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fernsnailz · 9 months ago

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February 2024 Review Roundup

well i sure did watch some stuff and read one book this month

the things i finished this month reminded me that for every incredible piece of art i find myself enjoying, i end up watching some Hot Garbage immediately after to balance things out again. idk why i do this.

i have quite a bit to say about both the things i enjoyed and the things that brought me physical pain this month, so there is um. a lot under the cut. any previous desire for brevity i had in january has been completely thrown out the window as i use these roundups as an outlet to gush about things i like and complain about things i didn't. fair warning, if you open the readmore you will be scrolling for a while. enjoy i guess

House of Leaves

does any other book out there have the balls to write a completely fake interview with stephen king

House of Leaves is a novel you gotta throw around a little bit. It feels really weird that my copy is still in the pristine state I bought it in - It seems like it should have water damage and smell like mildew with its pages falling out and spine cracked into pieces. Getting the full story from this book requires flipping back and forth, turning it around, searching for answers. All things considered it’s not that difficult of a read, but its format still allows you to feel like you’re discovering every hidden piece for yourself, and I really liked that interactivity. I was engaged pretty much the whole way through.

I don’t really think I’ll be able to revisit this book anytime soon though. It’s difficult for me to format what else I’d like to say about it because to be honest, it caught me off guard and disturbed me on a fairly personal level. There’s a relief I feel when I remember that I don’t actually know what was going on with the house - maybe that was intentional on the book’s behalf, maybe I just didn’t look hard enough for answers. I don’t know. But the implication that something divine was down there was enough of an answer for me. The book's good. read it if you want a spooooooky time or if you never want to look at a hallway the same way again

Doctor Who (Series 1-4) (rewatch)

ok so this is a fuckload of doctor who to cover so i’m gonna give some thoughts on a few of the characters and my favorite + least favorite episodes

9th doctor: My favorite butch lesbian. Christopher Eccleston truly embodies the concept of The Doctor so, so well: otherworldly guy who knows too much, genuinely cares about life across the universe, and also has a bit of deep, unresolved rage. His moments of joy and careless fun stick with me the most, he absolutely radiates with life and brings so much to this character.

Rose: I first watched Doctor Who when I was in middle school, and I didn’t like Rose that much back then. And guys. I have bad news. I'm still not really much of a Rose fan

I definitely understood her more this watch through - that desire for adventure and some sort of control over her life, emotions so strong that she’s willing to throw near everything away. That’s just what being 19 is like sometimes. I think Rose is a very compelling character who just happens to frustrate me a bit. And that’s kinda the point, her co-dependent relationship with the Doctor is doomed to fail and it's meant to hurt. Ultimately, I think when I first watched the show I was too young to understand Rose, and now I’m just too old to relate to her.

Captain Jack: Jack is my favorite character. I fucking love this guy. Dude has the worst luck in the whole universe and still cannot be stopped. Legendary. Every episode with him is a goddamn delight because he has so much chemistry with every single cast member. No notes 10/10 i love my problematic bisexual king

10th doctor: About four episodes into David Tennant’s run I realized that he dresses like a Hazbin Hotel character and it made me very sad. Still, there’s a reason this guy inspired every middle schooler to buy a pair of converse in 2008. He has style, he has depth, he’s got the sauce. It’s genuinely terrifying to see his anger, I like that a lot of 10’s run is about his denial of godhood and power over life in the universe, something that the rest of the time lords desired. idk i like my sad pathetic little weasel but he's also a huge fucking asshole sometimes which sucks. especially when it's directed at Martha.

Martha: Martha I am so sorry for what this show put you through. Martha was my favorite companion when I first watched the show, and I still have a huge soft spot for her. Her ability to hold her own and navigate foreign worlds using her own intelligence absolutely rules, and her drive forward is unbreakable. But the show seems to put her down at every possible opportunity, most notably with how 10 treats her. Her struggles and wants are constantly ignored, and she's often treated as a rebound from Rose. And I like that she eventually chooses to end it by not traveling with 10 anymore, but it hurts because it feels like she was never given the same chance or care that Rose and Donna were. This era of Doctor Who really doesn’t treat its black companions well because Mickey goes through something similar - both Martha and Mickey are characters designed to be ignored or left behind, and it sucks.

Donna: Donna Noble is one of the greatest fictional characters to ever exist. Despite seemingly living a fairly average life and working a fairly average job, Donna reflects the idea that no one is truly "average" and every single person is brimming with personality, life, and love. I love that her relationship with 10 is purely platonic, personally their friendship feels like it has a lot more depth than either of the romance-oriented relationships 10 had with Rose and Martha. 10 and Donna bounce off of each other so well and it's delightful, Donna brings so much humor and life to every world she's taken to and it's incredible. I wish her and Captain Jack could have interacted more.

My favorite episode: The Runaway Bride is hard to not choose as my favorite. I have a blast every time I watch this episode and it’s such a good introduction for Donna. Also the Tardis car chase kills me, I love when it cuts to the kids in the back of another car clapping and cheering. I was also surprised by the episode Midnight - it’s dreadful to watch and I kinda loved it. So much spirals out of control when shit hits the fan, even though no one has any idea what they’re trying to fight against. Really interesting exploration as to how fear can drive people apart.

My least favorite episode: It’s Love & Monsters. I wish I liked this episode - stories that follow regular ass people living in this world are often some of the best episodes in the series (Weeping Angels and all that). And this episode definitely has some of that. It’s honestly really touching to see this group of nerds get together and enjoy life in the first part of the episode. I think the antagonist of “guy who absorbs people” ends up dragging down any charm this story had because he just. eats all of the interesting characters. But despite me disliking this episode, I honestly have a deep respect for it - it’s fucking crazy. It ends with the main guy telling us about his sex life with his girlfriend who is now stuck in a piece of concrete. Where else are you going to get a story like this. It fucking sucks and that’s hilarious

oh also the production design: GODDDDDD I FUCKING LOVE THE PRODUCTION DESIGN AND SETS ON THIS SHOW. I love how dirty and rundown a lot of the spaceship sets look with wires and lights scattered everywhere. And a number of alien designs also go CRAZY with the prosthetics - I keep thinking about the Hath from The Doctor’s Daughter and how every head prosthetic had liquid inside it that could bubble. Absolutely crazy. I also love the moments where you can clearly see they did not have that much time and just had to throw something together or pain a bald cap green. Jank is the nature of sci-fi production design and I dearly love and miss that Doctor Who jank.

Rebuild of Evangelion

Last year after finishing the original Evangelion series + End of Evangelion, I remember going through the Evangelion tumblr tag and being very confused by the number of slice of life/found family-esque fanworks of the cast. It left me puzzled and thinking “...did we even watch the same thing??”

APPARENTLY NOT

[spoiler warning here because these movies are very good and i give the best parts away. if you want to watch these movies then DO IT NOW!!!!!!!!]

I honestly never expected a world where these characters got a happy ending. I so, so badly wish I could see 3.0 and 3.0+1.0 in theaters - these movies are stunning. I know I say things “go crazy” a lot, but man. They go fucking CRAZY.

While I have a few issues with how the first two movies adapted the original show, I do think the changes they made better serve the story this rebuild is trying to tell. For example, my favorite episode in the original Eva series is episode 18, where Toji is chosen to pilot Unit 03. It’s absolutely terrifying because Shinji doesn’t know who 03’s pilot is, yet he’s forced to be inside Unit 01 as it tears 03 apart. His resolve not to kill anyone despite not even knowing who’s in danger is an aspect of that episode I love and speaks to Shinji's inherent humanity, and when he learns Toji was in there it hurts even more. The rebuild movies change Unit 03’s pilot to Auska, and Shinji knows she’s in there from the start. I think this choice works for the movies and is still an effective emotional beat, but personally I still prefer the version where Shinji had no idea who was in there. That lack of knowledge is infinitely more terrifying to me.

I really like what these movies did with some of the angel designs though. The sixth angel (the fuckin. blue diamond cube thing) works really well in 3D/CG animation. The way the thing warps and moves is otherly and terrifying - and it’s just a fucking cube. I’ve always really loved how the Eva series approaches angel designs and the divine - despite the alien-like designs, there’s often something extremely familiar about them. They’re often reminiscent of an animal, a machine, or a human. This is also how they approached the anti-universe in these movies, I loved how it takes the form of various locations from the series and turns them into a movie set. It’s deeply familiar, but ultimately just an illusion of familiarity like the angels and the divine.

Also I gotta say. I fucking love Mari. I think she’s hilarious. She first meets Shinji by accidentally parachuting into him and then immediately starts crawling on all fours to sniff him. This girl also introduces “Beast Mode” where the Eva pilots can go wild turn their mechs into a fucking. superpowered beast of some sort. And also she defeats a whole army by using the Eiffel Tower as a spear. She’s such an absurd character and I honestly kinda love it. The only thing I knew about these movies before watching them was this gif of her Backing That Shit Up and she truly lives up to the insane nature of this shot.

My favorite section of these movies is definitely the first part of 3.0+1.0 where the pilots are basically just living a domestic life in a small town - it’s truly beautiful. The growth that Rei’s copy goes through here is fantastic, I love stories about seemingly emotionless beings learning how to live. And right after she dies, we get the shot that absolutely broke me the first time I saw it:

This shit. The way you can just barely tell he’s been crying from the red around his eyes. They don't talk about it, they barely linger on it, but it's allowed just enough time to punch you in the gut. I don’t know why this shot got me as hard as it did but goddamn. jesus christ. i want to throw up

There’s some goofy shit in these movies. The infinite synch rate. Misato’s stupidass hat and sunglasses. Some goofy ass 3D animation that doesn’t age super well. The rainbow that shows up every time an angel dies. But these things really didn’t take me out of the core of these films, and there’s so much genuine emotion and beauty in this series that had me absolutely hooked - especially in the last two films. They go crazy. My favorite line is 100% “The only thing a son can do for his father is pat him on the shoulder… or kill him.” and man. ain’t that what Evangelion is all about. i love these movies

High School Musical 3

kinda slaps just a little bit

High School Musical 3 starts with a finale number. The last high school basketball game of Troy Bolton’s life - and it goes kinda hard. The classic pep band brass that’s essential to so many High School Musical numbers returns, and the constant theme of two feuding cheer teams in the background? Genius. This is truly art. I love listening to Now or Never without visuals because in the middle Troy just starts coughing and gagging seemingly out of nowhere

Unfortunately, starting the movie at such a high point means that the rest of the runtime doesn’t quite match up to it. The story lags and meanders quite a bit, but part of me kinda appreciates that - it’s their last semester of high school, which is always a time of confusion and turmoil. However, I do have a pitch for how they could have countered the constant falling action this movie seems to go through:

The Wildcats should have lost their last game at the beginning of the movie.

What if the game is instead the inciting incident that leads Troy and his besties through their tumultuous last semester? Troy is still torn between basketball and theater, but his identity would be even further challenged here - is winning and success all that matters for him, or is it the love of sport and performance that keeps him going? idk whatever this movie came out 16 years ago i can’t be out here writing AUs for it jgnfsgfnjdksg

Some miscellaneous thoughts about this movie that i don’t care about formatting into larger paragraphs:

Ryan and Sharpay’s number (I Want It All) slaps as usual. The part where Ryan shouts “MADISON SQUARE GARDEN!!!!!!!” makes me so happy every time i hear it

The production design and sets go absolutely fucking crazy. I still have no idea how they pulled off the spinning hallway in Scream.

One of the classic staples of HSM is Chad’s shirts. Most of them are fairly silly and like something you would expect to find in the walmart clearance section. However, there’s one shirt he has in this movie that confused the hell out of me. It’s this one:

What the FUCK does Greenster mean. Is it just a combination of Green and Monster?? Why??? What green monster are we talking about here????? Where the fuck did this shirt come from?????????

Avatar The Last Airbender (2024)

There’s really only one word I can think of to describe what this show is like: sauceless. No flavor. No depth. No character. No sauce. This show is honestly so fucking boring and seems to fundamentally misunderstand what the appeal of the original Avatar series is - not necessarily because things are changed or removed from the original, but because nothing of substance is added in return.

Most of the characters are mere echoes of their original counterparts when compared to their source material. Sokka is reduced to a guy who wants to fight good, Katara’s stubborn and confrontational nature is very rarely utilized, and Aang’s mischievous antics and love of fun is sorely missing. One of the major reasons for the dull interpretations seems to be the directing - While I have faith that most of these actors are trying their best (especially since a number of them are kids/young adults), the direction seems to be incredibly lackluster and takes away nearly every cast member’s stage presence or personality. There’s a number of reaction shots of the main trio that just look like this: 😐😐😐 as if they were just told to “look concerned” at the events unfolding before them. And these issues are apparent in the majority of the performances - for example, General Zhao talks like he’s in a board meeting up until the last episode, and it’s an incredibly flat performance. He talks somewhat monotone in the original series as well, but this live-action take on the character often meanders with his dialogue and lacks that sharp, terrifying quality that I think this character needs. Uncle Iroh also feels incredibly stiff in this adaptation, and it’s a goddamn crime that they took away the cunty little outfit and chains he was originally wearing when he gets captured by earthbenders. wait who said that

Credit where credit is due, there’s a few cast members that seem to be giving their best. It’s clear that Aang’s actor enjoys the role and does pretty well despite the lackluster direction and dialogue he’s given. On top of that, I think Zuko’s actor is honestly the best part of the show. His take on Zuko leans much more into teenage tendencies and sarcasm, which, although it can be silly, is a welcome take of the character in my opinion and pretty fun to watch. There’s this one line he has at the beginning of episode 2 where, in an incredibly whiny tone of voice, he goes “He RAN! The ultimate warrior! He’s a Coward :((((“ and the read is so. fucking funny

The case of bad direction isn’t limited to the performances, however. It’s also stunningly apparent in how everything is shot. Despite being in a widescreen format, most shots are incredibly centered - you could crop the entire runtime into a 4:3 frame and you wouldn’t be cutting out much of anything. I’ve seen some speculation that this was an intentional choice to make things more adaptable or readable for TikTok/phone video, but honestly I think that’s a dumb take. I think the issue stems from a lack of creativity and thoughtless composition. Keeping everything staged in the center can make shots feel disjointed, lacking much depth, or completely empty. It’s a boring way to shoot and indicates that the show lacks any unique vision at all.

Overall, this show doesn't really seem to understand what makes Avatar interesting in the first place. It's more interested in spectacle and action than the characters' relationships, emotions, and mistakes. I try not to compare it too much to the original since it's allowed to take liberties with its adaptation, but very few of its changes add much to the end result or give it a unique voice. It's just sauceless and boring.

Some YouTube videos i liked in February:

💥 My House.WAD - Inside Doom's Most Terrifying Mod (some supplemental House of Leaves material for ya) 💥 Martha Jones Deserved Better (this video explains how Doctor Who did Martha dirty better than i ever could) 💥 bringing JUSTICE to the worst garfield game 💥 Selling Kids for Clout: The Downfall of Family Channels

And that’s my roundup for February! Thank you for reading, I promise there are no more reviews left to scroll through below this goodbye. Nope, nothing else I watched this month. Bye!

…ok is everyone gone. phew, i’m glad no one noticed i pulled an hbomberguy and hid the largest part of this post under a false ending. Anyway holy shit i need to talk about hazbin hotel

Hazbin Hotel

well i didn’t like it

Hazbin Hotel is a weird, fascinating mess of a show. Every episode left me wondering what creative decisions (or lack thereof) led to the sequence of images I just watched. There’s been a lot of discussion of this show recently and I’m not interested in covering every critique I have, but there’s a few things that I'd like to talk about somewhat in-depth.

Hell is real and it's just Red Chicago

The setting of Hell is kinda boring in this show.

Let me try to put this into perspective. Aside from the hotel, here’s a list of the locations we see in Hell:

A boardroom

A video store

Vox’s evil lair (it has cyber sharks which is kinda cool)

Various streets

Another boardroom

A BDSM club

Carmilla’s house (it’s gray and has. balconies?)

A porn studio

A bar

Another bar

A town square (full of cannibals)

None of these locations really take on any sort of otherworldly form besides some vague demonic imagery scattered throughout (and the cannibals. i guess. whatever). In short, Hazbin Hotel’s setting resembles Chicago more than it does Hell.

I can see a world where that’s intentional. Perhaps making Hell resemble a modern city could be used as a thematic tool or point of relatability? But Hazbin doesn’t really do anything like that - since the characters rarely ever interact with their environments, these locations end up seeming like they lack creativity, like they’re just cardboard sets where characters go to swear. They all start to blend together after a while - every street feels the same, every boardroom fades into the background, and every bar feels like a google image search result for the word “club.” This world feels stunningly empty despite the busy designs and colors. Even though the backgrounds are painted and designed fairly well, nothing of substance is ever really added to them through the story.

However, a few musical numbers take effort to break away from these settings. This felt like a weight off of my shoulders whenever it happened, it was nice to see some interesting setpieces and backgrounds that weren’t red. I liked the bombastic and over-the-top broadway lights in Loser and the glowing alternate world in Charlie and Lucifer’s song. But these moments are few and crowded by the dull locations in Hell - or worse, the Hotel itself.

Despite being the namesake of the show, the actual Hazbin Hotel is… lifeless. Which, yeah, it’s a hotel where dead people go in the afterlife, but it’s missing any sort of personality or history besides “it’s old and falling apart.” I expected the hotel to be full of secrets - like maybe some hidden passages or rooms, or mysterious cabinets full of rotted meats, or old valuables hidden under the rugs by the previous owners. Something for the cast to explore and discover, and as they get closer to each other they also start to understand the hotel more. Alastor seems very intent on keeping the physical hotel standing for some reason, but I never really understood why. There’s nothing there. And that nothingness is fully realized when at the end of the show, they just rebuild the entire hotel to be grand and beautiful - an emotional beat that didn’t hit me at all because I never felt like I knew the hotel in the first place. Despite rebuilding it from the ground up, it will feel just as empty.

3 SHOTS THAT DRIVE ME CRAZY

I was truly baffled at how some of these scenes are timed and put together. Multiple sequences left me feeling nauseous and dazed - the camera moves like it’s being swung on the end of a rope, and there’s so many misplaced or meaningless cuts scattered through these episodes.

There’s a sequence of three shots in the first episode that I want to dissect. I will fully admit that I'm breaching nitpicking territory here, but the shot composition issues in this show are pretty rampant and my analysis here is just a hyper-specific look at a single part of that larger problem. Hopefully you can also use it as a quick storyboarding lesson too idk

First, we see Adam teasing Charlie.

Then, it cuts straight to this shot:

A few things here.

Shot 2 is just closer on the characters, which is not a great idea to cut to after the previous waist-up shot. On top of being a jarring jump cut, there is no purpose for this new shot. All the information we see here (Adam laughs, Charlie fake laughs) could have just been conveyed in the previous shot.

Despite the characters being in the same position as the last shot, the background changes. This straight up just feels like an error. I think the idea is supposed to be that the camera is at a different angle, but the position of the characters does not convey that. It looks like reality changes behind them.

And if that’s not enough, this is the shot we get immediately after those two:

In this shot, the residents of the hotel sit on the couch as Vaggie walks into the shot, framing them between her legs. But there’s something… off.

Vaggie either looks like she’s floating or she’s three stories tall. Quick storyboard lesson as to why:

The main problem with this shot is that the perspective of the background doesn’t match up with where Vaggie is placed. The couch is framed as if the camera were above it, but Vaggie is framed like the camera is floor-level below her. I’ve traced the shot and added a perspective grid to hopefully better illustrate this:

Do you see what I mean? If the camera WAS actually on the floor like Vaggie’s position in the shot suggests, the composition would look more like this:

Notice how much closer the floor grid is to the bottom of the frame and how you can see the underside of the couch.

And to be fair, this is probably what the original storyboard for this shot looked like! Personally I think something went wrong in the compositing stage - this might be a couch background from another shot that was reused here to save time, or whoever approved this shot just let the error slide since the shot is so short (i've been there. sometimes you let the jank slide). Most animated shows will have some poorly framed shots and continuity errors because mistakes are bound to happen, but two egregious ones right next to each other like this is. pretty bad. It's so noticeable from a directing perspective.

Here’s the thing: these three shots happen in the span of like 10 seconds. Most viewers probably wouldn’t notice these issues, and that's fine. But even though these errors are quick, they stack upon each other so fast that even if you can’t pinpoint exactly what’s wrong, something still feels wrong. There’s so many other moments where the show breaks extremely basic shot composition, continuity, and staging rules - for example, the second musical number of the show breaks the 180 rule like four times for no good reason. The whole show feels like a dizzy, nauseating mess because the shots rarely feel like they form anything cohesive.

MY ROOMMATE TOLD ME TO GO TO BED SO HERE ARE SOME FINAL THOUGHTS

Here’s a rundown on some other thoughts that I don’t care to format into larger sections:

The show seems to lack much to say about sin and redemption other than “redemption good.” like sure, but what are they being redeemed from? Is heaven truly the place they deserve to go after being redeemed, even though it’s shown to be unjust? Are there sins that are too great to be redeemed from, or others that shouldn't be considered sins at all? I asked myself a number of questions like this, but never got many answers from Hazbin.

This show has a bad relationship with kink and sex. Both are mostly used as a punchline or a form of control. I didn’t like it. Perhaps the reason Hazbin never really comments on the nature of sin is because it needs you to consider sex and kink sinful or otherly for these jokes to hit.

Some of the animation is crazy good. I will praise any animator that even attempts to make these character designs move. A number of extremely talented people worked on this show, a few of the musical sequences in particular have some incredible movement.

Alastor is a very boring character. It’s wild that most of the side characters in this show only exist to talk about how much they like or hate Alastor, he mostly just stands to the side of some shots or kills random nameless goons. I expected him to have a much larger role in the story, but he just gets his ass kicked in the final episode and then crawls back to the hotel.

Episode 4 is the most cohesive, and i think Angel is the best character in the show. Unfortunately, the fact that Hazbin takes so much effort to show Angel’s misery left me… concerned? None of the other characters get treated as poorly as Angel by the narrative. There’s a few smaller explorations of trauma, but nothing remotely compares to what Angel is put through on-screen. This isn’t to say that I think the whole cast needs to be extremely traumatized and constantly miserable, but rather that I find it concerning that the only character subjected to incredibly graphic abuse and torture (that we see or hear about) is the gay sex worker. Which sucks, because I think the concept of hypersexuality resulted from sexual abuse is an important topic worthy of discussing in adult media. I just think they tried to execute this theme without much critical thought beforehand.

I think the voice cast does a fantastic job for the most part. Keith David is way too good for Husk.

I really liked the one shot where Charlie opens her phone and we see that she has a contact for every individual egg minion.

I was very brave and got through this whole review without talking about my new least favorite character of all time, Vox. here’s what I think of him:

The overall vision and end result of Hazbin Hotel is just mediocre. While I don’t know what led to the messy state this show ended up in, my guess is that it was probably the result of inadequate direction, sloppy writing, and lacking creative support from the studios involved. Because of this, please understand that I have no desire or intention to put down any individual artists that worked on this show - I hope it's clear that most of my criticisms are directed at the larger vision these artists were given to execute and/or the lack of creative support they received while working on this show.

I also don’t really have much desire to participate in any further Hazbin discussion or discourse because it has wasted enough of my time already and I want to be free of this curse. please spare my inbox from hazbin hotel discourse. please. i'm begging.

You want to know what the most fucked up thing about this is though? Despite everything I said about Hazbin, Avatar the Last Airbender 2024 is still the worst show I watched this month. I would take Hazbin over Avatar 2024 literally any day.

well if you got this far. thanks for reading. also sorry you read all that. whelp alright back into my hole i go bye bye

#to get to my hazbin hotel opinions you must first read my pitch on how i would have written high school musical 3 #jesus christ. either i gotta watch less things or learn to shut the hell up next month this is a longass post #review roundup #long post

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tales-from-syscord · 4 months ago

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I'm the "nazi is a slur apparently" anon from before, and I gotta say the situation has gotten worse. I was banned from the server for "saying slurs (I can reclaim the f slur + it didn't happen in that server) apparently making fun of a vent (?) and trying to break rules." I sent my own art and didn't credit myself.

The people in there are rude as hell. They said cringe culture isn't ableist and said my favorite character would call me the r slur because I "feminized him." It's a character calm down. 😭

I looked at the disboard reviews and apparently the co-owner is a pedophile??

Sometimes I forget how horrible syscord can be, then this blog's ask box reminds me. Please stay safe anon

#tales from the queue #tales from syscord #tales from anon #community #anti endo #endos dni #discord #endo dni #did #slur discourse #ableism #cringe culture is ableist #cringe culture is stupid #r slur

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myopicry · 1 month ago

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following the #gender identity tag sometimes results in me passively seeing fascinating stuff like coming out posts from random users (usually nonbinary or xenogender) and I gotta say nothing reminds me more of how most people’s idea of gender is just aesthetics than when I see these posts. why yes your gender is just like a circus at the break of dawn. or the ephemeral nature of being a boy but only like a pretty fae boy. or the way wolves look when they’re running. these are aesthetics, you know you can just post aesthetics right that’s like the whole point of tumblr.

I mean yeah weirdly you’ve hit on the whole thing about gender stereotypes and expression being kind of dumb and made up as a shorthand based on traditional gender roles but somehow instead of saying yeah well I have the freedom to express myself because gender stereotypes mean nothing, I will instead make more gender happen and only reinforce the idea that all self expression is innate and categorizable! that defining and reinforcing limits on how people can present themselves is good actually and that the fun aesthetic I have somehow makes me oppressed!

can people just go back to making art and pinterest boards and writing shitty poetry based on aesthetics and metaphors pleaseeee. did all of gen z forget what metaphors were and decided every feeling had to be a 100% honored part of self-identity? are the best minds of my generation all defunct because we got suckered into internet cringe and this kind of thinking so early on that the effects are irreversible? can I stomach much more of my so overwhelmingly tra-positive irl life without going insane? is this post an entirely too long poorly formatted diatribe about things that are obvious to the people who follow me? so many questions.

I need a chronically gender critical video essayist like now because if someone doesn’t do a deep dive on the parallels between the aesthetics wiki and the lgbtq wiki to demonstrate a microcosm of how gender ideology has become mainstream and overtaken gay communities I might and I really need to stay crypto for at least a couple more years.

#myo is rambling.#we’re so back jk I’m just having a lazy day where I decided to get mad on purpose for very little reason #been in the dating app scene lately so I’m definitely trying to behave more… normal? or less secret gc tumblr blog like lmao #but I miss having a space to rant and also sort of be heard while not having to actually burden anyone directly with this shit #my irl life has reallly been testing me I have learned entirely too much about my gendie coworkers #I really want to blog about the concerning anecdotes I have about them #but idk if it makes for good blogging and also I’m really trying to stay somewhat anon so this can’t get leaked to anyone I know lmao #gender identity #gender ideology

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sethdomain · 3 months ago

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Dont want to stir up drama but saw ur posts abt ppl in the dsmp fandom just absolutely hating it and being a bit miserable and i thought of this one blog

like their art is amazing and i follow them for it but i had to stop reading their posts and meta bc they seem to hate the source material, most of the characters, most of the dynamics w their fav and most of the fandom and like. if u dont enjoy it then why are u here???

Tbh i dont really have anything againts the way they would enjoy the media they like. Like damn I also do that to some media(ahem-MiracLadybug)

Like maybe in some way they do like dsmp and they just like, enjoy it not in a way people normally do. And I think thats fine man, you can have a love hate relationship with a media where you just want to aggressively make out with it. But they just did it in a way that seems almost concerningly miserable, but hey. sometime i think i gotta remind myself that I really do not know if they do like being here, so theres that.

Most I have problem is, their batshit entitlement where they think they have some right to police people on how the should enjoy the dream smp, the way its pallatable to them. Like fuck man, some people do not hate boners dsmp everyday and make some deep understanding on whats happening, sometimes they just love doing canon divergence or sillies shit cuz its fun. I think its because they think they have the veteran badge that said ‘i was there’ but many people was there too it doesnt grant you some magic abilities to be someone commando. Like, I think its just super entitled and miserable man, they just need a chill pill methinks, but other than that idgaf man! i just dont like their entitlement and their a little bit of the misery vibes and im not saying that its the worse crime in the world to be like that, its frankly just a bit annoying.

But like I do emphatize with them thought, they were in the dsmp trenches when it was so shiitttt and ableism, victim-blaming and low levels of critical thinking skills was so rampant. So I get their hostility and I really dont think they owe becoming nicer as a person, though i still think they need to chill for their own sanity man

#ignorelist #ask tag #this shit is just me being a bit annoyed and very much concerned over thjs one guy

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sonknuxadow · 5 months ago

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yeah I get ya on this. i just thought it was kinda fun to talk about for a bit, sometimes i almost get fooled by the fanon’s perspective of him and then i gotta look back at the comics to remind myself haha no.

speaking of archie comics, do you have a favorite panel or cover art of the werehog? Like the artwork? Mine was almost the entirety of issue 265. vicious but still a fluffy beast.

I LOVE ISSUE 265 fun fact i only have physical copies of two individual archie sonic issues and theyre issue 265 of the main series + one of the sonic universe issues from the arc where scourge goes to prison. which is kinda funny considering what the topic of conversation was right before this. Anyway asking me to pick just one favorite werehog art is an impossible task but i did try to limit it to a small-ish selection of my favorites:

↑ panels

covers ↓

sorry i know you just asked for one but how could i limit it to just one when hes so cute adn sillay....

#i like every panel from the scene where sonic is holding the bowl but i limited it to just one .. to not make this post too long...#also honorable mention to the set of panels of knuckles and chip sitting next to sonic on the plane right before sunset #not knowing about the whole werehog thing and then getting the biggest jumpscare of their lives 5 seconds later #asks

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twotangledsisters · 6 months ago

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Do you have any writing tips?

Oh, a lot!

I actually used to have an entire blog for writing tips: @deardragonbook you'll want to scroll down a bit to reach the tips, I don't post there anymore but there's still good content... I think the most popular post I ever did was "Sad things you can do in a book other than killing of a character"

But here's some more up-to-date tips!

-Don't force it... but do force it a little bit. I find if you wait for inspiration to hit sometimes it never will, but if you sit down for just five minutes and write uninspired, often times you will enter into a more inspired state. Now if you sit down and after a while you're still not inspired, unless it's one specific chapter you've gotta push through, it's okay to wait! Forcing a story doesn't tend to end with a good story.

-Warmup! We know to warm-up with sport, most people know to warm-up before drawing, the same goes for writing! I have a very random little file where I just write scenes from no specific fic, in no specific order, for no reason other than to warm up.

It has Frederic and Arianna arguing over what their daughter's favorite dessert is.

Teenage Cassandra asking Arianna for help with makeup.

Captain doing push-ups in the garden.

Owl playing dead to get the attention of a six-year-old Cass.

All of these in 200-300 word sprints that I write BEFORE I start working on one of my propper stories! I've done this with numerous stories and projects, just little warm-ups to get a feel for the characters and flow!

-Remember there are writing styles! Some people opt for long sentences with lots of description! Others (like myself) opt for minimal description and spend more time on feelings and actions. Neither one is better or worse, it just depends on what you prefer and the story you're trying to tell!

-CHANGE POV!! This one may be controversial but whenever I'm really, really stuck in a story 9/10 times I can fix that by taking a quick detour to show a different character's pov... I don't know why this work but it just does!

-Find a program that works for you. I've used word/google docs/good-notes/scrivener and more! I write a lot more and a lot faster with scrivener, it's a million times easier for me to go back and check what I've written before when I need to. Having my notes and my outlines in the same document as the main story is great. This just depends on how your brain works but if you haven't tried alternative writing program, you definitely should! You might find one that makes your process a lot easier.

-Use references. Just like in art, you can check out how other writers described a bustling market or palace architecture to inspire your own writing!

I use Descriptionari a lot for this but there's many similar sites out there, reddit writing communities is another great one!

-Have fun! Cheesy, I know, but if you love a story it's going to be a million times easier to write. Don't worry too much if yet another cuddles scene between your fave pairing is getting in the way of the pacing, if it's bringing you joy I can assure you it's bringing plenty of your readers joy too!

Anyway... If there's something more specific you'd like tips on do say cause writing is such a broad subject matter, but those I think are some important ones I have to remind myself of often :D

#ask answered #writing tips #writing tip #writing tricks #writing trick #writing advice #writing resource #writing resources

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dashielldeveron · 14 days ago

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Hi Dash! I hope you're doing well. I'm writing this ask literally 1 hour before I need to leave for one of my sem finals (which I'll be fine at hopefully, since I studied). But while I was anxiously awaiting purgatory, I read one of my favourite of your works again - Monoma's route in Soulmate Trope. Istg I am not exaggerating, no writing has made me laugh harder than that single scene where he just... wordlessly pulled down his pants. I laughed so hard that my roommate had to come check on me. And the word "cum gutter" had dealt irreversible psychic damage to my brain. Sometimes while doing some mundane stuff, I think back about that scene, or countless other scenes from the book and had to remind myself I'm in public. I've only watched MHA up till season 3 and a bit into 4 but I was kinda already spoiled about the ending, so I'm so in love with the world you build there. I've always kinda wanted to try writing my own work because I sometimes have a budding idea that had me go, 'oh I think that'd make an interesting story', but then I realised I suck at writing. Writing just 1000 words took me an hour or more, I don't know how you wrote 60k words for 1 chapter!! That's absolutely insane. Also also, because your writing is so hilarious, when you get emotional, it hits so hard. "and i've gotta crow" is absolutely one of my all time favourite fan work, though idk what the title means. My writing, just after the first few paragraphs, feels like sandpaper to read. But your work really inspired me to want to at least try, even if I don't post anything. Especially after my finals, I'm going to try shitting this one idea out of my head in the summer (oh I'm in Australia so my summer is almost here). So yeah thank you for making me laughed so hard and also fingerbanged my heart. If you have nothing better to do, would you mind sharing your general writing process with me? As in, is there a forbidden jutsu move that amazing authors use when writing? For me, I feel like I'm typing and deleting and retyping until it forms a coherent sentence, but after putting them together it's dryer than my chicken breast that I forgot for 30 minutes in the oven. If not it's okay too, I hope you have a wonderful day!

yes.......YES.........let the monoma adoration flow through you!!!! we need more people in our monoma coterie!!! it's now you, me, 📌 anon, and like, two other anons i believe???? we are officially a Club, i say!!!

writing discussion/advice/process under the cut

okay, who told you you suck at writing? and why do they think so??? odds are you don't. odds are, you're overthinking your own work too much. when i look at stuff i've written, i see the writing process in every sentence, and odds are, you might, too. seeing the process takes away parts of being able to immerse yourself in the writing. so, your stuff probably isn't bad; it's just that you know all about how it was made!!!

writing takes me a long time! mostly bc i have academic/work writing to do all the time, so writing fic as my breaks from work isn't always efficient and fun. and i'm pretty sure some people may get frustrated with me for taking so long to update, but that's just how my life is rn. it's ultimately perfectly fine if you take a long time, though, because this is a hobby. we're not getting paid for this. we're providing art for free.

anyway......my process.....hmm. well. step one is to be haunted by visions.

step one is actually to think about that first idea you have to spark the fic. doesn't matter if it's in the middle or end, or anything. and you want to consider what kind of people would get in this situation (helps define what kind of character reader will be) and what could possibly lead up to it. it's okay if it seems like a bunch of disjointed ideas at first.

i am a big outliner, but i always allow seredipity during the writing process. as in, if something starts happening that's cool that i didn't plan, i'm cool with it, so long as it makes sense for the characters.

so, if i start a fic, i will start with an outline that's just a list of things i want to happen in the fic. sometimes it's specific events, and sometimes, it's something like "and they get romantically closer here through some tragic accident." put those events in an order that makes sense for the emotional progression of your characters.

i also keep running lists of hot lines of dialogue that i come up with, sexy outfits to put people in, sexy gestures, domestic things that would ruin me, or other fic-specific lists--like for tenko's soulmate route, i kept a running list of weird facts that reader could bring up. not many ended up going in the fic, but still.

like, this is a screenshot of a working outline/list from aizawa's route:

not all of this happened!! and more scenes got way fleshed out!!! i plan for Large Events and Emotional Resonance, but i am open to strange directions that just happen while writing the scene itself, so long as i get to where i need to go eventually. like.....the only one bed stuff on the undercover mission never happened, because suddenly, the club scene got super detailed, and aizawa would probably be too exhausted to spend the proper time having the argument, let alone sex, with reader that night.

but basically, i always want to know where i'll end up, even if i don't know how i'm going to get there. because the process of the characters getting there is where fun, detailed, character work happens. bc if your characters are distinct enough, they'll drive the story more than whatever plot you have.

i'm not every writer ever (obviously), so i know that more thorough outlining or not planning at all works better for other people!!! maybe try experimenting with completely planning and completely pantsing some shorter stories to see what works better for you.

i don't have a daily routine for writing bc i am Busy All the Time, but i carry a notebook in my purse if i am struck with visions, and when i type on my computer, i usually turn on an ambient mix from ambient.mix.com to block out other stuff. usually, i can find an ambience to fit the mood of the scene i'm writing, too lol, which doesn't necessary help but makes things more fun.

i honestly think i spend more time daydreaming about the story than writing it?? i am a big advocate for daydreaming. it's important that you spend time thinking about everything that could go wrong, bc it often makes for a better story if it's fucked up, somehow. idk it may also be bc of work that i'm away from a computer so often. i like writing in the notebook by hand bc it's less pressure to make it "good," and so i can edit as i type it in a word doc later.

and editing is, of course a huge part of the writing process!!! i would say it'd be weirder to write a sentence just right the first time, as opposed to deleting and rephrasing repeatedly! you're doing just fine!

but i wouldn't say there's any secret besides doing it a lot!!!! i know i'm not a great writer, but i know i'm okay, and that's the result of working and practising it for about two decades now. i just have practise, read a lot, and spend a lot of time, academically, discussing written stories.

so!!! if you're feeling like your stuff isn't as good as you want it to be, you just need to start allowing yourself to suck!!! nothing is perfect the first time!!! and eventually, you can edit your sucky stuff into stuff that's compelling.

good luck with your semi finals and finals!!! and thaaaaaank you for 1) valuing my advice as an artist (gosh!!!!!) and for 2) saying such nice things about the silly little stories i write!!!! it means a lot to me!!! you're so kind!!!!! i hope any of this helped at all!!!! and i hope your day is peaceful!!!! xx.

#dash it all #words words words

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valentinesparda · 7 months ago

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I'm not gonna like, change my whole style overnight, but I AM gonna start reworking my brushes and change how I draw features a little and just do some fun stuff with my arts. I need to remind myself that I don't need to base my shit in reality and sometimes you gotta throw your faves into space and post them weird and who cares if the proportions don't seem anatomically correct. fuck

#val.txt

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fullfledgedemo · 1 year ago

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Chapter 1 / part 1

Pairing: Rafe cameron x OC / JJ maybank x OC

Warnings: swearing, alcohol, drugs, typical obx stuff; (remind me if I forget something)

Summary: Skyla is JJ's older sister. Growing up together they were inseparable. A short while after going to school she met her best friend Kayla. She would convince Kay to join her and the pogues. But Skyla would be strongly invested to make her dream of going to art school come true, that she didn't notice her best friend totally falling for her brother. On the road to her dream she accidentally crosses paths with the Kook prince himself. Maybe he's not that bad after all?

Word count: 2.5K

AN: This is the first part of chapter 1 from the series ~

Skyla

The fire cracked as we all sat around. Most nights would contain drinking, goofing around and long talks with each other. With we I mean the pogues.

And on such nights I felt safe like nothing in the world mattered, no rules, no complicated relationships, not knowing what to do with my life.

As I sat there gazing into the fire I felt something cold lightly hitting my thigh. Looking down I noticed it was a can of beer.

"I think you need another one", my brother laughed as he sat down next to me. I took the beer he rolled over to me a second ago pouting "Now it's all shaken up".

"Nah all good see", he gestured and took the beer off my hands. Clicking open the can tap a gush of beer poured out making a mess. I shrieked and JJ quickly drank from the can preventing further spilling.

"Duuuude", I said, complaining as I tried to dry myself off. So much for my fresh shirt I put on an hour ago, now wet and reeking with smell of hops.

"Sorry", JJ laughed and handed me the beer. I snipped on his forehead. "Ouch!" he exclaimed, holding his head. Snickering, I took a swing of the beverage. Sometimes he could be really goofy and annoying but he is the best brother to me anyway.

As I looked in the distance I saw our friends near the shore. "What have they been up to?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Kie talked about a night swim but it seems like a change of plans", he looked in their direction seeing Kayla gesturing 'Too cold' and grinned.

When they took off earlier to test the water temperature I decided to stay by the bonfire. Smiling at my brother hugging my knees I softly said "You can't leave me alone for like ten minutes?"

He looked at the sand, making circles with his beer can. "Gotta watch out for ma sis" JJ explained, nudging my shoulder gently.

A warm homely feeling filled my heart. Getting myself a little closer I laid my head on his shoulder as I uttered "Love ya bro". "Love ya too Sky", he murmured and patted my head softly.

Suddenly there where people howling

Bewildered, we looked up noticing some guys in fancy clothing sitting a couple of feet away from us. They were obviously drunk and in the back stood a much more fancy car, which would make the twinkie cry silently.

"Kooks”, I snorted. JJ was looking annoyed, adjusting his base cap. "Yeh got there a few minutes ago".

The drunk Kooks were trying to flirt with the girls, meanwhile making fun of Pope and John B.

Taking another sip of the beer I watched the scene unfold in front of us. Kayla and Kie distract the kooks with some smalltalk whilst Pope and John B snuck behind their fancy car.

A little confused, I stood up to get a better view "What are they doing?". JJ observed everything carefully.

"Lil prank I guess", he grinned as I rolled my eyes. "Can't we just ignore them for once", I laughed. I loved to play pranks at the 'high society' people of figure 8 but this evening was all about having fun and mostly chilling.

But before JJ could even answer my question we heard people screaming. Next thing that happened was a car rolling down the beach. Running over some stuff the kooks put up, it nearly hit someone in the process and finally stopped at the shore.

"What the hell", I muttered. The girls took off running in our direction and shortly after them John B and Pope.

"Start the twinkie!", Pope yelled, waving his hands in the air. “Oh..I..fuck gotta go quick”, JJ stumbled in the car's direction as I panicking took some of our stuff and threw it in the backseat. He nervously started the twinkie while waiting for our friends to arrive.

"The fuck happend!?", I screamed as Kie and Kayla arrived first. "Short story. Dumb idea", Kayla clarified as she jumped in the twinkie. “C’mon guys! “ Kie screamed at the two as she also got in the back where Kayla was.

Behind the boy's I saw three angry guys running after them and yelling "Fucking pogue trash you're dead!".

Just in time John B and Pope jumped in the van as JJ took us out of the heated situation in a full blast.

"I thought you wanted to poke a hole in the tire or something not nearly killing them!", Kiara yelled at the boys catching her breath. “Nobody got injured ok!? “, John B exclaimed.

Kayla panted adjusting her hair “You're just crazy.. “” We didn't mean to do that, it was an accident”, Pope justified.

Turning around to face them in the back I yelped "You undid their handbrake accidentally!?".

We all argued with each other till the twinkie got to an abrupt stop. "Shut the frick up guys!", JJ yelled and everybody went quiet. He paused for a second just to turn around with a smirk on his face "That was hilarious" he added. Now all of us started laughing, relaxed and were glad that nothing major happened.

Next morning after everyone crashed at the chateau I woke up early. Making my way over to the kitchen I took a big heap from a glass of water. Alcohol just dries you out so much. Searching for some leftovers to make some breakfast I suddenly heard some floorboards screeching. Turning around I found Kayla standing in the doorway rubbing her eyes.

"Since when you've been awake?", she yawned. Closing the fridge I fumbled with some bowls "Not long but I woke up really hungry so I strolled in here to scavenge for something edible", I laughed.

Kayla smiled and looked around finding Pope and John B snuggling on the couch. They sure looked peaceful like that.

She chuckled and gestured to the boys "Did they fall asleep like this?". "Dunno but they've been sleeping like rocks" I added glancing at them. "They look like an old couple", Kay whispers and I was holding a laugh back.

I poured everyone a water with some aspirin and handed Kayla a glass "Can you bring one to JJ outside? He's sleeping on the porch bench" "Sure", she smiled as I gave her a glass.

Kayla was the only one who could wake up my brother without getting him mad. Whenever I tried to wake him, he only threw stuff at me. Mostly Pillows, but one time he accidentally threw his phone and it landed on the wall beside me. He cried like a little baby for hours apologising to me and his phone.

Kay went outside so I went to Kie who was sleeping in the bedroom and woke her up. "Rise and shine sweetheart", I sang as I nudged her shoulder. Groggy from the past night she rolled over and looked at me with a face which spoke volumes "Why did I agree to a night out when I need to help at the wreck", she groaned.

Smiling, I handed her the water with the meds "Well because you love us and also like to have fun you know". Rolling her eyes she took the water from me and laughed.

"Thanks Sky" "No prob, also I'm sure Kayla could take you with her later so you don't need to bike all the way" “That would be nice”, standing up now I finger gunned at her making my way outside again. Kie cheered at me and dunked her water.

Pope was standing in the kitchen silently greeting me with a slight hand gesture. Better not be too loud I thought because knowing how he hates loud voices after drinking. So I winked at him and continued on my way to the porch.

John B was sitting with Kayla and JJ who had a bubbly conversation despite the long night we all had. "I should've snatched that juicy radio before you sat off the brakes", JJ pouted and fumbled with his cap.

Leaning on the railing I glared at him "You two should've been more careful I mean what if an animal got injured"

"They only animals who were around were those stupid country club gorilla's", laughed John B and got a light shove from Kayla as she giggled.

I kicked my feet over the railing and sat on it "Maybe they are an endangered species", I said sarcastically and grinned at them.

JJ took out his sunglasses putting them on upside down mimicking a kook "Oh no, which pastel clothing would go next time with my fancy golf bat".

Everybody laughed extraordinarily at the same time as Pope and Kie got outside. "Geez keep it down guys", Pope sighed as he rubbed his head. "One day I get Sky to make you some noise-head protection hat so you don't cry like a baby all the time", Kayla laughed, pinching Pope's cheek playfully.

Which caused him to roll his eyes. Kie leaned beside me on the railing and grinned "I hope it's all clay and stuff".

I laughed frantically imagining a whole helmet out of clay on his head.

"Sooo K. Lynn I've heard you're driving out later on?", Kie asked. "Yeah I got a text yesterday that the manager of the yacht club needs me to make some errands for her '', she sighed and took a sip of her water glass.

"Oh ok, can you throw me out at the wreck please?" "Sure no problem", she smiled. JJ leaned back on the bench extending his arms "Well Imma do nothing today except some sleeping" JJ putting his cap over his face looked somewhat peaceful.

"Same dude", John B chuckled, making his way over to the hammock. Those two would definitely not bend a finger today.

Pope sighed standing up catching his stand a little "Well I might check on Paps he said he got a big load coming in today" The Haywards always got really busy around that time of the year.

"You wanna come along too?", Kay asked him. "That would be nice, yeah", smiling as he rubbed his neck. Kayla looked at me pondering

"What's your plan whilst the boys sleep the whole day away?" "Hey I've heard that", JJ poking her side and giggling as she swatted away his hand.

"Hmm not much, maybe looking for some extra work, I really need the money", I said, biting my lip. Sometimes I helped out at the wreck but it wasn't much. Maybe my dream would come true. If I had enough money maybe I could afford going to art school. But for now that was a wild dream.

"I could ask the yacht club manager if she got some free spaces", Kay shook her shoulders. "That would be great", I added though the thought of me serving some stuck up kooks weirded me out. Still I wanted the money so I needed to get my shit together.

(cut to next day at Skyla’s work)

“Skyla, can you please take the order at table nine?”, my manager asked. “Sure”, I smiled, putting away some dishes to dry.

Kayla got me a job as a bartender at the island club. It wasn't as bad as I thought. Most times it was pretty chill, but it was the end of june and tourists came floating in at evening hours. But I was kinda glad that it wasn't a job at the yacht club because the thought of massaging some rich people grossed me out way too much.

As I made my way to table nine I recognised some familiar faces. Topper Thornton, Rafe Cameron and Kelce Smith were sitting on the table I was sent to get an order from.

I've only heard from stories my brother and friends told me how the kook prince and his friends behaved around ‘normal people’ like us. And that they despise each other to the guts.

It was none of my business who hated whom unless they actually hurt my friends. So it was just natural to act friendly and normal anyway while I was working.

“Hello and welcome, what may I get for you? “, I asked them, smiling and holding up my notepad to scribble down their orders. They weren't paying too much attention, so I gave a little cough.

The dark skinned male named Kelce now looked at me and started smirking. “Well I like to order an ice cold mai thai”. Topper added not looking up from his phone “And an long island iced tea”. I wrote down the boys' drinks and looked at Rafe, waiting for his order.

He let his gaze drift over me and down on the table again only to snap back and stare a little at me. “Uhm I take a whiskey on ice”, he quickly added. “Three ice cold drinks, got it, I'll be with you in a second”, I beamed at them and turned around to get their drinks.

It wasn't much context but till now they seemed pretty normal to me. A few minutes later I had their beverages prepared and ready to take out.

Arriving at the table I began putting down the drinks in order. Kelce was smirking at me again saying “Thanks cutie, you're free afterwards? “. A little startled I looked at him and let out a breathy chuckle. “I feel flattered but I got stuff to do sorry”, I said nervously tucking a loose hair behind my ear.

I didn't liked getting directly asked out, in front of so many people, especially not at work. Also I'm pretty sure he was looking at me like I was his prey.

“Yo Kelce its a little early to be hitting on girls don't you think? “, Topper asked his friend, laughing. Kelce glanced warningly at Topper and back to me smiling. “Thats a shame cutie”, he said.

Rafe glimpsed at me over his whiskey, only to be grinning to himself silently. I excused myself and went rather quickly to the kitchen.

Seeing my coworker Nina prepare some dishes I leaned beside her on the counter and sighed. “Why are some boys such playboys ugh��. She smiled at me and declared “Well looking at a pretty face can cause some guys to go full feral mode ya know”.

Laughing I rolled my eyes and helped her finish the dishes. “Well I wish they would at least have the decency to do it after work”, I grumbled. Nina chuckled and asked “Talking about boys, are you coming to the fourth of july party tonight?”

Our managers would be fully occupied with the guests and since we got that day off, we would be basically invisible to any of the staff. That also meant free drinks for us that night.

Maybe I would sneak off down the pier for a little smoke. “Yeah why not, could be fun”, i smiled and went back out continuing with work.

@runningfrom2am

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