#green mood today

[frogayyyy]

so has anyone got any idea what the fuck we're supposed to do in this general election? particularly when you're in a constituency where a vote for anyone except labour is a vote for the tories and a vote for labour is also a vote for tories (ie. tory policies.)

"democracy" it's an actual joke

[nataliliv]

Mood...

[greenticklerdreams]

Let me tie you down, love. (Can I really?) Seeing you smile up at me... holding your wrists as I secure them, your ankles... trying not to just lose it and kiss your hands, your feet... (I have to restrain myself too, isn't that funny?) Trying not to fumble the ropes. I practiced these knots. Practiced them for you. I can't look at your face right now, or I can't concentrate. That's the last one. (You're really here. This is really happening.) Okay, love. You ready? (Am I?)

[royboyfanpage]

Have you seen him?

Now you have

[soulmvtes]

one of my current fixations are the innocent smoothies

[mars-ipan]

tbh if you like an artist i’d say never block a song in their discography from your playlists. you never know when it will be that song’s Time

[shinesurge]

i love the fandom a lot and it's nobody's fault but i'm forever bitter toulouse will always get mistagged as jon magnusarchives even though he was designed AND the comic was running over three years before the podcast even started lmaooo

[jon-withnoh]

Here’s a moment of writerly accountability: I have a day off today and I haven’t been able to work on Nie Wirst Du for a few weeks, so naturally my first instinct was to sit down this morning and try to work on it. Here’s the thing though. Things have been very busy. My brain is tired. My eyes are tired. The chapter I’d be working on today is chapter 46, so really close to the end. I want to do it justice. So I’m not going to work on it. Most likely I’ll knit or play Minecraft instead.

And like, I know that’s okay. I don’t have to make a big thing out of it. The reason I’m sharing it is that it’s so easy to get really invested in a thing you love and pressure yourself into working on it when you actually need a break. Nothing bad is going to happen if I don’t write the last three chapters for a while. Nothing is going to explode if I have a break over Christmas (which I’m planning on, just so you know). So yeah. I’m going to take actual time off on my day off.

[greenxprof]

cw: mother's day, hospital

Like every year, Green, Daisy and their grandmother Agatha visited miss Sara Oak in her privative room at Celadon's Hospital to celebrate the mother's day.

They'd bring flowers and chocolate, books for Sara to read, souvenirs from all over the world in the hopes they could make her world a bit bigger once again. Then, she'd smile and speak with her weak tiny voice even though everyone would ask her not to.

But today it's different.

The past months it seems Sara's health has gotten even worse. Without strength to move or sit down, without strength to stay awake for too long. Not even her hands could sign words of reassurance anymore.

The mood inside the room was gloomy. Agatha kept complaining about how Yukinari hasn't come yet- and how he almost never did. About how this aught to be all his fault for not properly taking care of her child.

Daisy worked hard to pacify their grandmother. It was a remembrance of how Green's pregnancy took a heavy tool on her body; how it was actually his fault rather than Oak's. But the young professor couldn't say anything except stay on his foot by the door, hands tucked inside his pockets, heavy bags under his eyes.

Eventually, Agatha left after kissing her daughter goodbye.

The siblings stayed in silence for long moments, quietly listening to the low noise Sara's breathing machine would make. Carefully gazing at her sleeping face, looking so skinny and undead as a living person could.

"Green..." she started, softly. "You know none of this is your fault."

He looked down with a frown, words locked inside his throat as he felt like maybe he was becoming a little like his mother and unable to breath as well.

"Grandma is just upset about mom. Just like we are. She's not very good at expressing her emotions and that's why she gets angry. I'm sure she's just-..."

"I know." the professor cut his sister. His steps echoes as he approached his mother's bed. "I know..."

Daisy looked down at the book she bought as a gift for her mother. A history book, because she knew Sara were very interested about the past and the lore of the whole world.

There were other books around the room. Books she read and cherished, books her children has brought her so her tiny world could feel a little bigger again.

Green, without looking away from his mother's face, spoke with a harsh simple tone about something they've been avoiding for so long.

"She's gonna die soon."

It's not like Daisy had how to complain. She felt like chiding him for saying something so gloomy but the odds weren't good for them. The doctors and nurses have been giving them sad, empathetic looks for weeks now.

"Maybe it's for the best." which made his sister frown. But he continued before she could speak up: "Because then she wouldn't need to suffer anymore. Tied to this bed for almost thirty years. Only able to breath because of a machine. Physiotherapy for her legs because she's never been able to get up and walk around anymore.

I know... she's always said it didn't bother her. But I know it did... It does."

Daisy did not feel good about this. Although her little brother has a point, it's just insensitive to say such things out loud. Maybe Sara missed being free, but it doesn't mean her life here was bad.

Right?

It's not because Green blames himself for every little problem in the word that he gets to speak such mean things.

"I thought you had grown up." sharp like a knife, yet quiet. "Mom loves being alive no matter if she had to be in the hospital. She loves us, and she can be happy despite her limitations!"

That is true. But the shame just adds another weight for the scales of his sins. How would he not feel like she could have such a better, fulfilling life if it wasn't by that? We all want out lovely ones to be healthy and happy.

He doesn't look at his sister. Instead, he leans closer to his mother.

Only if he could change places with her. She'd be much happier; she'd be astounding as a history researcher, she'd make everyone so much proud. A gem that would undoubtedly make the world brighter for everyone.

Instead, he's nothing but a boy playing professor.

"You should leave if you're gonna keep acting like a spoiled kid. But... I wish she'd wake up before you go, so you can wish her a happy mother's day."

He doesn't.

Instead, he walks back to the door, still not looking back to his sister. He speaks a little louder now;

"I'm gonna go find Gramps and drag him here." that, Daisy could agree. "If she wakes up..."

"I'll tell her." she nodded slowly, ignoring as the young professor who didn't even took off his jacket left and closed the door behind him.

Despite hating the way he said it, it was clear there was a thing she couldn't disagree, no matter how hard and heart-wrenching it was. She only hopes she right when saying Sara loved her life.

But their mother did not wake up that day.

[bigs-bigshot]

Whether these are costumes or not is up to you- whichever's hotter.

[todayisafridaynight]

GOD. Epilogue of "A Dream a Kirin Dreamed" pisses me off. This is not to say it's bad by any stretch. It just pisses me off because WHY DIDN'T KIRYU BOTHER TO TELL DAIGO ANYTHING. Why did he just say "He didn't betray you" without backing up his point at all and then fuck off entirely without checking back in.

The man just woke up and he's awake for a week before he's discharged from the hospital??? Maybe catch him up to speed on something that's clearly weighing on him??? Or on anything else that's happened in the time he was unconscious ??? Hello???????

Like. Dude. Is it not enough that you're just dead weight for the entire fucking ending. Knowing this is your son's best friend. And no way he doesn't know because even aside from Mine's monologue which (obviously) focused on his perspective, Kiryu says himself when he encounters a journalist who can't find any friends or family to interview about Mine that Daigo would know him best.

KNOWING this is your son's best friend. You LET him kill himself in front of you both because for you, sitting on your ass and going "Mine!" was good enough. You didn't think to reason with him. You didn't think to grab onto his leg or something when he was three feet away. You weren't injured. You weren't THAT exhausted. You just didn't think to do it. Even though A SUBSTORY IN Y3 ENDS THE WAY THE MAIN STORY SHOULD HAVE AND IT'S ONE OF THE LAST THINGS YOU CAN DO BEFORE HEADING TO THE HOSPITAL.

Y3 ending is literally my Y7 ending in terms of how much anger rises up within me whenever I think about it because it just Somehow, To This Day, piles more and more on top that makes it worse than it already was. Like its ONLY saving grace is that Mine didn't actually die. Allegedly. At least you can argue Ichiban and Aoki didn't have time to react, but Kiryu had all the time in the world and did nothing.

Ok I need to stop I need to stop I know I should be mad at Yokoyama and Takeuchi and not Kiryu and I literally had to run this post through an all-caps -> sentence caps converter But Anyway Point Is If Ichi Had Been The Protagonist Of Y3 Mine Would Be Alive

i cant even really blame something like kiryu's emotional ineptitude to explain why he couldnt just be open about What Mine's Business Was because the guy can CLEARLY speak from the heart and say good and honest things. like he knows how to communicate For The Most Part so its truly just. The Fuck Happened Here you dont think it wouldve been a good idea to get daigo up to speed on the past week or 👁️👁️ just saying Mine Didn't Betray You is like. a FAIR start i GUESS but ELABORATE a bit ??

not at all a 'rare' L moment just a typical kiryu L honestly （；´д｀）

[nikatyler]

Really craving playing my Not So Berry today 😭

[greenticklerdreams]

I am once again thinking about how once I finally have a session and my lee is in her bondage... I won't have to rush, or sneak, or hurry or be frantic at all. I won't have to feel guilt, or worry, or shame, because she wants to be there. It's just me, her, and tickles, for as long as we want them, however we want them.

It still seems so... impossible to me. I cannot wait for that day. It'll come. I know it.

[thats-the-teen-spirit]

I was a young boy that had big plans, Now I’m just another shitty old man I don’t have fun and I hate everything The world owes me, so fuck you

[x-heesy]

Ш(Σ)ΔҜΣ MΣ UP ШHΣΠ IT’S MҒ Ω∇ΣR ✅

I've been the one to party until the end

Looking for the after party to begin

I'm going down to La La Land

I hope to see yaz soon in La La Land

CHORUS

Somethin bout those little pills unreal the thrills they yield until they kill a million brain cells

Somethin bout those little pills unreal the thrills they yield until they kill a million brain cells

Now I need to go, whos gonna give me a ride to the after show

I hope that I have enough change so I can make my brain rearrange

I'm going down to La La Land

I hope to see ya soon in La La Land

CHORUS

Oh what have I done, what happened to the morning

I passed the time away high again

I got to find a way to fill the space in time(8X)

CHORUS

La La Land is where I need to be

La La Land is the place that all sets me free

CHORUS (4X)

Brain cells

Has anybody seen my brain today? Ay 😂

Can anybody pay my rent today? Ay

@len0r @bethanythestrange @frenchpsychiatrymuderedmycnut @bigbonzo @boanerges20

La La Land - Original Mix by Green phucKing Velvet

[justastupidlittlelesbian]

Today's mood: when they randomly turned off the lights on our bus bc of electricity bills