#guest muse: clone johnathan

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"His very existence just makes me sick."

[reject-princess97]

Dean Winchester-Supernatural

Now you know your life is messed up when you haven't seen the love of your life in 5 years because you leave him after you found out you were pregnant and didn't want to get you or the baby hurt.

No don't get me wrong, Dean Winchester is violent or abusive, he'll no, I don't think he could ever hurt me, this one time I was possessed and....you know that's not important what is important is that there have been a lot of crazy things happening on this town and because of my neighbour's in until natural death...it could only mean that THEY will be showing up.

I was in the kitchen, Jensen was eating his dinner and I was cleaning the counters from any mess when the door bell rang, me being the forgetful mess i am, didn't think at all when I rushed out the kitchen, laughing at my Son who was now singing 'Ding ding the witch is dead' from The Wizard Of OZ.

I swing the door open, a huge smile on my face but it disappeared when I saw a 6ft something tall man stood there at my door. He wore a suit, he brown eyes widened a little when he saw me but he hadn't yet fully recognised me, due to my now short brown bob and glasses I wore for purposes like this.

"Hi Miss?" He smiled at me, waiting for me to answer.

"Oh Erm singer, Mary Singer." I smiled sticking my hand out. Which he accepted and shook my hand smiling.

"I'm Agent Chris Downey, my partner Robert Evans, and I are investigating the recent deaths around here and we were wondering if you had seen anything?" I held in my laugh and nodded, stepping aside and inviting him in.

"You better call your partner in, I'll grab you both a drink, tea, coffee?" I asked walking into the kitchen were Jensen was sat eating.

"OH ermm just water thank you, my partner the same." He smiled as he turned to the door and began typing on his phone.

With in seconds there was another knock and I heart to door open and chatting.

"Just take a seat in the living room and I'll be right in." I called. I took a deep breath and nodded to my self as I grabbed two beers because i know Dean wouldn't drink water unless he needs to and a glass of water.

"JJ baby, I need you to stay in here for a little while long, just while mummy talks to some grown ups OK?" I smiled down at him. He nodded and turned back to his food while I walked out.

I walked into the living room only to be met with water being splashed on my face. I jumped and looked up at a pair of angry green eyes looking down at me. "Dude what the hell was that for?" Sam asked as he looked at his brother in horror. "I'm so sorry about that Miss Singer."

"Mary, Please." I interrupted and turned to place the beers and water on the table.

"Don't worry, I knew he'd figure it out sooner or later." I mused looking over at Dean he held a photo in his hand. He looked over at me and then to the Picture.

"How do you have this?" He asked turning the photo around to show me, but I knew what it was. I looked at Sam who looked at me wide eyed.

The photo was of Sam, Dean Bobby and I. Sam and I were barely 26 while Dean looked about 28. Dean had is arms wrapped around me and had his head resting I'm me shoulder. We were all smiling happily at the camera.

I smiled at the memory of that day but was pulled away by a gun pointing at my face. I looked up in shock and turned to Sam who looked passed.

"Why do you have this photo." Sam asked. I cocked my head to the side and looked at the two.

"Why do you think?" I asked pretty curious as to there answer.

"I think you have it because you killed my girlfriend and now you're trying to get in my head." Dean yelled. My eyes widened at his outburst and his use of the word Girlfriend to describe me. I was taken aback so I stuttered.

"I...well...I....please don't point that at me if my...." but it was too late, the sound of little feet came running my way and I quickly pushed the gun out of my face as my 4 year old came running in to the living room look proud and messy.

"Mummy, I finished, can I have some pie now?" He asked ignoring the boys completely. I nodded and turned to Dean who looked a little taken a back at the sight of the four year old.

"You boy's want some pie?" I asked and in a second Dean whole body softened as he nodded. "OK follow me, I'll explain when I've sorted Jensen out." I smiled and picked up the two beers on the table and lead the way to the kitchen. Jensen already sitting at the table, bouncing on his seat like a mad men.

I cut the pie and served it to the three boys and I took a slice for my self. I turned to Sam who looked at me and at my son then at Dean. I sat down and watched as his was trying to work something out, then he looked at Jensen and his eyes widened as something clicked.

I sighed and let out a smile as he turned to me. I guess I should of expected this from Sam. I mean he's not stupid and Jensen looks so much like Dean is was scary. His brown hair, his bright Green eyes and his love of pie....it was like he was a clone and Dean.

"Y/N?" Sam asked. Dean stiffened at the sound of my name and looked at me wide eyed.

"Hi boys." I smiled sheepishly.

It was quiet for a minute until Jensen spoke up again and smiled brightly. "More pie mummy." I looked over and raised my eyebrows at him.

"OK buddy, now I know you didn't forget the rules, what's the rules?" I asked as he slumped in his seat.

"No more pie until my toys are away." Hi sighed standing up and turning to Sam and Dean who he noticed for the first time. He looked up at Dean and stuck is tongue out before running away, leaving Dean stunned and Sam and I laughing.

"What's his name?" Sam asked.

"Jensen Johnathan." I told him, leaving the last name out knowing it would freak Dean out and he would leave.

"Like the name of that actor me in that one..." Dean asked looking  little confused

"Yeah, pretty much." I chuckled quietly.

"His he..." Sam asked, I nodded, knowing when he was about to say. I opened my mouth to say more but Dean gasped and looked at me wide eyed.

"That's why you left?" He asked. I nodded and he sighed. Sam stood up and walked out the room, "I'll let you guys to talk."

I waited in silence for Dean to speak but it felt like forever.

"I'm sorry Dean, I should have told you. But, at the Time you were going through so much the loss of Bobby and angels and what not, I didn't want to add to the plate, so I left."

"You didn't want me anymore?" He asked, a little saddened.

"What of course not, after I found out I was pregnant I...I knew I had to leave so I could protect the baby. I didn't think you would want to leave so I..." I explained.

"Y/N, I would have gone anywhere with you, you know that, that's not the reason...why did you leave?" Dean snapped.

I sighed and looked up at him. "When I found out I was pregnant the first thing I thought was, "Dean and I, we're gonna be a family" and "we can leave all this behind and start over" but then I realised, hunting is all you've ever know, you couldn't just forget about, just like that. I knew for you to be happy you needed to be hunting. So I figured, if I left without telling you about the baby, you could carry on hunting without worrying and you'd be happy." I looked down at my hands and sighed.

"It wasn't easy Dean, leaving you and Sammy, I nearly came back so many times and...I hate to admit it but, I almost gave him up, to be with you again. But then I saw his face and he looked so much like you, I couldn't give him up so I stayed away. I did a couple jobs on the side. Mostly local ghosts and a couple demon possessions but nothing to huge." I told him. I stood up to leave but he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him.

"Y/N I would have giving up hunting for you, for a chance at happiness with you. Hell I would have given up Sammy for you." He smirked only to point at the door where Sam came rushing in pouting.

"Oh come on Dean, you know you couldn't live with out me." Sam smiled as he stood by his brother.

"I think these past few years have proved I can't live with out her more." He said glancing my way, I looked up at him confused but he said nothing more.

"So, can I meet my nephew or do I have to wait till you tell him who we are really?" Sam asked pointing to the door where we heard JJ running to the Door. I smirked at Sam and shrugged as Jensen came running on calling for Sam.

"He already knows who you both are, I told him everything about you two. He just doesn't like to show excitement in front of people." I told him as Jensen came running into the room. "JJ baby, you know who this is right?" I asked pointing at Sam. Jensen nodded and pulled out a plastic gun and pointed it at Sam who held his hands up in surrender, a huge smile plastered on his face.

"Sam Winchester, Hunter and my Unkey...put 'em up Sammy, you gotta come with me." Jensen laughed as he took Sam's hand and began walking out of the room but I stopped him.

"And that...who's that?" I asked him pointing at Dean who watched curiously.

"My Dad." He shrugged before dragging Sam off to play while I spoke with Dean.

"So, how long you in town for?" I asked him.

"For a while, we're on a hunt and then Sam wanted to take a few weeks off because I'm been working harder then usual after you left. I haven't stopped since you left and Sam told me if I didn't take a few days off he'd sell his soul to make me." He told me. I nodded, knowing full well Sam would have been deadly serious about Dean needing time off.

"Well, since you're sticking around for a while, you can stay here, I have the guest room and a room in the basement, you're both welcome to stick around." I smiled as I walked off to find my son.

I walked of upstairs and found Sam and JJ in his room, playing with is teddy's. "Look Unkey Sammy, this one is called Cas, see, he as wings like your friend Castiel." JJ smiled looking up at his uncle.

Sam turned to me and smiled and I shrugged.

"I miss you, you know?" I heard someone speak from behind me. I turned to see Dean leaning against the wall looking slightly broken.

I watched with wide eyes as I saw a tear roll down his cheek. I quickly walking over to him and wiping the tears away.

"I'm sorry Dean, I didn't see any other choice back then, I didn't think you would want me around if I was stuck with a baby." I sighed.

"I wanted to marry you." He told me. I looked up at him in shock, he had never mentioned this before. We never spoke of our future because we never knew how much of a future we had I our line of work.

"You did?" I asked but he only nodded, Sam spoke up for him though.

"Oh for about three weeks before you left he spoke non stop about asking you to marry him. He was so excited and..." he told me and I felt a lump grow in my throat.

"Sam can you watch JJ, I need a  moment to..." I began but couldn't finish before I walked out.

I walked to my front yard and sat at the door step. I felt someone sit down next to me and I looked, to my surprise to see Sam.

"Hey, what's wrong, do you want us to leave?" He asked, saddened at the mention of leaving.

"No,stay it'd just...how was he after I left?" I asked curious.

"A mess, he cried for weeks, he didn't understand what he did. He still doesn't. He never got over you. I haven't seen him look at another girl since he met you and after you left, he still didn't." He told me.

"Before, when he thought I was a demon who had killed, well "me" he called me his girlfriend, why?"

"Like I said, he never got over you and he convinced himself you were dead so he didn't drive him self insane over reasons why you left."

"I'm a monster Sam, I have coursed Dean so much pain and I didn't even know it. I only thought about myself and who I felt about my leaving. How could I have been so selfish." I cried into my hands.

"No, you did what you thought was right for your kid, if you had stuck around who knows what would have happened. Dean knows that, why do you think he's not angry?"

"I still expect him to come storming out yelling at me for not telling about JJ." I sighed looking up at Sam. "Are you mad at me, for hurting your brother?" I asked. I watched as he thought for a second before he shook his head and smiled.

"Not anymore. I was for a while after you disappeared because you'er my best friend Y/N. When you left it wasn't just Dean you left, it was me too and I had my own ways of dealing but after a while I figured you had a good reason so I just left it." He smiled pulling me into a hug.

"I'm sorry Sammy." I sighed hugging him tight.

"Don't worry about it." He smiled kissing the top of my head. "Now, we have left a Four year old with Dean and I'd like to see this." He smiled pulling me up with him. We walking into the house and walked up stairs where we found Dean, sat on JJ's bed, JJ sat on his knee and pointing at pictures.

"And that's grandpa Bobby, he's not my real grandpa, mummy said that one was a bad man so grandpa Bobby looked after her instead." Jensen said to Dean who nodded.

"And that's Grandpa John. Mummy told me all about him and why he left, to save you and Unkey Sam. And Grandma Mary, Mummy said she never met her but she told me you said she was pretty and kind and...."

"Jensen," Dean interrupted "I am sorry I haven't been around to look after you and mummy." Dean said looking down at him. I watched as Jensen turned in Dean's arms and dived at him giving him a huge hug.

"Don't worry Daddy, Mummy told me you were fighting the monsters and she had to go away with me so we were safe." He told him. Dean smiled down at him and kissed his head.

"She loves you you know?" Jensen whispered in Dean's ear. Dean looked up at me and smirked.

"Does she now?" He asked.

"Yep, she cries every night, I can hear her." He told Dean and I look up wide eyed and shook my head.

"OK JJ, time to get your PJ's on, it's 7 o'clock and you have bed time soon." I told him, he smiled at me and stood up on the bed. He ran and jumped off the bed and into my arms. I caught him with ease and smiled as he rested his forehead against mine.

"Can I have pie now?" He whispered, kissing my nose. I nodded and he yelled jumping from my arms.

"WAIT!" I called as he turned to run out the door. "That photo in Dean's hands, where does it go?" I asked. I watched as Jensen ran over, pulled the photo from Dean's hands and ran back to his book shelf where he put the photo back.

I smiled as he walked back over to Dean and pulled him along with him. "Come on Daddy, we going to get some PIE!" He yelled excitedly. Sam and I followed and we walked to the kitchen where Dean was dishing up Pie for JJ and himself.

"So, what's you full name then, do you have your mum's last name or the fake name she has?" Sam asked sitting down, looking at Jensen.

"My name is Jensen Johnathan Winchester" JJ smiled over at Sam who looked at Dean smiling. "Unkey Sam, are you staying here with me and mummy?" He asked.

Sam opened his mouth to say something but Dean spoke up. "As long as you want us to."He smiled sweetly at him and Jensen sat up in his seat excitedly.

"Forever?" He asked. I saw Sam shift uneasy, watching Dean as he looked over at me.

"If you and your mum wants me to stay forever, then I will." Dean smiled at me. I shook my head and ran out of the room. This can't be happening, I can't ask him to stay, as much as I want to, but he needs to hunt he needs.

"Y/N?" A sad voice sigh from behind me, I turned to see Dean looking at me, broken.

"I can't ask you to stay Dean. I would never ask you to leave your life behind. You and Sam...you life is hunting not being home allay looking after a kid." I told him.

"No, my life is where ever you are. I would have told you the same thing five years ago too." He told me grabbing my shoulder and pulled me closer. "These past five years have been hell, I figured you didn't love me anymore so I felt I had nothing to live for. I would throw myself into a hunt and I would nearly get myself killed in the process." Dean told me. "Hunting is just a job, something I can use to keep my self busy. But being here, with you and Jensen, it would be everything I ever dreamed of for us. Really Y/N, I can drop the hunt right now if it means being with you and our son." He smiled down at me.

"I don't want you to just drop everything because you feel you have to. If you're going to stay, it has to be because you want to. If you stay it's not because you have to, it's because you want nothing more, you want to be here with me and JJ." I told him walking off but he caught my hand and turned me around.

"Will I have you, like how we were before, will I be able to wake up with you, and tell you I love you like I used to?" He asked brushing his hand against my cheek.

"If that's what you want, I think I can arrange that." I smiled up at him. He grinned wide and kissed me, softly at first, thin the kiss turned to one of hunger and passion.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do that again." He told me wrapping his arms around me.

"Oh believe me I do." I smiled at him. Dean and I walked of back into the kitchen and I sat by Jensen who watched me.

"Is he staying?" He asked me and I shrugged.

"If it's what your dad wants, it's his choice baby, not mine." I told him and he turned to Dean, looking up at him with hopeful eyes.

"I'm not going anywhere buddy. I'm staying here, with you and your mum. We gonna be a real family." Dean smiled and looked over at Sam who nodded and smirked.

"Dean Winchester, a family man...who'd have thought it?" He laughed. "So what now, do we leave the thing killing people or do we carry on the hunt?" He asked.

"Maybe it is your last hunt, after you save the town from...whatever it is, you both can come home and have a permanent place to stay." I told them both when they looked at me for an answer.

They both nodded and smiled at me. "I have a family, a real family with a son and a girl I love." Dean smiled, his grin reaching his eyes.

"Well, I have to get your son to bed so how about you two go and get you things from the motel and bring it in, you can figure everything else out tomorrow." I told them as I picked up Jensen from his seat and brought him up stares where I got him changed and in bed.

"Mummy, can Daddy tuck me in tomorrow too?" He asked and I nodded smiling.

"If that's what he wants." I told him. Kissing him good night and turning the light off. Letting him fall asleep.

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