind that well-spoken and mannered facade, willow is a force to reckon with. she may be childish at times, vain, and harsh; but she can be sweet when you least expect it, mainly for a purpose but who’s to know. she has little to no grip on reality, always living life as if it were a dream made in her creation. her arrogance proves it so.

what she lacks in self-awareness, she makes up for it in self-assurance. she’s driven in terms of her career and romance, always dancing between normalcy and obsession, so there’s little to expect from her. one thing’s for sure, she’s a luminous star above a night sky.

III. CONNECTIONS

( platonic ) willow knows a lot - i mean A LOT - of people. she just so chooses to have a close circle that she keeps near and dear. a tight pack that really knows the real her and sticks to her side despite how much of a mess she is behind the cameras

( romantic ) back on willow knowing a lot of people, a majority of them have probably been romantically involved with her. although magazines exaggerate a lot, her relationship count is more or less accurate to what they print

( antagonistic ) a handful of people can see past her mask and probably hate her for it. there may be things she's said in the past that rub people the wrong way - just her real personality showing through, funnily enough. anyway, she has a big following online, it’d be a miracle if there weren’t any haters in the mix.

( wanted ) wishlist muse tag here, i will give my left kidney for these !!

[fangirlbase]

The Passion’s Price //h.s  (Part 3)

How many inches in a mileWhat it takes to make you smileGetcha not to treat me like a child, babyTell me, tell me, tell meSomething I don't knowSomething I don't knowSomething I don't knowTell me, tell me, tell meSomething I don't knowSomething I don't knowSomething I don't knowI hear it everyday

I hear it all the time

I'm never gonna amount too much

But they're never gonna change my mind

Oh!

Pairing: Harry Styles x Anna Margaret

Summary :Anna was badly mistreated as a child. She grew up and gained the power of oblivion with a lovely voice. She will now have a chance to take revenge on your love as well as boogeyman, conquering the stages of the whole world.

Harry was very bad as a child, but also quite kind. He mistreated the girl he loved only by status, making her disappear for long years. Is it now that even after a long time he will remember all the faulty acts of his past in time to regain the love of his life, or lose it to one of his best friends?

Parts: Chapter I / Chapter II / Chapter III

                                                                                                  Chapter III

About a month had passed and Anna's career was only taking off higher and higher.She had settled into her uncle's house, living in the greatest luxury and comfort money can afford. Her friendship with the boys grew more and more, even with Harry, although he did not admit much. With all the fame, more music and clips had been produced.Some hater's started appearing on Twitter and Facebook, but nothing unmanageable.Exactly three days ago there was a start of confusion as Anna, Niall and Zayn strolled through the mall. "Boys, you can go ahead. I'm going to buy some coffee and I'll be right back.” "The tabloids do not stop announcing your date. Are they really messing up, Zayn?” Niall asked amused, playing green. “Niall, I just got out of a relationship. I'm not just jumping under the first girl to show up.Perrie broke my heart. Anna is helping me with this. Did you know that she has already applied a revenge on a guy?” "She does not look like a girl like that. Did she tell you what happened in the end? If the guy survived? " He asked, laughing, imagining the potential of the girl in disgust. "She said we're still going to find out ... It sounded very strange to me.” "I DO NOT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT!" The boys rushed toward the shout, encountering a small crowd formed around two blondes. They were kind of aggressive in trying to get through the crowd, but they did not mind when they came across Anna, who was totally messed up with coffee and Perrie with an angry look on the girl. "What happened here, Perrie?" Niall tried to be polite, clearly knowing what had happened. "Anna, how are you?" Zayn, on the other hand, had run toward her friend, because a burn was what they least wanted at the moment. "I did not know you were so desperate for a new girl, Zayn.” "Are they all jealous, Perrie?" Anna controlled herself against the girl. She took advantage and pulled Zayn away. Any kind of romantic comment would ruin your whole plan. "Perrie, why you threw coffee ..." “HOT, NIALL!” "Hot on her? There is no need for that.” "Because of her, Malik is not as depressed as I'd like to be. HE HAS TO SUFFER EVERYTHING WHAT I PASSED!” Anna just kept quiet. She also wanted Harry to suffer everything, the problem was that she knew how to plan revenge. Perrie did not. This show would pay more attention to Anna, and would greatly diminish Perrie's fame. "Why do not you spend your time investing in your career than detonating my life? I mean, if I get someone else, will you keep pissing me off? If I've been so bad for your career, if I've destroyed your life as you say it yourself, why do you keep following me?GO LIVING YOUR LIFE! "Zayn was visibly altered, chasing Perrie with tears in her eyes. Anna had indeed been burned, her neck and belly completely red. Today he would give an interview to a very famous program, where he would have the premiere of his new music video. "Just try not to talk nonsense, Margareth" Harry had given her some advice before leaving the studio and would really try to follow him. It would be her first interview and her uncle would be with her there. She wore a blouse completely closed to hide the redness. A pair of jeans and high heels accompanied his costumes. “First of all we would like to show for the first time the newest clip of the star of the moment: Anna Margaret!” Everything darkened and an Anna dressed as a maid danced with the mop and sang while her boss fought with her.

Everybody tells me

That it's so hard to make it

Yet so hard to break it

And there's no way to fake it

Everybody tells me that it's wrong what I'm feeling

I shouldn't believe in

The dreams that I'm dreaming

I hear it everyday

I hear it all the time

I'm never gonna amount too much

But they're never gonna change my mind

Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me

Something I don't know

Something I don't know

Something I don't know

Tell me, tell me, tell me

Something I don't know

Something I don't know

Something I don't know

How many inches in a mile

What it takes to make you smile

Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby

So here's the track like

Catrina makes wish like medinna make em say

I'm you ready

Are you ready for it?

Yeah I'm ready for it

Really ready for it?

Yeah I'm ready for it

Let's get ready for it

I'm on my way

I know I'm gonna get there someday

It doesn't help when you say

It won't be easy

And then Anna walked into the studio, smiling and slightly flushed. She walked to the sofa and sat down, controlling a small tremble that settled in her hands.

"Good afternoon, Anna! Ancious? "The presenter asked, noticing the girl's condition. He appeared to be no more than about 35, very nice.

"A little bit, Marshall.”

"You'll see I do not bite. So, little star, how old are you?”

"Twenty-three, but with nineteen-year-old body.”

Laughter echoed.

"Though it has burst here in England, you are not from here.”

“No. I came from Kansas, United States.”

"But your accent is English."

"I moved when I was little. My uncle realized my potential in a visit last summer at a school performance and decided to bring me here.”

"Simon Cowell, right?"

“Yes. He brought me to live with him and help me. Because he works primarily with One Direction, I'm spending time with them, getting in the way. They have helped me a lot with everything.”

"When did you start singing?"

"When she was very small, even at that time she was not a little tuned.” Laughter echoed.

"That's not what Liam Payne said about you. According to him, it does not require any kind of adjustment in your voice. So it means it's always been tuned.”

“Well ... not always. The air in Kansas made my voice good.”

“Well, the little star ended up jumping some questions I was going to ask, so let's get down to business: dating, single, married?”

“Completely single.” She replied blushing, shaking her hands.

Harry did not want to cheer, but he was following the house interview. She wanted to know if she was going to do something foolish to tease her later and she was very interested in the last answer.

"But that did not stop rumors about a possible affair with Zayn Malik being spread.”

“Not even! We're just friends, just like the rest of the band. It would be the same as saying that Harry and Louis are a couple.”

The audience was delirious. Harry spat out the soda he was taking, completely indignant, sending a message at the same time to her.

"WHAT THE PART OF NOT TALKING SHITS THAT YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND, MARGARET ???"

"It does not stop you from having fans who think that, but it's not true. And Harry, it was just a comment. Sorry Marshall, Harry sent a very angry message at the couple's suggestion.”

“No problem. But if there is no affair, how do you explain that mall mess between you and Perrie?”

"I really did not understand that. She broke up with him and was annoyed to suppose he had a new girlfriend. She is completely clueless. I mean, who writes a song just to detonate the ex's career? if she wants to come out on top, it certainly is not so.”

"You look very angry with her, Anna.”

"Marshall, she threw hot coffee at me. I have burns from the shoulder to the belly. Who would not be angry?”

"That probably answers my next question: Will your future projects be cluttered?”

"Probably only next week."

"And what are they?" Something new on the way?

“For now only a few photo shoots and some feats. It is also possible to open some shows.”

"We can see then that his career is taking off higher and higher.

‘Absolutely.” She finished with a small smile.

***

Harry still could not believe how Margareth could have been so stupid as to mention the shipp that the boys so hated. Even if it was only a comparison, it was completely absurd! He had instructed her not to talk bullshit, and when she least expected it, she dropped a bomb. Not that he was really worried, it was not going to affect his career after all, but it had been his advice.

He had turned off the TV and was getting ready to go to the record company. They were going to record a new song today, the song made by Zayn with Margaret's help.

***

It was late afternoon, early evening when she arrived at the front door of a teen magazine. It would be his last appointment of the day. A small photo shoot. Everything would have gone well if he had not sent a photo to Niall in the middle of the change of clothes showing the damage Perrie had done. The girl wore short shorts with a v-neck top, showing the burns on her lap. I would have to use a lot of editing on the images to remove the marks.

The boys were surprised at how ugly she was, with Harry making harsh but equally shocked comments. The act did not go unnoticed, having been reported in the story as "ANNA MARGARET AND ZAYN MALIK EXCHANGE INTIMATE PICTURES DURING TESTING." The shock was so great that the magazine was sued, having to pay with moral damages to Anna and Zayn.