#growing up fat

[tryingtheirbestpoetry]

or: a poem about how growing up fat fucks your brain up

[scentedluminarysoul]

"Why do you never do anything with your hair or wear nice clothes?"

Because i have always been fat. And whenever I did try to make my hair look nice, wear makeup, wear nice clothes, people ridiculed me for it. Mocked me. Tore me apart. Asked me if I thought that would do anything to make me more appealing.

People, btw, included my mother.

So then I stopped trying. Because what's the the point, right? But then people asked me why I didn't even try to make an effort.

You can't win as a fat person.

[ventaccounts]

Tw

[growing-up-fat]

Being the friend who gets hungry more easily is the worst because you feel like a burden for asking for food.

[abyssal-ambience]

CW: body talk

tell me why i assume any fat AFAB i know starved themselves? like, im right most of the time too. maybe if i wasn't stressed all the time i would be less insulin resistant?? learning to listen to my body took like most of high school. i didn't know what it felt like to not be hungry for a very long time. i grew up upper middle class, we had plenty of food. but i went to bed fucking hungry.

[the-one-who-died-at-the-end]

So I'm fat, I've been fat for all my life, and do I love my body? MEH, I mean I don't hate it but I'm kinda neutral about it. Anyway, Being on my fifth journey to try and slim out because people are stressing me out, the paranoia about my body came back. (insert distopian smiley dance)

This morning I went shopping for sport bras and I was CONVINCED I was gonna hate it and start a spiral of self loathing that would end up with me a spoon and a jar of Nutella, but that... Didn't... Happen?

Like THIS THINGS ARE SO FLUTTERING OH MY GOD.

I literally feel like a goddes what's happening???

What is this fuckery??!!

[postmoderntongues]

Did any other people who grew up fat as teenagers have an aversion to shopping in plus size stores/crammed themselves into the smallest size possible (which was oaky in the day because that was the scene kid look)/refused to wear loose or stretchy fabrics/refuse to wear elastic because if you did any of those things people might find out the horrible secret that you were actually fat?

[rvllybllply2014]

Just general musings about growing up fat under the cut

Growing up fat makes you have a tougher skin a lot younger than what you should. I was a fat child and that’s okay, but according to society it wasn’t it was something to feel ashamed about. Doctors always said loose weight and the problem will go away. My dad would say fat phobic comments about fat people on tv. My own mother would say you’d be so much prettier if you only lost some weight. In elementary school i was bullied/made of fun in P.E., like we had to run a mile lap one time and another kid had to count your laps anyway this one somewhat popular kid made me run more laps then I needed to. Another time we had to do pull ups and this one kid was supposed to spot you like help you half way up and he fell pretending that I was too fat. Skipping to high school I was minding my own business in the hallway, waiting for my teacher to get to class and this random kid came up with his friend and said that his friend liked me and wanted to go to prom with me laughed and then left. I had never seen them before in my entire time at school, and since I’m shy the answer would’ve been no anyway.

I’m finally loosing some weight as an adult while trying to honor the poor traumatized fat girl that I was and my shit head boyfriend undermines it everytime he can. I’m not saying I’m skinny or anything I know I’m not, I’m trying to learn how to love this newer body. Today multiple times he’s called me fat and lazy. Idk how much I weigh but I’ve probably lost 40ish pounds since the last time I was able to weigh myself. This is not to make fun of anybody but he weights 354 pounds, while at my heaviest I weighed just slightly over 180 pounds. But now that I’ve lost some weight he says that I look like I’m 200 pounds, guys my clothes hang off me without me sucking in my stomach or anything. But the funny thing is I grew up fat where in my family it wasn’t okay. He grew up playing sports and staying thinner. And yeah growing up hearing your fat then hearing that you’re fat as a an adult doesn’t hurt your feelings but telling someone who got fat as an adult absolutely hurts them.

Also the fucked up thing is I never judge someone based on their weight, but I will push back against someone who is bigger than calling me a fat lazy fuck. Especially if you’re my romantic partner.

Closing this out by saying to my fellow fat kids who grew into fat adults I love you. To the younger fat me who was traumatized and made fun of for being fat by family and random people, you are so much more then the pain you’ll always carry.

[ventaccounts]

World of the distracted 

I never thought someone finding me “attractive” could hurt so much.

got a little rhyming and went with it.

[growing-up-fat]

Not ordering dessert because no one else is, even though you really really want to

[think-like-thin]

There is no doubt that Leo Sampaio will always be one of our favorite gainers! He desperately wants to show everyone his weight gain

[gluttenousgoddess]

So overfed that I cent even see the keyboard to play my games … oops 🐷🥵🫠😳… feed me more 🐷

[gravobs]

We’re going to need to see you wearing a tight button up shirt just to see how much those buttons are struggling to hold in your big flabby belly hehe 😈

Tried on a shirt that used to show off my slender body. This video is insane to me. What is that blob that comes spilling out when I lift up the shirt?!

[manddysstuff]

I'm doing too damn much

[fattracklad1]

The uniform helps hide my belly

[growing-up-fat]

You’re not hungry you’re bored

You’re not hungry you’re bored

You’re not hungry you’re bored