#granted I have ocd

[yakultii]

28 December

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

[writeraid]

Okay but imagine the documentaries about Harrow

I'm procrastinating finishing tonight's doodle- I know there's a few fics out there that have poked at this, usually in a fun, meta light, but I'm being dead serious here.

The news about Harrow and everything that happened in Egypt would almost certainly break eventually. And while I'm fully confident some of the stuff is probably just a normal Tuesday in the MCU, I feel like The literal worldwide cult would catch plenty of attention. I don't think anything like that has really appeared in the MCU at this point (correct me if I'm wrong.). Now, obviously, we can assume that some of the particular instances of real cults that have happened in our world have at least happened in this world to some extent (The MCU likes to play fast and loose with history, like how Pearl Harbor for sure happened in this world but then WWII took a whole other turn - that's a whole other tangent I could go on.) and we can rightfully assume True Crime is a thing in this world (I mean, we know fan spaces for Superheros exist within this world, it would only make sense if this kind of thing exists for other subjects and such.) so logically, there's going to be documentaries on those historical cults. ...what would those for Harrow's even look like? How much do we even know about Harrow's followers? What if they're in various governments around the world? That's..utterly terrifying to think about, actually.

We never even really get the name for it. Everyone always just calls it 'Harrows followers' and such. Something to do with Ammit, mayhaps? And even assuming there is a name decided on in universe, are the streaming services the same in the MCU? We know Star Wars exists (Thanks Peter Parker for unintentionally making an entire fandoms heads hurt!) does Disney+ exist? What about Netflix? Hulu? Are they called that or something else? Putting ALL OF THAT aside, it would have to be a docuseries. Maybe an episode about the very beginnings of it? A section devoted to educating people on what they'd need to know about Ancient Egypt to even understand what's happening? Discussions of the 'Mysterious Stranger(s)' who appeared during the Battle in Cairo and are (presumably) yet to be seen again? The sky over Egypt (and presumably most of the rest of the Western Hemisphere) turning back? The mystery surrounding Harrow's death? I don't know, this is just one of those things my brain has really latched onto as a concept and I don't know why but now you have to think about it too!

[cha1cedony]

Btw I haven’t stopped thinking about Link’s most recent teen fact. I know it was funny silly! Lincoln sneaks in to clean his dads’ bedroom! But also. it made me SO sad 😭💔 I’m almost always sad when we learn more about the Grant and Marco’s relationship bc wow yeah the Wilsons never change :( For all of Grant’s efforts to communicate better with his son, to do a better job at that than Darryl and Carol did, he doesn’t communicate with his husband! He outright lies to his family! And now we know that Marco also doesn’t really communicate that well lol

[seventh-district]

tfw u finally go to make urself a dinner plate and some nasty ass man walks into the kitchen, picks up the entire serving bowl of creamed corn and puts his filthy mouth on the bowl like it’s a giant cup and tilts it straight in. multiple times. 🙃

[the-everqueen]

i would greatly appreciate if the ocd would stop expanding the limits/shrinking the parameters of my wardrobe so that i could stop having meltdowns about my outfits on a daily basis.

[elytrafemme]

today's therapy session was really enlightening which is obviously good but it was enlightening in kind of a freaky degree because i just figured out that something i have been doing for like the entirety of my life isn't actually a common thing and is probably representative of something not working right in my unconscious? dude i thought i was on top of my psychological shit but then it turns out something i wrote off as being emotionally inconvenient but presumably regular actually might be worth its own series of sessions like. what the fuck man.

[garpond]

nooooo please dont add random disorders you know nothing about and dont experience into a list on your post where you make sweeping statements about how every single neurodivergence should be viewed and treated... youre so sexy aha..

[musical-chick-13]

The constant mental tension between, “Please tell me you won’t hate me if I make bad art” and “Asking for reassurance can be a compulsion.”

[mooodyblue]

tag vent don't mind me lol

[baltimorebullets]

[roseredfingers]

you might ask, what is my problem? (or not. i don't even know who knows who i am on here anymore) well, fundamentally, it is that i believe i am—if not precisely evil—than a source of more bad than good in the lives of every person who i have a relationship with. this means the kindest thing i can ever do is to remove myself from their lives. and so i generally do, excluding my relationships with my family, who i cannot do this to. even though i love them deeply. and i do wonder if i wasn't disabled, would i have done this to them as well? or was it becoming disabled as a teenager, which stunted me into this arrested development, this sort of permanent state of adolescence where i can never become an independent being which in fact doomed me into this cycle. because i did used to be a slightly odd person with a decent amount of friends before all this happened. and i am not taking enough responsibility when i say doomed because i do choose to act this way. and it hurts people. which is proof, you see, that i am evil. and i really do manage to function alone pretty well. i am in almost all ways much better than i used to be. i am not suicidal. my "treatment-resistant" depression is more like manageable occasional blue periods now. i am more active and functional than i have been in years. i simply have no social relationships. and that is, of course, deeply pathetic. ah well.

[naturalbornlosers]

i love ocd . paranoid my ~100 watt LEDs and my 0.64 watt string lights are gonna kill each other and by extension me just by being plugged into the same outlet

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Bro why the fuck am i getting so upset over literally nothing at all. I need to go to sleep earlier than two am this summer no wonder i was so sad

[windienine]

like most humans i have a pretty nuanced personality that can be easily barnum'd and as a young teen i was pretty open to astrology, mbti, and any other horsepiss that made me feel like i could rely on a higher power or a sorting system to help me get my shit together during a really stressful time. i regularly worsened my ocd by coordinating the appropriate healing crystal pendant for the corresponding day, hour, and moon phase, but the impetus for this was less specifically a suburban mom wellness scam thing (though this was where i sourced my finds) and more that i had extreme chuuni energy throughout my middle school years and was waiting for the correct magic crystal, hidden tarot deck, or dusty grimoire to grant me my magical wings and talking animal companion

anyway a friend did a double take at me when i nodded about their jewelry retail woes and went "yeah the moms buy amethyst for focus like hotcakes i used to press a geode to my head at age fourteen to try and treat my ocd before i knew i had ocd."

anyway anyway the actual interesting thing about amethyst is that it's purple because of iron impurities in the quartz structure

[maxdibert]

Having a shitty past is no excuse for being a horrible person, and Snape was a horrible person. Snape fans always try to turn him into a tragic hero, but there was nothing heroic about him when he was just an obsessive bigot who followed a group of genocidal maniacs

Well, I think I’ve said this a million times already and explained in exhausting detail why growing up in a particular environment—lacking social, emotional, economic, or essential support—and being subjected to violence during the most crucial years of cognitive development creates the perfect breeding ground for antisocial behavior. It also makes vulnerable or socially excluded youth prime targets for sectarian groups (whether religious, political, or otherwise) that prey on their situation, offering them promises of protection, safe spaces, surrogate parental figures, or social progress. These groups actively seek out kids with emotional voids caused by dysfunctional family dynamics, minimal to no financial resources, and a profound sense that the system has failed them at every turn. They offer these kids an alternative system—one that gives them a roof over their heads, a hot meal, a place to belong, and people who won’t marginalize them like the rest of society has—at the simple price of blindly following the group’s ideology. And they do it. Of course, they do. Because what other choice do they have? This group gave them life, a place in society, and restored their status as human beings.

But since I’ve spoken about this at length before and about how Severus’s life shaped his decisions, I feel like I’m starting to sound like a broken record. So, since I’m also reading a legal ruling I need to memorize by Friday, I’m going to indulge myself and dissertate as freely as I please—because hey, if you’re going to throw hate, I’m going to grant myself the privilege of replying however I want.

Here’s a question: why does it even matter? Seriously, what does it matter if he was a shitty person? Do you know that people go to space today thanks to the work of physicists and engineers who were literal SS members? That after WWII, all the top scientists, physicists, chemists, and engineers were granted amnesty and fast-tracked into citizenships so they could work on government projects? That people working within a stone’s throw of concentration camps are the pioneers behind some of the greatest technological advances of the 20th century? And you don’t care that the products you consume are derived from the work of collaborators with mass genocide, but you’re upset that people find a fictional character interesting? I don’t want to sound cynical, but honestly, it’s ridiculous to get so morally high and mighty about a character who doesn’t exist and who followed an extremist cult for, what? 3 or 4 years tops? and then canonically worked actively to take it down. If we put Severus in a real-world, wartime context, the guy would be a literal war hero with medals to his name. No exaggeration. If he survived, he’d be recruited with a fat paycheck to work in internal affairs for some major world power’s secret projects. That’s just how the world works.

And yeah, he was obsessive. But in an era where everyone suffers at least one anxiety episode a month, where the best-case scenario is that your panic attacks don’t spiral into chronic mental health issues—can we really judge him for that? Like, most of the people I see being ultra “snater” are folks who openly declare themselves neurodivergent, and one of the common denominators of all neurodivergence is obsessiveness. All of them. Whether it’s chronic anxiety, depression, OCD, ADHD, paranoid schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder or autism. Every single one has an obsessive component. So it’s kind of ironic—and even hypocritical—for people who are themselves pretty obsessive (because let’s face it, we’re all compulsively doomscrolling here to soothe our anxious compulsions with little dopamine hits) to judge this character’s obsessiveness as a negative trait. Maybe let’s take a good look in the mirror, too.

And let me just say, no court would convict Severus of collaborating with a terrorist group. Not a single one. Impossible. Especially since he literally collaborated against said group, so any judge would happily clear him—not after the war, but the moment he struck his deal with Dumbledore. Severus is what’s known as an informant. He worked from the inside, exposed himself to greater dangers than regular agents. Legally speaking, there have been cases where people guilty of heinous crimes—including crimes against humanity—were let off because they provided critical information. So imagine someone like Severus, who, as far as we know, didn’t even kill anyone during his time in the group, willingly spilling the beans and agreeing to work as a spy. He’d be celebrated as a hero of war. Hell, they’d probably buy him a mansion in Florida if he wanted one. That’s just how our system works, and honestly, this kind of moralist posturing is pretty cringy because you’re talking about a guy who literally saved half of magical society’s asses and without whom the kid destined to save the world would’ve died in his first year at school.

You can dislike him or think he’s a jerk, but he was damn good at his job. And compared to the people he’s often unfairly measured against (Sirius, James, Remus...), he actually did something. They didn’t. Absolutely nothing. Contribution: negative one.