#grateful i dont use twitter ig????

[technicolorxsn]

wait wtf happened with analog horror

[sonikkublue]

important, plz read

i wanna address sum things, stuff i should've addressed a long time ago when i started to get popular, which i dont ever pay attention too- so its like a truck hitting me w/ that kind of info or smth like that. And by all means im very grateful for every piece of love n support, big or small, but there has been 2 things thats been buggin me for a long long time

fetishes.

right off the bat, i first want to address Mr. H and only *few* of the ppl that have come across him. fetish ppl. plz, like actually fucking plz stop bein so weird abt his body, askin me things relatin that *are*/or *obviously* weird and fetishy. Mr. H's body and his character entirely is not for ur sick fat fetish. i have stated this multiple times on my twitter but not here until now. its fucking weird. stop. i cannot stress that enough.

my popularity

2nd off, i wanna address how sum of the ppl who are fans of my work, smth ive never expected, is on how they approach me- well more so how they view me actually.

i srsly am thankful for every bit of support, even if im a bit slow realizing how fast it was happenin. u can love my art, gush over it, feel however u want abt it- but i dont want ppl viewing me as someone like an idol. ive never strived for popularity, i just like postin funni things and then go eat and play Sonic games after. no matter how big the numbers get, i do not want to be titled "popular" or like sum grand person- i just like to chill out like everyone else online and post art for the funnis. i will say u can look up to me and stuffs, but dont treat me someone higher than anyone else ig is what im tryna say

ive had a friend who was jealous of me in the past cuz of this, we're not friends anymore for more personal reasons, too many, but they would keep bringin it up and tell me to use my platform cuz of how many followers i have, and its always made me uncomfy. i wanna say that they were somewhat ungrateful if *every* post they made didnt hit off, but its whatever to me. i dont want my friends to be jealous of me, i dont wanna make anyone jealous.

but i dont want smth like this or anything stop someone from interacting w/ me. i love u guys and the funni interactions i get

i think thats all i had, thx for readin, i love yall

[randombubblegum]

idk awstens kind of diva personality worries me because it’s like what if he’s really kind of mean irl ?? like he is honestly someone i admire so much (and have extreme gender envy for , which makes me have this weird connection to him , obviously ik it’s one sided but still) and i plan to meet the band when it’s possible. so like idk i don’t want to leave the meet and greet thinking he hates me or something because i just feel like he kind of dislikes his fans ?? because i definitely want to tell each of them how much they mean to me and try to ask them all questions and make conversation with them. i even want to get a waterparks tattoo for them to write. i mean i haven’t heard any stories about him being rude while meeting anyone so idk ? ive just been disappointed by a lot of people i admire in life and if awsten really is Not That Great then that’ll just , really suck. idk i feel like maybe i read too much into all this , maybe we all do. but it’s also like , the “jokes” about hating us get too real sometimes. but ig the truth is we’ll really never -know- him so it’s hard to say anything. idk sorry if it’s weird to vent about this lol

now, i dont know him either, so i cant offer any verifiable perspective on this, but i definitely DEFINITELY dont think he hates his fans. i think hes just frustrated and tired by how people act to him online, yknow? hes said before that the people who are mean and overfamiliarly aggressive with him online are the sweetest quietest people irl lol.... and by all accounts from everyone ive ever heard since literally the beginning of the band awstens been super nice and grateful to fans he meets and genuinely appreciates them!!! ive heard a ton of stories about him being awesome to meet and talk to and honestly, from everything i personally have seen i believe it. like even fans who are kind of dicks to him irl he treats nicely so!! youll be fine if you ever meet them, im sure theyll all be very kind and friendly :)

on a personal note im like, super picky about people i admire and tend to look into them for shitty stuff theyve done etc etc but i really do think awstens a genuinely good dude....... again i dont know him, its just what people have said and how hes acted for the pat 10 years, but i do genuinely think hes a kind and compassionate person who acts without malice. i think hes a good guy!! i think the jokes about hating fans are directed to a whole different kind of fan than you or me, assuming u also dont harass him on twitter or push his boundaries or spread lies that ur dating him or whatever else batshittery fans pull with him LOL

i know weve been airing some (rightful) grievances about how he acts sometimes, but i truly do believe hes a kind person worthy of looking up to if thats ur jam. the evidence supporting that from fans and people who know him alike FAR far outweighs anything ive ever heard to the contrary!!

[outropeace]

elotito tagged me on this so i’m gonna do it for her <33333

1. describe how you first started writing and when you first posted

i began to write in general since i was around 14 like any other emo kid kdjdjsks and o began to write fics when a friend asked me for one as a birthday present. it was written in a hurry and it’s not my favorite but i really enjoyed doing it. i posted that exact same fic on their birthday

2. which of your characters do you typically resonate most closely with? do you base any characters off of yourself?

it depends the fic i guess. and not really, i think the closest i’ve been to do that is in the rockstar au (coming to the @bottomlouisficfest very soon), i put one or two of my old insecurities in h so he could connect better and wouldn’t be persieved as just an asshole-y dude cause i don’t like that and louis don’t deserve that uwu🌸

3. where do you often find inspiration?

music, movies, tiktoks (DONT JUDGE KDKDKS)

4. has quarantine helped or hindered your writing process?

before the quarantine i had around 3 wips, now i have 8

5. do you listen to music/noise while you write or do you prefer silence?

i listen lofi youtube playlists shjdkld

6. what is your biggest writing pet peeve in your writing or in general?

me repeating “Oh...” over and over again through tall my fics, it shouldn’t be legal

7. describe your ideal writing setup

rainy day, good coffee, comfy sweater, my cat besides me, arely sending texts about teeth/imessage games, snacks

8. favorite time of day to write?

nights (it’s usually when i have time)

9. favorite genre to write + one you’d like to try writing in the future?

i’d LOVE to write a thriller

10. do you struggle with writer’s block? how do you typically overcome it?

i just leave the fic for a bit, i don’t really like to push myself about this cause i’m just doing it for fun

11. what is the easiest part of your writing process and the most difficult?

the easiest is the dialogues, i could write pages and pages of just dialogues in hours and the hardest is the smut dhjdd

12. how do you come up with original characters? (if applicable)

it depends, is the antagonist? i ask myself how’d i feel if i were them, like a third party just trying (and usually failing) to get in between

13. what is your favorite and least favorite word?

i like “wet” i just... yeah.... and least favorite i don’t really know tbh

14. what is one thing about your writing that you’re really proud of and one thing you hope to continue working at?

i like that people conect with the characters because i always put a lot of effort in making them realistic (as much as i can), i make them flawled and sometimes even messy but with good hearts and intentions, all of them are (even the antagonists). and my grammar OH MY GOD MY GRAMMAR

15. what work of yours has your favorite ‘verse/world building? how did you come up with it?

hands down the ice prince fic. and funny thing is, i already had my prompt for the fic fest but i just couldn’t stop thinking about one particular prompt about a bratty prince and an alpha who hated omegas and the amount of POSSIBILITIES that had. two days later or so, the mods of the fest gave us the opportunity to pick another prompt if we wanted and the rest is HISTORY

16. what font and size do you write in? single spaced or double?

11 and single

17. what is a typo(s) you find yourself making consistently?

baby do we have TIME FOR THIS ONE?

18. (if applicable) do you separate fic writing from fandom?

yes, always 100000000%

19. what emotion is your favorite to write? which is the most difficult?

angst, sadness, anguish, sorrow, jealousy, i love to hurt hearts. and it’s not an emotion but after they get together it’s really difficult to me to actually keep going (oh god dkdkdkkdd)

20. what is one thing you hope readers always take away from your works?

that that’s okay to fuck up, that no matter the circumstances you have to respect your partner and TALK WITH THEM and that a person can be successful, independent and a badass while being soft and a c*mslut

21. what is the best and worst writing advice you’ve ever received?

i think “write whatever you like, you’re not being paid for it anyways” is the best and only advise i’ve actually listened to

22. which one of your works would you most want to see turned into a film/television show?

it’s complicated cause my two favorites are abos and idk how that would work dkskkss but the ice prince and the alpha/alpha fic

23. do you write scenes chronologically or out of order?

chronologically but i have a document apart where i write everything that comes to my mind at the moment, that one is A MESS

24. how do you handle criticism?

i think good, if it’s respectful

25. what is the advice you would give to someone who is looking to start writing?

trust yourself, have fun

26. what kind of feedback on your work always makes your day?

ANY type of positive feedback makes my day tbh

27. which fic ‘verse of your own would you most like to exist in? which fic’s characters would you most like to befriend?

none tbh dkdkks and louis, obviously

28. what do you always enjoy getting asks about/wish people would ask about more?

about my stories, i love when people just come to rant to me about certain things the characters did and ask me why they did it

29. what has writing added to your life? how has it changed you?

it relaxes me a lot. i just can write for hours and hours and it just feels nice and in some way exciting

30. why do you write?

refer to question 29 kdkdkxk

boost yourself + tags!

1a. share the last sentence you wrote

from the exes to lovers au:

The second hiccup of the night came in the form of his ex smiling to a boy sitting next to him on a couch. The boy had gorgeous, dark and wild hair, clear hazel eyes and a pretty pouty mouth. Their body language screamed attraction and that they both were ready to devour each other. Louis was familiar to the smile Harry was giving to him, bright and seductive, ready to give anything you asked for.

2a. describe the wip you’re most excited about

right now i’m very excited for the happiest season au, my “cliche story” au and for my exes to lovers au dksks i’m excited about a lot of my wips i’m so sorryjdjd

3a. share the piece of dialogue from one of your works you’re most proud of

from the alpha/alpha au:

“I’m not giving up on love,” He softly touched the hand that was still grabbing his thigh. “To me, love is like flowers. Each one needs a special treatment, if you give an orchid the same treatment you give to an iris, the orchid will die. Same thing with love. I’m not giving up on love, I’m just changing the treatment. We might not be an orchid, but we could make such a pretty iris.”

4a. share the best first and last lines from your work(s)

favorite first line from the sugar baby au:

Powerful people only end up with powerful people. The rest are just playthings in their lives. Louis Tomlinson was many things, but he wasn’t anybody’s plaything.

favorite last line from the ice prince fic:

“Who would have guessed…” Harry whispered after a while, smiling against Louis’ lips. “the dragon finally got to keep the princess.”

5a. link the last fic you read

HAYLEY’S MASTERPIECE

6a. link the last work you published

that’d be the ice prince fic

7a. link to your ao3 (if applicable)

hereee

8a. someone that inspires you

louis teheeee

9a. a comfort fic/work that you’ve been grateful for this year

god, again, there’s so so many of them, like the amount of authors i’m so grateful for, the list is infinite but these are a few that comes to my mind

all elote’s (@defencelesst) fics makes me really really happy and never fails to give me a cozy/wintery feeling, her louis IS THE MOST PRECIOUS THING ON EARTH AND HER HARRY IS JUST PERFECTION, i’m in love with her descriptions and how she just takes you THERE. hanis @loulicate-recs always makes me smile so fucking hard. ris @falsegoodnight fics NOW.... well.... ris fics they make me smile but also make me want to throw my phone to the other side of the room BEST OF BOTH WORLD IG. MAR’S FICS (loubellies on twitter, idk their @ here i’m sORRY) ARE LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUTHORS AT THE MOMENT, such a pretty louis IM SO IN LOVE WITH MAR’S LOUIS ITS UNFAIR

10a. other writers that you’d like to tag!

omg i’m probably so late to this and idk how many of you have actually done this so here goes nothing @allwaswell16, @runaway-train-works, @greenfeelings, @kingsofeverything, @thepolourryexpress, @larents

[oddful]

Okay I dont even know but something’s definitely off with me? Im so used to being able to fix people and im really glad people can turn to me when they have a problem but lately everything’s off…??? So many people are ignoring me I sorta feel like lost and empty and its like what was the last straw? So timely for everyone to pull this shit on me at the same time huh.. on top of that, no one in this household cares about me I just feel so alone??? I try so hard to show everyone I come from such a perfect family and that I actually have my shit together like I just refuse to let anyone catch me slipping….I dont like talking about my feelings because I dont need anyone telling me to be grateful that I have a roof above my head or that others have it worse because if its always gonna be like that then my feelings will forever be invalid no? Ironically the people who tell shit like this are the ones who always call me up to cry about their problems .. I tried pulling the same shit on them and they’ve got mad audacity to tell me I was insensitive.. hmm how does that work? I dont like talking about my feelings because I just have this mad tendency of jinxing things ya know? Kinda like manifestation? I constantly have to put a smile on my face and mask my emotions:(((((( I would be lying if I said I wasn’t tired ya know? My parents really dont care about me it kinda sorta hurts like my mom found out my brother and I cried and she only asked about my brother and didn’t even bother asking about me .. :( kinda wanna buy a one way ticket a ciao honestly Bella ciao my way outta here let me die … anyways the sky looked really nice yesterday like the way the clouds looked floating in the sky ahh to be a cloud in the sky … I can only wish … weather’s looking pretty gloomy today as I sit in my balcony writing this pathetic post luxuriating in my own feelings fuck shit bitch fuck yea ! Anyways everything’s sorta really falling apart I can’t even sit down and organise my feelings and thoughts its like everywhere and I dont even know where to begin .. :( do people get bored of me that quick?????? Its quite sick that im always constantly overthinking like maybe what I fail to realise is that not everything is about me.. ;//// but can’t help but feel that way .. just thinking about how everyone continuously steps over my head and like I really thought about how I was finally learning to talk about my feelings and I sent my friend a three minute audio of how I was feeling and she replied me back with, “ do I actually have to listen to that? “ JUST LIKE WHAT THE FUCK sadderdaze I tell ya .. its raining now how nice.. probably knew I was sad huh thanks god .. dude im just so fucking ugly it just really hurts like proper hurts me like a motherfucker like im so insecure nowadays I used to be like aye cool she’s hot but lately with how everyone’s treating me I sorta feel so different and off I can’t help but just !!!!!!!!!!1 got sucha fraud I am .. maybe sometimes away from instagram would be better.. im a reddit bitch anyways I just go on reddit all the time but like !!!! Ahhhhhh ok anyways the past few weeks I;ve really been into animal crossing memes I love animal crossing…HAHAHA cuteness avenue I said ! Also where am I going in life im so sad why do people get bored of me so quick im so fucking hard on myself like im so so so so fucking hard on myself such perfectionist and I didn’t realise it until someone pointed it out but I just ????? Also I constantly need reassurance I just hate myself!!!!!!!!! Fuck life I Lov gg on tumblr bc no one on ig or twitter and none on my irl friends follow me on here except for Claudine hi Claudine and I jsutdont need people knowing im sad and shit but I just !!! Sometimes I  dont know how to deal w my problems and emotions I just sorta Mia and comeback when I can ~~ LOLsssssss hate myself.. neighbourhood!!!1 bitch im a cow I hate myself I really do I fucking hate what im feeling just failedthe vibe check its only January :( tired..... sunflower out x

[goldangrl]

Wanted to document some moments while i’m taking a break from social media (mainly ig, i dont really use snap and i dont like twitter). Saw jakob ogawa with my friends and it was so much fun, i couldnt feel my feet and my back hurt so bad but it was the most fun i’ve had in a long time. Went to my friend’s family lakehouse and the water felt so good on my skin, maybe because i knew that was the last time i’d feel that in a long time, most likely not until next year. Made asian food as usual with my love. Tried journaling again and making it pretty. Meditate to candlelight until i went to sleep. Idk how much longer i’ll be off my digital life for lmao but i feel so light and so grateful and so much more connected to God and the universe than i’ve ever felt. Until next time ⭐️

[chanshine]

this is random but do you ever get annoyed when people complain about exo and social media? i've seen people say that exo would be so much better if they were more interactive on twitter/instagram/vlive and it annoys me... like yeah, i get it. it would be cool to hear from them more often and for them to be more personal, but not everyone likes using social media. many artists barely use it at all. i just wish more people would be grateful for the exo we have instead of comparing/expecting.

i’ve done my fair share of complaining about ppl who say stuff like this (the ppl you’re talking about, not you) so i feel you. i dont get why some ppl think exo needs to be in our faces 24/7. they have their own lives and stuff they want to do, no one wants to share everything and exo needs to take a break too. the same shit happened with pcy when everyone called him “jobless” and said and i quote “its his job to entertain us” and be active on ig. meanwhile he was filming a webdrama with sehun and was reviewing a drama role by tvn. i agree with you, we should be grateful for everything exo chooses to share with us and stop complaing all day every day like, thats too much negativity imo

[womenofcolor15]

ARE THEY BROKEN UP?! 'I'm Single Luv' - Kehlani Drops Track About A Lying, Cheating Man After YG Collabo Drops On Valentine’s Day

From breakups to makeups to breakups? Have Kehlani and YG called quits again? It seems that way. More inside….

Kehlani and YG (above on January 27th at Justin Bieber's documentary LA premiere) have been dating less than a year and they’ve already broken up once. It seems they may have called it quits again.

On Valentine’s Day, the 24-year-old singer and the 29-year-old rapper released a track titled “Konclusions,” a track that celebrates their relationship, which marks their first collaboration together.

Take a listen below:

The Hip Hop couple released a track for the lovers on Valentine's Day, but something happened.

We’re not sure what happened between Valentine’s Day and now, but whatever happened has resulted in Kehlani making claims these she’s now single:

The “Good Thing” singer commented to a Twitter user who urged her to leave “toxic” YG, in which she responded, “I’m single luv.”

In a since deleted tweet, Kehlani also wrote, “Sh*t happens. Life really happens. U jus gotta stay pure and move with love and thank god you are one of the ones that do.”

The tweets come on the heels of her releasing her new track titled “Valentine’s Day (Shameful)" where she rips a lying, cheating ex-partner to shreds.

“I’d say your name but you don’t deserve recognition/You played the hero but you really are the villain/You called me crazy, but it was my intuition/Used me for status and the fame and recognition,” she sang.

Oh? Is she accusing YG of clout chasing?

“Wish I didn’t check your text when you was drunk asleep/I’ve seen everything I didn’t want to see/That I needed to see/That I needed it to be/Hope you live happily ever after with the b***h.”

Take a listen below:

Kehlani - who welcomed daughter Adeya Nomi Parrish (whom she shares with guitarist Javie Young-White) in March 2019 - told one Twitter user she loaded the song to her Soundcloud instantly after she completed it:

  streaming services dont have an instant upload option...

i made a song & dropped it while i was still at the studio in under 3 hours... soundcloud will always be legendary for that.. https://t.co/mqopsNyKD8

— Kehlani (@Kehlani) February 17, 2020

  Damn. So, if the lyrics she penned in the song are true, it seems Kehlani caught the Compton rapper cheating…again.

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                  last night making Valentine’s Day (Shameful) .. same room / same people i made You Know Wassup with. same energy... feel something and get it off. 3 therapeutic hours. appreciating those who see and hear me, and those around me holding me up. real grateful for expression right now. inward & onward, love always ALL ways.

A post shared by Kehlani (@kehlani) on Feb 17, 2020 at 5:06pm PST

  You’ll recall, the couple made their relationship official when they showed up for their first public appearance at New York Fashion Week in September 2019. They split right before the holidays after Kehlani allegedly caught him cheating. Apparently, she took him back because everything was all good between them on Valentine’s Day. She hopped on IG Live to chat with her fans as she waited for her YG who had a surprise for her. Check it:

So, what's really good?! Right now, Kehlani claims she's single, at least, that's her story. No word from YG just yet. How much are you betting they'll be back together again or do you think they're over for good this time?

Photo: Getty

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[xieliancore]

sometimes i think about how starting word of honor and posting that first wkx fanart has changed my life in such a short time lsdkgjdfkjjg like??? it also matched with the time i came up with a new art style, and suddenly i started getting so many interactions it was scary??? bc imagine going from like...30-50 likes on my anime/genshin fanart to over 700??? and getting no feedback at all except the ocassional "how are you so fast" on my tgcf redraws from last year (which i really appreciated but ended up taking a toll on me bc i started thinking that the only thing that mattered and that was worth of my art was how fast i finished a piece. Like it came to a point back in march in which i was ready to give up posting art everywhere bc i felt like i was wasting my time when i should be focusing on getting a job next september.

and then bc i was stressed i decided to give shl a go and i fell in love with the characters and the story and everything so much that my body was itching to draw them, to redraw scenes...and people started appearing out of nowhere?? giving my art a platform??? leaving the loveliest comments under my posts? (and i got super lovely asks before as well and i treasure them just like these, but now there are like a Ton more???? and the amount of followers im gaining here, ig and twitter in only 1 month is bigger than what i gained in the rest of the year? some of my fav fanartists that ive admired for over a year following me back and interacting with me? also my parents supporting me if i try to join art school?????? ive been so overwhelmed and feeling so grateful lately fdlkjgdkh i had to write my thoughts out bc damn, i feel like this is a dream, bc even if im nothing big i think im getting way more love than i deserve and i wish i could give a big hug to everyone who has contributed to this

also the fact that i feel so comfortable using this new style?? and im having so much fun drawing lately??? its such a breath of fresh air after feeling literally uncomfortable during the past months, since i got an ipad etc dfkgjfjkg it's such a shame i dont have time to draw as much as i would love to T.T

so yeah if u are reading this bless u for putting up with me and thank you so so much!! especially to the word of honor fandom bc istg they are one of the nicest fandoms ive been in and i feel like i belong idk

[azureenju]

Calm challenge day 1

It is currently 4am in the morning i was awake by HM at 3. Since then couldn’t actually go back to sleep. So as usual i had to go through my feeds be it at ig fb twitter etc. The thing is, i realized there’s just too much of things shared that makes me sighs a lot. It’s full of negativity and hatred. And these things used to be wht i find amusing back then. But going through so many of it (oh dont let me start with the ppl comments) made me realized why do i have to let myself read all these nonsense stuffs while i can do better things. I have moodswings that is unbearable to those who don’t even know me well enough to stay. I had ex’es leave at the moment i started sulking. But my husband never leave, he would do anything to make it up any wrongdoing ON THE SPOT. So i should be very grateful. Instead, i always lashed everything on him, he’s like my punching bag, if i could blame anyone, i blame it on him and im scared one way or another im taking him for granted. Negativity always lurks around those who have low spirituality within them and this relates to religious stuffs. I admit im not a saint nor pious in any possible way that i could think of. But in the end i always come up w questions like ‘what am i doing, i am doing something that is not right, and sooner or later i will bare the consequences’. And this negativity keeps me in hell. This demon around will keep on messing your head like infinity times until eventually you hate somebody that doesn’t have a clue what wrongs he/she did to you. In a way, i feel like i need to tmblr’ing again to keep my sane alltogether. So i come up with this challenge to stay calm and spread love instead of hate. InShaaAllah